#Fear Consciousness

[danielleegnew]

What if most Christians actually aren’t, and they don’t even know it?

This image floated across my Social Media, and it’s so dang funny that it has brought on a story for the weekend. As a once-pastor of several differing Christian churches, the most common question I received was: “Does God really hate gay people? Because it’s in the Bible.” I would answer, “Where did you hear that God hated gay people?” The usual answer was “Well God said ‘love the sinner,…

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#angels #anti-Christ #armageddon #bible #biblical #biblical interpretation #biblical study #book of revelations #Christ #christian #christianity #Compassion #Consciousness #does god hate gays #end of the world #end times #evangelical #faith #Fear Consciousness #finding hope #gay #god #God’s will #historical Jesus #history #homosexuality and the Bible #hope #jesus #learning #lesbian

[assiraphales]

that one blockbuster store left should take advantage of all these streaming sites editing & dropping content and start collecting a physical copy of every film/show possible. become our modern day library of alexandria

#today is just a stream of consciousness I fear #film

[infiniteko]

"Fear is the mind killer.

Fear is the little death that brings obliteration. 

I will face my fear and permit it to pass over me and through me.

And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye and see its path.

And where the fear has gone, there will be nothing.

Only I will remain"

- Dune (2021)



#dune movie #dune part one #awareness #consciousness #brahman #nothingness #fear #beingness

[vesora]

dealing with fear of abandonment through LOA + general tips

personal backstory / long post ahead

“Change your conception of yourself and you will automatically change the world in which you live. Do not try to change people; they are only messengers telling you who you are. Revalue yourself and they will confirm the change.” ― Neville Goddard, Your Faith is Your Fortune

as a child, my needs were not met and therefore, i developed a schema that people were meant to disappoint me and leave me and my relationships, both platonic and romantic reflected EXACTLY that.

countless times, i was ‘left’ without any reason, always strengthening the notion i had always felt that people were meant to abandon me. even if i was close to someone, i would still engage in self-sabotaging behaviours when i felt disappointed by the expectations i had set for them. feeling this lack of control when it came to relationships because i was so deathly afraid of being left alone; of disappointing the other. not putting myself first because i felt the only sense of worth i had was through whether another found me worthy. this is all very hard for me to say of course, im a private person but i felt maybe someone at least needed to hear this. my parent would be nice at one point and disinterested in the other, i felt i had to work to gain their approval and for them to be nice to me all the time. i needed them to view me as perfect, so they wouldn’t leave me. but guess what guys? thats stupid, bcos fuck perfection.

in my abandonment activation strategies/self-sabotaging behaviours, my body would go into a state of desperation, in dire need of any sort of relief and safety, crying my heart out because i was so scared, leaving people because i was scared of being left first. being scared i was being clingy by asking for reassurance which in turn sends me into another frenzy, isolating myself from people so i have no chances to be hurt, feeling resentment when someone doesnt meet my expectations/needs through no fault of their own. my inner child would just take over my body, repeating the same distress i experienced as a kid. 

but i am not a kid anymore. i am a well-functioning adult and i cannot continue this abandonment schema. so what do i do?

i use loa. 

how to use loa + general tips for this:

recognise that everything and everyone is you pushed out. your relationships play out the way you assume they will. this is not to say at all what happened when you were a child was your fault. we are not to blame. our needs were simply not met.

change the way you view relationships, no matter how hard it may be. if everyone is just us, how can anyone else abandon us? not even that, why would anyone leave us? we are amazing and fun and good people

be someone YOU are proud of, irrespective of what other people think. all is mind, so why do you think you need to impress someone who’s just another part of you? a part that can easily be molded

you are not clingy. you are not desperate. you are not unworthy. you are not unlovable. repeat affirmations that you are lovable. that you deserve to have your needs met. that everyone meets your needs. that you never feel abandoned. that you love yourself unconditionally. YOU are on the pedestal, NOT anyone else.

if someone is emotionally unavailable, this DOES NOT mean they do not love or care about you! they might be busy, not be well-versed with showing emotions in a healthy way, express their love in a different way than yours or they may simply be going through something in their lives right now. 

