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localanimethottie · 1 year
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Bratty MC x Lucifer
Summary: MC tells Lucifer to go get some bitches and pays dearly for it
WARNING: NSFW // SMUT
*Lucifer lecturing everyone in the the group chat*
MC: How about you stfu + stop lecturing us and go get some bitches 💀🫵
Satan: 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀
*Satan screen shots*
Beleghor: 😂
Mammon: 😭
Beelzebub: 😰 Mc……
Leviathan: 😆 LMAOO LOLLLLLL MC YOUR SO DEAD
Asmodeus: Maybe we can pick up some together but I’d more than happy to act as a replacement Lucifer 😘😘
*Lucifer is typing…*
*Lucifer stopped typing*
MC: Ha! He actually stopped. I bet h-
Lucifer broke down MC door and appeared in full demon form raging.
“I believe we need to have a little talk about your behavior MC…”
“In my room NOW!” Lucifer scoffed
Within Lucifer room…
“This is utterly ridiculous, pure immature” Lucifer says with his per usual angry face. You sigh as you watch him folding his arms and continue scolding you.
“I mean what do you hope to accomplish by that messily attempt at a joke?! And using in inappropriate language in the chat!” Lucifer just grows more frustrated and disappointed in you.
However you didn’t give a shit and proceeded to provoke him.
“If your embarrassed just say that” you look at him with the smug look. Lucifer had a slight blush but Immediately furrowed his eyebrows in anger. “ME?! getting angry at your debilitated joke? Please don’t make me laugh”
“You still get no bitches”
Lucifer grows more angry and grabbed you by your arms pulling you very close to him. “Look I know what your trying to do.” Lucifer looks deep within your eyes and you couldn’t help but blush within his arms.
“You want my attention that bad you tried to embarrass me.” Lucifer brings his face closer to yours smiling cockily.
“Just look at your face reddening when barely doing anything to you” Lucifer laughs. “We both know your mines so why pretend?”
“How about you lay there on my bed with your legs open and I’ll be happy to give you the attention your desperately seeking” Lucifer now shooting you with his signature bed room eyes.
Your now biting your lips. The truth is…. He was correct you and him haven’t had sex in a while and you were sexually frustrated.
“O-okay, I love you…Lucifer” You said as you swiftly laid on your back maintaining eye contact with him.
He couldn’t help but blush but your feelings were more than reciprocated. “I love you too Mc, truly and deeply”
He made his way to where you was and you both shared a steamy passionate make out session within each-other arms. One thing led to another and before you know it you were completely nude as he fingers your tight little hole. You moaned against his lips as he begins to kiss down your jawline.
Lucifer was a passionate/ affectionate lover and he will make sure you get it GOOD.
An hour later…
“AHHhh Lucifer please~” you moaned loudly as Lucifer held up your legs as he pounds into you rubbing your clit. You sung his name in praise and he eats it up loving how you moan his name. “Lucifer~ ah” you moaned again with your tongue out. “Oh fuck mc you feel so good”, he grunts going down to suck the soul out your face.
You were already stuffed to the brim with cum and overstimulated.
“I c-can’t take a-anymore ahhh~ you feel so good~”
“Just a little bit more” through thoes words he grunts as he is now holding your waist pounding insanely fast into. Skin continues to make clash together as nothing but sweet moans could be heard from the both of you.
You were way too fucked out to care how you look. Your tongue was out of your mouth with drool exiting. Your eyes rolled back as you could think nothing but pleasure.
Lucifer does final last pumps into you and you quickly reacted with moaning his name.
Lucifer bites his lips and pushes deep within you and came.
Both are you are breathless but passionate kissing eachother with rather few words to say.
“I love you mc” Lucifer says smiling and hugging you
“I love you too Lucifer” you say matching his affectionate energy.
You both sit there for a while, then got all cleaned up, and cuddled the night away.
Lucifer acquired 1 bitch. That bitch was you.
Achievement unlocked: Become Lucifer’s bitch
@lucifurenjoyer @draconicfaenerd
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chirpsythismorning · 1 year
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If I see ppl saying this or that theory is stupid in the tag, then yeah, I mean I feel weird posting about agreeing with that theory now bc it’s recently been established by some that it’s a stupid one 😭
Like the whole birthdaygate thing. I love that theory, but after talking about it I’ll suddenly see ppl in the tag hating on the theory, as if I didn’t just specifically mention it 😳 like…
Not saying people can’t have their own theories, but if you’re repeatedly posting in the tag, publicly, where everyone see’s, about how this or that won’t happen no matter what some people think, now suddenly it’s an atmosphere where no one knows if they can even post about those theories anymore, I just feel like it makes me look like an idiot bc I’m now one of those people others think is stupid for believing.
But honestly I’m also an over-sensitive person, so maybe it’s just me.
Like the whole byler confessional thing is something I also have no interest in. Bc it centers on this tendency fandom has to constantly bring up hot takes. Like oh EVERYONE thinks this, but I don’t!!!
Like some ppl will invalidate theories solely bc they’re popular. Like, that will genuinely be an argument for the basis of why a theory isn’t solid, bc a bunch of ppl believe it.
I personally believe a lot of theories, even the crazy ones, bc it’s fun. Like i’d rather believe all of them, and hopefully some are actually accurate, than to just believe what fits with what I want to believe and play it safe.
I’ll even believe theories I don’t necessarily like, but the story is giving me signs that it’s going to pay off. Like the whole byler getting murray’d thing. That’s sort of a hot take now to talk about bc some fans don’t want it to happen, so they’ll kind of push it into obscurity as something they believe won’t happen, solely bc they don’t want it to.
But the thing is, I don’t necessarily want/not want it to happen, that’s beside the point. The show has hinted at a lead up to this for years, that’s why I believe it. So when I talk about it, don’t think I’m pushing that theory on you despite you not personally liking it, and don’t assume I think byler is solely going to get together bc of a snide remark from Murray. It’s simply a theory based on evidence. And it’s gonna be a lot more complex than Murray being the sole reason they end up together. If anything it’s just a small component to the pay-off of that story arc, based on the watching the show as a whole and seeing the signs leading up to it with Jancy and Jopper, followed by an endgame payoff with the main ship of the show following suit, aka byler.
I’ve been in fandom theorizing before. I’ve been disappointed. And I’ve been impressed with fans ability to figure shit out before it played out. Tbh theorizing will always be the best part, especially when the people working on the show really care about where it’s going narratively.
You will never see me on here hating on peoples theories. Bc honestly most of you are smarter than me and I care about what you guys think. I also don’t want to rule anything out definitively, even theories I don’t initially like, bc who knows, they could be right!!
So if I offend anyone by talking about certain theories or headcanons, I’m sorry for that.
If I ever talk about a theory that somehow directly contradicts yours, I’m sorry for that.
I think despite others opinions, I’m just going to try to keep theorizing things, without invalidating other theories in the process.
That just feels like the best way to go about things.
And I’m gonna try to ignore ppl saying they hate this or that take when it applies to me and just post what I want to post and if some agree then yay and if no one does then I’ll stfu bc there’s no point in stirring the pot if no one even agrees with me anyways 🤣
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nikethestatue · 1 year
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I mean this in the most genuine and curious way possible. Why the unhappiness/dissatisfaction with SJM Bloomsbury on the announcement? Why the “here’s the book, now STFU” interpretation?” Why do people think SJM is in over her head with the crossover? I know it’s annoying that SJM doesn’t communicate with readers. But the long wait was just because she had a baby. It was the same thing in 2019 when she didn’t publish anything. Not anything malicious. In 2019 they also put out a bunch of random covers and games and things to sell. They’re just making the most of a no-release year, partly to make money and maintain interest but also to give readers something fun at least. Their hands are tied, they have to wait until the book is almost done to announce something. All week people have complained they haven’t seen any official news and putting it on the website is lazy, but now they finally post it on her Instagram and people are still unhappy. SJM is probably more focused on her family life to make an Instagram post about it sooner. not all authors use social media and putting the links up a few days beforehand is pretty normal. And SJM wrote amazing plots in TOG, I believe she’s very capable of doing a good crossover. She’s clearly thought about it for a long while and I don’t for a second believe she’s “backed into a corner” so to speak. For years people wanted a crossover but when they get it, they complain that it won’t be good or it’s beyond SJM’s capacity. It seems like nothing can please this fandom and it doesn’t make sense to me.
I mean, to me, it's fairly simple.
SJM is an author and this is her JOB. However you want to look at it, she has contracts, she has an audience, we pay her, she produces a product. It's not glamorous to think of it that way, but her books are the same as an IPhone. You expect an IPhone25 and you expect news about it, updates, previews, etc. I don't see how it's different from what she is doing. Yes, she had a baby, and for that, she went on maternity leave. But she had her baby a year ago. Just like all women who go on maternity leave come back and go back to working. No one was expecting her to be writing during her maternity leave.
We live in a new world. This is not the world of 10-15 years ago. People demand information, this is Insta, this is TikTok world. This is not the world where it's okay to sit in silence for a year. Sorry, it doesnt work that way anymore. That's why people are unahppy.
She wants to be out of social media--fine. But then she is expected to have social media presence via BB or her own people. That's just how it is. And if she chooses not to, then she should expect a backlash.
I also think it's in bad taste to put an unannounced book out there, price it, and then make an announcement a week later. Also, price it INCORRECTLY on top of everything else.
It looks unprofessional, sloppy and just kind of slapped together, to shut the fandom up. Normal authors/companies will have some kind of countdown, announcements, build up of excitement. Here, it's just so assumptive, like 'of course they'll buy it!' attitude, which no one wants to experience.
People want to be appreciated. Fandoms are volatile and lively places. Always have been, always will be. No one wants to have their loyalty and interest taken for granted.
I think that's why people are upset about how everything has been unveiled.
About the crossover-- i can't speak to that--i am fine with it. I am sure some people arent too keen on it, but I am curious about it.
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sainamoonshine · 2 years
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Okay so, I am so curious about the events of HTN from the pov of G1deon/Phyrra. I quickly checked the book for a timeline on the whole mess with Wake and the sword, which goes:
- Chapter 9: Harrow faints upon meeting G!deon for the first time, which he may or may not have even noticed much
- Chapter 11: Harrow stabs Cytherea. Most likely transfers the ghost of Wake into her corpse at that point. I have a hard time imagining that G1 didn’t hear about that incident, and may have started to pay attention to the sword and/or want to get a good look at it because wtf? This is Wake’s sword. Also interesting to note: Jod is the one who found her. Did he ask G1 to kill her before, or after that? We know G1 sometimes loses time, too. Jod seems to know about that*, although he seems to think it was something that used to happen and doesn’t happen anymore. (Likely Phyrra learned to hide better**). It probably makes sense from his pov to say « hey look, pal. Harrow has similar troubles than you did. Either show her how you got over it, or get rid of her. »
- Chapter 19, G!deon attacks her in the kitchen and specifically tries to take her sword; he never expresses interest in it after this.
- Chapter 23, Harrow catches him (although I think it was most likely Pyrrha) in Cytherea’s room. I speculate that at this point, Pyrrha has figured out that Wake’s ghost is on board the station and is attempting to locate it; the lost interest in the sword might mean it has already been discarded as a potential vessel for Wake***. The body that was stabbed twice with that sword, however? And that seems to shift on its own? Yeah, that’s pretty sus. We know that the only way to be able to really tell what’s going on in a Lyctor’s body is to touch it. Was that what Pyrrha was doing? Was she inspecting Cytherea the same way Harrow inspected Ianthe earlier in the book?
- Chapter 24 he tries to kill Harrow while she is in the bath, but immediately turns away and leaves when she stabs his eye with a tooth. We know that G1 can accidentally switch to Pyrrha when wounded (like later on in the incinerator). This is likely what is happening here.
- Chapter 25 soup chapter lmao.
- Chapter 31 is where it gets interesting! It’s the incinerator scene. G1 admits to not remembering anything, including getting stabbed. So basically Pyrrha is the one who went to see Cytherea’s corpse again then got stabbed and stuffed in the incinerator. By then she knows that Harrow is also carrying Wake; when did this happen? When did Pyrrha figure that one out?
- after that its pretty much straightforward: the heralds attack, Harrow remembers Gideon, G1 dies in the River (?) and Pyrrha gets full time control of his body, etc.
