#hori leave my kids alone

[mikeellee]

So in regards the leaks and how the general fandom is acting towards Shig and Izu seeing each other memories.

Like, let's dissect here. One thing is bothering me in lieu how the MHA treats redemption arcs is how the victims have no saying in the redemption of the villain(and BK let's not forget what he really is) the fandom wants to babiefied the villains without facing the real consequences.

Won't talk about PoS here. Let's talk about Shiggy.

Fandom says he is groomed by afo and so...he needs to be saved. I talked to @doodlegirl1998 about this. She proposed the idea of afo suggesting things to Shig which...yeah makes sense.

Brainwash trope: it's a trope where a character acts differently from the norm thanks to external reasons. For the trope to work we need to see how the character is before the brainwash.

What we know about Shig before being Shig.

*He is Tenko.

* He has a fluffy corgi

* His family died .

Shig fandom insists Tenko was this paragon of goodness. We are told that btw never showed. "Tenko helped those two faceless and shapeless kids. He is an angel" and the fandom nods.

What we really see of Tenko is how he was abused bc Hori really couldn't make his backstory a clichê. The SHIMURAS are dead and......no one really care. What they bring to the story?

We don't know how Tenko was, really

Then afo took him in.

He didn't groomed Shig. A groomer (if we go by a non sexual way) would be all the steps of the person's life to mold....afo didn't do that. He see him give a really cruel name to Shig, see the Dr give the hands (I so think they laugh at this) and leave him alone with Kuro.

Not grooming.

But afo could have suggested Shig to use his quirk without care.

Which comes to my point .....Shig chose to continue on this path. Shig chose to attack us, to kill those heroes. It's was on him. Afo doesn't have a hold on him...Shig did himself.

And my point is, Shig can't ever get a redemption action if we don't account the victims.

How the victims and their families would feel about a Shig wanting to redeem himself?

Ok imagine that. Everyone forgive Shig...maybe they all see Baby Tenko and are. Heartbroken by his cuteness ...they forgive him as easily as some Shig simps wanted .....what this means to Shig then?

What he would do with this forgiveness? Would he try to change? Would he care? What the story would be if everyone forgive Baby Tenko?

Also.....

I'm profoundly annoyed how Izu has to see the SHIMURAS being murder, how the fans will see this as "oh no. Poor Shig" (don't get me wrong ...it is horrifying as it is....silly. the entire family is dead. It's lazy) and no one will give a shit about Izu's past, just to not break a pattern. We will see the horrific scene of SHIMURAS being killed...a scene Izu will see as well....and doubt we are going to see Izu's past....and if we do see....

Fandom:😒why we are wasting time on this

Or

Fandom:😁proof Izu will save Shig. Go save Shig.

#sometimes I hate MHA #izuku deserves better #hori is a bad writer #a really bad one #incompetent and unprofessional #mha critical #anti bakugou #shiggy is a plot device #and a dumber one #bnha critical

[yugiohz]

What's with the shade in those asks about that ship kiribaku idk 👀 HJGjf hori literally dropped from the plot all the kids from 1a except the trio and sometimes ochaco ages ago leave my man kr alone he's chill 🙄 anyways sorry op if you like bkdk and i also like bkg too but midoriya deserves better and is too good for him idk the fans of that ship tend to get weird and kinda too silly imo, that's what mid shounen does to you 🙈.

I cannot emphasize how little I care about bnha discourse

#Also idk why so many ppl seem to be disappointed that all of class 1A aren’t focal any more first of all they still are as much as they can #like horikoshi tries he rlly tries to squeeze all TWENTY of these kids into the climax #and even if he didn’t that’s just not posssible #Realistic*

[hamliet]

Share us your Enji thoughts pls 🙏🏼

I’m at a loss for words. Lmao.

Leaving aside the new spoilers which I'm going to assume aren't actually like... as bad as they seem, because if Enji even consumed Deku's arc then there are no words for how bad that is writing-wise--

It's a whole mess. It's become a jumbled mess of retcons that could work, where I see the intention, but where the execution is so bad it just feels like induced whiplash. Just because I can see what Hori's trying to do doesn't mean it works, because it just flat doesn't.

The retcon with his dad is like... hoo boy. Okay. Let's step back for a minute and look at the intent and execution.

Intention: It does make sense for Enji to have serious issues after his father died trying to save a little girl. First of all, Enji could feel like prioritizing others over family is the heroic thing to do. Enji could at the same time be struggling with resentment over this, and that result in him bleeding resentment and his issues into how he interacts with his family, and how he intertwines family and being a hero.

Additionally, Enji could be struggling with the idea of weakness. He misses his father, and wishes his father hadn't died. Weakness led to his father dying, so if he's strong, his child self wouldn't have to suffer. Tragically and ironically, he then ends up inflicting trauma on his own kids instead of healing his own.

This works. It really does. Where it all falls apart is the execution.

Execution: It is WAY too late in both Enji's arc and the story itself to give this revelation the resonance it needs and deserves. It had absolutely zero set up. None. Zilch. Enji's character traits alone are not set up.

To explain what I mean by set up, let's look at the set up for the Dabi=Todoroki Touya reveal. We had Dabi introduced with that mysterious "too bad, Todoroki Shouto" line that bled familiarity in Japanese. We had Natsuo early on saying to Rei that he couldn't forgive for what Enji had done to "you, Shouto, and...." And that was all before we even had Touya referenced by name, and his story became increasingly clear to us before Dabi even told us his name.

Compare that to this. We never had Enji thinking "if only..." or "damn my old man" or anything like that despite dozens of chapters in Enji's head. The narrative never asks us to wonder about Enji's family. Even if Enji is repressed, and he is, we could have had Rei being like "after what happened to his father..." or Shouto being like "Dad never talks about his family" or "I never knew my grandparents." We don't have any of that.

That's why, even if the characterization could neatly slot in, it doesn't work to suddenly bring this up so late in the story. It doesn't impact Enji's arc because Enji's arc was never about confronting the ghosts of his past, but instead confronting the monster he became. These could easily have been entwined, but they weren't.

Instead, the story set up Enji's arc as a failed hero who projected his failures onto his children and wrought destruction as a result. It set up the main question of Enji's arc to be not how great he is as a hero--Shouto already thinks he's a great hero cue chapter 193! Half the story ago!--but how he will be as a father instead. Shouto reminds Enji of this again, and again, and again throughout the second half of the story. And now it's just Enji actually needs to be a hero because he has to confront the ghosts of his dead father, so it's fine for him to have being a hero as the crux of his arc.

That's bad writing. It's cheap. I want to care. I don't care about Enji and his father because it was never brought up, so how am I supposed to find catharsis in this moment? What are the emotional stakes? They're made of paper, not stone. I feel nothing seeing him prove himself a great hero--again.

I want to see him save his goddamn sons.

#ask hamliet #todoroki enji #mha #bnha #bnha meta #mha meta #endeavor #mha 356 #bnha 356 #mha 357 #bnha 357

[anti-katsuki-lounge]

Hey, hope you're doing well <3

Anyway, I feel like the story really needs to give Izuku a break tbh. When you said "sometimes it feels MHA is dark for the sake of being dark" I realised why it's been especially bland for me as well. Hori doesn't give Izuku a break because he wants to make an impact with this arc, make everyone feel how urgent, how important this is but because it's becoming the norm for this arc, people are getting used to it. "Oh another bad day? Yeah, happened yesterday too." It's not impactful if the same thing keeps happening. It's becoming normalized, at least for me lmaoo

The buildup was exciting but the result was anticlimactic, plus I haven't been attention much because I confess I only read MHA for Neito, so from what I've seen it's just power up after power up and missed opportunities.

Anyway, I'm guilty of finding your blog recently and coming here over and over lmaoo. Most of my friends love Bakugou, and the ones that don't don't know him at all pfft- so your blog is heaven

Thank you for the kind words and I hope you’re doing well too 😊.

Honestly I agree with you. I feel Izuku never gets a chance to rest. Closest he’s really gotten was the Culture Festival where he was fighting Gentle rather than a villain that was trying to go for his throat, but besides that, he’s never allowed to breathe.

Now, I love a good dark story. Marvel’s Moon Knight’s one of my favorite characters and his stories get insanely dark to the point where Batman’s darkest stories look like kids books. However, when writing a dark story, one has to know when it’s too dark. Moon Knight’s a story about a man who was killed, revived by a God, serves as the God’s idea of vengeance, and has his mind absolutely shattered as a result. This setup allows Moon Knight to get away with being extremely dark as it contributes to the themes of his story.

Invincible is another story that goes dark, but again, it serves an important purpose and that’s to set up the world, the central conflict, and characters.

Izuku is a hero in training wanting to follow the footsteps of his idol. Naturally there’s times where it’s going to get dark, but the problem is that Horizon doesn’t know how to balance the darker aspects of MHA with the hopeful aspects he’s constantly having the heroes preach about. Things like Twice’s and Himiko’s stories are dark aspects of the story that work because they set up a conflict and showcase what happens when heroes abandon their hopeful attitude, leaving two people with broken minds. However there’s some parts where we clearly see Hori just trying to be edgy. The heroes literally use him as bait, he’s working himself to exhaustion, and for what reason? Why not keep Izuku in a safe house? If this kid runs out of energy while fighting a villain, which almost happened btw, then AFO can scoop him up before the heroes get to him. The arc was meant to show Izuku that he can’t do things alone, but really all it does is torture him for no reason, and ends up being redundant because the reason he left, being that he didn’t want to involve his friends in a fight against OFA, ends up being validated (Katsuki “dies”, Kyouka’s jack gets ripped off, etc.). It just feels depressing, and not in a way which makes you think about the story and what’s going to happen next, but in a way which makes you think “when the hell is this madness going to end?”

#anti katsuki bakugou #anti bakugo katsuki #anti bakugo #anti bakugou #mha critical

[theloganator101]

this maybe by far the biggest unpopular opinion and a vent but i wanna say Uraraka is not the ultimate hero that Nezu envisions and she is also not the "BEACON OF HOPE OR LIGHT OF HOPE" that Hori oh so praises. Some people compare her speech as her being the hope that night eye during the internship arc said to Izuku and i wanna say that makes no sense.

First off, up until 1A decided to forcefully bring Izuku back, what did she even do after the war?. Sure she was going around trying to check for survivors but Tsuyu and other kids were probably doing that aswell. After that what did she do? nothing. While Mido after leaving UA, constantly was saving Civis, fighting villains, even trying to understand them (Muscular, Nagant). Even without food or sleep he was doing all he could to save the people and find AFO, Shigaraki and he had every reason to go after them. Self sacrificing sure but his obsession in finding AFO and Shigi didn't stop him from helping the Civilians in peril. His obsession with AFO and Shiggy was understandable. At UA Uraraka gives a plea to let Izuku stay to get some food and rest and she also mentions about how Izuku has done so much for the people disregarding his safety and health and asks the people's support she says how its 'them' heroes who will be filled with dirt. She asks all of their support and co-operation and ask them to let Izuku stay while constantly relaying about who saves the heroes when they are in pain.