when this happens, you can talk to the person about it and usually in my experience, the person understands and reassures me that they still love me and that we are okay. if a person is not willing to make sure you are okay, maybe rethink their position in your lives. you are the pedestal, not them. now just because someone reassures you doesn’t mean you don’t work on yourself. you do work on yourself through LOA and useful strategies.

take deep belly breaths when you feel yourself get triggered. it is okay. you are going to be okay, i promise. the next day im sure you will feel fine. it is not the end of the world, i promise you. the world IS you. just change it.

reassure your inner child and your adult self that you are okay now. you are the best version of yourself right now. you are safe. you are secure. you are not in danger. your life is in YOUR hands. YOU are in control. YOU created this life. the only way to change it is within.

if you feel impatient and you want things to change IMMEDIATELY, i.e. when youre having a panic attack, take deep breaths and remember this is temporary. remember you are in control of what happens but also do not be attached to any outcome, just have faith that everything works out in your favour.

if you feel resentment when someone doesn’t meet your expectations, do NOT use strategies to hurt them or leave them. just calm down and view them with a gaze of love. transmute this feeling of resentment and abandonment to love and understanding, you can even visualise it. they still love you, you can manifest them to love you the way you want to idk but still they love you! don’t try to make them jealous, don’t distance yourself, don’t do whatever you do to get ‘revenge’ idk, it is NOT healthy. it only hurts YOU in the end. plus, LOA dictates the way people act with you is a reflection of yourself, so all you need to do is change self.

no matter what, KNOW you are loved. even if your body is freaking out and wants to flee, tell yourself in the moment it will pass. it has to. your trauma trigger reactions are NOT you. 

it may be hard to believe that someone loves you. for me, i felt like i was delusional. that i was kidding myself, because how dare i assume someone loves me? that’s why i kept seeking external reassurance for any semblance of love because i was not giving that reassurance to myself internally. and when someone didn’t give me that reassurance in the 3d, i’d freak out, even though i had manifested it unknowingly. how can i go to the 3d and ask for love when everything, good and bad, is within me? as the creator, how can i not tell myself i am worthy of love and that people close to me love me? how can i not believe that when all is me? it is a bit stupid to think like that, no? well i did, and to an extent i still do. but i’m recovering. i deserve to live a life where i am not constantly afraid. i deserve to live a life where i can speak with confidence that someone loves me. it is hard for me, even now, but i know i will get through it, as will you. 

let’s be brazenly impudent together, shall we?

“Dare to believe in the reality of your assumption and watch the world play its part relative to to its fulfillment.” ― Neville Goddard

#abandonment issues #abandonment #fear of abandonment #attachment #anxious attachment #attachment anxiety #trauma response #loa #law of assumption #neville #neville goddard #law of attraction #law of belief #manifest #manifestation #manifesting #consciousness #psychology #awareness

[alilarew23]

what if instead of being afraid

you got excited? like every time you got that familiar, gut-sinking, what-if-this-doesn't-happen feeling, you boldly reminded yourself it already did happen? and that where you go in imagination you must go in the flesh, too? what if you imagined, in that moment of fear, you were hiking with your best friend, who happens to know and consciously apply the law, too, and instead of dwelling in doubt and worry and stress the two of you walked to the edge of the nearest cliff overlooking the rivers and pines and cumulus clouds and you yelled. together, you yelled, "it already happened! it is already mine!" as loud as you could. and you felt all that energy rise from your gut through your chest through your throat out your mouth into air and as you let it go into air you laughed and hugged and felt the most profound sense of relief and joy and wonder and awe and gratitude because you knew it was enough, to be here on earth with your best friend at all, but you knew, too, this wasn't all. that there really was--there really is--so much good to come. that what you have within your mind's eye and in your heart must express, that it will, in the exact right moment, in the exact right "now," and how wonderful to know, to feel, deep in your bones in your nerves in your muscles in your cells, you already have it now.

