#harry styles astrology

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｡:ﾟHarry Styles natal chart :｡

*These are my interpretations and opinions based on personal experience and knowledge of astrology

*Not everything will be 100% accurate as there are aspects that might affect the effects of the planets/houses influence

*This is a Placidus chart, Western astrology

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Sun in Aquarius

This makes him an air sign, part of the fixed mode, ruling planets are Uranus and Saturn.

Positives - Focused on success, being independent, individuality, unique, eccentric, intelligent, humanitarians, good sense of humour

Negatives - Aloof, loners, too in their heads, can be detached, erratic, can be emotionally superficial/distant

Sun in 4th house

4th house is all about family life, childhood, home, stability.

Having Sun in 4th house, while he may be an Aquarius, because his Sun is in the 4th house, he could be a bit more introverted/shy. But still hold the charisma Aquarius Suns have.

Home and family likely mean a great deal to him. He could be very in touch with his intuition (if aspects are harmonious and depending on transits). Very sentimental and nostalgic.

Likely has a very close bond to his mother. Prefers to maybe keep a lot to himself, more on the reserved side and only trusts a selected few. He can instantly make others feel comfortable.

Has a special connection to "home" in whatever way that word can mean to him. He could have trouble leaving the past behind and can be highly sensitive to people's emotions as well as their own.

Aquarius Sun in 4th house people are generally still very mysterious/private.

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Moon in Libra

Another air sign placement, this time the cardinal mode, ruled by Venus

Positives- Diplomatic in nature, can be encouraging, elegant, very charming and charismatic, can be very romantic, polite

Negatives - can be indecisive, guilable, vain, passive aggressive especially in love/romance, can be unemotional

Moon in 12th house

A lot of these people hate being the Centre of attention/in the public eye lol. Love their privacy and are generally introverted.

Very protective over their emotions/energy in general. Very complex people, can be more in tune with other people's emotions than their own.

Tend to put a lot on their own shoulders because they're scared of being a burden to other people.

People with this placement could have issues with one or both parents in terms of the parent(s) understanding their nature.

Probably very emotional but crying in front of others is something they don't like doing often. Prone to solitude. Often feel misunderstood (which is why they cry in private rather than around other people)

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Venus in Aquarius

Another air sign, fixed mode, ruled by Saturn and Uranus.

Positives - Unique sense of style, out-of-the-box thinking, strong stamina, eclectic, fair-minded, open-minded, easygoing

Negatives - Aloof, too independent, unpredictable, distant, unemotional, detached.

Venus in 4th house

With his venus in aquarius, but being in the 4th house, I feel like he might be confused in terms of what he wants in relationships and perhaps inconsistent at times too.

He might love the idea of stability, security and commitment one day and feel suffocated by the idea the next because he values his independence and freedom too much.

When Venus in 4th house does love though, it's one of a kind, loving, unselfish and fulfilling. He likely looks like his mother/a woman in his family and have softer features, especially when they smile, A delicate and sweet personality.

Prone to melancholy, loves collecting memories of themselves and others, again sentimental, even if a relationship had to end(romantic or friendship wise). Likes cooking, very nurturing, and probably keeps anything love life related very private.

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Mercury in Aquarius

Yet another air sign placement, fixed mode, ruled by Uranus and Saturn.

Positives - intellectual, open-minded, perceptive, eccentric ideas, lots of ideas, quick thinking

Negatives - hard to admit when they're wrong, stubborn, can come across as distant or uncaring

Mercury in 4th house

So knowledgeable and creative. Definitely think out of the box. Perceptive and introspective. Could have been curious child.

Talking to them feels comfortable and safe. They have a calming tone/way of speaking. Very sharp with other people's reactions/emotions. You can open up to him easily.

Good memories of certain things that have happened in the past. They don't like conflict/arguing where voices are raised. Exude warmth in their tone and words.

Extremely imaginative especially being in aquarius, though can be subjective thinking.

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Mars in Aquarius

Another air placement, fixed mode, ruled by Saturn and Uranus

Positives - passionate, quick comebacks, great sense of humour, active internally and socially, like doing activities such as yoga/pilates, witty

Negatives - very stubborn, can be argumentative, can detach easily especially when angry, can be hurtful with words, prone to silent treatments,

Mars in 3rd house

Understands and learns things very quickly and likes to do things by themselves/have alone time for themselves. love learning new things. Easily adaptable.

Very honest and can have a strong/deep voice. Can be restless. Authentic to who they are. They tend to want to want to think before they speak but when angry can get a bit intimidating/scary.

Desire to travel and go places (because they're restless). experimental and interesting sex with this placement, not afraid to try anything new and probably love things to do with their hands/involving hands.

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Libra Ascendent

Air placement, cardinal mode, ruled by Venus.

Stunning features, often symmetrical features, soft smile/dimples. Effortlessly charming, instantly feel calm around them, very friendly/polite.

Can be indecisive, soft spoken, don't like conflict. Even though libra is an air sign, a lot of libra risings/Suns I've met are fairly introverted.

Tend to go for artistic careers like artist, dancer etc. Very unique voice. Attract people very easily because of their natural charisma.

I've seen a lot of people say libra risings have good "aesthetics" whatever that means to them, whether in clothing or otherwise.

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2023 Reading

[Disclaimer(s): Please know that these readings are for fun and should not be taken as fact. This whole account is for fun and only meant to create a place to talk about tarot and channeled messages. If you agree or disagree with anything in this reading, feel free to send in an ask and join the conversation, but please be respectful either way or your message will not be posted. And please do not go out of your way to conform into anyone mentioned in this reading, you have your own life path you need to follow.]

Happy 2023! 🍾🥂✨ Here’s a new reading for the new year! I was going to do a full reading for the entirety of 2023, but I figured I would have more time and would be more accurate doing the first quarter of the year. So, this reading is Harry and his soulmates general energy from January to March. This also gives me the opportunity to guarantee a reading every three months. Enjoy!

Harry

January–The Hanged Man (Upright)

The Hanged Man upright signifies some sort of sacrifice or pause in action needs to take place before any other steps can happen. Whatever needs to be put on hold or eliminated can range from a wide variety of things. This can be a negative habit, toxic person, reevaluation of goals, etc. etc.

This change with Harry seems extremely broad…we’ll talk about it a bit later in the reading, but this change could be a general lifestyle change that leads to a more specific one once it is completed. I’m always sounding like a broken record, this forgive me when I repeat myself in saying I believe both him and his soulmate are in need a self reflection journey and this year seems like the kick off, and possible completion, for it (which we love to see).

It’s also important to note this pause or sacrifice can be in your control, but can also become out of your control. If you are in tune with your self, you can know to take the time to reevaluate and/or eliminate what it is you need to. But if you are not, or you chose to ignore the signs your intuition/body is giving you, the universe can take it into its own hands to put these things on hold for you, whether you like it or not.

I picked up in our last energy reading (that I believe took place in November) we talked about how his energy was very reflective and he was taking time to reevaluate. (That reading can be found in my Blog Navigation if you need a refresher) so I get the feeling he is aware of this change and may even be beginning to make that change immediately as the new year starts.

February–The Hierophant (Reversed)

The Hierophant reversed is what is also leading me to believe this change or halt Harry is making is a very broad one. It also tells me this journey is spread out through 2023 (I’ve picked up it lasts at least the first three months–more on that later).

The Hierophant reversed signifies looking for guidance from within rather than externally. He may be taking this time to build his own path and follow it, rather than following the path of others, or feeling pressured to follow the status quo.

He may feel motivated to start building values and asking himself if the people around him or the habits he executes align with those values. This is also the time to listen to your intuition more and reach a place of not caring what others think. I know he has mentioned his knowledge and practice of meditation, but he may start to do it more frequently during this time (and if he isn’t, he should Lol).

March–Nine of Cups (Reversed)

This is where we get into the more specific changes being made.

The Nine of Cups upright signifies fulfillment and happiness, feeling like you have everything and more. Where The Nine of Cups reversed signifies feeling like you have everything, but there is still something missing–most likely something very important. A good way to put it is you have all these cups, but because they are reversed, they are empty.

A lot of times that unfulfilled space can be in your relationships, or it can be that you are focusing too much on all your material success rather than focusing on becoming successful in non-material things–which is ultimately more important and long-lasting in life. (As a side note; I feel compelled to share–this can also signify less indulgences in things like drugs, partying, or overly spending financially…which may also be a more specific thing he is eliminating or slowing down on)

I think a major aspect of this change and sacrifice is Harry figuring out what he needs in his relationships (this can be both platonic and romantic). His reflection of his habits and values in the beginning of the year also aids this Nine of Cups reversed immensely.

This card can also, but does not always, signify the search, preparation, or union with a soulmate.

The Soulmate

Full energy of January–February–The Nine Of Pentacles

I want to note that the way it popped out was more on its side–in between upright and reversed. But I think that explains their energy for this first quarter–(maybe more focused on Jan and Feb?) perfectly…let’s get into it.

So this actually aligns with their energy that I picked up recently that I think may bleed into the beginning of this year.

Reversed, The Nine of Pentacles tells us that there is a need to think carefully about what you want/need for you and your life. This can be in career, physical appearance, relationships, etc.–this energy is somewhat mirroring Harry’s, which is not uncommon amongst soulmates.

I will say, I do think what differs from Harry and his SM in this aspect, is that his soulmate seems to be coming to an end of era or part of their life. A door is closing. What they may be carefully thinking about is this new chapter in their life and how to jump into it.

Upright, it symbolizes fulfillment in a journey and coming to a close after ups and downs. The reason I think it’s a mix of both, is because I think they know exactly what they want and they know they are going to reach a point of fulfillment but they are not taking that jump. This is energy I, and others, have picked up on recently.

There is a focus on career and lifestyle here that I’m picking up.

I almost feel like I just want to give them a shove, because I know it’s going to end well. But that’s obviously their journey to take.

I am also feeling compelled to stop here for them….I think this journey is there own to figure out by themselves solely. Like I said, I want to just push them into it, but that’s something they need to do themselves. There is also a bit of secrecy here. I’m seeing someone hold their cards up to their chest in a poker game. So I’m not going to push and leave it at that!

Hope you enjoyed this reading, have a happy 2023! 🍾✨🌙

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Aurora has a lot to think about while Harry is gone, but just because he's gone now doesn't mean he won't be back soon. Which also means that she can't hide away from the issues at hand forever, especially when that familiar knock on the door rings out. But maybe it won't be as bad as she keeps telling herself...

AU: star-being!harry x astronomy-student!aurora

AURORA'S POV

It would be a lie to say the last few days were easy, or that I was able to pretend it didn't happen. The truth was, while some of it was foggy, not enough of it was for that to happen. None of the parts that I would have preferred to forget were misplaced in memory at all. Not the look on Harry's face when I saw him over Brandon's shoulder, not the aggravation from Nina, and not the touches I allowed Brandon in the first place either.

I didn't even know why I did it. Or why I allowed it to keep going. The regret had yet to fully subside even afterwards. It also didn't help that Nina had given me her version of silent treatment the night of. She didn't say much to me unless she needed to, but there wasn't much she needed to say besides helping me get to bed. I was pretty sure I had even started crying at one point, mumbling about how I fucked things up between everyone and how stupid I was to go to the party.

Nina just shushed me to sleep, saying that we would talk about it in the morning when I had sobered up. Which we did. She seemed more put together then and less annoyed with me, too. As long as she wasn't holding a grudge over me, that was all that mattered in the moment. She never was upset for long, which I was eternally grateful for. Sometimes I didn't fully deserve it, but that never seemed to matter.

I even remembered instinctively reaching for my phone once I woke up more, hoping to see a message from Harry. Some kind of acknowledgement had to have been better than nothing. Until I remembered that he had left for the next few days back to his planet. I tried not to think about what he could possibly be thinking, but he was probably too preoccupied with his star duties anyway– whatever that meant.

Instead, the only messages I received were texts that I had the least amount of energy to deal with. They were from Brandon from last night, rambling different cursing variations slewn together from his obvious drunken state. It was hard to piece together completely what he was trying to say, but it was obvious that he was angry that I got up and left him for Harry. Actually, most of the insults were directed towards Harry, messily explaining how Harry would never give me what I needed whereas he could. Most involved the size of his dick.

That was probably the first time I had truly laughed since that night. The blocked and deleted buttons had never been so easy to press.

She had breakfast cooking, but she said I had to get out of bed to get it. It took awhile to muster up the energy over the hangover, but I think that was part of the punishment, whether on purpose or not.

Regardless, once I did get up, I didn't eat much. The blaring headache in my skull was too powerful to focus on anything else besides fighting the urge to vomit all over the countertops. That was how I ended up spending the majority of the rest of the day. While she ran errands, I tried my best to sleep it all away. I wrote off the sunken feeling I felt in my chest as another inevitable symptom of binge drinking, but when I woke up the next day sober, I realized that that wasn't at fault of the alcohol at all.

I knew I should've used the time I had proactively. I also knew that my door was supposed to be fixed yesterday and that it was safe to go back, but it was as if I physically couldn't. Astro barking to go outside for a walk was the only reason that I found myself leaving the house on my own accord.

That was how I spent most of my time while I was at Nina's. It started off being sick with a hangover and meddled with a slip of depression in the midst. I think Nina had definitely noticed, because she was kinder than her already normally-kind self was. She made sure I still woke up for classes, ate beforehand, and was clean enough to go out in public. If it was anyone else besides Nina, I would've gotten annoyed– yelling that they're not my mom, but there was no way I could be annoyed by her. She was just trying to help, and if it wasn't for her help I would've stayed in my stumper for that entire time.

It did eventually get better, and luckily that feeling didn't completely devastate me for too long. Though, it was still hard to fight against the feeling that I hadn't truly messed up everything. Mistakes were bound to happen for anyone, and hopefully Harry would understand that. We were just friends after all.

I was still nervous about him coming back to Earth today, though. I had spent most of the morning going over what I would say when I first saw him. I didn't know there were so many ways to apologize until that moment– swearing none of them felt right. Nina reminded me that I was thinking too hard about it and that I was beating myself too much over it.

"Just say what feels right, don't force anything else." She had said as she came around the corner in the kitchen. She must have heard me talking to myself, whispering "sorry" in one too many different ways.

"I think he'll understand. Just be honest." She continued after I didn't say anything. She could probably tell that she had taken me by surprise. I was too absorbed in the pancakes and eggs that I was cooking that I didn't realize she had woken up.

The smell of which only seemed to riddle me with more guilt, reminding me of earlier in the week when Harry had done the same for me. Maybe that was why I went for that option out of instinct, it felt like the perfect reciprocation for him to come back to his second home with. I even added blueberries inside for the special touch.

I turned my head behind me, giving her a faint smile as she ventured to my other side. She peered down at the pan, taking a small whiff of the batter cooking in front of us.

"Smells good." She paused as she made her way towards the coffee maker, pouring herself a cup. "Could this have anything to do with a certain someone coming back home today?"

I didn't have to look at her to know that she was smirking. I had to fight against my own as I flipped another one of the pancakes in the pan.

"Or..." I trailed off, trying to wipe off the guilty look on my face. "Maybe I'm just hungry."

She snorted. "Sure, right, of course."

"Why did you say it like that?" I sat my mug down onto the counter to face her with a hand on my hip. "It's just Harry."

"It's just Harry." She mocked me teasingly behind her cup of coffee before taking a slow sip of it. I rolled my eyes at her, turning my body to face away. I tried to hide the smile that carved deep into my cheeks, but it was hard not to.

It was just Harry. That was all.

Just Harry.

"Anyways, he should be stopping by here soon I think." I stirred the spoon into my coffee cup, pursing my lips to the side as I got lost into my own thoughts.

I suppose I was a bit scared to see him. Nina always had a gift for seeing right through me. I just hated that she would say it out loud. I didn't think I had even said it out loud to myself, even when I was left alone without any other eyes on me.

Saying things out loud made it real, and that was what scared me. I wanted to stay in my bliss of ignorance for just a bit longer. Bathe in my own delusions of what I had made for myself on the inside. I didn't have to say anything out loud. Not if I didn't want to. And I did not want to.

"Aurora, if you make this awkward, I swear to fuck I am leaving your ass here." Nina said as she pushed past me on purpose. It was a soft nudge to the shoulder, but I knew what she was trying to say through the gesture.

"I am not going to make it awkward!" I half whined. I didn't even notice my hands going over my face when I had said it. I didn't mean to make things awkward, but I guess I did have that tendency sometimes. Especially when I was nervous.

"You better not, because like I said, I will leave." She teased. "If it's one thing you're good at, it's making everything awkward. Just talk to him like nothing happened. It's not that hard, Aurora."

"You say that, but–" I went to defend myself, but the knock on the door had quickly grabbed my attention. I felt my body go stiff, not even noticing the way my hands were now death-gripping the hot cup of coffee that I held.

"Mm, speaking of the devil." Nina nodded towards the door with a teasing smile on her lips. I squinted my eyes at her as she made her way towards the door. I truly didn't feel as nervous earlier as I did right now, which I didn't even know was possible.

There was a turning feeling in my stomach. I didn't think that seeing Harry right now was going to make me react this way, but I also just didn't think I was ready for it this soon. I didn't know what to say to him. Not yet.

I sunk into the deepest parts of the kitchen that was away from the front door. I wasn't hiding. I was just...cooking. Exactly. I was just cooking. That was all.

I sat my coffee down onto the counter as I grabbed the bowl of batter, quickly pouring some into the hot pan that Nina had on the eye. Noises from the door opening made my stomach twist uncomfortably, and then I heard him, only contorting it further.

"Hey, Nina. Aurora's still here, right?" His voice floated through the apartment as Nina closed the door from behind her.

"Yeah, she's in the kitchen." Nina perked up with a cheery tone. I pinched my eyes shut tightly, placing a hand on my forehead as I tried to collect myself.

They were having small talk, and that was fine. It bought me more time to regain my composure, which I was more than happy for. It was when I heard his footsteps coming towards the kitchen that I started to feel my tensions rise again. I immediately started to busy myself around the area, trying to make it look like I didn't even know he was there as if I wasn't just eavesdropping on the conversation they were having.

I settled on standing in front of the oven with a spatula in my hand while I flipped the pancakes that were burning in the pan. My chest was caving in while my breathing was staggering as I glanced out of the corner of my eye to see Harry standing in the doorway of the kitchen.

It really didn't matter how much I had seen of him, he still knew how to knock the breath out of me any time he was around. He had a loose, white, and washed out Rolling Stones shirt on with blue jeans that ripped at the knees. That was all I could see from the small glance I had given him. It was all I could bear.

