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featureenvyproductions · 1 year

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here’s a bird’s eye view of my comic Eyan Eternal

For people who don't know what it is. Bc I think some of you might find it's right up your alley. Well this is an updated one anyway. I do actually have a volume of this out in print right now, but the low def, basic version is online and complete, and tbh, I just want people to read it. I took almost two years to complete this and quite literally poured every waking moment (after work and when I wasn’t fixing stuff in my house) into this to try and finish it.

Ahem

Here is one of these at a glance things!

If that’s enough to intrigue you, take a look at my chapter masterpost which has convenient links to every chapter post so you don’t have to go figuring out where they are and what order they go in!: https://www.tumblr.com/featureenvyproductions/717516139934154752/eyan-eternal-tumblr-chapter-masterpost?source=share

If you like it and want to support me you can also buy a copy of the first print volume, which collects chapters 1-5 and has a smidge of bonus content (only available in the US right now, but that’s not going to be forever, and I’m working on an e-book as well): https://www.etsy.com/FeatureEnvy/listing/1447399615/eyan-eternal?utm_source=Copy&utm_medium=ListingManager&utm_campaign=Share&utm_term=so.lmsm&share_time=1683565699335

And now here is a more detailed break down if you need more info than that...

*Jonathan Frakes asks you things meme voice* have you ever wondered what you’d find if you REALLY lived forever?

Well, meet Eyan, an immortal vampire.

He’s slowly finding out the answer to that question...

...And it appears to be unbearable isolation.

Eons into the distant future, when most stars have faded in the night sky and the cosmic event horizon has confined any remaining beings to an isolated pocket of the universe, Eyan roams interstellar space in a repurposed generation ship in search of anything that could be considered alive/sentient in the way he is.

So far, he’s out of luck.

That is until he runs into an unexpected former rival on a remote planet - Zero, a sentient android he never expected to be the only other person left alive.

Well. That is, if either of them can really be considered “alive”. What does that mean anyway, when the humans who defined what it means to be alive are all gone?

This is something they’ll have to explore and define for themselves as they attempt to set aside their myriad of differences and try to work together on one of the few ways left to escape the dark fate of ultimate isolation - The Grand Encoder, a machine that can upload minds to a special medium - if it even works for them anyway. In the process, they slowly come to accept that maybe they’d had each other all wrong and weren’t seeing the bigger picture.

You may not find any action-packed Star Wars like escapades here in this sci fi drama. You also won’t find ponderings about the origins of vampires or what gave rise to robot sentience - It’s integral to the plot that these things just ARE. But you will find a thoughtful exploration of identity and how it can cause us to define ourselves and relate to (or abandon) each other depending on the framework within which we are doing that exploration and within which we are compelled to exist. It asks the question, what if the frameworks within which we defined our existence and purpose no LONGER existed...Where would we go from there?

And as two immortal guys who are the only folks left in the universe (as far as they know), Eyan and Zero are just the right people to mull over that.

There is both textual and allegorical queerness in this story - both main characters should be considered gay men, even if it’s The Future TM and terms/exact scopes of identities may not be EXACTLY 1-1 with today’s...But I want to be perfectly clear that it was my intent to make them gay because I wanted to see more gay guys in sci fi and I don’t want anyone erasing that. As for the allegorical stuff - I myself am a trans gay man in my late 30s, so this act of re-exploring and re-framing myself and evaluating how and why queer folks interact with each other the way we do is something I’m very familiar with, and I feel like other folks might relate. (I also peppered in some neurodivergent-person-in-a-neurotypical-world moods tbh.)

Of course it’s not all serious. I do have a bit of fun with some old school vampire tropes, tossing Eyan around and putting him in Situations.

Anyway if this all sounds interesting to you, take a look at my tag and site (above)! I’d appreciate it! I also like to hear from people and see if there’s anything about it you related to! :)

I also do everything. Every last monotonous step (well, aside from literally loading up a printing press to churn out volumes lol - BUT REST ASSURED IF I HAD $10K TO PISS INTO THE WIND I WOULD DO THAT TOO). So if there’s ANYTHING you want to know about my process, I’m happy to tell you so please ask, especially if you’re like trying to get started on your own comic or trying to go to print :)

Edit before I go ahead and blaze this: I want to say, to be honest, the creation of comic was initially motivated almost entirely by the isolation/loneliness I’ve felt in my life. It’s not as bad as some folks’ and I know that, but it is a really prevalent thread throughout my life and sometimes is almost unbearable, and my comic began as an exploration of that loneliness, as well as a narrative exercise to try and express the depth of it at its worst point. I’m putting this out here because ultimately I don’t know...maybe someone will catch my drift and understand the feeling I’m trying to illustrate, and maybe they’ll want to see the plot that came of those feelings. I am not above the need to feel seen lol, especially if other people out there feel like they can resonate with this experience as well.

#Eyan Eternal #my comic #vampire #robot #queer sff #indie comic #indie artist

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2024-grimoire-challenge · 5 months

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December Prep 2

Let's look into a couple of things this week The first is how to properly study, research and gather information and the second is the various kinds of prompts you will see in the challenge throughout the year.

The basic steps in any research process are

Identify and develop your topic (we will have multiple so it will be important to follow the same steps for each topic.)

Preliminary search for information - we will be gathering a list of resources for everyone before the challenge begins including websites, a list of recommended books, and more.

Locate the information/ materials - Gather all your sources into one place! A folder on your pc, or a bookmark bar in your browser can go a long way to helping you keep this organized.

Evaluate and use Discernment on your informational sources.

Take notes! - self explanatory. Using the resources at your disposal, take notes on your selected topic, gather all of those notes, and keep them organized. You don't need to think of this in exact terms of a research paper, but the idea is the same! All of your notes will be helpful in actually filling and creating the pages for your grimoire! But, you also can just keep the notes as they are in your grimoire!

Now lets get on to the types of prompts you will see!

Meditation/ Journal - these will generally be the end of every week and after every practical prompt, so you can look back at what you've done and learned, in order to help you process what you'd done and how you feel and think about it.

Research/ Study - these will include things like herbs, gems, types of magical practices and topics, tools, history

Practical/ Hands on - at least one a week, where you get your hands dirty, so to speak, and really perform some magic or do the work you're studying.

Submissions - I encourage everyone to share their thoughts, ideas, and physical progress within the challenge. You don't have to share pictures, if you're not comfortable, but thoughts and ideas and a short post about what you accomplished!

Holiday/ Seasonal posts - We'll have posts for the typical holidays and some that not so common.

Divination prompts - On occasion we'll have a divination prompt. It won't necessarily require you to perform any divination if you're not comfortable or don't know how, but the option will be there!

Cooking prompt - We've all seen those cool witchy inspired cooking posts on this site. So why not do one? Why not learn to make bread? Or mead? Or cute little pastries? Or anything. This'll be a new prompt, one I encourage everyone to take part in and share!

There may be more of these added as we go, but in general this is all of the types of posts we'll be seeing!

What else is there to do?

Well if you’ve already got notes somewhere (a notebook or files on your computer or what have you) you’re gonna want to actually design a grimoire right? And this is a grimoire challenge right? So let’s look at different design and style options!

If you’ve seen the video I posted of my grimoire pages, they’re very scrapbook/ junk journal styled. Which is a fun and totally customizable option.

Let’s look at some note taking methods, to help us take notes as well as design our grimoire pages, and some scrapbook supplies and ideas for ways to decorate our grimoires.

https://crm.org/news/note-taking-methods#:~:text=There%20are%20many%20different%20methods,and%20Bullet%20Method%2C%20among%20others.

These are just a few links for some ideas.

Your grimoire should suit you, no matter how you choose to design and decorate it. It could be a scrapbook like mine, a bullet note journal, or a leather bound tome with thick ink lettering in a cipher that only you can read. However you want to design it, it should be an expression of you and your practice.

I am excited to be running this challenge again, and to be helping all of your find inspiration for your practices and grimoires!

Good luck and happy crafting!

Mod Hazel

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soulprompts · 2 years

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"𝙄 𝙇𝙊𝙑𝙀 𝙔𝙊𝙐" 𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙏𝙎. (N.𝙎𝙁.𝙒 𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙎𝙄𝙊𝙉.)

idk how to describe the exact thought process that led me to this idea, but basically i was watching a tonne of ins.tagram videos and i think i had hit the fourth video in a row using that interview where it’s like “love ya, bye.” “love ya..............PFFT--” and i was like. in a way, that’s actually completely adorable, and i was thinking about all the different ways and contexts in which people say “i love you”, and now i’m here to make it everyone else’s problem! so bon appetit! DO NOT ADD TO THIS LIST!! i will add to it in the future!! i already made a sfw (safe for work) version that can be found in the post before this one, but i promised u a spicy option, so here u go, here’s an ns/fw version ( aka DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS IF YOU ARE UNDER THE AGE OF EIGHTEEN!! ), w spicy prompts that can be found at the bottom of the list, and remember, if you add to the list i will curse ur shoes to be squeaky 24/7. so just don’t add anything to the list, okay my loves? okay. enjoy!

[ FIRST ]: sender tells the receiver “i love you” for the first time.

[ PHONE ]: during a phone call with the receiver, sender absently tells them “i love you” for the first time before hanging up.

[ MOUTH ]: while standing across a crowded room from one another, sender catches the receiver’s eye and mouths “i love you” to them.

[ WEDDING ]: as they prepare to exchange wedding vows, sender gazes at the receiver and says “i love you” for the last time as an unmarried couple.

[ HEAT ]: while engaged in a passionate argument with one another, sender, in the heat of the moment, blurts out “i love you!” to the receiver. ( think of like, that glorious trope where people have a huge argument and then suddenly sb drops the mic with “because i’m in love with you!” and silences the other person. u know the trope! )

[ SLOW ]: after resisting their feelings for one another for a very long time, sender finally breaks down and reveals to the receiver that they love them.

[ SAVED ]: having believed they were both about to die, the sender says “i love you” to the receiver, only for both of them to be spared at the last minute and left to process the not-so-final last words of the sender.

[ OVERHEARD ]: sender reveals that they’re in love with the receiver to a third party, not realizing that the receiver, while out of sight, has just overheard the confession.

[ CHOOSE ]: sender, realizing the receiver is about to make a huge life-changing decision (literally anything, accepting a job offer, accepting a marriage proposal, leaving the country, ANYTHING!) tells the receiver that they’re in love with them, leaving them to choose between the sender and their original path.

[ DECISION ]: sender finds the receiver just as they’re about to make a massive decision that will have massive consequences for the fate of many people, possibly the world. accepting their fate, sender allows the receiver to continue, telling them that they love them, and then waiting to see whether the receiver choose to save the world, or destroy it. (for the hero/villain vibes bc we STAN THOSE VIBES! )

[ LAST ]: believing it to be their last chance to confess their feelings for the receiver, the sender tells them that they love them.

[ ASK ]: immediately after saying “i love you” to the receiver for the first time, the sender proceeds to propose to them.

[ BEDSIDE ]: while sitting by the sick/injured/unconscious receiver’s bedside, sender reveals that they’re in love with them, unaware that the receiver is able to hear this revelation.

[ TEXT ]: before concluding a text conversation, the sender delivers one more text to the receiver, reading “i love you”, before ending the conversation.

[ SACRIFICE ]: just before putting their own life in danger to protect, save, or help the receiver, the sender tells them that they love them, and then proceeds to risk their life in an intentional self-sacrificing way.

[ BATTLE ]: as they prepare to go on a dangerous mission, sender shares a final moment with the receiver, and tells them they love them, just as they head out to fight.

[ TRACE ]: sender, believing the receiver to be asleep, gently traces the message “i love you” on the receiver’s bare skin with their finger.

[ LETTER ]: sender delivers a letter to the receiver that reveals their deep love for the receiver.

