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yaachtynoboat711 · 2 years

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Just One Round

A/N: I’m back! The pandemic swiped my writing talents like the MonStars 😭. Lately, I’ve fallen in love with one Kevin Atwater. He deserves all the things and all the simping. Now, I don’t, by any means, support the police (1312), but he’s an exception to the rule. Anyways, I think I might keep this OC, but I’ll be looking out for feedback. Anyways, lets get to the reading!

Kevin Atwater x Black Med! OC (Karis Z. Brown, MD, FACS)

Warning(s): Steamy dialogue and descriptions, medical talk, FLUFF, Black Love

Word Count: 1300ish (or something like that, Chile idk)

3 A.M. at Gaffney Chicago Medical Center meant quiet hours for you. After 2 elected surgeries, ER rounds, and one emergency surgery, you were beat. However, in your exhaustion, you still managed to read your old cardiology textbooks and notes from med school. One of your newest patients had a mysterious illness and it was your duty to find a breakthrough. Your heavy eyes struggled to stay open, even with the trap music playing in your ear. Just as your returned your AirPods to their case, you heard a knock at the door.

“It’s open,” you announced to the knock.

Dr. Latham walked in your office, honestly shocked you weren’t sleep. He observed the open textbooks and notebooks shuffled across your usually organized desk. “Dr. Latham, I didn’t know you were still here. Please, sit down,” you invited.

He looked at the chair and declined, “This won’t take long, Dr. Brown. I need to speak with you.”

You stopped typing. Suddenly, the blanket and oversized quarter-zip sweater you were wearing were too much. “About what?”

He nodded his head, as to confirm whatever was about to come out of his mouth, “Dr. Brown, you know by now how much I admire you as a doctor and a surgeon, yes?,” you nodded, though this was the first time he actually said that aloud.

“Well, I’m not saying this as your boss to his fellow, but as Isidore to Karis: I hear that you’ve been picking up your CT colleagues’ shortcomings for the past month and a half…”

You know exactly what he was talking about. It was true: Drs. Bekker and Rhodes weren’t doing their jobs. Unfortunately, that meant you had to step in to keep Latham from noticing.

He didn’t believe in favorites, but Dr. Latham favored you and respected you for being a Black female double-boarded cardiothoracic and trauma surgeon. Moreover, he, like your other co-workers at Chicago Med, felt your passion for medicine and helping others. However, your gift doubled as a curse. You stopped at nothing to ensure your patients’ well-being. Even if the insurance of their well-being came at your expense.

“Dr. Lath—“

“…—I’m not done, Dr. Brown. You have been running yourself into a hole of exhaustion in the name of keeping peace. I knew about this the week you started, but I wanted to see how long you would keep it up.”

You were far too tired to put up a fight or defend your actions. He was right. You should’ve let Bekker and Rhodes, especially Bekker, face their consequences.

“I agree, Dr. Latham. I need to take some time off.”

“That’s why I’m here. Effectively immediately, you’re on a paid month-long leave.”

Your face turned, “Excuse me?”

“Your colleagues will be facing consequences and picking up the slack they left you. The Emergency department has also been informed. Go home and get some rest. Actual rest. Good night and enjoy, Karis.”

You sunk into your chair, gobsmacked at the exchange you’d just had with your boss. You were conflicted: on one hand, you got told not to come to work for a month. However, you got paid to stay home.

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You barely made it home. Stopping by the 24-hour diner for take-out breakfast almost sealed your fate. Luckily, rolling the window down to have the Chicago artic wind kept you awake.

For the first time in three weeks, you had a legitimate break. Though you were upset with Dr. Latham, you silently thanked God for blessing you with a break.

You drove into your garage nearly in tears. You’d never been so happy to get out of your scrubs and clogs. Walking up the small set of stairs to the house’s main level, you were welcomed to the sound of the Sports Center and a familiar scent that wasn’t expected to be there: your boyfriend’s leathery teakwood cologne.

On the couch, you saw your Kev stretched out and snoring softly. Granted, he had he own place; but your place was closer from the station. Clearly, he was comfortable and too tired to go upstairs to the room. Poor baby.

You approached your sleeping baby and observed his peaceful demeanor. You weren’t certain of what he did the night before; it honestly wasn’t your business. He needed the rest. Most importantly, he was here: safe and unharmed.

Your two kisses to his lips woke him out of his rest.

“Morning, baby,” he greeted with a low gruffly sleep voice. He returned your gesture with one deep kiss.

You hummed softly, “Mornin’, sleepy head. Whatcha doin home so early?”

“I could ask you the same thing, ma. It ain’t even 6 a.m,” he scratched his chest

You walked into the kitchen, “It’s not. The sun’s not even out. Dr. Latham sent me home on a ‘paid rest leave’ as he called it. I brought food from the 24-hour diner near the hospital. I figured you’d be hungry when you got home and was finna put your food in the oven.”

He chuckled, rubbed his chest and getting ready to get his plate, “Ma Ma, you know you a keeper, right?”

“I do.”

Breakfast was enjoyed in relative silence. You enjoyed your omelet and pancakes and Kevin his steak and eggs. You were just thankful to have eaten for the first time in almost 9 hours. It was obvious that both of you were capable of falling asleep at the table. You nodded off as you checked your neglected emails. Kevin just dozed off at the table. Your jobs had been running y’all ragged.

After disposing of breakfast, you made a beeline to the shower. The warmth of the shower melted your tense,tired, and sore body into ease. You even washed your hair. A still shirtless Kevin welcomed you in bed. You’d put your bonnet, med school shirt, and fleece shorts on. Kevin pulled your side’s sheets back for you. What a gentleman. The moment your back made contact with the bed, he yanked you into his strong yet loving embrace. You yelped, making him laugh. You felt the depth and vibration of his laughter send tingles down your spine.

“What’s gotten into you, bae?,” you inquired, “I know I didn’t ask, but why are YOU home early?”

“I can’t be excited to see my favorite life saver back at home with me? All for me to love on?,” he began peppering kisses from your neck down to your waist, “No beepers or calls…just me and my pretty little lady…with her fine ass…finally in my arms…after passing by each other…like we’re roommates or some shit. C’mere and gimme them lips.”

You rolled over on top of him, fulfilling his ask with kisses of mutual passion and sincerity. He palmed your ass much to your pleasure. The sensation of his cold copper bracelet only deepened the kisses. “You never answered my second question, Kev.”

“I mean…the sting ended early. I don’t feel like gettin’ into all of that. I’m here with you. I want to cherish this moment with you. We clear?”

You hummed a chuckle into his lips, “Crystal.”

“I know you just put them on, but let’s get out these clothes for me. I missed seeing what’s under them scrubs…”

“…lemme take a nap before we get it in, bae.”

“Don’t worry, Kare, we’ll sleep real good after this. You down?”

“On second thought, I think I have enough in me for one round,” your hand traveled up his chest, gently tugging on his gold chain.

His hands wondered up your baggy shirt to hold your freed breasts. You moaned into his kiss, “Say less.”

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repentmf · 10 months

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Design-Write: a comparison review - watching two M. Night Shyamalan movies in a row

To say that watching movies has been taxing lately wouldn’t be a stretch. Despite my personal feelings about how Hollywood is handling the production and distribution of Spider-man: Across the Spider-verse and how the ending is practically the end of a Dragon Ball Z episode, I loved the movie. The animation was crisp, the music was bumping, the voice acting was killer, and the setup for the next movie is clear. Now that you think you know my feelings on the movie, let me confuse you proper; I can’t stand Across the Spider-verse. (***Spoilers for the Sixth Sense, Into the Spider-verse, Knock at the Cabin, and Across the Spider-verse ahead***)

The movie has no real climax, falling action, or resolution, and it’s simply something my delicate, little brain can’t handle. To me, a story is a series of events that can categorically be considered opened and closed regardless of whether or not it has title cards, or credits. In AtSV, we end the movie seeing that Gwen has created a band of Spider-people to go find and protect Miles-1610, Miles-1610 is captured by Miles-42 and Aaron-42 after accidentally stumbling into Earth-42, and that the Spot is likely going to kill Miles-1610’s father. And that’s all we can really say about the ending of AtSV. For me, there are no definitive themes in the ending, and no clear-cut motivations for if Miles-42 is actually going to assist or work against Miles-1610 or any other nuggets of information. If somehow Hollywood kills Beyond the Spider-verse, we may never have that closure. In Into the Spider-verse however- Miles-1610 has made some kind of peace by the end of the movie with the fact that he is Spider-man and even enjoys the notion that while he is alone and has difficult obstacles to face, he can think of his friends who are much like him and regain some of his hope and confidence in himself. Confidence in that he can do all of these incredible things, even though he thought he never could. “You could wear the mask,” he remarks. There’s a clear connection and emotional through-line for viewers and characters to latch onto here in Mary Jane-1610’s and Miles-1610’s monologues of “He always said it could've been anyone behind the mask. He was just the kid who happened to get bit,” and it comes off as a completed and realized idea- seeing somewhat meek and afraid Miles-1610 become the hero that saved him in the first half of the movie is engaging, interesting, and more than those- fulfilling.

So much media that we consume in today’s age does not fulfill me. It exists merely in my brain-space as a way to wearily pass my time because I have an addiction to social media. And so I did not have strong hopes and aspirations going into Knock at the Cabin- I mean, any movie following up Spider-verse is already difficult enough as it is, but add in the fact that I am skeptical of and not fond of your past works means I am 98% confident I won’t like what I’m about to watch. But it’s the 4th of July weekend, I’m gonna watch what my family is watching (within reason). And I was definitely right about my gut-reaction. The movie’s pacing is sluggish, the characters (with exception of one) feel wholly static, and the finale feels like it was what the entire movie was written for. The movie and all of its catastrophic events and murders all feel pointless in wake of how the movie ends.

It watches like the movie existed to justify the ending of the movie existing. And this is largely how I feel about the majority of new media that gets released in our time. “The writing does not exist for the people that it’s being written for or about; the people exist to experience the writing.” To be more thorough here, by the time Eric has fully changed his mind (about an hour and a half, if memory serves correctly) an entire feature-length film’s amount of time has already been consumed full of writing that just comes across more as fluff than dynamically altering Eric’s point of view. Credit where credit is due, there is one scene where Eric gets a concussion and talks with the Nurse, Sabrina, and seems to make a small connection- at least hearing out the other side- that there may be a need to believe in something bigger than just the self. But this scene is a drop of interesting characterization and motivation in an otherwise 1-dimensional pond of characters and for me, it all comes down to the writing. The actors themselves did great with what they were given- believable, and sympathetic. The scene mentioned earlier has exactly what I’m talking about: Sabrina shows she’s able to empathize with Eric’s family about not being able to believe that they will really be determining the end of the world- she says she’d think they were religious freaks, too. But this unfortunately isn’t what the movie is about. The movie is about Eric, Andrew, Wen, and their collective decision. Which they do not actually discuss for all but around 10 minutes total. They do finish talking about who should be chosen as a sacrifice to stop the world from ending, but it occurs moments before the world ends and around 15 minutes out from the end of the movie- really, do excuse me if my times are off here, I did not go back and research if I was right on the money. The snail pacing and lack of actions/ influenced choices makes the twist at the end feel like the movie’s reason for existing, rather than the twist just being a cherry on top of a great cake of a movie. While KatC technically meets my initial qualification to be a complete story, it’s not enough to be a story- you also need to have thought and meaning- a clear theme backing your start, middle, and end. And all I was able to gather from KatC is that people suck and Eric should have lived.

