Untitled Blue - アンタイトル・ブルー
DRAMA, MYSTERY
Untitled Blue by Natsume Yukiko
(2 volumes, ongoing)
JP only - English summary in this post
Links to my other manga posts here
I've started out this year strong by completely ignoring my 2023 Manga Reading Goals post, which is very on-brand for me tbh, with Momo's Medical History, Yume no Shizuku Kin no Torikago, A California Story, and probably other stuff I'm forgetting. I have my reasons so leave me be. I decided to actually consult my list this time and was debating between Untitled Blue and Tenjou Renka. Knew practically nothing about either but went with Untitled Blue after skimming the samples for each. All I DID know beforehand was it had something about art and suicide, that's it. (***Trigger warning for suicide*** because it is indeed in there.)
This one’s for you Colleen *finger guns*
Once again, since this isn't available in English, I'll summarize it like I always do for Japanese-only manga. Spoilers for volumes 1-2 will be labeled and my thoughts will be after that. Twitter reading thread here. Twitter link to this post here.
***SPOILERS FOR VOLUME ONE***
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Anyone else get labeled a “gifted/honor student” growing up? Ugh…
Ogihara Akari was called an art prodigy as a child but fizzled out when she got older. On her way home one day, she swings by the ocean to scavenge driftwood for the art prep school she works at. To her surprise, while she's there a young man emerges from the ocean in front of her eyes. Akari offers to call for help but the boy tells her not to. If she does, he'll die right here, right now. Unable to walk away, Akari brings him home where he proceeds to pass out on her couch. She tries to find an ID but instead finds an expensive watch engraved with the name of a big financial conglomerate.
It’s fine! On my second day in Japan way back when, I got in a stranger guy’s car in Ishinomaki who was fixing graves without a second thought because I got lost looking for the ferry. Sweet guy! I’m alive and didn’t get kidnapped! Don’t tell my mom... Don't do what I do guys, be safe. I speak Japanese and knew what I was doing.
The boy wakes up and wanders into a storage room in the house that's full of art supplies. When Akari realized where he went, she finds him painting and having read about her youth. While watching him paint, she sees childlike joy in him and he produces a beautiful piece of the beach where she found him. She asks him if he does Japanese painting but he says it was his first time using that kind of paint. FYI 日本画 nihonga or Japanese painting uses a specific type of paint. More info here. I met a nihonga artist who was getting ready for an exhibition at the art prep school I used to go to in Tokyo and I realized, "Wow, there's a lot about nihonga I don't know." I've seen nihonga materials at art supplies stores like Sekaido Shinjuku and PIGMENT TOKYO in Shinagawa, and I don't even know where to start tbh.
I mean, look at all this. At least there's cool stuff to look at on the long hike to the immigration office - PIGMENT TOKYO (Shinagawa)
The boy suggests that they sell his work under Akari's name because for reasons, he can't put his name out there. She insists that it won't be so simple but he goes, "You're a former prodigy. Let's just list it for like ¥800,000 or whatever."
¥800,000??? Sir??????? At first, I thought he said ¥80,000 which is like, yeah okay. But honestly? Ask for your worth artists!
Akari is envious that he was able to capture the feeling of the beach when she had drawn the same scenery over and over, but failed. Her work wasn't valued, but his painting of the beach actually sold for ¥800,000. Not only that, it was bought by Iwakura, a well-known artist in the nihonga scene. Akari thinks that the boy should come forward as the artist of the piece. Instead, he asks her how much time ¥800,000 would buy him to stay at her place and says, "Let me borrow your name and I'll give you fame and fortune." I am... screaming.
This is making me feral, both in a friendship way and a potential romance way. Porque no los dos?
While he's telling Akari that he thinks she never wanted to give up on art, her little brothers come home. She tells the kids that this stranger is... going to be living with them... Middle schooler Toma is a sweetheart who invites him to dinner, while high schooler Nagisa is also a great kid but more skeptical, pokes and prods, and is against it. We find out the boy's name is Omi and learn that Akari's parents died 8 years ago. Omi convinces Nagisa to let him stay because he'll make them ¥10,000,000. Nagisa agrees because he wants to make sure they can send Toma to college.
Later, Omi and Akari are talking and she asks him if he's somehow related to the financial conglomerate. She also expresses hesitation in letting him crash with them. This seems to hit a sore spot for Omi who feels like a burden and clearly has baggage.
Oof…
They discuss their arrangement and Omi talks about carving themselves into the world and having something to leave behind. One thing leads to another, and Akari ends up getting featured on Iwakura's TV show and a spot in an art gallery. She has a few close calls where she was at risk of getting exposed for not being the artist behind the piece. Akari's sudden success has also led to others feeling animosity toward her. However, Akari starts to show signs of coming into her own, and acknowledging her "sins." It looks like she's going to try and really get back into painting herself. Volume one ends with a “long-time fan” of Akari's coming to the gallery and confronting her, claiming that he knows she's lying.
***SPOILERS FOR VOLUME TWO***
The “fan” seems to know something is up, possibly that Omi is staying with Akari. It seems like he might be some gangster or perhaps works for the big financial group? We’re not told who he is yet.
Akari starts putting her all into art and taking it seriously. Back at the Ogihara household, Toma is showing an interest in art as well. Nagisa however, snaps at his siblings. I think it's from a place of worry for their future as well as discomfort with all the changes since Omi showed up. His outburst reminded me of parents who want their kids to pick “safe” paths that are more likely to lead to a secure future, hence why he’s so worried about sending Toma to college. They’ve all had to grow up quickly after losing their parents.
Nagisa runs off and everyone goes looking for him. During their search, Akari's mind starts spinning, feeling guilty for ever letting art come before her brothers and dropping the ball at home. Since their parents passed, she's had to step up as the eldest. She thought that as long as she could protect her family, she'd be fine, even if that meant giving up on her dreams.
While my life is not beat-for-beat like Akari’s, there are A LOT of similarities and… oh man… this hurts…
Stuck trying to balance sacrificing for the people she loves, part of Akari can't give up on her passions for her own sake. After she finds Nagisa, she tells him to watch her paint. He goes on to say that he's worried she'll get hurt again, so she tells him, "I hope you'll be there to help me so I can come out of it okay." Which, omg, yes. Allowing yourself to ask for help and not shouldering everything alone is good! All these kids are just so precious, honestly.
Meanwhile, Omi gets a letter from the Amasawa financial group which sends him into a mental spiral. We don't get to see what's in the letter exactly, but he starts to think things like, "I'm running out of time." We later find out the letter is threatening to drag the Ogihara family into things if Omi doesn't contact them.
Hello darkness my old friend~
Akari goes to check on him and takes him outside for a change of pace, where they discuss some plans to participate in an art fair. Omi seemingly out of nowhere tells Akari they should have a contest and, "If you win, I'll give you your name back." Of course, Akari is confused as to what he means and turns him down.
