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bular · 3 years

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Welcome to Live Commentary

I had no one to talk to while watching the movie and I hate being alone with my thoughts so I wrote everything down in my notes app. It's not coherent! Enjoy!

Aw yeah 1.5 seconds of Bular that is all I needed! Might as well stop now I've seen my boy I'm satisfied.

Why is there a nearly 4 minute recap as if I haven't watched the show at least 50 times. I should be the one giving the recap.

The beginning felt a bit forced to me but maybe that's just me? Like they just tried to squeeze too many things into a small timeframe without any buildup, it just didn't really work. Congrats on the engagement! This is my OTP so I'm very happy! But it came out of nowhere.

Nari in Douxies body is so wrong and I love it and hate it at the same time (positive)

Eli is BIG. I knew he was gonna be tall but I was not prepared for that chiseled face. Or the fact that he stepped off the ship without glasses? I wear glasses and I would not choose to step off a spaceship blind.

OkAY who had mpreg on their bingo card?

AAARRRGGHH actually said a full sentence 🥺 there is no heterosexual explanation for this scene and I'm here for it

Arcadia being the center of the universe really does make a lot of sense. I hate how much sense it makes. Despise it.

Strickler in a Christmas sweater is something i didn't know I needed. Jim's jacket too but that's just adorable, Jim's adorable. Oh sweet baby you're about to get fucked over so bad.

Love seeing Barbara actively participating in battle too. Good for her! Power family!!

Where are the kids tho? Is NotEnrique babysitting? Either that or they hired the girl from the Incredibles movie.

Nomura is so talented I love seeing her fighting on the good side. I can't explain it but I love digitigrade legs they're just so pretty?? Aesthetically pleasing??? Fuck yeah, legg! I could watch Nomura run around and be badass all day.

WAIT NO OH SHIT HOW DARE YOU FUCK

STRICKLER DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE NOT YOU TOO THAT'S TOO FUCKING RUDE DON'T DO THIS TO ME

THERE'S NO WAY HE'S DEAD RIGHT WE SAW NO BODY

Barbara does not deserve this I refuse to accept it. He's fine he'll be back they wouldn't kill two Changelings at once. Also Nomura is with Draal now I take no criticism.

So my favorite characters were Bular, Draal, Gunmar and Angor. And before this movie I always half-joked that everyone I love dies, how I still like Strickler and Nomura but apart from them all of my faves were killed in the very order of favoritism. AND NOW LOOK AT THIS. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I LOVE A CHARACTER. MY LOVE IS TOXIC.

OKAY I LOVE GUN RO- WAIT NO I DON'T LOVE HIM FUCK ABORT ABORT

It's great tho omg

I didn't realize it was Gun Robot when I saw it in the trailer this is amazing

Okay but imagine you're chilling in your trollmarket minding your own business when some misfit group of strangers waltzes in, steals your favorite shiny and celebrates your death before running off

"I AM GUN ROBOT" IS THE HORN LMAOOO

Nana better show up at some point to reunite with her boytoy, I'll cancel this entire franchise otherwise

Something bad is going to happen to Toby isn't it. He's getting too much screentime

Jim's hand got DEEP FRIED

ARCHIE NO

We can play Scrabble okay if they don't free them (which they must) I want an after credits scene of them playing scrabble

Douxie and Nari's bond 🥺🥺🥺

Nari pls just say what you fuckin mean the world is ending

Oh god is she going to remember killing Nomura oh nooo

Claire don't make the portal you will die again. Your hair gon be white all over

EVERYONE AVOIDING THE SCHOOL JUST RIGHT THERE LMAO RIP

I love how Darci is just with the school bus. Civilian girlfriend. But also love how the world is ending and Coach is like "fuck that I'm gonna teach these kids"

Does he know his son is pregnant

"Going back to the city where it's safe" buddy have you been to that city

Whatever happens, Nari has the coolest looking titan. Giant four legged gremlin. I'd adopt him.

WAIT SHE CAN FEEL THE PAIN?

Me: oh i love that titan

The titan 5 seconds later:

Did Nari just fucking die what the FUCK

Oh of COURSE the pages are stuck together RIGHT THERE

Seriously tho how do you not notice an entire nougat nummy in a book

Wait so Arcadia has another heartstone? Or OH SO IT'S ALIVE. OKAY GREAT. GUNMAR COULDN'T EVEN DO THAT RIGHT HUH

Love how the Heartstone has been dormant/dead for months and apparently heard Blinky say it's alive and decided to wake up RIGHT THEN

Finally they're evacuating the city. This is like, the third apocalypse there. About time.

Okay so you can't pull Excalibur from the rock, but you CAN carve out the stone. Couldn't you just carve it off the sword as close as possible and like. Use that? Just swing the whole damn rock around?

God i can NOT get over Steve's pants. I mean I read a spoiler he was gonna be pregnant but I thought it was a prank or shitpost. I did not see this coming and I am never going to be over it. I love how he and Aja just roll with it and nobody else even cares. They've seen weirder stuff. So he's pregnant now. Whatever.

Jim's hand is bandaged and his ribs still hurt. I love that they're actually consistent with his injuries. I mean sucks for him but hell yeah for hero that doesn't always win!

Okayyy here comes the heartstone. Why not!

IS HE IN LABOR

So if you kiss an Akiridion 7 times you will have 3-5 babies in a few hours. How are they not overpopulated?? Also Aja couldn't have WARNED STEVE BEFOREHAND?

Eli is so supportive omfg

So uh where are the babies gonna come out of? I'm not into mpreg how does this usually work

OH STEVE THANKS FOR ASKING MY QUESTION

Oh good thing he happens to have 8 friends still alive. Otherwise this would've never worked. Nomura had to die otherwise there would've been 10 of them.

Why is everyone bowing to Jim? Did they rehearse this?

Stuart if you hadn't taken a bathroom break you would've thrown off the math and doomed the world. That was a poop of fate my man

Ahhh the signature quote. Where did Douxie and the Akiridions learn it? Did they rehearse this too? It's really cliché but I do like it tbh

If Strickler were dead we'd see more Barbara right?

WOOO BLINKY DRIVING

Ah Jim just used she/her for Bellroc! Finally we're learning some pronouns. I've been wondering this whole time.

MY VIRGIN EYES. WHAT IS GOING O N

How are they not dying with all this lava?

She really just yeeted Varvatos

Did Claire just tell AAARRRGGHH to jump off the titan and he did it without question

I want to say I like Stuart and want him to have more screentime, but I won't say it because I don't want him to die

Jim's poor ribs

Toby can drive yoooo

Tobyyy you're scaring meeeee

So did they really need the different stone or was the amulet just waiting for Jim to choose death over giving up

I saw the armor before but it looks VERY COOL

Also I didn't mention this before but I love that they cut Merlin's name from the incantation. Good for them.

Toby you lost your helmet noooo

For real tho I'm terrified for Toby rn. I saw a comment somewhere earlier that just said "Toby no" with no context and I am AFRAID

So do Bellroc's eyes work after all? I thought she was blinded back in Wizards in the past.

DID SHE JUST FUCKING STAB MY BOY

TOBY YOU SHOULD NOT BE THERE GET OUT THE TRUCK

Bellroc maybe screaming "i'm powerless" in front of your enemy isn't the best idea

She sploosh

DID JIM SURVIVE THAT FALL AND ALSO IS THE TACO TRUCK OKAY

How is he lifting Claire like that buddy you have bruised ribs and just got stabbed

ELI HI CAN WE SEE THE KIDS

SEVEN KIDS! AND ELI JR I LOVE IT

This show really loves to give people more than the recommended amount of babies with no warning huh

She immediately knows which one is Eli Jr 🥺 okay listen I'm not the biggest fan of comic relief sideplot surprise babies, but I have to admit they're cute. Cute couple. Throuple. Eli is in on this. He even has a Junior.

I TOLD YOU WHERE'S THE DAMN TACO TRUCK NANA WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU AND NEITHER WILL I

Oh yea he better fuckin be alive I will commit murder

HE BETTER FUCKIN BE ALIVE BITCH

FUCK YOU

THAT'S A WHOLE ASS CHILD HE ISN'T ALLOWED TO DIE IT'S ILLEGAL

JIM IS GONNA LOOK DOWN AT THE GREEN GLOWING BITCH AAARRRGGHH CONVENIENTLY THREW THERE AND SEE HIM ALIVE OR SOMETHING

YEAH USE THE SWORD TO UNDEAD HIM! THAT'S HOW YOU USE SWORDS!

Unbecoming Part 2

So is Jim just gonna Groundhog Day it until everyone is fine? There's only 13 minutes left we're gonna need a bigger movie

Also I screamed so much about everyone's death and now everyone reading this after they already saw the whole thing is gonna shame me for clowning huh

The scene where Blinky is giving his goodbye speech, there are no babies and Steve has a round belly? Did he reabsorb them?? I mean I know Jim is about to un-birth them but he hasn't started yet

JUST HOW FAR BACK IS HE PLANNING TO GO

WAIT HOLD UP EXCUSE ME WHAT

Oh they did NOT just do that. I though he was just gonna go back to like, the start of the movie maybe. Not all the way

Imagine being in your early twenties with as much trauma as this kid has and having to pretend you're 16 again

Somewhere Unkar is complaining because "oh sure NOW it's a good idea"

I know Jim is wondering where Toby is because he was there before. But before, he made an entire meatloaf AND did his homework before leaving the house, so honey maybe wait a minute

For a second I thought Toby wasn't gonna be there and Jim would return to the right time. But there he is!

Alright so they're in school now, did they take the canal and just didn't mention the amulet on screen or did they pass it as if the Unbecoming episode hadn't been that traumatizing? Jim you know what happens when you ignore it

Jim maybe you're being too obvious here lmao

Soooo. Anyway. These whole past years I've rewatched this show over and over and over again are cancelled now?

OKAY AT LEAST WE SAW NANA FOR A SPLIT SECOND THAT'S IRONIC TIMING

So we get the quote again. And Trollhunter Tobias is nice. Cool. Cool AU I mean, but I don't know. I don't knowwww. I've been way too invested in everything to just accept that it never happened?? So uh. Hm. How about this.

Strickler survived because fuck you, and Toby also survived and just has scars now. Maybe a wheelchair but he's fine, also he can use the Warhammer for super speed and make it awesome once he's used to it. Archie and Charlie get freed once they rebuild the bridge (and they were playing scrabble to pass the time). Nomura is still dead because she died on screen and I can't really deny that but she's with Draal so it's okay. Everyone is traumatized but they'll be fine. NotEnrique is still babysitting 500 babies and Steve is about to bring 7 more.

In summary, I reject Groundhog Day ending but everything else was great, as long as it actually happened. It was a good movie. But you can't just cancel years of passion. Having the prospect of a million "canon AUs" sounds great for writing but at the same time nooo you can't do that he didn't have to go back THAT far HHHHH

I liked the movie. It was a great watch and a satisfying end to a franchise, but I gotta say I do not fancy the ending of it so I will from now on be in denial. I honestly feel kind of betrayed that this show was my whole life for so long, I learned every smallest fact, and they basically deleted it from existence. I know what they were going for, I think, but no thank you I will be going with my own opinion. Still gonna rewatch it a few dozen times though ✌🏻

And that concludes my live commentary that was supposed to be a small handful of notes. Feel free to shame me for my opinions. See ya!

#rott spoilers #trollhunters #tales of arcadia #this got a LOT longer than expected #i'd be surprised if anyone actually read the whole thing but oh well #i just. have a LOT of opinions #i started out so optimistic too #mpreg mention #can't believe i have to use that tag on a post about canon

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tepidtrashpile · 3 years

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covering taeyong’s parts

I am HEATED.

tldr: i don’t usually do stuff like this but i’m highly caffeinated and have nothing better to do so prepare for a (very convoluted and long) rant cause omg im so fucking mad.

so for those of you who don’t know, nct 2020 had a resonance vlive/concert last night (dec 26/27) and taeyong and jisung were unable to perform due to a back injury (herniated disk) and knee injury respectively.

I’ll mainly be talking about taeyong in this just due to his extrEmely large presence within NCT and also jisung was there to vocally cover his parts.

(also not to take anything away from jisung, however in the sheer amount of screentime and tracks ty is in, him missing is much harder to disguise within a performance with or without vocals)

in order these are the members that covered ty’s parts in each song (tbh i may be forgetting some, but the point is look at how hard they had to work to even fill ty’s dance position within the concert, the boy is in like 50% of their performed tracks)

nct u - boss - sungchan

nct u - the 7th sense - shotaro

nct u - light bulb - yangyang

nct 127 - touch - haechan (first part), johnny (iconic ty and mork), yuta (pulls up in the chorus to fill in ty part to the stage right of jh)

nct u - make a wish - jeno (first part), jaemin (basically rest of the song)

nct 127 - kick it - mark (usually the center parts), jaehyun (first rap), yuta (end dance break), johnny (mark stepped on him rip lol)

nct u - misfit - johnny (start), sungchan (end)

nct 2020 - resonance - jeno / jaemin (?) - dude idk im having trouble keeping up at this point

// I want to make it very clear that NCT would not be where it is without taeyong. I’m not suggesting that he is replaceable in any way, shape or form. however as a person with two parents in the performance industry - and im sure that many of u understand just from general life experience -- the show mUst go on. when you have a presence as large as ty missing, it is undoubtedly going to take a toll on the overall energy and performance but i personally think that the boys fucking killed it -- especially with such a short turnaround from learning that ty would not be performing. (jaemin said that jeno legit had one HOUR to practice the beginning of maw (and by proxy the beginning of resonance) and that amount of talent and skill is unfuckingbelievable) but I digress.

// there is nothing wrong with being disappointed that taeyong cannot perform. (get well soon ty!) he is an incredible performer and human being. there is nothing wrong with seeing (and understanding) that another member filling ty’s part is going to FEEL different, even if they do a phenomenal job. there is nothing wrong with feeling the difference in energy and performance -- there is obviously ANOTHER PERSON doing the part that we are accustomed to. there is nothing wrong with having a conversation and discourse about the performance. however... there IS something wrong with putting down members and harshly criticizing their performance in a malicious way. constructive criticism is one thing, but a lot (not all but an overwhelming amount) of what I have seen in the comments and the little bit of twitter i have been on has just been bashing members (one in particular) about their performance.

// let me get the easy part out of the way here. jaemin and jeno killed it during maw. yuta’s dance break, mark’s center time, jaehyun covering ty’s rap, and johnny stepping up to get stepped on (hehe i’ll stop now don’t mind me) were all surprisingly refreshing. yangyang covering lightbulb was (imo) one of highlights of the concert. for a rapper who often doesn’t get the recognition that he deserves he did a PHENOMENAL job covering the entirety of ty’s parts in his own way and conveying his emotions. yes, the members weren’t the same as taeyong, however, they added their own twist and their own personalities to it. it is in fact BETTER to do this and be remembered for their own style than attempt to emulate someone else’s performance. it is the sign of a great artist to take something and make it your own.

// now, onto the two newest members. i will be candid about this. the biggest difference I felt within the performance was when sungchan and shotaro were covering ty’s parts. tbh this is to be expected (?). i’m not trying to put down the boys but the reality is that they debuted 2-3 MONTHS ago? all of the other members covering ty’s parts have had significantly more experience in every aspect of performing. jaemin and jeno may be about the same age as chan and shotaro but they have upwards of 4 years more experience (debuted anyway, and anyone can tell u that practicing vs the real thing can be a very daunting change) than the other two. the other members have performed in front of a live crowd, they have had time to deal with criticism and learn from it. they are just in every way more experienced, and although we expect great things out of all the members, it is simply unrealistic to expect the same level of performance out of members with 2 years less experience than anyone else on the stage.

aneway...

shotaro covered one of the hardest parts in nct history - taeyong’s 7th sense. in every way - the rap, the technicality of the dance, the sheer charisma ty brings - this was a daunting task. him being a rookie DID show in the performance. this isn’t a bad thing. the tone of his rap did sometimes lack nuance and the level of sophistication that we know taeyong to have. however, i do think shotaro was the right choice for this song. you have to give rookies experience for them to grow, and a concert like this (even without a live crowd) is a great time to do it. (i’ll get into logistics later but bear with me)

the sad reality is that we’re probably not going to have large in person concerts for at least the next year and it will be a long time til travel, concerts, and simply life return to what they were before covid. it will be a very long til the boys get to perform on a stage with the energy of a crowd in the same way they have up til now.

now sungchan. my poor bb sungchan :(

sungchan covered ty’s part is boss (and a little bit in misfit but johnny covered the first part and its more of a hype rap song than one with designated dance moves and centre parts). the dance (in boss) may not be the most technical but this is an unfORGETTABLE song when it comes to taeyong’s part. the beginning “nct leggo?” *chefs kiss*. from what i’ve seen sungchan is the one receiving the most criticism (read hate) about his performance. look, i’m not going to argue that out of all the members who filled ty’s part he was the weakest. (im not trying to hate, but imo his performance was the weakest, u can disagree with me). he definitely less comfortable with covering taeyong’s part than anyone else was - including shotaro. i think most of the criticism is coming from the fact that he just looked anxious and unable to throw himself into the choreo and when comparing him to taeyong (who again just -- idk he’s unexplainable) his performance does fall a little flat. imo the rap was okay, his tone is actually somewhat similar to ty. i really think that most of the hate is stemming from the execution of the choreo rather than the rap. HOWEVER... calling him “stiff as a board” and commenting “cap” emojis does absolutely nothing except spread unnecessary hate. sungchans position is NOT as a dancer. he is only listed as a rapper. shotaro, however, is listed as both a dancer and a rapper. not to say that these listings are the end all be all of a member’s position, but because they are so new they are a decent representation of what SM thought their strengths were. we would love our idols to be aces at everything, but they are human and humans have their strengths and weaknesses. compared to taeyong, and also shotaro, sungchan does not have the technical ability nor the confidence while dancing. I’d like to believe that anyone who analyzes their performances and takes an objective view can understand where i am coming from.

tldr: you are placing unrealistic expectations on a rookie who’s main position is NOT main dancer. you are asking him to fill the shoes of arguably one of the most charismatic and talented rappers, leaders, and centers of 4th gen kpop... as a ROOKIE. his performance is most likely going to show cracks of being relatively new to the stage. its okay to acknowledge that, but don’t be fucking rude when discussing his performance.

// the amount of posts i’ve seen calling sungchan “untalented” “stiff as a board” just im so fucking over it. yes, his performance had its weaknesses but name-calling and just straight up hate does nothing to help a performer and just ruins everyone’s mental. you can bet your ass that every single one of these boys has worked their ass off, given up unimaginable things, and faced challenges to get where they are today. not to mention that (in particular the case of sungchan and shotaro) these boys are young. the other youngest/newest members have had about 2 years (yangyang, xiaojun, hendery) to become accustomed to the criticism and also hatred that comes with being in the spotlight. sungchan is less than a MONTH older than me. shotaro is just a year older than me. my best friend is legit older than both of these boys. idk your age but think about yourself at their age, or where u think you’ll be at their age. they have accomplished SO much and are so young. they’re 19 and 20 and in an internationally recognized band. we know that a lot of these boys (and idols) do read our comments. i don’t care how much media training you’ve received, how strong your mental is, getting called untalented and being hated on is going to take a toll on your mental. along with that, what is the NEED? to spread hate? to show that “huhu, im such a big deal that all these people are responding to me”. like, legit wtf do u gain from this?

// when you are a performer you do open yourself up to criticism, it is part of the job. but criticism and hate are two very different things. to get where nct is today, every single member has to be humble enough to accept guidance AND constructive criticism. we all know how much the boys value nctizens opinions and take them into account when performing. when you are a performer like that you also have to criticize your own work. no matter what profession you are in, no matter what you do, you analyze ur own work and attempt to make it better. i can all but assure u that shotaro and sungchan (and all the boys) know their strengths and weaknesses, know when a specific move, performance, or other area of their ability is not up to par (or they just want to improve which is imperative to success in the music industry)

just be a decent human being. put urself in all of the boy’s shoes and think “hmm how would i feel if some stranger on the internet said this about me” before you make hateful statements.

again, there is nothing wrong with having a discussion and understanding that humans have strengths and weaknesses, but don’t just put someone down because u feel like it.

in case you aren’t convinced to be a decent person, have a more logical (?) approach -- not that u should have to shown a dissertation to be a decent human but i digress.