* I’m basing this opinion entirely on his vague mention that some Lyctors have a harder time than others and also his decision to ask G1 to fix Harrow.
** maybe around the time Jod killed Samael. If I were Pyrrha, I’d also stfu about my Lyctorhood being less than perfect
*** does Harrow stop mentionning that the sword has a malevolent vibes after she sleepwalks and stabs Cytherea?
TL;DR: I just wanna know WHEN Pyrrha figured out that Wake was on board the station and HOW
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hq-lovin · 4 years
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Can you write headcanons for Akaashi, Daichi and Iwaizumi of when their dates crashed and someone third wheels them (also if you want who is doing the third wheeling)?
crashing their dates 
SJFHD TYSM FOR THIS REQUEST I HAD SO MUCH FUN 
uHH so like,,, half of this is crackDJFD 😳 👁👄👁
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➣ pairing : akaashi/reader daichi/reader iwaizumi/reader 
➣ headcannons
➣ warning : none ! 
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gifs are not mine
keiji akaashi 
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Akaashi just wanted a normal and fun date at the aquarium 
he just wanted to take you out on a cute date, just the two do you, together, looking at seals together 
laughing at their cute faces that you so wanted to squish 
and laugh together 
and take cute photos together with the cute sea animals around you
and then Bokuto showed up
“akAASHIII, you’re here too?” he exclaims running towards the both of you before saying hello to you as well 
now, bokuto had no idea you two were on a date and decided to join you guys on your little trip
you didn’t mind, bokuto’s company was a pleasant one 
akaashi on the other hand, was not as open minded as you were 
oNe date,, he just wanted ONE normal date is all he asks for 
one normal date at a the aquarium 
“we could just leave him,” he thought, rubbing his chin as he watched you and bokuto point at the tiny fish swimming around 
“no, he would get sad and get into his emo mode,” akaashi continues his thought process not realizing he was ignoring both you and bokuto 
“does akaashi not love us anymore?” bokuto says his bottom lip jutted out, you gasp and stare at your boyfriend who was in deep thought
“does he?” your shoulders slump,as your smile turns into a small pout 
akaashi doesn’t realize any of these until both you and bokuto were staring at him like : 🥺🥺
“y/n has an emo mode as well?” he thinks, yeah they’re called mood swings 
“akaaamshi do you not love us anymore?” you say eyebrows drooping in worry, bokuto does the same thing and he comes to the conclusion that you both need attention 
“I-- no, I love both of you,” he says caressing your face gently, you smile and unconsciously lean in his touch 
*audible gasp* “EVEN ME AKAASHIII?” DKJFDJF
akaashi only sighs and mutters a “yes bokuto-san,” as bokuto gives both of you a group hug, crushing you in his thiccc arms 
daichi sawamura 
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when daichi took you out for the movies he didn’t think he would see tanaka and noya there as well, it was a romance movie after all 
“kiyoko-san said she really liked this movie!” tanaka states looking off to the distance with a love sick smile and hearts in his eyes 
“mhm! so we’re here to see it!” noya continues puffing his chest out 
daichi nods awkwardly as he pulls you away from the two simps boys and practically rUNS to the movie theatre where he finds your seats and prays to god that tanaka and noya didn’t have the same seats 
honestly?? the beginning was f i n e y’all vibed and watched the cheesy romance film 
that was,, until,,, the duo showed up
“daichi! holy shit we’re right beside each other??” tanaka whispers, carrying a bucket of popcorn along with a large drink as he shuffles through 
“cool! we can all watch the movie together!” noya exclaims earning himself several glares, which he casually ignored 
daichi is now face palming in embarrassment and quickly tells them to shut the fuck up quiet down and points at the movie 
they get the message and simmer down,, but that doesn’t last long SKFJDH
noya and tanaka would find the movie too cheesy and would occasionally whisper jokes to you
“girl,, you could do so much better 🙄” 
“b r o she’s oVER you,,, go find someone else 😡” 
“GET. RID. OF. HIM. FIND SOMEONE WHO TREATS YOU LIKE A QUEEN.” 
they’re stating facts tho SDIFDSUFM 😳😳
they lowkey almost get kicked out but you get them to stfu 
daichi is  T I R E D he just wants this whole thing to be over and done for DJSF
eventually tanaka and noya get invested in the movie and are on the verge of tears 
you kiss daichi on his cheek and grab his hand tightly, reminding him you’re still here SKDSFJD
his mood is immediately brightened and he starts paying attention to the movie (and you) 
at the end, tanaka and noya are c r y i n g 
you take a photo and send them to kiyoko SJFJDJF
“next time,, let’s find something else to do,,, just the two of us,” you say, daichi couldn’t agree more as he watches noya wipe his tears and snot on tanaka’s shirt 
hajime iwaizumi 
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“shittykawa, what the fuck are you doing here?” your boyfriend says crossing his arms 
you laugh waving hello to a sheepish oikawa who had “coincidentally” showed at the same day, the same time, at the same zoo,,,,,, 
“oHh?? Iwa-chan? Y/n-chan?? I didn’t know you two were coming here??” he chuckles waving a hand 
Iwaizumi rolls his eyes and grabs your hand before oikawa can say anything else and went to go look at the lions 
oikawa does nOT let up and follows you both around lit rally everywhere SDJFDF 
“Iwa-chan! wait for me!” he shouts cheerfully running towards the both of you with a huge smile planted on his face 
“babe if you run fast enough you can get away, just text me where you are after,” “Hajime!” 
you explain to him you really don’t mind oikawa there and he pouts 
“just let him stay, he’s gonna get sad!” “It's fine!” “IWA! I'm right here 🥺🥺🥺🥺” 
eventually Iwaizumi lets him stay with enough convincing on your end 
don't tell anyone but he secretly likes that you and his best friend get along
but he would still rather have a date with j u s t you (¬_¬; ) 
 he secretly thinks seeing you gasp excitedly and point at the different animals with oikawa is cute 
he also takes photos of both of you 
one time oikawa caught him taking a video of you staring at the cute lil pandas with a grin on his face and oikawa teased him RELENTLESSLY 
“Awhh!! Iwa-chan you’re such a softie!” 
“shut uP” 
oikawa wiggles his brows at iwa whenever you do anything cute 
ok but,,,, Iwaizumi actually has such a fun time with the both of you 
:)))))) and so does tooru 
once he finds out iwa’s been taking pics of him as well he freaks 
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kisasaysmuah · 4 years
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ok so like shirabu study date with s/o who keeps drawing on her notes hhhhhhhhhh i love shirabu
a/n: first of all, I wanna express how much I love and adore shirababe and how underrated he is 😡💓 like sir come over and I’ll take care of you 🤬😤💖 anyway, I had fun writing these haha so much so that idek where and how to categorize this oOpS uhhh crack? Maybe? Prob ngl hhhhhh I just took the “keeps drawing on her notes” and ran 👀🥴 perhaps i need a new category for this asdkgksnfksn I’m rambling at this point wow— I hope you like this and enjoy!
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warnings: i don’t think anything worth mentioning... ig there are some sexual jokes nd innuendos, a bit of cursing. reader is in an established relationship with the character.
category: headcanons, request, crackhead reader shenanigans
featured character: shirabu kenjiro
reader type: fem
synopsis: a study date in your dorm takes an unexpected turn...
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—» it honestly was your suggestion for a study date. some pretty important exams were coming up and you weren’t quite uhhh prepared, to say the least
—» so you employed the help of your smartass boyfriend 😼
—» “shirababeeeee” 🥺
—» “... y/n”
—» 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
—» “you’re making that face where you want something from me”
—» damn he really knows what’s up don’t he
—» you don’t even try to put up an act anymore and just tell him your ideas
—» he’s pretty chill about it, agreeing to the study date as long as it was at your dorm—his dorm mate would be in for the evening.... occupied if you catch my drift
—» just ‘cause he agrees doesn’t mean he isn’t disappointed in you, because he is
—» and really, it was a chance to hang out together. you both were pretty occupied with your respective club activities and that left little time to be with one another. he’d had decided that perhaps this study date would make up for lost time
—» oh my god mind don’t go down the gutter—we keeping this pg aight 😤 well, as pg as pg can get-
—» you were lucky you had your dorm room to yourself, your own dorm mate staying over at a friend’s
—» !!!!!! idea! shira could stay the night! no naughty business ofc,,,,,,,unless,,,,,? 😳😳
—» jskakfjan anyway, out come the textbooks and notebooks and practice pamphlets, all strewn across your floor
—» you were both casually and comfortably dressed, you and him and a nice pile of snacks and drinks between y’all, perhaps some ambient music or a tv show on for white noise in the background
—» shirabu was explaining some complex math equation.... for the fifth time
—» SORRY you were distracted— he was sodium fine, or so you’d told him after the first two explanations 🥴
—» “this is trigonometry, y/n, not chemistry. pay attention.” 🤨
—» i g n o r e d. he was just too pretty and it got you thinkin’ about what you did to deserve him, how he was with you to begin with
—» okay so you were totally distracted and not at all paying attention. instead, you were doing all you could to get him to pay attention to you 😏
—» cue you pulling all your best pick up lines
—» BAHAHAHA BOY TOLD YOU TO STFU OR HES PACKING UP AND LEAVING YOU TO FAIL
—» so you did shut the fuck up. but did you stop
—» no
—» you still had pen and paper, and while you were supposed to be taking and copying notes and trying practice problems, here you were passing notes like you were in grade school
—» only, these notes were progressively getting dirtier and dirtier 😏
—» and poor poor shirabu, aware of him telling you to shut up, read these notes of you thirsting for him under the impression that they were genuine questions about the things he’s explaining to you
—» to say he was getting aroused was an understatement I-
—» ‘this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date this is only a study date-‘
—» oh shit you were starting to get some illustrations up in here 👁👄👁
—» you smiled evilly when you saw your boyfriend’s face grow redder by the minute, trying oh so hard to hide behind the practice pamphlet he was reading from
—» maybe one more note will make him combust...
—» famous last words ^^
—» suffice to say you definitely didn’t pass that exam and promptly got a scolding from shirabu and his??? teammates??? what???
—» but you succeeded in getting a flustered and hot and bothered shirabu, so who’s the real winner here? 😼😼
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❉ 139 Dreams (Sehun Oh) Insensitive
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📑 Table of Contents
Genre: Fluff, Angst ☁
Word Count: 1,929 ☁
Pairing: Reader x Sehun ☁
World: Kpop, EXO ☁
☾ ⋆*・゚:⋆*・゚: *⋆.*:・゚ .: ⋆*・゚: . ☁
The day had started off well for you. You were tired, having pulled an all-nighter working on your video game character. You wanted to get her up in level as soon as possible to partake in the end-game content, and you had been doing well while having fun, but humans are attracted to people like moths to a flame when they are happy, and they find much enjoyment in breaking apart that happiness.
It started off pretty simple at first, just someone asking a question in chat. Multiple people responded, including you, but the answers were different. Someone wrote to stop trolling the kid, but you weren’t. You defended yourself calming, letting them know that it had happened to you, but no one believed you. You could feel cold settle on your chest as you panic rose. You weren’t lying, so why wouldn’t they believe you?
• ‘You’re not even level 20, you should keep your mouth shut’, one person wrote.
You could feel your heart picking up speed as you typed your reply, ‘I pay for this game just like you do, I can say whatever I like.’
• ‘You can’t even do dailies until you’re level 20, stfu lol’, another typed.
‘Have you not heard of alt characters? Stop messaging me, I’m not interested.’
• ‘Lol’
• ‘No one believes you, just stop.’
• ‘Thank God for the ignore option.’
• ‘I know right lol’
You felt your heart sinking as tears pricked your eyes, hands shaking. “But… I’m not lying… It did happen to me…” You watched the chat continue to scroll as people asked questions and listed items they were selling. Several names disappeared, and you knew they had ignored you so they wouldn’t see your messages anymore.
People had never been your strong suit. As a child, you were pretty isolated so you never developed the socialization skills other kids your age had. As you grew older, the lack of skill led you to fall farther into isolation, and soon you had developed a panic disorder associated with people.
These were just random people online that you would probably never even see again, but to you, it was as if you were dealing with them face to face. It didn’t help that you had been born a sensitive soul, easily hurt by the most minuscule things. The fact that these people could disregard you so easily, calling you a liar when you had no reason to do so… it hurt.