#law of assumption #loa #loassumption #loassblog #loablr #loa tumblr #manifestation #manifestation tips #faith over fear #faith in god #faith #faith in yourself #self belief #self concept #mindset #neville goddard #edward art #imagination #states of consciousness #live in the end #wish fulfilled #it is done #joy #gratitude #friendship #spirituality #trust #trust god #presence #writing

[itlearns]

ok here's a theory for you

Rituals were never meant to create an entrance for fears, they were for creating exits.

We have our crack in reality in a house where fears were present for a long time. During Prentiss attack worms started to form some sort of a door - it might be that it was the begining of the same thing.

And now our dear [ERROR] might be emerging from a portal alike, created during the meat ritual in another timeline.

#the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #the magnus protocol spoilers #theory #tmagp spoilers #tmagp theory #fears are not trying to enter #they're trying to leave #well I mean except they're kinda stupid and not trying to do anything consciously #also shoutout to Jane Prentiss who wasn't some pretentious old white man flexing with a cool name and symbolic date for the ritual #she just stood here giving birth to worms bc she hates books

[francesderwent]

the point is NOT “if the Hunger Games were real y’all would watch” and the point is ALSO not “Coriolanus was just a psychopath from the beginning, inherently evil”, the point is if the Hunger Games were real, you might watch. you might stand up and three-finger salute the children going to die even though it invited violent reprisals against you and yours. you might give your enemy a dignified burial because you know in your heart that they’re not truly your enemy. you might band together with other brave souls and risk everything to tear the whole thing down. the story isn’t telling us that human nature is inherently violent—and it’s also not projecting inherent violence onto a small fraction of broken people. people have choices. and no matter the environment, those choices remain.

#you COULD be Coriolanus!! that’s the point of him! #he’s a little boy who let fear and pride define him! #he had choices and he consciously chose to reject love and to harden his heart #I made the mistake of going in the tags my loves #Cate reads thg

[creature-wizard]

It's so frustrating because New Agers are absolutely onto something with fear being used as a tool for dividing people and pitting them against each other, but I can't recall ever seeing them acknowledge where fear is justified due to actual systemic oppression, and in situations of power imbalances the party that's telling you all to just get along and play nice is actually part of the problem.

Also a thing I've never seen is an acknowledgment that you can have a fear-based consciousness without actually feeling fear. Regardless of your personal emotional state, the belief that there's a secret conspiracy of satanic cultists behind everything was concocted and perpetuated by people who wanted to stir up fear against people they felt threatened by. (Christians vs. Jews, Protestants vs. Catholics, conservative Christians vs. everyone who isn't a conservative Christian, etc.) Doesn't matter what your personal emotional state is, as long as you subscribe to all of this blood libel/Prototols redux shit, you have a fear-based consciousness.

#new agers #conspiracism #consciousness #fear #fear based consciousness

[anouri]

i don't know if i’ll last until tomorrow. it's such an arduous task to always bottle it up

jeanette winterson // chen chen // the wallows // shannon cartier lucy // traci brimhall // mary oliver // eliran kantor // margaret atwood // the wallows // ron hicks // gus dapperton

#burden of consciousness #on fear of intimacy #web weaving #jeanette winterson #chen chen #the wallows #mary oliver #traci brimhall #eliran kantor #margaret atwood #shannon cartier lucy #ron hicks #gus dapperton #mine #sorry for not having these tagged beforehand: #tw self harm #tw suicidal ideation

[dollypopup]

penelope, intentions, privacy, and the infantalization of innocence

or: a call to see Penelope as the complicated character she actually is

there has been, for some good time now, a sense in the general fandom space that hinges on Penelope being a perfect angel who did everything she did out of altruism, or a feeling of separating or minimizing her actions through Whistledown, divorcing her from her decisions (in the classic 'she had no choice' or 'no one listened to her as Pen' fabrications). and i am here to, once again, beg for a nuanced look at her, and in particular those who cared for her whom she hurt deeply

let's dig in

Lady Whistledown is Penelope's coping mechanism, and it is clear from the first article she wrote. Penelope is posturing, putting on a front. This first article is the root of her intentions, the core of what she hopes for, and the mold for which she wishes to be. Just read some of these lines

I know people better than they know themselves. I can see what is happening behind closed doors better than those behind them.

