#a bit angsty

[copias-sewer-rat]

Thinking about how probably after the surgery and trying his new makeup, Copia just sticks to his cardinal paint when he wants to be comfortable and cosy because that is just him. The papal paint felt like such a drastic change at the start, even if he was proud of becoming Papa, he had worn the cardinal paints for so long that it felt wrong to let it go so suddenly.

He didn't want to forget himself so fast, he had accomplished so much as a Cardinal already that letting that go was agonizing.

The first time he paints his cardinal look on his new face he starts crying. Not because of having messed up and mixing the looks, but because it felt so right, so familiar.

He also cried the first time he had to shave his moustache and his sideburns. Seestor and Nihil had insisted that it would offer a cleaner look, a more commanding one. He did so reluctantly, but he did it and it felt so wrong that he cut himself a couple of times, something so unusual for him.

When he comes back from touring he lets his facial hair grow back. He hates how it itches so bad the first few days, but when he gets the length he wants back he is ecstatic. He looks at himself in the mirror and he cannot stop smiling. He takes his tricycle and rides it all over the ministry, reminiscing about his past self and how simple it all was back then. How in a way he wanted all that back, he wanted his life to be his.

#gonst #the band ghost #ghost #papa emeritus iv #cardinal copia #ghost band #ghost bc #papa popia #papa copia #papa emeritus 4 #my headcanons #a bit angsty

[reyla-the-black-wolf]

Unexpected

(my first fic omg!!)

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Writing prompt: here

Pairing: f!reader x batboys

Word Count: 1.5k

Warnings: brief mentions of fighting, injury and blood, slight angst

Summary: You wanted to help, but made a mistake. Thankfully, your family understands

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To my surprise, the training ring was empty. Usually it’s occupied by Cassian and Azriel. Or the Valkyries. But today I was lucky. I had just returned from a mission in Windhaven and needed to work off some rage. Those stubborn Illyrians! So narrow-minded and aggressive. I went there to make sure the girls and women got some training, but as always, it takes a lot of persuasion to get these bigots to actually train them. A few discussions later and maybe some fighting, I felt like beating them up again. 

Anyway, I was relieved to be back in the House of Wind. I wouldn’t have to worry about them for a while and my mind could relax. Leaving my satchel on the golden sand of the training ground, I walked towards the centre. Already dressed in my fighting gear, I started throwing punches into the air, to release some of my tension. The sound of my breathing, the crunching of sand beneath my boots, the smell of dried blood on my clothing and nothing but the silence surrounded me. 

Unfortunately, it didn’t last long. Recognising heavy footsteps behind me, I stopped and turned around, growling on the inside. Standing in front of me, was my older brother Cassian. Two heads taller, all muscled and with a look of amusement on his face. „Has the air done something, to upset you?“, a grin creeping upon his lips. „Maybe you did something to annoy me as usual.“, I countered, teasing him a bit. „We haven’t even seen each other today!“, he dramatically placed a hand on his chest in pain. I chuckled in response. „Don’t worry, I’m fine.“ Obviously, I didn’t sound very convincing, because he looked me up and down, as if searching for any wounds. His amusement and grin faded as he sniffed the air. 

„Is that blood?“, asked Cass, alarmed. „Don’t worry, it’s not mine.“, I huffed, thinking about the man in the camp earlier, who refused to follow my orders. „Is that supposed to reassure me?“, he said, worry in his tone. It took all of my nerves, not to roll my eyes at him. „There are bloodstains on your clothes y/n! Tell me what happened.“, the anger in his voice better not to be ignored. 

„Nothing bad happened. At least not really.“, I continued, feeling a little guilty. „I saw Rhysand’s request for women’s training on your desk this morning. There’s been so much going on in your life lately, with Nesta, your missions and your position as Commander. So I thought, I’d help you out and make sure those idiots follow your commands.“ He listened in silence. „Well, one of the men I was arguing with, repeatedly refused to train any woman… so maybe I lost my temper and lashed out.“ I could literally feel Cass’ distress. But also his fury. „He didn’t like that one bit.“, I said, laughing nervously. „We started wrestling on the ground and he tried to go for my throat, but I was faster, so my fist struck his jaw. The man lost some teeth and his blood spilled on my clothes. That’s how I got it, but I’m all right. Just like I told you.“ I held my head up high, as if protesting like a little child.

 „You could’ve been seriously injured. I know your fighting is great. I trained you myself.“, he looked at me with brotherly love in his hazel eyes, „but you have to be more careful!“ I sighed. „And next time, I suggest you ask me, if there’s anything you can do to help. Otherwise, please keep your hands off my tasks, okay?“ He sounded concerned, but the anger in his eyes was definitely a warning. „´Cause if you don’t, then I'll have to deal with whatever you might have screwed up later, understand?“ I glared at him, feeling like an immature child, being disciplined by its father. But after a while, I agreed with him. „Oh, and could you please not tell Rhys about this accident?“, I pleaded, looking up at him with big doe eyes. 

