#do i still count as a new studyblr ._.

[tranquilstudy]

Welcome to another one of my studyblr challenges! I’ve gained a lot more followers on this channel since the last time I did one of these so I wanted to say hello and I like to give people the opportunity to connect through events like these. Looking back at my last challenge there were actually a lot of very awesome people participating and I’m hoping this time around will be the same! Below you’ll find some rules, dates for when it begins and ends and the questions for each day of the challenge. These are usually pretty laidback so feel free to diverge from whatever rules I put out there. Can’t wait to meet new people and hear about what is going on in everyone’s lives!

As always, you’re more than welcome to start or stop this challenge at any time. The numbers added will correspond with when I’m tracking tags for this challenge, but they can be adjusted, re-used and re-done to your heart’s content. That being said, if you want to do it with a group and hopefully make some friends along the way, I’ll be officially tracking or starting this challenge on October 14th, 2022. The challenge has 29 questions, and with one question per day, the challenge will end on November 12th, 2022. Assuming I just counted that right. However, if you’re like me and like to answer a couple questions every couple of days, that ending day may vary for you. No worries! That’s often what happens with my posts as well.

Just like that time, I’ll be making a separate post for the taglist for this challenge. If you want to be on the taglist, just reblog this post or otherwise show interest in doing this challenge! And if you want to be added or removed you can always shoot me an ask (don’t DM me, I don’t check or answer those to get to it in a timely fashion). The taglist shows you who is hoping to participate and hopefully it’ll help people to connect with like-minded individuals!

When this challenge starts, I’ll be tracking the tag #tranquilfallbuddies so please use it when you’re posting about this challenge so I can see your lovely answers! I really bank on people using these tags to see interest in these challenges and whatever you guys have to say so feel free to use them to send me feedback or whatever you want along with your posts that are challenge related.

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So, in my last challenge I had people start each day by setting themselves an intention, or a goal, or just by stating their mindset for that day and a lot of people seemed to like that, so I'm bringing it back here! So, every day (or for every post you make for the challenge), an additional question is added where you can simply fill in one of the choices here:

1. Today, I am grateful for ________. (Studies have shown that stating what you’re grateful for in each day can actually improve your mood and outlook on life. Give it a try if you want!)

2. Today, I choose ______. (Inspired by Yoga with Adrienne, whom I still admire very much).

3. Today, my goals are _________. (what do you want to accomplish today?)

You can switch up your choices too, or you can fill out two or all three of them if you want to! Just pick one, two or three that you feel suits you best for that post. Or, you can make your own if you want!

Daily Questions:

The beginning of the challenge, woohoo you did it! A lot of the time starting is the hardest part. So, tell us a little bit about yourself! What are you studying currently, what where are you in your life right now? Are you happy with where you are right now? What are your goals in doing this challenge? (this is taken from the last challenge! I loved all the answers you guys gave for it so I’m bringing it back!)

What was the last book you finished?

What type of books are you interested in?

When was the last time you had a life-changing revelation? What revelation did you have?

Cut up some fruit for yourself. Show us what fruit you picked and why.

Do you find yourself procrastinating? What are you procrastinating right now? Be honest haha

What do you think defines a person's character?

Teach others something about your area of study that they may not know about.

What would make you happy right now?

When did you create your study blog or tumblr account? Why did you create it? Has the blog fulfilled the goals you've set out to accomplish so far?

Show us your current study space, as it looks right now.

Who's the last person you held hands with?

What was the most productive thing you did today? Why do you consider this action to be productive?

What passions do you have that led you to studying what you're studying in school now?

What can you de-clutter physically or emotionally to find more ease and simplicity?

What is your favourite book at the moment? Now, find a song to match this book and explain your choice.

What misconceptions do people have about your area of study?

What do you own that gives off "cozy autumn vibes"? Do you decorate for autumn or spooky season at all?

How do you calm your nerves during exam season?

When was the last time you let yourself express yourself openly? What did you express?

What about you makes you proud to be you?

What kind of mental health support do you have? How often do you utilize these resources?

What do you do when you need comfort? How can you ask for comofrt from others? How can you give comfort to yourself?

What is the kindest thing you could do for yourself, right in this moment?

Do you find the process of learning something new discouraging or uplifting? What advice would you give to others to appreciate this journey more?

Have you ever dyed your hair? What colour would you dye your hair, if you could dye it any colour?

What do you do to calm yourself down when you feel anxious?

Do you enjoy spooky season? What things do you like or dislike about it?

 The end of the challenge so it's time to reflect! I'm very proud of you for completing this challenge so give yourself a high-five! Where are you in your life now that you've finished this challenge? Have you made any friends or discovered any new blogs during this challenge or because of this challenge? If so, tag them below!  

#studyblr #studyspo #study motivation #study hard #studygram #studyspiration #study tips #studystudystudy #studywithme #study vault #studying #study aesthetic #study blog #study notes #student #study space #study

[simplysoniferous]

30 Days of Routine

This is technically still a studyblr, so why not (also you can skip this post if you want - it's long and tedious):

I have several routines that I need to maintain to make sure I don't return to a pile of mush which - between a very, very hot summer, moving house, uni going back, grandad passing, and just general stress - are at about 30% maintenance (yes i made that number up). So, instead of doing the 30 Days of productivity challenge, I'm going to do 30 Days of routine to get them locked in again.

What are the routines?

Having a lie down after lunch for 30 mins

Listening to a Smiling Mind track at least once a day

Doing my OT and physio exercises

Doing my stretch routine

Smiling Mind will probably be the hardest - and most important - because after having it locked in for over a year, I just stopped using it. I'm not sure why - maybe when my health started to improve, I started making excuses for skipping it? Idk. I used to listen to one in the first half of my nap (because naps are incredibly boring), and/or before bed. I haven't decided where to re-establish it yet, so I'll experiment with it a bit.

My OT and physio exercises tend to fall by the wayside whenever I've had an exhausting day (which is, y'know, often), but whenever I do maintain them I tend to do better during the day - which is the point of them, duh, so it's important I get back into the routine of them. My physio gave me SO MANY to do, so I've been adding them one at a time. I haven't added a new one since before New Year's so an additional goal for this is to add another one by the end (maybe even a sitting up one - gasp!).

Stretch routine should be easier, because I tend to do it after my exercises, and I already am very familiar with it from when I used to go running (rip :,) ).

An important thing of this challenge is I don't have to do EVERYTHING. That is the goal, but if not doing one is going to make it easier doing another, then that's okay. Also, sometimes I can't do them - e.g. today I start work at 12pm, and I can't really have a nap in the middle of the shift. As long as I at least do one of them.

I probably shouldn't count yesterday because it was before I made this post, but I'm going to anyway because a) yesterday was the first of the month and that's a nice number to start with, b) I did everything yesterday, c) I came up with the idea yesterday, I just couldn't be bothered writing it up before bed, and d) it's my challenge and I can do whatever I want.

I haven't done something like this since undergrad, and that was for studying, not something like this, so wish me luck!

#30 days of routine #musicblr #studyblr

[roxygenstudiesagain]

100 days of productivity (12/100) 12/30/22

2023 is so close and oddly foreboding. I worked more yesterday doing comms but today still had its productivity spurts

Content warning: prescription medication n me being generally unhinged but that’s normal

Bad news- I blew up at a professor (not in her face just sent a strongly worded complaint to the head of her subject) over just generally feeling antagonized all semester and it reaching a boiling point over not being given the ability to redo a quiz I got 0 when it counted a lot and was not my fault. I think studyblr would empathize with my anger

But equally i was immature and a bad moment and full disclosure I have spent the last 3 days since looking into anger management to avoid it again. Totally a trauma response but no excuse to be mean to someone who’s going through a lot. But it’s brought out this entitled mean version of me to compensate for feeling defensive and it makes me miss my therapist because he’s so good at dealing with that version of me

Been reading a lot, some educational nsfw titles (otherwise I’d post a screen cap of what I’m reading) bc i want to kind connect with my body in an academic understanding but also learning about untaught insight into the human condition. Idk I’ve always desired an academic relationship with erotica as much as i admit to my own consumption.

Maybe I’ll write an essay lol

I actually larped as him giving me advice all this which was what pushed me to take it easy and self medicate on klonopin just to breeze past it. It helped. I hope my new therapist comes fast to fill the void

It may seem cowardly to many of you but my strategy to cope for now was to block all email conversations n threads with her since the class is over, avoid her classes like the plague and keep taking anxiety meds (I’ve been having to take a klonopin to take the edge off every day since it happened, hoping to take a break from it tomorrow to save it for pmdd). Might look at it eventually but rn I’m just not emotionally there and don’t have the support system in case scrapping with faculty hurts me even further

Yesterday i played ukulele and i made 2 songs and a game plan for getting my stuff out there for next year. Might look into something to study to help me figure it all out

Today:

Big reorganization n list update for all art projects for next year

Got closer in starting a volunteer gig I’m getting into

I usually hate going in and fixing stuff when I’ve called it done but I actually snuck on sbpro and did some last minute edits to boards

Put a new story seq in folio

Cleaned house, vented, hoovered, laundry n dishes and even the air con. Dusted yesterday

Went out to get new years food

Did my eyebrows and a lil face mask

Cleared some cupboards and made spade

To do

Drive drive drive God I’m so tired of procrastinating on it

Keep looking for gigs on LinkedIn

Prep for new part time gig

Await reply from new client

Message storyboard prof to beg for school copy of sbpro

Cut hair out at least tidy it

#student life #studyblr #best self #100dop #100 days of productivity #highly motivated #hustle

[shaynawrites23]

My Neighbor Totoro

Pairing: dad!Bucky Barnes x reader

Word count: 886

Written for a collab with @quadrupledeckertaco @probably-peeves @melody-studyblr and @flymyhp! Our theme is 80s movies and my choice was My Neighbor Totoro! I highly recommend checking out their fics too!