"Hi." His voice was laced with nervousness. I could tell that much. It almost lifted a bit of weight off of me to know that I wasn't the only one that was uncomfortable, but he didn't know that.

I felt like the minute I said something, my voice was going to give everything away regardless, though. In order not to let the silence linger any more than it already had, I finally spoke up.

"Hey." I echoed out with my head crooked over my shoulder in his direction. I caught a brief glimpse of him before I brought my gaze back to the food that was almost finished cooking. I was on my last one, which also meant that I wouldn't have any more excuses to keep my focus laying anywhere else but the people around me.

He was leaning against the doorframe and I couldn't tell if he had a look of confusion or concern wrapped in his features just from the small glance that I had gotten. The unknowing of what was going through his mind was the most nerve-wracking of all. In reality, I knew I was probably blowing it slightly out of proportion, but it didn't help settle my mind any more with that knowledge anyway.

I placed the last blueberry pancake onto the platter, stacking high with steam creeping off of the cakes. Just as I twisted the knob of the stove off, I heard his steps behind me start to move closer. For a moment, I considered cooking more just so I didn't have to turn around and face him. Even though it had already been a few days since, the embarrassment from that night was still just as overwhelming. At least beforehand I didn't have to face Harry about it, I could just ignore it and let it eventually pass until it came up again.

But there was no ignoring it when it was directly behind me.

"Everything okay?" Harry questioned quietly, sounding slightly unsure about his own feelings himself. Out of the corner of my eye, I could see him now leaning against the counter to my right. He was using his elbow to prop himself up as he gazed at me.

I flashed a meek smile at him, gathering all the dishes and placing them in the sink between us. "Yeah, I'm good."

He wrinkled his eyes at me as he surveyed what I was doing. I could tell he was attempting to figure out what I was thinking but was getting slightly frustrated when he couldn't pinpoint what it was. I wasn't sure if it was because I was doing a good job at remaining neutral, or if it was the barrier between species that was helping me out. I was grateful either way.

"Harry!" I heard Nina exclaim as she re-entered the room. "I almost forgot– You're coming to the get-together later, right? It was supposed to be this big party at some dude's house, but plans changed a bit. Plans changing as in that guy is a dick and it'll be lame, so we made our own plans instead. It'll be fun!" She beamed.

I inhaled a deep breath as I continued to place everything to their designated spots. I pretended like I wasn't just as excited as Nina to hear what he was going to reply with. We had decided it was just going to be the four of us while Harry was gone, so we couldn't update him beforehand. I had to explain to her the same bullshit excuse as to why he wouldn't be able to answer his texts while he went to go see his parents. Luckily, she didn't pry too much on it and just accepted it.

"Oh, uh..." He stammered for a moment. "I had forgotten. Don't we have work to do and classes tomorrow?" His voice sounded unsteady for a second and I could tell that he had been taken off guard. I felt bad.

"It's nothing huge, I promise! We all don't have classes until later tomorrow anyways." Her voice raised an octave from excitement as she got in front of Harry, pouting her lip out. "C'mon, Harry! Pleaseee..."

I smiled to myself as I placed the last plate onto the table with the pancakes directly in the middle of all of them. Once finished, I leaned an arm against the table and watched the interaction between the two of them, giggling slightly to myself.

He still looked faintly uncomfortable as he searched his eyes around the room. Nina backed away with a small huff, looking at me out of the corner of her eye. I shifted, placing a hand onto my cheek as I looked away from the both of them.

Okay, maybe this was a little bit awkward.

"Okay, okay. Just think about it, okay? I've got to get to class, so I'll see you guys later." She flashed one last smile in Harry's direction before venturing in my direction. With a bare hand, she reached for the first pancake on the stack and winked at me. 

"Stop being awkward and use that Aurora charm that works so well!" She whispered in my ear, concealing it with a hug. She mouthed one last "you got this" before taking a bite and turning on her heel out the door, giving Harry a pat on the back on the way.

The silence trickled back between us as we were now left alone again, but this time truly alone. I tapped my fingers against the dining room table for a moment as I thought. With a singular deep breath, I sat down in one of the seats.

"I made blueberry pancakes if you're hungry–" I stopped myself, wanting to kick myself in the foot after the realization that he doesn't get hungry. "Or if you just wanna try them, I guess."

"Blueberries?" He questioned with his brows knitted together. He peered over the table as he took a step closer. "What does it taste like?"

I smiled as he pulled the chair out for him to sit in. He didn't even wait to hear my explanation before slapping the biggest cake onto his plate. His head crooked at the shape, as if trying to understand how the berries got stuck inside of it.

"There's only one way to find out." I half-laughed. "They're good, I promise. They're not the poisonous kind of berries." A full laugh broke out that time, but dissipated when I saw the look of horror etched onto his face.

"There's poisonous berries?" His eyes widened as big as the moon and I thought that he was about to toss the plate away from him.

"No. Well, I mean, yes, there are poisonous berries but not the ones you buy in the store. Blueberries are sweet and they taste good. Try it." I nudged my head towards his plate for encouragement, but he still looked unsure. So, I took a bite of my own and he looked at me like he was waiting for me to fall over dead on the floor.

I swallowed, forking another bite onto the silverware. "See? Not dead."

His eyes softened as he stared back down, cutting his own slice and placing it into his mouth. For a few minutes, that was how we continued to exist amongst each other. Both of us were so preoccupied with the food that we didn't say anything. There was still a slight awkwardness in the air, but it had greatly subdued. I had almost forgotten what I was so worried about to begin with given how natural it felt to be around him again.

That was probably the reason why I had enough confidence to say the next thing that I did.

"I'm sorry, by the way." I strained to get the words out, convinced I would choke on my food if I wasn't careful. A swig of coffee helped coat my throat and soothe my nerves simultaneously.

"Sorry?" He repeated in a confused tone.

I stopped eating my food, trying to focus on what to say next. I was hoping I wouldn't have to explain what I was apologizing for and that it would be obvious, but that didn't look to be the case this morning.

"With the whole Brandon thing...at the bar...you know?" I mindlessly cut up the pancakes into smaller pieces, not picking any of it up into my fork. I had to stop myself from continuing as it would just become one big mushy mess if I didn't.

"Ah." He mentioned softly. Such a small word left such a weird hollowed out feeling in my stomach again. It was like he had forgotten and I was stupid enough to bring it back up for him to remember. Regardless, I knew I needed to apologize sooner than later. I was sorry after all. I didn't need to lie or pretend it never happened.

"I don't want you to think that's who I am. It's who I was, but I don't like that side of me. I blocked him and I don't want anything to do with him anymore, okay? He's not a good guy and I should've known better. I'm sorry you had to see any of that." My eyes looked along the table, suddenly interested in the table cloth fabric as I twisted it between my fingers.

"Okay. I believe you." He replied, quicker than I expected. The previous look of hurt was no longer on his face, it was now replaced with that familiar Starboy sparkle in his eyes that I had grown so much comfort in.

"Thank you, Harry." I grinned at him. The uneasiness had drifted away and so had the queasiness that had grown in my stomach. I forked away at the food again, looking up briefly towards Harry who was doing the same.

"You should come tonight, though. It'll be fun. You'll get to meet Nina's boyfriend, Ryan, too." I said as I piled the last bite into my mouth. I hummed lightly to myself, content with my now-full stomach.

"Is he nice?" He inquired aloud suspiciously. "Because most of the men I've met so far are not very nice."

I had to hold back the snort that I wanted to let out from his observations, but I couldn't help but feel a ping of guilt. Harry watched the way I surrounded myself around guys that weren't that nice of people. If he had realized that so quickly, and I wondered why I had let it happen over and over again.

"I don't know much about him either, but Nina really likes him and I want to give him a chance. You should, too." I said quietly, offering an innocent smile.

He twitched his lips together as he thought, swirling around the leftover pieces of pancake still on his plate. "Okay." He mustered out. "As long as he's nice to her."

I smiled. "I'll make sure he is. We both will, okay?"

His eyes glided back up to mine, this time with the first real smile I had seen since he came back. I felt an immediate wave of relief flood through my chest. "Okay."

"Perfect. It's settled then." I beamed, gathering our finished plates and putting them into the sink. The water rushed out, splashing slightly onto my shirt from the suddenness of it. It was a good thing I was still in my pajamas, completely unaffected by the mess.

The mood within the room had completely flipped from only an hour ago, and I now felt on top of the world. Not only did it end a lot better than I expected it to, but we were all going to go out and have a good time with just the four of us. There was a little bit of nervousness about Nina's new boyfriend, but like I told Harry, I wanted to give him a chance. Given how patient she had been with me recently, as well as in the past, it was the least I could do for her. Maybe he would be the one frat guy that I could stand to be around.

It took some convincing at first, but as Nina described it more, the more excited I actually got. There would be no entering of stranger's homes; it actually didn't involve anyone's home at all. We were going to drive out to a spot that Nina and I had camped out at a time or two awhile back, completely surrounded by trees and nature.

Which also reminded me that I was already behind on my one and only job for it: rolling the joints.

"Oh, shit." I cursed out, shutting the water off and spinning around out of the room. "I'll be right back, I forgot something." I shouted over my shoulder, already out of view.

I wasn't sure if Harry said anything back as I was too preoccupied with rummaging through my drawer where I stashed everything. Everything from glass pipes, to jars of different strains, to decorated lighters, to cherry wrapping papers were all neatly placed in their rightful places. I was usually the one in charge of rolling as Nina swore up and down that I did it best, but I wasn't wholly convinced that she just preferred not to do it. I never minded though, I enjoyed the act of rolling. It was calming in some way to be so focused on one task.

I scanned my eyes along the contents as I thought to myself on which to choose. I ended up deciding on Wedding Cake, the classic mellow strain that I always found myself reaching for. Even though I wasn't sure which one Harry would have preferred, I thought that would be the safest out of the choices regardless.

Quickly, I grabbed the jar with the papers and padded away back into the kitchen where Harry still sat. He hadn't moved besides placing his hands neatly onto the tabletop, and he smiled at me once I entered. His eyebrows seemed to dance together as he tried to focus on what was in my hands, and I opened my mouth to explain myself, but then promptly closed it. I found it slightly entertaining to see him gape at the objects that I had placed onto the table.

It was as if I wasn't even in the room as he continued to stare at the nuggets that I placed into the grinder, spinning the lid in order to crush it up. I peeked up at him every now and then as I reached around for each object, and he didn't meet my eyes once until I brought the cherry papers up to my lips.

All of a sudden, the nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach reappeared as I swiped my tongue along the edge. I could feel his eyes on me even while I avoided them. It took everything in me not to close my eyes just to pretend he wasn't there– or to avoid my cheeks from blushing.

My thumbs threatened to shake as they carefully rolled the paper up, enclosing the weed inside of the material. For something I was typically so confident in, the feeling was suddenly dwindling with such eager eyes on me.

"What is that?" He finally spoke up, continuing his look of interest in his eyes. "It smells funny."

I giggled, placing one of the finished rolls onto a tray and began starting on the next one. "Weed, Harry. It's for the party tonight."

His head slightly fell back with a slight face of horror. "Weeds? Like the grass outside? That green stuff? I don't remember it smelling like that. What do you do with it?"

His rapid firing of questions reminded me of the Harry that I had first met, eager to know everything possible as soon as he could. Everything interested him and he wanted to know every single possible answer.

I chuckled again because of it. "No, not grass. It's a plant, but you smoke it. It makes you feel good, floaty almost." I peeked my eyes up at him as I began to lick at the next one. He no longer stared as intently at me as he once was, which helped ease the nervous feeling he had given me previously.

"I can already float, Aurora." He stated matter-of-factly with his arms crossed. "I don't need to smoke grass to float."

I snorted. "I suppose not, but you should try it at least once. I bet you'll like it." I smirked at him, putting up the rest of the contents that I had left over. After the nerves had settled, my previous work speed had gone back to normal and I had already rolled three joints perfectly by the time that he was inquiring about the weed.

"Will it feel like those good blue slushies from that one restaurant we went to?" His eyes began to glow with anticipation, practically bursting at the seams.

"No, not quite like that. It'll be more relaxing, like your whole body will feel it. Sensations will be stronger, too. You can watch us first to see if you want to try it." I reassured him. "Nina and I will make sure you're safe and comfortable regardless."

He nodded his head. "I think I'll try it. Maybe this type of floating won't be so exhausting."

I blew out a burst of air through my nose. "Hopefully not."

My attention turned towards the stove, reading out the time in glowing numbers. I didn't have a class until later, but I needed to stop by the planetarium beforehand so that I could get my supplies for the next presentation. Apparently the professor was so impressed by my first one that he wanted me to join him again for this week's showing. It hardly took me a second to reply with a quick acceptance.

"Do you want to come by the planetarium with me? I've gotta get some material from there and make sure there's nothing else that needs to be done before work tomorrow." I pushed my chair in, wiping my hands of any residue that had lingered against my fingertips. I mildly regretted doing this beforehand, not wanting to greet Professor Collins while smelling like weed.

Hopefully he wouldn't notice.

He nodded his head quickly again, scooting his seat in immediately as he grabbed for his bag and slung it over his shoulder promptly.

I chuckled lightly. "I gotta get dressed first. I'll be out in just a second and then we can go. I'll be quick, I promise."

It didn't take long to rummage through my closet. I slipped on an extra layer over my shirt, expecting the chilliness in the air to bite back with force. I did my best to try and dodge any mirrors, knowing I had to be quick, which meant I couldn't focus on my appearance. As long as I looked put together enough, that was all that mattered.

Luckily with the guidance and help of Nina, even my depressed stupor didn't affect my cleanliness too badly. I had even remembered to do my skincare routine earlier this morning before I got out of bed.

I almost tripped over my feet as I attempted to slip on my boots while I walked out of my bedroom door. After a couple of tries, I gave up and plopped myself on the floor while I laced them up correctly. I hadn't been this excited to leave the house since the whole bar situation. It was a nice change to the feelings I had been engulfed with since then. I liked this version of Aurora so much better.

"You ready?" I asked, slightly winded from the previous excursion I had put myself through in the hallway.

Harry turned around from Astro, who he was whispering to as he petted her back. She was wagging her tail vigorously, fighting to lick at his face as he knelt down to her.

"Let's go." He smiled, giving Astro one last pat on her head. He pointed in her direction. "Does she always slobber that much?" He sounded concerned.

"Only when she's excited...or thirsty." I offered with a shrug and a laugh. "Dogs can be kinda gross, I know."

His face twisted with a look of fascination mixed with disgust as we walked past her. Harry led the way, briefly looking over his shoulder in my direction.

"Quite peculiar they are."

The cool breeze greeted us as we left the apartment. This was just a reminder that summer was starting to slowly fade into fall. No more shorts and breezy shirts, or fun colors with sparkly makeup. It was going to be long sleeve shirts and pants from here on out.

I was a fan of the fall time, but summer was when I thrived the most. Specifically because it was a good time to see the stars, and it was more comfortable to lay outside at night and watch the constellations. I hated that the warmest of seasons seemed to go by so quickly, but it was something I surely couldn't control.

I wrapped myself up with my arms as my fingers slowly trailed up and down the goosebumps that the wind created on my skin. I wished I grabbed my thicker jacket, but I didn't expect the weather to change so drastically. It was hot yesterday, but then again, the weather never seemed to want to pick a side as they drifted into the new seasons.

"You cold?" Harry asked quietly from beside me. I glanced at him out of the corner of my eye, a small chuckle came from me as I shrugged my shoulders and dropped my arms to my sides.

"Um, just a bit." The small talk was kind of weird. I was glad we had gotten everything out of the way, but I still felt a gnawing guilt feeling in the back of my mind. Harry seemed fine, and I suppose that was all that really mattered. I just wanted him to be okay.

We kept walking, the gray skies clouding over the city. I had somewhat hoped that the clouds would subside by tonight so we could still watch the stars. One of the reasons I mainly went to these things was so I could get high and just stargaze.

One could say it was cliché, but I was a walking cliché after all. Never claimed not to be. I knew that as well, and I was okay with it. I had long gotten over the need to be different from everyone else, that was a cliché in and of itself.

"The weather today–"

"Don't do that to me." I told him with a chuckle, shaking my head at him. "We are not about to talk about the weather."

"Does weather talk not interest you, Aurora?" His smile dipped into a half frown, and I immediately felt bad. I kept having to remind myself that he wasn't from here, and that he didn't get that talking about the weather could be weird filler conversations reserved for strangers.

"Um...It's just that, sometimes, it could be taken weirdly, you know?" I kicked at the pebbles on the ground as we approached the planetarium. "Usually it's just a way to fill awkward space between people who don't know each other. Friends don't have to do that."

"Oh, okay. I see." I could've believed him if he didn't swallow the rest of his words down. Some things just weren't meant to be said. In our case, it was best if we just left it alone as it was now.

Harry led the way into the planetarium, and I was grateful for a moment that he did, given that I was nearly holding my breath the entire walk there. I felt my shoulders relax as I entered the warm building, the heat hugging me like a weighted blanket.

I hated doing things so last minute sometimes. If I wouldn't have put off needing to pick up the papers for next week's speech then I could be doing other things right now. Such as staring blankly at the notes for the test I had coming up, but not soaking anything in due to how tired I was. Or I could have been napping.

Harry stood close behind me as I walked into the main room of the building. The lights were dimmed down, but they were still on. Usually this place was packed, but today we didn't have anything scheduled to show. It was weird seeing this place so empty– so quiet.

I wheeled around the chairs, rushing towards the desk that was all the way in the back of the room. That was where Professor Collins said that he would have left the papers for me. I didn't think he was going to be in today, but I also didn't want to check either. I just wanted to be in and out.

Out of the corner of my eye, Harry stood next to the row of chairs that was by the desk as his eyes scanned around the room. His fingers slowly fiddled with the rings that cladded his hands. It took me a second to put two and two together, but then I realized.

This was where he was attacked by the light guardian. The night that we had met up at the coffee shop, where his face had been bruised and bloodied.

I clutched the papers tightly into my hand, moving my gaze towards the desk as I placed them into my bag.

"Looks like you've seen a ghost, Harry." Professor Collins's voice echoed through the room.

I saw Harry slightly jump at the sound of his voice, his body quickly turning to see him standing there with a wide smile on his lips and his arms crossed against his chest. I gazed over the two of them, seeing how uncomfortable Harry was made me feel bad for him.

"Oh, just–" Harry cleared his throat, shifting onto his feet slowly. "I just always found this building creepy when it's empty."

"Hm." Professor Collins hummed, giving Harry a once over before turning his body towards me. "Find those papers I left for you, Aurora?"

