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#sorry my coworker said something really rude to me lol
james-p-sullivan · 3 months
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the older i get and the closer i am to reaching 30, the more the people around me try to deny me my age. it’s a constant ‘oh you’re just turning 29 again teehee 🤭’ or ‘dont tell your SO that, he’ll leave you for a younger model 😉’ and i just???? hate it?????????
i spent my entire teenaged years fighting for my life. i crawled through the deepest pits of my depression to cling to the promise of a life beyond that pain. i was so convinced that i was going to die young, that i would never see the grace of my age starting with a 2, let alone 3.
so im going to turn 30, and there’s not a damn thing anyone can do to stop me from loving it.
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WIBTA for not getting my coworkers holiday gifts?
Sorry in advance for the long ask, I have adhd so I'm not always great at figuring out what's relevant to the topic lmao. I (29M) have been working at my current workplace since I graduated college (so ~7 years). For the first few years I worked pretty much alone. I have a close working relationship with my supervisors, and I have a lot of interns filter through, but I was the only person at my 'level' of work, if that makes sense. I would write cards for my supervisors, and with my interns I would do something like bake cookies for everyone, or take them all out for dinner (to clarify I always have at minimum 3-4 interns, I wasn't just taking someone I was in charge of out for a one on one dinner lmao).
Last year, four more people were hired who work in the same position/level as me (early 20s-mid 30s, all F). I get along with them alright as coworkers, but they are all much closer with each other than I am with them. They didn't know eachother before starting here, but I make a lot of effort keeping distance between my work and personal life, vs they have all become friends outside of work. I also have enough issues with them that I wouldn't want to be friends with them outside of work (very condensed version is that I am openly aroace and they are Weird about it). I am firm about keeping boundaries/distance though and that makes it easier to deal with them.
Again, we work together really well when we're actually talking about work-- it's just the non-work stuff that I don't really vibe with. Also, their level of friendship is very normal in our workplace/field, since we are in a very very rural area where the tiny little town we're in is almost entirely centered around the one industry/company that we're at. The fact that I'm not friends outside of work with my coworkers gives me a reputation for being weird/cold (but I don't care if I seem weird as long as it means I can keep some distance).
Last year, we all talked about Xmas gifts, and decided that we wouldn't get each other anything, but rather just pitch in for some wine and fancy pastries for a mini office party. It was nice, except then right before Christmas I found a gift on my desk from one of them (like, a 50$ gift, which is quite expensive considering how much we make). I asked her about it, saying I appreciated it but didn't have anything since we agreed not to get eachother gifts. She said something like she didn't expect anything, just wanted to get me something. I thanked her and but was uncomfortable enough that I ended up giving the thing to a friend of mine (who knew it was a re-gift and was happy to have it lol). I didn't plan to get anything, except then I found out that the other three had all consequently gotten eachother and me gifts as a result of her. I talked to the one coworker I get along best with, and she agreed with me that it would now be rude to not give anything in return, so I just got everyone relatively impersonal gifts (books).
However, finances are tight this year for me (coworkers don't know that) due to some medical bills. We are doing an office cookie exchange, and again agreed not to get each other gifts, but one of them (same one who started this last year) hinted that she had 'a little something' for each of us anyways, but no need to reciprocate.
If it's relevant, we are in the US, all white, and all varying degrees of atheist/agnostic/ex-christian.
No idea if this will even get out of the queue before Xmas lol but: WIBTA if i stuck to our agreement to not get my coworkers Christmas gifts, even if they get me gifts anyways?
What are these acronyms?
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sluttyten · 2 years
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saying you’re “mad” txt hasn’t released anti romantic in English is, I’m sorry to say, racist. It may be unintentional but it IS racist. Koreans do not have to make English music for you to go to work and not annoy your coworkers. That’s not their business, just like it’s none of YOUR business what they release. It doesn’t matter how good the song is to you. It doesn’t matter if it “slaps”. It doesn’t matter that it’s given you “ANY interest in txt’s music”.
You’re just one—entitled—consumer and saying you’re mad about this is genuinely just embarrassing, no matter how lighthearted you meant the post to be. And before you come at me, it’s not “not that deep.” This is 100% a microaggression that’s perpetuated all over the place in this industry. Koreans don’t need to speak English for you as a white person. You’re annoying to think otherwise and I have absolutely no respect for that creepy attitude. And also, the fact you try to double down with some point about how this would gain them success on the charts is a ridiculously inappropriate statement. You’re not their manager, friend, or an expert. I don’t have any type of blind trust in BigHit—they’re not perfect or even great at managing their artists—but you, a white/non-Korean woman, making some kind of statement about their success just because of a work playlist is uncalled for. If their professional judgement made them want to record an English version, they would have. And the truth is, you’re only bringing that up to exude a sense of selflessness. You complain about something that is ONLY a problem to you and then back it up with some crock that is “to help them.” Again, maybe it’s unintentional but it gives the strongest air of white-saviorism. You definitely need to check yourself for that privilege, especially with the way you interact with that whole industry.
I was so confused when I checked my inbox and saw this series of messages lol, like I forgot I even posted that, so I was confused why you’re coming in my inbox three days after I said this. But I scrolled down and found my post to remind myself what I said:
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I really didn’t mean for it to come off like any of the way that you described, but reading this back I can see how you got your interpretation. I just want to clarify what I was trying to say, and I’m sorry if it still doesn’t come across in the right way. First, I love the song the way it is, I generally don’t care that it’s not in English, and that goes for basically every single Kpop song I’ve heard. If I didn’t want to listen to music in Korean, I wouldn’t be a Kpop fan. I’m not saying that I wish they would just sing in English or speak in English because that would be ridiculous, and if I wanted those things I would just be a fan of artists that only sang or spoke in English. That’s not at all what I was trying to say.
Secondly, I understand that it is a big issue with people (“fans”) telling artists to speak/sing in English, so maybe I should have phrased it differently in that post, but that is simply not really the way I think about it.
Third, my coworkers and the area I live in are largely country-music loving people, so a lot of pop music isn’t exactly their taste and especially not music when it’s in a different language. Some people just like music that they can understand and sing along to without having to learn a new language, and I don’t think there’s really any harm in that unless they’re being rude and/or disrespectful towards people who are fans of that type of music. Because of that, I stand by what I said about if the song were in English it would have been popular on American charts, like it’s undeniable that BTS started getting more radio play when they made English songs, like even my coworkers (who, again, largely listen to country, and sometimes very mainstream pop) have heard and recognize Dynamite and Butter.
Fourth, I am totally and fully aware that this music is not being made for me personally in any way, shape, or form. As you point out, I am white and an English speaker, so clearly the entirety of the Kpop genre was not created with me or anyone like me in mind. I don’t think that these artists need to cater to my specific tastes. Like damn lol I don’t think my opinion is gonna change anything, I don’t expect it to have any influence, just like when I complained about Sticker and said Lemonade should’ve been the title track, I didn’t think that opinion mattered either because it doesn’t. I’m sure their management teams are gonna do their best to make the best decisions for the group.
So lastly, Anti-Romantic is a terrific song exactly the way it is, I love it totally, and TXT is good too. I’m not saying anything against any of that, I was just trying to express my frustration that my coworkers don’t like Kpop music in the slightest (and to each their own, people like the music that they like. I like Kpop and they don’t. They like screamo music or country music, and I don’t really like either of those much), and since I know they won’t give the songs a chance in Korean, I just wish there was the opportunity for them to fall in love with the song in English, as maybe that could act as a gateway into the appreciation for more Kpop songs in Korean. Like I said up top, I’m sorry if this still comes across as rude because I really genuinely don’t mean it to be, I did mean the original post in a lighthearted way, and I am aware that there are prevalent issues throughout the world and among the Kpop community that could make that post seem a lot less lighthearted and more serious
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papirouge · 2 years
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“Hinduism and Islam encompass "compassion" so much that the first one established discriminatory cast systems…” Christian countries enslaved massive portions of the globe, along with everyone else. Countries that share our religion have committed genocide, they’ve entrenched racial and homophobic violence into their codes of law (sometimes in specifically religiously motivated ways), they’ve abused women and limited their freedoms. Societies the world over have committed moral atrocities, regardless of majority religion. Someone’s morality or goodness as a person (and as a society!) isn’t tied to their religion, and implying otherwise feels pretty… demeaning to others, I guess? Like I hope you never say something like that in front of a friend who isn’t religious, or in front of a coworker who’s Muslim or Hindu. No one is better than another person just because they adhere to a specific religion. The way you speak about other religions (and the non-religious) is giving me supremacist vibes, and it makes me really nervous about my decision to follow you. I hope you’re able to reflect on the way you think about non-Christians in a way that allows you to be more compassionate to them. There’s no need to publish this ask if it made you feel uncomfortable or defensive—I promise that wasn’t my intention, but this particular topic makes me feel very strongly so I apologize if I came off as rude. I hope you’re having a nice day otherwise, and take care of yourself! ☺️
Hun, your entire narrative becomes moot the moment you realize the mess people fr Christian countries wasn't out of obeying the Bible. The same couldn't be said about the Sharia of the discriminatory cast systems that is rooted in Buddhism or Hinduism spirituality.
Please, show me where in the Bible where it is ssid slavery is okay. I'll wait. Even for sodomy, that is acknowledged as a sin in the bible, there's no prescription for Christians to harm or hurt homosexuals (or anyone).
However, the Bible contains a whole book where Paul, the most prominent apostle of the New Testament, pleaded to a friend free a slave. If the Bible was defending slavery & colonization, then slaves owners wouldn't cut out entre passage of the Bible to not give "ideas" to slaves.
That's because the Bible is fundamentally egalitarian.
Countries doing shit isn't necessarily representative of a religion teaching. Nobody's putting on Islam the Emirates bombing Yemen ; but Islam is responsible of how poorly treated women are in Middle east.
You're acting like I was talking about individuals when I'm talking about VALUES. And as far as I know, everyone is entitled to consider some values better than others. I'm personally very into not condoning beating women and not considering Black people are inferior 🙃
The Bible compells husband to love their wife like Christ loved the Church - meaning DYING for her. NEVER to harm or hurt her
Meanwhile, just today I've seen an article from a Muslim website arguing to passage of the Quran saying to beat your wife isn't no biggie because husband have to beat her according to the seriousness of her bad action.... Really??
If you follow me for a while you'd know a loathe White supremacists fake christians, but idk why I should shut down my identity in Christ and my beliefs to appease non Christians.
Sorry but you don't have to be a Christian to realize Muslim countries have a problem with women. And no I won't shut up about it. If this statement is enough to be called a Christian supremacist so be it lol
I am unapologetic in my beliefs and will always be
Don't worry anon, you're not rude anon lol But I'm just genuinely confused as of why stating somd values are more positive than other means vilifying entire populations lol
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ghostcrows · 2 years
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im relating to you so hard rn regarding the coworkers saying hi post. my coworkers almost always greet me but sometimes the way they say it i SWEAR it’s intentionally them trying to like, gauge something about me? ??
i have literally no evidence that they do it to fuck with me but one in particular seems to be a fan of getting under my skin and he’s pretty hard to keep up with conversationally being that im autistic & also generally a little nervous around people i dont consider friends. so whenever he says anything im already on guard and then i have to try and keep up with his weird, kinda pointless banter :// i cant tell if im just being rude and unsociable or if he’s actually a jackass lol……..
anyway you can ignore this, i just *really* related to ur post and u put smthn i’ve been struggling to explain for a long time into words ;; ur not alone in feeling super fucking paranoid about ur workmates lmao
😭 its awful..sorry I hope it's ok to post I know you said I can ignore but I appreciate the solidarity lol
Yeah its very..like I have other coworkers who say hi to me and I don't get on edge because it feels sincere to me and I know it's like how can "hey spencer" be insincere but it's just like..some people seem to have a weird amusement factor about it like especially if im too monotone when I respond...like they're testing me...there's this other girl who always loudly yells hi to me and it feels so like demeaning even though I feel like she does have good intentions ultimately
Idk it's all very like. It could be all in my head but I've experienced this over and over again and it's stressful to me to feel like I'm being toyed with instead of genuinely engaged with ):
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fizzingwizard · 8 months
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tidbits from today! (warning for blood and menstruation mention)
boss walked into my room while my coworker and i were prepping stuff and gave us donuts. we got to be the first to choose which ones we wanted. she said "it's because I liked the music you're playing" which was hozier's unreal unearth album. thanks hozier you got me first pick at donuts hahaha
I have a new coworker who seems pretty cool. but my favorite thing about her is she seems to be very willing to talk, and I have another coworker who is, aside from being a nice person and good teacher, a non-stop chatterbox x'D anything that happens in her life, the rest of us hear about it fifty times a day. but she and this new coworker were getting along sooo well. just talk talk talk talk talk. i'm thrilled. now whenever i get cornered by the chatterbox coworker, I'll find a way to pawn her off on the new one who seems to genuinely enjoy it x'D at least it's less rude than my usual strategy of "sorry i was staring vacantly at the wall and didn't hear you"
found a store which is going to make me broke soon. everything it has is sooooo cute. it's autumn-themed right now and it has knick-knacks shaped like mushrooms and ghosts and logs, autumn garlands, etc. it's inspiring me to actually organize my apartment so i can have somewhere to have an autumn display this year. i didn't buy anything yet... but i will
had a physical. they took so much blood! i'm always shocked by how much they need. didnt really hurt and would've hurt even less if i werent so needle-adverse haha. after i saw the vials i said "oh, looks like wine" and made the nurse laugh :P
also had a urinalysis and the paper of course asked if i was menstruating, and I just finished like yesterday, so I had said no. but they did find blood. i kind of figured, after just one day there was probably trace amounts, but I couldn't see it anymore, so I didn't know how to answer correctly. I have no idea how many days to wait after the usual five before I count as "not menstruating" for urinalysis purposes lol.
results of physical were good! I lost 1.5 kg since last year. ok that's basically nothing but i was more worried about going up so it was a relief x'D also got my waist measured and am apparently in low risk category. yay. however, in a month or so i'll get the results of the blood test back, and that's what I'm most worried about, because last time it seems my cholesterol was high, which doesn't feel fair at my age lol but high cholesterol does run in my family, it's not something I can do anything about. (I mean i can improve my eating habits and go on meds if necessary to try to manage it, but as far as the cholesterol accumulating, that's just going to happen because genetics i'm told)
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ennoshawty · 3 years
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HQ CAPTAINS AS THINGS
i was bored and felt like doing a crackfic thing but i didn’t have any solid themes or good ideas
SO I PRESENT TO YOU - THE CAPTAINS. AS THINGS. IDK HOW TO WORD THIS BUT YOU’LL SEE AS WE GO ALONG.
warnings: VERY LONG, slandering a crybaby oikawa (lovingly), mentions f!reader, shitposting, mentions of violence in kita's, (a bit) yandere!kita, cursing, unedited, me being an idiot
officer!daichi
we are: vigilante/troublemaker
loving the enemies-to-lovers trope so much
nah bro you ain’t full criminal (bc my preppy ass could never) you just do the small vandalism things y’know like drawing peepees on government buildings and knocking over bins
u literally confessed to him by spraypainting the entire billboard by his workplace “I LIKE YOU” like way to go girl
He didn’t appreciate the creative graffiti but he rlly likes u so all u had to do was clean it and then next thing u know yall are out on a cute cafe date
but let’s talk about before yall got together
he’d CHASE u thru alleyways when he’d catch you writing “police sux” on the fuckin wall
bro is NOT AT ALL afraid to jump onto the roofs it’s FRIGHTENING to see this huge ass police officer storm after u
HES SO FAST HOT DAMN WOMAN HOW DO U GET AWAY FROM HIM??? USAIN BOLT WHOMST???
you’d almost always get away by a hair - he’s SO SO close
and it frustrates him but excites u oooooo arrest me shawty
and this would continue for a while
but yall have such fun fun banter - you’d tease him and he’d say something back and you’d bolt and he’d chase
some days he’d catch you. but in those times u slip away somehow
he’s having so much fun and doesn’t even know it
and then at one point he doesn’t even care about bringing u to justice anymore. he knows it’s bad for business and it’s unprofessional but he’s so attracted to u
he doesn’t even know it. HES IN DENIAL!!! his mind: “oh i’m just asking about her so that i know her motives” bruh no u just asked about our fav pastry this aint about crime anymore
and when he finally gets it,,,DINGDINGDINGDING SOUND THE ALARMS !!! MAN IS WHIPPED!! he’s more shy around u awww,,,doesn’t even want to chase u anymore but he will still engage in banter w u.
yall get a little peace treaty in the lil crush stage - you both are kinda aware of ur feelings towards each other but don't really wanna mess it up and jeopardize whatever's going on like bros PLEASE JUST KISS ITS INFURIATING
it’s more of a competition to see who will break the other first (and you lost he’s too hot)
he lets u joyride his cop car in an empty parking lot <3 he is the one <3 this is true love
u gotta marry him right now bro no excuses
u are no longer on the crime side of the law,,,u support him and only him fuck the rest of the cops (i’m jk of course...or am i)
u are his badass sidekick <3 unofficially of course until he marries u
u help him with the small things like helping lost children find their parents and helping old ladies cross the street
but you want to do the FUN stuff - chasing thieves and arresting drunkards.
unfortunately, he loves u too much to put u in danger so he keeps u from doing the dangerous things
after some protesting later, he trusts u to take care of urself. and now yall have a competition just like old times - whoever catches the most baddies at the end of the month wins (he WILL scold u if ur too reckless though)
THE TWO OF U ARE JUST GOOD COP BAD COP UHAHAHAHAHAHA
but it’s much more complicated than that - it’s either ur the laidback one and he’s the strict one or ur the fiery one and he’s the person like “calm down”
PLEASE HE HATES BRINGING U TO INTERROGATIONS he’s trying to be serious but you keep making him laugh istg he has to kick u out each time
u still make him laugh when u pout-glare at him thru the glass
bro says he’s not the stereotypical cop but the moment u surprise him with donuts and coffee in the morning he will make out w u right then and there
even though yall dating he still won’t let u play with his equipment
but sometimes u grab his walkie talkie when he’s not looking and prank call the others
and his coworkers know by now they’re like “oh it’s daichis gf” and go along with it HAHAHAHA “this is alpha 1, daichi just contracted ligma, over.” “roger, but what’s ligma? over.” “*inhale* LIGMA-” *daichi takes the walkie talkie back*
his coworkers are chill lmaoooo they love u two as a couple THEY ARE VERY SUPPORTIVE they planned a surprise anniversary party of when u joined the force (unofficially)
the juniors tanaka and noya are jelly ooooo but they respect their captain <3
u loooooove hanging out w the starry-eyed new recruit hinata and he’s bouncing around asking u personal questions “how did you date the commander!!! what’s he like as a bf??” he also accidentally exposes how much daichi talks about u in the office before he drags him away and murders him off camera
he does get u a walkie talkie that’s just connected to his line, tho. for emergencies. it’s ur second phone basically that only has his number in it
daichi LOVES it when u massage him after he’s had a long day but his shoulders are stiff as a statue,,,he’s also super stronk and can carry u anywhere <333
IMAGINE HE HAS A POLICE DOG - he doesn’t, but he’ll get one of his buddies to bring u a k9 unit so u can pet it and when he sees how happy u are he considers getting one PLSSS IT WOULD FIT HIM HELPPP
bro is VERY strict on safety. bulletproof glass in yalls house. alarms + cameras everywhere. trackers on every device. underground bunker. (just kidding lol)
daichi teaches u self-defense and gets u a bejeweled taser for ur bday <333 MARRY THIS MAN RIGHT NOW OR I’LL-
in other words i love daichi and he is husband material WIFE ME UP BUDDY
househusband!oikawa
we are: girlboss sugar mommy
somehow you tamed this bish to becoming your obedient malewife
and by obedient i mean whiny but compliant
IS MORE ATTACHED TO YOUR BLACK CARD THAN TO YOU. I SAID IT. THE TRUTH.
sure, he’s pretty and gives affection sometimes but the only time he’s bein cute and snuggly w u is when a new fendi purse came out and he wants it
his specialty is cooking but he’s so lazy he’s all “just get the maid to do it”
please give ur workers a raise he’s so demanding
when you take him to ur business parties hes ALWAYS bragging about you and ur large house with this and that and his favorite: indoor hot tub. he always brings up the indoor hot tub.
only reason you bring him is cuz he’s pretty and he whines when you leave him alone for too long
yall cant even stay for too long - he’ll practically drag u out of the building and whining that it’s too hot and his suit is too stuffy and to call a limo
he’s not afraid to embarrass u if u dont give him what he wants and he will spit out food at a formal dinner if its not to his liking
probably in competition w househusbands! makki and mattsun about who gets the best house so he’s constantly begging u for an extension to the house “please babe!!! makki has-” “no.”