„Tell me what?“, a sinister voice asked, before Cass had a chance to answer. We turned, to see Rhys and Azriel walking towards us with long strides. Damn it… 

Azriel’s shadows surrounded me in an instant, as if to make sure everything was alright. Goosebumps spread down my neck, as they swirled up and down my body. With a pleading look in my eyes, I looked up at Cassian. He shifted his reproachful gaze from his brothers down to me. „Cassian!“, I warned him, „Don’t you dare.“ His eyebrows shot up, as if to say they’re my brothers! I won’t lie to them!

I know, I've done something wrong. But does the High Lord really need to know about it? 

Az and Rhys exchanged some puzzled glances, while I scowled at Cass.

„Why do you smell of blood?“, Rhys suddenly asked in a serious tone, sniffing the air. Before I could answer him, Cass cut me off. „She smells like that, because she completed the mission, you assigned me to do this morning.“ Great! Thanks brother! „You went to Windhaven?“, Rhysand’s voice was like the calm before a storm. A shiver ran down my spine. The tension was building around the three of us. With guilt in my voice I replied: „Yes, I did. I only wanted to help Cass with his duties.“ I tried not to look down at my feet. 

„Some things got out of hand, but in my defense, you Illyrians can be pretty stubborn!“ „You had a little fight, didn’t you?“, Rhys stated, unable to hide his smirk. Unwilling to meet his eyes any longer, I turned my gaze to his jacket. My eyes followed the silver threads on it. Rhys studied me for a moment, before speaking. „If you wish to work more y/n, just let me know, okay?“ Sympathy flashed in his violet eyes, as I gathered the strength to look up again. „I’m sure, we’ll find something for you.“ I swallowed, not sure what to answer. 

„It was kinda foolish, wasn’t it?“ „Y/n, you’re still young. Everyone makes mistakes sometimes. We’ll make sure everything goes well in Windhaven.", he assured me. "Please leave that in our hands.“ I nodded. „We could also tell you many stories about your brother and his nonsense, when he was your age.“, Azriel interrupted. His cheeks turning slightly red, Cass intervened: „That’s not for her ears, Az!“ „I’d love to hear those stories one day.“, I chuckled, glad the tension was easing. „Oh, I think she’s old enough, Cas.“, Rhys smiled. „I dare you to tell her!“ A laugh escaped my lips at his defensiveness. „We’ll see about that, but for now let’s go to lunch.“, he demanded. „Elain and Feyre have cooked something for us today. And my stomach is already rumbling.“ With a sigh of relief, that the subject was over for today, Cassian relented and walked to the edge of the training ring. Grinning, I picked up my bag and followed them. Silently thanking Rhys for his understanding and support.

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After a quick shower, I now sat at the table, eating the meal, Feyre and Elain had cooked for us. It tasted absolutely delicious. My eyes wandered around and caught Mor stealing some vegetables from Az’ plate. Elain talking to Feyre about some art designs. I closed my eyes to enjoy this  moment with my family. 

A deep, rumbling laugh to my left, brought me back to the ongoing conversation. „I wouldn’t do that, if I were you!“, Cas pointed his fork at Rhysand. „My little sister is perfectly capable of defending herself.“ Pride in his voice. Rhys turned his attention to me. „Y/n, at least tell me, you’ve given that guy a lesson about what happens, when he doesn't respect women?“ „I kicked some of his teeth out. Was that enough?“, I asked with an innocent smile. „I wouldn’t want to fight with you.“, Feyre grinned, as she cut a piece of meat in half. Her mate spoke, while holding his wine glass: „Well, it doesn’t hurt them to be put in their place occasionally.“ He gave me a knowing wink and I blushed. 

The conversation went on, until Az began to tell a story about an embarrassing event, that happened to my older brother recently. He stopped abruptly, when Cass lunged forward and tried to silence him. The others, myself included, were still sitting at the table, all laughing at the ridiculous scene that was unfolding in front of us. Cass and Az were rolling around on the floor in an attempt to fight each other. Mor and Rhys already started betting on who was going to win. All the laughter around me, warmed me to the depths of my soul. The man in the camp already forgotten. The tension from earlier today, completely gone by now. Tears of joy welled up in my eyes. I made a mental note, to always remember this beautiful moment with my family. Because right now, they’re all that matters. 

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Omg, can't believe it right now! I posted my first fanfiction ever! I'm so excited :)

If anybody reads this, I hope you liked it! I'm always open to improvements and criticism. Although I'm new here, feel free to send me requests if you want. I'd love that :) Also, English is my second language, so if there are any mistakes, I'm sorry...

