#commitment is scary especially when it ends with trauma

[tac-the-unseen]

Simon 'Ghost' Riley Sfw alphabet

CW: mentions of torture and trauma

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Simon is a man who was tortured for 2 years straight. He finds it extremely hard to be affectionate, especially when his torturers try and find the important people to him so they can kill them.

He trys but just know that the lack of affection doesn't mean their isn't any affection. Simon loves you and that's why he's distant. That's the way he shows you he cares.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

If you weren't in 141 he would have never tolerated you. He wouldn't even have acknowledged you.

While in the task force everyone became trauma bonded to each other. It's messy but it worked for everyone.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He loves cuddling but he can't admit it. He craves physical affection but is terrified by it. It's hard for him to allow himself to be touched, but when he does He goes feral over kisses and hugs.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

The military has conditioned this man to be clean and tidy, He is never messy or unkepted. He has no problem cleaning your space as well as his own, and he can cook but prefer not too.

With the settling down part...he will have a really hard time integrating back into society. His a war criminal and coming back home after being in constant life or death is not easy. You might have to convince him so go to a military/veteran's shelter to try and make the transition better.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

It's a cold ending. If he has to end the relationship he will distant himself emotionally before doing so. It's honestly brutal...

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

If he gets to the point where he's thinking about marriage he's as good as yours. But to get to that point it's a long and slow ride. It will take a few years to get him to actually propose but he'll be think about it for all these years.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

He's extremely gentle with you, just not at frist. It will take a few months but eventually he'll treat you like a newborn kitten rather then a cold blooded soldier.

Emotionally he'll try his best to let you in but you have to be gentle with him frist. If you let him in first he'll let you in.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

He loves them, he just won't say it. Simon is always touching you in some way. Holding hands, Arm around you, brushing up against you. He loves it. He turns it down in public but you bet your ass he's as close as he can be.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Takes him a good long while to say it but will show you he cares instead. He gives you gifts and does acts of service. You now have many little wood carvings and knives.

But When he does finally come around to saying the L word he can't stop saying it. Everything will start or end with an 'I love you'.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Very jealous guy. He has a fear of you leaving him or you having to leaving him. He will do anything he can to not let that happen, so he tends to be a bit grumpy around other guys.

When walking around town or at a bar he stands right behind you you whole time. He's you big scary dog and he loves it.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

His kisses are actually pretty soft and gentle yet extremely passionate. He takes his time and savors the kiss.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He's decent around children but he's not a fan. He can handle them for a few hours but not a full day.

He doesn't want kids of his own but if you do you might be able to convince him. He just prefer peace and quiet and your company

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

He usually wakes up first and just watches you sleep. When you guys frist started sleeping in the same bed he just watched you all night.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

His anxiety was through the roof. Not only from the gentle Intimacy but from his deep fear that someone wants to hurt you to hurt him. Eventually he'll start sleeping soundly with you in his arms.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

He'll open up about small things after a few months but the deeper stuff will come by later in the relationship.

It will take him months to take off his mask infront of you. And even then it's no fully, it's just up to his nose and nothing more. This is him testing the waters. It's best of you Don't say any good and especially bad. Say nothing and eventually you'll see his whole face.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

He's one of the most patient lovers. He might act mad but he actually isn't. If he knows you're trying and learning he'll be 1000x more patient.

If you need time opening up about something just take your time. He can wait as long as you need. But I'll have you note that this Patience is only for you. No one else gets to make mistakes around him.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers everything. Every detail, every date, every interest, every story, every step. He's an extremely observant man, he has to be. Simon makes notes of everything you do and say.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

It's actually really simple. You were watching some T.V show while he laid on your stomach. You just ran your fingers through his hair gently in silence. It was very calm and peace and he had no bad thoughts or weights holding him down. He just laid on you and wondered if this is what his life could be. If everything went smoothly from that point on, would it also be like this? Would it always be so peaceful? He's never felt more connected to you.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He's extremely protective, He physically and emotionally can't not be. Be tortured for two year straight and then some is terrifying. And knowing these people are targeting his support system/loved ones makes him 100x more aggressive about safety. Anytime your in public he feels like he has to come with you. Even for small walks or getting the mail. He feels like the moment he looks away you'll be taken.

He forces himself to accompany you when outside. It's fills him with pride when others start to associate you with him. Like I said, scary dog privileges.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He definitely makes an effort when it comes to date or gifts. Out of 10 I'd say 7/10. He wants you to know he loves you without doing anything to big or to out there.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He's aggressively protective of you. This has caused him to get into fights that could have been avoided. He won't let people approach you unless you told him able someone's presents before hand.

Simon forces himself to go without food for days at a time. And yes, it is a habit. He doesn't even know he's starving himself until he finally eats again.

Locks himself away when have a PTSD episode. He gets very violent and tends to hurt people. He has only ever once hit you and it was during an episode you did even know he was having. Ever since he refuses to allow you near him when he's suffering. And because his last therapist was murdered he refuses to see another one ever again.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Not at all. He makes sure his mask is on and that's about it. If his mask is off however....it's best not to say anything.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yes, absolutely. He hates not knowing if you're okay or in danger. If and when he or you has to leave for work he has a panic attack. He can't handle not being there to protect or aid you.

It even worse when you're apart for long periods of time. His reaction doesn't stop at mentality. He develops aches and tremors and they get more aggressive the longer you're away. His body can't handle the level of distress he's in that he shuts down.

When you guys come back together he doesn't let go of you. Touching, smelling, seeing, and hearing you is healing. He is firm on the belief that you are the best medicine.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

When he started get serious with you Simon went out and bought some nice expensive cologne. He made sure he knew what kind of smells you like and went off of that. When he found one he liked and thought you would too he bought it. When he wore it he didn't say anything. But when you comment on it he internally freaks out.

If you liked it he went out and bought two more. If you didn't he went back to the drawing board. This is his way of letting you silently know he loves you.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Some one clingy. Wanting to spend time with him is one thing, Never giving him space is another. And this is extremely important in the early stages of your relationship.

If he feels like he can't step away from you he'll run instead.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

...Simon rarly sleeps...and I mean it! Two year of torture is a long time. Sleeping is vulnerable, the ability to sleep and feel safe is a wild concept to him. He won't sleep until his body forcefully put him to sleep. This will take awhile as the PTSD Extends this limit.

If you insist he'll go to bed with you, but he'll be up all night just watching over you. If he can't feel safe he'll make sure you are.

#simon ghost riley #ghost cod #simon riley x reader #simon riley x you #sfw alphabet #cod mw2 #cod #mw2

[bobtheacorn]

I say this with nothing but love in my heart for Usagi but Tomoe, girl, respectfully, I need u need to stop making moon eyes at him. He’s a homeless vagrant with no prospects and trauma he refuses to acknowledge or unpack! Set the bar a little higher, babe, I am begging u

#usagi yojimbo #Usagi committed to one thing in his entire life which was lord Mifune and then he had to cut off that man’s head and bury it in the woods #after that he just half-asses Everything #god love him #I mean I GET IT #commitment is scary especially when it ends with trauma #it’s so much easier to wander around and pretend you don’t have any problems by sticking your nose in everyone else’s business #but for real #I am like standing on the porch with the water hose and turning it on whenever tomoe is in his vicinity #girl please u don’t want him #u can do better #he needs a therapist and for girls to stop kissing him #why does he have that feral stray cat appeal

[anabdaniels]

Agent Whiskey's SFW alphabet.

Rating: Teen and up audiences. | Masterlist

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Despite the rough exterior, Jack is a sweetheart. Once he’s in love with you, you’ll know it. He’ll be casually holding your hand or hugging you randomly in the middle of the day without an apparent reason, but it’s just him trying to let you know you mean a lot to him. He’ll also make the breakfast any chance he gets or buy you something you randomly mentioned you wanted just to see you smiling.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Wouldn’t be so surprising if Jack ended up being your friend after the two of you got drunk in the bar. He’s not exactly the kind of friend that would plan a giant surprise birthday party for you, but he’d gladly spend your whole birthday doing anything you want, even if it could be sitting in a park and watching the pigeons walking around. Also, if you’re going through tough times and need a friend that will give you a drink and patiently listen to you complaining about whatever, this is him.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle?)

Showing affection through physical contact is for sure something he likes, so, of course, he loves to cuddle. Jack will happily cuddle with you all day long.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

The only thing he planned in his life is that someday he will retire from Statesman and move to his ranch with his significant person. Jack just wears the womanizer disguise because the idea of getting attached to someone again is scary sometimes, but he would love to just get happily married. And the one who married him will be very lucky; he loves to cook and will make a wonderful meal every chance he gets. Housekeeping in general isn’t a problem when you live with him, he was raised to be a functional grown up and his dear mother made sure to teach him how to clean a house, do the laundry, make the grocery list, and all those things that are necessary to keep a house working well.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Jack hopes that once he’s in a relationship, it will end up in marriage, he’s not the kind of person who enters into a relationship with no intention to take another step. So, if he needs to break up, whatever the reason is, he will try to sit with the other person and explain his reasons to choose to end things and will listen to what the other one had to say.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quickly would they want to get married?)

Jack is a commitment man; everything about it sounds great to him. Since he’s no longer a teenager finding out what he expects from a relationship, he doesn’t need much time to know he wants to take the next step. If your non-negotiable requirements of a relationship are aligned and he’s sure he loves you, he will gladly get married to you. Is not about the time, is about how much you two are compatible.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Despite spending years killing people in cold blood, Jack is really sweet when it comes to his significant one. He will listen to you with full attention, especially if you’re sharing a delicate subject with him; he’ll try his best to understand any fear or trauma you can have and will make sure to ask you how you expect and want him to help you when you went through a bad moment or a cry that seems to come out of nowhere. Physically is pretty much the same. Once he notices that some specific caress pleases you, he will occasionally be repeating it. Jack is more than satisfied letting you sleep on his shoulder or just caress your back while you’re nestled in his lap.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it?)

Jack Daniels will hug you every damn time he leaves to work and get back home. You’re standing in the kitchen making a sandwich? He will causally hug you from behind. He came back from work and you’re taking a nap in your shared bed? He will hold you with all the caution of this world and will just watch you sleep or will fall asleep too.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Jack isn’t too focused on saying out loud he loves you, he’s more inclined to demonstrate it through the way he takes care of you, but he knows that is important to vocalize it sometimes. It took him a while to say it and once he did it, it didn’t become such a current thing. He will say that he loves you when you’re going through some rough time, and he will occasionally say he loves you when he’s about to fall asleep but don’t expect him to say it a lot of times along the day.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Like a bag full of bags, Jack Daniels is full of himself. He knows that if you are with him is because you love him and want to be with him. If he catches someone admiring you, he’ll just be prouder for having such a gorgeous partner.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Depending on the context, his kisses can be tender and slow or needy and rough. He loves to spread kisses all over your face while you’re lying on his chest and will be planting a kiss on the dorsum of your hand any chance he gets. He’ll feel like the luckiest man on this earth any time you kiss him, no matter where, but if he had to choose, his choices would be the random soft kisses you give on his cheeks anytime you get excited with something or the lazy kisses you plant on his neck when you’re waking up or about to fall asleep.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Jack is the ultimate babysitter. If a child of any age came towards him speaking excitedly about a thing they like, he’ll not only just listen to it with all his attention, but will encourage them to tell more and will go into a deep conversation about some random character from Winnie The Pooh as if his life depends on it. Speaking about his children, when he was thirty, he may have considered the idea, but being in his forties he just wants a quiet life without having to be running around the house to avoid a baby to eat the dog’s food or put a fork in the socket. He will gladly look after his nephews for a weekend, and on Monday, he will be surer that a couple of days with a toddler is all his back and energy can handle.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

If it is a working day, he’ll enjoy breakfast with you and give you a long tender kiss before you got apart. If the two of you are standing home, he’ll keep you in bed as long as he can and most of the time will be just to have you lying on his chest while he caresses your hair.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

It can variate much. He can take you out for dinner, he can cook the dinner, you two can just lie on the couch and watch something, you can just cuddle a lot ‘till both of you fall asleep. Occasionally amidst these things you have sex, but sometimes both of you are fine with just having a good dinner and cuddling till fall asleep.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Jack will take his time to talk about his open wounds. Once he trusts you and knows you’re the one he wants for the rest of his days, he will talk about the things that haunt him. Probably not all at once, he will take time to let you know everything about what hurts him, but once he does it, you’ll be more than welcome to ask about it and he will be really happy to have you listening about all that.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

When it comes to his beloved sweetheart, Jack’s patience is infinite. If ever happen of things turn wild in the middle of a discussion, he will take a few minutes to calm down and put himself together, more because he’s afraid to say something stupid that will end up hurting you, but he’s not mad at you, maybe he’s pissed off with the situation, but never with you.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers the important details. Jack can list all your favorite things in any field, can recite your grandparents’ full names, and can mention all your favorite foods in the blink of an eye. But when it comes to dates, don’t expect him to remember more than the day he proposed to you and the day you got married. Dates aren’t really his thing.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Undoubtedly is the day when he risked it all asking you if you’d marry him and you said yes.