So we finish Knock at the Cabin and the next night we’re back at it again- we NEED something to watch because when we’re at the in-law’s house, every night is movie night. Both anx and I had NEVER seen the Sixth Sense (I know, I know- please don’t hurt me) and her brother INSISTED we fixed that. Now this is THE movie of M. Night Shyamalan’s career and I know the twist of the movie. This should be a done-deal. I don’t like his other works, I know the ending of the story going in- and it’s a masterpiece.

Everything I’ve complained about for AtSV and KatC the Sixth Sense just does not do. The Sixth Sense not only has an abundance of characterization for its small cast of characters, but all of them have a collective, clear connection and emotional through-line for both the viewer and the characters to latch onto- hey doesn’t that sound familiar? When Cole has fears about talking to the ghosts that have been appearing to him and finding out what they want, they are CLEARLY well founded and easily related to because he has been hurt by these ghosts. He has been terrified emotionally and scarred physically by them. It’s only by communicating with Malcom that Cole can see that his power is making a difference that can affect not only his situation, but others’ situations. This can be seen from the other direction as well but in the converse way: Malcolm working with and treating Cole through therapy allows Cole to assist with Malcolm himself and his believed-destroyed relationship with his widowed-wife. Malcolm is only able to see that he is gone by allowing himself to continue helping Cole. There’s this beautiful arc of emotional motion that Malcolm and, to a lesser extent, Cole both have from “I have to help people,” to “Can I even help people?” to “I want you to be helped, but I can’t help you,” all the way back to “I’m going to help you, despite my own insecurities.” There’s real, observable change in the story thanks to characters in tSS- and we don’t seem to get that kind of writing from Shyamalan anymore. It’s always about the twist instead of about the movie. Shouldn’t the events of the movie be about the movie? Not about the twist? Not about the next movie? And then if the movie has a twist or sequel, we can all go “I just can’t believe Bruce Willis was a ghost!” When a movie doesn’t have any climaxes, falling actions, resolutions, or visibly-realized dynamic characters, it can be hard to like the movie, let-alone watch it. With all of the CGI/ AI/ multIverse workings, it can be difficult to remember what movies or even media is about- it’s about people. It’s about expression. It’s art. And when the movie isn’t created for those sakes first? The ideas and execution can come out deflated and underbaked.

Rewatch Spider-man: Into the Spider-verse and the Sixth Sense, they’re both masterpieces and two of my favorite movies.

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cato-of-blamesociety · 6 months

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32 Weeks Tracklist/Song Picks pt. 3 (weeks 17-24)

How/Why did I choose/chose to use the songs I did

*Full breakdown, updated in real time(weekly)*

17. Killer Mike ft. El-P, thankugoodsir x Don't Let The Devil

I have always respected Killer Mike as an artist and I a few years back respected his political endeavors. Mike has never let me down lyrically when I heard him on features. Honestly, though I respect him, I never really got into his music. I did at one point either last year or the year prior, check out his album "R.A.P. Music" and I started listening to the RTJ series. His vocal presence is one of a kind. I have this thing where I feel that an artist's recorded voice really determines if I want to hear them. There are several emcees that I just can't get into due their voices not being conducive to my ears. Mike and El-P have amazing deliveries. In June (2023) Killer Mike drops 'Michael' and I knew from the very first listen that this album is/would be a classic. I listened to it on repeat for a week. Andre 3000 makes an appearance on my favorite track "Scientist & Engineers". I actually have many songs on this album I f*ck with: "Something for the junkies", "Motherless", "Slummer", "Talk'n that shit", and "Run". In June, I was nearing the end of writing for #32weeks, and I was having a hard time (as usual) finding a beat. I knew I wanted to incorporate some instrumentals from this album. I truly wanted to use "Scientist & Engineers" but I didn't feel as eccentric as Dre, and the intro before the beat drops, was too long lol. Instead, I landed on "Don't Let The Devil'. I had this melody in my head that came when vibing to beat. It becomes those opening lines "Tell me, do you smell me? That's peace of mind, and deep patchouli" (the fragrance oil I have been wearing since my early 20's) and it led me to to rhyme Halle Berry. Then I went on a tangent to try an remember where did I hear "almost went Eric Benet....never do Eric Benet" and then I remember it's Jay Z's line from "Kill Jay Z". After I complete the comparisons, I launch into some metaphors that to this day are some of my favorites on this project. I used one more instrumental from this album, but I will share when it's time. Hope you enjoy the track!

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18. Pusha T ft. Jay Z, Pharrell x Neck and Wrist Don't Lie

If there is one thing you can guarantee from Push, when he releases a project, not only will the album but fire, but he usually has a great knack for themes/motifs/stories, but dude is soooo creative at giving the listener "dope" lines. Like when I want to hear a rapper speak about cocaine...I usually prefer Pusha. His wordplay, and metaphors are immaculate when it especially outlines hustling/moving coke. Which is why I didn't even hesitate, as soon as "Almost Dry" came out, I was all over it. The beats, the cadence, and stories made that project amazing. going into #32WeeksMixtape, I quickly understood that I wanted use a beat from his album. So many good ones, "Brambleton", "Dreaming of a Past"(Donnie's sample gives me chills and makes me tear up each time I hear this come on...), "Just So You Remember"(reminds of a movie that I can't recall the title of..), "Diet Coke"(only I can have a snow fight...damn fire) "Rock N Roll"(Ye and Cudi...c'mon man what else you what) "Scrape it off"...basically you see the problem...all of them are hot. I just kept coming back to "Neck and Wrist Don't Lie". This one just was more so my cadence/vibe. The first line that came to me one while airing the beat on repeat "Roll around the South side, stereo banging.." That bar lead to talking about my Orgone pendant. Then I flowed into the idea of talkign about my wife...I couldn't resist...which is a reference to the track before (week 17) where I mention my smell/colgne/oils I wear are Patchouli and Peace of Mind. AFter knocking out those lines, I got into a string of drug based lines, which are derived from the "cooking" analogy. After I got to "Rappy Mason", I got stuck again. But then we changed gears and I wanted highlight that I admire Dolph and Nipsey for their business ventures and I too would love B.L.A.M.E to be a company/brand that I run and nothing else. I want to be the boss. Anyway I hope you enjoy the visuals. I love when things don't straight away make sense, this makes us think harder, and even ask questions. So please feel free to comment on here or on the video with questions or thoughts!

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19. Vince Staples x Rose Street

YOOOOO!!! In case you don't know, Vince's "Ramona Park Broke My Heart" album is just incredible. I will do my best to keep this brief...🤞🏾. Ok, first off this album dropped last April (2022). I had been wishing on a another album from Vince because "Vince Staples" (self titled) was lit. Anyway, a few days or weeks, honestly I have no clue, it is posted that Vince was to do a "live" or streamed version of the album via Moment House in May of that year. I was soooo geeked. I had missed the ONE concert that came to St. Louis in Feb 2022. It was the "Call Me If You Get Lost Tour". My wife and I did want to see Vince, but since he wasn't headlining...(and since this is before my indoctrination of Tyler, the Creator's music), we decided against it. 😢😒 My dumbass. haha. Anyway, I had selected the Monday, May 2, for our viewing. I was enchanted that entire show. I f*ck with Vince because of his musical ability, but really for his art that surrounds it. His videos are always sharing a message about class/race/violence/dangers of the music show business. "Ramona Park Broke My Heart" has some dope tracks. Like literally I can't really just list a few...but I will try my hardest. Ok.."When Sparks Fly', gave me hella chills. He basically makes you think off the bat that he is talking to his woman...and then he immediately pulls the rug out from under you. *plot twist* lol. This song reminds me of Nas' 'I gave you power'. I don't want to ruin the surprise, if you don't know, you have to listen to both songs and witness the greatness both artists display on these tracks. The other favorite that truly sticks to my mind, mainly due to the production is "Rose Street"(the skit right before it IS POWERFUL!!). I love the idea that he states he "don't sing no love songs". That might be true regarding women, but "When Sparks Fly" is nothing short of a love ballad. Rose Street was not the first beat I wanted to use. I think "Playa Ways", and "Lemonade "were top contenders, however, they just didn't fit the direction I was moving with #32weeksMixtape. "East Point Player" has high replay value, but was too slow for my flow. Rose Street's theme of denying love for women(or rather the idea of falling in love with women), or not being able to trust them, and being married to the streets had me wanting to flip the vibe. The chorus was the first idea that came to me, "She know we in love, all in, Us, all in, Trust, all in...I'm married to my very bestfriend. And it's gone be like that until the very end." The next thought was how to go about that topic. Out of nowhere, I was like "I will never forget the time you chose to say yes". I am so happy that I wrote about my proposal. It's one of those things that I guess I deemed sacred, and didn't want to ruin it by sharing it with the world. But as an artist I have come to realize and understand that the best music is the relatable stuff. If you have proposed to someone, you would know that universal feeling of 'what if they say no?'. I hope you enjoy, share, like, and comment on the video with your thoughts. It would be dope if people share their marriage proposals either on here or my "YouTube Channel Community Tab" . I love stuff like that. If you are reading this, thank you, I love you, and I hope you are well. 💙💙💙

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20. Killer Mike ft. Young Thug, Dave Chappelle x Run

I know what you are thinking..."Bro, didn't you use a track from this album already?" YES!!! I Did!! Honestly I wanted to keep a tamper on the amount of artist I would use in the project, and came to the conclusion that I would use some artist/albums more than once. I actually wrote to "RUN" before I wrote to "Don't Let The Devil". I have already outlined why I gravitated to this album, so I want to highlight my content in this track. The verse is written in vignettes(I am uncertain if that is the correct word to use) but each section is a quick blurb about a point in my life. The first is me getting arrested...and not running. Second, was me getting stopped by an officer on my way to the school's gym to practice, and how that could have ended horribly...there were no witnesses, I was by myself, and truly at the mercy of this officer. He wasn't ignorant, but still.. you do get it....right? This was back in like 2006 or 2007. The next story is me playing on the team. I had respect and that's all I needed. I know I wasn't the best. I will talk that more around Week23. Next, I lay the summary of my foot game. I walked everywhere. That was life changing. My mama gave me freedom to visit friends, get a job, and I did it all independently so that I wouldn't have to wait or rely on others. It did get tricky in the winter, but even then, I would double up my jacket/hoodie and walk or run to work. I was serious about making my bread. I touch briefly on the emotional ways I ran from relationships. Gratefully, Erin would remain in my life even though I ran from her love all those years. The final story is me opening up about a being involved in a consensual sexual experience with 5 other people. I learned that day that exhibitionism or group sexual acts, were NOT my thing. I know for some this isn't big deal. But I was very uncomfortable. I also learned that it is ok to walk away/run from something like that. I am grateful that I didn't allow the pressure to keep me in that room that night. I remember everyone that was there...we really haven't talked in years, 2 are actually not on this plane of existence anymore. I am happy I found a way to express to this incident because it bothered me for years not getting it off my chest. With all that said, if you read all this...thank you again for listening. I hope all is well with you. I would love to hear from you. Feel free to hit my Youtube Channel, My email, or message me on here!