In the second half of chapter 7, Toma is skipping school for the first time ever. The "fan" guy, whose name is Hijiri, had run into Toma before and takes him on a ride on the back of his motorcycle. Basically, this grown-ass man is trying to build camaraderie with a literal child so he can use him to get at Omi. He manipulates Toma's insecurities and I hate it. Toma, sweetie, get away from him!!!
I’m gonna throw hands, I swear if he touches a hair on Toma's head (ง’̀-‘́)ง
It turns out Hijiri is Omi's cousin, specifically the son of Omi's younger paternal uncle. Because of this, Omi was set to be the heir of the Amasawa family, leaving Hijiri to live in his shadow. To make matters worse, Hijiri's dad was a hobby artist and started giving Omi more attention when he showed greater artistic talent than his son. To make matters even worse, Omi has everything Hijiri wants, but he doesn't want it himself. Omi tells him that if he wants to be the heir, he can have the position, then immediately threw himself off a balcony and into a lake. Good lord... Hijiri is furious that his cousin doesn't appreciate everything he's been "blessed" with, and he's going to drag him back home to get money and stop the Amasawa group from looking down on him. Get help bro, sheesh.
I'll be brief about the second half of this volume:
We get loads of emotional beats that made me absolutely lose it. So much so, I actually shot up out of my seat and pulled a muscle LOL. The ending of volume 2 just... crushed me. I'm so upset and I need to know what happens next right this instant. I won't say much more as I think it would be best to read those parts for yourself when it's available. I know I keep saying this for a lot of my reads recently, but please license this.
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***END OF SPOILERS FOR VOLUMES 1-2***
As I mentioned in my Blue Period post, I'm an art kid. It's a big passion of mine. Having a well-written, realistically portrayed struggling artist/creative is always a plus in my book. I just wanna feel seen guys... This series delivers with a side of the kind of plot that we come to shoujosei for — chef's kiss.
The Ogihara family (including honorary member Omi) are lovable, interesting characters. I adore great sibling dynamics in stories, and this has great sibling dynamics! Akari and Omi are so different, but the same — two sides of the same coin? And Akari realizes this herself. Our main duo understand each other in some respects but don't at all in others. I liked how Akari understandably asks Omi personal questions the first day they met but doesn't pry when he clearly doesn't want to share. She leaves him be for the most part, not pestering him, but not to the point of letting him wallow around too much. But when she does push, it's from a place of caring and concern, and she does it in a way that makes that clear.
"How about a change of pace?"
"... Don't wanna... sounds like a pain."
"Oh, don't be like that! We're not going anywhere far." (Then she dragged him outside lol)
I'm sure some people are thinking, "You idiot, why are you bringing home some stranger and letting him live there? You don't even know who he is." And yeah, I feel that. But when Akari met Omi the way she did, she realized he was in a bad place, he was hurting, and desperately needed a hand to reach out to him. So, she took his hand. How could she leave him there? At the same time, I think Akari needed to meet him as much as he needed to meet her. I love that for them.
And Omi never crosses any lines with her. He doesn't have ulterior motives toward her in that way. There is potential romance, but there's no anime bullshit if you know what I mean. Omi is respectful, aware of the fact he's crashing at this stranger's house, and tries to contribute in his own way, albeit awkwardly. This guy was brought into this family and it warms my heart.
Initially, I was thinking that Akari would simply continue to be the face of the art while Omi produced it. I'm delighted to see that they're actually working together to be two halves of a whole! I think Akari was afraid to put her all into art while Omi might be putting too much of himself into his art. He's escaped a suffocating environment and could be going too hard pursuing the only thing he truly wants to do with his newfound freedom.
The art in Untitled Blue is lovely and does an amazing job of conveying how characters feel and nailing the mood in a scene. I enjoy the pacing as well.
Love it when you can feel a page!
This page feels like a visual representation of a panic attack but after the overwhelming thoughts, instead of the mental clarity she reaches here, your brain goes blank for a whole day. Glad you got the mental clarity route Akari.
These pages are sick, actual chills.
Speaking of art, there are some cool things that come up in the story. There's commentary on what makes art compelling, as well as scenes about art that's more realistic/photorealistic versus more stylized art.
"If you're getting this close to the real thing, why not just take a picture?"
"Is he serious? That's better than my drawing? It looks like something that took 5 seconds to draw." Isn't this basically what people say about Picasso's stuff? There was a line in Blue Period about this too.
I'm not saying photorealistic art is bad or less than. There are various opinions regarding this topic. A lot artists learn a foundation of what things are supposed to look like (still life, figure drawing, etc.) to learn the "rules" so they can break them. Some argue that "art normies" find realistic works more appealing than those with a more decerning eye. And this does come up in the manga.
There's also lots of talk about the value of art in various senses, and where they discuss the monetary value of art that I found interesting.
Yes, art is more than just the money, but artists are professionals that deserve to get paid well for their craft.
Loving the exploration of various ideas!
I'm not sure if this series is going to have romance or not, and whether it'll be more of a sub-genre or a big part of the manga. There are some incredibly tender scenes that could be taken as romantic, but could also be vulnerability and platonic love as well imo. MAL says it's drama/mystery/romance, but Renta! just has it listed under mystery/suspense, no romance, so idk. I'm cool with things being platonic or romantic as long as it's done well. Although, I kind of want more platonic relationships.
I'm reading this on Renta! and romance series like うるわしの宵の月/In the Clear Moonlit Dusk are tagged with 恋愛/romance. Untitled Blue doesn't have the tag though.
I was looking around to see if there was a release date for volume 3, but it turns out that there hasn't been a volume released since September 2021.
Volume 1 was released June 2021, and volume 2 was released September 2021.
But the mangaka tweeted this in November 2022:
"Untitled Blue volumes 1-2 are available 🎶 Volume 3 will release in the near future, so now's a great time to catch up 🎶”
Haven't seen any release dates, but it looks like we can look forward to volume 3 soon! I enjoyed Untitled Blue WAY more than I was expecting to and I can't wait to read more!!! After the end of volume 2, I need to know what happens... It actually made me tear up. I mean, aren't the best reading experiences the ones that make you bounce off the walls and scream at the page?
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If there's any Japanese-only manga you want me to check out, let me know! No promises, I'll only read what I'm interested in, but I'll take suggestions into consideration. Preferably, shorter manga or newer manga with a few volumes out since I like to take breaks from longer series I'm reading :)
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Jeff the Killer: Recall
by Mikeyboi1225
Some story i found. Sorry i'm not adding my detailed descriptions as usual i've been running on fumes lately
CW// Murder i guess. too long to read rn
Click here for the unedited original story
Summary
After a nearly fatal car accident in the dark of night, a mysterious boy wakes up in a hospital with no memory of who he was before. His amnesia isn't the strangest about him: his face is scarred beyond recognition, wounds that didn't come from the accident. Taken in by the driver who hit him, the amnesiac settles into a daily routine. But when his memories begin to slowly return, a darkness begins to stir.
