#genderfluid!lucy

[nerdsbianhokie]

I wish you would write a fic where genderfluid!Lucy has a feminine/she/her Day but still wants to Pack and bind, and the alieness/unfamiliarity of the Situation throws her for a loop.

So, this did turn into a fic. I hope it hits the mark

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Her skin is smooth beneath her fingers as she traces patterns between her breasts. She takes a deep breath, her chest pressing firmly against her touch.

She doesn't quite get it, the itch crawling up the back of her skull, the static disjointing her mind from her body. She is her. She is she.

But it isn't right.

Something isn't right. Something is off in a way that is familiar but not. Her existence is blurring out of the lines she has only recently redrawn.

Alex appears in the mirror behind her, walking up, sliding both hands along her waist and pulling their bodies close. Alex presses a kiss to the side of her head.

"Hey, pretty lady," Alex murmurs. "What's going on in there?"

Lucy wants to just sink back into her, but the static is oozing out across her nerves and they've been working on communication about this stuff.

She speaks softly, weighing every word before letting it go.

"I think I want to bind today." She pauses.

She could stop there. That would help.

But would it be enough? Or would it be compromising between what she really wants and what she thinks she should do, what she thinks others would want?

"And pack," she adds.

Alex considers her in the mirror. Her cheek presses into Lucy's hair. Her fingers flex around Lucy's hips.

Not long ago, that confession would have sent Alex flying back, apologizing, terrified of hurting Leon, unintentionally or not.

They've been working on it.

"As Lucy?" Alex asks.

There is something about the question that settles Lucy's nerves a bit. There is something about Alex not assuming that Lucy is now Leon because of what she wants, about Alex trusting Lucy to have told her if the switch had happened. But, also about Alex asking, just to be sure, about Alex feeling comfortable enough to ask.

"Yeah," Lucy answers. "I think so."

Alex nods. "Is it safe for you to bind today?"

"I have nothing planned, and it's been a few days since the last time."

"Alright." Alex steps back, the warmth of her instantly missed. She starts towards the closet as she continues. "Which binder do you want?"

A new warmth spreads through Lucy.

"The purple half binder" she quickly decides. She steps to the dresser and opens her underwear drawer.

It's neatly organized.

Lucy's underwear, silky thongs and practical panties, on one side.

Leon's boxers on the other.

A box down the middle separates them, but, she muses as she reaches for the briefs in Leon's pile, both sides are hers.

Lucy is pulling out a pair of briefs as Alex returns, binder in hand.

"That's a good color on you," Alex says, poking at the dark green fabric.

"I know," Lucy says with a smirk.

Alex laughs and drops a kiss on Lucy's lips.

"Can I help or do you want me to leave?" Alex asks.

"You can stay," Lucy replies. "Enjoy the show."

Alex settles on the edge of the bed.

Lucy opens the box in the drawer and pulls out her packer. It's soft and flaccid in her hand and just a few shades lighter than her skin.

She eyes the harness she had bought with the packer.

Leon never uses it. The pressure of its straps on his hips only remind him that he's wearing his penis, that it isn't attached.

But now?

Lucy grabs it.

She slips the harness into the pouch, making sure it's oriented correctly, before pushing off her underwear. She fights back the urge to preen as Alex lets out an appreciative hum.

Lucy steps into the harness and pulls it up over her hips. She settles it into the right position, then pulls the briefs on. After some small adjustments, she lets out a deep breath.

The weight and pressure and bulge settle into her skin, chasing away some of the static.

She turns to face Alex, who looks up from her phone at the movement.

Alex eyes her, looking her up and down with a smile.

"Feeling better?" she asks.

"Yeah," Lucy replies.

Alex holds the binder out. Lucy takes it.

"Maggie is on her way home," Alex says as Lucy wrestles her way into the binder. "She's bringing food."

"Good," Lucy huffs through the exertion of figuring out where the fabric rolled. "I'm starving."

She finally snags the fabric she needs and pulls the binder into place. She adjusts her breasts beneath it, then looks down at herself.

It's good.