(think about how many other songs the rest of rap line has to perform, logistically, who else are you going have cover the entierty of boss and 7th sense.)

rap line is: taeyong, mark, lucas, hendery, jeno, jaemin, yangyang, shotaro, sungchan, and jisung (?).

everyone except lucas and hendery (and jisung but bb was injured :( ) covered ty’s part in some aspect. in fact, people not in the friggin rap line helped cover some of ty’s rap (johnny, jaehyun, haechan im looking at you) and other members covered dancing and center parts when they were asked to.

mark is in just as many tracks as ty and was RUNNING around to get to the next song this entire concert. you can legit see his outfit change with jackets and hats. he filled in for ty in kick it (group effort but u get the point) but in 7th sense just to the way that the song works and the dance etc etc, you can’t have mark doing his part as well as ty’s without it falling flat and taking a huge toll on mark. same with boss, marks filling just as big a role as ty and like, legit how do u give this boy mOre lines than he already has. (u can see that sm did a similar thing with jeno and jaemin in the beginning of maw, jeno covers the first part and then jaemin the rest of the song because jaemin can’t leave an open space at the vEry beginning of the song) (10/21 total performances)

lucas isn’t in as many as say mark but he is in boss and make a wish (boss being very hard for him to cover ty’s part, and jeno and jaemin covered maw. if i’m being completely honest i don’t think lucas has the same tone or technical ability to fit into ty’s parts in the songs as much as say - sungchan on a pure technical and tone pov (6/21 total performances)

hendery, similar to lucas isn’t in an absurd amount of tracks but still enough to tire a guy out lol. because of him performing full choreos in other songs it doesn’t make sense for him to learn a completely new choreo while simultaneously having to memorize and practice the others songs. also, in a similar vein of lucas, i just don’t think hendery is the first choice when choosing someone to cover ty’s parts (dont kill me hendery and lucas stans lol) (6/21 total performances)

jeno while jeno isn’t in the sheer number of performances as other members, he does end up covering ty’s starting part in maw (see reasoning for jaemin above). this by proxy means he covers the maw part in resonance. while he does a fantastic job covering the starting part, asking him to learn the entirety of boss or 7th sense would be a fuckton of work. u can legit see him yEEt himself out of camera view after his part - not to mention again that he had an hour to practice lol (6/21 total performances) 7/21 covering

jaemin - first off u can literally see jaemin’s energy fall throughout the final song the boy is so tired by aneyway... it makes total sense for him to cover maw as he already knows the choreo and it take less effort than learning an entirely new song. also, when ur comparing popularity/center time between jeno and jaemin vs. hendery (even lucas sometimes) they simply have more, and when u aRe in the center u have to expend more energy becAuse u are holding the performance together (6/21 performances)

yangyang let me get my yangyang simping out of the way, but this boy is so fucking talented and his rap deserves more praise. lightbulb compared to other songs ty is in, is a more melodic and emotional based song. there is no choreo, therefore the person covering the rap just has to focus on the rap itself rather than the rap AND the choreo. imo this was the best possible choice for someone to cover ty’s part in lightbulb (6/21 total) 7/21 covering ty’s part

shotaro shotaro is only in 4/21 performances. it simply makes sense for the rap line member with the fewest songs to perform to learn a a full choreo. as stated above, 7th sense is the more technically difficult of the songs that required learning and covering a full part. assigning shotaro (the dance line member) to the more challenging choreo is just the easy choice -- especially if ya’ll gonna come for sungchan’s dancing skills, give the damn song to shotaro smh (4/21 performances) 5 when covering 7th sense

sungchan tied with shotaro for the fewest performances (just by nature of being the newest members) in the same way that it makes sense for shotaro to learn a full choreo, it makes sense for sungchan. reasoning for the assigned songs above. (4/21 total performacnes) 5 with boss

// the songs where they didn’t have a designated member cover most/all of taeyong’s parts were in the 127 songs as well as in baby don’t stop (ten and taeyong duet). 127 is the most veteran of the nct subgroups, and is in general just more accustomed to filling in parts (ie winwin - screw u sm lol). they have johnny who trained as a rapper who can fill in, jaehyun, haechan, and yuta have all proven that they can cover rap with more a sing-rap style and mark can take/cover parts when it is logistically possible.

// in 127′s songs although ty does often take center and many lines, in general 127 is just a more well rounded group. (don’t come for my ass). in the same way that dream has an undeniable chemistry, 127 is the same way. when you work with the same group of people for an extended period of time without many (if any) changes you just build better chemistry. in nct u taeyong takes more of the spotlight just due to his charisma and raw power. think about it. which performance suffered more due to taeyong’s absence: touch / kick it or make a wish / boss / 7th sense.

also: because 127 is a fixed unit all the boys know the choreo and have consistently performed it at concerts allowing for member to step in where they know they are comfortable without the amount of discussion it might otherwise take in a rotational group

// take a second to think about a certain performance without taeyong in it. it may just be me, but i think 127 fare much better without their leader than any rotational group without taeyong very (firmly ?) bolstering the performance in the center. (taeyong doesn’t hold all these titles for nothing, he is truly another breed)

// in baby don’t stop they didn’t even attempt to cover taeyong’s absence. idk if that was ten putting his foot down and saying that he didn’t want someone covering the part or if it was more of a choice based on marketing and fanservice. baby don’t stop is truly ten and taeyong’s song and idk if even pairing 10 with a dancer with ty’s vocal in the backtrack would have received positive feedback.

if you have somehow made it this far props to you lol. a rant that started because i wanted to defend sungchan has turned into a long analysis of members... whoops.

tldr: just be a decent human being. everyone in nct is human. a talented, multifaceted, human with strengths and weaknesses. being a nctizen doesn’t mean not being proud, disappointed, happy, or any other emotion about the boys. but it does mean treating the boys and other fans with respect.

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wri0thesley · 3 years

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many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn

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ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!!

Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making

i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!

Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.

ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn

Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.

gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;

Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕

honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3.

Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?

hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3

Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.

i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest.

Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday

dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof.

Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.

extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!!

Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!

ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!

Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~

Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)

Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.

hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’.

i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring.

anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3

Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!

thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3

Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.

this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3

Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u

ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.

Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)

i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3

Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.

honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3

honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3

Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!

honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_;

Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖

ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3

Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!

to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(.

Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!

anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess!

Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!

wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that.

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end

HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!).

Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.

ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3

Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!

i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3

Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon

i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don’t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3

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Friends and Food

Summary:

Usagi invites Seiya, Yaten, and Taiki over to celebrate New Year's.

Notes:

This takes place before Usagi knows the Three Lights are the Starlights.

This was written for @docholligay’s same prompt party.

The prompt was Usagi Tsukino and "New Year's Fireworks".

It’s also on ao3, if you’re interested.

“Why did you drag me here?” Yaten, who was currently wrapped under five layers of blankets, bitterly muttered under her breath. “I could be home and sleeping right now, but instead, I’m freezing my damn ass off.”

“Maybe, if you stopped being a bitch for five seconds, you could actually have a good time.” Seiya snapped back. Currently, Seiya was sitting on one of those cheap folding chairs that were usually only used by parents at rec-league sporting games. A warm, big fire smoked in front of her - which was the only thing preventing Seiya from leaping out of her chair and tackling Yaten to the ground. Taking a deep breath, Seiya tried to remember she was here to relax. Even if Yaten kept acting like a huge ass, she should just brush it off and enjoy herself. She had to. For Usagi. “Bunhead’s really excited to do this with us - so please, try to be less of a bitch. I know that’s hard for you, but try.”

“Whatever.” Yaten grumbled, curling into her own shitty canvas folding chair.

A silence overtook the two as they patiently waited for Usagi and Taiki’s return. Bits of ember crackled in front of them, illuminating the otherwise dark night. Noises drifted in from outside the Tsukino’s backyard. The Tsukino’s neighbors were also outside, eagerly awaiting the - firewalks? Firewongs? Fire-somethings. Neither Seiya or Yaten could remember what word Usagi had been bambling to them about earlier. But whatever it was, it was certainly a big event. It seemed everyone in Tokyo was outside with their families, just waiting for them to start.

“It’s snack time!” Usagi’s loud voice broke the lull between the two, making them both look over their shoulder towards the girl. Usagi, outfitted in some cozy-looking bunny pajamas, bounced over to Seiya and Yaten. In her hands was a single, already-half-eaten chocolate bar. Behind her, Taiki had her arms full of various different treats: chocolates, chips, sodas, and more goodies than four people could possibly hope to eat in one night. “Help yourself! But don’t touch the peanut butter cups! Those are mine!” Usagi plopped into her own chair before taking another bite out of her chocolate bar. “Oh!” She perked up in her chair, speaking while loudly chewing. “And don’t touch the barbeque chips either! Those are also mine!”

Taiki unburdened herself by carefully setting the large haul of junk food on the ground, out of the fire’s reach. With a sigh, she plopped into another chair, while simultaneously grabbing a bag of cookies for herself.

“Thank you again for having us over tonight, Miss Tsukino.” As always, Taiki spoke like she was giving some lecture. So methodically and evenly. Like a teacher.

Usagi hummed and nodded absentmindedly. “Yeah, sure! It’s no problem! Fireworks are better with friends! And food!”

“Ah, yes. Fireworks.” Taiki nodded while opening the bag of cookies. “I was hoping-.”

“Wait!” Usagi lunged forward, interrupting Taiki and ripping the cookies out of her hands. “Those are mine too! Sorry!” She certainly didn’t sound sorry, though. The Starlights watched as Usagi then shoveled a few cookies into her mouth - which was already full of chocolate - without a care in the world. As if she hadn’t just rudely yanked them out of Taiki’s hands.

“Jeez, can we eat anything you brought out?” Yaten spat, giving Usagi one of her more menacing glances. It was wholly ineffective on Usagi, who just continued to stuff sweets down her throat.

“Yeah,” Usagi simply responded. “You can eat the stuff that’s not mine.”

“Well it seems like everything you brought out is for you.” Yaten retorted.

“That’s not true…” Her sentence trailed off as she stared at the pile of snacks. Slowly, Usagi got off her chair and kneeled besides the pile. She stared at the pile with a level of concentration that looked downright disturbing on Usagi. Eventually, she set aside about five different bags of chips and candy - and a few sodas as well, because Usagi was a kind and generous host (according to herself, at least). “That’s all for you.” Usagi gestured to the small pile before gesturing to the big pile. “And that’s for me!”

Yaten looked ready to burst, so Seiya quickly cut in. She let out a hardy laugh as she reached out and stole a piece of candy from “Usagi’s” pile. Usagi tried to stop Seiya’s theft, but Seiya was far too quick for her. In mere moments, Seiya had half a candy bar down her throat.

“Y’know,” Seiya started conversationally between bites. “Being stingy isn’t good for you.”

“Being a thief isn’t good for you either!” Usagi retorted, but didn’t attempt to steal the candy back. Instead, she plopped back into her seat and angrily nibbled on the cookie’s she stole from Taiki. “Imagine what the headlines will say when I tell the press about this! Popular Idol Steals From A Defenseless, Pretty, Cute, Amazing, and Beautiful Girl!”

Yaten snorted. “I doubt the headlines will look like that. More like, Little Brat Gets What She Deserves.” The shade of red in Usagi’s cheeks matched the fiery red of the flames in front of them. Yaten truly did have a talent for making people angry.

“Anyways.” Taiki pointedly interrupted before things got out of hand. “As I was saying earlier, I was hoping you could tell us a bit more about these… fireworks, Miss Tsukino.”

“Wait.” Any anger from before was completely gone as Usagi looked between the Starlights with wide eyes. “You guys don’t know what fireworks are?”

“Er, no?” Seiya hesitantly replied. Nervous glances were exchanged between the Starlights, but Usagi didn’t seem to notice them. “We used to live in the....countryside, so - um, we don’t know much about...fireworks. Or New Year’s celebrations in general. So, um, yeah.” That had to be the worst lie Yaten or Taiki had ever heard, but Usagi seemed to buy it.

“I guess that makes sense.” Usagi hummed, tapping her finger against her chin. All of the Starlights let out a relieved sigh. “Fireworks are kinda hard to explain. Like, they’re really loud and can be scary - but at the same time, they’re so pretty! It’s like, like, seeing glowing flowers in the sky! They come in all different shapes and sizes! You’ll never see the same firework twice! Kinda like snowflakes.” Gesturing to the sky, Usagi finished her mini-speech. “That was a bit confusing. But trust me, once you see them, you’ll know what I mean!”

“Huh, they sound really cool.” Seiya commented, leaning back in her chair and staring out at the sky. “Can’t wait to see ‘em.” A silence - which really wasn’t a silence, because they all were eating so loudly - overtook the fire as all four of them looked towards the sky. “So where are the others, Bunhead? I’m surprised your little posse isn’t here.” “Rei’s busy at the shrine. Shrine’s get really busy on New Year’s.” Usagi licked some chocolate off of her fingers. “Ami is spending New Year’s with her mom. And Mako likes to do a deep cleaning for New Year’s - so she’s at home doing that.” Pausing for a moment to think, Usagi licked the excess chocolate off her lips. “As for Minako, I think she mentioned something about a party? I asked her about it and she told me it wasn’t a party for kids, so I couldn’t come. I bugged her about it all day at school but she still didn’t tell me. Oh! And then Haruka and Michiru are doing something special - I think.” Usagi’s brows furrowed in concentration. “They didn’t actually tell me their plans, but when I asked them about it, Haruka just got all red! And all Michiru said was ‘we have big plans’, so it must be something fun!”

Seiya almost spit out the drink she had opened while Usagi was talking. “Oh yeah, I’m sure those two have some big-” Seiya emphasized this word with an obscene gesture “-plans, alright.” She doubled over, snickering to herself, shoulders shaking with laughter. Taiki and Usagi, who had missed the gesture, stared at her in confusion; while Yaten, who had seen the gesture, dramatically rolled her eyes.

“Oh, grow up.” Yaten scoffed. “You act like a damn twelve year old.”

“Shut up! Nobody asked for your opinion, dumbass!”

“Will you two both be quiet? That’s no way to speak in front of Miss Tsukino!”

A loud noise - a bang - followed by an ear piercing whistle cut off the budding argument between the Starlights. All three of them jumped up from their chairs and quickly turned towards the noise, ready to fight. Still in her chair, Usagi let out an excited squeal and pointed to the sky, where a single, green flare soared.

“They’re starting!”

Another loud bang occured when the green flare reached its peak and then burst. It lit up the sky, like a great, huge, verdant flower. Rooftops were illuminated, people from other yards oohed and ahhed, and the bright lush light slowly faded back into the black of night. The Starlights stood, frozen to the spot. They stared with wide eyes, expressions changing from one of panic to one of wonder. Soon, more flares were shooting up to the sky. Each of them banging loudly as they exploded in brilliant, dazzling colors.

It was absolutely memorizing.

Slowly, each Starlight sat back down, eyes still glued to the display in front of them. Usagi, oblivious to the Starlight’s absolute awe-struck astonishment, continued to grin and giggle in her seat, all while shoveling in more cookies. The fireworks show began in earnest after that. Firework after firework was fired, repeatedly lighting the sky in beautiful hues. The night sky went from a warm red to a deep blue and everything in between. It wasn’t until the fireworks show finally stopped for the night, that the Starlights were able to break free from their trance.

“That was…” Taiki, who was usually so good with words, sat there speechless. She stared at the now empty sky, her brain desperately trying to find some way to describe what she felt. “...amazing.” It was a wholly inadequate description. To Taiki, that firework show was beyond amazing, it was one of the best things she had ever seen before. But it was the only word that came to mind. “They do this every year?”

“Yep! Every year!” Usagi cheerfully replied. “And they do a bunch throughout the year too! At festivals and stuff!” Reaching down into the pile, Usagi pulled out another candy bar for herself. “We can go, if you want! There’s a festival with fireworks next month! You have to promise to buy me cotton candy, though.”

“No problem…” If Seiya and Taiki weren’t still so awe-struck, they would’ve gotten shocked at what Yaten just said. “I’ll buy you all the cotton candy you want if we can see these again.”

“Really? Great! We’ll definitely go together then!” Usagi seemed more than happy with the deal, grinning to herself in her chair.

Seiya was eventually able to pull her gaze away from the sky and to Usagi. “Thanks for inviting us, Bunhead. I mean it. That was one of the best things I’ve ever seen.” Her voice was full of an honest, raw sincerity. A tone she usually only had when it came to senshi business, but the fireworks had cut right into Seiya’s very soul. Each burst of light seemed to implant itself into her heart.

“I’m really glad you all liked it so much!” Usagi reassured Seiya, nodding her head along with her words. “This was really fun. Seeing you guys get all excited about the fireworks made me love them even more. Hopefully the festival’s fireworks will be just as good.”

“Hopefully.” Seiya agreed.

“Well, now that the fireworks are done.” Standing up and clapping her hands together, Usagi drew the attention of the rest of the girls. “It’s time for the super, extra fun time to start!” All three of the Starlights were snapped out of their post-fireworks bliss as they realized the peaceful tranquility the fireworks had brought them was about to be ruined. The smile Usagi had on her face looked innocent, but there was some unlying current about it that made all their stomachs turn. It could only mean trouble.

“Super extra fun time?” Seiya asked.

“Yep! Now that the fireworks have happened, the next New Year’s event is to watch the first sunrise together! So, in order to stay awake until then, we’ll have to play lots of fun games!”

Taiki seemed taken aback, sputtering in her chair. “The sun won’t rise for nearly six more hours!”

“That’s why we play games!” Usagi chipperly reminded her.

“No way! No way in hell!” Yaten did a complete one eighty. The serene calm she had been feeling after the fireworks was completely gone. “I’m not staying up for another six hours. I’d rather die!”

“Oh! Good idea, Yaten!” Usagi sat down, completely ignoring Yaten’s rage as she grabbed a bag of chips. Her barbeque chips. “The first game we’ll play will be Would You Rather!” From her seat, Yaten let out a distressed scream and buried her head under her multitudes of blankets. “Taiki, you’ll go first!” A bewildered looking Taiki turned her head to Usgai. “Would you rather date Ami or Mako?”

Taiki’s face became a deep shade of red as her mouth became a thin white line. Seiya was barely holding it together in her chair, trying so hard not to burst out laughing in that very moment. Yaten was curled under her blankets, cursing Seiya for making her come tonight. Usagi - pointedly ignoring all of their reactions - eagerly awaited an answer, all while continuing to munch on her chips with a wide grin.

New Year’s was always better with friends.

And food.

New Year’s was always better with friends and food.

#fic #oof #i felt so nervous posting this #i really hope you liked it #sailor moon #usagi tsukino #seiya kou #taiki kou #yaten kou #sailor starlights #fanfiction #thanks for reading!#same prompt party

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My review...ish (tbh it's just some notes I made lmao) on Defending Jacob

I'm strictly focusing on the Barbers here, and their relationships. I'm saving all the comments I might have about any other characters, and the performances of all the actors for a final review of the series-if I decide to do one lmao. Also, this isn't completely spoiler free, I couldn't resist y'all I'm sorry 😅

It's also straight from my notes, long asf and unedited asf and I won't take offence if you don't read. I did however enjoy writing it 😁

(This is all in good fun and yes and I'm biased and no you're not getting my time of day if you attack me)

Okay I'm done let's get into it lol

The Barbers are picture perfect. That house belongs on the cover of Better Homes and Gardens and that kitchen belongs on a Food Network show. They eat sleep and breathe privilege, but they probably won't admit it, or are even aware of it. To them, it might seem normal, maybe they believe every family is like that, or at least, should be. Their lives mirror that of basically any white family on TV these days. They're the cookie cutter American household, a damn poster family. Which makes their situation all the more interesting.

