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adventuringblind · 8 months
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Drive With You Forever
Chapter 6.1: some chaotic group texts
Max Verstappen x Charles Leclerc x Lando Norris x Reader
Chapter summary: just some group texts between the quartet
Warnings: sexual innuendo, mentions of the Daniel incident, Max being a dad, Lando being a menace, reader is gullible, Charles is a clutz
Notes: I felt the need to show you the chaos I have going in my notes and writing software for these four
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Lando: so what's the plan for tonight?
Charles: Max won so its up to him
Lando: but like... I could not do what he says 😈
Y/N: ah yes I love watching Lando suffer
Lando: hey! You're just no fun!
Y/N: i am fun and also do what I'm told. I think Charles would agree with me 👀
Charles: yes, but it's also fun to watch as Lando begs for mercy.
Maxy: and here I thought we could have a soft night
Lando: absolutely not
Lando: I woke up a menace to society, and I plan on ending the day that way
Charles: Lando no
Y/N: Lando no
Lando: Lando yes
Lando corrupts y/n
Maxy: Lando, I swear on everything that if I find you starting before me and Charles get there, I will not let you finish for a year.
Lando: guess who's here with me
Lando: *image*
Charles: At least she's waiting like we asked
Lando: unless 👀
Y/N: I tried to tell him
Charles: Lando, I will not hesitate
Lando: ha! Look at the perfect angel now! *video*
Maxy: I'm stunned
Maxy: I swear I will have both of you crying by the end of tonight
Y/N: I'm sorry! Lando started talking, and my head just did what he said :(
Charles: sounds about right
Lando: *video*
Maxy: how the fuck are you even recording this??
Lando: skills.
Charles: you're corrupting the innocent!! Leave the angel alone!!
Max being a dad
Maxy: what time is everyone planning on being home? I have dinner on the stove
Y/N: I am home. I have no friend remeber?
Maxy: is my company nit enough for you? 🫢
Y/N: You sound like Seb rn
Lando: after Jon let's me live in peace
Maxy: work hard Lan! You'll make it!
Lando: Did you wake up okay? Are you sick? When did you become a father?
Maxy: why are you being so mean?
Charles: I won't be there for dinner, my mother is feeding me tonight
Y/N: awe! That's so sweet!
Maxy: be safe!
Charles: 😶
Lando: 😶
Y/N: Sometimes he's dad, but most of the times, he's daddy
Y/N becomes an avenger
Y/N: I have decided to learn martial arts
Lando: intresting. Why?
Y/N: because all the avengers know martial arts and I'm already halfway there
Charles: anyone sometimes forget that y/ns powers aren't normal?
Charles: like we're litteraly dating a superhero
Maxy: just be glad you weren't there when she learned she could use it on people
Maxy: I scared her so bad she accidentally threw me across the paddock the first race back from break
Maxy: I'm sad to say I was turned on from it
Lando: does this mean you'll be fighting crime?
Y/N: Does crippling depression count as a crime? If so, then yes
Y/N does some research
Y/N: did you guys know this is a thing???
Y/N: *link*
Charles: alright whoever gave her access to Google (lando) I promise I won't be mad if you confess
Lando: why do you think it's me?
Charles: because of what that link it
Max: who told you about this y/n?!
Y/N: it was Carlos, actually. He mentioned it and I was confused sk I asked what it meant and he said to Google it
Charles: I will be having words woth my teammate
Y/N: he said it's where people share ideas about what they do in the bedroom
Lando: honey... no
Max: Sometimes, I forget you are still gullible
Lando: on the other side... any intresting finds 🤔
Y/N: now I'm confused
Lando: nothing new
Charles: Lando be nice, the poor girl was just told about this
Charles: I asked Carlos what he said
Charles: did you really not know the females can do this?
Y/N: No? It's not like anyone has ever sat me down and explained every atmomical function of my body, and this one just sounds weird
Max: Anyone down for further research? 🤚🏻
Charles: Obviously, we can't let this opportunity go to waste
Lando: maybe we can convince her of other things while we're at it
Y/N: you're so mean to me
Post Daniel incident
Lando: You should have seen Daniel during interviews today!
Lando: he's an absolute disaster!
Charles: what a pervert
Max: Please tell me he's not making eyes at you
Y/N: Doesn't he have eyes? Why would he need to make them?
Max: I'll explain that one later
Lando: No, he's not. Don't worry, your pretty little heads
Lando: he's been blushing at every question that involves us
Y/N: as partners?
Lando: everything.
Lando: "what do you think of the grid quartet? Are you all still close friends?"
Lando: his response was between yes and no, and he couldn't make eye contact with the interviewer
Max: I think we did a number on him
Charles: a well deserved number might I add
Max: we're never doing that again though
Y/N: omg! I tried to go say hi, and a reporter spotted us and came to ask a question but turned around after he heard Daniel apologize for my throat for the millionth time 🤭
Lando: man can't win today
Charles: I'm glad he apologized
Max: I'm glad he's finally stopped trying to take pictures of us
Max: If he ever does it again, I'm running him off the track and into the wall
Charles the uncordinated
Lando: Has anyone seen Charles? I made dinner for us and can't find him.
Max: You know me and y/n are in a meeting rn right?
Lando: yes but I'm worried
Y/N: Can't we see each ithers location?
Lando: ...
Lando: Why is he at the park?
Charles: I went for a run, remember?
Lando: that was two hours ago, mate
Charles: ... it's been a long run
Max: is everything okay Charlie?
Y/N: Did you sprain it?
Lando: Sprain what??
Charles: :/
Charles: traitor
Y/N: I had a vision that he fell while out on his run and told him to be careful around the curbs
Y/N: it looked pretty bad. Do you need us to go get you, love?
Max: The answer is yes. We're on our way to get you.
Charles: I can get home myself
Charles: is Lando upset? The radio silence from him is killing me
Charles: nvm he's running at me in his bright orange McLaren sweatshirt
Charles: he's holding a first aid kit
Lando: WEEWOOWEEWOOWEEWOO
Lando: no need to worry, the doctor is in ;)
Charles: Someone save me
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AITA for omitting to a friend that I know more about her life than she thinks I know?
So, I (17F) am friends with a group of nice people in my class. Were're not like, really close friends, at least I am not emotionally very close to them as I am to my bestfriend but anyway. There was a couple in this group, a girl we're gonna call Princess and a boy we're gonna call Emo. I am friends with both of them, and they always seemed like a "couple goals" to other people. One day, Emo called me privately via text message telling they have broken up. I thought it was a prank, but no. He was so angry and I really noticed he wanted somebody to listen to him. Anyways, he spilled some hot tea about their relationship I didn't knew about. He said that she cheated on him a while ago and he forgave her after, but said the reason of this fight is because of some other reason. I'm not gonna tell the whole story, but I tought they were kinda both asses: he tought she was too promiscuous, and she seemed very emotional manipulative from the stories he told me. I was honest then: told him which parte they he was right and the parts I thought he was being an ass. Anways, something I noticed about princess is that she never told anyone about the end of their relationship. She and Emo were more distant in school and no one seemed to notice, but I did. Because I already knew. But here's the thing: I didn't told her I knew what was going on with her, because I wanted to wait her time. I wanted her to feel ready enough to open this up without feeling pressured. Some time passed, Emo was having a mental breakdown wanting her back, she didn't wanted him (which I don't blame her) and I gave him some emotional support via text so Emo wouldn't turn suicidal too. I was feeling bad for him actually, never saw that boy have such a heart to heart vent with me. And he really trusted me, he said I was a very kind person and should never change. Some time passed and Princess texted me out of the blue saying she wanted to talk. I was already suspicious about what would be. She finally told me she and Emo have broken up. Well, I wanted to be honest, so I didn't wanted to fake surprise. I said I already knew and I could feel she was very confused. I said Emo told me but that I never brought up the topic woth her because I was waiting her time, I wanted her to feel ready by herself. She gladly understood this part and where I was coming from. But she asked if Emo said anything more than just "hey, me and princess broken up" and I will admit, I panicked a bit. Honestly, I don't think it's my fault that I know everything about the cheating and their last fight: boy wanted somebody to talk and spilled everything from his heart, as a friend I listened to him. But as a friend I don't think I can expose his conversations with me to Princess because that would be gossip, so that's why I gave her this answer: "No, he just said you two broke up. Nothing more. I still don't know if I did the right thing. Part of me feels like she would feel horrible to know that I know all the things that happened to them (I mean, she didn't say to me those parts for a reason, right?) and I something I take very seriously in friendships is privacy and loyalty. I don't think is right to tell her about Emo's conversation with me, as much as I never told Emo about any chat I had with princess. They're both my friends, I have commitment to both of them.
But part of me feels like a straight up bitch about lying. I remember I went to sleep that night with my heart hammering in my chest. My mom says I am a good friend to both of them. But my best friend said she would give a different and 100% honest answer to princess if she was in my place.
Help me.
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moonaged-moony · 25 days
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So.. I wrote a little jegulus thing loosely based off the song Alley Rose by conan gray.. Enjoy :)
warning - heavy angst!!!
