#i'm avoiding my assignments thats why

[hannieehaee]

18+ / mdi

content: chan's a fucking loser (not rlly he just rlly likes u <33), smut, f reader, handjob, sub!chan

wc: 884

part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4

masterlist

loser!chan whose eyes indiscreetly stick to you whenever you're in the same room. the halls, the cafeteria, gym, your shared chemistry class. you name it. all his friends (and yours) notice his hopeless stares while you do mundane tasks around school, except you.

or that's what everyone thinks

what he doesnt know, however, is how your eyes are looking back at him whenever he takes a quick break to look away in the name 'subtlety.' this endless cycle finally comes to an end when fate (your chemistry teacher) manages to put you in the same room alone with him.

"hey .. are you okay?", you ask after a good ten minutes of fruitless one-sided conversation as beet-red chan avoids eye contact while sitting on your bed.

due to an act by the gods above, you and chan ended up in the same group for a chemistry assignment. 'group' putting it lightly as its just you and chan alone in your room attempting to work out the assignment together.

getting him here was a miracle in itself, seeing as he would not make eye contact as you tried to come up with possible meeting times that worked for the both of you (surprise, he had an open schedule to meet whenever you desired)

after spluttering for a few seconds, chan comes to his senses and finally makes contact with your gaze when he replies to your question.

"me? oh! i- yes, sorry, just trying to work out the assignment," he responds, looking away immediately after.

"chan," you call out again, "look at me."

he powers through the effort that it takes to keep his eyes on yours for more than a few seconds, "y-yes?"

seeing his anxiety-ridden responses and lack of confidence when speaking the shortest of statements to you does something to your confidence, emboldening you to scoot closer to him and begin creeping your hand towards him.

"channie .. can i call you that? channie?", you put on your sweetest voice to ask.

"m-me? oh. yes. call me whatever you want," he somehow manages to splutter even more, his skin heating up at the unexpected pet name.

your hand creeps further towards his thigh as your body leans towards him even more.

his semi-crossed legs seem to naturally unwind themselves at the proximity of your hand, eager for whatever his years-long crush seems to have in mind for him.

"is it okay if i touch you channie?", you question, hand now in his upper thigh, gracing back and forth lightly.

"o-oh," he breathes, "are you sure? i- ive never-"

"its okay, channie," you interrupt, "just say the word and i'll stop. but i think it could be good for your nerves? dont you think?", you reason, scooting up enough for your chest to grace against his shoulder.

"y-yeah .. maybe ..." he breathes out as he closes his eyes when your hand finally makes contact with the spot in his pants thats been burning since you first welcomed him into your bed, originally sitting across from him in the tiniest shorts known to man (at least according to chan).

you place your empty hand on his warm cheek, directing his eyes towards you, "channie~ why wont you look at me?", you pout, "you stare at me all day but when i have you in my bed you wont look my way? thats so mean ..." you trail off, sticking your hand in his pants, feeling around before you finally wrap your hand around his aching length.

"ah ..." he moans. "you saw that? i'm sorry, youre just so- oh-" he cuts himself off as you speed up the pace of your touches, enjoying the way in which his head falls to your shoulder, one of his hands reaching to hold onto your arm in a fruitless attempt to try and keep a hold of his composure.

"shh, it's okay baby, i understand. feels too good to even look at me, doesnt it?", you interrupt in a mocking tone.

"i think- oh, i think i'm gonna cum. god, please ..." he lets out as he continuously lets out warm puffs of air into your neck as he nears his end far too soon.

"already?", you giggle. "oh, channie, you must be so deprived, you poor thing," you grin at him as you direct his face towards yours with your free hand.

"please .. please'" he breathes against your mouth, close enough to kiss but not enough. "please just let me. i'll do anything. anything."

you drip at his unwarranted (but very much appreciated) begging, almost feeling bad at the sudden desire to deny him just to extend the experience even longer, but his heavy breathing against your mouth and the wetness of his dick on your hand begin to make you delirious, licking into his open mouth as you give him the greenlight to cum.

"thank you. fuck, t-thank you," he continues to breathe as you shove your tongue into his mouth while he reaches his peak, attempting to catch your tongue in his.

finally, you peck his lips as he recovers from his high. grinning at his useless attempts to kiss back while he catches his breath.

"feeling less nervous now?", you giggle after a while of staring at his boneless form as he tries to process what just happened

a/n: this is my first time writing smut ever so any feedback is appreciated c: thank u for reading hehe (this was not proofread btw 😭)

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[blingblong55]

Would that I-141 & König

Based on a request:

Heeeeeyyyyyy bestay ✨✨ you wouldn't mind doing 141 + könig reaction of reader running around and giving everyone kisses? Like, our of the blue they kiss ghost on the cheek, then soap, and so on? Maybe it could end in all the boys giving back the same treatment?

GN!Reader, platonic! relationship

Reader is the sunshine of base. They always go around giving hugs and spreading their contagious happiness. This time it was no different. You went around spreading your love for them in small physical contact or for some by full blown hugging them. Today you felt like giving more love, so you went around kissing their cheek.

Price:

He was, as usual, in his office. He had been working non stop for the next mission. You walked in, as always, with a bright smile.

'Hi kiddo.' he smiled and let another smoke ring out.

As you sat on a chair close to his, the same one he specifically assigned as yours by his own arm chair, you leaned in and kisses his cheek.

He was taken by surprise for sure. But it was nice, he wasn't much on the affection lover side of the spectrum, but your sweet touches always reminded him there were people that cared for him.

"whats that for?''

"just because."

"hm...okay..."

He acted as if he had no effect by it, but inside he was melting.

'keep doing it every now and then okay?' 'okay.' you reply

Gaz:

He was in common room when you walked in. By far he was the most calmest of all the men. He was on his phone, not minding you as you walked in.

'Hi Gaz!' you smile as you take a seat next to him. 'Hi Grim.' he responds.

'Whatcha doing?'

'scrolling through my phone, why?'

You smile and leaned in to kiss his cheek. Usually when every he just tried to answer the questions instead of avoiding them, that was a sign he was in fact not doing okay.

His eyes widen as he feels your sweet soft lips on his skin.

'what's that for?'

'you deserve to remember that although things are not okay, they'll be....eventually.'

He wrapped his arms around your waist and for hours you two talked.

Soap:

He was sitting by some dusty army truck. Was smoking and looking at the field in front of him. He heard you approaching and a sly smile came up on his lips. 'If it isn't my Grim.'

You walk to him and hug him. He and you always shared your appreciation for the other wit physical contact. Whether it was holding hands and caressing knuckles, side hugs, hair combing, and hugs. He was your go to for this kind of affection.

'the one and only.' you smile.

He was always the one who kissed your cheek, never you to him. You just didn't want to lead him on if he even felt something towards ya. 'yer smell great lad/lass.'' his lips touching your soft cheek.

'you...smell.' you chuckle and he playfully pushes you.

You eventually do it, you kiss his cheek.You smile and he slightly blushes.

'What was that for? not that I'm complaining.' He smiles. You shrug

'Just wanted to.' If only you knew how fast his heart was beating. It was for sure a dream come true for him.

König:

He was sitting under some tree, trying to just get enough energy to see everyone again. You made way to him, only you knew he was here. Because this was his comfort spot. When he was here, he would take his hood off and just rest.

'hi.' you sat by him and rested your head on his shoulder. 'Hallo.' he smiles.

You noticed today he was more quiet, usually he would be ranting on his everyone just starred at him and how by the look in their eyes, they were probably judging his leadership skills. But today, all he did was say hi and smile.

So, without much thinking you kiss his cheek.

He immediately flushed. He was speechless for quite some time but a smile was on his kind lips.

His eyes boring into yours. His usual rough demeanor now softened.

'You kissed my cheek, but why?' his hand on placed softly on the spot you kissed. 'You deserve more than just my hugs or cuddles. Thats why.'

'Kann ich nach einem anderen fragen? Bitte?' He kindly asks and you comply

Ghost:

You were spotting for him when he suddenly stopped lifting the weights. 'whats the matter.'

Unbeknownst to you, the way you were smiling at him reminded him of his brother and mother. He just sat up on the bench and looked at the floor.

You hugged him from behind and thats when you did it, you kissed his cheek.

As you rubbed his back, he turned to you. 'Whats that about?'

He was the one who was still a work in progress to accept your affection for him in physical contact. But, unbeknown to you, he secretly cherished every soft and delicate touch.

'I think you just needed it.'

'Do it again.'

'okay.' and you kissed his cheek once more. He chuckles and looks away. 'You do that around others and I might have to make Gaz my spotter, just do it in private okay?'

You smile and nod.

Tags: @g4y-gr3ml1n

A/n: I am listening to Hozier as I write this and since I have no other name as a title...well..the song title had to do. Bye! <3

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[mustainegf]

Can you write something about james and the reader being both in Metallica and go on tour and they get put in the same room and it only has one bed and you know the rest 😉😉😉😉

I ADDED SOME FLUFFY BUILDUP I HOPE THATS OKAY!!!

Stepping into the dimly lit hotel room, the hum of the city outside faded into the background, replaced by the soft glow of bedside lamps.