I adore Andy and Laurie's marriage. Lowkey they make me feel like I'm third wheeling, with the way they handle each other 🤣🥺 but eventually something began to hang over their heads, and the atmosphere surrounding them only, completely changed. The differences became more clear and God knows where thats gonna take them. Andy hid the truth about his Dad being in jail for 17 years really makes us wonder what else he could be hiding, and tbh she may be wondering the same. If theres anything else below the surface it could ruin them even more, and that's scary.

Andy's relationship with Jacob is the perfect representation of a healthy father-son dynamic. Andy's not rough around the edges and tough with him. It's an unashamedly loving relationship, and something we need to see more of. Let's put aside everything that happened after Jacob was accused. Closed off as he might seem, it's so clear he admires his dad. And Andy is a man who would risk it all for his kid. It's as simple as seeing the way he looks at him. He can't imagine anything ever changing the way he feels about him. And he probably thinks Jacob will never give him a reason for that to happen. He says "I love you" to him without sounding like there's a knife to his throat, jokes around with him, calls him 'buddy' more than he does his actual name, overall it would seem like we're watching best buds with a big ass age gap rather than a father and son 🤣

But back to reality, even after his son is being accused of murder, and him and his wife don't seem to agree on where they stand, Andy believes Jacob. He just sees a scared kid. On the surface, at least, that seems like what Andy thinks about the situation. However, given how good a certain someone portraying Andy (which is very easy to forget, as said certain someone fucking transforms and i see very little traces of him in this peformance) is at conveying emotion without saying a word, Andy won't have to open his mouth for his true feelings to come about. But let's not forget, he went off the handle in a very hot way upon finding a knife in his kid's room. His kid who is a very heavy sleeper might i add lmfao. He also, felt it appropriate to bring up his imprisoned father, which I honestly feel like had to be on account of some of his true feelings, whether he'd admit it or not.

The moment shit hit the fan for the Barbers is moment, I'm sure, we all felt a shift. I said last night that my anxiety was high even before Jacob's accusation, but after, I felt like I was experiencing the Barbers panic and helplessness with them, almost as though I was the accused.

Which brings me to my next point. We need to talk about that scene. You know the one. Where Lynn informed Andy for a situation I'm sure he never, in a million years anticipated. The level of talent radiating out of a certain someone is unmatched. Y'all (who have seen the show) saw the way the emotions raced across his eyes-his entire damn face? The disbelief in his voice, the tense, defensive stance he fell into? The heavy breathing, the anxiety that fell over him, the way he raced home desperately? If there's anything this show did for me and I'm sure so many others, is making us feel like we were experiencing the severity in person. And that's so special to me.

I won't get too much into this, but the way Jacob was handled by the police...well let's just say we know that wont be the behavior with everyone. And it has very little to do with his age, btw 😅

The way he pleaded for his dad almost had me tearing up. Being a lawyer, he feels as though his dad will protect him and make this situation go away. And if I was a 14 year old boy who was arrested for such a brutal murder, a lawyer who just so happens to be the man that raised me would be my first request.

Idk how I feel about the whole murder gene thing. I did however love the way the scenes kept switching, from Jacob finding out about Andy's dad to Laurie finding out. Their reactions were so similar and relatable. However, if that gets brought up in court as "evidence", that person is going to, and deserves to, get called tf out 🤣

Andy was entirely too polite to that waitress who was, very rudely, staring at Jacob. Maybe it's my inner drama lover, but if she stood there like an idiot looking at my kid, another thank you isn't all she was getting. Avert your eyes or lose them sis 🤬

Seeing everything progressively fall apart for the Barbers, while Jacob remains quietly oblivious broke my heart. Laurie being sent home (and highkey being fired lbr), losing her best friend, and seeing her son be treated like a criminal. Andy being increasingly protective of Jacob's every move, is understandable. I'm super excited to see the lengths he'll go to when it comes to protecting his kid, which, if the trailer is any indication, may not have boundaries.

A few more short notes:

Neal needa get hit by a bus and I volunteer

Leonard is a creepy mf which isn't really surprising but STILL

Pam shooting Andy down was lowkey harsh but she still pulled through so 🤷🏾‍♀️🤣

Andy not giving Neal the satisfaction of being closed off and succumbing to whatever drilling Neal thinks he doing is satisfying asf

Andy Barber is a dilf™️ in every scene

Am I the only one who heard Michelle's accent coming through in some things she says?

Laurie throwing the food Toby brought her in the trash without batting an eyelash, I got how she felt but that shit hurt to see 🤣

The actor playing Ben looks like the love child of Harry Styles and Grant Gustin

Wtf do Sarah and Derek know 😭 its killing me

Cherry Jones is killing it 🙌🏽

So is Jaeden, kid is blowing me away.

So is Michelle, her emotions are fucking mine up

The score is intense and adds to the anxiety we feel watching the show and I don't appreciate my emotions being played with in such a way

Chris Evans deserves an Emmy and if he doesn't get it we riot.

That's all for now, if I post anymore notes on the other episodes, obviously it won't be this long as from this point we're only getting one episode a week. Hope y'all enjoyed (if anyone bothers w this 🤣)💕

#chris evans #michelle dockery #jaeden martell #andy barber #jacob barber #laurie barber #defending jacob #defending jacob spoilers #djspoilers #apple tv

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romansleftshoulderpad · 5 years

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Barren: Chapter 5

Hey guys! Back from hiatus and I’m sorry for the wait! I’ll be going back to consistent posting but instead of once a week, I’ll be posting every other Saturday! Thank you all for your support it means the world to me!

Words: 1,681

Warnings: Caps, swearing, somewhat graphic panic attack, mentions of death, very vague allusion to suicide (blink and you’ll miss it.)

Tags: @fandermom @astral-eclipse @patheticlilkiddo @a-pastel-pan @honeysucklingz @dr-gloom @cloudedskies29 @quietwords-loudthoughts @mentallytiredgoat @merlybird500

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“Thank you, Dr. Picani,” Virgil said, absentmindedly clicking the buttons of a fidget cube that Picani had given him.

“My patients call me Dr. Picani. My friends call me Emile,” the therapist said with a smile.

“Right, well, Emile,” Virgil said, “thank you.”

“Of course,” Emile said. “Though I suppose I should be checking in on Logan. We haven’t heard from Patton in quite some time.”

“Oh, here,” Virgil said, offering the cube back to Emile, his bare wrist poking out from his jacket. Emile smiled and closed Virgil’s fingers around the hard plastic.

“I have plenty in my office,” he said. “You should keep this one. They’re quite handy and you seem like you’ll need it.”

Virgil smiled softly to himself in the dimly lit room as Emile shut the door behind himself. He took a deep breath, focusing only on applying and releasing pressure from the buttons. There was so much he had to learn and adjust to. Sure, Emile had certainly helped, but he still had to meet Patton and Remy. He had to see if Logan was okay. He pressed his thumb against a soft red button. He didn’t even know what to think of Roman. He released his thumb. He took a deep breath. It’s dinner. If I could survive being shot at, I can live through dinner. If I can live through this, I can do anything.

He crept from the room slowly, the acidic smell of tomato sauce roaming through the air and battling the sizzling sound of meat to encapture Virgil’s senses. As his stomach rumbled he realized that he hadn’t eaten a proper meal in nearly a week. “Ah, well speak of the devil,” Roman said with a smirk painted with bravado. Virgil almost didn’t notice the pure exhaustion in his eyes. “We were just talking about how bold and daring I was to rescue you.”

Virgil cocked an eyebrow at him. “Oh yeah? Then why did Logan do all the work?”

“OH! OH, Gurl, he just roasted yo’ ass!” Remy yelled, howling with laughter in the kitchen. Roman rolled his eyes, glaring daggers at Remy.

“Well I see you’re on his good side already,” Roman muttered, gesturing with his hands as he spoke. His sleeves rolled up just enough for Virgil to notice the lines that decorated his wrist.

“You aren’t Barren?” Virgil asked, feeling as if he were in a parallel world.

Roman offered a smile as he tugged up his sleeve. “The only ones who aren’t Barren,” he said, pointing to Remy and Emile, “are these two.”

“So, it’s a tattoo?” Virgil asked.

“Catching on quickly I see,” Roman teased, holding up his wrist to allow Virgil a better look. “Very realistic, if you ask me. Patton deserves all the credit for that. We grew up together,” he explained. “We’re both Barren. We had to be each other’s closest ally. The day we turned 18 we...” Roman smiled. “Well, I guess that’s a story for another time.”

“So Patton is some kind of doctoring tattoo artist badass?” Virgil asked.

“Oh, Roman, what are you telling the poor kiddo?” a man asked. Virgil spun around on his heel to face a man in khaki pants and a blue sweater that seemed to envelop his entire body.

“Patton!” Roman said with a smile, all the agony fading from his dim eyes as they brightened upon the sight of the man. “Is Logan okay?” he asked before turning to Virgil and commenting, “Not that I care about the nerd or anything. In all honesty, I think he’s being overdramatic.”

“Hypocrite,” Remy commented as he placed silverware on the table.

“He should have a perfectly fine recovery,” Patton said with a smile. “Though, he won’t be joining us for dinner; he really needs the rest right now and- Oh! How rude of me!” He stepped forward with a hand extended outwardly. “You’re Virgil, correct? I’m Patton!”

“He’s our patented Man of Many Talents around here,” Roman explained.

“Heh, Patton-ted,” Patton chuckled to himself.

“Ever need a doc,” Roman said. “Patton’s your guy. Also a great tattoo artist, chef, and cuddle-buddy.”

“Cuddle-buddy?” Virgil parotted.

“I share chef duties with Emile,” Patton explained. “And Roman gets nightmares.”

“Do not!” Roman yelled defensively. “How dare you slander my great name!” Patton chuckled, lovingly patting Roman’s shoulder as he wordlessly made his way to the kitchen.

“I presume the nightmares are a lie, then?” Virgil asked with a smirk.

“Fake soulmate,” was all Roman muttered before abandoning the conversation in exchange for setting the table. Virgil watched the bustle around him. Patton and Emile finishing their work in the kitchen. Roman balancing plates and silverware in his arms as he scolded Remy for slacking. They were all working together. They were a team, working together as a small organized pod. Virgil was literally and metaphorically an outsider. He felt a pain in his stomach. Five senses. He had to work through his senses. Five things he could see. That was simple enough, right?

He could see Emile. He could see Roman. But he couldn’t see any windows. He couldn’t see Logan. He couldn’t see his mom. Okay, maybe sight wasn’t a great starting place.

Smell. What could he smell? He could smell tomatoes. He could almost smell blood. Was it from the medical room? Was it from Logan? Was it his imagination? The smell of rust was killing his head and his stomach. Was he nauseated? Was he hungry? Was his stomach even filled enough to vomit anything at all?

No. No. Air comes in; bad thoughts go out. In comes morning; out goes nightmares. What exactly had that phrase been that his mother had taught him so long ago? His mother, oh no, what was she thinking? Did she know Virgil had escaped? Did she think him dead?

Would she be okay or did years of loss after loss finally break her?

Would Virgil even have a mother to come back to?

Would he come back at all?

He let his feet carry him all on their own until he was sprinting out of the kitchen and to a cold wooden door. He ripped it open, slammed it shut, and pushed his back against it as he slowly let himself fall to the ground. The horrible feeling in his chest of a boa constrictor around his lungs had him gasping for air and he was sure he was having a heart attack.

“Deep breaths, Virgil,” a voice said. “Focus solely on your breathing, and don’t let your thoughts get in the way.”

Virgil tried to take the advice- honestly, he did try- but it was too much. It was too overwhelming. He couldn’t focus. His head was filling with this horrible tingling and the more he gasped for air the worse it got. He held his head in his hands and oh God why was this happening?

“Virgil, I need you to listen to me,” the voice said. It was soft and gentle, the most soothing thing Virgil had heard in years. He felt hands on his shoulders and if he had to energy to he would have looked up at the person in front of him. “Can you hear my voice? More importantly, can you understand my voice?”

“Mmhmm,” Virgil mumbled out.

“Good, good, that’s a step. You’re doing good, Virgil. Just keep taking deep breaths alright?”

He felt the tingly feeling start to leave his face, though it was still uncomfortably present in his fingers and hands. He felt his heart rate start to become more noticeable which he guess was a better option than the crushing feeling of his lungs only moments earlier.

“I’m gonna walk you through a breathing exercise, all right? I’ll do it with you. You’ll be okay.” Virgil nodded. “I want you to breathe in for four seconds. Hold for seven seconds. Then, breathe out for eight seconds. Can you do that for me?”

“Yes,” Virgil mumbled out weakly.

“Perfect.”

The two of them went through the exercise two- three- four times before Virgil felt like himself again. He finally looked up and saw Logan staring back at him. “Logan, I- You should be in bed, oh I’m so sorry I didn’t-”

“Virgil, you’re going to work yourself up again,” he said calmly. “I’ll be fine.”

“Are you sure?” Virgil asked, eyes drawn down to the gauze around Logan’s body.

“Of course I will be,” Logan said. “This isn’t my first metaphorical rodeo and, if there’s one thing Roman and I agree on, it’s that we both put our trust and lives in Patton’s hands.”

“I’m still not entirely sure what to think of all this,” Virgil admitted.

“That was the reaction I expected from you,” Logan said. “Your admittance here is temporary, most of whom we rescue go off to meet with colleagues of ours. They’re given new homes and new identities in the best cases. Others eventually join our organization, but I’m sure that we’ll find you in the former half on that ratio. 18, right? Yes, you have so much potential ahead of you.”

“Wait, wait, wait,” Virgil said. “Organization? And how do you know my age? What else do you know about me?”

“Virgil, did you think all of this was really put together by five guys in their twenties?” Logan asked, the corners of his lips turning upwards subtly.

“Well, I- I guess not, but-”

“And as for the other questions, well, I like to be prepared.” Logan stood, motioning for Virgil to do the same. He had a rather wiry structure, but well-toned muscles that Virgil could only assume he had built up from doing this job for so long. “Now, you should really be on your way back to dinner. The others will be looking for you soon.”

“But, wait, what about-” Virgil tried to speak but found himself being pulled out of the room by magnets on his feet.

“Goodbye, Virgil.”

The door was shut in his face, and the high school senior now had more questions than answers.

#Barren #LAMP #2019 fic

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sweet-steddie · 5 years

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Safety Mode (g.d. & e.d.)

Summary: @zoenighshade555 and @zealousllamawolfknight each more or less requested that I write about the reader being uncomfortable or scared and the twins going into safety/overprotective mode, so I combined those requests and this is the result! I hope you both like it!!

A/N: Here is my actual fifth (5th) imagine on this account and I can hardly believe it! I have been having such a wonderful time filling requests and I’m so glad that people actually give a damn about my writing lol. Without further ado, here’s imagine # 5. Enjoy! And please send in requests if you have them!

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I’m busying myself in the kitchen, making sure that the fridge is equipped with plenty of refreshments, then I’m raiding the cabinets and pulling out all the snacks that I’d purchased earlier in the day. Just as I’m emptying some chips into a bowl, a hand clasps lightly around my wrist, effectively stopping my actions.

“You don’t have to do this, babe,” Ethan insists softly over my shoulder. I crane my neck to look up at him and he looks mildly exasperated, but there’s a hint of a smile tugging fondly at his lips. “You’re a guest too, ya know,” he teases, smile now stretching helplessly across his face. I close my eyes and sigh out, leaning back into his chest and surrendering to his touch, my hand coming to rest on the counter top as I give up preparing the snacks.

“I know, I know,” I relent, opening my eyes to peer up into Ethan’s soft, droopy, brown ones. He blinks down at me patiently and my heart lurches in my chest for a moment. “I just want everything to be perfect for you guys. There’s some important people out there and I wanna make sure they have no reason to complain about this party,” I explain for the umpteenth time today. Ethan and Grayson had decided to host a party for their team and, naturally, plenty of powerful YouTube execs had been invited as friends of friends. In short, this party is a potentially wonderful opportunity for the boys to make a good impression and I want to make sure that nothing goes wrong.

“I know you do, love. But you’ve been running around all day and everything already is perfect,” he pauses to kiss my forehead lovingly before breathing out, “thanks to you.” I grumble unintelligibly in protest, knowing he’s right but worrying nonetheless. This pulls a laugh out of him and he throws his arms around me, walking us backward from the kitchen counter. “Mhmm, you know I’m right. Now chill out before I get Grayson in here,” he threatens playfully and I roll my eyes. Not a moment later, the man, himself, comes strolling into the kitchen.

“Why are we getting Grayson?” Grayson plays along, grabbing a chip from one of the bowls before casually gripping my waist and pulling me away from Ethan. I hug him around his middle as he settles his lower back against the counter.

“She won’t stop freaking out,” Ethan supplies bluntly and I chuckle into Grayson’s chest against my will. Grayson smooths a hand down my back.

“Baby we told you, everything’s okay. We want you to enjoy the party, too. You’ve been helping us set this thing up for days; you deserve to relax now,” he pecks the top of my head and I look up at him, at which point he rests his forehead against mine, our noses nearly lined up. “Can you promise me you’ll relax? Hm?” he murmurs sweetly, eyes searching mine for any sign of surrender. And at this painfully close proximity with his cologne wrapping around me like seductive vines and his cute little nose mushed up against mine, how can I ever say no to anything he asks of me? I sigh, physically deflating, a nonverbal agreement to his terms.

He rewards me with a dimpled smile and a kiss to my cheek, murmuring a “thank you,” against the skin before kissing it again.

“We should probably get back out there, Gray,” comes Ethan’s voice from behind us and Grayson begrudgingly loosens his hold on me, nodding his agreement.

“Yeah, probably,” he sighs out as I spin around to face Ethan, who’s already fixing me with a gentle smile.

“You be good, alright?” he teases, raising an eyebrow challengingly in my direction. I roll my eyes at him for the second time tonight, giving him a sarcastic thumbs up of agreement. “You’re feisty tonight,” he observes, but he doesn’t sound particularly put off by it. I crack a smile at that, accepting the hand that he holds out for me to take as we begin to stroll back out into the crowd of people, Grayson in tow.

No sooner than we set foot back into the living room does someone demand their attention. Ethan nods his head in acknowledgment at the person speaking before giving my hand a squeeze and then letting it drop. He drops a kiss to my forehead, throwing in a muttered “have fun,” for good measure before heading over to the person who had called for he and Grayson’s attention moments ago. Grayson waltzes from behind me to follow his brother, landing a quick, playful slap to my ass that seems to go unnoticed by everyone but me. I feel a pleasant flush creep into my cheeks as I go to mock-scold him, but he’s already out of arm’s reach and I decide, instead to bite the inside of my cheek to ward off the ear-to-ear grin threatening to split my face.

As I collect myself, I take the time to observe my surroundings for the first time this evening. I had been so busy bustling about in order to maintain perfection that I hadn’t had the time to see how my many preparations had payed off. By the looks of the attendees around me, they paid off quite well. There’s a calm buzz of chatter surrounding everyone and the faint bass of music thumping over the speakers provides a nice ambiance while paired with the chattering voices. I breathe my first relieved sigh in several days as I calmly snag an hor d’oeuvre from a nearby tray and settle myself onto one of the plush, unoccupied couch cushions before me.

I make polite small talk with a few people here and there, all the while mindful to keep the conversations topical, at most. I want to make as little of an impression as possible; it’s the twins’ night, not mine. This flurry of exchanges takes up about a two hour block of time and I’m surprised to witness the night passing by without a hitch. From my spot on the couch, I watch as Grayson and Ethan mingle effortlessly. Their energy is unmatched within the room and all eyes are on them as they dance from person to person, from party to party, and do so with ease.

This is, without a doubt, the boys’ element. Socializing with people and - from what I’ve seen of them tonight and what I see with most of their interactions with others - leaving them alight with adoration and yearning for more comes naturally to them both. I smile to myself as I watch my boys work the room. Every once in a while, I’ll catch either Ethan’s or Grayson’s eye and they’ll shoot me a wink or blow a little kiss before continuing to network and charm their way around the area. I conclude that the night won’t be wrapping up anytime soon, so I decide to pass the time by playing around on my phone for a long enough time that I can later excuse myself from the party and retire to one of the boys’ bedrooms in seclusion for the remainder of the party.

