mywrittingforyoualltoread

[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Dare i compare you to anything?

Should my love come in words?

For i feel as powerless to your smile

As i feel to be dragged by the tides

I feel your hugs as warm as fire

And i feel as lost in your eyes

As i would in a forest

I feel

I feel

I feel

Yet when you ask me to describe my love

All i can think is you

It's a hell of a power to leave a poet speechless

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Bored

Break my heart

tear my soul into pieces

do your worse 

but please don't make me bored

torture me if you have to,

do anything as long as you don't leave me alone

for there is nothing worse than my own thoughts 

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I never realized I wasn't seeing you

Untill i did

When i finally saw your smile

When i truly heard your laugh

I saw you

Then i feel in love with you

Because how could I not?

How could anyone that has seen you

That has heard as you talk over what you love

And felt your touch as you hug them

Not fall for you?

I saw you

But you saw her

She is beautiful indeed

She laughs with her whole body

Her eyes sparkle when she talks

I don't have any of that

She is a perfect painting

Perfect to be seen

But my smile is crooked

My laugh is quiet

And i don't talk that much

So i understand why you saw her

She's at the entrance of the museum

I'm not even in display

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I am lonely

Not my usual alone

Not "headphones on while no one is home" alone

No, i am lonely

If i stop to think about it too much it hurts

So I'll put my headphone on

And pretend is my choice to not talk to anyone

I'll close the book and open another one after

Saying is my choice to not go out

Ignoring that no one asked me to hang out

I like being alone but when I turn on my phone

There's no one there

When I stop the music and close the book

There is no one there

But it's ok because I chose that

I like being alone,

So i like being lonely?

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

It wasn't a heartbreak

Because it wasn't love

Not mutual anyway

You lied

And manipulated me

And when i offered you my heart

You gladly took it

You loved it, loved me for all the wrong reasons

No it wasn't a heartbreak

That is for happy couples that loved each other

Who happen to break up,

We were never a couple

We were never happy

Heartbreak is for those that

Gave up their heart for their lovers

That at some point took care of it

I loved you, which is sad on it's own

And it broke my heart to see you leave

To tell you to go

But it's not a heartbreak

Not unless I can give myself it

Because you never cared enough

Not even to break my heart

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Are you doing it on purpose?

Do you know how it affects me?

You say no

But then you do it again

And when I call you out

I'm crazy

And accusing you of something that you would

NEVER do

Honestly i don't believe in you

I see all the lies and manipulation

You got here too late

I already know

Too many people

Too many times

For me not to recognize what you are trying to do

But sure I'll play along

Only till i can get out of course

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I wish you could hear me

That I wasn't screaming underwater

I wish your hand wasn't the one pushing me

Asking why don't I say what bothers me

Taking assumptions of what my screams mean

And blaming me for "being this way"

I wish I didn't stop fighting

I wish I didn't say "I'm sorry you are right"

So you would stop pushing me into the water

I'm very tired of having to swim for my life

Every single time I see you

Only for you to complain i got your hand wet

You made me perfect for you

Too tired to fight

Too tired to disagree

It's just easier to go with it so I did

And you loved that, more then you ever loved me

You loved that I would go and save you

Even when my life is crumbling

You thought you drowned everything I've got

Wasn't it a surprise when I left the water?

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

You don't control my life anymore

If you saw my poetry i know what you would say

"you never forgot me"

"look at you still hooked on me"

And i thought that way for so long

You did tell me that, not directly of course

Maybe because when read what you did to me

It makes me human

And you hated to feel empathy towards me

But this is freeing

To me it feels like letting go of you

Every moment i comment and write

I make peace with it, I've lived it and i get over it

That's simplified but so are you

You aren't complicated

Maybe that's why you didn't like poems about you

They showed you how easy I can read you

How you aren't this complicated god

Just someone that rather hurt then love

I felt sorry for you thinking you are a product

Of your past and parents

But no there's no reason, no logic

You just are

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

A change of scenery is not enough to get away

You imprinted yourself in my mind

Every time I find someone else

I hear your little devil of a voice

It critics and show how they never compare

That makes me want them more

Simply because they aren't you

Needless to say these relationships don't work

I was willing to ignore so much for you

Now I'm paranoid

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

There was nothing more beautiful then your eyes

Even if they always looked past me

Even if they seem uninterested

You told me my eyes were good too

Even tho they are brown and yours are blue

Getting complements from you was always that

"yeah it's great but.."