This is an act, a falsity. Penelope *doesn't* know more about people than they know about themselves. How could she? She is largely ignored by the general populace. She wrote this article before she was even out in society. She had little access to balls or information, her sisters debuted with her, and her mother and father weren't particularly popular members of the community. What Penelope knew of others, she knew from external observations.

This is where the falsification first begins: she can't possibly see what is happening behind closed doors, but she wants to. Penelope is an outsider wanting to look in, wanting to look in so deeply that she understands and knows others in intimate ways without putting in the hard work of gaining their trust. LW being published before Penelope is out in the general society is proof of Penelope's powerlessness in the general scheme of Mayfair: and she has a right to feel that way. She is not particularly cared for in her own family, nor is she listened to by them. She is angry. Her friendship with Eloise is one in which two girls who are both frustrated with their circumstances come to meet.

The fact that such a thing could be printed with, essentially, her allowance, is also proof that she is disregarded as she is. No one notices when she is gone, she is, by and large, invisible. As such, she doubles down on the power fantasy of Lady Whistledown.

Do not try to close your doors tighter to protect your privacy as I may already be inside. And thus I will slowly get inside each and everyone's head.

I don't know about you, but reading that is chilling. Though of course I am taking it with the modern perspective of living in an age where privacy continues to be stripped, there's something particularly cruel about insisting that you are inescapable. It's written in a way that is intended as a threat, followed by

No need to panic, I will be fair, gentle reader

and this is where Penelope's intentions come in. Do I believe she genuinely and truly wanted to be fair? Yes. Do I believe Penelope has a well developed sense of what fairness entails? ABSOLUTELY NOT. And she's not SUPPOSED to. Because Penelope also perpetuates her own invisibility, even in the midst of her pride in writing Whistledown. Penelope punches down repeatedly, but she does not think she is doing so. For Penelope the person, she is 'exposing the truth' in a general sense of hard hitting journalism, but Lady Whistledown, her persona, cultivated a power others don't have. When she wrote of the unnamed Modiste unfavorably, she ran her out of business: because LW has the power and privilege of being heard, the power and privilege to ruin lives and reputations, to sequester people to bad opinions and derision.

And one of the first people she does this to is her mum and her family, including herself. In the very first LW article, she mentions only the Featheringtons and the Bridgertons, along with one other lady, Miss Boltenston, who Penelope writes would be best for a suitor who prefers bedtime conversation as opposed to other activities.

Three misses. Foisted upon the marriage market like sorrowful sows by their tasteless, tactless dear mama-- the luckless souls.

Then, when discussing the Bridgertons, the only people who have been seen as being genuinely nice to her, she writes that they're perfect, full of refinement, "four perfectly handsome sons and four perfectly beautiful daughters. Yes. Perfect, indeed"

but this isn't meant to be a compliment. In particular when we go back and listen to Eloise's hunt for LW and her conversation with Penelope at her door.

"Whistledown is someone free and unencumbered by society, she is a single woman of means, better yet she is a widow who would be invited to all the events but not paid any attention, so while you are at the ball-"

"Eloise I do not care! People have real problems, mature problems, problems that have nothing to do with the secret identity of some silly writer. " "And you are so mature now?" "I am of age, I am out in society, therefor I have more important mature things to worry about." "Like what?" "Like marriage." "You do not care about marriage." "What if I do!? I do not expect you to understand. Not everyone can be a pretty Bridgerton."

There's a resentment that Penelope has for the Bridgertons. She loves them, absolutely, but we can't sit here and deny that Penelope isn't jealous and doesn't discuss it or dig deeper into those feelings to unwrap or unlearn them. There are reasons for it, of course, but this is a facet of her character that often gets overlooked. And it keeps her from opening up. To Colin and to Eloise.

