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giddlygoat · 8 months
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i literally had to stop in the middle of S3:E19 to make this. special thanks to @leo-undrgrnd for coming up with louie’s joke LAWL
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benbamboozled · 1 year
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The Jason Todd Account That Does Not Give A Shit What You Ship!!
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trans-estinien · 1 year
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Sometimes I feel like doing this with my brain
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#its 12 am and i should probably sleep instead of rambling but#man. its rough having your fav blorbo be a fucking terrible person#cause on one hand you have the villain woobifiers and people who just completely ignore major aspects of a character for a fucking ship#and on the other hand you have people who hate you for enjoying a character. and thinking said character is interesting#and yeah yeah i know not everyone will like me and i should just ignore it and keep on doing what i enjoy but. ugh.#and im also constantly worried that ill fuck up and become a villain woobifier myself#and im also constantly worried that when im writing my cannon blorbos ill fuck up and write something super ooc and people will get mad.#i think fandom was a mistake#but i also wouldn'tve met the besties without fandom so? you know. everything's got two sides#this is such a stupid thing to get all upset over but.#unfortunately i am a horrible man enjoyer this has been consistent my entire life.#and people usually dislike people who like your typical tumblr sexyman type character. which is fair most fans are insufferable#veils if you read this far this isnt abt you it's abt someone else. dont want to like start shit so i wont say names#but i saw. a vauge post from someone i thought was cool and i just. i knew it was directed towards the tags i left on their post#and i felt bad so now im having big anxiety over it. its really stupid i know#i am just going to retreat to my corner and hope to creation that im left alone. im just playing dress up with the blorbos#and like. they're entirely allowed to have their opinion im just. brain is convinced everyone hates me now for no fucking reason.#i gotta. work on this but idk how. therapy fucking failed cause i forgot about it 💀#but. i should sleep. its past 9pm so my brain is not to be trusted.#ok fuck it ill just say it i feel guilty that Emet-Selch is not only my favorite character but also my comfort character.#im not going to stop liking him because that wouldn't be fun. plus others opinions dont really matter i can like whatever characters i want
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py-dreamer · 29 days
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i know this is definitely outside my usual lmk wheelhouse and I am working on that one comic believe me
But what can I say, I have a soft spot for the SB gang
Vanny didn't come out as well as I'd hoped but what ya gonna do
Originally it was going to be a Fnaf and Poppy playtime crossover but um that didn't exactly work out
I recently found my old fine liners and can I say fell in love 💘
Also SB is the only place I ship Fronnie
'YOU AND ME FOREVER AND EVER"?!
'I DO NOT COME HERE ANYMORE I MISS HIM'?!!?!
THE FREDDY MERCH IN BONNIE'S ROOM?!?!
THE BOWLINF PINS IN FREDDY'S ROOM?!?!
THE WEDDING BANDS EARRINGS?!?!
Your honor. They are gay furries.
(a reoccurring theme on this blog-)
Also I love the aus of FredDad and Gregory? The Bonnie thrown in is just cherry on top and if all the animatronics are better: the 80s artificial sprinkles man.
Gregory is a child. Maybe 12 at best but I predict maybe 10. (He literally has Freddy sneakers) He was also in a life or death situation.
Did he NEED to decommission everyone? No.
But should we blame a 10 YEAR OLD for that stupid plan? No.
We need some more love for our feral boy here C'mon!
I think Sunny and Moon came out the best. Monty too but let's just appreciate the hatching on the sun/moon duo
(also what is Sun's real name? Moon is moon drop but is sun just Sunny? Sundrop? Sunshine? Idk)
Would you guys be interested in another fine liners thingy in the future?
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not a req but i was js thinking: imagine the boys w a famous s/o (could be an actor, sports, wtv) and like they see an edit of their s/o on tiktok or sum and they show their s/o like “LOOK. ITS U. THE LOVE OF MY LIFE”
idk man this was so random lol but what do u think they would be like if smth like that happened
You say "not a req" and yet I will TREAT IT AS A REQ
The 141 with a Famous Spouse: Edits.
TW: Some NSFW stuff under the cut (m!masturbation).
You and Simon/John/Johnny/Kyle have been very private about your relationship. Both a mix of you being in the public's eye and his career, it just makes sense to keep it secretive. He doesn't even *tell* anyone he's married and you never say his name in public, only ever referring to him as 'my husband' in interviews, leaving your fans to wonder.
John: I think John isn't as active on social media to find edits easily... But there was that one time where he watched an online interview of yours on youtube and they had you reacting to fanfiction and edits and he did a quick google search and... That man will 100% download every tiktok with an edit of yours he can find, so he can watch them in the field when there's no reception. One time he texts you a link to one he particularly loves and adds: "Look at how talented your fans are. They somehow make me love you more with each one of these I find."
Simon: You'd never expect it but he *loves* to watch your interviews on tv/online, and read the tweets whenever something relating to you goes viral. It's only a matter of time until he stumbles across edits. And, let me tell you, he's not even shy about it. He'll watch them while you're both at home lounging. You'll just hear some music coming from his phone and then your own voice reciting that one line from that one interview that one time. "Are you watching videos of me when I'm literally lying on top of you?" "Yes I am. They're very well edited."
Kyle: Boy has known of edits being a thing for ages, watches them for other actors and athletes, so why would he not watch them of their spouse? He especially loves the ones where they ship you with some other celebrity you posed with one time after a movie premiere or a song release or what have you. Like, he cackles at them, knowing your fans are so clueless, he's so proud of himself for 'bagging' you... Sometimes he turns the phone over for you to see them and you always groan at the shit-eating grin on his face. "You're cheating on me with that actor, huh?" He always jokes.
Johnny: Is an ABSOLUTE degenerate. He'll be watching those borderline NSFW edits of you. He's not ashamed about it. Sometimes he jerks off to them too. The man has you on his bed more often than not and yet somehow he still finds time to rub one out to an edit of you in a movie/music video/interview/red carpet and the dirtiest, filthiest song lyrics overtop. He'll also lose it if it includes a scene from that one time you were wearing something sheer, showing off your whole body. The one time you caught him, you heard him murmur a "God, I'm so fuckin' lucky to have ye." under his breath while watching the same edit on repeat.
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lotus222 · 9 months
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Okay.
I only meant to make one SJM post cause Ik how certain girls like to tussle
But since the gwynriels and elucians decided to mess w me EVEN THO I SAID TO LOOK AWAY IF YOU GET EASILY TRIGGERED…
There is only one thing to do:
Talk more about why Elriel is not based in delusion — unlike some ships (not naming names, if you take offense that’s your mind questioning things)
Again, I am giving my PERSONAL OPINION. I even said at the end of my last post that I am not the author and I will love & respect whatever SJM does, which some of y’all can’t echo. That’s sad. This is a fictional world.
DISCLAIMER: if you’re easily triggered by elriel/elucian/gwynriel…l o o k a w a y
DISCLAIMER#2: I am unapologetic cause this is my page :)
Also, stop hitting my line with the “I wasn’t going to respond to this but…” or “you’re so anti…” like 1, if you weren’t going to respond, then don’t. It’s not that serious where the world is BEGGING for your opinion. And 2, I’m not anti anything, I’m pro-logic, again if that offends you then that’s a convo for you and you not you and me.
Now onto the main event…
Azriel
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My mans is being dragged through the mud both in the books and online. We say we “love him” but are ignoring what he wants and babes, that’s Elain. If you don’t like her personally, that’s not how Az is feeling, that’s how YOURE feeling. Gwyn has one chapter (+1 sentence) of where I can even attempt to grasp at what Gwynriel’s quote as bible, but again, AZ AND ELAIN HAVE 3 BOOKS. Y’all are acting like Rhys in Az’s bonus chapter and if Rhys couldn’t make his stance acceptable, y’all definitely can’t.
Elain
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Again, I say, if you do not like the lady pictured above, stop reading ACOTAR cause she ain’t going anywhere. To be so for real, I didn’t mind Elain at first, meaning I didn’t care whether or not she was included in any story whatsoever. But as I read ACOWAR and ACOFAS, I started realizing that there’s something so lovely about having a character who is innately good and wants/practices peace in a world of animosity and ugliness. She brings beauty in all areas of her life and I think that there’s nothing bad about being “boring” cause that just means your life ain’t a dang mess (*cough* *cough* everybody else in this book)
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So here is where I debunk all the claims I have grown tired of ignoring:
• #1 - “He hadn’t gotten that far into his planning beyond the fantasies he’s pleasured himself to.”
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(Picture credit: unknown) Get a good look cause that’s what he’s doing at night when he thinks about ELAIN. (It’s canon, so cry to yourself)
So, y’all really think you got us here, huh? So, my man Azriel blatantly admits to thinking of Elain when he wants to be intimate and y’all STILL want your girl to be with this man?
Ugh
Anyway, so Azriel hadn’t planned a relationship with Elain…OKAY???? Did you expect this man to have a map laid out about how he’s going to steal Lucien’s mate??? Do y’all even know Azriel? Like, be so for real rn.
Idk about y’all but when I have a crush on someone, I’m not thinking about how to steal them from the rest of the world, I’m imagining kissing them or going on cute dates. Not how I’ll actually make it happen. And ik y’all do that too with your favorite celebrities so stop playing.
He has a crush. Can you let the man figure out if Elain even wants him to act on it before he plans a 12-step mission on making Lucien disappear forever?
Azriel doesn’t want to force his emotions on anyone (as seen with Mor) so of course he’s not going to act or plot without confirmation that the other person in the party wants that. I.E. why he hadnt tried anything with Mor in all the CENTURIES that he liked her.
So, yeah, consider that point invalid.
• #2 - Lucien is Elain’s mate
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(PC: @shauna_the_author) *sigh* This one cannot be dubunked, unfortunately, because it is true. You got me here.
BUT
Elain is more likely to marry Nuala and Cerridwen before she spends the rest of her life with Lucien.
And it has nothing to do with Lucien. It really, really doesn’t. Elain simply doesn’t like him. Y’all were in my comments like “oh he didn’t really sell out Elain and Nesta, he didn’t know”. OKAY. But Elain literally says in ACOWAR that she knows Lucien as two things: Feyre’s friend and the MAN WHO SOLD THEM OUT TO HYBERN
Who cares if it isn’t true, that’s what Elain thinks and with her in mind, you can’t say that this bond means anything more to her than Lucien having some ownership of her which she doesn’t like at all. She even tells Graysen that she doesn’t care Lucien is her mate (“I belong to no one, but my heart belongs to you.”)
Whereas with Azriel, my girl is practically skipping into his arms; talking with him about her dream garden, getting him not one but two solstice gifts, almost-kissing him, recoiling at Cassian’s dagger but actively using Azriel’s…
Idk about y’all but if someone who was fated to be with me was acting this way with another girl, I’d drop him like a hot potatoe. AND AS LUCIEN SHOULD. He deserves someone who wants him, not someone who, as even Lucien said in ACOWAR when he was questioning if Elain was “worth it”, is shackled to him.
I harbor no ill will toward this dreamy man, but it ain’t gonna happen so do Elain a favor and lose her number, k?
• #3 - Sarah wouldn’t do the 3 brothers with 3 sisters, it’s too cliche
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Write your own book then. Fan fiction is a thing. If the ONLY thing preventing you to see reason is the possibility of a cliche in a book about kingdoms and fairies and magic then your priorities are so out of shape I won’t even spend the time explaining it to you.