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21. Kanye West ft. Roddy Ricch x Pure Souls

I'm gonna cut directly to the chase, the first(second, and third) time I listened to "Donda"...I didn't get it. Then I realized/learned that Donda was his mother's name. During the process of writing #32WeeksMixtape, I had already seen the Jeeny-uhs Documentary(full documentary on NETFLIX). That sh*t broke my heart. I remember hearing years ago about how much his mother poured into that boy/man. He truly felt invincible. So even though as someone who hasn't lost their mother, but has lost a father, I didn't comprehend fully his messages, but I FELT it. I knew I wanted to use a Ye beat for this project, but the issue was where would I pull from. My first instinct was to use the KIDS SEE GHOST album...so many fire tracks to use. Then I was I like, nah, maybe The Life Of Pablo---No way. I knew I couldn't live up that hype! Yeezus, though dope af, is too experimental for my style. I started clicking through Donda... Jail...OMG. I love those "guitars" in the intro, but there aren't any drums...which I prefer lol. God Breathed was a big pull, but nothing popped in my head. I think Off the Grid was a HUGE fav from this album. But again, nothing came to mind, at least nothing good. Then I heard that intro of Pure Souls, just...well you know. I am playing it right now as I write this and I am tearing up. "...and I can not sell my soul!" - fire. I sat with this beat for at least a week. I heard that "truth is what you get away huh" and it started clicking. I knew that at the top of the verse I would go into a traumatic event that happened to me during my first year as a school counselor. Not to go into too many details, but a child had nude images of themselves on their district iPad, but in a way that suggested that they did not take the photo themselves. The photos were shown to me nonchalant and something like "Look this boy got porn on his device, smh." I was the one to point out that it was the child and not an adult. THAT SH*T F*CKED ME UP!! There were several images. Protocol was violated, I did my part like I was supposed to, I did a mandated call and some more stuff. After dealing with that parent who was clearly gaslighting, hiding evidence, and was manipulative..it did a number on my psyche. Earlier in the year I had been researching about Past Life Regressions. This one guy on YouTube named Astro Einstein, was uploading his sessions with his clients and truly opened my eyes to how it could help me. One day I will share my experience more in-depth but I do talk about it on it slightly in my mixtape, week 11, Tyler, The Creator x Massa verse. Later, I was able to find a therapist to talk through it as well. I learned so much about boundaries and protecting my peace. I won't let someone violate me like this again. Anyway, I hope you rock with the song. Every time I play through the tape, after this song, comes week 22, and it always brings a sense of relief because the sequencing sets up a sort of endorphin release...you will see😉. I think those who are going through it, or just coming out of a storm, will feel the relief the most. If you are reading this still, thank you!! And if no one has told you today that they love you, motherf*cker, I do!!

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22. Metro Boomin ft A$AP Rocky & Roisee x Am I Dreaming

YOOOOO!!! Ok lets go back to May of this year 2023...I don't know about you, but the sequel to the most dopest animated Spidey film was about to drop(yes I know this trailer is from Dec. 22)...but what makes this even more special...it is announced that muthaf*ckin' Metro Boomin was going to be the lead on the soundtrack. A month later, in June, the album/soundtrack is released! My wife, kids, and I had it on heavy rotation; "METRO BOOMIN PRESENTS SPIDER-MAN ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE". The whole project is fire. Some songs grew on me over time but overall amazing replay value. As you should know by now, June was heavy #32weeksMixtape writing era. I turned this on and knew I had to pick something...even though I had already used a Metro Track, "Umbrella" (from "Heroes and Villains"). "Annihilate" comes in so hot. I wanted it so bad but couldn't find a version online that sounded good enough. My next pick was "Givin' Up(Not the One)" because I think I sound as good as 21 Savage over a Metro Boomin beat. *Don't forget he is in Umbrella!*. But I felt the tempo was just slightly too slow. "Self- Love" stood out instantly however, the words just didn't come to me. OMG, I almost forgot, Danger! JID killed it, and I felt I couldn't get away from his type of flow, or do any better for that matter. This leaves me with 2 other picks that I actually land on. "Calling" & "Am I Dreaming". I will talk more about "Calling" in a few weeks. "Am I Dreaming"...those strings, they get me every f*cking time. Even now as I write this, it's playing in my earbuds. For those who haven't seen the film, which I am sure everyone has at this point, the movie's ending credits feature this track. Perfecto! Anyway, at this point in writing the project, I was just over halfway, and felt this immense burden lifted. I start reflecting on the process and the hook came to me. This was written before I saw the movie. Climbing/falling, swimming/drowning, doubting/making it to the next round, ultimately defeating myself(fear, doubt, disbelief, old behaviors) and becoming a more evolved me. this works on two levels as I introduce my big brother. I say a lot about his athleticism, (which I go into more the next song), because we bonded heavily over basketball. I mention in week 20 (RUN remix) about how he was/is great which is how I knew I wasn't great. So imagine seeing someone who is great and still rejected! I had to include it. My brother, David, has been through a lot. I remember being old enough to see his flaws, his bad choices, and immaturity. I told myself I would never be like him. I referred to him as the role model for what I didn't want to be. Which is crazy, because as a youngin'--with out a father, I wanted to be as cool as him! As time passed, having my own kids, seeing my brother rise and fall, dealing with my own issues, it finally clicked. My brother was a human. Nothing more and nothing less. Humans make mistakes, we learn, hopefully evolve, and do less harm as we proceed. It is truly an eye opening, mind blowing, bone crushing reality, to acknowledge that someone you put on a pedestal falls...but it hurts more when you see yourself in them (empathy and compassion). David, if you ever read my sh*t, I hope you know I am proud of you. You are worthy of love. You are an awesome father, brother, uncle, and more! You have been blessed with so many f*cking talents and gifts. My hope and wish is that you see what I see when I look at you today....SUPER!!! Those of you coming and checking for Cato's sh*t, 1 year, 5 years, 10 years (ha!)from now, I love you and hope that you tell those people that you really care about that you f*cking love them too! Enjoy the song and the visuals!!

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23. Lil Durk ft. Morgan Wallen x Stand By Me

I am very new to listening to Lil Durk. I remember seeing some of his early mixtapes many years ago, but wasn't interested. Students I would work with also brought him up in a few different conversations. During summer school this past year (SY 22-23, June '23) which was deep #32weeksMixtape writing era, I actually asked some kids, what Durk song(s) should I check out. This was about a month after the album dropped, which I had no idea about. The album is titled "Almost Healed". The kids told me to check out "All My Life". They recommended the track "Expedite This Letter" from the Album/mixtape "7220". Listening to it now, it cringes me out thinking that these elementary scholars shared this one with me...if you check it out, you will see why I feel grossed out. Anyway, back to "All My Life". This caught me by surprised because it features J.Cole! I was like, "Ok, I most definitely have to check this out." What I noticed is that the album opens up like a "Therapy Session" which as a school counselor, hooks me right in. Especially coming off that "Mr. Morale and The Big Steppers" almost on a daily basis, this makes me happy that another artist is opening up in a seemingly genuine way about their issues with out the bravado. This made me feel like, "I f*ck with dude." I delved into the album, now lets list the tracks I wanted to fool with the most..."All My Life" instantly I had to let go because Cole already snatched it. I didn't feel I could add anything to it. But the song is amazing. "Put Em On Ice" has a vibe I like, however, nothing came to mind. "War Bout It ft. 21 Savage"...at this point, you know when Savage is a feature, I usually f*ck with it. Unfortunately, I couldn't find a solid remake beat. There were 2 others I liked and actually used. Cross the Globe ft. Juice Wrld, and "Stand By Me". I will get back to you on Cross the Globe. "Stand By Me" comes on and I hear the melody, instantly I feel nostalgic. "Ok, Lets Go Way Back..." I began with a string of exercises that I did with Big Bro Dave. I mention him in the previous post. Those days left such an impression on me. We kept track of our progress, our reps, and were really getting shredded. By Middle School my muscle mass was awesome. All the exercise I did helped keep my asthma in check. Also to clarify, Varsity did not win the state championships! SMH. I had to research it(after I already completed the damn video), and saw my school actually came in 3rd that year...which still a huge accomplishment. The game that I reference was big game because it was the last game for the season, and by winning got us a spot to play in the championship tournament. Apart of me is embarrassed for making this mistake, and being negligent in not double checking the facts. The other side of me, the artist, says who cares?! We were so f*cking excited and elated, that it FELT like we won the motherf*cking state championship title! Anyway, at this moment I would love to shout out my team mates, I appreciate those years playing along side you. I also want to shout out the coaches. I doubt you will ever see this, but I appreciate the life lessons of always hustling to get what you what, getting up and at it, and REBOUNDING! Not only is my son currently playing ball, my other son is interested as well, and I have the honor of coaching the elementary school kids I work with! These kids are just as hardworking as they are hard headed, but I love it. Appreciate anyone who is reading this right now. Let this long as post remind you that: 1. nothing lasts forever(esp pain) 2. You can always try again 3. A break can fix you(a day off, a step back, take a breather, then come back harder/better than ever). If no one has told you today, I love you...Now share that love with someone else!

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24. Joyner Lucas ft. Timbaland x 10 Bands

First off, I knew Joyner was cold. I just never really got into him. My wife actually was bumping his sh*t before me. She shared with me ISIS...and I was like WTF!!! I had been into Logic at the time, going through his catalog. It was around this time she told me play ISIS. Hearing Joyner I was like this dude on a whole 'nother level. It took awhile but I had went through his whole album 'ADHD'. Fast forward to the #32weeks writing era, and I remembered that ADHD had some dope ass instrumentals. Lets see...ISIS is tough, but too fast, not my style, and they already murdered it twice..."double homicide kill the beat and the verses..." "The War" is sonically pleasing but I don't think I could come up with anything. "I love" is a banger for sure. Not my vibe though....ok I don't know what's going on, but sliding through this mf right now, I f*ck with all these beats. I don't what I was thinking, I think "10 Bands" came on/I found an instrumental that had good quality and closest to the original and the hook just came to me. "Parenting, Parenting, Parenting, this go out to the parents yeah!" There is one more beat that actually use from this album...i use the title track. It is something about the way the beat wobbles and is wavy. We will talk about that soon. Anyway, the verse for 10 Bands is just a blub about my boys. I try to include them in all my works now that they are here. They inspire me so much. The idea for this song is that I lay out their annoying traits, but then follow up with their amazing qualities. What is even more crazy is that as a parent we see our own personalities within our children play out in many different ways. I love them boys for real. I don't know how that video will be up. As of now they enjoy seeing themselves on the screen, but if that should change I will take it down. I almost forgot! In the verse I say "I told you they were little sh*ts.." This is a reference to the actual track/theme song of the Little Sh*ts Podcast my wife and I had did awhile back. In the video I have the Spotify track on display and circle it.