8/10 times throws tantrums in public and 1465/10 times throws tantrums in the house
he wants to cry for the sake of crying. one time he lost his shirt and he wouldn’t stop bawling for 15 min
please find him a hobby
crybaby . the moment u give him the glare of death it’s over. but he’s got a cute crying face which makes up for his annoying whimpering
like he made the mistake of throwing a temper tantrum in the mall only for you to glare at him with a look that said “we’re discussing this when we get home and you’re gonna get your ass beat” and walk away. immediately stopped what he was doing and he was running after u, sniffling and mumbling apologies
please humble him and have him sleep outside. the couch is too luxurious to banish him to. he made sure of it himself. it’s reclining and has charging ports. he will not learn his lesson that way
does NOT want you to get a pet or a kid or even another sugar baby/househusband - he wants to be the center of ur attention
speaking of which he HATES it when you work for too long or work overseas. when u come back he’ll pout at u and give u the petty silent treatment
don’t bother trying to comfort him he thrives off of it and he’ll keep going so u can keep paying attention to him. if u just ignore him back he’ll come crawling back to u. “WHY ARE YOU IGNORING ME IGNORING YOU?? DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME ANYMORE???”
one time yall got into a fight and he was all like “since ur being a rude mommy i’ll just find someone else !!!” inside u were like “oh god finally” but instead u said “okay”
ohmygod he panicked. he was rlly expecting for u to fight for him,,, but he doesn’t want to admit defeat first so he tries to go thru with it but you literally dont care. even when he has his chanel luggage packed and he’s standing by the door ur just like “ok bye bitch”
So he’s trying to stand by the door and wait for u to say that ur joking. ur not.
“fine! I’m leaving now!” “okay.” “...*sniffles*” “tooru, go.” “WAAAAH NO IM SORRY I DONT WANT TO-”
u knew this was going to happen sadly. u even hid the keys to all of the sports cars u own just in case he was actually going to go thru with it
tries to get in the gossip circle with the neighborhood trophy wives but they don’t think he’s cool enough. they like u though. they think ur hot asf and oikawa doesn’t like them no more bc theyre hitting on his ATM. but thanks to that u know all the gossip and shit even though u don’t ask for it
Every time u pass by a store where he thinks he wants something he’ll just cling to u and give the puppy dog eyes. like it could be out of nowhere and u see it and you’re like “where. which store.”
bro once he went luxury he never went back. he wouldn’t EVER step foot into a grocery store ever again congrats he’s been bimbo-ified
beat him with ur gucci belt pls it’s so funny
also please please PLEASE discipline him. tell him it’s NOT okay to just randomly purchase the entire swarovski store or to throw a party at ur house just bc he’s feeling petty about u being at work for too long. ofc he’ll bitch about it but you need to be firm
but don’t worry,,,he’ll get the idea when u take away black card privileges and slap him around (lovingly)
now he has to ask permission like a good boy. he’ll kneel and hug u and give a lil pout and whine
you got a bigass man child i’m sorry maam u should’ve picked tobio or ushi
ceo!kuroo
we are: secretary
bruh keeps it mostly professional during work hours
but that all gets shedded off like a snake when we on break
one minute he’s all “get these papers done by today or i swear on all that is holy i will destroy you” and then later he’s all “hey sweetheart wanna grab a cup of coffee”
flirty flirty FLIRTY FLIRTY AAAAA HES A MENACE
but you’re less than impressed bc y’know when the time clocks out and its time to go back to work he’s ruthless once more
HUMBLE HIM FOOL only when you’re on break though
will NOT stand for anyone else in the workplace bullyin u - NO WAY. only HIM
he’s got TONS and TONS of dirt on everyone in the office - NO ONE is safe so they wouldn’t even dare
RIP janet from accounting
that dumb bitch made the mistake of insulting u to ur face and in front of him. never heard from her again
it’s not even limited to the other employees - he’s not afraid to go off on a potential business partner if they dared disrespect you
bruh tries to call u on ur off days for the most randomest shit and to get ur attention
*picks up phone* “sir?” “ah! my favorite secretary ever! listen, i need you to grab my pens from my desk at the office and bring them to my place.” “...with all due respect, it’s 2 am, sir.”
but u have to comply with his ridiculous demands cuz he’s the bank
and he depends on u completely. as much as he hates to admit it - u have his schedules, itinerary, provide coffee, performance rates, stock info, you name it.
once u were out sick and he had the worst management - he’s not used to working without you
def tries to get some of ur workload off of u bc he’s worried that the stress of working for him made u sick + he doesn’t want to go thru scheduling again
prolly gets bored in meeting rooms and sends u little smirks and wiggles his eyebrows and weird looks while he’s sitting and ur standing in the corner like bruh pay attention
maybe sometimes he’s secretly makin fun of the presenter and doodling on his spare sticky note something funny to make u crack a smile
he’ll tease u for it of course “oh, secretary! you should be paying more attention! what would you do if this was important?” bruh i can multitask now keep airdropping me ur selfies i’m saving all of them (news flash: u dont save his dumbass selfies otherwise his ego will inflate too much)
sometimes likes to pull u aside from work to hug u - you say it’s highly unprofessional but he says it’s his stress reliever
you ALMOST got caught by one of the newbies and he was kabedon-ing you
he tries to play it off (since u were embarrassed too) but u know better,,,DO NOT LET HIM FORGET ABOUT IT he turns red and embarrassed every single time USE THIS TO UR ADVANTAGE !!
never goes into an elevator without you bruh is so attached to u n holds the doors open for you
but you have to open normal doors for him if he doesn’t know how it works (hint: manual doors. “why isn’t it opening on its own?” “sir, there’s a handle.” “but?? what does it do??”)
bruh acts like a dumbass sometimes so you can baby him :/// wtf man just because you’re rich doesn’t mean i’ll- ...wait...how much did you say…? that many zeros? HAND ME THAT FORK YES I’LL FEED YOU COME HERE- HERE COMES THE AIRPLANE BITCH
brings u to overseas trips and he spoils u too
no matter how much you insist that you’re ok he gives u a lot of luxurious items. “think of it as a bonus from me.” NOW YOU JUST HAVE A COLLECTION OF NICE SHOES/BAGS/JEWELRY AND HE LOVES IT WHEN YOU WEAR THEM TO WORK IT MAKES HIM SO HAPPY UGHHHHH
BRUH just a sugar daddy at this point “you have to look presentable for the next focus group so here’s a nice rolex watch” “sir, i don’t need-” “ah ah ah - it’s my treat.”
it’s pointless to refuse him but he still teases u for it like what???? “if i didn’t know any better, secretary, i’d say you’re just doing it for my money and not my fabulous looks and personality.” “exactly.” “hey!”
yall go for drinking parties a lot. whether with the whole branch or just the two of u
KARAOKE W KUROO AFTER A LONG DAY OF WORK <333 becomes a ritual between the two of u
he’s so silly when he’s drunk lmfaoooo goofy ass mf
but that’s only when it’s the two of u. he controls his alcohol around others and his uncool side is only for u <3
also ur the only one he trusts to take him back to his place and handle him
it’s the other way around too - when u drink a lot he looks after you <333
you have a higher tolerance than him and sometimes u have competitions between the two of u on who can drink more but then yall always end up shitfaced
HES the one who has a crush on you
you know the drill - gaslight gatekeep girlboss
he’ll do anything for u but wouldn’t ever admit it he simp
offers u the keys to his estate and offers for you to LIVE with him
bruh just marry me already ok WAIT WE’RE NOT EVEN DATING YOU NEED TO WORK ON THAT SIR-
he’s so awkward tryna confess to u,,,he may be this big hotshot ceo but he’s acting like a schoolgirl in love
probably prints u a confession when he asks u to go to the fax machine lmfao what a nerd
in other words ceo!kuroo is a nerd and you need to top him immediately get that bank
dog hybrid!bokuto
we are: owner
Husky-malamute breed!!! BEEG DOGGIE VERY HAPPY N DROOLY <333
OVERLY HYPER. JUMPS ON ANYONE AND U AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT
he’s well trained i swear but the moment he sees something of interest then i’m sorry you just lost him
please if a robber came in he wouldn’t even attack them he’d just tackle them w hugs
he loves loves loves snuggles <333 u busy? nope!!! hug time!!! cooking something?? oo lemme see!!! whoops look at all those tomatos on the ground. u got a deadline coming up and u really need to focus?? CUDDLE TIIIIIIME- w-wait - huh?? why are u shoving me off?? do you - do you not - huh?!?! WHY ARE YOU LOCKING ME OUT OF THE ROOM?? NO!!!! I LOVE YOU!!! IDK WHAT EXAMS ARE BUT I WANT CUDDLES!!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME????!!!
the WORST things u could ever do to him is leave him and call him a bad boy
HE CRIES ON THE SPOT </3 HOW COULD YOU </3
soso bummed when u go out of the house without him </333 waits by the door patiently waiting for u to come back </333 sob sob
the moment he hears the door unlock he LEAPS and his tail is wagging like CRAZY
he is SO STRONG. almost always knocks u over whenever he jumps on u
destroys EVERY toy u bring him. u leave him for 5 seconds and there’s stuffing all over the floor and whatever u brought him is nonexistent
tugs on the leash when u walk so much that it SNAPS
loves romping w the other dogs in the dog park but he needs to tone down on his friendliness he almost killed a lil orange chihuahua
gets distracted by EVERYTHING. ooh, squirrel! oo, butterfly! OOO HUMAN CHILD!! MUST EAT!!!
ok while he might be friendly, he still gets super super jealous. you both were outside and u were petting the neighborhood black cat and bruh almost swallowed his head
which u thought was weird bc the two are normally friends and are pretty nice around each other
so now he’s more feisty around him and any other cat that’d get ur attention
If it was a person, then that’s another thing. He’d be very friendly at first but then slowly realize that ur attention is more directed on them than him. then he’d go ballistic
but when u scold him for practically assaulting the poor dude and call him a bad boy,,,he’s lost it
u have to lock him in the other room and he’s crying and whimpering, scratching at the door. all he wanted to do was protect u from that bad bad man who took away his owner’s attention !!!
def snarls at the dude next time he comes into ur house/apartment...dude never came back
“GRRR” “AAAA GET UR FRIGGIN DOG B-” “he don bite” YES IT DO GET UR-”
doggie bokuto rlly tries to be slick...it doesn’t work. like he tries to do that thing when he’s a total demon towards the guy but then act like an angel around u but it doesnt work bc he’s not smooth
doggie intelligence: 2 IQ. one time u got him a puzzle box and hid a treat in it but bruh couldnt figure it out just straight up monched the entire puzzle simply bc he smelled his fav bbq treat in it
speaking of intelligence - he only knows how to say a few words like ur name and incomplete sentences. speaks in barks and whines and sometimes a word
SO BIG THAT HE GRABS FOOD FROM THE TABLE WHEN YOU’RE NOT LOOKING
u had some delicious beef steak? oh dear, where did it go? there’s ur puppy kou with steak sauce all over his lips
big fan of hiking trips, sports, literally anything that involves going out
he LOVES getting dirty outside playing. boi cant control himself from rolling around in the mud
hates baths at first but then he likes how u spray the water on him and giggles awww he likes bath time now
we all know he’s not the brightest pup of the pack but,,,he’s somehow psychic. he knows when ur taking him to the vet
HE THROWS A BIG FUSS ALL THE TIME - sometimes he tries to hide but his huge tail under the couch gives it away
and he knows when ur thinking of taking him on a walk. he also begs u to take him outside by settling his head in ur lap and pouting until u give him what he wants
he likes the big ol doggie sweaters/pjs u buy him...but he always ruins them. no matter how much u buy him, they’re all ruined. he complains how scratchy it is and it feels weird on him
knows LOTS of tricks but if u teach him more than what he already knows he will forget one of them he’s like a damn pokemon
he feels ur emotions :((( if ur mood is down his tail droops :(( and he gives u cuddles and tries to make u feel better
he even likes to make a fool out of himself and be silly if it makes u laugh :((( he’s so precious
in other words i love doggy bokuto
pirate!ushijima
we are: kidnapped
ah yes we’re are captives of the most fearsome pirates of the seas: shiratorizawa
just so you know, tendou was the instigator. he was all “let’s kidnap a noble’s kid and get the ransom money!” (whether you actually are a noble or not is up to you)
thing is, nobody’s willing to pay (if you aren’t a noble) or the pirates really pissed off the folks in charge and are now doing a manhunt
so yeah you aren’t going back anytime soon
but he’s a pretty good sport about it - very hospitable
he notices the little things u like and gets them for u <333 sighs <333
he saw you reading that book? wow look at that, there’s suddenly a stack of them and the same genre he saw you reading
but you definitely shouldn’t test him. he’s SUPER scary when it comes down to it
you saw how ruthless he was with the rogues that had dared to challenge him on sea
mf made them walk the plank
you help on the ship bc u wanna be useful and also shirabu keeps being mean
he asks u to teach the crew how to read cuz theyre dumb as shit and only know water and treasure
speaking of treasure - when he leaves u on the ship to explore a cave, he gets u really pretty jewelry <33 anything u ask for
“oh, welcome back captain. how was your mission?” “i brought back a few trinkets i thought you might like.” *reveals whole chest of priceless gems* “are they to your liking? if not, we can set sail for something else that might interest you.” “I-”
bruh got a pet eagle - u ask the crew and they dont even know how tf it happened
hell, even he doesn’t know how it happened wtf. “oh. one day it flew down to me and i fed it. that’s all.” wtf
equivalent to diluc’s bird - he didn’t even give it a name so he gives u the honors
U name him rigatoni (you got a great naming sense btw)
oh my god oh my god oh my god HE TRIES TO PROTECT U WHEN PPL WERE TRYNA INVADE THE SHIP
it was the first thing he did no cap - burst into ur room and scoops u up <33333
“what the-” “we need to get you to safety. we are under attack.” and holds u close to his chest AAAHSIDHFPSDHFN OH MY LORD YES
HAS THE TEAM GIVE U SELF DEFENSE LESSONS AFTER THAT
tendou tries to give u a sword but ushi says no “she could hurt herself.”
“but ushiwaka! we can teach her not to hurt herself” “...it’s my orders.” “c’mon, be more honest, ushiwaka! what’s the real reason?”
he goes quiet then looks at u “...i’ll always be there to help. she’ll have me.” AOISHSDHFSNDF
HELPPPPP SIOJFDSKFJP HES SO CHARMING AND HE DOESNT EVEN TRY
but the rest of the crew are like “then what’s the point”
but tendou sneaks u a dagger just to be safe
sorry ur apart of the crew now - but they’re like a family even if they did kidnap u
oh whatever your life before wasn’t as cool as this (no offense)
they are given orders to protect u at all costs
speaking of which - ushi isn’t all that great w guns
almost blew his own head off tryna figure out how it works before reon snatched it from him
he brings you with him to towns and cities and he likes taking u to the markets to get you stuff
ushijima tell me your love language is gift-giving without telling me your love language is gift-giving-
he finds out you’re pretty good at bargaining and brings you onshore a lot more
is mesmerized at how you absolutely BERATE the merchant who was tryna rip you off like sis where is this violence coming from??? he loves it??
he also likes to stop by some pretty islands and imagines just settling down in such a nice place w you <333 SIGHS <333 VERY <333 LOUDLY <333
no matter how much he likes you...he will NOT let you drive the boat under any circumstances </3 its his livelihood c’mon man
whenever you have to stay on the ship while he’s away he sends rigatoni to give messages and the two of u talk thru messages
speaking of which rigatoni is fierce and can definitely sink his talons and his sharp beak into any bastard that dares get near you while the captain is away
wakatoshi “swimming is for pussies” ushijima - he’s water resistant
bruh so powerful he walks on water
second coming of christ who
IM JUST KIDDING he does swim but we hardly ever see it
legends say (tendou says) he looks rlly awkward doing it and only knows how to doggie paddle
speaking of our homeboy tendou - he loooves spooking the team (and especially you) with scary stories . don’t worry tho - this is all a ploy to get the beeg pirate husband to comfort u at night ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) he is ur wingman u can count on him. but his suggestions are ridiculous
“Jump off the deck and see if he’ll catch you!” um excuse me- THOU SHALT NOT PUT BIG HUSBAND TO THE TEST
he’s got good intentions...i think…
but everyone literally knows he would dive after you
in other words pirate!ushijima is a softie at heart but goddamn he probably secretly has a pet shark so dont test him or u goin overboard
mafia leader!kita
we are: associate from different group/family
kita highly respects u and yall have been acquainted since u were young with the alliance of ur families
so in a way ur childhood friends but yall do have lil bit of friendly rivalry a bit
arranged marriage whuuuutttt...yeah thats what happened but u love him <3
nobody else knows about ur arranged marriage but you two
POLITE GENTLEMAN <333 !!! HNNNNNNNN his granny raised him right even tho he’s a mafia leader
RICH BOY RICH BOY RICH BOY- ALWAYS DRESSES DASHINGLY AND SMELLS GREAT MMMMMM
he owns the majority of the underground casinos
and has lots of connections with others. countless, might i add.
you on the other hand specialize as an arms dealer so he cherishes your services the most
prob has the traditional tattoos allllll over his back and shoulders w like a dragon or sm and def a fox or kitsune
when u two were little he asked ur favorite flower and GOT THAT TATTOOED ON HIS BACK <3 probably secretly has your initials hidden in there somewhere
u both have a silent understanding of each other and he talks to u more than he does anyone
before he used to smoke but once he figured out that you didn’t like the smell of cigarettes he quit just like that
his underlings, the miya twins are so confused on how kita switches from totally brutal and ruthless to so soft around u
they can’t tease him for it, though, cuz he’d pulverize them
but they want to know more about u,,,you mysterious enigma,,,but kita would kill them if they dared asked about you
so they go to inarizaki’s most secretive informant/cyber mercenary, suna rintarou
and suna knows all about you. he saw you one time and he was curious about who you were and is now rlly scared of you because he dug too deep and you’ve got LOTS of history
he doesn’t dare tell the twins what he found no matter how much they bug him
until they bribe him at just the right price
and when aran finds out and tells kita?? ohhh boy it’s lights out for all three of them
oh my god ,,, would kill for u he loves u so much
one time you were kidnapped and held hostage
bro saw red
MAFIA ANNIHILATION SPEEDRUN ANY % NO GLITCH
he got world record time
wiped out the entire conglomerate behind it - nothing and nobody left behind after that
and of course, made sure you were safe.
yandere? ofc not...i mean...just look at him...so innocent...he would never...sharpening that knife...with splattered blood all over him...
is now joined at the hip with u,,,no matter how much you tell him you’ll be fine now and that you have tons of reliable bodyguards he won’t let it go
“don’t you have to go back to your place?” “this is my duty as both a fellow associate and your future husband.” aww,,,ur so sweet...but BRUH PLEASE GO HOME ARAN IS DOING EVERYTHING OVER THERE
makes sure to build a headquarters DIRECTLY NEXT TO YOURS so that its faster
and it’s not long until he just signs a deal to merge ur factions together (since yall getting married anyways)
and oh my god...ur underground wedding is SO SO PRETTY
absolutely DOESN’T care if he’s smuggling jewels from different countries - he’s having your ring CUSTOM MADE and the way you want it. “the diamond is too small? sure thing, darling, i’ll have it 7 times that size.”
makes sure everything is perfect in ur wedding <333 its very extravagant and even though its not really his style he’ll do anything for you
he absolutely WOULD take your last name if you wanted. FIGHT ME ON THIS
takes you to his private island for ur honeymoon so that the two of you don’t have to worry about work
meanwhile aran is scrambling around the place trying to cover for the both of you
he’s a VERY romantic husband - NEVER takes off his ring even for security. he says its practically a part of him just like you are <3
the ring has a built in tracker connected to an app. possessive? noooo...
in other words this escalated pretty quickly but i aint complaining if it gets me married to kita
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--EXTRA EXTRA!! other characters’ roles!!--
officer!daichi:
karasuno squadron consists of:
cops: daichi (duh), asahi (mostly patrol, he hates confrontation), tanaka & noya (mostly accompanied by ennoshita), hinata & kageyama
investigators/detectives: sugawara, ennoshita, yamaguchi, tsukishima, kiyoko, yachi
surveillance: narita, kinoshita, tsukishima too
househusband!oikawa:
makki and mattsun are also househusbands
iwaizumi is a malewife fhasodjkasdhf-
ceo!kuroo:
lev is the newbie that walked in on u two-
janet still a bitch
kenma is his fellow ceo buddy. he also owns a multimillion dollar company and kuroo’s and his have a sort-of contract so you see him a lot in meetings
yaku is like one of the top performing managers so whenever yall have branch meetings he’s there
dog hybrid!bokuto:
kuroo is the black neighborhood cat bokuto almost murdered cough cough i did that on purpose yes i did
kenma is also another neighborhood cat. you don’t see him around that often but now that bokuto got jealous he stays far away.
hinata is the orange chihuahua i briefly mentioned
i couldn’t decide whether akaashi would stay human and be his previous owner or also be a cat/dog/owl. so lets say he’s ur human friend that is your bestie and comes over a lot. bokuto likes him, though. still gets jealous a bit.
pirate!ushijima:
tendou is practically is right hand man
the rest of the team have something to give idk how to explain pirate team members okay-
BUT BUT BUT- they do have sea rivals which are the seijoh pirates. you ran into them one day and oikawa thought you were kidnapped (you were, but you liked it there) so he tried to do you justice and failed miserably. ushijima ragdolled him into the ocean when he flirted w you.
mafia!kita:
the twins are something akin to mercenaries basically. or just plain lackeys.
suna is an informant/cyber mercenary. he gathers information about ppl which is how he knew about you. and he’s a hacker lol.
aran is his second-in-command, omimi + ginjima are his bodyguards
a/n: im going to regret posting this
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Skinny Love (Kakashi x Reader)
A/N: hello again. I'm in love with Kakashi this mans makes me heart go wild I swear. Hope you like seeing him on ur dash lol. Shy reader who is too afraid to confess how she feels to Kakashi. This is only part one and is essentially just fluff. The second part will be all angst and sadness so beware.