As I aimlessly thumb through my phone, the sounds around me seems to fade away into a pleasant buzz of general background noise. I’m so immersed in my screen that I’m startled to feel the couch dip next to me. My head shoots up quickly, eyes comically wide at the interruption before I put a palm over my chest. “I’m sorry, you scared me!” I exclaim through a laugh and the man who had sat down reciprocates the sound.

“No worries. I didn’t mean to frighten you,” he apologizes, eyes crinkling a bit at the corners as he continues to smile at me. We chuckle off the moment and I look back down at my phone as a means of transitioning from the awkward incident and back into my own bubble. My eyes are having trouble focusing on any one thing on my screen as I force myself to process the words and images before me instead of having to face the man again. “So, how did you hear about this party?” the man asks, causing me to look up at him again. I lock my phone at set it in my lap, figuring that it would be rude to continue ignoring him at this point.

I scan over his features as I go to respond, observing his casual, but quality attire and his slightly graying hair. He looks to be at least in his mid-to-late-40s. “Well, I know the boys. Ethan and Grayson, I mean,” I clarify, smiling politely as I continue my explanation. “We’ve known each other for several years and I’ve gotten to watch them grow as entertainers and I’m just so proud of them and so impressed with how influential they’ve become,” I can’t help but brag. Any chance I get to ramble about the boys’ accomplishments is a chance I take wholeheartedly. The man nods along as I speak.

“Yes, they’re extremely talented. My daughters are just,” he gestures around dramatically to find the words, “they’re just absolutely crazy about them. So needless to say, I’ve seen a lot of their videos. Very cool guys,” he praises and I laugh at the anecdote. A comfortable silence befalls us for a moment before the man speaks again. “Ya know, living here in L.A., being a single dad and all is, well. It’s interesting, let’s say that,” he says and I give him my attention, ready to jump into yet another boring attempt at small talk.

“And sometimes, it’s refreshing to see a young, pretty face like yours,” he continues and that’s when an alarm sounds off in my head. The mood has shifted drastically and it has my heartbeat speeding up uncomfortably in my chest. I choose not to address his comment and instead, give a tight-lipped smile that doesn’t even begin to reach my eyes. I become fidgety in my seat, preparing to stand up and walk away in a way that won’t invite Ethan’s and Grayson’s suspicion. I’d rather vent about this creep later on than have the boys loudly defending me in front of their company.

“Would you wanna get outta here? Business parties are so boring,” the man presses and I scoot over to the edge of the couch furthest from him, keeping my eyes downcast, not that he seems to be taking the hint. “My place is a lot quieter and my daughters are out for the night. We could,” he pauses to scoot a bit closer to where I’m sitting and my stomach lurches out of discomfort, “get to know each other better.” he propositions suggestively. Before I can muster up a quiet, venomous response, another voice beats me to the punch.

“Do we have a problem over here?” Grayson’s voices slices through the tension and I don’t think I’ve ever been happier to see him in my life. He’s standing beside where I’m sat on the couch and I immediately stand to my feet, grasping his hand in both of my sweaty ones. His jaw is set, nostrils slightly flared and eyes are hard as steel, a stark contrast to the way that he softly encompasses my hands with his big fingers. The man sitting on the couch looks, for lack of a better word, caught. Caught in the act of creepily advancing on me moments earlier as I so obviously portrayed my unease. He doesn’t reply right away and that isn’t good enough for Grayson. “I asked you a question,” Grayson presses impatiently.

My eyes suddenly land on Ethan, realizing that he’s standing opposite of Grayson and I, arms crossed and jaw equally set as he stares down at the offending man. Together, Ethan and Grayson have the man flanked and he looks like this is fact hasn’t escaped him as he nervously splutters out a response.

“I don’t really think that’s any of your business,” he defends weakly, but he refuses to meet either boy’s eye. “I was just having a private conversation with this lady and I don’t appreciate you eavesdropping-“ he goes on, but he doesn’t get a chance to finish.

“No no. No. You being a fucking pervert and making a lady uncomfortable is absolutely our fucking business. And especially when it concerns this lady,” Grayson emphasizes, referencing me. “And especially when you’re at our fucking house. You have some nerve, showing up here and acting like this,” Grayson fumes and I can tell that he’s fighting to keep his voice down.

“It’s time for you to leave,” Ethan cuts in firmly while stepping closer to the man, arms now dangling at his sides menacingly. The man on the couch actually has the audacity to look affronted.

“You’re overreacting a bit, don’t you think? It wasn’t that big a de-“

“Leave or I call the police right now. I’m not fucking kidding, you need to go,” Ethan doesn’t allow him to finish that sentence. The man scoffs, narrowing his eyes, first, at Ethan and then at Grayson as he slowly rises to his feet. He glares at me briefly before I feel Grayson physically tense up.

“Don’t you dare ever look at her like that. Get the fuck out,” Grayson spits and I free one of my hands from his grasp so that I can run it soothingly up and down his tensed bicep. His eyes never leave the man as he makes his way pitifully to the front door. If he had a tail, it would be tucked between his legs. It’s not until the door closes behind him that Grayson’s body relaxes a bit.

In realize, all of a sudden, how silent it’s gotten around us since the event unfolded. I dare to take a peak around and notice that most eyes are on the boys and I. One brave person takes the opportunity to speak up, a woman who had been here since much earlier in the evening.

“Thank god that creep is gone,” she announces amidst murmurs of agreement. What follows is a general chatter, likely about the drama that just ensued, but the atmosphere soon returns to normal. I take some solace in that just as Ethan grabs my attention again.

“C’mon. You wanna hide out for a while until the party dies down?” he suggests softly, but he looks like he’s still on edge from the interaction.

“Yeah, actually. Thanks,” I agree, following Ethan as he turns on his heel and heads in the direction of he and Grayson’s bedrooms. Grayson’s grip stays secured on my hand as we follow Ethan through the house. I notice that he’s yet to speak since he had banished the sleazy man from the house. When the three of us reach Grayson’s bedroom, he closes the door behind us and leads us to sit on the edge of his bed, Ethan sitting on my other side. The three of us are silent for a moment.

“You guys didn’t have to do that. But I’m glad you did anyway and I just want you both to know that I really appreciate it,” I start softly, caressing Grayson’s large hand with my thumb and reaching out my free hand to grasp Ethan’s, giving him the same treatment. “This night was supposed to be all about you guys and I’m sorry that creepy fuck ruined it for a minute,” I express, my anger flaring up at the mere thought of the slimy man that had aided in causing a scene earlier. Grayson releases a heavy breath through his nose before speaking.

“If I’d had it my way, I would’ve beat that guy’s ass to a pulp. How dare he make you feel like that,” he seethes, eyes closing out of pure frustration. When he opens them again, they hold a considerable amount of concern. “Are you okay? How are you feeling, baby? What do you want me to do?” he questions in quick succession, eyes searching my face. I free my hand from his to run softly through his locks. I could kiss him silly right about now.

“You’ve done more than enough, Gray. What I really want you to do is go back out there and enjoy the rest of your party,” I insist, turning to Ethan. “I want both of you to enjoy your party. Don’t look at me like that,” I softly chastise as Ethan begins to pout, obviously feeling just as sour as Grayson about the whole situation. I could kiss that pout away, easy.

“I think Grayson will agree with me when I say that the only way we’ll enjoy the rest of the night is if we get to spend it with you,” Ethan declares and I watch as Grayson nods immediately.

“Yeah. Yes, that. It’s already been over five hours, I think we should call it a night anyway,” Grayson says and he looks right into my eyes as he continues, gaze never wavering. “I don’t wanna leave you in here. Please?” he asks my permission to cut the party short, knowing how much I’ve fussed over it. My initial reaction is to argue with him about it, but then I really look at him and, honestly, he’s already won. He has those droopy, puppy dog eyes trained on me just right and I’m putty in his massive hands.

“Okay,” I relent easily enough and Grayson smiles out of relief and I’ll do anything to make sure that smile stays there, I decide. He looks past me to address Ethan for a moment.

“E, get rid of everyone. I’m gonna stay in here with our girl,” he says that last part while looking back at me with a pleased smirk. I shake my head at him fondly before turning to face Ethan. Our hands, that have since been clasped, separate and I use my fingers to brush through his loose curls.

“Yeah, E. Get rid of them,” I playfully repeat Grayson’s command, giving him the go-ahead and he smiles down at me.

“Yes, ma’am,” he affirms, pressing his lips briefly to my cheek before standing up from the bed and making his way out into the living area to clear the house out. When the door clicks shut, Grayson wraps his arms around me and forces us both to fall down on our backs, causing me to erupt in delighted laughter. He scoops me up so that I’m halfway on top of him, head resting on his chest and knee bent with my leg thrown over top of his. The bass of the music playing in the living room has stopped and I hear the front door open, meaning that Ethan must have successfully brought the party to an end.

“I’d never let anything bad happen to you. You now that, right?” Grayson speaks up, hand caressing soothingly over my leg that’s propped on top of his. “Ethan wouldn’t, either. You’re always safe when we’re around. Always. Okay?” I look up at Grayson as he finishes talking, catching his searing gaze and using a hand to cup his pretty face. I don’t doubt a single word that he’s said.

“I know, Gray. I know.”

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yaz-the-spaz · 5 years

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I'm going to have to respectfully disagree with you on the LM side of things. I feel like Perrie went above and beyond, like Gigi, to sell her sham of a relationship with Zayn. Throughout their entire "relationship" she was constantly dragging him through the mud and cracking jokes at his expense to bring publicity to her band. I understand being under contract to do so, but I dont think that would necessarily go as far to call him a freak, especially when he is expected to be your bf...

And I don’t think he liked her much either. They could have been friends connected in a bad scenario but there were times he looked absolutely repulsed by her. Sure, you could argue that it was due to the fact that she was his beard and he didn’t necessarily want to be attached to that kind of bullshit, but I feel it can be just as equally argued that she just wasn’t a decent person (I’m not saying this is definitively the case, simply a possibility)…

…I don’t know much about LM, they’re music isnt really the stuff I listen to, but even if it was, I personally wouldn’t feel comfortable listening to their music knowing it was made on the back of someone else who both her and her group had no issue shitting on after the whole thing was said and done. However I won’t blame anyone who does like their music and still listens to it, it’s your right to do so…

…I just wanted to offer another perspective and I hope you don’t take this as me coming at you or getting annoyed at you or your comments because that is not the case. I’m sorry this is really long, I just feel like it needed to be said. I hope you have a good day.

i actually don’t disagree with you nonnie…i’m not saying perrie is some great person or that she didn’t do or say some very problematic things (both in general and in regards to zayn), obviously she did (and because of that she is my absolute least favorite person in the band), but the way people hold certain things up, like the indian comment that probably wasn’t even from her, among other things, just frustrates me cause one of the main things we preach in this fandom is take a lot of what’s said with a huge grain of salt b/c 90% of it’s either scripted or not their own words and for ppl to suddenly dismiss that or stop applying it just b/c it’s someone they don’t like i don’t think is very fair. personally for me, even when it comes to people i don’t like i think it’s still important to try to be as fair-minded as possible and to still regard them equally and not just dismiss certain edicts that i would normally hold up with other people (like the boys) and suddenly throw that all out the window when it comes to people i don’t like just because i don’t like them.

that said, all of that in no way is meant to disregard the things perrie’s said and done. definitely the calling zayn a freak thing was way too far and it’s not the only shitty thing she’s said or done and the way she reacted to a lot of things was very poor and oftentimes highly problematic. i’m in no way defending her for all of that or saying all of that should be dismissed or forgiven at all (as i said she’s my least favorite person in the band b/c of all that and if i had it my way it’d be a 3 person band lol cause as it is i mostly only recognize and pay attention to the other 3 anyway). but my comments were more so meant to apply specifically to using print statements as ‘proof’ and also to the way people react to lm as a whole. i’m not sure what you’re referring to when you say the entire band shit on zayn, but as i said there is plenty of evidence of them shading the farce that was zerrie just like the boys did and showing clear annoyance at the focus on it and the fact that it was continuously brought up when all they wanted to talk about was the music. they didn’t choose to be marketed that way and i’m sure if they had any choice about it would’ve wanted to do things a hell of a lot differently and, perrie excluded, i don’t think it’s fair to continue to treat the band as a whole like shit or to continue blame the entire band for something they had no say over esp when there are 3 other beautiful talented women who had no part in any of the zerrie bs (one of which has actually done really great things for lgbtq community as a dedicated ally) who don’t deserve the very blatant and flagrant disrespect they get from 1d fans.

like even now i’m thinking of that anon i got earlier who felt that lm didn’t deserve the award they got for video of the year and said that literally anyone would have deserved it more than they did and that’s more so the kind of thing i’m talking when i refer to people remaining bitter over lm all these years and using that as an excuse to be blatantly disrespectful because while i understand being upset over liam not winning and while i very much understand people’s negative feelings re perrie specifically (which i mostly share to some degree), that doesn’t give ppl the right to be so rude or cruel to the other three girls who didn’t do anything to deserve that kind of treatment or disrespect, (again perrie excluded) they worked their asses off and they’re mega-talented and after all the shit they went through with syco and modest and shitty marketing and managing i’m personally proud that they were able to make such an achievement. i recognize not everyone agrees and that ofc not everyone might like them whether that be purely for reasons of musical taste or whatever other reason and that’s totally fine, i’m not saying anyone has to like them, but to hold their previous marketing over their heads like it’s their fault and treat them like shit for it like so many in this fandom continue to do is something i will never be okay with, and i’d just appreciate if ppl could be a bit more respectful at the very least towards the other three girls (ppl can say what they want about perrie lol)

anyway i just want you to know that i wasn’t offended at all by what you said and i appreciate you being willing to have a rational discussion about this without it devolving into anything rude or problematic. and also sorry this got long as well, but i hope you have a nice day too!

#asks #anons #perrie #lm #my thoughts

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uhhhhhhokay · 5 years

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My Unpopular Opinions of 2018

This is messy, a bit mean, and full of my mad/irritated feelings. You’ve been warned. No slipping into my asks as an anon to fight with me because I’ve posted this on my account. These are my opinions and I’ve already said that they aren’t that nice to some shows

1) Charmed and Black Lightning are the only good CW shows and it has the best lesbian rep of 2018 (and Rosa from b99 would be the best bisexual rep)

2) Melanie Scrofano/Wynonna Earp is the best part of Wynonna Earp. Honestly lately the rest of the characters for me have either awful or boring or funny but given nothing to do

3) Also even though she’s the main actress, Melanie is somehow the most underrated actress/character in the show. She’s disregarded by so many fans, either in favor of Wayhaught or Doc, and the show treats her like shit by constantly putting her with Doc

4) Descendants fans who pit Dove Cameron and China Anne McClain against each other in the hopes of making the other seem superior are doing absolutely nothing for their careers and are contributing to the unnecessary comparison between successful women

5) Also I don’t care if you don’t like Dove Cameron, but hating her for that Mal/Harry comment she made months ago is so fucking ridiculous. She’s a girl in love who also loves her character, god forbid she make her own headcanons for it, and it wasn’t like she was asking for it to happen (and no she wasn’t disregarding Mal’s current relationship Ben because she was talking about Mal and Harry being exes god damnit)

6) I can’t believe i have to say this in 2018 BUT STOP WITH THE INCEST STORYLINES! IT AIN’T CREATIVE OR SURPRISING BITCHES JUST GROSS

7) ALSO STOP SHIPPING INCEST GOD PLEASE STOP

8) Timothee Chamalet or whatever his name is, isn’t that great. Like he’s fine I guess but like....Have you seen other actors? I mean, there’s Fady Elsayed, Jack Black, Jordan Renzo, Greg Austin (rip Class), and so many more actors that are, in my opinon, significantly more talented

9) Letterkenny and Galavant are the best comedies out there

10) Riverdale is shit for erasing Jughead’s asexuality and queerbaiting fans at the beginning with Beronica

11) I’ve said this before, but people disliking Cole Sprouse because of the abuse allegation against him is incredibly valid.

12) Mike Flanagan, Jordan Peele, and Kate Siegel are the only people I trust to write some bone chilling horror stories

13) The Haunting of Hill House is better than American Horror Story and The Chilling Adventures of Sabrine combined

Now it’s time to get serious.....

14) I have no respect and cannot get along with people who talk about how ugly people are

15) The hellsite is shit for so many reasons but some of its worst qualities are when people take a situation and make it black and white, have zero sympathy or empathy for other people, and twist peoples words and put in meanings that were never there

16) I also hate how how people only care about mental illness when it doesn’t come to their jokes or memes. For example, mental health has been talked about a lot in regards to Ariana Grande, which is good, but once her engagement with Pete Davidson ended, no one hesitated to attack him in almost every way possible even though the man has been very outspoken about his depression. I don’t know shit about Pete Davidson but I’ve seen him relentlessly be attacked and have his depression and suicidal thoughts be joked about.

17) Stanning is a fucked up culture that we need to leave behind in 2018. There are some celebrities who have a lot of projects that I love and I admire their talent, but the concept of stanning either includes an unhealthy amount of devotion to a celebrity or it erases them as a human being and reduces them down to objects. In some cases, both of these are true. It’s a sick thing for both fans and the celebrities. If a celebrity does something wrong, call them out, and if they don’t listen, well forget it or move on. Cancelling them as if they can be thrown in the garbage and disposed of promotes negativity and hatred, which is doesn’t solve anything, and it can inhibit any growth from that celebrity. They are human and will inevitably fuck up. It’s the only way to learn and grow.

18) This is about Wynonna Earp but it’s a serious post. I’ve made my thoughts about this show abundantly clear but there is one thing I haven’t talked about at all and that’s the racism in the show and in the fanbase. Disclaimer: I am white. This show hasn’t treated any of their poc or black characters well. The latest example would be the treatment of Dolls and Kate. The last two seasons Doc has had two women of color as his love interests, and both of these characters have been treated as objects to make Wynonna jealous. There is also the lack of story and villainization of these women. There is also the major lack of story with Dolls, which most likely led to Shamier Anderson’s decision to leave. I won’t get into anymore, this is how I’ve always viewed these poor storylines, but I will say this: white fans of Wynonna Earp, we do not get a say on how black viewers should feel about any of these storylines. White lesbians, you would be livid is Waverly or Nicole were killed, and rightfully so. Black people or people of color probably felt the rage you would’ve felt if you lost one of those characters when Dolls was killed off. Telling people to get over it is cruel. If people want to stop watching, that is their right. We have no place in telling them how they should feel about the treatment of their representation.

19) I made this post a while ago but it holds true: https://uhhhhhhokay.tumblr.com/post/179314393735/shows-with-good-lgbt-rep

20) Everyone needs a break from social media. I know that for some people, it really helps because we have friends on here that we can talk to, but it also has so many negative effects. The real world is nothing like this toxic website. You should take breaks from it every once in a while. You need to get hobbies. You need some other past time than this website. The majority of people on this site aren’t good and everyone should take a breather from it. I take breaks from this site on a regular basis and when I do it feels so fucking good.

21) Random but The Lodgers is the worst movie ever and it’s an even worse horror movie. Would not recommend. Unless you feel like roasting something for an hour and a half. The only good part about watching that movie was that I watched it with my roommate who I am good friends with and we laughed our asses off and made fun of it so much. It is truly awful. Even though I had a blast roasting it, I will never get that time of my life back.

22) The Last Jedi does not deserve that 91% on rotten tomatoes. Just like how The Lodgers deserves far less than 56%.

23) Time to get serious again. I get that a lot of us wished that the shows we loved were real, but they aren’t. That’s a fact that everyone needs to realize and accept. To me, hating an actor for their character’s actions is just as fucked up as stanning. They aren’t their character. They are not responsible for the shit their characters pull. They are carrying out the story written for them. As for writers, sometimes the writers do not support their characters actions either. Just because the character is evil or mean or whatever does not always mean that the people who work behind the curtain support that.