You furiously scrubbed at your eyes, feeling frustrated at yourself and the world. Why did you have to be this way? You hated it, but you couldn’t control how you felt.
You grabbed your phone and rang up your boyfriend. You weren’t a morning person, so getting a call from you so early startled him, even more so when he heard you sniffle. “Sehunnie,”
“What? What’s wrong?”
Taking a shaky breath, you explained what had happened in a little detail as possible, knowing that he was most likely busy with a shoot. When you finished your explanation, he sighed deeply.
“Really? I thought something was wrong.”
You frowned. “Something is wrong,”
“You’re just being sensitive again. If you can’t handle it, don’t play the damn game.” His tone, filled with annoyance, cut deep into you, your eyes widening in shock. You knew that he didn’t understand your over-sensitivity or your anxiety, but he had always been patient with you. Not once in your two-year-long relationship had he ever snapped at you like that. Had something changed?
“I… I don’t…” Your brain had blanked.
“It’s just a game, Y/N. When the hell are you going to grow up and stop taking it so seriously?”
You were frozen in shock, mind running a million miles a minute.
“I can’t believe you bothered me over this. I’m hanging up.” His words were followed by a click as the line went dead. You could only sit there in surprise, listening to the dial tone.
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A month passed by, slow and agonizing as you did everything you could to avoid Sehun. You dropped answering calls and reading texts, eventually just turning your phone off. You never answered when he came knocking on your door, and you made sure that you wouldn’t be recognized when you had to leave the apartment. You even stopped playing your game because Baekhyun, your gaming buddy, had allowed Sehun to use his account to try and talk to you.
Avoiding him hurt and you missed him something fierce, but you felt like you were just burdening him. You couldn’t help how sensitive you were, and he was clearly tired of dealing with it. Part of you was scared to face him because you knew you overreacted, but another part was scared he was going to break up with you.
You sighed as you stared at the plastic cup in your hands. The ice had long since melted, leaving a thin layer of water on top of your latte.
“How long do you plan on keeping this up?” Jia questioned, stirring her coffee as she looked at you.
“Forever,” you muttered under your breath, resting your cheek in your hand as your eyes turned to the window beside you. It was foggy, interrupted by drops of water sliding down the surface as rain gently fell to Earth. Most people hated the dark and dreary days like this one, but you loved it. It had a magical effect that just made you feel peace, something you craved after dealing with such a messy mind all of the time.
She sighed, “Look, Y/N. You can’t keep running away, it’s not healthy. You need to woman up and make a choice.”
“A choice?” You echoed.
“Stop avoiding Sehun and work this out, or tell him you’re done and want to break up.” She finished off her coffee and stood up. “I have to get to work. I’d call you, but since your phone is off… yeah.”
You watched her walk away, her words sinking into your brain. Tears stung at your eyes but you hastily rubbed them away. “She’s right… I have to stop being such a coward, but I…” You were scared.
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Sehun knew you were hurt by his actions and he hated himself for it. The day you called had been a bad one; he was late for the photoshoot because some kid was driving recklessly, his coordi had accidentally burnt his scalp with a hair straightener, and Chen had spilled hot coffee on the expensive sweater you had gotten him last Christmas. By the time you called, he was in a horrible mood, wanting to just crawl into a hole and avoid everyone. That was no excuse, he knew, but he was only human and he made mistakes.
His biggest fear was losing you, and with every day that passed, he felt like you were getting farther out of his reach. He had to do something, but he didn’t know what.
His phone vibrated, but he didn’t know the number. Could it be you calling from a different phone? “Hello?”
“Is this Oh Sehun?” It was a female voice, but not yours as he had hoped. His heart dropped.
“This is him,”
“Good, I was worried I got the number wrong!” She sighed in relief. “My name is Lim Jia, I’m a friend of Y/Ns.”
Hearing your name made him perk up. “Is she okay? Has something happened?”
Jia laughed, “So you do love her. That makes this easier.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Listen, Y/N is different from the rest of us. Her mentality is younger than her actual age. She’s overly sensitive and that can be frustrating at times, but blowing up at her only makes her back away like a frightened child. No matter what happens, you have to deal with her gently. Her mental state is fragile, understand?”
He had known all of this all along, but it felt as if he understood it for the first time. He swallowed hard and nodded. “I understand,”
“Good. I just left her because I had to get to work. I’ll text you the address. Don’t waste this opportunity.”
He hung up the phone, rushing out of the building despite the various people calling his name. By the time he got in his car, the text had arrived and the destination was only twenty minutes away. He peeled out of the parking lot, praying that you would still be there.
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The rain was beginning to pick up and, though you had an umbrella, it was a child’s size, barely able to shield your body. Sehun had tried to buy you a bigger one, but this one was special. He had bought it for you on your first date, a trip to the zoo. It was green, with your favorite animal printed on it. There were ears sticking out of the top, matching the animal. It had been the most adorable thing you had ever seen. You’ve used it ever since. In small showers, it worked fine, but in heavy rain, it didn’t keep you dry.
You threw away your trash before heading for the door, opening up the umbrella. As you walked down the street, people sent you strange looks, wondering why you were using a child’s umbrella. It made you feel nervous as you didn’t like the attention, but you did your best to ignore it and continued towards your apartment.
“Ah…” You suddenly remembered the emptiness of your fridge. “I should stop by the grocery store.” You glanced up at the darkening sky. “If I hurry, I can beat the rain!”
You started out walking fast but soon found yourself running as the rain picked up. You were so focused on getting to the store that you weren’t paying attention to the ground and tripped over a piece of concrete sticking out of the ground. You yelped in surprise before hitting the ground with a groan. The umbrella slipped out of your hand, sliding a few feet away.
The streets had emptied out when the rain grew harder, so no one witnessed your fall. You were thankful for that, feeling your cheeks burn in embarrassment. Your hand stung, having scraped across the ground when you fell. You examined it, but the wound wasn’t anything serious.
“Y/N!” Sehun ran up to you, soaking wet and breathing heavy. His eyes shined with worry as he kneeled next to you, searching your body for wounds. “Aish, you’re so clumsy!”
You stared at the ground, refusing to meet his eyes. You felt so small at that moment.
His arms wrapped around you, holding you tight against his chest. You could hear his heart racing. “I’ve missed you, Y/N.”
Despite yourself, you curled into him, comforted by the smell of his cologne. You wanted to say something, anything, but your brain just wouldn’t form words.
Sehun rested his head on yours. “Please forgive me for being an insensitive jerk. I know you’re still mad, but I’ll make it up to you.”
“I was never mad,” you mumbled softly. “Do you hate me?”
“Hate you?” He pulled back so he could look you in the eye, holding your face between his hands. “I could never hate you. I love you, idiot.”
Hearing that made you smile, your heart fluttering ever so softly. “I love you, too.”
Smiling, he squished your cheeks, laughing at how funny you looked. You smacked his hands away with a pout, but it didn’t last when he claimed your lips.
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Part 1 Hello lovely person! I hope you have an incredible day! Can I please ask for a request where Levi and his gf gets into a really heated argument in his office and he was already stressed and mad that day so he got really mad and got up from his chair and slammed his table hard while telling her to stfu and somehow the table kinda pushed her and hit her a bit (I guess on her waist?) and she just stood there speechless and run off crying. Levi felt so guilty and didn’t sleep that night
Part 2 and he tried to get back with her but failed so many times cuz she keeps ignoring him (her silent treatment). She starts spending her time with the others especially Reiner and Eren and she starts to laugh with them and go out with them quite a lot and Levi felt so jealous. He stops her one day and she felt soo scared and afraid of him cause he might hurt her again (when it was an accident!!) and she wanted time away from him. But he didn’t let her go and can you make a super fluff scene
Part 3 where they get back tg and his gf starts crying including him and she started to smile after he kissed her (oml this is getting so tense and cute-) I wrote out the idea just to help you write it but I will wait patiently for you!! I appreciate ur hard work and I’m so sorry for this long ass request ?? Wow I’m the worst haha lots of love xoxo
Wow, this is a long request, but I don’t mind! It’s good to stretch my writing muscles every once in a while, I hope I do well in bringing your request to life!
“Levi.” Y/N was getting frustrated now. She was trying to talk to him, so why wasn’t he paying attention? “You know, if your paperwork is so important I can just leave.” She stated, her words coated in just the right venom to sting. Levi sighed, looking up at the woman stood by his desk, he really did not have time for this right now. “I mean, this is paperwork about our fallen soldiers, but sure if that’s what you want.” He pushed his papers aside, crinkling some in the process. “You know that isn’t what I meant...” A look of anger spread across the Captain’s face as he rose from his seat, infuriated, his hands hit the desk with such force that the whole thing moved, screeching to a halt in Y/N’s hip. Y/N’s features twisted into an expression of pain, her E/C eyes glassy as heavy tears began to cascade down her cheeks, her expression grave. “Wait, you know I didn’t mean to-” But it was too late for words, the damage was done and she had left.
Y/N ignored Levi for weeks, no matter what he said or did, it was like he was invisible. And it really hurt. He would watch as she began to spend her time with Eren and Reiner. That hurt even more. To see her laughing with others and shutting him out of her life... The guilt inside Levi continued eating away, all he wanted was to hear her voice, her laugh, anything. He just wanted to be in her life again. 
“You three.” Levi had been waiting for the trio to leave for their weekly night out, he stood by the large doors of HQ. The trio stopped, Y/N with a blank, bored expression. “Great, now I have your attention, you two brats go have a great night out. Y/N, you come with me.” Riener looked from Y/N to the Captain, but moved along with Eren despite Y/N’s worried expression. When the doors had closed Levi took a step forward, Y/N froze. “You know, I’ve been trying to talk to you for a long time now Y/N.” She stared straight ahead, she wasn’t even this scared of titans, she drew in a breath before replying. “Levi, please, leave me alone.” Her voice broke as she swallowed the lump in her throat. Levi moved forward as her tears began to fall and she began to tremble, wrapping her in his arms so that she could not escape. It hurt that she was so afraid of him. “Get off of me, I don’t want you near me, you will just-” Levi interrupted, shushing her gently and brushing his palm over the top of her head, rubbing her back. She was so warm, so perfect... How could he ever have let himself get so angry at her? “No. I’ve been trying to tell you that I am sorry, that it was an accident, that I was wrong to let my emotions come before you like that. I love you and I promise from now on I won’t just protect you from the world, but also from myself.” She hesitated, relaxing just as Levi was about to give up and let her go, sobs erupting from her like thunder in the sky. “I need some time.” Her words hit like a bullet to the chest, but for her, he was willing to wait forever, if that’s what it took.
The following evening, Y/N had been placed on duty with Levi atop one of the guard towers in HQ. IT wasn’t either parties favorite task, but it had to be done. For some time, Y/N was silent atop the tower, looking out in the opposite direction to Levi. Eventually, Levi heard sniffles coming from her, he moved to sit beside her on the cold brickwork. Without saying anything, he placing his arm around Y/N’s shoulder, pulling her in. She appreciated the change of heat from the cool night air, Levi was warm and somehow, he still made her feel safe. “Hey,” Levi gently moved her head upwards to look at him, he held it there for a moment before slowly closing his eyes and parting his lips. He couldn’t take it anymore, he had to know that she still cared.
Thankfully, she did. At first, she didn’t return the kiss, but she slowly melted into the arms of her lover. Levi took care to be gentle, Y/N was fragile and he knew it. Just kissing her had been a big enough risk. They pulled apart and Levi looked at her as the torchlight flickered across her face. A small smile had made its way onto her lips, “Hey, I think I’m ready now.” She mumbled, her voice barely audible, “You know, for us?” She added, Levi smiled too, kissing her forehead.
“Me too. For us.”
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          -------------- and he shall be levon       ( and he shall be a good man )    and he shall be levon       ( in tradition with the family plan )
and i oop
none of this is going to make sense. im really really tired. ive been in a hot car all day sldjskld baking. crispy. now im going to sleep before work,,, but wrow hi im r, im way too excited to be here. this intro is ?? too long but after all these years ive never learned how to stfu. i COULD have done this sooner but i also turned my brain off last night and watched baby driver for the first time and wow 10/10 would recommend sdksjdlkas i dont have discord because im living in the stone age  but im available via tumblr ims if anyone wants to plot --- ill prop make a proper connection page 2mmrow,, just fuck him up. honestly. ruin him. take out the trash.