Ps. It took me so long to get this one done. I was struggling to find the right words.
Word count: 4000
"Come on, sensei. You like him," Sakura laughed, poking her superior in the arm. The group of women stood outside the training grounds after a day of hanging out and working on their jutsu. On occasion Y/N enjoyed taking the girls out and spending time with them. It was a relief to be away from all that testosterone. If only for a short time.
She just shook her head, smothering down the embarrassment she felt creeping up her neck. Her stomach churned whenever she recognized her feelings for the man. It was just so intense. "I would never feel that way about a coworker, you know that, Sakura."
"But he's not just a coworker to you, is he? He's also your close friend," Ino hummed.
"Perhaps, but haven't I taught you that it's bad to let emotions get in the way of work?"
The blond rolled her eyes, turning to fully face one of her sensei, who she would argue was deeply in denial. "Seriously why does it even matter? Kurenai-sensei and Asuma-sensei literally had a baby together. You should definitely tell Kakashi you like him."
Y/N tossed her head back against the wall, sighing. "Girls, I really don't like him. He's just my friend. He's nice to me and I appreciate that, but that doesn't mean I want to date him or anything." Her voice shook and clearly she had been caught.
She was always so bad at lying.
"Whatever you say, Y/N."
"It's just something I'd rather not dwell on, Sakura. I'm sorry for being so private about it, but it's a sensitive subject for me," the woman confessed, rubbing the back of her neck awkwardly.
"It's okay! You don't have to apologize. We get it! Feelings can definitely be complicated."
"I-I," she started, about to explain herself, but instead she rethought what she was about to say. There was no reason to actually reveal how she felt about the man. These times were tough, and there wasn't any room for making things even more messy with relationship drama. Y/N was more than happy just pretending they were friends and nothing more. As long as she had him just to talk to, she would be fine. As long as he always made it back alive, there was no reason to complain.
"You're right. Feelings are too complicated," she muttered, feeling herself practically deflate as she did so. Y/N was beginning to think she was just the one making everything complicated when it didn't have to be. Skipping around and lying about her feelings. Kakashi wouldn't ditch her if she just said something, she was sure of it.
Just as Sakura was about to reply, the voice of the man in question chimed in from down the path, "Y/N, we were looking for you."
"Yes, the third wheel to our tricycle of youth!"
Y/N felt a smile grow on her lips at the sounds of those voices, especially Gai's exclamation of youth. He was awfully weird, she thought, but that was what kept him so interesting. She turned to face the men walking in her direction. "Kakashi, Gai! What's up? The girls and I were just finishing our training."
"We're going out for drinks and thought you might like to join."
"Sounds great. It's been a long time since the three of us went out. For some reason we never have off at the same time anymore."
"Yeah, it's a shame. Missions have taken over our lives lately," Kakashi said tiredly. It was true. They really never had a second to rest. It was beginning to take its toll. Those were the consequences of war though. "How have you been?"
"Good, I, um..." she began, her eyes trailing up to Kakashi's. He watched back intently, patiently, and she felt something in her chest flutter up. He was always so handsome, she wondered how she could go so long without seeing his face. She just wanted to leap forward and give him a hug, wrap herself up in his warm arms for just a little while. That wasn't an option though, so she settled on some simple words. "I've missed you."
His eyes softened barely enough to be noticeable but she saw. Her heart continued to flutter up in her chest and she sighed, clutching her hands tighter behind her back. No doubt the girls standing just behind her were hyper-analyzing all their interactions, especially after revealing they held an interest in the pair's relationship.
He didn't have the chance to reply though, as Gai was the one to chime in. "Why thank you. I have to say, I've missed you as well, my kunoichi friend."
"Thanks, Gai." Even if the statement wasn't exactly pointed toward him, she was happy she had been missed.
"No problem! Now I hope you young ladies don't mind if we take L/N off your hands."
"No no. It's not a problem, Gai-sensei. I'm sure our moms want us home for dinner anyway. It's getting late after all."
"Yeah, we'll see you later, Y/N-sensei." The pink haired girl waved ss they started to make their way in the opposite direction toward town. Ino paused for a moment though.
"Don't forget what we talked about. You really shouldn't be so shy; it's gonna be okay," she said softly. Y/N sighed, nodding her head as if to say fine. In reality, she wouldn't do anything different. She wasn't feeling very open to changing herself or facing any of her fears. "See you around."
It was kinda sad that Y/N found comfort and support in a bunch of 15 year olds. She was an adult, couldn't she talk to other adults about her problems. These girls were just so accepting and she didn't feel awkward talking about immature things like crushes. Any other adult would just be too wrapped up in their own lives to care too much anyway.
"What was that about?"
"Nothing, Kakashi. We were just talking about random stuff. You know how curious they can be."
"You go out there and fight rogue shinobi every week. How could you be shy?" The green beast asked.
"It's really nothing. They're always assuming things about me. I'm reserved, but I wouldn't say I'm shy, per se…" She stopped to think for a quick second, tapping her foot on the ground. "Actually, I would say I'm just more conscious of the things I say and do than most other people. Not a bad thing at all."
Kakashi nodded. "It's good to keep a level head."
"Exactly. I'm Level headed. Thanks, Kakashi."
"Now let's head off to the bar! Sake for everyone!" Gai cheered, throwing his fist up in the air. She nodded, walking up beside the pair as they started off toward the restaurant of their choice, which she hoped was her favorite one with the tastiest fruit juice drinks. She was willing to put out good money to have one good, tispy night of drinks and snacking. It had already been weeks since she had a night off, one time wouldn't break the bank.
She stood to the right of them, just beside Kakashi. Every now and then she found herself drifting just a bit too close to him, her natural gait leaning toward the left. At one point, she found her hand skim dangerously close to his and she snatched it away to keep herself in check. Holding his hand perhaps was a dream of hers but she wasn't going to actually try anything.
It wasn't that she was afraid of Kakashi. Quite the opposite actually. She cared for him so deeply it sometimes made her stomach churn when she thought about it. He was her friend for ages, ever since she could really remember. He was one of the only people she could sit with and feel completely enveloped in a warm comfort, free of judgement and deceit. Gai as well, but Kakashi was different.
Maybe he could be a bit of pervert, and even sarcastic at times, but he was never rude. He had changed over the years from being a know-it-all, little jerk to someone everyone liked and admired, a kind and brave soul.
Unfortunately, it took bouts of death and loss to come about this change, but she wasn't going to ignore it. He was the best man she knew, and it only seemed natural she fell in love with him. He would probably never feel the same way. He had better things to worry about and other women to long for. He didn't have his entire life to wait around for a shy woman like herself. That was okay.
As long as he was alive and well, she would be happy.
Maybe one day she would gather the courage to grab his hand, to run her thumb over his knuckles and feel the callouses against her skin. Maybe one day she would have the courage to confess how she felt. Not now, but one day when she was comfortable.
"You okay?" He asked, pulling her out of her deepening thoughts. "You're walking really slow and uh, your hand…" The man motioned to where she was clutching her wrist against her chest.
"Yes, I'm fine. Just uh, my wrist is sore from training." She worked her hand in a circle, pretending to stretch it out. He rolled his visible eye, knowingly.
"Sure. Always skipping around the real issues."
"I'm really okay. I was just thinking hard about something."
"Anything to do with what you, Sakura, and Ino were talking about?" he suggested, raising a brow.
She groaned. He always knew what she was thinking. It was definitely one of his best and worst qualities depending on the situation. In this case, she felt awkward as she was so lost in thought about him. She felt like a fool. "Maybe it was. But that was girl time and now it's drinking time. Different topics of discussion."
"Well, mind telling me what's got you so caught up? It's gotta be important."
"It's personal."
"Ah, I see. Well, that's fine. When you want to talk about it, I'm always around."
There was silence for a moment, her thoughts running wild in her head. He was so kind, it wouldn't be bad to tell him how she felt. He would let her down easy, surely. And Gai would be there to cushion her embarrassment, no doubt. He would make things less awkward somehow. She was sure of it.
It was crazy. No way she would say anything. Definitely not.
"I'm interested in someone," Y/N found herself blurting out before she could stop herself. She just felt so much pressure building up in her chest and the only way she could relieve that feeling was to tell him something, anything about the predicament she was in. She wouldn't tell him exactly how she felt and about who, but she could vent.
Damn, all this and she didn't even have her first drink. That man really did something to her.
The men stopped in their path, their heads turning their attention solely to her. She felt her neck and cheeks begin to heat up and her palms start to sweat. Why would she say that? Dammit. She really was a fool.
"Really? Who?" Gai asked. "He'd be a fool to reject you, of course, beautiful flower of the leaf! You do not have to worry!"
"Gai...it's really not that simple. He is, um, out of my league, I guess you could say," she muttered nervously, rubbing her palms together to ease her anxiety. "He's just well, I don't know, the perfect guy ever."
She could feel Kakashi tense at her side, and her eyes scanned over him. He didn't look out of the ordinary but his energy had definitely changed. Strange.
"No one is out of your league, don't you dare say something like that! If he doesn't let you down easy, I will use my fists of justice to defend you! Tell me who this mystery man is."
"This is what Ino meant when she said you were being shy. You aren't going to tell him, are you?" Kakashi asked, and she noticed the bit of annoyance in his tone. She wondered if he was just upset she was talking about such silly things when they were ready to start drinking. She felt embarrassed. They were adults. Adults don't talk about this kind of thing. He doesn't want to hear about the guys she's interested in, or how she feels about them. Maybe Gai would be interested in it, but not a cool guy like Kakashi.
"Of course not. Like I said, he would just reject me anyway, there's no point," she told them. "And Gai, I can't just tell you who it is. You know you're a loud mouth; you'd go around telling everyone." She really didn't believe Gai would do that to her. He was far too conscious of others feelings for the most part. She just couldn't risk Kakashi knowing. She would keep it a secret from him.
"Oh come on! Just tell us! I'll help you out, be your wingman!"
"Maybe I'll tell you another time. When I'm more confident in myself."
"Well, what is it that has finally caught out dear friends heart in a web of love? Tell us!" Oh man. He really was nosy sometimes. He meant well, but occasionally he just didn't know when to stop. Kakashi kept his mouth shut because he understood she was getting uncomfortable, that or he was growing annoyed as she suspected.
Regardless, it was nice to get some of this off her chest, even if it was risky business.
"I don't really know. He's smart and considerate, and very brave. He's handsome as well, that's a plus," she smiled, listing off the things she liked about the man standing right in front of her. It felt so exhilarating, talking about her feeling so openly. It was terrifying and relieving at the same time. Y/N exhaled as she thought about him again, "He just makes me feel happy when I'm in my worst moments, that's all. I mean, what else could I ask for?"
"I see! He sounds like a good guy. Can't wait to meet him," he laughed until his eyes widened and he leaned in a bit closer to her face. He pointed his finger at his chest and questioned, "Unless of course, I already know him. It's not me, is it?
She found herself smiling just a little, her lips curving up at the absurdity of it all. "No definitely not. You don't have to worry about that."
"I'm wounded, but I understand. My youthfulness is just too strong for you."
As she thought of something to say, she began to question just why Kakashi hadn't said anything really at all. It was strange of him, letting the other man do all the talking when normally he asked her questions and at least tried to engage. Maybe he was feeling tired or bored with the conversation. She had to change the subject.
"So uh, let's get a move on before all the good booths are taken, yeah?"
"Actually, I'm getting tired. I think I'll just head home for the night, get ready for my mission in two days," the white haired jounin sighed. They both looked over to him, surprised, but Y/N knew why he needed to go. She had upset him somehow. So much for a fun night between the three of them.
"Kakashi, come on! Don't bail on us now!"
She took a step back and her eyes trailed up to his, which were narrowed, not angrily just as if he had been hurt or confused she couldn't tell which. "Oh, are you sure?" Her heart was sinking in her chest seeing him so conflicted.
"Yeah. Got a headache, too."
"Ah, okay. Well, I'll see you around sometime?"
"Yeah."
"Goodbye, rival. Hopefully you are feeling better tomorrow and we can have a real night of drinking indeed!"
And with that, he left to his apartment, leaving the other two behind. She felt her stomach begin to turn uncomfortably, sick from the thought of Kakashi just leaving them like that. He seemed so angry, she couldn't help but think it was all her fault. It wasn't in his nature to act that way.
They had already spent so much time apart already that it was tugging at her heart strings. She felt like they rarely saw each other anymore. For him to be angry at her and leave, that meant they would just see each other even less than before. It seemed like a nightmare come true. She really did miss him, like she had said. She missed the fun they would have together and the conversations they shared. She just missed him and there he went, gone off again without so much as a real goodbye.
The woman clutched at her stomach, feeling the tossing and turning overtake her sense with nausea.
Suddenly, before she could contain herself, tears began dripping down her cheeks, and she sucked in her breath. Hot tears warmed her cheeks, and frantically she wiped them away from her cheeks. Her arms wound around her waist and she hugged herself tightly inward, almost as if she would turn into a ball if she could.
"Y/N, what's wrong?! What happened?"
"It's Kakashi," she whispered, trying to keep herself from crying anymore but it only got worse.
"Kakashi? Because he left? It's okay, we can go drinking another night or-or you and I can just go alone. No problems," he tried to say but it wasn't going to work. She didn't want to go to dinner with Gai and she didn't want to wait until tomorrow, or whatever the next time they would all be together. She was being stupid and selfish, acting like a spoiled little baby with all this crying. She just couldn't stop herself.
"It's not that. There's something I haven't told anyone. I don't know what to do."
"It's gonna be fine whatever it is. Just calm down."
"No, I can't. It's so bad, Gai. I'm in love with him, it's him, and now he's mad at me and I don't know what I did wrong," she confessed, feeling all the words slipping out so easily. How is it that such strong emotions could just cause her to think so irrationally and just let something like this happen? A bout of confessing every feeling she had to her friend who may or may not go and relay all this information to Kakashi. It was stupid. She was just being stupid and reckless.
He nodded carefully, moving to take ahold of her shoulders to steady her. "It's gonna be okay. He's not mad at you, I promise. I know Kakashi and I'm sure he really was just feeling sick."
"Gai, I just...I don't want him to ever leave me, even over something stupid like this."
"Trust me, you don't have to worry about Kakashi leaving you. He would never do something like that. You are one of his closest friends. There's almost nothing you could do to make him do that, especially if you always have good intent at heart. Trust me, you really don't ever need to worry," Gai explained trying his best to reason with her. "You two do everything together. He never stops talking about you! He would never let you go."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I am one hundred percent sure!"
"I-I need to go find him. I need to make sure he's not upset with me," she said as she pushed herself away from him. He waved to her as she started in the direction of Kakashi's apartment.
"Goodluck on your mission, Y/N, not that you'll need it."
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Kakashi was just about to enter his apartment when she dashed up the stairs and turned the corner, going so fast she nearly slid into the wall. His eyes widened when he saw her, and he froze in his spot, not turning the key to the door just yet. Her face was flush and chest heaved. He could tell she rushed on her way.
"Y/N, did you run all the way here?"
She stood, catching her breath after just having run all the way across town to find him. Her heart raced as she looked up at him, and she clutched at the railing of the stairs for support. "I wanted to say sorry for whatever I said to make you angry with me. I didn't know I was being insensitive."
"I told you I was sick," he replied, but she knew better. And he knew she did. He wasn't dumb. They knew each other better than that and there was no pretending.
"I could tell that was a lie. I know you were angry and I felt terrible."
"Were you just crying?"
She exclaimed back, holding a hand over her heart to maybe try and ease the racing heartbeat, "Maybe. What about it?! I was hurt that I'd offended my friend, isn't that tear-worthy?" She took a few more deep breaths through her mouth, letting the air fill her up and calm her down. "Why were you so upset?"
"It's not important."
"No, no. It's important to me!"
The man paused, thinking over his next words carefully. He very well knew the real reason he ran away from their conversation like a coward. He actually thought it was obvious. It wouldn't hurt for her to know. He sighed, "If you really want to know. It's because I was tired of hearing about your love life. It's not exactly an entertaining subject."
She knew it but admittedly she would be lying if she said she didn't feel her heart break a little at those words. He didn't care about her feelings enough to just sit there and listen to her talk for a couple minutes? Was she that annoying? So many thoughts ran through her head, and each one made her sad. "I just didn't want to go a whole night with Gai talking about it," he added. "It's nothing to do with you."
"I'm sorry. I really shouldn't have brought it up."
"It's fine," he brushed off her apology. "I'm the one who asked about it in the first place."
"Why- why wouldn't you want to hear me talk about other men? Why would that be a sore subject for you?" She asked, her curiosity spiking up through the roof. It was strange, the whole situation. He had never backed down from a personal chat before, only this time.
He felt like a deer caught in the headlights suddenly. How was he supposed to reply to that without blowing his cover. "I just don't like the whole romance thing."
But they both knew that was a lie. He read romance for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. But if he wanted to keep his secrets, she would let him. There was no need to pry. She just hoped he would trust her enough in the future to explain what he meant. Secretly, she wished that it was because he was jealous. That he didn't want to hear about another man because he wanted to be that guy, her lover. It was a wild thought, a hopeless theory meant to be thrown out, but she could fantasize.
"Kakashi, we're still good? As friends and all? You'll go out with me and Gai another time then?"
He nodded, his lips quirking up into just a tiny smile. It was characteristic for her mind to go straight to the worst case scenario. He replied, "Of course. Like I said, it's not that bad. Don't worry about it."
"Okay. I'm glad. I really thought I messed up this time."
"I don't think there's anything you could do to make me hate you," he sighed, leaning his shoulder against his door frame. "The day I let you go is the day I die, Y/N."
