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Some time ago I read a phrase right at the end of a tumblr post,

"Autisim is a disability, sometimes it disables me."

And I can't stop thinking about it since. There's some things I will never do, because I'm autistic and my brain's not wired that way.

You know that announcement that goes "you assume I won't *random thing*, so I don't *random thing*"?

Well, I agree with it... partially? I guess? Because some times, there's things that are just out of reach, and if you're all the time assuming that I can do it, then my brain gets exhausted trying to.

I feel bad when I can't. I think I'm useless, stupid, worthless. Because you think I can so I should... right? I don't know how to tell you that I just... Can't. I feel the way disappointing you pushes me, and pushes me, right over the edge.

There has to be a carefully drawn line in between aiming high and push yourself until it hurts.

Sometimes I can't. Not now, I'm sorry. Maybe in the future I'll try again.

Autisim is a disability, sometimes it disables me.

#btw if someone knows who the original phrase is from tell me so I can tag them #autistic experiences #autisim #autism #actually autistic #autistic adult #autistic things #autistic #disabilties #dissabled #invisible disability #disability #disabled #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #neurodiversity #neurospicy #adhd experience #adhd problems #adhd #adhd brain #actually adhd #adhd things #accessibility #accomodation

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M A E V E

I miss writing her.

fic Underground Affluence on AO3

#spencer reid fanfiction #my fic #fic on ao3 #spencer reid criminal minds #spencer reid cm #spencer reid fandom #spencer reid #spencer reid fic #criminal minds fanfiction #criminal minds fic #criminal minds #maeve donovan #fic writing #fic rec #fanfic writing #fanfiction writer #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 link #ao3

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Maeve: I think I'm in love with Spencer.

Bella:

Maeve: Any thoughts?

Bella: And prayers. You're gonna need them.

fic: Underground Affluence on AO3

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yes, i cry every time. someone had the nerves to say "sorry if im annoying you with my long comments"

how DARE you, i LOVE your long comments. Is what i breathe. my oxygen, my food supply.

don't stop or I'll die

yeah sex is cool I guess

but have you ever had someone leave a comment with a paragraph-long review of your fanfic containing genuine praise, thorough criticism, and an in-depth analysis of all the lore hints you dropped that you spent ages intricately crafting

#my fic #writing #fanfic writing #criminal minds fanfiction #spencer reid fanfiction

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actual footage of Lucas and Spencer fighting

fic: Underground Affluence on ao3

#credits to the instagram page who posted this #criminal minds fic #criminal minds #spencer reid fanfiction #fanfiction #fanfic #spencer reid criminal minds #spencer reid cm #spencer reid fandom #spencer reid #spencer reid fic #fanfiction writer #fic on ao3 #fanfic on ao3 #ao3 fanfic #ao3 link #ao3 #ao3 writer #my fic #criminal minds fanfiction #Instagram

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the tw of my last chap are killing me, i didn't even remember

#ao3 #fic on ao3 #fic writing #my fic #fanfiction #fanfic #spencer reid fanfiction #fanfiction writer #fanfic on ao3 #ao3 fanfic #ao3 funny #ao3 writer #ao3 memes #funny ao3 tags #funny ao3 notes #author notes #criminal minds fic

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Hinny hc <3

Ginny's love language is physical contact.

And Harry is "touch me and you lose a finger"

They create this balanced chaotic duo that almost never looks like they're meant to be together. But that's their thing, they're not together because destiny wanted it that way, that would be too easy, meritless. They're together because, despite every single bit of the universe wanting them apart, they still chose each other. Every time they chose to come back.

Harry lets Ginny hug him and kiss him and hold him tightly. He lets her run her fingers through his hair and hold his hand, and cuddle while sleeping. But no one else. Not even Ron and Hermione, not as freely as Ginny. She's the only one who gets a free pass.

Ginny still learned to ask, and to stop. To never assume. To recognize when someone's outside voice says yes when their inside means no. She stops sometimes even if Harry tells her he's okay, she recognizes it even before he does.

They're together because they have mastered making the other feel comfortable.

#harry potter #headcanon #harry potter headcanon #hp headcanon #ginny weasley #harry and ginny #harry ginny #ginevra weasley #harry x ginny #ginny x harry #ginny potter #harry potter fandom #harry potter books #hinny headcanon #hinny fluff #fandom ships #fandom

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Spencer will never love Sky the way Sky loves Spencer.

Fic: Underground Affluence on AO3

#spencer reid cm #sweater weather #i made a mistake in the lyrics maybe ill fix it later #spencer reid fanfiction #fanfiction #fic on ao3 #ao3 link #spencer reid fandom #spencer reid criminal minds #spencer reid #criminal minds #criminal minds fic #my fic #fic writing #fic rec #fanfic #ao3

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first day of college,

...

*screams into a pillow*

#college #universidad #student #engineering #studyblr #college student #college studyblr #college stuff #shitpost #humor #humour #meme #funny stuff #funny #funny shit #funny post

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something i do is that if the chapter has multiple chapters the word count has to be AT LEAST a thousand per chapter.

like if the story has 13 chapters the word count has to be 13k or more, because I don't like such short chapters, and 1k is already too short in my opinion, but if it's shorter it's a deal breaker for me

Another AO3 thing I’m curious about, how do yall decide if something is good enough to read? Usually I follow a rule of 1 kudos for every 10 hits. One because it’s easy math and two it’s yet to fail me. Thoughts? Do you just go for it and pray it’s good?

#fanfic #ao3 #archive of our own #fanfiction

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i honestly don't know

How can anyone be normal about Dionysos. HOW

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this is me rn I'm not even joking

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writing promt

The hero and the villain are finding out they were in the same side all along.

Villain: I was wondering... if maybe we could be more than friends.

Hero: [exited] Like allies?!

Villain:

Villain: Exactly.

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spencer reid has me screaming crying throwing up cause how tf are you so cute? you don't get it I NEED HIM

#spencer reid criminal minds #spencer reid #spencer reid fandom #spencer reid cm #spencer reid fanfiction #criminal minds

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In the end it's just you and the fear of being average.

#burnout #burnt out #prodigal son #burnt out gifted kid #gifted #gifted kid burnout #gifted kid shit #quotes #personal shit #genius #gifted kid syndrome #gifted kid problems #giftedness #average #fear of being average #writers #writing #autistic burnout

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update she ghosted me

I'm realizing I might actually like my therapist. as soon as i get my mental stability back it's over for u bitches

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i support this entirely

Oc’s vs adopted

petition to call characters that aren’t originally yours but you wrote with them anyway adopted characters

#my fic #fanfiction #fanfic