"I did!" I tried to sound cheery, but the tension somehow became a lot thicker in the air, but this time due to the newfound awkwardness. I didn't think it was possible after the residual feelings that were still felt in the air between Harry and I, but Collins being in the same room had proved that it was. "Sorry I was so late grabbing them, but I'll make sure that I study them before next week."

"Not a problem at all." He reassured me with a small smile. "Just want to make sure that you're prepared. We will be going over some more information I have gathered about black holes. I know we really haven't gone over that much, so just make sure you study the notes."

"Black holes?" Harry took a step towards the professor with a big smile. "Did you know that the milky way has a black hole?"

"Probably." He corrected Harry, perking his brow up as his lip twitched in curiosity. "Scientists say that it probably has a black hole. No further studies have proven it, not quite yet."

"Oh." Harry bit back. The fact that Harry said it, made it ring true. He knew everything about the stars and space himself. I mean, he lived there, so why wouldn't he?

"You sure know a lot about that, don't you?" Collins shifted his gaze towards Harry. "How long have you been going to school here again?"

"Um... I just started this semester." He said quietly, taking a step back from him as he crossed his arms over his chest.

"And yet, you know so much." Collins pondered to himself quietly, but loud enough where we could hear it. "Was this something you always wanted to do? Study the stars?"

"I mean, yeah." Harry cleared his throat again, bringing two of his fingers to push on his lips as he switched his gaze back and forth between Collins and I. "My parents are really into that kind of stuff, so...I guess that's why."

"And where are your parents, Harry? It seems like I don't know much about you, though you've been working here for sometime now." Collins said as he glanced towards me out of the corner of his eye. It was almost like he was making sure I was watching him dig into Harry.

Harry rubbed the soft stubble on his cheek with a frown as he averted his gaze towards me. I knew this was starting to get more uncomfortable for him by the moment, so I had to say something to get him out of the hole that Collins was digging him into.

"We have to go." I said almost in shock as I checked the time on my phone. "Harry, you have that hair appointment in twenty minutes. I totally forgot about that."

Harry's eyes widened, his hand dropping down to his side as he looked at me in confusion. Collins faced me, tilting his head as he looked me over. I stood there with a small smile on my lips, a nervous laugh spilling from them.

"Hair appointment–?"

"Well, it was really nice seeing you, Jerry." I said as I collected my things from the desk, shoving them into the bag swiftly. "We really need to get Harry to that appointment, but we can definitely talk later."

"Right..." He cleared his throat, a smile spreading across his lips. I let out a small breath as I nodded towards him, my hands interlocking with Harry's as I started towards the door.

"Bye!" Harry waved back at him with his free hand, his dimples planted into his cheeks as he smiled. I dared not to look back as I continued to pull Harry out of the door.

I didn't have to ask Harry, I think he already knew that that interaction was really weird. Collins had always been a really nice guy ever since I met him. I couldn't wrap my head around why he would ask a million questions to Harry. He had to have known it was awkward in the way he was throwing them so quickly at him. I didn't recall ever having so many inquiries from him towards my life at once.

Harry's grip tightened around my hand as he pulled me towards him for comfort. My cheeks started to heat up as his thumb mindlessly ran over the back of my hand. For a moment, I wasn't sure if I should pull my hand from him or if I should just let it happen. I couldn't lie, it felt nice. I liked it.

That was until Harry had let go of my hand the minute I was closer to him. I pursed my lips to the side, crossing my arms over my chest as we continued to walk down the sidewalk back towards Nina's house.

"Sorry about that." I cleared my throat into my fist. "I don't know why he did that. That was..."

"I don't think I like people asking me questions." Harry said softly, a soft frown formed onto his lips. "I'm never sure what to say. I always feel like I'll say something I'm not supposed to."

"Let's just stay away from questions for right now." I breathed out. "Later I can help you figure out some answers to some of those questions, okay?"

"You would really do that for me?" Harry gazed towards me with a soft smile. I felt his hand rest on the top of my back. "Thanks, I really appreciate that."

"Of course." I nodded towards him. "Um... would you mind helping me pack up everything at Nina's and taking it back to my house? My landlord said they had fixed the door, so..."

"Can I walk Astro?" He said with an excited tone and a lopsided grin.

"Yes, you can walk Astro." I chuckled out.

"Then yes, I will." Harry clapped his hands together, shrugging his shoulders as he started to walk a bit faster. I watched as he excitedly blew past me, and I couldn't help but find it so cute.

Just the simplest things Harry found so exciting.

It made my heart flutter.  

"Nina just texted me, they are outside waiting for us." I said as I clicked my phone off, sliding it into the back of my pocket.

I double checked through the bag, making sure I had everything for tonight. Waters, blankets, jackets, and snacks. The joints were in my purse and everything else was good to go.

"I'm a bit nervous, Aurora." Harry said from behind me, his fingers twisting his rings around slowly as he pursed his lips to the side. "After the last party we went to..."

"It's not gonna be like that party. It's just gonna be the four of us, nobody else. I promise." I tried to reassure him as I flung the bag over my shoulder. "Plus, Nina is a good judge of character. She wouldn't have Ryan around if he wasn't, right?"

"And you." He said, nudging my elbow with his. "Don't forget you."

I wanted to laugh, but I held it back. I wasn't really that interesting of a person, or good for that matter. Maybe it was just my anxiety talking, but I really didn't look at myself the way that Harry seemed to. He was much more forgiving to myself than even I was.

"Well, anyways." I cleared my throat as I headed towards the door. "Astro's fed for the night... Got everything in my bag..." I ran my hand over the fabric of it, squinting my eyes as I went through my mental list.

"You checked the bag twice now. I'm sure we have everything." Harry said as he nudged me out the door. "Now go. Shoo, shoo, out the door."

"Okay, okay." I chuckled as I locked the door from behind me. We left my apartment, seeing Ryan's truck that was parked right outside. I was glad I didn't have to walk far to meet him. Usually the streets were filled with cars, but luckily tonight it wasn't.

I packed the bag into the back before hopping into the truck. Harry came in after me, scooting into his seat before closing the door shut. It smelled like strong cologne in the truck, and when I looked over I saw a bottle that was sitting on the floorboard. It had been used so heavily that it was hard to read the label and identify the scent from where we sat.

"Harry! You came!" Nina clapped as she smiled wide back at him, her dimples prominent in her cheeks. Harry let out a nervous laugh, running a hand through his thick brown curls.

"Yeah..." He hummed. He sounded slightly unsure with his answer, but he did his best to match the excitement in Nina's tone.

Nina knew he was nervous, but we were going to try our best to make him feel more comfortable in our circle.

"Hey, what's up." Ryan's low, tangy voice came from him. My jaw nearly dropped to my lap when I heard his voice. It sounded so thick and deep. Looking at him, I didn't really expect him to sound like that.

Ryan was probably about the same height as Harry. He had dark brown hair that curled around the backside, but came outwards towards the front of his face. Brown eyes that were more golden than a deep brown.

He looked like he was meant to be with Nina from the way he looked. He just radiated Mr. Right for her. He had a very cool and relaxed demeanor about him.

"What do you go to school for, Harry?" Ryan looked in the rear view back at him as he drove off down the road.

"Uh, I major in science and astronomy." Harry nodded towards him, his fingers fiddling with the strings that frayed on his jeans. "What about you?"

"Computer Engineering." He said back. "It's boring to learn about, but it's fun to build computers."

"That's...awesome." Harry wasn't sure what to say. I chuckled at his response, shifting my weight in my seat.

"How old are you?" Ryan looked back at Harry in the mirror again. "You look young."

"Do I really?" Harry smiled cheekily as he looked down to study his body. "Well, I'm...twenty-one, so cheers. Thanks for that."

"I'm twenty-four." Ryan chuckled out at Harry's response. "You guys are practically babies."

"Hey! We are only a few years younger." Nina whined, nudging Ryan in the shoulder.

"Is twenty-four old?" Harry had leaned closely over towards me as he whispered into my ear. I let out a chuckle, glancing over to him.

"No, it's not." I whispered back to him, patting his hand softly.

"Oh..." His lip twitched up into a smile, turning his body towards Ryan again.

The place we were going to was out in the middle of nowhere, but thankfully it was only a thirty to forty-five minute drive. Harry kept staring out the window, and I could tell he was nervous from his leg lightly bouncing.

I was nervous too, honestly.

Ryan talked a lot about how he and his frat friends had parties a lot and that we should come with him. Instinctively, I had rolled my eyes at him without him seeing.

It was so weird to think about Nina dating a frat boy. He definitely had the qualities to show it by his tank that had slits down the side, paired with skinny jeans that were so tight you could basically see his dick imprinted in them.

Oh, and the backwards baseball cap was a dead giveaway.

Even with that, though, the way he talked about things so passionately made me think twice about him. When I would think about frat guys, I would mostly think about, well... dumb guys that did dumb shit and got drunk a lot.

Besides him getting drunk a lot, I had to give it to him that he was incredibly smart. Maybe there was more to him after all.

We finally pulled up to the large field. Ryan took the gravel road that led out towards the field, but then he took an unexpected hard right to drive straight into it.

Harry's brows furrowed together tightly, his fingers gripping his seatbelt as he scanned around the area from all the windows before looking at me with a curious look.

"It's okay." I whispered as I unbuckled my seat once we came to a stop.

He gave me a nervous smile as he also clicked his seatbelt off of him.

"I'll let the bed of the truck down." Ryan said as he turned the car off and then got out.

"I'm gonna help him." Nina said with a smile as she leaned back to grab the big luggage full of pillows that we had packed.

"Try not to shove your tongue down his throat by the time we get out." I chuckled, watching her face get bashful.

She left the car with a roll of the eye and a scoff, but a sly smirk spread across her face that told me she was definitely gonna have her tongue down his throat when we got out.

Harry scooted himself closer to the door, his body pressed against it as he stared out the window. Part of me felt a little bad only because I knew he was anxious to be around other people right now.

"We're gonna be stargazing." I told him softly as I scooted towards him. "Ryan seems to like you."

"Ryan is okay." He replied with his attention elsewhere, but I could tell he really meant it. Ryan did seem just okay. So far.

"C'mon, let's go outside so we can get in the bed of the truck." I nudged him softly with a smile.

He cracked a small smile back at me before opening the door. We got out of the car, and I had imagined it to be a bit colder, but it was just the right temperature. It wasn't too hot and it wasn't too cold.

We walked to the back of the car, and my eyes lit up at the sight of how comfy the bed had looked. Nina had laid down five thick blankets, with pillows scattered around for us to use if we wanted to lay down.

It was perfect.

I climbed up first, taking a spot next to Nina. Harry sat next to Ryan.

"This is so cute." I pouted, tilting my head towards the sky. "And the stars are really out tonight too."

"Tonight is gonna be so much fun." Nina chuckled as she nudged my arm. "Ryan brought some shots. Do you guys want one?"

"Yeah, they're uh... pineapple flavor." He said as he showed the small shots. They were in small clear bottles with the liquid sloshing inside.

"Sure, thank you, Ryan." I smiled as I took two from him. I glanced towards Harry out of the corner of my eye that was staring directly at the sky. He wasn't even zoning in on what was happening around him.

"Hey, Starboy!" Nina used her foot to tap Harry's thigh, a wide smile on her lips. "You want one?"

Harry looked towards Nina with a bit of a jolt, as if he wasn't expecting to come in contact with someone else. He squinted his eyes at the small bottle, then looked towards me.

I held out the second shot in my hand, a reassuring smile on my lips. "You don't have to take it. It's like the blue drink."

"Blue drink—Ah, yes." Harry chuckled nervously as he leaned forward to take it from my fingers. He examined the bottle, tilting his head side to side. "I think I will. Thank you, Ryan." He said quietly towards him as he tilted the shot towards him.

We all took the caps off of the bottle, holding it up in the air with a smile. Harry watched in curiosity, slowly raising his glass with the rest of ours.

"Cheers!" Nina chuckled.

"Cheers!" I smiled.

"Cheers." Harry repeated more shyly.

We all took the shot at the same time. Harry, though, had fallen behind. He was having a small problem with taking it all in one go and instead going with a sip.

He let out a cough, covering his mouth with his arm as he tried so desperately not to spill the shot on the blankets.

"Not a tequila man, huh?" Ryan chuckled as he hit Harry's back with a loud pop. His eyes widened, letting out another cough before shaking his head.

"It went down the wrong way, I think. Doesn't really taste the same as the blue one either." Harry cleared his throat, sending me a silly smile as he looked down at the drink once more.

"You don't have to—"

Before I could even finish my sentence, Harry took the drink and chugged it all the way down. His face scrunched as he did so, and his ring cladded fingers gripped at his jeans tightly.

"God damn, Harry." Nina laughed out. "You want another one?"

Harry shook his head with a sour look on his face as he placed the bottle to the side, waving his hand in front of his face.

"No, I think that's quite alright." He said thickly. "Maybe, uh... Later."

Watching Harry struggle with the shot was so pitiful, but I couldn't help but laugh anyways. It was funny the way he wasn't used to alcohol and the way his face twisted with the burning feeling that it left in his throat.

"We need some music!" Nina stood on the bed of the truck, placing a hand onto the roof of it before jumping over the ledge to the grass.

"Please don't turn on that electronic stuff. It gives me a headache." I begged as I watched her crawl into the driver's seat of the truck. Suddenly the music started to flow through the truck, and it got louder as she turned it up.

It wasn't too loud but just loud enough for us to hear it.

Sounds of guitars started to strum its way through the air, causing my body to start to relax more. I was thankful that Nina turned on something that we all liked. Usually she listened to really noisy music that was just too much for my brain to handle.

"Don't be a hater, Aurora." Nina pouted as she climbed over the ledge, pulling herself back onto the blankets. "You just haven't been to a rave yet, that's your problem. You should come with me sometime."

"I would rather eat rusty nails for breakfast." I teased her, crossing my arms over my chest. "Raves are not my kind of scene. You know that."

"But they could be!" She raised her arms in defense. "Don't knock it 'til you try it!"

"Babe, did you bring the joints?" Ryan nudged Nina. "Let's light up, c'mon."

"Oh, Aurora, did you roll the joints?" Nina jolted as she turned towards me with a smile. "Please tell me you did."

I rolled my eyes. "Did I bring the joints? Of course I did." I said as I brought out the small packaging from my bag. Harry shifted in his seat, staring at me curiously as he watched me bring out one of the cherry paper rolled joints from earlier.

"Fuck yes. Thank you, Aurora." Ryan smiled wide. "You're a lifesaver."

"You're gonna make my ego inflate, be careful." I teased as I placed it between my lips. I lit it with no effort, taking a slow, but long drag off of it. Smoke bellowed into the air, creating a stench of skunk immediately.

"It's been so long since I've smoked. My normal guy has been dry as fuck." Nina mumbled as she pouted her lips. "Gimme, gimme, gimme."

"So needy." I mumbled as I blew the smoke out, passing it off to her.

"Can I try some of that, Nina?" Harry said shyly, pointing towards the lit object between her fingers. "I, uh... I've never smoked before."

"Harry, you've never smoked before? No way! This is gonna be so awesome." Nina said excitedly as she scooted towards him with the joint in hand.

"Well, maybe—" I stopped Nina with my hand, taking it from her as I tsked. "Let me show him. You always end up getting first-timers way too high."

"That was one time and that shit was medical grade, okay? It's not my fault she couldn't hang." Nina pouted as she scooted back to her spot.

"Okay, whatever." I teased, handing it over to Harry with a smile. "Okay, so put your lips around this end and just take a really small hit. Inhale like you are breathing through your mouth, but uh... with your mouth closed."

Harry took the joint, staring down at the butt of it. He gave me nervous eyes for a mere moment, but I reassured him with a small pat to the knee and a nod.

He shrugged, clearing his throat before putting it to his lips. His cheeks drew in slowly, brows pinched tightly as he looked down at it.

"Hold it, Harry! Hold it in!" Nina cheered on as she laughed. "It'll get you higher!"

"Babe, you're gonna kill him." Ryan rolled his eyes, wrapping his arm around her to pull her close.

Harry took Nina's advice, but it was only for a few seconds before he started to cough up the smoke. A lot harder than he had coughed for the shot he took moments ago.

"It's okay. Hey, it's okay." I panicked slightly, taking the joint from his fingers before passing it off to Ryan from behind me. "Nina knows that's just a myth anyway. If anything, coughing will be more helpful with that." I replied, eyeing her purposely. She only winked at me in return, causing us both to giggle.

Harry was hunched over, covering his mouth as he coughed hard into his hand. I placed a soft touch to his back as I rubbed it carefully, nodding my head in understanding.

"It's normal, you're gonna cough a lot." I frowned. "Just don't listen to Nina next time. She tends to... do this to people."

He tilted his head up, his eyes slightly watery from the coughing. He let out a soft breath, rubbing at his eyes before turning towards me with an embarrassed expression.

"I didn't expect that." His voice was now raspy from the coughing fit. Harry ran a hand through his brown curls, sitting up straight as he tried to control his breathing.

"You okay?" I whispered as I found a seat next to him, putting my back against the truck with my legs stretched out.

"I feel a little weird... in my chest." He whispered back, placing a hand onto his heart as he drew in a long, slow breath. "Is this normal?"

"It's normal, I promise. You'll feel good in a second, just don't worry about smoking if you don't want to, alright? Sometimes too big of a hit can cause your chest to hurt from all the coughing." I nudged his arm. "We can just listen to music and lay here."

"No, I like it." Harry cleared his throat into his fist, shaking his head softly. His glazed eyes peered towards Nina and Ryan who were blowing the weed smoke into each other's mouth. His lips parted, shifting in his seat slowly.

"Ignore them." I whispered towards him with a roll of my eyes. "Hey! Stop hogging the weed!"

I leaned over, taking the joint from Nina's hand. She muttered something under her breath before wrapping herself back around Ryan. It was typical, I hadn't doubted they would be all over each other tonight.

Placing it between my lips, I took a slow, but long hit off of it. The smoke filled my lungs, burning my throat as I leaned back. It felt good to be smoking again, it had me questioning why I had even stopped for a bit in the first place.

"You're not gonna blow that into my mouth, are you?" Harry questioned with a nervous chuckle that followed after. I let out a soft breath, a smile curved on my lips as the smoke bellowed through my nose.

"No, don't worry."

Harry took the joint from me, taking a long draw from it. The cherry burned the wrapper as I watched him hold the smoke in before it spilled from his lips. He coughed into his hand, his eyes starting to become more and more hooded.

We sat there for sometime, listening to the music while my head leaned back against the truck to stare up at the sky. I kept glancing over towards Harry to make sure he was okay, and he was in the position that I was in. I hadn't noticed that he was staring up at the stars with me.