She smiled, closing her eyes and finally taking a relaxed breath. It was done. He wasn't angry at all. He still cared for her and everything else she could hope for. As long as they could remain friends, it was all gonna be okay. She laughed, "That's what Gai said. Should have listened to him, huh?"
The both nodded and suddenly they were enveloped in a peaceful silence for a while. She stared down at her feet and he watched her quietly, admiring the way she could be so miserably shy yet so adorable at the same time.
"Do you wanna go catch dinner? Or uh, just drinks like we originally planned, if you want," he asked, running his hand through his hair. Her eyes brightened at the question, and he'd be stupid not to notice the new shine in them.
"Do you want to go find Gai first?"
"Actually, how about it just be you and me this time? We'll catch Gai tomorrow morning for breakfast instead."
"Two meals in two days...I'm not made of money."
"It's on me. Don't worry about it."
"Oh, jeez. So nice of you, Kakashi. Thank you! Where are we going?" she asked happily, walking up to him and rolling back in the balls of her feet.
"Wherever you want to go."
"I feel like I'm getting the special treatment. I'm so excited," she cheered, pulling him in the direction of the stairs by the edge of his sleeve.
He just smiled. It was all he could do. He had the most beautiful woman in the entire world in front of him ready to go on a not-exactly date. They were only friends, and she reaffirmed that today when she mentioned she was interested in someone else.
But for now he could pretend they were a thing. That they were dating and that she loved him and he could openly love her back. He would take her out to dinner and kick at her ankles under the table just to annoy her. And he would take a sip of her drink and pretend it was too sweet for him and watch as she struggled to drink a sip of his liquor.
And after he walks her home that night, he would hug her tight to his chest and he would think about kissing her, to pull down his mask for just a split second and press his lips to hers, but he would refrain. It just wasn't the right time. Maybe there would never be a right time either, and that was okay.
As long as they could have nights like these, as long as he would feel her in his arms, he was more than happy. He was in love.
Part Two is up.
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Pairing: Wanda Maximoff x fem!reader/OFC
Summary: Part II to Under the Light.  Two years have passed . You think there are somethings you can’t survive, but you find a way. And when you’re forced to face Wanda once more, you learn that time can heal almost anything, but some things don’t change.
Note: This was part of my 500 (or 800) follower celebration a while back. 1/3 fics that I will be writing a part II for with a happy ending. This is about as happy as it gets LOL For any new readers, make sure to read part I: under the light for this to make sense. 
Warnings: implied depression, panic attacks, moving on & therapy.
PART I: Under the Light
Genre: Soft Angst & Romance
Count: 6589
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The end isn't always what you think it is. 
You think after the end, that's it. Roll the credit scene, and fade to black. That's the end of the book; there isn't anything else.
But it's not.
There's always something after the end, and in your case, it's called moving on.
"So?"
You look up, thoughts interrupted.
"I don't know, doc," you sigh, leaning back on the couch.
"Try to explain it," he gently asks, his legs are crossed as he's got his chin in his hand, notebook strewn aside.
You gnaw on your bottom lip, trying to string your thoughts together.
"I guess the hardest parts are the small things I have to remind myself that I don't need to do anymore. Like, earlier this month, there was a new Netflix show that I know she'd love, and I caught myself not watching it because I felt like I should wait for her, but I don't need to anymore," you hope that's enough to convey what you're feeling to your therapist.
"And?" He probes, and you sigh. 
Of course, it wouldn't be enough. You knew better by now.
"And I feel...lost," you shrug.
Your therapist hums.
"Why do you feel lost?" Your therapist questions. "What was it about Wanda that made you feel found?"
Talking about Wanda still feels like there's a painful thudding on your chest.
"I..." You rasp, "Because she was like me. Broken. She saw me for me and loved me anyway. And that all crumbled apart."
"Because she's not broken anymore?"
You nod tiredly.
"So, what is the concept of broken people?" Your therapist asks as he leans back in his chair. "If you can be unbroken, were they broken in the first place? Is being broken a forever issue?"
You're silent because you don't know. 
"Think about it," your therapist says, uncrossing his legs. "I think you should be opening to meeting more people, making more friends, and letting things progress naturally without too many expectations."
You nod, licking your lips, thoughts coming and going from your mind.
"Alright, that's it for our session today. Think about what I said and come see me again in a couple weeks," your therapist closes his notepad, standing up to let you out.
"Alright, thanks, doc," you say with a soft grin that your therapist returns.
"You're doing really well," he compliments you, "much better than when I found you."
You laugh, "You mean a real nutcase."
"Not at all," your therapist smiles, "You came here, lost and alone. Even though you had said you wanted to give up, you found a job before anything else. You have a stubborn fighting spirit, that even when you feel like you're at your end, you keep going. Be a little proud of that."
"Thanks, David." 
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Do you ever wonder what the truth is? Is the truth just a matter of circumstance? 
Because the truth is that you had run. You ran from New York and began again in LA. 
You saw the missed calls from Wanda and changed your number. You knew that she could find you, if she wanted, you can't hide from her powers and you can't hide from Tony's money.
But running and changing your numbers told her you didn't want her to come after you. 
But maybe there's a truth to that too.
"Hey, got your usual."
You look up to see the friendly coffee shop owner across from your building.
"Have I become that predictable, Lucy?" you reply with a friendly smile.
Lucy hands you your drink, laughing lightly as she does. She throws in a free muffin.
"Maybe you're just my favorite customer," she grins.
You quirk your brow at her. Lucy is undoubtedly pretty, with her blonde hair and green eyes. She's funny, and she's easy-going.
"Are you flirting with me over baked goods?" 
"Is there any other way?" Lucy tilts her head.
You smile at her, and she returns it.
"Can I have your number?" She asks bluntly, and you find yourself pausing for a moment.
It's small things like this that you find catching yourself at.
The quick second where you almost automatically say no because your body is so used to having Wanda. 
The next quick second, where it feels like you're cheating even if she's not with you anymore.
It's a constant reminder you have to learn to live your own life.
You grab an extra coffee sleeve on the side and the pen, scribbling your number down.
You give Lucy a small smile before you wave off and set off to get to work.
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"Hey, where's the fire today?" You ask your coworker as you see the office bustling around more than usual.
"We have a new client. She wants a marketing plan for her company. It's brand new, but she's bringing loads of money. Harris is sucking ass hard to keep her happy," your coworker gossips with you and you hum.
You're not really too concerned about it. After all, you're still relatively new to the company, only having worked for a year and a half. 
You were just a novice marketing designer. You worked on small jobs, fixing up other people's work, creating a few things here and there. Your boss was just starting to give you more responsibilities and really liked the ideas you were bringing.
"She sounds like a pain in the ass," you say. You've met big clients before. Most of them were demanding and a little on the rude side, but you couldn't really do much about it when you're just a novice designer. 
"Oh, we're passing by the meeting room, let's see what's going on," your worker huddles a little closer to you as the conference room comes up. As you pass by the glass walls, your breath stops.
It's been 2 years, but you could never forget her face.
She looks the same, a little more mature maybe. She's dyed her hair blonde, and no longer has the split hair part, but now to the side.
An array of emotions flicker through you, but it's the single, loud thought that draws her attention to you.
'Fuck.'
Her head whips over to you, shock registering on her face, and at least you know this wasn't a planned attack.
"Oh, she's hot," your coworker whispers to you, and the only response you have to that is swallowing.
"I gotta go," you mutter, speeding past the room and leaving your coworker alone. 
You don't even know where to go, but all you know is that you can't be in the same building as Wanda, let alone a room. Bolting out of the building, you walk and walk until you find yourself back at the café. 
You sigh, entering the shop.
"Hey," Lucy greets you, surprise on her face that you're back so soon.
You try to give her a smile, but it probably comes out as more of a grimace. 
And when Lucy cocks her brow at you, you sigh.
"Sorry," you breathe, "I got ambushed at work. I need somewhere to hide, and I don't know, I ended up here."
Lucy merely nods as you take a seat at one of the tables, setting your bookbag down. You've got your head in your hands as you're trying to control your breathing.
A cup of coffee being set down brings you out of your momentary panic. You look up to see Lucy taking a seat diagonally from you. 
"On the house for my favorite panicky customer," she lightly teases you, smiling when she gets you to chuckle. 
"Thanks," you say, taking a sip of the drink. 
You can tell it's decaf, and you smile at her being considerate. 
"So," Lucy slowly speaks, "want to share what's gotten you so shaken that you ran back to my coffee shop before I even had a chance to give you a call?"
You bite your lip.
"I..." You start.
"My ex showed up at my firm. She's a customer. An important one at that, it seems."
It's probably not a good start to talk about your ex, one that clearly so affects you still, to someone you just gave your number to in the prospect of going on a date. 
Lucy hums. 
"It didn't end well?" She surmises, and you shakily nodded. 
"Are you still in love with her?" Lucy asks.
You don't answer right away, but it's enough for Lucy to have an answer. 
You don't look at her because it's obvious this was crashing and burning too.
"I..." Lucy licks her lips, "would like to take you on a date."
Your head snaps at to look at her like she's grown three heads.
"What?" You sputter. "Are you sure? I have a lot of baggage clearly."
Lucy shrugs.
"Who doesn't have baggage?"
Your expression shows her that you're unsure because this doesn't exactly spell out it's going to end well, not that it wouldn't either.
"Look," Lucy puts her hand atop of yours, "I'm well aware you're probably still in love with your ex. Whatever it was, it must've been intense. I know full well what I would be getting myself into if I take you on a date. But I think you deserve to go out with someone and see there's more out there."
You stare at her hand on top of yours, blinking. 
"Just think about it," Lucy pats your hand as the door rings, indicating another customer has come in. "You're welcomed to stay to hide, and you know where to find me."
Lucy leaves you in your thoughts. You do take her up on her offer to stay because there's no way to go out back to the office. You e-mail your boss you'll be working elsewhere for the day, but he doesn't care as long as you turn in your drafts. 
At the end of your shift, you get up, giving Lucy a half-shy, half-awkward wave and leave.
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You leisurely take your time walking home to be able to process your thoughts. 
You feel a little calmer than you did when you first bumped into Wanda this morning, but now you had more on your plate with Wanda and deciding if you wanted to go on a date with Lucy. 
Although time has passed, you were only really beginning to heal yourself.  You weren't really sure if you were in the right headspace for dating. 
It felt much more serious now that Lucy knew you had some baggage, and still wanted to go on a date. It didn't feel casual anymore.
You were beginning to walk up to your duplex when you spotted someone sitting on your steps. 
"What are you doing here?" You bite out.
There she was, Wanda, sitting on your steps with her head in her hands. She snapped up, hearing your voice. 
A wide variety of emotions passed her face. 
"You're here," she breathed, and you find yourself recoiling with the thick emotion in her voice as she spoke. 
Wanda stands up, going down the steps before she's standing in front of you.
The smell of vanilla and cinnamon invades your nose, and a whole new wave of anxiety passes you with the familiarity of it.
Your heart starts thudding in your chest, and you're breathing heavily. Something on your face tells Wanda you're about to have a panic attack. She starts to come closer, wanting to wrap her arms around you, but she pauses.
Wanda knows that she's the cause of this right now, so she backs up and gives you some space with her hands up non-threateningly. 
"Hey," she softly speaks, "it's okay. I won't invade your space."
You close your eyes as you try to focus.
"That's it," Wanda tries to guide you, "breathe in. Hold it...that's good, okay, exhale slowly."
This repeats for minutes until you've calmed down. 
"I'm sorry," Wanda says slowly, "I would've called first, but I didn't know your number."
"That didn't stop you from showing up at my place," you mutter. 
Wanda bites her lip, but nods. 
"What do you want?" You ask her.
"Can we go inside? It's not safe about it to talk outside," Wanda nods her head towards your door.
You frown, not really wanting to let her in, but you sigh and nod. 
You pass by her, careful to not breathe in her scent as you open the door and let her in. 
You barely acknowledge her as you drop your things on the kitchen table and start to heat your kettle for hot water. 
Wanda walks in slowly, taking in your place. 
She notices that it both feels homey and empty.
You've clearly taken care of your place, getting a nice couch, and the effort of getting pillows and throw blankets for it. There's art on the wall, but there are no personal photos anywhere. 
It was like a show home. 
You watch Wanda stare at your things as you lean against the wall. 
"Why are you here?" You ask, breaking Wanda's thoughts as she looks over to you.
She purses her lips, let out a deep sigh.
"I'm on a mission. I didn't realize you were working there. I just wanted to let you know that I'm investigating your boss."
"My boss," you repeat slowly, and Wanda nods. 
"I can't go into many details, but I'm undercover right now."
You grumble. Of course, the firm you pick to build your career has a shady boss running it.
"Fine," you huff, "I won't get in your way. Anything else?"
Wanda's eyes soften as she looks at you.
"How are you? You look good," she sincerely says to you, and you give her a blank expression. 
There's a tumulus feeling rumbling underneath you. You want to scream at her because why is she asking? It's none of her business. 
Wanda sighs again when you don't answer her. "I sincerely didn't know you worked at the firm. If I had known you worked there, I would've asked someone else to take this mission."
There's a bit of a sting to her words because as much as you didn't want to see her, it sounds like she didn't want to see you either. 
"Well," you huff, "no worries about me. I won't get in your way. Do what you have to do."
Perhaps because there's a bite to your words, a tone of sarcasm as you walk back into the kitchen, Wanda follows you.
"Hey," she calls, grabbing your wrist to turn you around. You immediately pull your arm away, and Wanda lets go, an apologetic look on her face.
"I didn't mean it like that," Wanda explains.
It's silent, and you don't say anything, not making another move even though your kettle as turned off, signaling the hot water was done.
"I wanted to chase you," Wanda says. 
The words hang in the air, and you're not sure what to do with that. You just let the words sting.
"I wanted to follow you immediately the day you left. You ran so fast. One moment you were breaking up with me, and then the next day, you bought a plane ticket and left," Wanda ran her fingers through her hair. 
"I harassed Tony into finding out where you had gone. I bought a plane ticket, ready to go after you," Wanda stopped talking.
You were clenching and unclenching your jaw. 
"But Natasha said I shouldn't," Wanda finally says, and you're ready to explode at her, barely able to just keep it in.
"She said that you were hurting, I was causing your hurting," Wanda frowned. "Natasha said you needed to heal, and where we both were, I would only hinder your progress. You needed a change of scenery without me."
You don't know what to say to that.
Because it's true. 
With more time that passes, it's easier for you to admit that you being with her at the time was making things worse for you.
She wasn't in a good place when you had met her and got together. But Wanda was healing before you, and you weren't ready for that.
You relied on her too much, put Wanda on a pedestal, kept putting her before yourself. 
You were probably hindering Wanda's healing too. 
It was too hard for you to see her with Vision, even if it might've been nothing. 
"I respected your space, and I didn't check up on you," Wanda tells you, taking a cautionary step closer. "But that never changed the fact that I'm still in love with you. I'm still waiting for the right time for us to get back together."
You recoil slightly as she gets closer. You're not ready for this. You can feel every muscle in your body screaming to run. 
"Why?" You hoarsely ask, tears welling in your eyes.
"When you left, you said I had outgrown you," Wanda says, and you feel a slice across your heart at the bitter memory.
"But that's not true," Wanda shakes her head, "I had loved you when we first met, loved you when we were in the dark, and I will love you as we keep moving. It doesn't matter if we don't move at the same pace. I will love you."
They're pretty words, you feel. Because all you can remember is how she had said none of this as you were leaving. 
All you can remember is how she turned to Vision.
You don't have anything to say except you turn to bolt for the door, leaving Wanda in your place. 
You hear a call of your name, but you keep running, thankful that she doesn't follow you. 
You pull out your phone and dial.
"Hello?"
"I know it's after hours, but can you please see me right now?"
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You staring a picture above the fireplace.
"Did you want anything to drink?"
You turn your attention away from the photo, looking at David.
"Water, please," you quietly ask. 
"Sure thing," David grins as he yells down the hall for water, making you wince.
His husband, Liam, shows up looking unimpressed with David as he shoots you a wink before leaving.
You're in David's study room as he hands you the water and gestures for you to take a seat.
"Sorry for showing up like this," you apologize.
David waves it off. "It's fine. You came at a good time. Liam was kicking my ass in scrabble, he was getting too smug."
You smile lightly. It's been a while since you had seen Liam. When you had first arrived, you saw David pretty regularly and sometimes even ate dinner at their place while you were still trying to get yourself together.
"So?" David settles into his seat with his hands, clasped together. "What's got you rattled?"
"Wanda showed up."
It's quiet for a moment as David assesses what you said.
He hums.
"Why did she show up?"
"She's a client at my firm. An important one and she can't choose another firm. She didn't know I was working there," you explain as best you can since you can't tell David she's undercover. 
David nods. 
"And what happened?"
"I ran," you tell him. "I hid in a coffee shop I go to every day, where the owner asked me out on a date, knowing full well I'm not over Wanda. Then I went home, and Wanda was there waiting for me."
You speak so fast that David widens his eyes minusculely.
He doesn't say anything, so you assume you need to keep talking about what happened.
"I had a panic attack when I smelled her scent," you mutter, "I let her into my place, and she explained why she had shown up. I know she wasn't trying to ambush me."
"Alright, it sounds pretty standard. Did she leave after?"
You explain the rest of what happened to David, who seems to be taking in what happened as he sits in silence for a bit.
He hums. 
"What did you think about what she said?" He asks.
"Lies," you immediately say. "Or at least partially lies."
"Why is that?"
You sigh a little frustratedly as you lean forward in your chair. "Why didn't she say those things as we were breaking up? I told her to admit it, she had outgrown me, and she didn't say anything. Saying nothing might as well have been agreeing. Now she's here saying that she would always love me?"
"And what if it was true? That you two had outgrown each other?"
"Then there's no point," you say, "even if we land in the right place, we could always outgrow each other again."
David hums again, and you hate it when he does that.
"Just say what you're thinking," you grumble, and he smiles. 
"In my professional opinion, it's true that it can happen again. But here's the thing, love is not just a feeling. It takes work and effort. You have to choose that every day. Two years have passed, the two of you are different people. Back then, you were choosing to not move forward; Wanda was. That's where your insecurities had stemmed from when she was getting closer to Vision. Space apart might have been the best thing for you to not rely on and hinder each other. But now, you're here. Healing. Choosing."
"So, I should get back together with her?" Your brows furrow.
David laughs lightly, "No, I didn't say that. That's something you will need to decide on your own. I'm just here to help you rationalize your feelings and thoughts, suggest you do things that may help. That's why I think you should accept the date with Lucy."
"What?"
David rests his elbow on his armrest, rubbing his index finger and thumb together.
"Lucy was very clear she understood what she was getting into if you choose to go on a date with her. Seems like she's offering to show you a good time without any strings attached. You might not come across an opportunity like that again," David points out.
"If it leads to something more and you want that, you have your answer," David smiles.
You sigh shakily and nod sharply.
The end of the session comes, and David leans forward.
"Just remember, you're different than who you were two years ago. Wanda coming back doesn't change that. She's different than who she was two years ago. You don't need to idealize her. She's just another person too."
You shakily nod your head, thanking David for squeezing you in so suddenly, and say bye to Liam on your way out.
When you head home, Wanda is no longer there, but there's an address written on your notepad on the counter.
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The next few weeks pass by with a blur. Work gets so busy, you hardly have time to think about anything.
Not that it stops you from thinking about things, but it's easier. 
You see Wanda in the building occasionally, but other than a nod of acknowledgment, she doesn't speak to you. You're sure it's because you ran out the last time, and she's trying to respect your space again. 
Though, sometimes you find yourself staring at Wanda from afar. You think about what David says and how you're both different people. She does seem different.
She walks with this air of confidence that she didn't have before. She smiles more, and she doesn't look as angry and resentful as she once did. 
You find yourself self-reflecting on yourself when that happens. You can admit that you've come a long way, but you aren't quite sure you'd categorize yourself in the same place as Wanda, but you are moving forward. 
That night, you show up at the coffee shop, surprising Lucy as you come in.
You haven't seen her in weeks, you even stopped coming for morning coffees.
"And she lives," Lucy says amusedly, but you feel a little guilty for avoiding her.
You breathe, gathering your courage as you look at her.
"Would you like to go on a date with me?"
