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genericpuff · 5 months

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The Kiss Bet Episode 172 - Hot Pot and Venting About How I Want My 70 Cents Back

Okay, look, this isn't a post I was expecting to make today but it's something that just happened and I have to fucking talk about, so let me preface this with some context.

I had to buy coins recently and because I switched to using my iPad for reading comics on, I got a "new reader" type deal from Webtoons for a coin bundle that got me like 100 coins for $5; because technically it was a 'new account' as Webtoons operates their in-game currency model on apps, not on actual emails (meaning if you use the app on an Android phone and then switch to an Apple iOS device, they're technically two separate accounts which you sync the reading data between via the account info linked via the email, therefore they have two separate coin wallets).

So with more coins than I knew what to do with, I decided to start FastPassing The Kiss Bet again, which I had recently stopped FP'ing around the S3 mark, as it's recently devolved back into the "will they won't they" trope, but instead of between Sara-Lin and Joe, it's between Sara-Lin and Joe's younger brother (the "true endgame") Oliver.

Now I don't mind the ship in essence. Joe was definitely not gonna be endgame, it was always gonna be Oliver, anyone who's read any amount of romance before - especially high school romances - knows how this shit tends to go, and The Kiss Bet isn't exactly trying to be groundbreaking or subversive in any way, it knows exactly what it's about and what it's trying to accomplish.

But it's almost become a little too good at this. Because in playing the "will they won't they" game for so long with a character that we know is endgame, it's basically been weeks and weeks and weeks of-

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That said, after I caught up on the recent FP episodes, it seemed like stuff was finally moving a little bit. We were finally meeting Oliver's mom and his stepdad who he has a fractured relationship with, Joe was finally getting with his true endgame girl, Vicky (who's totally not an exact genderbent version of Joe lmao) and Sara-Lin was finally realizing she had feelings for Oliver.

And then the newest episode came out, Episode 172 - Hot Pot and Venting.

CAUTION: FASTPASS SPOILERS FOR THE KISS BET OFFICIALLY BEGIN HERE!

Already I was a little petty over the title like "lmao ok clunky title but whatever". I swept it off as not a genuine criticism, just me being a nitpicking asshole over what's essentially Fluff: The Comic.

The episode cost 7 coins, which is about roughly 70 cents, albeit closer to a dollar for Canadian readers (here's something they don't tell you about Canada - our Monopoly game currency is just as fucked as it looks) and that's where I'm gonna get into my second disclaimer that I need to be perfectly clear about (and it'll be what we get more into later on in this post).

I understand the principle of paying for art. I understand fully that many of these webtoons are being produced on tight deadlines by creators who often can only afford 1-2 assistants, if any at all. I understand and fully agree that creators deserve to be paid for their skills, time, and efforts, not just as creators working on the hellsite that is Webtoons, but as artists in general who deserve to make a living the same as anyone else. Anyone who follows my stuff here knows I'm an artist myself so I would never debate the ethical necessity of paying artists for their work.

However.

I can say that, and also agree with the people who have stated in discussion circles such as on /r/webtoons that a lot of the comics that have started charging 7 coins have been suspiciously delivering less comic since. And it's not even so much in the literal panel count, the liquid volume of these comics have remained the same, but the calorie count has dropped significantly. Food metaphors aside, what I mean is that despite many of these comics maintaining their 40-60 minimum panel count requirement, they have in fact reduced the actual amount of content that happens in them, and The Kiss Bet's newest episode is a stark example of what I mean.

I am going to start by posting only post three panels - three panels that literally sum up the entirety of Episode 172 and what it chooses to spend its time on.

That is it. That is literally all that's established in this episode. I'd tell you to go read it yourself, but honestly, this is genuinely one of those rare times I can honestly say that a 40+ panel episode is not worth 70 cents and you'd be better off, and that's saying a LOT when these episodes are only priced at the cost of a gumball. At least Lore Olympus has entertainment in how bad it is most of the time, Episode 172 of The Kiss Bet is just nothing. You will literally get more substance and flavor from an actual gumball.

Literally every other panel in this episode is either repeating the same dialogue (Sara-Lin saying the same thing multiple different times to express how Oliver is holding her hand or how his stepdad is a dick) and then Sara-Lin and Oliver staring at each other. Over. And over. Again.

I am not joking. I did not cut anything out in that sequence. That is where the episode ends. Complete nothingburger, seemingly cut off right as it was just getting started like Cait Corrain's career.

Out of the entire episode, there were 45 panels. So I can safely assume Ingrid's minimum panel requirement is at least 40 per episode, that's me assuming the best that she didn't exactly meet her panel minimum at 45 panels on the dot.

Out of those 45 panels, there were:

Two actual unique backgrounds that weren't gradients or just a single piece of furniture

4 separate panels of Sara-Lin freaking out over Oliver holding her hand and wondering if he even noticed

10 panels of Sara-Lin staring at Oliver either dumbfounded or asking him to repeat himself (or apologizing over nothing)

5 panels of the characters saying nothing

11 panels of Sara-Lin repeating information in different ways that could have been accomplished in half that time

Two separate occasions of Oliver getting Sara's attention from off-panel, literally formatted the exact same way both times (and both followed by reaction panels of Sara-Lin staring at him dumbfounded)

Way too many panels of Sara-Lin blushing in response to Oliver being an asshole tbh like literally this guy's a douchebag, Joe may have been the "out of her league" love interest but at least he was nice and didn't treat Sara-Lin like someone who just bought a Husky as a "starter pet" ???

Again, I don't usually like being a dick about the coin costs, and I definitely don't like being a hypocrite in telling people they should pay artists for their work while simultaneously posting their paywalled content like this, but I think there does come a point where it feels more irresponsible for people to not be aware of what they're about to pay for and how little they're going to be getting. This episode is literally one of the best - and worst - examples of how far the romance genre has fallen on the platform - when it's not being overtaken and oversaturated by problematic series that romanticize abuse and sexual assault, it's being dragged to death with the most boring executions of tropes that everyone has seen before and is only exciting for anyone who's never read a book or watched a romance movie, period.

And here's the thing where I do approach a bit more "hot take" territory, but every time I see this argument come up about episodes not being worth the coin cost, I see others who rightfully argue that 70 cents isn't that much to pay for what you're getting - weekly episodes of work that are usually always delivered on time, with more panels than you would ever typically see in a free to read comic.

But here's where I take issue with that argument, as much as the principle of it is sound, it misses the overall point: readers are paying for entertainment first and foremost, so can anyone who's actually paying for regular refills on their app currency step away from this and truly call it "entertainment"? Nothing was gained. The comic had 45 panels to say something, anything, and managed to not even squeak out so much of a word. Even the silent moments have no substance, they just reiterate information that we already know.

Do we really need another panel of Sara-Lin blushing at Oliver? We've known for weeks now that she has a crush on him. Do we really need another panel of Oliver getting Sara-Lin's attention? What is this actually showing of their chemistry? What is being shown here that hasn't been shown numerous times - with and without dialogue - for weeks now? What does the comic have to show for itself after four seasons?

Another point of the "it's just 70 cents, don't be an asshole" argument that people seem to miss is it's not 70 cents. It's $1. Because if you want to buy a single episode of the Kiss Bet, you can't just pay for the individual episode in isolation, you have to pay for the coins first, and $1 is the absolute bare minimum you have to pay to get 10 coins, which will only pay for one episode of a 7 coin series - of which there are many now, basically any series that's 40 panels or more will cost 7 coins and, shocker, those are the series that WT will tend to promote most, you'll rarely see the 5 coins series in the banner ads, and that's not even getting into how there are more and more series cropping up that have 5+ episodes behind FP rather than the traditional three.

So if you're someone who's (almost definitely) keeping up with more than one series? You can't just pay the $1, you have to pay at least $5 for 50 coins, and that will NOT go far anymore or cut as evenly as it used to when just about every series is now 7 coins. Webtoons knows fully well what kind of game they're playing by making the new coin cost an uneven number while still offering increments of 5/10 in their coin bundles. They undoubtedly want you to be left with an uneven number so that you'll be easily lured into buying more coins so you don't 'waste' the uneven amount you have left that isn't enough to buy the episodes for the series you want to read. Obviously this is more speculation and not fact, but it's a common business model and with the series that have adopted the 7 coin count model (rather than starting off with 7 coins outright) such as The Kiss Bet and Lore Olympus, it's becoming abundantly clear that either the creators or the platform itself is encouraging these series to meet their panel minimums with as little content as possible in order to get more money out of readers who are barely even being drip fed actual entertainment and narrative progression, let alone spoon fed.

And then there's the waiting. The goddamn waiting. So many of these series guilty of siphoning their content off through a hose that they're deliberately standing on are designed intentionally with the most egregious cliffhangers in mind to keep their audience hooked so they'll undoubtedly FP next week. Do you know what that amount of waiting does to a comic? To its readers? First off, it artificially extends the actual pacing of the comic to make it feel longer than it is, when in reality, many of these plotlines are happening in a vacuum of very short bursts of time. Case in point, Lore Olympus is commonly confused for having a plotline that takes place over the course of months, when actually when laid end to end in order of cause and effect, many of its subplots - including the romance of Hades and Persephone - takes place over the course of days. This over-inflates the plotline's actual depth and, even worse so, it makes it harder for readers to keep up with information that's being delivered, as it often takes weeks for that information to actually go anywhere - so by the time it does, many readers have straight up forgotten about it.

It's absolutely not okay that so many of these kinds of series are normalizing literal slow burning for an audience who's paying to be entertained. It's not a "slow burn". It's just slow, and deliberately so. It's absolutely NOT FUN to follow a comic that does not go anywhere week after week. It's frustrating. And before long, it starts to feel like gambler's fallacy, where readers have to essentially gaslight themselves into paying into it more and more convinced that it has to pay off eventually, based on a promise that was never actually made, only assumed in good faith. And readers should not have to fill in the bulk of the content that isn't happening with their own imaginations, which is something that happens a LOT in these series that spend so much time on the characters just staring at each other and saying nothing. It's not 'plot' to just draw characters blushing and have your audience fill in the rest of it entirely on their own. This is certainly a technique in writing, but in the case of The Kiss Bet and other comics like it, it's much less of a valid technique and more just flat out manipulating your audience into falling so hard into the sunk cost fallacy trap that they don't notice they're being robbed blind by the plot that hasn't actually happened - and they've been paying for that financial and emotional robbery out of their own pockets and brains every step of the way.

Again, I do not care about the coin cost in and of itself, seventy cents IS still an incredibly cheap price for weekly updates of a series that has to put out so many panels each week. But as a reader and a customer, I should not be leaving these updates with less information than what I started with. And I'm someone who's incredibly old school by webcomic standards, there are comics that I follow that have updated 1-2 pages a week for over a decade that manage to do more with their limited pages than Lore Olympus and The Kiss Bet manage to do after entire hiatuses filled with pre-production time.

Why does this page of Alfie manage to move both the intrinsic plot of the titular character as well as the external plot that's going on around her in one page made up of 5 panels better than what The Kiss Bet can do in 45?

Why does this page of Tamberlane manage to convey more information about the world's lore and the people in it in a way that's emotionally driven and clearly affecting the characters without outright info-dumping than what Lore Olympus has managed to spit out onto its plate since S3 started over a year ago?

How does Tales from Alderwood manage to be more entertaining and convey more meaningful storytelling through its characters in a single page consisting of zero dialogue than what The Kiss Bet can convey in its silent panels of staring, blushing, and repetitive stuttering?

Why are the creators who are relying entirely on their own efforts, resources, and ability to generate income through community interaction and support putting out better work with less panels and on slower schedules for FREE than what we're seeing from professional creators on a professional publishing platform who are being paid to do this as their job?

There's this saying in the tattooing industry: good work isn't cheap and cheap work isn't good.

At this point, 70 cents is not a 'bargain' as many people like to argue in defense of the creators. And while I do want to have good faith in the creators who don't pull this shit, the creators who clearly go above and beyond to do what they do in the pursuit of storytelling and polishing their craft to be the best piece of work that it can be - the comics that are worth paying 70 cents and beyond for - are not the comics that Webtoons is promoting to people. The creators of the works that genuinely deserve more than 70 cents per update are being left to fend for themselves without support from the platform, while those that aren't worth the price of even a flavorless gumball are consistently winning the Wonka Golden Ticket lottery.

The cost of 70 cents is relative. For some works it's a genuine bargain. For others like the The Kiss Bet and Lore Olympus, 70 cents is not a "bargain", it's not a "good deal", it's exactly the value of what you're paying for - cheap work that isn't good.