This is SARAH’s WORLD. If she wants to be cliche and have the three female protagonists end up with the three male protagonists then let her. Omg.
• #4 - That Gwynriel scene tho
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(NOTE THE PICTURE) Oh, you mean the bonus chapter that featured thoughts about Elain? Not that one? Oh, then maybe you mean the other bonus chapter that featured thoughts about Elain? No? You mean the scene with Gwyn…hmmm
OH! You mean the 2 page conversation about training and why he couldn’t sleep (cause of Elain) and the subsequent regift of Elain’s present to Gwyn. Yeah, I know about that but why are we talking about it? Cause that means Az likes Gwyn? Huh?
That’s how delulu y’all sound. And if I hear another “you’re the ribbon Az”, one more time I’ll scream. THE RIBBON WAS ABOUT TRAINING NOT GWYN WANTING TO SLEEP WITH THE MAN. We are talking about the same girl who hadn’t left a library in god knows how long because of a sexual trauma and y’all are forcing her onto another man??
Gwyn was focused on coming into herself and mastering the ways of the Valkyrie. Nesta meant Gwyn found another obstacle in Az that she would have to overcome to become a Valkyrie. The only man Gwyn was concerned about was Cassian and that’s cause he was getting it on with Nesta. Again, be so for real right now.
I refuse to acknowledge this point until the opposing ships acknowledge the 3 books (+ ACOFAS) of build up between Elain and Azriel.
• #5 - Elain doesn’t belong in the Night Court
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This is the last point I’ll mention cause I actually feel bad for dogging the Gwynriels like this, but it had to be done. (Elucians get a pass bc at least their ship is based in evidence)
Elain doesn’t belong in the Night Court, okay, yeah Cassian said that the colors drown her out, I’ll give you that.
But Elain doesn’t know where she belongs anymore, just like Azriel has said about himself. She’s still figuring herself out and what she wants, so it’s okay she looks odd at times or feels at times out of place. Azriel keeps his shadows out 24/7 for the same reason. He doesn’t let anyone past the front he puts on unless he knows it’s safe to. They’re both figuring out how to live their best lives in their current lives.
I’ve heard Dusk Court theories and others but I won’t even repeat those (even tho they’re so good and you should definitely look into them). They just need to find their place in this world (and Cassian was right, Elain DOES NOT BELONG in the Hewn City).
Just like how Nesta didn’t believe she belonged in the Inner Circle, I believe there’s a place for Elain and Azriel where they can be themselves. They just need to find it I.E. their book.
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Okay, that’s enough slaying of my enemies for one post. Again, this is just my opinion/theories and at the end of the day I’ll be happy with whatever Mrs. Maas gives us as long as she gives us something.
Act correctly or else I’ll be back.
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fuck it, book recommendations based on your favourite driver
+ age rating, summary and rambling disguised as explanation as to why
if your favourite driver is Lewis Hamilton...then i would recommend Carrie Soto is Back by Taylor Jenkins Reid
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(historical sports fiction, standalone) "Carrie Soto, a fierce and determined retired tennis champion, comes out of retirement at thirty-seven to reclaim her record and face personal challenges, coached by her father partnered with the man she almost opened her heart to, in Taylor Jenkins Reid's novel about the cost of greatness and a legendary athlete's epic comeback."
the connection between this book and lewis is what inspired this whole post in the first place. a comeback story even if you have proven all there is to be proven? trying to beat all the odds against you even time? being an all-time champion AND an underdog? there are so many links that can be made between carrie and lewis not just with their careers and relationships but also what adversities they have had to face. idk but is this like manifesting that lewis is going to be "back" for his 8th wdc?
if your favourite driver is George Russell...then i would recommend A Good Girl's Guide to Murder by Holly Jackson
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(young adult mystery thriller, book 1 of 3) "In 'A Good Girl's Guide to Murder,' Pippa Fitz-Amobi reexamines a closed case, challenging the conviction of Sal Singh for Andie Bell's murder, unearthing hidden secrets that threaten her safety as she seeks the elusive truth."
ah mr wannabe investigator (we all saw him checking out that redbull) but seriously there's something we grussell sprouts must enjoy about someone who seems so straight-laced and uptight be absolutely blatantly unhinged both on and off track. it's just so george to choose literal murder inquiry as a school project, from the ambition bordering on arrogance of believing a high schooler could do what the authorities couldn't to the genuine heartfelt sincerity in wanting the truth and to bring justice for those already deemed outcasts by society. he's OUR good girl that's not-so-secretly "bad".
(main ship are george and alex coded btw like im just saying)
(+ bonus rec bc i am incredibly biased) if your favourite team is Mercedes AMG Petronas F1 Team (had to google the name for the nth time)...then i would recommend The Green Bone Saga by Fonda Lee
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(adult fantasy, trilogy, best books i have ever read) "The Green Bone Saga is a fantasy trilogy by Fonda Lee, exploring the intricate power struggles and conflicts within and around the Kaul family. Set in the fictional city of Janloon with ability-enhancing jade as it's lifeblood."
my faves with my faves. mercedes aren't a national institution/emotion (ferrari), a team (red bull racing), a villains' lair (ashton martin) or a pop band (mclaren) but a family. a dysfunctional, awkward, barely concealed hot mess of a family, but family nonetheless. chasing victory while trying to survive the horrors of life and each other is the merc way and you will see the same in this trilogy. *toto voice* loyalty!
family is duty. magic is power. honor is everything. <- literally them
if your favourite driver is Oscar Piastri...then i would recommend The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan
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(young adult fantasy, book 1 of 5) "In 'The Lightning Thief' by Rick Riordan, seemingly troubled teenager Percy Jackson discovers his divine lineage as a demigod, embarks on a perilous quest with his friends to prevent a war among the gods."
wow guys i don't know what to tell you except oscar JACK piastri, SON of nicole and chris piastri, might literally be percy JACKSON (i have connected the dots, you haven't connected shit). your guy might have had a former illustrious career in undertaking dangerous quests and asking greek gods to pay child support, you should check.
if your favourite driver is Lando Norris...then i would recommend Magnolia Parks by Jessa Hastings
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(adult contemporary romance, check tws, book 1 of an ongoing series) "In 'Magnolia Parks' by Jessa Hastings, a tumultuous love story unfolds between the beautiful and self-involved London socialite Magnolia Parks and Britain's notorious bad-boy BJ Ballentine, as they grapple with a dysfunctional relationship marked by heartbreak, secrets, and the enduring pull they feel towards each other."
picked this based on vibes, just pure vibes but immaculate ones. the drama, the glitz, the glam yes but also the family, friendship, and love found within the pages of this series. this is british gossip girl. i am telling you there is a vision here people.
(+ bonus review because this might be the only book on this list that has less (3.84) than 4+ stars on goodreads and i can't do him and y'all dirty like that: i personally didn't love the first book but the series really comes together and you truly get invested in these characters and their happiness, actually pretty excited to read more.
also if nothing else it's fun, just some brain popcorn)
if your favourite driver is Carlos Sainz...then i would recommend The Wrath and the Dawn by Renée Ahdieh
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(young adult romance fantasy, check tws, book 1 of 2) "In a land ruled by a murderous boy-king, Shahrzad vows vengeance for her friend's death and becomes the next bride of the tormented Caliph Khalid, discovering unexpected love as she navigates the perilous palace of secrets and stories, torn between survival and the promise of retribution."
wow like you think he didn't step out of a magical retelling of 1001 nights? mhm but let's leave aside the fact i am still not convinced otherwise. carlos this year has shown his insane mega ultra galaxy brain, so i believe the plot of the wrath & the dawn would be something that would resonate with you. the quick wit and guile of the mc as she tries to carry out a revenge plot while trying to not get executed is only comparable to carlos coming up with his own race strategy mid race and cementing himself as the only non-rbr race winner in 2023. wow.
if your favourite driver is Charles Leclerc...then i would recommend The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller
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(historical romance fantasy, standalone) "The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller is an Iliad retelling, focusing on the deep and complex relationship between Achilles and Patroclus."
he has that sadness in his eyes that you only see in tragic greek myths etc etc. i will have to say, achilles walked so charles leclerc could race. *soft longing sigh* il predestinato and aristos achaion, the predestined and the best of the greeks. beloveds born and bathed in golden light. it just makes sense to me.
if your favourite driver is Alex Albon...then i would recommend Beach Read by Emily Henry
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(adult contemporary romance, standalone) "A romance writer who no longer believes in love and a literary writer stuck in a rut engage in a summer-long challenge that may just upend everything they believe about happily ever afters."
i mean alex is a living-breathing romance novel of a man. BUT it hasn't always been sunshine and rainbows (helmut marko if i catch you). so i think any emily henry book but especially beach read captures the ups and downs of alex's journey so well compared to just any ole romcom (...but if i had to give one for the alex enjoyers then it would be Better Than the Movies by Lynn Painter, coincidentally also george and alex coded lmao).
but was it his remarkable drive back to f1 or the recent holiday beach pics that was the reason behind this rec? i guess we will never know
if your favourite driver is Logan Sargeant...then i would recommend Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones
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(young adult fantasy, book 1 of 3)"In 'Howl's Moving Castle' by Diana Wynne Jones, eldest daughter Sophie is cursed to age prematurely, the key to break the spell lies in the enigmatic Wizard Howl's castle. Sophie embarks on a quest to confront the Witch who cursed her all the while unraveling hidden truths about herself and Howl."
"let's bring it in and call it a day - let's look after of you." to "that's my girl" pipeline and vice versa. i know what you are.
but logang (the only one i know frfr) you deserve it okay? a cozy lil fantasy full of whimsy and wonder. tuck in and have some tea and cookies, pookies.
(i wanted to do the full grid but keep the teammates together and i haven't yet come up with something for all of em so there will be a part 2...? hopefully...?)
sources for summaries: thestorygraph and goodreads
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aemondsbeloved · 1 year
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Aegon and Aemond reacting to their wife flirting with their brother
warnings/notes: some miscommunication, mentions of drinking/alcohol consumption, nsfw themes for Aemond’s part (alludes to and contains smut oops), idk where this smut came from my hand slipped lol but please be nice this is the first time I’ve attempted smut in like 2 years, this is not edited
Aegon reacting to his wife flirting with Aemond:
Aegon could only watch as blatantly flirted with his brother, your hand on his arm as you laughed at something he said.
He clenched his jaw, unable to take his eyes from looking at your actions. He tried to wrap around his head what Aemond could be saying that was so funny to make you, a grown woman and his wife, giggle. 
Aemond was not funny. Aegon had told him that he had the humor of a Septa and he had been right. Aemond was humorless to Aegon and there you were, laughing at him.
Sure your marriage was an arranged one. He was the son of the king and your family had ships. That was a fair trade.
But between lying in your marriage bed and spending his time with you, always seeking you out, Aegon had fallen for you little by little. 
Things had not been so easy, he had been vulgar upon meeting you as he told you he was glad you did not look so common as he heard the woman of your house usually were. 
You had been mortified as you and your parents heard the words from your then soon to be husband. Alicent had hurriedly apologized to you then went to your mother, walking with her.
When you were left alone you had been upset, not hesitating as you told Aegon that “I am glad I am not a disappointment to you, my Prince. I would not want for you to experience despair such as my own, having a common drunkard for a lord husband.”