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[ luke hemmings. twenty-three. cismale. he/him. | muse 4b. ] levon by elton john just came on the radio and it made me think of august ferland. they’ve been in sundance for their whole life and they’re currently an administrative assistant. if you’re looking for them, try by the sheriff’s office, locals say they’re there a lot. [ r. she/them. 20. est. ]
SUBPLOT       if someone asked who sundance’s bad seed is, most people would say muse 4a. always getting in trouble for one reason or another, muse 4a has just never been one to follow rules. maybe that’s why muse 4b, the sheriffs child, is so drawn to them. muse 4a and muse 4b have been hooking up pretty casually, but muse 4b’s soft nature is causing them to fall for sundance’s baddest seed while muse 4a is only interested in hooking up. will muse 4a break muse 4b's heart? what would the sheriff say if they found out?
nonsensical ramblings    
the world is black and white as a child. a young august planted in front of one static plagued television, soaking up the world of cops and robbers. a mop of blond hair and a missing front tooth, beaming proudly “ MY FATHER’S THE SHERIFF “ , a hero in the boy’s mind. black & white. good versus bad.
then comes middle school, high school, and everything thereafter. it’s living under a microscope. small-town living & dealing out the law don’t tend to equate to a private life. sometimes august knows people’s business before they do —- other times the positions are reversed. it wasn’t the easiest of days, far from the romanticized lifestyle often portrayed on screen. the chill of cold shoulders never fades over the years. children told to steer clear of the ferland boy lest they find themselves under sundance’s watchful eye. the SHERIFF’S SON, an undesired spotlight.  as the years come and go, he wonders how he once wore that title with pride.
they made an angel of him. almost golden. of course, the teenage years are a rocky patch for anyone. the spark of rebellion, even he wasn’t immune. eighteen and sneaking out with his father’s pistol, shooting cans and bottles --- until he puts one single bullet through a neighbor’s window. that summer spent wasting away under a scorching sun, completing mundane tasks to earn enough to pay for the replacements. it’s out of character for him, but they write it off as a minor scare --- a teenager. no one was hurt, so all’s well that ends well. right ?
he tires of daily life. the yearning for something more never dies, it just lays dormant. only rarely given a breath of life. he grows exhausted of the endless pestering and gossip tucked in church pews. of the polite smiles and polished image. ‘ when will you settle down ? find a nice girl ? are you going to take over the station ? look at how much you’ve grown. ‘twenty-three years too long in sundance.
he knew the names before he saw them in ink at the station. his father’s endless rants, the population that put grey in his hair. miscreants, that august was explicitly told never to associate with. words that fell on deaf ears and then he goes the extra mile. he can’t help but feel a hint of shame, but never enough for him to put a stop to the sneaking. the town’s bad seed --- the sheriff’s greatest adversary and the cause of most, if not all, of his migraines. then there was august, like a moth to an open flame. it must have been some ultimate form of karma when he realizes something’s changed. the rules of the game aren’t so simple anymore, there’s more at stake. just like that, he’s damned them all. the heart wants what it wants, and now he’s cast as the fool. play with fire, get burned.
1% more brainpower used here       ( background broken down simply )
his aesthetic is that feeling you get when all your extended family ask about your dating life at the family barbecue. vague ??? maybe so, but it triggers something in me.
he’s dumb, and a tad naive lbh, but this is august.. the sheriff’s son if that hasn’t become,,, really obvious. in the brief readings i did beforehand, it seems like small-town sheriffs can sometimes have a bit of a spotlight on themselves and their family so i kind of envisioned him as being borderline lonely in his youth due to the fact people don’t want to find themselves under the microscope by being friends with the sheriff/’s family.  i think the whole sheriff thing has been a big,,, oof in his life. there are probably places he can’t go because his dad arrested the cook in the back or things along those lines.
he’s bored. he has a wifi connection. if his family didn’t think he wasn’t going to get glimpses of the outside world and want to get the fuck out of dodge then idk my dude.
he works as an administrative assistant at the station,, so he’s mainly handling the paperwork and stuff, but id imagine he's a bit of a jack of all trades in the field. takes calls, but also probably gets sent out for the really shitty jobs like the old lady who calls ten times a day for nothing, or that she’s getting calls from scammers :))) but he ain’t going out arresting anyone or doing anything serious. just the “my cat’s in a tree” bs and getting coffee.
in the public eye, he’s probably a real golden child. volunteering, going to church, helping out wherever he can. does he have a genuine interest in any of that ? absolutely not. but it reflects well on his family and on himself. he has a reputation to upkeep. he only went up to high school education-wise, and in a town that probably isn’t too fast crime wise, he has enough free time to be active in the community.
i dont know what suffers more his brain or his heart
n sync vc: bi bi bi
before my dumbass forgets, he does have a good relationship with his parents,,, when he’s not being a fucking moron. follow your heart?? not good advice for him. his mom is currently abroad. aug probably gets his desire to run from her, she’s currently teaching english abroad. he’s v proud of her tyvm. his dad?? yeah. i mean obvs aug isnt very honest about EVERYTHING. he’s gotten good at telling white lies, but he still loves his dad.  he’s also an only child so all eyes on him rIP.
i have a shitty pinterest board for him HERE there's barely anything there but yknow
he’s currently being sized for his clown shoes
thats all folks
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My mum only got worse with me this morning. I didn’t want to tel her KaS was gonna come at 10 o’clock because he just HAS to come early. So when he got in my mum was furious with me for not telling her and “she wasn’t dressed”. She’s always dressed at 10; had to be today that she wasn’t.
Then she screamed/lectured me about the fact that I’m still a child not an adult and I can’t just do whatever I want. I have to do what she wants me to do. I still don’t see why me having the freedom to do that is a problem, I don’t see HIM anymore, and she hasn’t mentioned him in at least a month or two now. I don’t create problems for her, I try to make myself as invisible as possible I’m not a troublemaker. I’m out of her way.
But anyway... we got kicked out, and we went to meet LW in the rain at the bus stop and told him that my mum had said we couldn’t all sit in my house. KaS was pissed - he was carrying his PS4 in his backpack and couldn’t be arsed to do anything. He was angry at me for not asking permission and pissed at my mum for “being a bitch”.
Me and LW had some good conversations even if he was being a dickhead. We got the bus into town and went to Eat4Less because upstairs in McDonalds was busy. KaS paid for us and he demanded I get money out (£10) and use it to buy us a godfather (Pizza, Parmo, Kebab meat). Bare in mind, my food he paid for was like £3.50 ish.
£10 > £3.50
It’s not like I wasn’t going to pay him back but I wasn’t buying him a fucking godfather.
This isn’t taking into account though the amount of times I’ve paid for him in the past two years and got nothing from it but my mum yelling at me...
We got the bus to HM’s afterwards, and sat in the living room with her and her sister (P). It was entertaining, if we’re putting aside the few awkward moments where I was just a bit “uhhh” because I don’t really fit in with their little family (LW, HM and P). We watched Nightmare before Christmas - the reason LW wanted to hang out in the first place.
I didn’t really hear any of the beginning because LW and P were just singing until HM told them to stfu but I do like the art style. Tim Burtons style is disturbingly pleasing lmao
It kinda went downhill from there, I was paranoid about getting home because I expected I’d have to walk from HM’s. If I’m walking I have to be home by 6. LW was playing Fortnite and it was getting to like 4.30.
KaS wanted food and they were all arguing about to where to get food from and I knew I just didn’t have time at all so I decided to just get out of there and walk home. KaS got pissed at me and was saying “You don’t have to leave? Why are you making things awkward? We were just gonna get food.”
I told him I had to leave and he was having none of it. He started getting louder and I was just telling him to leave me alone under my breath. P came out into the hallway and told him to leave me the fuck alone and said he’d been attached to me all day like a leech and to let me do what I want. KaS was stood in the doorway and I had to push past him. He didn’t stop shouting.
“I just wanted to have a good day. But you have to get all paranoid and stressful and do this.”
I literally had to leave to get home on time. At this point he was just following me. I have people yelling at me so I offered for us to just get food on the way home but he didn’t listen to that, he was already too angry.
I was telling him to calm the fuck down basically, and that if I have to do something, I have to do it. There is no arguing.
And I did it... I called him pathetic
A chainsaw couldn’t have broke the tension that lingered after I said that. I could tell it got to him and I’m glad it did. We walked down most of the road in silence. I was trying to speed up to get rid of him but he kept walking with me. I knew where I was going, I was on the road to AD’s house.
I don’t remember what broke the silence, but I know we ended up talking about how he needs to learn to control himself. He kept insisting that there was nothing he could do about it. I told him that he is in control of his own reactions to situations.
AD may have pissed him off the other day but that does not whatsoever justify shoving him into the wall in the middle of a crowded corridor. I used an example saying that, even though I might be autistic, I am still in control of my reactions too. When I have panic attacks, I am the one thinking the thoughts that lead to a panic attack. I can prevent them, it just takes effort.
I do make mistakes but I make a conscious effort to get better, to make them less often. KaS doesn’t. He hasn’t changed and hes not even trying to. I hope this is a wake up call. I don’t want anything to do with him anymore.
I spent the rest of the night with AD. We got pizza from Romano’s and watched the first episode of Lost In Space. It’s made by the same people who made Stranger Things I think. It was pretty good. I probably won’t willingly watch anymore because I don’t have that much attention span but it was good lol
HM called me later to check if I was okay after the scene when I was leaving the house. She made a joke about if AD was taking good care of me but AD didn’t hear haha.
My mum apologised if she sounded mean earlier when I got home. She said basically what she said before but in a less intimidating voice. Guess home feels a little safer now.
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I ripped up my pop-up laundry basket because I was so pissed that somebody or even the delivery stole my 2 boxes of pizza and the cheese bread off of our front porch and I paid dominos $30 for it.
I had to call them to see if he dropped it off at the wrong house or just didn't pay attention. Cause I came downstairs to check at 4:55 and nothing was there, then I went back outside at 5:00, still nothing....opposite to what my dominos tracker said.
And I bought this fucking pizza to make my day because I was so tired, depressed, and sick of being reminded of Jay while watching porn, changing videos that it made me cry because of how she used to sexually reject in the middle of us having sex and then would tell Ayunna to do my work just because I made one mistake or just really wanted to just sit there and watch. I don't understand what made her so non-interactive with me sexually even though she was the one who always initiated. And she acted like she hated the idea of me even touching in any kind of way without her permission, but it was okay if she touched me innappropiately or harassed me at their place?
She's a sicko, a sicko psycho.
And mom, not even giving a fuck that someone stole the food I was finna share pissed me off even further. She goes, "well, at least it will help you save money. You don't need to be buying no food anyway."
Bitch stfu.
And then Dominos actually thinking I'm the one lying about this. We've ordered food and bought pizza from them for years and this is the 1st time that we've ever got our delivery food stolen. Like wtffffff.
And mom knows good and damn well if I would have said that to her if one of her Amazon Packages got stolen, she would have cussed me out or told me to shut up.
She so fucking rude and I really don't wanna move out to no bummy ass looking apartment when I move out, just because the prices are so fucking in the area I'm trying to move into.
I don't wanna move to a different city with the same issue? Bitch if somebody steal anything from me, packages, mail, food, I pop the fuck off and mom was so nonchalant and passive about it, even when I asked her to check the ring camera to see if anyone took it.
It don't add up to me how there was barely anyone outside and the one day I order pizza because I feel unhappy, I get this fucking news and that bitches mouth.
Dominos gave me partial money back and kept the $4 tip. I'm still pissed because I don't believe or understand how can my food get stolen less than 5 min from what it said on the app, unless he arrived earlier than what it said 🤔
And nobody told me what time he came. He didn't even ask me was I alright. Talking about "well believe you this time. But we're not coming back."
Like WTFFF I GOT MY PIZZA TOOK AND NOW YOU WANNA BE A SMARTASS ABOUT ME STILL EVEN WANTING TO ORDER MORE
FUCK YOU, FUCK MOMS SARCASTIC, EGOMANIAC MOUTH, FUCK THIS HOUSE, FUCK THIS NEIGHBORHOOD, AND FUCK THIS PTSD THAT STOPS ME FROM ENJOYING PORN AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN BETWEEN.