As soon as James got off the phone with Regulus, he was in his car. He was probably going over the speed limit, but he couldn't care less.
Regulus had called him, asking him to run away with him just for the night. And of course James had obliged. James would run away for good if Regulus asked him to.
He pulled up to the corner store and saw him standing there. His eyes were red, and his lips were torn. It was clear that he'd been biting them. He still looked beautiful even in this dishevelled state.
Regulus got in the car without a word. He barely even glanced at James. He didn't ask any questions, even though he had many, he just drove. He knew it would be a sore subject right now for Reg, he didnt want to push it.
They pulled up at his parent's holiday cabin and got out of the car. He opened the door and held it open for Regulus. As soon as it was closed Regulus pushed him against the wall.
"Regulus?" James tried to speak but he was quickly cut off.
He felt Regulus's fingers around his neck as he pulled him into his desperate breath.
The way he was kissing him, hard and fast. James couldn't get enough. But he had a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach, like this would be the last kiss he ever shared with him.
Later that night, as they were pressed up against each other in James's bed, he couldn't shake the feeling of dread.
They still hadn't spoken about why Regulus had needed to get out of the house. Why he practically begged James to run away with him for the night.
James didn't want to sleep. He had a horrible feeling that when he opened his eyes again Regulus wouldn't be there. He could hear Regulus breathing. He knew he wasn't asleep yet.
"Reg, you won't leave me, will you?" He whispered in his ear.
He didn't receive an answer.
"You won't leave me alone again will you, love?" He could hear the desperation creeping into his voice.
Still no answer. Why was he ignoring him? The knot in his stomach tightened.
After a few hours of trying to get to sleep, his eyes finally drifted closed. When he awoke, Regulus was still next to him. He let out a breath of relief.
"Regulus, love, wake up."
He watched as his eyes fluttered open. He was so beautiful.
As much as he didn't want to push him, they needed to talk about why he was acting so strange. James needed to calm his worries. They got out of bed, and he made them both a cup of coffee.
"James.. I'm sorry."
"Sorry for what?"
"For everything."
But James needed him to be specific right now.
"What's on your mind?"
"Im just so nervous, mon soleil.."
"About what? You can tell me anything, love, you know that."
Regulus closed his eyes, and James could tell something was wrong.
"Regulus, I love you. You can trust me."
He doesn't say it back.
Why doesn't he say it back? Even when they were in an argument he'd always say it back. Even when he was in a tough place with his family, he still said it back.
So why wasn't he saying it back now?
It was as though he could sense James waiting. He looked up at him, woth those beautiful grey eyes. He saw the tears welling up in his eyes.
"Regulus?" He tried to keep his voice steady, but it came out shaky and broken.
He said he was nervous. Maybe that's why. Whatever he was worried about must have been bad.
Still, a small part of him wanted to scream at him to say it back.
When Regulus called him last night, that was the first they'd spoken in a year. But that was because his mother forbid him from speaking to anyone. When he left for home, he had reassured James that when he returned to him, nothing would have changed. That he would still love him.
He waited all year, practically begging at his feet to leave with him.
He waited. He thought, even after all this time, that he'd still love him.
"James.." He sounded so broken. James would do anything to fix it.
"Regulus, say it back." It came out as a sob.
"I can't."
That's what he was dreading. The words he was begging him not to say in his head.
"Why not?" He felt the tears start to stream down his face. He probably sounded insane, but he didn't even care.
Regulus didn't answer.
"Reg.. please, don't leave me alone again."
He played back all their memories in his head.
The first time they kissed. He'd an his fingers through his hair, and thanked god to touch the flame.
When he'd told him about his last relationships. How he believed necks were made for brusing. He swore lips were made for lies. And he thought that if Regulus ever left, that he would be the reason why.
When they'd started as just a summer fling. It was all experimental and he thought Regulus would prefer safer things.
He used to swear hands were made for fighting. He swore eyes were made to cry.
Regulus was the first person who proved that to be a lie.
He watched as Regulus grabbed his coat.
"Regulus don't leave me hanging alone again." He sounded hysterical now.
He followed Regulus as he walked out the door. He couldn't even hear his own voice anymore. He screamed the same thing over and over. Even after Regulus was far gone. He sat on the floor screaming at the sky until his throat felt raw.
He stayed in the cabin. He didn't answer anyone's texts or calls.
When he heard a knock on the door, a small pathetic part of him hoped it was Regulus. He hoped he'd changed his mind. That he'd come back for him.
It wasn't him. It was Sirius. Sirius who's cheeks were stained with tears.
Sirius who was holding a newspaper.
James took it with shaky hands, unfolding it and reading the headline.
It was all hazy after that. He heard his knees hit the floor. He heard himself screaming, but it felt far away. He felt his heart splitting into a million pieces as he replayed the headline in his head over and over again.
Regulus Black pronounced dead at age 17.
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the-monkey-ruler · 8 months
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Wukong after reaching the nirvana, after his 15 years of journey (Idk if it's 15 years the journey has lasted) did he still eat humans after that time? I've heard in buddhism the human life is not woth at all, it's like an atom, correct me if this is wrong and thanks for your time of answering
(14 years) and no Wukong did not eat humans afterward as that would go against his vows to not eat meat and to value all life. I don’t know who told you that human life is worth nothing in Buddism but human life is to be considered one of the highest levels to be and should be valued as sacred to be able for anyone to reach enlightenment… I think you might be confusing the idea that letting go of personal material and personal desires like greed, want, and selfishness is the same as letting go of your own personality or morals?? Which is not the case. They accept that they are going to but they do not want to die and they accept that all life is priceless which does not mean no life is less worthy. It is even said to be careful when you sweep so that ants are not harmed… Buddism being about letting go of worldly desires and while there is a lot about self-sacrificing and selfishness involved it is out of a place of compassion and love for your fellow man.
As a Buddha, Wukong is supposed to have a sense of lack of self, be able to separate the idea of self from his physical form, and become one with the universe all that jazz but that doesn't mean that life is... an atom? Self-sacrifice in this case means giving up his worldly desires, in order to reach that level of enlightenment. It’s more about not letting worldly desires weigh you down, knowing that just being yourself is enough and you don’t need to desire things that are “better” in order to find fulfillment in your life. All the happiness that you can find in the world is inside you in about accepting yourself rather than, looking for acceptance in the world. The reason why they push for having no desires is more so that you don’t need those desires, like money or fame or glory in order to feel more like a person. You have, and will always will be enough and that’s all that you’ve ever needed. Of course, it’s also important to connect to others that they are also enough how they are, and by showing them through compassion.
Actually just to think that Buddhism encourages devaluing life to the point of suicide or murder… that is very inaccurate to the point of insulting. I am not sure where you got this information but I implore you to do more research as that is… disgusting to think an entire religion is boiled down to such a thing…
And also while Wukong has said he has killed and eaten humans if it is often seen as more of him saying that hypothetically as his power of reviving people only happens with a pure qi. In the book Sanzang asks for Wukong to bring back the dead king in the well because both Bajie and Wujing ate people and their powers are tainted from while Wukong is pure, suggesting that he has never eaten a sentient being.
Has Sun Wukong really eaten people? Look at what he said to the Jade Emperor with clairvoyance when he was just born
https://inf.news/en/culture/93b9d93209bb1de0b7ecd2eef670cbdf.html
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i-bring-crack · 1 year
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You know its stupid that Woo Jin Chul vividly remembers everything about Jin Woo by just a single touch, without having Jin Woo giving his memories to him.
You know
Like a literal trope in romance movies about soulmates or start crossed lovers.
But Cha Hae In is endgame
okay.
This is mostly just sour thoughts about Cha Hae In not being given enough development, cuz there could have been, literally, like: Hunters guild, Jeju, Kartenon, Monarchs arc, final arc— but they never expand on her AHGGHGH—
Hunter's guild: Oh she is recognized as the strongest there? even far more than the ultimate soldier and almost as much as The chairman, she has a strong sense of smell (but you know, that is literally just to have a reason for Cha to be interested in Jin Woo... literally nothing else.) She is a swordsmaster that is connected to Song Chi Yul, her skills are so good Sung couldnt even sense her when they met?
And what do they do woth her?
Oh look she is going to save her guildmates who could have died instatly! By using a pickaxe, hahah oh how funny!
Jeju island: oh she is actually far stronger than the japanese s ranks and— welp only one, and there she goes being saved by Jin Woo again bc you know, damsel in distress is like the number one trope that Solo leveling uses it in every single chapter like its crack.
Oh but look she has defeated the Ant Queen! Only to be overshadowed, quite literally, by the fight between Sung and Beru [which i have nothing against, the very was awesome but seriously, the one time she wins and she is just thrown back again to damsel in distress COME ON!]
Kartenon: oh look the architect is judging her moves and actually saying that she might be able to go outside the system... whatever it means but it looks like she might surpass something —i even have pictures hold on.
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And they do nothing with it again.
In fact they just slap that down hard and say that she is still going by the systems rules so yada yada, she gets hurt and Jin woo has to save everyone again.