Now the speech was okay though she got overhyped but my issue is that Hori's Narrative makes it as if she's the only reason why the civilians are trusting 1A & heroes and that she is the Light of Hope/Beacon of Hope which is BS. i mean if Midoriya didn't leave UA and stayed with them and the CIvilians protested, would the same speech been effective? infact would any of her speech or declaration hold any weight?. IMO nope. without Izuku's efforts since the time he left UA, her speech would've had no effect and no backing. It would've been empty. However Hori isn't giving credit to Izuku for this instead crowns only Uraraka as a beacon of hope and have Nezu evisions the birth of the utlimate Hero while keeping Uraraka in the panel and not Izuku and came up with the whole 'we all became great heroes' thing which to me the shift happened way too soon. Sorry but it was Midoriya who stepped up after the war and through his efforts and actions instilled hope and he deserves to be called as the Beacon of Hope that Nighteye stated and to be called as the Ultimate Hero. yes as Hawks said Uraraka connected the people to Midoriya but it wasn't Uraraka's speech alone that did this. Midoriya's actions deserve credit in this because without him putting efforts, her speech would've been empty.

Hori again did this nonsense in a chapter where Ayoyama was found as a traitor. He made Iida say that its because of only Uraraka's speech that Civilians are in good terms with them. Again disregarding Izuku's efforts. People even say she is the only one who parallels Nana but heres the thing Uraraka isn't the only person who wanted to become a hero to see people smile & be happy. Infact this is & was Izuku's reason for becoming a Hero since he was little. hate how she gets the callback and hype during the JT arc and during this speech but not Izuku in any of his important arcs.

Considering how Hori never gave Izuku any recognition, i was thinking he was finally gonna give Izuku the recognition that he truly deserved in the solo arc. but he as usual used Izuku to praise another character while downplaying/dicrediting Izuku's efforts. Izuku deserves better. Hori did Izuku dirty as usual and neglected him.

I don't hate Uraraka but i don't agree on how she is viewed as a Light of Hope for everyone when she didn't do anything and was at her comfort zone in UA.

I can totally see where your coming from.

Izuku deserves better than what's happened to him in canon. It was really scummy of Hori to downplay Izuku's efforts and prop up Uraraka to be the MVP

And while I don't hate Uraraka, her speech really didn't do it for me and made me wish there more weight to it.

#bnha #mha #bnha critical #mha critical #izuku deserves better #poor izuku #izuku deserves better friends

[sanguineness-wings]

I've been wondering for so long why Hawks is my favorite when I connect so much with the villains, and I think I finally got an answer. Or one of them in regards to: why do I dislike being shown the villains as sad kids, but care more about Hawks' shitty life as an adult? It's because the villain's backstories' are so far in the past that they've become different people, and although the past still affects them, the story treats it as a way to "we need to remind you of who you used to be! bring you back to that trauma and then force you to be saved!" all to give them closure. That they're not looking for, because they're not "unfortunate" right? They're "happy." While Hawks is just a normal guy moving through life with all that trauma and nobody pays any mind to it, and isn't that so real? We all do that. Nobody is out here forcing us to change our bad actions or talking about our inner child, anyone I know only looks at the current you. It's all the present and the future and maybe that's why my heart keeps leaning towards Hawks despite understanding the villains.

Even if nobody does anything in an extravagant way to save him, it's okay. Because that's life, sometimes you have to save yourself. Often, that's an always. And moving through life you sometimes meet people who end up saving you in small ways in regards to other things, like helping you realize you can rely on and work with others. (Tokoyami.) Just being there to lend a hand when you need one, not leaving you alone during tough times. (Jeanist.) Could be someone you see a mirror of yourself in. (Nagant.) People you wish to help, and that keeps your spirit alive. (Endeavor and the Todoroki Family.) It keeps a little color in the world, gives something to trust, something telling you you're still needed, something that lets you accept hope into your heart and try once more, keep going. All these little things that spill a trickle of water from a full glass to keep things from overflowing. Kinda like why people recommend getting out more huh? Won't fix everything, but it'll take you away from the Bad Place for a bit, so it doesn't consume you.

Hori throws him a bone every now and then, and Hawks works with it. Anyone's whose ever been down in the dumps, but gotten slight victories that make their situation more manageable, or gotten involved in something that made them feel a little more active and engaged with the world and a little less dispirited might be able to relate. I think this is where his "optimism" comes from. Like a carrot on a stick, he can also always choose to not care, not think it's enough, but he lets it be enough for him and convinces himself that "if this" then "that too" it'll all be okay, soon. One day. Just don't give up or give in. I can see why his plushie was made out to be such a huge support, even though all that strength was really coming from inside him. It's just admirable, how he kept going y'know?

The story choosing to give him his freedom back is proof that he deserved to be saved, and that just because you're seen as an "adult" doesn't mean you won't be. And it happened in such a real way. A little odd if you're critiquing narrative choices, but more real than what the villains will get. Sometimes shit just happens and you can say bye-bye to your old employer, what can I say? Sometimes you struggle and then things just come up and all of a sudden your situation is vastly different than before, though maybe you still need to work things out. Maybe it's just your patience and good karma coming back to you. It's all so real and something that happens and can happen to any of us. Even his familial trauma is not something that gets a flashy shounen battle and several people talking to him about it, it's all something he lives with on his own, until he's able to let go of it. And it's lowkey forced upon him, but the relief he feels over it? Fate making that choice for him so he's able to accept it more easily himself without the guilt? Even though that's such a sad way for it to happen too? It's all so darn quiet, freedom and clarity, a win with a sense of loss, I can't. Dang Hori, he's such a human character.

I don't want to keep this sitting in my inbox any longer. It deserves to be shared with you all. My life has completely fallen apart at the moment and my brain is too mushy to add anything meaningful. But you articulated exactly why I gravitate towards Hawks. He's realistic, multidimensional, complex and his struggles are relatable.

And the villains, while I find them super interesting and relatable sometimes, they've lost my sympathy at global terrorism, yanno?

One of the things I love about the story Hori telling is how trauma affects people differently. The villains are stuck in their anger, to the point where they’ve lost the reason why they were angry in the first place.

And Hawks is the reminder to keep moving forward. He’s the gentle hope that everything will be okay. That kindness will be repaid.

And then i get super fucking enraged that the HPSC tried to manipulate that hope and kindness IN A CHILD but Hawks never lost it... but that's a rant for another time-

#as someone who is prone to suffer quietly and never outright ask for help hawks is someone i see a lot of myself in #just keep pushing and eventually things will change right? #not exactly healthy but i think a struggle a lot of us relate to #bnha hawks

[autumn-foxfire]

Oops, that wasn’t my ask was it? *scrolls down* double oops, IT WAS :0 now I only said that cause from my impression of things, from the beginning people were only interested in the Todoroki's and interest in Endeavor sky-rocketed because of Hawks, it took awhile for his redemption to garner interest, but EndHawks? 100% sold. Because that's rough and tough Endy having funny interactions with his co-worker, it's a new look on him. That's what I personally meant by "Convinced Hawks won 4th in 2018 cuz of Endy simps" that it was less Hawks himself, and more what Hawks could do for Endeavor, and it's just a jokish conspiracy anyway, that technically could be true too. It IS something that happens with fans of other anime. People have their favorite, and then there's the "favorite's friend." Anyways Foxy, I think anon is a hurt Endy stan, not sure why, but I never thought I'd have to avoid all Endy stans as I do Dabi and Twice stans too, apparently if they're wild enough to get Caleb chased off Twitter over a swear word, then whatever this is too apparently??? There's nothing weird about what you said either, fans can and DO vote for characters they find hot?? Fan service goes a long way??? I wasn't trying to be "whiny" in my asks, just genuinely, well and truly baffled because I thought cool character moments helped ranks in the poll, like Ochako's speech and Iida's hand-holding carried them all this way. Until I realized people might've thought Endeavor, who Hori's been mostly drawing as I described before, was a cool character moment for him. I really don't care if the students rank higher than Hawks, the rankings haven't been an issue, I know he's controversial, and the kids have always been well-loved that's normal, they always rank-high regardless of screentime, (aka none of them ever really show up lol) it's just Endeavor was too yet being 4th makes him 1st essentially as TodoBakuDeku aren't budging, and that's what was shocking. And idk what you mean by bringing up Shindo, nobody here said anything on him??? All I know is that fandom wanted Shinsou or Dabi to take his place. "antipathy" "truth" WHAT are you on about?? Who are you even talking to for saying "no Hawks stan has a valid reason for their intense dislike of Kaminari" I HAVE NEVER SEEN THAT. TUMBLR HAS BEEN DEAD FOR CONVERSATIONS FOR THE PAST TWO YEARS. What truth??? That Shindo stans troll-voted for him for funsies? Hey good for them, that's wild dedication. You make it sound as if Hawks stans were complaining about that guy sneaking in 10th place and "can't acknowledge the truth of Shindo being a good character" which LMAO. And why would Foxy buy French volumes, she doesn't speak french? Actually I finally see what the issue here is now, anon is mistaking you for a butt-hurt Dabi stan and telling you to go buy a volume where your favorite arsonist gets the ranking you want for him. Man, watch your words k? We weren't sounding as extreme as you anywhere, "potshots?" "poor reading comprehension?" "grow up?" you see any insults? + THEY ARE PICTURES, + alright if there's a ranking for characters in the Marvel Cinematic Universe, I guess I better go stop families and literal adults out with their friends discussing them and tell them to grow up and leave it alone, huh? This such a bad thing to talk about? God. "assumptions about the japanese" you mean a factual thing for all fans of anime. What's really making assumptions about them would be the countless posts I see that try to drag in their cultural concepts in villain meta instead of something basic like uuuh "fan-service wins you votes." Dang, I had no idea simping was apparently being rude to an entire ethnicity, not like Hori himself doesn't also simp for the ladies he draws and that sketch of sweaty post-exercise tank top Endy japanese twitter keeps redrawing and posting on my dash right????

The fact that anon came back before I could respond to this ask just shows us that they were, indeed, a salty Endeavor stan (sadly you have a bad batch of favs for every character T-T).

I don't even know why they overreacted to a vent that, outside of this blog, doesn't reach anyone (I doubt even my followers take the time to read every ask I answer XD).