Little Becca Barnes gazed out the window at the tiny white flakes collecting on the windowsill. Despite being indoors, the tip of her nose was turning pink with cold from having it pressed against the glass. If she noticed, she paid it no mind, too enraptured watching the snow fall from the sky.

That amount of snow could only result in one thing: a snow day. School had been canceled, and since you hadn’t been able to get the day off, it was up tow Bucky to entertain your six-year-old daughter.

Lucky for him, she planned the morning’s activities, most of which were snow-related. That led to many double takes as people passed through the street only to see the Winter Soldier building a snowman with his kid. Bucky didn’t even notice; he was too occupied with Becca and having fun with her to pay attention to anything else.

Now they were inside, the chill of the snow having seeped through their gloves and numbed their hands enough to chase them under the blankets. Well, Becca was the one huddled under the covers. Bucky was less affected by the cold, but that didn’t stop him from making two mugs of hot cocoa.

“What do you want to do next, princess?” he asked, back still turned to his daughter as he washed to pot.

“Watch a movie!” she chirped, her smile exposing the gap where she was missing a tooth.

“Alright then, which one?”

She didn’t respond immediately, but the shuffling sound and the ensuing quick little thumps of her feet told him she was going to pick one from your extensive collection.

As he was drying his hands on the blue-and-white checked dish towel he hoped was the right one, Becca came running into the kitchen holding a DVD high above her head.

“This one!” she exclaimed, shoving it into her dad’s hands. Bucky flipped it over to read the title.

My Neighbor Totoro

Ah yes, this was a new one. He hadn’t seen it himself yet, but he was quite sure it was the one you’d brought home a couple weeks ago, insisting that it was ‘a classic’ and that ‘Becca would love it.’ Time to see how right you were.

Now this was one thing he hadn’t expected. It was half an hour later and Bucky just could not get the DVD player to listen to him. Playing the disk seemed easy enough when you did it, but apparently he overestimated his capabilities.

He sighed and Becca giggled. The cursed little kid was perfectly content just sitting and watching him struggle with the machine. He knew she knew how to work it, but it seemed her dad’s attempts were more amusing.

“God-” he cut himself off and took a deep breath. “Wouldn’t you rather play a board game, princess?”

He turned to look at her and sighed again. She was pouting at him, an adorable but dangerous expression. They both knew very well that he’d do anything for her if she were only convincing enough.

Then he heard the click of a key turning in the lock and Bucky internally groaned. Now you would be home to witness his suffering and he was willing to bet his metal arm you would first laugh and watch before putting him out of his misery.

The door opened and you entered, tossing your keys onto the cupboard and hanging your coat on the hook in two quick moves before running over to them with a wide smile.

“Hey Becca! How’s my little princess?” You scooped her up into a hug, a short hug for you weren’t strong enough to lift her for longer periods of time.

Bucky made a noise of protest and you laughed. “And of course my knight too. How was your day?”

“It was so fun mommy! Daddy and I built a snowman and-” As Becca rambled on about everything they did, you couldn’t help but laugh at Bucky’s expression. He looked like he was genuinely considering chucking the device out the window or lighting it on fire.

“...and now we were gonna watch a movie but daddy doesn’t remember how to play it.” Having finished her recount of the day’s occurrences, Becca took a deep breath to compensate for the amount of air she’d used on talking. Her father shot her a playful glare but she just smiled sweetly back at him.

“Mm, I suppose I should help him then right?”

“Why yes you should because dad can’t figure this out.” Bucky interrupted. You and Becca laughed at that as you slid off the couch and crawled over to the TV.

“Here, let me,” you murmured, simply pressing a few buttons and trying your best to stifle your laugh when your husband’s eyes widened in amazement.

“Wha- what did you do?”

“I’ll show you another time, love.” You didn’t even bother to try and hide the mirth in your voice as you patted his arm comfortingly.

“I doubt I will remember it then either, doll. Maybe you should just do it from now on,” he replied as he picked Becca up and sat her in his lap.

“I-”

“Shh, it’s movie time!” Becca chirped. You sighed and shook your head playfully, but cuddled up against your family to enjoy the film with them.

#bucky barnes oneshot #bucky barnes fluff #bucky x reader #bucky barnes x reader #bucky oneshot #dad!bucky x reader #dad!bucky oneshot #dad!bucky barnes x reader #dad!bucky fluff #bucky fluff #collab fic

[pyperkite]

‧₊˚✩彡 November Productivity Challenge

[day 7-8/30] // November 7-8, 2020. 🍋

hello, friends <3 it's kei!

yesterday i didn't post anything because i had no pict to post :( yesterday was a rest day and i did lots of planning on my google calendar for a whole month.

today, i did lots of work and study for a total 5 hours (still counting! i'm gonna continue until 8 p.m :D). aaand i've been trying a new routine which is waking up at 3 a.m to study, believe me it's nice to wake up that early! (but i sleep earlier too, so i'm not lacking of sleep ^^ don't worry). anyway, isn't my binder pretty tho ~ (//>ㅅ<//)

that's it for today's challenge, i hope you guys are having a great time today, don't forget to appreciate little things in your life! (ex : look at the sky! isn't it very beautiful?)

🎶 BTS - Spring Day (i know, 보고싶다 🥺)

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[challenge with : @verybluepigeon @tintereviews @babymedicc @studyblr-with-wastel @itsleahstudies and @naijagalstudies

to all my friends who are doing this challenge : keep working hard! but don't forget to take care of yourself too, ily ♡

p.s : sorry if i missed your posts, i didn't check my tumblr very often :(]

#november of productivity 🍒 #new studyblr #notestagram #study notes #study session #study tips #studying #study #study hard #studyblr #studystudystudy #studywithme #study aesthetic #science notes #aesthetic notes #lookrylie #heynesi #studyblrpositivity #scholastc #philologystudies #studypetals #stillstudies #bullet journal #bujo spread

[thirstystarkey]

Bass Players 🦋 Rudy Pankow AU

Prompt: Y/N is forced by her best friends to attend the most desired underground rock band, against her will she goes. But what happens when she gets stuck with one of the band members? Will she discover the why they say bass players have the best fingers or will she just ignore him?

Warnings: mention of drugs and alcohol, sex, various kinks including choking, overstimulation, public sex, this is just another script for pornhub tbh

MY REQUESTS ARE OPEN, IF YOU WANT TO SEND ME ANY BLURB OR PROMPT ABOUT THIS TROPE (y/n x rockstar!rudy) IM MORE THAN WILLING TO DO IT, LOVE YOU ALL 🥰💞✨

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It all started when her roommates, who were also Y/N’s best friends, decided it was a perfect idea to attend a sweaty dirty concert just to droll over some dumbasses with good voices and cute faces. Y/N wasn’t in the mood to be stuck all night in the middle of drunk young adults but it was too late now, since her friends had already dragged her to the venue, the least she could do now was to enjoy herself as much as she possible could.

That of course until something went wrong, Y/N got separated from her friends during the last two songs and with the crazy crowd it was nearly impossible to find them again so she decided she was more than done for today. Her feet hurted from being stepped on and her head was killing her beside she smelled like a mixture of her own perfume and smoke.

As Y/N walked away from the crowd she could still hear them scream for the other band in line who was almost ready to enter the stage. Honestly she had absolutely no idea where she was going but it didn’t stopped her from trying to escape.

Y/N found a dark corridor, lighted up with blue lights where a few poster and guitars where hanged up on the walls so she followed it, in hopes it would lead her to the main exit, but when she was just passing by the middle something hit her head with such force that she fell backwards into the ground.

“What the fuck.” That was the first thing that came out of her annoyed mouth, both brows frown together as her head spinned.

“Oh my god, oh no oh shit.” Y/N heard a male voice speak, in panic, assuming it was the cause of her fall but she couldn’t bother in opening her eyes.

Once Y/N opened her eyes and saw the famous bassist Rudy Pankow in front of her, her the first reaction was to roll her eyes. He had changed into a black tshirt and his hair was wet all over the place, probably he showered after his show. Which made her think, was she roaming for that long? The night couldn’t get worse.

“Are you okay?” He asked, kneeling in front of her. Y/N was supporting her body in her forearms. When she opened her mouth to speak Rudy panicked again and placed his hand over her mouth, in fear she would scream and bring attention to him. “Please don’t scream!” He begged in a yell whisper.

“Get your disgusting hands off my face, I’m not going to scream you conceited ass.” Y/N chided pushing him off of her.

“Feisty one I see.” Rudy looked at her, up and down but before he could say anything loud screams interrupted him.

Out of other option the bassist grabbed Y/N’s hands pulling her back on her feet as he entered a room, that a few seconds later Y/N recognized as the males bathroom. She was more than done with the situation, rage was visible on her pupils as the screams pierced her ears.

“Ugh, fuck me.” Y/N whispered to herself, banging her head in the wall. At least it didn’t smelled like piss.

“Let me at least buy you dinner first.” Rudy joked and Y/N glared at him.

“This isn’t funny.” The girl sighed very frustrated. “And can you please give me room to breath?” She added while she pushed him away.