S = Security (How protective are they?)

Jack is really protective over you. He will follow the sidewalk rule with his life; if someone acts mean towards you and he knows that is more than you can handle to defend yourself, he will lose his shit putting anyone that tries to hurt his honeybee in their place.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Jack isn’t the kind of man who thinks that is acceptable to do things without effort and care. If he proposes to do anything, it will be done with excellence. His gifts will be very well though; if he’s taking you on a date, you can expect it to be a fancy dinner in a good restaurant or visit some place you mentioned you’d like to go. On your anniversaries, he’ll do anything you want, go for a night in the city or just cuddle while watching a movie, as long as you are happy and he can spend time with you, nothing else matters.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Speaking about trivial things, he will forget to take out his muddy boots almost every time before enters home. When it comes to serious stuff, he will try to pretend that the loss of his wife and baby doesn’t hurt him anymore because he truly believes that ignoring the trauma will make it disappear.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Looking good is a thing he put a bit of effort into, you can say by the well-tailored blazers he wears and the care he has with his outfits, like making sure that his hat match with the rest of the look. But all this turn into nothing when the mustache enters the narrative. He takes all the care he can with his beloved 'stache, making sure it is perfectly groomed every single morning and he will spend how long is necessary to make sure it is perfectly trimmed and symmetrical. You’ll occasionally find him in front of the mirror with his glasses on because he can’t figure out what is out of place in his mustache.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Jack agrees with the idea that you have to be able to feel whole by yourself before getting into a relationship, which doesn’t mean that he didn’t feel like something is missing when he need to stay away from you for too long.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Jack is an old-school gentleman. Even after you got married, he will take off his hat to greet you; You’ll never open a door in his presence; He will pay every bill and is not open to discussing this; Will put his coat over your shoulders at the least suspicion that you’re cold because he knows that you will never say that you are cold. He will do everything he can to make your life easier and happier. Jack is aware that you are self-sufficient and can take care of yourself, but he sees no point in not trying his best to make his significant one’s life more pleasant.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like?)

If you’re not into country life and don’t know the difference between an acid joke and an offense, he’s getting out.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

The most important rule of your household is that you’ll never go to bed with any unsolved question (not surprisingly it was Jack’s idea), so it may happen that you two will have a long talk before sleep. Despite this, there’s nothing so consistent about bedtime, although normally Jack will settle in bed already at the perfect angle for you to cuddle against him and lay your head on his chest. Also is relevant to mention that Jack will not waste an opportunity to sleep naked.

#agent whiskey #agent whiskey fic #agent whiskey x reader #agent whiskey x you #jack daniels #jack whiskey daniels #Kingsman: the golden circle #pedro pascal characters #pedro pascal #pedro pascal fanfiction #pedrostories

[havenmoodz]

Sfw Alphabet! ft. Luke

a/n: Ik I said fluff, but I wanted to do alphabets first! <3

cw! kidnapping, alcoholism, mentions of partying/being under the influence, mentions of death threats (not to you or Luke), mentions of violence, implied trauma, mentions of manipulation, some suggestive stuff but not nsft

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Extremely affectionate. Almost a bit too affectionate. Doesn’t know the concept of personal space, he can’t help it though…he just loves you so much! He loves playing music for you, especially when you’ve had a bad day. Will definitely cling onto you and not leg go if you have to do something. Everyday is a leg day for him, well– if you count him clinging on to your leg every other minute. Why can’t you just do it with him on you? :( Has an amazing voice, so he makes sure to use it when you’re feeling down…or during something else~

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Manicures, shopping, hair makeover’s, did I mention the manicures? Would let you do his makeup wether or not you’re good at it. Definitely has scary dog privileges, would death stare everyone who gets in a 2 metre radius of you. He would literally take you out every other night to go to special events that he was invited to. Wanna party? Sure! You want drinks? Of course~ You’re so tired you can’t even stay awake long enough to get to the car? It’s okay, he’ll carry you! 

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Cuddles? You mean his personal play time to squeeze the everliving daylights out of you? Of course! He often doesn’t realize how hard he squeezes you until you tell him that you could feel your ribcage cracking like glass. He’ll stop immediately, apologizing and opting for you to be the big spoon instead, but it just looks like you’re clinging onto him for dear life. Still adorable though! He loves it when you settle your head in the crook of his neck, it makes him feel close to you. 

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Isn’t really looking into getting married. He’d still do it if you wanted him though! Pretty average at domestic chores, not the sharpest tool in the shed. Can make a mad batch of cookies though. One time he forgot to wear gloves when cleaning with window cleaner and bleach and he lost a bit of the top layer of his skin for a while. Mostly relies on your cooking or takeout. 

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Ooo….mmm…good luck? He ironically doesn’t have that much of a mental break about it, considering his obsession with you. He’d definitely make you feel horrible about it though. To be fair, it was honestly expected; but he’d make it as painless as possible…maybe a hard hit to the head? He’d let you choose <3

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

Again, isn’t really a marriage kind of guy. He would prove his commitment to you in other ways though! Gifts, cuddles (Squeezes), anything you’d desire! There’s no going back after he’s invested, good luck getting out. Isn’t the type of guy to want to control you…necessarily…? He wants you to have a free will, but will take things into his own hands if he thinks it’s for your own good. He’s only thinking of the best when it comes to you <3

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Meh…he’s gentle with you, he doesn’t wanna break you. Although, he’s not the best at physically being gentle…but it’s the thought that counts, right? Would definitely listen to you vent and rant about your daily problems, and sometimes he even does the deed for you!~ Finishes them off quite slowly, and painfully. Doesn’t like the idea of anyone even looking and you, he doesn’t wanna keep you locked up in a room, but if that’s what it takes to keep you safe and his? He’ll do it. 

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Loves hugs! Even though it’s pretty obvious, he likes to hide it. He wants to keep a cold demeanour towards people…but he just melts when you hug him, or when he hugs you! His hugs are hearty and warm, he squeezes a bit and doesn’t let go. Once he does though, he usually gives you a little peck anywhere on your face and keeps doing what he was doing before, like nothing happened. 

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Actually doesn’t say it very often…he likes physically showing you instead. It’d probably take a moody day for you to make him say it. Those days where you just feel like you aren’t enough? Yeah, he’d say it all the time then. Wants you to feel wanted and appreciated. 

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Oh. Uh…let’s just say you don’t wanna know? <3 The second someone gets their filthy hands on you, he strikes! The most brutal screams you’ve heard in your life. He wouldn’t do it in front of you, of course <3 You’re too pure to see what happens, but you can make a mental photo of it…and it doesn’t look very good…

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Kisses mostly are pretty light, and peckish. A quick “mwah” and you’re done. Will do deep, passionate ones if you’re down though. Likes to hold your waist, neck, or cheek while kissing you. Likes kissing you one the tip of your nose, cheek, and forehead…but wouldn’t mind kissing somewhere else ;). Likes being kisses behind his ear, he’s pretty sensitive there. Gets really flustered when you kiss him unexpectedly or when you make the first move!

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Simply, the kids LOVE him, but he HATES kids. Absolutely doesn’t like them. Usually avoids them the best he can, and won’t lash out or purposely make them cry or feel bad. Just minds his own business when it comes to children. He finds babies cute though, he likes it when babies smile and shake their little pacifier when they see him. He just gives off that comforting “cool uncle” vibe, y’know? 

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Usually wakes up wayyy before you. A great example of a morning person…without the productivity. He just kinda rolls over to you and stares at you until you wake up. It usually takes a couple hours. If you’re looking for specific time, he usually wakes up at 5:00-5:30. Waits for you to make breakfast, if you’re too lazy? He’ll order some breakfast! Usually does your morning routine with you. He doesn’t really shower in the mornings, but will gladly come with you if you want!

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Not a big night owl, has a pretty strict sleeping schedule. He would stay up if you wanted to though! Or he’d drink with you…or do something fun if you wanna ;). Very picky about bedding, doesn’t like anything too thin. Has to have at least 2 blankets/sheets over him ‘cause he gets cold during the night, even with you there. He has a habit of humming his music while getting ready to go to bed. Has like…a 9 step skincare routine? Don’t worry, he’ll explain it to you! He usually showers first then does everything else; does that thing where he walks around half naked with a towel around his bottom-half. 

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Although he’s really soft with you and wants to be honest, not much is said about himself.  Has sever trust issues from past experiences reputation breaks, so he’s very cautious about what he reveals about himself. He would eventually open up though, preparing himself for you to actually reject him. Poor baby :(

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Very patient about everything, too scared of rejection to be too impatient. Even if he does get a bit impatient, he rarely actually gets mad. Unless you’re counting the times people stare at you or god forbid touch you…that’s a whole other story. Really good at reading peoples emotions, but really bad at hiding his. 

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Remembers EVERYTHING. Literally remembers everything from the day he found your existence. Reads you like an open book, knows your habits really well too. He’s kind of embarrassed when it comes down to confessing all the things he knows about you, though. 

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Every moment spends with you is his favourite <3 

If he had to choose though, it’d be the evening he kidnapped you. He was gentle about it! Or at least he tried to be, only handcuffing your non-dominant hand to the bedpost… Although he doesn’t like seeing you scared, you just looked so cute confused. He couldn’t help it :(

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Very protective of you, will never let you go if someone ever tried to touch you. Death stares, death threats…and actual (very violent) death- Anything to keep you with him <3 It’s not like he doesn’t need you to protect him, he just doesn’t want you to. He thinks it’s his basically his job to protect you, not the other way around. 

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

As said before, since he remembers everything, he’ll plan out everything at least a month in advance. Reservations, planned gifts, parties, anything! He’s not the best at calculated tasks, he does it more on impulse and need. He does try though! 

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

A really bad and toxic habit of subconsciously manipulating people. Uses his persuasiveness to his advantage, that’s mostly how he gets what he wants. He also has a shit ton of mood swings, so he could be overly affectionate on minute, and absolutely cold the other. Only one of them is his real personality though, the cold and ruthless thing is just a mask to seem scary. Doesn’t like to admit it, but he definitely has a wine problem. 

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

He has a very sophisticated routine when it comes to his looks. Maybe cares a bit too much? A bit obsessive over his looks, not enough to become toxic, though. Usually wears makeup to cover some of his blemishes, and wouldn’t mind if you complemented him a bit!

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Would quite literally just stare into space for days on end if no one stopped him. Doesn’t know what to do with his life without you. He’d try to live for you, but he just can’t bring himself to do anything productive. 

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Doesn’t have a massive sweet tooth. Doesn’t like the overly sweet, artificial tasting, grocery store sugar cookies. Makes him feel sick afterwards, prefers whipped cream, cream cheese, or Italian meringue frosting over anything else. Classic American buttercream is just too heavy for him ;p

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Loves everything about you <3

Doesn’t like certain traits though, especially unchecked ego’s. Doesn’t really prefer an open schedule, he works better on a strict routine. Also hates green onions, celery, and parsley. (cilantro’s fine)

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Rolls around a lot, hogs the blankets. Sometimes he’d dig himself into your body while asleep, mostly his brain making sure you’re still there lol

#Luke #Moodie Moodz #My works #Yandere #male yandere #yandere oc #soft yandere #tw yandere #yandere writing #oc alphabet

[spidersmiceandeverythingnice]

So I watched/listened to a plot synopsis of ACOTAR out of curiosity and wow. It's obvious SJM thought of a misunderstood bad boy halfway through her Beauty and the Beast retelling and then proceeded to make him *too* bad. As in, "drug and assault you for a month to help you not be traumatized" (really Rhys, was that the *only* way you could have "protected" Feyre? Are you sure?). I see why everyone's angry with how the book ended it's such a mess.

god, yeah. as much as it makes me mad when people skip book one, i totally get skipping book one because it is ABUNDANTLY clear that SJM published it without thinking about literally anything. She spends so much of the rest of the series retconning/reframing events so the guy that she made into a genuinely scary villain in book one is now a fucking saint who builds sanctuaries for battered women in his magic secret city of saints and artists - like, let's ignore the fact that he left a severed head on someone's doorstep as a prank, and the fact that he committed SA, and the fact that he violates peoples' minds/boundaries on the regular.