The flatness then the bulge. The bright colors not trying to be subtle. The curves of her waist still visible.

She looks up, then laughs at Alex's expression.

"You okay?" she asks.

Alex silently nods, eyes wide, lips pressed together, the lightest flush creeping up her neck.

Lucy steps towards her, relishing in the feeling of the packer.

"Are you sure?" she teases.

Alex nods again.

"Just, uh, remembering how hot you are," she gets out.

Lucy laughs. She climbs into Alex's lap, her knees pressing into the bed next to Alex's hips.

"You never tell Leon he's hot," she says with a fake pout as she slides her arms around Alex's neck.

Alex lets out a light laugh. Her fingers tail up Lucy's bare sides.

"If I still thought I was straight, I would be all over Leon."

"Is that so?"

"Mhm." Alex's hands spread out across Lucy's back. "He's what I thought my type was. Smart, cocky, but kind of shy."

Lucy kisses her. "Too bad for Leon," she murmurs against her lips.

Not that Leon wants Alex like that. It's complicated. He loves her. He loves her so much. Maggie, too. He just isn't comfortable with the idea of sex with them.

They are his life partners and they are lesbians and he is a man and they are his and he is theirs.

It's complicated.

"Too bad," Alex softly agrees.

Lucy is ready to push Alex back and lose herself between Alex's legs when the 'I'm home ' is called through the house.

Alex gently pushes her back.

"Finish getting dressed and come eat," she says.

"I was about to," Lucy huffs.

Alex just laughs into a kiss and murmurs "later."

Lucy grumbles but acquiesces. She climbs off of Alex and goes back to the dresser. Alex heads out to meet Maggie as Lucy reaches into a drawer.

She pulls out an old pair of army sweatpants and puts them on. Tight enough the bulge is there, but not so tight it looks comically big.

Her first packer had been far too big, had made her feel like she had a clown shoe shoved down her pants.

This one is much better.

She considers grabbing a shirt but, looking down at herself, decides against it.

Sweatpants and a sports bra is hot as fuck, why would sweatpants and a binder be different?

Alex and Maggie are setting out the food when Lucy leaves the bedroom.

Pancakes and turkey sausage and biscuits and fruit and Maggie looks up at Lucy and tilts her head to the side and bites her lip.

"Good morning," Lucy says as she steps to Maggie.

"Good morning," Maggie replies before Lucy kisses her. "Trying something new?"

"Mhm," Lucy hums.

"It feel good?"

"It does."

It really, really does

#director sanvers #lucy lane #alex danvers #maggie sawyer #genderfluid!lucy #my fic

[throughalleternity]

If Leon would be on T long enough to be able to grow a beard, would it be a source of euphoria? Is facial hair/more hair growth than before important to him on Leon days? Or would that be a source of dysphoria for Lucy? And what are things/words/gestures that are dysphoric for Lucy on feminine/woman days? And what are things that Alex and Maggie should avoid saying/doing on Lucy days?

I lean towards him not being on T long enough to really get much/any substantial facial hair, in part because of dysphoria as Lucy. I also don't think he would want to grow a beard anyway, so while it might be nice to just be able to grow more facial hair to know he can, it's not a big deal if he can't. And then it's less to manage for Lucy. Leon doesn't shave much since he doesn't have to, but he likes it, especially how his face feels after.

Hm, tbh I have less headcanons about Lucy, but I think there's less Lucy-specific dysphoria to worry about at first since there's not really that brain/body mismatch and it doesn't take much effort for her to be gendered correctly. Obviously Alex and Maggie don't misgender her and say/do things that imply she's a man. But she's more comfortable being somewhat masculine, and over time also likes to play with gender presentation more (same as Leon).

There is some stuff, like packing in public, that she worries about. Being overly scrutinized because of her gender presentation doesn't feel good, and it can be dysphoric especially if she's not being gendered correctly.

If she gets top surgery and sometimes uses breast forms or a padded bra, I do think that takes a little bit to adjust to. As far as Maggie and Alex go, it's less about avoiding certain things and more about being extra supportive and loving during that adjustment for them. They're also careful about how they touch her chest while she's healing, and figure out what feels good/meh/painful once she gets more sensation back (applies to Leon as well!).