Lucy tilts her head, staring at you momentarily before she smiles, and you think she has a beautiful one. 
"I'm actually just closing up, so if you'd like to wait, we can go to this nice little ice cream shop a couple blocks from here."
You nod eagerly, happy that you hadn't botched this up. 
You two make small talk as she cleans up, catching each other up on the week. 
The walk passes quickly, and you learn things about Lucy like how she had gotten her degree in literature and was a part-time writer working on a novel. The coffee shop was her parents, but they had passed it down to her when they had retired. She's thinking about it passing it down to her little sister when her sister is old enough. 
You stare at the ice cream menu for almost 20 minutes, unsure what you want to order, but Lucy is patient and talks about her recommendations. You apologize, but she waves it off.
You end up choosing what she recommends, and you like it, but you're not surprised since Lucy seems to understand your coffee order.
The date is simple.
It's easy, you find.
Talking to Lucy is easy, and she's definitely a beautiful woman. 
Even when Lucy slowly reaches for your hand to hold, with a half-shy smile, half-smirk, you let her.
You hear your name.
You turn around to see Wanda standing there, frowning as her eyes pass over your held hand.
"Wanda," you breathe.
The way you say her name, Lucy immediately knows. 
But then you're holding Lucy's hand tighter. 
"What are you doing here?" Wanda asks, trying to play it off casually. 
"I'm..." you start to say, but the words die on your lips.
"We're on a date," Lucy answers instead, brow raised.
"Date?" Wanda says, looking at you, and you swallow.
That feeling like you're cheating on her comes, but you squash it down because you know you're not.
"Yes," you say firmly. "I'm on a date. I'll see you at work."
With that, you turn, Lucy in hand as you drag her off. 
When you're finally far enough, you sigh. 
"Sorry," you mumble, feeling awkward.
Lucy shrugs. "You handled it better than I thought you would. I thought you had swallowed your tongue for a moment."
You let out a rough chuckle as you keep walking. The two of you sit on a park bench, enjoying the weather, the ice cream, and each other. 
"You're still very much in love with her, not even close to being over her."
Lucy speaks after a moment of silence when the conversation had died. 
You look at her, surprised she would bring it up again. She didn't even say it as a posed question. She stated as a fact.
You sigh, "yeah."
"But, you want to move on?" Lucy asks.
You struggle. 
"I don't know," you answer finally.
Lucy reaches over to hold your hand again, and you look down. 
"Does this feel good?" She asks.
You lick your lips as you stare at your intertwined hands. 
"It feels easy," you admit. 
Lucy tilts her head but sighs as she pulls her hand away.
"Can I tell you something?"
You nod, unsure.
Lucy looks ahead of her. "I don't think love should be easy. Sure, that would make everything simple. I don't think love should be a constant battle either, but I think we both should get a love that's worth fighting for."
You swallow, looking away. 
Because you agree.
It's so easy with Lucy. You know that if you let yourself, you could fall in love with her. It would be easy, and you know there's a simple path ahead of you. You'd know what the next steps would be every time.
With Wanda, it's always hard. It's true, you're not always fighting her, but being with her is not a simple feat. 
But you don't know if you want that. 
Lucy turns you and kisses you on the cheek swiftly. 
"Maybe it's not with me, maybe it is. Maybe it's with your ex, maybe it's not, but there's a great love out there. For both of us. I hope I succeeded in showing you a good time."
You smile at her and nod.
"Thanks," you tell her softly, and although she's not yours, you feel like you're losing her a little. You're losing out on something wonderful, you just know it. 
You can't help but blame Wanda a little for that. 
"I expect to see you Monday morning for the best coffee ever," Lucy says she stands up, "and a big fat tip."
"I wouldn't have it any other way," you smile at her as she waves at you before leaving. 
You stay on the park bench much longer after Lucy left, sighing. 
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When work comes around Monday, you do as you promised and get coffee at Lucy's, staying the extra minute to chat before you're on your way.
Work is relatively quiet today, Wanda seems tense, and midway through the day, your boss is getting arrested in front of everyone. The executives are taken in custody for questioning, and it will be decided later on who will take over the company.
Everyone is allowed to leave for the day with that, but you decide to stay at the office longer to get work done because you get distracted too easily at home.
It's nearly 2PM when Wanda appears in front of you. 
"Hey," she says softly, and you greet her back with a soft grunt in return.
You close your laptop, wanting to take a break as you look at Wanda.
"Looks like you're done your mission. Lucky you, you get to return."
"I'm staying in the area for a little while longer while things are getting wrapped up," Wanda shakes her head.
You merely nod. 
But at least you know she won't be showing up at her workplace anymore.  You get up, going to the copier room to make some copies of your report for next week.
Wanda follows you, standing at the door and leaning against it slightly with her arm.
"Are you dating her?" She asks bluntly.
And you pause for a moment before you continue with what you're doing.
"It's none of your business," you tell her.
"If you were over me, you would just answer," Wanda answers back, and you snap your head towards her and glare. 
"Are you trying to pick a fight with me?" You grit.
Wanda shakes her head.
"I just want you to tell me if you're dating her," she stands up straighter.
"Why do you even care?" You grumble with a shake of your head.
"Of course I care, I'm in love with you," Wanda says it so easily that it pisses you off.
You accidentally crumble the papers in your hand as you turn to her.
"Wanda," you say very slowly, trying to rein in your temper. "This is already difficult enough for me. You coming back here, even if it's was unintentional, makes this hard for me. I'm a long way from where I was but seeing you just a reminder of how broken I was. How broken we were, and how easy it was for you to move on."
"You don't think this is hard for me too?" Wanda hisses at you as she takes a step closer. 
"You don't think me losing the love of my life because of my inability to say the right things at the right time doesn't keep me up at night? I'm a long way from where I was too. I was just as lost as you were. You thought I had moved on, outgrown you, but I was just lost. You can't lie to me and say you weren't frustrated how you felt every day."
"But I didn't turn to anyone else when I felt that way!" You shout at her.
"Vision means nothing to me!" Wanda shouts back at you, throwing her hands in the air. "We just have a commonality between us, which is the stone. I was just learning about the stone."
Wanda conjures up red wisps between her fingers as if to emphasize her point. 
And even though you had known that might've been the case, it hadn't hurt any less.
"You can't deny that we're bad for each other," you shake your head. 
"I love you," Wanda throws out, and it makes you tense. "I know you're still in love with me too."
"You don't know that," you breathe. 
But Wanda walks up closer to you, she gets up in your personal space, her face hovering over yours.
"Then why do you get so affected by seeing me? Your thoughts are a mess, and why do your lips tremble when you breathe my name?"
You glare at her. 
"That doesn't mean I'm in love with you. You think I can't kiss other people? That I can't move on from you? Love outside of you exists." 
"With Lucy?" Wanda sneers her name. You don't even have to ask that Wanda got her name through reading your mind. 
"Why not her?" You challenge.
Wanda stands there, staring at you, her pupils dilating and contracting as she takes you in.
"Then, let's see you if you can run back to her after this."
And before you can say anything, Wanda's thrusting her hands against your jaw into your hair, gripping it familiarly as she slams into your lips with unadulterated passion. 
She moves her lips against yours, tilting your head as she backs you against the photocopier. 
It hits you so fast and so hard.
The feel of her lips.
Her scent invading your senses. 
She tastes like honey and chocolates, and you know she's been eating candy. 
She runs her hand through your hair. Her hand eventually reaches the back of your neck, and she holds it to keep you close to her. 
It takes the sound of her soft sigh to bring you back to reality, and you push her off you.
You furrow your brows, chest heaving from her kiss.
You look at her, and she's staring at you equally as breathless.
"You're such a fucking asshole," you tell her, shaking your head as you push past her. 
You're pissed.
How dare Wanda just...just kiss you like that!
She has no boundaries, no sense of what you're feeling. 
You gather your things, glaring at Wanda to not follow you.
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Wanda sighs.
She fucked up.
She knows she did.
Wanda makes herself some tea at the place she's posted to until she can go home. It was pretty close to the firm for obvious reasons.
She shouldn't have kissed you like that, but it was like this ugly green monster, and the fear of losing you when she saw you with Lucy overwhelmed her.
Wanda had understood what Natasha had told her. She had understood, and let you go on the hopes that the two of you would both grow and be in a better place. 
It wasn't easy for Wanda, she felt like this giant hole was created in her when you left. 
She wasn't a good girlfriend, and she had to work through that. 
Maybe it was premature, but seeing you brought up all the feelings she never left behind. 
Wanda looks outside, noticing the day had passed by quickly, and now it was dark out. She looks at the clock and sighs when it's already 11 PM, but Wanda is feeling no closer to being able to sleep. 
Wanda knew she was going to need to apologize, that was if you were even willing to talk to her. 
She wouldn't be surprised if you decided to quit the firm and moved. 
Wanda sighs, rubbing her forehead and temples with her hands. 
Knock, Knock, Knock.
Wanda turns her head to the door, brow furrowing. The knocking continues until Wanda walks up to open the door.
You push past her and walk into her home.
"You know I had a lot of time to this about this, but what the fuck is wrong you?" You immediately fire off, pacing back and forth.
"You think you can just drop back into my life, even if you didn't mean to, tell me you're still in love with me and kiss me?"
You turn around and glare at her. "Is it crack? Is that what you're smoking? Because who the fuck does that!"
"You had no right to do that, you're such an inconsiderate asshole!"
Wanda frowns, taking the yelling. Your chest is heaving with anger.
"Are you done?" She asks, and you nearly start screaming at her again.
"Did you just come here to yell at me?" Wanda raises her brow.
It's quiet for a moment as you stare at Wanda. 
"No," you finally after a moment. "I came to do this."
And suddenly, you're running towards her, jumping as you wrap your legs around her midsection as she's forced to hold you up, slamming your lips down on her. 
You kiss her wildly, and Wanda response immediately. You wrap your arms around her neck, kissing her over and over as you tangle your hand in her hair.
Moans are heard, and Wanda is walking, nearly stumbling as she both holds you up and makes her way up the stairs to her bedroom.
She throws you on the mattress.
Chest heaving, but from kissing is a much better image Wanda likes. You sit up, grabbing her hand as you remove her rings and toss them aside, making haste to unbutton her shirt.
And Wanda pulls your shirt over your head.
Her body presses yours down to the bed, hands aligning as she intertwines them.
It feels right.
Wanda is going to make sure she loves you with all her might.
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It's late into the night, and twilight will come soon. You lie there, breath coming to a steady rhythm as Wanda covers your bare chest with the blanket.
She kisses your shoulder, and you sigh in small contentment.
Under the blanket, you seek her hand out, holding it.
"I'm in love with you still," you confess and Wanda smiles.
"I know."
"But I'm also scared," you tell her, "I'm not really sure if I'm ready for more right now."
"Love is patient," Wanda answers, squeezing your hand.
"How do you know it's the right time for us?" You ask her.
Wanda shifts in the bed, throwing her other hand behind her head.
"I suspect there's no such thing as the right time," she admits, "but I do believe we're both in a better place. The feelings never left. We're both choosing to fight for our own life, choosing to fight for us."
"I don't know if broken people should get second chances," you admit. It's been a ride in therapy, but these thoughts still come.
Wanda turns to you, raising herself onto her elbow.
"Broken people get to heal," she insists firmly. "We're not always broken, and I won't lie and say there won't be cracks, but I love you no matter what. You love me, no matter what. Our cracks are a beautiful reminder that we're fighters. No matter what is revealed when we're under the light, I will fight for you. For me. For us."
You find yourself crying, and Wanda dips down to kiss you tenderly.
"Under the light, you found me."
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Working late
Previous: Here
For the rest of the time Ango had off, he spent with you. It was a nice time, and it made him happier than he had been in a long while to have someone to talk to that wasn't Tsujimura. It also helped that he could talk about something other than his job with you, as well as have something to think about aside from said job. So, in the end, he didn't regret trying out that dating app, even though he'd been so skittish to build a connection with someone. You, meanwhile, didn't seem to care about all of the flaws he brought up on your dates. You were fine with him not having much time to do much, and seemed to accept that this long stretch of time off wasn't his usual schedule. Thankfully, you didn't pry into why he'd suddenly gotten a month off if it wasn't normal.              "I'm not looking for a constant partner. I can deal with taking things slow and being long distance," You assured on the second to last day of his break, wrapping an arm around him in a small hug, "My only demand is that I'm allowed to send you stuff and keep in contact as much as possible. Please just don't ghost me." He nodded, and with that, you seemed pretty content with that, letting him leave to return to work after his month off. Sadly, his happiness was swiftly squished under the weight of the work Taneada gave him upon his return. Of course, it wasn't a surprise to him, his boss had always been keen on shoving piles of work at him whenever he could get away with it. So, he just dug in and focused on catching up for the month of work he'd missed. So, another week passed uneventfully. Ango hadn't gone home more than two or three times, instead opting to crash on one of the decorative office couches for small naps when he got too exhausted to continue to work at times. He was swiftly exhausted, struggling to keep awake and to avoid completely crashing and sleeping for most of the day during his little naps. Though, it wasn't all bad. He tried his best to reach out to you when he could, and you were one of the few bright spots he had on the days where he was too busy to go home. (y/n): You doing alright? Wishing for another vacation yet lol.Ango: Very much so, but the paperwork is pretty standard, so it's nothing too taxing. (y/n): Ew, that sounds so boring. Ango: It is. That's why I didn't go into detail about my job, other than some of it being classified. (y/n): Yeah, kinda would've ruined dinner if I fell asleep to your paperwork chat lol. Ango: Lol. He smiled as he read your casual messages while he laid in the dark office long after even Tsujimura and Taneada had gone home, leaving him with the night security guards and little else in the way of coworkers. Usually, Ango just went to sleep as quickly as possible, having honed the skill of falling asleep on command pretty much, but when you'd checked in on him, he was fine with staying up to talk to you and unwind that way, and when his phone vibrated to notify him of another of your messages, he was further encouraged to stay awake out of pure curiosity. (y/n): Hey, Ango, I might know a way for you to destress. Ango: What is it? Yoga?(y/n): Nope! With that message, you sent a photo attachment, and he turned quite red before he'd even opened the file. Oh god, please don't be up for sexting. I'm much too rusty at that. He quickly plead internally, than, after swallowing the anxious lump in his throat, he opened the picture. Sure enough, it was a risque photo of yourself, nothing nude, but he got a healthy hint of what you looked like beneath your clothing. It brought a bright red color to his pale cheeks, but he didn't dislike the image, in fact, it honestly sent a bolt of excitement straight to his pants. Though, he was then faced with the predicament of responding. Fuck, do I comment on their body? Their underwear? He mulled over his options for a long moment and tried to formulate a good response that didn't sound too rude, but in the end he still struggled. Ango: Why the sexual image? Ango: You look nice, Ango:Your undergarments are rather cute. (y/n): Lol, take your time, dear. Ango let his phone fall to his chest after that and just scrubbed at his face with both of his hands, being mindful of his round glasses, then wiped his sweaty palms on the couch before finally sending a response he didn't delete. Ango: I'm sorry if I seem rude, I'm not used to being sent photos. You are very attractive. (y/n): Awww, thank you~ Have you really not been sent risque pictures before? Ango: Not really, haven't had many partners before to try. (y/n): Lolol, well dear, it's usually good etiquette to send a pic in return if you want😉 That sent another hot bolt of thrill to his groin, but he wasn't super sure on whether he should give into that lascivious voice in his head. Is it really smart to do this? They could use any compromising pictures against you. The anxious voice in his head whispered, but, after a moment or two of debating, the glasses-wearing man took a deep breath and let it out slowly, I guess it wouldn't hurt, as long as I don't show my face it shouldn't be that bad, even if they does use it against me. Besides, I can't exactly sleep comfortably after this, might as well take a photo while I'm at it. He told himself, using a bit of reasoning to curb how anxious he felt on his way to the men's room, the one rare place where there wasn't any security cameras. Once safely hidden in a stall with his phone, out of the view of any of the night guards or security cameras, Ango took a moment to relax so his hands didn't shake too badly, then, pulled his pants down just enough to let his semi-erect member free. He then took a moment to figure out how to take a passable picture and sent it off, his cheeks now as red as a rose and his gut was in a maelstrom of nerves, excitement, and arousal while waiting the painfully slow minute it took for you to reply to his picture. When you did, it was with a second image, (y/n): I appreciate your bravery~ Here, a final little picture for ya before I go to bed. Good night, Ango~ Your humor helped to relax him after such a nerve-wracking adventure into such a new territory. Not to say Ango wasn't a puritan, he'd had sex more than once, and he was pretty flexible with what he did in bed, but sending lewd photos from work was a new, anxiety-filled experience. Although, his stiffened member didn't seem to care about that paranoia. Fuelled by your second, slightly more risque image, his member now demanded to be dealt with before he even thought of sleep.He let out a little sigh and ran a hand through his dark hair, taking his glasses off and setting them carefully on the back of the toilet before shutting his dark green eyes and began to slowly stroke himself. The friction his hand gave, paired with the images now in his mind was the perfect mix to form fantasies starring you. Thoughts of you taking his long-neglected member into your mouth, or maybe riding him, so many thoughts that made his erection twitch filled his mind, trickling in as he finally fed his long neglected sexual needs ever so slightly. He hadn't done so in so long that he forgot just how addictive it could be to chase that delicious boost of happy chemicals masturbation could give him, but he was highly enjoying rediscovering the pleasure of the friction from his hands when paired with the fantasy of you being the one to stroke his twitching member until the pleasure reached its peek and a groan was yanked from his throat and quickly muffled as his body tensed and his brain was filled with static for a few moments. When he'd come down from that high, his euphoria was quickly replaced by immense shame, so he was swift to put his softening dick away and scrub up the evidence of his alone time. He put his glasses back on, straightened his clothes, and took a few deep breaths to slow his pounding heart and lessen the stain to his cheeks before he left the bathroom and returned to the couch. This time, he just went to sleep.
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wellimaginethat · 3 years
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Pity Party: Chapter One
Pairing: Crockett Marcel x (female) Paramedic!Reader
Requested?: Nope! I just decided to write little birthday one shots to celebrate my birthday, lol
Word Count: 1922
Author’s Note: So this is one of my four birthday stories written due to my birthday having been last Wednesday. This one will be a short series because apparently I love writing little series when it’s Crockett, lol. Also, this is my attempt at a slow burn...usually I just jump right into it or something, but this time I am going to actually try to write a slow burn...let’s see how that goes, lol
Trigger Warning(s): Spending your birthday alone, being sad, drinking alcohol, slow burn
Disclaimer: I don’t owe nor am I affiliated with any of the Chicago shows, I just like to play with the characters
Summary: You were bummed to be spending your birthday alone, but your coworkers at the firehouse and your friends at med had different ideas, which leads you to celebrating your birthday at Molly’s and almost confronting your feelings for Crockett...
Y/N = Your Name
Tag list: Not tagging in the birthday ones because I don’t want to accidentally tag someone who doesn’t celebrate birthdays. However, if you do want to be tagged in the following parts of this series then do let me know and I will gladly tag you.
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Every year as your birthday approached, you got incredibly excited only to be let down when you once again spent it alone.
You kept hoping your friends would ask if you wanted to go out for a drink to celebrate, or to grab pizza, or to just hang out. But every year, all you ever got was texts or simple posts on facebook, which you hardly went on anymore.
So this year you were going to try your hardest not to get excited and hopeful, because you didn’t want to go through the same thing you had for the last few years and you really wanted to avoid the birthday depression, as you called it, when you finally realized that all you would get would be texts. Now you were okay with not getting any gifts, you didn’t really care about that or about cards, you just wanted someone to at least act like they were happy you were another year older.
And it’s not like you hadn’t put effort into planning stuff for your own birthday. In the previous years you had asked a few friends to get drinks with you, to get pizza with you, to have dinner, the list goes on. They would always say something along the lines of ‘yeah sure’ and then either forget, make other plans, or cancel at the last minute. You could understand that sometimes life happens, but it was every year and you felt like you were putting more effort into your friendships than they were.
The last straw was when you saw the three of your closest friends hanging out without you, and you figured it was time to finally move on from your old high school clique.
So you fully intended to spend this birthday alone at your apartment.
