#damaged heart

[jstor]

Happy Valentine's Day! Here's an engraving of the damaged heart of George II (1761), just for you. From the always fascinating Open: Wellcome Collection on JSTOR. Creative Commons: Attribution.

#valentines day #heart #damaged heart #wellcome collection #<3 #jstor #anatomical illustration #anatomical heart #engraving #isn't everyone's heart damaged a little bit?

[morbid-barbie]

#damaged heart #you broke my heart #heartbroken #heartbreak #breakup #bpd #love #borderline personality disorder #mental illness #sadness #sad text #broken #heartache #text message #personal #why do i even try #why dont you stay #why dont you love me #depressed #numbness #pain #devestating #gut wrenching #heart wrenching #ex bf #discarded #npd abuse #emotional abuse #ghosted #abandoned

[twewycrim3s]

Sora what happened to you?!

An AU happened

Short story roughly to be posted soon? Not sure

#digital art #john's art #kingdom hearts #kh sora #sora #art #damaged heart #KingdomHearts AU #illustration #drawing

[hekateinhell]

me, 10 minutes before a meeting: I crave pain

oh, there it is:

#DAMAGED HEART #they damaged MY heart #devastated #vc #the vampire chronicles #otp #quotes

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[thequeenofmyownscreen]

You know the plan is going great when the DM does this :

#I love the captions (and the people doing it) with my WHOLE HEART #critical role #cr spoilers #cr campaign 3 #CRE3E90 #it took me forever to capture those captions but WORTH IT #are we in Keyfish territory in termes of damage ? I'll check #[edit : no we are not. Keyleth took 363 points of damage going down that cliff that one glorious time]

[chronicowboy]

we as a collective do Not talk about this line delivery nearly enough and for good fucking reason, i'll kill bradley james for this one line alone. he's just a little boy :'((

#sami rambles #like. he's still the same little kid who didn't really know what it was to be looked after/cared for/doted on #at the heart of him he's still just that lonely young boy who always had to earn people's attention #or just take whatever he got for the simple fact of being the king's son :/ #even after so long he's still not used to merlin's love. and now. now he can't see what he's ever done to deserve it #seeing everything all at once and he just. he needs answers before he goes. #he's just a little boy asking 'why' to prolong his bedtime a few moments more #oh fuck. just caused irreparable damage to myself with that last one ahaha #merlin #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #bradley james

[auvra]

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH #MY FATHER GUYS ITS MY FAYHER SHEN JIU #SHEN JIUUUUU WHERE IS HE #Guys I'm hysterical #shen jiu #svsss #scum villain #scumbag self saving system #scum villain self saving system #this danmei was my first danmei it has a special place in my heart #as much as I like sqq our resident unreliable narrator I want shen jiu still #I hope you're happy somewhere 😭 #I get psychic and emotional damage every time I think of you

[arunneronthird]

okay fine i can deal with damian being a weeb but he'll be one on MY TERMS

#boys gonna have TASTE or so GOD HELP ME #if u dont know that manga hes holding is chainsaw man #its REALLY good and i deeply recommend it #in terms of writing its a 10 in terms of emotional damage its ripping ur heart out and spitting on it #damian wayne #robin #batman #dc comics #my art #im such a fucking annoying weeb dude i was gonna put the cover on the right so it showed more but nooooo #my brain went BUT MANGAS ARE THE OTHER WAY AROUND i hate everything #ladies. gentlemen. you have eaten well.

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

it is. so weird to me that I'm having to say this again after a real-life cartoon supervillian already once ran for president on a platform of hatred & fascism and won, but.

it's November, please fucking vote

#not a shitpost #serious post #this election cycle will DETERMINE what legislation gets passed #it will DETERMINE THE FUTURE OF ABORTION RIGHTS AND GAY MARRIAGE AND OTHER LGBTQ+ PROTECTIONS #the supreme court plans to destroy as much progress as possible and that means we have to rely on congress to protect those rights #which they can only do if the Dems control the senate and the house #we are in FULL BLOWN DAMAGE CONTROL MODE here #especially because it is still somehow perfectly possible and actually probable #that the festering pile of garbage in human form who recently tried to overthrow the government will end up back on the ballot in 2024 #we still haven't recovered from 4 years of trump and if we don't show up at the polls it is perfectly possible we will get another 4 years #vote this november to protect basic human rights #and vote in november 2024 so we don't have to survive another 4 years under trump #because many of us--the most vulnerable of us--won't survive. and many many more will suffer #vote to protect yourself and your neighbors. vote to protect those who most need protection. #vote because it is the right thing to do #vote out of kindness #and vote out of spite--because billionaires are spending insane amounts of money to prevent you from voting #so tell them to get fucked and vote anyway #do it out of spite and do it out of heart and do it out of rage and do it out of love #show up #us politics

[morbid-barbie]

I have this reoccurring dream, or nightmare.

Could be classified as both, but sometimes I just wonder what if.

Not in a yearning or romantic way; but what if there was an opportunity for a different outcome? Would that have mattered at all?

Or would we have been damned regardless of the attempts?

I found myself thinking about the time when we were friends, you were stuck in a hurricane down in Florida, and I remembered being so worried about your safety. It consumed my mind to know if you were okay or not.

You somehow found a nest in my heart and made yourself a home. But in that home, there were cracks. The foundation wasn’t solid.

And I hesitated, I remember being scared that you were getting close. I didn’t want that to happen; I knew the risks.

But the foolish hopeless romantic in me, couldn’t fight it; truthfully, I don’t know if I even really wanted to?