Monarchs arc: Nope nope nope, literally just a date definetly couldnt have explored the situation more by you know, having Jin Woo open up about his dad passing away (which the novel did grant a little more of that) and Cha Hae In comforting him because Jin Woo sees Cha Hae In as his first friend and they definetly could have build that shit up to something more.
BUT NOPE!
Last arc: I wont even try to explain just how overly sour the ending was for me. One of the strongest girls in the series, the olympic athelete, the S rank that fought her trauma whilst facing Beru... gets turned into a housewife.
Horray.
It would bave been better if Cha Hae In seemed even the tiniest interested in being a housewife, bc i do love me some characters who can kick ass while also mainting a good homelife without the need of anyone else, but no. She wanted to be an athlete, and now she is like a mother with wife duties. Thats it, i didnt know if she quit ... eh she didnt seem to look like it so, thankfully, but like, come one that was a sudden 180.
Of all people, I want her to have had more character than anyone. Not just because she is the love interest (but that also should be added ngl) but because she is one of the few S rank women that we see in the story (and lives, sorry japan). She is also the strongest of all Korea, actively working as a hunter unlike Go Gun Hee who was at the same time a ruler's vessel. A freaking vessel! Not to mention that cha hae in was everything Jin Woo wasnt at first, it was everything he was trying to become: rich enough to afford his mother's bills, powerful, strong, brave enough to fight any monster and protect everyone he cared about. They were so different and yet the same in their own grounded way.
But yes, butcher another character why not.
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natriae · 2 years
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Unfair
Atsumu x f reader
cw// she/her pronouns used, angst, lack of trust, yelling, breaking up, feelings of insecurity, slight suna x reader
not edited sorry lol
part 1 of 2
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“‘Tsumu i’m serious, can’t u see the way she looks at you. I hate it,”
“baby she doesn’t like me! WHAT DON’T YOU GET! we are just friends nothing more,”
“Well i think that me telling you i’m uncomfortable with it so many times you would tell her to back off,” y/n took a deep breath in trying to hold back the lump caught in her throat.
This isn’t the first argument they’ve had over how women acted around Atsumu…mainly Azumi. Hopefully it’s the last because after seeing Atsumu privately talk with Azumi at the bar last night you wanted this to end. Trying not to think the worse, you wanted Atsumu’s take of what truly happen, and hopefully get across how you don’t appreciate someone more beautiful, sexy, and perfect to be touching and flirting with your boyfriend. It has always been hard being Atsumu’s girlfriend. Everywhere you turned it’s like a sign was telling you you don’t deserve him. Fan’s comments and the beautiful women that surround him. He could have anyone why would he choose you.
You had been trying to express your all, but it was still hard for you. It was your first relationship, and of course it had to turn out like this. You crying to the man you wanted to give every part of you too, and what does he have to say…
“Well maybe i’m not the problem ,and you’re just being insecure,” Atsumu retorted. The flood gates opened. The silence that loomed in the once lively kitchen could no longer be found. Just the sounds of a heart breaking filled the space.
“W-What,” y/n hushly responded. As if she spoke even a little bit louder everything would fall apart. Tears blurred her vision, and her pounding head kept her from noticing Atsumu’s coos after realizing what he said. Everything in her brain told her to go. Stupid her for thinking she could be his one and only. “i-i think we need to stop,”
“yes yes thats a great idea you know i didn’t mean it like that sweetie,” it came out a bit rushed but Atsumu was relieved that the argument was over. Oh was he wrong.
“no…no i mean us. I-I really can’t do this anymore,” y/n responded though heavy breaths. Grabbing her keys, and ignoring Atsumu’s protest and whines she headed to the door. Attempting to hold her composition she said, “i’ll pick up what i left here tomorrow,” and woth that she was gone. Atsumu couldn’t bring himself to move to shocked at the situation.
On the walk home y/n let everything go all the tears and pain. Ignoring the stares of on lookers she continued to let it out. Was she embarrassed yes, but she couldn’t hold it any longer.
“hey! Y/N! Y/N,” hearing a voice call for her she turned around looking for it. She knew that voice. A voice she felt guilty for hearing. “hey-eh you okay? what happened? Where’s Atsumu?” Suna questioned after seeing her tear streaked face. Shaking her head at him she continued walked back to her apartment. Maybe he would leave her alone if she remained unresponsive. “okay be that way, but im walking you home,” Suna said walking just one step behind her. Of course Suna wouldn’t leave her around. His friend was obviously hurt, and he couldn’t let her be alone right now. If Suna was anything it was a great friend. He would be there with you though thick and thin.
Once in the apartment y/n expect Suna to leave, but he didn’t. “i’m staying till you eat something if you like it or not,” Suna said as his hand was pressed against the door. Why did she even bother she knew Suna was gonna stay anyway. It’s just who he was. “okay can u talk to me now,” Suna asked once on the couch.
Taking a deep breath y/n finally spoke a small, shaky sentence. “Atsumu and I broke up,”.
“WHAT,” Suna had to take a double take on that one. Before he could even speak another word y/n continued.
“and i feel really guilty that you’re here, because Atsumu always felt jealous when we hung out because he thought i would leave for you..a-and don’t get me wrong i love his possessiveness, but i just don’t understand why he can be possessive of me, but i can’t for him,” rambling on y/n couldn’t stop the word for exiting her mouth. All the thoughts she’s been holding in her head. “and he can’t even listen to me when i say this very pretty girl clearly has a crush on him. He just lets her flirt and flirt, and i think he’s just gonna leave me for her, and now that were broken up im sure he will. We never even kissed let alone sex im sure he doesn’t see me in that way. No one does-“
“whoa whoa WHOA pause. You and Atsumu broke up. Okay got that. Atsumu’s jealous of me. Got that. But you think you’re not good enough for him. DON’T GOT THAT. You are the most beautiful thing that has ever happen to him .he’s just being stupid. We will take a break from me being your therapist for food,”
~~2 hours later~~
Suna’s POV
“goodnight y/n stay safe. Call me,” I said slowly closing the door. Turning to the right to go down the apartment building’s steps i see a figure i most definitely didn’t wanna see right now.
“what are you doing here,” Atsumu said thought gritted teeth.
“whoa whoa whoa don’t get you’re panties in a bunch. I’m making sure you’re girlfriend eats, and is safe. You can have her,” Attempting to walk passed the blond, but i feel a hand on my chest. Looking up i see Atsumu attempting to put on the most serious face he could muster at the moment. Knowing the twin for so long i can tell he’s one word away from shattering. “hey. It it makes you feel any better i have my eyes on someone else,”. After what felt like several minutes pass Atsumu took a deep breath though his nose and let me pass. I began my journey down the steps, but i knew I needed to say one more thing. “Atsumu”
“what”
“she’s the most loyal girl i’ve ever met. You got lucky. Don’t lose her. I’m serious,”
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I plan to make a part two soon
i daydream a lot to escape and this was one i came up with after listening to “jealous, jealous”
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blackhakumen · 1 year
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Mini Fanfic #1028: Birthday Movie Night (RWBY)
9:43 p.m at The JNPRO'S Residence's Living Room......
Pyrrha: (Looks at Oscar's Mirror Reflection While Fixing up her Hair and Wearing a Wonder Woman Costume) So what kind of scary movie you and Ruby will be watching this evening, Oscar?
Oscar: (Fixing up his Tie as He Wears a Dress Suit Resembling That to Loid Forger) Winnie the Pooh: Blood & Honey.
Jaune: (Walk Past the Duo, Wearing a Link's Breath of the Wild Costume) They made a horror film about Pooh?
Oscar: Yep. Apparently it's about him tracking down Christopher Robin down and kill him for forgetting about him or something.
Ren: (Walks Past the Duo Wearing A Neji Costume) That....somewhat disturbing....
Oscar: Yeah, but Ruby said it already had a cult following for a while now, so we might as well check it out now than later I guess.
Nora: (Stands Behind Oscar With her Hands on her Hips, Wearing a Velma Costume) Well, I hope it doesn't have too much gore and bloodshed. (Hugs Oscar) I don't want you get any nightmares from all of that.
Oscar: (Gently Pats the Top of Nora's Hands) Don't worry. If the movie gets too intense, we could always turn it off and watch something else. Nothing to it.
'Doorbell Ring'
Oscar: Oh. Speaking of which....(Frees Himself From Nora's Arms and Makes his Way to the Door and Opens it) Ruby! Happy Birth-d-day?
Oscar's eyes and mouth begins to widens at the sight of his girlfriend wearing a form-fitting, halter-style black dress, a front skirt, a pair of black thigh-high boots, and black fingerless gloves, resembling that to Loid's "Wife", Yor Forger. All while having a bit of flirtous smirk on her face.
Ruby: (Giggles Softly) Hi, honey~
Oscar: H-Hey.
?????: You call him "Honey"?
Oscar: (Quickly Turns Around to See Jaune Staring at the Couple) Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-
Ruby: (Happily Nodded) That's right! Your boy here called me Dear once on our date, so I figured I returned a favor and give him a pet name of my own. (Pulls Oscar into a Hug) My sweet honey pie~
Jaune: (Starts Smirking at the Lover Boy and Question) You don't say~
Oscar: It was one time and complete accident!