Like, the most charitable interpretation of Rhysand's actions UtM is that he re-enacted his own sexual abuse on Feyre, because he entered into the pseudo-relationship with Amarantha unwillingly, but believing that it would be the best way to protect himself and his family. The LEAST charitable interpretation of his drugging and assaulting Feyre repeatedly is that he was trying to keep her dazed, constantly in a state of sleep-deprived sickness, struggling to recovery, and thereby prevent her from solving the Super Obvious riddle - because again, he worked for the evil queen willingly. Even if his motivations were "good" he still actively terrorized the rest of the country in the name of protecting the one place and handful of people that Rhysand, personally, deemed most valuable. Like, dude, people DIED. Rhysand later spends a lot of time whining about how NOBODY FOUGHT OR SACRIFICED AS HARD AS HIM..... bro. I don't know how to tell you this but at least two of the other High Lords were running an active rebellion in Book One (the Winter Court confirmed; Rhysand later murders the Winter Court's children - and SJM desperately wants you to forget that this event happened/mattered; the Summer Court was implied to be assisting) and if Rhysand hadn't interfered, Tamlin probably could have used Feyre to break the curse's stupidly complex conditions on his own.

But also!?!? None of this fucking matters, because the canonical actual reason that Rhysand gives for - and I cannot emphasize this enough - DRUGGING AND SEXUALLY HARASSING/ASSAULTING FEYRE, THE GIRL HE CLAIMS TO LOVE MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF, REPEATEDLY - was that he was jealous.

He says this, to Feyre, on the fucking page. Rhysand did not like that Tamlin and Feyre were clearly in love, that their relationship seemed strong, and he wanted to make Tamlin angry and jealous - by hurting Feyre, and using her as an object with which to taunt him.

Rhysand never apologizes for this, by the way. He just gets sad and says that he regrets it, and Feyre feels sorry that she upset him by bringing up her trauma, which he caused. Fucking CHRIST.

And later, according to SJM's narration, I am supposed to revile and condemn Tamlin for getting angry and being upset/traumatized by having witnessed someone he loves he dangled in front of him like a toy by a guy who wants to hurt/kill him and is capable of destroying people's minds!? I'm supposed to be upset when he tries to rescue Feyre from Rhysand later!?!? HELLO!?!? We can talk about Tamlin's character flaws but first of all, he's never sexually assaulted anyone, and second of all, he's against slavery for no reason than because slavery is bad.

No, actually, this is relevant, because Rhysand later tries to "both sides" fucking SLAVERY.

Anyway rant over, fuck ACOMAF especially.

#anti sjm #anti rhysand #i'd tell rhys to go fuck himself but he'd enjoy that so - no he doesn't deserve the pleasure #tamlin #ya know what fuck it this post is pro feyre she's an annoying bitch but she's MY annoying bitch #every day i mourn for feyre's character and the agency she was robbed of because sjm decided that rhys was king

[one-abuse-survivor]

hey there, milky way anon back after almost a year 🌌

a lot of stuff has happened since last december, i had a therapist for a while although i kind of lost touch after i was away over the summer holidays, a very toxic relationship happened for something over a month (i ended up there because i struggled with saying no), my other important relationship is still committed and holding up, i've reconnected a lot with a person who i got to know a few years ago and then promptly lost touch with because it left school and i didn't have its number back then, and who apparently had some very serious medical issues in between then and now so i'm glad it's still alive and around, and especially that i've motivated it to join the team with whom i play my most favorite absurd sport with.

i've also worked a lot on myself, and come to terms with some stuff concerning sexuality and relationships.

i've found (at least) two people who i really look up to, one of them i know personally and he'd probably be overwhelmed if he knew how much of a positive kind of father figure he's become for me ever since i first met him last march despite us only meeting every few months (he does the same sport but in a different team but we've played a bunch of tournaments in the same mixed team recently) and i've learnt a lot of stuff from him, on one hand things related to the sport (i learnt how to play an entirely new position just from him at the few tournaments we've met at and he's been a real pleasure to play that position with and he's probably one of the people who i play the best and easiest with), and the other is a celebrity who just shares a lot of my mindsets and opinions on things and has had to work through a lot of things similar to what i'm going through/went through and how he's handled that is definitely helping get a lot of new insights

honestly just thinking about it those two people have probably done more good things for my psyche in that year than my parents have in my life as far back as i can remember, especially when it comes to general kind of wisdoms, which are offered without heaps of judgement and non-constructive criticism first and are a lot more understandable, applicable and down-to-earth than what my parents would give me

i've also noticed in that time that i stutter, and that i do it a lot and that it's mostly because my mouth can't keep up with my thoughts, because they are too fast and mostly a strange linguistic mashup of english, german and whatever else. i've also noticed that it's a thing my parents like to make fun of.

and yes, seasonal depression is a bitch and i would not wish this fall i had on anybody but i am fighting back hard this time, surrounding myself with people who i share a mutual respect with and whose company i enjoy. i think i've learnt a lot about myself and my emotional needs and how i can fulfill them better to give this fall's depressive phases a lot less ground to stand on

and lastly, i am now in my last year of school, i think overall i have probably around 15 weeks of school left until finals and graduation which i am really excited but also very stressed and anxious about. especially because i'm terrified of the future because i never expected myself to get that far and actually have one and going on to the end of school i need to start planning what i'll do afterwards

thank you a lot for existing, thank you for taking the time and spoons to read through all those asks you're receiving and carefully replying to them, thank you for being someone i can appreciate and respect as much as i do

Hi again!!! Thank you so much for your kind words. I'm glad to be here and to be able to help 🥰

I really hope your graduation went well! And I hope the future feels a little bit less scary now. It's really common to feel that way when you've gone through trauma as a kid and teen. I personally also used to think I'd never make it past 18. It can be incredibly hard to build a life that you never planned to live, and to find your footing and feel like you're in control instead of spiralling wildly and always tripping over your own feet. But it really does get better with time. I'm rooting for you, nonnie ❤️

I'm glad to hear you've found some role models that help you navigate life and learn new things. I think the fact that abused and neglected teens still need safe adults and role models and tend to look for them outside of the house isn't talked about enough. It can go well if they find adults who are actually safe and want what's best for them, or if they find celebrities or even fictional characters to rely on. But with real people it can sometimes go badly, because they can take advantage or they can put space between you, which can feel like parental abandonment all over again. I hope these role models have continued to have a positive impact in your life!

Also, I'm so glad you managed to reconnect with an old friend, and that it was okay! What it went through sounds pretty scary :(

You don't deserve for your parents to make fun of you for stuttering. That's not okay. And I'm so glad you've been able to listen to your emotional needs and meet them. That's not always an easy thing to accomplish, and you really deserve to be proud of yourself for that.

Sending a big hug your way. Hope things are going well! ❤️

#Ask #Milky way anon #toxic relationship #medical issues tw #illness tw #Neglectful parents #Bad parenting #toxic parents #abusive parents #Emotional abuse tw #depression tw #Trauma tw #Child abuse tw

[trulyinspiringmovies]

Smile

“Smile” is a surprisingly thoughtful horror movie with excellent sound design.

Rose Cotter is an altruistic doctor at a psychiatric ward. One day, Rose meets with a new patient who claims to be seeing an entity that wants to harm her. No one else can see this entity and it’s always smiling. Then, this patient grabs a broken vase shard and commits suicide in a gruesome manner. After witnessing the horrifying sight, Rose starts seeing this entity too. She realizes it’s only a matter of time before she goes the same way.

I think everyone was expecting this movie to be similar to Blumhouse’s “Truth Or Dare” and therefore not that great. The trailer definitely led me to believe that this would just be another generic horror movie that Hollywood squeezes out about a mildly scary concept being stretched out to feature length. I was even considering skipping this one entirely. Then I heard the early reviews for this film. It was reported that this movie was a lot better than people initially were willing to give credit for. This definitely piqued my interest, so I decided to check it out for myself. Luckily, there was a showtime for Dolby Cinema, so I opted for that and, man let me tell you, it was the right choice. But before I get to why that is, I want to talk about the movie in general. All good horror movies are ones that are trying to say something. “Smile” is definitely a message movie about trauma and the effects it can have on the people around you. It’s a really interesting topic to explore, especially in the horror genre. You normally only get stories about how trauma affects the central characters, but never the second-hand effects. I appreciated the atmosphere this movie was painstakingly creating because it definitely sucked me in. The world was drab, but not in a way that becomes exhausting to look at. Maybe this was helped by the multitude of interesting shots this movie goes for. I know this is the first movie from Parker Finn, but it’s very clear to me that he’s an inspired director. He’s obviously a fan of introspective horror and has applied that to his own movie. There are a lot of top-down aerial shots that instantly reminded me of “Candyman”. There’s even an upside-down shot of the city skyline that reminded me of the new 2021 “Candyman”. The highlight of the movie was definitely the sound design. It was a treat to listen to in Dolby Cinema because the score just felt unsettling in a brand new way to me. I will say, seeing this in Dolby Cinema was a double-edged sword. Yes, the movie is a treat to listen to, but there was so many cheap jump scares that I jumped because I thought a sonic weapon was going off in my theater. I feel like if this movie had focused on creating an unrelenting tense atmosphere with tiny moments of levity, then this would’ve been an easy five-star from me. Also, the ending was edited in a slightly confusing way for me. It felt like the entity gets Rose, but then it cuts to a point in time when the entity doesn’t have her. It’s like there was this whole escape sequence that was cut from the movie. I’m sure it was intentional and I’ll find an explanation about it from a YouTube video or something, but I felt like the movie should’ve been comprehensive enough for that to be clear to me. All in all, this is a great movie to start the spooky season and I’m pumped for more horror movies.

★★★★

Watched on October 3rd, 2022

#Smile #September #2022 #Horror #Psychological #R #Parker Finn #October 2022 #4 stars

[studiousbotanist]

smile 2022 was so much better than i expected and i think i'm ready to write out a long piece of how i felt about it (spoilers under cut, especially for the ending) warnings for grief, animal death, ableism, and psychiatric abuse

the stigmatization of 'scary' mental illnesses is a huge theme through out, when i thought it would just be a scary little b movie with a good monster, it was actually a lot more psychological than i expected !! the descent that rose goes through, finding out so much of the people who have been cursed by this thing have suffered terrible generational trauma, and grief . the way it infects you specifically BY experiencing something intensely traumatic that changes you as a person . the way we see her state devolve, unable to trust herself and having to face what she's feared most . as we go we learn what she went thru at the hands of her mother, what SHE suffered from . and we see how rose, as a therapist, is quickly experiencing the same harassment and cruelty that her patients have experienced due to their mental illness . as someone with psychosis a lot of it really, really spoke to me . i wouldn't argue if anyone got a bad taste in their mouth watching it ! it was a tough watch . i had to pause multiple times (and a cat does get murdered. and is shown onscreen for the longest minute of my life ...)

the inability to trust yourself, having this monster and trying to insist it's not you and it's not YOUR actions or YOUR thoughts but it's still affecting those around you and how you're treated . when the threat is IN your mind threatening to take over . i felt so much sympathy for Rose. She got into her line of work for personal, painful reasons . trying to help . the ending guarantees that the cycle will continue . i definitely cried a few times through here LOL and was hoping for a happy ending ! who doesn't ! but i also feel it wouldn'tve worked . the reveal of the monster, too, i didn't expect it to be THAT scary ! i don't know . i left this movie feeling like i want to work even harder to support anyone who struggle with delusions, who have psychosis or schizophrenia or any of the combinations yadda yadda . it really showed, too in itself, that if you ignore it, if you cannot work through it, your grief will consume you . Rose did not get the support that she needed . Her patient at the start, Laura, didn't either . instead got forcibly committed and it ultimately ended her life. We see too another one of Rose's patients going through an episode . It feels like such a mixed bag . I can't in good faith say the movie showed mental illness in a fantastic way, but it felt very real . it didn't feel like it showed a caricature of what we go through . also kyle gallner is in it and he's great . I often rate movies that've really touched me emotionally, and will continue with me, 5 out of 5 . if someone gave it a 3 or 4 i'd understand as well . Again, it was a hard watch . but it was a good psychological horror movie in my eyes and i would absolutely watch it again

#hey jerk! speed kills!