IM TIRED OF THIS FUCKING JOB MARKET THATS SO DAMN CRITICAL IN JOB EXPERIENCE AND PROGRAMS.
BITCH IF I GOT 6YRS EXPERIENCE AND I GOT MY BACHELOR’S WTFFFFF IS GOING ON IN HR
THEY ACT LIKE 6YRS AINT WORTH SHIT IF YOU DONT HAVE EXACTLY TO THE FUCKING T OF WHAT THEY'RE LOOKING FOR.
AND MOM AND DAD THINKS ITS SO FUCKING EASY FOR ME TO JUST APPLY AND WAIT FOR ANOTHER FUCKING JOB, ONLY FOR THEIR PRIVILEGED, SUPPRESSING, CORPORATE ASSES TO TELL ME NO.
IVE BEEN WAITTTTTING SINCE JANNUUUUUUAAAARRRRRYYYYYYYT MMMMMMFFFFFFFFFFF
SO HOW THE FUCK YOU SAY I CAN JUST APPLY HERE AND THERE AND EVERYWHERE IN FUCKING WACKED OUT MICHIGAN WITHOUT SOMEBODY SAYING "WE FOUND BETTER, QUALIFIED CANDIDATES"
Like as if my own life history on this fucking resume doesn't mean shit to them. Makes me think I went to school and did dual enrollment to get out quicker, for nothing 🙃
Wtf is wrong with this world. It's exactly why I say fuck Michigan economy. Now I gotta work factory just to even save up for a car, rent is high af, student loans finna come find my ass, and I don't have a girlfriend because I'm trying to wait till I have an affordable apartment and a car that won't break down on me on the highway in the middle of us driving to Vancouver.
Driving school is only $500. But in order for me to save up for a car, I gotta stay in a $600 or less place cause otherwise imma have to wait a whole entire year to save up for a car, the insurance, gas, and the maintenance costs by the end of next year...so no...fuck that.
With this fucking salary, I'm basically feel like shit because my own fucking friend who's middle class and actually stayed longer to get her masters after I graduated....is already banking a better job, work from home, and I hate complaining to Her about my worries.
And she's the one that inspired me to even go back for the masters. Because they treat you like secondhand condom shit just for having a Bachelor’s. Like it ain't good enough no more. Then when you try to apply to places for the experience that you needed to work another job that denied you, you still get denied by them too because they said your major doesn't match and why you wanna work here if you studied this?
CAUSE YALLL AINT GOT NO JOBS FOR WTF I STUDIED STOP READING FUCKING EVERYTHING SUSAN. I AINT GOT TIME TO EVEN ARGUE WITH YOU ABOUT THAT
it's like they really don't care in the 1st place, they just wanna know if you qualify and half the time I be lying about why I wAnNA wOrK hErE because yall cats read into people shit and judge them for just trying to make a living just to even have a place to stay and eat healthy food so a bitch can find better partners than the fuckbois and users on tinder.
I'm soooooo damn tired of being judged, mocked, criticized, and being rejected. And then the past mocking me about old rejections that I'm still waiiiiittttttiiingggggg for me to heal from. A year or nor, my heart still feels like it's January, thinking about everything and why did I block Jay when they reached out?
I was afraid that she would have just lied to me again, pushed me away even harder because I had already left, and then blocked me after. When I'm the one who chose to leave, I'm the one who is hurt, why did they always make it seem like my pain came last to their pain. Like it was always about serving them, doing what they said, what they wanted just because they were the couple, and took over every God Damn thing, and kept pushing me away, neglecting my emotions, manipulating and etc.
I don't even wanna talk about the same shit that happened anymore. But my brain does, my heart does. Because I remember everything. My heart can't make the pain go away, but I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of crying about it and I hate that people in this house can trigger my actions to tear up shit, scream at the top of my lungs like a damn scarecrow on DragonBall Z, I'm tired of mom triggering me to think she hates my actions and the way that I think say or do something she doesn't agree about or care about, so she comments on everything little thing she despises.
When I'm already struggling to be happy. She does not give a fuck. And I bet if I told her I was feeling suicidal holding that wire from the laundry basket in my hand, feeling manic so I strangled my palms, my knuckles, and squeezed the crap out of that wire hoping it would make me forget about ripping up that piece of shit hamper, and make the irritation, that need to strangle somebody, something to make this itch go away to attack my mother with my words and tell her TO HURT HER OWN GOD DAMN FEELINGS INSTEAD OF KEEP HURTING MINE, YOU ARROGANT, COCKY ASS SON OF A BITCH AND I HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DO TO ME. PIERCING IN MY FUCKING BACK, THE DRY ASS, PETTY ASS RESPONSES TO WHEN IM GOING THROUGH SHIT.
BUT LET ME SAY ONE LITTLE THING ABOUT YOU OR EVEN TALK ABOUT GRANDMA YO ASS ACT LIKE I JUST SINNED AND CURSED YO NAME OUT.
SO YOU GET A HISSY FIT AND TELL ME STOP TALKING OR TO SHUT UP.
QUIT TELLING ME TO SHUT UP HOE
I HAVE NO PLACE TO GO BUT HERE AND IM NOT FINNA SUFFER THROUGH THIS BY MYSELF. IM BUYING ME SOME FUCKING PIZZA AND YOU WILL NOT DRIVE MY ASS CRAZY AGAIN.
I'm sick of the ptsd episodes and I'm sick of waiting on other people to give me what I need, so if she got something to say about it, imma let her fucking have it. Cause I'm sick and tired of holding my mouth for her, and her ordering me to shut up, while she gets to sat however she fucking feels about each and little she feels the need to pick at.
Let her country, dumbass catch this heat. Imma bounce it right back to her and she ain't gonna like it. And I don't care if she wants me to just tolerate it anymore, she gon end up dead in her heart too if ever tried to kill me like she did that night in March. She showed no mercy, no remorse, and no she had not stood by her promise to make our relationship work as mother and daughter. She just said that so she didn't have to feel like a dick for her own daughter leaving her out the picture by going to her other mother, the one who understood her sensitivities and actually listened to my needs.
And that was Grandma Clara Jamison.
I hate to say it but, God why? Why did both of my grandma's have to fade. My other grandma don't even remember who I am. And If I talk to my own mom, about her mom, and say that she won't care to comfort me at all. She'll just angry that I made her feel bad because of my emotional response.
So I don't tell her anything. Cause my mom reminds me of how the terrible twins responded to me about being too sensitive, too emotional, to where they even blocked me and abandoned me. Made me suffer alone.
Just like my own mother is doing now, and it's driving my ass crazy. That she's them. Not my ex, but a narcissistic asshole, the bipolar freak who flips out and I can't come to her when I'm in pain, sadness, depression, or grief, anger even.
Because she ridicules me for having a strong feeling about something that doesn't matter. So she talks shit, goes away, or pushes me away when I try telling her in my most vulnerable state.
Which is when I'm crying or about to cry. I can't even come to my own mother about giving up and moving away to the mountains or a cabin or just committing suicide with pain pills. But she doesn't think about that. She doesn't think that her constant neglecting me, is showing me, I can't trust her.
And that's exactly how I did Jay, and walked away.
I'm there for you, but you're not there for me?
I'm out.
And I'm tired of just giving and getting hurt in return because you don't care about the situation that I'm in, nor do you care to listen.
So don't get all I'm ready to come whoop yo.ass or call the police on me again, just because I didn't answer my phone. You hurt me momma, repeatedly and you show out every so.often and I'm tired of getting disappointed and crying by myself because you don't come check on me when I isolate myself from you in the house. My back hurts everytime she does that, cause she triggers a memory that I can't forget.
I could have hit my head, got a concussion, or even broke my neck if I didn't catch my fall and pushed you back, because you decides that night Kylee doesn't get to talk. You came at me yelling and pushing and thought that I would just take that fall down those metal basement steps for you and that everything would go back to normal the next day?
Like that fight you had with Dad just last week where you punched him in his nose, screaming and cussing at him over you being in pain and him not showing you enough care. So you hit him anyway, then he puts you in chokehold and me and my sisters are supposed to just forget that anything happened???
We have to process all the crazy, toxic shit yall do to us or in front of us BY OURRRSEELLLVESSSS
My lil sister is 18 and was trying to stop a 6'1 grown man from beating yo.ass up. And on top of that, the same grown man was pushing me back too on my own chest.
But we're supposed to just go back to normal, assemble the stage, make yall two feel happy after yall so called talked it our when literally 3 days ago, yall slept in different places, dad at his dead moms house in grand Rapids, you at a hotel.room for a different night, and him on the couch after he came back.
Whyyy the fuck are yall so damn passive about this shit, but if I bring it up or even ask about Grandma, my ass get handed to.
He's not fine. Yall are not okay. It shouldn't be imma put my hands on you just because you pissed me off and you're supposed to love me tomorrow, no matter how much I scar you or hurt your face.
Like brainwashing, forced brainwashing to accept that shit is okay. as long as i never say anything about it, I'm not in trouble or receive neglect.
Yall are the most manipulative people I ever met. And Dominos I want my $4 back too mf. Tip should come back too.
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riverjynx · 6 years
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Blindly, Hopelessly, Perfectly
Poe Dameron x Reader
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Days could go by in simple, monotonous smiles. Just half smiles. Its all you could conjur in the face of blind faith; the blind faith that it could somehow end up meaning something. A few friendly flirts and corny jokes later they might.
Nothing happened. It was just routine. Just doing your job. Just.
It wasn’t enough anymore. You weren’t helpless, you couldn’t afford to be. A mechanic barely makes enough to feed themselves even highly trained ones. But you couldn’t afford to complain either. Just do your job. Just.
~~~
The nights and day merged and you couldn’t distinguish between them anymore, and your painful ignorance to self care left you plummeting. You worked hard to tick everything off your checklist but the constant need of repairs created an endless loop trapping you inside your workplace, alone and exhausted.
Proving yourself worthy of being an important and irreplaceable member of the resistance was the task you accomplished after many daunting nights with no sleep, no interaction or food. This was the price you were willing to pay.
~~~
He watched you fall, Watched your smile fall with you. The days where you couldn’t move from exhaustian and he remembers picking you up each time. Each time. A smile, a hug, a reassurance a cocky grin as you flirted back and forth, stood your ground and never ever showed that the workload got to you.
The resistance required the blind faith you were all too happy to submit to and it nearly killed you. It hurt him a lot deeper than he liked to admit. This is how he witnissed first hand your inner strength to continue with your work, realise the time and effort you put into the resistance. It took your sweat, blood and tears to make the repairs in the bloody hole the First Order ripped in the galaxy. With no recognition
And he admired you.
Then he couldn’t stand it no more, friends were supposed to help each other. Gods he hated the word friend, he wanted so much more. A time and place, a time and place.
~~~
Another dark night droned on and you took a breath you didn’t know you’d been holding after switching BB-8 back on. The little tyke rolled around you beeping with happiness and joy and childlike giddiness. You allowed yourself this one moment to just relax slightly under the workload and sit on the floor laughing at BB-8’s antics. As he whizzed around the room in glee.
He saw. He saw this wonderful miracle unfold before him. You were happy, in all his days of knowing you, you’d never been so… So content.
And it warmed his soldiers heart. He wanted- no needed more. More of this kind of happiness from you when you finally accept you’ve done a good job and relax even a little to take the mandotory time to just breath.
There was another exchange of smiles when he picked up BB-8. (A little later than the alotted time but just so he could watch you just a little longer.) BB-8 was still brimming with joy as he zoomed around poe earning a deep chuckle.
It was more than just smiles. It was a thank you. But he couldn’t hold it in anymore and he needed to give you the help you adamantly denied.
“Gods Y/n when was the last time you slept?!”
Your unsureness of answering this sudden question brought your lack of strength and the physical numbness you were enduring to the front of your mind.
The nausea caused you to almost collapsed but you steadied yourself, you could handle yourself, you were no damsel in distress and you could certainly give and take punches emotional and physical. The mantra you taught yourself repeated as it blazed through your thoughts dashing any fear and guarding yourself with relentless stubborness to back down and a cheeky grin to hide your weary soul behind.
“Two days ago. Why my caring flyboy?”
“And the last time you washed?”
“I wash every day thank you very much. I make sure to do that. What about you marblemana with the heart of stone?”