Ruby: But you meant it, right?
Oscar: ('Sighs in Defeat') Yeah, I did....(Smiles a Little) Dear.
Ruby: (Grins Happily with a Giggle)
Jaune: (Chuckles Lightly) Ah man! You guys been dating for a month and a half now and you're already on the pet naming phase?
Pyrrha: (Clasps her Hands Together With a Cutesy Smile on her Face) They're growing up so fast~
Nora: (Leans the Half of her Body the Couple's Direction and Crosses her Arms With a Suspicious, Motherly Like Look on her Face) Uhh-huh....a bit too fast if you ask me. You better not try and do anything risqué with my boy while we're gone, Rose!
Ruby: (Eyes Widened While Blushing) N-Nora! What made you think I would do something like that? You know me!
Nora: True, but my mother instincts could tell exactly how promiscuous you girls are. (Points Two Fingers at her Eyes Before Pointing Them Directly to Ruby) So I got my eyes on you.
Ruby: (Puts on a Deadpinned Look on her Face) Anyone ever tell you that you're taking this whole "Mother Hen" role a tad bit overboard?
Oscar: (Has a Deadpinned Look on his Face as Well) I've been telling her that ever since the day we met.
Jaune: Cut her some slack, you guys. She's only like this because she cares.
Oscar: And I appericate her for that a lot. Doesn't make it any less annoying.....
Jaune: (Rubs the Back of his Head Back and Forth Woth a Sheepish Smile) You do have a point there.....
Nora: (Comically Glares at the Trio in Front of Her) I CAN HEAR YOU THREE, YA KNOW!?
Ren: (Holds Up his Scroll) Guys, I received a text from Sun. The party's about the start in a few minutes
Jaune: (Eyes Widens) Already? Alright, uh...(Turns Back to Oscar and Ruby) The number to the Pizza place is on the fridge, money for it is on top of the fire place, and....(Gently Ruffles Both of Oscar and Ruby's Heads) try not to stay up too late, 'kay? (Males his Way Out the Door)
Pyrrha: We'll bring you back some treats once we come back from the party. (Gives Oscar a Kiss on the Cheek Before Walking Out the Door as Well)
Ren: (Walks By and Gives Oscar Another Gentle Hair Ruffling Before Following Behind the Rest) I'll make sure we get back home safely.
Nora: We're gonna miss you....(Picks Oscar Up and Hugs Him Lovingly) Soooooo much!~
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Gonna miss you guys too, Nora~ Just try and have fun out there without me, alright?
Nora: ('Sigh') I'll try~ (Gives Oscar Three Kisses on his Cheek Before Putting him Down and Pointing her Fingers at Ruby Again) Watching you....
Ruby: (Giggles a Bot While Rolling her Eyes) I got the message the first time, Momma Nora.
Nora: (Went Back to Smiling Brightly) 'Kay, just making sure. (Walks Out of the Door Before Turning Around and Waving Goodbye to the Couple) Have a good date night, you two!~ Ruby, if you break my baby's heart, I'll break your leeeeeegs!~
Ruby: (Slowly Waves Goodbye Back to Nora While Chuckling Nervously) Yeah.....Fully noted....(Closes the Door Before Letting Out a Sigh) Oh geez.....
Oscar: Okay, I need to ask this: has Nora ever broken anyone's legs before you met me or no?
Ruby: (Grabs her Chin While Thinking) Uhhhh.....Does a giant, four legged Grimm counts as anyone?
Oscar: (Shrugs) Eh. I guess.
An Hour or Two Later in the Living Room
TV Screen: I'M SORRY, POOH! I-I didn't mean to leave you or forget about you, I- ('Roaring Chainsaw Noises')
Ruby: (Holds a Plate of Pizza in her Hand While the Side of her Head is Leaned Towards Oscar's Shoulder) You know, it's kind of surreal seeing something as cute and cuddly as Pooh be starred in a horror movie of all things. (Takes a Bite Off her Slice of Pizza)
Oscar: Tell me about it. I'm surprised the company who made him, didn't sue the film director yet.....
Ruby: Right? Ooh! (Gets Up From Oscar's Shoulder, Picks her Scroll Up From the Coffee Tea In Front of Her and Ues it to Find Something) Speaking of cute and cuddly, guess who else dressed up for Halloween?~
Ruby shows Oscar a picture of her pet dog, Zwei, dressed up as Loid and Yor's adopted daughter, Anya Forger.
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Awww~ He looks so cute in that costume.
Ruby: (Happily Nodded in Agreement) The cutest!~ I wanted to bring him along here with us, but my dad said he needed him to help pass out the candy to everyone. (Starts Giggling a Little) Check this one out~
Ruby shows Oscar another picture of Zwei making a troll-like smile on his face, resembling that to look Anya is well known for making.
Oscar: (Starts Snickering) You actually got him to do that face?
Ruby: (Happily Nodded Some More) Mmhmm~ I taught him how to do that myself. (Puts her Head Down For a Brief Second Before Raising it Back Up and Showing Off the Anya Troll Face of her Own) See?~
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Not too shabby there, birthday girl. Speaking of which, guess who's getting a present tonight?~
Ruby: ('GASPS') Meeeeee!?~
Oscar: Yep! Now close your eyes.
Ruby: (Immediately Drops her Smile in Place of a Pouty Look) Seriously?
Oscar: (Shrugs) Hey, it wouldn't be a special if I just give it to you upright. Nothing to it than that, right?
Ruby: (Stares at Oscar For a Brief Second Before Sighing in Defeat) Fiiiiine. I'll go along with the ordeal.....(Closes her Eyes Before Pointing at her Boyfriend) You owe me cuddles after this, mister!
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Whatever you say, Ruby~ You can see it riiiiiiiiiiiiight..... (Takes Out a Small, Black Box From his Pocket, Opens it, and Hands it in Front of Ruby's Face) Now.
As Ruby finally begins to open her eyes, they slowly widens and sparkles at the sight of her birthday present in front of her.
Ruby: Oscar.......You got me a necklace? Of my last name?
Oscar: Yeah. (Rubs the Back of his Head Back and Forth With a Sheepish Smile on his Face) It wasn't the first option for a gift though. I thought about getting you a new video game at first, 'tIll I found out how expensive most of them really are. Then, I thought about buying ypu a weapon polish equipment for your Crescent Rose, but I figured you'd probably have one your own, so.....that plan was scrapped immediately. I couldn't find any shoes you would like to wear, I didn't think you would be into fashion in general, and I already made you batches of cookies this month. And no! You are still not allowed to know what the secret recipe for them are, no matter how many times you beg.
Ruby crosses her arms while pouting again.and making a 'Hmph' sound under her breath.
Oscar: So after that, I was planning on giving up and call the gift shopping quest quits for the day, till something in my mind told me to give the jewelry store a shot.
Ruby: (Starts Smirking Slightly) The Holy Ghost of the Ozpin?~
Oscar: ('Heh') Probably. But anyways, I went over to the jewelry store, look around for a few minutes or so until I finally stumbled upon the necklace in front of you. It might not be as fancy or exquisite as the others, I knew here and there that it would look perfect on you. So I paid it with a reasonable price and viola! Your birthday gift! I.....(Looks Away Shyly) hope you like it.....
Ruby: Like it? (Looks Back at her Boyfriend) Oscar, are you kidding? (Immediately Pulls Oscar into a Very Loving Hug) I. LOVE IT!!~ (Rock Herself and Oscar Back and Forth in her Arms) I love it, I love it, I love it so freaking much, thank you!~ (Starts Kissing Oscar Multiple Times on the Cheek)
Oscar: (Giggles Ticklishly by Each Kisses He Receives) Yeah~ No problem. Was not expecting to get alot of kisses on Halloween of all holidays.
Ruby: Yeah? Well, believe it, honey pie, cause I'm the woman here to deliver~ (Gives Oscar One Final Kiss on the Nose Before Smiling Softly at Him) But seriously though, Oscar, thank you. Again. It means so much that you went out of your way to do this for me. (Puts on a Determined Smile on her Face) And trust me, once your birthday comes around, I'll do whatever it takes to give you the best present ever!....Which (Starts TwiddlingherFingersa Little)...means I have to grind a little harder in the Huntress business more than usual, but no worries! I'll push through!....Somehow.
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly) Don't I know it. But to be honest, I probably wouldn't want anything too grand or spectacular.
Ruby: You don't?
Oscar: Yeah. I'm a simple man. (Starts Rubbing The Back of his Head Back and Forth While Looking Away a Bit) Plus, having you in my life is already a great enough gift to ever ask for, so.....
Ruby: (Snickers a Bit) Cheesy~
Oscar: (Playfully Shrugs) Well, it's true, isn't it? You got me fallen for you.
Ruby: True, true~ (Gently Grab Both of Oscar's Hands) Having you in my life just so happens to be the best birthday wish I've ever wanted~
Oscar: Really.