I'm not even sure they knew what they were writing when they sent that ask (and then the next one) because a lot of it is very hard to make out. Or they aren't fluent English speaking and struggled to translate their thoughts into English (which could be a possibility too).

You know what's funny about the simping comment though was that it was used in their next ask to say that's why we like Hawks. I wonder if they noticed that they just defeated their own argument XD

Anyway, it was a wild ride, that's for sure.

#personal #thanks for the ask!!

[spaceseinensam]

BNHA-AAAaaaah pt. 67 aka Chapter 308 AKA MANGA SPOILERS (!)

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Can't make a read more on mobile, scroll at your own risk.

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Well hello beautiful people, Deku has gone full Batman and hole-punched Muscular into next week('s chapter), and all I have eyes for is OFA' s 6th user, who is not only very pretty, but also likes to appear in Deku's headspace, lay his hand on his shoulder and tell him "bro you overdid it a bit"

But you know what that means? That means we now know all the quirks of the former users, except for my two favorite mysterious shilouettes, the 2nd and 3rd user.

1st user - OfA (AfO's younger brother)

2nd user -?

3rd user -?

4th user - Danger Sense (Shinomori)

5th user - Blackwhip (Banjo)

6th user - Smokescreen (En)

7th user - Float (Nana)

8th user - quirkless, then OfA (Allmight)

9th user - quirkless, then OfA (Deku)

As it's been portrayed in this chapter as well, most of the quirks of the former users aren't very flashy or powerful on their own, but can make for a great toolkit in addition to the Super Strength when used in combination with one another:

But this begs the question: what could the quirks of the mysterious 2nd and 3rd user be? Since Horikoshi is holding them locked up as of now, showing us only their menacing shilouettes at first, giving us no names, and then finally revealing them facing a wall with no intention of turning around and showing their faces let alone their quirks, it makes one wonder what powers the two could possibly have.

In my opinion, we probably won't get them soon, since Hori likes to tease and cliffhang like no other, but seeing the mystery of both the users and the quirks, it's not far fetched to say that they're either a) very powerful, b) very dangerous/destructive, c) quirks similar to ones Deku already knows (emotional drama), or d) all of the above.

Whatever they are, I'm hyped to see them revealed at some point in the future, and of course I'm very curious as to how Deku's newly acquired vigilante hero way of life will affect him and the people he left behind. Will Deku visit UA under the guise of night to quietly check in on his friends? Will they run into him in open field and not recognize him/recognize him too late? Did Shinsou really just snag a spot in 1-A (or I guess 2-A by now) only for him to find out its because Deku left? What are the kids' feelings on all of this???

#bnha spoilers #bnha chapter 308 #bnha manga spoilers #bnha theory #shut up am #bnha #izuku midoriya #what will happen to my boy young midoriya #also hi en you're a very pretty user #Deku said flashbang and falcon punch the mf muscle #so hyped to see him grow #I talk about the 2nd and 3rd ofa users and it gets weird #hori leave my kids alone #boku no am academia #vigilante bunny children must be protected at all costs

[franeridart]

A bunch of rabbits and one (1) birb as a warm up~

#miruko #miruko (bnha) #or is her name actually mirko? hmmm #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #my sketches #playing around with these kids before horikoshi goes and kills them *thumbs up* #(pls hori leave them alone)

[bloodstainsontengensfloor]

Tsumiki and Megumi childhood HeadCanons!

*some slight spoilers on what happened to Megumi’s dad

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BEFORE the abandonment: 

-Megumi didn’t like Tsumiki when they first met. She was so happy... why? Like him, she only had one parent and didn’t have the nicest things. She smiled despite not having the nicest clothes, not having the nicest toys, and with not having a dad.

-They walked to school together and Tsumiki would just talk his ear off

-Megumi didn’t really warm up to her until he tripped and scraped his knee and Tsumiki’s entire cheerful demeanor changed and she went to fretting over him

-It annoyed him but at the same time... made him feel happy

-He warmed up to her gradually after that. She always checked in how he was doing as his dad started to check in less and less

-Megumi was aware that his dad didn’t care for Tsumiki’s mom as much as someone you married should, and was surprised when he found out that Tsumiki shared the same sentiments 

-Tsumiki and Megumi’s dad... she was a ray of sunshine to him of course and he... had literally no clue how to deal with it. He also didn’t like how a second grader was a better parent than him, but in the end... he knew Megumi would be in good hands 

-(If he stayed around, Tsumiki and Toji would have a relationship like Hori and her dad for Horimiya I take no arguments) 

AFTER the abandonment: 

-Megumi’s dad left first. he didn’t really understand what was happening or why his dad stopped coming to say goodnight and then stopped coming home at all

-Tsumiki was emotional over it for the sake of Megumi and her mom, and started to do little things like get Megumi small gifts when they would walk from school- little stuffed animals (the first one was a dog ofc), chocolates, candies, etc. 

-When Tsumiki’s mom left, leaving only a little money behind, Megumi expected Tsumiki to cry or shut herself in, but she didn’t. She took on the role of taking care of him and barley took care of herself. 

-He didn’t know why his non emotionally constipated sister wasn’t crying and was smiling. Why was she not showing her hurt? Her dad left her and her mom, and now her mom left her too. 

-”Don’t worry about it! She’ll be back soon!” Tsumiki had said when making breakfast for them. 

-Oh, Megumi thought, she was in denial. 

-When the denial ended, Tsumiki didn’t show any evidence of going through the other stages of grief. When he asked her about it one day, Tsumiki sighed, and looked really tired. “I saw it coming. I don’t remember my dad much, but I remember how he was in the days leading up to when he left.’ 

-”Stupid Sister,” Megumi said as Tsumiki tried to do the dishes. “Go to sleep. You suck at cleaning anyway.” 

-A year of them living alone was fine. Neither of them asked for anything too much and Tsumiki tried to hide the fact that the money was running low as a year was about to pass

-Megumi was having trouble sleeping one night and he and Tsumiki were playing hand shadows. and then. DOGS. Tsumiki screamed but then started coddling them whereas Megumi was just like shocked. 

-Megumi was confused at Tsumiki’s naivety but eventually the dogs melted into the shadows again  

-Enter creepy dude with white hair. 

-Tsumiki saw him talking to Megumi, got a broom, and attempted to whack this giraffe on the head 

-But infinity kicked in, and Gojo was invited inside to explain everything. 

-Literally everything. Tsumiki asked a lot of questions and was taking notes. If this was something Megumi would be involved in, she had to know as much as she could. They would have been more skeptical had Megumi not discovered   his technique. 

-Gojo stayed the night by accident, and woke up to Megumi and Tsumiki using the stove, cooking food etc and he wasn’t surprised that they could do this, but rather annoyed that a second grader and first grader could do this and he couldn’t. 

-When Gojo ‘officially’ became their guardian, he teleported into the house with party poppers and the certificate yelling “IM YOUR GUARDIAN!” 

-Tsumiki just was in shock for a moment before politely smiling. She was more of an adult than this teenager at this point. 

-Megumi just deadpanned and went “Why”. 

-They had a nice little dinner after that, and because Gojo would always spoil them, they both got luxuries they never had before. 

-They got like phones and ipads or ipods or whatever was the most popular product at the time. Tsumiki was so grateful and embarrassed whereas Megumi was annoyed but accepting. 

-Tsumiki and Megumi would eat dinner together, and with Gojo whenever he came 

-Tsumiki kept on trying to get Megumi to open up a lot more, and he always gets annoyed over it and will rarely ever talk about how he’s feeling

-Except that one night when Megumi had a nightmare that he was alone. Alone in the shadows, unable to summon anything to help him or comfort him, and just wandering down a dark, dark road. At one point, he entered a hall of mirrors, and he saw Tsumiki in one. He was so scared at that point that he kept on trying to get to her but she changed mirrors every time. Megumi shattered every mirror with his fists, cutting them open. In the end, all that was left was a lily flower. 

-Megumi, aged 10, woke up crying silent tears and ran into Tsumiki’s room. Tsumiki woke up, concerned but aware that her prying would get her nowhere. She sat up and Megumi hugged her so tight. He ended up sleeping in her room for the next week after that. 

-”Megumi..’ 

-” I’m gonna protect you-” 

-”i.... okay.’ 

-Tsumiki never curses... unless talking about her father, her mother, and Megumi’s dad 

-They are both aware Gojo killed him, he almost let it slip when first meeting Megumi and he relayed the info to Tsumiki. 

-One time, Gojo asked about Tsumiki’s parents. Megumi was asleep at that point and Gojo was terrified. 

-seeing the nice, angel, sunshine 12 year old he knew for years curse worse than Utahime whenever Gojo was remotely near her?? 

-Please, Tsumiki’s abandonment issues are off the chart. That’s why sometimes she gets too involved in Megumi’s life because she cannot lose him. No matter what. He’s her little brother who’ll scold her if she works too much or tries to take care of too many people. 

-Now... for some reason, I Headcanon Tsumiki has lesbian, or having at least some kind of wlw vibes. Idk why... 

-Tsumiki told Megumi first ofc, and he didn’t understand why it was a big deal. 

-”Ok and?” 

-”y-you don’t think it’s weird?” 

-”You can like who you like, it isn’t hurting anyone. If you wanna date a girl, date a girl.” 

-Tsumiki was grateful to have a brother like Megumi 

-Now as for Megumi’s possible coming out for whatever his sexuality (personally i headcanon him as pan, but this will be opened ended for whatever you headcanon) 

-Tsumiki just got so happy for him. Began researching everything about it. 

-”AWWW MEGS!!” 

-hugs. lots of hugs. Always. 

-As they got older, they started to but heads more. but despite whatever petty arguments or fights they had, at the end of the day, they loved each other and would do anything for each other. 

-and sadly... I gotta add some part of 

AFTER THE CURSE: 

-Megumi came in yelling and screaming. The denial?? He was convinced this was some prank to get him to stop fighting kids. 

-It broke Gojo’s heart. It was the most emotion he ever saw from Megumi and that kind of hysterical accusation of it being a prank soon dissolved into full on sobbing. Gojo hugged the boy as tight as Tsumiki would 

-”Never again... I’m... I’m going to get stronger. Then no curse will hurt her again... that’ll work right?” 

-Gojo patted the boy head. “Yea... it will. But it won’t be easy.” 

-Megumi’s emotions settled and he quickly wiped his tears away. His emotionless expression returned but it was different... There was more fire, more resolve, as he said “i know.” 

-Every Friday he visits Tsumiki. He tells her everything that happened in the week.

-”And then he ate it. Tsumiki he may be more naive then you. He ate the finger.” 