#acotar #acomaf #acowar #acofas #acosf #acotar oneshot #acotar fanfiction #acotar fic #acotar x reader #acotar fandom #acotar fluff #acotar bat boys #fluff #a bit angsty #angst #first fanfic #first fic

[onepiecehiperfixation]

Nami: I know you think you are some smooth ladies man, but the truth is that you are patetic and creepy. Sanji: So what do you say? Nami: I'm saying that is not compliment to call me doable. Nico Robin: And it isn't sexy to stare at my ass and say "uh it must be jelly cause ass won't shake like that". Nami: And most important we're not dancing a tango. We're not throwing and filtring with you. Nothing is gonna happen between us ever. Sanji: Wait a minute.. This isn't filtring this is serious. Nami: Filtring?! You think I'm filtring! I'm not filtring with you. No women is gonna flirt with you if you keep doing this.

#incorrect one piece #one piece #incorrect one piece quotes #one piece incorrect quotes #the strawhats #nami #sanji #nico robin #sanji gets a wake up call #a bit angsty #nami puts sanji in his place #but they hug afterwards #sanji x nami

[stydinskl]

As Easy As Knowing by Writergirl8 - Stiles, Lydia, and the color red

28k, E. - glances of life shared by Lydia Martin and Stiles Stilinski

#stydia #stiles #lydia #stilesandlydia #teenwolf #stiles x lydia #lydia martin #stiles and lydia #stiles stilinski #fic #stydia fic #i've read this zillion times #a bit angsty #but pure stydia #stydia childhood #post canon #pre canon

[beetlebian]

redrew an old piece!!!!!!!

#tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2012 #april x karai #aprirai #kunoichi squared #karpril #karai x april #new clothes new hair maybe they are ready for silliness to ensue #a bit angsty

[downton-bridgerton]

@adoracora-elizabeth asked for "Cobert + last kiss".

Cora was the first one to pull away from their long but sweet kiss, then smiling at her husband as she looks up and down at him in his war uniform.

“Be back safe to us.” she said “You and Matthew, most especially.”

“I’ll come running to your arms when I’m back.” Robert smiles.

The train then whistled loudly, and Robert smiles at her one last time.

“I love you.”

“And I love you more.”

But little did she know, that was their very last moments together…

…because it was only Matthew who ever came back.

#an AU where robert went to the front of the war in s2 #a bit angsty #but i hope you like it! #robert crawley #cora crawley #cobert #downton abbey #adoracora-elizabeth #mutuals #word drabble ask

[dafinestprissy]

Dis is a Killian Jones x reader fanfic cuz I'm a sucker for this man and I know you are too🌚💕

From the days of your childhood, You and Hook had been inseparable friends in the charming coastal town. You shared laughter, dreams, and a bond that weathered the storms of time.

On this particular evening, as the sky painted itself in hues of twilight, You found yourself sitting by the familiar shore, your heart heavy with the weight of your struggles. Tears streamed down your cheeks, mirroring the gentle cascade of the nearby waves.

Suddenly, a familiar presence enveloped her. It was Hook, her childhood companion, drawn by an unspoken connection that transcended the years.

"Hey...are you okay?"

It was just four words, but they were enough to make you break down.

"It's too much Killian. I can't do this anymore," You replied, with a wavering voice.

He wrapped his arms around you, offering a comforting embrace that felt like coming home.

With his arms encircling you, Hook whispered soft, soothing words in your ear, his voice a symphony of warmth and reassurance. He spoke of your shared memories, of endless adventures and the unbreakable bond you held. He painted a picture of resilience and hope, reminding you of your strength and the love that surrounded you.

As you cried softly on his shoulder, Hook held you close, his whispered promises acting as a balm to your weary soul. His presence was a sanctuary, a safe harbor in the tempest of your emotions.

In that moment, time seemed to stand still. The world faded away, leaving only your intertwined hearts beating in sync with the rhythm of the ocean. The embrace was a testament to your enduring friendship, a silent vow that no matter the hardships, you would always be there for each other.

With the echo of his whispered words lingering in your heart, You felt a glimmer of hope rising within you. You knew that with Hook by your side, you could weather any storm that life threw your way.

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#ouat #killian jones #fluff #x reader #captain hook #a bit angsty #soft girl #romance #romantic #peter pan #once upon a time #babying #fem reader #fem!reader #fanfic

[suckersakaria]

read my one shots on ao3

ignore the incomplete im working on it I swear

#marauders #sirius black #remus lupin #remus x sirius #wolfstar #a bit angsty #what am i doing #dead gay wizards #dead gay wizards from the 70s #sirius orion black #remus john lupin

[rubberstains]

Charles and Max. Max and Charles. Had to write about them before I exploded.

#lestappen #charles leclerc #max verstappen #be a doll and read this #a bit angsty #hopefully sexy tho

[tinknevertalks]

Prompt: 5 - You're the smartest person I know.