So after your shift, you went home and changed into jeans and a nice shirt because if you were going to celebrate your birthday alone, you were going to at least look good while you did so.
You went to the counter and grabbed the pastry box that held the cupcake you had bought yourself and opened it, carefully pulling the cupcake out and setting it on the counter before ripping open the package of candles and placing one on the cupcake.
You searched for about twenty minutes before you finally found some matches to light your candle. You watched as the candle burnt for a few seconds before letting your eyes fall shut to make a wish. For someone to care. Before blowing out the candle.
You pulled the candle out and tossed it on the counter to the side and pulled the paper wrapping off of the cupcake and took a bite just as there was a knock at your door.
You set the cupcake down and headed to the door and looked through the peephole to see Crockett Marcel.
Curious, you opened the door with a raised brow. As soon as you had finished chewing and swallowing your cupcake, you tilted your head and finally asked, very confused. “What are you doing here?”
That seemed to catch him off guard. “Is that any way to greet a visitor?”
You frowned slightly, your turned to be caught off guard. “I’m sorry...I just...wasn’t expecting anyone…” You told him. “I wasn’t trying to be rude, and I’m still not, but the question still stands…”
“It’s your birthday.” Crockett stated simply, glancing over your shoulder into your apartment. “And you seem to be throwing yourself a pity party…”
“Yeah well it’s my pity party, so if you don’t mind I’m going to get back to it.” You told him. “You can come inside if you want.” You offered. “I don’t have another cupcake though…”
Crockett shook his head. “No, I came to get you.”
“Get me?” You asked, confused.
Crockett nodded. “Everyone’s waiting down at Molly’s for you.”
You were still confused and now you were frowning. “What for?”
“To celebrate your birthday.” Crockett told you like it should have been obvious. “We were going to surprise you, but when you didn’t show up, we decided someone should come get you.”
“And you drew the short straw?”
Crockett frowned at you. “No, I volunteered because I wanted to be the first to wish the sweet little paramedic a happy birthday.”
You tried to fight back the smile but couldn’t help it. “Well thanks.”
“Now get your shoes on and grab a coat, everyone’s waiting for the birthday girl.” Crockett smiled at you.
You slipped your shoes on and grabbed your coat and purse before locking up and walking with Crockett, he insisted you ride with him and you didn’t argue. He opened the door for you to get in his car, and then opened the door to the bar so you could walk in first, a complete gentleman and it made your little crush on him grow that much more.
“Hey, she’s here.” You heard your best friend Sylvie quickly whisper to everyone as you were walking in, and suddenly all eyes were on you.
“Happy birthday!” They all shouted and cheered.
You smiled wide, hardly able to believe that they actually cared enough to wish you a happy birthday. As you walked in more, you were given a few hugs and a few wished you a happy birthday again in softer voices.
“What will it be for the birthday girl?” Herrmann asked when you finally made it up to the bar.
You ordered your usual with a smile and a thank you.
He set it in front of you. “On the house. Happy birthday, kid.”
“Thank you.” You told him again, this time more meaningful as you picked up the drink, trying hard not to let emotions overwhelm you.
You did a good job at keeping the emotions at bay while you talked with your coworkers - no, friends - but soon enough it was getting to overwhelm you and you had to disappear. It was somewhat easy to do, just lie and say you had to use the bathroom and sneak out the back.
However, you were outside less than a minute when the backdoor opened and closed and none other than Crockett was walking towards you.
“You good?”
“I’m good.” You breathed out, your hot breath making little clouds as you nodded to him. “It’s just that I’ve never really had anyone really care about me. At least not enough to bother making me feel special on my birthday...and then with everyone in there, wishing me a happy birthday and making me feel...loved...it’s just a bit overwhelming.” You admitted, wrapping your arms around yourself to keep the cold out.
Crockett nodded as he leaned against the wall next to you. “That’s understandable.” The two of you were quiet for a moment. “You have people who care about you.”
“Yeah...I know.” You smiled, tears in your eyes. “It’s nice.”
Crockett smiled and nodded. “Especially me.”
You glanced at him for a moment, trying not to read too much into it, and gave him a small smile. “You’re a really good friend, Crockett.” You told him softly, assuming that’s what he meant, and then you had to look away before you said something you’d regret. “I’m glad you saved me from my pity party.” You felt the need to break the silence.
Crockett smirked a bit and nodded, looking straight ahead. “What’re friends for?”
Silence fell between the two of you again and you felt like it was a tense silence and couldn’t figure out why. The cold was starting to get to you, so you looked at him again. “I’m gonna head back inside.” You told him.
“That’s probably a good idea, it’s a little cold out here.” Crockett chuckled, pushing off the wall and heading to the door. He opened it for you and let you step inside first.
“Thank you.” You said softly as you stepped inside and headed back towards the bar where Sylvie was.
“Hey, where’d you go? I thought you ditched out.” Sylvie asked with a laugh.
“Oh I just needed some air.” You brushed it off with a smile, ordering another drink and picking up your conversation that the two of you were having before you had excused yourself earlier in the night.
Until Sylvie suddenly changed the subject. “So what do you think of Dr. Marcel?” She asked in what almost seemed like a suggestive tone.
You just about spit out your drink but were able to control yourself, you looked at her. “What do you mean?”
“I mean it seems like you might have a little crush on him.” She told you. “And he seems like he might like you back.”
You frowned a bit and shook your head. “No...we’re just friends.”
Sylvie snorts. “Yeah, okay.”
“We are.” You insisted.
“Okay okay.” Sylvie surrendered. “I just noticed how he looks at you and all.” She shrugged. “But you would know, so if you say you’re just friends then that’s what you are.”
You nodded. “Mhm…”
Across the bar, Crockett was having a very similar conversation with Natalie.
“So did you tell her?” Natalie asked in an excited yet hushed tone.
Crockett shook his head a bit as he sipped his bourbon. “There’s nothing to tell.”
“You’re saying you don’t like her?” Natalie asked, raising a brow, obviously not buying it.
“That’s not what I’m saying.” Crockett told her with a sigh.
“So then why didn’t you tell her?” Natalie asked, tilting her head slightly.
Crockett sighed again and glanced over your way before looking at Natalie. “Because in her eyes, we’re just friends, and...I’m okay with that.”
“You are?” Natalie asked, not understanding why he would be.
Crockett nodded. “I’d rather be just her friend than tell her the truth and make her uncomfortable and end up being nothing. I’m happy being her friend.”
Natalie nodded. “Oh...well then...okay.” She had thought you both had liked each other and that it would be all great. Now this was just a downer.
When the end of the night rolled around, you walked with Crockett to his car and he once again opened the door for you, causing you to smile. “Thank you.”
“Of course.” Crockett said softly with a smile.
“Tonight was amazing.” You were feeling the good effects of the drinks you had, making you happy and at ease. “It was by far the best birthday I’ve ever had.” You giggled. “I will forever remember my twenty-seventh birthday.”
“I’m glad to hear that.” Crockett told you, glancing over with a smile as you continued to talk about how wonderful your birthday had been.
When you arrived at your apartment complex, you quickly got out of the car. Crockett walked over to you and walked you up.
“You don’t have to walk me to my apartment.” You laughed softly before stumbling into him and laughing more. “Okay, maybe you do.”
“I don’t mind.” Crockett said softly as he walked with you, after the two of you were at your apartment he looked at you. “Are you gonna be okay?”
You hummed and nodded. “Yeah, I’m good.” You smiled at him and touched his cheek. “You’re such a good friend.”
Crockett smiled at you. “I’m glad we’re friends, Y/N.”
“Me too.” You agreed with a nod, even if you were currently fighting back the urge to kiss him.
“Goodnight, Y/N.” Crockett smiled at you and began walking down the hall as you went inside your apartment.
Part Two Coming Soon
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•Part-Time•
Request: twt@LUSTFORLOKI. To sum up this one, Reader is a college student who took a part-time job in the Avengers tower as a sort of housekeeper/maid/butler. Steve, for all of his self-righteousness, doesn’t know how to treat a housekeeper/maid properly in the 21st century. Thankfully, Loki shows up, and as usual, has a plan for everything. (I’m such a Steve-anti. Poor Steve.)Lots of angst, some fluff.
Fandom: MCU AU
Pairing: Loki x College!Reader.
Warnings: Angst, Abuse, Violence. OOC Steve, Major Steve bashing, so any Steve-stans, please look away.
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You need this job.
That’s the only reason why you’re here, and why you tolerate some of the insanity that you’re forced to endure.
You saw the advertisement on the internet, it was hard to miss. Big, bright and attention grabbing, just like your employer, Tony Stark. He was looking for a butler basically, but also sort of a housekeeper. Someone to help keep the tower in order, but also to help the Avengers if they ever needed anything.
Surprisingly, for all of his melodrama, egotism and childishness, Tony Stark is a great boss, and his wife, Pepper, is an even better boss. They’re both always pleasant to you, they pay you well, they pay you on time, they’re never rude (despite Tony’s jokes sometimes being a little-uncalled for), and they never really ask much from you.
Sure, your job is to help keep the 90-something tower “in order”, but you, interestingly enough, don’t do much cleaning. As Tony once said “I have people I pay to do all of that.” Your job is mostly centered on making sure that Tony’s physical files are organized, that the training room has all of the practice weapons properly locked up, and to make sure that the kitchen and main lounge/living room isn’t a hot-mess-express.
So, the only thing you really ever have to clean up is the kitchen, and on occasion, the living room. The Avengers don’t typically leave behind much of a mess.
Really, the insanity isn’t Tony, or Pepper, or cleaning, or the pay, it’s helping the Avengers when they “need something”.
Oh-correction. The insanity is helping Steve Rogers when he “needs something”.
The Avengers are all grown ass adult superheroes (minus Peter), and you’re a college student taking a part-time job so that you can take care of yourself. Most of them find it uncomfortable to ask you to do meager things for them, so they mostly ignore you, and do things for themselves like functional members of society.
Except for Steve Rogers.
You are unsure of what you did, but the moment you started working here, he’s been nothing but cold and mean to you. He asks you to bring him a drink, to bring him a snack, to bring him a napkin, to bring him his breakfast, lunch and dinner. It’s gotten ridiculous. He’ll even ask you to make sure his bedroom is neat after he wakes up, and to make sure his bathroom is cleaned every few days.
This is behavior you expected from the Asgardian princes, Thor and Loki, but definitely not from Captain fucking America.
Then again, as Captain America, perhaps his behavior rightfully represents what a lot of Americans are; entitled.
(I’m American also, lol, no hate plz.)
He’s nothing like what he was supposed to be. On camera he was gentlemanly, kindhearted and appreciative. It was a shock to you when you found that Loki, of all the people in the tower, acts more like Captain America, than Captain America.
Which was truly bewildering to you at first. Just think about it for a moment...
The guy who tried to take over the whole world and enslave mankind is the one who greets you with a smile everyday, and offers to make you tea on Saturday and Sunday mornings (which are the only mornings you can work-you got those 7am college classes, RIP). He even helps you with your studies, homework and college essays if you find yourself falling behind. It took some time to get used to his kind gestures, which sometimes bewildered even Thor at times.
While Loki got familiar with you, your relationship with Steve Rogers, on the other hand, ended up only getting worse.
It turned abusive, sometimes violent, and the only reason you never went to Tony is because you know that the two are close friends and coworkers. You could go to the other Avengers, but you’re sure that their relationship to Steve is similar, as well.
Bucky Barnes is another person you know is close with Steve. Those two go way back-before you were even born.
One day, you were careless in leaving your house. It was a Saturday morning, you were tired and you hadn’t noticed that both of your arms had begun to bruise from Steve’s super soldier strength.
He had hit you a few times in anger yesterday. You can’t really recall why.
“What are those on your arms?” Loki asks, within seconds of seeing you. “What’s happened?”
“Nothing.” You say.
“I’m The God of Lies, my dear, you’ll have to do better than that.” Loki says, looking over your arms, carefully. “Is someone harming you?”
“No. I fell.”
“Try again.” Loki challenges, looking up at you sternly.
“I’m fine.”
“Who is harming you?” He asks, narrowing his eyes. “Is it someone in here?”
“Loki...”
“Is it an Avenger?”
Loki catches the subtle change in your eyes, the spark of fear that lit up when he asked whether or not it was an Avenger.
He growls. “Who is it?”
“Loki, please, I don’t want to talk about it.” You plead, getting rather uncomfortable now. “Can we just... play chess or something?”
Loki frowns at you for a while, before sighing in defeat. “Fine, alright.”
He doesn’t bring it up for the rest of the day.
You make sure to wear long sleeves to cover the bruises on your arms for the next couple of days, at least until the bruising goes down.
“What did I tell you about leaving my bedroom a mess?” Steve demands. “It’s a simple request. I’m not asking you to teach a dog to sing.”
Steve has decided to now confront you in an empty hallway about not tidying up his room yesterday.
“I’m sorry...” You mutter. “...Tony wanted me with him all day yesterday.”
“You couldn’t have come do it before you left? You just went home knowing my bedroom is a mess?” Steve asks, quickly getting upset.
“Tony clocked me out himself, so I was already off shift. Besides, it’s not like you can’t clean your bedroom yourself.” You answer.
Wrong answer, apparently.
He grabbed your arm and held it in a bruising grip, once again reminding you that he’s no ordinary human.
You let out a whimper and try to pull away, which proves no use. You’re not surprised when he slaps you. You’re surprised by how a super soldier serum can make a simple slap so painful. You’re even more surprised when your nose starts bleeding.
He must’ve inadvertently popped a blood vessel or something.
He raises his hand again, and you close your eyes, prepared for a punch or something worse, but it never comes. You open your eyes and see Steve looking at something behind you. You turn around and see Loki standing at the other end of the hall, his hands behind his back, an indifferent look on his face, but his eyes tell a different story.
You’ve known Loki long enough to realize that if you want to know his true emotions, you read his eyes, not his face. He’s a master at using his face to guard his true feelings.
And his eyes currently hold a barely contained storm of rage inside of them.
“I apologize for... interrupting...” Loki barely managed to keep his voice steady. “But dinner is ready, and I was wondering if (Y/N) would be joining us tonight.”
You nod, frantically. Steve releases your arm, and you rush over to Loki’s side.
“Loki Laufeyson, master of perfect timing, always ready to save the day.”
“Actually.” Loki corrects. “It’s Loki Odinson, master of sorcery, always ready to put ignorant Midgardians in their place.” He smiles a very unpleasant smile. “But yes... I suppose you’re also somewhat correct.”
“No one will believe you.” Steve says.
“Perhaps you’re correct.” Loki drones. “I am not here to hold a conversation with you, however, I am here to take (Y/N) to dinner.”
Steve snorts derisively, and walks by Loki, intentionally bumping shoulders with him.
Well, Steve was bumped, Loki didn’t move even a centimeter.
“Might want to clean her up first.” Steve says, as he retreats. “Wouldn’t want everyone to think you were beating up on her before dinner.”
Loki clenches his jaw. You look away, nervous about what he’s going to say.
You’re startled when he tilts your face up by your chin, and then slowly uses his seidr to heal any damage Steve has dealt you, including the bruises on your arms. He checks you over multiple times, making sure you aren’t still hurt.
Once he’s finished, he takes both of your hands and makes eye contact with you. He’s still upset, but the anger has tapered down to a manageable level.
“How did you know he was hurting me just now?” You ask, in a hushed tone.
“The same day I inquired about your bruises, I forged a... connection of sorts.” Loki explains. “Today, I felt that you were in danger, so I went looking for you. I have a similar connection with Thor, otherwise that oaf would’ve perished long ago.”
You nod, it makes sense, somewhat. You blush as he kisses your cheek and then your forehead.
“I am sorry.” Loki squeezes your hands, gently. “I wish I had noticed earlier. I would’ve killed him in that moment, would it not result in me being casted back to Asgard. The last thing I want, is for you to be left here to deal with all of this on your own.”
“Well... there’s nothing we can do about it now...” You murmur.
“I believe that to be untrue...” Loki’s eyes slowly shift up to the security cameras. “...Rogers appears to have forgotten about the many eyes this tower has.”
Your eyes widen. “The security cameras...!”
Loki smirks. “Stark will review the footage if you ask him to. I could accompany you to his lab tonight after dinner, if you so wish.”
“Yes, I’d love that.” You wrap your arms around Loki as tight as you possibly can. “Thank you!”
“You’re most certainly welcome.” Loki chuckles. “Time to cook up a scandal...”
A/N: SORRY STEVE STANS, I TAKE ALL REQUESTS, NO REQUESTS LEFT BEHIND.
Also, I wrote this while struggling with depression (it’s been two weeks, and it seems to not be improving, and this crap can last as long as a couple of months, so I wrote it anyway. Better than waiting a few months to finally get on this), and I’m not sure if y’all have noticed, but my storytelling feels weird in this one. My ability to produce a thorough, flowing storyline appears to be sort of hindered right now. I’ll try to update it if I can.
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Ok cool. It was partly a response to the anon you posted directly before you posted mine lol. Also a general comment on pr being used as the default explanation for things that could be explained by other reasons too. I get the sense you dislike the idea of Tom and Z as more than just coworkers that much but might be wrong, thoughts?
You are right. I dislike the thought of them as more than just co-workers because IF they dated, Tom deserved better treatment than constantly being shit on and friendzoned in public by Zendaya, no matter how nice she probably was to Tom in private.
It wasn’t just playful, she was downright rude to him sometimes, and while shippers disguise that as „teasing“, I personally think it was rude behavior and unnecessary, IF they dated. In a friendship, where no romantic feelings are involved, it‘s not the same. You wouldn’t get hurt about behavior like that, you would shoot back, just like Tom did at times.
Shippers will say Zendaya „friendzoned“ Tom in order to stay private with him but it could have been done in a better way. Just say „I don’t comment on my dating life“ and leave it be, but constantly calling your boyfriend (again IF they dated) friend instead of simply NOT addressing the rumors and letting them be is just silly. Consider your partners feelings for a second.
Shippers will then say „But he agreed to it.“ Yeah, agreeing to something is one thing, but I don’t know a single person, who wouldn’t be hurt by being friendzoned and shit on in interviews - even if it serves the purpose of hiding the relationship. Agreement doesn’t mean the person is happy to do it.
Is it more understandable now? Me, considering the way Zendaya was towards Tom at times, is me HOPING that they did not date, because I’m HOPING Zendaya wouldn’t treat someone she dated like that. Does that make sense? I’m not trying to be rude at all, I just don’t see how what they had was a healthy relationship in the eyes of stans. If it was a relationship, it wasn’t healthy and really childish and immature. I don’t expect Zendaya to treat anyone like that and I don’t expect Tom to be an idiot and let himself be treated that way. That‘s why I firmly believe that they were the best of friends who had great, friendly, platonic chemistry.
My opinion:
I know NOT a lot of people share my opinion, but I do have some knowledge/experience about how Hollywood works, and the behavior between Tom and Zendaya was of two co-workers who had a wonderful friendship. BUT Productions of Spiderman, PR people or I don’t know who then caught wind of fans shipping them as a couple and they were pushed, not to hang out more because they already did that, but to make it seem like they were dating, to just have some fun playing with people, to keep the attention on Spiderman‘s new coupling of Peter/MJ.
They were caught several times by paparazzi. One quick tip: If the paparazzi pictures/videos are clear, they are within a short distance of the celebrity and the celebrities don’t try to obviously hide by covering their faces, it‘s a pap walk and one of the celebrities has called them and arranged the whole thing. (Like the infamous “Have you seen the new Black Panther movie?“ video. That screams “set up“ from a mile away. Zendaya then hopped onto Snapchat to do „damage control“ like shippers said, when she just wanted to look gullible and surprised, that paparazzi found them. She‘s not doing damage control because she is dating Tom secretly, she wants to be seen as if she doesn’t do PR stunts like that. Again, this is Hollywood, everyone does it. I’m not holding THAT against Zendaya, only that she wants to look like she doesn’t do it.)
Sorry, went a little off topic.
Tom and Zendaya couldn’t have known just how far shippers would go (stalking etc) to find proof, that they are actually dating, when they weren’t.