This story was inspired by two songs, one which tells the story of a monster who didn't know how to be anything else, and another where the singer looks upon his past misdeeds and seeks redemption for them. If you aren't fond of redemption stories, I recommend looking for an X Reader. There are plenty to be found. My goal in writing this tale is to take the Creepypasta characters I grew up with and tell a new story all my own. If that's the kind of thing you go for, then you've come to the right place.
If you enjoy the story, be sure to give it a kudo, and let me know what you think in the comments!
Chapter 1: The Accident
Walter Jefferson was tired.
He'd had a long, hard day at work. It was December 11th, and the Oakwood County Post Office was a busy place in the weeks leading up to Christmas. He'd gotten off at 10:30, and he was almost home. As he made the turnoff onto the road that led to his house, his cellphone rang. Glancing at the screen, he saw that his wife Margaret was calling.
"Oh, I'm in for it now," he chuckled to himself. Walter answered the call, putting Margaret on speaker.
"Hi, Maggie," he answered cheerfully.
"Hey, Walter," replied Margaret. Unlike his, her voice was wide awake. "It's almost eleven at night. You haven't been abducted by aliens, have you?"
"As a matter of fact, I have, honey," he replied. "They've got big teeth and antennas, and they're pulling out all kinds of terrible devices. I think they're gonna probe me."
"Right," answered Margaret with a chuckle. "Can you tell them that if my husband isn't home in fifteen minutes, I'll have to blast their flying saucer out of the sky?"
Walter laughed with amusement.
"I'll pass on the message, honey. See you in a bit. I love you."
"I love you too, Walter," Margaret replied with a dramatic smooching noise. "Drive safely."
"I will," answered Walter, and hung up the phone.
"Always so worried about- OH MY GOD!"
Walter slammed his foot down on the breaks with all his weight. Someone was crossing the road. The pedestrian had appeared out of nowhere. Walter swerved to avoid him, but it was too late. The vehicle slammed into the figure like a rhinoceros, sending the body rag-dolling over the top of the car. Walter could hear it thumping as it rolled over the roof.
"Dear Lord," choked Walter as he tore off his seatbelt and scrambled out of the car.
He ran to the lifeless body in the road and rolled it face-up. It was a young man, around sixteen years old. He had on a white hoodie and black dress pants. The clothes were bloodied and battered, and blood oozed from the boy's skull.
Walter's stomach churned. He knelt and checked for a pulse. The boy was still alive! Walter ran to his car and grabbed his phone, frantically dialing 911. The voice on the other end responded quickly.
"911, what is your emergency?"
"My name is Walter Jefferson, and I am at the intersection of Shaw and West! I just hit a guy with my car. He's alive, but he needs an ambulance!"
"Sir, please remain calm and stay on the line. Help is on the way."
"Thank you," answered Walter gratefully.
The young man's eyes fluttered open. He focused on Walter.
"Wha- what happened?" he asked weakly, his voice scarcely a whisper. "Where am I?"
"Oh, God," croaked Walter. "He's awake."
Walter dropped to his knees, taking the boy by the hand.
"I am so sorry," whispered Walter. "You're going to be alright, I promise. Help is on the way."
The young man's eyes lost focus, and he drifted out of consciousness.
Chapter 2: The Ambulance
"Look at me, buddy," said the paramedic as he gave the boy a shot of morphine. "Keep looking at my eyes, okay?"
The young man's eyes kept fluttering. He opened them and focused on the paramedic.
"Who- who are you?" he pleaded, eyes wide with fear and confusion.
"My name is Mark. I'm a paramedic, and we're taking you to a hospital. I gave you some morphine to help with the pain. How are you feeling, buddy?"
The patient' s eyes closed.
"Woah, buddy," called Mark, gently slapping the patient's cheek. "Don't do that to me, alright? Just keep looking at my eyes.
"O-okay," slurred the patient.
"Good," replied Mark, smiling. "What's your name?"
The kid looked puzzled.
"I don't- I don't remember," he answered. His brow was furrowed deeply. Suddenly, his eyes grew wider than they already were.
"I can't remember my name! I can't remember anything! Why can't I remember anything?"
The patient tried to sit up, and then cried out in pain. Mark lowered him back onto the stretcher.
"You don't want to do that, buddy," Mark cautioned. "You've got some broken ribs. Just be still and stay calm. Jeffrey, hand me those sedatives. We need to calm him down."
The boy gasped twice, once from pain and once from realization.
"What is it, buddy?" asked Mark as he prepared the sedative shot. "What's the matter?"
"Jeffrey. . . my name. . . I remember. My name is Jeff."
He tried to sit up again, but Mark stopped him.
"Nice to meet you, Jeff. Can you lie still for me, Jeff?"
Jeff nodded his head obediently as Mark injected him in the shoulder with anesthesia.
"Everything's going to be okay, Jeff," said Mark with a soothing tone. "You just go to sleep."
"Uhhnn. . ." Jeff tried to speak, but before he could form the words, he had drifted off to sleep.
Chapter 3: Room 114
"So, he just ran into the street?" the officer asked as he wrote Walter's account of the event down in a notepad.
"Yes," answered Walter, rubbing his hands together nervously. He sat in the waiting room of the Oakwood County Medical Center, telling his story to a policeman. "I didn't even see him until he was twenty feet away. I tried to brake, but it. . ."
Walter shook his head. The situation seemed surreal. Had he actually just struck a teenage boy with his car? It didn't seem possible.
The officer put a consoling hand on Walter' shoulder.
"You did a good job calling 911. Too many folks would have just panicked."
"Walter!"
Walter looked up to see Margaret running to him, tears streaming down her cheeks. He stood up from his seat and embraced her.
"Is everything okay? Are you hurt? What happened? I was so scared, Walter!"
The officer stood, pocketing his notepad.
"I have everything I need for now, Mr. Jefferson. The department will contact you if we need anything else."
The officer turned to go, giving the couple a moment alone. Margaret buried her face in Walter's shoulder, wetting it with her tears. Walter struggled to find the words. He took a deep breath.
"Right after I hung up," he began, letting the momentum of his thoughts carry him along, "a kid - a teenager, I think - ran out in front of me."
"Oh, God," whispered Margaret.
Walter pressed his forehead against her shoulder, holding himself together despite the attempts of every one of his atoms to break down.
"I hit him, Maggie," he whispered into her ear. "I. . . I hit that kid. I don't even know if he's alive or not."
Margaret tightened her grasp on Walter, running a hand up and down his back to comfort him.
"It was an accident, Walter. He'll be okay. I'm certain of it."
Walter sobbed once into her shoulder, and clenched his teeth to keep himself composed.
"There was so much blood on him, Maggie. I-I've never seen so much. His clothes were soaked."
"Shhhhh," whispered Maggie, cradling the back of Walter' s head in her arms.
Just then, a nurse walked over to the waiting area.