My heart pounded in my chest, not from the day's workload or the technical challenges I'd faced as the band's sound director, but from the unexpected situation I found myself in.

Due to a mix-up with the room assignments, I was sharing this intimate space with James, the band's charismatic lead singer and rhythm guitarist.

I had always admired James from afar, not just for his undeniable talent that captivated audiences night after night, but also for the genuine kindness and humility he displayed offstage.

There was something about his voice, his presence, that had always drawn me in, stirring feelings I had often dismissed as mere infatuation. But now, faced with the reality of being forced to share a bed with him, those feelings resurfaced with a newfound intensity.

As I unpacked my belongings, trying to maintain a sense of normalcy amidst the unexpected situation, I couldn't help but wonder how this would change our dynamic.

Would the close quarters bring us closer together, or would it highlight the professional boundaries that had always defined our relationship? I found myself torn between the excitement of being in such close proximity to someone I had admired for so long and the apprehension of navigating the complexities of our newfound living arrangement.

I heard the door open, following with a gentle shut. "Hey," James greeted me, a tinge of awkwardness settling in the air.

"Um. hey." I tried to remain composed, but I could feel the heat creeping up my neck as I avoided eye contact, struggling to find the right words.

I nodded, trying not to let my cheeks go red. I was already wearing the clothes I planned to sleep in; baggy sweats and a tight lacy tank top which seemed to draw in his attention.

I slipped into bed, the thin cool blanket tickling my skin. I could almost feel James' eyes on my figure.

James cleared his throat and I could hear him shuffling around, probably getting himself ready to sleep.

He then laid down next to me. I felt the mattress dip, and so did my heart, feeling his warmth radiate to my skin. We were both silent for what felt like an eternity, neither one of us making the slightest movement.

I was so cold in my tank, shivering slightly. I was too nervous to get up.

"You okay?" He asked. My stomach dipped at the sound of his low voice. I nodded. "Yeah, I'm fine.

Just cold."

James cleared his throat again as I shifted to face him, closing my eyes so he didn't think I was watching him.

I don't know why I was so paranoid. It wasn't like we hadn't been friends for years. Sure, there was a little bit of attraction between us, but I was a grown woman who knew how to keep her cool. Me and James had maybe had under 10 conversations with each other— that weren't work related.

And that was because I was always too busy watching him sing on stage or avoiding eye contact in the hallway. The only thing we really talked about was the occasional show or gig we went to.

"Come here then, you know. if you're cold," James oftered, sounding hesitant. My eyes shot open in confusion, taking in the sight of James lying shirtless next to me. His body was highlighted by the dim blue moonlight, his eyes dark pools of understanding waters.

My heart skipped a beat. I never thought I'd ever be in bed with James, much less in this position. I never thought I'd ever be in bed with anyone, period. "I don't bite," James laughed softly, pulling his arm around me and urging me to nudge closer.

I scoffed, feeling defeated. And so, with a racing heart, I allowed for his arm to fully wrap my body and pull me to his warm side. I nervously let my head rest on his shoulder, my hand resting dormant on his chest.

With each passing moment, the silence grew heavier until the familiar sound of his heartbeat became the background music to my thoughts.

How strange, to lie here in bed with him after all these years.

"Your heart is going kinda fast," James whispered, his words hanging in the air above me.

I wasn't too sure what to say, I knew he was right.

"It's nothing," I mumbled, kicking myself for even saying anything, it sounded stupid. He chuckled softly.

"Is it me?" James asked slowly, running his hand down my back.

"No, no, I just." I trailed off, still unsure of how to articulate myself without sounding like an idiot.

I sat up, propping myself up on my elbow so I could peer down at him. The precious look on his face was a mix of care and vulnerability, complete trust. Somehow.

I felt his eyes on me, studying my every feature. I let out a deep breath.

James curled his fingers to fold my hair behind my ear, those perfect eyes of his still analyzing me.

I couldn't control what I was doing, I was being fueled purely by passion. I Leaned down softly, letting my lips rest over his for a second or two before pulling away. The kiss was gentle, soft, something so full of love.

I was so intoxicated, my heart was racing, and my body was on fire. I wanted more, but I was afraid to ask. I was afraid to want more.

We stared at each other as we took in what had just happened.

"Are you sure?" He eventually whispered out, his voice was all I needed to hear for my heart to calm.

"Yes." I answered. "I am."

I found myself smiling for the first time in a long time. "Then kiss me again," James said, his voice soft and commanding. I did. This time, it was longer, wetter, and I was lost in his kiss.

All I could taste was him, and feel was his touch.

When we finally broke apart, his hands cupped my face as he peered at me with need. "I've waited so long for this." He admitted quietly.

"So have I," I smiled, my hand sticking resting on his chest.

"C'mere.." he barked quietly, pulling my waist up to sit over his hips.

My lips devoured his in another kiss, his hands roaming over my frame.

He must've been needy, desperate even, because he was already clawing at my tank, pulling it off of me.

"Lift your arms," he ordered, and I did, not thinking twice about it. His eyes widened when he saw my breasts, and he made a low growl.

I giggled slightly, surprised that he would react like that. It hadn't occurred to me that he'd be seeing them for the very first time. Or ever.

"Jesus Christ.." he groaned, his mouth darting to the sensitive flesh.

The feeling took me by surprise, moaning at the feeling of his tongue grazing my nipple.

He was attentive and passionate. He knew what he was doing. I couldn't stop moaning, and he ate it all up. I was so intoxicated with his touch, his attention.

It was the most amazing feeling I've ever felt. After a few minutes of his worshiping, I decided it was my turn.

I moved down his body, taking my time. I knew he was enjoying every second of it. I took my time, every kiss, every stroke, every lick... I knew exactly what I was doing.

I pulled the rest of the blanket off of him, he was only in boxers.

I continued to kiss my way down, all while stroking him through his boxer shorts. He sucked in a sharp breath, almost like he was hurting himself. The tent in his boxers was sure evident, I liked knowing I had that effect on him.

"Fuck, sweetheart, you are killing me here," he muttered, his fingers intertwining with mine.

"Shh..." I hushed, wanting to make this last forever.

I wrapped my fingers around the wait band of his boxers, pulling them down slowly to reveal his erection, which stood up in attention.

"Fuuuuck," he groaned, as his head rolled back, eyes closing in ecstasy. "Mhhmm..." I hummed, taking his throbbing cock in my hand.

"Fuck! You don't even know how good you look.." James rambled on "I should probably warn you now, I'll cum if you keep that up." He winced as I brushed my thumb past his tip.

"Really?" I teased, squeezing him lightly. "Ah-Y.Yeah," he huffed in pleasure.

"Hmm," I hummed again, taking him in my mouth and swirling my tongue around the head. "Fuck!" he shouted, his grip tightening on my hair. "That feels good." He stated, as he started thrusting against my lips.

God, Iloved his cock. I didn't even know why. He tasted good, and he looked even better. I was addicted. I'd never be able to get enough. He moaned as I took him deeper. I took him all the way in, making sure to hit his sensitive spot on the underside of his shaft. He grunted, making the room shaky. His grip on my hair loosened, I Looked up to see if he was okay.

His face was so red, I could see the veins on his neck. He was close. I loved the power I held in my hands.

I bobbed my head on his length, feeling the tension build in him.

I pulled my mouth off of him, finishing him off with a few final pumps.

"FUCK!" he yelled out, coming hard, shooting his seed onto my hand. His orgasm had rocked his whole body. "Oh, fuck!" He mumbled, dropping into the mattress.

"So messy.." I purred, licking the salty cum off of my hand and his cock.

Ilicked him clean, the list in his eyes the heaviest I'd ever seen.

"You are so dirty, sweetheart." He chuckled, running his fingers through my hair.

I gave his tip a soft kiss before crawling back up to straddle his waist. "I need you to fuck me, James.." I whispered into his ear.

"Baby, anytime." He replied. With those words, my heart exploded, like a thousand fireworks going off.

I sat up, rocking my hips on his cock, which was still hard as a rock. His member slid through my wet folds, teasing me with the curve of every vein.

"J-James..." my voice shook wildly, before he slid the head inside of me.

He was big. He stretched me further than any other man. I gasped, biting down on my lip to stop myself from crying out. "I know honey.." he whispered, slipping completely into me.

We both sighed simultaneously. It was like we were meant for each other. No one else would fit in our places. "Do you want me to go slow?" he asked, when I tensed at first.

I shook my head, starting to ride him harder, setting the pace for us. "Good girl," he praised, loving how I rode him like a pro.

Our skin slapped together softly, wet and obscene sounds filling the room.

"That's it, ride this dick, so good..." James uttered, his large hands gripping my waist so tightly.

The bruises were already forming. I couldn't help but love it. I'd be sporting those marks for weeks.

"Fuck me harder," I groaned, loving the way he made me feel. I was about to fall over the edge.

"Gladly, sweetheart." He responded, bucking me hard, causing my breasts to bounce.

I threw my head back, grinding my hips harder along with his thrusts. He had found my g spot and was hitting it relentlessly.