“Oh I’m so sorry miss, I think I forgot we are in a bathroom stall, next time I’ll find us a luxurious suite.” Rudy ironized.

“You aren’t funny and I don’t give a single fuck about your crazy fans so I’m leaving.” Snorted Y/N unlocking the door from the bathroom stall.

“You can’t leave. If anyone sees you leave and I follow I’m fucking dead with rumors and questions about “this mystery girl” He said with a loud frustrated groan. “Do you want to be that mystery girl?”

“I wanna go back to my normal life, so if you excuse me, I’m leaving.”

The moment Y/N tried to step outside the other door opened up and three blonde girls walked in like they were looking for something, or better, they looked like they were looking for water in the middle of the dessert and by dessert it reads the band members.

Rudy quickly pulled Y/N back into the stall with him before the other girls could find them, this time trapping her between his muscly arms back against the door, their luck was that the doors were long enough that from that outside no one could tell how many people where inside, because even if Y/N thought that the other girls looked dumb as hell they sure knew how to count until 4.

Y/N tried to speak but again Rudy placed his hand over her mouth tightly, making her stay silent until it was safe, but this time it was different. Their bodies were pressed so firmly against each other that Y/N could feel all of his muscles against her body and her breasts where pressed against his chest and her legs were trapped between his.

They both glared at each other, madly, Rudy just wanted her to stay quiet but every atom in her wanted to scream from the top of her lungs about how he thought he was the shit, sure Y/N couldn’t deny he was hot and that having his hand so close to her throat did made her wonder about other things but still he was an arrogant piece of shit and she was beyond mad and worried about her friends and how she would get home.

She tried to speak but everything came muffled due to his hand so she decided to bite his fingers, he immediately moaned in pain waving his hand trying to ease the stinging pain.

“You can’t stay quiet can’t you?” He whispered, done with her, in Y/N’s ear as he watched the skin of her neck shiver.

“Fuck you.” Y/N said looking straight at his eyes.

As they could hear the girls talk perfectly about the band Y/N made disgusted faces at their comments, especially the ones about Rudy, which made him boil he just didn’t understood why she didn’t like him. Everyone did.

“You know what they say about bass players right? Oh my god I just wish he did the same to me, fucking ruin me.” One of the girls said as they walked to the exist, Y/N cheeks automatically turned red as she tried to play it off by sticking her tongue out as if she was vomiting.

When the girls finally left Rudy pressed her even more to the bathroom stall door, he looked down at her, taking in her beautiful features.

“Can I go now?” Y/N questioned tapping her toe. Talking with him so close to her was difficult.

“Why don’t you like me?” He ignored her question.

“Oh for fucks sakes.” Y/N whined pushing him off, he sat in he toilet waiting for an answer. “Look it’s not like I hate you or something, your band is kinda good but I don’t know you so I can’t like you nor be obsessed over someone I don’t know!” Y/N explained to him like Rudy was a little child as she maneuver her hands in the her frenetically.

“So what you’re saying is if you knew me you would be crazy about me?” He teased her.

“In your dreams rockstar.” Y/N rolled her eyes trying to to laugh while she turned on her back to unlock the door but to her surprise it didn’t do anything. “Oh no.” She cried out in a whisper. “The door is locked.” Y/N stated looking at him. Rudy stood up quickly and in one small step his body was already closer to hers.

“Yes smartass, you just unlock it.” He said, without a doubt. “Or maybe not.” Rudy added after doing the same thing she did.

Great. Now she was stuck in a bathroom stall with a famous bassist, a very good looking one.

“Do something!” She order looking over her shoulder to see his face, realizing her back as pressed against his chest and their mouths were millimeters apart.

“I will just call someone.” He said, looking at her plump lips.

“Do it then idiot.” Y/N rolled her eyes trying to avoid the obvious tension as she pushed his chest.

Rudy quickly dialed some random number and after a couple seconds someone picked up.

“Yo man, I need your help. Where are you guys?” Rudy asked, rubbing the bridge of his nose.

Y/N was fast to realize that by the looks on his face he didn’t had good news. Rudy looked at her and sat down again while he placed his phone back into his pocket.

“We are fucked. Drew said it would take them about an hour to come get us out.” He explained.

“What am I going to do in an hour? This is totally torture.” Y/N ramble.

“I hope you know a lot do girls would kill to be in your position.” He said, getting up with arms crossed around his chest.

“And what is exactly my position?” Y/N placed one hand over her hip as she spoke.

“Well, you are here, stuck with me. All alone. In this small bathroom stall. I can imagine a lot of scenarios in my head.” Rudy spoke slowly, taking his time with every words to take in all of her little reactions while he with just two steps got closer to her face.

“And what those scenarios include?” Y/N decided to play along, now not leaning into the door she almost closed the space between them.

“They include you and I and much less clothing.” He whispered in the shell of her ear.

“You know what, for someone who has so many girls dropping to their feet you are pretty stupid.” Y/N whispered back into his ear, laughing.

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[interstellarbookofflowers]

02/02/2022 // squeaky clean new bujo spread + mathematics for chemical engineers

yeehaw bitches guess whos back? that's right, its le meh, yours truly, formerly known as i-actually-study-a-lot. yup, that's me, i am back. jumping on the studyblr bandwagon yet again because i am doing the february productivity challenge!! mostly bc i thought - right, this is a really cute and nice challenge to ease me back into the community, right? so before we jump to the prompts (bc yea i might be back, but i am still *a mess*), let's talk abt my comeback? idek if anyone remembers me here - i wasn't like a huge studyblr back then either, but it's not like i was a small one yk? so people did notice me falter in posting and then just rebrand and turn my cozy little blog even cozier with ~memes~. and yk what, i did miss the community, it was a home for me for a long time. what i don't miss tho are the insane perfection standards (my depressed ass can't, like again - i am *a mess*). but enough slander and history talk (that will come up later i am sure), i'm here to mingle ;) ;) study mingle. right. okay. onto the prompts!

Day 1: What’s your favourite podcast?

i don't listen to many, however!!!! czech ppl will probably know the algor mortis podcast? it's great, it's a true crime podcast by one of my friends <3 it's in czech tho, so rip to anyone who isn't czech.

Day 2: What are you reading right now?

nothing T.T well if i don't count study material. master's is shite, there's so much to do, so much to read, so much to CALCULATE. and i can't read anymore. unless it's a fanfic ;)

see ya tomorrow hopefully, amigos

#mine #february productivity challenge #studyblr #studyspo #chemical engineering #bujo #stemblr #study blog #studying #study session #study mode #chemblr #engineering #i used to tag ppl before but damn idk if all the studyblrs i knew are still like. there #ahahahhh im old #2016 studyblr yall

[passwithclassandaniceass]

I just saw @language-sanctuary post about neurodivergence in the wider study or communities and how we don’t always talk about being neurodivergent in academia.

They made an excellent point that this is something we can fix by just starting the conversation. It’s so important to me that this be something we discuss in our communities. I’ve shared bits and pieces of my journey before but I’d like to share a bit again and also highlight what it has meant for me academically.

My sophomore year of undergrad (‘16/‘17) I started getting so dizzy I couldn’t walk straight. I was constantly fatigued and my hands shook all the time. I saw multiple medical professionals and they told me it was just a new manifestation of my anxiety and didn’t offer me much in the way of trying to treat it. At this point I was hardly treating my general anxiety disorder. They sent me for a CT scan and it came back clean so they said I was fine and sent me off.

The middle of winter quarter it was so bad I was failing classes, vomiting every day, and so dizzy I was struggling to walk anywhere. I finally went back to the first GP I had seen who was my primary and she finally referred me to a neurologist when I said I was pretty sure it was something to do with migraines. The neurologist ran tests and did an MRI (which was clean, no tumors! yay!). He diagnosed me with acute migraines. At this point we weren’t even sure how many I was having since they rolled one right into the next. I got on medication and scheduled regular check ups.

I went back about my life while we continued to adjust medication dosage and I started experiencing side affects. I’m not going to talk more about the medication and treatment journey and instead I am going to jump ahead to junior year.

After a summer of being constantly sick but somewhat better as I learned my triggers and kept on meds (which had their own issues) I started fall quarter incredibly optimistic. Then I took a class where exams counted for almost my entire grade. Exams had become nearly impossible for me and in all of my classes I had been passing by doing well on homework. Then my ability to do homework started to drop as junior year got increasingly more difficult. In my program junior year is one of the toughest years as you have to balance all of your regular work plus a lab based project. I failed the exam based class and got put on academic probation. During this time I was also taking a class with an amazing math professor.

On her quizzes and exams I kept writing “I ran out of time, I know how to do it but I’m out of time.”, she was such an amazing teacher. The rest of this could be a love letter to her honestly. She started grading my quizzes based on effort and she asked me to come by her office to chat. When I did she asked me what was going on, and asked if running out of time had always been part of my academic journey. I told her everything and just sort of unloaded on her. She comforted me, told me she saw how hard I was working, and then she told me something that rocked my world (it may seem small). She told me “You can ask for help in academia, none of your professors are going to think less of you for asking for what you need.” she gave me the email for disability services and explained that sometimes academic disabilities are different than what we typically think of.

She was the reason I was able to go to disability services and ask for what I needed. I got extended test time, the ability to reschedule a test if I was having a migraine episode that was severe, and it opened up the conversation with my professors to talk about what I needed. My grades started to go back up, I felt more confident, and I was even able to get the F removed from my transcript and taken off academic probation because of medical exception.

