#mental illness vent

[porcelain-hospital]

using fiction to cope with your trauma is a healthy way to cope having comfort characters is a healthy way to cope writing dark fics of your comfort character killing a fictionalized version of your abuser is a healthy way to cope

you're not hurting anyone, and your way of coping doesn't make you a bad person, but please stay safe ♡

#fictional other #coping #mental health #venting #f/o community #comfort character #writer #dark fic #mental illness vent #tw abuse

[donttellmehowtoheal]

#trauma vent #abuse vent #csa vent #mental illness vent #cocsa vent

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

i hate having to pretend to be happy because my intense emotional pain is a result of something 99.9% of people would find pathetic and laughable. yeah i felt like i was stabbed in my heart and i cried myself to sleep for a week because i am in love with a fictional character and also i am another fictional character from the same manga. no i can't just "grow up" or "touch grass" and become a normal person who goes on dates with real life people. i am mentally ill and it shouldn't be an insult or shameful to be

#this is such a lonely experience #actuallymentallyill #actually mentally ill #actuallynd #actually nd #ableism #saneism #actually neurodivergent #actuallyneurodivergent #actuallytraumatized #actually traumatized #actuallydid #actuallycdd #actually did #madpunk #nd vent #mental illness vent #did vent #cdd vent #alter vent #cdd alter #did alter #did fictive #cdd fictive #cdd introject #did introject #levi.speaking #my.posts

[gravestonesundertheocean]

I realize now that I have a dog and see the reality of the pain that suicide causes for people that, the thought of having it as an option has always been a great comfort to me. And it's off the table now, things get bleak- fuck things ARE bleak - I'm filled with thoughts of self-harm that I'm too afraid to act on out of fear people will only think I'm attention seeking. I mean, having a partner who regularly sees you naked makes it pretty damn hard to hide cuts or bruises. And I don't want to feel like I need to hide from my partner, he's my safest space. But sometimes I wish I still had the option of suicide. Like I'm so tired. I lack confidence in my strength and ability to navigate the system we live in and survive and live well. I'm not sure I'll ever be truly happy and I know that's not a thing but still, stability and whatever else. And I don't feel like I have any reason to be miserable, I am just mentally ill and sometimes everything gets so hard and exhausting and I have no support system right now. No friends. The only people I have to vent to are my partner and my roomate (who is also a close friend) and my partner can't be my best friend, boyfriend, and my whole support system- that isn't fair to him. But I get so alone, wishing someone would reach out but I know I need to reach out first. I feel like im digging a hole but I feel like everything is so out of my control. God. I don't feel like I can keep going.

#mental illness tumblr #restrict #mia ana #tw s3lf harm #ed relapse #mental illness #vent #mental illness vent #cptsd #ptsd #mia recovery #ana recovery #depressive episode

[lifeonkylesfarm]

i'm not the romanticized version of a mentally ill person. i don't stare out of windows while it rains. i don't get to just fall in love and suddenly its all gone. it's ugly. it's real fucking ugly.

#mentally ill #mental instability #mental disorder #mental health #mental illness #mental wellbeing #actually mentally ill #mentally unstable #mental illness tw #mental illness things #mental illness is real #mental illness problems #mental illness stigma #mental illness vent #bipolar disorder #cptsd #bpd #living with borderline #being borderline #cptsd life #cptsdsurvivor #bipolar ii #bipolar blog #constant anxiety and stress levels of someone being hunted for sport #hypervigilance #mood swings #abandonment issues #trust issues #psychosis #delusions

[xan-the-emo-trans-man]

hey! let’s play my favorite game

do I not have friends cause:

a. I genuinely enjoy the silence and it’s nice not having to worry about other people

b. I push people away before they can push me away

c. I dont deserve good treatment and I’m going to end up alone regardless to I don’t even try in relationships anymore

#mental illness #Bpd #bpd fp #suicidal thoughts #self deprecation #Depression #anxeity #self hatred #mental illness vent #inferiority complex #Academic failure #I’m a bad person #Ending up alone

[fairiepunk]

Can I just vent real quick? About yet another shitty experience I’ve had with mental healthcare in the U.S.?

Vent below the cut. Tw: medication, anxiety

So I started what is more or less my dream job a few weeks ago (yay!), but I’ve found over the past few weeks that this job is triggering as hell for me (fuck!).

My anxiety has been through the roof for these past few weeks, and over the past week, I’ve had severe panic attacks that are nearly impossible to get myself out of regardless of what coping skill I use.

Knowing it would take at least a week to see my regular psych med provider to see about making adjustments, I went into the local behavioral health urgent care (which I’m sure is SUCH a great resource for so many people! I don’t want to shit on it, because I’m sure others have had good experiences, I just did not.)

It is worth noting at this point that the urgent care is a part of the facility I go to for psychiatry regularly, and I was reassured multiple times that they had access to my chart which includes my med allergies.

On my med allergy list is buspar, which is noted as giving me psychotic symptoms. Also on my med allergy list is a note about seroquel potentially causing psychotic symptoms (I took it at the same time as another new med, so we weren’t sure which med caused the psychotic symptoms.)