"Yesssss," I moaned. I needed more. This wasn't nearly enough. I wanted more of him. More of everything. If only time stood still. I wished it did right then. Without a moment's notice, James flipped me over onto the mattress and pulled my leg up over his shoulder, his thrusts not pausing for even a second.

I squealed, but that just turned him on more. He pounded into me like there was no tomorrow. I'd never had sex like this before. It was intense, hot and passionate. He drove into me, knowing exactly where I needed to be hit. It was heaven. Nothing else in the world compared to this. "Come for me, sweetheart."

He demanded, reaching between us and stroking my clit. My walls contracted, and I came all over him, my juices coating him. My inner muscles tightened around his dick, sucking him in deeper.

"Mmph," I gasped. James' hips stuttered as I felt him fill me up with cum. I basked in the warmth, knowing he'd be inside of me for a good while.

James stopped moving and collapsed beside me. I felt drained, exhausted, but in the best kind of way.

While trying to catch our breaths, we glanced over, meeting the others' gaze.

I giggled, blushing at our shameless display of lust.

"Is it a good time to say I like you?" James heaved, a dorky smile at his lips.

I smiled back, my heart bursting with happiness.

"Yes, I like you too."

I chuckled under my breath, cuddling up to him as we swam in the afterglow of our love making.

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[deathbxnny]

Imagine if, to try and calm Yanqing’s “leap before you look” phase, Jing Yuan assigns a strategist for him. The strategist is more timid and anxious, so they don’t get into fights as much as him.

It’s the perfect exchange, in a way. The strategist is encouraged by Yanqing and Yanqing learns to slow down and use a different angle when necessary.

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A/N: Hello there anon! I'm sorry that I've just found the motivation for your request, but between being sick and busy, I unfortunately had no time either. However, since I'm in a bit of a good mood for once, I've decided to finally finish a request thats been in my drafts for a while now. I hope you'll enjoy and thank you for the cute idea!<33 Content: Slightly mean Yanqing being a reckless brat and the poor reader having anixiety attacks because of him, mentions of battles, fluff, sfw Reader has no set pronouns! ((Not proofread.))

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Just slow down. (Yanqing x Gn!Reader)

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Yanqing didn't like you at first. And he made it clear with the way he avoided you like the plague and attempted to get out of having to spend the whole day with you. This was harder than he liked it to be however, as Jing Yuan didn't take his distaste lightly and eventually forced him to make a clear decisions.

Either he accepted that you were assigned to him... or he simply just never saw the outside world again, unless it's work related. And how else was Yanqing supposed to react, other than just agreeing to the older mans terms. He whined and argued back, tried reasoning why he didn't need a strategist to keep track of him, how it would just slow him down. But all complaints fell on deaf ears... which lead him to now, where he stubbornly stood before your timid form, with narrowed eyes and a frown.

"Just to be clear, I'm not happy with any of this." He had said on your first meeting and yet all you did was give him a nervous and sheepish smile in return, as though you didn't catch the annoyed tone in his voice. "It's okay... but I hope we can at least get along anyways." You muttered back, before clutching your files closer to your chest and awkwardly shuffling past him towards the training grounds to observe his daily routine closely. Yanqing watched you take a seat nearby, before simply shaking his head and getting on with his training.

Surely, if you saw how talented and strong he was, you'd recognise that he didn't need you essentially overseeing him and would tell Jing Yuan the same. He showed off his skills well, clearly worthy to be called a swordsmaster. Yanqing was convinced that he had tone well, truly proven you wrong, until you held out a piece of paper to his panting form nervously. "You should learn how to slow down." You said, your voice so quiet that he only barely caught it, before you left in a rush. He stood there under the setting sun, his hand gripping the paper tightly, eyes narrowing in disbelief.

'Strategic improvement needed.'

Something about your note and the way you seemed still so sincere in your work, despite your obvious shyness, humbled him more than it angered him. Which is why the next times he met you, he tried following the words on the notes you always wrote him at the end of each session perfectly. It was hard at first, as slowing down and thinking before acting was difficult and near impossible to him. But as time went on, he began noticing the positive change it had on him.

He was more precise with his movements and attacks, his accuracy now unmatchable. Something Jing Yuan would smugly praise him for, as he knew he was right in his decision to pair you two up. And as much as Yanqing hated to admit it, he could only agree, since you've taught him alot more than you may have realised. He learned how to take things in life much slower and easier, how to be patient and calm in stressful situations, how to pause and take in the moving world around him. Life seemed brighter with you at his side.

And with time, he also learned that you were so much more under your shyness as well. You were smart and the conversations he would have with you could last life times, if days didn't eventurally come to an end. You were more open and talkactive than he was at times, and whenever you lost yourself in a topic you enjoyed, he found himself wishing that time truly would slow down just so that he could watch you like this for longer.

You've taught him how to slow down and in turn, he taught you how to pause time with him.

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A/N: Alright, I'm currently writing this half asleep... but I hope it's somewhat okay anyways and thank you again for the request!<33

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[shigayokagayama]

I'm requesting a ritsu ocd headcanon dump or something along those lines

thank you

-i imagine there are just like. after getting a diagnosis there are so many things he can look on so many things about how he acted in his childhood and be like "why the FUCK did no one figure out something was wrong oh my GOD" like. "having to double check all the lights off before he leaves the house because he learned about global warming and carbon footprints at school and now he has to make sure that all the lights off or he'll kill the planet" kind of deal

-trying to bend spoons as a compulsion ("maybe THIS time it will work and then everything will be fine but if i dont try then what if i lose the power and my brother blows up and hurts me and everyone" type thought track)

-so bad about reassurance seeking. definitely his biggest hurdle in recovery. even post confession arc i feel like theres a really long space of time where he keeps feeling like he has to check in on mob or something bad's going to happen

-big avoidance enjoyer. like "sorry i havent checked your messages in days i was convinced that you decided you didnt want to be friends anymore and somehow as long as i didnt read the message where you said that we'd still be fine"

-enormous perfectionist. getting a less than desirable grade on an assignment feels like the end of the world. "if i dont clutch this chemistry test my future is ruined and my whole family dies" type deal. post big cleanup he gets a lot better about this one

-more silly one uh super susceptible to chain emails and "reblog this or your mom will die" type stuff. theres a comic abt this one thats so fuckin funny to me

#i have a bunch of silly intrusive thought loops for him based on my own in my head #but those would literally only be funny to me #'ritsu you dont have to stare at the sun if a solar flare were gonna happen you looking at it wouldnt do anything'

[study-core-101]

Popular Study Methods I dont like

(By Jay)

A list of study techniques that dont work for me at all. But study methods can work amazing for one person and then just complicate studying more for another. If they work for you, awesome, i'm happy about that. These are my personal experience with them, a lot of people wont relate and thats fine, people are different. But if you relate why these common/popular methods dont work for me, know you arent the only one and that there are more options. People might tell you "this method is amazing, you should do this" and there for you is shit.

Memorazing

Avoid this. When you memorize you dont learn. You cannot conect concepts because you dont understand. One thing is memorazing formulas, which is nessesary, but memorazing everything doesnt work. Understandment is way better. Yes, we need to remember and storage the information in our memory, but memorazing is different. Knowing the theory ord by word is shit if you cannot explain it in different words, conect it wit other concepts or put in practise.

Flashcards

Yep, studyblr favourite study method. Bear with me.

For me, it is a really passive way. When i make the Q&As of the flashcards, i remember the answers. I dont think. I associate the words. And then, when the test has the questions phrased different, my mind goes blank. It seem liked i learned because i remember but i wasnt actually learning.

Now you are probably thinking "use it for vocabulary". That doesnt help me either. Maybe it helps for knowing the meaning in a reading, but writing? I cant remember the spelling. For learning to spell a word i need to write it down. Use it in a sentence. Reading it over and over doesnt do anything.

All-nighters

Oh god, there is nothing worse than an all-nighter. One all-nighter will ruin your sleep schedule for weeks and tired=learn less. Plus, too much all-nighters lead to burn out.

With better time management, all-nighters wouldnt probably exist, or at least, be reduced by a lot

Also, as someone with chronic migraines, an all-nighter'd only give me a week straight with only terrible pain and i prefer failing a subject than that (i'd had to learn the hard way that lesson. always prioritaze your health)

Pomodoro

It's a little bit hypocrital of me to put it here, as I usually reccomend it to others. But personally? It just de-motivaties and stresses me. (disclaimer: it is a good technique, thats why i recomend it even if it doesnt work for me).

I'll explain why. The only way i can do a lot of productive stuff together (or just a long assignment) is to "get in the mood" or have like a "streak". I usually have to power through the first 5-10 minutes of studying and then i get super motivated and do a lot until my brain asks for a break. When the timer rings, it breaks it and i have to repeat the rutine again. It wouldnt be so bad if it wasnt that i work 3 or 4 times faster when i motivated than when i am powering through.

Also, having the self-impose deadline of a pomodoro (i know it isnt technically a deadline, but for some unknown reason, my brain processes it as one) makes me nervous and gives me anxiety. Just knowing the timer is going to go off anytime un-focus me. It's unnesesary stress.

