#disorganized

[xashtray]

I'm scared to have friends, to have romantic partners, to just have someone beside me. I'm scared that they will only leave and abandon me, only leave bruises, scars, and pain. I'm scared that I'll get too close, get too attached to them, being dependent on them, and come off as clingy or weird or whatever. I'm scared that if I open up they will use my flaws against me. I'm scared that they will hate me for being myself, hate me for anything i do and hate me for no reasons. I'm scared to find myself being alone and lonely if they're not here with me, because I'm supposed to be okay with my loneliness. I'm scared, too scared to let someone in. too scared just to even type out a text, give a call, or even start a convo, to reach out for someone. to ask someone to be my friend, to be here for me, to be here with me, to listen to me, to have fun with me, anything they could do with and for me. because I have assumed they will leave as soon as they walk into my life.

#personal #fear of being alone #fear of rejection #fear of abandonment #fear of intimacy #avoidant #anxious #disorganized #kinda depressing #self destruction #depressing shit #self isolation #scared of everything #scared of people #sadnees #d3pression #alone #lonely #i am lonely #loneliness #lonesome #i am not okay #this is depressing #vent #personal vent #pushing away #push away #borderline #mentally unstable

[random-bookquotes]

Goblincore is an aesthetic for those of us who are a bit too disorganized for minimalism, a bit too grungy for hygge, and probably a bit too sticky for anything else.

McKayla Coyle, Goblin Mode

#goblin mode #McKayla Coyle #goblincore #aesthetic #disorganized #grungy

[dichotomoustessellations]

im not *just* lazy, im lazy distracted and disorganized

#Life #struggle #laziness #disorganized #distraction

[littlelodell]

I lost a poem. I lost the best fucking poem I’ve ever written I can’t find it. I lost my poem. I don’t know if I can bring myself to try to rewrite it.

#poetry #writing #disorganized

[sqeedledob]

Intro Post

I still don't rightly know how to format this or what to say in these things so if anyone has recommendations for how to make this better please let me know!

A Little Info:

I am not by any means a professional or organized blog. This is a sort of chaotic amalgamation of book reviews, hot takes on shows/books/movies, filling prompts, and generally whatever my tiny little lizard brain decides to enjoy at any given moment (writing wise).

I try to read at least one book every 1-2 weeks, so if you do like book reviews and book recommendations, you're in the right place! If you want to see what I am currently reading and what I plan on reading:

Click here

But if you also like personal writing blurbs and fandom blurbs as well as prompt fills, you're also in the right place!

The Actual Writer Intro

Hi! My name is Sqeedledob! I am okay with being called sqeedle, Kaili, or K! Do not, for the love of God call me Kai, I regret making that my name back in the day. This is my little haven for writing, everything from fandom to personal projects to prompt fills. I really love bringing characters to life, both through art and writing, so if you like that too, helo :)

I am a 21 year old hobbyist. By day I work blue collar jobs and go to school, by night I draw, write, play ttrpgs and play video games. I like a lot of stuff. Ask me about the stuff. Yell at me about the stuff u like!

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If you are a writer and want a scene, a character, a vehicle, or anything drawn, head over to @sward-iak! this is where I do my goofy little drawings. Examples can be found here. Requests are open!

Current Interests

Sci Fi Fantasy High Fantasy Sci Fi/Fantasy Halo Wheel of Time (THE BOOKS. YES I'M GATEKEEPING.) Wings of Fire (still in the process of reading) WWI-WWII books? I know, that's a weird one Mythology and Religion A lot more I cannot list off the top of my head right now

also my friends, my beloveds <333 @natyune-art @briarborealisart @doeblossom @briarborealisocs

#writer #writers on tumblr #new writer #intro post #intro to writeblr #how do I tag? #I do not know #artist #artist on tumblr #this account is a lie and an excuse for me to make cool art for cool writers #hand over your ocs #and your wips #I want it all #book reviews #fandoms #disorganized post #disorganized #I #me #I am disorganized

[spacemuf]

I wish I had enough patience to make my farms pretty. Every farm I have it just me running around trying to find where I put my wheat.