You had turned around from that day, no curtsey in sight as you left him. You had done your duty, spending time with him, but after that day he had noticed more about you — your beauty, your humor, your intellect. 
He had spent every day leading up to your marriage and there after trying to be a better man and make you like him.
He was so tired of being the disappointment to everyone in his life.
Surprisingly you had accepted him and began to enjoy his company. Queen Alicent had been most surprised at this after what her son said to you. Even more surprised at the lack of crying servant girls and reports from the King’s Guards telling her that Aegon had not been leaving beyond the Keep anymore.
Aegon had thought that you had shared his affections he had barely been able to accept for himself. All for nought, it seemed as you flirted with his brother.
He had not been in his cups as much when he married you, not wanting to be the drunkard you called him. He wanted to be of sound mind when he spent time you and when you laid together as man and wife.
He did not have the wish to be sober when you flirted with Aemond of all people, though.
He sank into his cups, not taking his eyes off of you across the table as you touched his brother’s arm. He ignored the looks his mother shot at him and only looked away from you when you looked up at him.
He could not bear it, the look of concern on your face, the displeasure on his mother’s. How could you faux concern when you clearly wanted his brother? He could bear it no longer, getting up from his chair loudly, only bidding his mother goodnight. “I will retire to my chambers for the night.”
He had stormed from the room before you could say a word, only being able to look at the door he had left from in such a hurry.
“Your Grace, might I be excused for the evening? I wish to go to my husband.”
Alicent was gracious as she nodded her head.
When you got to his chambers you had sighed at the sight of him drinking more and slumped in his chair.
You had said his name but to no avail, he would not look your way.
“I’m not enough for you, am I?” He asked you, miserable.
You shook your head, “I do not know why you would say something like that, my love.”
Putting your hand on his shoulder, you frowned when he only shook you off. “It’s obvious enough,” He grumbled. “You want Aemond, the perfect son. The one who would not be some common drunkard and yet you are stuck with me. What misery you must find yourself in.”
“This is untrue, Aegon. I accept you as you are, you know this,” You told him, now kneeling by his chair grabbing one of his hands. “You are the only one for me. Your brother and I rarely speak to one another, and I had hoped we might have some friendship, that is all, I promise you.”
He took you in, accepting this as truth. “I want to be enough for you,” He said, sounding weaker and more vulnerable. 
You smiled, pressing a kiss to his cheek. “You already are, husband.”
Aemond reacting to his wife flirting with Aegon:
Dinner had been more excruciating than usual. Typically he enjoyed his sister and mother’s company, but Aegon always tended to sour even something so sweet as the company of the women in his life.
Usually his treatment of Helaena and vulgar words to the female servants was the cause, but this outdid any of his elder brother’s misdeeds. 
Aemond told himself he could not blame his lady wife as the scene unfolded. Aegon was more swine than man to his brother and flirted with anything with a beating pulse.
It was the way you had laughed, smiling up at him. The sweet smile you always gave him was now being thrown at his brother. The same one you had told Aemond you thought was vile in its purest form. And now you smiled at such a man.
Whenever you were not seated next to your husband you would always still search him out, even at a small dinner table such as this one. Tonight had been no exception, he thought, but it seemed you were glued to Aegon.
When you looked up and across the table dinner had long been served and the members of House Targaryen were just talking amongst themselves. Finally, you looked at Aemond and saw some coldness and perhaps a challenge look in his eye.
You had seen his coldness, even his cruelty, but it had never once been directed at you. You moved yourself slightly away from Aegon, gulping the dryness in your throat as you looked at him.
This could not bode well.
Then, he got up far too calmly. “I would like to retire for the evening. The night has gone late,” He said to his mother. She was kind as she smiled and granted him his leave.
When he came around the side of the table, he pulled out your chair and gave you his arm. “Come, my Lady. Let us retire for the night.”
When you left you wanted to say something, but could not find the words until you were in your shared chambers. “Aemond—”
“You would make a mockery of me now, my wife?” His back was turned, pouring himself a drink. 
“No,” You objected nervously, “I was just talking to your brother.”
“My brother who you said was the most vile man in King’s Landing. The man you told me you loathed for his treatment of your sister through our marriage?”
You stuttered something, an objection surely. He casually drank in his wife, savoring the taste. Turning around, he took short paces to get in front of your nervous form. “Tell me, my wife,” He tilted your chin as he made you look at him. “You swore to the seven to obey and please you husband, did you not?”
You nodded your head, quivering something akin to prey that had been caught. “Then why would you entertain my brother with such a lack of subtlety?” He asked, and he taking another painstakingly step towards you until the tip of his boots touched your shoes. “Is it possible if you have forgotten who you belong to?”
You were scandalized as you shook your head. “No! Aemond, you know I would not.”
He moved his body closer to yours, snaking his arm around your waist and bringing you snug against him. Dragging his lips across your ear he whispered, “Are you sure, my love? You have not grown unsatisfied?” 
His breath ghosted the side of your face as he kissed the corner of your mouth. “Perhaps my lady has grown bored,” He mockingly suggested. “Have I left you wanting that you thought the remedy would be my brother?”
His lips captured yours in a kiss that took the breath from you. His hand held the back of your held as you gave into his passions. Your body melted into his and your hands gripped the leather of his jacket.
He only smirked as you chased his own mouth when he pulled from you. He tsked at you playfully. “Do not be so greedy, my love. You have made your husband jealous, do you not think there should be some punishment for that, hmm?”
nsfw below (minors dni please!)
You were speechless, only a whimper escaping your lips when he took his dagger cutting through the back of your dress without hesitation. This was not one of your favorite dresses, your husband did not care. He only wanted to see you bare before him so he could show you who you belonged to.
Leaving you bare, he held your waist with both hands. “My, my,” He murmured appreciatively. “Wonders never cease. I never tire of seeing you like this.”
And then, before you could even look flustered despite your husband being someone who had seen you many times over just like this, he took your waist, picking you up and placing you on your bed before him.
You had gasped as your body landed on the soft mattress while he removed his outer clothes, slowly letting you see every piece of him.
“Do not get any ideas,” He told you seeing both the desire in your own eyes and the thought you were in the clear as he placed his belt on the bed besides your body. “How many do you think I should give you for punishment, hmm?”
Your were slack jawed at this. You had not been married for a very long time, not having been with child yet, but your husband had never punished you let alone hit you with his belt. “Aemond?” You question, meekly.
Now in his under clothes he moved to the bed, sitting on the edge of it. “Come now, pretty girl,” He said. Not need to say more as you knew what he wanted, you over his lap to be punished.
You couldn’t help but bite your lip, half in nervousness and half in wanting. Slowly, you climbed to the other side of the bed and propped yourself in his lap.
He hummed again, pleased. “10 seems a good amount, don’t you think?” He asked, leaning towards you a little as you nodded. “I need to hear you say it.”
Your voice came out quiet as you muttered “Yes,” But Aemond was pleased. He took a moment, caressing your hair before whispering, “If it is too much you tell me and we will stop at once.”
He would never hurt you against your will, even if he was angry at you.
His hand trailed down your back, enjoying how the goosebumps rose on your skin from his light touch. The gasp you let out as he roughly grabbed your behind made him hum with satisfaction.
And then, he took his belt, hitting your one cheek hard. The sound you made sent blood rushing down to his cock. The next two hits came in quick succession as a whimper slipped past your slips. By the time the fifth had come you had moaned sinfully. “Good,” He said. “You’re doing so good. I wonder, do you remember who your husband is now?”
With that, he had leant down and kissed the cheek that was now tender from his belt. Such a stark difference to how it felt to have him kiss it when he had been hitting it with a belt, you moaned out his name.
“Yes,” He agreed, then hitting your cheek two times in a row. “Me, I’m your husband. That’s 7, little one.”
After he had hit your other cheek two times, you pushed your hips up and he chuckled, hitting you another time. "Please Aemond,” You begged though you were not sure. For him to stop, for him to never stop, for him to fuck you already, you just could not know.”
“And that’s 8,” He watched you squirm in his lap, enjoying the sight of it. “I think you’re starting to remember it’s me, your husband who is the one you beg for.”
You made an unintelligible noise of agreement, or a plea for him to do something else, he was not sure. You said something into his thigh but he only hummed. “You’ll have to speak clearer than that if you want me to hear you. 
“Please,” You begged again. “Please fuck me, Aemond.”
He smiled, enjoying the desperation too much. Hitting your cheek two more time, each quick on succession, he loved the whimper that you released. “Is that all you want?”
“Yes, please,” You breathed. “Fuck me already, husband.”
And who was he to deny his lady wife? Taking you in his arms, he kissed you. This time it was deeper, more meaningful and consuming. You wrapped your arms around him and he massaged your behind, taking away the ache for now. 
Laying you back on the bed, your head fell onto pillows. He stood back, taking off his under clothes and now bare to you as well. He was calm as your breathing picked up, too desperate for him and release to contain yourself. 
He placed himself between your legs and for the first time took your cunt in. Humming as he looked at it, sliding his finger across your lips and gathering wetness between his two fingers. As he sucked the juices off of it he looked at you and your breathing only licked up more. 
“I will not tease you any more tonight, my lady,” He promised as he leaned over your body, picking one of your legs and putting it over his back. As he placed his member between your legs and gathered your wetness on it, he began to slide into you, never taking his eyes off of you as he filled you to the brim. “Tomorrow I will wake before you and draw release from you over and over until you can no longer remember my brother.”
Your hands found his back, wanting him closer. As he retreated only to slam himself into your harder than before your mouth gaped open in pleasure. He only took the moment to lock his lips with yours, wanting to memorize the sinful mouth of yours as he always did.
As he began rocking into you, his pelvic bone deliciously rubbing against your clit you felt your pleasure rise more. He laughed a little as you began moaning his name as you got closer to a release as he hit the right place over and over. “Though perhaps my lady already knows who she belongs to now,” He murmured, taking in your expression being so blissed out yet holding onto him. “Good. I knew you were a quick student, my dear wife.”
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evilwickedme · 1 year
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Ooh, do you have any good Jason fic recs?
anon I cannot tell you how long I've been waiting to see those words!!!! yes I have good Jason fic recs in fact I have so many good Jason fic recs that after narrowing it down I still have fifteen links for you
I have read more fanfic for Jason Todd than maybe any other character ever. I do not understand the hold this man has on me but it's simply the situation we're in. anyway
Jason comes home fics
Make a Little Birdhouse In Your Soul is hands down my favorite. I'm talking favorite DC fic, top fics of all time period, not just from this list. I love this fic series. It is actively and regularly updating, thank fuck, because that little boost of serotonin is everything keeping me going I swear
The 70 Days After Groundhog Day is technically from Dick's POV, but it's about the aftermath of a timeloop that Jason was stuck in. it's. oh my god it's so good. just trust me on this one.