#study motivation #studyblr #study #study aesthetic #study blog #studyspo #study-core-101 #student #study community #studyinspo #study techniques #study methods #studying #study tips #study time #pomodoro method #pomodoro timer #pomodoro technique #flashcards #all nighters #all nighter #study core 101 #study core #study method #studying tips

[genderkoolaid]

this is so much wild conjecture and just in this one single paragraph*

how do i downplay misogyny? like the conversation was about antimasculism so obviously i was talking about it more. but i never said it was less important at all. this is literally just an opinion. you are assuming i think its less impactful/important because you are already coming into this assuming i hate trans women and everything i do must be done to hurt trans women as much as possible, because thats always the assumption whenever we're talking about transandrophobia or a related issue

its downright fucking conspiratorial, in my opinion, to take my earnest beliefs and turn it into this "actually transmascs want to be the experts on antimasculism AND misogyny!!!". I try to encourage everyone, especially people who were assigned male (of any gender) to give their experiences and opinions on antimasculism. I do not consider transmascs "experts" on it. This is another thing you decided on your own was a fact. You start from the assumption that everything is being done in bad faith and you can just make up whatever facts you want from there

Also fucking "greatly exaggerate the degree to which transmascs are oppressed by misogyny" is just. fuck you honestly. Thanks for proving my point about why this "transphobes only care about your real gender" rhetoric is awful for transmascs. Transmascs have to deal with both rising anti-abortion and rising transphobia, and thats not to say we are more oppressed! But its a major fucking part of our oppression and its unbelievably cruel whenever someone acts like we need to pretend we don't experience it to avoid over-complicating transphobia. Fuck this.

*I want to specify that this is one paragraph of a larger response but I'm not going through all that

#m.

[zzoguri]

your moots as tbz members <3 💌

FML okay i have been avoiding this for a while because i feel like i dont have enough knowledge to assign my mutuals to a tbz member </3 SORRY ANON IF U THOUGHT I WAS IGNORING IT! HOWEVER i will attempt to do it with the oomfs i think i'm close to :DD

@haet-sal as sunric

okay i have this joke with lacey that i call her sunwoo for the reason that she jumps into like how many different topics but the reality is that like she is also very eric coded whenever i talk to her </3 she's like the clingy (/pos), shoulder i can rely on, always makes me laugh. thats why she feels very sunric coded to me!

@i520cm as kyuric

LORD ipah is just so extroverted and also an oversharer like eric but has the temper of changmin LIKEEEE ITS ALWAYS SO FUN TO BULLY IPAH IN THE SERVER IM CRYING BUT SHE IS SWEET AS THE TWO!!! everything she says is actually iconic

@winterchimez as sangyeon

i say this not bc ally is sangyeon biased but holy shit like with her interactions she really just does give me sangyeon VIBES. idk abt yall but its gen so strong... does anyone see this... like she is as reliable and as sweet as sangyeon </3

@sungbeam as kevin

talking to duckie is how i imagine talking to kevin would be like. also she is just as sweet and talented as the guy?? and duckie is genuinely so FRIEND SHAPED. like you know how you look at ppl and go like wow. they are so friend shaped i would love to be friends with them. AND ITS TRUE!!! like every convo with her is as chaotic and still as nice <3

@wuahae as bbangmil

THIS IS MAINLY BC OF ALL OUR CONVO ON ANIME AND WEBTOON but i feel like talking to cat is similar to talking to younghoon <3 like she's very humble and always tries to help out. she's also someone who likes to offer a shoulder if anyone needs it <3 but also she does give a bit of hyunjae for how she bullies ipah LMFAO

@stealanity as jacob

MATTY IS A SWEETHEART LIKE IDK ABT YALL. I SEE MATTY AND JUST THINK THIS IS JACOB </3 SHES A SWEETIE but also she's also just as chaotic as jacob <3 like whenever she messages the gc its either her coming to some kind of chaotic mess or her joining in out of the blue like yall will never really know !!!

@justalildumpling as hyunjae

BROTHER IDK ABT YALL BUT J IS SOOOOOO HYUNJAE CODED LIKE. ITS SO FUNNY BC THE FIRST TIME J LIKE FINALLY STARTED TALKING IN OUR SERVER, ITS BEEN LIKE UTTER CHAOS. AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO NOTICED THAT DFGUSYGYUFSG also i imagine her laughing style to be just like hyunjae's also HELP!?!?!? and how she bullies ipah is SO CRAZY. j and cat ultimate duo im afraid! and also just like talking style wise, i feel like its similar to his

i tried my best </3 tbf i feel like i need to get to know so much more ppl too </3 but this is just for me :DD

#zzoguri thoughts #okay i go sleep now #its like 4 am HELP

[s0ft1y-r0tt3n]

Hii, saw you post a response on a detransition, and since in my country it's very shameful topic, people avoid talking about in any non-harmful way, only mention it against the trans people. Could you maybe inform me some more? I don't wanna spew bullshit that's all around me too

Hello! I'll answer this to the best of my abilities, since I'm not trans anymore and I don't want to say anything that isn't true/can potentially hurt the community. So if you'd be willing, please go ask a trans person for their experiences!! It would be a million times better than my word! Thank you for the question though! I'm so happy you're willing to learn!! (Sorry for the long read though, it's a very personal topic and I talk a lot lol!)

But for me being trans was about my soul. Idk what you believe but I believe in souls, so it was a soul thing and not really a body thing. I felt in my soul that I was different from my assigned gender at birth, but I didn't know why. I had eventually come across the term Transgender, and thought it fit what I was experiencing on the inside. I was really young when I made the discovery (around 10) so I didn't know much and couldn't really look up anything to see if it was actually what I was because I didn't really know about the LGBTQ+ community yet. Up until very recently (in May of this year) I had thought I was transgender, but then I made the sudden discovery that it didn't really fit. I searched and searched for something that actually fit me, and I tried on a lot of labels during that time. Soon I became aware of the term Girlflux. It actually felt 100% like what I was feeling! So I learned that when I felt like I wasn't a girl, I was actually experiencing a state of being Agender. (thats a different label you could look up!) But then my gender would fluctuate from Agender to being a Girl! So after I found my identity, I started to detransition. It was a little hard explaining to people that didn't know a whole bunch, but it was a fairly easy journey. So please, listen to the transgender community and me when we say that it isn't immoral or a sin to be trans, but it's a soul thing. Trans people have a different brain/soul than the body they were placed in, and they're only trying to make themselves the most comfortable they can be in a messed up body they didn't ask for.

#pride #detrans #detransitioning #detransition #ftm detransition #agender #girlflux #pride month #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtq community #trans #trans community

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Hey, given that I love reading your meta and spec and costume analysis, do you think that during BT breakup we could get something paralleling Eddie’s "the idea of us"? Because I suppose that, even for different reasons, a relationship with Taylor was exactly that same for Buck: an idea, an ideal, something you had to build from the foundations to resemble something "functional" and validating, and the more he got aware he was simply fearing of being abandoned once again, the more commitment he put into building this idea into reality. Only, he misunderstood the assignment....

Hey Kiki

How lovely to have you in my inbox and I'm glad you enjoy my ramblings!

I do think we're going to get something along the same lines as Eddies 'the idea of us' for Buck, his own version of it - I think it will probably be very different from the confident but quiet way that line was delivered by Eddie. Eddie knew he was going to hurt Ana and had accepted it was part of doing the right thing - necessary and unavoidable so Eddie shouldered that and got on with it. Buck however - wants to avoid hurting anyone the way he's been hurt in the past and so he keeps digging himself deeper and deeper which means that the hurt is going to be even greater for everyone.

In someways we the audience have already had it - only Buck told Maddie not Taylor 'I want to believe I asked her for the right reasons, but I can't help wonder if I was just scared of being left again.' That is Buck verbalising - for the first time- that he's not being honest with himself about why he's in the relationship. Now the audience is just waiting for Buck to actually end things - to realise he can't avoid the fallout and bite the bullet. He is getting there, its just taking a while for him to fully understand what he actually wants. We have to think of Buck as being in survival mode for the entirety of season 5. From the moment Eddie was shot, Buck has been doing what he has needed to do to get through each day - taking what he can get and where he can get it from - ensuring that everyone else is okay first and foremost. It's what Buck does and he hasn't yet stopped to look at what he actually wants, needs and whether what he currently has is good for him.

Buck has been going round attempting to fix everyone else's problems and not tending to his own - Christopher and Eddie - their needs are more important in the aftermath of the shooting -its such a traumatic and shocking event and his brain is scrambled - but it didn't happen to him so he pushes his feelings aside and directs his focus at them - that allows Taylor an in - because he is vulnerable so he accepts that affection and clings to it.

If we imagine for a moment that the shooting hadn't happened - Buck and Taylor would probably have hooked up again in an almost friends with benefits way or in an attempt at a relationship until Taylor dropped him, or Buck realised that he needed more (far far quicker than he currently is) and ended things.

