#disabled academic

[enbycrip]

I spent the entire weekend in bed there. Literally just got up for a 15 minute conversation we had about potentially going to IKEA to get some stuff for Plan Turn Spare Room Into A Usable Space Instead of a Giant Cupboard With a Window, got a tape measure, measured one bit of the room, got dizzy, had to lie down on the floor and then crawl back to bed.

I spent big chunks of Saturday asleep because I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open. I got a small bit of writing done for Against the Dying of the Light (queer post-apocalyptic zombie larp I’m Co-running in under a month now argharghargh) and sewed half a patch on some dungarees. Otherwise I listened to a lot of podcasts, played a bunch of mobile games and cuddled my OH a lot.

I mean, I clearly needed it. I’ve managed to get up, get dressed, clean the bathroom and dust the bedroom already today, which is more than I achieved the entire weekend.

One of my podcasts, The Constant, which I was bingeing this weekend, did a bit of a deep dive into Darwin on some of the episodes I was listening to. It was talking about his deep study of barnacles - Darwin was instrumental in discovering they were crustaceans rather than molluscs.

But it went into Darwin’s letters while he was discovering this and how frustrating he found the process because he was chronically ill with Chagas’ Disease and never had more than a couple of hours a day when he was capable of working. Sometimes much less.

I *really* needed to hear that this weekend.

Trying to study when you are just so fucking ill that you are capable of Doing Stuff so few hours in a day is so bloody heartrending sometimes. The level of sheer frustration in “I have SO FUCKING MUCH TO DO AND YET APPARENTLY I’M NOT EVEN CAPABLE OF SEWING A SEAM OR WRITING IN A STRAIGHT LINE WHILE LYING FLAT” is almost impossible to convey.

I *really* hate how much the experiences of disabled people who do manage to achieve stuff (usually because of class/wealth privilege) are absolutely erased. The way “if you can do something you obviously were never disabled at all!” is so baked into our society really gets to me.

How many people think of Darwin as a disabled person? Or Frida Kahlo? How much of the vast majority of their life experiences are flattened out into nothingness because they achieved things that made it into the public consciousness?

#disabled #chronic illness #chronically ill #charles darwin #frida kahlo #disabled erasure #disability #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #autistic adult #the constant podcast #Chagas’ disease #disabled academic #my fucking dissertation #argh argh argh

[audhd-student]

War and Peace and the urge to murder the next person to tell me to meditate

#neurodivergent #actually autistic #disabled academic #disability #actually adhd #dyslexic

[coolwyou]

041623 | long overdue updates!

it has been quite a while since i last updated. i had a horrible first semester of grad school, and spent this semester really trying to fix that! i wen through the medical withdrawal process and managed to do well so far. one class is a pass/fail class which helps a lot, and the other one is an introductory class so it's not as rigorous. other than that, school is pretty steady now! i'm taking the summer off to hopefully work or do an internship for a little bit (:

i am set to take a normal course load next semester, which i hope i can keep up with. i'm going to keep in touch as often as i can and hopefully save up enough to get all my appointments done and get adequate paperwork for some disability accommodations next semester. thankfully, one class is synchronous online, and another class is only meeting in-person every other week! it really helps me to not have to leave the house every week and just be comfortable at home.

anyway, i'm updating my theme (the struggle to find a cute and functioning one) and about section a bit! the biggest edits were adding links to show the planner i am using for 2023 and that i started bullet journaling! i'm not too great at it, and it's really just a book of "trackers" (i track things like video game daily logins, medical stuff, and my mood) but i hope maybe next year i can add a sort of scrapbook component to it! also, i made a cute things side blog! :D

as for my personal updates, i'll put those under the cut!

i have been doing okay! health-wise, i am doing quite badly, and upgraded from a cane to a walker (everyone thinks it's unfortunately comedic, because for years i called myself a little old lady, and now i really resemble one!). i also got a platinum pass to seaworld because it is a really happy place for me lately (love to go through it at my own pace, watch some shows, eat some park food, and just in general sit around it lol).

i'm seeing two of my partners soon! they're coming to visit and we're going to have a lot of fun i hope! i have an awful complex about living where i do, so i'm trying very very hard to make their stay nice. it's hopefully going to help me power through finals and inspire me to save up to visit them in the summer/early autumn too.

some random thoughts to end this post: i'm loving two songs a lot right now, nmixx's love me like this and ive's i am. they're both different overall vibes but they are both so fun to me! i also have been playing a lot of virtual jigsaw puzzles and just finished two 1000+ piece ones, and starting a new one. i am really loving sticker-by-number books too! i'm currently doing a dog one and it's so cute!!