Emotional Motion Sickness is the "bruce goes to therapy" fic series we all want. canon get on this level
Retrograde Motion - I never used to like de-aging fics; not for any particular reason, I just never vibed with them. Recently I decided to see what all the fuss was about (bc there's so goddamn many in this fandom) and I'm glad, because I opened this fic and it's just. oh my god. the use of the de-aging trope here is truly incredible. after a whole week of dipping my feet into the trope I never need to do so again, because this fic made me fucking lose it. this is not going where you think it's going. also, for some reason there's not that much rebirth outlaws fic, and I really like what this author did with that team
matching wounds haha just gonna sneak my fic series on here and pretend that it was an accident, wait how did that get there (some jayroy later in the timeline too which can be read on its own if Jason coming home fics aren't for you)
other non-ship
Too Much Fucking Salt deals with the straw that broke the camel's back. I've read all 22k words of this in one sitting more than once. this is the anti "Jason Todd comes home" fic (this is in itself a whole genre of fic too honestly).
take his name out of your mouth (you don't deserve to mourn) is about Jason mourning himself, which he fucking deserves to. also he smokes a joint with Dick
Sown in Winter is about Jason pulling himself out of a depressive episode partially through the power of Stardew Valley. also technically jayroy, but it's honestly incidental to the story for the most part imo
JayRoy
I do read other ships for Jason but unabashedly this is my favorite, so
A Solid Resume - competency kink. that's all I have to say.
Tenderize is a series of oneshots all of which slowly build Jason and Roy's life together and coparenting lian and I just !!! could also double as a Jason coming home au but honestly that's mostly in the first fic. also a lot of discussion of various chain grocery stores in the united states that I will probably never actually step foot in
Dick Grayson and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Two to Three Weeks (But Who's Counting) is so fucking funny I die every time I reread this. there's a scene early on in a coffee shop that just. I don't even know what to say everything about this is perfect. I AM the girl sticking her nose in their business, at least spiritually.
dust devils on the horizon isn't even the only western au I've bookmarked for these two. something about jayroy and horses, man
unity of time: april 27th, 2020 is just,,,, super sad, man, idk what to tell you. it's f!jayroy, but happens after Roy died in sanctuary during the 24h of Jason's death day, so all of it is very fucking depressing. It's also fucking beautiful. I want to reread it now.
Promise After That I'll Let You Go is a poisonivory fic. I was introduced to poisonivory through the daredevil fandom earlier this year and may I tell you when I found out that this author writes for jayroy I lost my goddamn mind. this is my personal favorite, but I almost recommended at least two more aus. Their jayroy sugar daddy au is one of the only sugar daddy aus I've ever truly enjoyed. also really like the one where roy has had feelings for dick since their teen titans days but still starts a fwb thing with Jason. poisonivory can make me into kinks I'm not even into I s2g. anyway this one has lian literally dragging roy back into jason's life
finally, Reciprocation (or: Sex as Violence) shouldn't even really count as a jayroy fic but I feel weird putting it in the other category since it is sort of a jayroy fic. it's ace-aro!jason, which is one of my personal favorite interpretations of Jason (with so much textual evidence wtf), but there's still like... a lot of sex in this. Jason does not have a healthy relationship with sex in this fic. I would describe this as ending in a QPP for jayroy and lian.
honestly there's a lot of good jason and roy and lian fic out there I didn't rec cause this is already long enough
so yeah this is my very VERY pared down fic rec list for Jason Todd let me know if you want more and thank you so much for asking
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multi-fxndom446 · 1 year
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Past lives
Zoro X reader
Summary: Zoro seems to save you from falling in multiple lives
Warnings: angst with fluff ending, maybe rushed ending idk
This is not completely accurate. I did this to the best of my ability I am only on episode 135 so I’m not even at the Sunny so plz be kind if I missed details.
Also I thought this was cute hope you all enjoy.
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Past couldn’t ever hold me down
Lost love is sweeter when it’s finally found
I’ve got the strangest feeling this isn’t our first time around.
Past lives couldn’t ever come between us
Sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
Don’t wake me I’m not dreaming
Don’t wake me I’m not dreaming
The moment you met Zoro it was almost like your whole world fell from right under you and you were left grasping for anything to hold onto, desperate to keep him close to you.
The first meeting almost went exactly as you felt, you were falling and he was the only thing you could see in your sights.
You gasped out a sharp breathe, reaching for something to hold onto. You felt your hands flailing around trying to grasp anything when you felt his arm and you clutched onto it for dear life.
His other arm was quick to wrap itself around your waist pulling you closer to him as you death gripped his other. “You okay?” He finally asked when he made sure you were steady on your feet.
With a few more gasps of breathe you swallowed your fear and nodded slightly, whispering out a quiet thank you and he backed away from you after he made sure your grip was loosened on him.
You looked around the ship, taking in the few other crew members that were present. All of them stood in shock at what they had witnessed. “Who the hell pushed you off that boat?” Another guy piped up, with blonde hair you noticed
Your thoughts were all over the place so much was happening way to fast. “What’s your name?” Another man in a straw hat asked as a red head girl brought a blanket over to you and you seemed to notice now how much you were shaking.
“Y/n.” You said softly glancing back at the man who saved you, your head spun with recognition. “I-I was hiding on the ship, they found me.” You motioned behind you as if to say ‘that’s why they pushed me off’
All you could remember was your heart stopping in fear when you realized the captain found you, then you were facing out towards the water close to another boat when you made eye contact with the man and his face held more concern then you would ever understand.
The next moment you felt hands pushing you and his arms saving you.
“I’m Monkey D. Luffy. Captain of this ship.” You nodded slightly, still unsure if they were gonna push you off as well. “This is Nami, Sanji and Ussopp.” Luffy smiled as he introduced his crew.
“I’m Zoro.” The man who saved you said. Your eyes couldn’t seem to leave him. Like something was drawing you to him, it was almost as if you knew this man before.
He seemed just as confused as you, his arms were crossed but his brows were furrowed in concentration trying to remember if he’s ever met you.
“Where are you trying to get to?” Nami piped in and you clutched the blanket tighter around you.
“Anywhere that isn’t this island.” You finally said and Luffy gave you a bright smile as he went over and patted you on the back.
“Well you’re in luck, we just happen to be leaving.” At the same moment the ship started sailing, some of his crew mates slipping away to go make sure everything was good for a long journey. “Though I’m not sure when we will stop next, are you okay with being with us for a while?”
Your eyes found there way back to Zoro who was still standing close by, arms crossed. “Yeah, I’ll help with anything you need.”
~
You were sat silently next to Zoro on the deck of the Going Merry. The swordsman was laying down, hands behind his head as he snored away.
You looked around at what everyone else was doing. Sanji seemed to be the only one doing anything in the kitchen while the other 3 were huddled around together playing a game of cards.
You lived for these moments with them. The quiet with little bits of laughter and just overall happiness in the air.
When Luffy told you they wouldn’t be stopping for awhile he wasn’t lying. Days had turned into weeks and weeks turned into a few months. But food was running low. You knew they would be stopping at an island shortly, the very same one you would be leaving them.
“You don’t have to leave you know?” You jumped when Zoros voice broke through the silence. “Your thinking to loud I couldn’t sleep.”
You smiled at that. He’d never admit he had woken up awhile ago you were to deep in thought to notice him watching you. “That’s what we agreed on.” You said softly and he sat up, shifting his weapons to move them in front of him.
“That was months ago you can’t actually think we were just gonna let you go?” He unsheathed one and started cleaning them carefully, one by one. “You’re part of the crew.”
“I can’t stay.” You sigh, watching him work. “I don’t think I realized how long Luffy meant when he said it.”
Zoro watched you from the corner of his eye, “why?” You looked up at him in confusion. “Tell me why you have to leave. What’s out there that you think you need to protect us from?”
“I-“ you paused, “just stuff from the past I can’t shake. I don’t want to Involve any of you, I never meant to get close to any of you.”
He scoffed. “You didn’t involve us. I involved myself when I saved your ass from dying, now you owe me.” He sheathed his first sword and pulled out the next. “I saved you. So In return you stay here, with us. With me.”
You watched him silently, eyes widened. He really wanted you to stay. You understood how he was feeling, you both never seemed to want to be to far from the other. But still..
Almost as if sensing your hesitation he stopped cleaning and grabbed your hand. “I promise you I can take care of myself. We all can. So stop worrying for us and promise me you’ll stay.”
You felt your hand tingle where he held onto you, “okay. Okay I promise.” He smiled a smile you would never get tired of seeing and pulled away from you to continue cleaning his swords.
Past lives couldn’t ever hold me down
Lost love is sweeter when it’s finally found
I’ve got the strangest feelin, this isn’t our first time around.
Past lives could never come between us
Sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
Don’t wake me I’m not dreaming
The Sunny rocked gently on the waves. The sun was just starting to rise and you knew everyone else was probably starting to get up.
You knew you should probably get up and start helping around the ship but how could you when Zoro was sleeping so peacefully next to you?
He was facing you, his arm loosely thrown over your waist. You were laid on your side as your eyes scanned over almost every feature he had. Your fingers traced gently across his jawline and over his scar on his eye before they traced along his earrings, admiring the way they just laid gently on his neck.
“What’re you doing?” He grumbled, his arm pulling you tighter against him. Your hand fell just behind his head where you started to play with the ends of his hair. You could feel his goosebumps start running down his arms. “Your being to noisy.”
You laughed, “I haven’t even said anything.” You smiled as he finally opened his eye to look at you. “Goodmorning.”
“It’s to early.” He sighed in annoyance before he tried to turn over and go back to sleep but he couldn’t seem to look away from you, not when you were looking at him with so much love. “What are you even doing?” He asked again
“Just admiring.” You whispered softly. The two of you sat in silence as you continued to play with his hair and he watched you closely. “Hey.”
He hummed
“Do you believe in past lives?” He raised an eyebrow at you and let out a questioning ‘huh?’ You pulled your hand away from his hair with a sigh. “Sorry it’s stupid.”
You went to pull away from him but his arm held you in place. “No keep going I want to hear what you want to say.” You smiled as his determination.
“It’s just when I first met you, there was something about you that felt..familiar.” Your eyebrows scrunched in concentration as you tried to find the right words. “Something about you I just knew immediately I was meant to be with you.”
Zoro stayed silence while he studied you. He could see the look in yours eyes and he knew that look. This was something that must’ve been on your mind for awhile. “I dunno about past lives but I do know we were meant to be together.” He finally said.
“If you did believe in past lives..do you think we were together in those lives?” Your question seemed to take him back. He stared at you for a moment before nodding slightly.
“I’m sure we were. But it doesn’t matter,” he leaned forward to kiss your head before he rolled out of bed. “This is our present and it’s better then any past lives we may have lived together.”
You stared at his back in awe, “come on we better go before Luffy eats all the food.” You slowly smiled at the man before humming in agreement and following after him.
~
“Alright, everyone meet back here before sundown!” Sanji called out to everyone before they started departing from the Sunny to go into town.
This was the first town you had stopped at in weeks and you were hoping they had some supplies you’ve been looking for, for awhile. “Are you sure you don’t want me to go with you?” Zoro asked you for the third time.
Zoro watched you leave with a frown, he knew you could handle yourself but still, he couldn’t help but worry.
You split off from the rest the moment you entered town. Nami stayed with you for a few moments before she could hear the sounds of Luffy causing trouble and she split off.
You really didn’t mind, you only wanted to go to one shop. You had been looking for this piece to upgrade your weapon for weeks but no one ever seemed to have it.
Right when you were about to turn a corner a body collided with yours making you take a few steps back to balance yourself. “I’m so sor-“ your sentence cut short when your eyes landed on who was in front of you.
“Hm?” The man turned to you, staring you down. “You look familiar.” He had said and you took a step back, laughing awkwardly.