I exhaust of the perfect Miss Penelope Featherington, always the victim of other people's harms, always doing everything she does because she's such a #good person. It leaves the door shut to her growth. Penelope has good INTENTIONS with bad outcomes. She hopes that she will, herself, not be corrupted by the power she so criticizes others for misusing, but she falls into the same pitfalls and that is compelling as hell to explore.

My intention is not to shed any blood but to shed some light on the true events in our society. My words, though might be hurtful, are not meant to be mean. They are meant to be fair . .be prepared to hear the truth about yourself and your kin.

I'm glad she acknowledged that her words would be hurtful, though she hides behind what she intends as opposed to the outcome. Because she absolutely did shed blood, she genuinely could have killed Marina with what she published. And after she does so, she comes back from it still owning that bloodshed, for she writes things such as 'sharpening my knives for you' and hailing her pen as a weapon. There's no indication she wrote to her cousin or offered any support or condolences. She has to ask Colin how Marina is doing, as though she does not know on her own.

Penelope wants to be a good person who does good things. But goodness is not black and white and Penelope falls deeper and deeper into her LW persona internally whilst pretending she is unchanged on the exterior.

There's a line in the book, when she says 'Maybe I grew up' and that's what I need from her in S3. This is, largely, a very long essay more so in response to a fandom version of Penelope than the real Penelope, because the show does show her actions as being wrong. Penelope cries and agonizes over her choices because she knows they aren't good, but she does them anyway because her idea of what should happen matters more than other people's agency in their decisions.

People talk about how Eloise was a bad friend to Penelope, how she didn't listen to her, but in reality, Penelope did not actually talk to her, save to tell her she has different life goals than Eloise does. So many moments in which Penelope could confide in her that she does not take.

In particularly, I think about after Penelope's father passes, and Eloise visits her. This comes at the heels of Penelope exposing Marina's pregnancy to the ton and publicly destroying Colin's engagement to her, as well as Eloise saving her from being caught by the Queen.

"The ones we love have the power to inflict the greatest scars. For what thing is more fragile than the human heart?"

And then Eloise comforting her. Telling her

"I am here, Pen, to help you to find a reason every day to enjoy in the absence of your dear Papa. I know you shall miss him."

to which Penelope replies with

"Share something good. What happened with Whistledown? Did you save Mdm. Delecroix?"

No discussion of how she actually feels, only a deflection, even as Eloise assures her she has a friend. But Penelope already knows what Eloise will tell her with this response, and also knows that she has the wrong idea of who Whistledown is, but she would rather have a conversation she knows the outcome to than spill open to her closest friend. That's lonely as hell. Penelope forces herself to be apart, as well. It's a behavior she needs to unlearn.

Penelope keeps her own secrets but cannot allow others to do so. She spirals in what she perceives to be her own powerlessness whilst her actions have the most impact, good and bad, upon near everyone in her vicinity.

Eloise tells her: "You are my friend, and I do not wish for secrets to set us apart" and though Penelope agrees, she does not confide in her. Even when it comes to Eloise's relationship to Theo and her burgeoning romantic feelings for him, something she confesses to Penelope, asking if she can relate, Penelope does not offer the same vulnerability. Instead, she insists that people already know about her relationship with Theo, and Eloise trusts her, though it's untrue. No one else was talking about Eloise and Theo, and yes, Penelope writing about her as LW was wrong and awful, but a more intimate pain she inflicted was that Penelope was encouraging Eloise away from him and away from her own feelings.

Eloise even tells Theo: "People are already talking about us" when they almost kiss as a reason for them to stop seeing each other. But no one is. This is a lie Penelope tells Eloise.

and this takes me to the final act of it all: People DO listen to Penelope. The people who MATTER listen to her and encourage her. There are constant discussions of how Eloise does not listen or how Colin didn't listen, but looking back at those conversations and interactions: Eloise and Colin listen to Penelope very closely, in fact.

Eloise repeats things Penelope says to her, trusts what she says. Yes, she is often talking to Penelope and 'using her as a sounding board' because that is what friends do. Balance comes when both parties do so. Penelope does not do the same back. She does not discuss, she does not say what she means, what she feels, what she believes.