24) Shipping real people and harassing them is sooo inappropriate and messed up. I shouldn’t really have to explain this one but too many people on this site don’t seem to grasp it. I mean, didn’t Harry Styles say a while ago that all the smutty fanfics, tweets, and fanarts about him and his bandmates effect his friendships with him? Him reacting that way is not homophobic, btw. It is him reacting naturally to people fetishizing and sexualizing him and his friends. These are real people. Their relationship, sexuality, and god just so much of their lives is none of our business. They don’t owe us any information about their personal lives. We don’t own them. They are their own people, which also means that they make their own mistakes.

25) Random again, but original Charmed fans put their show too high of a pedestal. I never got really into show. I tried it, think I watched half of the first season, and I did a little research on it and I was in the fanbase for a hot sec but it was very short. From my research, it seems to me, that for a feminist show, the cast (except Shannon Doherty) was the opposite behind the scenes. I know you can’t help who you don’t like but you can control how you talk about someone, especially to the public, and from what I’ve seen there’s been more negative comments from them about their castmates than positive. I don’t think anyone will know the whole story but to me the feud between the og’s leading ladies has always very catty to me, and it’s gotten even worse with the remake. You can be protective of your show without being rude. You don’t have to support the remake, and you can do that without being rude either. By the way, this is more directed towards Holly Marie Combs, who I believe has been the most outspoken about being against it. Three young actresses are doing the job they love and they were given a chance to be the new charmed ones for a new generation. There is no reason to be so negative about it. It looks even more immature when you see the cast of the original Sabrina who gleefully gave their support to the new cast.

26) Adults please stop thinking every show is for you. it’s not. Some shows are for kids, some shows are for teenagers, and some shows are for you. If you enjoy the show that’s directed towards a younger audience then that’s great. If you don’t enjoy it, then that’s fine too. What is not fine is you acting like that show was meant for you and tearing it apart and bullying people of that directed age group online. I can’t believe the amount of times I’ve seen some 19-40 year old dipshit on the internet go and bully a 15 year old only because they said they loved a show. That is not only sick and immature but it’s uncalled for.

27) Also 15 year olds or younger, do not use your age as an excuse to be mean either. You might be young and you will definitely make huge mistakes, but there’s is nothing to justify you telling someone to kill themselves or insulting them just because they don’t like your favorite character or something. You might not be as experienced as some adults, but you’re old enough to know what the fuck you’re doing and how wrong it is. Don’t be cruel and blame it on you being young and stupid. You maybe young and all of us will always be a bit stupid, but that does not excuse your behavior. And @ older people who do that shit too, your older age and power does not excuse your cruelty either. Nothing excuses telling someone to kill themselves. Ever. Especially if it’s over a goddamn tv show.

28) Can Ryan Murphy please just make one tv show and stick with it until it ends? He has so many great concepts but because he wants to do all of them at once they all go downhill after one season.

29) On the same but different note, fuck Ryan Murphy for having Violet and Tate get back together. My girl deserves better than a serial killer/rapist that also got her mom killed because he impregnated her with the anti christ. Fuck that.

I never intended this to be so long lol no one will read this

30) The Hormone Monster is literally a metaphor for hormones. Stop twisting it into pedophilia. That show is so sex positive and is so much better than most of the sex ed that we got.

31) Let’s leave monster fucking behind please

32) Puzzles are a treat to do

33) Funko pops are cute but they make a lot of dumbass decisions regarding which ones to make (like I saw pops of that new nutcracker movie a while before it was released like maybe wait and see how it does first????)

34) Also lets stop thinking of ships/shows as a way to up yourself as more progressive or whatever. We all have our trash shows and ships, stop acting like a saint. Just because someone has a trash ship, does not mean they are lesser than you.

35) Fanbases are usually always trash. This didn’t change at all in 2018.

36) Class’s first season was significantly better than Torchwoods first season. You guys are just mean.

37) While I adore Class, Patrick Ness’s dialogue was really YIKES sometimes (the Charlie April deleted scene nearly killed me). Overall it was good though because it was the closest depiction of how teens speak.

38) Also any teen drama show that has a teen speak seriously in a hashtag should burn in hell (if a hashtag is used in dialogue as joke then it’s fine because it’s funny)

39) An actor being on a show you don’t like does not warrant hate

40) It’s been two years since Class but still, fuck the dw fans who were/are so mean to the class actors, especially Vivian Oparah and Sophie Hopkins.

I think that’s it.

#40 points long #bbc class

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nicklangfordmuse · 6 years

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please, frank?

After Katrina left the house, Nick couldn’t stop grinning. She was so gorgeous and Nick is really smitten with her. It’s different with other girls he meets. Whenever Nick would show interest to a girl, usually it’s either to have sex with her or just to impress them so that they would chase after him. But this girl is different. Apart from wanting to spend more time with her, Nick sees a future with her. Not as far as taking care of grandchildren but maybe like going to dinner dates or random trips out of town. In other words, he wants her to be his constant.

The day after, Nick felt really tired and sleepy. He didn’t sleep much before he was up all night thinking about this girl and eventually having that desire to see her again. Nick doesn’t believe that coffee helps but today, he had to try. He can just have some red bull maybe in the afternoon but it was too early for that. Plus, a small part in his brain told him that coffee is more mature than chocolate in the morning. And if Frank wants one thing from him, it’s maturity. Taking a sip of his coffee, he walked back to his desk and saw Frank arriving. His mind went back to last night again, the door being opened to him by the most beautiful woman on the planet. He chuckled to himself when he remembered about almost ditching the dinner at Frank’s place. Thankfully, he didn’t.

“Good morning, Frank.” Nick said, taking another sip as he opened the folder on his desk. It was weird for Frank because Nick never does that. Usually, his rude ass would give comments like ‘Christmas came to work earlier than you did’ or ‘you look grumpier than yesterday, is that a habit?’. Raising an eyebrow at the ‘busy officer’, Frank decided to give him the benefit of the doubt. “Good morning, Langford. I’ve never seen you with a coffee before.”

Chuckling with a deep voice, he shook his head. “That’s funny, man. I love coffee. It’s...what I have every morning before I leave home.” He lied. He drinks milk. It’s the one thing he always has in the morning.

Frank clearly doesn’t believe it. “Last week, I heard you telling Officer Medina that you’ll destroy the coffee machine if that captain doesn’t buy a gum ball machine for the station.” Nick grinned awkwardly, realizing Frank does have eyes and ears everywhere. “Did...did I say that? You know, Medina has this talent that he can imitate my voice. You probably heard him, not me.” He said as Frank started his desk work for the day. Having silence between them was causing Nick’s heart to race. Why was he not talking about last night? Did he really think Nick would stay away from his hot daughter?

“So, Frank. I just...you know, I wanted to thank you for last night. I mean, that was some delicious meal. I can’t believe I’ve been eating McDonald’s for the past months I’ve been here.” He joked, chuckling awkwardly as he bit his lip. “I...I wanted to try and cook that at home and I was hoping I could get the recipe. Did your daughter make that? Maybe I can...give her a call and ask about the recipe and...stuff like that.”

Frank dropped his pen on the desk and glared at Nick. “I told you last night, my daughter is off limits. Especially with you.” He reminded him, going back to his work.

“What? Come on, I heard you. I know that. I just...wanted to return the favor and cook for you next so maybe, I can make dinner...or order dinner, instead, and we could have a nice dinner at your house...” He paused for a long time before clearing his throat. “...with your daughter.”

“Nick, stop it. Last night is the last time. Not my daughter. Not with you.” Frank warned, getting up as he shook his head. “I need coffee. It’s too early for your daily headache.”

Nick looked down, feeling like his charm isn’t working at all. Getting up, he had to give it a try one more time. He followed Frank to the coffee station and started looking for snacks beside the coffee maker. “Look, your daughter is a grown woman. A grown...beautiful woman.” Nick said and Frank glared at him again. “She is! And...you know, I think she’s smart enough to make her own decisions. So, maybe...you could let her decide if she wants to have me around or not.” Nick said, hoping to get a better response from Frank.

“Why her? Why do you want her, then? You bring home different girls every week. I’m not letting my daughter be one of those.” Frank said, very protective of the only woman left in his life. “If you can give me a good reason to even be friends with my daughter, that’s the only time I might consider it.”

Nick looked at him as the older gentleman waited for him to answer. He couldn’t give a proper answer right now but he badly wanted to say that he couldn’t stop thinking about her. Clearly, that’s not enough. “Frank, I just want her number. Or even her address or her office. Then, I’ll work my way up there. I won’t bother you about it anymore.” Nick was practically begging already but Frank was still not convinced.

“You can’t even give me a reason. When you become a father one day and feel like your daughter is all you have, then you’ll understand why I’m reacting like this. If any guy, especially you, hurt her, I’m gonna be everyone’s worst nightmare. I can guarantee that. And you wouldn’t want that. So, I’m saving you from that horror.”

“What makes you think I’m gonna hurt her?” Nick asked, feeling a little hurt with how little Frank’s faith in him has gone to.

“Because I’ve seen you women, Nick. And frankly, I do not agree with how you treat women. You go after them, you sleep with them and then you forget them. That’s not how a girl deserves to be treated, especially not my daughter.” Grabbing his cup of coffee, Frank turned to him again. “That’s all I ask you, Langford. Not my daughter. Then, you can expect a good relationship with me. We have a long day, get started on your work.” He said, walking back to his desk and Nick just stayed there, thinking about what Frank had just said. Was it really worth it to risk his relationship with Frank just to see Katrina again? He’s not even sure if the girl’s as interested in him as he was with her.

Focusing on the better side of things, he decided to just let it go. If he gets an opportunity to see her, then it’s meant to be. But if not, then he can just look for other girls to play with.

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little-chimchim · 6 years

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I Only Hate You A Little- Part 2

Rating: PG-13

Word Count: 3139

Genre: Enemies to lovers au! Roommates au! Best friend’s boyfriend au! fluff, smut, angst (Holy trinity of course)

Pairing: Kihyun x Reader

A/N: Hello there! Part 2 is up and ready to go! I’ve decided that this one will probably be around 4 or 5 parts, depends on what happens. Thank you so much for the support already, I love you all!! If you want to see other fics, my ask box is open as always <3 - Kay

Part 1 Part 3

“It was one thing at home, now at work?” You chugged the drink in your glass before handing the last bit to Hyungwon, who sat next to you on the couch. “He looks like an ass.” Muttered Jooheon, who sat next to your feet on the floor.

“He’s so nice to Liza, so I don’t get why he’s such a douche to everyone else.” Hyungwon said, finishing the drink in one sip. “I give them another month.” Minhyuk said from across the room, scrolling through the tv to find a movie to watch.

“Please, she’s so in love with him that she’d sell her soul before she’d let him leave.” Hyungwon shook his head.

In the middle of your rant session, the noises began. First came the loud moans, then the even louder music that was used to cover them up. You stood up quickly, grabbing a pillow and taking it with you. Hyungwon tugged on your hand, bringing you back to the couch. “Don’t go in the with a pillow.”

He outstretched his hand to the other side of the couch and grabbed the other throw pillow. “At least use two pillows, it’ll make a grander point.” You laughed and took the other pillow. Minhyuk ran over to take them away, glaring at you. “You’re not that mean, Y/N, just ignore them.”

An hour later, with the tv on full volume, the sounds of their fun could still be heard, even over the tv and music. Minhyuk grabbed the pillow and shot up, rushing to Liza and Kihyun’s room. “You’re not that mean, Y/N.” You imitated his voice, waiting for him to come back from his raid on the couple.

Minhyuk ran back into the living room, drenched from his head to his shoulders. “He poured wine on me.” He grumbled, entering his room to get a new shirt. When he came back out, more angry than you had ever seen him before. He took a deep breath to calm himself down. Hyungwon got up and pulled Minhyuk over to the couch and kept him there so he wouldn’t go and attack Kihyun.

You groaned, throwing your head back in frustration. You hated Yoo Kihyun more than anything.

On one of the rare chances you got to spend away from work and the university, you spent it in the music studio a few blocks away from your apartment. You tapped your fingers restlessly against the ivory keys. You sighed in frustration, banging a single finger against the E flat key. The song you were working one was not coming to you.

“Your song would be better if you weren’t so hateful towards the piano,” You heard a snipish voice call from the other side of the room. You didn’t look back, knowing the owner of the voice all too well. “Get out of my practice room, Kihyun.” You snapped, waiting for him to leave you alone for once.

You heard his footsteps walk closer to you and your piano. You looked up to him and glared. “I told you to get out.” You said one more time, not in the mood to mess around with his nonsense.

Kihyun shook his head and sat next to you. “I can't just leave when I hear music being played this awfully.” He muttered, pushing you to the side of the piano bench and taking the reins on the instrument.

You stared at him, astounded by his rudeness. “Are you kidding me?”

Kihyun shook his head and started pressing down the keys. “Sing along if you want, but the way you were playing, you were going to ruin any song you tried to play.” He said all of this so casually, without any hesitation in his voice.

You wanted to snap at him, call him out for being as rude as he was. Yet, you couldn’t find the right words to say. Kihyun began the song. It was a song that you had heard a hundred times before, one that you had even performed in high school. You itched to sing the song, but you didn’t want to give him that sweet satisfaction.

Eventually you said to hell with that and joined in.

Kihyun laughed breathlessly and continued on. After a few more bars, he started singing with you. His voice was lower than yours, giving a stark contrast to your own.

He was the biggest douche you had ever met, but you had to admit that his voice was that of an angel’s. It fit perfectly to the notes of the song, something way too beautiful to fit his personality.

Just when you thought you were enjoying the duet, Kihyun stopped playing all together. He stood up and looked to you blankly. “You’re singing flatly. It’s hurting my ear, I’m going to go heal them.” He said coldly, shoving his hands in his jacket pockets and walking away.

You rolled your eyes, glaring at the back of his head. That was the final straw, you weren’t going to put up with his bullshit any longer. “If you don’t stop treating Minhyuk and I like garbage, I’m going to kick you out of the apartment.”

He stopped walking and looked back to you instantly. His sly grin made your blood boil. “Good luck trying to do that with Liza around. She would have a fit if you kicked her boyfriend out of the apartment.”

You quickly made your way towards him, pointing your finger into his chest. You pushed your finger into his skin roughly, trying to make a point. “I don’t care about that. If you want to live in my apartment, you’re going to start showing us a little respect.” You snapped at him.

He rolled his eyes at you and started to walk away again.

He had some nerve. You grabbed his arm and pulled him back to you. You didn’t know what you were thinking but there was something satisfying about hearing the crack of your hand hitting his face.

Kihyun stumbled back a bit and clutched his face. “What the hell?” he yelled. His eyes shot daggers at you and you could tell that he was furious. You smiled at him and held up the hand that slapped him. “Liza may not know about how nasty your personality is yet, but keep up with the asshole act, and she’ll know sooner than you can handle.” You winked to him, “I’m not someone you can mess around with, Kihyun. I hope you know that.”

You looked away and went back to the piano. You were not going to let him treat you like shit anymore.

The days after that were awkward. He avoided you like the plague and his comments seemed to die down into almost nothing. When Minhyuk started to notice the difference in your roommate’s behavior, he came to your first.

“What the hell did you do to him that made him this quiet?” He asked you one day in the kitchen. You grinned and poured out your coffee. “I might have yelled at him and slapped him.” You said quietly, but Minhyuk heard every word.

“You slapped him? That’ll do it.” He laughed, “He’s probably afraid of you now.”

“I doubt it, he just probably didn’t think either of us would stand up to him.” You said. You poured another mug of coffee and pushed it towards Minhyuk. You were about to continue on with the conversation but Kihyun walked through the kitchen doors.

He made brief eye contact with you and Minhyuk before looking away. He grabbed his own mug and poured it for himself. The room was thick with silence and it wasn’t broken until Kihyun cleared his throat to speak. “I-uh- suppose I’m sorry for the way I treated the two of you for a few weeks.” He paused and looked to the two of you, seriously this time. “I’m bad with people. I’m also told that I have a severe ego-”

“You can say that again.” Minhyuk mumbled. You nudged him in the ribs and let Kihyun continue.

Kihyun took a deep breath and prevented himself from saying something mean to Minhyuk. “As I was saying… I’m not the nicest to people when I first meet them. And I apologize for that now.” He stuck out his hand for one of you to take. “So what do we say? Call it a truce and become friends?”

You looked up to Minhyuk to see what his reaction might be. Minhyuk cocked an eyebrow but nodded his head. “I suppose that we could do that.” He said as he took Kihyun’s hand.

You thought about it for the moment. Was he truly genuine in his apology or was he just saying this to not get kicked out. You looked into his eyes and saw the softness in them. You sighed and took his hand. “Act up again and we’ll kick you out, Liza or no.” You told him.

He nodded and let out a long breath of relief. “Now that we’re on good terms, would you like to go to the studio with me, Y/N?” He asked, almost kindly.

You shrugged your shoulders “I don’t know, are you going to insult my singing again?” You questioned. He shook his head, embarrassed by what he said to you a few days prior. “No, no I won’t.”

You grinned, “Then sure.”

This time you felt more comfortable with Kihyun by your side. Every once and awhile he would stop the music and instruct you on how to control your voice a little more. In a way, he was being strangely kind.

He was a dancer as well, which he proudly showed you in the middle of the practice room. To him, performing was more than a passion, it was his life. He had so much talent that it amazed you. You also wondered why he hadn’t gotten the chance to start performing on stages quite yet. He only gave you a short answer. “Because I’m not ready yet.” He told you every time you asked. You supposed that it was a valid answer, but he was more than ready to start capturing an audience.

In the middle of the practice, he stopped dancing and he lied down on the floor, breathing heavily. “I don’t want you to forgive me yet.” He said through labored breaths. You looked at him strangely and sat down on the ground next to him.

“You made me realize what I had been doing. I know I’ve deserved it before, but no one has ever slapped me. When someone hits you because you’ve been an ass, it’s kind of a wake up call.” He admitted, staring up at the ceiling.

You laughed and nodded along, “Yeah, you really did deserve it. What made you target Minhyuk and I? You acted like a perfect gentleman towards Liza but no one else.” You were afraid that maybe this question went a little farther than he wished.

Kihyun propped himself on the ground so he could face you. “My dad is a big CEO of a business firm in Seoul. My mother is a fashion designer. I’ve had a very comfortable, luxurious life. That doesn’t help my ego complex at all.” He joked before going back into his story. “When my father found out that I was majoring in the arts, he cut me off completely. He said that if I was going to pursue a career in music instead of law or medicine, I was no son of his. So I got by, I worked at a French restaurant for a while to pay for student bills. I had a lot saved up from when my parents were paying for everything but I didn’t want to dig into that yet. So I got an apartment with one of my friends. He moved back home and I was short on rent. You know the rest of the story.”

You looked at him, feeling a little bit bad about his familial situation. “Your father sounds like an ass.” You whispered to him.

Kihyun nodded and smiled, “He is, no doubt. Before I moved in, I was also having a few problems with Liza. To keep her from leaving, I dipped into my savings and started spoiling her. It’s stupid, I know, but I didn’t really want to lose her. She’s my first serious girlfriend and I didn’t want to see her go so soon.”

You laughed, really loudly. You didn’t want to seem insensitive or harsh, but it just kind of came out. “So you were an ass to us because your father had just disowned you and you were on the verge of having your girlfriend, my best friend, leave you. So you took it out on two people you didn’t even know.”

Kihyun pressed his hand to his face, shielding it from you in embarrassment. “If you put it like that then I sound horribly petty.” He groaned out. He fell back to his position on the floor and knocked his head softly into the wood. “You kind of were petty. But I’m willing to overlook it just for now.” You paused thinking about something else he said. “If you and Liza truly love each other, then she won’t rely on the gifts you give her.”

You knew that was stretching the truth though. Liza had a long track record with men. She targeted the attractive, wealthy, charismatic ones. You loved your best friend but she was a little bit of a gold digger when she wanted to be. The way Liza looked at Kihyun was proof enough for you though, he was the real deal in her eyes.

“I suppose,” he checked the time on his phone and got up from the ground. “We should probably get home before it gets too late.” You nodded in agreement and grabbed your things.