Your eyes sparkled as you told me all my flaws

And i thought you meant it for the best

To help me grow as a person

But you just liked to put the fire in my eyes out

That's why you never listened when I talked

And you refused to look directly at me

Every time I smiled or laughed

You had such beautiful blue eyes

I always imagined a calm blue sky

But you were more of a cold ocean

And whenever you wanted you created a storm

You told me when the light hit just right

My eyes were honey glazed, almost like fire

Or gold

You brought me sunglasses the next day

It's funny looking back even if you didn't laugh

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I've created a second account to shit post because I wanna keep this blog "clean" and only with my poems/ writing

@meshitposting123

(When I click the @ doesn't go idk if it will work)

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

From time to time I wonder if I was ever in love

It didn't feel like it looking back

It was more of a addiction

You knew how to make me happy and chose not

Only to make me the happiest I've ever been

When I find the courage to break up with you

It feels like it all happened yesterday

And 3 years ago

Sometimes i imagine going to you

Telling you how I feel

But like a alcoholic can't have another sip

I can't see you

I know all you say is a lie

But sometimes i needed to hear exactly that

If I'm ever a ghost

It's because I never told you what I needed to

It's ok tho

The same way a bottle won't listen or care

About what it did to me

You wouldn't either

But unlike the bottle you took pleasure in it

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I'm so numb

Nothing happened

No triggers for this

These are the worse days

That I don't understand why I am like this

I feel like I'm letting everyone down

I just keep waiting and waiting for something

Something that makes me laugh

Something that makes me feel anything

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Nothing says Christmas like toxic family shitting on my existence

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Sometimes i feel like a impostor as a poet

I hated poetry

Never got it

Never read it

Everyone talks about their favours author but the only one I truly know is me

I feel like it makes my poems cheap

Sorry for whoever read this it's just a rant

wich is probably why I put it in a poem format

Not a good one but a somewhat of a poem format

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

Lights

There are lights outside my window.

I wonder where they go.

Usually they wait for the moon to come out and dance for it, it looks fun.

Every moon but the New one, they must be resting.

They bring the flowers of spring, the rain of fall and winter's snow.

They never really liked summer, i wonder why.

On the winter i tried to see their footprints, but there were none.

I assume they float.

I was always too afraid to ask the lights anything.

Regardless I gave them names.

And each day i wonder how they would dance at night.

Gazing outside i try to draw them.

I look up and they no longer dance, in fact they seem to look directly at me.

There are lights outside my window, they called me for a dance.

It's spring and the moon looks lovely.

But I'm too scared, too scared that that's it.

I'll go out and see if they are real, what they are.

All the questions in my head will be answered and I'm scared.

What if it's nothing like i imagined?

And if it is?

What will I think about during the day?

What will motivate me to wake up at such hours of the night if there's no mystery to watch?

For the past years I've tried to dance as gracious as those lights.

I imagine their names,what they look like, their favourite food.

I can't phantom the thought of them leaving.

I don't know what I am without the lights outside my window.

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[mywrittingforyoualltoread]

I'm trying to be healthier

It's hard

Specially when everyone around me

Tries so hard to push me back

Because they liked you so much

I should go back to you

Talk to you

But how can I talk to you if you don't let me talk?

You don't respect my boundaries

You always goes too far

You never apologize

And then you ask me why I left

Why I can't be around you

You say how great we were

In reality you only liked yourself

But you don't realized you made me into you

All i could do is agree with you

My problems were always too little

And not important

I could only be happy around you

I couldn't leave with my friends

Even when you stood me up for yours

You make me feel safe so i would depend on you

I hate that it worked

But I'm trying to be healthier

You only misunderstood my strength

You weren't the first to try this shit

But I'll make sure you are last

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