#kayos daily recap #graduate studies #student life #studying #graduate school #student #grad school #study tumblr #university blog #university student #university #academic #academics #disabled academic #student blog #new studyblog #new studyblr

[the-wynorrific-creature]

Little things that make me feel chaotic/punk academia

From your friendly dash neighbourhood punk academic

* Drinking fancy teas out of a sailor moon cup

* Drinking lemon water (drink more water bro) out of a Guinness cup

* Playing rock music while doing homework (especially French hw)

* Studying modern poetry and psychoanalysis for some reason

* NOT doing drugs because Donna tart and the punk scene romanticised that way too much

* Sewing patches onto dress pants

* Wearing crusty converse

* Downloading music because hell nah I’m not paying for Apple Music

* Taking a walk in the city, looking at the street art while listening to tech music

* Going to a street art museum

* Being gay and excelling at maths

* Turning all my assignments into an analysis of why capitalism sucks

* Ands its roots in misogyny and classism

* Going to thrift stores only for the band tees and the cool jewellery

* Falling asleep at my desk

* Lighting halloween candles

* Notes scattered everywhere and in the most random places

* REVENGE STUDYING

Hope you enjoyed the silly post and remember always support other people and UP THE PUNX

—written by Xanny

#disabled student #study #studyblr #chaotic academia #punk academia #dark academic aesthetic #dark academia #light academia #light acadamia aesthetic #classic academia #academia aesthetic #academicsuccess #revenge studying

[aro-culture-is]

aro culture is celebrating, uplifting the voices of, and practicing advocacy with the disabled people in our lives this disability pride month.

#aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod phoenix #disability pride month #also a book recommendation for y'all: Academic Ableism: Disability and Higher Education by Jay Timothy Dolmage #it's somewhat USAmerican and Euro-centric due to... y'know... the general structure of Higher Education worldwide #but it's got a very informative and frank discussion right off the bat about eugenics and the very recent history of incredibly terrible #ableism in the last century that was only rejected in word and sorta in spirit when eugenics became a core ideological facet of nazis #highly recommend that if you live in an area where you have access to a library / library system #that you check if they have access to it - and if they don't: request it! - and read even the first two chapters

[yourdailyqueer]

Barbara Kannapell (deceased)

Gender: Female

Sexuality: Lesbian

DOB: 14 September 1937  

RIP: 11 August 2021

Ethnicity: White - American

Occupation: Activist, sociolinguist, academic

Note 1: First to promote bilingualism as an educational philosophy for the education of deaf students and helped legitimize American Sign Language. First deaf person at Georgetown University to earn a PhD. in sociolinguistics. So much more.

Note 2: Was deaf

#Barbara Kannapell #lgbt history #Sign Language #lgbt #lesbianism #female #lesbian #1937 #rip #historical #white #activist #linguist #academic #first #deaf #disabled #popular #popular post

[autistic-duck]

(Very long post, sorry.)

I had an experience with a college professor last semester that really got me thinking about academics and ableism, specifically in college writing.

A few months ago, my class was having an open discussion, and I brought up an opinion that had been on my mind for a while.

I basically said, "There's a gap between college-level writing and the average person's reading level that we need to fill. Nobody should need to look up words every three seconds to understand a study that could affect their life, so we either need more people to rewrite these studies for the general public to understand, or these studies, in general, should be published with language that isn't so complicated."

My professor responded by saying something like, "Sure, that's a good goal. However, wouldn't a better goal be to raise the average person's reading level so that everyone can understand college-level writing?"

I (in my frantic and confused way) tried to bring up the fact that there are people born at a disadvantage in life. In fact, getting everyone to a perfect college reading level isn't a realistic goal. It certainly isn't for me, and I don't want it to have to be for other people. In fact, the professor who told me this also struggled to understand the chapters we were assigned to read in that class.

Really, it all comes down to this: college-level language is inaccessible.

Even more importantly, many people will never be able to understand most of the huge words thrown around in college writing.