[qumiiiquinnquin]

multiple thoughts this wednesday afternoon

i wish we could live in a world of peace and happiness. many people wish that. but often times a lot of responses i get when i express those thoughts are always “good luck with that” and “yea unfortunately that’ll never happen”. i know it wont. but i want to keep believing. its very hard to , because it feels like with each passing day , something worse happens , either with friends , family , or the world at large. i just want violence to come to a rest. i just want people to no longer suffer and i want them to be able to lead happy lives. i just want to not be afraid of the world im living in and feeling so broken and helpless as everything passes by , and oh look at the news. another terrible thing has happened. i know world peace is in extremely far reach from us , and because of that , world peace seems impossible. but i want to keep believing. i want us in the future to be happy and healthy and not in constant fear like many of us are today

i do not understand why people get upset if you do not understand something or did not know something that they for some reason expected you to know when nobody told you. why is this a consistent theme in my family? it makes me feel very insecure , considering i already have memory and listening problems

its really hard for me to accept or believe compliments people say to me. it is not out of ungratefulness - in fact , i appreciate them a lot , its very sweet. its really my extreme self-doubt and self-hatred , and past events in my life. being told im something like ‘beautiful’ or ‘kind’ by a relative , only to have them later indirectly say to me im ugly , and more directly telling me im extremely disrespectful of all my elders. plus...my own past actions. ive been a shitty friend before , and seeing or hearing people tell me that im very nice or a good friend or they care about me... why? especially my closest friend who refuses to leave despite me saying things to him that i wish i never said , and having such extreme outbursts , and always on the brink of ending our friendship due to thinking i dont deserve friends or wanting to commit... i dont understand. even if that behavior happens much less now ((though it occasionally still brews and i have to hold myself back like a wild dog on a leash)). i really cannot understand why anyone bothers to be nice to me. am i making you feel obligated to be nice to me? am i being manipulative? am i just luring people into being nice to me and being my friend and then having to deal with how i really am? i dont understand. there's just so many better people...why me?

lately ive expressed feelings of wanting to be in love. but the love world seems scary. how do you find ‘the one’? how do you end up trusting them? im too afraid to experience anything because i know i cannot pick myself back up. i am too afraid to experience heartbreak , my partner cheating , ending up with an abusive or toxic partner , having a partner that really wants to force themselves onto me or being sa’d or four letter r worded by my partner ((trauma-related fear)) , my partner ending it... i want to love , and i want to be loved. but i do not know how to love , and i am afraid of what may lie underneath the words “i love you”

anyway. im going to go check if the nectarines are ripe yet and am going to eat to take my mind off of this stuff , among other things...

#vent #long post #im feeling quite empty

[jessicasnow]

If you are Considering Leaving... for Good.

So, you're contemplating suicide and you're not sure where to go, this is about the most honest and blunt, most uncensored post you're going to find on the topic and why I feel you shouldn't do it.

Plainly, I feel you shouldn't do it because the problem you have is temporary. It sure doesn't feel like it right now. In fact, it probably feels like life is singling you out. It feels like you're not "allowed" to fit in anywhere because there's some big blockade in life that just prevents you from fitting in, from feeling good, from being healthy, from being safe... there is some force that is disallowing you to feel whole. You feel empty and worthless. You feel like it's time to call it quits, because the thing that is harming you happens to be life itself. Right?

Wrong. Through first had experience with mutliple failed attempts, let me share with you what I've learned about suicide and ideation... and how scary it is when you cannot change your mind once you've started.

I've of the Kevorkian mindset: we have the divine right to exit that which harms the body, the mind, or the spirit. Sometimes that thing harming us happens to be life... but it's really not life that's harmful. The thing harming you is not life and it's not your fault. 

Depression and Anxiety all happen in the brain, where a lot of chemical imbalances and disorders also happen. Let that be a strange comfort first: while the pain is not all in your head, the occurrences are. This means the feelings portion of the issue can be fixed with therapy and medicinal treatment. The thing harming you is... nothing. People on the outside cannot emotionally or psychologically hurt you if you do not let them, and that is what mindfulness teaches us.

So what if your suicidal ideation isn't caused by emotional or psychological things? It is. That's why it's called ideation. Intrusive thoughts like ending our lives (or the lives of others) are often some kind of trauma response, so the best way to remove yourself from wanting to commit suicide is by removing yourself first from the environment that is keeping your mind ill. So then begs the next question. What if the thing causing your ideation is not a mental illness? What if it's bullies or abusive people?

Again, remove yourself from the environment, not from the map entirely. Or if it's possible, remove them from your environment. "Out of sight out of mind" can only work sometimes; in the case of an abuser, I understand it can be very hard to endure or even to escape. The matter still stands: you need to remove something from the environment... not from the map. For youth it's harder, I understand, so what needs to be done one-hundred percent of the time... authorities need to get involved. Yes, this will probably resort to a mental institution, but they're nothing like they once were and someone's safety matters more than their choice of view from a window, especially when things get that worrisome.

Being in a mental institution is probably better than being covered in your own waste upon death. Didn't anyone ever mention that before? When you die, the body voids all bowels, so you literally piss and shit yourself. Suicide is not a courageous act, but it's also not a selfish one. It's a humiliating one. I also want to stress that while dying is humiliating, it's also something you can't change your mind from.

If you want to commit suicide, you need to be okay with the sensation of voiding all your bowels and come to terms with the fact that it's how people will find you... and while you're still alive and have feelings and a consciousness... meditate on that. 

"I'll be dead, I won't care"... you'll be in the middle of dying and you will care.

I once saw this video about a girl I've called "Kayla", I don't remember her name because that is clearly something she did not want. She didn't want to be remembered or thought of... and at twelve years old that is why she killed herself.  Her environment was abusive, so she didn't come from a very good background - at twelve, what are you supposed to do? Twelve year olds aren't taught mindfulness skills for some reason, so she took the only way out she could think of at the time. She made her set-in-stone decision.

Nothing could possibly go wrong. 

From the sun's noon to nightfall, Kayla had been setting up her suicide on camera. It leaked as a facebook live that someone saved, and so many were able to watch the whole thing. I was one of those people and it seemed that only I noticed that she changed her mind the moment she realized she couldn't get her makeshift plastic-cord and ziptie noose around her neck right. She proceeds, absolutely sure that she wants this. She wants to be erased from the world entirely.

After hours of Kayla setting up... she says her goodbyes. One of the lines I remember is "I'm sorry for being a worthless whore," coming from a twelve year old's mouth. No twelve year old needs to feel like a whore. For me, that confirms that there was, indeed a lot of abuse happening. 

She kicked a pail out from beneath herself and hung. She thrashed, coughed, dangled, jerked... and of course she shit and piss herself - that's all part of the dying process. What got me is when she reached for the cord around her neck, gasping. The sun had gone down some around that time so I couldn't really see her expression, but she was panicking as much as her tightened throat would let her. It was obvious.

She wanted to change her mind. And honestly, she should have, because it would have been found out later the morning of her suicide, her abuser would finally be put behind bars... and she didn't get to see it. Kayla didn't get to see her justice. Instead her family got to find her dead, covered in her feces and urine, her face no doubt a mess with snot and drool from the struggle. 

The last thing you can hear in the video is the family searching in the yard for her. Screaming her name, worried. It's a black screen around the time the voices were close enough to the camera to actually hear what they were saying, but nobody was saying anything. They were crying and screaming. Bolts of flashlights skid across the screen and that was the end of the video.

That was the end of her life.

[bratz-kitten]

attack on titan characters - birth chart analysis 🌙

Here is my take on the big 6 of Levi, Eren, Armin and Mikasa of attack on titan/shingeki no kyojin! I kept their sun signs since we know the day and month of their birthday and since I think they’re absolutely perfect. If you want me to do my take on the others (like Jean, Historia, Erwin, Hanji, Connie, Sasha, Reiner, etc) please let me know! (spoiler warning!)

Levi Ackerman

sun in capricorn - levi mf ackerman is fuelled by three things and three things only: LOYALTY, a strong moral code and power. he is seen by most people as a heartless, unemotional bastard but is canonically the most emotional character - he shows love through very indirect ways and he’s the peak of capricorn in the sense that he represses his emotions – he smiled literally ONE time in four seasons, and didn’t once shed a tear. he’s very hard to read. has a lot of respect for his superiors and follows the orders of only those he’s loyal to. he’s driven by his moral codes in the sense that the protection of humanity is his prime motive for fighting titans. like a true capricorn, is the master of his field of work and cares the most about being a survey corp member. please protect this tragic baby. 

virgo rising - two words: CLEAN FREAK. this man has a strong need to be presentable at all times and hates getting blood on his hands for the single fact that he needs himself and his environment to be clean. his obsession with being clean is very much due to his childhood trauma and how he lived in in poor conditions in the underground. he has many quirks that correlate with this: the way he holds his cup, the carvat he uses bc of his mother, and the way he always cuts his own hair because that’s the way his mother used to do it.  intimidating and demands respect. DRY HUMOUR. 

moon in scorpio - i think he has many similarities with mikasa, especially in the moon and venus. introverted and hates people but will go to the ends of the earth to protect the ones he loves and respects. represses emotions and internalizes his hatred until he has a mental breakdown - which happens in the form of extreme violence. VERY sensitive and emotional even if he doesn’t show it. he’s very intuitive and often acts based on gut; he’s secretive and vindictive. very wise and great at giving advice. doesn’t let himself get manipulated and uses shitty situations to his advantage (like with the reeves company). trust is the most important thing to him.

mercury in aquarius - levi is extremely logical, and hates when others involve their feelings in the making of decisions. his decisions are always backed up by strong arguments and others often see him as cold and detached. i saw someone  mention something extremely interesting about aquarius mercury’s/people with their mercuries in the 11th house: despite not being very sociable, others are drawn to them for friendships – and often they’re the introverts who get “adopted” by extroverts. this is 100% levi’s case, hanji and erwin practically adopted him. being very vulgar with his words and having a distinctive sense of humour, he’s very humanitarian and is actually really talkative but only when he’s very comfortable around someone. blunt, always tells it like it is – like when he tells eren he can’t know what the right choice really is and he needs to choose it himself. teases and insults his friends as a form of affection.

mars in scorpio - levi’s a fighter, a survivor. he knows what it’s like to come from nothing and have to build himself up. very confrontational. reclaims his power by exerting intimidation and mastering violence. others fear doing as much as make a joke at his expense. understands other’s motivations and characters very easily. he’s very intuitive. very serious due to his need for having an intense and demanding presence, for being respected and valued. he’s the one who everyone sighs of relief when things go to shit and he appears because you know he’s the strongest and most dependable person.

venus in capricorn - good luck getting this motherfucker to open up. his trust is very hard to gain but is necessary for working with him – he places his full trust in his comrades and demands the same from them. very work-oriented and takes relationships very serious; it’s really telling that he cares little for romance because capricorn venuses are the ones to date to marry, and will only devote themselves to someone once they believe they’ve met the one. they either want a more powerful and mature partner or they exude that energy (levi is the latter). slightly parental – we see this in the way that levi is pretty much the dad figure. it’s called squad levi for a reason, after all. very responsible. takes care of loved ones and often uses tough love as a form of discipline.