“I get that a lot. Im sorry for running into you!” You went to turn away before you felt him grab onto your wrist tightly.
“I do know you.” He smirked his eyes shinning in excitement. “The captain has been looking for you, I’m sure I’ll get a big reward for turning you over to him.”
He started pulling you with him as he weaved his way around the town. You struggled, pulling, scratching but he didn’t even seem to notice. “Let me go!” You yelled and he just yanked you harder. When you saw the Captain your eyes widened in fear and you became desperate but the grip wouldn’t loosen up.
“Captain!” The man called and your heart fell to the floor when he turned to the voice and your eyes connected.
~
Zoro sat on the deck of the sunny, taking deep breaths as he furrowed his eyebrows in concentration as if trying to force himself to meditate. It should’ve been easy to do with the waves rocking the ship lightly but with a sigh he finally opened his eye, giving up.
He’d never tell you this but he was no longer able to train peacefully unless you were somewhere he knew you were safe, usually by his side where he could protect you in a moments notice.
He hasn’t been able to be a peace for awhile now not since the day he was separated from his entire crew for too long, now he’s too scared the same will happen and he can’t let it especially when he just got everyone back, when he just got you back.
“Ah might as well go into town.” He sighed out, jumping from the ship but as he was about to start the walk to town his crew started appearing one by one in the distance.
They all started getting closer when he noticed you weren’t with any of them. “Where’s y/n?” He asked his hand already on his swords.
“I’m sure she’s just running behind she should be back in a few minutes.” Nami said while she pointed where Luffy and Ussopp could put down her bags.
So he waited. Everyone was on the ship putting everything away and still there was no sign of you. “She said she would be back before sundown.” Zoro mumbled when the sun finally disappeared out of sit.
“Still no Y/n?” Chopper called, eyebrows furrowed in worry when Zoro shook his head. “Should we look for her-?”
Right as chopper asked a loud explosion went off in the distance near the other side of the town and Zoro wasted no time taking off, letting Chopper call for everyone.
He needed to get to you.
Don’t wake me I’m not dreaming.
Zoro felt like his world was burning down, which it almost was. Everything around him was engulfed in flames practically cutting his crew off of any chance to escape.
Though he wouldn’t be leaving until he had you back in his arms.
He was breathing heavily, sword held firmly between his teeth and the other two gripped in his hands. He was exhausted, this guy was stronger then he looked.
Nami was on her knees behind him, clutching her arm while Sanji was stood protectively in front of her and chopper was next to her tending her wounds.
Luffy was stood next to him with a death glare aimed at the man who had you by the throat. You were scratching at his arm to the point he was bleeding but he didn’t seem to care he only laughed in your face.
“Let her go!” Luffy shouted while Usopp loaded his weapon and Robin got ready. “She didn’t do anything!”
“Didn’t do anything?” The man barked out a harsh laugh, “she sunk a ship filled with men and all of our treasure. She has to pay those berries back with her life, which she’s now worth.”
“She told me that story once.” Nami spoke up, “she sunk your ship after you burned down her village.” She seethed.
“I-I didn’t-“ you choked, Zoros clutch tightening. “I didn’t kill any of your men.” You finally said gulping in breathes when he loosened his hold enough for you to speak.
He nodded, “I killed them.” Luffys eyes widened even more in pure fury. “After you sunk our ship with the treasure you snuck on board the main ship to kill me. My men were foolish and they let you get away so I killed them. So really, it was your fault.”
He tightened his hold on you again and pulled out his sword. “You caused there deaths.” He seethed and everything after seemed like slow motion.
In the next moments the man pulled his sword back and Zoro watched your eyes widen in horror, while Usopp shot an exploding bullet. The explosion went off in the man’s face and his hold loosened as he dropped you to the ground and stumbled back in shock.
Zoro was running after that. Everything hurt but he didn’t care, Luffy and everyone else could take care of this guy but he needed to get to you.
When he got to you he was staring down at you in disbelief. You were on your side with blood pooling under you, the bloody sword still clutched in the mans hand. He fell to his knees and layed a shaky hand on your arm, pulling you to roll over. The moment he did he let out and anguished yell. “Chopper!” He yelled as he gathered you in his arms, rocking you back and forth. “Chopper!!”
Past lives couldn’t ever hold me down
Lost love is sweeter when it’s finally found
I’ve got the strangest feeling
This isn’t our first time around
Past lives couldnt ever come between us
Sometimes the dreamers finally wake up
Don’t wake me I’m not dreaming
Everything felt cold. Cold and dark. You could faintly hear Zoro yelling before everything went completely still. You thought you might be dead but then you saw a faint light ahead of you.
Everything in your body told you not to go towards it, but your feet carried you anyway. When you got to the light a sort of softness engulfed you.
You looked around to see you were in a small house, a very old one. One that didn’t even seem to be from your time. In front of you was a man with his back turned. Something about him seemed so familiar.
Before you could understand who it was your feet were carrying you towards him. When you were right behind him your arms wrapped themselves around his waist. You felt a sense of deja vu.
When you pulled away from him you went to take a step but tripped over whatever tools he had layed out beside him. The man turned quick and grabbed onto you. He mouthed something but you couldn’t hear anything. Even if you wanted to you were to distracted by the familiar face that stared back at you. It was Zoro.
He mouthed something again something that looked like your name. “Y/n!” Finally you could hear him but it wasn’t from the one in front of you. Suddenly you were thrown in darkness again and you could hear your Zoro yelling out to you but your body was already pulling you another direction.
This time it was bright outside in what seemed to be summer time. Everything this time was bleary like it hasn’t actually happened yet. That’s when you see the familiar green hair in the distance, you want to go to him but everything suddenly became so cold again and your body finally succumbed to the darkness.
“Y/n!” Zoro yelled watching hopefully as your eyes flutter open. You’re pale, all life drained from your body as you gaze up at him.
You could see the tears in his eyes when he looked down at you but all you could bring yourself to do was smile softly at him. “We’ll be okay.” You whispered and he narrowed his eyes. “I’ll see you again.”
“What?” He held onto you tighter when your eyes started closing again, chopper sitting next to you helpless. “Hey, don’t close your eyes! Y/n!”
But it was to late. Your eyes closed and your hand fell limp at your side.
Dont wake me I’m not dreaming
There was no sound other then the waves crashing onto the shore. Everything was dull. Luffy and the rest of the crew made a raft while Zoro held onto your body as long as they allowed before Sanji came to take you away from him.
They stood next to the Sunny and watched Zoro. He stood next to the raft and looked out at the never ending sea.
He took a deep breathe and kneeled down next to the raft, his hand coming up to soothe over your hair while he traced every feature you had as if to commit you to every memory he could ever possibly have.
“You were right.” He whispered, “you were the love of my life in every life.” His eye clouded with tears so he layed his head down on his arm to try and stop it.
“If we found each other in all of those lives, I’ll find you in the next one. I swear to you on my life.” He muttered, lifting his head slightly to lean forward and press one final kiss to the side of your head. “I love you.”
Finally, he stood up and nodded at his crew. They all came forward and helped push the raft into the ocean while Zoro lit it one fire and they all watched you leave the world with tears in there eyes.
~
(In another life)
Zoro was walking next to Luffy as they looked at all the shops. The summer breeze was warm which felt nice to bask in for once.
Luffy was running up to every window in excitement when you came out of one. You both didn’t notice each other at first until you looked towards the green hair, which distracted you.
When you walked past him you tripped. He was quick to turn to you as he grabbed onto you and your grasped his arm tightly. His other arm wrapped around your waist and he pulled you closer to him to secure you. The entire thing felt oddly familiar.
“Are-“ he felt like his heart was going to leap out of his chest when your eyes connected finally and the puzzle pieces clicked in place. He was staring at you with as much intensity as you. “Y/n?” He almost whispered out, scared you were fake.
You took a moment to understand and then smiled, bringing your hand to cup his cheek. “Zoro,” you had tears in your eyes. “You found me.”
He pulled you closer and leaned his forehead against yours. Tears were falling from his eyes but he had the biggest smile on his face.
“Dummy. I promised you I would.”
You choked out a laugh and brought him closer, kissing him with as much love of you could possibly muster.
Luffy was long gone somewhere and at this point, long forgotten.
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Hope you enjoyed <3
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*immediately pounces on you to talk about CoraLaw bc no one else does anymore (at least, not on Tumblr and not English speakers)* I wanna know so bad how adult Law and Cora would interact bc that'd seem so interesting. Especially on a Cora Lives AU. Imagine coming back to life to find out the boy you saved turned out to be a pirate and a(n) (ex)warlord but also a doctor slash (advanced, bc of his devil-fruit lmao) surgeon. It was probably what most would expect what Law would occupy when he was given the devil-fruit (minus the whole pirate and warlord thing I guess) but at that time all Cora expected and hoped what law would be was free. And thinking of that, Cora would realise just how much Law had grown and how he's far from the kid he was then and how little he knows about the man (not that he knew much about Law even when he was a kid anyway, both their pasts were a touchy subject for them but they did get to know each other a little bit and got close, and at that time that was enough for both of them. They didn't need to know about each other's past or something to love and care for each other. I'm not saying your past defines you but sometimes it kinda does. Not fully, no, but it does help shape you into what you are now). And Cora realises that he missed out on so many things. They both wanted to live together, fully and freely. But Law spent 13(?? Or so) years without him but also, Law hadn't been exactly free, not when Doflamingo was alive and Cora-san's death was a wound that will never be healed. Yk what I'm spitting nonsense at this point and I'm probably projecting but yuh... I just badly wanna know how adult Law and Cora would interact when Cora steps into the light again (AKA brought back to life lmao).
Argh I wanna talk about them but I don't know what to say!!!! These idiots make me cry and sob and scream and smile and laugh and I cannot get them out of my head.
But oh! Regarding of their relationship dynamics, I do love the idea of Law being so openly devoted to Cora (and also possessive and obsessed but the latter is almost a fact that he doesn't even need to so anything or say anything for anybody to notice. I mean, look at this guy. He has tattoos dedicated to his lover. The Jolly Roger on his ship is dedicated to his lover. One of his techniques is dedicated to his lover. He steals hearts because his lover's name is Corazon which means heart in Spanish. Yes the last is a HC of mine but idc he'll still be obsessed even when my HC is removed lol). Idk if Cora would leave a kiss mark on anywhere on his skin he'd leave it there until it gets accidentally (and only accidentally, if anybody tries to wipe it off he'd replace their heads with a mop) wiped off. Cora would also be open about their relationship and would proudly gush about his lover who grins when he's kissed on the nose and could cuddle whenever Cora wants to (then he'd introduce said lover to the people and they're a bit shocked to see a 6 foot tall emo looking mf—). They'd fr be the Mom and Dad of the Heart Pirates. But that doesn't make them any less troublesome lmao.
...I had another thought pop up in my head and I— sigh... thinking about Strawhats meeting Cora and him and Sanji bonding over make-up (implied Zosan. Yes I did just imply Zosan without saying anything that could imply Zosan. I'm brilliant. Also implied Genderfluid Sanji. I love my HCs). And also— what. What does that have to do with– sorry, I was talking to my brain bc it suddenly brought Cross Guild Polycule (+ Shanks) in too. I remembered a fanart where Crocodile, Buggy and Cora were talking about jewellery and make-up while their significant others (Mihawk, Shanks and Law) are staring intensely at them xD not sure if that was a ship fanart tho! Also, I made it into Cross Guild (+ Shanks) polycule bc I can *blinks cutely*. So yeah. Just Bottoms bonding over treasure, jewellery, cosmetics and maybe their lovers (Pls we don't get enough Bottom Cora fics I am begging on my knees for them—).