#so yeah i'm done reading the kiss bet fr now #i figured if i had 100 more coins than i needed i may as well use them for something that i didn't need to start from scratch on #but i literally feel ripped off LMAO #webtoon critical #the kiss bet #lore olympus critical #anti lore olympus #lo critical #Youtube

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bananas-for-bananas · 1 year

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Weight loss journey, Day 2

December 26th, 2022

Hey all! I will be writing both of my entries today. I had a looong day at work yesterday, and couldnt even think long enough to write an entry hahaha :). So basically, even though this will be posted on December 27th, this particular entry will be for yesterday, december 26th. Lets get started!

Weight

I didn't really bother checking my weight today, moreso I simply forgot lololol

breakfast

for breakfast I ate a few bites of some overnight oats I made the night before. I made this with 1 mashed banana, 1 spoonful of vanilla whole milk yogurt, a cup of oats and a cup of unsweetened oatmilk, some honey and a dash of cinnamon. However, I have no clue what I did wrong, but my oats were sooo runny and soupy. I am also not a morning person, and i usually can't eat first thing in the morning bc it hurts my tummy :(

banana overnight oats- in total, 100.5 kcal

since i only took 2-3 bites, i used an app called cronometer to approximate my calorie intake.

lunch

today I went grocery shopping, and even treated myself to some starbucks :) i went grocery shopping with a goal of spending less than 50 dollars, but the store i regularly go to had a massive after Christmas sale, so I ended up spending... 88 dollars HAHA. i wanted to try and incorporate more fruit into my diet and their ad said that a bunch of fruit was on sale, but I didn't consider the fact the ad was going to change literally that day, nor did i consider the fact that we recently had a massive snowstorm so i had to get mostly veggies and only a few fruit this time. Still, i managed not to get anything overly unhealthy so its a good start! when i got home, I was craving rice, so I sautéed sweet potato and kale, and topped that onto rice and topped it all with a sunny side up egg (my favorite!)

3/4 cup cooked white rice - 154 kcal

1.5 tbs olive oil - 179 kcal

1/3 chopped sweet potato - 45 kcal

1 oz kale, cooked from fresh - 10.2 kcal

1 egg, cooked - 77.5 kcal

dinner

for dinner, i repurposed the leftover sweet potato, kale, and rice into a curry. I absolutely love curry, and even though mine may not be as authentic as it could be, I feel as if the beauty in authentic foods is working with what you have to create a delicious meal. I seriously enjoy learning about different cultures, and i feel as if food is a great visual in learning about culture. As an American i know i am blessed to be able to experience these things, and i hope that we as people can come to start enjoying more foods from around the world :) the best part about tonights dinner is i still had some leftovers to enjoy today! also, my curry was so hot it burned my bootyhole, but if youd like my recipe just ask!

1/3 chopped sweet potato - 45 kcal

1 oz kale, cooked from fresh - 10.2 kcal

1.5 tbs olive oil - 179 kcal

1/2 small chopped white onion, cooked - 13.2 kcal

1 tbs heavy whipping cream - 51 kcal

1 cup oatmilk, unsweetened - 45 kcal

3/4 cup cooked rice - 154 kcal

,1 tbs tomato paste - 13.1 kcal

snacks

i notice that i always be wanting to snack late at night, and i usually crave something crunchy or salty, like potato chips. When at the store, some containers of mixed nuts were on sale for 50% off, so of COURSE i got 2 containers! for my snack I ate a handful of mixed nuts, and I was satisfied the rest of the night!

0.2 oz mixed nuts - 33.7 kcal

exercise

today i worked, which isnt REALLY hard labor, but i definitely burn some calories since i do a lot of walking/running for my job in fast food service and we have a decent size store. I worked about 6 hours, and usually when calculating the calories i've lost at work i take off about 2 hours from my total hours on shift into the app mentioned above for the time i am standing around. Again, everything is approximate and I dont take it too seriously

4 hours/240 min, restaurant/bakery, light - 397 kcal

calories consumed - 1111.6 kcal calories burned - 397 kcal

total calories - 714.6

Again, i suck at math so all of my calculations are approximate. As well, I dont count drinks or seasonings- I only count oil because I personally want to use less oil, and counting oil gives me a visual on just how much I use and how much it actually affects me. I drink coffee everyday, and while i could try and calculate it, there is no point to me because i hate the taste of black coffee, and coffee makes me happy so i am not willing to change that, even if sometimes it might be a lot of calories in my diet. the point of this blog is for me to make healthier choices in my food, and therefore i calculate the calories in my food. if i did calculate my coffee, it would probably be an additional 200 calories most days, but for today my starbucks order was a venti brown sugar oatmilk shaken espresso with 4 pumps classic syrup (soooooo good!)

24 oz brown sugar oatmilk shaken espresso - 190 kcal

4 pumps classic - 80 kcal

add that to my total calories and it would be equal to 984.6 kcal, which seems more healthy anyways. The point is, don't worry about me if my calorie count is super low, it is because of these omissions in my daily coffee and spices :)

anyways, have a good day yall, and I will see you all later with my next entry!

#tw weight #weight loss #food diary #food #diary entry #diaryposting #tumblr diary #personal #personal post #weight loss journey

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throwingmuses · 2 years

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need 2 vent about the shit show that was the doctors appt i had yesterday 🤩 cw for weight ment and other eating disorder stuff

ok so basically its been an extreme pain to get into this ed program because i need medical clearance (including blood work) before i can start bc the clinic isnt equipped to help treat medical issues. essentially i have to have a doctor order the blood test or else id have to pay out of pocket and order the tests myself (which i definitely dont have the money for rn), but the soonest appointment my doctor had available was over a month out. so i tried going to several of those walk in clinics and all of them gave me some convoluded answer essentially saying they couldnt help me. finally i found someplace that let me make an appointment with another doctor that was a bit sooner than my other one, so i went ahead and did that. i walked into it expecting it to be pretty brief, and i was confused at first why the doctor was doing a psych assessment when all i needed was a quick physical checkup??? but i was really tired and confused so i just went along with it anyways. from the second i walked in the doctor seemed very irritated and was acting rude for literally no reason. i tried to just let it roll off my shoulders because i desperately needed someone to just order these goddamn blood tests and sign a paper saying im good to go. but then, when she asked me my current height/weight, i told her that i was 5'4 and 120lb, to which she actually fucking responded by saying "Wow, you weigh more than me!" which was EXTREMELY TRIGGERING and has been fucking haunting me in the form of obsessive thoughts ever since. she also implied that my current therapist/psychiatrist wasnt very informed because shes a recent graduate when in reality shes the most knowledgable and up front psych ive ever had and this bitch who thinks shes the hot shit didnt even know that there were different types of bipolar disorder. clearly her "knowledge" of psychology as a whole is extremely outdated. anyways towards the end of the meeting, she told me straight up that the clinic probably wouldnt accept me because im at a healthy weight which is total bullshit because thats not how it works whatsoever and i was already ACCEPTED into the program regardless of my weight. ive had this issue a lot over the years with providers not believing that im anorexic because ive never lost a significant amount of weight and the worst medical issue ive had was having low potassium and almost passing out at work, and im forever fucking baffled as to why that is because i often eat less than 1000 calories per day. like im grateful for my body continuing to take care of me despite all of the hell i put it through, but just because im healthy on paper doesnt mean this shit doesnt terrorize me on a daily basis. anyways at that point i just fucking snapped (which is very out of character for me cuz im rather shy) and i told her that she had no idea what she was even talking about, that anyone with half a brain let alone a degree in psychology shouldnt talk to someone with an eating disorder like that (which she KNEW i had walking into this bc thats what the whole appointment was about), and explaining to her that the stress i have around food is ruining my life and preventing me from doing pretty much anything i want/have to do. after yelling at her she changed her disposition entirely and started acting like a dog with its tail between its legs which was pretty gratifying at least. i was like openly sobbing very loudly afterward tho and like everyone in the office could hear me which i found to be embarassing but Oh Well. then me and my bf talked to her supervisior and told them what happened and they were actually very receptive and apologetic so heres to hoping she gets fired (: also she wasnt even a fuckin doctor so the whole thing was pointless but luckily i got an earlier appointment with my doctor cuz someone cancelled But Yeah Ive Been Fucked Up Ever Since

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mikaze-discord · 3 years

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HEAVENS: Love letters

Soooo this is the last of the love letter, I really must reiterate how thankful I am to the people who responded to my message. Specially thankful for the people who ended up writing for one of the boys, all of the love letter writers are so cool. If you wanted to write your own love letter for your oshi then feel free too!! Utapri Tumblr is kinda dead.... but! I hope you enjoyed the love letters

Please enjoy under cut!!!!!!!!!!!!

EIJI OTORI

From Anon:

Eiji Otori is another member of HEAVENS and he is a down-to-earth type of character. One can say he is a cinnamon roll as he looks out for HEAVENS and his brother, Eiichi. Eiji talks in a formal manner to people outside of HEAVENS and addresses them by their surname like the time he worked with Tokiya for Mighty Aura, or when he was working with Camus and Masato for Feather in Hand. Around HEAVENS, Eiji talks casually, calling them by their first name. He is very mindful of other members of HEAVENS and Eiji keeps an open mind for ways to improve his skills as an idol and to help out his bandmates come to a solution where both sides agree. Eiji speaks very fondly of the people he works with formality and a lot of respect.

What I love about Eiji is his relationship with his brother, Eiichi Otori. The two have a strong bond as Eiichi looked after and took care of Eiji when growing up. The two of them are inseparable and do a lot together while looking after each other. Personally, their sibling bond is what I wish to have with my sibling as well, even though we're complete opposites like day and night! Their interactions are easily seen throughout the anime, you can even see their sibling bond show the most through HEAVENS Radio as Eiichi and Eiji are the co-hosts. If there is anything that I'd like to know more about Eiji, it would be about his hobby, gardening. He has a lot of knowledge on plants and perhaps agriculture. It'd be nice to see HEAVENS talk about their hobbies one day. But all in all, Eiji is a great character that I appreciate with a heart of gold!

From Anon:

Eiji Otori, the 4th member of HEAVENS is one of my two most favorite characters in Utapri. I was originally drawn to his kind and gentle demeanor, that made him such an easily lovable character. He was introduced in the 4th season of the anime in the cross idol unit episodes. The way he treated Tokiya besides knowing he was part of the rival idol group ended up becoming an essential part of Tokiya’s later character growth. Although Eiji is meant to be a foil for Tokiya’s character their personalities are completely polar opposites, their devotion to wanting to be an idol being one of the only similarities besides level headedness. Eiji is his own character, right down the way he speaks to the way he sings. Eiji seems to always carry the group in a loving and family-like way, even going as far as having domestic hobbies like gardening and baking. We always see him and even hear the way he interacts with the other members of HEAVENS on the radio show as if they were an inseparable family. Eiichi, his older brother and the leader of HEAVENS loves him in a way that is so complex but Eiji will always love him back with every fiber of his being to the deepest parts of his soul. There is a deep connection between the brothers that is so beautiful that even poetry couldn’t express, it’s more profound then words can show. It’s a bond they share that only they know, like a secret.

However, even then there is so much more about Eiji that makes him such a wonderful character. When it comes to myself, Eiji hits a bit close to home in a more personal way. Perhaps that is also a factor in why I love him so much. I empathize with him and I can see through his eyes in ways only a younger sibling would know. As a younger sister to a sibling who has always been in the spotlight in some form of way with a big presence, I always lived in her shadow, but I admired her and cared about her above anything else. The way Eiji feels about Eiichi is something that I can personally relate with and understand. Eiichi is an essential part of Eiji’s character and the anime does not lack to show this, nor does it lack to show that Eiji is just as much an essential part of Eiichi’s character. It’s more obvious in the radio show that is hosted by the two brother but it’s not fully ignored either in the anime. I love how Eiji interacts with all of the characters, and seems to find ways to treat everyone with kindness even if they aren’t kind to him in return. He admires those who show a deep love for the things he does, and respects those who are more experienced then he is. He’s always eager to learn

and please. He’s the kind of person you’d always want around and you’d want a hug when things get rough. Eiji is definitely the most pure hearted character of all the Utapri characters. And, I’ll always stand by that through and through.

VAN KIRYUIN

From @whereisvanderwood:

Kiryuin Van. Where to start? He’s cocky. He’s cocky as all hell. There’s something in his air that is poised yet undignified. Childish yet mature. The man is founded on juxtaposition, not dissimilar to a painting of Picasso. His ability to be unique in an industry that begs for individuality, to rise above a tidal wave of competition and stand apart from other fish in the sea, is awe-inspiring. Expectation is dead to him; though the oldest member of Heavens, the weight of bearing the role as ‘most mature’ or the ‘parent’ of the group couldn’t be further from his concern. He is only any dimension of himself he wants to be at any given time. Dumb bitch by morning, bad bitch by night. Much like his bandmates, his confidence and intimidating aura is unwavering. He claims his victory before a race begins, and I couldn’t say if that undying faith in oneself is a skill or a sin. Whatever it is, he owns it. He shamelessly, unapologetically owns who he is and shares it with his fans, friends and enemies.

