#healing is hard

[sadghostgirl14]

#part of me #lost part of me #always #holding on #holding you #meant to be #once upon a time #heal in time #healing is hard #what really was #heart and soul #sadgirl #heartache #heartbreak #relateable #healing #poetry #sad poem #used to love it

[borderlinebelle]

“happy hellion healing”,

a photo series, 3/31/2024

I did these all by myself outside of a lovely little holiday gathering.

I am learning to love my skin again.

I held on to these for so long because I kept wanting it to be an intimate moment between myself and … myself… 😂 but I am ready to share.

and yeah .. I look pretty conventionally unconventionally …

and most days, I’m grateful for my mothers fine angles, full cheeks, and abundant lips. (despite her .. difficult attributes and personal struggle that spans through time and space to echo through me from birth to now …)

but deeply, I SEE A HAPPY HUMAN AGAIN. I see a healing human. I see a CHANGE EMBRACING powerhouse of fucking stamina and grace. I see a body excessively scarred but solid, strong, disciplined, determined, and resilient ��� and so so so so soft at the same time.

When I think about the methods they used to bring my little soul back to this body .. again and again… the shiver is molecular.

(supposedly)

a human being’s most inherit trait: the will to stay alive

I’ve betrayed this body by brutalizing it for every mistake, for every whisper of my mother or father’s voice, for every previous misstep, and every challenged choice, for every emotional explosion, for every mentally ill moment of grief and pain and sorrow and FEAR…x10000000 times over… and all it’s done … is keep me alive!

I see ME…CLEARLY for the first time … in a long time.

I know I have so much… wreckage from my past to wade through… but I look forward to it now. With these clearer eyes… maybe I can repurpose the absolute TAR into creativity.

👍🏽🤷🏽‍♀️🫀

i havta try.

#personal #borderline Belle #borderline blog #mental health #personality disorder #mental illness #recovery #the old stomach pump aye gals #the ol’ charcole didn’t do it #if its bad #it’s getting bad again #it gets better #stay another day #weird wild world #depression #anxiety #borderline personality disorder #healing blog #healing is a process #healing is not linear #coqette #healing is hard #black coquette #coquette #carefree black girl #photo series #photography #self photography

[toxicparentrants]

Healing is not linear. We say this a lot but actually experiencing it is hard. My anxiety has gotten so much better after I left my toxic home and working on it for years. Recently a chain of very stressful events has made it worse than it has been in a while. I haven’t been coping very well. Now I’m trying to be kind to myself and keep pushing on. It’s hard but I’m trying to remember that this is not going backwards even if it feels like it. It’s part of recovery and healing.

#toxic parents #child abuse #mental health #trauma #actuallyabused #abuse survivor #mental illness #recovery #healing #healing is hard #healing is not linear #getting better

[bamababygirl7]

#Q’d #mental health #quotes #healing is hard

[vizthedatum]

DBT realization: radical acceptance isn’t toxic positivity. It can mean accepting exactly how bad it feels, how upset you are, how sad you are, how you fucked up, how everything else is fucked… AND making room for all the things that aren’t so fucked up.

Those latter moments can be appreciated just as much as the unsavory ones… but you need to be able to feel all of it.

#healing opinions #healing #trauma #neurodivergence #queer #love #self love #prose #thoughts #opinions #DBT #radical acceptance #fuck toxic positivity #feel your feelings #trust your feelings #healing is not linear #healing is a process #healing is hard #healing IS WORTH IT

[feehippielove]

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🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤🫀🖤

#note to self #my diary #screaming into the void #self expression #healing is messy #healing is hard #healing is a process #life is an adventure #clowncore #clown inspired look #makeup #qwoc selfies #qwoc #led lights #my art #blk alt #black alternative #alt makeup #alt aesthetic #aquarius #weirdcore #natural lashes #monday #4c hair #soft black women #a little unhinged #a little feral #filled with a lot of love #thicc and beautiful #qwoc artist

[quietmack]

Enemy

Understanding that the last battle is the toughest The one you are not truly prepared for Against an enemy that knows you the best That knows every weakness, every crack Digging into the darkest of places Playing the dirtiest of tricks Threatening all that you love Ridiculing you, guilting you The shame of things never to be spoken Beating you relentlessly, never stopping Because the enemy is full of resolve It is filled with self-righteous anger It believes it is protecting you It loves you like no other And is scared of what will happen So it digs in, prepared to never stop No matter how many victories It lingers, gorilla tactics Waiting to gain another foothold. How do you defeat an enemy you can’t escape Always dancing in the shadows when you look into the mirror

#mywords #healing is hard

[mycptsdstory]

You'd be surprised how many traits we get from our parents.

Remember, IF you want to unlearn some traits, you have to Re-Parent yourself. That also means; being kind to yourself, being patient with yourself and baby steps is key in healing.

Here's some info, for more about Re-Parent yourself.

#reparenting #Re-Parenting yourself #reparenting yourself #healing is not linear #healing is possible #healing is hard #healing is hardwork #cptsdhealing #living with cptsd #cptsd problems #cptsd thoughts #actually cptsd #just cptsd things #tw cptsd #actually ptsd #cptsd tag #cptsd vent #psychology

[exodusx]

It's scary that if you think that I can't remember when I stopped being happy.