And she does the same to Colin. Colin who wrote her letters for months. Colin who recognizes her intentions. Colin who talks to her about his hopes and plans, an action she does not reciprocate up until S2 when they talk after the botched wedding. Even when Colin asks how she's been after they meet for the first time that season, she lies and says it's all fine. This comes from an assumption from her that he doesn't care about her because he doesn't love her romantically, but Colin obviously cares a lot for Pen. Even in S1 he cares about her deeply and earnestly. I don't understand the narrative of him not listening to her, because I think he listens to and hears her more than almost anyone else does.

Even in this conversation

"I believe you deserve to know" "Is there something on my face? Has it been there all evening? It has hasn't it? Sorry, go on." "I have wanted to talk to you since the engagement was announced but we have always been in company" "So this is something about Marina?" "Her heart belongs to another." "What?" "His name is Sir George Crane, he is a first son, a soldier, they rent the neighboring properties in the country, I am sorry Colin, but I have seen their love letters. I thought you should know before it is too late." "You really are very good, you know that? Do you think that I would care she had fond feelings for another before we met? It would be rather rich of me considering I've flirted with half the girls in London at one point or another." "No, you misunderstand, this was no mere flirtation, Marina loves this man, she loves him still." "And yet she is marrying me."

This conversation is often cited as proof that Colin doesn't listen to her, but reading it: he is listening very clearly. She told him Marina loved someone else before, he replied that it doesn't matter (can we take a moment to applaud him for this, also? that's a really mature response from him) and then when she tries to clarify, she does so by telling him that she loves someone else. But that's not what she actually wants to say.

What she's saying is to dissolve the engagement and she believes Colin the kind of person who would cut ties with someone who loved someone else before, but he isn't. It's not that he isn't listening to her, it's that he IS and he isn't responding in the way she wants. This scene is ALSO Colin asking Penelope to understand him, to understand his choices, to support him as well. He ends this conversation with a plea: Trust me, Pen, do not fret. Asking for her to take him seriously. Instead of trusting him, trusting him to his decisions, trusting him with the truth, she instead takes matters back into her own hands.

Because what she publishes is

"As if the Featheringtons did not have enough to be dealing with, Miss Marina Thompson is with child. And she has been from the very first day she arrived in our fair city."

That is HEAPS different from what she talked to Colin about, but it solidifies her innocence to him, because at the core of it, she wants PARTS of what Whistledown is, but not all of it. She WANTS Colin to see her as good and she wants to have a soft love story with him, all at the cost of who she actually is. She sanitizes herself for Colin because she does not understand or cannot face that he already has affection for her as she already is, that she can trust him for who HE is. He isn't in love with her (yet) because she hasn't shown him who she is in her entirety, but he DOES love her, regardless.

(Which I think is so beautiful. Here is a person who refuses time and time again to be open and vulnerable (because of her own trauma and complications, no shade, we've all been there) and yet he sees that she's special and keeps opening the door for her to talk to him. Let it never be said that Colin doesn't have a special place for her in his heart, regardless of a SINGULAR comment of his that she heard out of context)

Colin and Eloise are constantly asking how she's doing, constantly leaning in to see what she says, and the brief moments in when she confides in them, they obviously keep it close and recognize those moments as being special. It's Penelope who has to contest with the mortifying ordeal of being known: and that is her character arc. Her character arc is not that she did nothing wrong because no one else would listen, they do, but even when they don't (and Marina doesn't HAVE to listen to her about dissolving the engagement. Marina had to look out for her own wellbeing and the wellbeing of her future family and she had every right to considering everyone proved to her that no one else will) Penelope has Eloise and Penelope has Colin, two people who care deeply for her. Who she has written about and betrayed trust in. Who she needs to apologize to and make amends. And no, an apology is not 'I'm sorry, but I did it because X', Eloise didn't want excuses from Pen, she wanted accountability, and she was right to demand it.