“But the last time you properly took care of yourself; ate a full meal not just scraps, had a nice long hot bath not just a cold shower to wake you up into alert mode, Slept in a bed not on the floor for a few hours? Before you joined the resistance a year ago Y/n. Surely you understand where this is leading darlin’.”
You couldn’t say anything because it was all true. You didn’t allow yourself luxiouries, you could have them later, after work finished. Work never finished and you were neck deep in seconds.
“I miss you Y/n. The person I knew on Yavin 4, the person to joke with me and teach me how to build a makeshift droid. I really do miss those moments with you Y/n and I’m sorry to be selfish but you’re gonna for once put your stubborn defences down and share a bed with me so I know where you are and you will sleep a goodnights sleep. Also, the general herself is interfering with your heavy workload and its no longer yours alone to carry which it shouldn’t have been in the first place. Come back to me Y/n. Please, I will beg if I have to and you know I will so wipe that silly grin off your face.”
“You’ll beg? I’d like to see that.”
“I bet there’s a whole lot more you’d like to see as well…”
“Oh yes. I’d like to see you try and catch me!”
Before the last word even escaped your mouth you bolted with whatever energy you had left to Poe’s quaters. Gods you were free from your loop, unburdened and refreshed with a new vigour and enthusiasm where you could see the work you’ve done and what you’ve accomplished from your small office. And for once in a very long time, you were proud.
Yes you had given in to Poe easily without a fight because you knew it would happen, sooner or later, you knew that someday someone would demand you to break out of your loop because you couldn’t do it yourself. You never had the energy to make a stand against yourself except for now. Now was where you would live, not hoping for the future and relying on hope, but also seeing the change you were making, day by day amd bask in the happiness it brought you to make a difference somewhere.
~~~
Poe couldn’t not smile at your sleeping form, the gentle dozing where you were no longer at a bittersweet war with yourself. But a peace swept over you like a cotten blanket smothering you in warmth. Gods was he lucky. You gave him hope, hope that the resistance was stronger than it had ever been with brave souls thriving.
In his smile, he knew he loved you. In fact, he knew from the moment you stepped off the lander from Yavin 4 and your first words being:
‘Well don’t just stand there you skinny boys in suits, lets get to work!’
And this time he fell, he fell in love with you and he wouldn’t ever deny it.
“And to who do I owe this pleasure of waking up to this glorious face?”
“I guess my parents for making me.”
“Smartasses get soreasses.”
“I know.”
“Oh for gods sake Poe you always lead back to sex and stop winking with that pretty little face.”
“You were the one that said it you idiot.”
“You’re the one thats holding me so tight as if I might disappear- Poe can’t breath!
I hate you.”
“And I hate you too my little frumpkin.”
“I may be little but how dare you compare me to a frumpkin.”
“I could have said my little porg but frumpkin sounded better.”
“A deadly, disease ridden plant that regurgitates its faeces on predators to eat them. Yeah cute nickname Poe.”
“I know I’m just the best boyfriend ever.”
It was out in the open and he didn’t even mean to say it, of course he wanted to but not yet. Too late now though, he’d just face the rejection and carry on. He would still be here for them always.
“You can be when you want to be my flirtatious flyboy. But I love you all the same.”
Didn’t even miss a beat and through his happpiness, they sealed it with a kiss.
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Stfu that was cute and you know it. Oooo I love it. I’m so happy now and its deadass long. Fuckin hell.
This is River, signing off.
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enemies to lovers!sungwoon 
genre: fluff word count: 2.0k summary: would you listen to your heart, or your mind in the face of love? author’s note: first scenario up, sorry if its too cringey (´・ω・`)  /edits are mine!/
• well *claps three times sassily*
• iTs hA sAeng uN tiMe
• sungwoon was,,, really just like any other classmate (who sits behind you)
• aside from his obnoxiously stupid loud voice (which you’ll grow to love shh)
• and his stupid round glasses that dEfiNiteLy dIdN’T sUiT hIm aT aLL???!! (inserts overly used spongebob meme)
• and his stupid lips that look like clouds (and probably tastes like them too) 
• and his stupidly sparkly eyes and his stupidly cute height and jUst uGh
• come to think of it he was never really a normal person and you were just a wee bit attracted to him JUST A WEE BIT A WEE BIT 
• but ever since this argument you had in front of the entire class,, the wee feelings you thought you had for him disappeared (did it really??) because boi he is annoying  눈_눈 
• it was literature class and your teacher!jisung was asking a question about whether you should follow your heart or your mind when making a choice 
• jisung: “so…y/n, what do you think?”
• you: “actually, i personally think that thinking with your mind is a better option because it will lead you to making a more rational choice, since your heart may make risky decisions based on your emotions. following your heart will not work well in situations that are pressurising.”
• jisung: “brilliant, any other opinions, class?”
• sungwoon: “well, actually, i personally think that your argument is flawed because your mind is logical and logic follows the conventional way of thinking. you’ll never get to go out of your comfort zone! you’ll never take any risk! that’s why you have to think with your heart. think, think!”
• oH HO aH HA *rubs hands in glee* D RA M A
• you: “but taking risks will get you into trouble!”
• sungwoon: “well that’s because you’re a goody-two-shoes!”
• you: “says the one who hasn’t skipped school before.”
• him: “says the one who never fails to hand up your homework on time.”
• you both: “sAYS THE ONE-“
• jisung, exasperatedly: “ALRIGHT CLASS, LET’S SETTLE DOWN, NO FIGHTING BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE UNDERAGE.” 
• ok but he’s secretly shipping you guys together because oo you both noticed each other’s habits in school mHmMmMmMmm!m
• anyway
• that was the beginning of the hatred between the two of you,, you were like bij what the feck 
• queueing for food in the cafeteria? sungwoon secretly slips in front of you when you're distracted,, talking to your friends
• you confront him about it - but he acts like he doesn't know anything even though the small smirk on his face tells you otherwise,, and that infuriated you to no end
• having lessons? you turn behind and ‘accidentally’ knock over his pencil case to pass him papers teachers give out 
• you feel bad whenever he has to pick everything back up but your pride ain't gonna let you stoop that low to help the enemy so you just kind of just signal to your lab partner baejin to help him and he's always ʘ‿ʘ because he knows something’s up but only for a moment as he remembers you have the video of him headbanging on top of a table once because he didn't hear you entering his dorm room,,,bUT THATS A STORY FOR ANOTHER TIME
• however,, one day when you were going home after long gruelling hours in prison (jk school), you decided to take a detour to a convenience store since you are a thirstin’ and hungry hoe 
• after spending eons deciding on which snack to buy (you ended up buying one of each of the five types you painstakingly shortlisted), you finally decided to go and pay
• bUT GUESS WHO YOU SAW ????? (cues the ‘no shit, sherlock’s)
• yes it is,,, HA SUNGWOON1!1!1!!1!1!1!!
• but he wasn't alone
• was he with a girlfriend????? boyfriend????
• NO!!
• he was with an old lady
• and well, being the nosy person you are, you crept closer forward to figure out what they're saying in front of a pissed off cashier while pretending to look at the drinks
• old lady: “i’m sorry, i do not have enough money to pay for everything. are you sure there's no discount for the elderly? i have the card with me-”
• cashier, rudely cuts in: “this is the second time you're asking me that, and the answer is. still. no. fix your hearing, will you?”
• sungwoon: “fix you manners, will you? i’ll pay for her as well so shut the hell up and start being polite, will you?”
• the mildly stunned cashier decided to shut the hell up and started being polite; scanning their items and even bowed to them after they left.
• however, all you noticed was the blinding smile sungwoon gave to the lady.
• it made you feel things
• good things
• something sort of like…butterflies in your stomach
• your mind tells you to sTOP THINKING OF FRATERNISING WITH YOUR ENEMY THAT’S A BIG NO-NO
• …but your heart speaks otherwise
• you decided to leave the store after purchasing your goods (not without giving the cashier a stink eye) not long after ,, and surprise, surprise!
• you knocked your forehead against the chin of someone (that someone has an unbelievably sharp chin and it probably left a dent in your skull) coming into the store
• and it was,,, sungwoon?? again??
• him: “wait, you…were in there the whole time?”
• you: *blinks* *nods dazedly*
• him: “oh…um, i, um forgot to buy my milk and you’re, um, blocking the entrance?”
• you: “oh.” *doesn’t budge*
• you, 10 seconds later: “youdidwellbacktheregoodjobokbye” *runs away*
• you realised that that was actually your first conversation with him that didn't include any fighting…and you screwed it up 
• but why do you even care about that?? like, who cares if you talk to him??
• “you do.” your smol beating heart whispers.
• and that was the day you started falling for him.
• you started noticing how he always seemed to pick up your pen whenever you try some cool tricks which often resulted in it flying backwards (and hitting him once but you swear it was an accident)
• how he never fails to try his best and give you constructive feedback whenever the teacher told you guys to switch papers to mark (even though he’ll always add in some snarky remarks like “hah betcha didn't listen in class”)
• how he defends his friends when they get laughed at for not knowing how to answer questions at times 
• how his lips look so full and cloud-like 
• but what about him, then? does he feel the same?
• honestly,, the day you ran away after complimenting was the incident that really got him thinking that hey i’m really am whipped
• yes that's rIGHT
• he liked you even before that incident because you looked cute bickering with him (he thought you resembled a smol angry bird)
• and that day just,, confirmed his suspicions that he really likes you
• but he was scared,,
• that you’ll reject him because in his opinion,, you looked like you hated him a lot
• he had no idea how to rectify that because honestly bothering you was the only way he could keep talking to you 
• bUt hAh jokes on both of you guys because you like each other 
• hOWEVER, THERE WAS A PROBLEM
• none of you are budging to make the first move even though you guys keep staring at each other across the cafeteria 
• small accidental (🤔🤔) brushes of hands when passing down assignments make you feel fuzzy inside 
• shy smiles are now exchanged instead of mock glares anD eveRyoNe around y’all is just like “feck this tension between you guys, i’ll die before y’all even kiss”
• and you're just “…hAhh no he doesn't like me…NOT THAT I LIKE HIM EITHER” (baejin: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°))
• to make sure that everyone lives to see you guys become an item,, sungwoon’s and your friends decided to hatch a plan to get you guys together (they deadass created a group chat for it called ‘we are gonna make this happen’ what jokes)
• …that's why you find yourself pacing up and down the garden in your school (it's monstrous and no lie you were kinda afraid of it but nvm) because your bestie told you to meet her there after eating lunch and you're just like ?? i thought you had a meeting 
• her: stfu nobody asked for your opinion jUst gO aLonG wiTh tHe fLoW jk i love you
• when you finally heard the crunching of leaves and twigs, you launched into your rant like bRUH I’VE BEEN WAITING HERE FOR TWENTY MINUTES WHY ARE-
• unknown: “…sorry?”
• you, a stuttering and blushing mess: “oh-h sor-ry i thought you were my b-best friend because i was supposed to b-be meeting her here.”
• sungwoon, a tad shyly: “wait, what? my friends told me to meet them here too!”
• you: “…oh. guess we have to wait together…then.”
• after five minutes of agonising awkwardness (istg the both of you were dying to speak but it was like there was this invisible barrier), you couldn't take it anymore 
• you: “um, so-”
• sungwoon, at the same time, loudly: “UM, SO-“
• you: “ok you go first”
• him: “no you go first”
• you: “no YOU go first”
• him: “fine”
• you: “fine”
• you: “why aren't you speaking????”
• you, looking over worriedly at the flustered boy: “did you become mute??? are you sick?? your ears are turning red!!!!!”