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I can't believe that this is number 24...like I have been consistently creating visuals, creating snippets of those(about 2-4), posting each of those on each f*cking social media site that I have an account for, writing up the "behind the music" post on here...EVERY F*CKING WEEK FOR THE LAST 24 WEEKS!!! I know this isn't exactly the info to put in theses posts, but I know that *you*(maybe a week from this post, or a year, hell even 5 years now) will be reading this like, "Damn n*gga, it's not that hard.." 1st off, remember I work a full time job every week day, I have a family, these activities that contribute to fulfillment of a project that as of today isn't "seen" at all or taking serious. Like on my mama, this definitely the greatest project that I have ever endured. I mentioned to people before I started releasing tracks, that the #32weeks itself (the writing, the time consumed on my mf phone/CPU, the struggle to maintain sanity while dealing with tough 8hr work day, to stay connected to family, and through it all, actually see this visual mixtape to its completion! So please make some noise for me on the internet. Help me make history. Time is not on our side, but time spent building something incredible that make life feel more limitless, to me, is time well spent. Apologies if that all sounded bitter and crass, it just feels like no one sees that effort that goes into this. I love you and hope you are taking care of yourself. Give the tracks play and please share it all with a music geek who can get into my music! 💙💙💙 I just found out today another acquaintance from earlier in my life has passed. He went LIVE on Facebook and basically expressed that he was tired, he felt alone, and felt like no one loved him. He made that video yesterday(~12/20) and I saw that new of it today (12/21). RIH RM. I know I can't be there for everyone, but apart of me wishes that I reached out to him the minute I saw his video...and I didn't. 💔 So my heart is slightly heavy as I write this. I know I am not to blame, because I don't have the power to control a man's decisions. To counter the negative feelings I have right now, I chose to practice gratitude. I am grateful for my life, grateful for my wife, grateful for my sons, grateful for my family, grateful for my homies[Domo, Tyson, Will, Paris(💔💙), Brandon, my f*cking brother Dave]grateful for the chance to create music, grateful that I have grown, grateful for love...Love is...beauitful. If you see this, well mf, I am grateful for you as well.

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i need an outlet for my emotions, because i think i feel everything too deeply sometimes. hopefully this will give me a more leveled head. lets get through the basics; today is january 29, 2024. i'm 16, and halfway through junior year of high school. we are a few weeks away from opening night of mamma mia! the musical. him and i have been together for over a year, and everything is going well right now.

here's the deal, last week i snapped at K because she was shit talking and she did not take it very lightly. it ended with me telling her what i thought about A thinking i could trust her. of course, she told A everything and then refused to speak to me. it feels like everyone is against me becquse M and A2 keep saying they're staying neutral and then talking behind my back. it's been making me really sad, because i care about them 10000x more than they care about me.

so on thursday T A and O let me go hangout with them at T's house. it was fun, i did find out some crazy stuff about O and T though. they're good party friends but i definitely don't want to be in their circle, same with S and R. on friday, L and H and i went to walmart and got stuff to make our own pizzas. we watched a car get caught stealing, taught H how to use a bong, and had lots of laughs. they knew how upset i was and they were really supportive. i went to work and had a great time, me and G got shakes after work and hung out for a bit, too. Z is going to a different store though, which is bittersweet because hes my favorite manager. i feel really confident at work now though.

this morning, i was sitting in his truck and texted the group chat to see where everybody was, and nobody responded. i didn't think anything of it until i watched them all go get in As car. it made me get in my head again and that's why i started writing this. it's not fair that they get to make me feel like this and be completely oblivious, so i'm just not going to let myself feel like that. i have L and H and him, of course. me and J are getting closer, and i really enjoy talking to her. i have friends, a job, and a relationship, and theater is picking up, i have so much more going on, i don't need to waste my time on people who don't care about me. the definition of protecting my peace.

i think i feel a little better, maybe if i talk to myself enough i'll start seeing it from a better perspective at the start. that's all for now..

xoxo,

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YOU KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DISTRACT YOU SO THAT I CAN ATTACK YOU WHILE YOUR BACK IS TURNED.

A-Z FANDOM RELTAED QUESTIONS (YOU DON'T ALLOW LINKS): ALL OF THEM. IN OTHER WORDS: A, B, C, D, E , F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y, AND Z!

Sweet baby Jesus what have I gotten myself into

Ok let’s go!

Otp: i have a special place in my heart for Lumity

a pairing I just can’t get behind: I actually don’t have one. I either really like a ship or I don’t like (at least in toh)

my very first fandom contribution was on here! I just saw people making posts that were half fic, half au and idea collaboration and just kinda. Joined in?

I have never made a crack fic

The longest I’ve ever been in a fandom might be toh, I remember reading fics right around the end of season one, but otherwise probably gravity falls

My first fandom was definitely gravity falls. I continue to love thinking about the shenanigans Pacifica and the twins could have gotten up to if they were friends earlier on when I’m bored. I prefer animated tv over live action

I don’t think tumblr has ruined any fandom for me, but I love the block button

I didn’t particularly care about any game fandoms until I saw them on tumblr, but I bought hollow knight today and I bought Stardew Valley a month or so ago and I’m having lots of fun

I feel pretty good about the people I choose to interact with in fandom, but like I said earlier, the block button is a good friend of mine

I actually did have someone I really like make a fic I wanted, but that was more a we put together an idea together and then he wrote a fic for it. (Hi, Teddy, if you’re reading this, I’m talking about you)

An irl friend of mine, @fizzywizzard, (their Christian parents found their tumblr, rest in peace) peer pressured me into watching the first anime I ever watched, so thanks dude

my favorite fandom to interact with is my single pjo mutual (hi again teddy) and their mutuals circle, whom occasionally enjoy my deranged bullshit

I know it says pick a song at random but I don’t care I think the song I do adore by Mindy Gledhill is pretty Solangelo

Invent a random au: hoo au that’s a typical uni au except that every character is a different type of nonhuman: Will is a med student vampire, Nico is a mortuary student ghost who’s been trying to pass one of the core classes for the last decade, Leo is your basic demon while Jason is your basic angel and they are studying engineering and architecture respectively, Percy is, obviously, a Mer studying marine preservation, Grover stays the same and is studying nature preservation with Percy, Piper is a Siren (which is different than a Mer) studying business, Annabeth is a harpy (she looks like an owl) and is studying architecture with Jason, Reyna is a witch studying politics, Frank is a shapeshifter studying psychology, and Hazel is a Fae studying archaeology. Hedge is a staff member who is fed up with their bullshit.

I’m going to stop here because I’ve been writing for about an hour but if you made it this far feel free to send me an ask from the list. A single letter though, or I’ll just delete it

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June 24, 2021

Verse: Ezra 9-10 Write/ Copy Gods words :

Ezra Prays About Intermarriage 9 After these things had been done, the officials approached me and said, “The people of Israel and the priests and the (A)Levites have not separated themselves from the peoples of the lands (B)with their abominations, from the (C)Canaanites, the Hittites, the Perizzites, the Jebusites, the Ammonites, the Moabites, the Egyptians, and the Amorites. 2 (D)For they have taken some of their daughters to be wives for themselves and for their sons, so that the (E)holy race[a] has (F)mixed itself with the peoples of the lands. And in this faithlessness the hand of the officials and chief men has been foremost.” 3 As soon as I heard this, I (G)tore my garment and my cloak and pulled hair from my head and beard and (H)sat appalled. 4 Then all who (I)trembled at the words of the God of Israel, because of the faithlessness of the returned exiles, gathered around me while I sat (J)appalled until the evening sacrifice. 5 And at the (K)evening sacrifice I rose from my fasting, with my garment (L)and my cloak torn, and fell upon my knees (M)and spread out my hands to the Lord my God, 6 saying: “O my God, I am ashamed and blush to lift my face to you, my God, for our iniquities (N)have risen higher than our heads, and our (O)guilt has (P)mounted up to the heavens. 7 (Q)From the days of our fathers to this day we have been in great (R)guilt. And for our iniquities we, our kings, and our priests have been given into the hand of the kings of the lands, to the sword, to captivity, to plundering, (S)and to utter shame, as it is today. 8 But now for a brief moment favor has been shown by the Lord our God, to leave us a (T)remnant and to give us a (U)secure hold[b] within his holy place, that our God may (V)brighten our eyes and grant us a little reviving in our slavery. 9 (W)For we are slaves. Yet our God has not forsaken us in our slavery, (X)but has extended to us his steadfast love before the kings of Persia, to grant us some reviving to set up the house of our God, to repair its ruins, and to give us protection[c] in Judea and Jerusalem. 10 “And now, O our God, what shall we say after this? For we have forsaken your commandments, 11 which you commanded by your servants the prophets, saying, ‘The land that you are entering, to take possession of it, is a land impure with the impurity of the peoples of the lands, with their abominations that have filled it from end to end with (Y)their uncleanness. 12 (Z)Therefore do not give your daughters to their sons, neither take their daughters for your sons, and never seek their peace or prosperity, that you may be strong and eat the good of the land (AA)and leave it for an inheritance to your children forever.’ 13 And after all that has come upon us for our evil deeds and for (AB)our great guilt, seeing that you, our (AC)God, have punished us less than our iniquities deserved and have given us such a (AD)remnant as this, 14 shall we break your commandments again and (AE)intermarry with the peoples who practice these abominations? Would you not be angry with us (AF)until you consumed us, so that there should be no (AG)remnant, nor any to escape? 15 O Lord, the God of Israel, you are just, for we are left a (AH)remnant that has escaped, as it is today. Behold, we are before you in our (AI)guilt, (AJ)for none can stand before you because of this.” The People Confess Their Sin 10 (AK)While Ezra prayed and (AL)made confession, weeping and (AM)casting himself down (AN)before the house of God, a very great assembly of men, women, and children, gathered to him out of Israel, for the people wept bitterly. 2 And Shecaniah the son of Jehiel, of the sons of Elam, addressed Ezra: (AO)“We have broken faith with our God and have married foreign women from the peoples of the land, but even now there is hope for Israel in spite of this. 3 Therefore (AP)let us make a covenant with our God to put away all these wives and (AQ)their children, according to the counsel of my lord[d] and of (AR)those who tremble at the commandment of our God, and let it be done (AS)according to the Law. 4 Arise, for it is your task, and we are with you; (AT)be strong and do it.” 5 Then Ezra arose and made the leading priests and Levites and all Israel (AU)take an oath that they would do as had been said. So they took the oath. 6 Then Ezra withdrew (AV)from before the house of God and went to the (AW)chamber of (AX)Jehohanan the son of (AY)Eliashib, where he spent the night,[e] neither (AZ)eating bread nor drinking water, for he was mourning over the faithlessness of the exiles. 7 And a proclamation was made throughout Judah and Jerusalem to all the returned exiles that they should assemble at Jerusalem, 8 and that if anyone did not come within three days, by order of the officials and the elders all his property should be forfeited, and he himself banned from the congregation of the exiles. 9 Then all the men of Judah and Benjamin assembled at Jerusalem within the three days. It was the ninth month, on the twentieth day of the month. And all the people sat in the open square before the house of God, trembling because of this matter and because of the (BA)heavy rain. 10 And Ezra the priest stood up and said to them, “You have broken faith and married foreign women, and so increased the guilt of Israel. 11 Now then (BB)make confession to the Lord, the God of your fathers and do his will. (BC)Separate yourselves from the peoples of the land and from the foreign wives.” 12 Then all the assembly answered with a loud voice, “It is so; we must do as you have said. 13 But the people are many, and it is a time of heavy rain; we cannot stand in the open. Nor is this a task for one day or for two, for we have greatly transgressed in this matter. 14 Let our officials stand for the whole assembly. Let all in our cities who have taken foreign wives come (BD)at appointed times, and with them the elders and judges of every city, (BE)until the fierce wrath of our God over this matter is turned away from us.” 15 Only Jonathan the son of Asahel and Jahzeiah the son of Tikvah opposed this, and (BF)Meshullam and (BG)Shabbethai the Levite supported them. 16 Then the returned exiles did so. Ezra the priest selected men,[f] heads of fathers' houses, according to their fathers' houses, each of them designated by name. On the first day of the tenth month they sat down to examine the matter; 17 and by the first day of the first month they had come to the end of all the men who had married foreign women. Those Guilty of Intermarriage 18 Now there were found some of the sons of the priests who had married foreign women: Maaseiah, Eliezer, Jarib, and Gedaliah, some of the sons of (BH)Jeshua the son of Jozadak and his brothers. 19 They (BI)pledged themselves to put away their wives, and their guilt offering was (BJ)a ram of the flock for their guilt.[g] 20 (BK)Of the sons of Immer: Hanani and Zebadiah. 21 (BL)Of the sons of Harim: Maaseiah, Elijah, Shemaiah, Jehiel, and Uzziah. 22 Of the sons of Pashhur: Elioenai, Maaseiah, Ishmael, Nethanel, Jozabad, and Elasah. 23 Of the Levites: Jozabad, Shimei, Kelaiah (that is, Kelita), Pethahiah, Judah, and Eliezer. 24 Of the singers: Eliashib. Of the gatekeepers: Shallum, Telem, and Uri. 25 And of Israel: of the sons of Parosh: Ramiah, Izziah, Malchijah, Mijamin, Eleazar, Hashabiah,[h] and Benaiah. 26 Of the sons of Elam: Mattaniah, Zechariah, Jehiel, Abdi, Jeremoth, and Elijah. 27 Of the sons of Zattu: Elioenai, Eliashib, Mattaniah, Jeremoth, Zabad, and Aziza. 28 Of the sons of Bebai were Jehohanan, Hananiah, Zabbai, and Athlai. 29 Of the sons of Bani were Meshullam, Malluch, Adaiah, Jashub, Sheal, and Jeremoth. 30 Of the sons of Pahath-moab: Adna, Chelal, Benaiah, Maaseiah, Mattaniah, Bezalel, Binnui, and Manasseh. 31 Of the (BM)sons of Harim: Eliezer, Isshijah, Malchijah, Shemaiah, Shimeon, 32 Benjamin, Malluch, and Shemariah. 33 Of the sons of Hashum: Mattenai, Mattattah, Zabad, Eliphelet, Jeremai, Manasseh, and Shimei. 34 Of the sons of (BN)Bani: Maadai, Amram, Uel, 35 Benaiah, Bedeiah, Cheluhi, 36 Vaniah, Meremoth, Eliashib, 37 Mattaniah, Mattenai, Jaasu. 38 Of the sons of Binnui:[i] Shimei, 39 Shelemiah, Nathan, Adaiah, 40 Machnadebai, Shashai, Sharai, 41 Azarel, Shelemiah, Shemariah, 42 Shallum, Amariah, and Joseph. 43 Of the sons of Nebo: Jeiel, Mattithiah, Zabad, Zebina, Jaddai, Joel, and Benaiah. 44 All these had married foreign women, and some of the women (BO)had even borne children.[j]