"Walter Jefferson?" she asked, reading off her clipboard.
Walter pulled reluctantly away from Maggie, drying his eyes with his shirt collar.
"Yes, that's me," he replied.
"The boy is out of surgery. The doctor would like to see you. Please, follow me."
The nurse turned and walked into the hallway. Walter started after her, but stopped as he felt Maggie's hand on his shoulder.
"It wasn't your fault, Walter," she said reassuringly.
"Thanks, Maggie," he gratefully replied with one last look at his wife before following the nurse.
The nurse led Walter down a maze of hallways and doors. At length, she stopped in front of a door, Room 114. The metal "4" appeared to be falling off. Walter prayed that wasn't a bad omen.
"Wait here," ordered the nurse.
She walked off in the direction they had come, leaving Walter standing alone before the door of Room 114. He fidgeted nervously as he waited. Walter glanced into the room to see what he could see. He could just barely see the young man - his victim - lying in the hospital bed. His head was wrapped in gauze, but that wasn't what drew Walter' s attention.
Walter started into the room. He tried to stop himself, but he was in a trance. Step by step by step, he drew closer and closer to the sleeping patient. Soon, he was standing at the head of the hospital bed, looking down at the comatose teenager. The boy slept peacefully. His chest rose and fell with each breath. Walter stared down at the boy's face in horror.
My God, thought Walter. Did I do this to him?
The boy's face was horrifying. His eye sockets were scarred with gray patches, and his eyelids were mangled so that they appeared to be open. His cheeks were marred with deep gashes that curled upwards from his lips, twisting his face into a hideous, demonic grin.
At that moment, the boy's eyes focused on him.
"Walter Jefferson!"
Chapter 4: Good News, Bad News
"Walter Jefferson?" asked the doctor a second time.
Walter cradled hid chest in his hands. The boy's eyes darted off in another direction, then another. He was asleep. He hadn't looked at Walter at all.
"Yes," Walter replied, breathing heavily. "I'm Walter Jefferson."
"I'm sorry," the doctor apologized, looking at Walter with a raised eyebrow. "I didn't mean to startle you. I'm Dr. Walton. I examined the patient as soon as they brought him in. There are a few things that you need to know."
Walter cleared his throat and nodded his head.
"Tell me."
"Fortunately," the doctor began, "there were no vital organs damaged in the accident. Now, he's got four broken ribs, a fractured clavicle, and a concussion, but he'll live."
Walter took a deep breath of hope and glanced over his shoulder at the boy.
"That's good. That's great!"
The doctor nodded.
"It is. Less so is my second piece of news."
"Go on," prodded Walter.
"The concussion seems to have caused some damage. According to the paramedics who brought him in and what little I could get him to say, the patient is amnesiac."
The color drained from Walter's face until he was paler than the boy.
"You mean he. . . oh God. . ."
The doctor nodded again.
"Unfortunately, he seems to have forgotten nearly everything about himself. He has no idea who he is or where he's from. We don't even know if he has any family we need to call," explained Dr. Walton. "The only thing we could get out of him was his name."
"What is it?"
"Jeff."
"Just Jeff?"
"He only remembers his first name."
Walter collapsed into a chair next to the hospital bed and put his head in his hands.
"So I took his face and his memories," Walter sobbed.
Dr. Walton cocked an eyebrow.
"What do you mean 'took his face'?"
"The wounds on his face," said Walter. "You can' t exactly miss them."
Dr. Walton cleared his throat.
"Those wounds aren't fresh. They're scars, and they certainly didn't come from the accident."
Walter looked up.
"What?" he asked, dumbfounded.
"Those scars are old. He's had them for at least a few years," replied Dr. Walton.
Walter looked back at the face of the sleeping patient.
"Then where did they come from?"
Dr. Walton shrugged dramatically.
"That, along with everything else about him, is something we'd all like to know."
Chapter 5: Waking Up
His mind was blank, totally bereft of the thoughts and details that made up a person. He found himself swimming through a sea of emptiness. The dark, icy waves grasped and tossed, and he fought to keep his head above water.
Up ahead, he saw something floating, like an inner tube. He swam towards it, praying that he wouldn't sink. Three feet from the tube he lunged, but missed. The tube was thrown a little further away by the churning waves. He lunged again. This time, he caught the edge of it.
He clung to the tube for dear life, pressing his face into the side of it. As he did, he noticed a word painted on the side. It was written in rough, scratchy letters that dripped red down the side: Jeff.
His name. The only memory he had left, and the only thing keeping him above the churning sea of despair. He looked down through the hole in the tube's center. He froze.
A hideous face grinned back at him from the water. Its features were twisted into a lopsided, nightmarish smile that went beyond frightening. Its eyes were wider than seemed possible, and edged with dark circles that added a manic hunger to them.
The fiendish face spoke.
"You can't escape me," it said. "I'll find you again. Now, go to sleep- er, I mean, wake up."
Jeff blinked.
"WAKE UP!"
Jeff bolted upright in his hospital bed, breathing heavily and covered in cold sweat. The window was open, letting the sunlight in. His head felt like a blacksmith had been using it for an anvil. He tried to look down at himself, but his head wouldn't move. His neck was in a brace, and his collarbone burned when he tried to move his head.
Must be broken, thought Jeff.
He moved his hand along his chest. There were thick bandages.
Ribs broken as well.
Just then, a nurse came into the room, rolling an IV drip along with her. When she saw Jeff was awake, she smiled warmly and waved.
"Good morning, Jeff," she said with pleasant sweetness. "I'm Nurse Elayna, and I'll be taking care of you."
Jeff found himself looking at Elayna for a long time. She had a headful of curly red hair and deep blue eyes. She was very pretty. Finally, he forced himself to speak.
"Hi, Elayna," he said. "Where am I?"
"You're in the Oakwood County Medical Center. Do you remember what happened?" she asked.
Jeff sighed.
"I don't remember much. My name. I remember bits and pieces of the accident. The headlights. The pain. And the angel."
Nurse Elayna looked puzzled.
"Angel?"
"He was there," assured Jeff. "He was standing behind the driver who hit me when he called 911. He was so tall. He said. . . he said. . ."
Elayna stood by the IV drip expectantly.
"What did the angel say?" she asked encouragingly.
Jeff shrugged, which led to a sigh of pain.
"I don't remember."
Nurse Elayna nodded compassionately.
"That's understandable. You have a concussion. It also seems that, as a result, you have amnesia. You've lost your memory. Well, most if it."
Nurse Elayna exchanged his IV bag and then turned to face him.
"Can I get you anything, Jeff?"
Jeff looked back at Elayna.
"There is one thing," said Jeff quietly. "Could you bring me a mirror?"
Nurse Elayna pursed her lips and looked away.
"The doctor will be in soon," she answered. "He will be able to take care of that for you."
Before Jeff could respond, Nurse Elayna hurried out of the room.
