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You left at fourteen. I’ve been fourteen ever since.

(Not mine)

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watching Requiem For A Dream and losing my mind

#female manipulator #lana del rey #male manipulator #aesthetic #art #movies #film #filmisnotdead #requiem #film bro

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panic attacks in paradise - ashnikko 🫶🏻

#art #female manipulator #aesthetic #male manipulator #love #boyfriend #song lyrics #lyric posting #lyrics #ashnikko

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#grunge #alex g #art #lana del rey #aesthetic #midwest #ldr #female manipulator #male manipulator #camcorder

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i want people to know that when i wear a skirt i’m not wearing it in a “girly way”. i’m wearing it in a “i can ruin ur life but also don’t look at me weird” way.

#lana del rey #female manipulator #alex g #grunge #male manipulator #coqeutte #cute skirt #aesthetic #female hysteria #dark femininity #female rage #ragecore #female

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accepting the fact that i will always be obsessed

#art #female manipulator #aesthetic #love #lovers #male manipulator #i love him #grunge #obsessive thoughts #glaive #lyric posting #lyrics #spotify #actually obsessive

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#female manipulator #lana del rey #aesthetic #grunge #male manipulator #love #alex g #bpd favorite person #bpd #extreme #mental illness #broken #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd problems #actually borderline #bpd feels #favorite person #i love him #lovers #art

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astrid is me. i am astrid.

#grunge #art #female manipulator #male manipulator #aesthetic #glaive #astrid #old friends #friendship #ex best friend #alex g #lana del rey #people pleaser #lyric quotes #lyrics #spotify #alternative music #new music #music

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my room

sometimes i cry

in my room

alone.

i look around

and remember all the people

that have been in this room too.

the boy who made fun of me for my zodiac poster.

he always knew how to find an insult in everything i enjoyed.

the girl who would run to my bed and spread out all her makeup (and cart$) so we could go through it.

i’m so glad she was comfortable enough to make my room feel like home

i miss these people.

but i’m still here.

still crying,

in my room.

#art #grunge #lana del rey #alex g #female manipulator #aesthetic #male manipulator #i love him #old friends #nostalgia #female poets #writers #writing #poetry #books and literature #poetry tumblr #writers and poets #poetsandwriters #i miss her #i hate him #zodiac signs #aries

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#alex g #grunge #art #aesthetic #lana del rey #female manipulator #male manipulator #bpd #bpd stuff #trauma #childhood trauma #mental illness #ptsd #nostaligiacore #nostaliga #nostalgeek #nostalgic #y2k #90s #vintage 90s #old photo #old phography #jack stauber #2007 #2000s #00s #whisper girl #illness #mentally drained #i hate it here

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playgrounds hold the best memories,

not your bed.

i am twelve years old.

#lana del rey #female manipulator #love #male manipulator #grunge #trauma #girl manipulator #manupulation #manipulative #playground #teenage dirtbag #mid 90s #skater #memory lane #memories #nostalgic #nostaliga #nostaligiacore #virgin loser #i want to scream #ex boyfriend #mentally exhausted #bpd #bpd favorite person #he ruined everything #he ruined me #alex g #art #lovers #aesthetic

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#grunge #alex g #art #lana del rey #aesthetic #nostaligiacore #nostalgic #nostalgia #parents #mommy issues #female manipulator #female hysteria #dark femininity #mentally drained #hopefulness #hopeful poem #writing #female poets #female writers #90s #90s style #mid 90s #90s vibes #90s kid #y2k #film #old phography #old photo #lovers #male manipulator

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#lana del rey #grunge #alex g #art #school #high school #therapy #i hate school #bpd #autism #artists on the spectrum #fuck school #i hate my class #classmates #friends #whisper girl #whispers #female hysteria #female writers #female manipulator #dark feminine energy #writing #writers on tumblr #aesthetic

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i will live laugh love until my stomach is skinny. then i need 2 break into my exes house and smash his computer.

karma, karma, karma!

i want him back.

#discord chat #gamer boy #ex boyfriend #karma #poets on tumblr #poetry #love #female manipulator #male manipulator #lovers #i love him #lana del rey #alex g #aesthetic #grunge #female hysteria #female writers #writing #writerscommunity #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #actually mentally ill #bpd favorite person #bpd #digital diary #diary #i love him dearly #i want to be skinnier #i want to be pretty #art #skiny girl

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current obsession: glaive ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

#glaive #cypress grove #grunge #aesthetic #art #concert #alternative music #music #hyperpop #grungy style #live music #literally obsessed #obsessed girls #im obssesed #music inspo #celebs #daddy issues #lana del rey #i love him

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Something I wrote last year:

Things have gone downhill since the end of last week. I’ve been c^tting again. I was going to k!ll myself two nights ago. I started to attack myself with scissors and was sent to the hospital. I went home hours later. They couldn’t do anything. I said all the right things to get out of it. I’ve found that I’m a very skilled manipulator. When talking to the hospital’s social worker, she said that a lot of my issues are just because of “teen hormones”. While yes that’s true, it’s way worse than that. I feel emotions so intensely. Sometimes I feel like my body turned to stone because of how heavy my heart feels. I hold so much inside. So many stories. My friends are sick of hearing them. I try to remember all the traumatic events that have happened to me but I can’t remember them all. That’s why i’m so obsessed with writing. I like to keep the memories. One day they will make great stories! 

Sometimes when I get involved in problematic things I get asked why I wouldn’t think twice and stop myself. To be honest, I do. I just don’t care at this point in my life. (Which I know is stupid since I’m only fifteen.) Nothing matters. I get out of everything somehow. Why not take the risk and make the memory. Now, I know if I share that way of thinking with anyone I will probably be gone for a while. That’s why I don’t. I haven’t truly admitted it to myself until just now.

#alex g #female manipulator #grunge #art #lana del rey #male manipulator #bpd blog #manic #tumblr diary #internet diary #journal #diaryposting #kinda depressing #sh cw #writing #literature #poetry #poets on tumblr #female writers #female hysteria #female rage #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #memories #high school #psych ward #hospitalization #treatment #ptsd #vent #adhd