Fandom: Sanctuary

Rating: G

Warning(s): None.

A Question of Why, pre-series, double drabble, Ashley centric, mother-daughter stuff.

#fictober23 #fanfiction #sanctuary #ashley magnus #james watson #helen magnus #ashley's noticed helen's allergies #double drabble #pre-series #a bit angsty #ashley just needs some reassurance

[copias-sewer-rat]

I live in eternal fear that if something happens to Copia after all they do it while playing Darkness At The Heart Of My Love... They play it, Copia sings and just as he finishes the last note he collapses onto the stage, the lights turn off and everything goes silent... I won't survive, I will have depression for a year, I won't even go to work.

Tobias, my sanity is in your hands.

#a bit angsty #i am sorry #the band ghost #papa emeritus iv #ghost #gonst #cardinal copia #ghost band #ghost bc #papa emeritus iii #papa secondo #papa terzo #papa emeritus 2 #papaemeritus #papa ii #papa emeritus i #papa copia #papa emeritus 4 #papa emeritus lll #terzo emeritus

[cluelesswithadashofsmartass]

Stranger Things Characters Gardening pt.2

Here we go!

tw: some swearing

Mike:

*didn't see the point at first*

*he thought it was an old lady thing*

*then he got suckered into helping will and el with the wild garden*

*at first he went along with it because of them but found it to be quite calming*

*his favorite spot ends up being the pond. he's there so often that the squirrels aren't scared of him anymore; one of them even perches on his knee sometimes. he named it peanut*

*he wants to make his own at his house but doesn't have the room. he eventually decides on putting four plant pots on the porch*

*he uses the small amount of knowledge he gained from eddie's field trip impromptu kidnapping to the library to choose the plants. he ended up getting strawberries, basil, and snapdragons*

*it was originally supposed to be a solo effort but holly was just so persistent and he didn't want to make her cry. and thus began the wheeler plant project*

*he got help from eddie with the watering schedule and things ran relatively smooth. nancy helped occasionally and occasionally stole some strawberries. a lot of jam was made the following summer*

*the fourth pot remained empty for a while. neither of them knew what to put in there. then one early summer day holly's birthday mike and nancy ask holly to come out to the porch. in the fourth pot were three blooming spikes of hollyhock. holly ran up to hug them both*

*we need more wholesome wheeler sibling content*

Lucas (feat. Erica):

*ms. kelley recommended lucas get a hobby after hearing from his basketball coach that he was becoming very tense and anxious*

*yeah no shit sherlock*

*his parents already had snake plants in the house so why not make a mini garden of his own?*

*he chose mostly herb seeds to put in the window box outside of his room (imagine those nine culinary herb sets on amazon)*

*sue and charles are a bit confused at his sudden interest in gardening but don't stop him. sue's fine with it because lucas sometimes lets her use his herbs when she cooks*

*erica caught wind of it and teased him relentlessly*

*he brushed it off. he thought nothing of it until he heard muffled sobs coming from her room one night. his heart clenched a bit*

*he padded into her bedroom and held her until her sobs turned into sniffles. that morning he went with steve to the nursery and made a beeline for the lavender*

*erica didn't say anything but gave lucas a grateful smile. she helped him tend to his herbs as a way of saying thank you*

*one day, steve shows up on the sinclair doorstep with a bouquet made of his roses, mike's snapdragons, and el's sunflowers*

*"get in the car, sinclair." "why? what are the flowers for?" "take a wild guess"*

*he had an idea of who they were for*

Max (and Billy):

*she lives!*

*however, she's in a wheelchair and blind*

*(i'm keeping billy alive for this one) billy is more than willing to help take care of max*

*he considers it reparations after many years of him being an abusive piece of shit. she was hesitant but ultimately lets him since she doesn't have many options*

*she draws the line at him feeding her though. he still holds his hand under the fork or spoon when she eats to make her feel more confident in her motor skills*

*billy notices that she gets happy when she hears steve come to the door with the Friday veggie delivery. he reluctantly asked steve where he gets them. that marks the beginning of billy hargrove's gardening experience add another to the club*

*he tries to replicate steve's vegetables in the backyard. he has moderate success. he doesn't want max to see him fail so he works on it while she's in physical therapy*

*she begins to hobble around on a cane after about six weeks. steve tells her about what billy is trying to do. she takes baby steps out to the backyard and hears billy shuffling around*

*"you weren't supposed to see this." "technically i can't see anything."*

*he gingerly leads her over to the vegetable patches. she carefully sinks to her knees and tries to help billy plant the cucumbers. she relies on her sense of smell and touch immensely*

*i imagine them using burned-out tires from the camaro as planters*

*they try their hands at planting fruits. the blueberries and the old apricot tree thrive. the grapes also do very well they'd do better if those fucking birds would stop picking them off*