Eren Jaeger - im not even kidding with this one, he has extreme aries energy

sun in aries - eren feels the need to be very independent and he hates whenever he has to depend on mikasa and others, wanting to be strong enough to reverse the roles. he’s very self-confident, bold and direct. very impulsive, he’s quick to anger but is also very quick to forget - especially seen with his arguments with jean, fighting him is basically a love language at this point. aries suns are very fast thinkers and their strong energy may come off as intimidating. they have great intentions but that often becomes muddled with their impulsivity and the fact that they don’t think ideas through. eren is unabashedly himself and fights relentlessly for what he wants. his aries energy also makes him extremely motivated! he believes in the impossible and will make it happen no matter what.

aries rising – aries risings are the trailblazers. they ooze intensity. eren has very much a baby face and, due to his impulsivity and childish charm, people tend to baby him a lot – in the sense that he’s this kid surrounded by adults who needs supervision at all times or he’ll get into deep shit. aries risings are also marked by their extreme need for action, they’re the ones to do now and apologize later instead of asking for permission to do something in the first place. he is guided by his passion and is a natural leader who inspires everyone to fight alongside him. aries risings have a lot of energy which they need to express in a physical way, making them be prone to be very athletic and lead very active lives. he’s also extremely competitive and is driven by the force of becoming stronger than mikasa, and often feels angry when he realizes how stronger than him other people can be. at the same time, this pressure to be better is put solely on himself. he’s a dumbass with a good-heart and pure intentions.

moon in sagittarius – all this motherfucker talks about is freedom and seeing the world past the walls. he craves adventure and is extremely optimistic. but even if a sagittarius moon needs their freedom, they are still absolutely ride-or-dies and once they’ve commited to something, NOTHING or NO ONE can stop their determination. these are also the people to try their best to always appear cheerful and full of determination to hide their sad façade – like when he was nearly vomiting when talking about the titans to the other recruits when they began the training in the military but still forced himself to say that the titans aren’t scary at all and that they aren’t a big deal; he naturally inspires others and fills them with courage. but the way they put on this strong and brave façade leads to a strong emotional turmoil, violent urges and a sudden hostility to others. they are filled with surpressed anger that can lead them through very destructive paths – and the happy-go-lucky child might just lose her hope. we see this in eren in the most heartbreaking way.

mercury in aries – LOUD!!! eren speaks what’s on his mind with NO hesitation whatsover. he’s very quick to defend his friends and points of view, and speaks openly about his passions and dreams. he’s very assertive and tenacious. short attention span and not afraid to give a different opinion from someone else’s. very passionate about what he argues about. very expressive and when an aries mercury disagrees with you, you’ll know it immediately by their facial expression. confident and thrives on inspiring others. remember him being mad when it was discovered the possibility of all titans being humans because now he didn’t know who the enemy is and he NEEDS to hate someone and blame them in order to keep going? ARIES MERCURY ENERGY!!

mars in aries - people look to mars in aries to lead them. they’re full of energy and dynamic, and very athletic - eren exceeds at hand-to-hand combat and, in the other subjects where he’s not so good, his determination makes him push forward and become better. VERY hot-headed and confrontational, which is both the source of all their problems and their strength - they are not afraid of going after what they want and are willing to go through any obstacle to do so, and they’re also not afraid of upsetting other people in order to do so. eren is courageous, loves to take initiative and is very enthusiastic - something that is very contageous. competitive and hates compromise, he likes getting his own way. aries mars are also very individualistic and can have a huge ego.

venus in pisces - i know this is going to confuse a lot of people - like, how does he have so much aries energy, how is he so intense yet has one of the softest venus placements? i deeply believe he’s a pisces venus, and here’s why. his friends are EVERYTHING to him. pisces venus’ love very deeply and are very dependent on their loved ones, and eren is extremely protective of his loved ones and is willing to do anything to protect them. pisces venus’ are very vengeful, too, something that people seem to brush off about them - they might not do anything when you mess with them but as soon as you mess with their friends it’s game over. i also get a lot of “there was no other way, the word had to be fixed” vibes from this placement? like, this placement gives me the energy of someone willing to commit awful crimes under the excuse of it being for the greater good, which is something he dramatically experiences as he grows older and witnesses the cruelty of the world.

Armin Arlert

sun in scorpio - armin very resourceful!! he easily adapts to the circunstances he’s in and works his way around it. very intelligent and with great memory. extremely manipulative, cunning and perceptive. scorpios are known for their capability to be great investigators due to their natural curiosity, and armin has this deep need to see the world outside of the walls and he studies all there is to know about it with great passion. determined to succeed. 

cancer rising - armin just wants to achieve his dream and it’s so soft. cancer risings are very receptive of other’s emotions and incredibly sensitive, but it’s difficult for them to open up to others. his appearance is very soft and delicate. loves to help others and has a naturally warm presence that makes others feel comfortable in his presence. give off a very grounded and stable energy, but this is often because they try to hide their most intense emotions and don’t know how to deal with them/don’t want to bother others by opening up about it. 

moon in pisces - one word: EMPATHY!!! very compassionate. tendency to become a martyr and be very self-sacrificial. VERY imaginative, he is the strategist, after all. can feel others emotions and read them very easily. avoids confrontation but feels a strong need to take the weight off of others’ shoulders and to solve all their problems. very loving and giving, in tune with his emotions and emotionally intelligent. on the other side, this caring side of him can make him see other people through rose-colored glasses, and he is prone to believing in the best in people and giving them the benefit of the doubt. but when they’ve proven their true nature to him, he’ll see them for what they are and will no longer defend them, even if still feeling remorse. notice how he’s always like “this had to be done, we had no other choice” to justify his actions.

mercury in scorpio - bro armin’s eyes are so intense. when he gets on his manipulative bullshit it’s IMPOSSIBLE to look away from his gaze. he practically communicates through the eyes. armin is very sharp and his innocent appearance has everyone still thinking of him as a sweet angel as if he isn’t a whole war criminal. he easily psychoanalizes others to know what they want and uses it to his advantage, like how he used berthold’s love for annie to manipulate him to let eren go after him and reiner kidnapped him. scorpio mercuries be knowing shit, they be knowing everyone’s secrets and others usually confide in them as if they’re their therapists. 

mars in pisces - mars in pisces makes a person avoid physical confrontation at all costs. notice how armin’s first response to everyone wanting to kill reiner and bertold/the marleyans was “please let’s just talk about this first”? he hates violence and deems it not worthy most times. he is very physically weak and aware of his limitations, unlike eren and levi, whose first instinct is to use violence in order to get what they want. no, armin has developed a much more subtle and effective way to get what he wants without using violence: emotional manipulation. he is the KING of appearing innocent and naïve and having people feel bad for him and want to baby him and protect him, and due to his extremely intuitive nature, he knows EXACTLY what to say to someone to get under their skin. he twists his words and emotions to get what he needs out of people and it’s both incredible and dangerous. also, very self-sacrifical and his goals are based on his emotions.

venus in cancer - he loves so much and it’s so beautiful and heartbreaking. he gives everything to the ones he loves and thrives off of being helpful and keeping everyone safe. reads a lot into the behaviour of the people he loves. very emotionally intelligent, wants stability and to maintain peace and may bend over backwords to achieve that. needs to feel understood and has a soft spot for troubled people, those who are more demanding and assertive (eren and mikasa), people he can take care of and who can take care of him in return. very affectionate and communicative. warm presence, you can pretty much feel the love radiating out of him. 

Mikasa Ackerman 

sun in aquarius - if you get past the emotional walls of an aquarius that has them appearing detached and distant because they’d rather use intelligence than seem emotional, you’ll be met with an incredibly soft, loving and caring person. an aquarius strength is their ability to be very unique, individualistic and humanitarian individuals - they truly march to the beat of their own drum. mikasa possesses a great deal of determination and isn’t afraid of being rebellious, especially when her loved ones are in danger. 

capricorn rising - people with capricorn rising had to learn to be very independent from a very young age. mikasa is very intimidating but she has a very doll-like beauty, common to many capricorn risings. these people have had to deal with a lot ever since childhood, but they are fighters and their determination has them being able to survive even unsurmountable odds stacked up against them. capricorn risings tend to be serious and disciplined, and with a melancholic aura to them – which mikasa perfectly embodies. but the fact that these people have cancer in their descendant makes them strongly emotionally attached to their loved ones.

aquarius moon - even under the most stressful and dangerous situations, mikasa always remains in control of her emotions. she thrives in those situations, it’s the adrenaline of the moment that has her being so good at controlling her emotions until it’s safe to be anything but racional again. aquarius moons are feel very misunderstood and tend to racionalize their emotions a lot. however, it’s only due to their fear of vulnerability that they build this emotional walls, because they experience very intense emotions. i always think about that survey corp member saying “what did you have to go through for you to be like this?” when she was perfectly stable in a life-or-death situation. 

mercury in capricorn - mikasa is incredibly action-oriented and she speaks in a structured but confident way. although she’s on the quieter side and is reserved, she’s able to inspire everyone when all hope seems lost, and she’s taken up eren’s words of “if we don’t fight, we can’t win” and uses it constantly in order to keep going. she’s very hard to read due to her usually expressionless face, giving her a mysterious aura. she’s very ambitious, persuasive and determined. 

mars in capricorn - when people say that mars in capricorn people are the scariest when they’re angry, they’re not wrong. they act so calm and collected until suddenly they’re fixing you with a death glare and you’re rethinking all your life choices up until this point. mikasa might be extremely rational and calm, but as soon as someone threatens the ones she loves, she’ll stop at nothing to eliminate the threat. it’s like she fears nothing but ever being unable not to save them. she’s very responsible and reliable, with a lot of physical strength and stamina. very PROTECTIVE, grounded and GIVING 

venus in virgo - this is one of the things that makes mikasa so similar to levi, the way they love. this bitch is LOYAL to her very core. she knows very well where her loyalties are - eren and armin - and is ready to kill all her close friends and superiors in order to protect them. she threatened to kill historia if she got in the way of getting eren back home safely, jumped levi on sight when he wanted to save erwin instead of armin, and got pissed at connie for doubting eren’s intentions after the whole marleyan ordeal. acts of service are very much her love language - she constantly picks up eren’s and armin’s stuff and carries it herself or orders them to rest while she works. it’s very hard to gain her trust and loyalty but once you do it’s forever, she’s very selective about the people she cares for. she’s possessive, too - giving historia the coldest death glare in the world when she saw her with eren. i’ve also noticed that venus in virgo are very difficult to declare their emotions!! they’ll just wait for the person to notice their indirect acts of affection. very attentive to the needs and details of loved ones.  

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin #levi #levi ackerman #eren #eren jaeger #eren yeager #mikasa #mikasa ackerman #armin #armin arlert #birth chart analysis #astrology

[creativenicocorner]

Piggybacking off of @undeadchestnut​ ‘s wonderful thoughts in this post  (and decided to make my own post because although my thoughts are in the ballpark it might deviate from the posts original intention - and that’s not fair to op ) 

I am eternally glad I’m not alone in these thoughts! Because I absolutely believe Jim has never resolved his trauma both on screen and off. 

And what we see in ROTT is the unfortunate consequences of that, be it as an anxiety induced nightmare or not.

 It is a cautionary tale all the same.

The show has always had a sort of brushing away from trauma and skipping away from a moment to mourn (most likely to get to the next pretty thing or fart joke). It’s a little less in season 1 but still.

And yes, that choice could easily be an executive decision in trying to keep the target audience entertained and laughing - which is fair, but also not so fair. It would have been amazing - especially under the brand name of GDT monster lover extraordinaire - for a kids show to take the time to teach its audience that mourning and looking out for yourself is Important and Needed otherwise there’s a risk of self destructive tendencies developing and heightened stress affecting behavior and judgment [ point to slightly out of character Jim ]

Children should learn how to mourn, and know yes it is sad, and those feelings are okay and should learn how to navigate through them in a healthy way. Its just as important as occasionally scaring kids in shows - they are far smarter and cleverer than we give them credit for and sometimes showing sadness and scary things is beneficial! Just look at Inside Out! Or just any interview with Neil Gaiman on the importance of this!!

Gaiman confesses that the “Hansel and Gretel” fairy tale really frightens him, but he does believe that children must be exposed to dark stories. Gaiman thinks that “if you are protected from dark things then you have no protection of, knowledge of, or understanding of dark things when they show up. I think it is really important to show dark things to kids—and in the showing, to also show that dark things can be beaten, that you have power.” quote from here [x]

And while TOA had attempted this they never committed to it! And the attempts and commitments has, in my opinion, depleted since after season one.