• him, after a one minute mental pep talk: “okay so you're one of the dumbest persons i've ever met but you're also one of the prettiest too and i've been waiting to say this for the past few months but i really like you a lot but i know that you hate me and want me to be banished to the other side of the world and i'll back off if you don't like me which is a highly possible answer but i like you a lot and fuck why am i rambling”
• you: “wait shut up and let me process what you just said”
• you: *processes for a long time because yOU CANT BELIEVE YOUR CRUSH LIKED YOU BACK*
• him: “…oooookay i’m about to be rejected i should skedaddle away right now”
• and honestly you felt like you could burst but no you can't burst because then you'll never be his girlfriend so you try to keep your guts from exploding 
• but sungwoon was already leaving ,,, you have to takE A C TION 
• so you ran up to him and told him that you actually reciprocate his feelings ,, and you gave him the best hug you could ever give (one that u reserved for only your soft toys and well technically sungwoon is as soft as a soft toy so it makes sense)
• HE WAS SHOCKED, SURPRISED, STUNNED, SHOOK, SURPRISED, SHOCKED (…what else i am not a living thesaurus ffs) 
• his heart was doing that little jump thingy whenever he was around you like “!1!1!!1!????!1!!!!” and he was so happy he wanted to turn around and kiss you but 
• AT THAT MOMENT BEFORE YOU GOT TO TASTE HIS CLOUD LIKE LIPS
• you heard the rustling of leaves and a group of people climbed out of their hiding spots in bushes, behind plants, trees, a random beach chair
• daniel: HEY HEY HEY KEEP IT PG-13 OR THE POLICE WILL COME
• baejin: yEA WE HAVE A BABY HERE *points to daehwi*
• jihoon: and we won't want to scar our eyes lololol no offence to you y/n this is directed to our hyung
• your bestie: i KNEW THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA
• ,,,and that was the end of your fiasco in the garden (not without those bright smiles from your boyfriend that could actually save the world and a few pecks sneaked in) 
• BUT IT WAS JUST THE BEGINNING OF THE CUTEST RELATIONSHIP EVER WITH SUNGWOON, AN ANGEL,,
• and you realised that hey you thought with your heart when you confessed to him lmao
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yakumtsaki · 7 years
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Well, well, well, look who’s back with the most morally repugnant update in Union history. Me. It’s been a very productive summer of Netflix, chill and giving wrong directions to tourists but all good things must come to an end. Also coming to an end is my ill-fated attempt to kill Max, who, after refusing to eat the cake FOR 2 FUCKING DAYS is finally released from the cage of death. Honestly, I’m impressed, Max, you’re definitely not as stupid as you look.
-Yea, I get that a lot.
I doubt that but whatever, now gtfo and I better not see your Komei-clone ass around Jojo ever again or it’s back in prison for you!
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-So, Jojo, not that we’re not all extremely invested in the excruciating selection process of your husband, but are you any closer to picking one?? I mean I love this whole commune thing we have going but the constant food delivery for 8 is killing us.
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-We’re afraid not, dear brother, it’s starting to look like no one in this world is worthy of our majesty.
Ugh are we really doing royal ‘we’ now? Is this what this has come to?
-Yes, college has really helped develop our sense of self-worth.
How can it be self-worth if you’re ‘we’?
-This is exactly the kind of idiotic questioning that would get you eliminated from the suitor process. 
Oh, perish the thought! And miss out on this classical-music-dick-measuring-contest you have them doing?
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-Ew seriously, Francis, Vivaldi? Why don’t you turn up to Justin Bieber while you’re at it.
Man, what a zinger! Good times. JOJO PICK A FUCKING DUDE ALREADY SO I CAN MOVE THE OTHERS OUT THE LOT IS LAGGY AS SHIT
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-I lost the dick measuring contest and my punishment is sleeping on the couch.
KILL HIM IN HIS SLEEP MELODY
-Maybe later, Real Housewives of Pleasantview is on, Cassandra is getting dragged for the pigtails!!
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-Ha, look at this Vivaldi-listening losér! Point at him and laugh, everyone!
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-Who’s laughing now, bitch? Not you with that hoof right in your French-whore mouth!
-Ugh, aren’t you late for the beans-on-toast feast, you limey piece of merde?
Not since the 100 Years War have French-British tensions ran this high. Of course that one was for a throne, while this one..
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-Is for something far more important.. Our heart.
LMAO Jojo please be serious, you don’t have a heart.
-We absolutely do and it’s made out of pure gold.
Yea I guess, I mean gold is a metal after all! 
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-Do you really think you should be eating decaying Chinese food, mon cheri? You’re going to need a soda to digest it and you know it’s too cold for your teeth!
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-Wyatt, I don’t pay you to think, I pay you to sit across from me and look pretty, and occasionally to scooch down next to me so I look taller.
-You actually don’t pay me at all.
-Yes and obviously I’m getting my money’s worth.
Wow Jojo tone it down, your gold heart is shinning so brightly I’m gonna go blind!
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Precious Gunther has added three new addictions to his existing sex one! A) working out in this atrocious outfit.
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B) blowing bubbles from dawn to dusk.
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and c) and the most disturbing one, constantly being alone in enclosed spaces with his brother’s intended, Brit Brit. At first I wasn’t too worried about it, thinking Brit is a popularity sim so it’s only natural..but then..
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I SEE THIS. GODDAMMIT GUNTHER WHY MUST YOU HAVE CHEMISTRY WITH EVERYONE
-Man idk, it’s almost supernatural. Blame it on God ;)
UGH I don’t even know who I hate more, your whore ass-
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-or this fucking llama that hasn’t gone home in 3 days and is eating all our pizza. 
-I just feel so accepted here, like I’m part of the family, you know? 
GET OUT
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Speaking of furries, not even the cow will approach the fucking cowplant, jfc. I mean you’d expect some kind of kinship there but nop. Great job Jojo, you killed a dozen secret society members for a defective cowplant.
-Mooo :(
I don’t know which one of you did that but stfu, I can’t anymore with this flop ass household!!!1
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ANYWAY back to Brit and Daniel, it seems like my Gunther concerns were baseless, since these two remain eternally into each other, always autonomously doing cute crap.
-Oh Daniel, let me serenade you with the song of your people!  
The kings made us drunk with fumes, peace among us, war to the tyrants! Let the armies go on strike, stocks in the air, and break ranks. If they insist, these cannibals on making heroes of us, they will know soon that our bullets are for our own generals  ♪
ROMANCE ISN’T DEAD
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In other news, allow me to present you all with Melody’s personality panel. I was under the false impression that being the child of Wanda and Stephen she was.. nice?? But nop, total Union freak material! We hit the jackpot once again. Now her best friendship with bitch Brit makes total sense.
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-Honestly girl, this janky ass house is such a step down from the sorority, I spend half the day thinking of ways to peace out.
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-Ugh I know, I was on the fence at first but can you really put a price on good d?
-Aw, what are my beautiful hens cackling about? May I join?
-No.
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-I was about to make a math joke but I doubt you gals would get it, amirite? As Barbie said, math is hard!
- I’m a literal math major.
-Oh I know, Mel, good for you! Affirmative action works wonders!
KILL HIM AND HIS HAREM WE DON’T NEED THE LAG
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It’s another day in paradise. Daniel has finally cracked and gone full Komei, autonomously cleaning shit even though we have a maid..
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Melody ate a ton of burnt grilled cheese and is non-stop throwing up..
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AND THIS BULLSHIT IS STILL GOING ON. STOP IN THE NAME OF LOVE
-What?? We’re just talking, GAWD
No you’re not “””just talking””” you’re gossiping and doing sexy whispers, I KNOW YOUR TRICKS GUNTHER-
-I don’t mean to interrupt but I think you’re focusing on the wrong issue here?
OH AM I?? DO TELL
-LOOK OUTSIDE BITCH
Nice try whores, nothing is happening outside-
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UUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMM WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK. WHAT. 
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-That’s right, Ti-Ning and I are in love now!
............................FRAN THIS BETTER BE SOME DRY ASS BRITISH HUMOR 
-Nop! We got tired of waiting for Jojo and we decided the best way to handle it was to suddenly make out in front of him even tho we have never even flirted before!
THIS LITERALLY CANNOT BE HAPPENING
-Well it is, so best accept it and we can all move on :)
Oh yea certainly, I mean if anything Jojo is known for his ability to forgive and forget!
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See the ghost of Ti-Ning indeed! Finally a wish Jojo and I share. 
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TI-NING OMFG THIS LACK OF SHAME
-Haha!!! Finally I’m free to be as gross as I want >:) 
Well.. enjoy it while it lasts.
-The hell does that mean??
Nothing, just you know, none of us know when our time will come.. only that it will. The curse of human existence, one might say. Only we among the animal world know that we will die. Memento mori, Ti-Ning. And we will memento you. 
-..Yea, maybe it’s time I move out?
I mean, you can try..
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..but like the curse from It Follows, it follows. It being Jojo. How you holding up boo?
-Oh, I’m great, can’t you tell?
You know what might help? Some of your beloved homework! Do something useful, get your mind off this stuff..
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“Sending The First Human to Mercury and Leaving Him There: A Very Specific Space Exploration Proposal” 
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-Jojό!! I’m writing about how I finally won your heart but please don’t look, I’m gonna read this at our wedding!
-Yea I literally couldn’t care less about you and your thoughts/feelings/etc, what was left of my heart is dead and gone and now there’s only a black hole there.. Oh we could also send Ti-Ning to a black hole if Mercury doesn’t work. Nice.
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-UGH how are you even still alive and breathing the same air as me and not dead from shame like you should be, you vile adulteress???
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-OH PLEASE you’re just mad cause Fran and I realized we can do better than your mega-jaw ass. If not for the endless supply of bubbles around here blurring our vision this would have happened weeks ago!
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-I’m going to strangle you in your sleep and my jaw will be the last thing you see.
-Your jaw would be the last thing I saw even if I died on the moon.
-MAYBE YOU WILL
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.....................well I guess it’s official then. And if the above didn’t seal it..
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..this definitely did. God have mercy on me, what a shitshow.
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While Tin and Fran are woohooing, Jojo attempts to end his troubles once and for all by running out of the house and into a thunder fire. Thankfully the rain puts it out quickly and all we’re left with is critically low hygiene. 
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Man, serving Penguin teas! You have the entire look down, Jo. I’d tell you to audition for Gotham but that’s extremely bad career advice
-Oh god, I almost died!!!! 
Aw I know, but don’t worry you’re safe now <3
-No I mean I came so close but didn’t make it.. :(
Jojo please, if anything, live to kill Ti-Ning and Francis. You owe it to yourself.
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As soon as Fran and Tin are done, guess who rushes in to gossip next to the bed. ISTG YOU ASSHOLES, BREAK IT THE FUCK UP BEFORE I THROW YOU OUT THAT WINDOW
-Whatever, we’d just land on Jojo trying to set himself on fire.
-LOL oh Brit you’re so funny!
I HATE THIS HOUSE
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-HAD FUN, DID WE YOU SLUT
-Get him, Jojό!
Honestly Wyatt, I get being supportive but I’m really starting to worry about you, even demeaning yourself has its limits..
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..especially since Jojo continues to be a massive freakshow. Good lord.
-Oh Francis, don’t tell Wyatt cause you know how he gets, but your total disregard for my existence is making me see you in a whole new, hot, light..
Man, good thing Wyatt isn’t standing 3 steps away from you!
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Oh yes, loving this dinner. An ocean between us..
-I wouldn’t eat that third slice if I was you, Ti-Ning. Your funeral day is fast approaching, don’t you want to look nice for it? 
-Well you’ll be there so it doesn’t matter, everyone will be looking at your jaw.
Yes, what a wonderful night. Now let’s all go to bed and hopefully everyone will have calmed down a little by tomorrow!
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LMAO yea idk what I was thinking.
-Strangle me in my sleep? How about I strangle you in broad daylight???
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I can’t believe I’m saying this, but.. poor Jojo. Not only did he get his ass beat, but to literally add insult to the injury-
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-everyone is lusting after Gunther during his defeat. Jfc, I’d want to set myself on fire too.
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Oh here we go, Gunther to the rescue! 
-How dare you beat up my brother even though he attacked you first? Prepare to die!
-Whatever, I’ve been preparing for that for the last couple days!
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Aw, Gunther is such a good brother/giant loser depending on the outcome of this fight.
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VINDICATION. Bravo, Gunther, defending our non-existent family honor!
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Daniel, in true Daniel fashion, slept through this entire shitshow, which might be the smartest thing he’s ever done.
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Oop, spoke too soon. Say what you want about Gunther and Daniel but man do they both love Jojo! Truly god knows why.
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-So Brit, you’re studying poli-sci, can you think of a peaceful resolution to this? Haha!