It was a cold February day and you spent it on the couch, a box of tissues and a bag of cough drops by your side. You had gone into work earlier today, but you were sent home thirty minutes into your shift because of the very obvious sickness you had.

So here you were, enjoying your very rare amount of alone time in the apartment. You caught the last part of a movie on t.v. and you were about to put in your own movie but you got a text message that distracted you from doing so.

You looked at your phone and saw the message from Kihyun light up your screen.

Kihyun: Yo, I just got out of class. I’m going to the store, want me to pick you up something to eat/drink?

You hated him. You constantly reminded yourself.

You: Tea or soup. My throat is killing me. Thank you!

You sent back quickly. You hated him.

Kihyun: Alright I’ll be home soon

“It was a flutter of a crush” You had to remind yourself. He and Liza were so annoyingly in love that it had to be a passing by, but as the days wore on, you couldn’t see it as a flutter.

Kihyun came home and set a large paper bag down on the table in front of you. He slowly started taking things out one by one. “I texted Liza and asked her what your favorite tea flavor was.” He gestured to the cup of hot tea and gave it to you. “Raspberry from that weird hippie place down the street.” He made a face towards the tea and continued pulling things out.

He placed the bowl of soup in front of you, another thing he bought. He also took out a couple bags of chocolates from the bottom. He handed you your own bag. “That’s for you” He lifted up his right hand “This one is for Liza and I, she’s been complaining about going on a diet so I figured we could share one bag.” And he lifted up his left hand “And this one's for Minhyuk. I forgot, does he like chocolate?”

You nod, taking in the kindness he was showing. “Thank you.” You grinned. You outstretched your arm and coughed into your sleeve. Kihyun looked down at you, a little worried. The two of you had grown closer in the past few weeks than you had ever expected. You and him had more in common than you had Liza did, but you would never let Liza in on that little piece of information.

Though, as your friendship grew, so did your feelings.

Despite getting off on a rocky start, you grew to become excited every time you saw him in class or worked with him in the studio. It was ridiculous to think you think you had a crush on your best friend’s boyfriend, but you couldn’t control how you felt.

Kihyun sat down on the couch next to you. He picked up the tissues and handed them to you. “I have some important news,” He said excitedly, turning to face you completely. You raised your eyebrows, waiting to hear his terrific news.

“My father is finally supporting me again. I sent him videos of my progress and our practice sessions. He’s thoroughly impressed and he reconsidered my choice to study music!” His eyes lit up happily, something you had not seen before.

You smiled and launched yourself towards him, hugging him tightly. “That’s wonderful! I’m happy for you.” You peered at him, even though you didn’t let go of his body. He wrapped his own arms around you, his smile faltered as you lied on top him on the couch.

“Yeah…” He trailed off, his eyes floating down to your lips. He licked his own lips but didn’t move any further from there. You wanted to lean in, so badly that it hurt but you knew what it would mean if you did so.

Before you made the decision, you quickly got off of Kihyun and coughed into your arm. Kihyun sighed and draped his arm around your waist, easing you off the couch and leading you towards your bedroom. In his other hand he held the tissues. He helped you sit down on your bed and tucked you under the covers (Even if you really didn’t need help). He set the tissues next to you and rubbed the top of your head.

“Go to sleep, I’ll text Minhyuk and tell him to warm up that soup for you when you wake up. I have to get to get ready for work, so, um, sleep well.” He said the last part awkwardly but you found it a little adorable.

You closed your eyes, hoping the images of Kihyun would leave. But they didn’t

A flutter of a crush? You couldn’t have been more wrong.

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warmau · 7 years

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{Special} College!AU Jaehyun

major: visual arts / concentration: sculpture

minor: n/a

sports: the star player and point guard for the uni’s basketball team

clubs: wanted to join the art club but it conflicted with practice so his coach said he should drop it

jaehyun is what you could call a campus celebrity, as in everyone always greets him and not only students ,,,,,,,but teachers too

all the faculty are always like jaehyun!!! you won us another trophy!!!! and jaehyun is like “well the whole te-” and they’re like cANT WaIT foR YOU TO TAKE US TO NATIONALS

and he’s just,,,,very humble about it because he doesn’t really know what to do with all the attention,,,,,and his friends (we are all looking at johnny) don’t let him live it down

and it’s /true/ his basketball scholarship is paying his full tuition and he loves the sport,,,,,,,,so he plays and practices with everything he’s got

but also,,,,,he’s got interests and hobbies

and everyone on the team thinks he chose his “art major” because it’s “easy” and wont cut into practice

because they’re all like jaehyun,,,,,you’re gonna get scouted and go pro right??????

but the reality is jaehyun,,,,,,jaehyun likes art. he likes looking at it, learning about it,,,,,,,,and making it

yuta once pointed out that jaehyun’s hands are perfect for playing basketball they’re strong and big and can hold the ball really well while,,,,,,,ahem taeyong here with his bony little - jkjk

but jaehyun had agreed,,,,,his hands are nice,,,,,but they’re strong not only for basketball but because he likes to sculpt

just being in the studio,,,working with clay,,,,it calms him down but it also takes a lot of physicality that people overlook

and out of everyone it feels like only some of his friends get that his future isn’t just basketball basketball basketball,,,,,,

like mark and ten think it’s really cool and taeil always seems to cut the conversation when doyoung and johnny go off on tangents about how ~cool~ pro basketball jaehyun will be

but,,,,,,,,jaehyun knows he has responsibilities to the team,,,the school,,,,,and to keeping his scholarship

also lets all take a moment to enjoy jaehyun in the basketball uniform,,,,sweaty,,,,towel around his neck

or even better,,,,,jaehyun after practice in a tank top,,,,,sweat pants,,,,,wet hair from the showers

ok ahem moving on

johnny does this thing where he yells JEFFREY at every game and jaehyun would flip him off if he wasnt such a sweet person LOL

keeps all the banners people make for him because he doesnt have the heart to throw them away or not accept them

and his roommate mark is like bro,,,,,,,,bro our closet is overflowing,,,brO

half the people in his art classes think he’s a joke and try to be high and mighty about how he’s just a jock,,,,,,,,,,but the other half are just heart eyes because wOW look at his muscles

does the thing where he carries everything during studio or shop classes like literally carried about fifteen peoples projects,,,,then held the door open for people getting their huge portfolios or canvases through the door,,,,,got the wood for one person,,,,the clay blocks for another

he really cannot say no,,,,,,,its a problem jfldsgifdjlkfs

he comes back from class completely SPENT and mark is like,,,,,,,i didn’t know art involved so much,,,,,heavy lifting

jaehyun with his face in the pillow: you dont even know mark,,,,,,you dont even know

wakes up super early to go running and do push ups on the field and everyone thinks he’s being super intense listening to some wild edm music getting pumped up but actually he’s listening to a podcast on alien abduction or something because hes always bringing it up like

catch him sitting in sculpture II talking to his seatmate about the existence of extraterrestrial beings

and the person is just like ???????? and jaehyun is like “im telling you,,,,,they exist!!!!”

and then after he’s sitting next to ten and johnny telling them what happened and how his seatmate looked kinda scared and ten is like oh sweetheart,,,,,,,,,,,,,you probably gave the kid a heartattack

johnny just laughs his ass off so much he chokes on his rice

he’s a silly boy,,,who is actually much more than his athleticism and he secretly wishes more people,,,,,,,would just accept him as a normal college student and not the ‘star player of the basketball team’

like he wants to join clubs!! meet people!! talk to teachers about upcoming exhibits,,,go to museums,,,,go on,,,,,,,,,,,,,,dates

but he also feels like he can’t let people down not when even winwin is asking him to sign his notebook because wow jaehyun is on a real winning roll for the team!!!!

sometimes when he gets super tired from practice and class he’ll start sleep talking to himself in english and he’ll do it like right in the library where he fell asleep on his books

doyoung even took a video of it and it became a meme on campus,,,,,,jaehyun was not happy and chased doyoung around the campus like ten times till taeil just took doyoungs phone and deleted it

doyoung: how did you get my password???

taeil: i knew your password was ilovetaeyong don’t play yourself

anYWAY

you know jaehyun because he’s in your sculpting studio class and unlike most of the people there you don’t care that he’s a jock but you also don’t care about his good looks

mostly because,,,,,,,you care about your sculpture LOL not some dude in class who seems to be involved in so much gossip

the one thing you do care about and know,,,,,is that he’s got talent. you’ve been seeing him diligently work on this very pretty marble replica of strazza’s the veiled virgin

and it’s hard to make marble look like cloth,,,,,,but somehow he’s been pulling it off nicely

and whenever he isn’t in the studio,,,you couldn’t help yourself but go and take a closer work because really,,,,,,,,,did the basketball stare really do this>??

and one afternoon you happen to be working on your own piece while jaehyun is around and you know

you exchange the pleasantry nods and whatnot,,,but for the most part it’s quiet aside from the noise of your tools which is completely fine with you

until,,,,,,,,suddenly it’s anything but quiet

because the door has busted open and a couple of jaehyun’s rowdy teammates have strolled inside,,,,,,

and they’re like “coach said practice schedule is fucked up and we gotta be in the gym in ten minutes, let’s go jung”

and jaehyun is like ill be there but i need time to clean up-

“it’s just your art stuff, do it later and if its jacked just say it’s ‘abstract’”

you pretend to not listen,,,,but for some reason you can already feel something bad is going to happen

and just as you gaze over your shoulder you see one the dudes lean against the table,,,,,jaehyun’s almost done sculpture sitting dangerously close to the side

before you can think you open your mouth to say he should move it when,,,,,,,the dude turns to look at you and,,,,,,then you hear the sound

the sound,,,,,of broken marble

the shattered remains of jaehyun’s sculpture spread out on the floor of the studio in a sad,,,,big mess

and you can’t see that well across the room but jaehyun’s body has gone rigid and the group of loud boys have come to a hushed silence

you hear one of them swallow,,,another says they need to hurry to practice and that he’ll tell the coach jaehyun’s gonna be late

everyone leaves and you watch,,,wide eyed as jaehyun stares at the pile that was once all his hard work

you think for a minute that,,,,,he’s going to get mad,,,,start screaming?? flailing his arms??? throwing things??? chasing that douche bag??

but jaehyun does nothing,,,,,he just drops to his knees and with his own hands starts to clean up

and you ,,,, can’t just watch anymore

you set down your own work and go over with a bag, crouching down next to jaehyun and helping him pick up the broken marble

startled he looks up,,,,and you can’t believe it when you see him try and force a smile

“it’s ok, you don’t have to hel-”

“why didn’t you drag him back here? why didn’t you tell that asshole to go to hell? you at least deserved to do that.”

silently jaehyun stares at you,,,,before going back to cleaning with a small shrug

“it’s fine. i haven’t been working on this too long anyway.”

stopping you move some hair from your face and furrow your eyebrows

“what are you talking about, you’ve been working on this for weeks?”

jaehyun’s shoulders seem to drop,, his hands shaking over the remaining pieces and you hear him sigh

not understanding why he’s holding back so much you ask him again

“why didn’t you tell him to go to-”

“because he’s on my team. the team,,,,,is more important right now.”

scoffing you push jaehyun’s hand away,,, for a second you think you’re being rude but at the same time you don’t know how to deal with that kind of logic

“if the team is important go to practice, i can take care of this. also ,,,,, is it jaehyun?”

jaehyun meets your eyes,,,suddenly sitting up straight and nodding and you shake your head

“don’t devalue your own work and talent. tell that guy, even if he is on your team that he should have some respect for what you do,,,,,,even if it isn’t baseball.”

“basketball.”

“what?”

“i,,,i play basketball”

“,,,,,,,,,,oh,,,,,,,wELL same thing. you should tell him off.”

laughing a little at yourself you make another comment that if jaehyun wants you can teach him some ‘choice’ words perfect for telling someone off but jaehyun refuses politely and says that he really cant make u clean all this up

but you shoo him away again and jaehyun,,,,stares at you for a moment

trying to remember,,,,,your name,,,,,,who you are,,,,,and when he says your name you look at him again and you’re like yes?

and he just fluster’s a bit and is like oh ,,, no i was just remembering it,,,im ,,im gonna go now

and you’re like ok? and he nearly trips over himself as he’s leaving but you just shrug it off and clean up and,,,,,really you cant believe it

murmuring to yourself about how if it had been your sculpture you would have lost your shit

but either way you find yourself going into the storage room,,,getting out a new block of marble and placing it on top of jaehyun’s work desk.

with a small note: ‘do it again, but this time dont keep it at the edge of the table’

at practice,,,jaehyun apologizes in front of the coach,,,,,and it all seems fine but also he cant,,,,,,concentrate

because every time he’s supposed to assist or pass the ball he can barely aim and everyone is like jaehyun???? Stop being so upset about the sculpture art is easy to pass, just make something half-assed c’mon

and jaehyun doesn’t say anything,,,,but it isn’t even the sculpture that has his brain in a fog,,,,,,,

it’s you

because ever since he started that class,,,,,he knew who you were,,,,but why didn’t he know anything else

and why ,,,,,,,,,,, was he so interested in knowing now

the next day,,,after coming to the studio you’d noticed that the marble was untouched ,,, which didn’t bother you but you’d hoped jaehyun would show up

and when he did,,,,,,,you were surprised to hear him call out to you

standing by the block of marble grinning,,,he pointed to it and is like “a gift from you?” and you just roll your eyes because,,,,,,,,,no it’s a gift from the school because does it look like you have money for marble

but jaehyun is still grinning

and you’re like “get to sculpting” and he’s like ,,,,,,,,i will

it’s ,,,,, a comfortable silence again

just like usual,,,just the sound of tools and the small specks of sunlight coming through the windows

but this time,,,,,when you look over to see how jaehyun is doing,,,,,,you look at him hard at work

his strong hands working carefully and with detail ,,,, but you notice something else

his profile

soft hair,,,,long eyelashes,,,,an almost perfect nose,,,,and lips,,,,,parted in concentration with a small hint of his tongue sticking out as he sits back to study his progress

and you’re like @ yourself like w,,,,,,what the heck are you looking at go back to your own work

but it’s TOO late and you’ve been caught staring and jaehyun is like “it’s not much yet,,,,im kind of not sure what to make”

and you try to gather yourself and not make it look like you were totally just checking him out and you’re like

“w-what about the veiled virgin or are you not gonna do that?”

jaehyun scrunches up his nose (so cutely - wait what?) and goes “i want to do something ,,, original,,,,,,i kind of,,,,,well it’s embarrassing”

and you’re like ????? whats embarrassing

and jaehyun scratches the back of his neck and is like “i want to enter it in the monthly contest at the museum,,,,,,,,,,but i know im not good enough and i dont have the ti-”

you put up your hand and jaehyun is like ? and you’re like “that’s a great idea! you should do it, actually you’re going to do it. because you deserve it.”

jaehyun seem slightly confused and you tilt your head and are like “whats that look for?”

and he’s like n,,,nothing just no one has ever,,,,,encouraged me to do something art related it just,,,,,,feels different

you try to hold back a chuckle but you can’t and you’re like ,,,,, jaehyun,,,,,,,do what you want, you have talent so use it oh and also

jaehyun lifts his shy gaze to meet yours and you’re like

“also learn to tell people off seriously.”

and he’s like yOURE STILL ON THAT And you’re like YES I AM SERIOUSLY HOW DID YOU NOT YELL AT THAT DUDE I WOULD HAVE KILLED HIM

jaehyun just sighs and is like you sound like johnny he always brings up dumb stuff from the past and ur like who is johnny and jaehyun brings his hands up and is like nothing nothing ill get back to work

and ,,,,, it’s like that for a while,,,,,,,,,,,

sometimes you and jaehyun are the only two in the room working,,,,,sometimes it’s more people ,,,,,,,,

but somehow,,,,,there’s something between you now maybe like an untold secret????

the fact that he hasnt told anyone else kind of makes you feel a bit special,,,but you also cant help but think,,,,,whats it like to have no one support you for that long

sure people are jaehyun’s basketball fans and whatnot but,,,,,does anyone tell him,,,,,,,basketball isn’t all he has to do,,,,,that art is a choice too

and you can’t believe it. you’re having sentimental thoughts about some BOY you’re not even that close with

like UGH WHAT THE HECK

you bang your head against your laptop keyboard and your friend is like dude hello u ok??? and ur like i gtg ,,,, work on my sculpture and she’s like it’s ten pm- and ur like its fine i know where the spare is

and so you head over to the studio,,,,,,it’s dark in the hallway but you can see the lights are from under the crack in the door

and when you put your hand on the knob,,,the door opens easily

and you see jaehyun,,,,hunched over the marble,,,,,,and you can see that it’s the mold of someones face

but there doesn’t seem to be much detail in it yet and jaehyun finally notices you and smiles and he’s like “are you here to work?”

and you nod,,,,,coming over and looking at his sculpture before you can’t help it and go “whose it going to be?”

jaehyun sits back,,,,chewing on his bottom lip and going “i don’t know,,,,,”

you sigh and remind him that if he wants to enter it,,,he’s going to have to submit it to the museum by the end of the week and jaehyun is like i know i know

but then,,,,,as you’re both sitting in silence again,,,,,,jaehyun turns around and asks “are you hungry?”

and it’s,,,,nearing midnight but,,,,,,,a snack couldn’t hurt

and to your surprise jaehyun pulls out peaches and bread from his back and you’re like ??? do you just carry those around

and he’s like “yeah i also have protein bars in here, instant ramen - do you want ramen?”

and you’re like,,,,,i???? it’s ok ill take a peach

before you know it,,,,,your work has been abandoned and you and jaehyun are sitting across from each other talking about this and that

till he says something about practice tomorrow at 8 am and you realize it’s past 2 am now

and you both have to gather your things and sneak back to your dorms and jaehyun ,,,, before you leave

says that he’s thankful that sculpture of his was broken and you raise an eyebrow and he jsut smiles and is like “if it hadn’t broken,,,,,we wouldn’t have go to hang out like this.”

and you’re like o,,,h,,,,,,,,,,and god dammit why does jaehyun make your cool, aloof personality crumble

but he waves and is gone before you can blush in front of him and embarrass yourself

,,,,,,and it’s like,,,,,,,,,now it isn’t just two art students in a class together,,,,,,it’s friends

finally the last day of the week comes and you’re in the studio,,,looking at jaehyun whose covered his sculpture with a towel and you’re like ,,,,,,,jaehyun show it to me

and he’s just giving you a sly smile and is like you’ll see it at the museum

and you’re like ,,,,,,,,heY where would you be if i didn’t encourage you now show me-

but before you can finish your argument the door opens again and jaehyun’s basketball teammates appear again

out of precaution jaehyun moves his sculpture to the table behind him and you give most of them an unamused look as they start touching this and that

jaehyun asks whats up and one of the guys is like “c’mon, coach wants us to have a big meeting about strategy for next week.”

you look at jaehyun and then at the sculpture

“jaehyun has to come with me to the museum, tell the coach he’ll be there later.”

jaehyun turns to look at you,,,,,whose speaking with your hands crossed over your chest

the teammates just laugh and are like “and you are?”

and you’re like “jaehyun’s classmate. we’re submitting our sculptures to the museum. the deadlines in an hour so,,,,,,,he’ll be there later.”

the laughter stops and one of the teammates steps toward you

standings tall,,,,,,obviously since he’s also a basketball player,,,,,you don’t let it intimidate you but at the same time you realize that there’s four more people,,,,,,,four more people who dont want jaehyun to go with you

“i don’t think i remember jaehyun saying anything about that. so,,,,,he’ll be going with us.”

you frown and open your mouth but suddenly jaehyun steps in front of you and lets one hand rest on your wrist

and he’s like “guys, ill go with you. no big deal.”

turning to you,,,,jaehyun mouths for you to let it go but you can’t,,,,because again,,,,,,basketball is in the way of something else he loves

and you’re like “no you won’t, jaehyun you need to submit the sculpture in person -”

jaehyun just smiles,,,but you can see the sadness in his eyes and he says its fine, there’s next month.

with that,,,you watch him follow his teammates out and you’re left alone,,,,,jaehyun’s hidden sculpture on the table beside you

