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tamlins-stories-and-poems · 1 year

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When I first read Fahrenheit 451, I remember thinking “people actually memorized entire novel length books?”

But here’s the thing.

Sometimes, it happens. Sometimes, it’s necessary.

You know what happens when a government regime doesn’t like the message of a book? They ban it, they burn it, they stop it from reaching their people. Especially religious books.

I’m a Bahá’í, I was lucky enough to be born in the United States, and to be White. However, the motherland of my faith is… less than accepting, shall we say, of my fellows still within her borders. There was a push to get as many of our people out as possible before it became impossible for a while, and even today, people are still describing it as “escaping” their homeland when they leave. A friend of mine, who was in high school when the current regime took over, back when he still lived there, memorized one of our holy books in the original language, because there was serious question as to whether the books would be allowed to continue existing. He memorized that book with a few friends, while his other friends memorized some of the others—we have a lot—and he still has it memorized, now this his sons are older than he was then. He could recite the whole thing.

I believe this has happened before. I hope it will not be needed again, but I fear it will be.

Sometimes, the quiet resistance of memorization is what someone can manage. Sometimes we can do more, or other things, but memorizing completely banned books, saving them in our minds so we can share them again once others have forgotten, that is invaluable.

And it is impressive.

Fahrenheit 451 was a warning, based on things Bradbury could see as potentially happening, and based on things that had happened.

I don’t think we can afford to roll our eyes and ignore it.

#tamlin speaks #idk I just saw the cover of F451° again and brain went Ping #I am sad and tired and angry #it’s been 40 years #I want my friends to be able to visit their families again #Bahá’ís in the holy land aren’t even allowed to bury their dead in Baha’i owned cemeteries anymore #my friends’ families aren’t allowed funerary rights just mass graves

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fisheito · 2 months

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collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

#I AM SO SORRY I DREW YAKUMO AGAIN ADFSJEIADKS LOOK OK so xenole gives me the tiny crying yakumo.#says DO WHATEVER YOU WANT and THUS i get to thinking #my immediate thought was #i'm going to make oli breast boobily while comforting him #bc i was determined to draw xenole's fave this time. i swore it to myself. i WILL stop being so self indulgent #but the chibi on chibi comforting scene didn't sit right with me. it was too straightforward. not something i would draw normally #it was hhhh as u say.... not on brand.? it did not inspire me. idea benched....#so days pass and i'm still pondering ideas on what to do to the sad spaghetti.#configurations of clan members danced in my head. some defending yaku. some comforting. some bullying #the ideas usually involved at least oli or kuya bc once again. xenole bias #then while i'm in the shower i got frustrated with my lack of ideas and thought #i'll jujst eat.him. just. chew on him. i'm tired of him #AND THE IMAGE OF KUYA EATING YAKUMO FOR BREAKFAST POPPED INTO MY MIND #originally it was going to be kuya eating yakuflakes and oli giving him serious side eye but then the brain went #WHAT IF IT'S YAKUMO WATCHING KUYA EAT YAKUMO. THAT IS FUNNY. IT MUMST HAPPEEN #BUT I REFUSED at first. i was angry at myself. this is not a competition to see how you can STILL sHOVE YAKUMO into a drawing.#plus the composition would shrink xenole's chibi down! i would take over so much space by comparison! THE DISRESPECT! TO THE COLLAB PROCESS #but once i get fixated on smth...well. i ended up doing the idea and just praying xenole wouldnt eviscerate me for it #i'm sorry my liege. my grip on the reins was weak. the goofy clown horses went stampeding #so idk now it's the two of em having a peaceful breakfast in kuya's cabin but only kuya is at peace and yakumo's this close to a breakdown #i feel like there should be something in the space between them. a speech bubble or something . something mean is being said #yakuya #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival kuya

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ecoamerica · 1 month

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broomsticks · 1 year

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there are so many of us in this industry who have been scratching at the walls saying shit like this, about how so much data is a self fulfilling prophecy, about how things are stacked against media featuring marginalized identities. this is the prime example

#aloto #a league of their own #renew aloto #more than four #today i am sad and angry and tired #and tired of being sad and angry and tired