-When talking to Tsumiki, he reveals his ability to tell stories. Like it’s amazing. He can distinctively set up a scene  and gets a little more emotion  in his voice. 

-God Forbid if Kugisaki or Itadori ever saw him when he told Tsumiki stories

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WOO! This has been in my drafts for a while, so here! I hope you enjoyed!

Thanks for reading!

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #fushiguro megumi #fushiguro tsumiki #megumi headcanons #satoru gojo #gojo satoru #jjk headcanons #jjk anime #anime #siblings #toji fushiguro

[mettywiththenotes]

I love how much Trope Bending happens in MHA! The Sports Festival is the best example of this; We'd expect Izuku to win every fight, Bakugo to ruthlessly destroy Ochako who starts crying at the first explosion, we'd expect the tournament to get interrupted and a winner is never declared. BUT NONE OF THAT HAPPENS! Ochako ALMOST WINS and Bakugo ACKNOWLEDGES HER AS A WORTHY OPPONENT BY USING HER NAME not a courtesy he gives Kirishima, Todoroki or Tokoyami, all people who are arguably stronger than Ochako! Izuku doesn't even get to the semi-finals! I loved the Sports Festival Arc and I love the tropes it broke.

It also means it's a lot less predictable to read in fanfics, too. So many MHA fanfics I read that cover the Sports Festival arc and are Canon Divergence will play it in so many unique ways! Sometimes Izuku wins, sometimes he forfeits in the first fight, sometimes Izuku helps someone else win, sometimes someone Quirkless wins or Hitoshi wins or Shouto wins or anything can happen! I love that too!

Yesss I loved it too. It was a really interesting arc specifically, I think, because you couldn't predict how things would go, especially with it being in the early chapters of the manga (not much of a rhythm or rhyme to something that's so fairly new)

I'm sure any other Shonen would have probably gotten Izuku all the way to the very end through Sheer Determination and have him either miraculously win the festival or lose at the last second or smthg (victory so close but lost so quickly)

But I really like that Izuku lost early, but not too early. Like, luck was on his side but you know what else? His brain! He's a smart kid and I think Hori used that well to show that he does have that advantage over people and can come up with alternatives or thought-out plans but Izuku isn't some like. Shonen Whiz who succeeds through determination alone. Kid succeeds but also messes up, sometimes because of that determination (recklessness)

I think the arc was one of those examples of Izuku constantly saying "I'm blessed, I'm lucky" and meaning it, because he did have that advantage of his friends and OFA but also had a blend of his own personality messing him up

About Bakugou, it's funny because the Sports Festival is actually when I started to like him! Before Shiggy got to the top of the list, Bakugou was my favourite and it was all because of how he was treated in the Sports Festival

You're right, we would expect him to be destructive, we would expect him to be unfair or smthg, behave like a selfish bully (like we thought he was before this arc), but the fact that this arc showed a side of Bakugou that we hadn't seen before - or at least wasn't made so clear to us before - was just so interesting to watch! To see him gain respect for Ochako, to see how he respected her stubbornness and her strategy, to use the battlefield against him - It just gave so much more of an insight into how Bakugou works and I love that so much

The best parts about the festival is that nothing went how we thought it would (even the whole thing with Shouto wasn't an I Hate You Dad Goodbye Forever, it was a I Need To Think About What I Want Now But I'm Not Leaving Just Yet, and that was also super interesting) and that's honestly so much more interesting than the standard of Everybody Succeeding Through Sheer Determination imo

Also that whole thing about the pros in the audience. I think that worked so well with 1) our initial perception that heroes are good and respectable and then being shown that, actually, they can be stupid af and uncaring too - which is also shown through Endeavor - and 2) how it challenges your perception again, that Bakugou is just a selfish horrible bully and so everything he does is Bad, but then Aizawa comes in, tells everyone the logic of the situation and to sit back down because the match is still going on

It definitely earns the title of a growth arc, one where it's not unquestionable victory, but a reminder that the kids are still, well, kids! And they will mess up and fail and learn and grow, and even if they succeed, the peak of it is not in some festival, but later, when they get more experience and train harder and become Heroes

I think one of the things bnha does well is that subversion. Like, there may be some things that are predictable, but the fact that some battles and arcs and plot lines aren't is what makes it interesting! If everything were to go exactly how we want it, complete victory and constant success, that'd be so boring to read. Sometimes, those twists are totally needed in order to bring out the gold in a story, and it's one of the reasons why so many people can add their own twist to their own fics I think - bnha has some predictable moments but it does hammer home that anything is possible! Which, you know, is kind of the point of the story anyway! And you can feel that! So it works well with whatever you can come up with

#thank you for the ask!😊 #asks with metty #bnha asks #bnha positivity

[bakugoukatsuki-rising]

Okay lemme try and redo my post:

I'm really worried about Katsuki for the foreseeable future and I really hope Hori doesn't gloss over it..

We all know how much of Katsuki's life revolves around Deku, even when he refused to admit it and hated it. They were together as kids, through middle school, when their relationship took a turn, Katsuki was still very focused on Deku to the point of being obsessive. Always watching him, always comparing himself to him. Even when they went to UA, it was still the same and he was still obsessed over him, still watched him and was also protective of him (The slime monster when he told him he shouldn't have helped him, which some would say is argueabley not protective) and when he saved Deku from Kurogiri.

Then DvK2 happened and it got worse, because now there was guilt in place of his anger. Guilt for treating him so wrong for most of their life together. Deku was one of the reasons he decided to change, to be better, because he wanted to repair their relationship and deserve Deku.

The guilt still lingered, you can see in his dark eyes during the talk about Deku with All Might. But he was determined to fix things with Deku. He got more obsessed, more protective while trying not to change himself too much. He wants a future with Deku because he loves him (platonically) and they are meant to follow AM's legacy together.

Then there's the fight with Shigaraki and Katsuki was so scared, so panicked at seeing Deku ready to kill himself. Every moment, his eyes were stuck on that boy as he tried to come up with SOMETHING to help him, to save him, to protect him.. but then there's the attack, and Katsuki throws himself in Deku's way, ready to die for this boy that's so special to him.

Now he's awake, alive and Deku isnt waking up. He's SCREAMING to see him, he needs to see him, he's in pain because he needs to look at Deku for himself to see if he's okay. To see if he was able to save the one person who matters to him most.

But he's being taken away.. and I'm so scared he's going to be left alone in that room, with no one to reassure him or tell him how Deku is. All the time they're apart is going to kill Katsuki. We all know he's prone to panic attacks and waves of guilt and insecurities. I don't want him to deal with this alone and that scares me.

I think that Shouto might end up with Bakugo while he waits to see Deku. Or at least I'm hoping. I don't think Hori would leave him alone, even though that is a fear of mine. I definitely think we're going to get a talk between him and Shouto, since Shou was the only other one to really see everything that happened and he understands. 🥺

#bnha spoilers #bnha #mha #bkdk #anon #asks #basketball idiot

[hamliet]

You’ve answered how to write a good tragedy....So how do you write a good redemption story?

Hi! So, I’ve addressed this before, primarily here. If you’ll notice, all the predictions for how this would play out in Enji’s arc have come to pass, soooo. We’re now in the “acceptance” and “more suffering” phases for him. He’ll likely get to penance via what I’ve been also predicting from the start (see Hawks stans this is not a new prediction for me).

If we wanna break these down even further, the thing about Dabi and Shigaraki (less Toga because, well, Hori and the female character dilemma) is that their arcs are systemic. So let’s examine these arcs, because you can see a pattern in these steps between fathers and sons. (Idk what’s going on with the numbering thing but w/e).

Initial crime:  

Endeavor marries Rei and forces her to produce children whom he plans to use to further his own ambitions as a hero.

Touya helps kidnap Bakugou.

Nana Shimura abandons her son, Koutarou, and then dies a hero but alone.

Tenko kills his family and is left all alone.

A worsening of the crime:

Endeavor abuses his family.

Touya targets his family with Natsu and Shouto, kills 30 people, etc. 

Koutarou abuses his children.

Tenko becomes Shigaraki and targets kids at UA, spirals as a villain.

Reckoning/refusal of the reckoning:

Endeavor: Touya dies and he locks Rei up and refuses to accept that it might just be his fault. Continues to treat Shouto awfully.

Touya rejects Shouto on the battlefield and rejects himself.

Koutarou’s wife tells him she’ll leave him if he hurts Tenko again . Three seconds later he attacks his son.

Tenko rejects his family (this isn’t bad since they asked him to die) but emerges from his coma to control Gigantomachia and kills a bunch of people. 

Suffering:

Endeavor’s family doesn’t accept his attempts to change and his reputation is now trash after a Dabi Todoroki reveal.

Touya’s all alone and more burned than ever.

Nana’s legacy is utterly trashed because her grandson is being used against her by the man who murdered her.

Tenko is having his mind literally controlled and not allowed to be his own person/establish his own legacy.

Acceptance:

Thank you Rei Todoroki. We’re at that moment with Enji right now. He knows it is all his fault and will not deny it.

Touya: now he’s finally outed himself as Todoroki Touya. We’ll see what this looks like for him in the future.

All Might and Gran Torino are showing a bit of this what with GT wondering if they did the right thing, as is Deku through his musing that Shigaraki looks like he wants to be saved (as carriers of OFA, they carry on Nana’s legacy). There’s more to be done.

Shigaraki’s gonna have to accept AFO sucks. He’s already showing signs of this through not wanting him to take control.

More suffering:

Buckle up buttercup Enji’s suffering is just beginning. He cannot deny his son in the media,

Touya’s probably going to Go Through It with AFO and the League and perhaps Hawks going after him.

All Might is probably going to have to suffer a bit and realize that his cowardice in not tracking Shigaraki in the first place makes him somewhat at fault.

Shigaraki’s probably going to wrestle for control of his very essence.

Penance/Sacrifice

See this is where my Enji-Hawks prediction comes in. I really think Enji needs to sacrifice himself to save Touya from something (it doesn’t have to be Hawks, but that’s my current theory); however, he will probably survive.

Shouto will probably get through to Dabi, and Dabi will probably help in the final battle. Yes, he’s going to have to do something to fight.

All Might might sacrifice his life to reach Shigaraki in a Han Solo/Kylo Ren type way, or he might not. He might also live, but I’m less optimistic.

Deku will probably get through to Shigaraki, who will use his quirk to destroy AFO and perhaps quirkdom entirely.

Forgiveness.

The integration of the separate arcs of father and son: Endeavor and Touya will probably both get a chance to heal and be a part of their family.