I had often wondered about what went through his mind. When he looked up at the stars, was he thinking about home? Was he contemplating? Was he thinking the same things that I did?

His mind, from what he had shown me, was beautiful and dark. It was ironic in a way, the way that he could look so happy on the outside, but yet have so many doubts and insecurities about himself. I could only wish that he would see himself the way that I saw him.

But I supposed other people could say the same thing about me as well.

I glanced towards him once again, seeing that he was looking directly at me. I bit back a smile, turning my head to look at him fully. His blood-shot eyes crinkled as he smiled at me, his dimples poking out. I parted my lips, my fingers tapping on my thigh.

"I–"

"You know what!" Nina said as she leaned up from Ryan's arms, spreading her arms out with a wide smile.

"I'm scared to ask." I mumbled softly. The high was now setting in, I could tell from the way my words were slightly slurred with the threat of giggles and my voice became lazy and raspy.

Nina tsked at me, leaning over to grab her purse as she sat it into her lap. Harry and I watched curiously as she brought out a small baggy that had small square foils in it. I wasn't a fool, I knew exactly what it was.

"Are you guys ready to really party?" Nina smirked as she handed me two hits of acid on their own pieces of foil. I stared down at them in my hand, a chuckle leaving me.

"What's that?" Harry whispered towards me, his brows pinching together tightly. I glanced out of the corner of my eye, nibbling on my lip carefully.

"This is acid." I said as I took the small pieces of paper out of the foil, placing them directly onto my finger. "It will make you feel really good. Colors will be a lot brighter and it's like, you're one with the Earth."

"I think I already am one with the Earth, Aurora." Harry chuckled, glancing towards Nina and Ryan who were already putting the hits onto their tongues.

"Do you wanna do it? You don't have to. I know it's all a lot at once, especially for someone not used to it." I turned towards him, holding my palm out. Harry looked down into my hand, his brow perking up. I knew Harry had never done anything like this before, but I would rather him do it with me than some random person he didn't know.

He would be a lot safer with us. With me.

"Uh..." He scratched the back of his head, pursing his lips. "What's it going to feel like?"

"You'll have to figure it out on your own. It's different for everyone, but just imagine pure bliss and euphoria." I placed a hit onto his finger, then one on mine as well. "Here, you can put one on my tongue and then I'll put one on yours."

"How long do you leave it on your tongue?" Harry frowned, looking down at the paper with curiosity.

"Just for thirty minutes or so and then you spit it out or swallow it. This kind doesn't dissolve." I told him as I raised my finger towards his mouth. "Open your mouth."

Harry let out a giggle, opening his mouth slowly before sticking his tongue out. I watched him in awe, a smile spreading across my lips before I did the same thing. I placed the hit onto his tongue, and he placed one on mine.

I closed my mouth, letting it settle on my tongue and making sure not to swallow it before I could give it time to kick in. Harry settled back against the truck, placing his hands into his lap as he brought his tongue back into his mouth. He stared down into his lap, not really saying much after that.

"Are you ready to really see the world now, Starboy?"

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MC Persona Chart Observations I: Celebrities Edition

The MC in Astrology, meaning Medium Coeli, is one of the 4 main points (ASC, IC, DSC, MC) in a Chart. It is the also the 10H. The MC/ 10H is a point that represents the career, the job area of the native. It is also about the reputation. In order to know more about this matter, we can look at it in the Natal Chart, but also the MC Persona Chart. This is what the study will be about in this post, taking celebrities MC PC as examples.

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These observations only apply to MC Persona Chart

❇ Keanu Reeves has his 5H ruler (Jupiter) in his 10H, meaning his career indeed involved a lot of creativity, and 5H is also the house of comedy, theater and acting, which makes even more sense.

❇ Having Jupiter in Leo/ in the 5H/ Ruler of the 5H could be a sign of being an actor.

❇ Selena Gomez has a stellium in her 1H, and she is very well known for her beauty and face.

❇ Justin Bieber has his Mercury in his 3H and his 3H' Ruler is Mercury! His sun is also at a Gemini degree.

❇ Having Leo rising or rising 29° means being extremely well known at your work. People see you and directly know who you are. (Keanu Reeves, Justin Bieber)

❇ Saturn 8H could express you will struggle a lot mentally because of your career. Justin Bieber has it, AND it's in Pisces, which explains why he had addictions.

❇ Having Sun at 5°, 17° or 29° always indicate having fame in your career. (Choi Wooshik, Hailey Bieber, Lee Minho, Gong Yoo)

❇ Juno, Groom/Briede could indicate what your spouse does as a job. Hailey Bieber has Groom 3H and Justin is a singer. Justin has Briede 2H and Hailey is a business woman.

❇ Mars in Leo/5H could be another indicator of being an Actor (Selena Gomez, Henry Cavill, Timothée Chalamet, Gong Yoo)

❇ Part of Fortune 11H could be a sign of blowing up on social media and it can be part of the fame or recognition.

❇ Uranus 5H could be a sign of having a sudden fame after some years. Pedro Pascal has that and became famous before turning 40 years old.

❇ Harry Styles has MC Mercury ruled, and his Mercury is in 9H. He was known worldwide ever since he started in One Direction and is a singer.

❇ Your MC's ruler in your 5H could indicate becoming famous. (Jungkook, Jack Harlow)

❇ Jungkook also has his Part of Fortune 5H, and people call him the Golden Maknae, because he shines whatever he does (maknae= youngest)

❇ MC ruler in Aquarius/11H could indicate being an influencer or just very famous for your online presence (Hailey Bieber, Kylie Jenner)

❇ Kim Jennie from BLACKPINK has her Sun conjunct Mercury in 8H, she is a rapper.

❇ Her 8H Ruler is also Mercury.

❇ Vertex in your MC PC could indicate what make a major turn in your career.

❇ Kim Jennie has Vertex Leo 7H and she signed a contract with YG Entertainment, a big idols agency.

❇ Harry Styles has Vertex Gemini 8H conjunct Mars and he became a singer by singing in X Factor, a television music competition show.

❇ Pedro Pascal has Vertex Capricorn and gained fame and success in his acting career later in his life. It can also mean you were meant to change your job field and make a real impact. Sabrina Carpenter has the same thing, and recently gained more appreciation for her music, later than some people.

❇ Vertex 6H could mean your hard work is what make your career take another turn. (Beyonce, Taylor Swift, Selena Gomez)

❇ Mercury 1H could mean people talk a lot about how you look, your face, your body, etc in your career. (Selena Gomez)

❇ Charles Leclerc has Saturn in his 10H, and Saturn is a planet that represents the car. Charles is a F1 Pilot.

❇ Kylie Jenner MC ruler is Jupiter and she has it in 12H. This house is all about the illusions and it can be about what is not real. She participates in her family's reality TV Show. Reality TV Shows are known for pretending to show "reality" while it's in fact just for entertaining purposes.

❇ Kylie also has her Sun in Libra, and she also got famous for her make up brand.

❇ Your 7H ruler in MC PC could represent what your business is about if you have one. Selena Gomez & Hailey Bieber both have their 7H in Venus signs and both of their Venus are in 1H. They both have a make up business.

❇ Sun 2H/8H could mean you got famous for your money, or your family's money.

❇ Rising sign will always say how you look during your career.

❇ Jennie has Capricorn rising, and she is known for having a "resting b*tch face" or just looking distant and cold when posing.

❇ Harry Styles has Scorpio Rising, he is known for changing his style multiple times during his career, and he is also "daring" with his style and looks.

❇ Leo Rising could mean the way you look at work will become iconic. Some of your looks will perhaps stay in "history" meaning one of your look could become so famous people can dress as you for halloween and people know who they are dressing as. (Justin Bieber, Sabrina Carpenter, Keanu Reeves)

❇ Sun conjunct Mercury will always be the n°1 indicator of being in the music industry. Sooo many singers/ rappers/ musician have this placement.

❇ Cancer rising people can be treated like babies during their career (Jungkook, Charles Leclerc)

❇ Sun in Pisces or 12H can make you hide from your career for sometimes. It can mean people don't need to see you for you to do your job. Or at some point you will not show yourself anymore in your career.

❇ Neptune 1H/ 8H can mean people are obsessed with you.

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Astrology Observation pt. 2

(Thank y’all for all the support on my first one❤️🙌🏾)

*as a sag Venus sag mars pls stop asking me why I’m laughing…I’m not laughing at YOU I’m just insane😝

*moon in the 1st synastry is so therapeutic you just feel really comfortable opening up to the 1st house person and as the 1st house person I feel honored someone trusts me enough to share their feelings🫶🏾

*people w aqua and libra in their big three are the chillest mfs you’ll ever meet. Even though I’m very chaotic anytime someone describes me “chill” just seems to be thrown in there. We space out ALOT and it’s honestly embarrassing😭 Ex: Alicia keys, lil Wayne, Harry styles, Rosalia. Harry gives such himbo energy in interviews and they drag him for it in the comments but he’s probably just thinking about multiple things at once. Alicia keys didn’t even realize lil mama was on that stage and went on performing lol. Obviously lil Wayne smokes but something about his energy…he’s on cloud 9. And just go watch Rosalia’s chicken shop episode💕😂.

*honestly Aries mars aren’t that bad when it comes to temper because usually they find ways to manage it. Now mars-Uranus aspects is a completely different story. I have late mars-Uranus and it takes me a while to get mad but when I do I can’t even think anymore. My old roomie had a tight square and she would blow up on people for no actual reason like girl sit down😭

*something about Scorpio mars men is just😮‍💨 they have such a sneaky energy to them that makes them stand out. Virgo mars are fine too they’re just so skinny and no matter wtf they do they’re always nerdy ugh (ex: Matthew gray gubler, Lucky daye, Dylan O’Brien, Jeff Buckley)

*i noticed Aries moon don’t really get along w each other. They find their own energy to be too mf much (which it can be) so they prefer being around more calmer people *coughs* libra moons like me. They wanna be bouncing off the walls 🤪 while their friend is just like 🙂.

* fire risings do a lot of things fast. As an Aries rising, I walk fast, get happy fast, eat fast, workout fast. My cousin is complaining her sag rising toddler eats and drinks way too fast.

*venus in 11th…how many tiktok drafts do y’all got😭

*i talked to this guy who had similar placements as me (Venus in 8th and moon in 6th plus Aquarius and Aries placements) It was so chaotic it was literally us going back and forth obsessing over eachother while trying to keep it lowkey. But also the amount of anxiety we are naturally incline to have made the whole situation too mf much.

*i have mercury conjunct my friends mars and for years she tells me the things I say can take people there and make them wanna fight me. It’s in Capricorn and so I was confused before I knew we had that aspect

* i noticed rappers whose lines always stick out to me have Gemini mars or mercury- mars (central cee, king von, tupac, kendrick , j. cole)

*i was talking to this guy and I had Venus and mars plus pluto in his 4th house. Months after we stopped talking our friend groups meshed and he would tell me non-stop I reminded him of his mother. He said she was the same height as me and y’all I was scared to ask what she looked like cause 😫 y’all remember that episode of family guy when Chris dated that girl that looked like Lois yep 4th house synastry.

*im a true crime whore and two women who killed their bfs had sun-Uranus aspects. Their energy was erratic and very off putting in videos. I can’t remember the other one but Courtney tailor/clenney was one.

* More spilling my business on the Internet😍 i think I’m done entertaining people my age. Pluto in the 8th, Lilith in 1st, and Venus conjunct Pluto synastry has been hell. Where’s my sugar daddy/mama?? It’s ghetto out here

*gemini Lilith generation whose a year younger than me is nasty asf😭 esp the tauruses they have their Lilith conjunct their Gemini Venus and opposite their Pluto. One said he had a slept w two girls at separate times. He didn’t know they met until the girls posted a selfie together and tagged him. They later told him they wanted a threesome and he did it😭 knowing astrology I believed every word

* sidebar Neptune-asc people and trying to give off innocent vibes ugh annoying asf to me. I can see right through their bs but they’re able to fool most people.

* mercury-Pluto aspects are in fact LIARS and throw a Scorpio placement in there😮‍💨

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The signs as Harry Styles in a tub, in honor of dirty 30

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Pisces:

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Harry Styles: Venus in Aquarius

🌐 Venus in Aquarius

Venus in Aquarius suggests not just a taste for the unconventional, but also a kind of emotional fluidity and experimentalism when it comes to relationships. This can be especially true for Harry Styles, whose public persona itself is a celebration of non-conformity, seen through his androgynous fashion choices and open-minded interviews.

Venus in Aquarius seeks a mental connection and values intellectual compatibility just as much as physical attraction. This placement also suggests a certain level of emotional detachment, not in the sense of lacking care or love, but in requiring a considerable amount of emotional and intellectual space. Aquarius places a high value on individual freedom, including the freedom to explore varying perspectives and experiences.

🦂Jupiter in Scorpio

Jupiter in Scorpio is a placement that is associated with an thirst for emotional, psychological, and spiritual depth. This combination suggests a hunger for transformative experiences that shake the very foundation of one's being. For Harry, this could mean that his romantic endeavors are not just a search for partnership but also a quest for mutual evolution. In relationships, he could be attracted to situations that offer more than just surface-level interactions. Instead, he might seek complex, multi-faceted connections that allow him to explore the darker, more mysterious aspects of love and human interaction.

🎭 Venus in Aquarius square Jupiter in Scorpio

The square between Venus in Aquarius and Jupiter in Scorpio in Styles' chart shows tension between two needs: the Aquarian requirement for emotional freedom, and the Scorpionic demand for emotional depth. Such tension could lead to a relationship dynamic where he finds himself constantly oscillating between wanting to explore emotional depths and needing space and freedom. This may result in alternating periods of emotional vulnerability and detachment. He might dive into a deeply committed, all-consuming romantic engagement, but later feel the need to re-establish his independence, leading to a temporary withdrawal and a restructuring of the relationship.

This aspect could make his romantic life somewhat turbulent and highly dynamic. The pattern of closeness and distance might be a recurring theme, where relationships undergo multiple transformations, either deepening through cycles of intensity or liberating through phases of individuality. This tension could manifest in relationships that undergo significant changes over time or in a series of relationships that each offer very different experiences, from deeply emotional and intense to liberating and unconventional. His choice of partners might also reflect this complexity; he may be attracted to strong, independent individuals who can handle emotional depths, or alternately, to individuals who are willing to explore non-traditional relationships.

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𓆏𓆏𓆏Your outer appearance + astrology ✪︎︎✌︎

****Celebrities examples are all sun sign placements, but description would be more for rising+sun.

👀Sagittarius placements always have cat eyes and really luscious lips 👄 they’re like the siren 🚨 personified xxx I personally think they’re some of the most beautiful people that have graced the earth- so sensual, so sessy. ex: Zoe Kravitz, Scarlett Johansson, Alexa Demie, Lucy Liu, Jane Birkin, Brad Pitt, Gemma Chan,

👀Cancer placements …y’all are SO ethereally beautiful, like what ? You all look like fallen angels: full, round face, soft eyes and perfectly pouty lips. So angelic, so divine 👼not stereotyping but y’all do look a little moony lol 🌝 ex: Margot Robbie, Selena Gomez, Ariana Grande, Kali Uchis, Hoyeon Jung, Lana Del Rey, Hope Sandoval,

👀Taurus placements..your bone structure is insane. This one’s obvious because Taurus is ruled by the planet of beauty, Venus, but there’s this grace and goddess/god like energy of Taurus placements. Earth mama/daddy energy. 🌎🍃Nurturing, grounding peaceful. 🕊ex: Gigi Hadid, Robert Pattinson, George Clooney, Cate Blanchett, Travis Scott, Megan Fox, Machine Gun Kelly, Penelope Cruz

👀Gemini placements: there’s this untouchable kinda beauty to y’all. Almost like you’re not from this planet. Eternal youthfulness (Mercury ruled y’all) feminine yet masculine at the same time or vice versa. 🧔‍♀️Very gender fluid. Mischievous look in ur eyes. Deep set eyes that have perma Smokey eye filter. Smaller frame ex: Angelina Jolie, Natalie Portman, Lily Rose Depp and Johnny Depp, Tom Holland, Princess Nokia, Emma Chamberlain, Emily Ratajkowski, Stevie Nicks, Naomi Campbell

👀Capricorn placements..this one’s personal because I have many caprisun placements, but everyone always says I have great bone structure. I see that in a lot of Capricorn celebrities. Great smiles (Capricorn rules the teeth), oddly goat 🐐 like but in the best way possible. Beautiful skin and usually blessed with great hair as well. Actually really ageless, no joke, we ages backwards I swear…a little elf like 🪄🧝‍♀️ ex: my boy Timothee Chalamet, Suki Waterhouse, FKA Twigs, Kate Moss, Hunter Schafer, Jared Leto, Francois Hardy, Florence Pugh

👀Scorpio placements: for real, y’all are so frickin sexy. Like damn.. you got those bedroom eyes and killer smile. Even if they’re not traditionally handsome (like Libras lol) there’s always something about Scorpio placements that draws you to them magnetically. Hypnotizing. Also there’s a kinda vampire 🧛‍♀️ vibe to them ngl. ex: Ryan Gosling, Leo DiCaprio, Travis Barker, Adam Driver, Winona Ryder, WILLOW, Joaquin Phoenix, Drake

👀Pisces placements: otherworldly beauty, like so so dreamy. They have that “dream girl” “dream guy” aura to them. Enchanting, intoxicating. 🔮Neptune rules Pisces and there is a undeniable fantastical quality to y’all. The kinda peeps that you can’t really take your eyes off of. Old soul energy with deep kindness in their eyes. Mermaid/merman energy 🧜‍♀️🧜 ex: Rihanna, Bad Bunny, Ansel Elgort, Olivia Wilde, Liz Taylor, Lupita Nyung’O, Drew Barrymore, Erykah Badu, Kurt Russell

👀Libra placements : I always tell people that Libras are gods favorite. They got the charm+ the looks+the artistic talent. 🙏Sheesh 🙄 There’s a kinda sweetness to their looks, yet you know they’re hiding something from you. It’s the same trickster energy as Gemini. If you were to create the perfectly balanced ⚖️human face, it would be on a Libra for sure. ex: Kim K, A$AP Rocky, Doja Cat, Brigitte Bardot, Gwen Stefani, Snoop Dogg, Dakota Johnson

👀Leo placements: there’s def a cat like energy to y’all- cat eyes, cat nose- just the way you carry yourself is regal 👸 you’re royalty and you know it. Big messy beautiful hair and even bigger luminous smiles. Your aura is like a big ball of light. Super star 🌟 quality. ex: Madonna, J Lo, Austin Butler, Jason Momoa, Chris Hemsworth, Mila Kunis, Cara Delevingne, Obama, Charlize Theron

👀Aquarius placements: Def something really striking about y’all, it’s like a beauty you can’t describe in words. 👀Tend to be quite slender in frame. Badass energy. 🏍Intimidating, yet warm. Contradicting to a T and that’s Uranian energy for you. ex: Harry Styles, Emma Roberts, Christian Bale, The Weeknd, Kid Cudi, Alicia Keys, Megan Thee Stallion, Shakira, Paris Hilton

👀Aries placements: there’s a childlike 👶🏻👶🏻innocence to your look, yet because of the Martian influence there is a fiery 🔥quality to ur looks and aura. Super sexy, yet looks like you wouldn’t hurt a fly. Smaller frame usually ex: Emma Watson, Paul Rudd, Kristen Stewart, Saoirse Ronan, Lady Gaga, Kiera Knightly, Pharrell

👀Virgo placements: Virgo is the virgin🧘‍♀️ maiden, and earthy energy of Mercury. There is a youthful quality to Virgo placements, just like Gemini, but it’s more feminine and soft in nature because Virgo is a feminine sign. Y’all have this wisdom in your eyes, like you see all the worlds hurts. Kind, gentle, yet a hidden sexiness to y’all. The kinda peeps who look innocent on the outside but u know there’s something quite tempting about them. 😉Smaller frame usually ex: Keanu Reeves, Salma Hayek, Zendaya, Beyoncé, Blake Lively, Tom Hardy, Idris Elba, Sydney Sweeny

That’s all y’all 💜 thanks for reading 🙏

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Lullaby Garden

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Tarot reader Louis Tomlinson and fortune teller Harry Styles, better known as the Tomlinson's, are the proud owners of a children's home, Lullaby Garden; in the heart of the hilly town of Scarborough. With eight children to keep them on their toes, the pair aren't short of good-hearted family fun.