#thanks for the ask! #sorry this took so long 😭 #was pondering and then intimidating myself out of answering for no good reason #genderfluid!lucy #supergirl words #supergirl #ask me #gender stuff

[sandstonesunspear]

Hi I have a Director Sanvers ask, what are your headcanons about their sex life both as individuals and as a throuple? Like kinks, preferences no gos etc? And do Leons preferences/no gos/kinks differ from Lucys?

So I'll be running genderfluid!Maggie in addition to genderfluid!Lucy for this.

As individuals:

Maggie likes to strap. She has a complicated relationship with strapping tho because for the longest time she wasn't sure if her preference for it was solely because of her Mateo days. Being with Kate helps her unpack (pun absolutely intended) that. She doesn't like penetration, especially not during Mateo days (he and Kate tried it once and he panicked so bad that he and Kate had to sleep apart for a week). Maggie's absolute hard no, regardless of if it's a Maggie day or a Mateo one, is being called "daddy" or "papi." Nothing ruins the mood faster than that for her.

Lucy is switchy, with a tendency to get super subby if she's had a rough week. On Leon days, he's super touchy about his chest (as in, don't touch it). Unlike Maggie, Lucy's fine with penetration even on Leon days. She also straps, but not as often as Maggie does. Lucy's hard no is degradation and verbal humiliation. She's had to deal with enough of it whilst being a queer woman in the army and refuses to have it in the bedroom.

Alex is a bratty super sub. At first, she's not great at asking for what she needs (she doesn't have a lot of practice in general with that), so it gets her into trouble with Maggie and Lucy. She's also probably the most adventurous/curious of the three (her defence whenever it gets pointed out is that she's making up for all of her years in the closet and unsatisfactory sex with cismen). Alex's hard no is physical bondage (e.g. handcuffs). It's originally a soft no, but after Rick becomes a hard no. She's open to predicament bondage though.

As a trio:

Initially their sex life is really tame because they're still trying to figure each other out. As they grow more comfortable with each other, they start to explore and come clean about kinks they have.

They have great communication. There are PowerPoints and notebooks. If they want to try something new, there's usually a week-long discussion that happens beforehand to make sure they're all on the same page.

Aftercare is super important for the three of them. Even if there's nothing kinky going on when they're having sex, as soon as it's over someone is going to the kitchen to grab snacks and water and another person is grabbing blankets.

Mateo and Leon do have sex. It's super awkward at first because Mateo's like, I've never fucked a guy before and Leon isn't even sure that he'd enjoy penetration. Mateo remembers his own experience, so he's even more on edge the first time he and Leon sleep together because he doesn't want Leon to ever feel like he did. Alex turns out to be the key that gets the two of them to relax enough to make it an enjoyable experience; she guides Mateo and keeps an eye on Leon the whole time. (She later says it's the weirdest fucking experience for her, although extremely enjoyable.)

Even though Mateo and Leon do have sex, on Maggie days, she won't have sex with him. I think they make one honest attempt, but Maggie can't get out of her head long enough to enjoy it so they don't do it again. She will watch him and Alex together and more often than not, she's the one helping him drive Alex up a wall.

Physical bondage is a grey area for them. Maggie can't handle it (they try it once and she has a flashback to when she got kidnapped by Beth), Alex initially tolerates it provided there's substantial conversation beforehand and that she's never left alone but then Rick happens and stops tolerating it, and Lucy is really particular about what's used to bind her. If someone does need to be restrained/wants to be restrained, then they're more likely to make the restraint situational (e.g. you're not allowed to move from this position).

Thanks for the ask!