I am making zero sense and I'm yapping at this point but *breathes heavily* I love talking about CoraLaw. I need more fanart. I need more fics. I need more content, posts about them. I– *dissolves into thin air*
hello!! wowza that's a lot of headcanons ahaha. I need to organize my answer lmaoooo
My brain caught on one of the points you made about adult Law and Cora—like, how surprised Cora would be at Law being a pirate. Maybe, after only really having Doflamingo as an idea of what pirates are like, Cora is a little... not disappointed, but like, worried when he finds out. Part of that worry goes away when he sees that Law isn't cruel. But he does slowly understand that, like you said, Law wasn't totally free after living with all that anger and guilt. I think I saw a post a while ago that talked about how Law never claims that he wants to be the King of the Pirates or anything—his "dream" was really just to avenge Cora, and might not have expected he'd survive after that. SOOOOOOO. I think once Cora totally catches up on who Law is as an adult (and realizes he still loves him :3c), he forces Law to sit down and have a conversation about what his new dream should be—it isn't about what he'd die for anymore, but what does he want to live for? Then, I guess the headcanons could be anything... maybe they decide they want to focus on bringing medical help to people who need it, and Law becomes some kind of renegade pirate doctor who goes into places the world government has quarantined... i don't know!! the world is their oyster!!
Ah... the two of them being lovey-dovey around the Heart Pirates........;w; I do also like the idea of them being a little secretive about it, at least maybe at first—like, Law is such a private person, and he doesn't want to "share" Cora after just getting him back... even if it's his own crew just seeing Cora blush or something, haha. And I love cute, open-with-his-feelings Cora, but also liked that rough side of him that would curse out useless doctors and stand up to Doflamingo—I could see him actually being more flustered than Law telling others about their relationship... Like, Cora is talking to Sengoku over transponder snail, and saying stuff like "yeah... I'm... kind of getting dinner with Law tonight. Yes, that Law—don't laugh, damn it, Dad!" and struggling to get his words out. Then Law comes up and takes the receiver from Cora to say, "Then we're gonna make out afterward. Have a nice evening," and hangs up.
my brain is unfortunately too obsessed full with ace/lu and lawcora to come up with anything fun for those other characters, but I'm sure someone out in the world could add on! I'd also love more fics for themmm. I know sometimes you have to "make your own food", but I'm still too deep in my Ace Era to do anything about it yet haha
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justalilpearlie · 3 months
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Introduction/Fun Pearlie Facts
Was abt time I did one of these.
Hello everyone, my name is Pearl, Pearlie or Sam/Sammy if you're feeling like it. Friends also call me Martini sometimes.
I am a minor, my labels... we dont talk about them (fem presenting ftm gay/mlm + trying out gendervoid and verinix + bigender??) uhmm and I go by He/She, tho mostly He/Him by strangers- I can She/Her myself and close friends/mutuals are allowed! (I also go by neos: Void/Moon/Sweet/It/Fluff/Love/Fizz/Paw)
I'm from Argentina, born and raised, never moved. Speak fluent english and spanish.
I got the 'tism and the adhd, aswell as BPD and a few other things I wont list right now! But yeah I'm psychotic (ooo scary word.. lmao)
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I'm an IRL of many, mainly c!Pearl (mcyt), Samuel Emily (fnaf [games canon]) and Shin Tsukimi (yttd). If you don't like it you can leave, block me, or whatever, cause you aint gonna change my life or how I am. I'm in therapy, which unlike random hate and harrassment online, does help me :)
I like to roleplay, draw, sometimes make playlists or moodboards.. And my biggest interests right now are Life Series (+ evo + new life), Empires1(+ a bit of e2) and FNaF! (i dont rlly like the books tho lol..)
I use kin tags for reach cause I'd love interaction from any fellow lifers or empires ppl, hermits aswell!! Tho I havent finished s8 or s9 yet...
Fictionkins, therians and traumagenic systems all welcome!
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DNI prefferably:
- Basic DNI criteria (proshippers, homophobes, transphobes, racists, TERFs, ableist, etc)
- Endos/non-traumagenic "systems" DNI. block me if u want, i wont argue abt it in the comments/reblogs. or interact if u want but im not gonna follow u back or anythin shrugs.
- reality checkers or anti-IRLs DNI. I aint "romanticizing" shit, I'm existing and living my life, if thats a problem to you too bad cause my psychologist aproves of what I'm doing, since I aint harming anyone and I myself am doing dandy.
- anti-kin also DNI cause most of my friends are fictionkins and if you talk shit abt my fellas idk i wouldnt like having u around much
CCs interact at your own risk. This is my domain, cyan man & moon lady. /hj
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"Disclaimer"
- I talk about MajorMoon (Scott x Pearl) a LOT, if u didnt notice by the acc theme. These are my romantic memories, its a gay ship, not woman/gay man, so if it makes u uncomfortable or u hate it or whatever then ur probably not gonna like my content lmao. COUGH, consider joining us if you do like what you see... /nf We're a small comunity of supporters.. just me.. and a few of my peeps... that was a joke, sir. /ref
- This isn't roleplay, its my main acc where im ""unapologetically"" myself, but if u do wanna rp life series/empires u can always shoot me a dm and maybe I'll give u my discord.
- I talk about myself (c!Pearl) using 3rd person in many posts tagged with main fandom tags. This is to cause less confusion to casual fans slash ""normies"" (lhj) that well.. don't know what IRLs are! Also that way I feel safer and don't have to worry as much abt getting harassed and such for my identity.
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Special People Mentions!! fps = * (1 or more.. wouldnt say in a priority sorta order but. more or less yea)
Family! <3 🌼@pehpurr* SISTER!! super duper cool, her art is great and you should check it out!! YOU. You're the brightest little girl (i say like ur not older than me) I'VE EVER MET ACTUALLY! You're so passionate and loving I freaking adore you!! I love you so much Scar, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, Kanny &lt;3 ⚙️@gentlexmadman DAD!! you are my daaaad, you're my dad! woogie woogie woogie! ANOTHER amazing artist! mr "I know that guy-", very funny, Henry "Autism" Emily... the copper king, my father. Speaking to you is always comforting. Love you so much papa, you're amazing :)
Simply special <3 ☕@insomniac-coffeehouse** You're all simply so very special to me. I love spending time with you guys and playing stuff together, you mean a lot to me and I'm so glad I met you. I hope we're still close for this year and many more! You're incredibly talented, not only at art, at everything you do. You spark joy in my brain and my heart <3 From the bottom of my heart, I'm in love with the hope you bring to this world. 🍊Jack***, oh my dear Jacky, where do I even begin, sport... you really are my other half. Mi media naranja if you will. haha.. I love every second we spend together, I love your voice, I love your eyes, I love your smile, your laughter. I love your use of words, the way you speak, your humor, your seriousness and goofiness. You stiff fuck, you were made for me and I was made for you, and I wouldn't have it any other way. You're my everything, mi vida, mi luz, mi estrella. Mi amor, mi mundo. <3
New friends! 🍓@strawberrystarfield I know we met fairly recently but you're all incredibly fun to talk to, your art is also amazing, your accent is real pretty (cough for a bri-💥), you're real sweet and I love reading all your thoughts and critiques about things :} (love ya Aspen /gen) 🏜️@fagdykegtws My right hand man! I know we just met through the rarepair server but oh my god we're in the same brainwave!!! You're so fun to vc and chat with and you got the best ideas ever fr fr, love ya Chewy, you're real sweet even w how lil i know you ;)
That's it folks, love yall and see you around!
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emonydeborah · 8 months
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SNW and DISCO spoilers
so I watched the Una episodes of discovery with no other context. So it’s just the episode where they find the sphere and the last two episodes of season two.
they really go buckwild on this ship. Tilly is being eaten by fungus and no one tells anyone. Jett and the mushroom man get high and slap each other out of it. Also did Jett appear from the vents? Michael is having a family crisis. Saru asked his friend to help him commit ritual suicide and I think a part of his brain fell out. Also I didn’t know he spoke so many languages so that was cool.
they are so dramatic here. The shocked and horrified stares around at each other made the finale an hour long otherwise it would have been like 30 minutes. I expect this from Chris but good grief. The letters goodbye one bye one? Sarek and Amanda somehow showing up ahead of a whole fleet to tell Michael they love her? The sibling fight as the ship is being fired upon? (that one tracks actually) I like it for the big moments but are they always like this?? And is the “eyes up” thing a thing and why doesn’t Chris do it anymore?
I do like the found familyness I am sensing. The whole fam banding together to go with Michael was sweet. And their goodbye to Chris. This is the level of found family where I’d expect to find at least a few of those foster kid fanfics where they refuse to leave each other and the foster parents get six kids at once. I have not looked but I would be disappointed if there aren’t any.
Pike’s stepdad energy is so strong. The whole crew does what they want and loop him in when they feel like it. They are fine without him and have their own system and dynamics going on. He knows it, too, which is hilarious to watch from just knowing him from snw. He really just intervenes to keep his genius stepchildren from straying too far off the mission. They are running around like overexcited puppies (“the sphere is trying to communicate!!!!”) and he keeps them from gnawing on the walls. But he is a good stepdad in that he is ready to throw hands and use his ship as a shield so they can get away from section 31.
then as soon as he gets back to enterprise he brings all of the evil fbi apparently. Una is not surprised and has tricked out the whole ship and the shuttles for battle without prompt. She went Chris was out of my sight for too long we need to be ready to fight the galaxy.
and some more Una notes: Katrina Cornwell seemed tall and commanding until she stood next to Una and it was hilarious how small she was. Took me out of the dramatic bomb defusing moment but I still had fun. And Chris knew someone was going to die from that torpedo and got Una out as soon as he knew there were no other options. My pikeuna heart.
And Una choosing violence with the interrogation sent me. SNW fans know she has been hiding and afraid of scrutiny her whole life, and this is how she shows it. What a woman. She did not even tell them her name. Did we know she was Una at this point or was she Number One all the way until snw premiered?
“Follow the queen.” *Chris immediately looks at Una* I see you Chris.
it is obvious that they did not know how they were going to open snw with Chris being depressed and Una going missing but I liked their shock and happiness when Spock showed up beardless.
idk if I am intrigued enough to watch this whole show but I like Georgiou being their personal annoying gremlin. “Everybody hates you. Congratulations.” Also queen Po going if I die I die.
did not like Una going “in English please” to literally another navigator. We know she’s a genius let her be one y’all. If it were a science person going off a thousand words a minute I would allow it. But Una was talking to a pilot. Do better.
IN GENERAL, a good time. I was there for Una and she was not there much, but that was expected I guess. I was not prepared for how emotional discovery's crew would be. They are all in their feelings at all times. I liked them as a crew and maybe I will return one day.
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jenyifer · 24 days
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23.5 ep 2 initial reaction
Yes yes I know I’m late but I think that’s my brand now. Idk how I reacted in time to only friends me doing anything reliably is impossible.