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trans4trans · 2 months

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all this talk from tmes about making it easier for trans women and loving trans women and stuff but the moment a trans woman steps out of line in some way after being harassed for ages everyone drops the act and makes her the villain. idc if she has a kink you don’t like idc if she told people to kill themselves idc what the fuck she did. you cannot post about making it easier for trans women and the next day make it harder for them by engaging in a harassment campaign against one. the amount of trans women that have been harassed off this site is sickening and its heartbreaking to think about the toll its taken on these women to be facing constant harassment in both real life and online spaces. we should all be seriously ashamed of ourselves for not sticking up for them more

#transmisogyny #idk. i am fucking tired i am sick and sad and angry thinking about how my wife got death threats from you people #horrified hearing about the harassment that continues to follow predstrogen on cohost #and still pissed about those strawman arguments from tmes a few weeks ago in response to a trans woman being pedojacketed #sui #rbs turned off because a transmisogynist tme freak whos been stalking a transfem for 5+ years and deadnaming her and harassing her rbed #and its been stalking me recently as well

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orcelito · 8 months

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I think smth that gets me about the way a lot of the fandom woobifies Vash is that like... so many of them erase his anger? They make him a soft and sweet doormat who never gets angry Ever, and that's just objectively not true, EVEN IF we're just talking about tristamp Vash. He's definitely softer spoken in tristamp than the other versions, but we still see him get angry!! We see him Yell!!! And these people ignore that!

Then when you consider 98 Vash and ESPECIALLY trimax Vash. Bro is genuinely furious like Any time he is dealing with #Situations. He gets angry. He yells. And he's genuinely tempted to kill people in anger (as we see with Monev).

It's just plain mischaracterization when people make him so soft and sweet and Never Angry. And we all know exactly why people characterize him like this.

#speculation nation #it's bc so many ppl r just not normal about trans people lol #like man i love the widespread trans vash headcanons but Man the weird characterizations it often brings...#it is. vexing. my perpetual curse. i will always be annoyed by it.#sometimes i think about when i started writing 3gun fic w stampede vash and i had him Angry in even the first chapter #and i was so anxious about it being mischaracterization bc so many people write him so soft #then i looked back at canon and i was like. '.... no this IS in character. he WOULD be angry. what are YOU guys doing?'#and now with my manga fic i am just continuously writing him angry bc he IS. he is SO angry.#and so tired and so sad etc etc like theres more to it and all but like #you cant take the anger out of vash. it's an important part of who he is.#that 100% justified anger at his life and circumstances and Everything #he is not a doormat. stop writing him like one. im begging you.

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b1mbodoll · 6 months

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repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn)#like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞#like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!!#ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!!#im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!!#i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist)#no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :(#i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

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ecoamerica · 2 months

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the-kipsabian · 1 month

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watching old stuff (like, beginning of aew) and this is kips first match of tv/dynamite. the fact that he can hang with the fucking elite says so much of the level of talent he actually has

the crowd is chanting "this is awesome" while hes in the ring, having winning offense against matt jackson

hes being put on notice here. he makes people take a double take. he doing well in a tag match against the elite. he had a banger before with hangman. he won the first ever singles match in aew history

so fucking by god tell me why is kip sabian still overlook, under rated as all hell and not given opportunities to prove himself when back FOUR YEARS AGO he was this fucking good and now hes even better

#fuck it im tagging it im tired im angry fucking hell #kip sabian #IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF THIS CONVERSATION GOD GET TK ON THE PHONE I WILL YELL AT HIM #like. what fucking gives. what the fuck #i get it he got dealt with few bad cards (jh. miro. injury with long recovery. personal stuff) but still #they completely fucking halted his progress after his initial return. discarded a character with HUGE potential #after he lost to oc all of it went to hell and down the drain and now they just arent using him #do you understand what this does to a fan. like do you get it at all #do you know how fucking irrationally upset and scared i am that aew will just not only cut him from programming but also let him go #because they dont think hes a draw. cause they arent giving him a chance. not even a single one. maybe once in a blue moon #but its not enough. they dont understand what they are missing. and its making me sad and upset and angry #when hes tried so fucking hard and worked so fucking hard and always been so fucking good but they dont see it #god sorry this match got to me but i fucking mean every fucking word god #box thoughts

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feehippielove · 1 year

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I can't seem to understand how so many people want to be loved by someone with no malicious intentions and no hidden agenda. So many people want someone that's patient, understanding, thoughtful, and someone that values them, respects them, listens to them, and truly honors the human being that they are - flaws and all.