*someone knocks on the trailer door one day. billy opens the door to find steve and five out of the six little nuggets carrying flowers and little trinkets. he lets them all in*

*max appreciates the visit. she inhales the flowers' scents and tries to guess who grew what. she runs her fingers over the trinkets and tries to figure out what they are. it brightens her spirits*

*she gives hugs to everyone when it's time for them to leave. she gives lucas and steve the second biggest hugs*

*when everyone is gone, she feels around for billy. when she finds him, she gives him the biggest hug of them all*

*he immediately reciprocated*

This took a while. Did you like it? What would you like to see next? Let me know! :D

#stranger things #stranger things headcanons #season 4 volume 2 #mike wheeler #nancy wheeler #holly wheeler #season 5 predictions #dustin henderson #lucas sinclair #erica sinclair #steve harrington #max mayfield #billy hargrove #will byers #eleven #gardening #plants #flowers #wholesome #a bit angsty #six little nuggets #fuck you vecna #fruits and veggies #eddie munson #the party #therapy is fun

[seth-shitposts]

Seth: *writes a specific line*

Alex, who knows exactly what is happening in the same time frame in the canon as this character is thinking this*

Alex: You motherfucker. You're really going to do that?

Seth: Absolutely :)

Alex: ... I have taught you well then.

#i might explain this once the chapter drops. #I might just leave it unsaid to see who catches it #if anyone catches it #if someone does catch it #we will write them a one shot tailored to their request as a gift #if you look at it and think on the full context and implications #than it's a little whumpty #a bit angsty

[konatsuyuri]

"How could you be so cruel...?"

#sky children of the light #sky cotl #thatskygame #thatskyart #sky星を紡ぐこどもたち #cupid jack stauber #sky memes #helenus #sin #a bit angsty #heartbroken #one sided crush #Spotify

[urmumsdrycooch]

Iᔕᑎ'T TᕼᗩT EᑎOᑌGᕼ

Dana Ward x Reader

Summary: You and Dana have been hooking up, and your boyfriend come pays you a visit at Blackwell. (shit at summaries sorry)

Warnings: Swearing, cheating

Joey and I were in a tricky spot. We thought long-distance would work, we should've known we were wrong. He visited me at Blackwell yesterday, totally unexpected. I was so happy to see him. I am glad he is here. I've missed him a lot, and of course, I did something about missing him.

Dana was my solution. Sure, a solution shouldn't include feelings but something about the cheerleader just was irresistible. She triggered feelings I didn't know I had. And I fucking loved it. The way she smiles; how she compliments every tiny feature on my body; the little pom-poms she waves about in the morning to wake me up; her smooth touch across my skin that intoxicated me; her urge to get up and dance every time a half-decent song is played. I could go on for days, something I struggle to do with the quarterback in my room.

Now, here he is, in my room, butt-naked, starfishing across my bed. I have him to worry about, Dana constantly up my phone's ass, and this hell-of-a situation to sort out.

I pick up my phone which I had abandoned since Joe showed up, and there she was.

Dana: you coming over? i miss you

Dana: who's that you were speaking to

Dana: what the fuck y/n, when were you gonna tell me about this?

Dana: i'm guessing you're busy. let's speak later

Fuck, this should've never happened. I'll just go dive into this grave I've dug, and curl up and die. Sounds more appealing than sorting this shit out.

I love Joey, I have for a solid half-year, that's saying something isn't it.

The boy in my bed begins to shuffle his way out of the sheets his legs are tangled in, "Morning, love." I half-smile to the back of his head.

"Morning babe." He groans as he stretched his arms over his head. "What you doing up?"

I lightly shrug my shoulders, "School is still on my back, even on the weekends." I lie, walking over to the brunette and kissing his cheek.

He takes my arms, pulling me onto the bed, "I thought you didn't care about that stuff." He mumbles, sloppily planting kisses onto my neck.

I push him away, "Not right now, I need a shower." I tease him, I honestly have no clue how I'm going to deal with this.

As I enter the shared bathrooms, I notice the familiar hum of Dana. I lightly curse under my breath once she notices me.

I take a sink available next to the light-brown haired girl, I watch her grip tighten slightly on the sink sides.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She questions quietly, her voice shakey.

"I forgot."

"You forgot?" She scoffs, "Jesus, Y/n. You can't even make a good excuse, did I really mean that little to you? I can't believe you. How long have you been together? Does he know? Oh god, did you sleep with each other?" She rambles, offended by her own assumptions.

I lazily wipe my hand down my face, "8 months, no, and yes." I answer, then turning my head to look at her hurt expression.

"Dana. You- fuck, I really- Dana," I look down and briefly plan my next words, "You mean so much to me. I never brought it up because all I could- and can, think about it... was you." I admit.

She looks down, playing with her hands, "Well, break up with him." She mutters quietly.