Chapter 6: Breakfast at the Jeffersons'
Margaret was having trouble getting Walter to go back to bed. It was Saturday, the day after the accident, and his Christmas vacation had begun. And he was absolutely miserable.
They had gotten home from the hospital at 3:30 AM, and they had gone straight to bed. Or, at least, Margaret had. Walter had turned on the television and plopped down on the couch. He stared blankly into space, ignoring the TV. At five in the morning, he had finally come to bed. He had slept until seven. He simply couldn't get the boy - Jeff - off his mind.
"He doesn't remember anything," Walter had told her. "He knows nothing about himself. That's on me."
"No, it isn't," Margaret had told him. "You can't blame yourself for an accident. Anyone could have hit that boy. It just happened to be you."
Now, he sat at the kitchen table, staring at the clock. Margaret walked over and sat down next to him.
"Would you like something to eat?" she asked.
Walter shook his head.
"How about some coffee?"
Same response.
"Visiting hours start at eleven," said Walter. "I'd like visit him sometime this week."
He fixed her with a pleading look.
"Will you come with me? I want to talk to him. To Jeff."
"Of course I will," she said, taking his hands in her own. "I am just as worried about that boy as you are. I just want you to stop beating yourself up. Skipping breakfast and depriving yourself of sleep aren't going to help him. You know that, right?"
Walter turned his head to look into her eyes. His own, she saw, were filled with tears. He took a deep breath.
"I know, Maggie," he said. "I'm. . . scared, is all."
"I know you are," she told him, leaning in and kissing his cheek. "I am too. But it's going to work itself out. I know it is."
Walter wiped his eyes and kissed her back.
"What would I do without you?"
"Fall on your face," she answered. "Now sit tight. I'll make you some scrambled eggs and coffee. You're going to eat, understand me?"
"Yes, ma'am," said Walter as Margaret stood up and walked into the kitchen.
Chapter 7: Reflections
Dr. Walton stood outside Room 114, looking in at his patient. The boy called Jeff was awake, staring straight up the ceiling. Not that he much choice, considering the condition of his eyelids.
Poor kid, mused Dr. Walton. Who are you? And what the hell happened to your face?
Dr. Walton pushed the door open the rest of the way and entered.
"Hello, Jeff. I'm here with your eye drops," announced the doctor. He approached Jeff's head and looked down at him with a wide, friendly grin. "How are you feeling?"
Jeff looked up at him and grinned weakly. It was strange, since the gashes in his cheeks made Jeff appear to be grinning already.
"How would you feel if you got pancaked by a station wagon, Doc? Because that's about how I feel."
Dr. Walton laughed encouragingly.
"Given the circumstances, that makes sense." Dr. Walton held up the bottle of eye drops. "How about we take care of those dry eyes, big guy?"
Jeff widened his eyes for Dr. Walton as the latter squeezed a drop of moisturizing fluid onto each eyeball. Jeff's eyelids squeezed together as best they could.
"Isn't it Elayna's job to give me the eye drops?"
"Well, yes," said the doctor. "But I was in the neighborhood, and I thought I'd check up on you myself."
Dr. Walton pulled a chair over to the head of the bed and took a seat.
"Jeff, what can you recall from the other night? Do you remember anything from before the accident?"
Jeff sighed.
"No. Nothing. I was. . . I was crossing the road. I remember that. I don't remember why, though. Then, I was on the ground. The driver was calling for help. And, I saw the angel."
Dr. Walton nodded his head.
"Elayna told me about that. This angel, what did he look like?"
"It's pretty fuzzy," admitted Jeff. "He was very tall, at least seven feet. He had these huge billowing wings, and glowing eyes that pierced the darkness."
Jeff paused and frowned at the doctor.
"It was a hallucination, wasn't it?"
"That's possible," answered the doctor. "You did hit your head pretty hard. But I've never been one to rule out the metaphysical."
Dr. Walton gestured to Jeff's bandages.
"After all, you survived a head-on collision at forty miles-per-hour. If that isn't divine intervention, I'll turn in my doctorate."
"Maybe," said Jeff absently. His eyes stung, and he moved his eyes around beneath what remained of his eyelids to wet them. "Hey, Doc?"
"Yes, Jeff?"
"There's something I need you to do for me," Jeff told him, "and I won't take no for an answer.
Dr. Walton cocked his head to the side.
"What would that be?"
"I want you to tell me what's wrong with my face."
Dr. Walton frowned.
"What makes you think something's wrong with your face?"
"Drop the act," said Jeff. "I know something isn't right. Elayna wouldn't give me a mirror earlier. Plus, I've been feeling it all morning. It feels wrong. It feels like leather, not skin."
Jeff pointed to his eyes.
"And judging by the lack of any scabbing, I'm assuming that this isn't road rash across my eyes."
Dr. Dalton folded his hands.
"Jeff," he replied frankly, "Legally, I can't tell you no. However, I can warn you. Your current state is fragile. If you get too worked up, you might hurt yourself."
Jeff frowned. Tears began to well up in his eyes.
"That bad, huh?"
"No, Jeff, that's not. . ." Dr. Walton's voice trailed off. He bit his lip.
"Look, Doc," began Jeff. He clenched his fists and took a deep breath. "I'm scared. I woke up in a strange place. I don't even know who I am. And I certainly don't remember what I look like."
Jeff sniffed. A tear ran down his cheek. He dabbed at it. His fingers ran down along the ridge of the scar there, until they reached his lips. Jeff returned his gaze to the eyes of Dr. Walton.
"I want to know what this ridge I feel beneath my finger is. I want to see why my eyes don't close. I want something. . . a face to put with my own name. Can you understand that?"
Dr. Walton was speechless. Before him on the hospital bed lay his patient, a boy with nothing. He was so vulnerable, and there was only one thing in the world he wanted. But, Dr. Walton was afraid to give it to him.
Who was he to stand in Jeff's way, though? It was his duty to abide by his patients' wishes. With a reluctant sigh, he relinquished his humanity.
"Alright, Jeff," said Dr. Walton. "If that is what you want."
Dr. Walton stepped into the bathroom for a moment. When he returned, he held a plastic hand-mirror. Jeff watched him approach. It was a slow, dutiful march, like an executioner walking to the scaffold. Jeff didn't know whether to feel nervous or excited. He determined that his beating heart was a result of both.
"Here you go," whispered the doctor as he handed Jeff the mirror.
Jeff accepted the mirror from Dr. Walton and held it up before his face.
Jeff gasped at what he saw looking back at him. He had no eyebrows. His eyelids were a tattered, blackened mess that made his eyes appear wide and hungry. The rest of the flesh was white as milk, and as rough as crocodile leather. His cheeks were marred by three-inch gashes that curled up across his face like the tendrils of an evil kraken hiding beneath the surface. The wretched, ruined face seemed to grin malevolently at him from the glass.
"Oh, God," whispered Jeff. ". . . oh God."
His fingertips traveled the length of a scar, then up the bridge of his nose to his forehead. His fingers splayed across his features, and he lowered the mirror.