What is your favourite verse or verses?

23 Of the Levites: Jozabad, Shimei, Kelaiah (that is, Kelita), Pethahiah, Judah, and Eliezer. 24 Of the singers: Eliashib. Of the gatekeepers: Shallum, Telem, and Uri.

Explain in your own words what you just read:

After his arrival and the proper accounting of all the gifts brought from Babylonia, Ezra was presented with bad news. The spiritual condition of the post-exile community was bad, and this was evident in their failure to separate from the pagan peoples that still populated the region.

Commitment / what will i do : I will quite unable to resist the attacks of their jealous neighbors

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Mammonswhore Masterlist.

[last time updated 12/14]

Rules

The rules if you want to send me a request. Make sure to check if the requests are open.

You can always send me drabbles or short ideas for me to elaborate small hc or add more to what you said!

If you ever want to ask something feel free to do it,my ask box is always working as a safe place for you to vent or just chat with me, don't be shy and talk to me if you want to I swear I am asfriendly as I can be <3

Disclaimer: the incorrect quotes are not listed here! You can find them under the tag hol shenanigans.

My thirsts or nsfw writing is tagged as .val thirsts⛈

Text stories under tag ⚛v.texts

Inhuman Headcanons

cw: this includes less human hc and it's more about the brothers and royals being demons. So it includes more violent,animalistic and demonic behaviors in general. Everything is under the tag ⚱.inhuman obey me

Mates & Heats (Lucifer,Mammon and Leviathan)

General Headcanons

Brothers React to MC turning into a sheep for the Paws event. [GN!MC]

If Luke was your Twin Headcanons. [GN!MC]

MC is Luke's twin and they Fall because they Love the Demons. [GN!MC] (Angst,long post, comfort).

MC is a Gen Z teen. (Brothers & Dateables). [Platonic GN! MC].

Bad habits they have. (Brothers & Dateables)

MC has their period. [GN!MC]

MC is an actual Sheep. [GN! MC]

MC is Dummy Thick. [F!MC] slight NSFW

Hispanic!MC who loves chaos. [GN! MC]

MC feels unworthy shopping. [GN!MC]

Older Brothers Kinks & Preferences. (Lucifer, Mammon & Levi). NSFW.

MC is jealous! [GN! MC]

MC with the main personality traits as Beel, Levi and Belphie! [GN!MC]

A date is ruined by a fling who wants MC back! [GN!MC]

MC has a twin brother and they are chaotic and they only obey Lucifer. [16 GN!MC] (Lucifer acting like a dad,the boys being big brothers for once and Belphie feeling included)

Brothers and their phone cases!

Undateables and their phone cases!

MC's trial on the Celestial Realm. [GN!MC. 1st pov,angst,short]

About Lilith (me talking about why we should not hate Lilith)

Lilith my beloved (me talking once again about why the devs didn't gave us Lilith content)

Lilith has survived but she can't live the life she wanted. [F!MC implied] (Lilith's appearance hc, how she acts,etc).

Dumb shit that Happens when you Live with Seven Idiots. [ Crack!]

Dumb Shit That Happens When You Live with Seven Idiots (part 2). [Crack!]

Is he a Morning Person or a Night Person? [MC is not even mentioned,this is purely for stupid jokes]

Petty bitches. [Lucifer,Satan & Belphie]

How would they react to MC staying up late. [GN!MC,fluff]

Brothers as Weird texts!

Brothers getting the COVID vaccine

Brothers at the Beach! [GN!MC]

Brothers as songs!

Brothers and their pencil cases!

Obey me! Man thoughts on Nails. [GN!MC]

Lucifer☄

Lucifer with a S/O who is very fond of him. [GN!MC]

What they take you to eat when you are sad. [GN!MC]

At Peace. [GN!MC] (Fluff)

Tall! Lucifer x Short!MC [GN!MC] (NSFW)

Someone Who Loved Me. [GN!MC] (Angst)

Mammon☄

Random Mammon Headcanons.

Mammon reacts to MC being Lucky AF. [GN!MC]

What they take you to eat when you are sad. [GN!MC]

Praising Mammon! [GN!MC]

Mammon is a Sad Drunk and Lucifer isn't. (Short but kinda angsty so beware).

If Mammon had a daughter. (Thoughts about Mammon being a great dad)

Prince Mammon AU (Synopsis,tag list!, Visuals) [1st Chapter]

My Partner. [F!MC] (Fluff)

Bad Habit. [GN!MC] (fluff) LATEST!

Leviathan☄

What they take you to eat when you are sad. [GN!MC]

Just let me adore you! [Fem!MC] (fluffy)

After Hours Games. (NSFW!)

Cuddles. [GN!MC] (Fluff,short)

Satan☄

Loving you. (Short drabble) [GN!MC]

Satan Loving Hours. [Me loving Satan)

The Day Before The Test. (NSFW) LATEST!

Asmodeus☄

MC's cousins try to hit on him being rude towards them. [GN!MC]

Random Asmo headcanons! [GN!MC]

I am Sorry. [GN!MC] (Angst fo Fluff)

Beelzebub☄

Intimacy. [GN!MC] (short!)

MC talks a lot! [F!MC]

Belphegor☄

Hate. [GN!MC] (short!)

Domestic Belphegor.[GN!MC]

Trinkets. [GN!MC]

Belphie as a Dad. [GN!MC]

I still Hate You. [GN!MC] (angst)

Diavolo☃

Diavolo's & MC's friendship.

Favorite headcanon about him!

Barbatos☃

Favorite headcanon of him!

Simeon☃

"Hey Dad!" (Teen!MC calls Simeon Dad) [GN!MC]

Luke☃

Favorite headcanon about him!

Solomon☃

Favorite headcanon about him!

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thatsmellofrain · 3 years

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🌩 astrology observations 🌩

because someday i had to hop on the bandwagon after reading them for so long.

DISCLAIMER: these observations all come from personal experience, i am no professional astrologer, only take what resonates!

☁️ venus in the cancer-capricorn axis are so damn underrated. i swear, these people are the ultimate providers in relationships, and they'll always be there for you when you need it, true ride or die energy with these people.

☁️ i can never realize someone's a pisces rising until they show me their chart. pisces in general tends to be very flowy and adaptable, so it may be more natural for these risings to blend in with the crowd. h o w e v e r , their eyes might be a good giveaway. they tend to have an overall soft, watery look even if they're not blue (examples: billie eilish, michael jackson, zayn malik).

☁️ speaking of pisces placements, i've noticed most of the ones i know have shown deep interest in different artistic pursuits, specially songwriting, poetry, photography and film.

☁️ the same goes for leos but with them (and i say these as someone who attracts way too much leo energy) it's more related to performing arts. the ones i've seen more interested in writing also had a virgo mercury.

☁️ i've never seen two capricorns have a peaceful relationship with their parents, there's always one of them who prefers not to talk about it.

☁️ besides, i've seen that you're not "supposed" to get along with signs inconjunct (that make an angle of 150°, or are five signs away from yours) yours, since the inconjunction/quincunx is an aspect of total misunderstanding. however, i find signs like gemini and leo way too prominent on most of my friends' charts. maybe it's because i am a fire dominant as well so i tend to enjoy having fire and air energy all around me, but... i disagree with "textbook" astrology on this particular take. if leos and geminis bring me discord, i want more of it.

☁️ this is a popular one, but stop with the oversexualization of scorpio placements. the scorpio archetype has to do with many more things such as discoveries, taboo, mystery, emotional depth, secrets, the unknown, looking deep within ourselves, psychology. it is also related to sexuality, but... chill out on that aspect, please.

☁️ aquarius placements culture is saying: "i did x before it was popular". and i am directing this towards most of gen z because we all have at least one generational planet in there (could be uranus, neptune or both -i have both). if they're personal planets, of course the effect is even more intense.

☁️ the sagittarius-gemini axis gets the best ranter award, i swear i could hear these guys talk for hours.

☁️ can some people stop stereotyping sag and gemini venuses as cheaters? as a sag venus, i do tend to get bored easily, but that doesn't mean i'll cheat, i just need someone who can keep up with a great amount of energy and my random rants at 1am about useless topics.

☁️ look at the top students in your class, they probably have an earth or air mercury since those are the elements where mercury's the most comfortable in. that doesn't mean that if you have a water/fire mercury you're dumb, by the way, it's just that communication may not be as effective and striaghtforward, with cold hard facts.

☁️ people with aquarius in personal planets can go from "fashion icon" to "wtf were you thinking??" way too fast. but you guys, just like your sister sign leo, certainly do not go unnoticed.

☁️ i have come to the conclusion that the most intense energy belongs to fixed signs. i can feel those folks from a mile away. i've also been living in a fixed dominant family my whole life, so i have experience with them in general.