[ PRIVATE ]: sender confesses their love for the receiver by using a private joke or shared story that only the two of them know. ( example: “remember the day we went fishing on the lake and you fell into the water because you thought that leaf was a shark fin? that was the day i knew i loved you.” )

[ NOTE ]: on their way out of the house, sender leaves a small note for the receiver to read when they wake up, reading “i love you”.

[ UNSPOKEN ]: after a third party (or the receiver themselves) asks if the sender is in love with the receiver, the sender goes silent, unwittingly admitting that they do love them in the process.

[ KISS ]: unable to find the right words to express how much they love the receiver, the sender impulsively catches them and pulls them in for a passionate, deep kiss.

[ RAIN ]: sender reveals their love for the receiver while they’re both standing outside in the pouring rain.

[ HUSH ]: sender whispers “i love you” to the receiver while they’re both in a situation or context where they need to be quiet.

[ UNCERTAIN ]: while pretending/acting/undercover, the sender says “i love you” to the receiver, but whether they meant it or not is left unknown.

[ DANCING ]: as they slow-dance together, the sender takes the opportunity to lean in close to the receiver and tell them that they love them.

[ QUIET ]: on a cozy night in with the receiver, as they curl up together on the sofa/in bed, the sender says “i love you” to them.

[ RELIEF ]: upon reuniting with the receiver, whom the sender briefly believed to be dead, the sender emotionally embraces them, and says “i love you” in the spur of the moment.

[ LAUGH ]: while laughing at a joke/prank/story that the receiver is humorously displaying, the sender fondly tells them that they love them.

[ OVER? ]: after a mutually reluctant (and unwanted but necessary) break-up, the sender calls/visits the receiver and tells them that they’re still in love with them.

[ VOICEMAIL ]: sender leaves a voicemail on the receiver’s phone after failing to get through to them, and reveals their love for them.

[ ASLEEP ]: sender, having climbed into bed to cuddle the receiver (who they believe to be asleep), tells them that they love them.

[ INCOHERENT ]: while sick/feverish/intoxicated/otherwise incoherent, the sender tells the receiver that they love them, leaving the receiver to figure out if they meant it or not.

[ TRUST ]: faced with an incredibly risky situation, the sender decides to accept whatever plan the receiver decides on, trusting them with both of their lives and telling them they love them in the process.

[ DURING ]: while having sex with the receiver, the sender tells them that they love them.

[ AFTER ]: after having spent the night before together, the sender wakens next to the receiver, and, gazing at them, tells them that they love them.

[ COMPLICATED ]: despite having a strictly no-strings-attached se.xual relationship with the receiver, the sender, having realized they’ve developed feelings for them along the way, tells them that they love them, at the risk of losing them entirely in the process.

#citrus #( nsfw. )#rp meme #rp prompt #rp prompts #rp memes #roleplay meme #roleplay memes #roleplay prompt #roleplay prompts #sentence starters #dialogue starters #dialogue prompts #dialogue prompt #action prompts #action prompt #( i will now see u in five to ten working years byeeee-- )

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yundeongie · 1 year

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die for you - p.sh

paring; park seonghwa x fem reader

word count; 2.2k

synopsis; seonghwa would do anything for you and so would you, if not even more.

genre; mafia!au, angst, the tiniest amount of fluff

warnings; depictions of violence, guns, major injuries

note; hi! so this is my first time posting on tumblr and hopefully i can post more if you guys liked and enjoyed this one-shot! i was very inspired to finish this when i was listening to the weeknd albums and especially the die for you remix, if you couldn’t tell :) i originally wanted to post this story in time for seonghwa’s birthday but tumblr was kinda acting up on me, especially cause of the whole new user thing (i wasn’t seeing it in the tags so i kinda panicked). praying it shows up!

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“Don’t you ever get scared being with me?”

You chuckled softly, turning away from the book you read to face the man you love, “Who says that I don’t?” You close the book and walk towards Seonghwa, sitting on his lap and wrapping your arms around his neck. “But that doesn’t take away the fact that I love you.”

Seonghwa had never felt contempt in life before. Growing up, he was born into the mafia life and his father always made sure to let him know that he’ll be taking over his empire if anything was to happen to him and that’s exactly what happened. Being sixteen at the time and personally seeing his own father get assassinated by rivals was not something he had wished to see. Seonghwa had always loathed his father for being a part of the mafia and for forcing him to take part in those activities.

He was always told to never trust anyone, which is why he is the way that he is today. Cold, calculating, ruthless, heartless, basically all the words you could associate with a person like him.

Until he met you.

It’s cliche, but you were the exact opposite of him. Caring and affectionate. Whenever you could you would volunteer at different animal shelters and orphanages, you worked at a private nursing home. You were basically heaven and Seonghwa was hell.

One night after a long shift you were walking home when you heard some noises in the alleyway. Normally people would run away but you had too nice of a conscience to just ignore it and that’s when you found Seonghwa, laying almost half dead in his own pool of blood. And ever since then, Seonghwa swore his life to make you his and to protect you no matter what.

You weren’t stupid either, you knew what Seonghwa did but you love the man. You knew the dangers that came with being his lover, but the moment you entered his life you knew there was no way out other than death.

“What are you thinking about?” You lightly tap his nose, face scrunching up in the process. Seonghwa lets out a sigh whilst shaking his head and smiling, “Nothing much, but my thoughts are always filled with you.”

“Stop! That’s so cringy.” You giggled, covering your mouth.

“Well, it’s not cringe if it's fact, sweetheart.” Seonghwa pulls you closer to him and plants a gentle kiss on your cheek, as he pulls away you both make eye contact and Seonghwa’s eyes are warm as he looks at you with endearment, “I’m so glad I met you.”

"I do too." You softly smile, tapping his shoulder whilst getting up, “Do you want something to drink? I’ll make you some tea hmm?”

“That’ll be nice, thank you.”

As you head away, Seonghwa refocuses his attention on the stacks of papers and folders on his desk. Lately, the organisation has been seeing some fluctuation in sales and finances, nothing could explain this except for a mole within the organisation. Seonghwa was frustrated to the point where he threw some of the papers on the ground. His head was resting on top of his hands until someone busted through the door.

“Seonghwa, I believe we have the break we were looking for.” Hongjoong, his best friend and right-hand man spoke.

“Continue.”

“We looked into some files and asked around. Turns out that Dongmin has been keeping in touch with the rival organisation by leaking our information to them, allowing them to intercept with our dealings and sales.”

Seonghwa stood up, hands on his hips whilst pacing around, “Dongmin? As in Son Dongmin?”

Hongjoong nods, “I got intel that he may be planning something against you with the rival gang's support. Most likely with dethroning you.”

Seonghwa’s eyes widen, if someone was going to plan an attack on him the first thing that comes to his mind was to keep you safe and now that he knew someone was out there actively trying to harm him, he knew that he had to be next to you at all times. But before Seonghwa could even step foot outside the bedroom, all the alarms in and out of the mansion started ringing.

Without a second thought, Seonghwa sprinted downstairs and towards the kitchen. He can see you crouched behind the kitchen counters whilst the bodyguards surround you. Gunfire was everywhere and Seonghwa, along with Hongjoong tried to find an opening so that they could get to you.

One second of silence was enough for them to move, holding their guns and shooting towards the front door even if there wasn’t anyone there. The moment Seonghwa made it to you, you immediately hugged him, as scared as you were, you’re just glad to know that he was safe and void of any bullet holes. Seonghwa did the same, quickly checking to see if you got any scratches. Whilst holding your hand, Seonghwa quickly ran towards the back of the house. Hongjoong closely followed behind, making sure to keep you both safe whilst calling for backup.

You saw a lot of bloodshed within just a few minutes, many of the people who Seonghwa put around you to protect you were gone, never to see the daylight again. You held onto Seonghwa’s hand tighter and he did the same.

You both made it towards the backyard which was abnormally quiet, both Seonghwa and Hongjoong were on edge, cautious of their every move. There was no one guarding the back which was odd as he has guards securing every inch of the mansion. You huddled closer to Seonghwa and he made sure to put you behind him.

Then suddenly a bright light shines in front of you all, blinding you for a second and then a voice speaks.

“Well, well. If it isn’t the great Park Seonghwa and his little entourage. Whoops...seems like you don’t really have much to protect you.”

All Seonghwa does is glare at the traitor, Son Dongmin. Hongjoong doesn’t stop pointing his gun towards him, even if the odds are against them as Dongmin has a few people surrounding them.

“Why?”

Dongmin scoffs, “You’re seriously asking me why? If it wasn’t for your stinking rat of a father, I wouldn't be like this!”

“My father?” Seonghwa confusingly asks.

“My father was the one in charge, your father? He was only a follower! He killed my father and overtook the organisation so now, I’m here to get back what’s mine!” Dongmin yells in frustration.

“Whatever it is, leave y/n out of this. She has nothing to do with this.” Seonghwa responds as he protectively covers you.

Dongmin smirks and tilts his head to get a better look at you, you immediately hide behind Seonghwa more, securing your hold on his clothing. “Well, maybe I should just kill you and your little followers too and just keep y/n all to myself huh?”

“Don’t you fucking dare touch her.” Seonghwa lowly threatened.

“Or you know what? I can let you live, if you give y/n to me, how about that? I wouldn’t even try taking over you if you did.” He smirks.

Your eyes widen and Seonghwa’s grip on you tightens even more, “In your fucking dreams.”

Dongmin rolls his eyes and begins playing with his gun, pacing back and forth before he suddenly stops, “Well then, I guess there's just no way around this then.” Then he slowly aims the gun towards Seonghwa.

“Wait!”

You suddenly shout and now all the attention is on you, with Seonghwa’s eyes widened in shock and filled with worry. You slowly let go of Seonghwa’s hand even if he had zero intentions of doing so and made your way beside him. You look at him, his eyes pleading with you to not do what he thinks you're about to do before you turn your attention towards Dongmin. “If I exchange myself, will you definitely let Seonghwa and his men live?”

Quickly, Seonghwa grabs your arm and harshly whispers to you, “Are you crazy y/n!? I could never let you do that!”

You look back at Seonghwa, begging him to agree with your offer, “Please! I don’t want to see you die, Seonghwa!”

“I’d rather be dead than let him take you hostage, you know I’d die for you if it means you can live!”

“But-”

Multiple gunshots were fired up in the air making you flinch and silent. “Boy oh boy, you seem to really want to die huh?” Dongmin says as he slowly walks forward a bit, “Maybe I should grant your wish then.”

Quickly, he aims his gun straight towards Seonghwa and your eyes widen in shock as you look back and forth from your lover to the gun.

“No!”

Bang.

As you open your eyes, you’re met face to face with Seonghwa and all he can do is look back at you in a daze, his brain barely comprehending what had happen before you gradually fall down but before you hit the ground Seonghwa catches your fall.

You start to feel numb and breathing no longer starts to feel comfortable. Seonghwa caresses your cheek only to panic after seeing the amount of blood on his hand and your face, he quickly tries pressing the bullet wound down from your back to try and stop the bleeding. You tried speaking but Seonghwa cuts you off, “Don’t say anything please, please. Nothing will happen to you sweetheart okay? You’ll be fine.” His voice trembles, he doesn't even know if he’s comforting you or himself. Never in his life has he feared anything more than the thought of losing you.

Seonghwa didn’t care about what was happening in the background, all he could hear was countless amounts of gunfire going off and that most of Dongmin’s men were lying dead on the ground and that Dongmin himself was writhing in pain from an inflicted gun wound.

“I got the guys to help us but we have to keep moving Seonghwa, Yeosang is heading to the surgery room now!” Hongjoong shouted, ushering Seonghwa to bring you to safety.

Not wasting any more time, Seonghwa carries you bridal style to run as fast as he can towards the emergency surgery room he has in his underground base.

Your eyes are barely open but you can make out Seonghwa clearly, “You…you know that I love you right?”

Seonghwa looks down at you, tears already falling down his cheeks and yet even now you don’t seem to be scared by putting a soft-hearted smile on your face to seemingly comfort him in a way. “I know you do and so do I. I want you to remember that okay? Just hold on a little longer, we're almost there.” Seonghwa tries to reciprocate the genuine smile you have but all it does is leave him looking bittersweet. You nod slightly after mustering the energy you can before you black out.