At school, I am constantly told my writing style is "simple" and "easy to understand." This is something my classmates have told me isn't "bad" but just "different." However, I'm still insecure whenever someone mentions it because it is always pointed out. I use a smaller vocabulary, they seem to say, but don't worry. It's just a preferred writing style, they reassure me. They think the simple language is a choice I could stop at any time.

Well, what if it isn't just a "style"? What if I struggle to expand my vocabulary? Learning one new word takes me ages because I need to see it in all kinds of contexts. Even then, oftentimes "context clues" are no help, and I completely misinterpret the meaning of a word for years because it seems like every other native English speaker knew what it meant without needing to say it. A lot of the time I'll read the definition of a new word and instantly forget it after finishing the sentence it was in.

So yeah, I'll say it with pride: Simple words are powerful. Simple words are beautiful. And most importantly, simple words are not inferior in any way to words like "quintessential" or "expedient." (I have no idea what either of those words mean even though I've looked them up plenty of times and used them accurately in essays before.)

Simplicity is why I like shows meant for all ages better than shows meant only for adults. Because in shows that are written with children in mind, there aren't confusing messages you have to spend energy untangling. There aren't unnecessary analogies or feelings that are "implied" but never said. The characters' facial expressions and emotions are easy to read and the moments where I am confused are rare.

Now, this is all coming from an autistic person with low support needs. My reading comprehension score is considered slightly above average, and so is my problem-solving abilities which means I am lucky and I can understand a lot of what I read in college. The main point of this little "essay" was to point out a common conversation I despise hearing in college, the one about simple language and its implied inferiority.

Because guess what? Language is not accessible to everybody. Many of us, even those with high reading comprehension, struggle.

Our goal should never be to make everyone capable of reading college-level books and studies. That is asking for those who need accommodations to accommodate themselves, something I'm sure other disabled people are tired of having to do. Instead, the goal should be making college language more accessible, making knowledge accessible. After all, the reader is only a fragment of the conversation. The writer is the majority of it.

TLDR; Everyone deserves access to language and knowledge that makes sense, and bigger words never mean they are better.

#actually autistic #ableism #autism pride #autism awareness #actuallyautistic #autism #asd #learning disability #accessibility #disability #college #academics #university #student #autistic spectrum #autistic #autism spectrum disorder #autism spectrum #tw ableism

[werewolf-transgenderism]

I am fully out of the loop on the ableism discourse surrounding Ed, could you explain it to me like I'm 5? cos I dont understand your posts unfortunately at all :c

Well there are two strands I've seen floating around rn:

1: that Ed doesn't need the knee brace because it doesn't show up in the couple of full-body shots in the promotional material (ableist because it employs the myth that if you aren't using a mobility aid or piece of assistive tech at all times you don't need it at all or perhaps aren't even disabled; even if the knee brace IS just a costume detail referencing mad max that they haven't brought back for s2, this type of rhetoric harms actual disabled people like myself who need braces/mobility aids but not 24/7/365)

2: people are saying that reading the toe scene as it is narratively presented is ableist because disability isn't a punishment. this places the blame on individuals reading the scene's symbolism as it's presented (the toe scene is a narrative prosthesis symbolizing how Ed has been forced back into being Blackbeard, which he wants to leave behind -- he notes earlier that cutting off toes is explicitly part of the life he doesn't want to live anymore, and when Izzy threatens him back into it, the toe removal symbolizes this narrative shift).

the discourse around this moment conveniently ignores 1) the tone of the show surrounding maiming and violence (Lucius's finger doesn't get this treatment, for instance, nor does his being shoved overboard) and 2) the dynamics of the scene itself (Izzy threatens Ed into putting on the Blackbeard persona again, the Blackbeard persona requires responding to threats to authority with violence, Izzy's threats are thus met with violence which Izzy himself notes as part of the Blackbeard persona: "there he is," "Blackbeard is himself again" etc).

obviously disability as punishment is a problematic narrative device, but given the pirate context, the way the show frames violent masculinities, and the tone of both the scene and the show itself (at least pre-s2), it seems a very bad-faith reading to use this one moment of violence, take it out of its larger narrative context, and read it through an extremely ungenerous lens to villainize people who accurately read the narrative setup of the scene as "fuck around and find out." it also doesn't escape me that this antagonism is aimed at a specific portion of the audience and NOT at the writers who wrote this narrative prosthesis into the show (and it is also weaponized to demonize and dehumanize an indigenous man, so. do with that what you will)