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taylor swift and harry styles composite chart houses

1st house: the composite 1st house rules the relationship itself and your outward identity together. It shows how people view your relationship, and how you come across together.

scorpio 1st house : with the composite 1st house in scorpio, you may seem like an intense, strong pairing, more formidable together than apart (depending on natal placements). this can help keep you together, but can also lead to emotional intensity, rage, and hostility at times, and you have to avoid trying to control one another. passion can run high in personal relationships, and this can lead to all sorts of problems if not properly used. this can be a transformative relationship, but that can be for better or worse.

1st house ruler in 1st house: your health is usually excellent and this placement usually indicates a long life span. it also shows a very outspoken person with a noticeable personality since you have the most untainted energy of your ascendent. shows a supportive and happy home during childhood. 

pluto in 1st: with composite pluto in the 1st house, this may be a relationship where you’re constantly struggling over power and control. you have to show one another the respect to not try to dominate one another, but this can be difficult. this relationship can also serve to deeply transform you, and you can touch on issues that are deep inside of you and you'd normally avoid. the darker sides to each of you may come out together.

2nd house: the composite 2nd house can show what you value in the relationship, how you approach money together, and how secure you are in the relationship together.

sagittarius 2nd house : with the composite 2nd house in sagittarius, you can be very giving together, and you can take risks financially or to acquire more of value together than apart (depending on natal placements). this can lead to bigger windfalls, but it can also lead to bigger downfalls, so some caution and homework may be needed. you can factor in the big picture when it comes to financial plans, and you can be much more open-minded together with your values and ethics.

2nd house ruler in 10th house: this means a person will earn their wealth through their wealth. this wealth will earn them good reputation and status. possible careers and income sources include financial jobs, speaking, entertainment, sales, modeling (profession which uses their face), and constant studies (higher education). if ill-placed, indicates the fall of reputation through career, lots of career issues such as no promotions or enemies in work place, bad dental of facial health, loss of wealth and respect, and financial losses from working with big companies or the government. 

mars in 2nd house: with composite mars in the 2nd house, you can take your time with one another, and you may not feel the need to rush with each other. once you do something together, you can stick with it and have more staying power. this is the house of money, so this placement is good for a business relationship built around making money. you can earn more money together than apart, but you can also spend more money and use up more resources, so you need to exercise moderation.

uranus in 2nd house: with composite uranus in the 2nd house, there can be some instability when it comes to your finances and resources together. in a personal relationship, you need to make sure you’re saving and being responsible, otherwise you may find you’re not in a good position all of the time. in a business relationship, this can be an excellent position for a business partnership that makes money in bursts, by commission, or in a sporadic way, as well as one focused on technology or the internet.

north node in 2nd house: you help inspire each other to move beyond your preconceived ideas about what is valuable. you can both help each other redefine your priorities. the ways you make money or the resources you both have can shape your shared destiny, and you may both work together to help each other reclaim or redefine what you hold as important. you may easily attract the resources you need to help support each other as you follow your higher path. this relationship can also help you both support each other’s growth and development as you work toward your higher aspirations together.

3rd house: the composite 3rd house can show how you are together in your immediate environment and what you focus on together day-to-day. this is a house of communication, so it can also reflect how you communicate in the relationship, and what you can think about together.

capricorn 3rd house: with the composite 3rd house in capricorn, you may not be super open with one another, and prefer to communicate when you each have something important to say or contribute. there is likely little small talk between you, and you may not seem like you communicate all that much, but you do try to with the important stuff. you may have more responsibilities in your immediate environment. You may focus together on your goals and long-term plans.

3rd house ruler in the 3rd house: if the 3rd house ruler is placed in its own house, then it indicates a person who is very brave and courageous, and full of constant self-confidence. shows a person who earns through personal efforts and thus, works hard throughout their life. also, shows a fortunate and happy relationship with siblings and a helpful local community. 

sun in 3rd house: with the composite sun in the 3rd house, you can have open communication and feel that you connect through your minds. this position can give a good mental connection and mental understanding, but you need to work on having an emotional connection, otherwise it can struggle to go beyond a casual relationship. this can be a good placement for a friendship, where strings aren’t necessarily important, but in a romantic relationship, you have to open up about more than just your thoughts, but your feelings as well.

mercury in 3rd house: with composite mercury in the 3rd house, this is a house naturally ruled by mercury, so communication can be very easy between the two of you, and you can more comfortable express yourselves and feel you’re being understood. this can be a beneficial placement for any type of relationship. you can feel you’re understood by one another better than with other people, and it can be easier and more natural for you to talk things over and open up.

venus in 3rd house: with composite venus in the 3rd house, you can enjoy communicating openly with one another and expressing yourselves within the relationship. you may take a more analytical, logical approach to the relationship, which can be an issue in a romantic relationship if you’re not making sure you have an emotional connection. talking with one another about your relationship can be important, and you can find it easier to understand one another intellectually. you can appreciate variety within the relationship, and may be more sociable together.

saturn in 3rd house: with composite saturn in the 3rd house, communication can be difficult, and you may not feel like you can be completely open with one another or have difficulty understanding each other. you have to focus on opening the lines of communication, and allowing one another to express yourself fully. continually working on improving your communication may be required, and without it, you just can’t see eye-to-eye.

neptune in 3rd house: with composite neptune in the 3rd house, you can struggle to understand one another intellectually, and you seem to be in a fog when you try to communicate with one another. you may imagine you’re each saying things that you aren’t saying. You have to work hard to see the logic in the relationship. you can develop an unspoken understanding between the two of you, but you need to be gentle with your words with one another.

lilith in 3rd house: you are both likely to express your rebellious and unconventional nature when it comes to the ideas you share. you can easily stimulate each other’s minds and encourage each other to break with tradition. you can support each other’s creativity and encourage each other to write or express yourselves in some unique way. your communication style also reflects your deep desires and subconscious power, and you don’t try to limit or confine each other’s messages. you can help each other find the power of your voice. you encourage each other to speak your mind and be true to your inner vision.

eros in 3rd house: a turbulent and atmospheric energy colors this relationship-something boarding upon seductive wordplay and trancelike body movements. seduction in the form of literacy and temptation. there’s often teasing and lead up to the intimacy here in this relationship and often times there’s a seemingly cold air surrounding your sexual nature to others many don’t see it while behind the screens an almost childlike and youthful sexual playground is the reality.

4th house: the composite 4th house can show how we connect emotionally, what we build together from the ground up, and what the base of our connection is (since this is the bottom of the chart).

aquarius 4th house: with the composite 4th house in aquarius, if you live together, you likely don’t want a home life that is normal or conventional at all. in a romantic relationship, you may opt not to sleep in the same bedroom (or just not live together at all!), and it’s alright. if you’re family, you may have an unusual relationship. emotional connection may be difficult to come by, and that has to be worked on in personal relationships, though there can be a base of mutual respect.

4th house ruler in 2nd house: the native’s desire to earn money may have manifested in their early childhood or was influenced by their family members. the things they value in life are often shared by their parents or family. their mother may have instilled a lot of their values in them and the native may enjoy spending money on them. the person’s home is often very important to their sense of worth and security and they may enjoy decorating and personalizing the home.

pallas in 4th house: you both work together to easily solve problems related to home and family. you may share a passion for housing issues or stand out as advocates for women, children, and families. you can both find unique solutions to housing and family issues because you see patterns and connections that others miss. through this connection you are both able to help lead others who are working on setting a solid foundation. you may stand out as an advocate who helps others find security in the midst of family crises. you may help each other find unconventional solutions to problems related to home and family conflicts as well. this relationship can help you both become more confident in pursuing your ideals and mission related to home, stability and family connections.

vesta in 4th house: you are both likely to devote yourselves to serving others through routines and habits related to home and family. you may see it as your higher mission to open your home to others in need. you may also find it is important to devote yourselves to serving and helping family. as a couple, you may see parenthood or even adopting or fostering children in need as a path to fulfilling your higher spiritual mission. you may sacrifice some aspects of your own personal desires in order to follow your higher path and provide security and comfort to each other.

5th house: the composite 5th house can show how we express affection, what we love and take pleasure in together. this house can bring creative energy into our relationships and allow us to express creatively together. the 5th house also rules children, so they can be impacted by the composite 5th house with someone you have children with.

pisces 5th house: with the composite 5th house in pisces, you can enjoy creative ventures and the arts together. you may take pleasure in helping other people together as well. you may be more affectionate with one another in a personal relationship when you’re alone and no one is watching. you can be incredibly generous with each other, and make big sacrifices for the relationship, but may need to be careful of sacrificing too much. if you have children together, you can also be quite sacrificing for them.

5th house ruler in 3rd house: when it comes to communication and writing, the native may be inclined to write about romance or they may write in a manner that conveys a very dramatic energy. the native’s children may be of a gemini nature and enjoy reading or writing. there is an element of risk with the 5th House - in this 3rd House, this may be expressed as gossiping about one’s siblings or neighbors, or using short distance trips as a means to gamble.  

6th house: in the composite chart, the 6th house can show how you approach daily life and the mundane together, how you work together (whether professionally or personally), and the general health of the relationship

aries 6th house: with the composite 6th house in aries, you can put a lot of energy together into the little things, the day-to-day, and getting things done. you may need lots of activity together in your daily lives, otherwise you may have difficulty with one another and can snap more easily. when something comes up in the relationship, you can take initiative together to work on it and try to make improvements.

6th house ruler in 2nd house: the native’s sense of security and self-worth is often benefited by the native having a consistent daily routine in place. if the native’s routine is for some reason disrupted the native may not feel secure or comfortable in themselves. the main purpose of their everyday job or menial work is to make income but will also serve the native’s sense of self-worth - the native is often very hard working and the job they do may even be related to finances. their co-workers may influence their self-worth quite a lot and will impact how well they generate income. when it comes to pets the native may spend quite a lot of money on them but may also be able to use their pets as a means to bring money in - above all the native’s sense of self-worth is likely to benefit from having pets. the native may spend a lot of money on their health and fitness as well as possibly preventing or curing illness. the native’s values may be shaped by their experience with illness. 

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crd:

1h + 1h ruler

2h + 2h ruler + composite north node in houses

3h + 3h ruler + composite lilith in houses + composite eros in houses

4h + 4h ruler + composite pallas in houses + composite vesta in houses

5h + 5h ruler

6h + 6h ruler

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birth chart analysis: harry styles

today we are analyzing our air king, harry styles. i have noticed i've only been analyzing women so i wanted to switch it up. harry's chart kinda scares me, at least his big 6. anyways, let's get to it!

DISCLAIMER: this is just my interpretation of and opinion on his chart. it is not absolute truth, nor do you have to agree with it, but i'd like to hear your thoughts in the comments :) every sign has its shadow traits. i have aquarius and libra in my chart, but i will be pointing out the shadow traits of these signs. astrology is just for fun, not that deep. i feel the need to make this disclaimer as people are seemingly offended by some of my astro notes...

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sun in ♒︎, 11°

ah yes, the aqua sun. what is there not to love? the pickmeisha behaviour? the emotional unavailability? the know it all syndrome? LOL ANYWAYSSSS BEFORE ALL THE BUTTHURT PEOPLE COMMENT I WAS JUST KIDDINGGGGGGG (i am an aqua myself, okay? i'm allowed to make these jokes💅). so this placement makes harry a mercury influenced aqua (if u are dumb that just means he is an aqua with some gemini vibes sprinkled onto him). off the bat, we can say that harry is a humanitarian at heart. he wants to change the world and be known for some big innovation. he has a way with words. he likes to learn new things, but he is quite set in his own convictions. harry believes that he is smarter than most people, and he is probably right. developed aquarians are open-minded, but they are hardly wrong about things so their beliefs/convictions don't change much. the shadow side to this is (drumroll plz) KNOW IT ALL SYNDROME!!! with all that aqua in his chart, harry believes himself to be a genius but he is also above the school and education system. 2 cool for skool. did i mention how rebellious he is? harry is a stubborn person in general. he is either super traditional, or super liberal in his beliefs. he does not like to follow the crowd. he likes to come to his own conclusions on things and he has a dislike of sorts for those who cannot think for themselves. harry is eccentric, social, friendly, accepting of others, and a bit flighty if anything. he has some special snowflake syndrome for sure. he likes getting attention for his innovative ideas. he wants to be a pioneer of sorts. he likes to stand out for his uniqueness, so to speak. he wants to help the world and make it a better place. i mean, just look at his merch LOL. he wants to encourage people to be their most authentic selves, because he cannot imagine not living that way.

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moon in ♎︎, 11°

bro idk what it is with these celebs and libra moons! 3/4 of my analysis now have libra moons. it does add up though because libra moons value social status and luxury. harry is charming, emotionally aloof, attractive, and likeable. he is someone who does not like conflict. he values peace, harmony, and manners. MANNERSSSS. he is polite and sweet to people. he may be fake sometimes and pretend to like people who he doesn't like lol. he knows how to make others like/trust him and he can easily use this to his advantage (read: take advantage of other ppl after making them feel special and showering them with compliments!!). overall, he is very concerned with what is right. he will stand up to bullies, esp with that aqua influence. he likes fashion, luxury, status. he cares a good deal about his looks. he can be quite experimental/unique in his fashion tastes. he is not a very emotionally reactive person. it is rare to see him yell or get very angry. he is calm, cool, collected. a people pleaser at heart. he may have a strong conscience/gets guilty easily. he is indecisive on his feelings. he is a romantic and he longs to be in a partnership. he is very social and always wants to be around people because it energizes him, gives him meaning. the approval of others is important for his self esteem. without it, he may feel empty inside.

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asc in ♎︎, 28°

again, it is all about the MANNERSS with this man. he is so polite and charming. all smiles and compliments. a 'gentleman' so to speak. he is medium tall, beautiful smile, pretty boy. always well kempt and effortless beauty. quite aloof and detached when you meet him (and lowkey always cuz like he's all air). he is the type of person that u meet and u swear he was flirting with you, but then u see that he flirts with everyone LOLLLLLLLLL. he may be a hugger. makes people feel quite special. again, cares a good deal about his looks. to harry, meeting new people is like a game: how fast can i make this person like me???

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mercury in ♒︎

okay harry, we get it. you are not like other girls!! with mercury in aqua, harry likes to learn. he likes to write. he may be good at learning languages. he has a way with words, albeit a bit of a unique way. he is curious. he is fun to speak to. he may be interested in weird niche things like the occult, anime, poetry, etc. he likes to know about the world. could also be into debating and/or politics, esp with that libra in his chart.

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venus in ♒︎

more aqua, are we shocked?? taylor swift also has a venus in aqua,,, soulmates? so basically this means many things. harry treats his lover like his best friend. this can make his lover wonder if they're even special at all lol. to his loved ones, harry is generous, caring, friendly, accepting, understanding, and quirky. though he is non-committal and flighty as well. he values mental connection above all else. he wants someone who he can have good conversations with; someone who stimulates him mentally. he may be the type who is open to poly relationships LOLLLLLLLLLL or like sexual experimentation?? with all this aqua lmao. he has a very unique/eccentric sense of style.

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mars in ♒︎

harry does NOT CAREEEEEEE. he does not get mad or vengeful, he is a just a go with a flow dude who wants to have a good time. harry does not hold grudges either lol. again, he is rebellious and marches to the beat of his own drum. he does not like to be told what to do. he honestly could not give less of a fck what other people r sayin. he has his own methods when it comes to getting his projects done. his work ethic is: i will work when i feel like it! and if u tell him to work, he is less likely to do it because it triggers his aqua rebellion instincts.

anyways it's kinda hard to elaborate further cuz this man is just an aquarius through and through LOL.

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thank you all for reading! lmk your thoughts below. who should i do next??

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[norwegianwoodtarot]

Hi! Welcome to another reading! For this reading I did both Harry’s current energy and his SM’s current energy. (October–November–December, 2022)

So I am on holiday break right now for Thanksgiving and am with family, so I did not have a lot of time to do a complex reading. I pulled three cards for each of them. Enjoy!

Harry’s Energy

Page of Pentacles–Reversed

One aspect of the Page of Pentacles Reversed that I want to focus on and seems to resonate with Harry’s energy right now is the reflective aspect of it. I think right now he is reflecting on the past and places/ ways he needs to improve–both big and small. This could be in any or all aspects of life (family, friends, love, work, fitness, etc.). He may be reviewing goals and figuring out ways to commit to making them a reality. Looking back on past behaviors or experiences and finding ways to improve.

Page of Wand–Reversed

The Page of Wands signifies having new ideas or goals, but not knowing how to act upon them. Again, he may being look at past behaviors and/or ventures and seeing what he can do differently to change and ensure that future aspirations are met.