Moving!!! On!!! As your internet lesbian big sister I’m here to react to this gl. So far I’m really enjoying it. Yes it’s slice of life, but it’s beautiful. It’s innocent. It’s so gay.
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How many relationships have I had in my head with my friends who are girls? Idk a million. While I’ve never impersonated a man. I have felt getting in too deep and having to quit because A. Their feelings for me got weird B. My feelings for them got weird C. One or both of us started dating real human people. The statement “if you were only a guy we could” haunts me to this day. So Ongsa trying to ghost Sun then staring at her phone was intensely real to me.
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Sun is so precious when it comes to her feelings for Ongsa. She’s seeking a real connection something that goes beyond into another world and someone be more accurate? She loves earth because he’s there and funny. She feels safe with him. And that’s exactly what she shows us is how she feels about Ongsa as well it’s so cute.
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YES!!! I am so excited for the space obsession!! Was a little worried we’d only get metaphorical references to space and nerdy things. Luna is ready to get some younger students into the cult of science and reason. Did someone see my skeptic and space phase when I was 17-18? Luna is really 20/10 I love her so much. Also I love her name Luna… She has a connection with the earth and sun. The moon reflects the sun and Luna is beautiful, charming like Sun. The moon is part of the earth and has gravitational pull on the earth, Luna is someone Ongsa will look up to and Luna creates a reason for Ongsa and Sun to spend more time together. Idk I just love it.
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I love these two besties on a mission to help their fellow outcast succeed it’s the best trope. I screamed when they both bought good luck charms for Ongsa.
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Okay Ongsa is definitely living the Teenage dream with Luna and Sun on her arm. Look at June pout if melt and give her all my money immediately. I just want to hug her to pieces.
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Send help immediately this side ship has stolen my heart. Luna is so determined for her club and Aylin was made for this club!!!! GAH!!! Would you explore the universe with me? SMOOTH. I would follow Luna into a black hole. Aylin has no chance.
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NOOOO I CANT TAKE THAT THE EX BOYFRIEND IS CRINGE!!!!!! Also his name is Ton? I’m just going to be thinking about the man the myth the legend Boston from only friends.
(Side note I love Neo but I did see him shit the bed on live house. While I forgive him cause men are disappointing anyways I do feel like I’m gonna need to see something special for me to say I’m his fan again So I’m a fan of Boston and Up.)
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Phantom bride event-Player is their last option Pt. 4
Characters: Cater Diamond, Azul Ashengrotto, Rook Hunt
Self-aware au
I do not take any responsibility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!
WARNINGS: Yandere themes, obsession, possessiveness, imprisonment, death, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship
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We know chatty Cater, always positive Cater, backstab ing-mood Cater but have you already met silent Cater?
Like, the scary kind of silent....
BUT there is one thing that is for certain
He is planning to get rid of her right now
I mean, my man is pretty obsessed and there is no way he would let some danger close to his person of obsession
It's a tough life as the overseer, I know I know.... always being the center of people who plot others demise as soon as they come too close, I know I know....
Cater wishes he could have his phone right now
Not because he wants to take a pic (ok maybe that as well...)
But rather because hello, can someone call some sort of protection agency??! LIKE THE MILITARY OF THE QUEENDOM???! MAYBE???!!!
Silent, brooding Cater... idk about what scares you but that is just dangerous
I mean, his dream is breaking in two right in front of his eyes and then you are also in danger
Mutates within a millisecond into Sebek 2.0 Heartslabyul version
You get why I'm so scared?
The only difference is that is that he doesnt know how to handle a sword but he also does labour by taking care of he garden so there has to be some strength in his arms
So yeah... I would recommend hiding behind Lilia because after this is over and you don't have a shield made of meat then he will 1. Pick you up, 2. Take you to his room and 3. Look you into there until he garduated
It's just for your protection! Don't you understand??!
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His mood swings scare me (no, for real)
The moment you eternity full on crying the sea out of his eyes
And... why is no one entering after you??!
Are you seriously taking her on all on your own????!!!!!
Suddenly all that sadness is thrown from the ship into the sea (I know, bad comparison) and left is a angry, protective, obsessed, murderous octopus
He is screaming like Ursual when she was... uh... you know what
But oh no, not because he is also... that... but rather from rage (ok maybe a bit on the inside but that is a different kind of Sushi)
At first he is screaming profanities at the blue annoyance
And then he “sober up” and starts trying to make deals with the guards
“Make me move and you will have wonderful hair in no time” -Azul, Dorm leader of Octavinelle, desperate
Uh no... I would like to think that he knew that people won't agree to such a thing when you screamed just seconds ago...
He is just so scared that you might die!
Suddenly he has the urge to stuff that cake into his mouth...
Stress eating.....
But again, please hug the octopus afterwards! He needs it!!!
And also empty that bucket of water over there over his head... that body temperature of his can't be healthy.....
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What am I supposed to say? The guy is ready to end their second stage of existence when you were just in wedding attire
Ok but let me think... uh... Panic! Yes, panic!
He was there, one of the last.... and then he got fresh-frozen
You ever wondered how a speechless Rook looked like? Now you know it
Madame over there just killed something in him
His heart rate is also way too fast to be considered healthy
Par ta perfection, tu es tellement en danger!!!
All that training, all that hpunting is for naught as soon as you face danger and he isn't able to do anything
But then again, does that mean that he is worthless? (No Rook you... and he doesn't listen....)
He is such a disappointment!
How could he ever dare to step close to you again??!
Usually I would say, run, don't turn back and start a new life after getting your face and name changed
But now... how about hugging him?
He really, really needs it
Bu after that take your distance again
We wouldn't want to find you imprisoned after all! Right, ma chère perfection?
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spirkme915 · 1 year
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No Way in Hell
idk what this is, but here it is! @remusmoonshinezine posted a super sad fic a few days ago and i needed a massive dose of fluff, so i ended up writing this. it's pretty much spirk fluff & crack (from bones' pov) and i have so many regrets, but, apparently, not much shame. Edit: Now cross-posted to ao3
Leonard doesn’t have to look up from his padd to understand that the only question he needs to ask is, “Do I want to know?”
Jim is hovering outside his office door - shifting from foot to foot, indecisive - and, really, that’s indication enough that something has gone horribly wrong. Not life-threatening wrong, no - Jim is eerily calm when that particular dam is breached. And if it was something Jim could fix on his own then he would be holed up somewhere licking his wounds. God knows Jim doesn’t willingly visit sickbay unless it’s for a drink and a semi-tolerant ear as the captain moons over his untouchable first officer.
So, whatever happened, it’s somewhere in that mushy middle ground between death and pining.
“You probably should know, but…”
Leonard sighs, looks up. He’s on his feet - hypo in hand - before he’s thought to move. “Good god, man. What did you do? Stick a hornet in your eye?”
“Something like that.”
The hypo hisses as Leonard injects an antihistamine, then he’s poking at prodding at Jim’s eye, making sure that it’s only the lid and surrounding tissue that’s swollen up like a goddamn helium balloon and not the eye itself. Jim doesn’t protest the intrusion and that, more than anything, sets off Leonard’s internal Red Alert.
He steps back and targets Jim with his best time-to-‘fess-up glare. “There’s nothing in your eye and there aren’t any marks.”
“There, uh, wouldn’t be.” Jim blinks as the swelling begins to recede. “Am I good to go?”
“Am I going to get any answers out of you?”
Jim swivels on his heel, heading for door. “I’ll take that as a yes.”
“And I’ll take that as a no,” he grumbles under his breath as Jim hightails it out of sickbay. He presses the comm button. “Sickbay to Spock.”
“Spock here.”
“I just gave the captain a heavy dose of antihistamines. He’ll be out for the night and should be good to go for Alpha tomorrow, but here’s your heads up in case you need to take the conn.”
A pause. “Understood, Doctor.”
Leonard rolls his eyes to the heavens. Jim waxing poetic about Vulcan agility and strength he can take; Spock’s brand of pining makes his head hurt.
“He’s fine. If you want to check on him later, though, go for it.”
“I will do so, Doctor.”
Leonard clicks off the comm before he mutters, “Of course you will.”
Goddamn idiots in charge of the ship. He isn’t paid enough for this.
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He’s battling the computer over requisition forms the next time Jim shows up at his door. This time, his erstwhile captain is looking guiltier than the groom at a shotgun wedding.
Leonard surveys where Jim has his shirt-sleeves hiked up - skin on both arms spotted with hives. He glances at the garbled supply forms on his screen and briefly envies the tech department - their patients aren’t sentient.
He gives in to his fate and shuts off his screen. “Let me guess. Arm-wrestling with a cactus?”
“I haven’t been in the botany lab today.”
“Then you were ritually bathing your arms in Caitian milk.”
“What? I don’t know where I’d even get that -“
“The source is literally in the name, Jim.”
“- and anyway, isn’t that supposed to be beneficial for Human skin?”
“Not yours.” Leonard gets up from his chair, waving at Jim to come closer. “When did it start?”
“My apologies, Doctor,” Spock says as he suddenly appears in the doorway like a damn wraith. “I was notified that you are having difficulties with your terminal.”
“And tech sent you?”
“You are not known for your ‘bedside manner,’ particularly when you are experiencing frustration. To employ one of your colloquialisms, you ‘scare the pants off them’ in such circumstances.”
That’s actually…fair.
Leonard waves in Spock then refocuses on Jim. “You. Talk.”
“It started about thirty minutes ago. It was just one hive on my right hand and I ignored it, then…”
Despite the lingering nature of that sentence, Leonard is well aware Jim ain’t gonna finish it. Especially since his crush is leaned over a desk only footsteps away. Quite frankly, it’s a miracle he has Jim’s attention at all.
He sighs.
“Look, Jimmy boy. You gotta give me something to work with here.”
“Do I?”
Leonard has a hypo to Jim’s neck faster than Jim can rethink his shit-eating grin.
“Ow, Bones!”
“Serves you right. Get out of my sickbay.”
He doesn’t bother to tell Jim not to come back unless he’s willing to talk. It’s a threat with no teeth and Jim knows it. Even though he may question his life choices on an hourly basis - sometimes minute-by-minute - hitching his horse to Jim’s wagon is one of the best decisions he ever made. He’ll never tell Jim that outright, but he supposes that keeping the golden boy of Starfleet alive, despite his shenanigans, is proof enough.
He watches Jim saunter out - rubbing at his neck as he goes - then turns around. “Verdict, Mr. Spock?”
“I believe the captain will recover just as well as he did the last time. However, I have shared with him that it would be prudent to uncover the underlying cause for his reactions. It appears he has…rejected my advice.”
Leonard narrows his eyes. “I was talking about the computer.”
Spock freezes. Blinks. “Ah yes. I have found the error and rectified it.”
“Great. Now, tell me again why the first officer of the flagship is fixing my computer instead of a cadet?”
“My work is now complete, therefore the question is immaterial. Good evening, Doctor.”
As if it weren’t already ratcheted sky-high, the haughtiness factor flies off the charts when Spock stands, hands clasped behind his back. Even the door seems to swish shut more dramatically than usual.
Leonard isn’t fooled.
Spock came here to check up on Jim, and whatever Spock thinks Jim’s doing - or, hell, knows Jim’s doing - it’s something he doesn’t approve of. Add in the fact that Jim must know that Spock knows, because loverboy didn’t give the object of his obsession even a hint of a glance, and it all adds up to trouble. Possibly heartbreak. Definitely cattiness.