Seonghwa ran even faster and soon made it to the surgery room, quickly placing your body down on the operating table, “Hyung, I know you want to stay but please just wait outside while I operate. Please.” Yeosang ushered. Seonghwa held onto your hand tightly but with Hongjoong dragging him out, he had no choice but to let go.

Outside of the operating theatre Seonghwa sat down on one of the seats and looked at his clothes and hands, all of which were stained by your blood. He sat there not moving an inch for hours on end, not even bothering to change out of his stained clothes even if they had started to dry. All he wanted was for you to come out alive. Seonghwa was never the type of person to believe in God, but he was praying for the first time in his life.

“God, if you're out there please make sure y/n will make it through this. Even if it means exchanging my life for hers, I’d do anything. Please.” He muttered under his breath, hands clasped together and eyes closed.

Several more hours pass and Seonghwa became more restless and then suddenly Yeosang walks out of the operating room. Seonghwa immediately rushes towards Yeosang, “She’s fine now but if you were any later, I don’t know if she could have survived. She lost a lot of blood.”

Seonghwa let out a sigh of relief and hugged Yeosang, “Thank you, thank you.”

“Yunho’s inside cleaning up but if you want, you can go inside and see her. I know you want to.” Yeosang gives Seonghwa a pat on his shoulder and walks off with Hongjoong trailing behind him, knowing that Seonghwa would want to spend every single minute he can with you now. Without hesitation, Seonghwa makes his way towards you.

As he looks at you he starts to get emotional as he caresses your cheek, a tear falling down and landing on your face.

“I love you and I'm sorry.” Seonghwa places a kiss on your forehead, glad to know that you’ll be able to wake up soon but guilty that he couldn't protect you like he promised, making you suffer.

After Yunho took you to the recovery room, Seonghwa knew what he had to do. To kill that bastard once and for all because no one messes with Park Seonghwa and his most precious treasure in the whole world. You.

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beauty-and-passion · 1 year

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Eurovision 2023: more about the true winner because I said so

Hey, guess who is not over Eurovision 2023 yet.

It’s me, I am who.

I have never been so invested and still so obsessed over this year’s Eurovision. I mean, I am always hit by the post-depressive phase of Eurovision, but that lasts a couple days - during which I usually go through all the beautiful moments and listen to all the songs on repeat - then I’m back to my regular schedule of stupidly long analyses and fanfictions.

(By the way, sorry for all the Americans who follow me and have no idea of what I’m talking about or what happened in this year’s Eurovision. Just bear with me, I will come back to posting Sanders Sides stuff. Just not today)

This year... well, this year was truly something. And if the last year and the one before I was like “aww, what beautiful moments, I miss seeing these people having fun”, now it’s all mushed into one ball of feelings. I look at those artists having fun with the eyes of someone who saw how things went down. I look at them celebrating the true winner after the finale and I have this strange mix of nostalgia and heaviness.

I am not mad anymore for the result. Or better: I am and I will always be because 200 people stepped over the will of millions. But what this loss caused is just so fascinating and so unique, I want to keep exploring it - and maybe talking a little bit more about the true winner of Eurovision 2023 will help me process my feelings too.

Or I just will satisfy my need to ramble more about this incredible Finnish man, either way.

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The sheer power of charisma

When you watch the entirety of Käärijä’s journey on this Youtube channel (and I suggest you do it, because it gives you a lot of food for thought), you notice a lot of interesting details.

From the moment he won the national competition and knew he had to go to Eurovision, Käärijä knew his only rival would’ve been Loreen. He said right from the start that it would’ve ended up with a confrontation between Sweden and Finland. He liked other songs and thought they could’ve been good opponents - but it’s pretty clear he knew the only one who could’ve opposed him was Sweden.

And he knew that Loreen was good. Even though I do not like her songs, even I have to admit she has good vocals. Sure, the vocals are the only thing I understand because she mumbles the rest of the song, but the vocals aren’t bad.

Käärijä knew she was the favorite to win. He praised her performance and called her “queen”, so he has been the first one to recognize her as a worthy opponent. He wasn’t so naive to think “I can easily beat her”.

However, he had some tricks up his sleeves. He knew his song was perfect for Eurovision, he basically designed it for that. He knew his performance would’ve got people’s attention. And he knew he had a lot of charisma.

You can say anything you want about him, but you cannot deny this man is charismatic. And this is a lot interesting, because charisma doesn’t have an exact definition and it’s not the same for everyone. And yet, we can all recognize and identify it as “charisma” when we see it.

The definition Wikipedia offers is that charisma is “a personal quality of presence or charm that compels its subjects”. And it’s undeniable that Käärijä has it. He has that genuine, simple honesty we see in childrens only and this activates our protective instincts, because we feel the need to protect him too. He is funny and makes us smile and everyone loves to smile and have fun. He is simple and humble and that makes him look more approachable and friendly than a superstar.

And his presence on stage is very, very good. He’s eye-catching and he knew it very well. He was the flashiest and the most interesting to look at - both because of his clothes and his appearance. Just compare him to the Cyprus guy: I don’t even remember the Cyprus guy’s face, but I doubt I will ever forget that iconic neon green bolero.

And I am sure he knew that very well. He knew the public would’ve loved him. He knew he would’ve gotten a lot of points because of the public. He knew he would’ve connected with them and not with the jury.

And so it was. The numbers are clear: he was and still is the public’s favorite. His result is the second highest in history right after Kalush Orchestra’s. The entire arena sang with him. During the voting portion, they kept calling his name. Everyone called him “winner”. As the Estonian singer Alika told him: “you had the public when they announced Loreen won”.

And by knowing that, I can understand why he was so bummed. He literally had everything: the perfect song, the charisma, public’s support. And I am pretty sure that, if the public gave more points to Loreen, he would’ve accepted his defeat easier.

But it wasn’t like that: he got more points than her in both the semifinal and the final. He has always been the public’s winner, right from the start. And even if he would've gotten the theoretical maximum of public votes from Europe (432), he still would've ended up behind Sweden.

Losing because 222 people gave your opponent an unbeatable lead isn’t something easy to digest. I mean, it’s been days and I haven’t digested it yet! And I am definitely not a singer, nor I did take part in the competition. However, I voted for him and, well, I am quite pissed that my money got wasted because of a stupid unfair system. The EBU should really refund everyone who tried to vote, considering there was no way to defeat the sheer power of the jury.

So, well, the competition ended with the public’s favorite losing the piece of glass. I will get over it, everyone will get over it. Käärijä himself will get over it - now he’s still rightfully sad about it, but as he said, life goes on.

And he will soon realize that losing the competition turned him into something more than a simple winner.

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The birth of a legend

If Käärijä won, he would’ve been just the winner of Eurovision 2023. People would’ve loved him like they love Kalush Orchestra or Maneskin. Everyone would’ve been happy, a little bit of post-Eurovision depression as always and we would’ve forgotten it.

But losing had an even bigger impact, because Käärijä didn’t step down to second place, but over the first place. Being so spectacularly wronged in front of the world made him ascend to the status of legend and the public went crazy for him. Cha Cha Cha reached the top of Spotify's top 50 global, people from all European countries called him “the true winner” and I’ve seen more than one American, who knew nothing about Eurovision, watch his performance and protest for the result as well.

Even Tumblr was affected by this: the tag Eurovision trended for 3 days after its ending and, after it stopped trending, Käärijä kept doing it for days. And he’s still doing it, so good job people, let’s keep the party going on for a little longer: we all deserve it, after all. You know, as a little FUCK YOU to the jury.

What about Youtube? His grand final performance reached ca. 9 mln views in three days and if you check the comment section, is full of people calling him the true winner as well.

Heck, the Eurovision channel made a video specifically about his journey, like the usually do for winners only (in fact, they did one for Loreen. And Käärijä’s video got more views than Loreen’s in one single day).

And all over Europe people are still protesting and asking for the voting system to change. The Norway delegation asked it first and I fully support them, because they are constantly robbed by the jury. I liked Duncan Lawrence’s Arcade in 2019, but KEiiNO was a completely different level. (And if you loved KEiiNO too, please check their Youtube channel because they have made a lot of other songs and OH MY GOSH THEY ARE ALL GREAT)

Käärijä united Europe with his music and his energy and I understand why Finnish people are so proud of him: there are very few artists who are able to connect people so well. And he did it by using his mother tongue, not English! That’s an even bigger win imho, because it proves that if you have a great song, a strong performance and incredible charisma, people will appreciate you and go past the language barrier without any problem.

That’s why humankind loves music, after all: because it doesn’t need to be understood word by word, to reach people’s hearts.

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The hero’s journey

There are many reasons why people fell in love with this funky green man and they all differ: someone loves his bubbly personality, others were touched by his genuinity, others just fell on the ground laughing and who doesn’t love someone that makes you laugh? And yes, there are some who are just horny for him and you are valid too, because he’s a good-looking man.

However, I think that the main reason why so many people got so invested, it’s because he had the perfect hero’s journey.

He already had a story perfect for a movie, even before starting Eurovision: when he was younger, he was diagnosed with colitis ulcerosa and the disease almost took his life (this post has an interview with all details). But because of that experience, he realized life is short and he should’ve pursued what he truly wanted - i.e. singing. I mean, this alone is perfect material for a movie already.

But now he got another story, and it’s even more like a movie: the story of the young man no one knew, who left his city in his small country, to reach the big European stage. A man with a funny spirit, who connected with everyone despite his broken English - and he wonderfully improved it along the way. Just look at how much more confident he became! Truly a masterful example of how we should just talk and make mistakes, in order to get better in another language.

So we followed the adventures of this funny man and of the friends he made along the way. We had fun and cried for the beauty of his friendship with Bojan (he literally called Käärijä “my new brother” and a small part of my heart that was broken got immediately healed). We got involved in his climbing to the top, we saw him face the behemoth that was opposing him and hoped for him to overcome it.

And he got the tragic conclusion of a hero’s journey: a hero who won and yet still lost.

People love this shit. We have always loved the story of the little one against the unbeatable enemy, the nobody who got the recognition he deserves, the kind heart defeated by the corrupt system. Those are all things that touch people and all aspects of the hero’s journey. And people naturally hope for a happy ending, so if we get a sad, bad or unfair one instead, we tend to feel even more empathetic towards the protagonist. And if your protagonist is as lovable as he is, the feeling is 100x stronger.

I really don’t know if the national juries expected this to happen, when they knew who the public’s favourite was and yet decided to award a different artist. But by doing that, they became the perfect enemy to close Käärijä’s journey and build a legend.

So, well, thanks for sucking so much. You built the legend you didn’t want to.

And yes, Käärijä’s enemy IS NOT Loreen. Loreen did her thing, she didn’t bribe the judges to give her votes. The problem is the jury’s power. So, for all the people who are still harrassing her: please stop hating this woman, she just did what other artists did too.

And since we’re talking about her, please stop saying shit like “She shouldn’t have participated!” too, because this is both very stupid (everyone is allowed to participate in Eurovision) and very disrespectful towards Käärijä himself. It’s a bit like saying that sure, he was good, but, like, you know, not enough good.

And this is totally wrong because this man has been able to defeat Loreen twice, both during the semifinal and the final (at least according to the votes that matter). So stop undermining his ability: he is a good artist. Actually, an artist so good only Loreen was able to compete against him.

And if you still think it’s right to hate Loreen for whatever reason, then I would like to bring this to your attention:

The king literally proposed to Loreen. And, considering how accurate was his foresight about the whole competition, I think it’s time we start to think about when it will happen and how many children they will have.

So if you are still harassing her: stop protesting for the piece of glass and ask her when will they get married, instead. We need to know.

Also, wouldn’t that be an even more perfect ending for Käärijä’s hero’s journey? Not only the great evil (aka the jury) will be defeated, but he will marry the only woman strong enough to oppose him. 100/10 I want a movie now.