The Page of Wands can also imply that some recent projects or journeys have not turned out as expected. Again, realizing that the way he has approached some things in the past have caused what ever it is to fail–reflect and retry.

He may also be beginning a new spiritual or personal journey–if so, it’s a long one (which is something I am in full support for!! Lmao). I’m listening to Christmas music right now as I am typing and “Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas” is playing. The lyrics “Let your heart be light, next year all our troubles, will be out of sight” stand out. That’s not to say “all” his troubles will be gone after this journey, like the song implies, but it may be just a little sign to work on himself to make things better.

Lastly, the Page of Wands signifies excitement for new aspirations. Any past obstacles or failures are now turning into motivation for something new.

Temperance–Upright

He is taking this time to address what he needs, rather than what he wants. He is learning to be patient and not object anything that may push him out of his comfort zone or cause him to put a little work in. This is exactly the energy he needs right now to compliment the Page of Pentacles and Wands reversed.

He is learning and making an effort to stabilize his life and energy. Not letting stress get to him and keeping calm–very zen.

Soulmate’s Energy

Eight of Cups–Upright

They’re walking away from something or coming to terms that things in the near future may not turn out as expected or planned. This could be very disappointing for them. This could also relate to a range of topics–walking away from a relationship, living arrangement, job, etc. etc.

I’m already seeing some mirroring here with Harry. Similar to Harry they may be reflecting a lot right now. Their reflection though may be centered around what brings them happiness though. Interesting. Maybe indulging in more things they want rather than what they feel they need…very interesting.

They could also be realizing that they are not being fulfilled in a certain situation–no more waiting for things to get better, the time for action is now or very soon.

Six of Pentacles–Reversed

Wow. Very Interesting. 👀

Again, mirroring Harry a bit here. Needing to take time for themselves. Going on a personal journey soon as well, perhaps? 👀

The Six of Pentacles shows they may be giving and giving, but never getting anything back. Not a lot of gratitude or appreciation being shown their way.

Seven of Cups–Reversed

Although change has come or is coming soon, there may be some indecisiveness here. Lots of options. They need to reflect on what will be the best outcome for them.

They may feel overwhelmed with all the paths to take, but again, they must reflect or are reflecting on what is important to them. They must choose or are choosing what will appeal to them through their own intuition.

That’s all I have for today! I hope you enjoyed!! As I said, this is my first reading in a while, so I’m a bit rusty Lmao. ✨💙🌙 Till next time!

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[harry-talks]

Hello! I joined here to talk and post about harry styles, would love to discuss all about him. I am not biased or blindly follow him. Casual fan more like. I might do readings as well if anyone is interested or has questions.

I honestly do not know what else to say at the moment. I'll tell and post more definitely.

Always open to chat! 🍜

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Aurora waking up to the realization of what all happened the day before wasn’t exactly the best way to start her morning, but what welcomes her afterwards seems a bit more enticing. Hopefully she wouldn’t take something like that for granted. Right?

AU: star-being!harry x astronomy-student!aurora

AURORA’S POV

The heaviness of my eyelids peaked open, revealing the new morning light encompassing itself throughout the room. Everything looked just as it normally did, minus a clothing item or two that I had lazily slung across the room at some other time.

Everything was normal until I realized that it wasn't. At least not after last night. But, that wasn't the initial shock of realization I had that morning. The issue at the forefront of my newly awakening mind was the fact that there was an empty space beside me on the bed. The indentions of his previously laid body were still evident as I sat up.

The way our pinkies intertwined with one another's throughout the night looped in my mind as I stared at his empty side of the bed. I even recalled waking up in the middle of our slumber to not having moved from the original placement we had fallen asleep in. Maybe that was why I was slightly taken aback upon waking up, I expected us to still have not moved.

I at least hoped he was still here and hadn't gone home yet.

My hand reached up to my face as I rubbed the residual sleepiness out of my eyes. There was still a slight pain in my neck, and I was scared that there was going to be marks. The last thing I needed was to go back on campus with bruises etched all along my throat. I didn't need anyone asking questions over it. I couldn't risk Harry's safety any more than it already had been.

Only now did I realize how much was at stake and how easily life could stop at any moment. No longer did these scenarios feel like a movie plotline or some mystical fairytale. This was real life, and real life had consequences if you didn't make the one right move you needed to. I had to be digilant.

I heard a bark in the distance and my eyes immediately opened wide.

"Astro!" I excitedly said aloud, throwing the covers off my body.

She sat near the bedroom door, her tail wagging vigorously at it. She kept exchanging looks between myself and the door, as if whatever was behind the hunk of wood was more interesting than me.

I laughed as I patted her back. "What could be so important, hm?"

As I swung the door open, the waft of what must have gotten her excited came in. I furrowed my brows as I stuck my nose in the air, trying to decipher what I was smelling. Astro didn't seem to care what it was, because she immediately ran right past to get to the source. I walked slowly after her, still not totally sure if what I was smelling was cause for alarm or excitement.

I knew I was hungry, but depending on what was going on right around the corner, I wasn't sure if it would be much help or not. It was definitely food related and something was definitely burning, but there was still a sweet smell that tried to break through the burnt scent.

The wreckage of last night was still scattered along the living room, with different pieces of furniture either knocked down or involuntarily moved in the process of the fight. The scene I was looking at almost made me want to go hide back in my room, suddenly worried that another light guardian had broken in and started burning my food for some reason.

That worry didn't last long when suddenly I heard a faint, disgruntled voice in the background.

"Can you slow down?" Harry groaned in an exasperated breath.

I rounded the corner, my curiosity completely piqued now. I hoped it wasn't Astro giving him a hard time. She was known for her sporadic bursts of energy. It could overwhelm just about anyone.

"Wait! Hold on– I'm not done yet!" He blurted.

My head peeked inside as I entered, searching around the room. His back was turned to me, but I could see a little bow tied around his waist from my old kitchen apron. It was white with pink and yellow embroidered flowers in it. The little lace details paired nicely against his skin as he anxiously whisked away at the batter in the bowl. Little pieces flew out in different directions while one hand spun and another was flicking through something on his phone.

"Hello?" He stopped mixing, allowing the bowl to clatter back down on the counter as he used both hands to tap away on his screen. His nose was practically up against the glass as he peered closely at it, waving his hand. "Hello?"

A plate of pancakes–or what I assumed to be pancakes–were stacked on top in one huge pile on the other side of the counter. Each one was a varying shade of brown, with an occasional black one. I was almost sure if I bit into it, it would crumble at the touch. Most looked edible though. It seemed to get better as the pile grew higher.

"How does Aurora like these things? I hate cell phones." He mumbled under his breath, pushing it out of his way as he poured more pancake batter into the pan. Steam rushed upwards and I watched Harry as he swatted away the cloud, seeming annoyed by it all.

A giggle escaped my mouth as I continued to watch everything happen. He seemed so flustered, but so determined at the same time. I wondered how long he had been doing this already. Considering the amount of cakes that had already stacked up, I had to say it was probably longer than he would have liked to admit.

It was cute, though.

"Harry?" I spoke up with a small smile, crossing my arms across my chest.

He spun sharply around, a look of fright expressed on his face. My smile grew wider. Somehow that was most endearing of all. He must have even forgotten I was sleeping here to begin with.

"Oh! Aurora. I didn't mean to wake you up. I wanted to surprise you, but this lady on the phone is the least bit helpful." He huffed, pointing a thumb covered in batter towards the device behind him.

I laughed again as I walked forward. "What lady on the phone?" My eyes locked on it, another dollop of batter had adorned itself on the screen. If it wasn't for the fact that it was so endearing, and my house wasn't already trashed from yesterday, I might have been annoyed by the mess. But, I couldn't, no matter how hard I wanted to.

"I don't know. Some lady on YouTube? I told that lady Siri you told me about to help me make pancakes and she pulled up a video, but this YouTube lady just ignores me! I keep asking her to slow down and she won't! She just keeps going and going and g–"

"Harry!" I chuckled, picking his phone up to reveal the video he was watching. "YouTube is just a video. She can't hear you." I handed it back to him after wiping off the mess from the screen. He drew his eyebrows downwards, a look of confusion directed towards the phone.

"But you and Nina video all the time?" He crooked his head to the side, peering closely at the hunk of metal held in his palm. "And she replies back when you ask her questions." He looked back at me with a hand on his hip.

"That's a FaceTime call. It's like a regular phone call but like with a live view on their camera. YouTube is already a recorded video from the past, okay?" I smiled at him reassuringly and nodded my head towards the stove behind him. "But that lady would probably want you to flip those pancakes soon unless you wanna learn what fire alarms sound like this early in the morning."

His eyes widened momentarily and he spun back around, flipping it immediately. I let out a soft chuckle as I made my way towards the counter. I picked up the pancakes, sifting through the burnt ones and throwing them in the trash while he wasn't looking.

I peered over to him out of the corner of my eye, noticing the small black clip that I was familiar with, which was currently busy holding his bangs back. I pursed my lips, adjusting to face him as I leaned against the counter.

"Is that my hair clip?" I asked, tilting my head.

"Hair cli–" Harry repeated to himself as he placed the pancakes onto the plate. "Ah, the clip in my hair? Yes, I found it in your restroom this morning. I hope you don't mind. My hair is a bit...longer than I would like it to be. It tickles sometimes."

I breathed out a chuckle, pushing myself off the counter as I turned towards the cabinet. I might as well have been useful for something, so I reached above in order to start getting extra plates out for us.

"Do you need a cut soon?" I placed the dishes down beside him, letting Harry put the non-burnt pancakes onto the plate. "I have a good hair stylist downtown. I could take you there sometime."

"A cut? Does it hurt?" Harry frowned as he pulled out the forks, placing them onto the plates. "It sounds like it hurts."

"It doesn't hurt, I promise." I smiled at him as I glanced over. "It's just hair. It doesn't hurt to cut it. See, watch–" I paused for a second, disregarding the increasingly perplexed expression on his face only a few feet away.

I opened a couple different drawers, closing them promptly after not seeing what I was on the hunt for. After another try of scouring the area, finally the kitchen scissors met my eye as they beamed excitingly at them.

With one swift movement, I spun around with a pair of kitchen scissors in hand and a small bit of hair held tightly in another. One of his eyebrows was raised with another furrowed.

"Aurora...What are you doing?" Harry sputtered out in a question. It looked like he wanted to reach for the scissors to take them away, but was too scared himself to touch something so sharp.

Clip.

"See?" I sat the scissors down and extended an open hand in front of him. Little fragments of hair that were previously attached to my head sprinkled along my palm, some flying away from the fan blowing. He watched in horror, wincing at the thought of pain that I could have gone through from it.

"That didn't hurt? You cut part of yourself off!" He exclaimed wide-eyed, examining a singular strand of hair between his fingers now. He watched it as it flew away, disappearing within a fraction of a second.

"No, Harry." I laughed. "It didn't hurt, and it'll even grow back."

"Oh." He flashed a small smile, but he still looked mildly uncomfortable. "Okay." He nodded.

I wasn't totally sure he actually believed me, but if I heard that for the first time I might have looked at the other person like they were crazy too.

We grabbed our plates and made our way towards the table. It wasn't a full dining table. I never got one because I never had anybody over. It was just a small table with two mixmatched chairs that I had bought from the flea-market. It was close enough to a dining table. I always thought it gave it some personality, too.

I poured the syrup all along my pancakes. I didn't notice how hungry I was until I sat down with food in front of me. I usually never had much of an appetite in the mornings, but there was something about having pancakes that seemed very soothing. It was like a comfort thing, especially after last night.

I looked from my plate to see Harry's brows pinched together tightly in confusion at the syrup on the pancakes. He had the bottle in his hand, peering at it in curiosity before he drowned his in the sugary topping as well.

"That's enough!" I gaped, taking the bottle from his hands with a small chuckle. "That's–that's a lot. You're gonna have a sugar rush."

"Sorry, I just–I didn't know how much to put on there." He laughed nervously, taking the fork into his hand as he looked down at his breakfast. "So how does one eat–pancakes?"

"You just cut them up into small pieces." I showed him as I used the side of my fork to cut through the spongy food, then put it into my mouth with a hum. It was actually really good. It made me feel a lot better, just tasting the sweetness of it all.

Harry watched in awe, then did the same thing with his fork and began to eat through the small stack on his plate. He struggled momentarily until he figured out the right amount of force to apply to the cutlery. It was almost like watching someone use their hands for the first time. Basically, it was entertaining to say the least.

"So...what happens if you eat? Does it hurt? Does it do anything?" I fired off questions at him. He had never really told me about his eating habits, or how he processed it.

"Well." He swallowed his food, rubbing his mouth with a napkin as he let out a soft breath. "In my human form, we process it the same. I don't really have to eat, it doesn't really do anything for me. I can still taste the food, but I never crave it or need it. I get my energy source elsewhere."

"That's–interesting." I nodded, taking another bite of my food. I was still trying to wrap my head around the fact that Harry was this star-being and not a human like he looked. It was so weird given that he talked, walked, looked and, well, somewhat acted like a human. Little did I know beforehand that he could transform into something so beautiful– with purple skin and a glowing ambience around him.

I had even wondered if there were other star-beings that I had run into that I didn't know were from a different planet, too. It was crazy to think about. There were so many possibilities. I was sure it didn't start or stop with beings like Harry. There had to be multitudes of beings that came in all shapes and forms.

"You know, I don't think you've ever told me how old you really are. I'm assuming you're not as old as you look." I mumbled, glancing towards him. Harry continued to eat, chewing and swallowing down the thick cakes. He stilled for a moment, peering towards the wall before he cracked a smile.

"I'm old." He said with a chuckle. "I am very old. Well, to humans. In my star-form, I am actually very young compared to others."

"Everyone is young, or old, compared to others." I retorted with a snort. "Tell me, how old are you really?"

"I am, uh..." He cleared his throat, pushing the empty plate away. "I am two thousand years old back home."

"Two thousand?" I gaped, looking over him in shock. I hadn't thought about how he could have been way older. It never crossed my mind. He didn't even look that age, even in his star form.

"Don't make me sound old, Aurora, jeez." Harry slightly pouted. "It's really not that old. We age differently where I'm from."

"Well, apparently." I joked with a snort.

I piled another mouthful of pancakes into my mouth, peering up at him as I watched him do the same. He always seemed like he was in his own little world. Everything was beautiful and interesting to him, even things I had seen a million times before– or tasted a million times before. It made me wonder what exactly it was that was normal for him.

Just from the small taste of it I had gotten thus far told me that it probably would shock me even more than he was shocked about Earthly things. The thought alone made me set my fork down, no longer interested in eating anything else. An uncomfortable feeling nestled itself in the pit of my stomach as I considered the dangerous possibilities of what my future could include.

"Harry?" My voice softly spoke as I gazed up at him. He had already ventured off to the kitchen sink, rinsing off his syrupy remnants left on the plate.

"Yes?" He called out, placing it gingerly into the water to soak. Little suds of soap sprinkled along his arms as he walked back over to the table.

"How do I know I'm going to be safe? What would have happened if you didn't come when you did? What if it happens again and you don't make it in time?" I asked shakily.

My head hung low as I fidgeted with my hands in my lap. I had never felt unsafe in a place I lived before, mostly because I was taught how to protect myself if a situation arose. But what could I do about a being that could make my dog sleep with a snap of his fingers, possibly even end my life that easily, too?

"I'll protect you, Aurora. It's my job, remember?" He crooked his head lower to try and match our eyes together. I fought the urge to look up, knowing it would only make me that much more nervous.

"I know, but what if you can't?" The glumness of my tone was depressing all in itself– even for me. "I'm not saying you won't try your best or you're not capable, I'm only saying that the future can't be predicted. Who knows what could happen?"

I glanced upwards, almost instantly regretting it when I saw the look on his face. He looked upset and a little hurt from the realization. It was as if this was the first time he considered that he might not be able to know exactly when I needed him.

It was silent for a few moments as we both sat there in our respective seats across from each other. I heard Astro sigh as she laid on the floor next to my feet. I had half the heart to sigh with her, overcome with the reality my life now was subjected to. Not that I even knew what all that entirely meant just yet. That was the scary part.

What was to come?

All of a sudden, Harry jumped from his chair, causing a scraping noise from the scratching against the tile. Before I could even ask him what he was doing, or where he was going, he had already disappeared from the kitchen. Astro had perked her head up, but she looked too tired to chase after him. She must have worn herself out from all the begging she did for Harry's pancakes.

I waited patiently, tapping away on my knee with my fingers. I tried to listen for any clues on what he was searching for. A few moments later, Harry reappears through the entryway, with something hidden in both of his hands.

I immediately scooted away, in fear that he was carrying something alive behind those fingers.

"Harry, what is that?" I cautiously asked, giving him another confused expression as I look back and forth from him to his hands.

He opened his palm, showcasing some kind of circular gadget inside. My eyebrows furrowed as I stepped forward slowly, ready to sprint away at a moment's notice.

"It's an amulet. See the moonstones and how they sparkle?" He extended his arm outwards, offering me to hold it. "This can help protect you from light guardians."

I stood inches away from the object, still perplexed by the look of it. The stones wrapping around the metal was beautiful. It looked like it was custom made by some kind of wizard that had all the tools one could ever need in the world– in the galaxy. I could hardly believe that it was real to begin with.

I reached for it, twirling it around in my hand. It felt cool to the touch, the rough details rubbing amongst the pads of my fingers. I gripped it tightly in my palm, trying to soak it all in and how it felt. It was definitely real, whatever it was.

"How does it work? Do I just wear it or..." I trailed off, now dangling it in front of my eyes. It sparkled against the sunlight that peeked in through the kitchen window. I could even see it sparkle back into Harry's eyes as he watched me explore the workings of it.

He reached his hand out. "May I show you?" He asked kindly. I nodded my head, placing it gingerly back into his grasp.

"It opens like this." He paused as he pushed against the sides, allowing it to immediately spring open to an even more intricate object than before. Light reflected against it, leaving a beam of light to flash against the wall in the opposite direction.

"They only come out during the day, so you just need to have a source of light in order for it to reflect. Each light guardian has a marking, or a tattoo as you people call it, and it'll reflect against it. This will tell you if it's one of them or not. It'll also stun them, allowing you time to run away or make your next move." He closed it back into his palm, the light quickly dissolving with it. He handed it back to me while I continued to stare at him like I had just seen a ghost.

It wasn't that I couldn't believe something like a light reflection amulet could exist, it was the why it existed that was baffling to me. Any minute now I should've woken up from this dream, reminding me that there really was no way that something like this could be happening. Let alone happening to someone like me.

"Okay." I nodded, tucking it safely into my pocket. "I'll keep it with me."