Deku will probably be the last OFA holder and establish the legacy of heroes with Tenko’s help. Hopefully they will establish a better society with the help of Touya and Toga, a society that saves victims.

I also think that, while there are very valid criticisms of why the trope tends to be this way, often the more suffering=the better the chances of not having a character die. The reason I think Dabi and Shigaraki have good chances is that their entire lives have been suffering. It’s just not particularly thrilling for their suffering to mean just death in the end. Enji is more of a risk than they are because afawk he hasn’t suffered all his life, but he’s still probably not gonna die imo.

#ask hamliet #redemption arcs #shigaraki tomura #dabi #todoroki touya #shimura tenko #dabi redemption #shigaraki redemption #endeavor #todoroki enji #shimura nana #all might #deku #midoriya izuku #todoroki shouto

[ignitification]

Hori not showing endeavor beating kids and rei is really weird idk. Like why would he dance around the subject? I've already seen people be like "endeavor didnt hit anyone its just fantasy of todo kids" bruh. I'm becoming more and more worried about end of todo drama because what if everyone forgives endeavor and he lives with rei? Let this fuck live alone got hori enji and rei cant be together bro

I think that @/haleigh-sloth makes a great job in this ask explaining why. Endeavour is a character that Hori did not know where to take, or rather - he knew where, he just figured out the details going on. Unfortunately, Endeavour was introduced as an abuser, and that label stuck, no matter the amount of retconning that HK is trying to pull. I think that HK did not foresee that he would have had to retcon E for two main reasons: he did not think that he might have needed to because he did not think that E’s actions were that bad, and/or because he did not understand the kind of impact Endeavour’s actions would have on the fandom and on the narrative. As I said before somewhere, this is also directly linked to Dabi’s popularity after the reveal and to Shouto’s. Which brings me to the next point: while I wholeheartedly agree with you on the fact that it likely would not send the most positive message (in my opinion) if E did come back to the family, that is also exactly the reason why E is being retconned and why HK did dance around, writing a lot in between the lines, when it comes to the Todoroki’s abuse. Unfortunately, I think that this is what HK envisioned as the ending of the Todofam plot, unless he does a 180 and completely changes up things (which, at this point I don’t think will work, but you never know). At the same time, I really struggle seeing E being integrated again with his family. I think that HK will leave us with the note of ‘trying to’ and ‘working towards’ the image of a broken family trying to heal together, but for that we would need some factors which yet have not even touched the horizon (I am talking factually about Shouto and Dabi building a sort of, brotherly annoyance to each other which would allow Dabi to see that Shouto is more similar to him that he thinks and the recovery of Natsuo’s trauma, and Rei’s healing journey which would totally be wiped out if she came back to him, which she did not, as she came back for her family). And this sort of build up tension juggled up with hope, is exactly why there are stans out there who entirely cancel out the abuse and focus instead of the future what if’s (which is not a negative thing, if they did admit to the abuse and just said that it is an important thing which is getting towards to being atoned, namely) and make E’s character even more irritating and downright just infuriating. I really hope that in the end, E’s character is just confined to the side lines, while Shouto and Touya get the space and attention they deserve, giving abuse victims the support and recognition they deserve (and taking away the spotlight from the perpetrator).

#:sba #sunn answers #mystrangers #bnha #boku no hero academia #anti endeavour #todoroki family #dabi #todoroki shouto #todoroki touya #todoroki rei #todoroki natsuo #^ #tw: abuse mention #tw: victim blaming #bnha spoilers

[shygirlsimps]

How similar am I to the brothers and a mini rant about them idk

Not much to say for Lucifer, well actually a lot but ima shorten it bc it makes me mad (my previous post says it all basically), so I mean yeah it’s love hate thing with him I either wanna hit or hug him so he’s ranked either 5 or 6 out of the brothers gets bonus points for his daddy issues and being a dad who has a son with daddy issues hahahahahah Ima satan kinnie I will not confirm nor deny my issues with my dad 🥴👁👄👁💧

I mean ironically enough I do watch horror movies and ride rollercoasters even if I’m hella scared like even if Im so scared I wanna cry I force myself it’s weird I got issues, he’s my current fave, this tsundere dork is so adorable I wanna hug him so tight, especially when his brothers make fun him like stop leave him alone but I also wanna tease him and if he teases me back i would hit bc I have this issue where I hit people I like

I mean yeah he’s one of my kins and third fave, I just wanna tell him hes valid and I will gladly be an anime simp with him and cosplay and read manga and all that but our convos would mostly be us ranting or awkward asf bc I’m so awkward at first at least bc once I get comfortable I’m idk lol I got so many embarrassing stories like the one where I accidentally rejected a cute boy I liked when he was flirting bc I didn’t know he was or when I panicked and told the person I was talking to I have weak bones and he looked me up and down smiled and walked away

He is also another one of my kin’s and my first favorite but is now second, playing the game he immediately caught my attention and his backstory and daddy issues made me like him even more idk why I got issues anyways, we are so similar from being nerds to anger issues to piano playing etc, my whole family calls me a need just bc I read and get As well use to it’s been rough but they’ll never know they just think I’m being lazy now im just the awkward version of him that is super shy and has like two friends and no connections but ironically a lot of people know who I am I just don’t know them it surprises me when they talk to me I’m like I’m sorry who are you

before playing (just off looks) I thought I was gonna fave him femboys👀might also be gender envy I’m still discovering but idk I just didn’t maybe bc I’m so insecure shy and not liking emotions and he’s outgoing confident and touchy, but I still like him alot Bc like everything I’m not and opposites attract and I need him to help me come out of my shell and help with my skin care, Hell bring out my crazy that comes out once in while, his rank usually switches with Lucifer between 5/6

I mean he’s so sweet and nice it’s a little off putting to me, I really wanna like him a lot but I have trauma, plus just knowing he’s always (well not always but yk) working out or eating and is like 6’4 and super muscley is just like a no for me bc I’m disabled yes weak bones so even though I can walk dance and do normal things, i can’t do everything like run or jump and if I do it’s usually with pain, plus I’ma 4’10 (I thought I was taller but I’m not😭) 18yr old girl who’s been described as petite and fragile and quite frankly been given the kids menu one too many times it’d just be weird, also I got a love hate relationship with food I’m picky and other things like weight are a factor I thought about this too much hes ranked 7 I’m sorry Ik he’d be sweet about my issues but no

This sadistic mf who killed me I should freaking hate you but ima push over and for some reason you’re ranked 4, is it my love for purple stars the moon and the night idk but I get insomnia a lot so it’s ironic, but there’s something about him that I just like, I feel it’s my own trauma that makes me like him I mostly always like the daddy issues or edgy characters i mean Shoto,Dabi, Levi,Eren, Light, Zack. I just wanna lay down with him while he sleeps and I brush his hair and read or play games with him on my lap

I am done and if you read this all thank you now you know I’m basically a mix of taiga from toradora and hori from horimiya lowkey kaguya from love is war could also maybe be described as a little bit of Todoroki Bakugou and tamaki also excuse my mess of typing I hope it wasn’t too confusing

Anyways if you wanna be friends or Mutuals I’d be happy :))

#obey me shall we date #obey me! shall we date? #obey me #omswd #obey me! #obey me mammon #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #obey me leviathan #obey me belphegor #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me beel #obey me belphie #obey me asmo #obey me levi

[balaroo]

Negative Reinforcement

Bakugou Katsuki/Midoriya Izuku one shot.

Summary: Bakugou Katsuki was the last person who should be picked to give emotional support- especially when he's stuck in a hospital room and bored out of his mind, but Izuku had shut down after their battle with Shigaraki, blaming himself for not being able to stop the carnage. When not even their classmates can pull him out of his mood Katsuki takes it into his own hands.

Aka, Katsuki has to cheer up Izuku and it goes surprisingly well.

Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Soft Bakugou Katsuki, Worried Bakugou Katsuki, he's trying his best, It Can Be Read As Platonic But Who Am I Kidding, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Cuddling, Bakugou Katsuki Swears A Lot, Bakugou Katsuki is Bad at Feelings, Bakugou Katsuki is a Good Friend, Post War Arc, not spoiler free, no beta we die like nighteye, this is so self indulgent you have no idea, Depressed Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku Feels Guilty, One Shot, short and sweet

Author’s Notes: I'm not really happy with how this turned out honestly. I loved the idea but I struggled to write it well, forgive me. Anyway, wanted to post it before the leaks for the new chapter come out and break me. This is my fluffy interpretation of what should happen but watch Hori stamp on my dreams.

Set right after chapter 296, there are many spoilers ahead and a few guesses about what will happen next! Thank you for reading and please leave some constructive feedback if you can! I'm still very new to writing fics like this.

Cross posted on my AO3 account, the link to which is in my bio if you’d prefer to read it there.

Rest of the work below the line!

Negative Reinforcement

If there were two things Katsuki hated more than he hated everything else the first would be hospitals. The sour smell of disinfectant that clung to each surface and the constant background hum of machines slowly drove him insane, that combined with Katsuki's own opinion that he'd spent enough time in the damned places already did not make them appealing to him. The second most hated thing would be dealing with other people's emotions. Hell- it was tiring enough having to figure out his own, let alone being expected to somehow know what other people were feeling and even if he got that bit right he was still meant to act accordingly. It was exhausting, so he tried to avoid it whenever he could. In this situation, avoiding it was not possible.

When Katsuki first woke up his thoughts had been jumbled, fleeting and fearful, considering the last thing he could remember was bleeding out in a ruined city it seemed fair enough. The room had been dark, cast in shadow with only the soft flashing lights of various medical devices to give any indication that Katsuki hadn’t been thrown into a void. He’d tossed fitfully in the hospital bed for a second, not quite grasping his surroundings and cried out as white-hot pain shot across his chest as if someone were tugging on his insides. “Kacchan?” The familiar voice was quiet but echoed with desperation and Katsuki frantically sought out its source, twisting his head, eyes finally adjusting to the gloom until he could make out a dark mound on the far side of the room that was moving. Katsuki finally separated the figure from the pile of blankets and pillows, ruffled hair stuck out in all directions and if he tried hard enough, Katsuki had been able to make out the faint gleam of green eyes piercing through the darkness locked directly onto him. “Thank goodness.” Izuku breathed as he saw Katsuki twist to look at him, his form slumped again, fading back into the shapeless mass of the hospital bed and Katsuki twitched anxiously in response. He felt completely disorientated, the thoughts in his head were moving too fast to pin down.