#asks #anonymous #director sanvers #genderfluid!lucy #genderfluid!maggie #alex danvers #lucy lane #maggie sawyer #supergirl

[mossy-rot]

Got told I look like the year I was born. would anyone like to wager a guess. Also happy late birthday to me

#mossy's rambles #luci's rambles #an ever elusive pic of me that isn't in cosplay #emo #2000s emo #emocore #emo boy #trans boy #trans man #transmasc #queer #genderfluid #trans #lgbtq+ #out of cosplay #I look like the embodiment of somebody told me by the killers #I am an adult for anyone wondering

[heart-of-poetry]

tbh the very concepts of “feminine” vs “masculine” are entirely man made constructs. just imagine…thousands and thousands of years ago when we were cavemen, do you really think they were like “look at this BLUE sky, it’s so manly and masculine!” or “look at the PINK flower, how feminine and girly!” of course not. because that’s stupid. and do you think they were like “you can’t play with this dirt! girls have to cook!” and “sorry bud you can’t sleep with your friend because he’s a guy and that is a SIN!” NOOOOOOOO.

like there’s nothing wrong with identifying as a woman or a man, and I myself identify as a woman, but I do wonder how much of that is due to the societal definition surrounding femininity. it will be interesting to see how my relationship to femininity and womanhood change as I reconstruct my definitions of those things.

anyways, I think that the increased exploration of gender identities is beneficial to EVERYONE. when we can accept that gender is a construct, we can more freely explore ourselves without worrying about fitting into the boxes of “feminine” and “masculine”

#wlw #wlw yearning #boygenius #julien baker #literature #lucy dacus #phoebe bridgers #webweaving #writing #yearning #queer politics #gender politics #gender #genderfluid #queer community

[etherealspacejelly]

new headcannon just dropped: lucy saxon is a femme lesbian and the master is her he/she/they genderfluid girlboyfriend

#time lords are pure gender fuckery #they are all pansexual and genderfluid because. it wouldnt make sense for them to be anything else #doctor who #the master #doctor who headcanon #headcanon #lucy saxon #lgbt #genderfluid #this is basically canon argue with the wall

[moonlitxmermaid]

🖤🩶🤍

#wlw #genderfluid #lgbtq #lesbian #bisexual #pansexual #photo #personal #me #wlw post #polyamourous #polyamory #bands #music #art #boygenius #phoebe bridgers #lucy dacus #julien baker #pvris #taylor swift #swifties #billie eilish #megan thee stallion #lauren sanderson #paramore #follow me #black and white

[valentine-byrne]

The gang enjoy game night

#oc #found family #oc group #demon oc #werewolf oc #shapeshifter oc #genderfluid oc #trans oc #oc art #c: lucy collins #c: saiki abdi #c: saiyuri abdi #c: damien byrne #c: fredrick collins #c: danny valentine #c: daithí barlowe #c: hitori takashi #c: ky cartier #c: keila shaw #c: keiden shaw #Reunited Specials

[thestarlightforge]

Wild how accepting that I don’t have to be a woman makes it so much easier to love women, and even embrace some “feminine” attributes of my own.

When it’s not a prison of someone else’s making… Womanhood is beautiful. ❤️

#lgbtqia #just gender things #trans #lucy gray baird #katniss everdeen #trans rights #trans lives #enby #nonbinary #genderfluid #genderqueer #gender identity #feminism

[bumblebiboop]

dead by daylight sketchbook page with my fave 4 and 1/2 guys

#dead by daylight #dbd #dbd fanart #steve harrington #ghostface #ji woon hak #herman carter #HUX A7 13 #HUX-A7-13 #the doctor #the trickster #lucyface #traditional art #bumblebiboop #myart #so many mistakes it physically pains me but it's a sketchbook so i must not rip it to shreds in frustration #steve and lucy's pose is referenced from that one scream 6 bts photo where miss ortega is holding ghostface's face like he is a little dog #the half is lucy because he is genderfluid and part of his identity is guy and part of it is a mixture of different presentations #he primarily uses he/him but is okay with all pronouns

[fairytail-multishipper]

okay i tried to make a batch of pride icons of my hcs for pride month!

genderfluid demi natsu, transfem pan lucy, transmasc bi gray

demigirl omni erza, trans ace lesbian wendy, enby bi juvia

transmasc pan gajeel, demigirl pan cana, transfem bi levy

set 1/?