Also, he’s hot. He’s very appealing to the human eye. His ruggedness reminds me of a warm blanket in winter. His voice, oh his voice. If the world was about to blow up and he just said “No it won’t”, in his own way, I think I’d believe him. Regardless of what he says being juvenile or mature, he’s always authentic. No sugar coats, no little white lies, only genuity. As just said before, he is who he is and wouldn’t change for anyone if it wasn’t in his own best interest. Who couldn’t love a guy like that?

YAMATO HYUGA

From @kusagiiiii:

I'll be honest, I used to forget Yamato exists alot LMAO I fell in love with him when I was looking at a HEAVENS group photo! I think he is a very stronk,very cute and a very soft boy! in some ways haha he's my type

I honestly wish there would be more story on the HEAVENS boys since they all seem like they had a pretty rough past so yee that's basically it~

From Sammy:

Everybody, listen up! It’s Sammy here! Are you ready for some strong appreciation? Let’s shout it out! Yeah!!

Where do I begin when it comes to Yamato? It took me a while to actually like him. At first, I wasn’t a fan of how he was when he first showed up in the anime. I still remember when Yamato was one of the few HEAVENS members people really didn’t like or care much for, next to Eiichi and Nagi.

I used to be one of those people too with Yamato. I found him to be very stubborn, but over time after listening to HEAVENS Radio; The Drama CDs; Watching Maji Love Kingdom, etc… I came to realize there’s so much more to him.

I’ve learned a lot more about him, especially through role-playing as him, and my love for Yamato skyrocketed. Even with all the new content that’s been coming out for HEAVENS lately like Black Garden and Endless Score, my love grows even more every day. Yamato sneaked his way up to being one of my best boys.

Yamato is HEAVENS’ Strongest member. (Seriously, how the heck does this boy train everyday and do so much of it?!) He’s not always aggressive and violent. He’s actually a really thoughtful person who cares about his friends a lot, even being very protective of them. Yamato is the kind of person that’ll immediately stop what he’s doing, and only think about how to help the other person feel better.

A lot of things tend to be overlooked for him cause of how he’s written in the anime, and there’s fans who only pay attention to that. Not even giving the extra content a thought or a single glance.

As Ryuya’s younger brother, Yamato has his own insecurities, especially since he’s always seen as just a shadow. He’s been trapped in darkness where he feels he’s not good enough to be appreciated and loved as his own person. He doesn’t know what to do and which path to take. Yamato only became an idol just to defeat and finally be better than Ryuya at something. I feel that goal is still there, but it’s not a major one like before. Now, Yamato has people like the other members of HEAVENS, the angels, and the other idols. He found his light and happiness.

Overall, Yamato is the kind of person he wants everyone to be proud of. He wants to always share his strongest power and energy, carrying the burden of everybody’s smiles. Wanting to see those around him happy and be the best they can be.

Another part that I really like about Yamato is whenever he gets embarrassed. I can’t help, but find that really cute cause it’s something we don’t see or hear out of him a lot.

There’s also the times he demonstrates how much he loves food. Even though he overeats and knows he can’t help it when he’s hungry, I really liked when Yamato stated that if eating makes you happy, go for it. Just make sure you train afterwards to burn off calories. It helps people feel good about themselves.

Even the times when Yamato struggles with difficult words, specifically English and kanji. It’s embarrassing for him to admit, but he knows he’s not good at that sort of thing. What I really like about this is HEAVENS is always willing to help him, even Tokiya and Cecil. They help keep things simple and easy for Yamato to understand.

There’s a lot you can say I just simply vibe with when it comes to Yamato, and I love him. Hope everyone enjoys this long appreciation of this strong boy, and I hope you all love him too!

SHION AMAKUSA

From Anon:

When I saw Shion for the first time, he caught my attention with his beautiful appearance. His cream-white hair, his periwinkle eyes and his pale skin were a wonderful combination that I just couldn't ignore. Physically, he was exactly the type of character I love… Even his hairstyle is great! And what to say about his pretty face! To me, he looked like an angel.

His style in clothes is something I also like about him. With all this mixed, the only word I can use to describe him is "perfect".

But, of course, there's more than just physical appearance. Shion's way of speaking, as we all know, is quite… Particular. And those beautiful words made me be more interested in this boy, even if they were a bit difficult to understand. This characteristic is something that, in my opinion, makes him special, not only in his group but among all the groups.

That poetic way of speaking is a beautiful combination with his voice. When he speaks I find it so mystical… And when he sings his solo songs I feel relaxed and even a bit emotional. He's not an angel just physically, he also sings like one!

But what made me love him completely was his personality. To be honest, at first I didn't understand why he acted so hostile to Cecil and signed with him, but when it was explained later I could see his point of view and I felt sorry for him, for how he was feeling and the big sacrifice he was making if we take into account his thoughts.

Loyalty is something I value a lot, and Shion has a huge loyalty towards his friends. After that incident, he changes his way of thinking and he starts getting more friendly to the rest, something I find beautiful.

I also find him very cute, an extra point for me to like him. His -sometimes- childish attitude is adorable! And how he acts around his friends… So lovely!

I also feel a bit similar to him in some aspects, such as listening to the same song again and again, liking birds or even usually feeling sleepy, besides other things. These similarities make me feel connected in some way with him.

Shion is a very special character for me, and I can't wait to see more content about him, to know more about this wonderful boy, for example, about his family, where he is from, how he ended up in HEAVENS, how he started to speak the way he does… There are a lot of things we don't know yet and I hope we can get more information about Shion soon!

#utapri #utanoprincesama #uta no prince sama #eiji otori #otori eiji #shion amakusa #amakusa shion #kiryuin van #van kiryuin #hyuga yamato #Yamato Hyuga

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affection-starved-starfish · 3 years

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A reminder to myself to never let anyone cook for me ever again : my dad made raviolis with pesto sauce tonight. And he put the WHOLE FUCKING JAR OF PESTO in the raviolis. That’s 558 calories just for the sauce. So basically I just ate approximately 300 cals of pasta and 300 cals of pesto for diner 🤡 that’s an overestimation since I ate a much smaller portion than him but still omg.

As soon as I realised what he did I told him it was not some basic tomato sauce and that it had a lot more fat and salt. I looked up the calories and sat in front of my plate and I just felt like crying. I literally had to hold back tears. I finished my plate without enjoying a single bite because I was still trying not to cry because fuck that’s what a normal person would do. And then I felt the binge urges grow. I felt my mindset change and the little voice tell me that I was gross for eating this and that I was weak, I should’ve found a way out of eating it and that now that everything was ruined I might as well binge. I started thinking about the bread on the table, the butter in the fridge, the cheese, the desserts, the biscuits, the chocolate. All the things I wanted to eat, all the usual things I go for once the switch in my brain has flipped.

And I didn’t. YOU GUYS I DIDNT BINGE. I’m in my room right now writing this, the urge is gone and I feel like I can breath again. I don’t really know how I did it because for so many years I have been completely unable to break free. Add to this the fact that today the trigger was really strong, that I already had a piece of cake for my brother’s and my nephew’s birthday in the afternoon and that I have been restricting without binging for a while and you can imagine how much the self hatred and the all or nothing mentality was trying to fool me. This is the first time I managed to overcome this big of a compulsion to binge.

What I think helped is thinking about how bad I would feel physically afterwards (the headache, the stomach pain, bad sleep, acid reflux once I lay down, racing heart, being to hot, feeling foggy, being bloated the next day). I also thought that I would have to log it in my journal, that I would ruin a month long no binge streak, that it would do more damage than the pesto ever could, that I was doing this out of loneliness. I tried to distract myself and also planned on drinking a camomille tea and smoking a cigarette (which is something I enjoy but not after having overeaten, it makes me feel even worse). I distracted myself until my dad was done eating and I ran out of the kitchen.

I think what made it so triggering is also the context. Talking to a therapist has really helped me to become aware of the fact that a lot of my eating behaviours are emotional responses to my surroundings (I mean I already knew that. EDs are coping mechanisms for us. But I had never realised the subtlety of some of the triggers and how binging was my immediate subconscious reaction to it). For example here, the real problem was not the fact that I was forced to consume a ridiculous amount of pesto to pretend that I was normal in front of my dad. It was not the calories themselves that upset me. Because the piece of cake I had this afternoon did not make me bingey. It was a special occasion, I was enjoying a treat with my family. It was not triggering. And if someone else had made my dad’s mistake, I probably would’ve laughed it off, felt a little gross about it, and moved on. But no what really triggered me is the fact that my dad is a fucking child, oblivious to everything. It’s like the hundredth time he uses pesto and he still doesn’t know how to. This is just one small mistake but it’s the kind of things he does all the time. He tends to do things like that all the time and in more delicate or important situations. That’s the story of my life, my dad is a child and I have to be the adult and sometimes it gets too hard. I have lived like this for years and every time my brain responds with this fucked up habit of numbing my emotions with food. But now I am 21 and I have other options I need to get out of these coping mechanisms because they are trapping me. Yes they kept me alive when I couldn’t deal at 16 but now they are just making me too numb and distracted to focus on what’s important and on working on an escape plan.

Sorry for this rant but it kinda feels like a break through and it might be weird but I hope it helps someone.

tl;dr : I resisted the urge to binge because I realised that my dad being my dad triggered it and that the hours of self hatred that would follow were not worth it. That’s what I call growing up y’all.

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losingitinjersey · 4 years

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Weigh-In-Wednesday

Starting Weight (12.18.19): 271

Last Week’s Weight (6.25.20): 226.4

Today’s Weight (7.8.20): 223.8

Total Weight Lost in 1 Week: 2.6 lbs Total Weight Lost in 7 Months: 47.2 lbs Total Weight Lost Since Quarantine Began: 20.1 lbs Total Miles Walked in July: 20.1 miles

And just like that, I fell down. Literally, down the stairs.

I woke up at 5 a.m., excited to get my walk on with the babers. Got everything ready, took my ootd pic before putting on my shoes and went upstairs to change, feed and prep erp. We’re walking down the stairs, 10 minutes from being out the door on our walk and I miss one of the last steps and find my left foot bent forward as I’m falling downwards. Thankfully, erp was completely unscathed but my ankle took the entire brunt of the fall.

At the bottom of the stairs I called out for Kevin, who’s dead asleep since it’s now around 5:45 a.m. After about four or five loud shouts he comes, takes erp from my chest and I scoot myself off the steps and onto the floor to assess the damage. I am able to put a slight amount of weight on it as I hobble myself over to a chair. Kevin gets some ice and ibuprofen for me, makes sure I’m okay before going back to bed. (I had to basically tell him to leave).

With over two hours before work starts I decided to catch some z’s myself and I slowly gimp around the house collecting everything I’ll need for the day ahead and set myself up in the guest bed. Amazingly, erp is also ready to go back to sleep so she and I nap until 8:30 and then stay in bed for most of the rest of the day.

My headspace has been negative, understandably. I’m most upset about how this is going to set me back. As you know, I’ve really been digging my active lifestyle and have been riding a high for the last few months watching my efforts and actions slim my body down. Not only that, but I’ve gotten joy out of keeping the house clean, running the dishwasher every night and emptying it in the morning, dancing in the kitchen with my baby, all of the things. I know I’m being dramatic and all of these things will come back again, it’s just one more unknown in this ambiguous world we’re living in. I’m frustrated and feel stupid for not being more careful.

The plan is to continue to keep my leg elevated and iced on and off. Tomorrow will be another full day of rest and potentially the next day depending on how my healing goes. I’ll then ease back into walking around the house and eventually work my way out for walks again, hopefully building back up to my 5 mile stints. I’ll have to be extra cautious with my food intake given that I can’t burn many calories at the moment since I’m determined not to let this set me back more than it has physically.

It certainly was challenging having a full work day and care-taking for erp not being able to be mobile. I now realize how often I have to stand and bounce to soothe her and how often she needs her diaper changed or a bottle refilled. Thankfully, Kevin’s home so he did all the diaper changes until we get a downstairs station set up and I carried around a cooler full of pre-made bottles that helped in a pinch.

I’m nothing else if not adaptable. This is merely a pause and I need to take it seriously and make rest my full time job so I don’t exacerbate the problem since I have no idea how long this is going to take me out of commission for.

(no pictures because Tumblr is being a dick and not posting my post even though I’ve tried a million times to get it to show up in the dash)

#fitblr #momblr #ketoblr #weightloss #daily weight #weight log #weigh in wednesday #set back

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tuellertrails · 3 years

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We’re 3 weeks into our hike so far, here are a few things I have learned

- Wake up EARLY in the desert. Because it will get hotter than hell and you will die of heatstroke if you hike in the heat of the day.