“Nope,” Leonard says out loud. He pops open his liquor cabinet, grabs a bottle, then props his feet up on his desk. “There is no way in hell I’m getting involved in that.”
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God. Fucking. Dammit.
He’s going to have to get involved.
Jim is standing by the replicators, tray in hand, leaning in as he talks with a visiting Vulcan scientist. On the surface it would seem like any of the hundreds of professional encounters Jim has every day, but Jim’s lips are swollen. Which they definitely weren’t an hour ago, when Leonard just happened to catch Jim waltzing into the labs to greet said visiting Vulcan scientist.
It’s possible it’s another allergic reaction - one minor enough that Jim didn’t seek out Leonard’s help - but the cacophonous silence and phaser beam glare of his table mate tell him otherwise.
Spock hasn’t looked away from Jim and the Vulcan scientist since they walked in together.
Has he mentioned that the visiting Vulcan scientist - who spent the last hour alone with Jim in the lab and now Jim has swollen lips - is a Vulcan?
“So,” he says. “How about that Surak guy, huh? He really put that can-do attitude into Vulcan.”
Not even a hint of a disdainful twitch.
Leonard heaves a sigh.
And he thought suffocating, vaporized blood, and death were the worst things that could happen to him in space.
He’s going to have to get involved.
---
Despite being the emotionless one, it’s clear to Leonard what Spock’s thinking. It’s Jim he can’t get a handle on.
He has even less of a grasp when he walks into Jim’s quarters to find that the captain’s lips have morphed into grapefruits. He has his tricorder in one hand and his hypo in the other in two steps. Thankfully, he doesn’t need an additional appendage in order to deploy his righteous indignation.
“Can you breathe?”
Jim nods. “It’s just my lips not my tongue or throat.”
“Good. Then you’re not in immediate danger.”
He unleashes a flurry of hyposprays on Jim’s neck until Jim is swatting him away. “What the hell, Bones?”
“Me?” Leonard yells. “What the hell are you doing?”
Jim blinks. His lips flap. “What?”
Leonard grits his teeth. He’s surrounded by beings with the emotional intelligence of a turnip. “I thought that your lips were swollen from kissing one certain Vulcan, but this…” He reviews the tricorder readings again, frowns. “This doesn’t make any sense.”
“Wait. You knew?”
He scoffs. “You made it pretty damn obvious.”
“You can’t tell Spock.”
“You think Spock doesn’t know?”
“Shit. That’s why -“ Jim shakes his head. “I was trying to be discreet.”
Discreet my ass, is what he wants to say. But the hangdog expression on Jim’s face tells him that Jim is already chasing his tail. If Jim thinks he’s going to lure Spock in with jealousy, then he’s got another thing coming to him.
“Look. I know you think you know what you’re doing here -“ Jim opens his mouth to protest that and Leonard glares at him until those flappy lips close. “But you have a reputation that you and I both know isn’t accurate or deserved - relationships mean something to you. And as far as I can tell, it’s the same way for Vulcans. Hell, maybe even more so. So you better be damn sure what you’re doing.”
Jim deflates just as fast as his lips. “I know.”
“Do you?”
“Yes.”
“Good.”
“So you don’t think this“ - Jim circles a finger around his lips - “is connected to…that.”
“No.” Leonard refrains from rolling his eyes clear out of his sockets and focuses on the tricorder again. Jim’s reactions started days ago and the visiting scientist just came on board - of course they’re not connected. “But we have to figure out what is causing it. Anything else you need to confess to, Don Juan?”
“I really don’t know what it could be, Bones.”
No, he really doesn’t. Leonard sees the frustration in the set of Jim’s jaw.
“I won’t make you take a trip to sickbay, but I’m going to need some of your blood to analyze. And if it happens again then come see me immediately so I can take readings while the reaction is happening.”
“Got it.”
The slump in Jim’s shoulders softens something in Leonard too. He stows away his righteous indignation - for now.
“Get some sleep, Jim. I’ll talk to Spock.”
Jim shakes his head, emphatic. “No. I need to do it myself.”
Not a turnip then. Maybe more like…a potato. At least Jim has eyes on the situation now.
Leonard takes some of Jim’s blood, takes his leave, and - of fucking course - runs right into Spock as soon as Jim’s door closes behind him.
He has half a mind to facetiously ask Spock if he’s taken on maintenance work now and is checking the bulkheads outside of the captain’s quarters for hull breaches, but everything about Spock is…droopy. Oh, he’s still all harsh angles and coiled muscle, but if Spock had whiskers or a tail then they’d be dragging on the ground. Seems fitting since Jim’s gone full wounded puppy and it’s likely the two of them are about to go at it like cats and -
Leonard’s eyes widen, the readings from his tricorder suddenly making sense.
“Wasn’t your last landing party with Jim on that planet with the emerald tigers?”
Spock inclines a brow. “That is...functionally correct. However, the Ji’ial call them klonukto, which in their language means -”
Leonard waves that away with a mumbled close enough and is halfway to the turbolift before Spock calls out, “May I ask if this is significant to the captain’s health, Doctor?”
Leonard stops, sighs, then turns around. Of course Spock is still concerned about Jim despite what he witnessed today - there isn’t anything logical about the way Spock feels about Jim.
“I think I may know what’s causing Jim’s reactions.”
“You believe it was initiated by our interaction with the Ji’ial.”
Sort of.
Maybe.
“It’s the strongest possibility right now,” he hedges. “I need to go run some tests.”
“I am gratified you have a new hypothesis to pursue.”
Instead of drooping, Spock…eases. That it’s a tangible shift says a whole hell of a lot - Spock is desperately relieved for Jim. Leonard’s guilt immediately takes over and, really? Why is he feeling guilty about Jim kissing someone else in order to make a Vulcan jealous? Not his monkeys, not his circus.
Of course, the words are tumbling out of his mouth before his I-don’t-give-a-shit kicks in. “If you’re going to see Jim, I don’t think you’re going to like what he has to say.”
“I am quite sure you are incorrect, Doctor.”
And, with that, Spock enters Jim’s quarters.
Leonard wants to smash his head against the bulkhead, but…whatever. Spock is gonna Spock and Jim is gonna Jim and never the twain shall meet.
“Not your monkeys, not your circus,” he reminds himself.
He has other mammals to think about.
---
Leonard stations his elbows on the lab table, drops his head into his hands, grips his hair in his fists, and pulls. If he’s also internally screaming, then, well, that’s his own business.
It’s not Ji’ial. Not Caitian.
He even requested a ship-wide scan to ensure they didn’t have a warm-blooded stowaway that accidentally got caught up in a transport beam or some ensign brought onboard to make the Enterprise more homey. No such luck.
Absolutely none of Jim’s readings make sense if there isn’t -
“Spock to Dr. McCoy.”
Leonard may just let a bit of that internal scream slip. He doesn’t have the patience for will-they-won’t-they drama right now.
He hits the comm button because, well, he always does. “What’s up, Spock?”
“You are needed in Jim’s quarters immediately.”
Leonard’s relatively sure that if Jim was on death’s doorstep then Spock would have some kind of inflection in his voice. The lack of it tells him Jim’s knee-deep in that mushy middle ground again.
“I’ll be right there.”
His hypos are locked and loaded when he steps into Jim’s room, all of them clattering to the deck when he takes in the plague-reminiscent tableau in front of him.
Spock stands - spine rebar straight - in a black robe, hands clasped behind his back. His hair is disheveled as if he just removed one of those pointy-nosed masks. He hovers next to Jim’s bed where the captain is laying naked, hives covering him head to feet, skin reddening and swelling. Even though Jim has the sheet draped over his delicate bits, Leonard is relatively sure that they continue all the way -
He winces. That’s gotta hurt.
Or, well, itch.
Or maybe both.
Yikes.
Spock tilts his head. “I believe your hypothesis that my biology is not causing Jim’s reactions is incorrect.”
Leonard’s tricorder drops to the deck too.
“Your what?!”
“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” Jim says. “Whoa. You said you knew. That it was obvious.”
“Obviously it wasn’t!” He stabs a finger at Spock. “What does he mean his biology?”
“You said I was kissing a Vulcan!”
“Yes. The visiting Vulcan science officer!”
“What? Why would I be kissing a Vulcan who’s not Spock?”
“That’s what I wanted to know!”
“Doctor,” Spock cuts in. “I believe you may want to attend to Jim’s breathing before it becomes more labored.”
Shit.
Spock’s right. Jim’s still able to yell but that’s not gonna last long.
He scoops up his supplies and crosses the room. Jim sags into the bed when the first wave of anaphylaxis meds hit his bloodstream, his respiration begins to even out. Leonard grits his teeth and holds his silence until he’s sure that Jim is easing back from the precipice.
It’s in that quiet that it hits him. He groans. “It’s likely that Vulcans evolved from felines.”
“That is the predominate theory, Doctor.”
He glares up at Spock. “And it never occurred to you that Jim is allergic to cats?”
Spock inclines a brow and opens his mouth, but it’s Jim who speaks first. “Go easy on him, Bones - it’s my fault. He thought it was the most likely scenario and wanted me to tell you, but I was trying to be discreet.”
“When have you ever been discreet, Jim?”
Jim shrugs. “It’s Spock.”
Leonard supposes that explains it all.
Relationships mean something to Jim. They may mean even more to Vulcans. And, well, this relationship has all the hallmarks of “legendary” stamped across it.
Goddamn legendary idiots.
He pushes another hypo into Jim’s neck, sighs. “And there’s the cure for your allergy.”
“That’s it?!” Jim’s eyes widen. “Why didn’t you give me that years ago?”
“Not a lot of Terran cats around these parts, so it should’ve been an unnecessary shot. But I suppose this ones hybrid physiology was tailor-made to set you off.”
Jim smirks.
Spock clears his throat.
Leonard wants to die.
Since there’s zero chance of him gracefully exiting this conversation, Leonard decides…fuck it.
“Congratulations on the sex,” he says. Jim turns a magnificent shade of red, but at least this time Leonard knows that reaction doesn’t need a hypo. Spock looks like he’s in physical pain. Leonard is gleeful. “But really? No more of it for at least twenty-four hours.”
Jim’s Yes, Bones comes through the sheet that Jim’s dragged up his chest to hide behind.
Knowing full well that the timer is already ticking down, Leonard looks up at Spock. “If I don’t hear from you twenty-four hours and five minutes from now, then I’m going to assume the shot worked.”
Spock’s lip twitches. “Understood, Doctor.”
---
Twenty-four hours and thirty-seven minutes later, Leonard is just about to close his eyes and crash when his comm beeps.
He swears into the silence of his quarters then hits the button to play the audio message from Jim.
“Uh, Bones? Question that may or may not be related to…yesterday. Spock doesn’t make this sound when he’s in a healing trance, does he?”
Leonard’s adrenaline spikes. A healing trance? What the hell have they been doing that Jim would even think -
Then he hears it.
Spock is purring.
He thinks about Jim’s swollen eye, his hands and arms, his lips, his entire body covered in hives, then how Leonard’s still not entirely sure what actions caused those particular reactions, and…
Nope.
No way in hell.
Leonard flips his comm closed, turns over, and screams into his pillow. Those lovesick fools are just gonna have to figure out their differing biology on their own.
There is no way in hell he’s getting involved in that.
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