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-YOU STFU TI-NING MY FINALS ARE TODAY MY GPA IS ALREADY IN THE TOILET AND NOW IM GONNA FLOP CAUSE YOU ASSHOLES SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT FUCKING AND THE WHOLE DAY FIGHTING AND I HAVEN’T SLEPT AT ALL DAMN YOU ALL TO HELL I’M GONNA BURN THIS PLACE TO THE FUCKING GROUND IF YOU TRY ME
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Well, you might not need to Brit! WHAT IS UP WITH THIS HYPER-FLAMMABLE CACTUS
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Brit returns from her finals with a free pizza! How’d you do, Brit?
-Saved by the nightie again!
NOICE. Got a freebie pizza from it too?
-No, I found it in the garbage. My gift to Francis and Ti-Ning for their 3 day anniversary! 
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Jojo’s official greek house portrait coming along nicely! Wow he looks very majestic..
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..Instagram vs Real Life.
-Bowling is so satisfying if you pretend the pins are your former lovers’ genitals!
Whatever coping method works for you boo!
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Gunther and Ti-Ning are officially enemies which is hilarious because not even Jojo is enemies with him?? Follow your bliss, Guns!
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In an impressive display of brotherly synchronicity we have double slapping across the room. Double the slapping for half the time, Jojo is as always a true capitalist.
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JOJO!! I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU WON! So proud of my baby <3 I’m ofc kidding, this shit has gotten old really fast and I extremely feel Brit watching uninterested. ENOUGH  
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HARD MOOD. Brit is honestly on another level than the rest of us basics. What an icon.
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For some reason I bothered to fulfill Ti-Ning’s want to learn that relationship maintenance or w/e lifetime skill (talk about money down the drain) and the irony of this pop up text almost sent me to an early grave. And we know who’s going to an early grave today..
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IT’S CAKE TIME. REACH OUT, TI-NING. YOU KNOW YOU WANT IT
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FINALLY. GOODBYE FIGHTING AND INSANE LAG
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JESUS JOJO. STONE. COLD.
Ice Cube would like to say, that I'm a crazy muthafucka from around the way, since I was a youth, I smoked weed out, now I'm the muthafucka that ya read about, takin' a life or two, that's what the hell I do, you don't like how I'm livin well fuck you ♪
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Wyatt and Brit were on their way to react to Ti-Ning’s little accident but somehow got sidetracked and are now randomly arguing on the porch. Honestly I don’t even know what’s going on anymore, I’ve lost all control of this household.
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Jojo rushes over to celebrate Ti-Ning’s demise by immediately slapping the shit out of his grieving lover! Whenever you think we can’t possibly sink any lower, think again. Like right now, after the slapping, are you thinking we can’t sink any lower?????????????????????????????
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THINK. AGAIN.
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ARE YOU SCREAMING? CAUSE I DID
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YUP THIS IS HAPPENING
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IT’S REAL
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IT’S. REAL. THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH CURSE WORDS IN ANY LANGUAGE TO EXPRESS MY FEELINGS
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FUCK YOU FRANCIS. FUCK. YOU. YOU’RE GETTING MURDERED SO FUCKING HARD YOU UNBELIEVABLE ASSHOLE. I’M FUCKING DONE. JOJO YOU’RE GONNA DIE ALONE TIME FOR ALL OF US TO ACCEPT THAT REALITY. WE STARTED OUT WITH 3 CANDIDATES AND ENDED UP HERE. HOW THE EVERLOVING FUCK DID THIS HAPPEN FRANCIS AND WYATT HAVE. 1 BOLT. ONE. WYATT IS A FAMILY SIM I’M SO PISSED OFF I NEED TO TAKE A MOMENT
OK. In my 10 years of playing I have never wanted to quit without saving more than with this bullshit. Look at fucking Fran’s smug ass face and moron Wyatt putting on an Oscar worthy performance of shock and regret. YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID NO, YOU SHOULD HAVE GONE HOME WYATT. What the FUCK are we gonna do now???? I guess good thing Max Flexor survived the cage of death. GOD.DAMMIT
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Call me an easy-to-please dumbass but...
All the decisions Hanyu’s made in his career thus far have turned out to be practical, and sound ones (even when they didn’t seem like it at first) while remaining exciting. This one is no less so, even if it might seem disappointing at first. Why is this, you ask? Let’s put a few things (28, to be exact) into perspective (I’m not blindly positive, y’all):
Hanyu’s winning pattern has always been one problematic skate, and one redeeming and/or explosive one.
Prior to 2012, his SPs were almost always uh-oh! while his FSes were what saved his ass (even if they weren’t super clean).
Post-2012, but pre-2015, when he skated clean, it’s almost always only in the SP.
When he finally skated *both* programs clean in a single competition, he did it with Ballade No. 1 in its second season and SEIMEI in its 3rd competition–more than a decade since he first started skating competitively.
SEIMEI is also the first FS he’s ever skated clean, like *truly* clean, and the first time he skated it clean was also following a clean SP performance. To date, it remains the *only* FS he’s skated clean more than once, and the only one he’s skated well *twice* despite following a clean SP.
Skating it clean following a clean SP means he wasn’t simply chasing, but he was utterly and purely dominating—that was his very first taste of it and methinks the boy man Likes the Feeling Very Much.
In the 2016 WC, after two clean sets of performances in prior competitions, he reverted to the clean-SP-problematic-FS pattern.
And in WC 2017, he flipped the switch and it’s now back to his whoops!SP and explosive!FS pattern.
If there’s anything he wants more than a second Ollie gold, it’s two clean skates on the Ollie stage (preferably preceded by clean skates in prior comps). Especially so since he’s pulling double duty in going for that 2nd gold *and* proving to the world that he rightfully deserves his first one.
So based on his pattern all these years, he’s only been able to pull off complete dominance for part of a single season, and that’s with a recycled SP and the only FS he’s skated clean twice.
Chances of him skating clean next season, the most crucial one, with two brand new progs: next to 0 (not with his anal retentive fusspot tendencies)
The feelings for SEIMEI he has are so strong, he’s apparently already decided it was gonna be his Ollie program after GPF15, a decision he’s stuck to despite his poor showing of it in WC 2016. I think his fanboyism of Mansai and all the lovely input he’s gotten from the man himself prolly also played a critical part in his choice.
So it’s a good program in his mind that’s left him with unfinished business with it, since he’s essentially never skated it clean in a major championship, national *and* international, a development that basically told him it’s still too early to pack the program in and consider it a perfectly done piece with no more room to grow. Sides, he’s put in so much effort in the making of the program, from the music to the choreography, it stands to reason he’d want to get some more mileage out of it, if he could.
So his choices, as of end 2015, were a brand new SP and SEIMEI or a repeat SP and SEIMEI. Depending on how he performed LGC in the 2016/17 season, it would either be his Ollie SP or it would be something else.
If it leaves him with good feelings, he’ll either use it again or chance a new SP.
Sadly, that didn’t happen and instead, he was left with negative feelings and mental impression for both the program itself and SPs in general, so no repeat of LGC and his mind is telling him his mental focus probably won’t be able to handle a brand new SP in the Ollie season. Not especially if he wants to up his tech further while increasing even more bells and whistles.
At this point, (end of the 2016/17 season), everything is telling him to reuse Chopin and SEIMEI.
But because he is Hanyu and he’s already upped his tech last season, he has to either maintain or up it further.
And because he’s reusing both programs, he’s left with no reason to not raise his tech content level and it’s gotta be way bigger than last season.
All in all, if we want him to skate clean on the Ollie stage while still doing what he always does, well, we’re getting it.
But if we want him to skate clean with one new program just to please us fans despite all the above, then I think we’re asking for the impossible, even from the guy who’s been giving us the impossible all these years.
We’ve got two new and beautiful programs last season. If this were another season, and not an Ollie one, I’m willing to bet we’d have at least one new program.
So let the guy do what he thinks will allow him to win in the way he wants to on a stage he’s been looking to deliver his best on since he was 7. I think he’s proven himself enough to deserve unconditional support in getting there.
Delivering his absolute best is one but, let it be said that we *still* don’t know what his absolute best can amount up to, only the promise of it and that’s already so far above and beyond what everyone else in the field is capable of delivering right now, it’s not even funny anymore.
If there’s anyone who can build something that’ll make the world’s collective jaws drop even further than they did before with the same programs but *better*, it’s Yuzuru Hanyu.
And remember, if he skates clean at the Ollies, for most of the world, it would be their first time going slack-jawed. Especially amidst all the warhorses. SEIMEI is definitely going to make them sit up and pay attention. Because not only is it different (being definitively non-Western), it is bold, it is powerful, and it is fierce. Plus, it oozes a sort of masculinity most have never seen before in men’s FS. And it appeals to a wider range of audience, no matter their culture, because it’s just such an obviously damn cool program. So people who’s always made fun of men figure skating will have to STFU.
If it’s any other skater, this might be seen as lazy and playing it safe, but then I ask myself this: has Yuzuru Hanyu *ever* been lazy? And since when did 5-quads start being considered as safe?  All he’s doing is entrusting his ultimate dream and desire to a *program* he trusts. Not a layout. A program. So that he’d be free to chance a high-flying layout packed to the high heavens with transitions and exquisitely performed elements–without having to kill or maim himself in the process. Which means, the only thing disappointing about it is that it isn’t a brand new program. That’s it. And if I have to sit through an entire season of watching a program I like again to see it taken to never-seen-before heights, as opposed to a brand new program I may not like as much and watching him struggle and make compromises in order to simply *deliver*, and during Ollie season at that, it’s a no-brainer which I’m going to go with.
What Hanyu wants to do isn’t just to win and to wow. He wants to completely dominate and he wants to go down in history doing it. He’s gotten a taste of it two seasons back and wants to make damn sure he gets to relive it again, preferably for a longer stretch this season and most definitely covering the Ollies and perhaps even the WC in Milan. And these two programs are his best chance at achieving just that next season. 
Really, there’s just way too much at stake for him to not do this. Our brains know this, but some of us still can’t help but feel just a wee bit disappointed in our hearts. Still, as long as we know where he’s coming from, those of us who are disappointed will likely come around sooner or later, because we know what truly matters this season and would conclude that we’d have made the same choices if we were in his shoes. If we’re even the teeniest bit invested in him, we won’t even have a choice about it, I guarantee it.
As for me personally, I’m just fawning over the fact that the whole world is finally going to get to know SEIMEI, not just the FS one. And it’ll stand out so beautifully among all the warhorses. SEIMEI is an Olympic-worthy program and in hindsight, no amount of new programs has a more rightful place, especially since it’s proven itself more than worthy once before, and even left its skater room to develop it further.
And get this, it’s not even my favorite program from him. LoL. It’s #3 on my list at best, so I was neither hoping for it nor against it. But now that we’ve got it, I can now see it so clearly for what it really is. Plus, there are bonuses that only SEIMEI can afford. If he skates it clean with higher tech content, he’d be able to corner the judges into giving him scores that at least match what the 2015 judges gave him for the same program. Because imagine the kind of questions they’ll have to answer if they don’t. And with this, he’ll be able to surpass his old scores with his BV. It is the one surefire megaweapon he has against his younger rivals that was cultivated long before they are the threat they are today as well as iffy judging (in a way, I feel that his hand was forced) and it’s time he reaped and harvested the fruits of his foresight, talent and hard work.
So there is everything to celebrate and absolutely nothing to feel disappointed over. Not for friggin’ SEIMEI as the Olympic program for the Yuzuru Hanyu.
(Admittedly, I was a tad disappointed back when he announced he’d be doing Chopin for the third time, but knowing the mess LGC left behind in his mind, I forced myself to accept it and after what he’s shown us of it in FaOI, I’ve come to wholeheartedly embrace it.)
I don’t know if all this will result in gold still, seeing as there are still very human factors involved in the judging, but if he delivers everything clean in PC, I’m going to consider it a win in my books.
And yes, I’d still like to see him make more history with new programs so hopefully he’ll stick around for at least one more season after this and we’ll get to see him doing that.
One thing though…the guy is now a confirmed LIAR. Cos he’s said right after WTT that he has no plans for the Ollie season and here he is claiming he’s already decided SEIMEI would be his Ollie program right after GPF15.
I get that he wanted to dodge those interview questions, and what he said was very obviously a lie (because only a bigger dumbass than me would believe anyone hoping to make it to the Ollies the next year who says they have no plans at least 2636351 years in advance, much less him) and I’m not sure if there’s anything else he could’ve done but flat out lie but it amuses me to no end to be able to loudly call him out as a big fat liar. xxxxD
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