Season one ends with Aargh turning to stone, and Jim watching Toby mourn, and in turn making a choice to go into the Darklands alone instead of taking the time to mourn WITH Toby. Season two after showing how Jim in the darklands alone was Not a Great Idea At All and wonderfully shown the teamwork between Jim and Nomura and was saved from Gunmar with the help of Jims friends. That sharing the burden leads to better results than carrying it alone. Season three we have Merlin going ‘no friends! only you!’ and thus begins the return of Jim’s hero Atlas ‘its gotta be me’ complex. Granted!! It’s not always there!! But the instigator sure is.

But I’m getting ahead of myself ldkjg What I’m underlining is Attempts have been made, these topics have been brought up, but there has been a lack of confidence in committing to it. Most likely due to executive and producer influence - which brings me to...

And while we can go as in depth as we want, we cannot ignore the cold hand of that ever present shadow of Capitalism and Showbiz Executives. The company has products to sell and watching kids cry is not going to sell little plush toys. Showbiz gotta showbiz, and when producers think fart jokes sell more toys than tears well..[vague hand gesture] you get some questionable disappointing choices.

But I digress.

ROTT could have had this wonderful potential in showing that Jim has finally learned and accepted that he doesn’t have to do this alone. Putting this immense stress on an individual and not showing how to share the burden leads to questionable choices!! Cue the previously mentioned self destructive tendencies and warped behavior.

The theme discussed as far back as season 2 is ignored, and instead we go digging even more into the whole Atlas spiel when the Atlas thing (I think) was more of a cautionary nickname given by Strickler. It was originally the Titan Atlas’s punishment to hold the heavens. What was a mythological condemnation is treated as Jim willingly putting the weight of every burden on his own shoulders and that’s not okay!! Not great for adults and especially not great for teens!! And while mythologically speaking Atlas does eventually get relieved from his duties with the Pillars of Hercules, Jim does not! He turns away time and again from a support system that could help ease the weight on his shoulders.  (yes I know the Pillars has multiple stories, but I’m choosing the power of friendship one on this).

Young Atlas does not choose liberation or Pillars of help in ROTT, he passes the burden of the heavens to Toby instead. Jim does not resolve his trauma but pushes it away, and hurts (unintentionally or not) those around him in the process.

The Krohnisfere - which is a very wonky way of spelling CRONUS or CRONOS or KRONOS (The Titan of TIME btw) - could have been used as a plot device in learning to take the time to process, resolve trauma, and care about yourself.

Which sounds potentially boring mixed in with a bunch of magic and robot mecha fights (well not to me lkjg) but it could have been done in an interesting and creative way!! Jim could learn to take the time tor process and accept help and we could still get the giant mecha pacific rim reference fights (and subsequently sold toys that looked like robots). What I’m Trying to say is, they could have done so much more with all of this and still get this message across. 

Anyways ROTT is a cautionary tale on what happens when you don’t take the time to take care of yourself, and subsequently hurt others and (intentionally or not) pass trauma onto others.  

So take the time to take care of yourself kids!! Because THAT is how “Krohnisfere will make right.”

Or as Strickler famously quoted Billy Joel’s song James in Season 1, Episode 1 said, “Do what's good for you, or you're not good for anybody.”

This is one hefty 2 cents on my part  and a very wordy way of saying HARD AGREE, but what can I say? 

ANYWHO I’m HCing Jim wakes up from this nightmare back at his house at the end of Wizards, and asks Barbara and Strickler about potential therapists he can see, and has a heart to heart, and Jim/Young Atlas finally finally learns to accept the Pillars of Hercules/his friends + support group. 

Because no one should be condemned to hold up the heavens alone. You’re not alone. 

Best Wishes,  Nico

#ROTT spoilers #Tales of Arcadia #2 cents #long post #Nico blabs into the void #ToA Rise of the Titans #Trollhunters #Rise of the Titans #spoilers #Jim Lake Jr #James Lake Jr #no one should be condemned to hold up the heavens alone. you're not alone. please take care of yourselves

[ranboo5]

Techno takes I find baffling seem to be based largely on like, the predication that he sees ideals over people, but that’s not... true. That’s literally the opposite of true. That’s literally the source of the conflict with people on the server

What ppl seem to think? is that Techno’s interactions with people are informed by his anarchist ideals, when it’s the other way around. He reacts to government the way he does because he’s seen what it does to people? He’s seen it hurt him, he’s seen it hurt Phil, he’s seen it hurt Ranboo, he’s seen it hurt Tubbo, he’s seen it hurt Tommy, he’s seen it hurt Wilbur, he has evidence for it hurting Niki, and the list goes on 

People keep acting like Techno’s ideology starts with “oh nooo my ideals are hurt,” which I think comes from him flipping on L’Manberg after the Manberg-Pogtopia war, but that’s because Techno clearly came in with an anarchist ethos (and pretty traumatized already; “the only universal language is violence” alone raises a lot of red flags that are all screaming “trauma”). How his anarchist ethos develops is clearly reactive and this is obvious from even immediately after this -- he sees blowing up L’Manberg didn’t stop them from starting a government, and retreats to try to take up pacifism and establish an anarchist commune in the north. He sees this fail w/ the Butcher Army and leans harder into reciprocity, and after blowing up New L’Manberg (in perceived self-defense primarily, I would argue) he decides to directly codify aforesaid ethos and develop it. And what does he emphasize when he does so? The lack of any leadership position. The fact that no member will be used or coerced. This is directly from what he’s seen government do -- corrupt its leaders with power and the search for more until they broke like Wilbur or did awful things like Tubbo, and use people like him as weapons, coerce them to take action against others against their will like they did w/ Ranboo and tried to do to Techno. Technoblade’s anarchism is clearly a reaction to his interactions with other people, not the other way around 

I think another source for the “Technoblade values ideals over people” misread is the fact that he actually doesn’t value ideals and things that much, which he states, but because a lot of the fandom identifies and sympathizes with characters who do value those ideals, that disregard comes off as personal. Take L’Manberg, or the discs -- those are things that are, for better or for worse (I would argue in most cases for worse, but ofc there is nuance and that’s a different discussion anyway), incredibly sentimentally important ideals to characters like Tubbo and especially Tommy “attachments are actually the thematic core of my character” Innit, which a lot of people sympathize with. Those things aren’t people, but because of the value that characters place on them, they feel to those characters like an attack on them is an attack on an intrinsic part of their identity. This isn’t a paradigm that Techno operates on -- the closest he comes is when they form a government in front of him and he joins in the destruction of L’Manberg, but even then it’s a more consistent read that he did it in some misguided attempt to warn them. It all comes back to Technoblade caring about people, even people who’ve wronged him and whom he disagrees with -- I’d go so far as to call that a primary motivator. The problem arises when those people work on a paradigm where they care deeply about ideals that often harm them, and Techno doesn’t have the emotional finesse nor the understanding necessary to take that into account with his “warnings,” which often only end up causing more trauma in effect. That doesn’t mean he does things because he “doesn’t care” or has a “victim complex”; it just means that he doesn’t understand the sentimental and emotional importance that that kind of attachment to an inanimate ideal has. He sees people do terrible things in the name of some strange idea of a country -- how can a country be more emotionally important to them than the person being hurt? -- and when he reacts in the way he knows how -- which, because of the other trauma he clearly already has, is violence -- he doesn’t take into account the real emotional effect that losing that country has on someone, and because the emotional effect of an attachment like that is in fact really huge, especially if you, like some characters, define yourself by that attachment, those characters and people who sympathize with them can feel like it’s an attack on something that makes them human (and that leads directly into “oh Techno is inhuman!” stuff which is. Incredibly ableist because it’s literally calling someone inhuman because they interact with ideals differently and usually also ties into calling him “emotionless” for. How. The creator. Who has ADHD. Naturally emotes.) 

If we want more nails in the coffin, just. Look at how he interacts with Tubbo? There’s a repeated sub-sentiment of the stuff I’ve talked about here that Technoblade only sees Tubbo as a government stand in and fails to see the person, but how Techno talks about/to him says the actual opposite most of the time. He’s gone on record saying that Tubbo is possibly a good guy but has been corrupted by his position during the RaccoonInnit arc, the one time he took a canon life from Tubbo was under coercion, and just today in the Snowchester stream as soon as Tubbo made it clear that, despite his big scary words and nukes, Snowchester was not intending to or probably capable of oppressing its citizens, Technoblade and the Syndicate decided that Tubbo wasn’t going to be a problem and never acted personally slighted, even though 2/4 (arguably 3/4 but no one’s ready for that conversation) of them arguably had reason to committing what Tubbo’s administration actively did to them. Technoblade doesn’t have a problem with Tubbo, the person; he has a problem with the position of a presidential cabinet, which he almost certainly sees (correctly) as something that was in fact harming Tubbo the person (Phil has even said as much explicitly, I’m pretty sure Techno has as well though perhaps in less direct terms, and Ranboo almost certainly has alluded to similar). Honestly all things considered Techno and co. are all being incredibly forgiving toward Tubbo (as they largely should be!!! Honestly I think their takes irt that are mostly correct considering Tubbo’s situation but I am also very very soft and will lie down and apologize about anything so) 

Tl;dr: People saying that Technoblade values ideals over people actually have it entirely backwards, because - Techno’s ideals are actively reactive to his interactions with other people rather than the other way around - largely the issue is that Techno doesn’t recognize the value people place on ideals  - Techno has seen the damage that those ideals + holding them has done to people which is in fact his main motivator  - Techno’s interactions w/ Tubbo all point to Techno not having a problem with Tubbo the person but rather with the government position he occupied, which hurt Tubbo the person too  - have we been watching the same streams

#Dream SMP #Technoblade #TommyInnit #Tubbo #Ranboo #Philza #Niki and Wilbur as well technically #obviously this is all abt the characters!!! #thank you sm if you actually read all of this #I rlly hope none of this comes off as negative toward any character I tried to b as neutral as possible #here some pumpky pie bc your epic :] #for the approval of the forum

[dreaming-about-fanfictions]

Choose Me Instead II Draco Malfoy x Reader II Chapter 5 of 27: You

Summary: Pretending to be in a relationship with Draco Malfoy to get back at your ex might have not been the smartest idea you ever had. Especially during your last year of Hogwarts where you should be focusing on exams and your future plans. However, you were just pretending. There was no way in hell you could actually catch feelings for someone like Malfoy. … Right?

CHAPTER 4

A/N: A chapter from a different perspective! I hope you all like it <3 And thank you so much for your support!! I love you all so muuuuuch!!!

Words: 2300 Pairing: Draco Malfoy x female!Reader, post-war Warnings: none

Draco Malfoy wasn’t easy to impress. Being bored quickly by other people was one reason why he never had many close friends – and yes, he knew how utterly arrogant that sounded. It was the truth however. He was friendly with most of the Slytherins but his mother always taught him “Quality over quantity” and he agreed. Draco went so far as to apply that mindset to his love life as well. Yes, before the sixth year of school, he used to like to flirt and he had dated the occasional Slytherin girl. He was also very aware of the fact that there had been quite a few girls with crushes on him. In some cases, he even reciprocated them, however, those feelings faded quickly.

So you couldn’t imagine how much it bothered Malfoy that he wasn’t able to stop thinking of you. Not even in his dreams did you leave him alone and so he kept on going back to that evening on the Quidditch field. Until today, it was entirely unclear to him why he told you all those things. He didn’t know anything about you yet speaking to you left him feeling … good, almost. After a year of trials and coming home to find his family and life in shambles, there was no one left to talk to. No one he wanted to talk to. To whom was he going to turn? His friends which were all coming from the same pureblood Death Eater families? Yes, of course, they understood – and also they didn’t. Not quite. Did you understand him? Probably not, he guessed. After all, you were a Gryffindor and fought on the right side of the war. The winning side. But talking to you felt different, almost easy. You grew up in another world than him and maybe that was the key to it all.

Obviously, Draco didn’t plan on repeating that evening. You were friends with the whole Potter and Weasley bunch. It made it even harder to trust you – how could he be sure you hadn’t already told your Gryffindor friends and were laughing about him behind his back? It was possible. A part of him didn’t want to believe this possibility and another part reminded him of all the times he was disappointed and got hurt by the people around him. It was probably for the best to stay away from you.

Yet he didn’t stop thinking of you. He saw you looking at him in the Great Hall during meals, watched you from walk away when you passed him in hallways and the library. Without noticing it, he always chose a place behind you in class. Draco didn’t understand the urge to be close to you. It was utterly ridiculous for Merlin’s sake. You were a Gryffindor; one of the good ones. He wasn’t. Not at all.