He’d tried to respond but his mouth felt dry and his tongue heavy, barely managing to rasp Izuku’s name in a thick croaky voice he wasn’t sure the other could even hear, struggling to lift the medicated fog that wrapped heavily around his mind like a thick blanket. Mingled feelings of relief and fear flitted around his head as he began to remember the carnage and bloodshed- Izuku was here, he had made it out and that alone calmed Katsuki enough to relax back into the bed. But what about everyone else?  Their classmates had been fighting their own battles all over the city. He had barely been able to focus but managed to form a few words, “The others?” Each breath, every swallow and twitch of his head sent fresh waves of pain rippling through his body, black spots threatened to overcome his vision but he fought through it. He could almost feel the other boy hesitating, it made him more distressed. “The class is fine.” Izuku had told him at last in a heavy voice, “You should go back to sleep.” Katsuki could remember thinking how defeated the other teen sounded. He’d ground his teeth together, feeling frustration building in the pit of his stomach that he was so helpless, unable to do anything more than shake and let his eyes fall shut again, slipping back into a fitful rest.

He woke the next day, feeling much more himself and determined to find out exactly what had happened but was immediately shut down by Recovery Girl who insisted he had to stay in bed or risk an even longer ban from training. Though, if he was honest, he wasn’t sure if he would’ve been able to stand up, let alone shake someone down for answers. Katsuki then tried to interrogate Izuku about it but the freckled nerd was annoyingly quiet for a change, spending most of his time with his back to Katsuki facing the bare white walls of the room. It was worrying, to say the least. Katsuki tried to tell himself that Izuku was just recovering from the wounds he’d sustained from All For One, damage that might not ever heal according to Recovery Girl. Izuku might never be able to use his arms in battle again.

Another day crawled by insufferably slowly. The only people allowed in their room had been Recovery Girl and a few different nurses who would bring food and water, all of which had clammed up the second Katsuki tried to ask them for news. He was frustrated with being talked over again and again, his hands tingled with a need to blow something up. So even by his own standards, he was in a lousy mood when their classmates were finally able to visit. Recovery Girl had forbidden the entire class from coming, “Only a few at a time.” She’d said as she’d been checking on their bandages, “If either of you reopens your wounds then I’ll have to put in overtime, and I won’t be quite so nice.” Katsuki snorted, tapping his fingers against the side of the bed impatiently. He’d spent the morning trying to coax a conversation out of Izuku. Well, not so much coax as annoy or tease, but they were solid tactics that usually got a reaction. Today, however, he got nothing more than one-word replies until Katsuki had gotten so annoyed he’d just given up completely. He’d prefer it if Izuku would just yell at him, yelling he understood. Just say Katsuki had made him mad, anything other than this stony silence. It had Katsuki on edge.

He was brought back to the present as he saw Izuku move so he was sat up in the bed facing the door. Katsuki could finally see his face properly for the first time. It looked drawn and tired, eyes that were usually bright stared blankly at the wall and there were dark bags under them. Katsuki briefly wondered how much Izuku had actually been sleeping while he was turned away from him. He thought again about trying to get his attention but then the door swung open, banging against the wall noisily and making Recovery Girl tsk in irritation. Iida was the first through the door, his face was still bruised slightly in places and his wrist had some kind of support on it but other than that he seemed okay. “We are here to represent the class!” The dark-haired teen announced. His good hand gripped a mixture of brightly coloured heart-shaped balloons all with ‘ Get well soon!’ scrawled across them. Katsuki’s eye twitched. He’d never wanted to leave a room more than he had at this moment. The others were filing in now. Including Iida, Uraraka, Todoroki, Mina, Kirishima, and Sero were the first ones who’d come to see them. They all bore marks of the battle in some way shape or form. Todoroki had a bandage wrapped around part of his face and Kirishima’s left arm was heavily bandaged. The rest had scratches that had been taped up but it was their expressions that made Katsuki realise something was wrong.

They entered the room with forced smiles which were surprisingly eerie and didn’t match the dullness in their eyes. They all looked so tired. Though when they saw Katsuki and Izuku both sat up in their beds, watching them, they did seem to brighten up. Mina was the first to move forwards, dropping to perch on the edge of Katsuki’s bed with a loud exhalation, “You two had us all worried!” Iida was now tying his balloons to the leg of a table between the two beds and Uraraka hurried forwards carrying an assortment of chocolate that she put on the table as well. She then turned to Izuku with a nervous smile. He was regarding their classmates with a far-away look in his eyes but he did meet Uraraka’s gaze. “We uh- got those mint chocolates you like.” She began awkwardly, “How are you feeling?” Katsuki watched the exchange with narrowed eyes. He could tell she was taken aback by Izuku’s state but she was doing a poor job of hiding it. For a moment Katsuki wasn’t sure if the green-haired boy was even going to respond, then, at last, he smiled faintly, though it seemed more like a grimace, and said, “I’m okay.” A brief rush of relief hit Katsuki as he saw the boy sit up a little more, though he still had that glazed expression.

Then Katsuki’s view of them was blocked by Sero and Kirishima who moved a few of the visitors' chairs to crowd around his bed. “It’s so good to see you, man!” Kirishima exclaimed, he had a grin on his face and patted Katsuki on his non-bandaged shoulder as he sat down. “They told us you guys were fine but they wouldn’t let anyone come near you. Are you doing okay?” Katsuki growled and picked at a spot on his bedsheet where the thread had come loose, “I’m just about ready to break out of here, consequences be fucked.” Sero chuckled sympathetically and glanced around at the very clean, very sparse room, “Pretty bored then huh?” Katsuki’s patience was thinning rapidly. He was glad to see them all in one piece but if he had to walk around social niceties to get a straight answer from someone he really was going to lose it. “Not just that,” He snapped, “No one here will tell me anything. What the hell happened after the battle?” He didn’t miss the way Mina caught Kirishima’s eye with a startled expression as he turned to look at each of them in turn. When no one offered up a quick answer Katsuki had to stifle another growl, they were holding something back from him and he knew it. “I know we’re here because the bastard set his Nomu’s loose or whatever and they thought they’d come after us, but why hasn’t anyone told us anything? All Mig-” Katsuki broke off and stared bitterly at his hands. He’d been about to say All Might hasn’t even been to see Deku but he didn’t want Izuku to overhear him. He could hear Todoroki talking faintly in the background so he hoped the other invalid teen hadn’t been listening to him about to point out the obvious but Katsuki was mad the former symbol of peace hadn’t been to see them yet. If anyone could pull Izuku out of whatever stupid funk he was in, it would be All Might.

“Bakugou…” Kirishima started warily, “A lot happened, we’re-” He stopped mid-sentence and glanced helplessly at Sero. “We’re not supposed to say much.” Sero finished for the redhead, “They said you needed more time to heal befo-” “Fuck that.” Katsuki snarled, his stomach was twisted into knots with anticipation. He wanted to stomp his foot like a child. Maybe break something against a wall. If they left without giving him any answers he didn’t know how much longer he’d have to wait to have another chance. They were all watching him with concern and Katsuki realised he’d been gripping the covers tightly in his fists. He let go quickly but he’d already left scorch marks smouldering in the pale blue sheets. He struggled to relax his jaw and tried again, “If I have to lie here one more day without knowing what’s going on out there, I really will get out of bed and find out myself. That sound like a great way to heal to you?”

It was Sero who broke first, “I guess, I don’t think I could stay still either.” He admitted, looking at Kirishima who sighed but murmured in agreement. “He does have a point,” Mina said from where she was still sitting at the end of the bed, “And I wouldn’t put it past him to sneak out.” She stuck her tongue out playfully as Katsuki glowered at her, but he was silently glad to see her acting normal. Kirishima breathed out heavily, slumping forwards in the chair and meeting Katsuki’s gaze. “What do you want to know first?” “How is everyone?” Katsuki asked immediately, “We could only get them to tell us no one else from the class was in hospital but that was pretty much it.” Smiling softly, Kirishima nodded, “Everyone’s okay. Kaminari wanted to come today but he’s still on bed rest.” He waved a hand as Katsuki opened his mouth, “Just in his dorm. He got a pretty bad knock to the head but he’s fine, really.” Katsuki closed his mouth and eyed the others quietly. There was still something they hadn’t told him, he could see it in their faces, in the smiles that looked too fake and the unspoken grief he could feel around them.

“What happened?” Was all he asked, “Something went wrong, didn’t it?” He could almost see their facade’s failing, Kirishima wouldn’t meet his eyes now and seemed very interested in his hands while Sero leaned further back into his chair, tugging subconsciously at the hem of his shirt. Mina’s head dropped and Katsuki could see her bottom lip trembling as she stared down at the floor, when Kirishima offered a hand to her she took it and clutched it tightly, like a lifeline. Her entire demeanour changed in a few short moments. Whatever had happened, it really distressed her. There was another silent moment before Kirishima started talking again, “You were there when Aizawa sensei was hit with a quirk deleter round?” Katsuki nodded grimly, “He took his own leg off, I saw.” The redhead winced, “He’s still recovering, it was bad.” “But he’ll be okay?” It was Sero who answered, “We haven’t been able to see him yet but Shinsou said he’s doing better.” Katsuki wanted to relax but the other’s tone of voice sounded heavy. “There’s something else…” Kirishima began, “When we were trying to keep Gigantomachia from reaching the city we…” Another deep breath and his bright red eyes looked watery. “We lost Midnight.” Mina’s shoulders shook and her body convulsed in a choked sob but Katsuki could only stare in disbelief. Midnight had been their teacher for almost a year, she couldn’t just be gone. Katsuki’s focus wavered, his mind drifting. He could tell from their reactions what they meant and felt a deep pit open in his stomach. After everything that had happened, all the fighting, he never thought they’d actually lose someone. God, he was fucking naive.

The others gave him a little while to process it and Katsuki found himself wishing for the umpteenth time that he was anywhere else. “Bakugou?” Sero asked eventually and Katsuki quickly returned his attention to them. Mina’s eyes were red around the edges and he knew now why they all looked so drained. “How did it happen?” He managed to ask. His body felt oddly numb but when he spoke his voice sounded unsteady, even to himself. Mina leant forwards and breathed out shakily, “W- we don’t really know. We hadn’t heard from her and then we just found her, lying there.” Tears trailed down her pink cheeks and she lifted her free hand as if she was reaching for something. “I was- I held her hand.” Her voice ended in a whisper, dark eyes hazy. Katsuki shifted uncomfortably, glancing away. He didn’t like being confined in one space for moments like this, it made him feel nervous as if he were trapped. Kirishima was trying to comfort Mina though he seemed just as broken down himself. Sero watched them sadly for a moment before glancing back at Katsuki, “Other heroes were killed too. No one we knew well but they got the number 6 hero, Crust.” The dark-haired teen hesitated before continuing as if he wasn’t sure how much he should say. “Most of the big heroes are out of action. Hawks and Endeavour are still in bad condition, Miruko as well. But they’ll heal.” He sounded unsure of himself. The numbness settled a little deeper into Katsuki and he closed his eyes. All the destruction he’d seen from Shigaraki’s quirk and then Gigantomachia tearing the city apart, he didn’t want to ask about civilian casualties.