#sorry this is so fucking long but. you know #also sorry to my followers for putting the izcourse on the dash. I personally would love not to see it but alas #as i do disability studies in my academic work the way people are reading these moments in ungenerous and antagonistic ways has been ugh #like the ableism/weaponizing accusations of ableism is just so egregious

[princessnijireiki]

it's always such a strange thing when people say stuff like, "oh, my developmental cognitive delay, mental illness, etc NEVER gets believed in, not like PHYSICALLY disabled people," or, "oh, I NEVER get accommodations for my physical conditions in school, not like other students' LEARNING disabilities," "THIS kind of thing I experienced is uniquely oppressive and one of many roots of evil in the world, other power structures & people in positions of authority are NOT as harmful as the one I experienced, and the world is soooo much nicer & easier to everybody & every kind of cripple except me"

like I know of all the social media platforms tumblr has the rep of being the pity party site, but while you truly may have suffered and nobody is here to diminish that, y'all are moving very weirdly through life

#just saw a post abt gym teachers being sooooo much more abusive creepy & underqualified than academic teachers #and how gym is useless & has NO accommodations unlike how in math or english student accoms. must be honored & material must be taught well #my baby your experiences are nawt universal lmao #and the weird ableist elitism & snobbery of it all is deeply bizarre #like i've had shitty gym teachers who were freaks about people's capacity skill disability etc but you think MATH is better?? bffr lol

[eyeinthemirror]

He is a nerd.

He is a badass.

He has a physical disability/deformity.

He has 12 PhDs.

I am him. I aspire to be like him.

#ford pines #stanford pines #stanford filbrick *i have twelve (12) phds and i am not afraid to use them* pines #gravity falls #I have fully and vehemently re-entered my gravity falls phase #nerds #PhD #disabled characters #nerdy characters #academics #dr. pines #dr. stanford pines #tortured academics #of course this has to be one of my life goals… #but #in all seriousness #one day I hope to complete my own doctoral degree #and contribute something new to a feild of study that never fails to excite my spirit #I have a long way to go yet #but I am a girl with a goal

[scleracentipede]

don’t worry Hugo he won’t bite… put your hands into his enclosure

#they are like a bitterly divorced old couple to me #you just know they had the most messy break up (academically speaking …or am I) #Hugo’s car got keyed and you know it #dr jonathan crane #Jonathan crane #scarecrow #poc! Hugo strange #hugo strange #artists on tumblr #queer artist #digital art #trans artist #disabled artist #batman #sceleraverse #arkham asylum #strangecrow #strangecrane

[enbycrip]

I handed in my end-of-year history Masters assignment last night a full 45ish minutes before the cutoff point, that’s me completed all the work for my first year! Half done!

It clocked in at just under 7300 words in the end, though a chunk of that was my research and reflection notes.

My next year is my dissertation year. I’m pretty sure I’m going to be building on the work I did on disability in the early modern period for this assignment, though I’d like to focus on Scotland if possible (not only because not much work seems to have been done on it; I live here, and that means undigitised records won’t mean a huge trip across the country before I find out if it’s *genuinely* accessible!)

My body doesn’t really believe it yet. I feel reasonably okay rn. When the crash hits, it’ll likely be like a lead zeppelin.

But, despite disability and chronic pain and chronic fatigue, I’ve survived my first year of postgrad!

#disabled #disability #postgrad studyblr #academia #disabled academic #disabled postgrad #disabled historian studying disabled history

[audhd-student]

I had my intake today for coaching to live alone next year and the vibes of the psychologists were immaculate

They laughed at my jokes about being agender, complemented my coping mechanisms, sympathised with my complaints about my university and had a giant box of fidget toys on the desk for me to use.

By the end of it they were like "we have no idea how people missed that you are an ADHD autistic, there is definitely a bias against fem presenting people but it's very obvious"

Also reaffirmed that I'm right to be angry at the adults who ignored me asking for help, and that I get to be as angry for as long as I need to process it

I went in expecting the worst and came out so happy!!!