His lips curled in a satisfied grin. "Good. When I go back home, I'll bring back a book about you so maybe that'll help understand everything more. Okay?"

I grew excited. "Wait, you guys have books, too?"

He threw his head back in a laugh. "Why, yes, Aurora. We have books. While they are Earth's fairytale books, they are our historical books. We read them to understand our deep history that expands way past any information of your planet."

"Can you bring me some? I would love to read them." I smiled wide, clasping my hands together in front of me in a fit of excitement. I couldn't help but get carried away with the idea.

His face didn't quite match up with the expression on mine, though. He even let out a small sigh. "I think that would be too risky. Let's just start with what you need to know, okay?"

"Okay, I understand. Thank you, Harry." I smiled, reaching a hand towards him. I wanted to pull him in for a hug, but I refrained against it for some reason. It was almost like I was too nervous to go through with it. It confused me considering I was not the type to get flustered or nervous around guys. But this was Harry, and he wasn't just some guy either.

"Speaking of, I will have to leave tomorrow, Aurora. I've got to recharge and talk to my father about what's happened. He's probably not going to be very happy, but I have to do it." He sighed again and bit at his lip before looking back at me.

"Wait, who's going to protect me while you're gone? Wouldn't this be the perfect time for them to attack?" My voice raised an octave as I nervously began to pace back and forth.

I clutched tightly at the amulet in my pocket. It was better to have this on me, but I didn't feel ready to tackle the world all by myself. Not yet just after the invasion where I almost died. I wasn't ready. I couldn't be.

"You're going to be okay. We can watch you from the stars. You're safe. I'll send someone down if I need to. Just use your amulet and what you know. Don't do anything super risky. Maybe you could stay with Nina until I'm back." He said as he walked towards me. He rested one of his hands on my arm and I quickly stopped pacing, looking up at him as he stared at me. His touch seemed to calm me down subtly, no longer feeling the urge to jump out of my skin and hide forever.

I nodded my head. "Okay, Harry. I trust you. I'll call Nina."

I showed up at Nina's around seven o'clock with a bag of clothes and Astro. I didn't want to push myself onto Harry; he already had a lot on his plate and I didn't want to invite myself to stay with him. He had already done so much for me and I didn't want to take advantage of that. He provided me with something to keep me safe and I trusted him that it would. I had to trust him for any of this to work. Hopefully, I wouldn't ever have to use it, but I also wasn't completely naive either.

Nina was nice enough to let me stay with her until we could get my door fixed and maybe a better lock. It made me nervous thinking about staying at home, but there was no way that they would be able to find me here at Nina's. At least that was what I hoped.

I still hadn't a clue how they even found where I lived before. I could only guess that they had followed Harry back to my house and that was how they knew. Other than that, I didn't really have a lot of answers towards the situation.

"Hey, bestie." Nina smiled wide as she opened the front door, stepping to the side to let me in.

"Hey, thanks so much for letting me stay. I can't believe there's a–rat infestation at my apartment. Crazy, right?" I chuckled nervously as I walked into the apartment. Astro ran in from behind me, immediately making her way towards the couch to lay beside.

I couldn't tell Nina what was going on. I didn't want her to get dragged into the mix. Plus, I had promised Harry I wouldn't tell anybody. If he wanted Nina to know, then he would tell her. Until then, I basically had to lie to her, which I didn't want to do, but I had to. I had never lied to Nina before in our entire friendship. It made my skin crawl and I hated it.

"Yeah, your landlord needs to get their shit together." She said in disgust, closing the door with her foot. She made her way into the kitchen, and I heard glasses clinking together along with liquid being poured. I knew what that sound meant.

"They are taking care of the problem. Should only take a few days." I said as I laid onto the couch in the same spot I had always taken. Nina's apartment was so cute. Way cuter than mine. I had envied her on that aspect of things.

She had tapestries pinned up all around her apartment with fake vines hanging from the ceiling. An adornment of cozy lighting hung from it as well, some vines intertwining with the cords harmoniously. Decorative pillows, small cozy circle chairs, and a therapeutic sand garden sat in their respective places, only drawing me into the relaxing ambience even more. Plants that were in random places, and a large bookshelf that left no more room–not even for one book–were the cherries on top. She had definitely put a lot of money into making her home feel like her home.

I envied it.

"Well, it feels like I haven't seen you in days." Nina pouted as she walked into the room with two glasses of mysterious liquid. And by mysterious, I meant alcohol. Her specialty.

"It has been a while, hasn't it?" I half laughed as I took the mixed drink from her hand. "I've just been so busy with–"

"With Harry." Nina nudged my arm, a smirk spread across her lips before taking a sip of her drink. "Just admit it, you two like each other. Jeez. It doesn't take rocket science to see that."

"What? God, Nina." I nearly choked on my drink, holding a hand under my chin as I launched myself forward. I shook my head, passing a half laugh. "You're insane, that's what you are. I don't like Harry. He's just a good friend, that's all."

"Good friend? Sure." Nina rolled her eyes, scoffing. "I see the way you two look at one another. You two are totally into each other. I was just telling Ryan about it too and he agrees."

"Ryan has never even met Harry." I scoffed with an eye roll. "You two are insufferable."

"Ryan will be meeting Harry. Tomorrow. The party, remember?" Nina hummed softly as she turned her body towards the TV. She had RuPaul on again, but I couldn't complain. This was our TV show we watched together every time I came over.

"The party–?" I stopped myself, pinching my eyes shut for a moment as I sighed. "Shit, the party–Nina, I really don't think we should bring Harry to that party. I just don't think he would...like it. You saw how the last one went."

I had to be careful with my wordings around Nina. It wasn't necessarily that Harry wouldn't like it, but it was more that I was worried about him being around our group. We had started this new tradition where we had a party whenever the seasons changed for the equinox. We did it during the spring time and it was a lot of fun.

I was just worried that Harry wouldn't like it because sometimes my friends could be a bit too much. It was one thing for other people to be blubbering idiots, but we were idiots in our own way.

I just wasn't sure if Harry would...get it.

I suppose it was fear of him getting, or feeling, left out. That was all. Plus, I didn't want to accidentally overwhelm him.

"Harry already said he would come." Nina stopped me, turning herself in my direction. "He told me himself."

"He did?" I contorted my face in confusion. "When did you see him?"

"I saw him at the library the other day. He said he would come." She shrugged, giving me a once over. "He was just–studying, that was all."

"Oh..." I pursed my lips, looking down into my drink.

It was okay. Really. I guess I did feel slightly weird about it, but I suppose I had forgotten for a mere moment that Harry had a life outside of me and the war. He had school, too. At that, he also enjoyed reading and studying. That was one of the first things I had learned about him.

I normally studied a lot more, too. But, recently, I guess I had been caught up with...other pressing matters.

"You know what we should do?" Nina said as she watched me pout to myself. She sat her drink down as she stood to her feet, stretching her arms out. "We should go to the bar. Just me and you. Let's just drink and–not care about anything for the night. How's that sound?"

I chuckled at her as I shook my head at the idea. It had been a while since I went to the bar, or properly got drunk. I suppose one night wouldn't be too bad.

"Sure, okay." I said meekly.

"Yes! Okay, we are gonna look really hot and get free drinks–but just don't tell Ryan." She giggled as she locked arms with me, pulling me to stand with her. I rolled my eyes as my feet followed her into the bedroom.

This was going to be a long night.

We got to the bar around nine o'clock. It took forever for Nina to get ready, but I was ready in minutes. She was always obsessed over her makeup, or which flowers she wanted to put into her hair for the night.

She decided on a set of red ones, pairing them with a beautiful tight red dress and heels. I, on the other hand, went with a short black skirt with a cropped button up that hugged my body just right. My chunky black Doc Marten boots were the perfect match for what I was going for.

We truly were a different pair, but in the best way possible. It was how it always was. If you looked at us and didn't know us beforehand, you probably wouldn't suppose we would be friends.

We had two completely personalities, but Nina always helped me get out of my shell if I felt like I was stuck in a rut. She was an amazing friend in that sense. Without her, I probably would have stayed holed up in my room when I first moved here, never to break out of my previous sense of comfort.

There were cars littering the parking lot, though I wasn't surprised for a Friday night. It was always so busy on weekends. I had pushed through my anxiety that rose inside of me as we walked through the doors, the music immediately vibrating through my body.

Taking a deep breath, I linked arms with Nina and walked straight to the bar where we sat down on the stools. This bar always reeked of cigarettes and whisky. I didn't quite know why Nina liked going here, but I could only guess that it was because the drinks were so cheap.

"Two tequila shots, make it doubles." Nina said over the loud music, gesturing her hand with a smile that sank into her cheeks.

"Starting off strong, yeah?" I taunted her, resting my hand onto my cheek while my elbow propped against the bar.

"Always." She smirked.

I looked around the bar, noticing the college kids near the back that were goofing off with pool sticks. Some were sitting on the sidelines, chugging down beer like neanderthals and others were hitting each other with the pool weapons. I rolled my eyes as I watched the bartender walk over to scold them.

It was a disaster.

"Searching for someone?" Nina nudged me back to reality.

"I just don't get how guys can be so stupid." I said plainly, shaking my head as I grabbed the shot that was placed in front of us. "They just–do dumb shit all the time. It's quite...interesting to watch."

"You shouldn't be surprised." She said right before downing the double shot. I could never get over how easily she could take shots without choking.

But, all I could do was try to be half as good as her.

So.

Bottoms up.

I let out a loud gasp after taking the shot. My eyes rolled back, placing a hand over my mouth as I hissed. I would never get used to downing hard liquor that quickly. I could already feel the effects of it kick in, but I wasn't surprised. I had only eaten pancakes this morning and not much else. All the stress and anxiety had really eaten away at my appetite.

No pun intended.

"You know, Ryan is so much different." Nina spoke as she peered at the guys next to the pool table. "I'm really glad that Ryan isn't stupid like those guys over there. He is really dedicated to school, and not only that, but he's a computer engineer too. It's really impressive."

"Computer engineer? I didn't expect that of him." I cackled. "I thought he was just some Alpha O'mega–whatever the fuck. Those frat boys. You know how they are."

"I mean, he's definitely a frat boy, but he's different from the rest. He takes school seriously. I like that about him." She hummed, swaying her body on the chair to the music.

All of this talk had made me think of Harry again. About how he took his school seriously, too. He wasn't quite like any guy I had met either–well, star-being? Thing? I didn't know what to call him. But he was different.

Right off the bat, we got along. It may have taken me a second to warm up to him, but I understand why he was like that now. The night that we laid underneath the stars and he told me stories of the Greeks' forbidden love. Or the night when he talked about the orion belt. The pure passion oozing from him sucked me in. I couldn't lie.

We just had so much in common, I couldn't help but feel something towards him. I didn't know quite yet what that something was, but it was definitely something for sure.

"Hello? Earth to Aurora? Take this shot with me!" Nina whined, pushing the double shot right in front of me, allowing the alcohol to lightly drip onto the counter. I shook my head, letting out a soft sigh as I felt the burning liquid rush down my throat once more.

The burning eased slightly, but not as much as I would have liked it to. I had to get drunk to fully relinquish the burn of each shot. More so now, if I was going to keep shooting alcohol down like this.

"Thinking about Harry?" Nina brought her attention back to me with a knowing look. "Girl, I'm telling you, if you have feelings for him–"

"Nina, I don't have feelings for Harry!" I said, more annoyed this time.

I hated when people picked me apart like that. My mom already did that to me earlier, insisting on me bringing someone home for the holidays. I didn't know why, but it just felt like people were putting expectations on me and I hated it. I hated the way it made me feel.

"Who's Harry?" A husky voice came from behind me, nearly startling me out of my chair.

I turned my body around just to see Brandon standing from behind me. I gave him a look over, pursing my lips as I let out a relieved sigh. At least it was someone I knew.

Although, the last time I saw Brandon was at that frat party and Harry did not like him at all. I didn't blame him, though. Sometimes Brandon just came on really strong and that was just the kind of person he was.

He was also kind of a dick for that reason, though, too. We had slept together once and he kept blowing my phone up ever since. I was never a person to sleep with the same person more than once, especially if they were constantly texting me and asking me when it was going to happen next. I got overwhelmed easily by it. Like I said, I hated living up to other's expectations of myself.

It wasn't that Brandon was terrible in bed or anything. He was moderate. Just okay. Enough to get me off, but that was it.

"Brandon, don't you have beer cans to smash against your head or something?" Nina scoffed, rolling her eyes in disgust.

Nina wasn't a big fan of Brandon. Mainly because he was one of the idiots that ran with the crowd over by the pool table. They were always constantly partying, which wasn't a terrible thing, but it was just the stupid shit they did while they were partying.

"It's nice to see you too, Nina." Brandon nodded towards her with his lips pressed tightly together.

I turned my body back to the bar, kind of hoping he would just walk away, but instead he took the empty bar stool next to me. I let out an annoyed breath, staring down at the shot that Nina had ordered for us again. At this rate, I was going to get plastered if she kept ordering them like this all night.

"Can I buy you a–" He started, watching me down it, but this time with more grace. That was my first sign that I was getting drunker by the minute. "—Drink..."

"No, thanks." I hissed out, rubbing the alcohol off with my wrist, shaking my head. Brandon was really the last person I wanted to see. The last time we hooked up, I really did have to have a couple drinks in me just to kiss him. Or to be near him, really.

He was pretty whenever he didn't open his mouth though. It was just when he talked that I wanted to cringe on the inside. Being around him sober was always out of the question.

"You can't avoid me forever. C'mon, Aurora." He pouted, nudging my arm. "I thought we had fun. Didn't you?"

I felt his hand rest on my lower back carefully, right above my ass. I shifted in my seat, lips parted as I gulped down thickly. I didn't miss Brandon, not in the slightest, but I would be lying if I said I didn't miss being touched like this.

Something that I hadn't really felt in a while.

I hardly ever had sex. I wasn't the type to constantly crave it, plus I was drowning in school work. My dating life was non-existent.

But the way Brandon's fingers caressed against the lower of my back sparked something in me. I couldn't help but chuckle nervously while I felt my face heat up from the sudden tension in the air.

"I did..." I glanced over towards Nina out of the corner of my eye. "But I'm with my friend, as you can see."

Nina was staring daggers at me, then leaned over to send him a glare as well. I thought it was so funny how she was protective over me. It was like a momma lion looking over her cub. It was always impressive how she kept up that persona no matter how many drinks were coursing through her bloodstream.

"Alright, fine. Let me buy you one drink, at least." He raised his hand towards the bartender, gesturing towards the three of us sitting in a row.

"Fine. One drink, but that's it." I mumbled with a crooked smile. What could possibly go wrong with having just one more drink? I trusted Brandon. While he was annoying, he had never given me a reason to not trust him.

It originally really was only going to be one drink. But one drink turned into two, then four, then it got to the point where Brandon, Nina, and I were all gathered around the pool table with the frat boys while loud cheers surrounded us.

I was standing, barely, with a pint of beer in my hand and a boy I had only ever seen at parties beside me. We were having a chugging contest on who could get it down first. The beer just tasted like water to me at this point, and the cheers were only egging me on to chug faster.

I did always love a good contest.

With pinched eyes, I chugged the last of my beer, the liquid spilling down the corners of my mouth before slamming it down onto the pool table. The cheers grew louder with Nina clapping and screaming into my ear as she pulled me into her drunken arms, swaying me back and forth.

"You did it! You did it!" She slurred out, placing a hard kiss to my cheek. I knew she had to have left a very vivid lipstick stain right onto my skin. I was too drunk to mind regardless.

"I–" I burped out loudly, placing a hand over my mouth as I let out a laugh. "I did it."

I felt dizzy, but a good dizzy. My body felt light as a feather, my cheeks were hot and I just felt so happy in that moment.

I thought to myself, why haven't I been doing this more?

The stress of school and everything else that had been going on—it just slipped away the minute alcohol touched my lips. An invisible weight lifted off of my shoulders the more that I consumed.

Of course, not in a bad way, or a way that was a problem. But it was simply a temporary stress reliever. I hardly ever drank, but now I was wondering if I should drink with Nina more often. I had yet to feel so light on my feet, floating around the room like I belonged there. I belonged to be happy with everyone cheering around me in their own fits of laughter.

I was always so closed off with people, and it wasn't that I hated interacting. It was more so because I was always so caught up in my own world. Hearing people cheer for me, clap for me, and be happy for whatever reason—it filled me with an inexplicable amount of happiness. I did in fact feel happy to be around people. I didn't even care who it was. All I cared about was being in a room full of such whimsical energy. Maybe that was what I needed to exhaust more of my energy towards– feeling good.

"Who is this chick? She's cool as fuck." One of the guys next to me said.

"My name is Aurora, thanks!" I slurred out.

"That's my Aurora." Brandon said from beside me, wrapping his arm around my waist as he pulled me to him. I couldn't help but to melt into his arms. The alcohol had already gotten to my head, and not only that, but the 'terrible decisions' switch had already been flipped on three drinks ago.

The music vibrating through my body only seemed to ignite this impulsiveness I was feeling, my hips swaying to the beat as I closed my eyes. I had no thoughts. It was the first time in a while I had felt this amazing. I had no cares in the world at all. I just wanted to drink more and dance away the night. Nina was right when she said tonight would be great for me. This was beyond overdue.

"Do you, like, wanna dance or something?" I opened my eyes, gazing towards Brandon with a crooked smile. "You should dance with me!" I pleaded as I tugged onto his arm, pulling him towards the crowds of people dancing.

He didn't even hesitate as he let me guide him wherever we were going. I bumped through various bodies until I was content enough with our placement, immediately pulling him into my body. A devilish curl had twisted along his features as his hand tightened against my back, pulling against the fabric of my shirt. I giggled out, a feeling of euphoria now blowing through me as I relished in the simple feeling of touch. Something so little seemed so magnificent with the amount of drunkenness going on around me and inside of me.

Nothing in the world could have torn me down. There were no worries cycling their way through my thoughts. There was no one around that I cared to busy myself with besides Brandon, and Brandon was just the closest thing I could get to. It had nothing to do with him and everything to do with the need for a distraction from the world falling out from underneath me after these past couple of days.

As his hands continued to roam aggressively along my spine, I threw my head back with my eyes closed, biting back a smile as I swayed my hips. My arms flew up in the air, moving with the body in the same direction with each beat. All I could focus on was the music thumping through my feet all the way to the top of my head with hands guiding frantically along my skin.

It was like he was just as desperate to be close. This was so much better than sulking at home, worrying about what was behind doors or what waited for me in the future. Right here in this moment, it was just Brandon and I moving together.