So we have Buck focusing on Eddie and Chris, and he is also aware that Maddie isn't well, so he is focusing some of his attention on Maddie, Chim and Jee-Yun - more things for him to fix - but thats okay because if he keeps busy and focuses on all of them then once they're okay he can sort himself out. Maddie leaves and Buck is in a bind - she doesn't want people coming after her - but she's honoured her promise to Buck by keeping him somewhat in the loop and she's his sister and he believes her, so he lies to Chimney and ends up with a black eye for his trouble - a harsh lesson in not being able to keep everyone happy and also that there are different types of relationship.

This is one of the reasons why I think they've been holding off on showing any sort of reconciliation between Buck and Chimney - because it is super relevant to Bucks own relationship - everything Eddie said on the balcony about Buck and Chimney loving Maddie in different ways and knowing her in different ways because of that - all very much relevant to Buck understanding 'what he wants in a relationship and partner' I think he understood what Eddie said and has applied that understanding to others, he just hasn't applied it to himself yet and once we see him and Chim actually talk - things will click into place for him on a more personal level.

So we have a Buck that is being pulled in to fixer mode on several fronts, ignoring his own needs and therefore accepting a relationship that isn’t doing him any favours. But now - things are beginning to mend, some of it gets worse before it gets better, but Buck is there through it all. Some semblance of conversation has happened with Chimney - so Bucks guilt about that has, while not completely gone away, eased off.  Maddie comes back and Buck is reunited with her. she’s clearly better and while she still has work to do (and we know that includes reuniting with Chimney) she’s in a place where Buck can step back on his need to fix things. Then there is Eddie - who gets worse - so Buck steps in more - and Eddie lets him and Eddie begins to get better - he’s not there yet, so Buck still needs to be all the way in with him and Chris - he gets to keep on fixing - finding Charlie under the guise of horse therapy for Chris - putting the pieces in place to begin ‘fixing’ two things in one go. 

But now everyone is on their respective healing paths, Buck can step back - it leaves room for his own thoughts and feelings to reestablish themselves and thats what we’ve been watching through 5b - Buck kissing Lucy was a part of this - it was his own need for healing trying to help him - to sabotage this relationship that he’s been clinging to, but which is in effect preventing him from tending to his own needs - only Buck manages to subvert it and now he’s doubling down on fixing his relationship with Taylor. However as things continue to mend and heal for others, it’s bringing Bucks own wants and needs into sharper focus. 

As Maddie learns to love again and accepts she’s a good mother, Buck will being to accept what they’ve already spoken about - that he’s a clinger - but if Maddie can learn not to flee, then he can learn not to cling when he doesn’t need to. As he reconciles with Chimney he will begin to understand the differences in their separate relationships with Maddie and that will allow him to reflect more widely on his own relationships and understand better how is level of understanding around Taylor isn’t right - isn’t the same as Chim and Maddie have with each other. 

As Eddie works through his trauma and moves forward and learns to accept himself for who he is - embracing what he’s kept locked away for so long, Buck is beginning to see that ‘he misunderstood the assignment.’ Its such a loaded sentence - it pulls on so many of the strings Buck has in play - he misunderstood what Eddie meant by the will, he misunderstood how much his life is better with Eddie and Chris, he misunderstood that he’s been building the family he wants so desperately with the Diaz boys, he misunderstood the depth f his feelings for Eddie, he misunderstood that he’s been forcing things with Taylor an he misunderstood that when people say relationships take work, they don’t mean that its should be like pulling teeth - they mean that that work might be hard, but its always enjoyable and worth it.

This is all ongoing and will come to a head over the next 3 episodes culminating in the end of his relationship with Taylor and I think Buck accepting that he needs to go and do some work on his own foundations before he can start further work on the ones he’s been building with Eddie and Chris without realising - then they can actually start work on the structure - not just the foundations - because they will all be in the same place - completed intersecting foundations as they start the next phase of building - upwards and fully together!

I’m not sure if I got a bit off track here, but I think it went somewhere interesting?!!

#kym answers things #kiki asks #911 #911 on fox #911onfox #911 fox #buck #eddie #evan buckley #Eddie Diaz #buddie #anti taylor kelly #anti bucktaylor #he misunderstood the assignment #911 speculation #interesting asks #911 meta

[svnnw]

AT MIDNIGHT — chapter 1

1) song kang >> cha eunwoo

"why are we even going, you said i should rest at home-"

"yeah but not for a whole week, theres this party sungchan, yeji's boyfriend, is throwing right now"

it has been a few days since your ex boyfriend broke up with you. to say the least you haven't been taken care of yourself that much which made your friendgroup really worried about you. thats why karina is now forcing you to go to a party with her.

you immediately covered your ears due to the loud music but adjusted to it a few minutes later.

while you were walking further into the house, you decided to settle in a corner to avoid having conversations when all of a sudden you heard a deep voice behind you.

"do i know you?" you slowly turned around to see a welcoming smile greeting you.

"no, have we met before?"

"im not sure, but you look really familiar i think i saw you on yeji's story before. my name is mark." his voice had a hint of excitement to it which made you smile. you introduced yourself and slowly you guys started a conversation.

from a distance you could see your friends looking at you and giggling because they were hoping you would distract yourself from your ex boyfriend but the mere thought of him made your blood boil again.

as time passed you guys official became friends and you and mark promised that you would sit next to each other after you found out that you were both in the same class for accounting.

"wait shit i forgot that we had to do that accounting assignment for tomorrow." mark exclaimed with frustration knowing it would affect 10% of his grade.

"its fine you can use my worksheet for help."

"i would appreciate that so much the only problem is that i was going to study with my friend at the library tomorrow. would it be okay for you to be with us."

"oh yeah sure i would love to meet your friend !" you tried to act cool about it but in reality you were scared to meet the 'mysterious' guy mark was talking about. when you were exchanging numbers mark told you about his friendgroup by showing you their twitter accounts while you silently gasped every time he showed you his friends. as he was showing you more profiles the infamous haechan seemed to have caught your attention due to a previous rumor being spread about him which you cant quite remember anymore.

"im actually gonna go. i have to take care of my friend who's extremely drunk right now. lets discuss it when we'll meet later!"

"sure, i'll text you later!"

as soon as mark left your sight your best friend karina took a seat next to you giggling as she does.

"i'm tired lets go home" you said drained out from the loud music in the background.

"nah you have to meet this girl i met she's so sweet!!"

masterlist – profile 2 – next – playlist

a/n – please ignore any grammar mistakes i'll fix them soon 😭

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TAGLIST — open @replayenthusiast

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[ifeelsoemptysometimes]

I just sent my professor an email and I can't help but feel sick over it. I am now dreading her response and my stomach hurts. I want to crawl into a hole and die. I don't know why I feel so anxious, all I did was ask for help but asking for help from and adult is terrifying. I hate asking for help or questions. It feels like I'll be degraded and humiliated for doing so. I don't know where this comes from. Provide from childhood but idk for sure. Maybe it's just the anxiety working overtime. Idk. Its rough and drained. I was supposed to send that email a week ago but I kept avoiding it. And bc of me not asking for help I didn't turn in my assignment. Well, that and felt like I was in some sort of mental block that kept me from doing anything that involved thinking effort. I knwo I can be a care free and lazy at times but this was just one of those days where doing homework was just different, impossible even. I simply could not get my brain to cooperate. I dont want to self diagnose but I really suspect that I have adhd and yesterday was really the worst week that I've had bc of it. It was literally disruptive to my life and it was kind of scary. I've has bad days but they've never been that bad. But that is besides the point. I'm terrified and I knwo I shouldn't be. The rational side of me says the my professors are understanding, kind, and they wouldn't judge me for asking for help, even on such a simple issue. But the irrational side says that they are going to think im stupid, and that they will make fun of me and will be rude about it. Thats simply not true but I can't help but think that,,, ugh I'm so tired,,

[tamayosclinic]

Congratulations on the 100 followers! Could I request - "You almost died and you're making jokes?" with Giyuu and a reader who tries to lighten the fact that they're heavily injured and very much almost died. But didn't so thats a plus.

"You almost died and you're making jokes?" | Giyuu x GN!Reader

Warning(s): Angst to fluff, impalement, near-death of reader

Author's Note(s): Thank you, Nonny. I added my upper moon OC for this oneshot to avoid spoilers. Enjoy this oneshot.

Word Count: 1,312

100+ Followers Event [Closed]

“You really don't have to come, you know.” Giyuu urged, watching (Y/n) strap their saya with their sheathed katana to their side. “There are other easier missions you could take.”

“Are you implying I'm not capable of backing you up? You know I did just reach kinoe rank,” (Y/n) retorted.

“It's not that. It's just….” Giyuu paused in thought, but he could not figure out how to answer them without revealing too much.

Kagaya had informed him that the mission he had been assigned likely involved a Kizuki. It has to be an upper moon based on the destruction left in its wake. Giyuu knew that (Y/n) would sacrifice themselves if it came down to it, and Giyuu was not going to let that happen again. Not if he could help it.

Would he die? Most probably, but after losing many people dear to him, he'd rather be the one on death's door.

“I just think it would be more efficient if we went on separate missions,” Giyuu rationalized, but (Y/n) narrowed their eyes in suspicion.

“Why now of all times? We have partnered up on solo missions before.”