,,,,,,,,,,,,then you realize,,,,,,,,you can do it.

you can submit it for him

and carefully, you take the art into your arms and make way for the museum because there isn’t anyway you’re going to let jaehyun’s talent go to waste this time

and when you do get there,,,the woman accepting them asks for your name and you go “jung jaehyun” and she scribbles it down and asks what the name of the sculpture is

and you’re like,,,,,,,,,well you don’t even know because you didn’t even have the time to LOOK at it

so you kind of panic and blurt out ‘the one’,,,,,,thinking it is his first sculpture,,,,,and it is a person,,,,,,,,,so maybe its someone special?????

the woman waves her hand and says you may go

and with a beating heart you leave the museum and on the train back to school you think,,,,,,why didn’t you look at the sculpture?? were you scared,,,,,were you????? jealous of who it could be??

shaking off the idea you think that what matters now is if he wins or not

,,,,,,,,,and like clockwork the results come out and eagerly you visit the museums website and,,,,,,,,,,,

the winner,,,,,,jung jaehyun’s,,,,,,sculpture,,,,,,’the one’

and looking at the photo you almost drop out of your chair because the sculpture,,,,,,,,,,,the sculpture looks like you

and with no time to waste you dash out of your dorm,,,headed straight to the gym where you didn’t realize that there is going to be a game tonight

and the place is packed with students even though it doesnt start for another hour and you fight through the crowds on the bleachers

managing to get up to the court and jaehyun,,,,,whose doing stretches notices you

because well,,,,,,,out of excitement you literally run ONTO the court

and the ref and coach are yelling at you to stop but you don’t hear them and jaehyun is like “what are you-”

and you run right into his arms and you’re like “jAEHYUN YOU WON!! YOUR SCULPTURE IS IN THE MUSEUM”

and jaehyun is frozen,,,,,,the entire gym staring at you two and an uproar of whispers about how one jaehyun is,,,,,,an art major???? two,,,,,jaehyun is dating,,,,,,,you????? i mean you are in his arms?????? you did run acROSS THE COURT to see him????/

pulling back you look at jaehyun,,,,who seems to still be processing what you’ve said and he’s like h-how i didn’t submit it? and ur like i went,,,,i put it in and i,,,,,,,,i didn’t look at it but then i saw it on the website and jaehyun,,,,,,,,,,jaehyun was it me?

turning cherry red,,jaehyun stutters over his answer but it’s obviously a yes and you grin and jaehyun is like “you inspired me,,,,,,i mean you were the only one to say,,,,,,i deserved it.”

and your smile grows wider and you’re like you do,,,,jaehyun look you did it,,,,because you’re talented and i -

without knowing how to put it into words you lean in and jaehyun reflexively puts his hands on either side of your face to pull you closer and it’s a kiss

right there in front of the whole gym

(which you later realize and get vERY embarrassed about)

but in the moment it’s perfect and,,,,,,,,,when you pull back you’re like

“oh one more thing before i go because your coach looks like he might murder me -”

and jaehyun is like yes?? and you look around and find the dude who had broken jaehyun’s sculpture and you yell out his number and ur like “yeah you number 5,,,,,,,,,,,,this is me telling you off because jaehyun is too nice: GO TO HELL’ ok bye now”

and with that you dash off the court before the coach can chase you and jaehyun is standing there,,,,,lovestruck but also shocked

and the team is like what the hell jaehyun and he just shrugs because honestly,,,,,,,,,,,,,,you’re wild and he,,,,,,

he freaking loves it

you do get banned from games for a while,,,,,but its worth it

you hear that jaehyun won the game the next morning,,,mostly because you wake up to find all your friends standing over you demanding to know why the mvp of the uni basketball team just said in his winning interview that his significant other,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,YOU,,,,,,,,,,,really inspired him tonight

and you’re like ,,,,me/?? jaehyun??? my??? boyfriend??? and they’re like YEAH EXPLAIN

but you dont even know what to say because everything is kind of a blur and did kissing jaehyun in front of the whole student body mean you were now dating??? who knows

well jaehyun knows so thats why you go to find him

and you do,,,, he’s doing another run on the uni’s track field and when he spots you he smiles and comes over and you’re like heY,,,,,,,,,so,,,,,,,,

and he’s like “i,,,,,,hope you,,,,,,,,,didnt mind me calling you my,,,,,,,,,,,s-s-s-s-”

“signigicant other?”

“,,,y,,,yes”

you kind of pretend to make a face and think about it,,,,rocking back and forth on your heels and you’re like hMMM well,,,,,,,

and jaehyun’s eyes turn into puppy eyes and he’s oh,,,no did i make you mad-

and you just lean up and kiss his cheek and you’re like nah, i like this straightforward jaehyun much more so,,,,,,,be like this more

jaehyun blushing: than can i be honest

you: sure

jaehyun: ,,,,,,,did you like the sculpture?

you: i loved it. also,,,,i never knew someone could make me look so pretty

jaehyun: you’re stunning

you, blushing and trying to hide it behind your hands: ok,,,tOO straightforward

jaehyun throws his arm around you and you guys get off the track field and it’s,,,,cute because you’re walking across campus like an ACTUAL couple and okay,,,,this is,,,,,,something you could get used to

but yes dating jaehyun is like dating the sweetest boy who ever lived and ,,,,,,,,,,,wow do his friends really not let anyTHING go

you finally meet johnny and the first thing he says is “so,,,,,we gonna get a repeat of that basketball court smooch OH and dont forget the part where you told the dude to go to hell” and you’re like oh my god jaehyun you compared me tO HIM

and jaehyun is like oh,,,,,,,you know what i am sorry about that john here is special

john: excuse me,,,,,,jeffery

you: jeffery?

jaehyun: if it were not for the fact that im a soft angelic person i would have kill-

but the rest of nct all really like you because,,,,,,basically you help jaehyun out of his shell,,,,,,

taeil and ten especially because wow they havent ever seen jaehyun so open and happy to talk about art???? like they’ve known about his passion but,,,,,you’ve let him explore

also oh my god you can really shut johnny up ,,,, but it even works on doyoung???? like one look and walla,,,,,,,,they’re convinced you have magic powers

but in reality it’s because you gave doyoung a noogie and made him apologize for asking jaehyun if he could make a sculpture of taeyong’s face

jaehyun is the kind of boyfriend that becomes more comfortable with time,,,,which you don’t mind because taking it slow isn’t bad

like if holding hands is all he wants to do in public than of course you’ll respect that

but also when you steal kisses every now and then while he’s studying or sketching you can liteRALLY feel his face heat up

and you’re like how are you so handsome and yet so,,,,,easily flustered???? and jaehyun is like,,,,i ,,,,,,,,u,,,,,,kiss,,,,,,,,a,,,h,,, i need some water

he has a packed schedule between practice and spending more time on his art and you can tell when he hasn’t gotten any rest because he starts getting bags under his eyes and doesnt smile

and even though it’s kind of attractive,,,,you hate seeing him like that so you’ll literally sit in front of him and feed him lunch and be like “go to sleep on time, idc if the guys want to hang out after practice do you want to pass out tomorrow in class? no? exactly.”

someone once said you were a bossy s/o and u were like excuse m- but jaehyun just went ‘i would die without them so politely, leave us alone.’

but even with all your worry,,,, jaehyun has also taught you to be a bit softer

because yeah you always want to tell off his mean teammates or his over pressuring coach but jaehyun reminds you that sometimes in life you need to girt your teeth and take it

the amount of times he’s just pulled you into his arms when you’re fuming to calm you down,,,,,,,,you’ve lost count

does the thing where he nuzzles his nose into the top of your hair and you can feel him grip onto you a little tighter

and you realize that even though he’s strong, handsome, and smart,,,,,,even people so perfect need comfort and closeness

jaehyun let’s you wear his clothes but not without him denying that it’s his clothes is someone asks even though doyoung is like i literally gave you that hoodie like a year ago for christmas and jaehyun is like,,,,,,,,,,,i,,,,,,,,,,um

and you’re like yeah its his we just spent an hour cuddling in his bed so i wanted to wear i-

jaehyun laughing really loud over you like hAHAHA we nEED To go bYE dOYOUNG

it’s hard now to work in the same room on your art because you and jaehyun get distracted and its like u can go maybe an hour before one or the other comes over and you guys start talking and its just,,,,,,

heart eyes @ each other from then on out

whenever he smiles and the dimples come out you literally are like let me take a photo and jaehyun is like but u have 394302 photos of me smiling,,,,and ur like i can never have enough i love dimple

whenever you want to go on dates,,, jaehyun always suggests something outdoorsy and active and sometimes you forget that jaehyun is Good At All the Sports

and it’s like dating an olympic athlete,,,,,,you cannot keep up most of the time,,,,,,,

but its fine because jaehyun,,,even though he’s trying to run up this mountain,,,,,will contain himself just for you ildjsfg

gets corny when he sees kids and is like “a family,,,,,,in the future would be so nice,,,,,,,,” and you’re like “you’re smiling like a dad jaehyun” and he’s like oOPS,,,,,,,,but it’s,,,,,,,,,it’s cute

you can see that he’s so gentle and caring with everyone he meets you can’t help but be like,,,,,,,,he is,,,,,,going to be a great parent some day

you didnt believe he could cook well too when ten told you about jaehyun’s secret delicious ramen

but then you guys were making some,,,jaehyun standing at the stove,,,,and you sitting on the kitchen counter and when he’d feed you you were like hOLY SHIT THIS IS AMAZING

and jaehyun just laughed and u were just like jaehyun tell me baby are you a robot because you’re good at everything

and he was shy but he was like no im real here ill prove it,,,,,,he kissed you and u were like ur right robots can’t do that with their tong-

jaehyun: AnYWAY

you once stayed at his dorm for a date and when jaehyun picked beauty and the beast you kinda teased him a bit ,,, but also ended up cuddled up together crying about the beast’s backstory

and then making out for like an hour because it’s hard not to when jaehyun just wears sweats ,,,,,,and your shirt is really loose,,,,,,,,, and jaehyun is good at kissing,,,,,,,,,,,,very good,,,,,,,,,,,,, and -

but mark came back pretty early and you guys had to pretend you were just playing cards instead

mark: i didnt know your hair could be so messy playing cards. huh

you and jaehyun sweating like uH,,,,,

you’d managed to sneak into one of his games but unfortunately instead of staying quiet you’d basically yelled for jaehyun to CRUSH the other team and the coach had to chase you out again

but you waited outside of the gym and instead of kissing the trophy and celebrating jaehyun had ran straight outside to you and honestly,,,,,,,,,what could the coach do about that? LOL

jaehyun jokingly challenging you to some basketball but since he wouldn’t let you score you were like fine i wont kiss u for a whole week

and jaehyun basically begged for you to not be mad and u just couldn’t resist

like have you seen jaehyun’s big,,,brown eyes????

you’d caved and just started kissing his face all over and jaehyun just grinning and hold you around the waist and ,,,,,,,,,basically you two being super duper cute

someone complimenting jaehyun’s artwork: you smugly going that’s my boyfriend and yes he’s amazing and did i mention that he’s taken,,,,i love him

jaehyun blushing but also loving the fact that you love him so openly and unapologetically

and wow let me mention this one last time: jaehyun in a basketball uniform but also,,,,,,,,,,jaehyun concentrating hard on a sculpture with a low cut shirt and big hands covered in clay,,,,,,,,like ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,yall

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Just Friends ~ Goodbye (part 67)

Harper White is best friends with Luke Hemmings, they always have been. Not only is she friends with the rockstar, but with the rest of 5 Seconds Of Summer, as well as a really nice girl named Erika.

Harper has a few secrets, she can play all the instruments the boys play and many more. It’s a talent she has kept hidden, only very few people know.

What will happen to the six teens, wondering around the world together?

***

Harper’s P.O.V.

Slamming my car door closed, and locking it, holding my hoodie close to me as it’s raining and really windy. A storm is brewing in the sky, a few leaves floating around, the sky a dark shade of grey, and water flowing down the road.

I’m at Michael’s house to say goodbye to everyone, my flight leaves in a few hours, and I didn’t want to say goodbye through text.

I haven’t really spoken to Luke since what happened the other day, we texted a little last night, and that’s it.

We didn’t kiss, we nearly did, but then I came back to reality and realized what we were about to do, then I jumped away from him, running my hand over my face, and thought about what just happened. Luke had the same reaction as me, eyes wide, not knowing what we were doing.

We talked for a little before Luke got a text from his mum, and I’ve never been more greatful for her.

Neither of us brought up what happened last night, but we didn’t seem rocky, we just joked around and asked what each other are doing. So from what I can tell, we’re on good terms.

Knocking on the door, I watch the sky as I wait for someone to open up.

“My favourite person!” Michael exclaims as he opens the door.

“My favourite person also!” I smile at him and give him a short, half assed hug.

“Your enthusiasm is overwhelming.”

“It’s early, I’m cold, and a little wet, cry me a river.” I reply and head up the stairs.

“It’s 11:30.” He deadpans.

“I didn’t get much sleep.” I tell him and walk into Michael’s room.

“Hi.” Maddie and Erika speak in unison.

“Hey.” Calum waves as I sit down next to Cal on Michael’s bed.

“It’s just Luke and Ash to come now.” Michael breathes as he walks in, sitting down on his desk chair.

“Who came first?” I ask.

“Maddie and Erika.”

“When’s the wedding?” Calum questions.

“We haven’t really set a date, we’ve done some planning and stuff, but I think we’re going to wait a while.” Maddie answers.

“Fair enough?” He nods.

“When do you think you’ll have it?” Michael questions.

“Uh in like 2 years or something.” Erika says, and Maddie intertwined their hands.

“Need me a partner like that.” I say.

“You’ve got one.” Calum smirks and I glare at him.

“No I don’t.”

“I can be him.” Michael saves me.

“Eat shit, Hood.” I flip him off.

“Eat shit, Hood.” He imitates my voice.

“I hate you.” I pout.

“Cool story.” He responds and I roll my eyes, looking out the window, watching the droplets race each other. Seeing cars go by every now and then, water splashing the pavement as they go by. I would hate to be walking, I almost did, but then I became lazy and took the car, but I took the right choice by the looks of it.

“You look like you’re in a sad music video.” A voice interrupts my daydream. Turning to my left I see Luke and Ashton, well Ashton is talking to Michael, and Luke’s paying attention to me.

“Hey.” I greet.

“What’s on your mind?” He questions, sitting next to me.

“Nothing.” I shake my head.

“You sure?”

“Yeah? What makes you think I’ve got something going on?” I look up at him.

“You just were zoned out for a while, and it seemed like something was up with you.” Luke explains.

“Well nothing major comes to mind.” I shrug.

“Good.” He purses his lips.

“Anything up with you?”

“Nothing new.” He says and I nod, leaning my head back the wall.

“You’re so short.” Luke comments after a while.

“What? No I’m not.” I defend myself.

“Harper, your legs just about reach the end of the bed.”

“It’s a big bed.” I reply. “Well you’re so big.”

“You know it.” He winks at me and I roll my eyes.

“I’m not short, I’m 5"5, and that’s one inch taller than the average.”

“You’re still short.”

“No I’m not.” I claim.

“Look at these cute little short arms.” He teases and picks my arm up.

“Mean.” I huff.

“Yeah but your my little shorty.” He tells me and I look at him unamused.

“You’re so annoying.” I groan and push his arm.

“Yeah but you’ll miss it when you’re gone.” He sends me a smug smile.

“Maybe, maybe not, depends if you send me memes or not.”

“Like salt bae??”

“No, good memes.”

“Did you just disrespect him?” Luke questions holding a hand to his heart and I nod. “Have you seen the way he handles that meat? Have you seen how he sprinkles salt?”

“Yeah, and it’s dry, it was funny for a few days.”

“Have you seen salt bae?” He shakes my shoulders and I laugh.

“Really? Right in front of my salad?” I question and he facepalms.

“When you pieces of trash are finished, I’m gonna go wave a metal pole outside.” Maddie grabs are attention.

“What?” We both question.

“You talking about memes was doing my head in.” She explains.

“Maddie please, this is a private conversation.” I hold my hand up to her. “So moral of the story, only send me good memes, if at all.”

“Fucking bitch.” She mutters and as soon as she finishes the power goes off.

“If I could see you right now, I would hit you.” I reply. You can still see a little bit, but because it’s so cloudy it makes everything really dark, plus Michael has part of his curtain closed.

“Is anyone scared of storms?” Calum asks.

“No.” We all say.

“I hope my flight isn’t delayed.” I sigh.

“You could always drive.” Erika speaks.

“Yes Erika, I’m going to drive all the way from Sydney to Sheffield.” I sarcastically reply.

“I swear there hasn’t been a storm in ages.” Ashton points out.

“Yeah.” I agree.

“Maybe because you haven’t been in Australia?” Erika informs.

“And it’s just turning summer.” Maddie adds.

“Geez you guys are moody today.” Luke comments.

“Rule number one, don’t point it out.” I inform him. “You should know this.”

“What?” He raises an eyebrow.

“We’re on our period.”

“At the same time?” Ashton asks.

“Yeah, it’s called syncing up.” Maddie explains,

“Are you on your period?” Calum asks me.

“No.”

“Then h-”

“You don’t choose to sync up, it’s just natural.” I explain.

“This is gross.” Michael shudders.

“It’s just nature.” I tell him.

“I still get nightmares from when you were on yours.” Luke jokes.

“What do you mean were? I still get it.”

“Whatever, but you used to snap at me all the time, get me to get you food, and I didn’t even get anything out of it.”

“I gave you my love!” I pout.

“For what I did, I think I deserved more.“

“Rude.” I huff.

“What do we do now?” Michael asks.

“Uh, I don’t know.” Calum shrugs.

Helpful.

“We could go out or something.” Ashton suggests.

“Where?” Luke asks.

“Your guys’ houses might have power.” Michael suggests.

“I’ll text my mum.” I announce and pull my phone out.

“What’s your background?” Erika questions.

“Hayley Williams.” I show her.

“Oh my God, same.” She laughs and shows her one to me.

“What? Why don’t you have one of me?” Maddie asks.

“Sorry, babe, but Hayley is my one and only.”

“Same.” I raise my hand.

“My one is of you.” Maddie huffs and folds her arms.

I carry on with my task of texting my mum, and leaning my head on Luke’s shoulder as I wait do her to reply, listening to the harsh patter of rain on the windows, lighting lighting up the room every now and then, and thunder rumbling around.

“My house has power.” I tell everyone.

“I don’t really know what we’re gonna do at your house that we can’t do here, but hey.” Erika shrugs and gets up.

“There’s a difference, believe me.” Luke says and gets up. I whine and put my hand out for him to help me up, Luke rolls his eyes but takes my hand anyway and helps me up.

We all walk downstairs and I put the hood of my hoodie up as we’re by the door. “I’m so not ready for this.” Maddie mumbles rubbing her hands together.

“Who’s car are we taking?” Calum questions.

“Well we gotta take my car, let’s just split.” I explain.

“Can I drive?” Erika pipes up.

“You don’t have a car here.” Ashton points out the obvious.

“But I can drive your car.” She gives him puppy dog eyes.

“Why? Can’t you just be a passenger?” He asks.

“Please Ashton, I haven’t driven in ages, I’ll clean it for you at some point.” She bribes.

My phone starts to make a noise and everyone looks at me, pulling my phone out I see I have a facetime call with Blake.

“I’m going in my car whilst you figure this out.” I mumble and open the door, my converse stepping in many puddles on the way.

Unlocking my car, as I get closer, and open the door, left in out a sigh of relief once I’m safe out of the rain.

“Hey.” I say as I answer it.

“Hey, are you busy?” He questions, not looking at me.

“Not really, just waiting for my friends and stuff.” I answer.

“Cool, when you coming home?” He asks, looking at me.

“Well my flight is tonight, but there is a huge storm going on, so it might be delayed.”

“But you’re planning on coming home tonight.” He asks for confirmation.

“Yeah, should, why?”

“I was just checking because I didn’t know when you were coming home.” He tells me and I readjust my phone.