- Take your shoes (foot prisons) off at every opportunity. Your feet will thank you

- The higher you go in elevation, the harder the hiking is, the less hot it becomes and the more beautiful the scenery is. The desert has its own kind of beauty, but being in an alpine environment with lots of trees and the smell of sun warmed pine needles is my favorite place to be (besides a comfortable bed watching TV and eating snacks, of course). We’ve had several days of hiking where we’ve done over 5k feet of elevation, and I find that I am particularly prone to swearing and exhaustion on those days 😂. But the incredible views do make up for it somewhat! It’s all part of the experience.

- Ibuprofen (Vitamin I) and Benadryl are a hikers best friend.

- Pack out fresh food whenever you can. Vegetables and fruit have never tasted so good.

- Kindness is EVERYWHERE. We’ve received food, cold drinks, rides, camp chairs to sit in and many other kindnesses from trail angels, other hikers, family members and random people. Everything is appreciated.

Speaking of kindness, we spent several hours one day waiting out the heat of the day in a small hut next to the wind farm made for hot, suffering PCT hikers, with a cooler of cold water for us to enjoy. It was 95* even in the shade 🥵. We did not leave early enough that day, but it gave me the chance to wait out the heat and look at my phone 😂.

Here’s some highlights/points of interest from the last 100+ miles

- We heard a great story from Trail Angel who gave us a ride out of Julian, who heard it from a different hiker that she gave a ride to. So the hiker was hiking down the trail (early on, around mile 15) when he hears a voice say "hello". He looks down and sees a guy laying in the bushes in a sleeping bag with mud on his face. "Oh, uh... hello" the hiker says. The man responds "Would you like to be blessed with magic sand?" And holds up a pile of sand in his hand. The guy wasn't sure if this dude was on drugs, was going to throw the sand in his face or what, and he's contemplating how to side step this very weird man when the dude stands up and reveals that he is completely naked and says "You should really use mud. It makes the best sunscreen". Glad that it wasn’t me, poor guy.

- We went through a small town in Warner Springs who had a gas station and some picnic tables, so basically a hiker haven. We spent a couple of hours eating gas station food, and I gave another hiker a shot in the butt 😂. Nursing skills always coming in handy out here. Landon consistently says that the gas station hot dog was one of the highlights of the trail.

- My feet are MUCH better than they were. Getting inserts and some foot compression socks were a game changer for me. I now can walk many more miles without having to stop so often to roll out the golf balls on my feet. Despite this, hiking is still hard and we still find new soreness, aches and pains every day. But I do think that we are toughening up and able to do more miles than we did the first week. My blisters are mostly hardened now, and we have done as many as 18 miles in a day at this point.

- Water can be very scarce, and you have to plan out your water carries very carefully. One water source in this last stretch was a big water tank a few hundred feet from “Mikes Place”. Mikes Place is near the trail and has a big water cistern for hikers to go and get water, but they also let hikers camp and party there and sometimes feed them. There were some comments on Guthooks (the hiking navigation app we use) about how Mikes Place was kind of sketchy and borderline sexist, but we went down there with our hiker friends Sarah and Clyde, hoping for some food. Mikes place was interesting to say the least. It was a run down one story house that looked rather shabbily built, with a blanket as a wall in one section. It’s in a few acres of property, and there are all sorts of random things in front of the house. An assortment of stools and chairs, some lawn games like croquet and darts, a fire pit, a few coolers, and then even more random things like a sword stuck in a stone (a replica like in the movie). There was also an old painted car on one end, a shabby outdoor kitchen with a pizza oven and a greasy grill and lots of bowls and plates and utensils, and lots of other items spread out across the property. It seemed a little hoarder-y to us. They had Johnny cash playing in the background which kind of fit the vibe of the place. There were a few hikers there eating already, and a more stout gentleman wearing a t shirt, shorts and flip flops whose name was Scott. He said that there was no food left but that we could cook our own if we wanted, and we were like "ummm, sure?"  So he brought out the ingredients for breakfast burritos and we got to cracking eggs and slicing veggies and fired up the very greasy outdoor grill, and within about 15 minutes we were eating breakfast burritos. Scott was a little weird. He would pop in and out of where we were cooking and then disappear again, I guess he was nice enough but he just gave off a bit of a weird vibe. Apparently Mike lives in San Diego and Scott is a caretaker of his place for now, along with another guy named Spirit who we met a little later as we ate. He was a older guy, with long white hair in a ponytail and beard, wearing a dirty green zip hoodie with what looked to be a hand painted "VVR" on it, jeans and chacos. He chatted with us briefly, he is a hiker who has hiked the John Muir Trail every year since 2014 and then decided to go work at VVR, a resort in the Sierras, after visiting it so many times. He said he was headed up there in a few weeks. Anyways, we are our burritos, washed our plates, said thank you and left to go filter water from the tank up above, leaving some money in the donation box as a thank you. The food was good but I definitely wouldn't have felt comfortable being there by myself, Mike’s Place was a little...dirt baggy, but I’m glad I got to experience it all the same. Apparently Scott is hiking now, and showed up at the campground in Idyllwild a few days later, drunk as a skunk and vomited all over 😂.

- We’re 10% done with the trail! Which really puts into perspective how long this hike actually is 😂. We had heard that our trail legs would start to come in after 3 weeks, but both Landon and I agree that we’re still quite sore and wake up with different aches and pains every day. We are definitely running a major calorie deficit at this point, burning upwards of 4K calories per day, burning much more than we are eating. This is ok with us, as we could both lose 30 Lbs or more and still be in a healthy weight range! Our friend Jamie, who hiked the trail years ago with her husband, says that we are losing our “town fat”. But we both agree that our clothes are feeling a bit looser than they were before. Who knew that 3 weeks of near continuous intense exercise would do that? We are slowly getting more fit, so hopefully those trail legs will come in soon here in the next few weeks.

- Remember the girl I talked about in our last post a few weeks ago, who woke up our friend at 5 AM and told him that she had no pants? Well, he came across her again a few days ago. She was topless, sitting in a stream in her underwear, playing a ukelele. And much to his chagrin, she remembered him! 😂 Not exactly a meet cute.

- Though there are definitely some eccentric people out here, 95% of the hikers and people we meet are wonderful. We have met the most incredible people as we hike, and are grateful to have made some good friends. They say that trauma bonds you, and all of the hikers have similar trauma out on trail 😂. We all know how hard this is, how beautiful, and have experienced first hand the heavy packs we carry after filling up our food and water, and the different aches and pains that accompany hiking day after day. Ive seen some pretty gnarly feet 🦶among the hikers out here, covered in blisters and cuts, with blackened toenails and foot fungus. Our feet are constantly getting beaten up! I’m glad to know that it isn’t just us experiencing the aches and pains. Ive always been a bit of a social butterfly, and after a year of isolation due to the Covid pandemic, the extrovert in me is absolutely loving the social aspect of our hike.

We will be getting off trail for four days this next weekend to go to a family wedding and sadly, a funeral as well. We were saddened to hear that Landon’s Grandfather has passed away, after suffering from Alzheimer’s for many years in the last years of his life. I never knew him before the Alzheimer’s had affected him, but I was told that he was smart as a whip, very funny, and a great story teller. Landon has fond memories of his grandfather, going on family trips and hearing his many stories. Even after the disease progression, Arlin was a very sweet and gentle man who was happy to give you a hug and listen to you talk, even if he didn’t quite remember who you were. We feel very lucky to have been able to spend some time with him and with Landon’s Grandmother the week before the trail, and he will be greatly missed by all. We are looking forward to getting off trail for a few days to reunite with our family to both celebrate and mourn together.

Thanks to everyone for the love and support in our PCT journey so far, this has been the most incredible experience of our lives so far and we’re grateful for every second, no matter how tough, of this great adventure.

- The Tueller’s

#pct #pct2021 #pctclassof2021 #tuellertrails #hikertrash

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fat-acceptance-dropout · 4 years

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What first caused you to go against FA? (For me it was when I was bullied for wanting to lose weight)

It's been a while since I answered this question, so I guess it's time to answer it again; bear in mind, though, that I'm mobile so cut me some slack.

There are two things that made me go from supporting to opposing Fat Acceptance.

One, cognitive dissonance.

Two, becoming aware of the hopelessness lurking just below the surface of the FA movement.

Let's tackle them in order, since that's how it happened.

Picture this:

I'm sitting on my bed, eating some horrid thing called a pizza cone that I'm not enjoying, but I'm eating nonetheless.

As I'm eating this, I'm browsing Tumblr and start writing about how weight loss is impossible, and I'm the living example, because I exercise and eat healthy without losing weight.

Do you notice the contradiction?

I certainly did.

It's hard to argue about healthy eating when you're basically fellating cheese and pepperoni and not even having fun doing it. (Seriously, fuck pizza cones. Pizza is fine as it is. Cones just complicate things.)

I had to be honest with myself in that moment. I neither exercised or ate healthy, at least not often enough for it to make a difference.

Certainly, I did it sometimes, but the exercise was hiking twice a week, and maybe some yoga, and the eating healthy was drinking green smoothies and not caring about what I ate the rest of the day.

Certainly, I dieted sometimes. Lasted a month or two, went crazy, binged and called the whole thing a bust.

So, with that big, bright, sharp moment of clarity, I decided to try for real. No half measures. I decided to go all the way.

I joined a boxing gym, which was something I had always wanted to do and something that I was fairly confident I'd be able to stick to. By now, I knew well enough that I didn't like regular gyms, so I decided to avoid those.

No weight machines for me, just free weight exercises and boxing.

Then, I started counting calories.

By now, I knew that sticking to a diet plan just wasn't going to happen, and counting calories would allow me to eat what I wanted as long as I measured myself.

It went horribly.

When I first started counting calories, I went over my daily limit by 12:00 pm, which was one of the most frustrating things I had faced at the time.

I had to acknowledge that I really ate a lot, and that I had not only very little control over what I ate but also over when I ate.

I ate food I didn't like, I ate when I wasn't hungry, I ate when I was feeling down, I ate when I had cravings, I ate when I exercised, I ate when I didn't exercise, I ate and ate and ate.

So I started puking to eat more.

Rather than acknowledge the fact that I had an unhealthy relationship with food I decided to double down on it by binging and purging, rather than just binging.

I didn't lose any weight.

I knew it was a bad idea when I started, but I still did it, and when that neither made me lose weight or made me reduce my caloric intake, I realized I needed a change.

So, I changed. Acknowledged my unhealthy relationship with food, worked on changing it, worked on eating better, worked on exercising for real, and wouldn't you know it? I started losing weight.

So, as I started losing weight, and I started feeling better in ways that I never would've expected —no more ankle pain, no more flash heats, no more snoring, no more fits of coughing— I realized that the FA movement and HAES had lied to me.

Not only was weight loss possible, but excess weight does have an impact on your body.

That's when I realized the hopelessness lurking below the surface of the Fat Acceptance movement, because below the 'love yourself', 'you don't have to lose weight to be loved', 'you deserve respect regardless of your weight', and 'your weight doesn't reflect your worth' of the movement, that I wholeheartedly approve of, there are some insidious messages:

- Weight loss is impossible

- Your actions have no impact on your body.

- Your weight has no impact on your health.

- Even if you want or need to change, it can't be done, so you're fucked.

- Wanting to change means there's something wrong with you.

- Suggesting changes means, at best, ignorance, at worst hate.

And more.

While I understand that, to some, the idea of weight being out of one's control is liberating, I always did find it defeatist, even when I was a complete supporter of the movement, and it caused no small amount of resentment.

After all, how are you not supposed to feel resentful and angry when others have the thin genes? When you're just going to have to accept that you're fat? That you're helpless to change?

Make no mistake. I believe in self acceptance, in learning to love yourself and not using someone's physical appearance as a measure of self worth, but I found that the deeper one digs into the movement, the more helpless it makes you feel, the more it goes from accepting yourself to there is nothing you can do to change.

Again, some people see that as liberating. I didn't. I still don't.

It's kind of why my message isn't "you should lose weight," or "you shouldn't be fat," but rather "you can lose weight." (and keep it off.)

Because ultimately, I believe that knowing that the choice exists is what makes all the difference.

You can choose to lose weight. You can choose not to lose weight, but you're choosing. You're actively making a choice, and you can change that choice if you feel like doing it.

Choosing to be fat is a hell of a lot better than being fat because you have no choice, and the constant message of "you can't change, you can't change," of the FA movement is what led me to go from simply not being part of it to being against it.

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spooky-fit · 5 years

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🖤some personal reasons why I'm losing 100+ lbs🖤

Not gonna lie, some of these are super petty

💜 I miss being light enough to be picked up by others or get piggy back rides.

💜 on the same note, being picked up and lifted for kinky stuff would be nice as well.

💜 super personal fun fact... I watch porn for motivation to lose weight sometimes 😓 it's a little embarrassing, but seeing women being lifted and slammed and do some sex acrobatics gets me pumped to stay on track.