#sad quotes #sad #grunge #i don't want to live in this way anymore #not happy #unhappy #actually mentally ill #tw depressive #anxitey #childhood trauma #healing is hard #depressed #cw depressive thoughts #self destruction #self-harm #self-harm scars #unloved #bipolar disorder

[sadghostgirl14]

#not over it #move on #weak #fall apart #healing is hard #after all this time #sadgirl #heartache #heartbreak #relateable #healing #poetry #sad poem #used to love it #missing him

[noneofthatfuck]

It's my birthday!! Turnin 20, where did the time go!

Some personal stuff n positivity under the cut :3

I wasn't sure if I wanted to say anything aside from it being my birthday and I'm not going to go into detail but I wanted to say this to anyone going through a breakup or losing a close friend for one reason or another, especially if that person was an abuser or someone unhealthy to be around, it gets better.

A year ago I was dumped by my ex and friend of five years right before my birthday, they took a lot from me during this time and left a lot of hurt that was never addressed. It was hard to deal with and I didn't know how to handle the hole left behind in my life paired with yet another move after being moving around constantly for nearly two years. And I won't lie and say moving on from that was easy. But things really do get better, new friends come around, you find out more about yourself and you may realize that the person that left you wasn't the person you thought they were.

There's a lot of healing and self reflection that will come around, you just gotta take it one step at a time, things will change. You will be happy again. That hole in your life will be filled with life and love that you create, that you choose. And you will be better for it.

#mine #myart #art #sona #my sona #pigsona #fursona #anthro #furry anthro #pig fursona #pig furry #birthday #birthday art #positivity #moving on #just wanted to share so if anyone was having a bad day they could see that it gets better #healing is hard #especially after a long and abusive relationship #but after a year that big hurt seems so much smaller #hurt never goes away #it never shrinks #life just gets bigger around it #and you will be better for it #things will get better #things will be okay #stay with people you love and love you #never stay with someone who hurts you #you deserve better

[links-hella-fine-booty]

Bringing Bliz over was the best choice ever. My family and I sat with him a lot yesterday. Although it's slightly humorous that I'm certain my dad is aware there is a dog in his house and he would not be pleased hehe.

He was never a dog lover. Or a cat lover. He didn't like pets. Bliz and Toast would have loved to bother him.

Hopefully he can see how much Bliz and Toast have brought joy into my life, and now my family's.

I miss you dad. Sorry I didn't tell you Bliz was around.

#healing is hard #it's only been one full day but it doesn't feel real #trying very hard to keep occupied and find things to enjoy #my dad would hate me moping over stuff even if it is over him #“oh would you stop it already Lauren? You can't solve things by being upset” #you're right dad but you know i need to feel through the emotions first

[abirdscry]

as i lay before you, stripped to my core, dagger presented with tip facing in, my tears spell out a thanks. thank you; for throwing the blade aside; for bringing me safety in your arms; for being gentle; for being there; for being the love i needed all this time.

#ramblings #feeling sappy #vulnerability is so hard #and deeply embarrassing tbh #healing is hard #im so grateful for all the amazing people in my life #love yall 💛

[tatis9]

How does my therapist dare to tear appart and force me to change the coping mechanism that has helped me survive so far?

#therapist #thoughts #deep thoughts #general anxiety disorder #evasive #detachment #healing #healing is hard

[vizthedatum]

I am so proud of myself.

So while this week has been hard - it's also celebratory.

Because I chose myself.

#wrote this on facebook too but it deserves its own post #healing #healing is hard #but i must remember this #i chose myself #chosen #trauma #neurodivergence #queer #love #self love #prose #ptsd

[the-writers-are-not-ok]

Deny My Reality

I know how this goes

Played this game before

Past // Present

Family’s always been this way

Started with dad

Ending with mum

Both have their issues

Those issues are becoming a problem

Its so much harder to face it all now

I know my truth

Know my pain

Felt this way for years

This House

Never been a home

Started healing

Now I’m reflecting

Here comes the doubt

“What do I know”

But even with this

My knowledge

My memories

The pain I feel tenfold

It isn’t enough

Still I feel like I’m the bad guy

Like I can’t trust my own mind

That I’m making it up

It’s all in my head

I’m crazy

Delusional

I know my truth

I know my pain

But this doubt is a wave

And I’m drowning.

And part of me just wants to be saved

Wrap your arms around me

Pull me from my waves

But I’m drowning

Have been for too long

Clutching onto a barrel

Struggle to stay afloat

Push them away

Oh I am drowning

And I won’t drag them down

Oh how I want to drown

I am tiring

This strength

Is no choice

I want to drown

Lose myself to this pain

Oh it’d be so easy

Pick up again the blade

Fall back into

These old ways

Because I know and I know

I cannot be saved

I am drowning

And I don’t know

if I can be saved

If it’d be better

To just float away

#trauma art #trauma poetry #poetry #familial trauma #childhood #bit bleak ending #but that’s life #healing #healing is hard #we do it nonetheless #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #tw suicide poetry #original poem