"Dear God. . ."
Dr. Walton rested his hand on Jeff's shoulder.
"I'll give you a moment alone."
Jeff barely heard his words. They sounded distant, like he had spoken underwater. This had been what Jeff was afraid he would see. The face he had seen in the mirror was the same face that had stared up at through the inner tube, the one from the sea of darkness. The demonic face from his dream had been his own.
Chapter 8: The Waiting Room
"Walter Jefferson, here to visit Jeff. Room 114."
Walter stood with his hands at his sides. The nurse looked up Jeff in the computer.
"Give me just one moment please," said the nurse as she stood and went into the back.
Walter waited awkwardly, drumming his fingers against the countertop. Soon, the nurse was back.
"He's being cleaned up right now," she told him, "but he should be ready in a few minutes. Just have a seat, and someone will come and take you in."
"Thank you," said Walter.
Walter turned away and walked back to the waiting area. He plopped down in a chair next to Margaret and picked up a magazine, which he perused absently.
What will he be like? Will he hate me? Will he blame me for what happened to him?
Walter didn't know what to expect. All he could do was wait and hope for the best.
Just then, a horrible thought occurred to him.
"Maggie?"
"Yes, Walter?" asked Margaret.
"What's going to happen to Jeff?"
Margaret looked at him in confusion.
"What do you mean?" she asked.
"What if he has a family? He doesn't remember anything. He won't be able to contact anyone. He'll be all alone."
"Don't worry," urged Margaret, putting a hand on his shoulder. "His family is probably looking for him right now. They'll come for him."
Walter didn't look satisfied.
"But what if he has no family? What if he was already alone? He's at least sixteen or seventeen. What if they just ship him to a foster home until he's eighteen?"
"Walter," whispered Margaret soothingly, "everything is going to be okay."
Walter took a breath.
"I hope you're right."
Just then, a nurse walked over and stood in front of them.
"Mr. and Mrs. Jefferson?" she asked.
"That's us," said Walter, standing to his feet.
"Jeff is ready to see you."
Chapter 9: A Chance Meeting
Mark headed into the break room for lunch. He took his sandwich and root beer from the refrigerator and turned to go. As he did so, he nearly collided with a nurse who was coming behind him.
"Sorry!" squeaked Mark, bending over to pick up the paper bag he had knocked out of her hands.
As he handed her the bag, their eyes met. Hers were a gorgeous, vibrant shade of blue. Her locks of bright red hair were just as distracting.
"Thank you," she said, accepting the bag from him.
Mark couldn't tear his eyes off the girl. She cocked her head to the side and grinned.
"Are you in there?" she asked.
"Yes," said Mark, snapping back to reality and clearing his throat. "Sorry. You have. . . very pretty eyes."
The nurse laughed.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome," Mark replied. "Hey, wait a moment. Aren't you Elayna Johnson? Jeff's nurse?"
"Yes, I am," she answered. "How did you know?"
Mark's face darkened considerably
"Jeff's the talk of the hospital," answered Mark distastefully. "The amnesiac with the mysterious scars, and all that."
Elayna looked shocked.
"They aren't making fun of him, are they?"
"Not that I know," said Mark. "But I'm no lover of gossip either way. He's just a kid."
Elayna fixed Mark with a curious look.
"You talk as if you know him," she noted.
"I don't, exactly," replied Mark, scratching at his short brown hair. "I was with the team that brought him in, though."
He shrugged.
"I don't know. I guess I feel responsible for him, or something. You should have seen him. Helpless, afraid. You'd probably feel the same way."
Elayna nodded her head.
"I know what you mean. I've been taking care of him all week."
"Oh, yeah?" asked Mark. "How's he doing?"
Elayna frowned.
"Some days are good. Others, not so good. He's very quiet. I don't know if he's thinking, or if he just doesn't have anything to say."
Mark echoed her sad look.
"What does he do all day?"
"He mostly just stares at the ceiling," she said. "Sometimes he'll touch his face. Like he's trying to remember."
She looked at Mark.
"I think he's lonely."
Mark furrowed his brow.
"I might visit him," he said. "I'd like to see if I can't cheer him up."
Elayna smiled from ear to ear.
"I bet he would like that."
Chapter 10: Face to Face
He couldn't get it out of his mind. The image of his face haunted him like a vengeful phantom. His pale and leathery skin, bloodred lips, lidless eyes, and vicious smile stared back at him everywhere he looked.
He was a monster.
No, you're no monster. You're beautiful. Now turn that frown upside-down, dummy!
"Huh?" asked Jeff out loud. He looked around the room for the speaker. No one was there.
Did I imagine that? wondered Jeff. I gotta get out of this hospital bed.
Just then, there was a knock at the door. A nurse poked her inside the room.
"Jeff," she said sweetly, "you have visitors."
Jeff creased his forehead.
"Who?"
The nurse swung the door open and walked inside. Behind her, a man and a woman entered hand-in-hand. The man was in his late thirties with short hair and a clean-shaven face. The woman had long, flowing brown hair and a pleasant, but nervous, smile.
"Jeff," said the nurse, "this is Walter and Margaret Jefferson."
"It's you," said Jeff. "You're the one who hit me."
Walter froze. Margaret squeezed his hand encouragingly. He took a few steps forward. Jeff watched his steady approach unflinchingly.
"Come closer," said Jeff.
Walter knelt by Jeff's bedside, placing his hands on the edge.
"Son," he began, voice cracking, "I. . . I'm sorry. I didn't. . ."
Walter wiped his eyes.
". . . I didn't mean for this to happen. If I could go back, I-"
"Stop."
Walter cut off immediately. He didn't move a muscle. Jeff had spoken so suddenly, Walter's thoughts were scrambled.
Jeff took a deep breath, and grabbed Walter by the wrist.
"Mr. Jefferson," he began, "look at me. What do you see?"
Walter looked at Jeff, unsure of what to say.
"I see a teenage boy," he offered in reply.
Jeff nodded his head.
"And what more than that?"
Walter looked over his shoulder at Margaret. She had one hand over her mouth. Tears were welling up inside her eyes. He looked back to Jeff.
"I don't understand."
Jeff reached up with his free hand and ran a finger along his cheek.
"Yes, you do."
". . . scars," Walter managed.
"Bingo," said Jeff. "Ugly ones. And who knows how I got them? It must have been horrible."
Jeff pulled Walter a little closer.
"Could you live with yourself if you looked the way I do?"
Walter's heart was beating faster. Was Jeff angry with him? Where was he going with this?
"What are you saying?"
"I'm saying that it's entirely possible I wanted you to hit me," answered Jeff. "What if I stepped in front of you on purpose?"
Walter was speechless.
"It was no one's fault, Mr. Jefferson," continued Jeff.
He let go of Walter's wrist and took him by the hand.
"It just happened. No amount of blubbering on either of our parts is going to change that."