💜 here's another embarrassing one... I have a ton of necklaces and chokers that stopped fitting when I put on my weight . Knowing my neck is that fat upsets me, I can't wait to fit back into my old necklaces. It will feel like a huge accomplishment.

💜 petty af but I hate being fatter than the rest of my family ┐( ˘_˘)�� On some level I have a desire to lead by example but I'm not gonna lie. I want to be the thin one.

💜 I literally haven't seen my own facial structure since I was in my early 20s because of the fat covering it. I want to see my face, unwarped by my weight gain.

💜 I have had problems with disordered eating in the past, both undereating and binging. Not ashamed of it, but activly working to control it. I notice a lot of ED blogs follow me and I want them to know this is a safe place. I'm all about doing things in a safe, positive way and do my best not to post anything that could be dangerous to others. I want to form a healthy relationship with food. For me, being obese, eating 5k calories a day, was not it.

💜 basic af, but clothes.... I want to fit in cute clothes. I LOVE baggy loose clothing and it sucks having to buy XXXL shirts for them to be even slightly oversized.

💜 being able to pull off androgynous looks.... I'm NB, but being obese makes it hard for me to pull off the look that would make me the most comfortable.

💜 on the same note, I want less boob. Like losing boob is fine, they can go. They are small anyway, even with all my fat I'm only a B cup and I would like less titty please. Flatten me out man.

💜 I literally can't stand a lot of the fat activist types of SJWs and would like to distance myself from them in any way possible.

💜 I miss being able to see my collar bones and jawline. I have broad shoulders and a prominent clavicle but rn its kinda burried.

💜 I want my muscles to be more defined... I have some thick biceps but no one can see them 😔 my arms are a problem spot for me, I'm super self conscious of them and never wear shirts that show my arms. It would be super dope to turn them into a gun show and make ladies swoon.

💜 overall, being more mobile and less out of breath when I move.

💜 sweating less would also be nice.

💜 I have a thyroid issue that ive been medicated for since I was a child. The weight gain has caused me meds to increase to double what they used to be because my body mass is putting more work load on what remains of my thyroid. Losing weight would be one of the best things I could do for my health in this case.

💜 I will never say a fat person is less or doesnt have value or doesn't deserve to feel beautiful and I definitely do love myself, but being as big as I am now doesn't feel like me, I know I'm not being the best I could be and Im not being true to myself. Letting myself binge to cope with anxiety/depression was not self love, it was neglect. Letting myself gain 100+ lbs came from a place of bad coping skills and self hatred. Planning my meals and taking myself to the gym is the best way I can think of to love myself, and become my truest self.

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skinniifitqueen · 4 years

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Y'all.

I found a recipe for my own bread that's only 150 calories for a slice? Obviously it's a bit more in cals than I'd like BUT. I make it myself and I know exactly what goes into it? And it's delicious? Hell yeah!!

Basic ingredients:

3 cups flour- I use whole wheat instead of all-purpose or white, which cuts down on the cals a ton. Plus some extra to help keep the dough from sticking everywhere when kneading

1 1/2 T of melted butter- I need to find a low calorie replacement for this, since I hate using dairy

A cup of milk- room temp!!!!

2 1/4 teaspoons of active dry yeast- or a packet, if that's what you have. We have it in bulk so it works that way

1/4 cup of raw honey- this is the only sugary content!!!! There's no granulated sugar or anything like that which is great

1/2 T of salt- don't skimp on this! I know it's bloating, but it's required to help the dough rise

1/3 cup HOT WATER- it must be hot!! Otherwise the yeast won't activate

THAT'S ITTTT

Instructions

Dissolve the yeast in the water fully, and let it sit until bubbles form, about 5 minutes.

Melt butter and add room temp milk, honey, salt, and butter to yeast and water mixture and mix until well combined.

Add 2 cups of the flour, mixing the flour in well between cups- basically, add a cup, mix until combined and there are no lumps, add another cup, repeat.

Add the last cup of flour onto a clean surface and dump the dough onto it. Prep a bowl to put the dough into so it can rise as soon as you're done kneading!

Keeping your hands and the surface floured as needed, knead the dough until it reaches a smooth, fairly non-sticky surface, so about 10 minutes. It's hard to describe, but basically the dough shouldn't leave any residue on your hands when you pull away! If it's trying to stick to you and leaving gluten strands, it's not done yet. DO NOT LEAVE THE DOUGH'S SIDE! Take out frustrations on the bread!! It works. Otherwise, it's really up to you when you're finished kneading. Go by feel!

Place dough in the prepped bowl and cover with a warm damp cloth and leave it alone to rise for about 1 hour, up to 2 hours. Make sure you know what the dough looks like when you put it in, so you can see when it doubles in size!! I suggest putting the bowl on the stove so the air can go under the bowl, but just make sure it's fairly warm without being cooked.

Prep a bread pan- I use the slightest bit of butter, but really you just want to make sure the bread's not going to be stuck to the pan. Check to see if the dough is done by poking holes into the top. If the holes stay there, it's done! Punch it down and knead it gently in the bowl, then pull it out and shape into an oval. You'll have a seam in the bread- pinch it closed and put the seam on the bottom of the pan! Dampen the cloth again with warm water and cover it for another 45 minutes to 1 hour

Turn the oven on to 375 (or equal degree, if your oven is like mine- it's 25 degrees off 🙃). Once the dough has doubled in size in the pan, place it into the oven and cook for 45 minutes to 1 hour. It's done when the top is golden brown and it sounds kind of hollow when you tap on it!

Take out of oven when it's done and remove from pan onto a cooling rack. Let cool completely, then you can cut it up!! Makes 12 servings, or 14 if you somehow have the ability to slice bread thin (I do not. I can't even cut straight)

DON'T WORRY IF EACH BREAD IS DIFFERENT- I've made this twice now and neither bread were identical. Yeast is a living thing and it likes to change! Don't worry about it, it's still the exact amount of calories.

It's 151 for 12, and 129 for 14! Here're my two different attempts- the first two are from the first time I did it and the last one is from today. Same recipe, slightly different outcome!

I wanted to do this because I know bread is a scary thing for some of us, and I wanted to show that when you know exactly what goes into it, it can change your mindset about it. It's not as clean as I want it to be (milk and butter), but I don't have to panic about hidden sugars or fats, because I control how much there is. Idk, here's some food.

#tw: food #food #tw: ed #safe food #anamiaa #no tag for ortho

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in-tua-deep · 5 years

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While genetically the Boy and Five are the same there has to be an aspect of nature vs nurture. So how do the two differ? Does the Boy want his own name and not simply a gender or does he want a name to symbolize becoming part of a family? Do the two of them react to situations differently? I love this AU so much and I need more!

(for more commission boy au/clone five au check out the previous posts on it one, two, three, four, five)

oh absolutely they’re as different as they are similar - even identical twins raised together are different people, after all! And that’s identical genes (like Five and Boy share) and similar upbringings ;3c

they’re both traumatized in very different ways (with overlapping similarities, like both of them don’t trust strangers/adults they don’t know as they’re both used to adults only wanting to use them/cause them pain)

Five is fucked up about the apocalypse. Fucked. Up. He still has minor meltdowns over what if the apocalypse happens today despite them having stopped it. Probability maps are scrawled across the walls in whatever was closest at hand when Five’s brain went into meltdown mode

The Boy doesn’t use math as a crutch like Five does (or as a way of keeping his mind busy, or as a self soothing habit, or anything else) because he wasn’t allowed to write on,, pretty much anything. He had to give verbal reports. After Five’s whole “hide my equations and plans from the commission by writing them in secret in a book” thing, they didn’t trust the Boy with any kind of planning materials. The only reason he knows how to write is because he pretty much taught himself, tracing letters with his fingers in the dust or on steam covered mirrors tbh

(his handwriting is. atrocious. borderline illegible. he really struggles writing with a pen or pencil but can fingerpaint letters/numbers just find. it’s a work in progress and on god five is going to get his little clone as fast as five himself is at writing shit on walls)

the Boy is still a little math prodigy but he’s only done enormous mental equations, which he is very good at!! but it’s definitely limited him (so he wasn’t capable of doing the complex time equations that Five figured out)

The Boy and Five present their nerves about new situations very differently - the Boy goes small and quiet and anxious whereas Five deals with it by going on the aggressive and yelling. This is because the Boy is way more afraid of punishment/rejection than Five is and is more unsure of his position in the family and his default is “obey, do what they say regardless of how you feel just power through it or face the consequences”.

Meanwhile Five’s default was ‘rebel, yell, bring attention to himself because if the spotlight was on him then it was off his siblings’ which is depressing in its own way. The Boy didn’t have siblings to protect, he was alone. Five himself probably wouldn’t have drawn attention to himself if there wasn’t anyone to protect, but there was and he did. He bristles like an offended cat and yells

(but tbh, Five doesn’t actually expect anyone to actually listen to him. both him and the boy learned a long, long time ago that their opinions didn’t matter to the adults, that they might as well not be saying anything at all. The Boy went quiet. Five got louder.)

The Boy is definitely more willing to embrace childish things than Five is, because Five feels he has to protect his reputation and prove that he isn’t a kid

and if there’s some residual trauma there of children vs. adults where Five is fairly convinced that status as an adult offers him some measure of protection against people like Reginald and the Handler, there’s always that. But Five is also probably more willing to be one of “the children” if that means the Boy isn’t alone as the only child because Five’s “protect” instincts overpower his “self preservation” instincts tbh

the Boy is really enthusiastic about things when he thinks he allowed to be (so basically when he’s around Five bc he sees Five as an ally - though he’s getting better around the other siblings without five as a buffer)

his favorite movie is lilo and stitch no you can’t change my mind. it’s the movie he plays constantly as a comfort thing that he never gets tried of. If this was in the era of VHS he would have worn out the tape. Why??? because the boy points at the screen and is like “!! i’m an experiment as well!” and then watches this little blue alien find a family for himself and he’s like “it me!”

…does that make Five the Lilo in this?? possibly. Allison says that it’s more like the Boy is Lilo and Five is Stitch considering Five is the chaos gremlin between the two of them but whatever

(“This is my family. I found it, all by myself. It’s little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good.”)

I keep wanting to say the Boy is more skittish than Five but that’s?? not quite true? they’re both skittish and don’t trust easily and cling to the idea of family but in different ways idk like the end goal is the same but they take very different paths to it u know what i mean?

i think the Boy probably does eventually get a different name. Maybe not a name-name since the Boy’s idea of what a name is?? is kind of skewed? like his fav character is Stitch and his brother is Five and he was raised by someone names the Handler like this kid was never gonna have a normal name let’s be real

honestly he probably ends up stuck with something like. Kiddo. Because i HIGHLY doubt the family actually calls him ‘boy’ and in absence of an actual name to call him by end up with nicknames and to differentiate him from Five “Old Man” Hargreeves they probably call him kid and kiddo

i’m thinking about differences and similarities between them again hmm

Five is definitely more assertive?? Five can read the Boy really well (and vice versa) and tends to act as the Boy’s spokesperson when the Boy isn’t comfortable or something. Usually it’s just Five cutting in abruptly like “back off idiot he wants a ham and cheese sandwich not whatever the fuck that is”

the Boy is more likely to approach an issue with violence whereas Five tends to swear and yell and threaten as a first step. Where’s that one meme?? the Boy is “stabs without warning” and Five is “warns (loudly) before stabbing”

the Boy is arguably more deadly than Five since he’s been trained in assassination since basically infancy where Five was taught to be a hero which are arguably very different skillsets (the Boy was never taught about minimizing casualties or saving anyone rip) BUT Five is more experienced and has arguably more creativity than the Boy.

Five is a lot more playful in his fighting because he was because when he was little, fighting was playing. That’s how Five and the other umbrella academy kids bonded - by beating the tar out of one another and outdoing each other. They showed off for each other. The Boy is more straight forward because to him, fighting is a job to get over with as soon as possible

ironically it’s five who has to teach the boy to play, and not the other way around. Jump Tag is a favorite between the two where they just zoom through the house trying to catch each other - Five is a lot better at jumping than the Boy since the Boy wasn’t permitted outside of missions and training, but he’s catching up quick (after all, Five did take a brief 45 year hiatus because his powers burned too many calories in the apocalypse, but it’s a bit like riding a bike in that he never forgot)

even so Five is NOT the person to teach others to play because his childhood was messed up as all fuck

so it’s probably claire that really teaches them how to play

Claire is a well adjusted kid whose confidence, unlike Five’s, is not faked. She has adults she knows, loves, and relies upon. She has healthy relationships with peers. She goes to public school and knows and is friendly with a lot of different people.