Ruby: Really, really~ I love you, Oscar~
Oscar: I love you too, Rubes~
As the young couple stares at each other for a brief second before slowly moving their heads towards each other to the romantic kiss, a loud, sharp scream and the roaring sound of a chainsaw Immediately snapped them out of their trance and turn their heads back towards the TV.
Ruby: Huh. He caught him. (Turns Back to Oscar) Is this movie scaring you at all so far or.....
Oscar: Honestly, I....don't think it is. You?
Ruby: (Shrugs) Eh. I've seen a lot scarer stuff than this. (Uses the Remote to Turn the Movie Off) Let's watch something else. (Gasps as She Comes Up With a Brilliant Idea) Like Scary Goodmother specials!~
Oscar: (Raises an Eyebrow) Scary Goodmother? As in one of those children Halloween books? They actually made a TV special based around that?
Ruby: Yeah, two of them!~ A long time ago to be exact. Where have you been all that time?
Oscar: Raised in a farm, Ruby. Where the only thing we have for technology are the tractors and a radio.
Ruby: (Giggles a Bit Awkwardly) Oh. Right. Well, no worries!~ (Grabs her Scroll From the Coffee Table Before Scooching Close to Oscar and Wrapping a Blanket Around the Both of Themselves) Your cute and lovable girlfriend is here to relive the glory that is my lovely childhood~ (Snuggles Onto her Garm Boi Affectionately) Woth some love and cuddles here and there, of course~
Oscar: (Chuckles Lightly Once More) It's your birthday.
Happy Birthday, Ruby Rose and Happy Halloween to You All!!
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seeyabythemarina · 1 year
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I'd like to employ you-Lucifer
When stella was yelling at stolas, lucifer suddenly showed up saying he wanted to talk the family. That causes everyone,even octavia, to sit at the dinner table to discuss something. When all the birds are their, lucifer says we still need some more people. With a wave of his hand he summons IMP to the meeting
This causes everyone to feel fear if lucifer is going to punish them for illegally going to the human world, except stella who thinks that stolas will be stripped and all his possessions with go to her or better be killed.
They are all shocked thought when lucifer hugs blitzo and say what a genius he is for his marvelous business. Luci knew about the grimoire from stolas since imp ad came out but thought it was interesting to see and has been spying on them ever since. At first he thought they were a joke with the child to the giant fish on spring break, but the idea was good since imps are so week on the hell power ladder heaven can't tell when their on earth and it was a good way to stick it to heaven. However, when he found out about them getting those 3 cherubs banished, which he gave blitzo a huge hug for, he became more interested. It was till tht time with the agent that lucifer came up with his plan.He wants i.M.P to be a direct business underme for mudding humans on earth and continue to kill for sinner to mess with heavens heads.
That caused everyone to gasp, bltizo with joy as he immediately agreed to it. Before blitzo begin blitzo asked why he had to drag everyone hear as he had horse plushies to plau woth nstead of talking like a nroam demon.
Instead of offense lucifer laugh say this has just as much for stolas family as well. The grimore IMP is using is his and becuase it a very rare and powerful book which can't just be copied because judge by what happens with octavia anyone would just steal it from them easily. (this is a no divorce au and octavia still took the book and went to LA)
Luci wants stolas to be IMP royal overlooked doing job like keeping the book safe, helping to vet imp workers, etc. Add to your other duties
Everyone is at complete shock at this idea. Stolas and bltizo that their going to be official working together, M&M and loona that they be working as a group with lucifer approvable, octavia that she'll have to deal with the imp working with her dad more ans her moms anger about it, and stella was also furious that her husband instead if being punish is getting praise and more jobs by lucifer
Stolas grateful nothing will happen with what he's been done graciously accept the offer. Blitzo does so less graciously. Octavia becuase of her no-f attitude just sarcastic asks why she was even hear. Lucifer unbother by the teenage since Charles was a teen once to said that since it's a job adding the your father during you will gain them as a responsibility when you father retire, and thought on octavia now on advance to learn about the process while other thing like learning magic. The fact that octavia would have to hang around the IMP's more cause stella to snap and make her displeasure known.
Stella tells luci that stolas had been sleeping with the blitzo for the book. Surpraise her lucifer say he new that to and dint care as it made sense a imp could not give anything else in return for a powerful artifact. When stella seem like she going to talk some lucifer shuts her up with a glare. Sitting down stella for once in her life stay quiet as they continue to talk about every become angry stolas would continue to sleep with the imp and with ltiure approval from lucifer. Worse she probly have to call off striker if lucifer would launch an investigation if stolas died and find her easily.
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themadauthorshatter · 2 years
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Been a while since I've done one of these, so I'm back with one of these!😁
Recap: While Galeforce tries to get Charles and Cameron back, Charles and Cameron dispute about a next move and only drive each other part, something Henry is very happy with.
For more info, and to catch up, the masterpost is right here
Extra TW for mentions of starvation, isolation, and manipulation
That out of the way:
DAD!CHARLES X TOPPAT!HENRY PART 13!!!!
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We start with Cameron in their room as they kick and beat on their door and shout for Henry, demanding food and wanting to see Charles and even apologizing, and then saying they still hate him.
There's no response so they're left crying.
For context, it's been about a week, and they have not been fed at all. No one has come to visit, no one has made their presence known when Cameron asks, and they have been alone this whole time. Not even Henry has come to gloat at them.
Cameron, fed up with the solitude and guilt and starving like they had before when they were a child before Charles found them, then starts calling for Charles, apologizing to him for what they said.
Beyond the door, Sven stands and keeps looking over at Right, who shakes his head at him, silently reminding him of Henry's orders to not engage with Cameron, period.
Speaking of Henry, we cut to see him having some lunch with Charles, who's propped his head against his hand and picking at his plate while he stares at the empty chair meant for Cameron.
When asked, Henry simply tells him that Cameron is taking time to themself, which they should get due to still acting like a child.
Charles bites that Cameron IS a child, but Henry ignores him and instead draws attention to the fact that the two finally get to have time alone with no distractions or anyone bringing down the mood; Maybe Cameron being in their room is a blessing.
Charles, appalled, stands and throws the glass of wine in his glass into Henry's face, grabbing and pulling him out of his chair while he sputters. Reasonably, Charles is PISSED that Henry is doing this, saying how Cameron has nothing to do with whatever Henry thinks is between him and Charles and that they never should have been brought up to the orbital station to begin with. Where it stands, he doesn't really give a damn about what happens to him because Cameron is his priority, as they are his child, and all he wants is to make sure that they are safe and that they get home, even if it kills him to do it.
Henry recovers from the wine attack and is not pleased or amused at this declaration, scratching his fork on his plate to get Charles to back off; the withdrawal isn't as bad, but woth his senses out of wack and the sound already unpleasant, you can only imagine how worse that sound is for Charles.
Back on track, Henry dares Charles to try it, to try getting Cameron out when the locks need both a key and a fingerprint and Charles is literally under surveillance 24/7. There may not be visuals in the bathroom, but there is audio.
That bit of information makes Charles freeze, but Henry continues to spell it out:
He knows Cameron has a knife from the kitchen and he knows what they want to do with it. They won't get a chance to, but they're still welcome to try, for the sake of learning a lesson.
Charles is frightened, but stands tall, daring Henry to try it because of ANYTHING happens to Cameron, all bets are off and Henry will not want to know what Charles would do.
The two stand off before being interrupted by some Toppats needing Henry's immediate attention; there's a problem regarding the government, The Wall, and a news station, and Henry REALLY needs to see it.
Henry agrees and asks for a few minutes, because he needs to clean up, and orders that Charles be escorted back to their room right away.
While being led away, Charles catches those mentions of a news station and the government and what have you, and, as you can imagine, realizes what exactly that could mean as he's locked in his shared bedroom. Overjoyed, he leans against the wall and cries, laughing at how Henry underestimated Galeforce yet again.
BACK TO CAMERON!!!!
They're still starving and weak, having gone into ketosis and cannot stop shaking for the life of them.
With nothing else they can really do, they beg to anyone at all for just a little bit of food, for their father, for their life back, but mainly for some food, please and thank you. They'll beg Henry on their face to forgive them, they just want something to eat, even if it's something that they're allergic to like strawberries or cherries.
On the other side of the door, Sven is standing alone and SEVERELY struggling to keep it together as he hears Cameron break down, feeling some major guilt for the fact that he has to standby and let a child starve because someone with an unnecessary chip on his shoulder said so. To make it even worse, Cameron, while responsible for stealing a kitchen knife, has literally done nothing wrong save for be a kid and a hostage, and it's getting to a point where he can't take it.
We don't see much more than Sven start crying out of this guilt, but we do cut to Henry, Ellie, Reginald, Right, and the surveillance team watching a News channel talk about the toppat clan's activity and how a pilot and his teenage child, gender explicitly not stated, have gone missing because of the clan, close friends and family expressing concern and giving testimonies on what happened before they were taken and even how a group of kids got together to put up Missing Person posters and search for their friend, even though it only got them all grounded for, like, three days.