I pull out my toothbrush from my washbag with an unhumourous chuckle, "It doesn't work like that." I look at her through the mirror in front of me.

"Well, how does it work?" She bites back.

"Because I love him, Dana! Or I think I do- I don't fucking know, it just doesn't work like that." I raise my tone, my hands forming more gestures by the second.

"Y/n, I have feelings for you, don't you get that! You have feelings for me, and I have feelings for you! Isn't that enough?" She bellows.

I throw my hands to my forehead, tied between the boyfriend I 'love' and the girl I feel free with. "Fuck!" I exclaim the pressure being too much for me. "I'll try, Dana," I conclude.

The girl packs up the soaps laid out around the sink and slowly walks over to me, planting a soft kiss on my lips, letting her hand stroke my cheek. Before making her leave, leaving me brushing my teeth with too many thoughts for this early in the morning.

Late afternoon came around soon, and so did the moment I had been waiting for. I check Joey's bag, making he has everything to take back with him like I'm his mother.

We soon stroll through the dorms, my head turns as we pass a certain one, Dana's music playing quieter than usual. Joey takes my hand as we walk down the stairs, his hands sweaty, I can't blame him, I'd been acting off all day. Sure he's a bit of a douche at times but he has feelings too, just like all the 'douches' at Blackwell. Victoria, Nathan and their little minions are filled with feelings.

We end up at the front of the Academy, and we both turn to face each other. I let out a sad sigh, "Joey, I need to speak to you."

"Shit." He sighs under his breath, he's definitely been expecting this.

"I love you, so much. But I've met someone." I take a sharp breath, "I missed you, and I did something without thinking. And I've started to feel... things for them." I admit,

"Who is he? Don't tell me it's one of these pretentious art school fuckers." He responds, our hands still connected.

"It doesn't matter who, and I promise you this had nothing to do with you, so-"

"Y/n." He states my name firmly.

"I can't go on like thi-"

"Y/n." He repeats, his voice broken. And for a second I was sure I saw a glossy look in his eyes.

"It's not good for either of us. I want to break up." I finally get to the point.

He lets go of my hands, turning his back to me and taking a few steps away before turning back to me, "Is it my hair? My voice? My clothes? I'll change!" He places his hands on the back of his neck, "Y/n, you're the first girl I've ever loved! I might be a bit of a dick, but you know that it's a facade!" He attempts to persuade me, and it does make me feel extremely guilty.

I feel a tear run down my cheek, "Joe, it's not you! You don't need to change anything, I'm sure all the girls back at the dorm are crushing on you." I giggle in an attempt to lighten the mood before I continue, "I just don't feel the way I did before. Maybe we can keep in touch?" I ask in the hope to soothe his broken heart.

He simply nods in return, taking a couple of steps closer to me and taking my hands, resting his forehead on mine, "I love you, Y/n. Goodbye." He finishes, walking down the stairs, not turning back to look at me until he's in his car.

I wave my now ex-boyfriend goodbye and slowly walk my way back to the dormitories. I wander throughout the hallway until I find myself at Dana's door. I raise my hand and knock, a few seconds pass and I'm greeted by somebody I wasn't expecting to see.

"Yo Y/n! You good there bro?" Trevor, greets me.

I sloppily wipe my hand across my face, "Yeah, I need to speak to Dana. You here for the flash drive?" I question, a bit confused as to why he was here of all places.

"Uh," He slowly opens the door revealing a shocked Dana, "I scored!" He whispers to me with joy. I break down, my mind completely shut down.

"Nice, Trev. I'll just- uh, come back later." I try to smile, as I begin to walk to my own room, Dana, rushes out the door reaching for my shoulder. I completely give up, shoving her off, abandoning her outside of my door.

She continues to knock on my door, useless words passed through that are pure white noise to me at this point. It carries on for the next ten minutes or so, and when it does finally die down, I stand next to the door letting my head fall onto the rough wood. "I left him for you Dana." I inform her between sobs, "I left him for you." I repeat. "I was the first person he ever loved, and he was the first person I ever loved. And I left him for you." I hang onto that one phrase, still taken back by the events.

"I left him for you." One last time, before I completely break down against the door.

#Life is Strange #Life is Strange: Before the Storm #Dana Ward x Reader #Dana Ward #Trevor Yard #Victoria Chase #Nathan Prescott #Taylor Christensen #Courtney Wagner #Blackwell Academy #wlw #gxg #a bit angsty #nvm quite angsty

[whalienjxy]

5:26 pm

for some reason i kept listening to this on repeat while writing this.

Levi feels so silly, sitting under that tree like that. There’s a person laying down beside him as he rests his back against the strong bark, his hand doesn’t know how to stop playing and fiddling with their hair, and once again, he realizes that he can easily feel normal when he is with you, far far away from all the blades and blood and wings of freedom.

Whatever normal is.