#xvi’s edit #icons #my icons #pride month 2023 #lgbtq #demisexual #genderfluid #nonbinary #transgender #transfem #pansexual #transmasc #bisexual #omnisexual #demigirl #lesbian #erza and gajeel flags by me #natsu dragneel #lucy heartfilia #gray fullbuster #erza scarlet #wendy marvell #juvia lockster #gajeel redfox #cana alberona #levy mcgarden #asexual

[nerdsbianhokie]

ahhhh now I want a fic where Leon goes to a Meeting for gay and bisexual men. Not really something for trans men specificially, because I think that Leon wants to be in a space where its not obvious or the reason because he is here that he isnt cis, and I hc that he wants a to meet people who affirm his gender without it being a big Deal. Like, he wants to meet other men who affirm him in his masculinity, not his gender Identity in particular, if that makes sense.

omg, that would be fantastic

it isn't a fic i would be able to write, i don't think. i know nothing about those spaces and wouldn't want to get stuff wrong, but if any other genderfluid!lucy peeps have thoughts or ideas, please share

@sandstonesunspear, @throughalleternity, @endersbegin

#genderfluid!lucy

[throughalleternity]

Hello what pet names/words of affection should Maggie and Alex avoid, because they make Leon/Lucy dysphoric? Like would words like pretty/handsome or babe be too feminine/masculine for their taste?

Yeah, handsome and beautiful feel too... much at first? Like, Leon isn't used to other people seeing him as a man and sometimes he has trouble believing that other people do. And then it's harder to imagine that they would think he's attractive, so that type of compliment can bring up those feelings. Words like "cute" can feel infantilizing, and "pretty" is borderline. So intially they stick to stuff like "I really like that jacket" or things that aren't related to appearance, or like "I missed you". Over time, once people adjust, and he gets more confident and used to it as well, then he likes those sorts of words.

Babe doesn't really feel overly gendered to Lucy (I think she'd use it for James, and that might be canon? Can't check right now). The only thing is that Leon wants to make sure Maggie and Alex aren't still seeing him as Lucy when they use it. I don't think of them as using other pet names usually, so that's really it.

#answering things out of order again #if anyone knows what's canon let me know #ask me #gender stuff #genderfluid!lucy #supergirl #supergirl words #update: babe is canon!

[sandstonesunspear]

Hi, what are your genderfluid!Lucy headcanons? I read your fic titled "Shopping" an absolutely loved it! My favorite part was where Leon marveled at how casually Maggie said that the store had stuff for petite guys and how euphoric it made him. What would you think about writing a second part? Or just more genderfluid!Lucy?

Couple of headcanons that I have for genderfluid!Lucy:

Leon has a complicated relationship the various uniforms that he has to wear. He's fine with his ACUs because they've always had a relatively unisex cut. His dress uniform though? Not so much. The dinner dress is his worst nightmare because he can't swap out the skirt with trousers or the pumps for coraframs.

He's also really touchy about his hair. Like he has to have it up a specific way or he's either grumpy for the rest of the day, can't focus, or both.

Would I write a second part to that fic? Maybe? I haven't looked at that fic in ages and it's been forever since I've written genderfluid!Lucy.

Thanks for the ask!

#asks #anonymous #genderfluid!lucy #lucy lane #supergirl

[mossy-rot]

shout out to the group of little girls who were trying their best to get my pronouns right but also making me wildly uncomfortable. one would misgender me and the youngest one would very angrily say it's a he/they and when they left a review for me they called me "the person." good work everybody

#no hate to it/its but im not into that #babes you can just say 'he' or 'they' #they're trying though good for them #mossy's rambles #text post #luci's rambles #trans #genderfluid #transgender #transmasc

[lazyconfessionscrazyintentions]

You called me cerebral

I didn't know what you meant

But now I do, would it have killed you

To call me pretty instead?

#lucy dacus #on repeat #self #face #brown hair #blue hair #alt #lgbt #lgbtq #genderfluid #silver jewelry #tattoos #piercings #turtleneck #is it uuhhhh #dark academia #fringe #nose ring #ed recovery #freckles #green eyes #curly hair #it’s the bedhead for me #winter