And yes, I know Käärijä also proposed to Bojan and they are fathers of a baby sea lion. But what’s the problem? Doesn’t Käärijä have two hands? With one hand can hold Bojan, with the other Loreen, duh.

(Then he will probably need another hand for Selena from Austria, because I think she developed a little crush on him but hey, that’s the life of a hero I guess.)

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Have you listened to his other songs yet?

I just want to confirm they are bops and you should listen to them immediately. Also, do not forget his concert on Saturday that will be available worldwide. Let’s show love to the king.

And yes, that means another post will come out. I mean, there are still so many things we need to know! I want to see the photos of that mural people are doing for him in Vantaa, I want to see the music collaboration between him and Bojan, I want to see them visiting little Edgar at the zoo. And I can’t wait to hear about his future European tour, because he has to do one. And maybe that will fully convey him how big his impact has been indeed.

As people told him in the after party, he conquered the world. Now he just needs to see it for himself.

#eurovision #eurovision 2023 #esc #esc 2023 #finland #jere from vantaa will go very far #good job finland #everyone loves you #and you don't even have to spend money to host the show #also you will be forever linked to the legend #just like ukraine #and that's another huge privilege #käärijä

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I have literally just spent the last few days going through all of the twst supervillain au posts. ALL OF THEM.

It’s not 3 am here for like the third night in a row what are you talking about

I have so many thoughts and could ask so many questions but I am limiting myself for now because spamming is bad! No spamming, me! 😂

SO we got the event of Azul and the twins finding out that Yuu is the child of Crowley. And we got that little snippet saying Yuu wanted Azul to help them tell the other villains so they could just get it out of the way because they were tired of having it hang over their head.

BUT WE NEVER ACTUALLY GOT THOSE SCENES/THAT SCENE!

I wanna know how that wentttttt!!!! What happened?!?! How did it go??? Did Yuu tell them one on one? Or did they sit them all down together? How did each of them react to the news? I feel like it would have to be one on one because telling them altogether would be a recipe for a LOT of emotions all mixed together to create a volatile bomb.

Pleaseeeeee I wanna knowwwwwww!!! Please gift me us with your words of wonder oh supervillain AU writing deity!!!!!!

(Also I just wanted to say back when you were giving out names to everyone my first thought for a name for Kalim was just ‘Minion’ because you compared Jamil and Kalim to Megamind and Minion and I was like “that would be a total Jamil thing to do - just call Kalim ‘Minion’ because he was tired of Kalim getting all the attention in their civilian lives and this was supposed to be about JAMIL DANGIT so even though Kalim invited himself along he doesn’t get a cool name he just gets ‘Minion’ and Kalim would unironically love it. But then you named him Water Boy and that has the same energy lmao 😂)

Thank you so much for enjoying the supervillain AU so far!!

(Make sure you get some sleep though!! It’s important to try and maintain a regular sleep schedule!!)

And basically the answer to your question is that Yuu called a quasi-truce of sorts to sit down all the supervillains to deliver the news. Both because it was the easiest way to avoid the accusations of favoritism that would arise if the reporter went around one at a time, and ensured they’d only need to go through the whole thing once.

Of course, the other six supervillains are only willing to humor this because it’s Yuu that called it. They may have all brought their most trusted aides along with certain, ah, “safety measures” just in case anyone else tries anything, but even these are pretty tame compared to their usual fare. It’s a silent agreement that everyone is on their best behavior in front of their host.

Even if they’re a bit disgruntled by the fact that this meeting is being held in the second Monstro Lounge location, and Leviathan and the Leech twins are flitting around Yuu like a particularly jealous school of fish.

Worse, the reporter isn’t even telling them to stop.

And then Yuu finally comes out with what they want to say and—

Oh.

Oh, now the other supervillains can understand Azul’s protective impulses.

Vil and Idia are having the hardest time processing it and have the most questions, all told. Their mental image of Crowley and their mental image of Yuu are so different after all, it’s a struggle not to ask, “but has there actually been a paternity test and are we sure this isn’t just one of the world’s most depraved lies?”

In fairness, Crowley has done nothing to disabuse them of the notion that this isn’t the exact kind of behavior he would sink to if mildly inconvenienced.

Of all of them, Malleus and Riddle are probably taking it the best. After all, they both know what it’s like being the prized heirs of people who cannot afford to let them shirk their duties. Either because the well being of others’ depends on them taking up that mantle, or their parent’s pride.

Either way, they’ll support Yuu’s search for freedom from their villainous father’s legacy, by taking up the mantle of head of Night Raven themselves if need be.

Please give Leona and Jamil two to five minutes to reboot. Both have partially blue-screened at the motifs of being cast aside and the inesacabilty of family bloodline inherent in Yuu’s backstory. Once they’re back to normal, they’ll be some of Yuu’s staunchest defenders, but give them forty eight hours to process first.

Maybe eighty two.

After Yuu’s answered almost all the questions, Ace butts in, “So, you kept sticking your nose in ‘cause you wanted to get kidnapped?”

Yuu shrugs, “Not, not wanted? But it was a bit less nerve wracking if I knew I’d done something to merit being there, so to speak. Made it less likely that it was because you’d worked out my heritage.”

The other villains and minions nod, satisfied.

But Deuce pipes up with a worried frown curving his brow.

“So, does this mean you won’t be investigating our schemes anymore?”

A hush spreads through the room. All eyes are fixed on the reporter, waiting for their response with bated breath.

Yuu grins, a gloriously competitive spark in their eyes. “Oh, you wish.”

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Since I wrote an analysis looking into Bill's view of and relationship with Ford a while ago, I thought I'd do the same with Bill and Mabel, especially since the other analysis is partially supported with points about those two.

Comparing these posts, while the one about Bill and Ford is like "I believe Ford is very important to Bill and here's why", this one's more the reverse, as in "it's confirmed that Bill is fond of Mabel and I'm gonna look at their interactions and relevant episodes through that lense"

Bringing up the points of confirmation first, "Dipper's and Mabel's Guide to Mystery and Nonstop Fun" has Bill bringing up that he likes Mabel

and in the DVD commentary for Sock Opera, Alex Hirsch says the following:

“Bill genuinely believes that Mabel’s kinda like him. He sees Mabel as a chaos agent. Like, Mabel has got a little bit of a seed of anarchy in her, she’s a little bit selfish, she likes to have fun at whatever cost. And Bill is all those things times a billion. So he thinks when he lays it all out for her like: ‘How about instead of being lame, you do something fun! And crush whoever you want in the process!’. He thinks that’s gonna go over. And he’s not wrong in seeing that side in Mabel but Mabel is a better person than Bill Cipher.”

Which are just really interesting to me, especially since the show doesn't make it very obvious that Bill has this view on Mabel. But it certainly does put their dynamic into a new perspective.

For instance, there's the scene in Sock Opera where Bill tries to convince Dipper to make a deal with him by "calling out" Mabel:

which I'm tempted to compare to the bit in Journal 3 where Ford mentions that Bill "warned" him that Fiddleford may not be dedicated to the portal project.

To be exact there's two ways I'd compare these interactions. For one, in both cases Bill is putting a wedge between two people via manipulation to further his own goals. Second, you could argue that Bill himself genuinely believes what he's saying here.

I mean, this is the episode with the commentary basically telling us that Bill believes Mabel to be as selfish as himself. The examples he gives Dipper of the so-called sacrifices he made for Mabel aren't even that strong? One is Dipper just rescuing Mabel, one is Dipper fixing a situation that he messed with in the first place and caused Mabel to loose something, and the one where he did make a sacrifice but just so Mabel can help a third party, rather than for her own personal interest.

But of course Bill would view these as sacrifices that Mabel would owe Dipper for. Bill wouldn't give anything up for someone else if he's not getting something out of it.

As for the Ford and Fiddleford situation, if you haven't read my other post my thoughts on Bill's views on Ford basically boil down to "Bill defenetly started out bullshitting Ford when he told him he was special and they were friends, but these feelings became genuine".

And while you can make a strong case that it hasn't gotten to that point until shortly after the betrayal, considering Bill was gloating when Ford confronted him, I still want to put the idea out there that Bill started to believe Ford was actually outstanding and Bill may be able to let him in on his full intentions eventually while Fiddleford had far less potential to go through with everything.

But anyway all this really goes back to Bill possibly genuinely thinking Mabel "owed" Dipper something (because helping someone and expecting something in return is something he would do) and using that to manipulate Dipper, and him also thinking Mabel was seizing the opportunity all those times without ever returning anything to Dipper and as a result starting to see himself in her because that is something he would do.

But the reality is that while every party has to put effort into a relationship, relationships aren't transactional and Mabel wouldn't leave Dipper in the dust when it comes down to it, which this episode builds up to.

Now, I do want to say here that Sock Opera is about addressing Mabel's selfishness and that she was in the wrong here, but do not take this as me hating her or anything. Mabel is a twelve and will make poor choices in her own interest sometimes. And the point of comparing her selfishness to Bill's is that she's willing to own up to it and clearly has her limits because she cares about other people whereas Bill doesn't own up to anything and has no concern about how his actions affect anyone else.

Also, assuming Bill did take a liking to Mabel at this point, I think it's intruiging to think about the above dialouge as Bill wanting to "help" Mabel. To convince her to ditch Dipper in favor of her own self-interest because it'll be freeing. Because Bill's own reckless, selfish choices have only made him feel less restricted and absolutely never ever caused him any regret at all.

Well anyway let's skip forwards to Weirdmageddon.

The build-up towards Weirdmageddon concerning Mabel comes with her gaining more and more reason to be afraid of the future and the struggles that she expects to come with it until everything just boils over and Bill manipulates her into handing him the rift by posing as Blendin and promising to let her have a bit more time in Gravity Falls. And, in a way, he keeps that promise.

Despite Mabel and Bill not at all interacting between the rift breaking and the climax of the finale, I think the whole Mabel Land situation is sooo interesting in terms of showcasing the ways Mabel and Bill are similar but yet so different.

Now, the section of the Axolotl poem I put just a bit above in this post carries some very intruiging implications with it. Like you're telling me Bill regrets burning his dimension yet frames it as a positive thing and even plans to do it again with another dimension? And despite his silly jokester demeanor he's actually unhappy?

Perhaps being afraid of acknowledging his mistake and growing past it and accepting that life will always come with difficulties?

being so very deep in denial about it and his own feelings about it?

and drowning all that out by reveling in the chaos of the Nightmare Realm and throwing parties even though none of that will really be fulfilling?

You can also probably say something about how both Mabel Land and the Nightmare Realm are pictured as literal bubbles.

and how Bill thought it was basically impossible to escape Mabel Land and was pretty confident in that to the point where he seemed to just stop paying attention to it and not notice it bursting despite it being placed in the most notable location in the town, near the Fearamid.

And to go back to "despite their similarities, Mabel and Bill are very different", part of the reason Mabel escapes her literal and metaphorical bubble and Bill doesn't is because she has a support system. Mabel has people who look out and care for her because she has looked out and cared for them.

Bill on the other hand? His relationship with the Henchmaniacs doesn't go much deeper than party buddies who are also his lackeys who are also his punching bags if he's upset.

And while he's shown to be willing to be vulnerable with Ford, he's still way too deep in his own denial to open up a wound that deep, on top of Ford having every reason in the world to want to have nothing to do with Bill. The man has tried to kill him several times and was entirely justified in that.

Moving on to a point that's more about Bill being fond of Mabel rather than similarities and that I also brought up about Ford, the fact that Bill spares their lives during Weirdmageddon.

Like, the Bipper note and Bill telling his henchmen they can go eat Dipper tells me he's very much down to kill anyone who's a threat to him. And once you take the Quantum Destabilizer out of the picture, the only apparent threat is the zodiac wheel. Meaning every member of the zodiac has a target on their back.

Note that the only zodiacs Bill has contact with during Weirdmageddon, prior to the climax, are Dipper, Ford, Mabel and Gideon.