Levi feels silly because he just ran away from the castle with you, both of you out of your uniforms, riding your horses right out of the stable with no distention in mind and countless eyes looking for where the pair of you could’ve possibly disappeared to.

It wasn’t his idea, obviously, he actually opposed it with every inch of his mind and body, but it looked like you weren’t taking no for an answer, and Levi came to discover just how stubborn of a person you can be.

Beside the fact that he literally just can’t actually say no to you and everything.

It started with little nagging when you first saw each other in the morning, he knew something was going to go down when he saw that silly little mischievous smile on your face in the morning line when your eyes met.

“Let’s run away today,” You’d told him as you pass by, your smile growing when his eyes sharpened in shock, both of your statement and the fact that you were too close for everyone else not to see your little attempt in trying to talk to the man.

He doesn’t reply. You pass by like you normally intended, joining the rest of your group, and he has to be left alone and interpret what you meant by that.

“What do you think?” you caught him while transferring some merchandise from the carriages outside the castle.

“What the fuck are you on about?” He asks through gritted teeth, stepping closer so you’re the only one that sees him. He takes his eyes off you to look around for any peering eyes, but your giggle only forces him to look back at you.

“Let’s finish this and just get out of here.” You tell him. You also look around, and when you deem it clear, you step even closer, your smile softening with a loud sigh. “I don’t know. I feel giddy today. I want you to myself.”

“I can’t just… up and leave,” Levi’s sentence starts a bit scruffy, but ends soft, matching the look of his eyes. “We’ll meet tonight. I’ll see you on the roof.”

“No.” The look in your eyes worries him. You tilt your chin down just a bit, you smile no longer as soft as it was just seconds ago. “I wanna watch the sunset. i wanna do…stuff. I don’t fucking know either, Levi. But i wanna do this.”

“We have a shit load of things—“

“Levi! What’s taking you so long?” Erwin’s booming voice rings around you two, and suddenly you’re six feet apart again.

Levi looks at you again. “Don’t do anything stupid.”

You shrugged, then, mischief still in tact in your smile as you turn your back to him and continue on with your task.

Later, you picked on the poor man again when you were training. It became a usual sight for the soldiers, seeing the pair of you beat the shit out of each other-or more like you not being able to stay on your feet for as much as you do on your ass- since Levi’s taken it as a personal mission to make you as good of a soldier as you possibly can be upon your own request, so no one was paying the pair of you as you banter through mud and dirt.

You try your best to keep your grin off your face. “Why are you pulling your punches today?”

“You’re too dangerous to piss off right now.”

You try a swing, he ducks. Another, he ducks, and seizes you in his arms so your back is against his front, with his mock blade up to the side of your neck.

“We can’t, y/n.” He says, and his voice is laced with seriousness you haven’t heard all day. You’re both panting, you try to get out of his grip, but he presses the wooden tip a bit firmly to your neck. “Not today. i’ll make it up to you. I promise.”

A quick elbow to the ribs and the back of your head to his nose was all it took for him to let go. It was already time for everyone to hit the showers.

“i’ll see you in your quarters in an hour, captain,” You fix your clothes, watching as he shakes his head to snap away the pain of your head-butt. You point the wooden blade, that’s now somehow in your hand, at him before letting it drop to the floor, right hand raising to your chest for a sharp salute. “I’m not taking no for an answer.”

“y/n…” he tries to call, but you already gave your back to him. he calls again, but the sound of sasha’s laughter covers it up, then you’re out of reach before he knows it.

An hour later, the captain sits in his quarters, fresh out of the shower, already on the roll for some paperwork before the meeting at 6. He tried to avoid looking at the clock every five fucking minutes just to make sure that you’re not crazy enough to actually go on with what you want, but all hope is lost when he hears a sharp knock, and the knob is already twisting open before he guarantees entry.

“y/n.” You’re no longer in your uniform.

“Levi.”

“No.” Is that a fucking dress?

“Yes.”

It was before he even realizes that there is a change of clothes is dropped on his desk. It’s wrapped in a grey cape, one similar to the color he used to have wrapped around him in the underground, matching the one that currently hid your face.

He is almost assaulted into changing out of his uniform, and, once more, before he knows it, he is running into the stable with your hand in his to let out your horses.

You squeak in excitement, your hands balling in little fists, and Levi feels like he’s falling in love with you all over again.

He makes sure you’re seated on your horse well before he climbs on his, and levi really, really can’t believe he is doing this.

The gates were open, a specific request by Captain Levi himself, and you slip right through

His plain cape is fluttering in the air from the second you two take off from the stable. It feels light, feels like he can breathe, it’s fucking incredible how feather light he feels without the weight of the wings of freedom impaling his back.

Riding through the end of the town, Levi can’t help but want to laugh every time he looks at you. You look just as free as he feels.

He follows you, lets you lead the way, lets you take him wherever you want, and the solid ground beneath the hooves of your horses soon turn green as he is lead in a field up a hill.