So imagine my surprise when I was offered buspar. I responded with “I can’t take buspar, it causes me to hallucinate. That should be on my allergy list.” To which, the provider scoffed and said “Well, we don’t do benzos here.”

I have no desire to take benzodiazepines. I am terrified of taking them due to my parents being addicted to them at various points in their lives. This is not to med shame anyone who does take them. I know they can save people’s lives, but just know that I was not seeking them out by any means.

She suggested increasing my propranolol, and then decided against it since my blood pressure was “already on the low end” (she put the cuff on my fucking elbow).

At the end of the appointment, she decided to send over a script for seroquel, and they made me an appointment to meet with my regular psych med provider next week. While I’m reluctant to try this med again, I am willing to because this anxiety is *unbearable* and this is my only option for now.

So I get home, and call the pharmacy to see how much my med will cost. The med provider never sent over the script, and when I called the urgent care to say “hey, I think the system might have glitched. Could you send the script over again?” The receptionist said “Oh sometimes pharmacists just say that they didn’t receive the script. Just keep asking them about it. We’ll double check on our end though.”

The pharmacy did not receive the script before they closed today. I hope they get it early tomorrow. This sucks ass. I am suffering.

#fable speaks #mental health #anxiety #vent #mental illness vent #anxiety vent #medication

[unstablemotions]

Me checking the notes of my most recent mental illness vent post to see how many other people relate so I feel less alone in my struggles

#the things you cant ask your irls about #things im even scared to share in therapy off #*oof #actuallymentallyill #actuallydisordered #mental health vent #mental illness vent #mental disorder vent #my posts #personal

[revelinginthedarkrooms]

Reminiscing on the villains of the media I consumed in my childhood and I’m getting so annoyed at a realization (I know I overuse that word but I’m tired and sue me).

Im getting reeeeeeal tired of fictional villains being the only characters to show almost all of, if not all of the signs of ASPD. And that’s most often one of their biggest traits. Give me something else. Give me family trauma. Give me gaslighting. Give me PTSD. Give me anything other than undiagnosed and untreated antisocial personality disorder for fuck’s sake

Give me treatable motherfuckers who actually get help for their mental conditions and aren’t treated by everyone else as completely evil and crazy for something they can’t control

Give me doctors who recognize the signs and get them the fucking help they need because god knows nobody else will treat them like they’re normal human beings

Give me “heroes” who recognize and understand that just because they have depression/anxiety/schizophrenia/bipolar disorder/ASPD it doesn’t mean they’re irredeemably evil

GIVE ME REGULAR ASS CHARACTERS WHO HAVE IT AND AREN’T COMPLETELY DEMONIZED FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING STILL DECENT IN THIS WORLD

Or fuck, if you’re going to treat it realistically AT LEAST MAKE THEM NORMAL MFS WHEN THEY AREN’T ACTIVELY BEING VILLAINS

#aspd stigma #aspd vent #villainous characters can be evil and redeemable ffs #mental illness vent #might get hate for this but idfc #so tired of villains being treated like pure evil because of mental illness

[milktoast-femboy]

#actually borderline #mental illness vent #mental illness comic #abandonment issues #ventcore #eye strain #aka simon uses ms paint to vent about his attachment issues and loneliness #mutt.paint #now its queue and me divine a circular deisng

[porcelain-hospital]

You ruined a good thing!! I HOPE IT HURTS

#trauma #traumacore #vent #abuse vent #venting #trauma vent #mental illness vent #ventcore #vent art #trauma edit

[donttellmehowtoheal]

#trauma vent #abuse vent #mental illness vent

[skeletonclouds]

Feeling parasuicidal right now lol

I just had one of my worst meltdowns ever and almost ruined my relationship with my partner.

I really want to die but i know i don’t have the guts to kill myself. So if i did attempt it would just be in the hopes of going to a psych ward or getting more care. I just want to not have to deal with anything ever again. I want to never have to do anything for myself and mostly just hid in a room and not speak to people. To just live with ear defenders on in a barely lit room.

#tw vent #mental illness vent #ed vent #ana ftm #ed ftm #trans ed #ednos

[honeypleasejustkillme]

therapists saying you're surprisingly self aware is like being called a pleasure to have in class for adults

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd shitposting #bpd #bpd problems

[bloodyscott]

Oh can you save me, from myself, from these memories

Oh can you save me, from myself, from these memories

— Forget to Remember (Mudvayne, album Lost and Found)

#metal #heavy metal #mudvayne #traumacore #trauma vent #mental illness vent #dissociative vent

[bunniibpd]

#bpd #bpd blog #bpd meme #bpd memes #relatable memes #bpd life #bpd mood #bpd problems #borderline memes #bpd episode #bpd stuff #bpd splitting #bpd vent #actually bpd #mentally insane #mentally unstable #mental illness memes #mental health blog #mentally fucked #mental health #actually mentally ill #trauma posting #trauma vent