Dipper, again, he attempted to get killed even before Weirdmageddon. Gideon temporarily served as his henchman as part of a deal and was possibly only kept alive afterwards for the sake of being punshed.

Mabel and Ford meanwhile? Got their lives spared for no apparent reason other than Bill simply wanted to.

I guess you can argue that the whole Mabel Land business was part of the deal with Gideon but I always assumed the deal was just for Bill to break him out and put him in a good place during the apocalypse, plus Gideon didn't seem to care much about Mabel's well-being at this point. Still, it does help Bill if he can hold Mabel in front of Gideon but I do like to think he also spared her just out of having grown a liking to her.

The more it strikes me then that the scene at the start of Weirdmageddon where Bill could've easily taken out Mabel but just snapped her unconscious instead,

seems to mirror the scene near the end of Weirdmageddon where he's about to snap out her life.

This and Bill seemingly being done with Ford at this point as well almost feels like Bill is dissapointed by the fact that Mabel and Ford both proved to be more different from him than he thought - Mabel by getting out of the manifestation of escapism and Ford by refusing to accept Bill's offer no matter what - and lashed out at them for it.

#this feels more rambley than the ford and bill post I hope it still makes sense i just have a lot of thoughts okay #gf #bill tag #mabel tag #gravity falls #bill cipher

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the thought recently came to my mind and stayed there since so I really need to share it with someone. do you think in case jgy and/or nmj get resurrected/reborn with their memories intact post-canon, they would hold some kind of resentment towards lxc? for jgy, I think it's pretty in-character for him to disregard his part in ruining lxc's trust and lying and inadvertently using him in killing nmj, and simply be upset with the stabbing. and for nmj it's too pretty obvious of a moment of 'I told you so!', and lxc not listening to his warnings eventually got him killed. on the other hand, lxc has plenty of time to reflect on everything that has happened, and I doubt fierce corpses have any sense of time and space in order to process everything. I've just never seen this aspect in any of the post-canon fix-its I've read

Oh yay I love getting anons! I hope it’s ok if I tl;dr disagree with some of these ideas and give you my own :’) Let me start with: jgy and nmj at the end of the story are non-sentient fierce corpses (or, in jgy’s case, just a corpse that has not turned yet) so there won’t be any talking or processing anything at all. So, let us assume they are brought back in the exact same mental state they were at when they died.

I’m no NMJ scholar, mind you, but - while I think he would absolutely be angry when he comes back, I also think he would not be justified in being angry. Certainly not at LXC! He’d likely be mad at LXC, JGY, NHS, and basically everyone but himself... but he is at least partially responsible for the situation that led to his own death. (Remember, he tried to kill JGY three times before JGY retaliated, and he never once stopped pressuring him to go against his father, which JGY genuinely could not do without being exiled or worse.) JGY would likely not have killed him had he not become a threat to his life first. Would NMJ still tell LXC “I told you so”? Probably. But LXC is absolutely not responsible for his death in any way, and absolutely does not deserve that anger. NMJ’s warnings that JGY would “be a danger to the world” were unfounded paranoia, entirely unrelated to the reasons for his eventual murder. Whether NMJ comes to term with that fact, though, I don’t really know. I have a rather uncharitable view of his canonical beliefs and his way of handling just about any situation that involved JGY, so... unless death changes him as a person, I am skeptical. Now for the xiyao part of the deal (you asked me, you had to be expecting this to be mainly about xiyao!)

I have given this one some thought previously, contemplating various postcanon AUs and things I wanted to write. I think it could go both ways... JGY would be justified in being angry with Lan Xichen, that is what his epic final speech seems to imply - he has always protected LXC (from hurt, from involvement, from horrible truths) and in return, he gets stabbed! But canonically we know that, even at his angriest, he still pushed LXC away to save his life. So was he still angry at him? Would he be angry at him after he comes back? Of course it’s complicated, but I’m leaning towards no. Especially when he knows that Huaisang tricked LXC, and he knows it was likely the accumulation of his revealed deeds that had shaken LXC’s faith in the first place. I think eventually he’d blame himself for it, rather than Lan Xichen.

There is a quote that stuck with me from one of the very first fics I read in this fandom years ago, from JGY to LXC;

“I forgive you,” he says roughly. “I forgave you before I was even dead[...]”

(from Grief Negotiations by Nomette)

I think, ultimately, that’s how I see it. Whether LXC forgives himself, that’s another story entirely.

#long post #jgy apologism #xiyao #little bit anyway #ask box #shhh shiome #fic rec

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azure0112 · 10 months

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a tip to help with your manifesting process.

this tip is basically for those who wish to find new ways of formatting their affirmations.

[note: as far as my knowledge goes, it can help to people who may use law of detachment, law of assumption, and law of attraction.]

now to the point:

look around you. observe what you see.

maybe you see a pen, maybe a door, a window, literally anything.

now, start thinking about any of the objects that are in your current surrounding, any generic object which has maybe always been there, but never caught your eye.

now observe the way you frame your thoughts about it. if, say, theres a stack of sticky notes in front of me, i may think like below about the sticky notes:

what about those sticky notes..? i never really paid any attention to it, its always been there.

i had these sticky notes since (insert any date)

i always use/see my sticky notes lying on my desk like.. everyday.

and so on.

now, if you follow law of assumption (or basically affirm to get your manifestations) you may realise that:

the way you just thought about that object is similar or even identical to how we affirm when we want something, and is also usually the same way people online suggest affirming-- by making it sound like you ALWAYS had it.

so, what can we do? we can maybe replace our regular affirmation format with the format we used when we thought about this object!

the logic behind this?

well, you just affirmed for something that has already materialised in your 3D. and the process of law of assumption involves the exact same thing: affirming that what we want has already materialised.

so basically you can use the thought process you just had as a template for your affirmations. it's likely to work better, because you literally just proof-tested it by using these affirmations on something that has already been materialised.

if you follow law of detachment, this can be useful in again framing your thoughts surrounding your desire in such a way that you make it sound like its normal and regular to you.

as for law of attraction, you can replicate theo same vibration you may have felt during the process of thinking of the object when you wish to manifest your desires.

sorry if this was too long 😭 i wanted to talk about it in detail so that its easy for you to understand. and this is also my original idea (as far as my knowledge goes, please do correct me if someone else already discussed this idea)

and that concludes this post!

happy manifesting :)

#law of attraction #law of the universe #manifestation #loa #affirmdaily #affirm and persist #self concept #neville goddard #subliminals #affirmyourreality #affirmyourself #life affirming #manifesting

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crowfromfoggyforest · 7 months

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Maybe it's because the whole fandom has been busy crying over the ending of season 2, or maybe i'm just dumb or it doesn't mean anything, but i haven't seen anyone talk about this yet. (Also sorry i couldn't find a better photo lol)

So Before The Beginning™, Crowley creates a part of the universe with a tool that is usually used to start old cars (idk what it's called). I wouldn't have realized that's what it is if a thing like this hadn't appeared in season 1 - where it was basically the only thing Crowley had left of his Bentley, and he held it in his hand like a weapon to face Armageddon. Also, angel Crowley refers to what he does with this thing as "priming the engine". So... creating the universe, at least for Crowley, is like starting a car.

I'm not sure what my point is. I just think it's interesting because Crowley ends up liking cars, or at least developping a bond with his Bentley. Maybe... the process of priming it reminds him of the Beginning? Maybe an old car is like a mini universe for him?? I know that sounds weird. But for how many years has he had this exact car now? Like the universe, he doesn't want it to be destroyed just because that's what other people think is best (newer cars being invented - God's Great plan). It's still beautiful, he loves it, and it deserves to keep existing.

Idk if any of this makes sense. But this parallel has to have a meaning.

Also - i just thought of this while writing this post -, maybe Crowley was involved in the invention of this kind of car? Maybe he wanted it to work like that??

#the brainrot is real #i hope this makes sense #good omens #good omens season 2 #crowley #angel crowley #analysis #theory #headcanon #good omens brainrot #go2e1 #good omens s2

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rickie-the-storyteller · 3 months

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“Notice Me, Reader!” Tag Game

Thank you very much for the tag, @mysticstarlightduck!

Rules: Share 3 (or more!) small details from your WIP that you feel have gone/will go unnoticed. (You can choose whether or not to share why the detail is significant!)

Here's some for the Steph adventures:

I’ve actually been meaning to write a detailed post about this, but Stephanie and Bret mirror each other in a lot of ways. They’re both pretty traumatised and flawed, they both crave attention and connection to a certain degree, hating the feeling of loneliness, and they both have a capacity for being quite selfish, impulsive and hedonistic (as well as being major fans of instant gratification). This is partially why their affair storyline is so significant and impactful the more you think about it (and to think, it almost wasn’t going to happen…). An example of their connection that often goes unnoticed is that their dialogue has a bit of a parallel… in the beginning of book one, Bret says something along the lines of “Grades don’t actually mean anything in the real world when you think about it.” This was back when he hated school, before his whole self growth arc and wanting to change his life for the better. And towards the end, Stephanie basically says that same exact thing, almost word for word (despite disagreeing with Bret at the start of the story). It was in the context of her and Ben contemplating leaving the country together right before sitting her final exams. There are other small examples of parallels between their two arcs and thought processes in the story, too… many of which actually existed before I even wrote their affair storyline. Perhaps it was always meant to be lol.

I tried to write my characters in a way where you can kind of tell which parent they take after more. This is one of the reasons why I have the parents and family members be such a prominent part of the story - big part of who you are stems from your environment, and this includes the people you are surrounded by. It also adds a bit of mystery to our main protagonist… Stephanie doesn’t know her parents, so we don’t know why she is the way she is (like, we even know why Bret is the way he is, despite the fact that his parents are no longer around. He remembers his parents and we get a strong sense of what they were like, and this is something we don't get with Steph). A big example of this is Elise and Adam. Elise takes after both Maggie and Paul (maybe Paul a little more than Maggie) - she shares her mother’s drive and determination (comes in handy when you’re a lawyer), and her father’s empathy and intuition (comes in handy when you’re a therapist). Adam takes after Maggie, as well as his grandmother to an extent, in terms of his natural creativity (he has a heart of gold, but he is also very stubborn and prefers to do things his way. Whenever he gets pushback, he fights harder in the opposite direction. Very much like his mother… not that Maggie would ever admit that. Good thing both of them grew out of it somewhat after becoming parents! And by that, I mean she was much worse when she was Adam’s age lol). There are other examples of this in the story, but this one’s my favourite.

I got a fair amount of inspiration from the shows I mentioned in my intro post lol (plus Gossip Girl, which wasn’t included in the post. That's where I got the secret blogger idea from. Speaking of... I was meant to reveal that to you guys ages ago. Sorry about the delay lol. Saving that for a proper future post alongside the Bretanie analysis). Especially Bojack Horseman. I don’t know if I want to elaborate on this point… I think it’s more effective if you check out the shows for yourself, and see what I mean that way. But to give a vague little example of what I mean… Stephanie is sort of in and out of the crew’s lives, and whenever she’s not around, the others tend to thrive and live relatively peaceful, normal lives. In many ways, she’s the root of a lot of their drama. She does a lot of crazy things that cause damage to a lot of people, and she wrecks a lot of her relationships beyond repair. And throughout the course of the trilogy, the main crew members often find themselves wondering whether they should stay loyal to their friend, set some boundaries with her, or cut ties and separate themselves from her completely. Kind of like in a certain show (Bojack). They all take different approaches to this, each saying a lot about them as characters (Elise, for example, decides to cut Stephanie off. May seem out of character at first, but then you remember that this is after ages and ages of being patient and understanding with Steph… as well as everyone else who has hurt her immensely in her life. That makes her choice to end her friendship with Stephanie a little more understandable… she reached her last straw in book two), but they’re all better off once they reevaluate their relationships with one another.

I didn't mean to write so much... but what can you do.

Hopefully this was interesting! This tag game is such a good idea. Inspires you to look deeper into the stories and pay attention to small but significant details.