Reginald is worried, but Henry is more annoyed at what he's seeing from everyone, at how everyone is just throwing a fit over two people.
That changes when Galeforce amd maybe some president or giverning body announces that all museums, banks, mines, or anywhere with precious goods go on a lockdown, to close their doors, bar their windows, and make sure nothing goes in or out and have any and all employees get a vacation for a while; the clan had just gone too far and they will not get their hands on anything else, and they will be shot on sight, if they set foot on Earth again.
Burt cuts the feed and reports that the same message is being spread faster than the team can stop it, the broadcast having been shared all-over, from TV channels to streaming services, and even social media. So, yeah, shit just got real.
Henry takes a moment to try and breathe, knowing that this could not have been Caneron or Charles, but Ellie asks what the plan is now, seeing as how the clan basically got ratted out and is under fire and literally in plain view of everyone. Right scoffs at how they can take robbery and theft, but go up in arms over two people, but cuts to the chase: anyone involved and featured on the news has to be taken care of. Reginald stops him because that would only serve to further ruin the clan and make them bigger targets and more deserving of a cell or execution.
There is one very simple, very doable way to resolve all of this, and is to let Charles and Cameron go free and send them back to Earth.
Henry shoots that idea down immediately and instead orders Burt to try slowing down how fast the message is traveling, at the very least, and to keep an eye on what Galeforce and his dogs are doing; it had to have been him that did this because of how he goes soft when Charles is in danger.
We cut back to Cameron as they have relocated themselves to their bed, the covers over them as they hold onto the knife they nabbed. As you can imagine, they're tired, but the pain from starving keeps them awake and unable to really do anything.
That's when they hear the door to their room open and close and someone puts something down on the floor.
They get up and, much to their relief and surprise, a plate of food greets them, mainly some steak, a salad, some veggies, and some potato wedges.
Beyind the door, Sven tells them to eat slowly or they'll make themself sick; it's been a while since their last meal, so they should take it slow.
Cameron does indeed slowly, thanking Sven for the meal.
Sven chuckles, admitting that this is the nicest Cameron has ever been to him.
That only makes Cameron start crying because of what they said to Charles and how they can't apologize to him because they're trapped in their room. They also start laughing because they're getting what they wanted, i.e. being treating like an actual prisoner.
Sven admits that they're still getting fairly good treatment, as they're still in their room, and they don't have anyone visiting to torture them.
Cameron is equal parts glad and unnerved to hear that, noting that they're glad they're at least alive.
That's when they hear, "Yeah, good thing, huh?"
Sven stands right away even though Henry is already there, saying how Cameron was legitimately going to die if he didn't give them something to eat and they can't just leave Charles's kid starving and alone if they want him to stay, but Henry tells him to walk away before he ends up in worse trouble.
Sven does so and Henry walks into the room to see Cameron still eating their food, though they are careful to wipe their mouth off with a napkin. Before he can say anything, Cameron apologizes, both for how they've been behaving and for what they said to Charles, but the latter they want to tell him on their own because it's an apology for him, not Henry.
Henry is still amused by the change of attitude and asks how their meal is. Cameron enjoys it and Henry's glad, offering to have meals like the one they're having brought to them as long as they keep behaving and promise not to stick him when he's not looking, referring to the knife they're hiding.
Cameron, despite the brief, 'oh shit' moment, plays dumb and asks, "With what? A pen?"
Henry chuckles and places his hand on their arm, on the scar from where they were shot and asks if they really want to have another scar like it, if they're really willing to be that stupid, reminding them of how they ended up on the orbital station to begin with.
It dampens their spirits, but Henry ruffles their hair and stands, telling them to just enjoy their food and leave the plate, and they're still not allowed out of their room; They'll have to wait until Charles really wants to hear that apology from them.
Henry leaves and Cameron stops eating, suddenly not very hungry anymore.
Speaking of Charles, we see him get the 'okay' to leave his room and he walks out, explaining that he just needs to stretch his legs.
This is a lie, because he's really trying to remember the way to Cameron's room. He does find the surveillance room empty for a change and, in a moment of, 'this had better work,' gets onto a computer and sends a message to Galeforce and anyone who could see it:
'SOS. We're both alive. He locked Cameron in their room and I don't know if they're okay. I haven't had my medicine. If you see this, respond ASAP.'
It takes a few minutes, but the response makes Charles almost start crying again:
'Good to hear from you again, Charlie.'
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zreflections · 10 months
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A black lump burrows from the inside, out in my chest. The CBT workbook told me to picture bad thoughts as objects. Make them "silly and ridiculous". Name them strange concepts.
No one bothers to explain being intelligent generally just makes you want to die all the time. That maybe life is the virus in the eco system.
My boyfriend never thinks about things. He is from one thing to the next, zinging around like tiktock filed redbull shots. He eats hot peppers on everything. I am one of roughly fourteen thousand people who are allergic to caspasien.
All day I made an effort to keep the voice quiet. The one that tells me, you suck. You. Are stupid. He hates you. He will get sick of you. Your ideas are stupid. Just die already.
A few days ago I almost walked in front of a car. My life is good right now. I never want to lose it. Everything is new.
If I could marry him I would.
If I could kill myself I would.
I remind myself the moral of the story is that life one any planet is a wonderful gift. That suffering is the status quo and the happiness is the in-between. A soilder said so in a support group.
My suicidal friends arm won't stop bleeding. Her house is full of mold. She doesn't sleep from the illness. No one is helping her and she is stuck in helplessness.
Everyone who makes me bite in humanity never learned to arm themselves with thier teeth like I have.
I use them without meaning to.
They often lately land into myself. While I try to jot hurt anyone. Nothing good can come from me. The voice says.
Therapists like to say thoughts are like a computer and you just need reprogramming.
Studies show affirmations tend to not be helpful woth ptsd or cpstd because it resembles gaslighting.
I want to burn out.
I want to stop feeling.
Friday, I swam at the pool and thought about drowning. It seemed too much effort. Might as well stay.
So I pack bags. Eat lunch. Hate myself. Argue.
I admit it someone had a handful of drugs I would take them no questions asked.
Run a block if your bored.
My writing sucks
My videos suck
I hate the way my chest is constantly caving in even when I'm fine.
Friends and books say-
Don't make the bad feelings worse by having yourself for having them. Sorry noone gave a shit about me before.
His face crushed when I said, it's because those scars are new.
People all like me. My hair. My clothes. I'm polite.
If you askeda I successful, well. Maybe. I have a steady job. It's relatively low stress. The pay isn't great but the benefits aren't bad.
But I jerk and every sound hyper aware. I flinch. I want to prove my boyfriend to abuse me so I don't keep waiting asking when will the show drop?
I am always compressing myself into those space-saving bags. Trying to. But then ripping them open. Again. Again again. At every notion. Sprining back after ripping the airmask like on a plane.
I have never don't a real or true thing.
She lies as she has self published five books with bad grammar and spelling. And a collection of photos. And a heart full of regretful ashes.
There are things I should write about but they are all sad. I am the first in my family to say, I've had enough of this abuse.
People say I'm strong but I'm just broken China.
Nothing was handed to me.
I.
I wish I could breath better.
I still have no solutions I'm years of research.
Projects. Deadlines. Stupid. God. I'm so. Stupid.
He played out a fantasy I hate admiting I have recently. A sexual one. I just want to chase down his chin and stroke him into thoughtlessness.
I'm a freak. My brain prompts.
Make your goal to be yourself. He told me. I'm trying but...
Why can't being myself feel like something good? And not just a curse I need unicorn tears and griffin blood.
My brother quit caring the moment I left.
I hope a stray bullet gets me.
Sometimes I want to live forever. But mostly? Mostly I want time to stop.
Stop moving and let me adjust.
Fuck.
It's always the same shit from my mouth.
Useless.
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my last post was about how could anyone walk out of life from their own child , and husband specifically.
and now im posting about how im now having doubts about staying.
this little side blog was supposed to be about my weightloss. my new expiernces along with it. it started when i was 23 and still a virgin, with no one really paying attention. my future self and anyone whi id trust in person to share it with later too i guess.
i stopped writing my real feelings about things and put down only positive notes and occasionally a sour one but nothing too awful that was happening in my life. i kinda regret it.
i wish i was more honest with myself here than confiding in so called friends.
id have a record at least woth myself instead of warped memories.
i know there were awful times big i can’t remember clearly. i domt think i really want to.
but i know i havent been happy for a long time.
my relationship is seemingly doing alright but only because ive moved out and see him on the weekends for maybe a day …
i dont want to quit us but its like we dont really wxist to wach other most of the time.
and financially we are tangled, and emotionally we are pinned .. physically we are incompatible and i finally admitted it to myself but what do about it?
one of the things he said the last time i saw him was “we all would be happier if we were just quiet.” i said something that upset him.. cause it was in reference to what his mom joked about . at me? to me? … it was about me eating all their food and leaving. when i visit i only eat one meal. i try to leave before i get hungry again or i try to eat when she’s not paying attention if i go into the kitchen.
i try telling him im not comfortable and why. he says im crazy and his mom loves me.
over the years all the side comments and “jokes” have worn me down. and he’s only defended me to my knowledge maybe two times IF i remember correctly.
i used to adore him. i know i still love him. i know i love his kid. i love his family even his mom when shes hurt me, but i’m starting to feel like i’ve had enough.
