The queen, Keke herself, interviewed Yasmin Benoit on her new podcast! Yasmin is an asexual activist that has achieved so much and won many LGBTQIA+ awards.
Yasmin is an amazing aspec leader and I’m so glad so many more people will learn about asexuality through this interview! So thankful that KeKe and her team chose to bring up asexuality as one of their first topics for their new podcast. I rarely feel represented so it makes me very happy💜💜💜
….unfortunately I can’t give a review because I don’t have Amazon music, but I will figure out a way! Link is below!!⬇️
The thing about the song 'Never Been in Love' by Will Jay is that it doesn't matter that he had actually been in love while he sang it. I literally don't care. The reason I adore that song is because he sings about it so joyfullly.
Even in the aro community, when people say they've never been in love, it's said with a neutral tone at best, and it's usually accompanied by a mountain of reassurances. "I've never been in love, but I can still be happy, my life still has meaning, in still normal." Never being in love is not thought of as a good thing. It doesn't necessarily make you bad, but it will cause you pain.
Will Jay doesn't do that. The song is just "I've never been in love, and I am having a great time! Woo hoo let's go!!!"
The song isn't about reassurance, it's about celebrating. It's about pride.
Its been years since I've written something here or there, it's been years since I let myself feel free and open to someone's care, its been incredibly difficult accepting I may never be in love.
I never cared for romantic love as long as I had my friends, but the older I grow, I realize as the days go by that my mom is right, I'll need someone, eventually. I'll need someone to grow with, to build something with, to be around while I'm miles away from the rest of the only people who truly love me. Someone who cares for me when I'm rational, when I'm losing my marbles, when I'm feeling humorous and when I'm happy.
But I'm scared, as I've always been. Cause in all these years I've never found an ounce of proof of whether I'm lovable or not. I've never been someone's interest or focus, I've never felt the way my friends describe when they meet someone they connect with. I've never been close to being in love, and I'm scared if it didn't happen by now, it wont happen anymore.
But I'm not scared for me, I'm scared for the looks. For the questions. For having to say that it wasn't by choice, but because I've never been special enough. Because I've never been picked or dabbled with either.
I love the idea of love, I just don't think it loves me.
I’m back to the period of time where I ache to be loved romantically. It only happens in small spurts of heart beats, but it still happens. Am I so unlovable that I have to crave romance in my own isolation?
I always knew I would be a late bloomer but I'm in my early twenties with no romantic love experience, yes there's that whole "it comes when it comes" shit but here I am still a fangirl with no dating experience. It doesn't help being extremely introverted growing up and lacking confidence, bitch I'm a lot prettier and outgoing now but then the covid thing happened and stole 2 years of possibly meeting someone in college from me. I know I can pull any desperate dude off of a dating app to get my first kiss over with but that just kills the idea of romance that was plugged in my head growing up.
Parasocial relationships, living with my parents bc im unemployed and wondering if dating will ever be a thing for me. I've never admitted I had a crush on someone, were my crushes unrequited loves or were they just hyperfixations? What's it like to make someone have butterflies in their stomach, smile thinking of you, and be THEIR ideal type? I literally can't find anyone attractive anymore after becoming a more dedicated Carat, and it pisses me off bc the whole I don't even know what these guys are really like and it could be a whole fabricated PR persona
Has anyone ever even had romantic thoughts about me that weren’t creepy catcallers? really hope the universe has something in store for me because this shit fucking sucks. Are some people just meant to be alone?
(It’s another tiktok that I wanted to show but I can’t find it)
But this really hit home because never getting to experience the “young love” in middle school and high school then fast forward to college and the real world and having yet to get approached/ desired it can be very….. upsetting, especially when you’re a hopeless romantic and love the idea of love yet never getting to experience it so you think to yourself “ok maybe this is a sign that I don’t need to worry about that and instead think about my future” which I CONSTANTLY DO NONSTOP and then on top of that not wanting to look desperate to find love so you keep it to yourself but you would highly enjoy knowing what it feels like
And having everyone around me be in relationships talking about going on dates and anniversaries etc, it makes me think if it’s something wrong with me
Actions may speak louder than words
But I’ve never learned how to speak properly, so I can only pray, my darling that my words can show you all of what I can’t do.