I say all of this because I want to be clear; I struggle a lot because of my migraines, anxiety, and depression. My migraines even managed to give me an eating disorder that I will always be recovering from. But by being open about my struggles I was able to get the accommodations I needed to even the playing field. It’s still hard, some days I feel like I’m working twice as hard for a C. My neurodivergence and learning issues aren’t something that I will have to talk to much about in the professional world. I’ve managed to get my self to a place where even as hard as it is I can make myself seem “normal” even if that takes a lot of effort. I am lucky in that. I know how bad it is for my friends who can’t hide their neurodivergence and “pass”. But I want you to know that whether your divergence is obvious or silent; you can ask for help and support. You should demand it until you get it. I will always advocate for fair practices in academia. And I want you to know that if you’re thinking “Wow, more time would make all the difference for me.” or “I wish I was able to ask for extensions on my bad days.” but you aren’t sure where to start. Send me a message or an ask and I will help you figure out how to get started.

I love the studyblr community but I know that I often get caught up in the aesthetic, and this has always been a space of accountability and growth for me. I’d like it to be that for everyone.

#studyblr #studyspo #study tips #neurodiversity #neurodiversity in studyblr #gradblr

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Finding your audience

Part 3 in my like + reblog series.

In part 2, we discussed the results of part 1 and what might be better to focus on instead of the like to reblog ratio. In this post, we’re going to dive in deeper into that! These tips can be useful for reaching to a wider audience or trying new theme types outside of your comfort zone.

Like the other posts in this series, it is pretty long, and will have a summary added in an update. 

Sections of this post:

Who is your target audience?

Blog Type

Blog Theme

Blog Features

More tips

Who is your target audience?

In order to reach whatever your goal is for your theme, it’s important to understand who your target audience is*.

Some questions to consider:

What kind of blog does this theme suit best?

Is your preview ‘themed’ in a specific way (aesthetic, fandom, etc)?

Does it have any special features specific to certain blog types (fansite, blog members section, commission page, etc)?

*A small disclaimer: you do not have to do any of the things I’m about to list below. Ultimately, make themes you want to make + how you want to make them. These are just tips if you are stuck and want to reach more users.

These tips can also apply if you are perfectly fine with your current audience but want to get better at making previews!

Blog Type

Look at whatever theme you’re working on, and think about what kind of blog type will use this theme the most and make it look the best. 

If your theme has 3 columns, odds are your posts will be on the smaller side and won’t look as good with text heavy blogs. In this case, you should make your theme preview appeal to blogs that usually don’t reblog text heavy things like aesthetic blogs and art blogs. Try to be consistent with your posts so that it’s clear what blog type you are going for. 

If your theme has a lot of image based elements (whether it’s sidebar, header, or other image placements), you should go for blogs that reblog/make icons + graphics. This can be blogs that feature fandom gifs/edits, rp blogs, kpop blogs, etc. They will be more likely to have a good eye for images that go well together and fit in with your theme’s design. 

Blog Theme

While not every blog has a specific theme it follows, a lot do have something they primarily focus on! They might not be particular when it comes to choosing their theme, but they will be more likely to choose something that features the thing they post about. 

An example of this happening is my theme Facade. I included a fandom post that I didn’t even realize was from that fandom, the aesthetic just matched the theme perfectly. The theme got reblogged heavily from that fandom, and got a lot bigger than I was anticipating! While this one wasn’t intentional, almost all of my most popular themes are using this method. 

The easiest way to do this is make your theme preview feature things you are interested in as well, or are familiar with. The more familiar you are with a fandom’s ‘aesthetic’, the easier this will be to incorporate in a theme’s design, plus it’s fun to do when you’re passionate about it! 

This can be picking a sidebar + header that features characters/actors, or featuring edits + fanart from that fandom. This works well if you want to appeal to that fandom but also want people outside of the fandom interested as well. 

You can also go all out and make something directly inspired by a fandom. Video game inspired UI, using fonts from movies/tv shows, incorporating album covers in your design, are all ways to feature fandoms in your themes more directly.

Keep in mind that this option might make you lose audiences that are not part of the fandom, so if you want a more universal appeal, option 1 might be better. .

Try to look for blog themes/fandoms that have a strong community but aren’t really featured in themes. This doesn’t mean you can’t release a theme inspired by a very popular community, but your theme has a higher chance of getting lost in a long list of already existing themes. 

Blog Features

Some users have specific things they look for in a theme because of the type of blog they have. These things might not appear in your average theme, so they’re more likely to be on the lookout for specific features and pass on themes that don’t have them. 

Writing blogs are a good example of this. These can be fanfic writers, studyblrs, or just language/writing blogs in general! Lots of themes are geared more towards photo posts, and previews will often reflect and highlight these over text posts.

If you want to appeal to this group, make sure your preview highlights text posts, and that your text post styling really stands out. One complaint I’ve seen from this user group is that a lot of theme posts are too small for what they��re writing, so themes with larger posts and larger text will appeal to this group more. 

RP blogs are another example. Similar to writing blogs, but usually come with a different set of needs. RP blogs have a lot of replies, so having dashboard captions might be a better option than blockquotes for readability. Sometimes they include icons in their replies, so make sure your themes support smaller images in posts and won’t stretch them out. They also might look for members + muse sections, rules sections/popups, and places to add custom graphics.

More tips

One thing that is universal in all of these options is doing your research. If you’re trying to appeal to a wider audience than what you currently have, you might have to step outside of your comfort zone. 

It’s never okay to steal someone’s design, but do study other blog themes that your target audience uses. This isn’t really about the design of the theme, but what features they have. What do these blogs have in common? Do they share color schemes, font choices? Do they prefer sidebars over headers? Do they like simple or complex themes?

These are all things you should consider when making a theme for your target audience. 

Going back to blog themes, I would personally avoid intentionally going after what is popular just to increase your note count. If you’re not really into what you’re making, it might start feeling like a chore and draining to make. You also run the risk of it feeling ‘empty’ compared to your other work. The extra notes aren’t really worth that, in my opinion. But if that doesn’t bother you, by all means go for it! Just a warning as someone who tried that for my 2nd ever (and since long deleted) theme because I was new. 

Finally, if your target audience is small, your note count might reflect that. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing! If your target audience loves your theme, then it is still successful!

I’m also saying this to not get discouraged if your theme doesn’t go beyond a smaller group. That doesn’t mean it was a bad theme, your audience might just be really niche, and that’s ok! 

However, if you want to change that, then hopefully this post has been helpful!

In part 4 I will cover reaching audiences that might not be actively looking for themes

#theme making #tumblr themes #like to reblog ratio #tips #advice #blog

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Just Another Shade Of Blue | JJ Maybank

Summary: You’re a kook, and somehow, you’ve become friends with the infamous Kook hater, JJ Maybank. For summer break your father is letting you take a trip anywhere, with whoever you’d like for a few days, as a “I’m sorry your mom and I are divorcing, but please love me” present. Who else would you take other than the one person who you think could use a little vacation from the outer banks? 

Inspired By: If They Only Knew - Alfie Arcuri & Bittersweet - musicbyblanks

Warnings: angst(?)

Word Count: 3.3k

A/N: This was supposed to be a Rudy imagine/fic/one shot but I find it incredibly hard to write for real people so I changed it to JJ. I hope the ones who asked to be tagged in the Rudy one don’t mind the substitution but I was working on it for too long and nothing was working out how I would have liked so here we are with the same concept but inspired by a different song. This turned out way longer than I expected. 

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Tag List: @afterglowsb-tch13​ @n1ghtsh4d3-67​ @hucklebaefinn​ @milamaybank​ @marianas-studyblr​

The last few months were not easy for you. Your parents had finally been filing for the divorce they threatened for many years, but that in now way made the fighting stop, if anything it made it far worse. Almost every night for the last month both your mother and father ended up in a screaming match downstairs over something small and insignificant. At first it was what college you were going to, then where you were going to live, and the cherry on top, how they weren't trying to control your life. Even though that was completely true. 

Tonight was no different. Your mother was screaming at your father about how you should not be allowed to go off to a completely different country alone without a parent. You knew the trip was only even mentioned because your father wanted you to stay with him once the devorce was finalized, which you had no problem with but if you were getting a free trip, to wherever you wanted in the world, with all expenses paid and spending money, you weren't going to turn it down. 

Although your father got lucky with investing into some real estate company and you now had more money than you knew what to do with, You had never been one for the Kook lifestyle. The thought of getting into places just because you had money was never appealing, and the thought of hanging around shallow rich people was something that sounded like the lowest ring of hell to you. You found comfort and friendship within the small family of Pogues. They didn’t seem to care about your social status, as long as you were there for them, they were there for you. Like tonight. 

You’ve had enough of the screaming coming from downstairs, after climbing out of your second floor window you made your way to the lake house you have spent many nights at. The chateau was on the other side of the island but the walk was better than listening to your parents for god knows how long, they could go on for hours. The house was dark, no lights were on except for the one outside above the front door, it was light with a dim amber glow that helped guide you up the few stairs. You let yourself in, not bothering to knock seeing as the brunette who inhabited the home was probably well asleep by now. You weren’t surprised when you saw JJ sitting on the couch, he stayed with John B a lot, but you were surprised to see he still seemed wide awake. 

“Hey,” You sighed, walking into the living room  “What are you doing here, it's late?” The blonde asked, getting straight to the point.  “Fighting again,” You shrugged, sitting on the couch next to the tired looking boy. “Divorce stuff or different shit?”  “Kook stuff,” You shrugged, knowing he probably didn’t want to hear it seeing as how he couldn’t wrap his head around how people could have so much money and still have problems.  “Shoot,” He said, surprising you. 