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crazylil-lion · 2 years
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You know whats crazy she made me raise her kids while constantly screaming at me. Hitting me telling me how useless I was while I was cleaning cooking helping the kids woth everything. The one they went to when they cried. Or had nightmares or were hurt. Yet I was never enough constantly reminded how much of a burden I was and how I did nothing but cause problems and everything was my fault. She played the good parent if anyone was around pretended to care tried to show everyone that she was perfect and its not her fault for not being able to pay the bills or anything because she was a "single mother" while my dad who didn't live there and barely saw me cause she forced the courts to givw her custody because men never win those cases even if they are obviously the better choice. He paid tens of thousands over the past 15 years to help her with everything. What did she do? Waste it on pills or cigarettes or drinking or a ridiculous amount of soda. Buying as little cheap flavorless food as she could sometimes never enough for us to eat. I had to work at 13 to have money to buy myself and my siblings food. She even had her mom constantly bringing what little food we did have because she wasted all her money. Constantly asking everyone to help her because she needed it and she was the victim and its not her fault. Constantly manipulating everyone while telling them how she does it all with no help and its so hard for her. I never got credit I never got mentioned until they started to see how smart I was with computers and solving problems. The only time anyone ever talked to me was when they needed help with their computers. Besides the constant insults and making fun of me at family get togethers. My siblings always treated as perfect angels that could never do anything wrong. I was told when going to college and through highschool I would never do anything with my life. That I was stupid and useless that I'd just fail out anyway so why bother. I picked game design and again was constantly insulted about my choice and the shitty field how I would stupid I was for being interested in fake bullshit. And then I graduated I got decided to change fields got a 6 figure job at 23 and you know what they fucking said? Oh I bet its fake I bet is some small thing that will die out. Then I name drop salesforce I name drop the company and everyone shut up real quick. I was told how stupid I was for moving away and how I'd fail and meanwhile I'm doing what they couldn't fucking dream of. Yet again she sits here talking about how she can retire and how she helped me do it. She didn't help a single bit and now she says now you can buy your siblings and I a house. Fucking ridiculous she only calls me to talk about herself really she asks how I am but she doesn't really care. None of them cared until they heard I was on a career path straight up. The worst part of my childhood wasnt the physical abuse it was the years after of being treated worthless while doing everything. My siblings treated so much better than I was while I was constantly screamed at and forced to do all the chores. All 3 of them made a huge mess on purpose because they knew she would force me to do almost all of it. I'm so happy to be out but I still just want to die. I'm broken just absolutely destroyed. I've never had affection my first kiss or been on a date. After 23 years of everyone treating you as a burden and insulting you telling you that I could never be loved for the way I am. How can I believe anything different if I'm still treated the same way constantly? How long can I suffer in agony before I leave it all behind. I'm tired and therapy medication exercise all of the things that are supposed to help don't even scratch the hell I'm constantly feeling. I force myself through the days but really I'm just a shell of who I was still unlovable and pathetic as always though I guess thats all I'll ever be.
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ceabu · 2 years
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If your commander!karkat met hs2 commander!karkat, how would their conversation go?
Nah he'd kill him on sight lol
Or if I were to go on a more "peaceful" approach my commander!karkat would just yell and rant and not let hs2 commander!karkat get a word in
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oh-my-wizard-god · 4 years
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these days my default daydream is different versions of beauty and the beast
#i dont think anyones really cracked down on the potential the story has and maybe one day i will break that wall down#its always the same castle and shitty village and same beast design but#i change the rest. like belle’s gender. how beast feels about being a beast. what is really keeping them from falling in love woth each othe#one night i had this epic tale where belle (mostly boy) broke into the castle to steal shit and then ended up staying under mysterious reaso#ns and then him and beast got into art and eating food together and when they were realizing they loved each other#belle had to leave because he was worried his evil witch mother who was hunting him down would kill beast when she found them#revealing that the reason he stayed in the first place was that his mother couldnt hunt him there (too cursed with magic)#so belle leaves and beast is sad and idr how they get to this point but the mother almost kills one of them and the curse lifts just in time#and when the goddess who cursed beast shows up she sees the mother and is like hey arent you a fugative. get em boys! and they live happily#ever after the end#the most recent one has belle go back to save her father and then get tried as a witch when beast comes in the nick of time#and i think belle would want to be turned into a beast to join him#theres another one where belle and beast fall in love in the way friends do but belle osnt the one to break the curse (prophesy involved)#so he leaves beast so that the chosen one can break the curse for him (because love is sacrificibg your own happiness for the others life)#and then the girl comes and beast charms her and she breaks the spell and beast returns human. he leaves the girl the castle and all the#power he had while he goes in search of belle. the lesson he learned was that a whole kingdom/castle means nothing when you have no one to#share it with. beast finds belle in a tavern (he’d been adventuring since leaving the castle) and belle doesnt recognize him and beast insul#ts belle and belle challenges him to a duel and as they fight. beast says the key line that makes belle realize who he is. and then they#kiss or something and adventure together. all castles and curses left behind.#my posts#please stop me if im getting too boring
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kaz11283 · 3 years
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46. “I’m in love…shit” with Loki. If you are still wanting requests. No pressure your stuff is amazing!
46) I'm In Love....Shit
I think I'm in Love
Summary: you and Loki spend some time together, later while talking to Thor in their mothers garden Loki comes to realize that he is absolutly in love with you.
Announcement: I havent been very with it these past few days and I feel like I have been slacking in a way. I have been so busy that by the time I finally get home and I am able to relax a pass out because I am so tired. I am trying to get better at this though and I am trykng ro work out a schedule for Fire and Ice maybe set a day of the week for that and just do requests durimg the rest of the week. I love you all and thank you so much for the love that you guys give me!!! 💚💚💚💚
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"Darling! It was absolutly hilarious." Loki laughted looking down at you.
"It was not and you know that very well Loki!" You said reaching up pulling a twig from your hair. You and Loki had decided to go out and ride since it was a pretty spring day and there was nothing else to do.
"Come here and let me help you." He pulled you to a stop so that he could help pull leaves and twigs from your hair. "You should have held on tighter." He smiled pulling the last of it from yojr hair.
"You should mot have slapped her tonmake her run off, Mr. Mischief." You said playfully smacking him on the arm.
"Watch yourself my dove." He warned stalking over to you.
"Oh what are you going to do about it Mr. Trickster?" You laughed pulling up you dress so you could take a few steps back. "This whole prowling thing doesnt intimidate me like it does your other fair maidens." You laughed loudly. He stopped and stared at you.
"My Lady y/n for you to think there are other besides you I would rather spend my time with." He placed a hand on his heart. "Why, you are absolutly right." He took off after you while you squealed with delight and ran away.
You ran from him up one of the paths that lead between the orchard and the castle walls. There were hidding spots all through there were the two of you use to hid when you were younger, the tall bushes being the perfect hidding spot to keep out of view from him. As you two chased and played you didnt realize there were two others observing.
Thor and Frigga warches from the balcony of her quarters as the sounds of screaming and laughing rose to them.
"How long do you think it will take for them to realize how in love they truly are?" Thor turned to his mother.
"Son, they have been doing this same song and dance now since before they were teenagers. Sometimes it takes a while for somethingblike that to become obvious." She answered leaning onto the rail.
"It is very obvious to others." Thor was happy that Loki had you but he knew that his brother wanted more he could tell by the way his eyes would light up when you were around.
"Though it is obvious to us it may not be as obvious to them. They are simply best friends that spend every hour of every day together." She sighed. She had taken you in and had let you start training with the other ladies working on how to be a princess.
"I dont understand allmother why I should start these. I am not fit to be a princess." You stated after your first class.
"But one day you will be. You may even rule over the kingdom." She said with a knowing smile.
"Thor, call for your brother please, it is time to start preparing for the banquet tonight." She placed her hand on his shoulder and gave a final look down to the garden where you and Loki where laughing loudly after he had caught you.
"Yes mother." Thor walked off.
"Loki! Mother wanted to let you know its time to start gettkng ready for tonight." Thor yelled through the garden trying to find the two of you.
"Ah, Lady Y/N, will You be joining the festivities tonight?" Thor bowed to you.
"Yes, I do hope you save a dance for me, will you Thor?" I asked smiling up at the blonde prince.
"As long as Loki doesn't stab me for it, I would love nothing more Lady Y/n." He took your hand and kissed the top of it.
"I shall see you both later." You curtsied and walked away.
"Brother," Thor smiled placing a hand on his brothers shoulder. "Does my eyes deceive me or could you possibly have a crush on Lady y/n?"
Loki moaned looking at Thor. "For the thousandth time, I do not have a crush on her. She is my best friend, someone I can talk to. Vent to when everything in the castle is just to much."