You let out a laugh, then, loud, hysterical, beautiful. your horse speeds up, going ahead of Levi, and the air pushes the cape out of your face. Your hair is freely dancing in the wind, and you throw your head up.

For those few seconds, something really smacks Levi across the chest. it hurts in the most heartwarming way possible. He can breathe a little deeper with you in his view like this, amongst greenery and trees and the sun rays complimenting the shade of your hair and skin just perfectly.

He feels alive. Levi feels alive for the first time in his entier life.

You pick a tree and slow down to a halt. Levi climbs down first to help you to your feet even though he know you don’t need such thing, but fuck it. He helps you down, pulls you to him, and you giggle when his lips meet yours in a way you will have to bottle up and save for later to think about.

They could die tomorrow. Hell, any second now, a titan can breach the walls and doom all humanity. Is Levi really ready to leave before he feels like this?

As selfless as he is, when it comes to you, Levi is a greedy man. He realizes so just now, relishing in the sound of your steady breathes as you nap under a tree on a random day, stranded away from everyone and everything.

“y/n.”

“i’m awake.” you mumble sleepily.

“you don’t sound awake.”

“shhh…”

“you’re missing the sunset.”

Your eyes snap open, and Levi has to hold himself back from chuckling at the way your body snaps up. Wide eyes soften when you see that you didn’t miss anything, and levi was, in fact, bluffing, but the sky was already turning orange. You nudge Levi and relax back beside him.

You watch the sunset, then. It’s silent beside the tweet-tweets of birds returning back home. The sky oh-so magically turns orange and pink and purple, and right when the sun is at the horizon, the silence is broken by soft sniffles.

Levi looks beside him, and he immediately finds the source.

All red-nosed and teary-cheeked, you stare at the scenery in front of you, biting your lower lip to keep all the other noises internal.

Levi’s brain short-circuits here. What the fuck does one do in situations like this?

You keep silently crying, trying your hardest not to reach Levi so you wouldn’t make him uncomfortable with your touch, unbeknownst to what your touch actually does to the affection-starved man.

“Look,” you point at the dying sun, trying to get his attention off of you. “You’re missing the best part.”

“I’m not,” Levi tells you with no hesitation, but he just keeps staring, confused, internally panicking because you’re fucking crying and he doesn’t know what to do about it, neither does he know why.

so, he bluntly begins there.

“Why are you crying?” He keeps his voice as soft as it can be.

you look at him, eyes full to the brim, rosy-tear-stained cheeks, and you still manage to look as magical as a sunset is to someone who lived more than half his life in the underground.

“i don’t know,” you wipe under your eyes, looking away again, looking down as if in shame. “i don’t know. this is pathetic.”

levi’s hand shoots out before he can control it, seizing the hand on your face in his to pull it away. “it’s not pathetic.”

he doesn’t let go of your hand, and thats where your gaze goes next.

but his other hand is suddenly cupping your cheeks, thumb wiping under your eye, and you feel more tears bubble over.

“why would your tears be pathetic?” he asks, and he sounds like he is genuinely asking. you swallow the lump in your throat, unable to say or do anything in his hold.

“i just…” you trail off, sounding too wobbly for your captain to understand. you close your eyes, taking a couple of deep breathes before you open your eyes again. “I never thought i’d get to live through something like this.”

oh.

“it’s a bit overwhelming.” you turn your head to at the purple skies. “all of this,” your gaze settles on him once more. “you. i really hope i’m not dreaming. that one would hurt like a bitch.”

ok, now its worse and levi has no fucking idea what to do, but his body looks like it does.

because he doesn’t hesitate to kiss you. he doesn’t hesitate to pull you on his lap to feel as much of you as possible, and he doesn’t hesitate when he allow his tongue to dance with yours.

he doesn’t know what to say, but he hopes that he is relying the message just fine. he feels like he is doing a good job because you drop your forehead to the crook of his neck once you are apart, and you’re not crying anymore.

the silence stretches, now both of you believing that this is a very real thing that is happening, and it simultaneously fills the pair of you with both absolute euphoria and crippling fear.

because what if this is the only time you will be able to experience this? you both grow greedier and greedier, and the world is cruel enough to allow your fresh-born fantasies to die down instantly.

“we…” levi begins, a hand gently massaging the back of your neck. “we’ll come back here often.”

it wasn’t a question, wasn’t a suggestion, levi was throwing it in as a firm fact.

you look at him, silent. somehow, you both know what exactly is going on in your heads.

“we will. we’ll come back often. together.”

#aot drabbles #levi aot #levi x reader #snk levi #attack on titan #levi ackerman x you #levi drabble #levi x y/n #levi comfort #levi fluff #a bit angsty #its been so long #im sorry #THIS WASNT SUPPOSED TO BE SAD