Because the beautiful thing is that we have ALL hurt our friends, we have all been the bad friend, and we have all fucked up immensely, and such things make us human and capable of change, something Penelope is continuously denied as a character in the uwu perfect baby narrative that gets cultivated.

I think this quote sums up her dissonance very well

"Perhaps I will come forward one day, though you must know dear reader, that decision should be left entirely up to me."

at the end of it, this is a conversation about trust and agency. Penelope upholds her own privacy, her own right to secrecy, and denies everyone else the same, including people who adore her. Colin and Eloise and Marina all become villains in this light as opposed to what they actually are: People with their own wants and dreams who also deserve their own right to privacy. And my personal hope is that with who LW is in the show, Penelope recognizes that she doesn't need that persona as a coping mechanism. Not in her friendship with Eloise and not in her romance with Colin. She does not need LW to be heard because she *is* heard. She only needs to say what she really means.

In her very first article, Penelope writes

"Hiding behind this paper is a brave person who can protect herself with a pen."

but when Eloise tells her she is "Sequestered here in this very room, writing your secret little scandal sheet, tarnishing everyone in town, all because you are too scared to stand up for yourself in reality" she takes that to heart and gets defensive and furious because at the core of things, it's TRUE. it hurt her *because* it was true. Penelope does NOT stand nor speak up for herself in the light, only in her writing. and it doesn't have to be that way.

her character arc is growing to the point where she can do so. where she no longer needs LW to speak on her opinions or how she feels, where she doesn't rely on it. her character arc IS to become brave. people ALREADY like her. they already see her insight as valuable. LW is a coping mechanism Penelope used because she thought no one else listened, but they prove her wrong and she has to grapple with that. she is loved and she needs to learn to accept it. she is loved and she did bad things. she can make mistakes and still be loved. she can own what she's done and know she is surrounded by people who care for her to the point of accountability.

and isn't that just so much more satisfying?

#penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #eloise bridgerton #polin #peneloise #bridgerton #idk i have a lot of thoughts about this and i keep seeing the 'penelope did nothing wrong and everyone else is awful to her' narrative #and i had thoughts #long post is long #many quotes are dropped #and if anyone has access to more of the LW papers i would love to see them! let's go deep baybay #when you write stuff like 'if your consciousness is clear then you have nothing to fear' there's some STUFF to unpack

[danielleegnew]

It’s a Demon! Or…is it?

“Coronation of the Virgin & Saints”(Cenni di Francesco di Ser Cenni, ca. 1390, tempera on panel) This Halloween, I noted that our Samhain was peppered with folks reporting being pushed, scratched, shoved across a room—all sorts of Halloween-ie things. This spirit activity is not unusual during this time of year when our ethers (the “barriers” between dimensions) becomes thin. Our ancient peoples…

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#angel #angel translator #Cause and Effect #christian #Consciousness #darkness #demon #demonic attack #demonic oppression #demonic possession #earth energy #elemental #elemental beings #Evangelism #evil #fear #Fear Consciousness #Ghost #ghost attack #god #Halloween #ionosphere #Letting Go #Love #mediumship #Mother Earth #myths #Overcoming Anxiety #overcoming fear #paranormal

[kellymagovern]

Do you know what intelligence is? It is the capacity, surely, to think freely without fear, without a formula, so that you begin to discover for yourself what is real, what is true; but if you are frightened you will never be intelligent.

Most of us, as we grow older, become frightened; we are afraid of living, afraid of losing a job, afraid of tradition, afraid of what the neighbors, or what the wife or husband would say, afraid of death. Most of us have fear in one form or another; and where there is fear there is no intelligence.

It is very easy to conform to what your society or your parents and teachers tell you. That is a safe and easy way of existing; but that is not living, because in it there is fear, decay, death. To live is to find out for yourself what is true, and you can do this only when there is freedom, when there is continuous revolution inwardly, within yourself.

But you are not encouraged to do this; no one tells you to question, to find out for yourself what God is, because if you were to rebel you would become a danger to all that is false. Your parents and society want you to live safely, and you also want to live safely. Living safely generally means living in imitation and therefore in fear.