But it seems like each time I give that to someone (platonically or romantically): they either take advantage of me or feel very comfortable disrespecting me. It hurts me to have to block people out of my life because they treated me badly when I did nothing to earn this treatment.

Don't be my friend because you want to sleep with me. Don't be my friend because you want to be in a relationship with me. Don't be my friend with alternative motives of your own. Don't be my friend to use me to fill a void within yourself that is your responsibility to fill. Don't be my friend if you are going to hold a one-sided friendship that only works in your time frame. Don't be my friend if you can't prioritize me in your life in one way or another. Don't be my friend if I'm disposable to you. Don't be my friend for any selfish reason - be my friend because you want me to be a part of your life.

Be my friend because you enjoy my conversation. Be my friend because you enjoy my energy. Be my friend because we make each other happy. Be my friend because we hold space for each other and have fun together. Be my friend for all the simple reasons that children are friends - We can share clothes, and secrets and smoke all night while watching stupid movies. Genuinely, innocently and honestly be my friend, or leave me the fuck alone.

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ilikeurfaceeee · 1 month

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I always thought I wouldn’t make it past 16 and now I’m 23 trying to make it through the day.

The feeling of being a problem, a disappointment a burden and extremely unwanted.

The cycle never ends every thought I had back then still goes through my head when will it end?

Can I continue

Should I keep trying or give up and except that this life isn’t worth living anymore

I’ve made it this far but can I do it much longer

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dontsearchformyaccount · 2 months

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When my mum asks whats wrong , as if she would actually care. (Shes the problem , i can't tell her )

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jennycalendar · 2 months

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sadgirl posting again i just … feel like maybe worse than being in an endless cycle of terrormisery is not being in it. maybe that is why this sucks so much. i keep saying i am nervous about going back to my mom at some point and forgetting how much she sucks and letting things get bad again, but i think maybe what is scary is that i spent a whole summer with her and realized her a hollow nothing person. i just felt annoyed and sad and like i was humoring her. we were walking around in the shell of something, and when i was little, that much, with her, would be almost more than i felt i deserved. now i just think about the rich gorgeous tapestry of love friends have made for me and put it next to her sad little thread that she borrowed from someone else and feel sick forever

#venting tag #ig!!#i think i am acknowledging it as a thing that happened but less manic or smth?#idk if it’s just bc i am tired today bc when rested i end up anxious and viscerally angry #sort of hoping that the sadness is progress. ever hopeful even when sad

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landfilloftrash · 1 year

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the general consensus I feel like.

#Star Trek #Star Trek PIC #Star Madness (across the universe)#Q Star Trek #sorry I’ve been Extremely mentally ill about him for the past few days and got angry/sad about the way they treated him in S2 #*more than usual anyways #no explanation or assurance of what was happening to him or even plain old concern #or if the Q continuum itself was sick and he was the last one standing “I am dying alone’’#just. nothing.#all these references in s3 and yet.#don’t get me wrong I love character death it is right up my angst goblin alley but.. explanations. they all have explanations.#and unless S3 episode 9 (Vox) or the 10th episode (somewhere I saw it called ‘The Last Generation’ and girl please *tired and sad*) does #ANYTHING regarding that i don’t think we’ll get one #and I got really achy in my chest about it (so much so I got my stress heart palpitations so I had to lie down) so have a lighthearted meme #sorry #rea rambles in the tags #shut up rea #rea’s trash

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rollercoasterwords · 1 year

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gonna start messaging fic writers on tumblr the way fluff-enjoyers do but as an angst-enjoyer. "will the characters be sad next chapter?? 🥺" "please let them suffer i just want to see them experiencing horrors beyond imagining 🥺 🥺" "why are you making them so happy can't you let them endure the exquisite and terrible depths of human sorrow for once??? 🥺 🥺 🥺"

#perhaps there is a more nuanced conversation to be had here but for now i am tired #please remember that us poor angst-enjoyers need to eat too #maybe i want the characters to be sad and angry and horrible for a while did u ever think about that....#what about Me The Most Important Person #anyway going 2 bed goodnight!!#txt

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rpdepartment · 2 years

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i am fine

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i'm ｎｏｔ fine.

𝚒'𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚎!

#[text: i am totally fine/not/i'm not fine]#source: Encanto #musing #rp musing #rp musings #sad #angst #tired #angry #anger