“Denim Deviant” (Digital Photography 2018) by @HotWraithBones. 1st exhibited in the Santa Clarita Artists Association’s Spring 2020 Art Exhibition, “Vintage”
EXCERPT FROM CONFESSIONS OF A BABY VAMP: LETTERS TO JOHN MILTON (Gutslut Press ‘21) ✨🔪💀
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I feel something Faustian in my hair today, but I keep shaking it off. I am not so eager to know what my sun-kissed soul, plagued with symptoms of those who aspire to live among Snow Beasts over Hell Fiends, would be worth to this reluctant ruler of the realm Beneath — the sole parent and first assailant of my dear friend, Sin.
But you, my Dearest John, already know this. You are the one who made it such — a cruel and tragic twist of quill, but a terribly realistic one all the same.
I suspect Sin may mean much more to me than I am comfortable admitting, but what does it matter? Love is pointless, useless, impossible, disruptive, dismal, and really quite dreary. I figure you know this better than anyone, John.
Still, do not get too smug; me and her are quickly becoming well- versed in all the longings of the despairing heart, and soon we will be the masters of every God-awful sentiment known to the Living.
My latest full-length book, In Residuum, arrives February 20th from Kith Books! 💜 For those who like discounts, pre-orders are open RIGHT NOW! Meow ⬅️ (preorder link)
In Residuum is a collection of texts built from the frantically gathered residue of thoughts, drafts, literature, lost family history, the darkness and emptiness that tend to replace suppressed memories, and incomplete experiences. Together, these are all cultivated as a way of drawing the metaphysical and abstract from a number of writings, and letting the rest -- a faded mass -- slowly fall away. In this are truths -- some personal, some general -- otherwise invisible to the naked human eye. Moreover, in its visual elements and weaving of metatext, shadowtext, and blatant lack of regard for chronology or order, this is a book that can be read differently by each person no matter how many times they read it through.
{FEATURED POEM "[im]mortal decline" 1st Published in warning lines magazine Volume 04: OTHERWORLDS
An examination of colonization, classic, Renaissance, and medieval European texts, the role of ancient languages (Sanskrit and Pankrit) in religion, prayer, family, and modern poetics, C-PTSD, psychosis, mental illness, sexual, domestic, emotional, mental, and physical abuse trauma, intergenerational trauma, sexuality, gender, patriarchy, culture, ancestry, and 4D spaces, In Residuum is an encapsulation of countless items and ideas forged together in an attempt to create something greater and stronger -- something honest and potentially hopeful. The pieces are all fractured and mismatched, just as mine are, but all the same, even in all the ways they grind and splinter against each other, this messiness and chaos works together among, within, between, and around itself to form something somewhat whole. In other words, this book is my humble attempt at the portrait of a survivor. In it, I use my rawest, most vulnerable, most sabotaged, and most slaughtered self for reference.
"Specializing in badass hybrid work and subversion of western literary expectations, Ami J. Sanghvi continues to utilize language as an artistic medium with In Residuum. Technological word processors may "insist all [their] words are wrong, but there is always something invigorating about Sanghvi’s work that Microsoft Word could never possibly hope to understand, as well as a perpetually unerring sense of both aesthetics and poetics." — nat raum, eic of fifth wheel press and author of the fine line + you stupid slut