Tagging these folks next: @gummybugg, @winterandwords, @jessicagailwrites, @dyrewrites, @harleyacoincidence, @exquisitecrow, @leisoree, @wmlittlemore-is-writing, @mjparkerwriting and @janec23.

#rickie-the-storyteller #tag game #writeblr tag game #notice me reader tag game

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Hi, you said we were allowed to ask random questions, so I wanted to get your take on this if it is ok. I have followed you for years at this point, and your creations are incredible! They inspire me so. I recall some time ago posting a.... reskin? Revamp? Of one of your DnD characters? I know most of your characters are not dnd nor should people use them in their own games, but if I am reading this correctly it means you yourself play or have at least played TTRPGs in the past. So, since you are welcoming questions, I thought it fair to ask an insanely creative person like you.

So I am in many DnD games right now, and most of them are very RP heavy. I find I can articulate myself well digitally when I can edit what I'm saying to make myself look thoughtful and knowledgeable. But when I RP verbally in the moment - particularly characters that have different thought patterns than I do- I flounder and words become difficult.

Suffice to say- how do you approach RP from a creator's stand point? Creating many different characters and making them unique from yourself but still compelling and competent? What is your thought process to RP?

If you do not feel comfortable answering this ask and that is perfectly fine- I realize this is coming out of left field but you did say you were bored and wanted asks, so I thought this line of questions was fair game. Regardless, I do wish to share how insanely creative and incredible I find your works. If you do not mind more questions in the future, I would love to ask a bit more of your inspirations and thought processes towards how you approach art, but instead I'll settle on my odd ask and hope I am not egregiously overstepping.

thanks for the question! bit of a long answer so i'll put it under a Read More.

i've actually played a couple of campaigns of dnd and blades in the dark (tho they were all over discord calls, and none of them ever concluded naturally), and i totally understand where you're coming from! tho i'll be honest, i haven't played ttrpgs in general in a good long while. i definitely had frustrations in my first ever couple of sessions of dnd (using a character i lovingly designed from scratch), and i think a lot of those pain points stemmed from me trying to force a narrative journey i already had in my head, pre-planned, that i imagined during the design phase for that character. but at the end of the day, dnd is improv, and if you're not used to that, your character's going to end up a little different than how you imagined, and that's ok! a session is always going to be a collaborative roleplaying space, where the party's stories as a group and as individuals are crafted gradually, over time, and some of the ideas you had for your character at the start-- their backstory, their personality, the way they talk and think-- are going to be constantly workshopped into something different, naturally, over the course of a campaign as you get more comfortable. i also find it's a lot easier to rp when you stop trying to inhabit The Exact Character That You Made With Love, and instead try to rp with their essence in mind instead. the most important thing for me when roleplaying is to understand the basics of my character-- whether they're nice or mean, outspoken or reserved, polite or straightforward, etc-- more than anything else. more practical, actionable advice is that it helps to ask yourself questions in your off time and try to answer them as best as you can, out loud and in-character. interview yourself as your character! what's their favorite fruit?

thanks for the question, and also the kind words about my art! i had typed a lot more than this out but i felt like it was mostly incoherent rambling. this might still qualify as that, actually. hope this helps in any way!

#words words words #asks #getshorked

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strawberrymilkgeorge · 2 years

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Part Twenty Two. Big Tweets and Bigger Questions.

warnings: cursing, p*ter, doxxing threats :/, word count: 5.2k (not including pictures)

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note: UHHH rememberit's been so long i'm so so sorry this took ages i hope it's worth it T-T this is the LAST CHAPTER !!! maybe maybe I'll do extras later but don't count on it bc we know how long THIS took. thank you guys for loving bugsy :(( and for being patient omg ENNJOYYYYYYYY

It was basically her worst nightmare. Y/n’s ex-boyfriend tended to find things out on his own so in hindsight, maybe she should have expected him to find out about her online career too. There was a reason she never told him or anyone in her real-life about what she did on the Internet. This exact reason.

“Hey, there you are. I thought you wanted to swim with everyone?”

Y/n heard Dream’s voice but couldn’t process his words, her eyes still staring at the unanswered texts she had received from her ex-boyfriend over the last few days.

“Bug?”

She blinked, looking up as she breathed deeply. “Did you say something?”

Dream frowned. “Are you okay?”

She just stared at him, brows furrowed softly and mouth open like she wanted to speak but couldn’t find the words. He stopped drying his hair with the towel and made his way towards her, crouching in front of her and looking up at her intently, his hands resting on her knees. “What happened?”

“Um…”

Dream’s eyes darted to the phone in her hands then back to her face, clearly seeing her distress and worry in the way her eyebrows pinched together and breathing was uneven.

“Y/n.”

“Have you ever had… well, okay, I know you have but like, so, okay–” she cut herself off with a huff when she noticed herself rambling and took a deep breath before continuing. The front door opened and she realized they were out where anyone could hear their conversation.

“Come here,” he mumbled, standing up and leading her outside to the back porch, opposite the house from the lake where most of their friends were playing. “What happened?”

Y/n took a breath and leaned against the railing, looking out at the view to avoid having to see his reaction. “I know people have threatened to dox you on Twitter and stuff like that all the time but have any of them been real threats? Like, I’m sure they’re all terrifying no matter what but I mean has anyone you know in real life ever threatened to expose you? Or have they all been internet trolls?”

When he didn’t respond, Y/n snuck a glance at him and was met with a deep frown, something close to panic in his eyes. “No, they’ve all been people who just want to get clout. What happened? Did that happen to you? Who is it?”

Y/n pulled out her phone and handed it to him, the screen open to Peter’s texts.

“Are you fucking kidding me?” Dream seethed under his breath before handing her phone back quickly.

“There’s plenty more of him begging for me back but the doxxing is a new threat.”

“You picked a really… tame name for his contact.”

“I only kept his number in case something like this happened.”

They both stood silently looking out into the backyard for a few moments. “Why is he only just now threatening you? Hasn’t he been trying to get you back for months?”

“Basically,” she sighed. “But I never told him about being Bugsy. He was never super into Twitch or YouTube or anything so it was easy to hide and I guess… in the back of my mind I always kinda assumed something like this would happen if he knew. Like we would break up and he’d take out his anger by trying to tell the world who I was before I was ready. So, I never told him. I guess he finally found out.”

“Fuck,” Dream whispered. “He has no credentials though, right? Like he’d probably have to make a Twitter account just to expose you and people would see he’s new and think it’s a burner account and no one would believe him… right?”

“Maybe, but what happens when I do post a face reveal and everyone sees he was telling the truth? They’d trust any insider information he has about me, which would all be complete bullshit lies.”

The frown never left Dream’s face, and he looked broken at Y/n’s predicament. She had seen him less bothered about his own threats before than he was about this.

“So, what are you going to do?”

“Beat him to it, I guess,” she decided. His face turned into one of surprise as she continued. “If he ever posts about me later on I can clarify that he’s an asshole ex so no one should listen to him, but at least he won’t have taken away my face reveal. I should get to decide how to do it. He’s already taken enough from me, he’s not taking away this too.”

“Can I please hug you?” Dream whispered quickly. “You can say no, but I really want to give you a hug.”

Y/n smiled and nodded, but didn’t move away from the handrail. Dream came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her as he pressed his chest to her back, resting his chin on her shoulder. When he kissed her shoulder softly, she rested her head against his and placed her hands on his arms as a sign that it was okay.

“I’m really sorry, Bug. I’m sorry he’s taken so much from you.”

“It’s okay,” she whispered sadly. “It will be.”

“Wanna face reveal together?” he asked half-jokingly, making her laugh.

“You want to get outshined?”

He chuckled and kissed her ear. “I wouldn’t mind if it was by you.”

“Cheesy.”

“You know I’m by your side, right? Whatever you do, I’ll help you and stick with you. I’ll even help pick out a cute picture to be your reveal if you’re just going to post it on Instagram or something.”

Y/n smiled and turned around in his embrace, back against the railing as she looked up at him. “You know you’re kinda stuck with me, right?” she countered. “I was already going to make you help me pick a picture.”

Dream smiled like he won the lottery, and somehow this conversation went from dreadful to exciting. Strange that that tended to be the case when Dream was involved; he somehow made everything a little more bearable. “I’m honored. But you look hot in every picture I’ve ever seen of you, so it’s going to be tough deciding on just one.”

“I can’t stand you.”

“Would you be able to stand me if I kissed you right now?”

“I love how this started as you about to cry because my ex-boyfriend wants to tell the world my name and face and it’s ending with you wanting to kiss me.”

“...Is that a no?”

“No, kiss me.”

He smiled and leaned down, placing his lips against hers gently, sweetly, for the briefest moment, before standing back up and cupping her face with one hand.

“The sooner I post, the better, right? Since he could probably do it any time?”

Dream stared at her lips while she talked but nodded. “Yeah, we probably should go do that now.”

Y/n nodded and leaned up to give him one more small kiss before dragging him back inside. “We’ll choose tonight and I’ll post it tomorrow morning. I don’t want to rush.”

“I did it,” Y/n whispered, opening Dream’s bedroom door and stepping inside quickly. He looked up from his book. “I couldn’t wait. Oh, god, I did it.” She posted her face reveal sooner than intended, hoping less of the world would be awake to see it, but as she refreshed her tweet, the numbers raced higher and higher. “Oh, god. What if that was a mistake?”

“It wasn’t,” Dream reassured quickly, opening his arms and welcoming her to sit with him, which she did immediately, both of them leaning against the headboard.

“Reply to my tweet so I don’t look like a loser,” she begged, making Dream laugh but comply. She buried her face in his shoulder and watched him reply to her tweet as if he wasn’t sitting right next to her. He set his phone on the nightstand and she followed, turning off the phone and burying her face in her hands.

“Hey, it was a good thing. Now, what’s-his-name can’t hold it over you. You’re one step closer to being free from him.”

“I feel like I’m never going to be free from him,” she admitted, her words muffled by her hands but Dream understood her clear as day.

“I know. I know how that feels, Bug, I really do. But I promise it gets better.”

She looked up at him and nodded. “I trust you. Part of me is so relieved that it’s over with but… I feel like shit knowing part of it was done because of him. I have wanted to face reveal for a while but he’s the reason I chose now. I hate it.”

“Hey, you did it because you wanted to. He just helped you pick a time.”

She sighed, frustrated and sad. Dream turned to her, crossing his legs so he could face her as he placed a hand on her knee. “You’re allowed to be mad at him, obviously. You were kinda forced to do it now, but why not focus on the positives of this situation? Don’t let him take up any more of your mind. Plus, you told everyone how someone threatened to doxx you, so if he starts trying to tell bullshit stories to make you look bad, once they know it’s him they’ll know he’s an asshole liar and won’t listen to him. It’ll all be okay.”

She nodded. “You’re right.” Dream waited to see if she was still panicking while she was lost in her thoughts. “Do you think people are responding well?”

He smiled. “Of course. They got to see how hot you are.”

“Shut up, simp.”

One thing she loved about Dream was that he was clearly whipped for her, and he wasn’t afraid to admit it. Every time she called him out for liking her, it only encouraged his behavior more and she would notice him staring at her more intently, more lovingly.

It made it hard to not want to kiss him all the time.

“Thank you,” she said softly into the night air, shoulder pressing into Dream’s as they sat side by side.

He turned to look at her. “For what?”

“Being there for me. You’re kinda cool.”

He laughed through his nose. “Has anyone ever told you you can be kinda emotionally constipated sometimes?”

She laughed and nodded. “Occasionally.”

“Unluckily for you, I’m not, and I feel like being sappy right now because I’m so proud of you.”

“Oh, please don’t–”

“You are very kind and seem to always know how to brighten people’s moods without even realizing it. You make me smile when you talk to me about literally anything. Like, the other day you asked me what kind of pizza I wanted and I swear my heart skipped four damn beats.”

“Why are you being like this out of nowhere?” Y/n laughed but he wasn’t done.