So this like, 8-year-old walks in and meets her two skittish emotionally immature uncles (cousin? depends on if they consider the boy to be five’s brother or son) who don’t know fuck all about anything and is like “ah yes. i am your big sister now. i am in charge here.”

and while Five at least rails against the “big sister” charge, neither of them really protest Claire taking charge?? they’re both very willing to follow along behind her tbh neither of them are leadership material and they both know it. they’re probably both very protective of her

if claire is ever bullied god help whoever chose to pick on her bc Five is absolutely willing to maul a middleschooler and the Boy would be right behind him

well i mean. Five is a follower but he’s a little bitch about it, you know? like he’s willing to go with whatever but also if it’s a dumb idea then fuck you. So he’s confrontational with his siblings but if they were ever like “okay then five you take charge” he would be like “oh no. nuh uh. i’m not taking responsibility over all you idiots my blood pressure would go through the ROOF.”

Five loudly declares that Claire is way more sensible and sane than any of the rest of his family so she’s the only one he’ll take real orders from.

(and then Grace walks in and Five will absolutely listen to her as well and not just because the Boy is lowkey scared of Grace and Five is trying to set a good example - as much as he’s capable of setting a good example)

i feel like i’ve talked about their different issues with food, where Five hoards, is food aggressive, and will eat everything whereas the Boy is used to bland nutrition bars and sludge with everything he needs for the day so his issues are more him not knowing what the fuck anything is, being iffy about any strong tasting foods/spices, struggling with eating outside of allotted food times/getting his own food

there’s a whole post about their differences in nightmares/how they deal with those floating out there somewhere

their fashion sense definitely differs in their own ways? The Boy accepts anything he’s given with no questions and has no style of his own where Five tends towards what Klaus calls “hobo chic” in that he discards clothes he deems not useful to survival. You won’t catch Five in ripped jeans or tight pants that restrict mobility (though admittedly tight restrictive clothing would make the Boy uncomfortable as well but he’ll wear what he’s given with no questions)

both boys struggle with capitalism in that there’s Way Too Many Options for things that are dumb. It’s really overwhelming for them both when they’re sent to the store for like, toothpaste and have to enter an aisle with a bajillion different options for one (1) whole thing

OH the Boy doesn’t shoplift. Five frequently shoplifts because his idea of possessions are “it’s in my hand or in my claimed space/room/etc. it’s mine” regardless of the passage of money whereas the Boy’s idea of possessions is “nothing belongs to me ever” and they’re still working on both of those things

they’re both kind of wary around animals because neither are used to them or know what to expect from them. Mr. Pennycrumb is a therapy dog and no one can convince me otherwise and both boys are instantly smitten with him (but they’re still kind of iffy around like. big dogs that bark. or horses. fuck horses they’re scary motherfuckers.)

the Boy doesn’t like bugs very much after living in the very sterile Commission science rooms but Five will literally pop a wolf spider in his mouth for a snack so yEAH they both have. very different perspectives on that. The Boy is absolutely horrified and the first time he witnesses this hides behind Klaus for half a day because what the FUCK FIVE while Five is unapologetic

they protect each other and support each other and figure things out together bless

it’s secretly a very wholesome au behind the horror of the commission cloning five and training a small child to be a murder machine

#Ask Me #anonymous #the commission boy au #tua au #tua #the umbrella academy #far tua long #long post #five hargreeves #number five #klaus hargreeves #they're similar in some ways #wildly different in others #it's a journey lmao #claire hargreeves #tua claire #claire is the boss and the boys respect that

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vigilumumbra · 3 years

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#MeetingTheLawyer

Mharcus:

{After that strange phone call from Sydney Mitchell, a junior partner to the law firm I had called the other day. It started normal but towards the end it was odd, I had offered her to come here to my home which she will be working and might live here. I had even offered Syd my realtor number but I knew that once Syd becomes my lawyer I will need her here on call and nearby in case something major happens. I couldn't have my lawyer away which then I would have to wait and sometimes that could not happen in my new kind of work.

I had gotten dressed in a fall dark blue-grey double-breasted striped suit jacket, pants cuffed at the bottom in the same color as the jacket; a matching six button vest with notch lapels; basic button down dress shirt with white collar with double cuff shirt, gold cufflinks with my initials on them; a black wool overcoat, a black fedora hat with a white contrasting band about four inches tall wrapped around the base. A dark color tie and a dark pocket square folded in my left heart pocket. Black boots matching the suit I had on. I had a watch chain with watch dangles across the vest from watch pocket to clip. I had my cane but really it was a sword when you pulled the handle.

Nhico drove me to Sal’s about one hour early I had ask Trez twin brother #iAm if I could have the whole restaurant for my lawyer and myself which he didn't seem to mind. I had offered #iAm my help to cook the lunch meal which #iAm gladly accepted it. Once we were done making it I went back out to sit at the table while I waited for this lawyer to show up. I had taken my suit jacket off when I entered the kitchen to help.

Syd:

It was my first meeting and I didn’t want to be late, however, I had the opportunity to view a condo. The realtor I met with had informed me of this “gem” but it was covered in dirt.

It was in no way suitable, and I was not going to be around to do what needed to be done. It was a pass.

The traffic coming back to the main streets took longer than anticipated. Instead of twenty minutes it took 45. When the car finally dropped me off in front of the restaurant it was 20minutes later than when I was supposed to be there, which meant I felt 35 minutes late.

I straightened my red skirt and black blouse. It complimented my pale skin and blue eyes. I took one more look at the door, hitched my laptop bag onto my shoulder and walked in a little more agitated than I should have been.

Mharcus:

{looks at my watch seeing that you were a little late. I hadn’t looked up when you walk in.} You are late. So you planning on always being late to meetings? A simple text would work well.

{I moved the papers to the table next to me on my right side and getting up from my chair when I finally did look up. I almost purred at the sight of you but I push it down. I walk over to you hand extended} I’m Mharcus nice to you meet you,...?

Syd:

I wanted to cuss when you stated I was late, it was noticed. And I wanted to just turn around and haul ass back home. I assumed you were beyond pissed that I was late, I was worried I would lose my job.

When you finally offer me your hand I accept it, shaking it. “It is a pleasure to meet you Mharcus, I am Sydney Mitchell. I apologize for being late, the realtor I met with took me to see a house it was too far and definitely not what I was looking for.” A little frustration in my voice. “Ignore that… let’s get to work.”

I wait set down my laptop bag and get my computer out. As it is starting I prep the other documents. I brought with.

I catch you staring. “What? Do I have something on me?” Self conscious I look down at my outfit for any dirt then I touch my face to see if I feel anything out of place.

Mharcus:

Oh I’m sorry for staring at you didn’t mean it. {clears my throat as I walk back to seat and sitting back down. I saw that you went straight into business moad instead of just sitting here.}

These are my grandfathers will and his business papers. {I hold out the folder that had all of his papers in} I am his heir to all of his estate and businesses. It’s just some information I got about him that in a way throw me for a loop and I need this settled before a big family meeting and that I will need a lawyer to be there preferably my lawyer.

{I wait for you to take the folder to it all over and then we could talk about me putting you on my payroll and hopefully having you on hand 24/7 since of the kind of work I am doing}

Syd:

I pull out and put on my glasses when I accept the folder, most of it had been included in the dossier on the family received from the law firm. They knew more about the business practice, and of course the illegal side. I read the documents quickly. The Will was incontestable, which would be an easy thing to defend should any competitors arise for the new business leader.

I continued with a soft sigh and took some notes on potential problems that I would have to prepare for. “Mmmmhmmm.” I am lost in my thoughts as the noise sounds from my throat.

A small crease in my brows forms as I come to a troubling part. “I see your cousin is next should you fail at any endeavor your grandfather set forth.” Noting that as well.

It would be interesting and quite a few billable hours. Luckily his grandfather was very smart and had excellent advisors.

I closed the folder. “Now that I have that information. What would you like to start with?” I take off my glasses.

Mharcus:

There is another thing you should know before this all gets started. It’s about my grandfather and me as well. {I pick up the other folder that I had on the table next to me and hand it over to you. It had the information I had gotten from my boss about who my grandfather really was. He was not only the head of the mob but also one of the FBI top agents just like myself. Under his papers where the information on me as well}

What is in this folder I need you to protect it with your life. No one can ever find this nor see it. If you ever run into trouble and I’m unavailable you can go to my right hand man Nhico he knows all of this and he was the one who also work for my grandfather.

Yes he would be but that is the thing he can never be head of this family because if he does the FBI will have my cousin arrested for everything that my grandfather built. I mean his business end of things. It was an agreement between my grandfather and the FBI. All of this information is in this folder as well.

Syd:

I look at the folder, my glasses came back on, perusing the information. Most of this was new, but I wanted to maintain my poker face.

“Mharcus, this is quite a bit of information, what trouble do you assume I will get in to? I’m just a lawyer.” My blue eyes land on yours.

The criminal and business worlds entwined in this family. The partners at the firm were correct. It was a big ticket client, and continued one on one care. If they wanted to keep me on the case once the partner returned next week.

I took a few notes from the files. I maintained my cool facade.

“What are your plans for your grandfather’s stipulation for taking over the family?” Wondering if you saw that part about putting a ring on a woman’s finger.

Mharcus:

{grumbles as I remember the little clause in the will. My thoughts on the arrangement with another family. In all honesty I didn’t want to marry anyone because I couldn’t tell her that I work with the FBI unless it was someone I trusted completely, and that sure as shit wasn’t that viper. I had only really had two relationships in my life. The first one I had only used me to get out of her family bullshit. Then I used her for blood and thinking she wanted to be my mate but that didn’t work out well.

The last one I dated knew what I was but never that I work for the FBI. I couldn’t just tell her even if I agree to marry her.} Yes I know about that but can never happen.

Syd:

It seemed like he was allowing himself to succumb to sadness, and I did not like that whatsoever. My clients would not give up.

“Well. If you are unwilling to wed the kingdom your grandfather built will fall to your cousin. From the look on your face I see that is something you would not like.” Frowning as I read the papers again.

“Any others you can think of? The papers do not mention how long you have to remain married. We could get you around that marriage in probably a few short months, and we could create an iron clad prenup.”

Mharcus:

There is one but I could never tell her I work for the FBI even though I would be the head of my family. She would use that against me to take me down from the head of the family. All of the work my grandfather did to build this kingdom would be in ruin by my cousin hands.

{I look at all the papers that had all of what my grandfather built. I couldn’t let this fall into the hands of my cousin. He would destroy all of his work.}

Syd:

“If you marry someone temporarily, secure what your grandfather wanted for you, then divorce. I’m sure a cheating scandal would be ample grounds for divorce.”

Taking a deep breath. Noticing how hungry I am. “It really smells good in here.”

I bite my lip as my stomach growls for attention. I couldn’t believe I was hungry again. I had a decent breakfast. I guess the walking and anger from earlier made me use more calories.

“Would you mind terribly if I ate something? I know it’s rude as we have a meeting, but I can’t concentrate anymore.”

Looking down, somewhat ashamed of myself for being hungry.

Mharcus:

{smile as I move the papers to the table next to us} If I remember correctly I did ask you to meet me here so we could have lunch. {I turn towards the kitchen} hey #iAm do you need a hand in bringing out our lunch? {laughs as I hear him yelling back that he got it and will bring it out soon.}

Food should be out soon. I hope you like it, yes it’s Italian and I help make it so I really hope you like it.

{smiles as the food comes out first with the pasta and a bottle of red wine}

Syd:

The scent of the herbs and spices intoxicates me more than wine would. I groan softly.

“It looks and smells incredible. Pasta is my favorite.” I grab my napkin and lay it in my lap, then grab the fork.

Sense comes to me. “Would you like me to pour the wine?” Wondering what the actual proper protocol is for working lunch with a bottle of wine.

The man iAm smiles and walks away.

“I may start insisting we have meetings wherever you cook in the future because I’ve never smelled anything this incredible.”

I laugh at my own joke.

Mharcus:

{chuckles as I had a bottle of wine in my hands already as I was opening it} it’s ok I have it. If you insist on having meeting with food then there is a place that I can cook while we work but I’m not sure you would agree to it.

{I pour us some wine and then start eating our meal smile as think over what you said} see I am not one for a divorce since it’s against everything we stand in my family. There has to be another way to do it.

Syd:

I see the bottle “oh” blushing softly.

“So long as you feel it is appropriate I am willing to meet most places.”

When you mention you don’t believe in divorce, I try a joke, “you could always have her whacked.”

I believe my terminology may be outdated judging by the look on your face. Even without saying the word Mafia I understood the family involvement. When I take a bite I moan softly.

“So delicious.” I whisper.

Mharcus:

{laughs hard as you say the word} now that is an idea. You would fit in well with me on this. {drinks some wine} well the thing is I will have you on retainer as my lawyer meaning I will need you 24/7. There is a guest house on my property and you will have people serve you full time.

{I just lay all of my cards on the table as an idea came to mind}

There is someone else I have in mind about marrying.

Syd:

I shrug about fitting in. “I’m a realist” I look you over and take a sip from the glass of wine.