With your eyebrows raised and eyes wide you turned to him, “Really?”  The blonde shrugged, “Why not, got nothing better to do,”  You nodded, “Dad said I could go anywhere I wanted for three days, all expenses paid and he’d give me however much money I wanted to spend on shit, as his way of saying ‘I love you please stay with me once the devorce is over’ and mom’s mad because she doesn’t think I should go to another country alone,” You sighed, crossing your arms once you had finished explaining. “Kook stuff,” You repeated.  “Wow, you’re right. Kook Shit,” JJ chuckled  You nodded, “I told you,”  You thought the boy was just going to shrug it off, and move on because it was after all, kook shit, but he surprised you with what he said next.  “You said she’s mad because she doesn't want you going alone, right?” the blonde asked  “Yeah, pissed,” You nodded  “Why don’t you take someone with you, I mean by the sounds of it your dad is going to give you whatever you want until the divorce is done,” The boy shrugged, “I’d take advantage if that if I were you,” 

You thought about what he was saying for a second. In the first offer from your dad, he did mention you could take a friend, any friend, he didn’t say they had to be of the female gender. An idea popped into your head, one that was surely to piss off your mother further.  “Do you want to come with me?” You asked, catching JJ off guard  “What? I don’t have the money for that,” He said  “All expenses paid,” You said, “Dad said I could take anyone I wanted, so i'm asking you,” 

JJ continued to shake his head and give you the normal spew of excuses, you'd heard them a thousand times when you asked him to come over or stay the night, even if it was your dad asking him to stay for supper. But this time, you weren't taking no for an answer.  “No, I'm not giving up until you say yes. Will you, JJ Maybank, accompany me in an all expenses paid trip to Paris, France?” You asked, flashing your best attempt at puppy dog eyes, the same ones that had worked on your parents so many times before, the same ones that had been used to get you and your friends out of heaps of trouble in the past. The blonde boy held eye contact with you for a few seconds before looking away and shaking his head at you, “Fine, fine, I’ll go with you,” He sighed in defeat, chuckling.  You grinned, “Yay, we leave Thursday, 5:00am,”  “Five am?” JJ said, shocked, “That's so early,”  “So?” You shrugged, “Stay over Wednesday, it will save us time and will make sure you're there.”  “Fine, alright. It looks like I’m going to Paris with you,” He smiled slightly.  You grinned, “I cannot wait,” 

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JJ had never been on a plane before, flying and airports were a new thing for him. When the plane started to take off he looked terrified, but nothing compared to the way his eyes shot open when you hit your first patch of turbulence. It was comical for you, as much as you tried to calm him down you couldn’t hold back your laughter to do so. But the boy had no shortage of sarcastic comebacks.  Your flight landed at 1:00 PM, giving you time to settle back onto the ground before dinner. JJ seemed relieved when the plane’s wheels finally touched down onto the cement of the runway.

The two of you were sharing a hotel room. The room only had one decent sized bed. At the time of booking the room your father assumed you’d be bringing along a female friend, so there would be no issue in sharing a bed. You and JJ stood in the doorway looking at the one bed, saying that it would be alright but in all honesty neither of you have shared a bed together before and this was going to be something new. Even in the Chateau, you never bunked together in the spare room, or even at your house, he always bunked on the pull out couch in the corner. 

By the time you were fully settled into the surroundings you’d been starving from the journey, the hotel was surviving dinner but it didn’t look like something either of you wanted to try and so the search for something more american was in way. You walked down the busy Paris street, your arm linked with JJ’s to ensure you wouldn’t get lost, as you looked for any kind of burger joint restaurant.  Your camera hung around your neck alerting everyone you were tourists, but that wasn’t the only dead give away. You were in no big rush to find a place to eat even though you were hungry, you both seemed to forget about that once you stepped foot out of the hotel. The old buildings and beautifully detailed architecture work caught your attention as the setting sun flashed golden rays upon the bricks that built up the city, leaving a golden hue hanging in the air to engulf you. It was summer in Paris and it had been everything you’d imagined it could be. It was beautiful and warm and it felt like the rest of the world didn’t exist as you walked down the street with the Pogue, you were finally in a place where nobody focused on your social titles such as Kook or Pogue, you could just be. 

After dinner as the two of you were walking through the winding streets that were lit by amber glowing street lights, it felt like it was just the two of you in the world. Like whatever life back home didn’t matter. There were groups of teens scattering the streets, laughing and messing around with their friends. It felt like everything in the night was infinite, like you didn’t have to worry about tomorrow because everything was going to stay exactly how it was. You only had one full day in Paris, your flight to go back home leaves on Sunday, but you were going to make the most of it with the blonde boy who was accompanying you. 

“So?” You asked as you walked down the cobblestone path holding JJ’s hand, “What do you think?”  His eyes were glittered with yellow and orange reflections from the lights as you looked at him, he was in awe of the beautiful city, “Its- wow. I’ve never seen anything like it.” He sighed, with a small smile.  “I’ve always wanted to come here since I was a kid. I thought I could have a romance like in the movies but I ended up falling in love with the city,” You sighed, a content smile came to rest upon your lips.  “A romance like the movies?” JJ turned to you with a teasing smirk.  “Hey,” You playfully hit his shoulder. “It's beautiful, alright.”  “I never took you for that kind of person,” He shrugged  You nodded, “I know, I don't mention or even pursue it. Somethings feel best left unsaid, because then they cant fall apart on you,”  “If you never try to find it you’ll never know if it had the chance to fall apart,” he pointed out “Maybe that's for the best,” You shrugged, leaning out over the side of the bridge to get a photo from one of the canals. Although you felt like that conversation was far from over, JJ dropped it for the moment being.

The city was even more beautiful in the day but you did really prefer it at night. You dragged JJ out of bed bright and early to go sightseeing. You spent the day walking around the historic city, wandering through the winding streets, looking through small shops as well as paying a very thorough visit to the street lined with tourist vendors. The line for Notre-Dame was long but so worth it. Inside the beautiful gothic cathedral was huge stained glass windows that sent colourful patterns onto the floor. It was packed, you followed the direction of the crowd but clung onto JJ’s arm so you didn’t lose him, something that you have become accustomed to in the last 24 hours. It was dim inside but there was still enough light to see where you were going, and be able to make out the beautiful stone work on the inside of the cathedral. As you were coming back around to the exit, security began pushing people aside, clearing the way and holding you back with a red velvet rope. At first when you were grabbed by the shoulders and pulled away from JJ you thought you were being thrown out for something but quickly you came to realize what was happening and you were able to get back over to the other side of the cleared path to JJ’s side again. Your heartbeat in your throat as you took a breath.  “Jesus christ, that scared the shit outta me” You sighed once you were able to continue walking The boy you clung to once again nodded.  “Me too, I thought we were getting thrown out,” He chuckled 

As the sun was setting you took one last tour around the tourist shops, making your last purchases before heading off to the eiffel tower. Thankfully you purchased your tickets earlier in the day and you didn’t have to wait in the winding line up. You and JJ walked through, flashing your tickets to the workers and to the elevator operator. Once everyone piled out one side you were allowed on. You were pressed up against the very back of the elevator. Inside the metal cart that was hauling you up the tower was small, it couldn't have been anymore than 4’x4’ but it felt like almost 50 people squeezed in, all eager to overlook the city and see all the twinkling lights from above. Once you came to the first stop JJ pulled you off with him. Slowly you made your way around, looking out over the city and snapping a few photos from 187 feet up. The streets and lights were still very much visible, you could still see the people walking on the sidewalks. Without wasting any more time you got inline for the elevator going to the very top. If you thought you were squashed before, you didn’t even know what to call it this time. It felt like the ride to the very top took far longer than the one to the first level. You were pressed into the corner, with JJ mostly in front of you. Both doors opened this time, you were able to slip out the back doors that you were pressed into on the way up, and finally you got to look out over the city. It looked almost magical, like you had entered another dimension from the slow moving elevator.

Everything on the ground, 906 feet below you, faded away into a small dot. The people weren’t even visible, only the lights from the moving cars alerted you there were still people down there. Quickly you snapped a few shots of the city scape below you that was lit with amber glowing lights, before turning your camera and pointing it was the blonde boy who was standing next to you. He was looking out over the city, he may have been in awe the first time seeing how the city came to life at night but right now, when he looked back to you, his eyes held an emotion you hadn’t seen from him before, it was something unreadable. Something intriguing.  “Beautiful, isn't it?” You asked, putting your camera away in your bag, deciding you were going to live in the moment for the rest of the night.  JJ nodded, “Gorgeous, I can’t believe I'm actually here.” He was impressed. 

As you walked around the very top you witnessed multiple couples doing the very romantic kiss from the top of the Eiffel Tower, while a generous bystander took their phone or camera and snapped a couple of photos from them. You looked at JJ after witnessing yet another couple kiss, he looked back at you, it was like you both wanted to say something but were too afraid to speak until JJ cleared his throat.  “Would you like to pursue a scene straight out of your movie romance dream?” JJ asked with his famous smirk, his blue eyes light up with the faint twinkling of the outside lights on the tower. Your words almost got stuck in your throat, out of all things that was something you had not expected him to ask, nevertheless, you nodded. “I would be honoured,” You smiled. You both handed your phones off to two different people, asking one to video and the other to snap photo bursts. You stood with you back to the railing of the tower and JJ held you by your hips, one hand quickly coming up to cup your jaw as he leant in, connecting your lips together in a soft yet deep kiss. Your hands instinctively linked at the back of his neck, and you pulled him back in for one more quick peck before letting him pull away completely.