—Jiddu Krishnamurti

#Krishnamurti #Jiddu Krishnamurti #conformity #nonconformity #nonconformist #fear #psychology #wisdom #spirituality #spiritual #spiritual awakening #awareness #consciousness #rebel #rebellion #intelligence

[solidude-of-solitude]

Blessed are those who do not fear solitude, who are not afraid of their own company, who are not always desperately looking for something to do, something to amuse themselves with, something to judge. If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself.

-Paulo Coelho.

#self #mind #consciousness #knowledge #wisdom #solitude #fear #strength #paulo coelho

[dreamytine]

COURAGE ABOVE FEAR • Overcoming

The act of putting courage above fear can manifest in various aspects of life, from everyday decisions to extraordinary circumstances. It could be as simple as speaking in a public setting, trying a new activity, or as monumentous as standing up for one’s beliefs in the face of adversity. When people prioritize courage, they are essentially deciding to not let fear control their lives or dictate their actions., which can lead to a more fulfilling and authentic existence. Putting courage over fear is an empowering principle that involves acknowledging fear yet choosing to act despite it. The concept is not about the absence of fear, but rather the ability to overcome it through mental fortitude, strength and resolve. Courage is not a static trait, but a muscle that can be strengthened over time with practice and experience. The cycle of facing fears and taking action builds resilience, confidence and self esteem, contributing to personal growth and the ability to handle future, perhaps more daunting, challenges. Courage can be seen as a balanced approach to fear- one that assesses but does not surrender to it. It involves thoughtful consideration of the situation, understanding possible challenges, then making a reflective decision. Be careful not to recklessly disregard all risks. This transformative approach can lead to achieving a profound sense of accomplishment and empowerment. It is a testament to the human spirit’s capacity to transcend limitations and peruse a life of meaning and purpose. Courage involves recognizing your fears and choosing to move through it regardless of the discomfort. It’s the determination to act in alignment with your values and your goals, even when faced with danger and uncertainty. It is a critical quality that enables one to face challenges, overcome obstacles, and grow beyond perceived limitations. It is the quality that supports standing up for what is right, attempting new endeavors, and persisting in the face of adversity.

“Fear is a reaction. Courage is a choice.” -Winston S. Churchill

#my art #mine #art #art wip #me #oracle cards #wip #tarot #tarot cards #courage #fear #affirmations #mental health #consciousness #healing

[chicago-geniza]

Saw a picture of someone I follow on Twitter hugely, heavily pregnant, strapped into the car to give birth, and got really scared, then remembered I don't have a uterus and can't get pregnant and relaxed like muscle by muscle unclenching the way your body does at the end of a guided meditation lmfao. Fun fact my nightmares cut back by like 80% since I got a hysterectomy because they have been pregnancy body horror dreams my whole life, even in preschool

#I wouldn't even describe it as gender dysphoria like #I would call it a lifelong true phobia of pregnancy #I have one (1) other true phobia and it's shipwrecks #When I was on the Channel Ferry and there was turbulence on deck I fainted from fear #I saw Life of Pi in theaters and had a panic attack and lost consciousness #I've never had fear like that about anything but shipwrecks and pregnancy

[winepresswrath]

Did you know that Lestat predicted don't want to be evil i want to be loved/evil again.

#the twist is that he's evil again because he wants to be loved and sexy villain gets him the most attention #which is basically being loved #ok i'm now having lestat thoughts because the thing about louis is #he's attractive to lestat precisely because he feeds into all of lestat's abandonment issues #and lestat made him like that! not deliberately or consciously but still. yearning for your deepest fears #your mother was withholding and your first love was depressed? have i got a banger for you #press reads iwtv #this book is really opening my third eye #do i like what i'm seeing? no. #however i've gotta say there's a huge difference between how rice handles the sex ick (deliberate provocative gross but like #it's art. she's doing it on purpose for her work take it or leave it ) #and the racism ick which is. anne u are too confident. anne. anne please stop. anne this isn't working