☁️ speaking of fixed signs, i'd like to add that not only tauruses are the monarchs of stubbornness, but the entire fixed mode can have that characteristic as well. of course, it depends of the entire chart, but when i encounter someone who's a fixed dominant and they disagree with me on something, even though i'm right, i just let them be for a while. they probably won't admit you were right and might act like it was their idea all along, though.

☁️ you may tend to enjoy music made by people who have personal placements landing on your fifth house. for example, i am an aries rising, so my 5H lands in leo, sign that many of my favorite artists have as their big three (rina sawayama, woodz, phoebe bridgers and jesse rutherford are leo suns; jungkook and heize are leo moons). also pay attention to the signs in your 8H and 12H along with your venus sign, your faves could have important placements in those.

☁️ fire risings all radiate main characte, given that the houses are all in the elements they are the most comortable in (the 1st is in a fire sign, the 2nd in earth, the 3rd in air, 4th in water, etc.). and in the case of aries risings, we have all our houses "in order".

☁️ people tend to stereotype aries placements as the ones with anger issues (when we're just being passionate, btw 🙄), but... have you guys seen a taurus? specifically a taurus mars? they'll raise hell if you cross the limits of their patience.

☁️ fire dominant culture is being told you're being "too much" at least once a week...

☁️ it's so fun to see my mom and i pick a destination to go to because you can literally see our venus signs in action. she, a taurus venus, is always talking about how much she wants to go somewhere she can be comfortable, in a resort with beautiful views to the coast. on the contrary there's me, a sagittarius venus, who would much rather get lost in a city, exploring and learning and moving all the time because that's how restless i am. i just can't imagine paying so much just to be locked up in a hotel, you know? i need to go places.

☁️ moon in the 6H people deserve an award for being the underrated mom friends we all need -they'll call you out on your bs right away, specially if they have strong aries energy.

thank you guys for reading! i might post more of these soon.

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the-original-skipps · 3 years

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Fluffy Alphabet A-Z

Sano Manjiro aka Mikey

Note: Thank you so much for 100+ followers. I wouldn't have been able to get his far without your support. I'm super overjoyed and glad that you guys take the time to read my writing. I love you all very much as promised I hope you enjoy the fluffy alphabet! 💗

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

> Mikey likes to go for rides on his CB205T and he likes to bring you along. He just loves the feeling of the wind passing and your presence behind him. Maybe sharing some snacks while you both watch the sunset or the starry night sky, talking about random things. He just generally likes being around you even if you're both just sitting in silence.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

> He admires your determination and strong will. Since Mikey is mentally weak, he admires those traits in other people. No matter what you'd always be there to scold him or comfort him. It reminds him of his older brother.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

> Mikey instantly knows if you're feeling down, he just senses it. He'll bring you somewhere where they could both be alone maybe a park or he'll drive somewhere and sit you down. Mikey won't force you to tell him what's wrong but if you do he'll be listening intently. He's not the best at comforting people but makes sure to let you know that he's here for you.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

> Now this is a hard topic to answer. Mikey has pictured a future with his s/o, living in peace after all the rush during his teenage years. However, he doesn't see it happening because he knows it's best if he keeps his s/o away from him in the future.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

> I'd say he's both but mostly on the passive side. He lets you take the lead since he doesn't know much about being in a relationship. He'll be given advice and teased by his close friends but he'll keep their words in mind.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

> Mikey is pretty stubborn and doesn't like losing. If it's a petty harmless arguement, if he's wrong then he'll muttering an apology to you and completely forget about it. It's difficult to get into a serious argument with him unless it's something concerning him or Toman. Say the things he needs to hear even if himself doesn't agree with you. Then he'll leave to give himself space and think about things. Be patient with him because eventually he'll come around.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

> Mikey is very grateful for you being by his side even though he thinks he doesn't deserve it. He appreciates every gesture you do for him from the big things and to the little things such as making him lunch or fixing his hair or just being by his side when he feels he's losing himself.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

> Mikey doesn't hide things, if you ask him something he will directly answer you. He has no trouble talking about a past event since it already happened. Even though he doesn't want you getting involved with Toman, he still tells you about how they're doing or what they're up to. The only things he wouldn't share are his true feelings and his dark impulsivities since he doesn't want to scare you.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

> Just by being by Mikey's side you are a positive influence on him. It will take a long time but little by little he tries to open up about his true feelings and tries to rely on you more. Everytime you sense he's distancing himself, you would have to drag him back and knock some sense into him.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

> Mikey is definitely the type to get jealous easily and his childish tendencies tend to come out. If he sees you getting too friendly with someone he'll keep staring until he's had enough and say "(Y/N) is mine, hmph!" With a cute pout on his face. Be sure to coddle him afterwards because he might give you the silent treatment.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

> Mikey has no experience whatsoever. He has no idea how kisses work. It'll be super rare to get a kiss from Mikey since he's not used to being affectionate. If you're lucky he'll peck you on your cheek or kiss your hands occasionally. Your first kiss with him wasn't planned. Both of you were alone and you were just admiring him as he talked and pressed a light kiss on his lips. He was instantly shocked by what you did as he traces over his lips with his fingers but inside he's feeling all warm. He never knew kisses from you would have this kind of affect on him.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

> It took long time for Mikey to realize that what he felt towards you was more than just friendship. He confessed this to Draken and he replied "huh, obviously you like them you idiot. Hurry up and go tell them." In which Mikey replies by telling Draken to do the same for Emma. It happened when he came to pick you up from school one day on his motorcycle and brought you to the riverside. "I finally understand what I feel, (Y/N). I like you... You don't have to give me an answer right away, I'll wait however long it takes..."

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

> Another hard topic to answer. When Mikey fell for you he fell hard. As much as he wants to spend the rest of his life in peace with you, it won't happen. That is until he goes through "certain changes" and let's say he did. You'll be riding with him on his motorcycle on Christmas until he stops at a certain place. He'll start talking about his past and the times you've spent together. Then talking about how much he appreciates you and thanks you then pops the question. The wedding will be small and privately held with only people close to him and you are invited.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

> It is known that Mikey gives nicknames to those who are close to him. It depends on what your first name is. He'll most likely you use the first syllable of your name plus -chin, -cchi or -chy. Only when he's serious will he use your real name.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

> Honestly, it can be really hard to tell unless you really observe Mikey. You would notice he stares at you longer, or everytime your name pops up in a conversation he's interested. Draken is definitely the first the notice this change in Mikey and teases him for it, while Mikey denys it. The others will slowly start to notice this too. Especially, when he bought an extra taiyaki and gave it to you. Takemichy's jaw dropped at the scene.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

> Mikey won't be announcing to everyone that he has an s/o. However, if someone asks he'll answer honestly. I wouldn't use the word "brag" but he will say nice about you to others. For Mikey, intimate gestures such as kissing are only between the two of you. If someone catches the both of you, Mikey wouldn't be pleased.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.

> You wouldn't have to worry about anyone trying to flirt with you or trying to hurt you not when Mikey's around. Mikey cares deeply about you and would give his life to protect you. You wouldn't have to worry about other people trying to flirt with Mikey either since you already have his heart, he'll simple brush them off. He's loyal.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

> As I have mentioned earlier, Mikey has no experience with relationships. You would have to teach him things. Still there will be moments that might seem simple to others but to you, you know it's a way Mikey shows his love for you. For example, draping his jacket over your shoulders or buying an extra snack so you could have some too. If he's not busy with Toman matters, he would want to spend his time with you.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

> Mikey would genuinely support your dreams and passions, telling you to never give up on them. He believes in you with his whole heart, and he knows you would be able to make your goals come true.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

> He would like to try things he never experienced before with you, like taking pictures at the photo booth or going shopping for matching keychains. That being said, what Mikey likes the most is the constant reassurance that you're here for him. Routines like going riding on his motorcycle or just talking with you, it what he like most. He's scared that one day you'd leave him so these mundane routines assures him.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

> You would think Mikey is the forgetful type but he actually pays attention to things. He'll notice you eyeing a certain item in a store or if you're lying to him. He genuinely cares about you and would like to know everything about you, even the shameful parts. Mikey has a hard time with emotions, he may not fully understand your troubles but he'll assure you that he'll be there for you.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

> For Mikey to actually want to establish a relationship with someone. It means he sees you as an important person in his life. However, certain things would have to come before you such as his family and Toman. It is something you would have to understand when dating Mikey.

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

> Whenever he looks like he's spacing off during Toman meetings while he is paying attention to what's happening his mind can't help but wander towards you. About what you're currently doing or if you're at home safely. Before he starts the engine of his bike, or has nothing to do he fiddles with the keychain on his keys. It's the matching keychain you both have.

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

> Mikey is not known to be the most showy when it comes to showing his affections. It's the little things he does for only you, that shows how much he cares about you. Mikey secretly likes the affection you give him even if he denies it. It surprises him everytime you hug him or kiss him but he never stops you or tells you to stop. Just don't do it in front of Toman. Even if he doesn't want to, cuddle him as the big spoon and it'll make him really happy. Since he's so used to keeping a strong facade, cuddling with you gives him the impression that with you maybe he doesn't have to do that.

Y earning - How will they cope when they're missing their partner?

> Mikey will still act as the strong charismatic leader of Toman, where nothing fazes him. He won't outwardly show that he misses you but you can tell by the way he fiddles with his matching keychain or stares off into the distance that he misses you. He might even unconsciously blurt a quiet "I miss (Y/N)...."

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

> Mikey is willing to give his life away to protect you. Just you being with him is dangerous enough who knows who might be out to get him and easiest way they can do that is by getting you. If your safely is at risk even he likes you he would have to break up with you, keep you away from the danger. Because he utmostly cares about your well being and if anything happens to you, it will destroy him.

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sugawara-sweetheart · 3 years

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if it isn’t too much to ask, can you possibly do the whole yandere alphabet w suga? 💞

❣︎𝔰𝔲𝔤𝔞𝔴𝔞𝔯𝔞 𝔨𝔬𝔠𝔥𝔦 // 𝔶𝔞𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔞𝔩𝔭𝔥𝔞𝔟𝔢𝔱❣︎

letters: a-z

this alphabet belongs to @.dear-yandere

warnings: yandere, kidnapping, infantilisation, some forced feminisation, stalking, delusion, manipulation + guilt tripping

❦note: my characterisation of yandere sugawara was a little inspired by @.drxwsyni’s characterisation of yandere sugawara and i really highly recommend her works!

affection: how do they show their love and affection? how intense would it get? //

sugawara is intense and heavily oppressive with his love- he wants to show it as much as he can, often overwhelming you with his heavy love. he loves physical touch- you’ll always be tugged onto his lap with his arms wrapped around you, locking you in as he smothers you in tender kisses or you’ll never be seen without his hand clinging to yours. everything he does for you will be so excessive- buying you a specific food you like over and over till you’re sick of it, always cooking for you and even insisting on feeding it to you, bathing you, completing over-caring for you to the point where it’s infantilising and suffocating.

blood: how messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling? //

sugawara wouldn’t hesitate to do anything for you- but he’d never hurt you directly. he wants to protect you and if that means getting messy he wouldn’t think twice about it. he’ll avenge for you and eliminate anyone causing trouble for you subtly and from afar, his sweet angelic facade casting away any suspicion. that overly friendly boy who keeps flirting with you will never bother you again after the day sugawara follows him into a dark alley and murmurs dark threats from a sweet smile and the professor who hates you for no reason never fails you on assignment ever again after sugawara pays him a visit in his office.