There was no lie in the world that could hide how you felt right now. Your lips tingled, and your stomach filled with butterflies and you could swear you saw fireworks. It was like every movie romance ever. People around you clapped like they did for everyone, assuming you were together. 

Getting down from the tower was not as easy as getting up, the demand to be taken back down from the tower was huge, the lines winded around almost too far and you could almost argue that as soon as you stepped off the elevator from coming up you would be joining the line to go down. 

It took way too long to get down but even with the clock reading 12:30 AM, you weren't tired. Far from it actually. You didn’t know if it was from the kiss or if it was because you didn’t want the night to end. But you and JJ found yourselves running through the emptying streets as the early hours of the morning approached. The two of you laughing like you had no cares in the world, because as you were walking through the empty streets, it truly felt like it was just the two of you in the world. It was just the two of you and that city on earth. 

You were pulled down onto the blondes lap when he sat down on a park bench. As you admired his flawless tan skin in the moonlight and amber glow from the streetlights, his eyes looked bluer than ever, like what you’d imagine the deepest part of the ocean would look like if you dug deeper. His hand grip around you waist tightened and your hands that sat on his shoulders came up to gently cup his cheeks as you slowly leaned in. Before you knew it he closed the rest of the distance between your lips and you were kissing him, hard. Like he was about to slip away and out of your grasp, like it was a dream and you were desperately trying to cling onto anything that could keep you asleep for longer. 

The longer you kissed him the harder his hands gripped your hips, the closer he pulled you. One of your hands held onto his shoulder and the other found home in his hair as you pulled away out of need for oxygen. Your breathing was as heavy as if you two had just gone at it for 20 minutes, but the truth was the kiss didn’t even last a minute. You looked down into his dark blue eyes, in the yellow hue of the Paris lighting and it was like your heart knew this was your movie romance. And like waves on a beach shore, you were falling and crashing hard. 

“I’m sorry,” You breathed out immediately, your hand feeling out of his hair. The blue-eyed blonde shook his head “don’t ever be sorry for that,” He pulled you in for another kiss and it was like the universe had exploded all over again. Every nerve ending in your body had been brought to life, you felt every inch of his lips on yours. Out of all the people you were bound to meet in this lifetime, you never expected JJ Maybank to be the one you’d fall for. But as he was kissing you as the two of you sat in a random park, in Paris, everything you thought you knew or ever might know became irrelevant and unimportant, the only thing you knew for sure was that you were in love with the boy you were kissing so hungrily at 3:00 AM.  JJ was your tv romance, something that took you awhile to see it but once you did, you fell hard and fast. 

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[superconfusedandreadytorumble]

It is the 23rd July, 2021. The summer heats have finally subsided, the morrows now cool giving us normal folk the ability to catch a breather before the work begins anew. The harvest is-

Yeah no, enough of this. It is the day it is but truth be told all this post is supposed to be is an answer to my darling @laninlurks who has tagged me back in March and did not even have the decency to tell me personally! Yeah girl, how dare you! You know I´m not tech-savvy, I´m old. Well at least I feel like it in my head...

So here I go, playing this little game (this is considered a game, right? I have absolutely no idea. I´ve seen this kind of “introduce yourself” thingies here on tumblr but this is the first time I´m participating. Thanks again LANIN!)

Well, let´s get over this:

Name/Nickname: uhhhhh... Yeah, no I know how this goes. Name equals power so you fae can forget it, I ain´t buying this. You shall have no power over me. Ha! As if I´d fall for such a cheap trick. Hahaha! Nah, but on a serious note I really did not think of anything what people coul call me here... I guess Superconfused works?

Gender: female

Height: 5´8″ (thank you Google for converting cm to feet and inches)

Time: 2.55pm

Favourite Bands: Okay, let me stop you guys right there. I´m not going to go posting a ton of different band names because my music taste is very eclectic and most of the time I either do not know the name of the song/band that I´m into. If I hear it and my brain starts projecting a story it´s a good song for me.

Favourite solo artist: *looks up to the previous point* Yeah, you guys get the message

Song stuck in my head: Ohhh now that is easy! It is currently a mix between “A whole new World” from Aladdin (1992), “Save your Tears” by The Weekend feat. Ariana Grande, “Plastic Hearts” by Miley Cyrus and “Racing into the Night” by YOASOBI

Last Movie: The Avengers: Endgame

Last Show: Loki

When did I create this blog: Good heavens, I have absolutely no idea... Lanin, you´ll probably know that... can I check this somewhere? Somehow? Eh... let´s leave it at that, I have no  clue... may have been 2 or 3 years ago

How it started: After ages of going around and sending myself link after link so I would not lose sight of great posts and until my email inbox was full, I finally decided to make myself an account. That is it. That´s the story.

How´s it going: *looks around* Good, I guess? I mean, I´m still here, so...

What I post: Ufffffffff. Everything and anything that touches or inspires me, I guess? The content here that I reblog is as eclectic as my music tastes. We got witchy stuff, fandom stuff, quotes, life lessons, you name it. I did finally get around to making an additional blog to reblog all of the wonderful pieces of fan content here and leave a comment because till now I have been very neglectful of that. But that is another story...

Aesthetic: Personal? Blog related? I have absolutely no idea... Next question please.

Last thing I googled: That would be the conversion of cm to feet, but if that does not count then it was an anatomical picture of the hymen. There was a conversation ging on in the family and I had to explain the location. It was much easier with visuals, I tell you.

Other blogs: And I just mentioned mine two paragraphs ago xD Well then there´s the @studyblr-beginner where I try to collect info on how to be a more productive student (with mixed efforts I might add) and the @stillconfusedandreadytorumble .

Following: Anything witchblr, studyblr, any blog that feeds into my current obsession of any fandom, cottagecore, academia be it light/romantic/dark, quotes, art, etc. Seriously, anything...

Followers: Eh, I think 2 or 3 poor misguided souls... Yeah, okay so I checked and apparently there´s 44 of you. 44!!!! Like guys, guys, are you okay? What are you doing here? Not that I´m not grateful but I´m also very very VERY confused right now... Hi?

Average sleep: 7 hours, if I have time to sleep in even more

Lucky number: I do not really believe in that... Although if I see a platenumber with three identical numbers beside each other I take it as a good omen

Instruments: I may have tried to learn the piano years ago but it was never really my thing

What I am wearing: an oversized shirt with the wolf medallion logo form “The Witcher” series, black shorts and a dark green dressing gown with flowers and pretty little humming birds. Yes, I´m in my sleep wear. No, I am not ashamed. The last couple of days have been hell, I´m still recuperating.

Dream job: Physician, and I´m working hard to get that damn doctors degree.

Favourite animal noise: wolves howling. That moment when it sends chills down your back, when the hairs on your arms stand? Love it and it gets me every time.

Random: If asked a question I start stuttering and mumbling and warbled bla-bla just comes out of my mouth until I try collecting my thoughts. That may take a couple of seconds though.

Dream trip: Japan, Prague, Venice, these three are from the top of my head but otherwise I´d like to travel and see the world. Yes, vague, I know but the world is big and nobody has time to write long lists about this.

Favourite food: Dumplings. Do not, I repeat, do not make me specify which dumplings cause I´ll eat or at least ry them all if given the change. I already diviate from my normal answer of “There is so much good stuff out there, I could never choose”, okay?

Nationality: Welp, before I make this any more complicated I´ll just stick to what is in my passport: AUSTRIAN 

Favourite song: May I refer you back to the paragraph that says Favourite Band/solo singer, please and thank you.

Last book I read: “Alice´s Adventures in Wonderland” by Lewis Carroll

Top 3 fictional universes I would like to live in: Currently it would be either Lord of the Rings, Witcher or Boku no hero academia. Ask me in 3 months and I bet with you that answer might have changed again.

Tagging: Oh boy... who am I supposed to tag that will not shoot me on sight or think of me being a total lunatic, @laninlurks you don´t count, after all you put me in this mess... Who are the last couple of ppl I had a conversation with? Oh okay, if you guys don´t want to do this, just scratch and ignore that but then again all of my 44 followers are very welcome to do this (still can´t warp my head around the amount of ppl). I´ll just tagg @lostoctaviaaugusta and @thewhit3w0lf , but again please don´t shoot on sigth. I promise I´m harmless.

Okay guys, whoever made it this far, I applaud you, cause really you deserve a medal. thank you for reading I guess and have a wonderful day.

Hugs and kisses!

#get to know me #tagg game #rambling

[365text]

tag game!

thanks for tagging me as always @study-van uwu

Rules: MAKE A NEW POST, bold what applies to you and tag whoever you want to get to know better.

Appearance

I'm an I-need-to-pull-the-driver-seat-all-the-way-in kind of a person // i wear glasses or contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i wear makeup // i don’t often smile  // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backward

Hobbies and Talents

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic (well i enjoy partaking in ~*creative*~ hobbies ??) // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition  // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami (do i even remember anymore tho LOL tbt PAPER FLAPPING CRANES !!) // i prefer movies to t.v shows  // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing  // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

Relationships

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year  // i have a crush  // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long-distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend (hehe apart from studyblr, TBT MY KPOP DAYS LOL) // i met up with someone i have met online (from my appblr days omg)

Aesthetic

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sunrise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars (if u count in a tent lOL) // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep (i used to all the time heh) // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colors // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

Misc

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities (i was heavily involved when i was still in school LOL) // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift  // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower (sometimes hehe) // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least one dog // i have a cat

i tag !! these people + whoever wants to do it, just say i tagged you! :”) 

@stuhde @terhangus @rylie-studies @jinjii-kikko @ohk4te @cozyism

#tag game #hehe #no pressure to do it but u know :~)

[rainbowcolouredstudies]

Mental Health Studying Tips!