Maybe it was because of the kiss, he wondered at some point. Maybe you hexed him in this moment. Draco knew this theory was very far-fetched but it was the only logical explanation fin his mind. Why else would he keep thinking back to that moment in the storage room? He didn’t deny that you were witty and smart and very beautiful – he wasn’t blind after all – but so were lots of girls. What the hell was so special about you that you wouldn’t leave his thoughts?! It couldn’t be your taste in men as you obviously didn’t have any. At least there wasn’t a reasonable explanation for him for why someone like you would get with someone like the Weasel.

“Draco,” Blaise’s voice pulled him out of this thoughts. “You coming?”

Draco nodded. “Yeah, just a second.”

He got up from the table in their shared dorm, putting his notebook in the drawer of his nightstand. Two months since school started and he had almost filled in all of its pages. Draco started writing during the first trial of his parents last year. It kept him focused and helped him put his thoughts in order. It soon became a daily ritual which helped him stay grounded. Draco carried it around in his bag during the day, using it in between classes and meals. His friends caught him doing it a lot and he was sure they had already guessed what it was. He was glad when they didn’t say anything because in the end, Draco would have rather died before admitting that he was using a diary.

“You’re not wearing a costume!”, Astoria exclaimed when he joined the others in the common room. Pansy, Blaise, Theodore and the Greengrass sisters were already waiting for him.

There was a Halloween party happening in the Room of Requirements tonight and his friends had convinced him to go even though it meant more awkward conversations with Astoria.

“I thought we’re not doing muggle traditions. What are you supposed to be?”, he asked instead, taking in her revealing outfit.

She giggled. “I’m a healer. Or ‘nurse’ as the muggles call it.”

“Ah,” Draco made, thinking that she didn’t look like a healer at all. “I thought Halloween was supposed to be scary?”

Astoria rolled her eyes, before linking their arms with each other. “You’re no fun. Don’t you think I look pretty?”

“Astoria, you can wear a potato sack and still look absolutely stunning.”

That answer seemed to satisfy her and they started making their way towards the exit of the common room. Draco glanced at her from the side. She was, objectively speaking, the perfect match for a Malfoy. Coming from a well-respected and wealthy pureblood family combined with her intelligence and beauty, she was everything his parents could have wanted for him. Especially now.

You had told him what to do. It was such a simple solution to all of his impending problems. However, it had been the moment where Draco had realized that you grew up differently. Not a day went by where he didn’t receive a heartbreaking letter from his mother. He knew, she just wanted the best for him and she didn’t want to manipulate him; she was simply desperate. Desperate for the live they used to have – a husband at home, a son with a promising future, money and a respected place in society.

Draco had asked himself countless times what the marriage would truly mean. His family would have another chance. Together with Astorias family, his future was secured. A good job, maybe even in the ministry if he was lucky. Enough money to take care of his mother. Who knew, maybe his father would be out of Azkaban sooner? Draco marrying Astoria would lessen his families suffering, that was for sure. But did he want that? Did he want a simple and easy solution to make their past crimes … disappear? His family was far from innocent. They had committed horrible crimes in the name of the Dark Lord – and a part of him knew, they deserved everything they got in the end. Hell, he wouldn’t have been surprised if they sent his mother and him to Azkaban as well.

When thinking about the engagement, another thought popped into his head. Could he learn to love Astoria? Would he be happy with her? Maybe. Maybe not. Draco knew only one thing for sure – there was a reason why he kept resisting to the whole idea. Giving in felt like sacrificing another part of himself to something his family had burdened him with.

“And Astoria, I disagree,” Blaise once again disrupted his train of thought by joining in from the right. “Draco can quickly make his costume appear. Just roll up your sleeves, Dray, and the Gryffindors will shit their pants on the spot.”

The rest of the group snickered but Draco didn’t react. Instead he suppressed the urge to touch the mark on his left arm and shoved his hand deeper into the pocket of his pants.

 ***

The Room of Requirement was absolutely crowded.

The Slytherins were surprised by how many people had actually appeared. Almost everyone from the sixth and seventh grade was here, wearing mostly ridiculous costumes. Music roared from invisible speakers, students were dancing and talking loudly.

“I’m surprised that the teachers didn’t already break this up,” Blaise almost had to shout. “Or Filch.”

Draco shrugged. “I feel like they stopped caring this year.”

“Maybe they feel responsible for all those deaths,” Theo suggested.

“So to make up for all the trauma, they allow us to party?”, Blaise concluded with an amused undertone.

“It’s good for us though so stop talking and start drinking,” Pansy chirped and grabbed Draco and Theo by their arms, pulling them towards the table with a few questionable bottles.

When his friends started chatting about the usual Hogwarts gossip, Draco’s eyes started to wander. He was searching the crowd for someone. You. Were you here? Did you even like parties? Draco had no idea. You always looked quite social from what he witnessed.

And there you were – standing in a group of people, listening to Granger who was gesticulating wildly. You were holding a drink and laughing at whatever the other girl told you. Draco noticed from across the room how your eyes were gleaming, your face red from the alcohol. You looked so careless. He swallowed hard at the sight.

“He’s either staring at Weasley, the mudblood or Y/L/N,” Zabini said to the others in that moment. “Don’t know what’s worse.”

Draco needed a second to understand his friends were talking about him. “What did you just say?” He turned to them.

Zabini grinned widely at him. “I said, you’re staring at the Gryffindors again, Draco. It’s fucking weird. What’s your sudden obsession with them?”

Draco quickly glanced at the rest of his friends. Daphne, Theodore and Pansy watched the two of you with a smirk on their lips, maybe even suppressing a giggle. Astoria looked at Draco with a worried expression.

“No, what did you just say?”, Draco repeated his question, straightening up slightly. “What did you call Granger?”

Blaise snorted. “What?”

Draco just stared at him.

“I called her a mudblood,” Blaise gave a half shrug.

“Yeah, what the fuck, Blaise,” Draco spat out.

“Come on, Dray,” Theodore tried to intervene. “It’s no big deal.”

“It is!” He looked at him, visibly disgusted.

“What’s your problem, Draco?”, Blaise raised an eyebrow, shifting from one leg to another. “You called her a mudblood for years and now you suddenly have a problem with it? You’re acting so weird this year, seriously.”

Before Draco was able to reply, Astoria carefully placed her hand on his arm. It took all the strength he had, not to immediately shake her off. “Come on,” she said softly. “Let’s get you a new drink and calm down.” She pulled him a few steps away from the group.

Draco gritted his teeth, remembering what he had thought about not being able to talk to his old friends. They understood – and also they didn’t.

“Are you okay, Draco?” Astoria asked, still looking slightly alarmed.

Draco looked at her. Did she want to hear an honest answer? “Sure,” he finally said.

She didn’t buy it. “You’ve been acting strange for a while now.”

“I’m really not.”

“Draco,” she reached for his hand. “I know you.”

He sighed and rubbed his eyes with his free hand. “Can we … can we not talk about this now? Here? With all these people around us?”

“There’s always a reason not to talk so we might as well do it here,” she pressed on.

Draco could think of a thousand different things he’d rather do than talk to her right now. “I’m … I’m not acting strange. It’s just a lot. With my parents and all that.”

Her smile changed from worried to pity. “I understand.” Did she? “That’s why I think we should move on.”

What kind of weird reaction was this? “Move on?”, Draco frowned.

“With our engagement.”

“Right.”

Astoria squeezed his hand. “I don’t see why we can’t just make it official.”

Draco looked at her fingers as if he was searching for a ring that he had forgotten existed. “Because the whole thing isn’t official yet,” he slowly said.

The brunette let go of his hand. “It’s going to happen anyways. My parents won’t stop talking about it and I bet it’s no different for your mother.”

Draco just wanted to get out of this situation. He got dragged here and now it was just one big argument. Why couldn’t they have stuck to gossiping and partying? “Why during school though?”

He saw how Astoria stared at the ground for a moment. When she started speaking again, her voice had become a little colder. “You know, there are a lot of men who would jump at this opportunity. My family is well respected and yours is …”

Draco let out a short whistle. “Thanks, Astoria,”

Astoria was visibly uncomfortable and Draco wondered if she regretted what she had just said. “That’s not how I meant it and you know that, Dray. I just don’t understand why this takes you so long.”

Draco put his hands on hips, pushing his jacket back. “Excuse me if I’m wrong,” he started, “But I’m not exactly your first choice either, am I?”

The girl didn’t answer right away. When she did though, Draco wanted to laugh at the sheer absurdity. “It’s not about what I want. It’s about what my parents want. Pureblood marriages will happen less and less in the future so we will be a good union.”

“Right,” Draco mumbled with a sad smile. It’s all about the family.

Astoria cleared her throat. “Well, are there any reasons why we shouldn’t move on?”

“Yes, there are.”

This didn’t come from Draco or Astoria. Irritated by the sudden interruption, he turned around to see who had so rudely eavesdropped on the conversation.

You.

***

A/N: Even though I wrote this, I really felt for Draco in this chapter. His life (like so many other characters lives in HP) is so f****** up. Sorry but I can’t find a better word for it. Poor Draco. Anyways - I hope you liked it!! I’d love to hear what you think <3 I love reading your comments *-* (if you don’t comment or do anything, it’s fine, don’t worry, I just love to read your thoughts <3)

CHAPTER 6

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Third gym squad with a theater kid s/o:

Kuroo Tetsurou

Tbh, he knew what he was signing up for when he started dating you.

He’s just not used to it, because he doesn’t have many extroverted friends who aren’t annoying pieces of-

I can envision you both going on the hub to watch pirated musicals. Hamilton, Heathers, Dear Evan Hansen, you name it.

He loooves your singing voice, even if it’s your nervous purposely bad one.

You love the musicals that include allll the good stuff (trauma, death, tragedy, etc.)

Or the iconic ones. You can’t forget about those.

So you’re less-than-thrilled when your school chooses “Honk! The Musical” for this years play.

It’s a spin off of the ugly duckling that no one has heard of.

And when you come up to Kuroo sulking about this boring play you’re emotionally obliged to do, he can’t help but laugh a little.

But his laughter stops when he sees your eyes down at your shoes.

And then he shuts the fuck up because you’re actually upset.

After assuring that you will still be Broadway material even if you’re dressed up as a goose, you feel a little better.

In the two weeks leading up to auditions, Kuroo is starting to get caught humming “A Poultry Tale” at practice.

I mean, his Spotify feed went from Kendrick Lamar to Legally Blonde within one month of dating you, so cut the guy a break.

The day of auditions, you’re a bundle of nerves as you go over the dumb song again and again.

And Kuroo is like “calm down babe you’re gonna do great.”

That sure did a ton.

“Shut up Heather”

...

“Sorry Heather”

He’s also a bundle of nerves at practice, though. He just couldn’t let you see it.

By now, all of the Nekoma team knows you’re auditioning today, and the minute he walks in he just holds up a hand.

“They’re auditioning as we speak”

He’s not surprised when you get the lead.

He looks like the cat who ate the canary he’s a little amused when he figures out the lead is named “Ugly” but by now he has learned to keep it on the inside.

Your schedule is now jam packed, but that’s okay, because Nationals are also coming up for Kuroo and needs to put in some extra hours at the gym anyways.

You better believe two months later Kuroo is making his entire team buy a ticket.

Kuroo didn’t even get to see you on opening night because of dress rehearsals, but that’s okay.

He cleared his entire schedule that day and now has time to wallow in his own excitement and buy you some flowers.

He’s there with the squad team at 6PM sharp, dressed up, and trying to keep his dignity.

When you first walk on stage, the team snickers a little bit at your costume, but Kuroo was completely enraptured by your singing voice, your blocking, your makeup, everything.

This was much better than the demo CD that they had given you.

Afterwards, he gives you your flowers and is glued to your side for the rest of the night, babbling about how proud he was of you, and how talented you are, Nekoma team be damned.

Tsukishima Kei

Tsukki-poo already had a soft spot for the arts before he met you.

Not that he would tell anyone, ever.

When you started dating him though, it gave him an excuse to share his favorite soundtracks.

“you can hit that note, you know.”

*cue the arguing about how you aren’t Barbara Streisand*

When you two are walking through the hallway with him and you see the poster reading “Auditions for Karasuno High School’s ‘The Little Mermaid’ are open!” You start freaking out.