I do have a general medical check up next month though and I'm not looking forward to it because needles :/

#disabled academic #accessibility #disability #neurodivergent #actually adhd #actually autistic #therapy #coping mechanisms

[coolwyou]

050922 | done!

i officially graduated! due to so much happening i really neglected this blog, but i am so happy to be able to say i am done. i got my BA, cum laude, and celebrated with friends and family.

now, i face the decision of which university to go to for grad school (if i can even afford it. the job search is dry). there are two programs i got accepted to and i am excited for, but each with cons to go with the pros. it will take some weighing of my options for sure. however, it's a nice problem to have! i have one interview this monday, and apply to minimum 3 jobs a day (there aren't many that are truly remote, disability-friendly, and within the scope of my skills).

other than that, i probably won't update this blog with any writing unless i have made my grad school decision, so maybe that will be soon or maybe it won't! we just have to see. i hope everyone has an easy time with finals and graduations if you're graduating!

#new studyblr #study tumblr #studyblr #college blog #university blog #university student #university #academic #academics #disabled academic #student blog #studying #student life #student #graduate #college graduate #graduation #grad school #graduates #graduate school #new studyblog #kayos daily recap

[mimikyu-chr]

this post can be about physical and mental disabilities, but mainly written with physical disability in mind

disabled people who are in higher education are awesome. we’re so cool for doing what abled people very often think we can’t and for having to fight against so much bullshit and you’re especially awesome if:

you couldn’t go to your first choice of university because of your disability

you had to defer your studies because of your disability

you had to take a break from your studies because of your disability

you couldn’t do your first choice of subject because of your disability

you’re having to balance how much you love your course with how much it’s going to hurt you in the long run

you can’t get the grades on your course that you’d like because of your disability

you had to leave your course because of your disability (me, i promise you that it wasn’t your fault that your course just wasn’t accessible and a good fit for your disability)

you’re studying in a field that you know is going to be hard to find an accessible job in (also me, both with what i used to study and what i’m going back to study next year)

you’ve studied your subject but your disability means you now can’t work (i love you especially if this happened and you struggle with feeling like your studies were for nothing.)

I wish more people talked about how rough it can be to be disabled at university and how many feelings can come with it. feeling like you’re not enough, like you’ve not tried hard enough, like your efforts are for nothing, but also the joy and happiness that comes with learning about a subject you’re passionate about.

#disabled #physically disabled #disability #academics #disability in academia #disabled positivity #autistic #audhd #the other letters in queue are silent #theo.chr

[obstinatecondolement]

It feels like every day I read attempts to debunk the social model of disability that fundamentally misunderstand what the social model of disability is and who the people who developed that model were, including what the nature of their disabilities was, and I want to scream.

But I don't, because yelling at people on the internet is basically pointless. Instead I check to see that I'm not mutuals with whoever reblogged said misunderstanding and vague about it.

#'but [x impairment] would still exist and have [y implications] even if the world were completely accessible!' #okay well yeah but equating impairment and disability is explicitly the opposite of the social model of disability #the union of the *physically impaired* against segregation who developed this model #*were* by and large privileged in ways many other disabled people are not‚ yes #mike oliver who wrote the fucking book on the social model of disability #(social work with disabled people‚ published in 1983) #was a white man with a phd who pioneered an academic field‚ for one #and there *are* criticisms about the limitations to a purely social model of disability to be made #but like... our pal mike oliver was also a wheelchair user who broke his neck in a swimming accident as a teenager #which caused paralysis that affected his upper and lower body #not a clueless 'physically abled' autistic who didn't understand how physical limitations work #he lived the first 17 years of his life as a physically abled person #so I think he was aware of the difference between what his body could do before and after his accident #and like 'disability is socially constructed' #is not saying that differences between people and what they are able to do or do easily do not exist?? #my eyesight is so bad that if I could not access corrective lenses I would be functionally blind #and even with glasses my myopia and astigmatism cause a lot of tangible effects on my body #e.g. migraines‚ eyestrain‚ so many floaters that even looking through pristine glasses is like the lenses are scratched to hell #but my eyesight is not considered a disability #because the accommodations that enable me to participate in society fully in this area are so standard as to be invisible #can I magically see without corrective lenses? no #does wearing glasses not being considered a disability mean that I do not get migraines and eyestrain? no #so the arguments the thing I am vaguing are trying to debunk are not what is being argued! #well seems like I screamed about it after all #oh well