#sdv #stardew valley #stardew valley farm #stardew valley farmer #sdv farm #sdv farmer #disorganized

[minecraft-fanfiction-house]

When you realize your lost in a dark forest and you don’t know if mobs attack you for being part villager

Ask Podzel

Rules for my ask blog

No nsfw, 16+ is ok

Ocs and RP are oc, along with just being a voice

I wont have a consistent art style, i just wanted to draw more of my mob ocs... '' Having another ask blog where i focused on formatting it to a comic :| ''

#having podzel lost in the forest is kinda funny to me #they we’re probably wandering around intently in their thoughts that the scenery didn’t register as ‘diffrent’ or ‘darker’. Their so me #minecraft oc #illager #minecraft #minecraft illager #villager #minecraft villager #oc #illager oc #villager oc #Vigleger #ask #askblog #send ask #I was planning on having 4 pillagers to star an ask blog #but it took to long to draw all of them as an introduction #i need to calm down #... #but ill probably be more ecstatic #ill probably send my own asks to shove my oc into danger #lol #I guess i could just add things to their trinket collection #goodnight #messy #disorganized

[feverdreamsandlucidnightmares]

Tricking myself into getting into the hw mindset by making a fandom PowerPoint

#🫠🫠🫠 #I like making PowerPoints but I hate being forced to make PowerPoints #and I hate presenting to the class #can’t you just hit me with a bus and call it a day #I already know the critiques okay #struggles to get to the point #struggles to maintain eye contact #disorganized #text heavy slides #inconsistent volume #excessive fidgeting #lots of research and good topic but poor execution #etc etc #the issue is idk how to fix these things #presenting is evil #undergrad professor who made me give my presentation twice in one class bc my eye contact was such shit #sir you did not make me more inclined to make eye contact #university #fever’s vibe check #feverdreamsandlucidnightmares

[itsallinm3]

Adriana’s informant arc makes me so upset at the real life history of that happening to people….it giving her stomach ulcers.,!2&3?(‘nah and the way these fbi bastards spoke to her from the jump….*lunges at them from over the table*

#if they had like what to do if the fbi gets u informational sessions in their church basement they would’ve avoided so much but they were s #disorganized

[plutooonium]

i really need to be more organized when i'm animating.

#animation #disorganized #what the fuck is wrong with me??

[tenth-sentence]

The floating blobs reappeared, and the river became more evident; it was a runoff from organized matter, flowing from the organized to the disorganized.

"Incarnations of Immortality: With a Tangled Skein" - Piers Anthony

#book quote #incarnations of immortality #with a tangled skein #piers anthony #purgatory #blobs #floating #river #matter #organized #disorganized #entropy

[floralcavern]

I just remembered something-

me and my online friends used to be OBSESSED with these tests a few years back

Um.. try it out if you want I guess! XD

#Disorganized #shit post

[myrcenegirl]

#poll #polls #pollposting #psychology #attachment styles #secure #disorganized #avoidant #anxiousambivalent #personality #question #astrology #mbti #horoscope #health #mental health #love #relationships #parenting #childhood #fearful avoidant

[littlelodell]

As you may know, I lost a poem, or more accurately I can not find a poem and it’s disturbing because I’ve convinced myself that it was at least quite good if not the best one I’ve ever written.

Maybe if I try describing the poem I will end up finding it again, or writing the poem I was meant to write to begin with.

#poetry #writing #writer problems #disorganized

[truths89]

When the heart develops through an entrainment with malnutrition, the soul’s diet is a source of conflict, as life progresses; for the palate of one’s emotional appetite becomes so disordered that binging on avoidance leads to psychic anorexia.

Zisa Aziza

#truths89 #poetry #zisa aziza #attachment #avoidant #emotional #emotional anorexia #connection #neglect #trauma #maladaptive coping #isolation #withdrawl #disorganized #anxious #psychology #relationships #relational poverty #social determinants of health #negressofsaturn #love

[bunnyboybitch]

So my art class + art club is comprised mostly by students with adhd. The teacher (I love her to death) has it too. So the art closet is NEVER organized. We once spent 2 hours organizing it, and a week later everything was an avalanche again.

That being said, today we came up with the "Art Closet Gremlin." His name is Francis and he likes to hide the materials we need. His job is to keep the closet clean, but he's really bad at it. He is very generous, though, and constantly supplies pencils, erasers, scissors, and glue to the other classrooms but doesn't ask for them to return! I think we need to start a Francis Fund donation box to keep up with replacements XD /hj

We're never gonna let this die. My teacher joked that I have to make. Little Francis now, and her birthday is coming up... if I have the time, I hope to sew or crochet something :]

#adhd #adhder #neurodiverse #random #artist #disorganized #art closet gremlin #neurodivergent artist #adhd artist #audhd