So I know that a lot of us are struggling with their mental health and I know from my own experience how hard it can be to study when you are depressed, anxious, have panic attakcs etc. There is not one solution that fits everybody, but there are solutions that help a lot of people and even if they may not help always, they may help sometimes; and that´s why I want to share them with you guys.

Environment

Bevor you start to study, think about your environment and about your needs. You live alone at home or with a family that harms your mental health? You hate being alone in a quiet room? You have very little room at home or many distractions? Then you should probably avoid studying at home. But what can you do instead? Well, there are multiple places you could go, depending on your requirements!

o   Study with friends! If you need to be with people to not drown in your own thoughts or triggers, study in a group or at least with one friend. This is especially great, if you need lots of social contact or distractions from yourself. Explain the topic to each other, practise together, maybe write an excerpt together.

o   Get a baby sitter (for a small calm child or baby) or an cat/dog sitter job! This gives you access to a totally different place. A calm child won´t need that much attention all the time as many children have lots of toys for playing alone. Animals neither need constant attention but they are a great comfort if you are struggling with your mental health. This of course is a bit risky because the child or animal might need lots of attention but it can be worth a try, especially if you can filter out the ones over time, that stress you and only keep the clients that allow you a relaxed study atmosphere.

o   Go to a library! Whether it is a public one or the one of your school/university, there will be lots of seats and often even multiple computer and printer that you can use for a really little amount of money. Of course you have to hope to get a seat there but most cities have some „hidden“ libraries, unknown to most people and therefore less crowed. Adult education centres too have often rooms with tables to which the public has access. And most universities have huge reading halls where you can work in a quiet and calm atmosphere. Make a list of all the places your city offers and find out, where you are most comfortable.

o   In summer, you can study outside: Be it in the park, beside a river order in a forest even. You can either look up such places or just walk around till you find places you like. This is of course not ideal if you have to use a laptop, but if you charge it before leaving your home, it will give you some hours of studying between sunlight and singing birds – which can be very calming and grounding.

o   If you are the type for auditive studying (which does not work for all subjects but for many) you can record yourself explaining the topics and then listen to these records while going for a walk. This is especially good if you tend to have too much energy to sit for a long time.

o   Many people also study in a Café. You are not alone but you also don´t have to communicate. Of course you mostly have to consume a drink so this can be a bit difficult if you have financial problems. Also you should search for a Café that has tables that are big enough for your laptop or books. Look for a Café that´s not too crowed or you might have to consume all the time in order to stay there.

These of course are situations that can be problematic. They are limited to certain times, space limits like empty seats and weather circumstances. That´s why I do recommend these study environments only for those, who have no other choice because either their mental health or their family makes it impossible to study at home. If you are one of these people, then you´ll need a tight time schedule; everything has to be planned and coordinated because you basically have to finish your studying till these places close.  I therefore also ask all the other people, that can study at home, that don´t have problems with studying in their own room, to leave the seats a bit more often to the ones that need them more!

But this is not the only thing that counts as environment. Even if you study at home there are so many factors you have to decide:

-        Do you need to have it cosy? Then you will probably love studying in your bed or, if it is carpeted, on the floor. Yes, studying on the floor can be great because you have lots of space and you can use a notebook or laptop as table on your lap so that you will be able to write properly. When reading it is even more pracitcal!

-        If you have troubles staying awake, definitely choose a normal table. This can be the table at your room but it can also be in the kitchen or the living room if it is quiet enough there. Often the kitchen table is the biggest so that may be great if you have to work with many books!

-        If you have a balcony or garden, this is also a great place to study. But make sure your paper sheets won´t fly away!

Make always sure to study at a place where you feel safe but also not distracted! Your mental stability is one of the most important factors for successful studying.

Okay, so now you know where you want to study. Now you need…

The Setup

The setup basically means what you surround yourself with during your study sessions. Find things that motivate you, that remind you of something beautiful or positive but that don´t distract you too much. This might be cute pastel stationery or maybe a plushie that calms you. Crystals also help for many people. Basically it should be something that makes the study space a safe zone for you. If you study in your own room, this is very easy: print out beautiful calming pictures, buy one or two easy to handle plants, maybe some fairy lights or other decorations. Get sticky notes and highlighter in the colours that calm you the most. If you have a bit more money, buy framed pics in these colours, sheets, carpets, curtains. Anything that helps you relax is great. But attention! You don´t have to find beige and white and black, or pastel colours or glitter or rosegold or succulents relaxing. A wooden skull, black walls, a picture from Dali and an old clock can do the same for you maybe. Or maybe you need some space aesthetics? Maybe science fiction, fantasy, wildlife…anything can be right for you. It does not have to fit the tumblr standards of a perfect studyblr; it has to fit your standards and only yours!

Make sure to keep everything you need at hand. Having to get up and search for study materials can really harm your focus or motivation. So get all the books you will need, the laptop, the charging wires, paper and pencils, water and maybe a snack. Especially when you don´t study at home it is important that you take everything with you – you´ll not want to hurry back. Also make sure to have enough light – best is natural day light but if you cannot have these, a soft yellow light is often better for your mental health than a bright and cold white one. Fresh air is important too. Find music, that helps you relax, no matter what kind of music this is.

The time schedule

Especially when you have issues with your mental health, a well planned time schedule is important so you won´t get stressed. Make a to-do-list for everything you need to get done. Then draw a star beside the things that you have to get done until tomorrow. Do these things thirst. Afterwards, allow yourself a break but don´t stop studying for that day. The further you get, the less stress you will have. Study until you find you are getting tired – often physical tiredness comes short before a mental health issue. Stop as soon as you get too tired, so that you won´t trigger your anxiety or depression (I know for many people it is always there, but it can be stronger or less string. Tiredness makes every mental health issue stronger and this something that you can truly avoid.) Okay, so stop. Just stop. You´ve done as much as you could and you can´t do more now – your mental and physical health is still more important than your grades!

Don´t go to bed immediately. Having no free time is one of the worst things you can do to your mental health! Enjoy something: Go out for a walk or talk to a friend, watch a movie, read a chapter oft he book you wanted to read for ages. Sit back and listen to music, close your eyes and just enjoy it. Write in your mental health journal, and if you don´t have one, go get one now! (I will make a post about that topic soon). Don´t go too much on social media. You will just compare yourself to others and feel less successful. You can and should be proud of your success so please don´t let anyone ruin it!

What to do:

-        Document your success – be it in a journal, a bullet journal, a students planner, just a sheet of paper or a Word document. Write down what you did, even if it was not much.

-        Before you start to work, write down what you have to do. Break it down into smaller bits so you can cross out the bullet points more often.

-        Reward yourself! Be it with small things like allowing yourself to read a chapter of your favorite book in the evening or maybe with bigger things. For example, once you managed to finish that important paper, 25-pages, professionally researched; once you managed that, you go out to the movies our buy yourself some stationery or the new CD you love. Or maybe you just relax for a day and try not to think about studying.

-        Avoid expectations! Don´t tell yourself that you have to get a certain grade. Just do your best and it will be enough.

-        Make sure you don´t plan to much for a day. Otherwise you will feel overwhelmed which again can trigger you. So be pessimistic when making the plan for that day and the plan will turn out realistic. Trust me, it works most of the time.

-        Spend your breaks with things that calm you and where you know that they won´t trigger you.

-        Don´t have a set schedule when you will take breaks and when you will study. Take a break when you need one and don´t be to hard on yourself.

-        Write on top of every page of your excerpts a line from a song or a movie, some kind of quote that will make you smile.

-        Write down these quotes basically everywhere: one on every page of your planner, one in every study book you own, etc.

-        Put cute stickers or printed pics basically everywhere. They will remind you of hope and light and of all the beautiful things in your life.

-        Don´t look at what lies ahead of you but at what you have already accomplished.

-        Eat food that helps your mental health: for example, avocado. Avoid lots of fat: it makes you feel tired and heavy which again can trigger a lot of bad emotions.

-        Avoid too emotional music. Listen to songs that can´t trigger bad memories or thoughts.

-        Don´t even start to study when you literally don´t feel like it. Instead, do something that improves your mental health of that moment: any hobby that helps you, a song, going for a walk, petting you dog or dog, talking to your fish, taking a nap, whatever…Once you are a bit more stable, start with an easy task that you can finish in short time. It will give you a feeling of success and therefore motivate you to get done more. Slowly intensify the difficulty of your tasks.

What not to do:

-        There are people that can get really bad symptoms from caffeine, I know, it keeps you awake and coffee tastes nice and everything. But if you have issues with your mental health, please be careful! It can literally cause you some kinds of short-time hallucinations. Also, and that is a problem for even more of us, it makes you feel more awake then you are; you won´t feel it early enough when your body gets tired to prevent your mind from getting tired. And therefore, it is way harder to avoid triggering your mental illness.

-        Don´t isolate yourself, at least not after you finished for that day. Isolation harms us so badly. Even if it´s no deep talk about your feeling, just talking to your friend about what you achieved today or about your plans for the next holidays can help a lot. Communication and social interaction DO help us, even when we feel sociophobic – but you have to be careful and avoid toxic people.