“Just listen to me, okay!” Giyuu huffed, taking (Y/n) aback at the sudden rise of his voice. Guilt immediately washed over Giyuu. He pulled (Y/n) into a hug. “I'm sorry, (Y/n). I should not have raised my voice like that. But please listen to me and go on another mission just this once.”

With a heavy sigh (Y/n) nodded against his chest and gave him a quick peck on the cheek. “Okay, but just this once,” they reminded. “Be careful.”

“I will,” Giyuu responded, hiding the dread pooling within him behind a monotone voice. He was truthful in his reply but was aware of his low chances on this mission.

…

The village and surrounding forest were set ablaze in crimson flames. Giyuu stood in the ring of fire, clashing with the male demon responsible. The kanji for Upper Two were clearly engraved in his red irises. The notable feature of the demon was his unique wings. They were trident-shaped with an exhaust-like opening at the end of each segment from which he expelled crimson fire. If that was not enough intimidation, then the demon's height would do the trick. If Gyomei were here, he would have to look up to be eye to eye with this demon.

“Water Breathing Eleventh Form: Dead-” Giyuu was intercepted by the demon swiping him with one of his wings which sent him flying towards a burning tree. He managed to catch himself mid-sendoff to avoid crashing into the fire.

Unfortunately, the demon gave him no room for attack. A raspy breath came from the demon before he expelled a tremendous amount of fire from his wings that sent him flying at breakneck speed. Giyuu merely blinked, and the demon was right in front of him.

He's fast! He attempted to swing but realized that his hands were empty. His katana was cast to the ground, and the demon held him by the neck, hovering above the fire. He made the mistake of glancing down at the forest below, and his mind went numb as he found no solution to his current predicament. So, this is it.

The demon let out a grumble. “That's all it takes, huh. How pathetic. I have put countless Hashira in this same situation, yet you give up just like that. Perhaps I have made a mistake. Are you really a Hashira?”

Giyuu simmered at the demon's taunts. “There are two people who are worthy of my position. Unfortunately, one died, and the corps was stuck with me, but the other can take my place easily.”

The demon pouted, fiending empathy. “Then I suppose killing you would be best, so farewell.” And with that, he released Giyuu and watched him plummet down, but a figure clothed in (f/c) haori caught him.

Meanwhile, Giyuu had resided himself to death only to feel a strong pair of arms catch him mid-fall and land in the unscathed patch of ground surrounded by flames.

“I made it in time,” (Y/n) breathed, causing Giyuu to open his eyes to meet their own (e/c) irises. “Forgive me, Giyuu. I just could not shake the feeling in my gut, but I'm glad I followed it.”

“I'm glad too,” Giyuu admitted as he retrieved his katana and turned to look at them. “Now we can- (Y/N) LOOK OUT!” He dashed to them while looking past them.

(Y/n) barely had time to register his warning before they felt the demon's looming presence behind them at arm's length. They lurched forward as a sheering pinch burned through their back. There was a delay in pain as they looked down and confirmed what they suspected. The demon had impaled them with a fire spear. They could not bring themselves to look at Giyuu, downright fearful of letting him see the helplessness in their eyes.

Giyuu had his eyes peeled on (Y/n) the whole time. The numbing feeling he carried since the start of the mission reached his heart. He stumbled at the reality before him. No, not again.

“Oh, what a pity. Another dud.” The demon snickered and pulled the spear out of (Y/n), who toppled the ground.

“A dud? No. (Y/n) is not a dud. They are and will always be more capable than me!” Giyuu bellowed. The numbness in his heart had vanished. Seething anger washed over him and controlled his movements for the remaining battle.

It was a close call that ended in a tie when the demon saw dark night slow shimmer in light blue as the sky rose. He did not even second guess himself and took off past the burning forest for the sheltering caves of the mountains beyond.

Giyuu was still guns blazing as he checked on an unconscious (Y/n). Surmising that he could not wait for the Kakushi to arrive, he wrapped the gaping wound on (Y/n) 's stomach then rushed them to the butterfly estate.

…

(Y/n) floated listlessly in an empty void. They could sense the passing of time and hear familiar voices murmur around them, yet no person ever appeared to them. They could feel the nonexistent ground cave under them on a few occasions, letting them plummet down before bringing them back up. A light finally illuminated the void, and the next thing they knew, their eyes fluttered open in the world of the living.

They weakly turned their head to the side, where they felt a warm hand clasping their own smiling when they confirmed it was Giyuu. They did not get enough time to lavish the view as Giyuu awakened as they stirred in bed.

(Y/n)' s eyes traveled to Giyuu's quivering lips than to his glistening eyes. They gave his hand a reassuring squeeze and a silent nod that opened the floodgates. They hugged him closely as he cried, waiting until he calmed down enough before they spoke.

“So… how does it feel to have a donut for a lover?” They joked, earning a frown from Giyuu.

“You almost died, and you're making jokes?”

“But I didn't! So please, donut cry.” (Y/n) tittered, followed by a hiss of pain. Giyuu reached for the salve on the counter and applied it over the almost healed scar on their stomach to effectively numb it. (Y/n) estimated that they had been out for half a year based on the state of healing, though they did not want to confirm it just yet with Giyuu. Instead, sleep hit them like a truck, and they drifted off without a fight.

Though initially concerned, Giyuu sighed in relief as he thought over the short conversation. If they can make jokes like this, they will be okay now.

With that, he carefully slipped under the blanket and cuddled up to (Y/n), drifting off shortly after.

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #giyuu tomioka #giyuu x reader #giyuu x you #giyuu x y/n #demon slayer x reader #kny x reader

[transmascjfk]

i'm,, trans and hc chihiro to be a male..

i'm sorry, but i don't quite understand how that's transphobic. could you please explain how chihiro is transmisogynistic? (sorry if i come off as rude - that's not my intention and i genuinely just don't understand, though i would like to!!)

What is transmisoginy?

"Transmisogyny is a distinct category of transphobia in that transmisogyny mainly focuses on trans women and other transgender individuals who demonstrate femininity, whereas transphobia is a more general term, covering a broader spectrum of prejudice and discrimination towards transsexual and transgender individuals. Julia Serano states in Whipping Girl that "when the majority of jokes made at the expense of trans people center on 'men wearing dresses' or 'men who want their penises cut off' that is not transphobia – it is transmisogyny. When the majority of violence and sexual assaults committed against trans people is directed at trans women, that is not transphobia – it is transmisogyny." "

Chihiro is written to mock trans women, to say that in reality trans women are secretly men, she is a man who is weak and uses being trans as a way to escape her problems, this is a thing that is also said to trans men a lot, that theyre just trying to avoid the hard parts of being a woman by becoming a man. Even if the writters intended it to be like that or not (which they probably did because transphobia is a big thing that happens a lot, obviously) it's still transmisogynistic. Thats that on that

This is a pretty common transphobic trope actually, the "Turns out this one character was actually from the opposite sex??!!", theres more examples of this in other games outside Danganronpa.

But also her experience is pretty different from other examples, her experiences are way too similar with trans womens experiences.

This is mostly for the cis people who call her a crossdresser and refuse to change their mind, on it, sit down.

Written by a trans man.

Don't tell me whats transphobic and what it's not transphobic if you're cis. Just sit down and read.

Tw: transphobia, transmisoginy, death mentions and blood in the pictures.

The game implies a lot of stuff with her dialogue, it doesn't straight up says "I don't want to be a woman anymore, I'm a man" like everyone claims it does.

[ Alt text 1:

Chihiro Fujisaki: I'm going to get stronger...and accept who I am... ]

[ Alt text 2:

Chihiro Fujisaki: Strong enough so that when someone says "even thought you're a boy" I'll be okay. I'll get better! ]

[ Alt text 3:

Chihiro Fujisaki: I wrapped myself in lies. I'm weak. I want to destroy that version of me forever! ]

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Chihiro Fujisaki: ... I want to change. ]

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Chihiro Fujisaki: I have to change. I don't want to be weak anymore ]

She goes to Mondo not because hes masculine, but because she admires him and his strength. She never once says it's because shes a man or because Mondo is a man.

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Chihiro Fujisaki: Maybe talking to Mondo about it will help give me some courage... ]

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Chihiro Fujisaki: I admire... your strength... ]

These dialogues can be read in two ways, the first one being the one the game tries the hardest to put in your head thats shes a man, all of this guessed by other people btw not what she herself says. Which is really transphobic, because she was written as a trans woman and then theyre like "uh no actually hes a man, because he was born as one but hes a coward so he started to dress as a woman to hide from his problems. Because thats what people do right? People who dress as their oppossite gender are so pathetic, specially men amiright? Ahaha"

Reading it in this way really weird, you're doing a lot of mental gymnastics because you would literally call her a trans woman with all of this if the rest of the trial, that consists of cis people assuming shes a man, didn't happen. And sadly you're following transphobic ideas by this. Because the canon is transphobic and transmysoginistic.

And the other way is just read what she says, that she just wants to be stronger and stop lying to everyone, basically about being cis, because shes not, shes amab (assigned male at birth) and thats probably what she said to Mondo, but most people when a trans person who already passes or is in their transition comes out many people tend to think "oh so youre your gender assigned at birth and not the one you claim to be?", because they don't get what being trans is and they think only "biological gender" is a thing. Basically, misgendering and invalidating the trans person.