I remember the way you lightly touched my neck for the first time.

It was the first time you had touched anybody in a long time, and there was something so innocent in the way you touched me.

I remember feeling every intense spark, the undeniable chemistry.

I was happy.

But look at where that got me.

From being told I would never be given up on; how scared you were to lose me—

to being left behind so quickly.

Abandoned when I needed you most.

I was so angry. I can’t adequately explain the emotion I felt.

It was all-consuming.

Abandonment wounds triggered, the home I felt rapidly taken away leaving a hole where you placed it.

Sleepless nights. No appetite.

Eager for the day that we would talk again.

You said “give me some space if you want me back.” So I did.

But you never planned on actually coming back. It was a tactic to make me go away.

Everything you did afterwards was to get rid of me.

I was too naïve to realize that at the time.

I didn’t want to believe that.

I guess part of me was hoping that you had actually loved me the way I had loved you.

But you didn’t, and deep down I knew that.

A story as old as time.

You sold me a partial fairytale and I bought it. There was no perfection in our story.

You treated me like I was the scum on the bottom of your shoe the second you were done and I was discarded.

And if you don’t see that for what it is, then we have two very different lens. two stories on parallel planes.

I’ve learned to let go of you, my anger toward you… but sometimes I just get glimpses of what remains,

memories.

11. 01. 23– a message I’ll never send

#spilled soul #spilled secrets #spilled heart #spilled writing #spilled prose #damaged heart #heartbreak prose #heart break #bpd #npd #npd abuse #it still hurts #broken promises #broken heart #a letter #spilled ink #personal #recovery #writblr #writers community #poets and writers #bpd heartbreak #break up #how could you #you’ll never know #you’ll never see this #memories

[dawnatlas]

I really think the damage caused by learning jean had a sister and then 20-odd pages later finding out she's been dead for years while jean was being tortured in a cult is completely unrepairable. ill never stop thinking about them.

they never got to grow up together. she would've been 15 in tsc. hes still a teenager and she never even got to be one. this is the only universe jean didn't kill himself, so it's the only universe he learns about her fate and has to live with that knowledge. FUCK

#i need to draw them again #i know that dead hearts piece caused a lot of damage to yall but im not even near done #i love siblings and all the forms they take #j&e might be one of my favorites yet #all the things they could've had #all the things they'll never have #im insane #ramble #aftg #tsc #tsc spoilers #the sunshine court #jean moreau #elodie moreau

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

best friendisms

bonus <3

#do you think they have heart-shaped bff locket necklaces #barnaby has a picture of wally in his. wally's has a picture of an apple #no one told him he was supposed to put a pic of barnaby in it </3 tragic </3 #now if you all will excuse me im gonna go eat tylenol cereal and also shove my head through the wall #they make me Unwell <3 #Supremely Unwell <3 #theyre!!! theyre besties!!! they are best friends!!! holy shit!!! #sniffling sobbing wailing crawling on the ceiling etc etc #what a time to be alive... to be able to Appreciate them.... #big guy & his lil buddy.... OUAAWOOOOOOOOOOO AGHHHHH OUGHHHHHHHH #i think about barnaby and wally. i take minecraft damage #my healthbar has been dangerously low lately <3 #scribble garnish #welcome home #barnaby b beagle #wally darling #welcome home puppet show #sobbing vfx. glass breaking vfx. car crash vfx. banshee wailing vfx- #if anything happens to them i will #Enjoy It Greatly!!! #i will! it would hurt So Fucking Much but id have a great time! #anyway drawing this took ten years off my life. at first i scribbled barnaby's paw Backwards #so i had to completely change half of it #and just. sigh. i Was gonna color it but it took more energy than i thought it would #and really! who has the Energy these days!!! certainly not me! #there are still Mistakes but yk.... whatever... its fine perfection is an impossible achievement anyway <3

[tortelorrini]

OH, JUST ANOTHER ONE IN A LONG LINE OF NO ONES

#tw g0re #dndads #dungeons and daddies #nick close #dndads glenn close #dndads taylor swift #dndads Meryl Streep #my goofy goobers #my art #the song referenced in this is friends in low places by worthikids #worthikids you will forever be famous… #OH and Meryl has his hand pushing Glenn’s chest because that was Glenn’s injury #his heart exploding I mean #they are all connected by the damage done to them by others #or something

[ihavesomejays]

roll with it

the aventurine trailer???? so ill so ill so ill im on my knees he had one hand behind his back the whole time i'm shaking and sobbing and yes i am aware of that one random stroke on the bottom right but i drew this all on three layers so i can't fix it sorry folks

closeups below keep reading

#artwork #digital art #doodle #art #rkgkillust #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr fanart #illustration #aventurine #hsr aventurine #legitimately so sick over this trailer #my boy... #protect him #he feels fear #i have so many thoughts about his unhealthy relationship with risk-taking #all in he says #meanwhile im on my knees crying in the corner #sorry boothill he has my heart #and my e1s1 acheron has my damage so #shrugs it is what it is #also why do hsr designs have to be so godawfully complex #the only way i manage to draw them is to simplify them to hell and back

[ultrabreaksounddownwavemagnus]

"Hello my old heart"

#transformers #transformers fanart #transformers prime #tfp ratchet #ratchet #tf ratchet #tfp #maccadam #maccadams #sad old man feelings got to me #for maximum psychic damage imagine this in the context of optiratch post predacons rising #hello my old heart by the oh hellos is to blame for that #fun fact this was just supposed to be a quick sketch #it very rapidly became not just a sketch #sy does art on occasion