cruelty: how would they treat their darling once abducted? would they mock them? //

sugawara would be so welcoming and sweet! he knows you’re a little scared so he’ll hold you in his lap, wiping away your tears and humming sweetly in your ear. he has pretty new dresses ready for you, expensive and all these different shades of pink so you can look pretty and comfortable for him. he’ll take such good care cleaning up your cuts and bruises and makes sure to feed you well, promising you can leave the basement as soon as you’re a bit more adjusted. he’ll be so excited and happy you’re here with him and of course because he knows you so well he’s bought all your favourite foods and drinks and even has some of your familiar belongings you haven’t seen in a while like your hairbrush and jewellery! he works so hard to help you settle into your new home, whether you like it or not.

darling: aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will? //

taking complete control over you regardless of how you feel is the main thing sugawara will do. you don’t feel as much as a real person in control of your life when sugawara takes complete control- he insists on feeding you, bathing you, dressing you in the clothes he chooses and it doesn’t matter how many tantrums and fits you throw he’ll just easily overpower you and mould you into his sweet little doll. every single moment of your life is controlled by him.

exposed: how much of their heart do they bare to their darling? how vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling? //

he gives his entire heart to his darling because he does truly love them. he loves spending time with them and everything he says is completely truthful. “i’ll love you forever. you’re all i think about. i’d do anything for you.” he loves opening up to his darling because they’re his love, his best friend, his entire world so he’s completely make himself vulnerable to them, telling them his hopes and dreams and fears because they’re everything to him.

fight: how would they feel if their darling fought back? //

sugawara would initially be hurt. he’s treated you so kindly, dedicated all his love and life to you and you’re throwing it back in his face. he’d be confused and gentle, trying to valm you down and soothe you. “tell me what’s wrong, princess, i’ll make it better.” but if you keep resisting it doesn’t take him long to get frustrated. the anger would be visible on his face as he tries to hold back. “i’m already disappointed in you. stop making it worse.” he’ll definitely set out punishments to release his anger and disappointments- maybe some spankings or isolation and nothing will make it better than you falling into submission.

game: is this a game to them? how much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape? //

this isn’t a game- it’s love. but sugawara can’t resist indulging in some light-hearted teasing. he’ll find it amusing watching you try to force the window open or try the key in the lock only to wrench the door open and find him stood on the porch with a sweet smile on his face. but he’ll brush it off, not seeing how desperately you want to leave. “isn’t it so much fun here with me?” he’ll coo, ushering you back in. and he knows even if you think you can escape, it’s not like you’ll be able to survive without him having any sense of independence destroyed from how much he’s infantilised you.

hell: what would be their darling’s worst experience with them? //

their darling’s worst experience would have the realisation that there is no escape from this. they can beg and plead sugawara to let them go, to try and make him see sense that if he truly loves them he wouldn’t do this, he’d let them live. but then they hear his laugh, almost mocking, and his eyes are sparkling as he restrains their hands and presses a kiss to their cheek, narrowly misses his darling’s lips when they turn their head in time. “i do this because i love you.” his darling comes to the hopeless realisation that sugawara is utterly delusional and they’re trapped.

ideals: what kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling? //

blissful love and peace- he envisions a life where you belong in his arms, where you rely on him completely. you only find safety in his hold, clinging to him and utterly needy and in love with him, just as he feels for you. he wants to hear you constantly whining his name for every little thing because you’re nothing without him. he wants you to be scared and anxious when his hand isn’t laced with yours and he wants you to look at him with wide, adoring eyes shyly asking him “do you love me, kōshi? will you always love me?”

jealousy: do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope? //

sugawara definitely gets jealous- and over the smallest of things. you can always tell he’s getting jealous by the uncomfortable smile on his face and the little crease between his brows when he sees you thank the barista a bit too sweetly or when you’re chatting too much with your friends and you haven’t paid him a look in the past ten minutes. but he doesn’t quite lash out- rather he’d be passive aggressive, rolling his eyes slightly. “it’s nice of you to finally acknowledge my existence.” he murmurs when you’re alone. “i’m sorry i’m not good enough for you to care about, even when i do everything for you. this is what i get in thanks.” he doesn’t even have to punish you because the guilt he invokes is even worse and within seconds you’ll be apologising and begging for his forgiveness.

kisses: how do they act around or with their darling? //

whether you’re alone or with people, sugawara will be nothing but loving, to the point where it’s smothering. he wants everyone to know you’re his so his hands will be squeezing your thighs and his lips pressing kisses to your neck. he loves to be touching you, always pulling you into his hold and cooing at you. you’re like his fragile little doll the way he pampers you, insisting on doing everything for you whether it’s choosing your food or simply holding a glass to your lips when you want to drink. there’s no such thing as intelligent conversation with sugawara either- you’re just his sweet dumb little darling who can’t even think without him.

love letters: how would they go about courting or approaching their darling? //

sugawara would do well when it comes to courting his darling. his sweet, angelic smile just radiates innocence and genuinity that you’d be rather enamoured at his advances. he would be so perceptive too, carefully gathering enough information about you to win your heart. he’ll write you sweet love notes of encouraging words and specific compliments and slot them between your notebooks or into your pocket with a little wink, and you’ll come into your university lecture room to find your favourite coffee on your desk and sugawara beaming at you. he’ll never be forceful and his stalking is never obvious enough to raise suspicion, not that you would be because that sweet boy seems like such an angel.

mask: are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else? //

no. sugawara’s loving and doting regardless of who he’s around, but to outside eyes he just seems like a sweet, loving boyfriend who wholesomely cares for his partner. if anything it wouldn’t be uncommon for people to be slightly envious because their partner has never adored them so much but only you know the true extent of how smothering this is, how you feel like you can’t breathe with sugawara constantly hovering over you with his heavy love.

naughty: how would they punish their darling? //

the punishments would be patronising. little spanks on your ass until you feel humiliated to spit out an apology. or outright guilt-tripping- regardless of how you feel, seeing sugawara’s downcast eyes and hearing his voice crack as he tells you how much you’re hurting him, how he’s just trying to love and protect you, that nobody else would do this for you except him is enough to make your chest wrench with guilt and shame. on rare occasions when he’s feeling particularly sadistic he’ll force you into something you hate. he’s shrewd enough to have picked up on all your likes and dislikes, so he can easily choose out the pink frilly dress you detest and force it onto your body, cooing about how pretty you look as you cry when he takes pictures of you, or paint your face in makeup when you don’t want it on your skin or spoon the dish you hate most into your mouth, watching you try to swallow it when you hate it.

oppression how many rights would they take away from their darling? //

every right. the moment you’re in sugawara’s hold, you’re his little darling. how can you make decisions without him? every bit of autonomy you used to have disappears when sugawara takes you- he’s choosing what you wear and all your privacy is gone when he’s there to change you into the clothes he chooses, to take you to the bathroom, to bathe you. it doesn’t matter how much you resist or if you try to regain control, sugawara will dismiss your defiance as a ‘little tantrum’ and give you a kiss instead, asking- or rather demanding- you be a good little girl for him.

patience: how patient are they with their darling? //

very patient. sugawara always brushes off your defiance or rejection with a little sigh. “i don’t like it when you’re like this, baby. be good for me.” his saccharine voice would be pleading as he kisses your cheek. he’ll try to barter with you- he’ll let you feed yourself if you just sit still in his lap instead of resisting and he’ll let you bathe yourself if you give him some kisses. it’s only if you lash out first that sugawara’s eyes will darken and the vein in his temple will throb as he darkly tells you he doesn’t like punishing you.

quit: if their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on? //

sugawara would be heartbroken if he lost his darling. all the light in his eyes would be lost and he’d never quite be the same. every little thing would remind you of him, every racing thought filled with you and your pillow would be stained with tears as he hugs it, trying to smell the last traces of your scent clinging to it. he’d hate how the memories of your face and voice grow fainter but he’d never recover from losing you. no matter how much time passes, sugawara’s eyes would search all the faces he sees whenever he leaves the house, hoping to see yours. every time his doorbell rings his heart will quicken, wondering if you’re finally back home.

regret: would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go? //

for him, there’s nothing to feel guilty about. sure, sometimes he sees the sadness in your eyes when you’re locked in his lap and his heart will sink because he doesn’t know why you look so down! but he’ll never feel guilty because to him he’s doing everything he can to make you happy. he’s keeping you safe in his home, away from the outside world and other people that’s full of criminals and nasty people who would harm you! nobody will love you like him. keeping you safe in his home makes him happy, so why wouldn’t it make you happy too?

stigma: what brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)? //

sugawara has always had a need to care for people he loves but the obsessive love he feels for you is far stronger than anything else he’s ever experienced. therefore his need to care and protect his darling is greater but lacking a care for rules, sugawara doesn’t care how he goes about it as long as it feels right for him.

tears: how do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves? //

he’d be hurt. he’s be stunned with fear and pain watching you break down that all he wants to do is comfort you. he’d be too delusional to see he’s the cause of your pain so he’d try to hold you, rocking you from side to side to soothe you and kiss you. he’d treat you with extra delicacy following that and wouldn’t let you out of his sight.

unique: would they do anything different from the classic yandere? //

he’d never hurt you directly. the closest he’d get to that would be putting you in a dangerous situation, but would swoop in to ‘save’ you before you’re hurt, letting you fall into a belief that he cares for you and protects you and you should be thankful for him! sugawara also wouldn’t kill for you, but he isn’t above eliminating people who could hurt you (or so what he thinks) through other means.

vice: what weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape? //

sugawara’s delusional would be the best to use to your advantage. once you start playing along, you can lure him into trusting you, into making him think that you’ve finally realised just how much he loves you and that you have no reason to fight back. if you let him infantilise you, let him kiss you and cuddle you how much he wants, if you reciprocate his love enough that sugawara has no reason to doubt you, he’ll trust you enough that you’ll have enough freedom and time to plan your escape.

wit’s end: would they ever hurt their darling? //

physically, no. sugawara could never bring himself to physically hurt his darling himself but that doesn’t mean he’s above other ways. instead he’d use emotional means- driving you insane with guilt till it hurts too much or driving enough fear into you of the outside world, of a life without him, that you’d be an anxious mess without him.

xoanon: how much would they revere or worship their darling? to what length would they go to win their darling over? //

you’re the sole reason for his existence. every part of sugawara’s life revolves around you because he loves you so much that every thought is consumed by you, he’d do anything for you! he’d change his university classes if it means he gets to be in the same lecture hall as you and sit beside you. he’d learn to cook your favourite dish and every little thing you need he’d be ready to get it for you- only you don’t remember telling him quite so much about yourself.

yearn: how long do they pine after their darling before they snap? //

sugawara doesn’t have to pine for long because his charming, sweet nature is enough to draw you in quickly enough. and there’s no way you’d ever think this angelic, kind man who treats you so well could ever be a danger to you. but either way sugawara wouldn’t be too fussed about pining for long because he knows he’ll be able to sweep you off your feet soon enough.

zenith: would they ever break their darling? //

mindbreak wouldn’t be something entirely awful to him. if you’re defiant enough for too long that sugawara feels like he’s running out of patience, he’d be able to justify breaking your weak, fragile mind and forcing you into submission as an act of love, that he’s helping you. by the time he’s ignored and isolated you enough that you’re clinging to him, begging for an ounce of attention to stop yourself going completely insane, sugawara would be too overjoyed to even consider what he’s done.