You love that movie! And Kei tolerates it!

Kei honestly thought you would be Ariel/Prince Eric when he first heard you singing “Part of Your World”

Like, you have the voice of a fucking lark. The directors have to be batshit crazy not to cast you.

In his humble opinion.

So he’s a bit taken aback when you get the role of Flounder, but he’s very proud anyways. Especially after you explain that there’s musical numbers that you’re in that aren’t in the movie.

He just hates your director for no reason now.

Practicing your lines with him in your free time becomes almost inevitable because you both have nothing else better to do.

And he can see how into it you are.

And let me just say that you are killing it.

Seriously. You have no problem getting into character, and Kei doesn’t say this much but-

It’s fucking adorable, okay? He has little goth moths in his stomach.

And he can’t wait to see the show, because then he can show you off.

That doesn’t mean he likes the other first years prying at your progress.

Hinata’s incessant questioning about theater anatomy and the memorization of your lines gets really annoying.

Even for someone with a normal temper like you-

“Yes it’s called the right wing. NOT wing spiker. Yes they’re off book. Now will you shut your trap already?”

Dress Rehearsals come, and you’re spinning around his room, face morphing from complete concentration to happy, go-lucky Flounder.

You, Kei, and Yamaguchi (your little third wheel-) all know the soundtrack pretty much up and down, left and right, backwards and inside out.

He still shivers remembering the time you just walked into his house not registering that Flounder’s makeup looks kind of scary up close-

All of his pride was sacrificed that day. All of it.

On the morning of opening night, Kei was walking you to the school, pretending to be bitchy about it being on a Saturday.

“C’mon, what am I supposed to do all day?”

As luck would have it, he’s stuck sitting next to one Hinata Shoyo. Lovely.

So he sat down next to him, and ignored him the whole show. I mean, it worked, he shut up after thirty seconds.

After the show, Kei has to wait a bit for you to take your makeup off, but when you come running out, he can’t hold back a tiny grin.

“That was good. I’m proud of you.”

And then he took you to dinner because singing makes a bad bleep hungry 😌

Bokuto Kotarou

Listen, you’re loud, Bokuto’s loud-

So basically you two are on a mission to not annoy Akaashi for as long as you can before inevitably getting yelled at for your affection and love and shit.

Now, both of you would love for this to be possible.

But the Frozen soundtrack makes it too difficult.

Especially when you can edit the lyrics just to piss off Konoha.

“Turn away and slAm the door *on Konoha”

“The wind is howling like the storm inside *of Konoha”

The possibilities are endless, really.

The game changer is when you two are belting out the song where Elsa and Anna are arguing.

And you accidentally hit the “I-i-I CANNNNT”

Akaashi is like for the love of GOD just audition for the play.

He quickly realizes that his suggestion was not a good idea.

Since guess what the musical is.

You’re auditioning as a joke, okay? You love Frozen, but this is a Fukurōdani Academy level play.

You didn’t expect to land the role of Olaf.

Your director sat you down and bluntly told you that he thought that you had the charisma and energy to be Olaf, but he knew that you were auditioning for a joke.

He needed you to be committed.

And hell yeah, you were gonna be committed.

At first, Bokuto was super proud of you! His s/o as a lead role? So impressive!

You even taught Bokuto your choreography for “In Summer”

He only retained half of it, but eh.

He’s a volleyball player. He tried.

As rehearsal times became longer and longer, Bokuto was a little upset at himself because he didn’t realize how committed you were until it hit him in the face.

Akaashi is there to get him out of his funk when you aren’t, though.

“They feel the same way when you need to be in the gym longer. It’s just a part of having a passion. Just utilize your time with them wisely.”

This bitch knows full well Bokuto doesn’t do ‘wise’ though, so he also sets to him a little more.

Dress rehearsals start, and Bokuto is always waiting for you to come out of the auditorium to ride the bus home.

You’re just bubbling over with stories about the magic of being on stage.

The lights, the microphones, the costumes, just talking about it makes you nostalgic already.

On opening night, Bokuto and Akaashi are there in the front row, going through the program.

“There’s y/n!!!!”

And you can’t see him because of the blinding spotlight, but you can hear Bokuto cheering for you after you finish “In Summer”

Afterwards he gives you a big hug, and you guys go home and watch Frozen.

Akaashi Keiji

When you start dating Akaashi in your second year at Fukurōdani, you’ve been on stage for the last ten years of your life.

Singing, acting, dancing, you love it all.

You’re even considering making it your career.

Akaashi doesn’t know much about theater at all, but he makes sure to do his research since it’s such a big part of your life.

The company you take acting classes with is having their winter show soon, and you couldn’t be happier when you figure out it’s ‘Into the Woods.’

Akaashi makes the mistake of asking the plot of the story.

“So basically there are these two infertile bakers with dead parents and there’s this witch that’s old and wrinkly and she comes to their house because fifty years ago the bakers dad stole her veggies and took the magic beans that made her look old and wrinkly-“

(A/n: this isn’t even half the plot)

He decides he’ll figure it out when he sees the play.

Akaashi knows that it’s a difficult one, though.

Sondheim doesn’t fuck around.

So you shouldn’t be beating yourself up about cracking on some of the high notes and screaming into your pillow.

He feels like an idiot every time you ask him to give you constructive criticism.

He doesn’t know what to say. “That was good” is obviously not what you want to hear.

When the date of your audition rolls around, he has early morning practice.

So he sends you a text saying how far you’ve come already and he’ll be proud even if you end up being a tree and break a leg (he’s very proud of that part. Theater lingo with Akaashi 101)

He’s very pleased to hear through your extremely fast and animated chattering that you killed it.

You were going to be Jack from “Jack and the Beanstalk.”

He’s still not sure how that correlates with infertile bakers, but he’ll go with it.

You also have a notoriously hard solo, “Giants in the sky.”

Akaashi is very impressed.

All you two do is practice that song, until Akaashi is half sure he could sing the song if he really gave an effort.

(He tries seriously one time. He can’t sing. To save his life. Sorry Keiji and RIP y/n’s ears.)

“Maybe you’re just not a soprano?”

“I’ll leave the limelight to you.”

Rehearsals always leave you drained. There are so many dance numbers in the play that you have to go over.

And songs, oh god, the songs are pieces of work.

But you wouldn’t trade it for the world, so Keiji stays close, and is endlessly supportive.

You sent him a picture of your Jack costume, and Keiji is like that is kind of adorable ngl-

He walks into the auditorium you’re performing in, and even he’s nervous to be in there. It’s huge.

But when you walk on the stage, and start belting, all the breath leaves his lungs.

Oh. Ohhhhhhh. He understands the plot now.

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[astrologichole]

the signs and their best qualities

Aries: selfless, adventurous, the hardest workers ever, cares a lot, extremely helpful, their wisdom is so unexpected but valuable, will go to great lengths to protect the people they love, charming, magnetic, will prove you wrong so don’t even try arguing with them, relentless and driven, will stop at nothing to achieve their goals even if their goals seem impossible, very sure of themselves, would probably actually kill for you

Taurus: smart as hell, really relaxed but never boring, unexpectedly creative, surprising, can be very romantic when they’re in love, always willing to try new things, funny as hell, the most sarcastic and snarky people, generally cool people with a diverse perspective, music taste is impeccable, don’t even bother trying to argue with them because their logic and debate skills are unnaturally advanced, up front and genuine, doesn’t like to bullshit people, go to them for honesty and good advice

Gemini: will give those they love everything they need, observant, not afraid to stand up for themselves, go getters in general, really silly (sometimes morbid) humor and generally fun to be around, strong, compelling, really interesting people with lots of “useless” knowledge and fun facts, knows more than they show, they’re often the most victimized sign but in reality they’re just really misunderstood because they themselves don’t understand who they are but that’s part of their charm

Cancer: the absolute most selfless, always figures out a solution even when it doesn’t seem possible, can win over anyone, timeless, they’re probably the most magnetic sign because of how fucking great their personalities are, well-rounded, wouldn’t kill for you, but would emotionally torment someone for you, knows how you feel before you even know how you feel, dreamy, honestly just lovely people, their endurance for people’s bullshit is above and beyond, even though they’re emotionally sensitive, they connect on a very deep and empathetic level and may appear disheveled but are actually pretty aware of what they feel

Leo: their minds.....ugh, one of the most underestimated signs in terms of their creativity and emotional toll, committed until the very end, when they’re in love they’re actually pretty big babies and will 100% surprise you with their sensitive nature, natural leaders but even if they’re more on the subdued side, leos still have a natural knack for understanding people on a level that enables them to move through (especially) their careers, relationships and so forth, self-aware and unafraid of judgment as judgment only adds to their constant inner quest for self understanding, stereotypical leos are known as being out there and brave, but often times leo’s want to be acknowledged for their ability to withhold themselves and be more in control than they let off

Virgo: they remember everything...everything, they’re really the baddest bitches out there, incredibly smart and determined, gives the best advice, will tell it like it is and doesn’t care to hold back what they see as true, their actions are their love language and those actions are priceless, they honestly live thirty years in the future and are really prepared even if they don’t know what they’re prepared for, while they can sometimes come off as grounded and engrained in the more serious aspects of life, virgos are actually incredibly sensitive and imaginative and are never given enough credit for their visions and virtues, able to navigate tricky situations, fearless

Libra: babies, extremely lovable, quietly powerful, not just smart but incredibly wise, gentle and caring, living, breathing fairytale people, extremely giving and gracious, even though they’re indecisive, they’ll alway try their best to make the most well intentioned decisions, they just kind of get it, can analyze you in 2 seconds and suddenly know everything about your deep rooted childhood traumas (I don’t understand how but they just do), they’re people pleasers so they’re very social, but their truest selves come out most when they can connect to someone who genuinely understands them and vice versa, they’re very tired so expect lots of naps and quality relaxation time with them, peaceful angels

Scorpio: the absolute most stubborn and unrelenting sign and while that could be a negative quality, its positive attributes are that they will not stop until they’re understood and will be wildly loyal to their morals and standards even if those moral and standards are a bit unaligned with everyone else’s, highly individualistic but can blend in easily if they want to, passionate, when they’re in love they’re in love for good (the perfect soulmates), critical for the best reasons, they don’t like to sugar coat and want to give the best advice possible while still keeping things very real, adaptable, their mind is everywhere and with that they are an endless landscape of imagination, visions, and characters all weaved within this one beautiful mind

Sagittarius: they’re just here to have a good time, would 10000% kill for you, steal for you, probably commit treason for you but they’re chillin, will go to great lengths to understand others and the world around them, cultural and diverse, very social but they also know when to pull back and seek comfort from themselves, they know how important self-awareness is and constantly seek out who they are and what they aim to be, refuses to be tied down to any one thing (not to suggest they’re incapable of finding a solid relationship, rather, they need someone who can match their unrelenting speed and drive for life), truly goes with the flow and lets life lead them rather than lead their own life

Capricorn: doesn’t seem like they’re psycho analyzing you, but they're 100% psycho analyzing you, scary smart, the hardest working sign, they’re often considered as a bit stiff and lacking vulnerability, but on the inside, capricorns are complex and other worldly and really want to be understood, they can endure and manage just about anything, is unexpectedly very artistic and deeply understanding of the emotions their art depicts, committed and responsible, incredibly reliable, they don’t like to cancel plans or ghost people, but sometimes they need time to themselves and can be susceptible to those things which is perfectly fine because capricorns deserve a bit of a departure from their usual selves, the type of person you think about even if you don’t talk to them for a long time

Aquarius: cares a lot about social issues and pressing matters, optimistic, efficient with time, not afraid to try new things, a people person (pretty popular), very free spirited, very in tune with their morals and virtues, easy to relate to when they’re vulnerable with those they’re close with, mysterious and adaptable, truly the chameleon of the zodiac signs, great listeners and even better speakers, can dictate a conversation even through silence (it’s never awkward), sometimes has a hard time loving others deeply but has an everlasting love for life so it’s cool

Pisces: also babies, empathetic and kind, dreamy, intuitive and observant, goes out of their way for the people they love (or strangers, they just like making sure everyone is comfortable), good listeners, will make you fall in love with them without them even knowing it, sensitive to other’s feelings and morals, socially aware, overall very sweet but also very encyclopedic and aware of social and political matters (can debate you under the table), will 100% take you away from reality

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