Deep down I knew this wasn't a healthy way of going about things, but the funny thing about alcohol was that alcohol couldn't give less of a shit about the moral thing to do. It didn't care if you would regret it in the morning. It didn't care if it would hurt other people's feelings. If anything, it was solely there to create these issues for the sober version of yourself. Maybe that was why people tended to stray away from that side of themselves.

Regardless, my hands soon fell from the air to feel along his skin as well. His muscular arms were tight as I trailed my fingers down the length of them, pausing to stare up at him. His eyes watched me cautiously, like he didn't expect me to be doing anything of this. I didn't blame him considering I tended to keep my distance from him after our first hookup.

Maybe that was why it felt so good, too. I knew he wanted me and I liked that I had control over it. I was granting him access to feel along my ass, gripping periodically while his hooded eyes watched me closely. I liked the fact that I could stop at any moment and just walk away like nothing happened. I also liked the fact that if I wanted it to happen again, or even go further, I could. It was all up to me. I was in control. Not him.

I spun around, and he caught on quickly to my new movements as he grabbed hold of my hips. He pulled them further back, almost making me squeal from the abruptness. I softened against him when I realized his intentions. He wanted me to grind against him along to the music. I wasn't one to argue in this state of mind. If anything, I wanted to probably as much as he wanted me to.

So I did. Back and forth my ass pressed against his crotch, earning his mouth to hover closely against my neck. He mumbled something in my ear, but it was so loud around us and I could hardly focus that I couldn't understand what he said. Given the growth that I now felt against my ass, I had a feeling I knew what he was insinuating. It only gave me more confidence as I pushed my head backwards, raising one of my arms to cup against his face. Almost instinctively, he buried his face further into my neck. The warmth of his breath against the delicate area of skin on my throat sent chills up my spine.

The same type of chills I had felt not very long ago. The sudden memory of Harry and I dancing together broke through my whirlwind of thoughts about Brandon. My swaying no longer had as much vigor to it as my thoughts became clustered with my last dancing memory. Except, it was a completely different circumstance.

I couldn't help but compare the differences in everything that was going on. While I enjoyed the distraction that Brandon was allowing me in this state of impulsivity, his grip was hungry. Hungry was all it was. I knew he had no intentions of anything past that. He wanted me and what I could provide for him for the night. He was using me as much as I was using him, and I wasn't exactly sure if he was as aware of it as I was.

Even the look in his eye was full of lust. The way his eyes hooded over, only briefly taking a moment to actually look me in the eye in between scanning over my body. He was too concentrated on peering at the movements my hips made against him or the way my hand rubbed along his skin as I switched positions. That was all I was to him. He didn't actually see me. He didn't want to. He didn't care to.

But, Harry.

Dancing with Harry.

There was no urgency to the way he placed his hands on me, careful to not go any farther than I wanted him to. His reassuring "is this okay?" echoed in my brain as if he was there right in front of me. There was no pulling and tightening grips that left marks against my skin, only the soft tickles against my fingertips as he laced ours together.

His eyes had smiled back at me as bright as they always did, flickering with pleasantries. Nothing within his eyes arose any red flags or warning signs that I was unsafe. If anything, I had never felt safer being embraced by someone else. That was what he was to me. He wasn't hungry or desperate for a reward out of the contact we shared together. He was in it for mutual enjoyment.

He wanted me to be happy and comfortable, and I was. His touches didn't serve as a distraction from the world around me. His touches served as a reminder that the world could go on and I would be safe with him regardless.

That was the difference between Brandon and Harry.

I finally opened my eyes again, not even realizing that I had had them closed for that long. It was the calmest state I had been in since I walked inside the bar. I think I had started to imagine that we were back in the living room dancing to Harry's choice of music as he spun me around. What I would do to experience that right now instead of–

Harry.

Staring back at me were the eyes that I had just reminisced on so fondly moments ago, shining back at me as if they were only made for my view to see. This time, they seemed clouded with an expression I had yet to see from him. That was when I realized the predicament I was in and the predicament he had to witness me in more importantly.

I blinked hard, switching my gaze back to Brandon. Even through the blur of alcohol, I could still see the same look on his face as he looked down at me. He still didn't bother to look me in my eyes as he bit against his lip, pulling me in closer.

I no longer wanted to be this close to him. I felt too many eyes on me, even if it was just Harry. Those were the only eyes I cared about watching me, and I didn't like what he was seeing. He didn't look happy and I was too scared to look back over to see if he had walked away or if he was still looking at us.

Why did I feel so guilty?

The alcohol in my stomach felt weighed down by rocks all of a sudden. The stuffiness of the room felt suffocating and all I wanted was to be away all together. I wanted out of the building and away from everyone and everything.

I pressed my hands firmly against his chest, trying to allow room between us for me to squeeze through. He shook his head, scrunching his eyebrows as he peered down at me.

"What? Since when did Aurora want to stop having fun?" He joked lowly, a hint of lust still intertwined through his words. It made my stomach only turn more and I felt trapped. I pushed again, but my strength only seemed to dwindle due to the drunken state of mind I was in. I felt helpless.

"Let me go, Brandon." I slurred, but tried to sound as firm as possible.

"What, seriously?" He bit back in an annoyed tone. His sudden harshness grew my own irritation and the uncomfortable feeling was suddenly overshadowed with anger.

Somehow that anger mustered enough strength to push him harder, releasing me from his grasp.

"Fuck off." I snapped at him.

Just as I was about to turn around, my eyes caught something right behind him. Harry was no longer in the distance, but now within a few feet from us. I jumped slightly at the sight, stopping myself from tripping over my feet because of it.

"Harry." I said with a touch of shakiness. I stood there awkwardly, searching around the room for anything else to focus on. I didn't want to look in the direction of Brandon and I didn't want to look in the direction of Harry either. Both of wildly different reasons, but reasons nonetheless. I felt like I could be sick.

"Well would you look at who came back to save his damsel?" He spat towards Harry, an evil grin twisting out his words. "Except she's not in fucking distress. Get the hell out of here, you fucking cockblock."

I couldn't help but steer my eyes towards Harry in order to gauge his reaction. I wasn't sure how he would respond, but I knew I was too at a loss for anything to say myself. I knew I got myself into a situation that was going to be hard to get out of. The look of hurt brushing across his features would probably be permanently etched into my brain for as long as I lived.

"Aurora, let's go." He stood firmly and his tone mimicked his stance.

I had never been so intimidated by him. Maybe it had to do with the discomfort I was feeling in my stomach mixed with the overwhelming nature of everything going on. No matter where I looked I felt dizzy. Fixating my focus on Harry was the only thing that kept me from spilling out the contents of my stomach all over everyone near me.

I nodded my head, lowering it as I attempted to scoot past the man I had just unashamedly felt along in front of the huge crowd of people. I was still drunk and I was uncomfortably aware of that, but I was not as carefree about it as I had started. I could've sworn this incident had even begun to sober me up slightly. All I wanted was to be was home, sober, and in my bed as if none of this night had ever happened.

As I glided past Brandon, I felt his arm tighten around my bicep. I winced slightly, stumbling a little from the abrupt stop. I gazed down at the fingers that gripped so tightly against my skin that it was leaving indentions in it. Brandon had a look of pure anger enwrapped in his eyes and it made me cower at the sight due to the closeness that we now shared. This closeness was so much more terrifying. The initial hungry look had completely dissipated and exchanged with a different type of hunger–hunger for revenge and victory. Like I was his prize of the night that was being stolen away from him.

"Let her go." Harry rasped out, yet to move from his spot. His fists balled at his sides as he peered in his direction, careful not to break from his contact. "Now."

Surprisingly, he loosened his grip, but he didn't let go completely yet. I tried to nudge my arm out from his fingers, and eventually I slipped away. I rubbed at my arm, a look of disgust etched onto my face as I walked backwards away from him. I didn't dare keep my eyes off of him as I gathered back to Harry's side. I didn't even care that I was bumping into people in the process. Everyone was too drunk to give more than a quick glance before getting back to what they were doing before.

Brandon didn't seem to notice I had left his side, because he was too busy boring his eyes into Harry's. It was hard to keep myself steady, and I almost used Harry's shoulder to keep myself from falling, but I didn't want to touch anyone right now. I just wanted out of there. He didn't look like he wanted me to touch him either. I think that was the most painful part of it all.

"The fuck? Nah, I'm afraid she's coming home with me." He reached his hand out towards my waist, but Harry shoved his arm between Brandon and I, pushing me away from his grasp in one quick motion. I had to hold onto his forearm from falling over. I was fortunate he was there or else I wouldn't have escaped that easily.

"She's drunk. She's not going anywhere with you." He hissed. I had never heard Harry talk in that way and it took me off guard. I wasn't sure if it was exaggerated from my perspective due to the alcohol, but it couldn't have influenced it that much. The way he spoke made me even want to cower as if he was directing those words towards me.

"C'mon." Harry whispered as he placed a hand across my back, guiding me in the opposite direction of the angry man in front of us. "Let's get you home."

That was the most reassuring thing I had heard in the last few minutes. It was hard to relax too much from the words, given the look that had yet to evade from Harry's face. Even in my drunken demeanor, I could tell that something was wrong.

I wanted nothing more than to take that first step out into the fresh nighttime air. Maybe then I would finally come to my senses.

"So you're just going to leave again? You fuckin' serious, Aurora?" He shouted behind us. It began to sound muffled as we ventured further away, mixing in with the crowds of voices and music thumping together. "Whatever! Fuck you!"

I could feel tears well up into my eyes. Why did I do things like this? It was like I never learned from my mistakes. It was a constant cycle I found myself in. I would have something stressful happen, need a distraction, find a distraction in a person, and then regret it almost immediately after. It was why I tried to stray away from parties because I knew where that would often lead me.

I had healed a lot as I grew older, but this destructive tendency was the hardest to break from. Usually when I was in this frame of mind I didn't really care where I ended up afterwards. I would get over it by busying myself with someone else. I couldn't get hurt if I just refused to get close with anyone, constantly bouncing between new rushes of dopamine. I would eventually crash, and I would inevitably scathe people in the process, but unfortunately because of my refusal to grow attachments, I didn't care enough to stop.

Only this time did it sting like this. I really fucked up.

"Harry? Please say something." I slurred out, sniffling between my words. I wasn't sure when I had started crying; all I knew was that my cheeks suddenly felt wet and my words were sounding more scattered than they did beforehand.

I heard him sigh. His hand had remained behind me, slowly guiding me down the sidewalk as we walked the familiar dark pathway. Most nights I would have found this trail much more relaxing as I was accompanied by the night sky above with its twinkling stars. Now, I was practically with a star and felt more lonely than ever.

"Harry?" I whimpered again, turning my head to face him. He looked stern, peeking slightly out of the corner of his eye in my direction. It didn't last long before he continued to look ahead at the path in front of us.

His silence told me everything I needed to know. I hated the way I did this to myself, but I couldn't take back what I did. It was too late for that now.

I kept silently wishing that I could magically sober up so I could talk to him and explain myself. I knew from the look on his face, and the deafening silence, that he was upset. I just couldn't understand why. Was it jealousy? Was that why I was also upset?

My fingers wiped away at my moist cheeks, a shaky breath escaping my lips as Harry led me back to Nina's house. I was grateful that the walk was over. Knowing it was a ten minute walk, but it felt like hours. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and hide away for the rest of my life.

Harry pushed himself against the door, opening it as he walked in silently. He stopped at the door, turning towards me as he reached his hand out for me to take. I blinked hard, gazing towards him with red, drunken eyes.

I didn't deserve his kindness.

My fingers interlocked with his as he helped me up the two steps. In any other circumstance I would be able to do it on my own, but my vision was still slightly blurred from the amount of shots we had taken tonight.

I got up the stairs, only stumbling once, but Harry's grasp tightened around my hand and caught me before I could eat shit on the floor. I peered up at him, a frown carved deeply into my cheeks.

He barely even looked at me. He spared me a glance and that was it. I never thought that it would hurt so bad to have the Harry I used to know, change in demeanor so suddenly. It only made the tears well up along my waterline more, making my vision blurrier than it already was.

I pulled my hand away from him, rubbing my burning eyes with my wrists as I stumbled my way into Nina's room. I had never hoped for Harry to disappear, but tonight I was hoping that he would just leave so he wouldn't see how bad of a mess I was.

Because I was a mess. A drunk, sloppy, irresponsible mess of a person.

It took me sometime to get changed into sweats and a shirt, knowing Nina wouldn't mind that I borrowed some for the night. My body immediately felt more relaxed at the soft fabric that hung loosely against my body. There was always something so comforting changing into pajamas after being in skin tight clothes all night.

I walked out of Nina's bathroom that attached to her bedroom, nearly stumbling out with a sigh. My hand caught the walk, my head lowering down as I stared down at the floor. I was really taking in the mess I had created, and I knew that tomorrow I could only predict self-loathing for the next two weeks to consume me.

When I looked up from the floor, Harry's body leaned against the door frame, his arms crossed over his chest tightly. I caught him giving me a look, but the minute our eyes met, he looked away towards the wall.

"You don't have to ignore me." I slurred out, running a hand through my thick hair as I stumbled my way towards the bed. I hated the silence. I hated it. I had always hated it. I could never stand it. I wanted him to say something.

Say anything. Even if it means hurting my feelings.

"Let's get you to bed." He said as he met me at the the foot of the bed, his hand grappling the blankets to pull them back for me. I looked towards him, which caused him to look away from me again.

This shit felt worse than being stabbed over and over again.

I placed my hands onto the bed, moving my body to crawl into it with a small huff. When I laid down, Harry pulled the blanket over my torso carefully. I couldn't bear to even look at him. It hurt too much. I knew I fucked up and there was nothing I could do about it.

I couldn't turn back time. I couldn't undo what I did. I had to deal with the irreversible consequences.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Harry turn away to leave. Panic set in. Real panic. My chest started to constrict, a shaky breath left me as I watched him walk away.

It had become so apparent that instead of wanting him to leave...

I desperately wanted him to stay.

I wanted to get on my knees and cry. Just cry and tell him how sorry I was. How I really was a mess deep down inside. It always looked like I had my shit together, but I didn't. I never really did.

I'm only human—I make mistakes.

I didn't remember leaning forward. I didn't remember grabbing for his hand. I didn't remember clenching it so hard that his bones could have shattered in my hands. I didn't even remember the stream of tears falling down my face.

I just remembered...

"Don't go." I croaked out, batting my swollen eyes up at his. On the inside, I was screaming at him to look at me. To say something. To hug me. To tell me that it was okay.

But it was far from what he did.

He looked down at me with saddened eyes, his lips parting as if he was going to say something. I had hope, I really did. He was going to tell me that it was okay and he wasn't upset with me. That he wasn't going to give me the silent treatment anymore. That I was safe with him.

But then...

"Thanks, Harry." Nina mumbled as she leaned against the doorway of the bedroom. My head snapped towards her, and within doing that, Harry let his hand slide from mine to hang by his sides.

I stared between the both of them as Harry walked towards her with ease. Like this was the easiest thing he had to do all night, just walk away from it all.

"Make sure she drinks water in the morning, just—" He stopped himself, clearing his throat into his fist before parting his lips. "Just text me if anything happens."

"Will do. Thanks again." She nodded towards him with a small smile. Before I knew it, he was gone. His body left as soon as it came. Quickly. And sadly, not slow enough.

I sunk back into the bed, closing my eyes tightly as a huff escaped me. I didn't know how I was going to pull myself out of the mess. The self-loathing had already started, unfortunately. But today was technically tomorrow as the clock struck midnight. Self-loathing was right on time.

"Brandon? Really?" Nina scoffed, shaking her head as she crawled into the bed with me. She laid down with a sigh, her head turned towards me as she examined my tear stained cheeks. "I'm not gonna give you shit tonight. Can't promise about tomorrow though."

"Gee, thanks." I slurred with a soft chuckle that came out sad. There was dread behind that small laugh. I was always so good at laughing things off, making them into jokes rather than actually dealing with them.

It was going to come back to bite me in the ass.

There was a long silence between us. I almost felt myself fall asleep, but for some reason my body was fighting the sleep that I desperately needed. I rolled onto my side towards her, seeing her staring at the ceiling with her hands over her chest.

Nina let out a small chuckle, shaking her head slowly before turning her head to glance in my direction. I scrunched my brows together. What was so funny? Did I miss the joke?

"When are you going to realize, Aurora?" She rasped out with a half smile, her brows pinched together as if she was giving me a look of confusion. I could tell she was disappointed in me. She didn't have to say it.

"Realize what?" I frowned.

I was too drunk to deal with her riddles tonight. Nina was always the queen of being so vague towards me at times.

"That's for you to figure out yourself."

NEXT UPDATE: 05/10/22

a/n: not us forgetting yesterday was tuesday and we forgot to update 😭 whoopsies <3 hope that the fact this was a long one makes up for it LOL

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Astrological observations n3

The rising signs part:01 🌅

Fire risings

Fiery ascendants are my favorites. They are a ray of sunshine and a ball of creative and entertaining energy.

✿ Leo rising

Marilyn Monroe and Johnny Depp are a good representation of a Leo rising. They are sophisticated, attractive and most of all have a remarkable style. Attention and fame gets to them very easily and they usually have really nice hair.

✿ Sagittarius rising

Anne Hathaway, Nelson Mandela and Agatha Christie are all Sag risings. This placement makes the person very philosophical, adventurous and peace loving. They are an interesting person to talk to and tend to mix humor in their conversations. You will never feel bored with a Sagittarius rising!

✿ Aries rising

Aries rising are bold, frank and goal driven. The fact that Shakira and Rihanna have this placement explains everything. They are the moment. These people won’t give up until they see their dreams come true. Their voice is meant to be heard!

Air risings

✿ Aquarius rising

One of my favorite placements. These people are unique and eccentric just like David Bowie, Jim Morrison, and Audrey Hepburn. They tend to have their own signature styles. I noticed they often have dreamy eyes and just like Sagittarius risings very friendly personalities. Never put an Aquarius rising in a cage they value their freedom and creativity above all

✿ Libra rising

Kate Winslet, Harry Styles, Will Smith, Doja Cat, Jared Leto and many famous celebrities have this placement. They are naturally talented and ambitious. They are ruled by Venus the planet of love so they are sophisticated and soft spoken they know exactly how to get what they want.

✿ Gemini rising

Something I noticed about Gemini rising is that they are good with words! They have a good sense of humor. Jennifer Lawrence and Drew Barrymore are the best example. They are friendly and a social butterfly. Since Gemini risings rule the lungs and throat. They also tend to have an excellent voice and exquisite writing skills as well just like Amy Winehouse and Lady Gaga.

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