“Get used to it. You are so sweet and every time I think I’m used to it, you go and do something even sweeter. Like you bought all those stupid little, oh what are they called? The things you flip and they pop up?”

“Poppers? That’s what I’ve always called them.”

“Yeah! You bought a bunch of poppers even though they annoy the shit out of you just because you thought Tubbo might like them.”

“I should have known Karl and Alex would steal them and try to scare me with them.”

“It’s random things like that that just… you’re incredible. Really. Everything you do is so selfless and you’re also so funny and crazy smart and I swear on my life as much as it pisses me off when you beat me in Geoguessr, it’s also insanely hot.”

Y/n laughed loudly at the abrupt compliment, hiding her face behind her sleeve. “Okay–”

"I like that you know who you are and aren't afraid of it. You're confident in the most humble way and it's really endearing. You always seem so sure of yourself and know what you want from life and you get it. You work so hard and you don't get nearly as much recognition as I think you should—"

"Biased."

"—but you still treat everything like you have more than you could ask for even though you deserve so much more. You're such a genuine person and I think that's in part because, like I said, you know who you are. You're not afraid to speak your mind because your mind is brilliant."

Y/n smiled and looked back at Dream, whose eyes softened at her face.

"I also like how you make me feel when you look at me like that."

His speech seemed to end so she smiled, softly whispering a thank you. She leaned forward and gave him a small kiss, which he chased after with a frown when she pulled away.

“What was that for?” he asked, a huge smile that she loved to be the cause of.

"You didn't say anything about my looks."

Dream's face dropped. "Wait, Bug, you're also very, very, very, beautiful. And I promise I'm not saying that just because—"

"Clay," she interrupted. "It's a good thing."

He paused. "It is?" His fingers twitched and she reached out to grab his hand, his large hands immediately wrapping around hers like she was water in a desert.

"My ex, um," she cleared her throat as she started her explanation, "you know how I said he always told me he was the only person who could ever like me, or whatever? Well, more specifically, he always told me the only thing I had going for me was my looks."

"Bug..."

"So, I guess it's ironic and relieving in a way that you, um, that of all the things you said you like about me, that being pretty wasn't on there."

"Because there's so much more to you," he promised.

"I think I know that now."

"So... would you like me to not comment on your looks anymore because of what that jackass said?"

Y/n shook her head. "No, no, I actually really like it when you call me pretty." Her face heated up at her own words and Dream smiled.

He leaned forward and pressed a kiss to her nose before resting their foreheads together. "Now tell me all the things you like about me?"

Y/n smiled at his joke but obliged, knowing he wasn't expecting a real answer. "You're so gracious and supportive to all your friends and you're very charming and funny, and you always check on everyone and—"

"Okay!" Dream leaned back and laughed. "I was just joking! Don't actually tell me. Not now, at least."

"Good, it was starting to get too mushy, that was embarrassing.”

"Agreed. Tell me things you like about me but make it memes."

Y/n laughed. "I like that you're sooo good at Minecraft and that you're someone who's actually taller than me. You're one in 7.5 trillion, baby."

Dream laughed loudly but Y/n noticed the pink dusting his cheeks. "I like that you're tall too."

He shifted to lay down, his head laying next to her leg as he looked up at her. “Wanna sleep in here?”

She frowned but laid down next to him. “I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep. I’m too anxious thinking about how people are responding to my tweet.”

Dream smiled mischievously. “I can think of a few other things we could do.”

“You have a dirty mind.”

His face contorted in confusion then turned to one of fake disgust. “Oh, ew! Bug, that’s not at all what I was implying! Ewww, you’re the gross one! I was going to suggest we talk about our favorite things in space.”

She laughed loudly. “Yeah, sure. I think Jupiter is pretty cool.”

“I’m lying, can I kiss you?” he deadpanned. “I’m too tired to talk and you’re pretty.”

“I can’t believe you only like me for my looks…” Y/n joked, but Dream’s face fell. “Too soon to joke about?”

“Yes. It makes me want to punch a wall.”

“How are you going to do that if you’re too busy kissing me?”

Dream smiled and sat up halfway, resting on his elbow and leaning down to kiss Y/n. “You’re dumb,” he said pulling away for a moment.

She chuckled. “Yeah, I know.”

“There she is!” Karl giggled as Y/n entered the kitchen, covering a yawn as she grabbed a mug and Dream’s box of tea. Maybe she had a thing for it now. Sue her.

“Looking for me?”

“Yes. Where have you been, young lady?”

“What are you talking about?”

“You were not in your room last night,” Karl accused pointedly.

“Sure I was,” Y/n countered lazily. “Where else would I have been?”

“With Dream.”

She looked at him quickly and frowned. “Uh, no. Weirdo.”

“You sure? After all the looks you two give each other and all the giggling and secrets and–”

“Stop,” she hissed quietly, a giggle behind her words that she couldn’t suppress no matter how hard she tried. She jumped on the island counter as George walked in, heading straight for the kettle.

“Are you making tea already?” he asked.

“Yeah, there’s enough water in there if you want some too.”

“Epic,” he yawned, slumping against the counter as he grabbed a bagel and cream cheese. George, bless him, was blissfully unaware of the teasing going on behind his back and looked way too tired to care. At the silence in the room, he looked over his shoulder just as Y/n mouthed at Karl to shut up, who was hiding giggles behind a sweater paw. “What’s happening?”

Y/n blurted, “Nothing!” at the same time Karl answered with a question. “George, guess where our sweet Bugsy slept last night?”

Y/n groaned and covered her face in her hands. “Karl, shut up.”

George took a large bite of his breakfast and his words struggled to get past the pastry. “I’m guessing… not your room?”

Karl giggled maniacally as an answer.

"How do you even know?" Y/n asked as she dropped her hands to her lap and looked at her best friend. Her eyes darted to the living room adjacent to the kitchen, where Sapnap and Quackity were messing around. George was the only European awake but that's because his sleep schedule was already completely messed up. The others were getting used to the jet lag still.

“Well, I barged in to tackle you for randomly face revealing – congratulations, by the way, I’m so proud of you–”

“Oh, yeah, good job,” George butted in.

Karl continued without missing a beat. “–but I waited for you to come back because I figured you were having a deep conversation with Dream and didn’t want to interrupt. But it took so long and I was so tired so I went to bed.”

“So? Maybe I went back to my room right after you went to bed?”

"Naomi texted me asking where you were at, like, four," Karl deadpanned. "I saw it this morning. She must've woken up in the middle of the night to you still not there."

Y/n felt her cheeks flame up as she thought about what she was doing at four a.m. Completely innocent things! With... a certain........ boy.........

"So you're gonna use Naomi's sleepy mind to recall where I was? You know how she is when she just wakes up. It's like she's drunk."

Y/n caught the way George's lips turned up at that and made a mental note to tease him for it later. Right now, she had her own tracks to cover.

“Where is she, by the way?” you asked.

“In your room doing her makeup,” Karl answered. “Which you would know if you woke up there! You've basically admitted that you weren't in your room, so just tell us where you were," Karl bargained. "Did you pull an all-nighter with someone? Go skinny dipping? Sleep in the arms of a handsome–"

Karl didn't finish because he got slapped in the arm, making him laugh. Y/n couldn't help but glance at the living room again as if Sapnap and Quackity would suddenly hear the teasing over their own loud noise and join the interrogation party. She couldn’t handle 4/5 teasing her at once. Maybe she was just worried the overall chaos would wake up Dream and he would walk in mid-conversation.

"So you were with a boy?" George laughed, suddenly more awake. "Karl, I wonder who it could have possibly been! I can't think of a single person Y/n might be interested in." Sarcasm was thick in his voice as he beamed at Y/n, suddenly waking up since George loved to gossip.

Y/n's face scrunched with the use of her name and George's face softened in apology. She still wasn't used to all her friends knowing her name and face.

"Maybe we should ask–"

Karl's words were cut off again, this time by the appearance of the man who he was about to mention.

Y/n's face caught fire again as she watched Dream look around the living in confusion, one hand stuck in his unruly hair and one in the pocket of his hoodie. His squinted eyes scanned the living room, then wandered to the kitchen where he finally met Y/n's eyes. His confused look softened and he pretended like he wasn't obviously just looking for her. Y/n kept watching as he made a joke to Sapnap, who suddenly realized his friend was there and kicked Dream from the floor.

Y/n turned back to Karl and George, who were looking at her with shit-eating grins on their faces. Their faces were dead giveaways that they had been talking about him.

"Wipe those stupid looks off your faces."

"What looks?" George laughed. "We aren't doing anything!"

"You are both the human incarnation of 'colon capital D."

Karl lifted his tattooed hand and made a circle with his thumb from his pointer finger to recreate the face. He cackled loudly and her face only gained warmth. He was drawing too much attention to them. Why was she so embarrassed for him to find out they were talking about him when he so obviously liked her?

"Hello," Dream said slowly as he approached the trio. Just as her eyes were glued to him, his were to her.

"Hi, Dream. Sleep well?" George teased, earning a subtle kick from Y/n.

"Sorry, leg twitched." She smiled through her teeth. After a few beats of silence, she looked up to see George and Karl looking at each other awkwardly and Dream still staring at her.

"What was that, Quackity? You need us?" Karl asked loudly.

"Coming!" George followed and they left the kitchen. Y/n pulled her hoodie collar over her mouth like always, trying to hide subtly.

Dream walked towards her but rested his hands on the island counter to her left, methodically pounding the granite softly. "Hi."

"Hi," she squeaked after a pause. Despite her nerves and fear and confusion, she had a big smile plastered on her face.

"How did you sleep?" he asked innocently.

Her mind raced at his question. Better than she had ever slept in her entire life, honestly. Nothing like being curled up against a 6'3 boy who happened to make her heart race with every look. She settled on, "Good. You?"

"Like a baby,” he smiled. “Except, it would have been better if you hadn’t left.”

She smiled. “I was hungry.”

“What did you have?” he asked, hopping on the counter next to her, hands between his legs and thigh pressed against hers. Similar to the night they kissed for the first time.

“I’m waiting for my tea to finish before I figure out what I want to eat.”

“Tea?” he asked. “Did you steal mine?”

“I’ll buy you more.”

“No, it’s okay. I’m just proud I converted you.”

Y/n laughed and hopped off the counter as the kettle started whistling. “George!” she called. “The water is ready!”

George wandered in a few moments later, eyeing the two suspiciously as Y/n poured him a cup of hot water.

“Hey, I never said George could have any of my tea,” Dream protested as he watched the Brit dig through Dream’s box of teabags.

“Didn’t ask,” George responded, grabbing his mug and a teabag, smiling cheekily at Dream. “Bugsy said yes, and what she says goes.”

“That’s fair,” Dream agreed, smiling at her. She rolled her eyes and opened a teabag for herself, looking up just as George headed for the stairs. Part of her knew he was going to her room to hang out with Naomi. Cute.

With them alone again, Dream leaned back on his hands, observing Y/n cautiously. “What’s on your mind?” she asked softly, noticing the seriousness in his eyes.

He hesitated, licking his lips before shaking his head. “I’ll tell you later. When there are fewer people.”

She raised an eyebrow. “We can go out to the dock if you want. No one is outside right now.”

Dream glanced out the window at the dock, the lake water still and vacant. “Yeah, let’s go. It’s chilly out though, grab a jacket.”

“I’ll trade you,” she bargained. When he raised his eyebrows at her, a smile on his lips, she wasn’t embarrassed to elaborate. “The ones you gave me don’t smell like you anymore.”

“Simp. Deal.”

They met back at the front door, where they handed each other a hoodie. It was admittedly very cheesy, but Y/n couldn’t bring herself to care. Not when she got to bundle up in a hoodie that smelled like Dream. He held her tea as she put on her shoes and they slipped out of the house undetected.

Despite their friends definitely knowing they liked each other, Y/n wasn’t sure how much Dream was okay with them knowing. Of course, Naomi knew everything, but Y/n didn’t know what the boys knew. She knew Dream liked her, but it was unclear whether he was just having fun or if maybe something could happen between them.