“Alright, do you want to meet up when I get back.” I question as I watch the others rush out the door, Calum and Luke doing a quick jog.

“Yeah sure, when are you supposed to get back?” He asks as he does something on his laptop.

Calum opens the passanger side of the door and sits down, Luke following his actions but in the back behind me.

“Late afternoon or something.” I answer as Michael and strangely Ashton enter the car.

“Alright, I think we’re going over to Juliet’s house for the evening.” Blake explains as I begin to pull out of my parking spot. “I can meet you at your house, or you at mine, whatever is easiest.”

“Probably easier if you come to me and then Tori, Izzy, you, and I can all go over at the same time.” I reply, placing my phone in my lap as it’s easier to focus on driving.

“Okay cool, hope you have a safe flight, and I hope it doesn’t get delayed, see you tomorrow.”

“Alright, I’ll text you when I land.”

“Okay, oh any boy troubles?” He smirks.

“Goodbye, Blake.” I sigh with a laugh.

“Bye, speak soon.” He laughs and ends the call.

I plug my phone in so I can put some music on as we’re at a stop sign. “Any song requests?”

“Play some My Chemical Romance.” Michael requests, and I nod putting one of their albums on shuffle.

“Why are you here, Ash?” I question, looking behind me.

“Do you want me to leave? Do you want me to leave so I have to walk in the rain?” He asks.

“No it’s just, you have a car.” I laugh. “Of your own.”

“Erika wanted to drive, and she said she’d clean my car so I said yeah, because I haven’t done it in over a year.”

“Why’d she want to drive? She has her own car.”

“I don’t get it either but I’ve not been a passanger in a while.”

“You were on tour.”

“Your point?”

I roll my eyes, ands put my focus on my driving, spotting Ashton’s car a couple cars in front of us.

After a little while we hit some traffic, and I’m stuck right by the spot where the ‘accident’ occurred.

It’s weird to see how far I’ve come from that place, it was quite a few months ago now, and I’ve made some progress. I still get these little bursts of sadness every now and then, I’ll be in the kitchen making some dinner for myself late at night, when a little cloud comes over my head, while I’m stirring pasta. At first I’m like where the fuck did you come from? But then I start thinking and it gets worse, a little ball builds up in my chest and my stomach feels weird, overall I just feel uncomfortable.

All night I feel like that until I drift off to sleep, then in the morning I feel alright, sometimes it clings on in the morning, but it’s so different to what I was feeling just last month.

Last month I felt like that all day and all night, as well as it being 10x worse.

I don’t know if it’s caused by just one person, everyone I’m around, being away from the bad habits I had back in England, or just being home. Maybe it’s a combination of it all, but I’ve improved, and I hope I can stay like this.

I see the boys thinking the same thing when I look in the mirror. I really need to change this because I don’t want my last day with these guys to be sad.

“Are you guys gonna visit me when I’m in England?” I ask.

“I mean…” Calum trails off and I glare at him.

“I think we should at least try to.” Ashton agrees.

“I said I’d visit you.” Luke speaks up.

“Then it would make sense if we all go.” Michael says.

“When do you get a break?” Calum questions.

“Um nothing until Christmas.” I shrug and move forward as the traffic starts clearing up.

“Why don’t we visit you like next month or something?” Michael suggests.

“How about early December because I’m really busy through out November.” I tell them.

“Yeah that could work.” Luke nods.

“What about the girls?” Calum asks.

“Erika has uni doesn’t she?” I sigh.

“I mean you’re gonna see her in like 3 weeks after, it’s not too big of a deal.” Luke points out.

“I’m still gonna feel bad.”

“You’re coming back?” Ashton questions.

“Yeah, after Christmas.” I confirm as I turn the corner, sliding around a bit because of the wet. “Shit.” I mutter.

“What?” Michael asks.

“Did you not feel that?” Luke and I say in unison.

“What?” He repeats.

“We were sliding around a little.” I tell him as I drive cautiously round the roundabout.

“So we’re definitely going to England in early December?” Ashton asks.

“Pretty sure.” Calum nods.

“Cool.”

“What date?” Luke questions.

“What are you going to be there for?"

"To see you of course.” Michael says confused.

“Yeah but like do you want to party and stuff or just chill? Because my friend Cody and his girlfriend are hosting a party.”

“Could be fun.” Calum replies.

“That’s on the 8th.”

“Why don’t we fly out on like the 4th or 5th?” Michael suggests.

“Cool, I guess we’ll tell you when we book our flight.” Ashton purses his lips.

“By the way, I’ve only got one spare bedroom, so you can fight about who’s getting it.” I inform and pull the hand break up.

***

Putting my leather jacket on as I jog down the stairs, seeing everyone in the lounge, chatting and laughing.

“Hey, are you ready to go?” My dad asks as I walk in the kitchen.

“Uh yeah I think so, I’ve just gotta go say goodbye.” I answer as I look through the cupboard for a snack.

“Okay, you’ve got around 10 minutes, just gotta wait for your brothers to finish packing.” He sighs as I pick out a couple chocolate bars to put in my bag.

“Alright, I’m gonna go say goodbye.” I smile at him and walk out the kitchen and towards the living room, leaning on the door frame.

“Geez you got a stash.” Michael laughs as he sees the chocolate in my hand.

“Shut up.” I chuckle and place them on the table in the hallway.

“Who’s your dealer?” Maddie questions.

“Cadbury.” I joke.

This is so bittersweet.

I know I’m gonna see them soon enough, but it’s still sad.

I hear one of my brothers clunk down the stairs with his suitcase, and once he’s on the bottom floor I see it’s Angus. He pushes my shoulder as he goes past, and I flip him off.

“Looks like it’s time to say goodbye.” I quietly sigh.

“I guess it is.” Erika mumbles and begins to get up.

I wrap my arms around her shoulders briefly before we pull away. “I’ll see you after Christmas.” Erika says.

“Yeah, I promise I’ll call you and stuff all the time.” I promise.

“Bye, I’ll talk to you soon.” She gives me a small smile and walks back to where she was.

“My turn.” Maddie raises her hand and she gives me a short hug.

“How are you gonna cope without me?"

"Easier than it sounds.” She shrugs. “Bye, Harper.”

“Bye, Maddie.” Repeat and she stands next to Erika.

“Now, don’t get too drunk without me, you’re usually my buddy in that.” Calum smirks as he approaches me.

“Yeah, I’ll try not to.” I smile up at him, then wrap my arms around his torso, his follow in suit.

“We’ve got time to catch up on though soon.” Calum replies.

“I am not looking forward to that hangover.” I grimace and he laughs.

“See you soon.” He gives me a smile and stands next to Erika.

“Ashton!” I over exaggerate my tone.

“Harper!” He mocks.

“I can’t wait for you to visit me and critic my life choices.” I tell him.

“You know it.” He chuckles and gives me a hug and we say our goodbyes.

“It’s time.” Michael announces.

“It’s not like I’m dying, Michael.” I inform.

“Well last time you disappeared off the face of the earth.” He points out.

“I promise to speak to you regularly.”

“You better.” He sends me a warning look and I give him a hug and say what I want to say.

“I’m gonna miss you.” Luke mumbles as he stands in front of me.

“I’m gonna miss you too.” I copy his tone.

“But we’ll see each other soon enough.” He reassures and runs his hand down my arm.

“Yeah.” I nod and wrap my arms around his waist.

“Text me or call me when you get home.” He requests, running his hand down my back.

I pull back from him slightly, looking up at him, my eyes slightly filling with tears. “Don’t cry babygirl.” He pouts and wipes away the small tear that is falling.

I briefly look at his lips, and then back at his eyes, then give him one last hug, before we part.

“I love you guys.”

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luccie-eclair · 7 years

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Dear Fellow KPop Fans,

I'm going to go ahead and put this disclaimer here: if what I'm saying doesn't apply to you, then don't worry about it. However, if you know that you've been an absolute ass to other fans and even the idols themselves, then sit on down and let me tell you what you're not about to do to these wonderful, hardworking people or their fanbase.

Therefore, I don't want to hear crap about "Well, not EVERYONE from [x] fandom is like that". Guess what? I'm not talking to you. I'm talking to the bad apples that ruin the name of your fandom when you're just trying to have a good time.

WARNING: I'm about to be hella salty. Don't mind me 🤗

1) These fan wars need to stop. It's pathetic. What are you? 12? No, wait. There are 12 year olds more mature than this. Not only is it unnecessary, but some of things you say to each other is just hurtful. I know we have a freedom of speech, but some of y'all really abuse that. What's sad is that the people doing it will never, and I mean NEVER, have the balls to say it to anyone's face. Do you honestly think that you're cool or funny hiding behind a fake name and fake age? You're not. You're telling everyone who has access to the internet "Hey, guys! I'm an ass who doesn't deserve friends because I treat people like shit! Make sure you block me!" You, yes you, have created a bad name for your fandom. So if you're ever wondering why someone says "Oh, ONCE's are so immature and rude" (that was an example, so chill because I'm a ONCE myself), it's probably because they've had to deal with jerks like you. Congrats. You played yourself. Oh! And chances are, the group whose fans you're being rude to is probably friends with your bias group. If they can be cordial and polite with drama, so can you. Grow up.

2) This whole "[x group] can't sing" argument has got to go. It's a weak argument and no one is falling for it anymore. Just to let you know, and anyone who was previously a trainee can confirm or deny this, you have to have some kind of talent in singing to even BECOME a trainee!??! Meaning! They have to stand out above the crowd. There is something about their voice that sets them apart for that company to even consider taking them under their wings. Even then, you probably have still have to go through another 2 auditions to be a trainee. If it's that hard to be a trainee, then think about how hard it is to get into a debuting group. Just think. Got an idea? Okay, now take that "can't sing" argument and throw in the trash. "Oh, but they lip sync", you mean like most musicians?!?!? In case you haven't noticed, not EVERYONE is built to be able to sing perfectly and still master dancing and being out of breathe. Sorry, honey, but even Queen Beyonce (while doing very well) doesn't get every single note correct while dancing under hot ass lights and running low on breathe. Doesn't mean she's less of a performer.

3) These rating members lists, "[x] idol is too fat despite being at a considerably healthy", "[x] idol (normally male) looks like a child", and "[x] idol (female with short hair) is too manly" also needs to go. Actually, insulting these idols as if they aren't people, as if they don't have emotions, as if they're supposed to just brush it off despite it being hurtful. NEEDS. TO. STOP. These people work their asses off all the time, sometimes having to stay up for over 48 hours to finish their long schedule with few breaks. You can rent a movie theatre and take several seats. You sit there and call yourself a fan and yet bash them???? Excuse me???? Don't even get me started on the ones that PAY MONEY to go to their fansignings and yet treat them like dirt, demand shit, hit them, and throw things at them. That is a new form of low.

4) PERSONAL SPACE!!!! Why does anyone even need to say that?!?!?! It's one thing if you calmly walk up to an idol (Bow first, please. They are Korean, Japanese, Chinese, etc. Respect is a big thing) "Hello, my name is [x]. I like your work. Can I trouble you for a photo or autograph?" If they say they're busy, bow and say thanks for letting you meet them. If they consent, finish up, bow, say thanks, and leave. DO NOT: crowd them to the point where they can't breathe or move, grab or touch them (believe it or not, you're a stranger to them), start flashing pictures and recording them, or screaming in their ears. AND: if they ask for you to leave them alone and let them be on their way, step off! You can argue "Well, they're celebrities. What do they expect?" THEY expect to be treated like people??????? Not animals???????? I'm confused with the logic. Because someone is famous, they no longer have basic human rights anymore? Is that what you're saying? That they're objects meant only for entertainment? Because I see a person. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm the crazy one.

5) If you don't like a group, that's okay. There's nothing wrong with that. Everyone is entitled to an opinion whether someone else agrees or not, but it's how you express it. Don't know what I'm talking about? Let's draw a picture (these are purely examples, so chill). Bob doesn't like BTS (again, example), he calmly and politely states that and gives good, legitimate reasons "Their concept doesn't suit them, lacks passion, the choreography isn't great, etc". Okay, Bob, while I don't agree with you, I see what you're saying and thanks for being respectful. Meanwhile, Jane doesn't like BTS and decides to go in the BTS tags on Tumblr to bash them and their fans, posts nasty comments on their videos, and even goes as far posting rude stuff on their V-Lives. This is obsession and this is not okay. There's disagreeing and there's being a jerk. Bottom line: Don't be Jane.

6) Who an idol dates is none of our business. They're their own person. They are consenting adults. Leave them alone. I'm sorry to crush your dreams, but they don't know you. Realistically, your chances of scoring a date with your idol is very low. I'm sorry, but that's life. You will find someone else. I promise. I'll even help you, but leave these people alone.

7) Example: Umji from Gfriend decides to do a stream with just her and Sowon. Please don't come on their stream and proceed state that you'd rather see SinB or Eunha. That is so rude and I can only imagine how they feel. It's called being empathetic i.e putting yourself in someone else's position and understanding their plight. We should all try it sometime.

8) This isn't a don't per se... eh, whatever. It's kind of irking when groups are compared to one another. Like, they may have similar concepts, but the size is different, the members are different so everyone has a different voice, the overall sound is different. I just don't find it... fair to compare them, but that's life, so I won't worry about it too much. Disregard!

I know that I probably missed a few more, but the bottom line is be a decent fucking person. It really isn't hard. You know phrase "do unto others"? Try it. It will get you far. Trust me, I know posting about this is pointless given that every fandom on this website is pure cancer because of a few bad eggs. But there comes a time when you just need to speak up against it. I'm kind of new to the Kpop scene and I'm already sick of a lot of these people. Also, if you see someone from your fandom being an ass, please say something because this behavior is not okay.

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ceruleansiren · 6 years

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Just a Survey.

1. What is something you like to think about while you fall asleep? I usually think about some story I wish I was talented enough to write, or the ideal version of me in some interesting situations.

2. What was the overall tone of your last phone conversation? Uh, I don’t remember it so I’m assuming either happy or neutral.

3. Is there anyone that you are drifting away from? When was the last time you talked to that person? Not really. I keep most people at arms length, so.

4. Can you describe what love feels like, physically? It just feels like your body and mind are happy and alive. You’re content, safe, and warm.

5. What is something that survey-takers do that gets on your nerves? I don’t take these nearly as much as I used to but it annoys me when someone ignores/misses an important part of the question. I’m sure I’ve done this too, though. Then again, I’ve never said I’m not a hypocrite haha

6. Have you ever asked anyone what they really think of you? What was their response? No and I don’t want to know because I know it’d hurt my feelings haha.

7. Is there anything or anyone that you have an obsession with? If yes, when/how did it start? Nothing comes to mind.

8. How often do you use ketchup? How about other condiments? I guess I use it maybe once a week max? Currently I’m really into buffalo sauce. I find reasons to use it weekly haha.

9. If you are afraid of the dark, what makes it scary to you? I’ve never been afraid of the dark. Afraid of the Dark used to be one of my absolute fave shows as a kid though haha.

10. Have you ever had anyone make fun of your for a fear you have? Yeah. I absolutely hateeee bees, wasps, hornets, and anything that sounds like one. I know bees are great for the environment but you can bet your sweet ass I will run and scream like a lil bitch if one gets anywhere close to me. If I hear that buzzing sound my hair stands on end and I reflexively like, withdraw into myself. I don’t have control over that and for some reason some family members of mine who don’t give a fuck about bees and the like think I’m exaggerating and poke fun at me. It makes me mad because I think they think I’m doing it for attention. -_- yeah by all means I LOVE looking like an absolute idiot in public when I’m running away from a tiny insect.

11. What is the worst trouble you have ever been in? I got pulled over for expired tags once, but in my defense my dad was supposed to be keeping track of that at the time.

12. How long do you spend brushing your teeth? Does it bother you when other people don’t brush their teeth? Maybe a min or so. And I don’t care what other people do with their teeth if I’m not kissing them or up in their space.

13. Who do you trust more: your parents or your friends? It depends what with.

14. If you woke up to discover that you were 9 years old again (back in your same 9-year-old life, but with your current mental abilities), how would you react, and how would you spend your time? Oh god I would be so sad and frustrated. But then again I’d have a second chance to do everything over again, so that would be exciting. But man can you imagine knowing so much a 9 year old shouldn’t? Maybe I’d end up going insane haha.

15. How long do you think you could tolerate going without showering? Since I got Lila I shower about 3 times a week and that's only because my hair starts looking shitty. I could last a long time if I didn’t have to see people haha.

16. If you had the power to control minds, what would you do with it? I’d make rich people give me $$ probably.

17. What is so great about your favorite place? It’s comfortable and my mind gets to shut off.

18. How long did you spend cuddling with the last person you cuddled with? I cuddle with my dog a bunch...person wise, idr who that even was at this point.

19. What is a question that you have a hard time answering? It’s not necessarily the question, but who’s asking it.

20. You are completely alone with your favorite celebrity/person/whoever. What do you do? Assuming full consent is involved I doubt I need to go into detail haha.

21. Do you consider anyone you know to be a slut? What do you think makes someone a slut? Nah.

22. If you had the power to instantly transform someone’s life (for the better), who would you choose to use this on? Me? haha.

23. You wake up to a ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE. Your family is safe, but most of your city is zombified. You need weapons and various other supplies. What is your first general course of action? The first thing I’d do is probably cry. But after that I’d just grab a backpack or something and get anything useful in my immediate area.

24. If a family member (or boyfriend/girlfriend, if you have one) happened to be infected by one of these undead creatures, how would you go about dealing with that situation? I'd just get as far away from them as possible because I’d rather pretend they were fine.

25. Would you rather spend time with Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy, or Edward Cullen and Jacob Black? What would you do while with them? Obvi Harry and Draco. And I’d just ask about a million questions, maybe ask to see some D. Idk man.

26. What is something that you do that others might think that you are weird for doing? Basically anything my anxiety drives me to do. Taking pictures of my car after I leave it so I can reaffirm later that it’s locked, the lights aren’t on, and that the windows are closed. If my car isn’t close by and I don’t take a picture I have to go visit it and make sure it’s all good. I realize this is insane but I can’t chill unless I know my car is good...

27. If you could relive a part of your life in exactly the way it happened, what part would it be? What importance does this event have to you? I would love to just relive my first year at college. I was so happy and had such a great time. This was also the beginning of the end for me in so many ways though. But I didn’t know that at the time so I just had an awesome fucking time.

28. What is something that you wish you could remember? That feeling I had most of my first year of college. That was happiness and confidence I can scarcely remember now.

29. Does it bother you when surveys ask about political or cultural topics that could possibly be controversial? Nope. I love to elaborate.

30. Does someone’s view on homosexuality effect how you feel about them in any way? Absolutely. If you seriously have an issue with anyone’s sexuality at this point...bye.

31. How about someone’s view on religion? People can believe what ever they want as long as it doesn’t harm others.

32. What is something you do (if anything) that you could get in trouble for if you were caught? Nothing major comes to mind.

33. When you cry or laugh uncontrollably, does it sound strange/funny? Yep.

34. If you were paralyzed from the neck down, would you still want to continue living? Why or why not? It’s easy for me to sit here and say no because that isn’t my reality. But if I was truly faced with that situation I’d have a hard time just...not living anymore. I think I’d still find joy in life even if it was totally different than now...Then again, who knows. I don’t want to find out.

35. What are your general thoughts on suicide? Mental illness is a bitch and I wish more people could get the help they deserve without having to ask for it. Like, just the right kind of help would fall into their laps. I have many thoughts on this but I don’t want to talk about it.

36. Have you ever known anyone with an eating disorder? I’ve known of people...

37. Has any medication you’ve taken ever made you sick? How so? Any time I’ve taken antibiotics of any kind they make me poo. You’re welcome.

38. What is something you wear that others might consider unfashionable? Pff, basically everything I wear.

39. Do you tend to make rude comments about the way people look/dress, or about what stereotype they might belong to? I have in the past. Now I usually just keep those thoughts to myself because they serve no purpose.

40. Do you think the type of shoes you wear says anything about your personality? Maybe for some people.

#survey xanga

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