I have zero doubt in my mind, that Tom and Zendaya had a wonderful platonic friendship, which was put under a lot of strain due to the outrageous „are they/are they not?“ PR that fans fed into with their stalking, reaching and exposing which ironically cost them their friendship in the end, for they can never go out together again, address one another again without shippers going mental. Whatever they had back in 2017/2018, they can never go back to that. Blame the hardcore Tomdaya shippers for that.
Again, this is my personal opinion. I hope it’s more understandable now, why I don’t see that they work as a couple. You see, I have nothing against Zendaya personally because I absolutely don’t know her, I just wish she would stop acting as if she was above Hollywood crap, when at the same time, she‘s being a regular celebrity. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️
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Hey idk if I've already sent this but how would V, jumin and zen react when mc is on her period and gets angry very very easily (you accidentally bump into her? Well now you're dead) and then mc gets very sad because she got angry at them and starts crying (I'm like this when I'm on my period and no one comes near me lol it sucks) it's fine it you don't want to do it but if you decide to do it then thank you so much 😊😊😊
OOF GIRL SAME I-
Also imma try a new format hope y’all like it
Zen, Jumin and V reacting to an MC who gets super emotional on her period:
Zen:
So this poor fella has no idea that you’re on your period, and that day, when he came come, he found some delicious candies on the table. He thought, oh well, why not eat one? They look absolutely delicious. Biggest mistake of his life. You came in the kitchen, just in time to find your boyfriend munching on your delicious candies.
THE AUDACITY OF THIS MAN.
You glared at him and Zen immediately froze, midway through the candy. Before Zen could defend himself you very angrily asked him WHY did he eat YOUR candy??? Did he buy it? No??? Then WHY WAS HE EATING IT!
You had been saving that candy since the morning, and after a stressful day decided to eat it while you watched your comfort movies and series that you always binged when you were in your period. It made you so mad that he had taken a bit of candy, and he realized. Zen tried to apologize, over and over but you wouldn’t hear it.
You huffed and quickly ran to your room, banging closed the door.
And that’s when Zen realized, he fucked up.
After a few minutes Zen gently knocked on the door, and you replied with a sort of rude “what.”
“Y/N...I’m sorry I ate your candy without permission. I know how much you love them and to eat them without asking was terrible for me to do. Would you forgive me if I went and bought you some more? And how about I add a snuggle session for later hm? Would that make you happy babe?”
It went quiet. Slowly, you opened the bedroom door and tackled Zen in a big hug. “IM SORRY!” You cried. “I’m just on my period and I’m so emotional today and I just got really mad for no reason, Zenny you’re allowed to eat how many candies you want I’m sorry!”
Zen chuckled and held you tight, telling you it was alright. The rest of the afternoon, the two of you watched TV and ate some of your favorite food, cuddling and giving each other kisses.
Jumin:
He was so busy with work!!!!
You knew that you shouldn’t get mad about something like that, but you couldn’t help but feel neglected! That afternoon you and Jumin were supposed to eat together and watch some movies, Jumin had taken the day off just for that, because you told him he needed to rest. Yet...there he was, locked in his office, on the phone with his coworkers and documents piled up in his desk.
For about the fifth time that day, you gently knocked on Jumin’s door and brought him some food. You were both supposed to be eating together, but that was two hours and a half ago. He must’ve been hungry and you weren’t in the mood for a romantic dinner anymore. Jumin looked up as you placed the plate on his desk, and he grabbed your hand and kissed it, as a thank you.
“I will be done soon, my love.” He whispered, but you knew that he would probably be busy the rest of the day. You shook your head and tried to smile, telling him it was fine.
It also didn’t help that you were in your period. You tried to leave as quick as possible because you didn’t want to be mad at this perfection of a man. It wasn’t his fault and he was doing his best! Yet you still felt way too emotional and you couldn’t help but...feel a bit angry. It was mostly because you knew he was overworking himself, and you felt like he was ignoring your concerns for him...
You went to your bed and laid there, under the mattresses and didn’t come out until you hear a silent knock on the door. “My love..?” Jumin asked, as he went into the room. Slowly you sat up on the bed and Jumin looked at you with guilt all over his face. “I’m so sorry.” He said, after a few minutes of silence. You slowly opened your mouth to tell him that it was alright. You were just worried. But all that came out of your mouth was a pound sob and before you could realize it, tears were streaming down your face. Jumin quickly walked over to you and gave you a hug, and you tightened your grip on him while you sobbed.
“I’m, I’m sorry” you cried. “I just- why are they such assholes, I- you never get to r-rest, and I want to spent t-time with you, but they just w-want you all for themselves, and today w-was supposed to be OUR day, but y-you had to work again, and you al-always d-do you beeeeest”
“Love-”
“AND I, dont w-want to be ungrateful or anything b-because you’re doing so m-much but I don’t want you t-to suddenly collapse because of overworking y-yourself and you d-don’t listen to me, Jumin I don’t want to end up a widow because y-you die from overwork you know?! And I-it’s not fair you ignore me g-getting worried, WAHHHHH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.”
After a few minutes of sobbing, you finally calmed down and wiped your eyes. “I’m sorry Jumin. I know this is not the best way to express myself...but in my defense my hormones are going a bit crazy right now because of my period...”
“You’re on your period?” He asked, and you nodded. Say no more. Jumin immediatly took a whole week off and spent the rest of the time cooking for you, buying you crazy amounts of chocolates, hugging you and kissing you. He knew you were just worried for him and he got why you would be a bit mad because he’s not taking care of himself, after all, he’s the same with you.
The rest of the time you both cuddled and kissed each other, watching your favorite movies and laying in bed till noon.
V:
It had all happened in a flash. But V accidentally threw your chocolate cake on the floor. Your chocolate cake.
YOUR CHOCOLATE CAKE
You immediately gave a yelp and cried, and maybe also yelling at V a bit.
You were in your period, and right now the only thing that could make you feel better was a slice of chocolate cake. But V didn’t make that possible. As soon as you screamed at V “HEY V WHAT THE HELL” and he flinched you immediately feel bad.
V knelt on the floor beside you and tried to pick up the pieces of chocolate cake that he thought maybe you could save.
“I’m sorry Y/N.” He said, guiltily. You shook your head and tried not to cry.
“No V don’t apologize...gravity isn’t your fault, and I wasn’t watching my step. Sorry for getting mad.”
“But..I still bumped into you. Sorry.”
“V nO - I JUST SAID IT WASNT YOUR FAULT
“IM SORRYYY”
I’m just kidding lmao
After a thousand apologies, you hugged V and told him that he could make it up by helping you cook some more chocolate cake. That immediatly brightened both of your moods, and you spent the afternoon baking some delicious cake, and cookies, and cupcakes, and more cookies, and making tons and tons of sweet snacks (like torta chilena UFFF ITS DELICIOUS)
V was immediatly pardoned, and honestly who could stay mad at him for that long? You gave him a little peck on the nose and told him that everything was fine and that you were happy. Then you both went out to your little patio and ate your food while watching a beautiful sunset.
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Some lady got nasty with me at work and as soon as she walked away i turned to my boss and said "she was mean to me" then just started crying😓 but we got a line and the phone was ringing so i had to keep checking people out while all teary and sniffling and i hope she wont call back and complain bc i was barely holding it together while she finished paying and im very expressive and i even mentioned my autism and i was a literal mess in front of my boss and he was doing his best to keep me calm and from having a panic attack and i dont want to get in trouble i just want to forget and move on I literally just started this job and one person complained on me (she was old too) for following her (i was literally just pacing the front store isles bc i had nothing else to do literally what is wrong w people like hey maybe this employee wants to help you??????????? Maybe dont be an asshole to the people being paid to help you?????????? "Maybe they're having a bad day" IM having a bad day dealing with them! Dont treat people like shit!! Theres no excuse to be mean to people in your daily life. You are never to old to do something about your shitty life dont just wallow in self pitty forever making it everyone else's problem (i got side tracked)) so many people have been so nice to me being new but like these old people are just so nasty and im such a mushy person and the pay is good at this job and i like it and my coworkers but like, I really am hating how the customers treat me and I desperately dont want to be a problem to my coworkers and bosses or for them to hate me🤕 you can delete this ask lol i didnt mean to like unload/type all that i started and just kinda didnt stop and youre not a therapist and have no obligation to respond either
Hello, darling!💗🌸
First of all, I'm so sorry that it's taken me a few days to respond to this!💜 I hope that you're feeling better now, angel, and that things have been smoother with you!💙
Second of all, I'm sorry that you had a horrible customer experience like that.😔The fact that she made you cry is awful and I'm so sorry that you had to carry on with your shift even with that happening. You're so strong, darling, to have gotten through that, though I'm so sorry that you had to. I can really relate to this; when I was a waitress, it was common for customers to be rude and treat me like I was less than human and it was even more common for me to be left upset by them, and I'm so sorry that you had to experience this, my love.😔
I really hope that she didn't phone back to complain, darling; she treated you horribly and you didn't deserve that at all.😔I'm glad that your boss was trying to calm you down; you deserve more understanding and compassion than how that customer treated you.💔I'm so sorry that one person complained about you for following her, darling!!! People really shouldn't assume, most especially because you were just doing your job, and I'm so sorry that you had to deal with that, too.😭
Yes omg that "maybe they're just having a bad day" really used to irritate me as well! For one thing, having a bad day does not mean that someone gets to treat someone else badly, and secondly, our days as someone working in customer service are negatively affected by people being rude to us and I'm so sorry that you had to deal with people treating you badly. You deserve so much better, my love, and I hope that things have gotten better since you sent this in to me!💚
You're absolutely right, darling, there's no excuse to be mean to people and in fact, choosing to be kind and such even when and especially when you're having a bad day is more powerful a move!!!! Being kind feels good and it is good and as a rule of thumb, if someone is consistently rude to others, they're not a nice person!!! Elderly people really are quite rude, in my customer service experience, and I'm so sorry that you can relate to that, darling! It's not right that you have to put up with nasty customer interactions, though it does unfortunately come with the job. 😔
You deserve to be treated with dignity and respect and kindness above all else and I really hope that future shifts and customers treat you better, honey! Just remember that it's not you they're insulting on a personal level, they're just seeing the business; there's a degree of dehumanisation in it which is a bit uncomfortable.😔 You deserve so much better, my love, and I hope that you're able to have better interactions in the future! Thank you for reaching out to me, angel, I hope that you've found peace within this situation and that you're taking care of yourself! I love you angel and I'm sending you lots of strength for future shifts!💝✨
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slytherinbangchan · 4 years
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Tattoo Artist! Felix x Fem chubby reader.
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-Tattoo!Artist Changbin
-Tattoo artist!Hyunjin
-Tattoo artist!Bangchan
Tattoo Artist!Jisung -Tattoo artist!Woojin
-Fuckboy!Minho
Warnings: Mature (dry humping)
-'You idiot, your client is waiting for you'. You shout looking at the staff room on the back of the store. 'Excuse him, he's pooping'. You tell the girl waiting at the counter.
-'I'm not'. He says as he rushes over there. 'Stop telling my clients that'. He laughs.
-A half smile on your face as you keep drawing not minding him.
-He hits your arm softly and scoffs with a smile on before guiding his client to the tattoo chair.
-'Ok, would you stop flirting?'
-You look up to see Seungmin's face as he leans over the counter.
-You scoff as you smile. 'I'm not flirting with Felix'.
-'Sure'.
-That devilish smile.
-'You know you're more my type than he is, right?'
-'Should I kiss you then?' He asks still with that smile on.
-You chuckle. 'Ew, just go work on your designs'. You say as you push him away.
-He chuckles as he leaves to his work table.
-Your eyes drift meeting Felix's and you chuckle as he makes some faces at you. 'Idiot' you mumble and he just smiles before going back to work.
-He's cute when he does that.
-It's a quiet morning in the shop.
-You cleaned your schedule up so you could spend some time on new designs so you're just kinda chilling.
-You see a hand stealing your coffee and you look up to see Felix taking a sip.
-'Again?' You ask.
-'What? I was working so hard just now'. He smiles.
-'I asked earlier if you wanted me to bring you something when I went for mine'. You chuckle.
-'Well, yeah but it tastes better this way'. He winks at you and you roll your eyes.
-'It's mine'. You say as you steal your cup back from his hands.
-He chuckles and ruffles your hair. 'Yeeah, understood'.
-Stupid Felix. Always messing with you like that.
-You can see your bestie Seungmin looking at you from the distance.
-You can practically read his mind. Is like there's a billboard over his head saying 'FLIRTING AGAIN?'
-But you're not flirting with Felix.
-You've been friends like that for a while now.
-He just likes to mess with you and you don't mind messing with him back.
-Some of his art covers part of your body and some of your art covers part of his.
-But the same thing goes for Seungmin.
-After all you're all tattooists.
-And anyway even if you two were flirting is not like it was romantically, right?
-Right?
-'So, wanna go grab some lunch?' Felix asks. 'I didn't bring anything'.
-'Oh, sure. I'll tell Seungmin too'.
-'Ah, okay. Sure... Then go get him and we can leave'. He smiles as you collect your drawings and keep them in a folder.
-You check your schedule as you all wait for the food.
-'Are we still playing later?' Seungmin asks Felix.
-'Of course. We should play LoL tonight though so this idiot can join us'. He says poking your arm.
-'Don't worry about me. I don't feel like playing tonight. I think I'll watch a movie or something'. You distractedly say as you keep looking at your appointments.
-'Party pooper'. Seungmin says as he chuckles.
-'What? I'm so tired and once we start playing we won't stop. I need sleep'. You chuckle.
-'Ok then it's just us two'. Seungmin says and Felix just nods.
-The rest of the day just go by as normally as ever.
-You got a couple appointments in the afternoon for big and complicated tattoos so you end up even more tired.
-Your phone buzzes as you get out the shower.
-'You idiot, Seungmin ditched me too. Now I have to play alone'.
-'How is that my fault?😂' You text Felix back.
-'Idk but it is'.
-'Ok then lol'.
-'Just log in and join my teaaam🥺'.
-'I can't I'm meeting my friends after all'.
-'Oh, so you can go out but you can't join me on the summoner's rift cause you're so tired'.
-You chuckle as you look at your phone. '😂 Yep, sorry. Have fun tho😜'.
-'Sure... Don't drink too much huh? You owe me a game tomorrow'.
-'Yeeah~'.
-It's been a while since you last went out.
-Felix goes out a lot though.
-A bunch of his clients ask him out or invite him to parties.
-He's really popular even if he's kinda shy at first.
-But lately he's been staying home playing games with you and Seungmin.
-And it's fun but sometimes you'd spend almost all night playing.
-Normally when Seungmin goes to bed you leave too.
-You think it'd be kinda awkward staying in game just with Felix.
-He doesn't talk a lot while playing and you like to joke around and comment on everything so yeah.
-Anyway he has other friends to play with. He doesn't actually need you.
-Your friends pick you up when you're ready.
-'So whose party is this?' You ask them as you get in the car.
-'I don't know, some guy from work'. One of them says.
-'Huh... Some cute guy that I should know of?'
-'Nah. I hope he invited some friends from out of work though'.
-You sigh and honestly expect for the worst.
-It's not the first time your friends drag you into one of their coworker's party.
-And parties like that are never that fun.
-When you get there it doesn't seem bad.
-Music is nice and there's a bunch of people.
-'Hey y/n look at that guy, he's kinda cute huh?' Your friend says.
-You try to find the person she's pointing at.
-Then you see the guy but he's not facing you.
-You squeeze your eyes in a stupid attempt to see him better. 'He does look good... I think'.
-'See? I knew you'd like him. Also his friend is cute too. Let's go say hi'.
-As she drags you towards the guy you start recognizing him.
-But your brain seems unable to link concepts.
-Only when you have him right in front of you, you fully realize he's actually there.
-Your friend pokes his shoulder and he turns around.
-'Hey'. She says. 'Are you guys friends with Donhyuck?'
-He chuckles as he sees you and you do the same but neither of you say anything about it yet.
-'Nah, I'm just his tattooist and this is a friend of mine'. He says pointing at the guy next to him.
-'Hi, I'm Jeongin'. The other guy says.
-'Oh, you're tattooists? My friend is a tattooist too'. She says pointing at you.
-You chuckle again. 'I think they know'. You tell your friend.
-'Ah really? Is that a tattooist thing? You all know eachother?' She asks.
-You all chuckle. 'Seriously? You don't know who this is? You've been to my shop right?'
-She looks at them for a moment and then opens her mouth. 'Felix??' She asks. 'Omg you fucking changed a lot since last time I saw you'.
-He chuckles. 'It can't be that much'.
-'It is. What the fuck you're super hot now'.
-You laugh and hit her softly. 'Don't tell him that. He has enough people drooling over him already'.
-She kinda ignores you and keeps talking to the guys. 'We totally thought you were just two hot guys and we came here to-' But you stop her.
-'Yeah well why don't we go for a drink now?' You ask her.
-'It's ok, I'll go. You stay here' She says.
-'What? Why?' You ask but she's already gone.
-'I'm going for another drink too'. Jeongin says, leaving you alone with Felix.
-'What are you doing here?' You ask directly. 'Thought you were playing tonight'.
-'Yeah all my friends were busy so...'
-'Can't play alone huh?'
-'I can. I just rather not'.
-'You miss me that bad?' You joke.
-'Well, you're the one who appeared in a party where I already was. So who was missing who?' He chuckles.
-'I didn't even know you were here. I thought you were at home playing'. You laugh.
-'Hey Felix, you like fat chicks now?' Some guy says as he walks by.
-Felix turns around to see who said that. 'Fuck off'. He says then he looks back at you to keep chatting.
-'Ah... I'm gonna go check on my friend. She always forget what drink I like'. You say, kinda awkwardly and leave before he can say anything.
-It's funny how sometimes someone can ruin your night just like that.
-Normally you would have shout something back at that rude guy or whatever.
-But for some reason tonight that guy caught you with your guard down.
-Maybe cause he said it right in front of Felix.
-Like it shouldn't be a problem but it is.
-Cause it's not the first time someone has looked at you weirdly or laughed after seeing you with Felix.
-And you can pretend it didn't happen only a limited amount of times before starting feeling like shit about it.
-You know Felix is cute and handsome and hot. You know.
-And maybe for certain people you're not.
-You also know some people is just mean sometimes.
-But could they stop reminding you that even if you don't like him you wouldn't stand a chance if you did anyway?
-You find your friend at the drinks table.
-'I'm sorry I forgot what you like'. She says.
-'Yeah I thought so. It's ok. I think I'm leaving'.
-'What? No way! You live too far away'.
-'It's fine. I'll just take the bus'.
-'Whyy? Just stay pleasee. For a bit? It'll be fun. I promise'.
-You sigh and pour a drink for yourself. 'Ok, just a bit'.
-'Did you know Felix is super popular? I heard so many people talking about him in so little time just now'. She says.
-'Yeah, even guys like him so much'. You say.
-'Yeah? Why don't you ask him out on a date or something?'
-You chuckle. 'Are you crazy?'
-'You don't like him?'
-'What do you mean? He's my coworker'.
-'Yeah and he's fucking hot?'
-'So? I haven't even think about it. There's no way he'll waste his time in someone like me anyway'.
-'Why not? You're amazing'.
-'And fat'.
-Your friend stares at you with a suspicious look. 'Where is this coming from? I thought you weren't insecure like that anymore'.
-You sigh loudly. 'Yeah, but sometimes is hard'.
-'Ok, I get that but honestly I don't think Felix would care about something like your weight at all'.
-You chuckle. 'You barely know him'.
-She chuckles too. 'Ok, but am I wrong? Do you think otherwise?'
-'I don't know. I'm pretty much confused now'.
-'Well, ok. Let's focus on another thing for tonight then'. She says as she grabs your hand. 'Let's find something fun to do'.
-You follow her around and keep drinking.
-It doesn't get fun at all at that party but you're kinda drunk now so it's not that bad.
-The guy who said that thing to Felix left the party at some point.
-That fact and the alcohol makes you feel more relaxed.
-You can see Jeongin and Felix from there talking to some girls.
-Well, it seems more like the girls are doing all the talking.
-Not like you care.
-You sigh slightly annoyed and look away.
-There's a bunch of people sitting on the floor and your friends want to go check what the hell they're doing.