I can guess all of this just because of how vague they decided to make her dialogue, not even showing how she tells Mondo about being amab.

What did she said to Mondo? "I'm trans"? "I'm a man"? "I was born a man"? We dont know, because they didn't show it and she died right afterwards and then everyone was like "Chihiro was secretly a man" to solve the case and thats it. A lot of people in the discourse get their information from Monokuma who isn't either Chihiro or even Mondo. Monokuma knows many things but he can't read minds to know if she was really trans or not, only she could say it but she died so she couldn't explain if shes trans or not.

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A youtube comment by Gail Frisbee, posted 4 days ago, this comment was edited by the autor. The comment says:

"It's honestly increible to me when people try to argue that a scene in which a female-presenting character gets their genitals groped and then is posthumously referred to as a male from that point on can't be transphobic just because that character calls themselves a boy in some other side content later. It's on about the same level of intellectual honesty as claiming that Quiet from MGS5 isn't really fanservice because she totally breaths throught her skin you guys.

As it turns out, if you really dig down deep into the lore, Chihiro is a fictional character and the same people who wrote the genital investigation scene also wrote the lines that character says in the game as well. It's a shocking twist, I know." ]

Her fears of being outed and people founding out her secret (being trans) or being transphobic is used as a gross big twist. A trans woman being used as a mockery of trans people? Great totally normal (/sarcasm)

Read this post made by a trans woman. I'll be using this only part but it's still a great read.

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So. There is a lot to unpack here, but I want to start with something that specifically hurts me as a trans woman, and that's how the game flippantly uses real world horrors trans people face as shocking reveals and twists. You can go down the list for "worst nightmares" of trans people incluiding:

Threatening to be outed against your wishes

Outing yourself to a trusted friend and being met with rejection, or worse, violence

Having your body and privacy examined and invaded

Having your deadname used and being misgendered after death, when you can't correct them ]

Now, let's go to her backstory for a bit. I will be using the wiki for this. (Which sadly uses he/him for her 💔)

" When Chihiro was a child, he became the subject of harassment and bullying. He was always told to "be a man" and that he was "so weak despite being a boy", and because of that, Chihiro slowly but surely began to develop a "weakness complex". In order to escape the bullying, Chihiro began to dress as a girl so that people wouldn't bully him as a weak boy. "

This doesn't sound like a normal crossdresser, this sounds like a trans woman who was bullied for being different when she was younger, like many trans people, and then she decided to transition because she's a woman, she wanted to be more feminine and stop being seen as a person shes not. Specially after so many people tell her to basically man up when she doesn't want that, because shes not a man.

Have you ever heard of the classic stories of "since I was little i knew i was different, i was a boy who liked playing with dolls and was more feminine than the rest" or "i used to be a tomboy when i was little, i had mostly male friends, i liked playing with car toys and was more masculine than other kids" coming from trans people? This just sounds as these types of stories to me.

People also like to say that alter ego uses he/him pronouns and says shes a boy. Many trans people can misgender themselves for personal reasons too guys, she could've been trying to misgender herself because she didn't felt like she wasn't enough to be a real woman, this happens a lot to trans people. If people constantly tell you that you're not actually transgender or you just feel like you're faking it then you might actually believe it, thats were most "detransitioners" come from. And thats basically what they made her, a detransitioner.

Some of you might also don't get how shes trans because you think she doesn't perfect or exact trans stereotypes. Trans experiences can be similar on the feeling of not fitting in, dysphoria, etc. But trans experiences, stories, transitions and complete lifes can be very different, because we all (including cis people) live different lifes, experience, process and cope with things differently. So i can understand why you might not get her being trans coded at first, don't worry. But try instead of just not caring because you don't get it at the first try, to see what trans people say.

This whole discourse its mostly cis people talking over trans people about their own experiences (incluiding the dead trans coded characters experience) saying if theyre valid or not and denying stuff not wanting to learn anything, completely refusing to it because "In canon hes a boy" ok then in canon shes written in a transphobic way too but most of you don't care about that. You would rather call her a crossdresser than try to acknowledge how obviously trans coded she is and how thats used as transphobia.

The way most cis people act in this discourse is very transphobic to me to be honest, if you think you're a good ally but act like this then you should get more educated on the topic as a whole and about trans people too.

-the trans Chihiro flag to finish this up, she has a bit boobie! good for her! good for her.

#chihiro discourse #discourse #transphobia #transphobia cw #transphobia tw #chihiro fujisaki #if i forgot about something please tell me!! #trigger happy havoc

[huntertherapyeras]

all -5's please!

thanks for asking anon! before y'all continue reading this, i want to warn y'all that it gets heavy at points, as aster lore often does. i put warnings before each triggering topic followed by dots in case you want to avoid reading those responses! happy learning 💜

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

cans all the way!!! super cold soda cans have the best carbonation... soda bottles go next! i find once you've poured the soda into any sort of cup a lot of the carbonation goes away with it and i dont like that >:(

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

bold of you to assume my dyspraxic ass was good at anything during pe. i have very little upper body strength (even after years of gymnastics conditioning trying to build it up), and i couldn't catch or throw a ball until i was like 15 bc my shoulders like to dislocate whenever i use them djnnfnn. also didnt realize until i was an adult that my eyes have totally different prescriptions so my depth perception was garbage the first 20 years of my life which is probably why my left eye is lazy now 😭

but once high school hit and i was able to do gymnastics for all my pe credits thru my homeschool program i did great! lmao

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

ok i know ayn rand is disgusting but anthem kind of changed my life when i first read it. id never seen a writing style like that before and i honestly think it influenced my own writing style a lot!!!!

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

on my laptop! i cant handwrite anymore after my arm injury and writing was already pretty hard before that bc my fine motor skills.... are not so good. learning to type opened up a whole new world for me, im a pro at it now!

25. first song you remember hearing?

is it super weird if i say "a cruel angel's thesis", the neon genesis evangelion theme song? one of my first memories is hearing that song and watching that anime. i was probably like three? Thats Not For Children Mom. but i mean. i guess i turned out ok (lmao) so its FINE!

30. places that you find sacred?

empty beaches. especially when its a little cold out. the ocean seems to stretch endlessly and you can feel the sand between your toes and everything is so quiet and loud at the same time. and then the sun goes down and the tide rises and you're just a little convinced its gonna swallow you right up. you feel so small.

the louisiana bayou at night. it feels like you shouldn't be there. there are spirits roaming the streets. one day when i being babysat at my mom's friend's house i looked out the window and saw a pair of glowing red eyes. i'm not sure if anyone believed me.

35. average time you fall asleep?

that is a LOADED question lol! my sleeping schedule is so weird bc im just now being treated for bipolar after years of being in denial about it and i have a delayed sleep phase + severe sleep apnea. so uhhh. really depends. but when i just follow what my body wants and don't worry about responsibilities i usually pass out around 3/4 am and wake up around 3-5 pm.

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

drugs m, pregnancy loss m

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when i was 12 i nearly skipped another grade and went straight to high school instead of grade 8. i would have stuck with it too, but i was being bullied really heavily at my school (partially bc i was considered a prodigy i guess). it was a small alternative school that encouraged weed smoking. i once found a bud on a desk and everyone tried to act like i wouldnt know what it was even though my mom grew weed medically when i was growing up and supplied like. the entire midwest or whatever. but i went along with it because i didn't want to put a target on us. *shrugs* middle school was hard for me lol. i eventually left the school because the principal mentioned my mom's recent miscarriage in front of everyone. between that and the bullying i just couldn't deal anymore i guess.

the school ended up being closed a year later because of shady stuff. my mom and i kinda saw it as karma i guess

sorry! that story is kind of a bummer!

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45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

ohhhh i think... i think i love science fiction and fantasy equally! especially stuff that weaves the two together, so like science fiction with fantasy elements or fantasy with science fiction explanations! superhero stuff is great too ofc!

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

😳 i dont... remember .... djdnfn my memory is mostly blank spaces tbh..but recently! fandom shitposts i think!

55. favorite fairy tale?

rapunzel hits hard. also the little mermaid.... yeah

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

oh defs slice of life! but like... a slice of life that romanticizes the mundane 💜 there's so much beauty in normal things. ive had such a strange life that i kind of cling to it i think

65. any permanent scars?

a facet of my ehlers danlos syndrome is that i scar easily, and that the scarring is often abnormal and extensive. pretty much every open wound i have ever had has left a scar on me.

the biggest ones i can list: (tw for abuse mentioned, an allusion to self harm (im ok now))

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the discoloration on my right foot from stepping into a pot of boiling water when i was an infant

the gouge on my knee when i fell on it walking when i was 4

the eye shaped scar i have on my right hand from touching a lightbulb when i was 8 (idk what i expected lol)

the place where my bone chipped when i fell out of a tree house when i was 11/12

another gouge on the same knee from falling between the tumble track and the floor when i was 13

the four inch long and inch 1/2 wide flat keloid on my left arm that i have from the surgery to repair my broken arm from where they inserted a titanium plate and screws when i was 15 and the inch long keloid i have from where they tried to insert a rod instead (bone was too misshapen, they did surgery too late)

various scars that i dont wanna say where they came from, but im extremely mentally ill so u can probably guess

the keloid i have on my right arm from my mom biting me when i was 17

another burn mark on my right arm from dropping a glass jar of queso hot from the microwave (again, idk what i expected -_-)

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70. left or right handed?

left handed! but i can use my right for most thinks since my left never fully regained function. i still hold a needle and write with my left hand but everything else i can now do with my right!