-        Often times, bright cold white light can give you not only a headache but might trigger negative emotions. We associate cold white light with hospitals, with strict offices, with tough university classes. When we see these lights during our study time, all these associations are triggered – and with them, lots of negative emotions.

-        Never compare yourself with what others get done. Compare yourself with your former self and try to improve. But even if you don´t, remember that you are always doing your best – and that is always enough!

#studyblr #rainbowcolouredstudies #masterpost #study masterpost #studying masterpost #studyblr masterpost #mental health studying #mental health studyblr #study tips #study motivation

[lifewithlala]

Get to know me asks

• Do you prefer tea or coffee? Tea lover! Coffee is too bitter for my taste.

• Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? I have and I regret it. Didn't finish the test even tho I knew everything because I was too slow and tired. Lesson learned.

• Who is your most memorable teacher or professor? My third grade teacher. I was struggling real hard back then (can you imagine! Most people don't know this!) but she dedicated a lot of her efforts and time to help me get on the same level as my peers. Also it's thanks to her that I have a cursive handwriting!

• When did you create your studyblr? July 2018

•Do you write in blue or black pen? Black! It's more elegant. Although this opinion is highly biased because my fifth grade teacher had perfect handwriting and once said so...

• What is your favourite study snack? Protein balls by far. With lots of Peanut Butter.

•Are you involved in any studyblr networks? No, but I wish!!

•What was your favourite subject when you were little? Geography! I am very clumsy and seem in my own world most of the times, but if there's one thing that I've always could count on was my space recognition. I NEVER get lost and am very visual. So geography and especially topography felt right, like I had found something I am finally good at.

• What is your favourite subject now? Chemistry by faaaaaar. Chemistry has been the one subject I've had almost borderline obsession with. I would write and practice chemistry on any surface. I had a wall dedicated entirely to chemistry theory and all connections were marked by a red thread. Sadly, because of some legal circumstances, I wasn't able to pursuit my true passion in University. But I still read a lot on chemistry. It will be hard to replace!

• What is better, handwritten or typed notes? Both!! I prefer taking handwritten notes in class and then when I'm going over the stuff, I type the notes to solidify the concepts.

• What is your current study goal? Finish my thesis!

• If you could live anywhere in the world, where would that be? The Wudang Mountains. Being close to nature, practicing cultivation and learning to be one with nature through the principles of taoism. It would be a whole lifestyle change. This is where I get a lot of conflicted feelings, so far I've been excelling at what society expects of me, but is this truly what I want? I really want to start a new chapter in my life, one where academics, money and power isn't the main focus, honestly. A place where I can humble down and forget about climbing all sorts of ladders and meeting expectations and competing against others. And I feel like there I can start anew.

• Do you study better in the morning or at night? After I take a nap 😂

• What is your dream job for the future? Anything that brings me closer to the sea and nature. I used to want to be a Maritime Officer so I could be on a ship and offshore and just enjoy solitude with a handful of people. I couldn't make my dream job come true so now I'm hoping to get enough money to own a boat instead. But given that I am a business student currently doing a business plan for her own business, I really want to put my marketing and entrepreneur skills to the test and see what I can make out of it.

• What type of weather do you feel most comfortable in? Spring! I experienced spring in Europe and some cities of South America and it was fantastic. Not too cold nor too hot. Just the right temperature.

• Have you played any sports? Yes! I started with football in primary school, but then I discovered my own true sports: rugby! Forget football and American football. Rugby is the ultimate sport, when I realised that, I could no longer go back to any other sports. I was even in charge of founding and arranging the first rugby clubs and matches in my island, and proudly played at the first female rugby team. So yeah... I love rugby!!

• How competitive are you? I can be competitive about certain things, like academics, rugby and whatever my sister's involved in (I have sister issues, okay?) But for the rest, I am not really.

• What type of music do you study to? Le holy hip-hop / jazzhop lofi.

• Do you use a calendar? Does it help you to stay organized? Sure I do! I use Notion and sync it to my Google Calendar. Without a calendar my life would be a mess!

If you guys have any other questions, just ask away!

#studyblr #college #student #study blog #studyspo #notes #study motivation #studygram #productivity #study tips #motivation #study ask #asks #inspiration #study hacks #study space #studywithme #study hard

[eunoiamaybe]

an unpopular opinion 🤨 💕

I do have some, but I'm gonna go with the most wholesome one:

I don't mind seeing older people, especially those in their 30s, 40s or 50s, in my uni classes. In contrast, I actually admire them a lot for still having the curiosity, the desire to learn, and especially the courage to start fresh and chase their dreams despite their age (at which the idea of learning or exploring is usually shunned). I've talked to some of them from time to time and listened to their stories. These people have definitely lived, and they have my whole respect. PSA: It is never, ever too late to learn something new or to realize your dreams. Curiosity does not age.

(Don't know if that counts as an unpopular opinion, but I haven't really seen many posts about this. I hope this can be a spark of positivity, especially for the studyblr community that mostly comprises of young people who are stressed about our lives' purposes, not doing enough, and not having enough time)

(Also say no to ageism)

Thank you so much for the ask 💓 (and sorry for this late answer)

sleepover time

#aunoia #audrey says words #asks #answered #the-third-me

[cptsdstudyblr]

About Me (July 2020) (January 2021)

What’s up folks!! In about the past week I hit 350 750 followers and now I’m getting close to 400 1000, which is just insane! I’m so grateful that I’m able to make posts that so many people find interesting, helpful, or enjoyable and I appreciate each one of you so much! I realized the other day while going back through my posts to add image descriptions to some older posts that the last time I made an introductory post was when I was at 50 followers. That was in October of last year, and when I reread that post, I didn’t think it was a good representation of me as a whole person, so I wanted to create a new one rather than updating that previous one. I know that I love reading this kind of post because I like knowing who the person I’m following is, so hopefully that has the same effect for some of you.

Basic Introduction:

Hi!! I’m the person behind @cptsdstudyblr and I also have a personal blog @personneawesome where I don’t post quite as much. I am non-binary, and I generally use they/them pronouns, but I’m not super picky about pronouns. I was born in 2000 and am currently 20 years old. I just finished my second year of university studying computer science at a major US university, and I will most likely (pending the pandemic) spend got to spend this fall studying abroad in Seoul, South Korea before returning to my home school. 

New addition: January 2021 - I’m actually no longer a computer science student! I’m changing schools and majors drastically, and I think I’ll be so much happier!

Education & Language History:

My education history is a little unusual, but since this is a studyblr I’ll go ahead and explain it. For pre-K and the beginning of elementary school, I attended a French International School, which is part of the French public school system. After that, I ended up moving and being unable to enroll in an international school, so I was homeschooled through the CNED and essentially did my elementary school education through a mail-in version of the French public school system. Then, in middle school, I was homeschooled in English and took a few courses through a homeschool co-op in my area. I then went to a private Christian school for high school. Although my education was fairly religious, I have since left Christianity and don’t subscribe to any religion.

As far as languages go, I have two native languages (French & English) because I am French Cajun. Unfortunately, due to my schooling background I speak standard French rather than Louisiana French. I have also learned Spanish most of my life and live in a part of the US where about 50% of the population speaks Spanish, so I use Spanish a ton on a regular basis. I wouldn’t say I’m fluent in Spanish, but I don’t have many issues in everyday scenarios. I’m also currently learning German and Korean, but I’m not close to fluent in either of those languages.

Hobbies & Personality:

I like to think of myself as a kind person who puts others first and is respectful and accepting of all people. I think my friends would describe me as cheerful, talkative, and gentle. I’ve also been told that I am someone that people feel very comfortable and safe around, which I hope is true. However, I am very shy and am not likely to talk to people I don’t know. I’m also much less cheerful when I’m alone or with someone I’m super close with. If you’re someone who is interested in personality types, I am an ISFJ-T and an enneagram type 4. I don’t think personality tests like that are all that accurate and certainly shouldn’t be used to define a person, but I think they are a useful exercise and can facilitate learning about oneself.

When it comes to hobbies and interests, I struggle a lot more to define myself. When I was in high school, I was a band kid and I did robotics, which left me little time for other hobbies. I’m still very interested in music, and I love listening to music and making music. My current favorite bands are Stray Kids and Panic! at the Disco. My robotics hobby translated into my major, which is computer science. Other than that, I like writing, attempting to do art, studying public transit and urban design, and playing simulation video games. I also spend a lot of time on YouTube and Netflix, but I don’t think that counts as a hobby.

Health (Mental & Physical) Information:

Since it’s relevant to this blog, I want to be open about my health struggles. Normally I don’t talk about these a lot (except with close friends), but I think it’s useful to be honest in this situation.

As far as mental health goes, I have CPTSD (complex post-traumatic stress disorder), anxiety, depression, sensory issues, and just generally bad mental health. I also believe based on thorough research that I most likely have autism and/or ADHD, but I hesitate to self-diagnose something like that and would never claim to definitively be neurodivergent without a diagnosis.

When it comes to physical health, I have hEDS (hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) and POTS (Postural Orthopedic Tachycardia Syndrome). Since these are considered rare and aren’t super well-known, I’ll provide a brief explanation. hEDS causes hypermobility, joint instability (including easy and frequent dislocations), pain, and some other nasty stuff. POTS causes your heart rate to rise very high when you stand, and can cause people to faint.

#introduction #about me #cptsd #anxiety #depression #sensory issues #mental health #mental illness #heds #eds #pots #chronic illness #chronic pain