There was silence then, nothing more to say really. Sero returned to consoling the other two, whether he was unsure of how to do the same for Katsuki or thought the blonde wanted the space Katsuki couldn’t tell, but he was grateful for it. During the break from their conversation, he tried to focus on what his other classmates were saying to Izuku. They’d arranged themselves near the freckled teen’s head and Uraraka was saying something in an upbeat voice. “Recovery Girl said you’d be okay to go outside for a bit,” the round-faced girl was saying, “Stretch your legs, maybe see Eri. She’s worried about you.” Todoroki and Iida murmured agreement but Katsuki could make out Izuku’s face between Kirishima and Sero now, he still had his eyes fixed downwards with that subdued look on his face. Katsuki wondered if they’d told Izuku about Midnight or if they thought he couldn’t handle it yet. “Maybe.” Izuku replied, Katsuki was vaguely relieved to hear this voice sounding a little louder, “I’m still really tired.” Uraraka and Iida exchanged glances. “We can uh- leave you to rest a bit more?” Iida asked though he sounded like he didn’t want to. When Izuku simply nodded mutely and settled back down into the bed, turning to face his back to them, Iida’s face fell. He said something quietly to Todoroki and Uraraka that Katsuki couldn’t make out but the three of them got up and made their way dejectedly towards Mina and the others. Katsuki wanted to yell at them to keep talking to him but he just stared worriedly at Izuku’s back, if he was refusing to talk to his friends, how could Katsuki get him to say anything?

Uraraka joined Mina at the foot of the bed, Katsuki felt the mattress shift beneath her weight as she put her head in her hands. Mina patted her on the back and Iida stood in front of her, looking concerned. Todoroki had come to stand closer to the Katsuki. He leaned forwards slightly, “Has he said anything to you?” He asked quietly, his eyes were anxious and Katsuki knew he was just as worried about Izuku. Katsuki wrinkled his face, not pleased with the fact he hadn’t, “No.” He returned to picking at the loose thread on his mattress. For a second, he thought he saw Todoroki smile faintly as if Katsuki’s reaction had amused him. But when he looked up, it was gone. “I feel so helpless,” Uraraka said through her hands, catching the blonde’s attention again. “He’s just…” She trailed off miserably and looked back up at the rest of them. Iida reached out to rest his hand tentatively on her shoulder and squeezed it gently. She gave him a weak smile in reply but still looked close to tears. Katsuki hated to agree with her but as he glanced across at the pitiful figure of Izuku, still curled up against the wall, his heart thumped uncomfortably hard in his chest. He felt like he needed to confront something, preferably something physical. If he could just get out of bed and blow off some steam maybe he’d be able to think clearly. But no. He was trapped here, in bed, with a bunch of emotional teenagers and no anger outlet. Definitely a worst-case scenario.

Katsuki finally drew his eyes away from Izuku as he saw Kirishima shift in his chair. He exchanged an apprehensive look with Sero and opened his mouth as if he were going to say something more. “Bakugou...” But Iida cut in before he could get anywhere. “We should let you get some rest.” Iida fixed Kirishima with a pointed look and the spiky-haired teen glanced away, still looking guilty. They all made a move to get up but Katsuki spoke first. He wasn’t going to let them leave without telling him the truth. The whole truth. “What are you hiding from me now?” He demanded, his voice bitter. He’d had enough of all the secrets now. More glances were exchanged between the visiting party and Katsuki furrowed his brow even deeper. “Tell me or get the fuck out.” He snapped at them, patience far beyond gone. If they wanted to keep shit from him, that was fine. Well, it wasn’t actually but he didn’t want them here if that was the case and if they kept looking at him like some fragile thing he was going to go feral.

Iida sighed at Katsuki’s brash tone and pushed his glasses further up his nose. He cast a look over his shoulder at where Izuku lay unmoving and shuffled closer to Katsuki, speaking in a low voice as if he didn’t want the other teen to hear him. “None of the teachers wanted us to tell you, but…”  Another pause as he built up the nerve to continue. Katsuki blinked in surprise and his anger faded slightly. Iida going rogue? The strict class representative was finally getting interesting. Iida stole a glance at where Recovery Girl was sitting in her usual chair in the far corner, head bowed as if she were dozing. She certainly wasn’t paying them any attention. “You’re being kept behind U.A’s defences because not long after Shigaraki disappeared, he sent his Nomu’s to Tartarus.” A cold feeling was beginning to settle in Katsuki’s stomach, “All For One’s prison.” He murmured. Iida nodded gravely, “Yes. Most of the top pro-heroes were still out of action or unaccounted for- There was no one to stop him. He took back his real body and broke out some more nasty criminals along the way. No one’s seen him since.”  

If All For One had his body back and control of Shigaraki’s powers as well as the Nomu, everything they’d sacrificed… Had it done anything? Katsuki shook his head as if shaking away the thought. No, he couldn’t think like that. They’d saved most of the city just by holding Shigaraki down, Gigantomachia too, it hadn’t been useless. He side-eyed Izuku’s bed again. Was it just his imagination or had the boy shifted slightly in his peripheral vision? Returning his attention to the others, Katsuki clenched his fists. Though he wasn’t happy that they were being guarded, he could admit it made a lot of sense. The U.A Barrier was pretty formidable but he wasn’t sure it could hold off the bastard if he really wanted to get to them. Another flicker of movement in the corner of his eye and Katsuki was sure of it now. “You should go.” He said to them. Kirishima started, “W- Bakugou, are-” Rolling his eyes, Katsuki interrupted him. “I’m sure, Shitty-Hair. Get going, I want to sleep.” The redhead hesitated then nodded slowly and got up. The others said their goodbyes and did the same, stacking the visitors’ chairs back up and piling them in the corner before heading for the door.

Katsuki was so focused on watching Izuku for more movement he didn’t realise Todoroki was lingering by the edge of his bed until he coughed. The other teen kept his voice low as he said to Katsuki, “You’ll talk to him, won’t you?” Katsuki knew what he meant instantly and scowled, “What do you think I’m doing, bastard?” Now piss off.” Todoroki backed off, but Katsuki could see that same knowing smile on his face as he turned away. Though he tried not to focus on it, Katsuki’s face felt flushed and he glared angrily at Todoroki’s retreating back. Soon, their classmates were gone and the room felt bare once again. Though Katsuki had been sure Recovery Girl was asleep, the moment the door swung shut she got slowly to her feet. The old medic gave Katsuki a wry smile. “I’ve got other things to get done. You two rest.” She paused, “and heal .” The emphasis she put on the last word made Katsuki uncomfortable again and he was sure she knew exactly what they’d been talking about. Then she left and it was just the two of them.

Katsuki took a deep breath and glanced across at the other bed. Izuku was still, his back turned to the room, looking pretty much dead to the world like he had done for the last few days. But Katsuki had been sure he’d seen him twitch when Iida had spoken of All For One. He was awake, and he must have heard what their classmates had said. “You should talk to them.” He said before he could lose his nerve. Izuku stiffened from across the room and Katsuki waited before continuing, “They’re worried about you.” The silence between them stretched longer and Katsuki was sure Izuku would just ignore him as he had done since he’d woken up here until finally, he shifted. “And tell them what?” The green-haired boy’s voice sounded so tired and bitter that Katsuki winced. He’d never seen Izuku so hopeless before. He’d always been the first to bounce back from everything, it was one of his most irritating qualities. “The truth. They want to help you, idiot.” More silence, then at last, “What is the truth?” Even quieter than before and Katsuki had to strain to hear it. Katsuki blinked, “Huh?” What the hell was he talking about? Izuku rolled onto his back and Katsuki caught a glimpse of his face. It was streaked with tears, more running silently down his cheeks and Katsuki’s chest tightened painfully. “The truth,” Izuku repeated, his voice catching in his throat. “That I wasn’t able to stop All For One. I was given this power to be a hero and I couldn’t even protect the people I care about the most.” Katsuki gawked incredulously at him, “ That’s what you’ve been upset about?” He demanded, “You have got to be the thickest person I h-” He broke off abruptly as Izuku lifted one of his heavily bandaged arms in front of his face. “Hey! Stop it. You’re not supposed to move them.” But the freckled teen didn’t seem to hear him, “All For One was right.” He murmured, “I’m worthless, I don’t deserve this power.”

Katsuki could only stare at him in shock- It was one of the last things he’d expected Izuku to be hung up over after everything he’d seen him accomplish in a single year. He struggled vainly to find something to say. This was the exact opposite of what he was good at. Izuku had dropped his hand back to his side, staring emptily at the ceiling, and Katsuki’s stomach twisted painfully again. Part of him just wanted to yell at the dumbass about how, well, dumb he was being. Could he not see everything he’d done? All the lives he’d saved? But his mouth felt thick and heavy, his heart pounded so loud now and he had to bite down on his tongue to stop from cursing himself. This was pathetic, not even able to tell Izuku, someone he’d been willing to die for, that he was impressed with him. What kind of person did he have to be to find jumping in front of those spikes easier than admitting he was wrong? If he was doing this it would be his way. The first step was to make Izuku realise how stupid he sounded.

“Deku.” He said after a few minutes of silence had passed, “Come here a second.” Wide confused eyes stared at him, “W-what?” “Come here.” He repeated. “Why?” Katsuki’s eye twitched, “Because I can’t get up and- Fuck’s sake, just move it!” The bedsheets rustled softly as Izuku pushed them aside and slowly got up. It was a bit awkward, not being able to use his arms to prop himself up, but he managed it and then stood there, pausing for a moment before he walked cautiously over to where Katsuki lay. He stopped near the top of the bed and Katsuki huffed in annoyance, beckoning the other one closer. Izuku still looked confused but shuffled another few steps forwards, leaning down until he was close enough for Katsuki to whack him upside the head. It wasn’t a particularly hard hit but Izuku still yelped and stared at Katsuki in disbelief, “What was that for?!” He whined loudly. Katsuki couldn’t help but smile slightly at the indignance in his voice, it felt like a long time since Izuku’s voice had sounded anything but broken. “Negative reinforcement,” he said, “When you say something stupid about yourself, I get to hit you.” Narrowed green eyes met his own but he was sure they seemed more focused than before. Katsuki sighed, shifting in his bed. “You really think you didn’t do anything to help?”