I take another bite. “Wait… you’re offering me a guest house?” I blink several times. “What do you mean they will serve me? I’m an employee just like them.”

Slightly confused.

“Well if you have someone in mind I suggest buying them a ring. You don’t have a large window.”

Mharcus:

Yes that is true, I am offering you a guest house. {placing down my fork as I look at you smiling, the smile not quite reaching my eyes, had no one even been nice to her before} i know that the window is not large. {the thought of what I was going to do pissed me off, but the little female before me did not need to see that} she knows what I do for the family. She knows how to spend money though {groaning at the thought}

Syd:

He was pleasant to look at, but would that be enough to be in a loveless marriage where he would consistently have the upper hand? Whoever this female was must’ve been much more patient and realistic than me. Despite having a realist nature I still believed in love even though I’ve never been in love, aside from my ex… nope not going there.

My chest started to constrict.

Oh no.

It was a panic attack. Full scale.

Change of subject now!

the constricting got worse. I felt like I was about to pass out.

“Excuse me.” The black circles danced in my eyes.

Without waiting for a response, I push away from the table and run for the restrooms. I was a pathetic excuse for a female. I needed to get back in the game.

I splashed water on my face and tried to compose myself. It wasn’t working well. I was so attracted to him, but he didn’t know me or notice. Hell he didn’t even know when I got to the table earlier. Why was I thinking this way? Ugh!

When I finally gained control I carefully walked out, stumbling when I was close to the table.

“Since you have someone in mind would you like me to draft a prenup? If anything should happen you need to be prepared, there are very expensive assets that would be at risk if it was left to community property law.”

Mharcus:

{I end up hearing your thoughts on and panic, someone- whose name you didn’t think of but a picture of his face was all over the fear response cause this. A woman beater was not good company so there would be an eye kept out for the bastard}

{Back to business, I wanted to laugh at the red headed female but that would make her more self conscious than she already was.} Yes please draft that and have it sent to me tomorrow end of day.

{observing her to see if that fast deadline could rattle her. If I was going to get her on the payroll I needed to test her abilities and willingness to do what was necessary when it was needed}

Syd:

He was giving me a day to prepare a prenup that would be iron clad and include his assets. I smirked at him, he wasn’t going light on me and this would let me prove to him and the law firm that I could handle it, I could play with the big boys and satisfy clients.

“That shouldn’t be a problem. I have all the business information to create the document and I can use a few seldom exploited precedents that would benefit you.” Maybe I could play the part of the evil lawyer?

I dug back into the meal and moaned at the taste, even better going back for more. I would have to try to do more meetings here. After concluding business we shook hands and left- I didn’t recall him paying the check. Did he own that place too? I would have to check the file. I hailed a nearby cab and silently rode back to the corporate housing reviewing some of the documents.

Once to my home I flopped on the bed and stared at the ceiling. A reminder went off on my phone

Fuck.

Tomorrow was my birthday.

#SASBDB end of meeting the lawyer.

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kpop-pick-me-up · 5 years

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So, can I say something real quick about Kpop idols?

This has been a thought on my mind basically since I joined the Kpop community, and I know some people might react weird or not understand what I'm trying to say but that doesn't matter to me. Putting this out there does.

*ahem* NO KPOP IDOL IVE SEEN PEOPLE CALL CHUBBY IS ACTUALLY CHUBBY.*ahem*

Like for real. I see posts talking about how Suga's cheeks get chubbier on break, and how Haechan's cheeks have gotten chubbier, or "before" and "after" pictures of idols who have gone on a diet and people saying "I miss when they were chubby" like.... They never were and they aren't. This is just what they'd actually look like if they got a normal amount of sleep, ate like a normal human, and didn't dance for 4-12 hours a day. That's not chubby, that's how they'd naturally look.

Chubby, to me means that a person is slightly overweight, or that they're a healthy weight but naturally softer and can look more fuller. Which is all beautiful. And I'm aware this can be a culture difference because of how idols are expected to be thin and perfect but sometimes when I look at them I just think about how unhealthy some (not all) of them must be physically.

Because on a mini tangent: when someone eats so little amount of food for so long and is they are always in a caloric deficit (so let's say youre recommended amount to maintain your weight is 2000, but you constantly eat 1500, or 1200-1400 calories a day) their metabolism adapts so that it's natural state of burning to maintain IS 1500 or 1200-1400. So they'd HAVE to eat less to lose weight, or fix their metabolism by slowly increasing their food intake so their metabolism can adjust to a normal amount of food again. But to do that their weight would plateau or they'd even gain a little bit. And there's absolutely nothing wrong with an idol gaining weight or doing any of this, except for the fact that they'd be called "fat" by the media. Nobody actually seems to care about an idol's health. And imagine what calling them "chubby" does to them when it's just them eating normally. Why do you THINK idols always go on strict diets before a comeback? Because they know that if they eat normally people would know and call them chubby. And I'm not saying this offends them, but I know that I would feel so pressured and judged subconsciously to eat less and lose the "chubbiness" because the media must see it too if fans do.

And I know some idols don't care or even just say they don't care (but trust me, they probably do), and I know some of you guys don't mean to hurt their feelings and just mean to say it innocently, it still encourages this unhealthy mindset that all idols MUST be borderline unhealthy, and just BARELY a healthy weight or diet amount. This gives their employers a reason to make them do those crazy restricted diets (ice cube diet, or the IU diet for example) and force them to lose weight because they KNOW and SEE what you do as well, and can see when you comment on it.

To put this into a different perspective as well, as someone who's been struggling with an eating disorder, looking at really thin idols like Jimin, Suga, Haechan, etc who all weigh less than me and are taller than me and to see them called "chubby" kicked my mind into comparison mode and said "then I must be HUGE." Or "I won't ever officially be skinny or pretty until I weigh the same as them or less" because that's how a sick mind works. So not only does this infect the idols minds and encourage the bad mindset, but it can infect their fans minds to think that they aren't good enough.

I've never wanted to point fingers at this because I love it so much, but I can't be a fucking liar anymore and hide behind it because I want to get better, and I'm tired of believing that I'm too big, or that I'll always be chubby until I'm 90lbs like all the female Kpop idols. But sometimes the Kpop fandom can trigger my eating disorder. There, I said it. Fight me. Because you call thin idols chubby, and you implant this way of thinking that how they eat is okay, and that weighing 90lbs and eating 1200 calories a day is a lifestyle or that constantly restricting and not focusing on nutrients or what body type I am is how life works because IT ISNT. Some people may be that naturally, but the fact that some idols noticably change a little bit when they eat normally on breaks shows that how they are on stage isn't natural.

And to end this off as a disclaimer again, I know people don't mean to be triggering, and they don't think there's anything wrong in what they're doing (which I understand), but you also have to really take a second to think about what you're saying a little bit. Chubby is a word that is either black or white to people. Either they think it's cute, or they think it's an insult. That all depends on culture and self esteem and blah blah blah. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with being chubby, or that it's a bad thing to be because it is definitely NOT and I think everyone is beautiful how they're meant to be. So of you're 90lbs or 140, or 180, or 200+ or anything in between naturally you're all still beautiful and have your own necessary standards to consume to be healthy that will be different from everyone else. However, that is where the issue lies. Because most idols weren't born as thin as they are, they are usually forced and conditioned to be that way. But to help you decide whether it's okay to make these comments, ask yourself this when you're about to call an idol chubby:

1: am I calling them chubby because they're "eating well" (a normal diet) and they've started filling out?

2:Would I like it if someone I loved, respected or whom I cared about their opinion called me "chubby" after finally getting off of a restricted diet and just eating healthy but normal amounts of food?

3: If I was a Kpop media outlet and saw that they gained weight, what would I write? (Really put yourself in their shoes and be honest.)

4: Am I calling them chubby cheeks because they're just puffing them out and being cute? (Then okay, it's fine)

5: when I say this, are they really chubby? Or has my mind been twisted to think they are just like their critics?

And I know that may seem extreme, but that's how it is. You all preach about how self love should be more important in the "toxic" Kpop industry but still subconsciously encourage its toxic behavior. So instead of comments like "omg your cheeks are so chubby now! <3" or "awwww look at his tummy he gained!" Say: "Omg, you look so healthy! ", " You've been looking extra cute recently 😍" and stuff like that. Because it still gets the point across that you like seeing them healthier, but it doesn't use possibly triggering words like chubby or thick because they are neither.

Anyways that's my mini rant. I don't mean to trigger people, or point fingers because I used to do it too. But I think we all need to collectively recognize this as part of the issue, and say, "huh, maybe that could hurt their feelings a little but EVEN IF I DONT MEAN TO, OR ITS NORMAL WHERE IM FROM TO SAY AS A COMPLIMENT"

Because as one of my favorite quotes puts it in words perfectly "You don't get to decide whether you hurt someone or not." So yes, people like me are sensitive, and yes, it may not seem like a big deal to you. But honestly I've sat by and respected all of your guy's opinions and words for a while now, and I think it's now okay for me to say "hey, this kind of bugs me a bit." Without being looked at as weird or annoying.

So in the nicest way possible, say what you want, but I'm not taking this down. I've made myself clear and as understanding as possible. But people like me who have an eating disorder, had one in the past, or are on the road to developing one, or someone who is about to start one of the insane Kpop diets, needs to know that this isn't normal. And they shouldn't compare themselves to the unhealthy kpop standards like it did.

Anyways, thanks for listening to my rant.

~DeepSheep

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dreamisawishyourheartmakes · 4 years

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10.18.2020

Thursday was not a good day. Let me tell you.

I have let go of what happened but I think this is the last step for me to let things go for good. It has been on my mind but I don’t want to talk about it with my husband no more. I respect how he feels and don’t want to let it show no more nor let it bother me anymore.

What happened was I made a post on my FB account about a shopping trip my husband took me on to a Whole Foods to spend $115 to get food that I could eat. I was dying for bread options. I do have some from a place I use my insurance but I wanted to see if there was a place that actually had bread that had less than 2 grams of protein more than 1 slice of bread. I found it and it was 1gram of protein for 2 slices of bread. HELL YES! The only BAD thing is that Whole Foods is expensive! Healthiness comes with a hefty price tag, that’s for sure. I have a rare metabolic disorder known as PKU(which is the shorter name). It basically means my liver is missing the enzyme that breaks down large amounts of protein. I can only have 8 grams of protein daily. For a very long time I did not follow the 8 grams of protein daily I was supposed to be doing me entire life. Anyway back to that post I made on FB. My cousin’s friend commented on it saying that I am a strong person and she could not imagine having to follow such a strict diet. I commented saying it was a diet of never having meat, seafood, chicken, dairy, etc. I also said that my sister went through it 3 times. My sister then posted saying “Yes, 3 times I went through it! It was extremely difficult to say the least. Even going on vacation and going out to eat at say a buffet, it was difficult. There is no such thing as eating out when you are pregnant. You technically shouldn’t just because it is harder to portion everything, unless you would be one of those people and bring measuring cups with you(i never was). But for what it’s worth, why eat at a buffet when what you’ll end up being able to eat there you can just eat at home. You would waste money honestly, so even though I knew eating out at a buffet was bad, I ate veggies and french fries and rice sometimes, knowing it was going to raise my level. But I told Kerri she should avoid eating out at all costs, but with her husband and his parents wanting to eat out often(NOW KEEP IN MIND I INVITED MY IN-LAWS TO COME PUMPKIN PICKING WITH MY HUSBAND and MY FAMILY and then MY MOTHER-IN-LAW SAYS SHE and HER HUSBAND CAN”T MAKE IT BUT IF WE GO OUT TO DINNER LATER LET HER KNOW...THERE WERE NO PLANS TO EAT OUT THAT DAY BECAUSE I TOLD MY HUSBAND I DIDN’T WANT TO DUE MY PRE-CON DIET BUT THEN I THOUGHT OF WANTING TO SEE THE IN-LAWS AND SAID WE WOULD GO TO A BUFFET WHICH IS MY BETTER OPTION BUT WAS 45 MINUTES AWAY FROM IN-LAWS...DID REALIZE SHE FIGURED WE WOULD GO TO DINNER UP THERE PLUS MY DAD CAN’T EAT A WHOLE BUNCH OF THINGS SO IT WORKS BETTER FOR HIM). Okay so back to finishing my sister’s comment off: that is going to be a huge problem. So she’s going to have a responsibility on her hands, basically making him and his parents understand the importance of this diet before and during pregnancy. After the pregnancy, it’s your choice as to what you want to do as far as the diet goes. But the ONE key thing in the PKU diet is the formula intake. Without that, the levels will stay high, not matter how good you watch what you eat. And while my sister goes food shopping at Whole Foods, I never did. Yadda, Yadda, Yadda” There was more but this is the part needed to understand what happened. I commented and said “Yeah ^^^^^^ Without my pku formula pills my levels would most likely be higher than they are now. Like a diabetic needs insulin a pku patient needs their formula to survive. The only problem there is the cost of the formula and without really good coverage no one can afford the cost and still we need many people in congress to support the nutrition equity act. It’s a bad battle but these people think ‘oh with controlling your diet with foods you’ll be fine’ WRONG! I don’t need my muscles breaking down because I’m trying to maintain low phe levels but not taking my formula! (Muscle breakdown happens when you don’t have formula and are taking in less formula or no formula at all). I also was reading about anabolism and catabolism. It’s quite complex but basically we need calories to keep levels lower too but we also need to lose body fat which also helps too(losing weight in pregnancy is not what any woman aims for) but you don’t want to lose muscle. It’s a complex diet that a lot of people do not understand and some doctors are like “What’s PKU?(It happened to me last year seeing a covering PCP doctor that has never treated a PKU patient nor ever heard of PKU before). So Thursday I get text from my mother-in-law “When you are done working at X-time we need to talk.” Well, I kind of was thinking “what happened now?” I thought it might have had something to do with a post on FB because what else could be wrong and if it were serious she would have called. I said to her text “Sure. What’s going on? Everything ok???” She says “Physically I’m ok. We will talk at x-time” Mind you I got stuck with training so I clocked out a few minutes later than my off time. I get a call on my phone and a minute after that first call comes another. I was finally able to look at my phone see I had 2 missed calls a minute a part from one another. Now I am in pain with my left arm trying to hustle and make dinner for myself on top of rearrange pots and pans so I can have better access to them when needed. I called my mother-in-law back on a different number so I could record what is being said exactly. YES, I RECORDED IT SO SHE CAN HEAR HOW SHE JUST TALKS AND TALKS AND DOESN’T LET YOU TALK WHEN NEEDED AND IF SHE DOES LET YOU TALK SHE DOES NOT ACKNOWLEDGE WHAT IS BEING SAID TO HER AND NEVER FINISHES WHAT SHE SAYS AND JUST GOES ON AND ON IGNORING ANYTHING YOU NEED HER TO HEAR.