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

i mean. i must've been six? i remember my mom kept all my baby teeth in a little unicorn resin jar. i wonder if she still has it 🤔

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

jewel tones!!!! i live for glamour 💕

85. fairy tales or mythology?

mythology!!!! love fairy tales, but theres just something about things people have Believed in. its so special to me. so sacred.

90. luckiest mistake?

something really scary happened last year and the police got involved. i was determined to not be at fault, but im so lucky that no one got hurt and that the person who could have blamed me was on my side and advocated for me 🥺💜

95. favorite app on your phone?

mmmm probably either Hellsite (affectionate) or picsart. i love picsart so much. MEME EDITING??? ON MY PHONE... immaculate

so sorry this got so heavy at points x.x

#go ask aster #aster.exe

[clumsyclifford]

just finished writing this and realized how long it got oh jeez i am so sorry. i promise it is just me rambling about nothing and does not require a lot of thought.

i made a playlist of r5's entire discography and am listening to it (in order) because there is something wrong with me. if only it had their very first ever ep on it (ready set rock ep you may have been slight garbage but i don't love you any less for it). oh god i realized i fucked up and didn't add the songs by "ross lynch and r5" from the austin & ally soundtrack. i'm already three songs into louder and they would have been between louder and say you'll stay. what do i have to do is actually one of r5's best songs and i'm pretty sure i remember ross calling it one of his favs fairly recently?? which was so valid of him. anyways. this is now an r5 song ranking. i'm bored and avoiding doing assignments. i'm going to name my top 10 r5 songs off the top of my head. source: me trying to remember every song they've ever released.

no. 1: easy love. nothing comes close. my fav song they ever made. they haven't made anything that even compares since (this is /hj. tde has some valid songs).

no. 2: wishing i was 23. what do you mean i only love this song because of my nostalgia bias no i don't.

no. 3: what do i have to do? i will not elaborate i do not know why i adore this song as much as i do it's just a cute song.

no. 4: repeating days. THE END. THE FUCKING END AFTER THE SONG ENDS THE "all i've got is cheap wine" PART ross sounds so vulnerable and him with just the guitar makes me so :(((((( it's so gorgeous that part makes the whole song and that makes it top 3 for me.

no. 5: i want u bad. THAT SONG FUCKS LIVE. I DO NOT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THE FACT THAT I WILL PROBABLY NEVER SEE IT LIVE AGAIN. (speaking of concerts i can't believe you bought concert tix and fucking forgot??? that is actually so fucking funny bella it made me laugh i will not lie)

no. 6: dark side. so so valid of them. it just fucks. it's so good. it makes u want to dance. u named a fic after a lyric from it which was so valid.

no. 7: did you have your fun? i love this song. no i will not elaborate. it is a sexy song. what's that one lyric from it that's hot. "love me, leave me, left me numb" some lyrics you love for no particular reason and for me that's one of those lyrics.

no. 8: f.e.e.l.g.o.o.d. this has alwayysss been one of my favs by them. since it dropped. some lore about it: the like crowd yelling that's in it they recorded live at a festival they played and i remember there being hype about this being an unreleased song when they had the crowd chanting "f-e-e-l-g-o-o-d" with no explanation. also another fun fact is that the final version of this is just a demo?? source: my slightly faulty memory remembering ross saying something about some demos being so good that you keep them as they are and it later being revealed this was the song he was talking about.

no. 9: i know you got away. sexy song. they released a vocals only version of it (that has apparently since been deleted?? i went to look for it on youtube and couldn't find it?? wtf r5) that has stuck with me ever since.

no. 10: loud. but more specifically the acoustic or live version. this was their encore song that they played to end every show. i MISS IT. it holds a special place in my heart.

honorable mentions: hurts good (a good song and THEIR LAST THEY EVER RELEASED VV SAD), wild hearts (fun fact almost picked a lyric from this song as my senior quote till i found out they didn't write this song), fallin' for you (YOU LIKE MISMATCHED SOCKS WITH POLKA DOTS YOU LIKE YOUR PIZZA COLD I THINK THATS HOT i never saw this song live and i'm still fucking pissed about it ok), do it again (it's such a sweet song :(((( "listen to the airplanes as we count the stars" gives me the same vibes as six feet under the stars), things are looking up (generally just a cute song!! this whole ep is just very good and very cute!! when i saw it live one time during the bridge ross was like "everyone shut up this is my favorite part >:(" and that was so valid of him) i can't say i'm in love (it's just a fun song!! it was a bonus track on sln from another country), trading time (this is the only song from the new addictions ep that i listed and u know what i'm Not sorry)

ok. i will spare you and stop rambling. other honorable mentions: if you have never listened to cool girl (feat. the driver era) by new beat fund i highly recommend. it's an okay song but it was one of the first songs released after they rebranded as tde and includes ross saying motherfucker with his whole chest. i will never again feel what i felt the first time i heard that song having listened exclusively to them as r5 whose songs they couldn't curse in because they were on a disney label.

in conclusion. i miss r5. ross saying fuck is kinda hot. i listened to the entirety of louder while writing this. i am sorry to dump this in your askbox. i still have multiple assignments to do and should probably go to sleep at a decent time. it feels fitting to finally stop writing while easy love is on. when i was 12 and this ep came out i thought "dirtbags" was a curse word and was scared to sing it. they changed it to "douchebags" live.

that's all. goodbye. have a lovely night. listen to r5's discography for clear skin thriving crops etc etc. sorry to lovepost about them in your askbox i only have (1) former r5 mutual that i still talk to (a very interesting but long story. she's the gemini bestie) and she will only lovepost about r5 once in a while. feel free to ignore my ask calling cody bellinger hot i was a different person when i wrote it i am now a changed woman. LOVE YOU MWAH - bella but she misses r5

hi hi im going to answer this with minimal thought because im tired but i dont wanna leave this sitting in my inbox forever but for the record all your r5 opinions are valid. ok lets go

1. easy love slaps ive heard it a couple times over the last few days (it played in the car today while i was driving sam n meghna to the airport) and it does fuck i can see why it's your fave

2. i do not know this song

3. A BOP A WHOLE FUCKIN BOP

4. oh i do love repeating days great choice i would have to hear it a few more times to get it in my head but i remember really liking it when i listened to the album it's on

5. also a banger and i'm glad my concert tickets situation made you laugh it made me laugh too imagine being this useless gldskfjgs

6. DARK SIDE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKS GIVE IN TO YOUR DARK SIDE YOUR DARK SIDE IIIIIIIII SEE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT MEEEEE

7. ANOTHER FUCKING BANGER this one is probably among my favorite r5 songs maybe top 5 LOVE ME LEAVE ME LEFT ME NUMB (guitar moment) DID YOU HAVE YOUR FUUUuuuuUUUUUNNNNN i feel the same way about this lyric as you

8. oh shit thats pretty cool i dont know this song tbh i cant remember how it goes i know ive heard it once or twice but. id have to listen to it again so i will keep you posted on that

9. i do not know this one either

10. interesting choice for top ten but i support you, this song fucks and ever since you mentioned it it's been in my subconscious and randomly getting stuck in my head i think i need to listen to it to get it out. it does hit ur right

11. i don't know hurts good or wild hearts or things are looking up or i can't say i'm in love or trading time well enough to say anything about them. but i really like fallin for you it's one of those cheap fun songs but emphasis on fun, and also really like do it again one day ill write a fic based on that song

i have not listened to cool girl i put it on my to listen playlist so hopefully i remember to listen to it soon ill be honest though i dont think im prepared for ross lynch saying motherfucker w his whole chest like i think itll take me out. so. anyway. i hope you got your assignments done. thank you for the r5 lovedump feel free to drop in anytime with more

#this is a love-positive zone #we love love #here on clumsyclifford we support insane obsessions because we also have insane obsessions #ask #cubs anon #anonymous #lol i was telling my dad that i talked to rian and zack but said the most generic things ever #and i was like. i mean there were things that i would have wanted to ask but if i had then they would have known that-- #-- im like super obsessed with them in a kind of creepy way. like i wanted to ask rian what time alex was born #...so we can figure out his rising sign so we can make his star chart #and my dad was like . why would you need that #and i said. you know for funsies #he was like do you think he would even know that #and i said well in our collective opinions we think alex wouldnt know what time he was born but rian and/or jack probably would #and my dad was like its a good thing you didnt ask him that. it would have been creepy. #and i was like I KNOW THATS WHY I DIDNT ASK BECAUSE I KNEW IT WOULD HAVE BEEN CREEPY BRO #so anyway #i dont remember why i started telling this story #its 1am im so tired ive had the longest two days ever #i need sleep im going to die #i cant believe classes in two days #end me