Tears ran down Walters face as Jeff spoke. Jeff hadn't just forgiven him. Jeff had told him that he had dine nothing wrong. Walter couldn't find words to describe how grateful he was. All that he could was squeeze Jeff's hand and cry his tears of joy.
Margaret approached the opposite side of Jeff's bed.
"Jeff, when they release you, how would you like to come and stay with Walter and me for a little while?"
Jeff's blinkless eyes widened.
"You. . . you want me to stay with you? Like. . . at your house?"
"Of course!" replied Walter joyfully. He looked up at his wife, and their eyes met. She winked at him. He smiled back.
"But. . . why?" asked Jeff. "I'm. . . nit exactly good company."
"Nonsense!" argued Margaret. "You're a sweet boy, and we would love to have you around. Besides, it's the least we can do until your real family comes for you."
"My real family. . ." repeated Jeff.
He had thought about them a lot over the past week. He didn't know who they were, or if they even existed. But he had wondered who they might be. He wondered if they were looking for him right now.
"What do you say?" asked Walter.
"I. . . I would love to," said Jeff.
Margaret leaned over and kissed Jeff on his gauze-wrapped forehead.
"We'll come to visit you every day until then," she said.
Jeff yawned, a huge yawn that nearly sit his head in two.
"Sorry," he said. "I'm. . . very tired all of a sudden. . ."
The nurse stepped forward.
"I think we should let him rest."
"Of course," said Walter, letting go of Jeff's hand. "Go to sleep, Jeff. We'll be back tomorrow."
"I'll see you then," mumbled Jeff as he began to drift off.
Margaret and Walter turned to follow the nurse out into the hall.
"Mrs. Jefferson?"
Margaret turned to look back into the room.
"Yes, Jeff?"
"Didn't the nurse say your name was Margaret?"
"Yes," she said. "Margaret Katherine Jefferson. Why do you ask?"
A headache nagged behind Jeff's eye, and he put his hand to his temple reflexively.
"I. . . I think I knew someone named Margaret. Someone close to me."
Chapter 11: Interesting Developments
"Erika Langford, twenty-two years old. Cut up in the middle of the night."
Agent Vince Brewer stood over the body of the victim, hands tucked away in the pockets of his suit coat. He regarded the crime scene with a somber expression. He had seen hundreds like it before, but it never got any easier. Still, not everyone had what it took to do his job.
He gestured to the sheets, which had been ripped from the bed, and an overturned lamp.
"There was a struggle," he noted. "She was awake when it happened."
"We guessed that, too," replied the officer in charge of the crime scene. "The killer came in, probably startled her awake, struggled with her, then shoved a knife in her gut. Slashed her face a little bit for good measure, too."
"It sounds to me like you guys have this under control," replied Agent Brewer with some annoyance. "Why contact the Bureau?"
"There's the kicker," replied the officer. "Right this way."
The officer led Agent Brewer across the room, careful to avoid disturbing the crime scene. Agent Brewer was just as careful. The officer stopped, gesturing to the window.
"This is how our killer got in."
The window was open, and the curtains were drawn. Bloody handprints lined the fabric. A few were plastered across the windowsill, revealing that the window had served as an exit as well as an entrance.
Agent Brewer's eyes were wide with surprise. He clenched his jaw and turned and stormed out of the room, taking long and deliberate strides. The officer hurried to keep up with him.
"There's more!" he called.
Agent Brewer ignored him and continued. He marched out through the front door, down the porch steps, and around the house. He didn't stop until he could see the window from the outside. The moment it came into view, something else did. It was difficult to see in the dying sunlight, but it was there.
Agent Brewer had taken down many a serial killer in his career with the FBI. One thing he had learned was that, to some of them, it was a game. They loved to play the game, and they loved to be recognized for playing. They lived for the coverage their dark craft received, for the names the media gave them. So, to facilitate this, some killers left behind a calling card. Agent Brewer had seen this particular calling card many times over the past three years.
The officer ran up alongside Agent Brewer and stopped to catch his breath.
"Now you know why we got ahold of the Bureau."
Agent Brewer clenched his fists as he approached the side of the house. The walls were painted white. There was no missing the message scrawled beneath the window. It was written in bright red letters. The medium had dripped, leaving long run lines beneath each letter.
"What is that written in?" asked Agent Brewer, hoping against hope that he was wrong.
"What do you think?" retorted the officer.
The message was simple. There were three words and nine letters in all, and each letter was capitalized.
GO TO SLEEP.
Agent Brewer closed his eyes. He felt like someone had punched him right between the eyes.
"That's it, ain't it?" asked the officer. "That's the Grin's handiwork, right?"
Agent Brewer opened his mouth to respond when something moved out of the corner of his eye. He turned his head to look. It had been a momentary flicker of movement.
"Did you see that?" asked Agent Brewer.
"See what?" asked the officer. "All I see is some bloody graffiti and an open window."
Agent Brewer looked down at his feet. He noticed that his shadow had lengthened considerably as the sunk sank. His hat had almost reached the top of the house.
Agent Brewer wasn't wearing a hat.
"I need a moment alone," said Agent Brewer, turning to face the officer."
The officer furrowed his brow, but nodded. He didn't feel like arguing with a Fed today.
"Suit yourself, agent," muttered the officer as he turned to go. "See you back inside when you're ready."
"Thank you," said Agent Brewer, who returned his attention to his shadow once the officer was out of sight.
"What are you doing here?" he demanded.
His shadow seemed to lean forward from the wall. It shrank, contorted, and lost all shape, like a two-dimensional cloud of smoke on the wall. Soon, it was no taller than the agent, and it began to take human form once more: flowing trench coat, wide-brimmed fedora, and a walking cane held in the right hand. Two miniscule spheres of red light gazed out at Agent Brewer from where the figure's eyes should have been. It was a living shadow, standing there against the wall before him.
The shadow man replied with a deep, gravelly voice that seemed to echo from every surface, even the ones in Agent Brewer's mind.
"I came to check up on you," replied the shadow. "You are busy?"
"Am now," answered Brewer, waving his hand at the bloody message.
The shadow studied the message for a moment.
"Hmmm," it mused thoughtfully. "The Grin. A dangerous killer. Certainly not someone you want running around free."
"Don't give me that," scoffed Agent Brewer. "You probably know who he is already. You've just been holding out on me for three years."
"Perhaps, and perhaps not," whispered the shadow. "I keep many secrets."
"So why are you here?" asked Agent Brewer, crossing his arms over his chest.
"I come bearing a gift."
The shadow stepped forward, away from the wall, now taking up three dimensions. The shadow man held something out towards Brewer. It was something sealed in plastic. Brewer stepped forward to get a better look.
It was a blood-spattered kitchen knife.
"The murder weapon," explained the shadow, "used to kill Erika Langford."
Agent Brewer reached out, accepting the sealed knife from the shadow man. He held it up to the dying light, studying the blade. It was covered in scraped marks, beaten, battered, and bloodied.