Izuku was watching him closely, his expression clouded with an emotion Katsuki couldn’t bring himself to figure out. But he didn’t reply so Katsuki continued. “For starters, the second you realised Shigaraki could track you, you led him away from the evacuation. Which was pretty fucking stupid because you tried to do it without telling anyone.” Izuku snorted but didn’t interrupt, he’d stopped crying now which was a win, right? Katsuki had to tear his eyes away from the teen, the itchiness he felt was back, crawling all over his skin until he ground his teeth together, hard. “Then you unlocked float,” Katsuki counted it down on his fingers as if he were making a list, “ And used blackwhip to keep everyone from being destroyed by decay.” Another finger down. “Kacchan…” Izuku said hesitantly and Katsuki glanced back up at him. Freckles stood out against a bright red face and he took another step forwards so he was right next to Katsuki’s bed. Katsuki raised an eyebrow, he was sure his own face was flushed too but he managed to keep his voice steady as he said, “What? Are you saying you didn’t do that?” Izuku shook his head slowly and Katsuki could swear he saw the hint of a smile begin to tug at his lips. “Exactly. Now shut the fuck up and let me tell it.” He heard a soft chuckle to his side and blinked rapidly, trying to remember where he’d stopped. It was an effort to keep talking. He didn’t like that reassuring someone else meant he had to say embarrassing things like this. “You managed to stop All For One from stealing your power then still got up and kept fighting him again. Am I missing anything?” Izuku was stood with his bowed, dark hair in his face but Katsuki could hear him sniffing and figured he was crying again.

Shoulders shaking slightly, Izuku looked back up and yep. He was definitely crying again. “I could only do that because you saved me! You, Lemillion, Todoroki, Iida, you all helped me. And I couldn’t even stop you from getting hurt!” Another sob shook him, “If I can’t protect the people I care about, what good am I?” Katsuki frowned and rapped Izuku’s head with his knuckles again. It wasn’t as hard as the first time, more like he was trying to knock some sense into him but it still made Izuku start. He stared at him, the tears in his eyes glittered in the harsh hospital lights and Katsuki faltered. He was sure his stomach was now trying to escape his body by making him want to throw it up but he drew in another breath to steady himself. “That’s our job, dumbass. We’re all trying to save as many people as we can.” Izuku shook his head, he moved forwards somewhat uncertainly to perch on the edge of the bed. It dipped slightly under his weigh and Katsuki moved further back towards the wall so Izuku could turn to face him, now sitting cross-legged on the sheets which took a degree of shuffling around. Katsuki was very aware of how Izuku’s knees were pressed against his side on the small space. It was through the sheets but he was sure he could feel it. When the other didn’t say anything about their new position, Izuku started again. “With One For All though, I’m meant to save everyone. That’s what I was given it for.” His gaze fell again, “Midnight, everyone who was killed, I should’ve saved them. But I couldn’t do it. I shouldn’t have this power.” He went silent, looking even more miserable. “They told you?” Katsuki asked. He tried to stay quiet but he was surprised Iida or either of the others would’ve said anything to him. Izuku shook his head glumly, “I heard the nurses talking when they thought I was asleep.”

Katsuki regarded him with a sad expression, that must’ve been why he’d been in such a slump, learning that their teacher was killed for the very thing he believed he should’ve prevented. He’d had the worlds biggest burden dropped on his shoulders in the middle of a war, but he wouldn’t ask anyone to help him carry it. Which was Katsuki’s fault. All through their childhood and then their teenage years, Izuku had just wanted to be included, he always tried so hard never to be a burden. Izuku glanced back up as he heard the other boy sigh, his face tinged pink, probably from all the crying, and Katsuki tried again. “Deku. You can’t save everyone, not all the time.” Izuku flinched and Katsuki hurried on, “Not even All Might could do that so stop putting so much pressure on yourself.” Those bright eyes were staring at him so intensely now but Katsuki couldn’t stop, Izuku had to hear this. He swallowed dryly, “All For One, One for All, they’re both cursed powers.” Izuku tilted his head to the side, “They’re not the same though,” He protested, “One For All is meant to help people.” Shaking his head, Katsuki struggled to sit up taller, ignoring Izuku’s worried protests. He had to make Izuku understand this. It was something he’d realised pretty soon after All Might told them about the other wielders of Izuku’s power.

“Just fucking listen, okay. One For All is only as good as whoever uses it. Every one of its past users died alone, trying to stop All For One because they thought like you. They thought they had to fight that bastard on their own so no one else would get hurt, but that’s exactly why they all died.” He stared straight into Izuku’s eyes, willing him to realise it. “If you keep trying to win by yourself then you’ll get killed. You have to let other people help you.” “But what if you get hurt again? What if you get killed? I don’t want that to happen!” Izuku’s voice was insistent, his eyes were set in the way Katsuki could tell he was going to be stubborn about it and his own temper flared up in retaliation. “What, and you think I’ll be okay if you die?!” The words were out of his mouth before he could think about them but he felt the heat creeping into his face as he realised what he said. It did succeed in silencing Izuku however, and Katsuki took the opportunity to keep talking. “Even if you did manage to defeat All For One, it wouldn’t be a victory for any of us-” He willed himself to say it again, “For me, if you get killed.” The heat was now spreading down his neck and he dropped his head to avoid Izuku’s gaze, frustration or something else was making his own vision blurry. The other boy was quiet and Katsuki very much wanted to curl up in a hole somewhere and think about what he’d just said for a few years or so. He resented how difficult this was. Neither of them moved until Katsuki heard Izuku sniff. He looked up in surprise to see more tears on the boys face. Had he said something wrong? Katsuki started to move forward and opened his mouth but Izuku shook his head, rubbing the tears off his cheeks with his shoulder. “Sorry, Kacchan. I’m just-” He sounded hoarse but there was a soft smile on his face, “When I was fighting Shigaraki, all I could think about was what would happen to you and everyone else that I-” “That you didn’t think about yourself.” Katsuki finished with a sigh, “I fucking hate that about you. Can’t be a hero if you’re dead, can you?” He’d meant it to be a rebuke but Izuku’s smile widened even more and he laughed. A proper laugh, the first time Katsuki had heard in what felt like forever, and he couldn’t help but relax at the sound of it. Okay, this sucked and he felt itchy all over, but it was rewarding to see the enthusiasm return to Izuku’s face.

The laugh faded and Izuku returned to staring at Katsuki with such a fond expression that he felt a sharp twinge of guilt in his gut. He knew Izuku had only ever wanted to be close again, like how it had been when they were kids, and he was still waiting after everything that Katsuki had done to him. Part of him wished Izuku would just hate him, it would be easier to understand for one thing. “Kacchan, thank you.” The soft voice broke him out of his thoughts, “Everything All For One said to me…” He trailed off and stared at his arms, still thickly bandaged and splinted. “I thought I had gotten past it but it made me feel so useless. I guess I’m still just Deku.” He said it so sadly that Katsuki felt the twinge grow into a gut-wrenching pain. That stupid nickname. Izuku had tried to reclaim it but it seemed he didn’t really believe it himself. Katsuki probably could have pulled his heart right out of his throat at this point, “Well, duh, Deku. You said you were always gonna try your best, right?” He tried to make it sound casual, but he was admitting to something he'd known for a while. That Deku hadn't meant worthless for a very long time.

The look of surprise on Izuku’s face only lasted for a second before his eyes filled with tears yet again, his bottom lip trembling as he sobbed out, “Kacchan.” Then he was launching himself towards Katsuki who promptly stiffened in shock. It was an incredibly uncomfortable hug to manoeuvre, it would've been without the weird position. Izuku couldn’t lift his arms so he sort of squished himself against Katsuki’s side, face mashed between Katsuki’s shoulder and neck. Katsuki’s heart was going haywire, he didn’t even notice the pain in his side and very slowly, he wrapped his good arm around Izuku’s shoulders, patting him clumsily on the back as he cried against his collarbone. “You’re pathetic,” He mumbled, uncomfortable with the silence, “Moping around for days and making everyone worry, bastard.” Izuku laughed between deep breaths, trying to stifle his sobs. “Should’ve said something earlier.” Izuku twisted his head so it was laying on Katsuki’s shoulder, “You’re meant to be nice to me, I’m upset.” He said though Katsuki could feel his lips curved in a smile against his skin. His face felt like it was on fire now, “This is me being nice, and you’re always upset about something.” “I know, thank you.” The other replied. Katsuki’s skin tingled where Izuku’s eyelashes fluttered against his neck, still blinking away tears. Katsuki wasn’t sure what to say after that. It was complicated. He knew Izuku needed him right now, but Katsuki hadn’t done enough to deserve it yet. It felt wrong to be so content that he was the one Izuku reached out for. Just be there for him now, he decided, be there for him and try harder to earn it.

He wasn’t sure exactly when Izuku fell asleep on him. At some point, his breathing evened out and he’d relaxed against Katsuki’s side. The blonde was still too wired to relax. Who knew a conversation could fill him with such adrenaline, he was struggling not to shift around and wake Izuku up. The boy had looked so tired, with everything he’d been holding in it wasn’t a surprise that he’d not gotten any peace. Katsuki hoped he would sleep soundly now. He was still awake when Recovery Girl stepped back into the room. She took one look at the two of them, curled up together on Katsuki’s bed and he was sure she’d say something about how they should be resting in separate beds, maybe she had to check their wounds or something and Izuku would be forced to move. He couldn’t lie that the thought made him a bit panicked. But she simply gave him a strange look, one eyebrow half-raised as if she were asking him a question. When Katsuki didn’t move the old lady shrugged, turning to leave again. She flicked off the light as she did so, leaving the room in dappled shadows as the sun sank lower in the sky. Was it that late already? He hadn’t noticed the time passing by but he was starting to feel tired. Emotions were just as draining, sometimes more so, than being in a fight, and Katsuki certainly felt like a battle had been won in that room today.

With a sigh, Katsuki accepted there wasn’t much more he could do at the moment. The warmth of Izuku against his side made him feel drowsy and he finally gave in- shifting in the bed as carefully as he could until he was lying down. He wrapped his arm a little more firmly against Izuku and smiled faintly as he felt him hum in response, pressing closer to Katsuki’s chest. Izuku was lying on top of the sheets and there wasn’t any way to get him under them without waking him up but there was a spare pile of blankets that rested on the chair closest to Katsuki’s bed and he managed to drag a couple closer to him, draping them over Izuku’s form. With that sorted, Katsuki could relax. He rested his head gently against the mass of green curls and let his eyes drift shut, trying to empty his mind. It didn’t matter if All For One was out to get them or if Izuku’s arms wouldn’t heal right. They were both alive for now, and they would figure it out.

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