"Then I guess it would not bother you to bad to know that Fandral has asked if she would be attending tonight." This caused Loki to stumble slightly. "Said that if she wasnt escourted by anyone he could possibly have a chance to 'get to know her tonight'."
"Y/n wouldnt give that oaf the time of day much less attend anything with him. She has more class than that i dare say." Loki rolled his eyes.
"Well he hasnt asked her yet. Saod he figured he would wait till tonight and just meet her there. Said he couldnt wait to see just how pretty she looked." Thor gave Loki a sode ways glance and smirked.
"She can do so much better than him. She has better taste in book, though I doubt that he can even read," he tutted, "more grace, she is a wonderful listener, and he cant even dance that well." Loki stopped in front of his chamber doors.
"Loki, is that jealousy that i am sensing from you?" Thor raised an eye brow.
"By Norns, no Thor. It is not. I simply worry that she will be stuck with him the rest of the night and not be able to get away from him." He opened his door and walked inside his room. His heart was pounding, he did feel jealous. He was jealous that the time he would normally be spending with you would be spent with someone else. The only smart thing for him to do was to get ready and meet you.at your quarters so that he could escort you there and keep Fandral away from you. Of course time wouldnt work in his favor that night.
When you had arrived at your chambers you noticed a box with a note on top of it with Thors messy handwriting.
Lady y/n, I decided to take the liberty and pick out a simple dress for you for tonight. Though I realize that you must already have one but when I had seen this one I knew that i had to get it for you. I know the one you chose must be just as beautiful as you are i would greatfully appreciate it if youncould wear this one.
You rolled your eyes at thw thought of Thor picking out a dress for you, red and gold, he is by no means quarting you butnhe would do that type of thing just to get under Loki s skin.
When you opened the box the first thing you noticed was a beautiful golden chain that you assumed would go around your head, with an emerald that would sit lightly between your eyes. You removed more of the paper and noticed the dark green hues from the dress, when you pulled it from the box you noticed that the skirt hit midthight and the sleeves had cuts in them the material hanging from your shoulders to the ground. Next to the box was yet another note feom Thor.
Just go with it and lets see how you like it, the matching shoes are shoved under your bed. Dont worry thank me later by dancing with me.
You could see his face in your mind, picture him winking at you. You would surly kill him for this, or at least step on his feet.
After you finished pulling your hair half up and half down with a few braids falling from the side and finished your makeup you took a deep breath and stepped out of the door. You didnt understand why you were nervous but you were, its wasnt like you had never wore green before but this time it was different, this time there was nothing but green. It looked as if you were trying to say something.
You had always liked Loki, you has been friends since you were kids. Loki was your best friend, he was kind, caring, giving, compassionate in things that he truly cared about. You could talk to him about anything and he would listen, what you loved more than anything isnthat when he was with you all of his guards were down, you were the only one that got to see that side of him. You knew in your head though that he would see it as a compliment from his best friend as he sanced the night away with numerous other girls vying for his attention.
"You look....lovely?" Fendrel glanced at you as you walked into the dinning hall. "Might I be lucky to have a dance before you are snagged away by one of the princes?"
"Of course you may." You smiled holding your hand out to him. "You have always been a good lead Fandrel."
He took you spinning you onto the dance floor were some couples parted to make room for the two of you. He placed his hand on your lower back and pulled you closer to him. "You are quite a beautiful woman Lady Y/n, any man is lucky to be able to spin you around the floor." You blushed looking away from him, as you scaned the room you noticed Thor and Loki quietly talking to themselves. Loki looked handsome in his royal outfit, black and gold elegantly intertwining woth each other causing the emerald green to pop and to being ojt his eyes.
"Honestly brother, if she had planned on coming with him why did she have to wear my color? She knows by now what that stated." Loki rolled his eyes looking back to you and Fandral twirling around the dance floor.
"Maybe she didnt think much about it. You do realize that it is simply a color? There are many others here wearing it also." Thor said grabbing two glasses of wine and handing one to Loki.
"You truly are an idiot if you that she just so happened to pick out something like that, that just so happened to be my color. She wanted to make a statement." He handed his glass back to Thor and walked down the few steps leading to where you were dancing not noticing the small smile on Thors face.
"You know you are just as mischievous as your brother." Frigga came to stand beside him causing him to jump.
"Mother, I have no idea what you are talking about."
"Of course you dont son, just be careful, you could possibly be playong with fire on this one. Once they find out it was you setting this all up there no telling what they might do." Thors face dropped at the thought of the two of you teaming up aginst him.
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ANNOUNCEMENT: OK Annon, I havent put the "I think I'm in love" prompt in this one because in all honesty this one I got carried away on and it was getting so long! I am making a part 2 and will add the link in once I am finished with it, i may actually have time today or tonight to start on it. Thank you so so much for the request and I love that it actually took me away and I didnt even realize how much I had wrote until I looked at it this morning! Keep an eye out for part 2 coming soon!!!
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harunayuuka2060 · 3 years
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It's 2am! I should be asleep! But I had a thought! Lilith's broken taboo was having a child woth a humab. The child was hidden from the Celestial Realm and so Lilith's secret bloodline continued.
Because the child was half mortal, they didn't live forever. And had their own child. And that child their own. And so on. The Secret Bloodline knows who they are and the "sin" Lilith committed, but they love humans as much as Lilith did.
MC is in the Secret Bloodline, though no one knows. So imagine their reaction when when they're invited to the Devildom and see Uncle Lucifer. He looks just as good as Granny Lily's drawings. Along with the other brothers.
Just imagine all the time MC would want to tell them, but knows they must never mention their Celestial blood.
Secret Bloodline
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MC: *shows up in an outfit that is exactly similar to Lilith’s*  
Lucifer: ...
Lucifer: *holds their face* *looks sternly at them* Your face... and your clothes-
MC: *stiffens* 
Lucifer: *turns his head to look at Diavolo* Are you sure you have summoned a human?
Diavolo: Yes. Why? Is there a problem?
Lucifer: *looks again at MC* You. Who are you?
MC: Um... MC? 
Lucifer: I can sense an angel’s aura from you.
MC: *sweats nervously* Well... Everyone saying that I looked like one? 
Lucifer: *smiles* Is that so?
MC: *eyes widened in awe* So that’s how you look when you- *realizes what they are about to say* 
Lucifer: What?
MC: *waves their hand defensively in front of them* Nothing! Nothing! I thought you are quite handsome! That’s all!
Lucifer: *laughs* Thank you for the compliment then. 
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Mammon: *mumbling* Why do I have to help you?
MC: Because Lucifer tells you?
Mammon: *looks at MC with a pout* Hey you, human. Are you thinking that Lucifer can boss me around?
MC: *nods* Yes. 
Mammon: *frowns* 
MC: Eh... No. I take it back. 
Mammon: Listen here, human. The Great Mammon can’t be boss around by anyone. ANYONE.
MC: ... *laughs* Okay. 
Mammon: What’s funny, huh?!
MC: Haha because... you’re so childish and cute. 
Mammon: *feels his heart lightened* *looks away shyly* Another rule for you, human. Don’t call me cute.
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Levi: I’m just an anti-social, pathetic shut-in who doesn’t know how to do anything for fuck’s sake.
MC: But didn’t you lead a navy before? 
Levi: ...
Levi: How did you know about that?
MC: ...
MC: *laughs nervously* Lucky guess?
Levi: *moves closer to MC* Since you mentioned about it, what do you think about me?
MC: *sense of pride* I think- no. You are definitely cool! I want to be like you! 
Levi: ... *starts crying*
MC: L-Levi?! W-Why are you crying?!
Levi: I don’t know either. *sniffles* But you make me so happy, I cannot take it.
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Satan: Lucifer sucks.
MC: *frowns* He is not!
Satan: Yes, he is! 
MC: He’s not! 
Satan: You don’t know anything about him!
MC: I- *stops*
Satan: What?
MC: *pouts* I-I just know he isn’t like that!
Satan: *feels a bit jealous* Tch. You talk no sense. *walks out*
MC: *yells* Come back here, Satan! We’re not done talking yet!
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MC: Asmo? Here’s your towel!
Asmo: Just put it on the bed, sweetie~.
MC: Eh? But how are you going to dry yourself? You’re still in the bathroom.
Asmo: Oh, about that. Could you wait outside? I don’t want you to see me naked.
MC: Okay! *goes out of the room*
Asmo: ...
Asmo: *sigh* Okay. That is weird. When did I care if someone sees me naked?
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Beel and Belphie: *both hugging MC*
MC: Why? Why are you hugging me?
Beel: I don’t know. 
Belphie: We just want to.
MC: ... *mentally noting their behavior*
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Lucifer: *invites MC to go inside Lilith’s room*
MC: ... What are we doing here, Lucifer?
Lucifer: *sigh* I don’t know. But... *looks at MC* You really remind me of my sister. 
MC: *suddenly hugs Lucifer*
Lucifer: *hugs them back* *smiles* She’s also doing this when she knows that I’m feeling down.
MC: *hugs him tighter* *sniffles*
Lucifer: ... MC? Are you crying?
MC: No...
Lucifer: ...
Lucifer: *laughs* Liar. 
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