-'Ah! You entered the circle you must stay'. Some guy says.
-'What?' You ask.
-'It's the rule'. He says.
-'Uh... Okay? What is this about though?'
-'We're playing 7 minutes in heaven'.
-'Really?? Are we in high school or?'
-Your friend chuckles at your reaction and makes you sit.
-'What is this?' Felix asks as he's pushed into the circle by some of the girls who were talking to him earlier.
-'Ok, you all can sit but that's it. Let's start the game'. The guy says.
-Felix looks as confused as you were a minute ago but he sits down.
-He also looks kinda drunk.
-You don't know almost anybody else in that circle. It's going to be awkward if the bottle points at you at some point.
-So you're kinda praying that's not the case.
-And it works at first.
-You just keep drinking and laughing about other people being put together in a tiny room for 7 minutes.
-And how some of them are pissed about their partner and others have not enought time for kissing or whatever.
-So you forget about the bottle for a minute.
-Then realize everyone is looking at you.
-'What?' You ask.
-'It's your turn y/n. He's waiting for you, c'mon'. Your friend whispers to you.
-You look up and Felix is offering his hand to help you up.
-So nice of him to help you like that.
-You hold it without thinking about it too much.
-So dizzy you almost fall.
-You hear someone mumble. 'So lucky'.
-'Who am I getting in this room with? I wasn't really paying attention'. You whisper to Felix and he chuckles.
-'Me'.
-You feel some butterflies in your stomach but just keep walking to the room.
-Some guy opens the door for you and you get in.
-It's a very tiny guest room with a bed and not much more.
-'I'm sorry you got stuck with me'. You say. 'Don't worry. I'll tell everyone nothing happened when we are out of here'.
-He scoffs. 'So you're just rejecting me like that?'
-What is he talking about?
-'Not funny'. You say as you sit on the bed.
-He sits right besides you. 'Why are you mad at me?'
-'I'm not. Actually this is the less mad I've been in this party'.
-He laughs. 'Glad I make you feel good then'.
-'Yeah, you do'. You say looking at him. He's looking down at the bed.
-Then you feel the warmth of his hands over yours.
-'What are you doing?' You ask and he chuckles.
-'I don't know. I'm kinda drunk and your hands looked so soft. I wanted to touch them'.
-You smile. 'Weirdo'.
-'Shut up, I'm not'. He pushes you with his shoulder but doesn't let your hands go.
-His smile is so precious. Wonder how you didn't notice before.
-'You know you owe me a game right?' He says. His fingers laced with yours now.
-'Yeeah I know...' You chuckle. 'We need Seungmin though I can't play with you alone. You're so quiet'.
-'What? Really?'
-'Yeah I think it'd be awkward just the two of us. Oh god... I'm sorry I'm drunk confessing about my awkward feelings when we are in a call alone'. You can't stop your words but he's chuckling so it's ok.
-'I knew it was weird you always leave when Seungmin does'. He laughs.
-'I'm so sorry Felix'. You laugh.
-'It's fine. We'll play alone next time. So you'll see it doesn’t have to be awkward'.
-'Oh god it'll totally be'.
-'It won't you idiot. We can be in a call alone. We're alone now'.
-As soon as he says that something moves inside of you.
-You look at him in the eyes then look at his lips.
-He smiles and leans a bit over you.
-Your heart racing all of a sudden.
-What is happening??
-He's so fucking close now.
-He's stopped just 2cm away from your lips.
-You're blushing.
-'Can I kiss you?' He asks almost in a whisper.
-You blush even harder. 'W-wha..?'
-'Ok, guys time's up'. The guy controlling the game says as he opens the door startling you a bit.
-Felix closes his eyes and scrunches his nose silently annoyed at the guy's timing.
-'Oh... Okay'. You tell the guy as you stand to walk out.
-Felix follows you to the living room and you both sit down in the circle again.
-Luckily that spinning bottle forgets about you two for the rest of the party.
-You practically pass out when you get home.
-And when you wake up next day you hardly remember anything at first.
-Then you see the texts on your phone.
-'Girl, you better tell me what happened last night with you and Felix as soon as you wake up you hear me??'
-That's one of your friends.
-'What are you talking about?' You text her back.
-'You fell asleep in my car and never told us what happened when you were alone with him'.
-'Yeah, probably nothing happened. I don't remember much anyway'.
-You look at the time in your phone. 'Shit. I'm late, bye'. You text her before running to the shower.
-When you get to the studio only Seungmin is there with a client.
-And your morning client just re-scheduled their appointment when you were on your way to the shop so now you can relax a bit.
-After some minutes a guy appears asking for Felix but he's not around yet.
-'Can you call him?' Seungmin asks you. 'He must have fallen asleep or something'.
-'Oh... Ok...' You take a deep breath before dialing.
-You feel nervous but you can't remember why.
-He asnwers the phone after a while. 'y/n?'
-Wow, that husky sleepy voice.
-Heart beating so fast.
-'Felix, are you okay? There's a client here waiting for you'.
-You hear some noise like stuff falling. 'Fuck'. He says. Sounds like he hit himself.
-'Felix...?'
-'Yeah, sorry I'll be there in a minute'. He says then he hangs up.
-You apologize to the client and ask him to wait for a bit.
-Sooner than later Felix appears in the studio.
-Your heart skips a beat as you see him in the same clothes as last night. He must've slept in them.
-His hair all messy.
-'Hi, sorry'. He apologizes and runs to his client not giving you any time to say hi back.
-You're working on your desings again but this time your eyes drift to Felix more often.
-Feeling your heart beating faster just at the sight of him.
-He's too focused to look back at you though. He really must feel bad for making his client wait for him.
-He has dark circles under his eyes. You wonder how much sleep he actually got.
-You don't talk a lot during the day.
-You both just focus on your work.
-Personally you just want the day to end so you can go back home and get some sleep.
-After your last client Felix finally aproaches you.
-'Hey...' He looks really tired too. 'I know you must be exhausted but this friend is coming home to watch a movie. Would you join us?'
-'Why?' You ask without thinking. 'I mean, aren't you tired too?'
-'Yeah...' He says as he scratches his neck. 'Would you still come though?'
-You feel butterflies as you hear the softer tone in his voice. Triggering some memories from last night.
-Your cheeks getting pink as you remember.
-He almost kissed you while you were in that room.
-'y/n?? It's okay if you'd rather go home and rest'.
-'No, I'll go with you'.
-He smiles so big. 'Nice. I'm ready to go whenever you're ready'.
-Huh.
-What is this?
-This is weird right?
-Like, you're both so tired why are you doing this?
-Why is your body just moving and reacting before you can even think.
-Maybe you're so tired you're on automatic mode now.
-You walk alongside him in silence.
-Ah, he looks nice with the red hair and that beanie.
-He looks at you and smiles as he catches you staring.
-You blush lightly but smile back.
-Ah, his nose so cute with the freckles...
-Wish you could gently bite his nose.
-Or hold him to fight the cold as he sweetely leaves a kiss on the top of your head.
-Huh... That’s weird.
-Why would you think about stuff like that?
-Your heart skipping a beat as you think about it.
-Ahh... So you like Felix now...
-You sigh.
-You blame your friend for getting into your head.
-You were so convinced you wouldn't fall for this guy.
-And it was hard to resist cause he's so sweet.
-But he almost kissed you last night.
-Does he even like you?
-For all you know he'd did it cause of the game and nothing else.
-He's so popular...
-Not that you're not nice and cool but why would he like you instead of just another person?
-You just don't think you'll ever be that lucky to have someone liking you back.
-'Hey, should we grab some snacks for the movie?' He suddenly asks bringing you back from your train of thoughts.
-'Yeah, sure'.
-You go into the next store you see and grab some popcorn etc...
-You leave the store laughing about the reaction of the person working there.
-They got so surprised when they heard Felix's voice.
-It's happened a lot of times before in the tattoo shop but it's always kinda fun.
-Cause after all this time working with him you're used to it but when people see that face and then hear his deep voice they all get surprised.
-And it makes you feel some kind of way.
-Like every time it happens makes you aware again of the fact that his angelic face hides a demonic voice.
-Guess you weren't sure before of what that feeling was but now you know... It kinda turns you on.
-You shake your head trying to think of something else instead.
-When you get at Felix's apartment there's a guy waiting at his door.
-He's tall and very handsome.
-His name is Jaemin.
-Apparently you've played with him and Felix online before but you don't remember him.
-'So cruel. How could you forget me? We've played so many times in the same team!'
-You chuckle. 'I'm sorry I don't really pay much attention to people I don't personally know'.
-'That's mean'. He pouts. 'You remind me of one of my friends. So mean...'.
-'Sorry'. You chuckle again and sit on the couch.
-'Jaemin help me out with the popcorn'. Felix says.
-'Can't you do it alone?'
-'Oh, I'll help you if you want'. You offer.
-'Don't worry y/n just get some rest and if you don't mind you could pick a movie in the meantime'. Felix says.
-They close the kitchen's door but you can still hear them.
-'What?' Jaemin asks.
-'What do you mean what? Just help me with the snacks'.
-'Cause you don't know how your own microwave works?'
-'Just get the cups and the drinks'. Felix laughs.
-Are they dating or something? You ask yourself.
-'What is with you? You don't want to leave me alone with this girl? Do you like her?'
-You wait for Felix's answer but he doesn't say anything.
-'Okay then'. Jaemin says.
-The kitchen's door opens and he appears with some glasses and drinks.
-'How can you carry all that at the same time?' You ask him chuckling.
-'I don't know. Skill?' He smiles at you as he leaves the stuff on the tea table and sits by your side.
-'I see'.
-Felix appears a bit later with the popcorn.
-He takes a quick look at the couch and sits at your other side.
-So yeah you're in the middle of those two.
-You chose a horror movie and Felix is clearly terrified.
-Jaemin is yawning, almost falling asleep.
-You chuckle and poke him lightly. 'Hey! No sleeping'.
-He smiles without taking his eyes off the screen. 'Sorry'.
-Felix clears his throat and sits up a bit.
-'Are you okay?' You ask him.
-'Yeah'. He says rubbing his eyes a little.
-'We could drink so we won't fall asleep' Jaemin suggests.
-'Are you sure that'll work just like that?' You ask.
-'We can try'. He says.
-So yeah now you're drinking as the horror movie finishes.
-You all end up drunk-laughin at the overacting in the movie and the lame CGI.
-Also at some point you started cuddling Felix cause your drunk self fucking wanted to and nobody stopped you.
-Your legs on Jaemin's lap.
-He gives his cup a last sip and looks at the clock. 'Fuck I should go'. He says. 'I had fun though. You're a tattooist too right?' He asks you.
-'Yeah'.
-'I'll go visit you someday to get an appointment. Is that okay?' He asks as he carefully takes your legs off his lap to stand up.
-'Sure'. You say.
-'Great. See you guys then'. He says with a big smile on his face. He stumbles a bit to get out of the house but it's okay.
-'Ah... Guess I should leave too'. You say sitting up a bit.
-'Oh, okay. I'll walk you home'.
-You try and stand up but you're so drunk you just fall right back on the couch. 'Ok. I think I can't go right now'. You chuckle and he laughs too.
-'Yeah, maybe come back here for a bit'. He says.
-You chuckle softly and go back cuddling him.
-His hand stroking your hair as you look at him in the eyes.
-Ah... You really want to kiss him.
-'You're so cute y/n'. He says making your heart flutter. 'Your cheeks are red cause the alcohol. So cute'. He repeats then leans over to leave a peck on your forehead.
-But you hold his face softly so he would stay close then kiss him after a second.
-His hands over yours now.
-A muffled moan leaving his mouth without breaking the kiss.
-And your heart is beating so fast.
-You're kissing Felix.
-Like for real.
-It's not a dream right? Not a drunk dream.
-He's really just there refusing to stop kissing you even for a second as you move to sit astride him.
-He's not sure where to put his hands now and it's kinda funny so you're not telling him where.
-He ends up leaving them there in the air at your waist lenght so you lace your fingers with his.
-It all started kinda passionate but as the alcohol effects fade a bit your kisses get sweeter.
-Till you're so sleepy.
-Your heart beating strongly but calmly as you watch Felix putting on a jacket over his hoodie to walk you home.
-He smiles shyly at your look but doesn't say anything.
-Is he shy after spending the last hour kissing you?
-You chuckle and walk towards him helping him to fix his clothes before leaving.
-'Thanks'. He says and you kiss him again.
-You hold hands all the way to your apartment.
-Just talking nonsense and laughing.
-Still a bit dizzy cause you drank a lot in a short amount of time earlier.
-But it's fine.
-'Do you think Seungmin will nag at us tomorrow for not getting enough sleep again?' He asks as you both stand in front of your door.
-'Yeah, maybe. It's not that late though. Just go straight to bed when you get home'.
-'Well, let's see if I can get any sleep'. He chuckles.
-'Why wouldn't you? The horror movie?'
-He chuckles softly and shakes his head. 'I'll be too nervous thinking about this girl I like'. He says as he takes a lock of hair out of your face.
-You blush at his words. 'Shut up'. You say as you hit him lightly making him laugh again.
-'Yeah, that was kinda cheesy'.
-'Kinda?'
-'Shut up you too'. He says as he leans over to kiss you good bye. 'See you tomorrow'. He says in a soft tone.
-You nod and he pecks your lips one last time. 'Bye'. You say as you walk away.
-He watches you till you get inside then leaves.
-Your heart beating so fast every time you think of him and all that happened tonight.
-You wonder if he really is thinking of you too.
-You lie in bed and raise your arms to see the tattoos Felix personally designed for you some time ago.
-His smile as you both joked around while he was tattooing you back then comes to mind.
-And how he pretended you were hurting him so bad while you tattoed him.
-Those clients waiting got so scared at first till he finally told them he was just joking.
-That you are the best tattooist he knows.
-Your heart flutters as you remember all those moments so clearly.
-Still feels kinda hard to take in what have happened between you two in a matter of days? Hours?
-But maybe Seungmin was right and you've been flirting for the longest time without being aware of it.
-Probably he was. He always notices everything.
-You sigh looking at the ceiling and fall asleep at some point.
-Next day Felix is already at the shop when you arrive.
-'Hey'. He says with a sweet tone.
-'Hi'. You say same way.
-You both look at eachother as you don't really know how to act but as you leave your stuff and walk towards him he moves closer too.
-Seungmin watching you two with a suspicious stare.
-It feels a bit awkward cause none of you are sure if you should kiss but the truth is you two are getting closer and closer.
-You blush as soon as he's in front of you and end up leaving a quick peck on his cheek.
-'What is happening?' Seungmin asks from the other side of the shop still with his suspicious look.
-'N-Nothing'. You say.
-His eyes getting bigger as he looks at Felix's red face. 'Felix? Can you come here for a minute?'
-'I don't really want to...'
-'Come here you idiot'. He says, then waits for Felix to walk there.
-You can't hear what they're saying now but Seungmin is smiling and Felix's still red as ever.
-It feels kinda warm seeing them like that.
-'Huh, you must be happy we open only mornings on Fridays'. He tells you and you chuckle.
-'Ah, shut up'. You say, more relaxed now. You thought Seungmin would mess much more with you but he's a good guy after all.
-Morning practically flies as you work and soon is time to leave.
-Felix approaches you slightly shy. 'Do you want to go out or something... With... Me?' He asks and you chuckle.
-Him being shy makes you feel less shy yourself if that makes sense somehow.
-'Yes, Felix. I want to'. You chuckle again.'Where should we go?'
-'Why are you laughing at me?' He asks as he chuckles too.
-'I don't know. You're cute'.
-He scrunches his nose as if he were mad and you scoff as you smile.
-He's indeed just too cute.
-'I'm gonna kiss you'. You say and he chuckles.
-'Ok'.
-You tip-toe a bit and he leans over to finish with the distance left.
-Seungmin walks by after a minute and hits you with a magazine on your heads. 'Ew, just go home'.
-But you just keep kissing as you show Seungmin the middle finger.
-He chuckles and keeps on cleaning his equipment.
-Felix holds your hand as you walk down the street.
-It's so cold outside but it's alright.
-You just walk for a while till you find a food stall you like.
-Felix stands behind you as you order.
-His chin resting on the top of your head and his arms hanging on your shoulders.
-You turn around after ordering and hug him getting inside his coat.
-'So cold'. You say as he just wraps his arms around you.
-He chuckles and kisses you on your forehead. 'We can go home after getting the food if you want'.
-You happily nod and he smiles.
-'Hey, guys?' A male voice says making you two turn a bit to see him. It's Jaemin. 'I fucking knew you liked her dude'. He says as he laughs.
-Felix chuckles too. 'Well, yeah. It was pretty obvious'.
-'Was it??' You ask and they laugh.
-'Yeah babe, it kinda was'. Felix says and you blush.
-'Oh wow, babe huh?' Jaemin says. 'It seems like you guys are doing good'. He chuckles a bit. 'Anyway I gotta go. Glad to see you two and I’ll see you again soon for my tattoo'. He says as he winks at you.
-You nod still blushing and then the guy from the stall calls you to you pick up your food.
-'I got it'. Felix says.
-He hands you your food carefully and you start walking.
-There's not so much talk in your way to his apartment cause you're both just focusing on eating.
-But it feels so nice. It's not awkward at all.
-You grab some ice cream just before getting to his apartment.
-'You were freezing a minute ago'. He chuckles.
-'Yeah but it's not going to be cold inside your apartment so...'
-He chuckles again. 'I see. Will you give me some?'
-'We'll see'. You say and he scoffs.
-'Really?'
-You get under the blanket as soon as you're inside his apartment.
-He sits right next to you and you offer him to get under the blanket too.
-'Should we watch a movie or something?' He asks as you unwrap your ice cream
-'Sure!'
-'Let me guess. A horror one'.
-'Yes pleaasee'.
-'Fine but I'll bother you eternally if I'm scared for life after this'.
-'Just close your eyes when the jump-scare is coming'. You chuckle.
-'I'll just keep my eyes closed then'.
-'We can watch other stuff too, idiot'. You lighly poke him with your ice cream leaving some cream on his nose.
-He scrunches his nose once and waits for you to take the cream off it but you just smile.
-'C'mon'. He chuckles.
-But you only get more cream on him.
-His lips, part of his jaw all covered.
-You're smiling as he looks at you biting his lips trying not to curse.
-'What are you gonna do now, huh?' You ask as you lick the ice cream running down your hand.
-He holds your hand and bites the ice cream. Eating almost all of it.
-'Nooo' You pout as a satisfyed smile is drawn on his face. ‘My ice cream’. You pout again.
-'You deserve it. Maybe you should clean this mess you made now'. He says as he leans back on the couch.
-His deep voice making you shiver with excitement.
-You slowly climb onto his lap sitting astride him.
-He just watches you in silence as you lean over him.
-You look at his eyes for a moment and he nods.
-Then you start licking the ice cream off his jaw stopping right before getting to his lips.
-Your faces so close still.
-He naughtily smiles and kisses you.
-His hands on your waist as he pulls you closer.
-Is no long before you can feel him getting hard beneath you.
-And it's just in the right place.
-You stop to look at him. A hand in the neck of his hoodie, the other one combing his hair back lightly.
-His hands on your butt now as you slowly rock your hips.
-He chuckles softly. 'Are you shy?' He asks as he caresses your burning red cheek.
-You turn your face trying to bite his thumb and he chuckles again.
-'Cute'.
-You lean over him to kiss just to make him stop laughing.
-But then you go down his neck, leaving some kisses and love bites over there.
-His hand climbing up under your clothes to your boobs.
-You moan softly in his ear as he squeezes them.
-The sound of your voice making him harder.
-The intensity of your movements increasing.
-He takes off your top then kisses you.
-You hug him lightly. His head at your boobs lenght.
-You pull him closer and he kisses your chest then bites softly on your tits.
-You bite your lips as you feel your orgasm building just with the friction. Letting out a muffled moan.
-Felix grunts softly as he releases. His hands grasping at your butt. His head still buried between your boobs.
-And you just let go.
-A bunch of cute moans scaping your mouth as you come.
-You hold Felix's face between your hands softly and kiss him for a while.
-'You still owe me an ice cream though'. You say.
-And he just smiles as he lies you down to start all over again.
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