“Is this secluded enough for your big conversation?” Y/n asked lightheartedly after they finally sat down on the dock, shoes off and feet hanging in the cold water.

Dream laughed through his nose, clearly nervous. “Yeah.”

She frowned at his hesitance, placing her hand on his leg and squeezing lightly. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. Nothing’s wrong. I just.” He took a deep breath and put his hand on hers. “I’m sure it’s obvious that I like you–”

She laughed and put her head on his shoulder, realizing this was going to be a good conversation. “Maybe a little.”

Dream laughed softly, seeming to ease up a little at her touch. “And I don’t know if– like, how much you want to work for… this,” he gestured between them, “because I know we don’t really live near each other, but I like you so much that it doesn’t really matter to me. I really like you, Y/n. Like, a scary amount.”

Y/n placed her chin on his shoulder and looked at him. “I like you a scary amount, too.”

“Really?”

“‘Really’, he asks the girl who hates people being in her personal space, who is currently laying on him,” she teased. “Yes, Dream. I really do like you. I wasn’t sure if you thought we were just having fun or something.”

He shook his head as he looked at her and she sat up. “I mean, it is fun. But I’m scared to go home and not get to hug you.”

Y/n pouted fondly at him. “You’re so cute.”

“I mean it!” he laughed. “I like you, don’t bully me about it.”

“I’m kinda dreading going home, too. At least you have Patches. I have Karl and Naomi the smotherers.”

Dream shook his head with a smile. “Oh, another thing. I wanted you to know... I know you have that whole thing about not thinking people can like people without seeing them but… It’s important to me that you know I don’t just like you for your looks. You are so pretty, but I definitely had a crush on you before you sent me a picture.”

“Really?” she asked, smiling.

He nodded, cheeks a light pink. He would blame the cold, but she knew it wasn’t that.

“I wanted to tell you sooner that I liked you, but I was worried you wouldn’t believe me because I didn’t even know what you looked like. But it didn’t matter to me.”

“What did you like about me?” she asked.

“Everything. You were just so nice and funny and sweet and it was so easy to talk to you about anything for hours. I was always so giddy when I found out you’d be joining a stream I was on or when you’d message me or anything like that. I still am.”

“It’s still weird to me, but the more I think about it, the more I’m pretty sure I kinda liked you before that FaceTime call. Which disproves my whole theory.”

“You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain.”

Y/n laughed loudly. “I’m my own worst enemy.”

Dream watched her laugh with a fond, lovesick smile.

“What are you thinking about now?” she asked teasingly, seeing his bright smile.

“Will you be my girlfriend, Bug? We can plan visits like twice a month at least or whenever we have time. I’m pretty sure it’s only about a nine-hour drive, which seems like a lot but I’d have no problem driving that. It still wouldn’t be enough but it’s better than not being able to see you at all.”

Y/n cut him off by grabbing his chin and turning his face to her. He stopped as they looked at each other. “Of course, Dream. I’d love to be your girlfriend.”

He smiled so big, she was sure his face was hurting. But it fell as she pulled his face down to hers and kissed him gently.

Maybe her asshole ex would make up things to turn her fans against her. Maybe she would go crazy never being able to see her boyfriend. Maybe her career would fall apart and her deepest fears would come true.

Or maybe, with Dream on her side rooting for her, along with all her friends, maybe everything would be okay.

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🏰Build Process & Guide💁‍♂️

I'm making this in-depth post about my process, @lordoftablecloths asked how i planned the build and ill make this a separate post for all interested, this might be pretty long so it'll be under the cut, i'll add pictures where i can to help explain :3 will contain mostly explanations why i did what i did with a few technical tips mixed in.

I • Introduction & Inspiration

I'm going to try and structure this like a guide from the bottom up on how i made my castle build. let it be known that the order I've presented here isn't the exact order i built it in, and you don't have to follow exactly either, I'm choosing an order that i hope makes the most sense. whether you're planning a castle in creative or survival i hope this is useful. as for what inspired the look of the castle, its hard to pin down anything exactly, i love the look of places like Neuschwanstein Castle and Mont-Saint-Michel to give some basic examples, i recommend looking around Wikipedia (and the rest of the internet) for examples of existing churches castles fortresses etc around the world to draw from, sometimes you can even find floor plans and architectural drawings etc on google images

I HIGHLY recommend you build with XYZ coordinates enabled! even in survival it can help with your builds, it can be enabled in the settings on world creation or by using the command:

/gamerule showcoordinates true

II • Picking a Build Location

I started a new world with normal settings creative mode and cheats (i also use world-edit but won't be going over that in this post as i barely understand it myself lol) basically just fly around your world until you see some interesting looking geography, a certain biome, anything that brings you some inspiration

this castle mount i found is isolated by itself in a small valley between two large ridges and a river, thus i thought a castle would be the perfect thing to build here, there's plenty of room for a town as well

III • Terraforming & Laying Foundations

when starting a foundation on a hill/slope i try and find a good flat area to start clearing, you can shave off a few layers to get a level starting area, what to then do to get a terraced look is simply stand on your top level, sneak to the edge, and while keeping your Y level look straight down and fill outwards as far as you can reach, this will make 4 block high walls; exact heights are always up to you, treat every number like a suggestion and build what YOU think looks good! the number of tiers is also your choice, multiple is nice if you want multilevel walkways implemented into any steep area you want to be more accessible.

and dont forget to extend your build material all the way into the ground!

IV • Central Core & Courtyard

I think the very first thing i put on the mountain was the circle which would eventually be the main tower, acting as a main core for the building containing the main starway and a throne room at the top. I'd suggest having multiple intersecting shapes for your base, as you can build each of those shapes up in and out in separate ways the higher you go, which is pretty much the philosophy i had for this build, just remember to account for multiple stairways if you separate those shapes higher up.

i figured there should be some sort of tiered system of courtyards and walls since the hill has a natural gentle(ish) slope on the west. if you have the space for it i recommend filling in some green spaces for your castle residents, don't be afraid to have a steep cutoff like in the above image, you can put a castle wall or structure there later. for me, i wanted it to feel like a hike up to the castle through a winding path of gates, stairs, courtyards, and green areas

The hall with the rainbow windows was the first enclosed room i built, essentially a chunk of the floorplan reserved for a kind of reception space/grand entrance, once you've got a basic foundation down a small building like this can help you get a grasp of what kind of style/materials the rest of the castle will have. this is where i decided the castle would consist of stone brick foundations, smooth stone walls, a band of bricks on each floor; this can be super helpful while building inside and outside, i also like how it looks.

V • Main Building Facade

since i didn't want this entire build to be a blob of stone bricks i decided to add a decorative facade on the outside of the main keep, the idea is to have more blackstone near the top, to emphasize that the upper parts contain more important... stuff :P

these are built more or less outside of the main stone walls (except for some window protrusions) this means the interior rooms won't have to have one weird wall of blackstone, as i wanted the inside of the castle to have relatively plain smooth stone rooms

VI • "Defensive" Walls & Extra Foundations

castles need some sort of protection against people wandering in, right? the placement of these outer walls was kinda random, i just tried to enclose some courtyard spaces without going out too far to keep the walls a reasonable height

the way most of the outer walls were built was i started with a one block wide guide, making sure i didnt cut off any diagonals so that when built up there would be a small but navigable corridor within them (see below) this way people/guards etc. can move about the lower areas of the castle complex without being seen. I tried to keep most of the walls like this 3 blocks wide with a step out to 5 blocks at the top to account for a 3x path with walls/battlements on both sides

i also added towers at junctions to sort of act like small hubs (useful for stairways, ladders, guard barracks, defensive supplies and buildings etc.

VII • Other Structures

a castle build can be more than just a keep and some walls, some supporting structures are:

the windmill(s), if the people here are growing grain they must have somewhere to mill it, right? of course all you need to actually do that is a crafting table, stuff like this also won't move (unless you use a mod like technic, but bedrock users are SOL for mods like that afaik) but i like to add elements of realism into my builds, suspend your disbelief!

the "library", originally this was going to be a sparring arena, then a temple, then a library, but as of now there's a much better stocked library in the central keep, i'm trying to think of what to turn this into,

the alchemist's tower, a detached tower containing a brewing lab along with a nether portal and some ingredient storage. only accessible via a small bridge, if i ever expand the dungeons or construct a sewer system i'll consider connecting it through a new stairway in here 🤫

VIII • Farms & Irrigation

this is the first field of crops i built for the castle (intended to be private and for the castle only), very simple with some covered water troughs for irrigation, i didn't plan the stepped farms until much later so this will probably get changed without completely redoing it, maybe turned into a greenhouse with farmed flowers

the newer farms cover much more area and have more variety, as well as a more organic looking irrigation system, these might be extended even further at some point to be a food source for the whole area.

there are small channels of waterlogged stair blocks i've kinda snaked through the farmland to make quarter block wide water channels, my idea is that this castle sits on a (possibly mystical) spring which feeds the fresh water needs of the castle complex and town (aqueducts may appear in the future)

IX • Outer Wall Details

since having nothing but flat walls isnt very interesting, i'll show some ways to give them more... visual texture? interest? either way.

you can really just stick a layer of arches or even simple columns over a flat wall and itll look 10x better

i recommend stair and wall blocks mainly for this, if you're building in wood you can use trap doors to add just a little more to an arch

X • Floor Appearance & Hierarchy

one of the most important things to decide when i start a build is what floor height i want to have, i try to keep each floor in the castle the same height for consistency. below i have an example of six floors with different block heights

I always try to have each floor made of distinct layers (the stone brick band helps me remember where the floor block is supposed to be) the way i like to do it is as follows (top to bottom):

[1 Block] floor, solid block, this is the floor of the next level

[1-3 Blocks] ceiling, i like to use stairs and slabs so you dont see the bottom of the next floor up, but you can decide if you want that to show or not, using single lines of slabs can look like wood beams

[2-5 Blocks] walls and windows, the main section of the wall, solid

[1 Block] guide layer made of a different material, or just use the same throughout, this should be where your legs are

[1 Block] floor, solid block, you'll walk upon this

about the hierarchy, thats just relating to the fact that i didnt want (too many) glass windows in the dungeon sections of the castle, i wanted it to feel cold, grimy, and drafty ya know? so the lowest levels have a few iron barred windows as well as a bunch of slit windows made using stair blocks, there are also more and more windows the higher up you go. There are some windows that extend out each floor as well

XI • Interior Details

The lowest parts of the castle consist of stonebrick halls, storage rooms, connections to the outer wall corridors, and possibly forgotten paths to the depths... as stated earlier i try to have a floor material, and a wall+ceiling material

above: undercroft level, steel bar windows, stone brick, dingy

below: mid-level central keep (facing south) the windows here are glass, but still small, wood floors throughout, upper floors get the benefit of more natural light

pictured above is the central spiral staircase, it does take up quite a bit of the floorspace, but the wide and easy slope makes it easier to navigate so i think its worth it

the most fantastical details are currently in the ballroom, library, and throne room but im running out of picture slots so onto the next category

XII • Spires & Roofing

all of the roofing (aside from some detailing on the entrance hall) is mangrove wood, and i recommend choosing one roofing material to have throughout, though you'll see here that i'm using red nether brick walls, why? Well fence blocks don't connect to wall blocks, and iron rods won't connect to fence blocks (if this is bedrock only or something let me know..) i find it really useful to add these alternating stacks of those blocks to make quite sharp looking points along the ridges of the roof. i recommend trying out whatever different color palettes you can with the blocks we have in-game

the heights of the stacks also go up the higher (and thus farther away) you go, meaning the highest ridges will have 3 of each block stacked, like 3,3,3 and 2,2,2 instead of the 1,1,1 seen in the foreground above

XIII • :3

thank u for coming to my ted talk! i might update this post to add some clarity if i need to, hope you enjoyed it if you made it this far. I had fun writing it up, might do more posts like this in the future.

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