"Where the hell did you find this?" he asked.
"One gift at a time," replied the shadow, holding up an ebony finger and wagging it back and forth. "It should suffice to say that something has happened on my side. There's been an interesting development. I'm curious to see how it will play out."
The shadow man turned his back to Agent Brewer. He began to melt back into the agent's shadow, silently and swiftly.
"What about the Grin?" called Agent Brewer.
The figure was gone, but one final reply came whispering from within the shadows.
"Look for him."
Chapter 12: Merry Christmas, Happy New Life
Notes:
Salutations, my lovely readers! This chapter is long overdue, but now that I have finished my education I think can get on a regular schedule.
You can expect updates on Jeff the Killer: Recall every Friday evening, the good Lord willing. As for my other works, I will be updating them as time allows. I have many original projects in the works, as well as a potentially big opportunity on the way.
Eyes up. The Mysterious Realm is unforgiving!
Margaret.
He tossed and turned in the bed, eyes darting back and forth beneath his mangled eyelids. His pale, slender fingers grasped at sweat-soaked sheets. His feet kicked at some unseen foe, something watching him from the darkness.
Jeff's dreams were getting worse.
Margaret.
In a realm beyond this one, Jeff sat on a cold floor, knees drawn against his chest. His lips trembled as he whispered the word over and over.
Margaret. Who was she?
He ran his fingers through his wild hair. They came back wet with sweat. Jeff clenched his fists, searching desperately for memories that weren't there.
Who was Margaret?
"Who cares?"
Jeff jumped to his feet. The new voice was familiar, unpleasant, and it startled him.
"H-hello?"
"Hello."
Jeff spun around, throwing up his hands to protect himself. The voice had come from behind.
"Wh-who's there?" Jeff demanded.
From the darkness, a shape began to manifest. It was horrible, a beastly silhouette. Its crimson eyes glared hungrily at Jeff from the shadows.
"We are. No one else."
Jeff trembled. The creature's eyes demanded his attention; he couldn't look away, though he tried.
"Who are you?" Jeff croaked.
The silhouette seemed to slither through the darkness, eyes never blinking, never straying. It inched forward, little by little, until those horrible eyes were just in front of Jeff's.
"How could you forget me?" the shape asked. There was almost genuine hurt in its voice, as though it was sad that Jeff didn't recognize it.
Suddenly, Jeff found himself seized in an icy, crushing grasp. Frigid tendrils of shadow wrapped around his body, pinning his arms helplessly to his sides. He struggled, but it was moot. Wicked glee glinted in the crimson eyes of the beast as the shadows of its face began to swirl and pull aside. Within, a new face peered back. Jeff gasped.
"Beautiful, aren't I?" it asked.
Jeff squeezed his eyes shut. His mangled eyelids did nothing to conceal the horror that now held him in its clutches. He screamed, a scream that went beyond the dream.
Then, he was sitting upright in bed, chilled sweat dribbling down his sides and neck. His hands trembled at his sides. He raised them before his face, flexing his fingers to make the shaking stop.
He had been having the same dream for a while now. His mind went back to Christmas Day. The Jeffersons had been there. Mark and Elayna had been there, too. Even Dr. Walton had stopped by. All of them had gotten him gifts.
"Oh, geez. . ." Jeff had muttered, sinking lower onto the hospital bed. "I wish you hadn't."
"Nonsense," Margaret had said with a wave of her hand. "Now get to opening."
Walter and Margaret had gotten Jeff a long, insulated leather jacket that went down well past the knees.
"To keep you warm when you finally go outside," said Margaret.
"And look here," said Walter, pointing to the chest. "It comes with a reflector. Now you can cross the street at night."
Jeff was silent for a moment.
"I love it," he said at last, running his hands over the leather. He enjoyed the way it felt. "Thank you both."
"My turn," said Elayna, presenting Jeff with a box wrapped in snowmen and reindeer. Inside was a portable CD-player, complete with headphones and a few CDs ready to go.
"I know how much you like music," she told him. "Now you can listen as often as you want."
Jeff looked through the CDs. They were all groups Elayna had introduced him to, that he loved to listen to: Linkin Park, Skillet, and more.
"Thank you so much," said Jeff, hugging Elayna around the neck.
"Anything for my little work brother," she replied with a giggle, hugging him back.
"You've still got one more," said Mark. He plopped a very small box down on the bed in Jeff's lap. The box was about the size of a TV remote. It was wrapped in simple red paper, with a little green bow holding it shut.
"What is it?" asked Jeff, turning it over in his hands.
"Only one way to find out," replied Mark, smirking and crossing his arms.
Carefully, Jeff slipped a finger under the edges of the tape, pulling it away little by little.
"Oh come on, we're not saving the paper," protested Mark. "Open it up!"
Jeff caved and ripped the paper away with a flick of his wrist. His mouth fell open. His voicebox cracked in two. Words tried to form on the tip of his tongue, but something powerful kept them at bay.
The present was a little box, bound in a faux leather material and hinged in the back. With trembling fingers, Jeff opened the box. Inside, his expectations were fulfilled tenfold. There rested a pair of sunglasses, with firm black plastic temples and thick dark lenses.
"I. . . I. . ."
"Look, I'm not saying you need them," stammered Mark, "just that, you know, with the sun, and with your eyes, and with the drops-"
Jeff's arms were around Mark before he could stammer out another syllable, his face buried deep in his friend's shirt.
". . . thank you," was all Jeff could croak through the raging torrent of feelings that swept over him. Mark put an arm around Jeff's shoulder in turn.
"You're welcome, little buddy."
Jeff pulled away from his friend's embrace, turning his eyes upon the room. Within the four light blue walls of the hospital room were the only five people in the world Jeff knew. They cared for him, and he for them. Warmth. Peace. Gratitude. Companionship Belonging. They all seemed to surge within him simultaneously.
No!
Jeff jolted, arcing his back and grabbing at his temple.
"Wh-what?" he mumbled aloud.
"You okay, buddy?" asked Mark, reaching out. Jeff's vision swirled. He saw Mark's face, Mark's stupid face, giving him that coddling look. Why, he ought to reach out and grab Mark by his skinny little neck. . .
A wave of shame and horror shot through Jeff like an electrified bullet. Those thoughts were evil, twisted and monstrous. They couldn't have been his. At least, he didn't want them to be his.
"I. . ." Jeff struggled. He could feel his eyes shaking in his sockets. Darkness was coming.
"Easy there," said Dr. Walton, hurrying over. "He's just exhausted. Give him some space, Mark."
Jeff had felt cold hands as they took him by the wrist, and colder hands as they took him by the mind.
That had been Christmas. For the first time he could remember, Jeff had known joy. Something had taken that joy from him.
Jeff seized the pocket mirror from his nightstand, staring intently into the crystal glass. His twisted reflection looked back at him. He bit his lip timidly. He hoped, he prayed, that a dream was all it had been.
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