Well I will try and break down a 23 minute conversation of all her talking and me getting to say some things 3 different times. She basically told me she knows I(meaning me) don’t care and was asking what my sister was talking about airing on FB about eating out at buffets MIND YOU MY SISTER WAS GENERALLY SPEAKING AND NOT SPEAKING ABOUT LAST WEEKEND BUT SEE ASSUMPTIONS ARE MADE BECAUSE HIS MOTHER SITS ON FB AND READS EVERY LITTLE COMMENT MADE ON MY POSTS. SHE ASSUMED MY SISTER WAS TALKING ABOUT LAST WEEKEND when we were not planning to have dinner out. The only reason we talked about having it is so we could see his mother because YES I DO KNOW WE DON’T SEE MY HUSBAND’S FAMILY OFTEN. MY HUSBAND’S PARENTS DON’T SEE THEIR SON OFTEN BECAUSE HE WORKS 6 days a week and has ONE DAY OFF from his 2nd job. He then works his full-time job 5 DAYS A WEEK. She brings that up at the end of the conversation saying that I see my family a lot more and yet my sister doesn’t say anything about that. WHY WOULD SHE? THAT IS IRRELIVANT ANYWAY. I go to my parent’s house I take care of myself and my parents understand when I can’t do something, I CAN NOT DO IT. My in-laws though will push it and say “OH, THERE HAS TO BE SOMEWHERE YOU CAN HAVE SOMETHING. THERE ARE OPTIONS.” Right, there are BUT I should not even consider eating out because there is more to it like knowing every little ingredient in foods, weighing foods out, etc. Yes my sister did right out say in her comment “But I told Kerri she should avoid eating out at all costs, but with her husband and his parents wanting to eat out often that is going to be a huge problem.” YES SHE IS RIGHT because THEY DO LIKE TO EAT OUT. I know his mom wants to get me out of the house but do we always have to involve food? We can’t see a movie? We can’t go bowling(She bowls in a league)? We can’t go have our nails done? You can’t come down here and have dinner with me and we can cook together which she loves doing? I don’t get it. There are so many other options that don’t involve eating out and an option of coming here as she does not work and is not tied down anymore. I said to her “You know could have just come down here since I work from home and am off of work too late to drive an hour and 10 minutes away and I should have said that but I didn’t because I KNOW YOU WON’T MAKE THAT COMMUTE SINCE IT’S TOO FAR FOR YOU/” She didn’t know what to say. She said “Yeah, well that is true, but yeah well you know maybe we can take turns going back and forth eating at each other’s place” YEAH OKAY BECAUSE THAT WON’T HAPPEN. HER SON KNOWS IT TOO BECAUSE THEY NEVER PICK UP THE PHONE TO ASK IF THEY CAN COME HERE BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS TELL ME THAT THEY NEVER SEE THEIR SON.....NOT MY FAULT. WE CAN’T AND WILL NOT BE TRAVELING UP THERE ALL THE TIME AND WE HAVE BEEN. GET OVER IT. 94 year old landlord drives more than my own mother-in-law who is 63!

Anyway, I need to get done. I have to do some laundry!

My sister was generally speaking and because the WORD BUFFET WAS IN IT FROM MY SISTER’S PAST EXPERIENCE EATING OUT BUFFETS KNOWS HOW HARD AND TOUGH IT IS TO DO SO and HOW BAD THAT IS AND CAN ABSOLUTELY RAISE PHE LEVELS.

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realrisehealth · 4 years

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Five tips for weight loss

Looking handsome and gorgeous is not only an attractive looking aspect but also the healthy aspect to ourselves. Here we will discuss

five tips for weight loss

which should be considered during any weight loss program you are following.

Everybody needs fast and unhealthy weight loss, which is one of the most widespread obsessions in our culture today. On a daily basis, we’re bombarded with unrealistic body messages in the media, we’re part of social conversations and judgments focused on physical appearance, plus we put pressure on ourselves to be a size “perfect” every time we see ourselves in the mirror.

Generally, it has been admitted that overweight can be controlled through dieting and people practiced the weight loss program by themselves under this scenario. If you start sweating when you think about how you’ll look at an upcoming high school reunion, wedding, holiday party, or beach vacation. The pressure we put on ourselves to drop pounds fast is not only bad for our hearts and minds, it also takes a toll on our bodies. Frankly, the lose-weight-quick promises on books and products are ridiculous and dangerous.

Let’s get one thing straight before moving on: You are handsome and gorgeous, valuable, and amazing just the way you are. What I’m about to share is for those of you who want to lose weight in a healthy, balanced, and realistic way. If you focus on your overall health management and believe that it will take some time to lose your weight up to the desired level, then the weight loss procedure will be effective.

That said, the average weight loss was about 6 pounds over the course of those three weeks. SIX! That may not sound like a lot to you, but keep in mind that these pounds are far more likely to stay off. And, that’s because Crazy Sexy You includes healthy whole grains, plant-based protein, fruits and veggies, lots of water, proper rest, meditation, and simple exercise.

Now, some people lost significantly more than the average, but that often depended on how much the person had to lose and generally settled into the range I’m describing. The point is, if we want to get healthy, we need to do it in a sustainable way that works for our bodies and lives.

There are some key points for any program participants and those who continued to follow the principles of the plan are still losing weight in a healthy way. No deprivation, harsh inner critics, yo-yo dieting or obsessive weight checks. Just good food, self-care, and movement.

Important five tips for weight loss you should keep in mind.

Target and practice for no more than 1-2 pounds of weight loss per week

Again, I know it might sound like a snail’s pace, especially if you have 50 or 60 pounds you want to lose, but shedding 1-2 pounds per week is going to get you to your goal and help you stay there. One pound is equivalent to 3500 calories. So if you lose 1 pound in a week, that means you’ve eaten 3500 fewer calories that week or burned an extra 3500 calories (or a combo of the two). Here’s a fun way to think about it: If you were to hold a pound of fat in your hand, it’s about the size of small butternut squash. Oh, my gourd! At that rate, you will have lost 25 squash in six months. Bravo!

Change your mindset for weight loss

Slow it down and be gentle with yourself. Take the pressure off and open your mind. Let go of the all-or-nothing beliefs, fads, and myths you’ve picked up along the way, especially when it comes to carbs. Consumption of unhealthy mischievous foods can be the reason for the failure of weight loss activity. If you’re feeling caught up in the stress, then you need a free pass to forgive yourself! Focus on all the other areas of your life that you’re successful in.

Instead of striving to just drop a certain amount of pounds, shift your mindset to improving your overall wellbeing with healthy foods, exercise you like, and self-care. When you do, the weight loss will inevitably follow.

Scale your weight only in a week

To be honest, this is the best of five tips for weight loss, I stopped weighing myself long ago. But if you’re curious (and hopefully not obsessed) here are some things to keep in mind. Your weight can fluctuate 3-4 pounds from day to day due to sodium intake, water loss, dehydration, and even hormone levels. If you’re stepping on the scale each morning, you may feel on top of the world one day, only to find yourself frustrated the next. Avoid this roller coaster by picking one morning a week to weigh yourself, and do it before you eat or drink anything. These numbers will be much more reliable. There’s a caveat, though. Don’t panic if you’ve been eating a veggie-loaded healthy diet, guzzling H2O, and exercising regularly and your weight is going up. You’re likely building muscle. Just keep up the great work and read tip #4. In time, the number on your scale will shift.

Avoiding the scale by and large, particularly in the first place is helpful. Rather, hold up until your garments begin fitting all the more freely. Meanwhile, simply center around connecting with your body's yearning and fulfilled prompts, just as your vitality level. Since you realize that eating well plant-fueled nourishments, skirting the garbage and liquor, organizing rest, and practicing more will get you to your objective, it's useful to make propensities that will bolster economical weight loss and wellbeing first. The scale can come later when you realize you're moving the correct way and simply need a persuasive lift.

Think about taking your body estimations and the following muscle to fat ratio week by week

As we just talked about, it can take half a month for the scale to reflect by and large weight loss, particularly in case you're practicing and eating a fair, non-craze diet. Once more, this regularly implies you're building muscle. In this way, your fat cells are diminishing in size while your muscle cells are developing and getting progressively thick. On the off chance that you've taken your "previously" hip, thigh, midsection and arm estimations, just as your muscle to fat ratio, you'll likely observe every one of those numbers drop on a week by week premise. This tells you that you're progressing nicely at a solid pace. Furthermore, seeing improvement through this viewpoint supports your certainty and responsibility. Crash diets and trends abstain from food ordinarily bring about quick weight loss, yet you're losing muscle, not fat. Thus, you might be getting more slender, yet your body is less conditioned. That is not one of your objectives!

Be careful with the things that can obstruct weight loss achievement

The last five tips of weight loss are stress, Stress is likely the greatest square to weight loss, and being worried about your weight can truly hinder your advancement. In case you're feeling along these lines, think about utilizing some loosening up basic oils, routinely getting a decent night's rest, and ruminating every day. Practices like these will help quiet your nerves and advance adjusted and long haul weight loss. What's more, stress can frequently be the consequence of the weight we place on ourselves. Here and there when we quit attempting, things happen normally—even weight loss. Make a guarantee to yourself that for 3 weeks you're just going to concentrate on sound nourishments, development, and getting rest. Without undesirable desires, you'll feel much improved, stress less, embrace more beneficial propensities, and spotlight on your successes, rather than a number.

Moderate digestion can likewise make weight loss all the more a battle. Look at my digestion boosting tips here for approaches to enable your digestion to work in support of yourself. The vast majority of them are simple things you can consolidate into your regular day to day existence. Calorie cycling—eating a greater number of calories on certain days than others—does the stunt for certain individuals. What's more, it very well may be consolidated into your life in a solid manner (remember that it is not advancing eating an enormous cheddar pizza one day and just rice cakes the following).

Planning and execution should be perfect

For instance, you can plan to appreciate an extraordinary solid treat each other day. Or on the other hand, since you realize that the ends of the week will likely incorporate more calories, you settle on more astute supper decisions Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. In the event that you follow these rules, cycling calories can fire up your digestion and give you the weight-loss edge you need in a feeding and adjusted way.

On the off chance that you feel mooched out by adopting a moderate strategy to weight loss, contemplate this. Fast weight loss is, in all honesty, a weight-loss executioner. Losing more than 3 or 4 pounds seven days is OK for up to 14 days on the off chance that you have a lot of weight to lose, yet keeping up this pace not just brings down your digestion altogether and for all time, it likewise brings down your supplement savings. This regularly prompts vitality accidents and yearnings, however, it can likewise imply that your weight will rush to return and increasingly hard to lose next time.

Flowing through these five tips for weight loss will support the perspective for your goal of reducing weight. Making a perceptive and all around paced way to deal with weight loss is the initial phase in building up a sound connection with your body. Since you have the structure squares, I trust you'll move your regard for giving yourself more love and giving your body more opportunity to accomplish its objectives.

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