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chocolate-parfait · 3 years

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I've never sent an ask before so I apologize if I'm doing something wrong, but could I maybe request some more Gen Z mc headcanons? I just love the idea of mc having a platonic younger/older sibling dynamic especially with Napoleon and Jean 🥺👉👈

dw, dw! here it is✨

Gen Z!MC (pt. 2) - ikevamp headcanons (Napoleon & Jean)

Napoleon

You and Napoleon get along amazingly from the start. Sure, there is a generational gap and many of the things you do or laugh at cannot be explained, but believe me when I say that his charisma and open mindedness make up for it, a lot.

Being the naturally caring person he is, he immediately takes you under his wing (he basically adopts you, like he did with Jean and Isaac). No one is allowed to lay a hand on you for the whole month, else they'd have to catch his hands and sword. Related to this, no matter how much you tell him that you can fight on your own, he will NOT let you. First, he will have you join on his sparring sessions with Jean and teach you the basics, maybe even tell you a thing or two on how to throw a punch, but he'd rather have you safe and sound than covered in bruises and bloody scars.

This may paint him in a slightly overprotective light, but you probably won't even notice it unless you're throwing yourself headfirst into danger. A creep is harassing a woman in the street? Napoleon will deal with it before you can move another step. He was a soldier and an emperor, he has fought for a future of peace and equality, and you, the fruit of his hard work, should avoid any kind of bloodshed.

On the other hand, if the fight is verbal, he will 100% support you and cheer you on. He absolutely adores it whenever he sees the eloquence and unwavering confidence with which you defend your ideals, and he wonders whether a father would be feeling the same way.

Another thing he appreciates about you, is your humor. Although sometimes it kinda upsets him and makes him think about the type of society you must be coming from (self deprecating jokes, mostly), he cannot help but get a good laugh or two whenever he sees you laughing at the most nonsensical things.

One day, he, you and Arthur were talking about your life in the 21st century, when you happened to mention a friend of yours. "..oh yeah! This actually reminds me of my friend, Joe. Though it's too bad that he died of ligma" "I'm so sorry to heart that... what's... what's ligma though? A new illness?" "🕴 L I G M A B A L L S 🕴" im sorry this joke is overused but its 1AM and i saw it on a jujutsu kaisen tiktok pls beare with me

(+ you and Arthur falling to the ground, tears in your eyes and the most horrible whale noises filling up the whole room)

Other times you come up with the most original and unusual phrases that don't match your usual speech at all. "MC, what were you doing before coming here?" "I had sworn an oath of solitude 'till the blight was purged from mine lands" "What..?" "I was in quarantine because of a global pandemic" Oh.

When the time comes for you to say goodbye, he will, of course, feel a heavy dagger in his heart, but he'll gladly let you return to your peaceful time, the place where you belong to the most. Knowing you, you'll surely be fine, after all.

Jean

He's confused at first. You're young, somewhere near his age back when he was alive, and according to what you told the others you come from a """relatively""" peaceful time. without considering police brutality, discriminations, wars in certain countries, and a pandemic. Let's just say that many of us can lead a life without going to war and such But why, why are you so cursed?

Saying that he's taken aback would be an understatement. He simply cannot get more than half of what you talk about, he's not a social butterfly and he struggles with being open with others; you, however, don't seem to mind it too much. You approach him, fearlessly and with genuinely good intentions only. He resists and tries putting distance between you, but there's something, something that makes him want to talk to you, laugh with you and understand you more.

Your arrival shows him that which he could not be. A simple teenager. An innocent person who peacefully lives without having to worry about traitors, incoming battles and the sight of dead comrades in a puddle of their down blood. You look so carefree in whatever you do, even when nervous and hesitant, and yet you do not lack depth. He has seen you defending your principles, the fire in your eyes and spirit wholly concentrated on your interlocutors. Could he have been like that, too, if he had been given the chance?

Ever since meeting you, he's become more and more determined to learn the basics which he had completely missed during a time of war. Reading and writing, for example. He's not as naive as to completely let go of all his sins, but the untainted side of him, which had survived so many years of slaughter and had tied the adjectives "saint" and "pure" to his name, pushed him to work hard for those simple yet rewarding goals.

He's utterly at a loss for words when you propose to help him out though, and even more when he sees the lack of judgmental sneer in your eyes. Could you really be so innocent? Or perhaps it's a sign of your maturity and benevolence? Maybe you two are not so different, after all. Sure, you may be one hell of an oddball, but he surely isn't that normal, either

Whether he likes it or not, Jean subconsciously starts considering you as a younger sibling, and he feels the need to protect you by sacrificing himself; he's the only one with stained hands, you should remain the way you are. Pure and childlike, like he used to be. This will bring you to butt heads every now and then, because yours is not a kindness that stems from ignorance, but from open mindedness and awareness. In the end, you're both mutually taking care of each other, and it's so wholesome that someone's younger brother might feel a bit jealous of your bond.

Teach him some modern songs and some slangs (Jean to the other residents: wassup, my fellow homies!), tell him about popular blockbusters and bestseller stories, do some popular challenges with him, like the chubby bunny one but using macarons instead. Jean will naturally develop a smile, and his usual dark aura will slowly dissipate, like a clear sky after a thunderstorm.

After the month passes by, he gets more and more nervous as the day of your departure gets closer. He's used to saying goodbyes before heading into battle, prepared not to come back alive anymore, but to do it with someone who will be alive, even if years and years after your present time? That's definitely a first for him. Nevertheless, knowing the time where you'll be going back to, he feels reassured, and is finally able, perhaps for the first time in his turbulent life, to say "goodbye" with a smile on his face

#answered #ikevamp scenarios #ikevamp headcanons #ikevamp imagines #ikemen vampire #napoleon bonaparte #jean d'arc #ikevamp napoleon #ikevamp jean #my writing

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cqterpillar · 2 years

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Hi, first of all, I love your blog, second of all, could I request something with Liam or Noel where reader is insecure and he tries to make them feel better? gn or f reader please

𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐈𝐒𝐄

genderneutralreader x noel gallagher

genre(s) ꩜ fluff

warning(s) ꩜ swearing

a/n ꩜ ok, i had to make this happy since the angst fics made me a bit sad lol, but ty & ily!

summary ꩜ y/n forgets to wake up sooner, leading to some questionable cooking choices and noel trying to comfort them.

that damn alarm clock interrupted your peaceful sleep. you frowned, wondering why the alarm was set for eight if it was the weekend. now was the time to sleep in, snuggle with blankets, or just stay in bed and read a book or whatever the usual agenda is for people.

waking up next to your boyfriend would’ve make your day a bit better, but no, he was gone. right, you reminded yourself, he’s out writing songs with his band. your lips set into a stern line, and as you were tired and upset, you flopped back down on the bed to catch some more z’s.

“y/n? why the hell are you asleep?!”

you jolted up to see noel, who looked down at you in a panicked manner.

“why so worried? i’m just sleeping in, you weirdo.”

“that’s exactly why i’m worried! you told me you would cook lunch since my band mates are coming over today.” he explained, letting out nervous laughs throughout his dialogue.

you teasingly got up, putting your hands up like the police caught you, “okay, okay, i’m up to make lunch… even though it’s the tenth… i’m up…”

“y/n, yesterday was the tenth. it’s the fuckin’ eleventh!”

“what?!”

you turned and flipped the calendar you both shared. the bastard was correct. in a rush, you grabbed a cute ensemble to wear for the day, showered, brushed your teeth, and ran straight to the kitchen to see what you had to work with.

nothing. you had the pleasure of working with odd foods that you knew just wouldn’t taste good together. you sighed, picking up a round lettuce.

“noel, why am i cooking again?”

“‘cause i did the dishes the other day, of course.”

“but i always do the dishes for a reason. i can’t fucking cook!”

noel kissed your cheek, telling you, “don’t be like that, love. all you gotta do is chop some shit, season some shit, fry some shit, and it should taste good.”

“but lettuce and italian sausage won’t taste good!” you muttered, grabbing some knives to accolade the cutting board and array of vegetables. “a-and how come you aren’t mad at me?”

“why would i be mad?” noel smiled, chopping a bit of the lettuce for you.

“for sleeping in late, for my bad cooking skills… i feel like i disappoint you and a lot of other people a lot.” you sighed.

noel handed you the knife back to continue slicing away at the foods. he even brought out some other items from the refrigerator that he told you would taste good together.

every single line your boyfriend told you melted your heart, “you don’t disappoint me, and you don’t disappoint anyone. from what i hear, everyone fuckin’ adores you. i’m definitely not mad about having a cute significant other who is ‘worshipped’ by all -he let out a tiny giggle after the sentence- you rock, ‘kay?”

you froze for a bit from admiration. the way noel rambled on at a strange, quick-pace made you giggle. how you managed to score such a cute boyfriend was beyond you.

“did i lose you or somethin’?” noel chuckled, waving his hand in front of your face up and down, checking for life behind your eyes.

“no way! i just-um, thank you. for your words, okay?” you grinned at him, feeling a bit better. “oh shit, they’re gonna be here any moment!”

after only twenty five minutes of cooking, your nice dish came out… interesting, to say the least. it was some weird lettuce-tomato-fish roast that smelled unlike any food you had come across. you admitted that noel’s dishes looked way more appealing, which were mashed potatoes with gravy and a fruit salad.

when all the guests gathered around the table, you noticed them look at the plate of veggies and fish. you heated up from the seemingly judging looks, and you turned to noel for any help, but he simply shrugged.

“so, uh, what’s this?” liam pointed to the helping that you cooked.

“i really… uh… don’t know,” you replied truthfully, “care for a bite?”

liam was a little scared, albeit hungry, so he daringly cut himself a serving and helped himself to noel’s foods as well.

everyone decided that noel’s younger brother would be the taste-tester. their eyes darted to his lips to watch as he swallowed a bite of your food. liam’s face scrunched up shortly after, but he looked at you and noticed your fearful complexion, so he tried his best to loosen up.

“it was… great! i loved it.” he lied.

“really?”

noel shot him a look, telling him, “hey, don’t lead ‘em on. they tried their best.”

“you think it’s bad?” you looked back at liam, who was covering his mouth with a napkin.

“no!” liam lied again, “i-i’m not lying!”

bonehead and the other members awkwardly sat there, listening to the conversation. it was safe to say that meals would be held at other places due to the fact that no enjoyed or cared for your improvised entrée.

after all the guests left, you emitted a defeated sigh.

“hey, y’know it’s no big deal, right?” noel have you a playful punch on the shoulder, continuing, “so what if cooking isn’t your strong suit?”

“i dunno. i would’ve liked to feel good at something for once…” you said as you put the poor fish in food wrap.

“but you’re good at so many things! if you want, i’ll teach you to cook a little bit. and maybe, you can teach me something else.”

“like what?”

“i-i don’t know! teach me how to garden or some poncey thing like that! n/n, do we have a deal or not?”

you picked him on the cheek, “we have a deal.”

#90s #oasis #oasis band #oasis fanfiction #gender neutral reader #they/them #fluff #liam gallagher #liam gallagher oasis #liam gallagher x reader #noel gallagher x reader #noel gallagher #romcom #x reader

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deeeelightfuldee · 2 years

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How did you usher in the new year this year?

initially it was supposed to be a date but I kinda said “lets wait” and then it was going to be a friends thing but my friends got sick. so it ended up just being me. but I enjoy my own company so that was ok with me.

What year is it?

It’s 2022.

How old are you?

I’m 29

What was the last thing you ate that was spicy?

hmmm. oh man this is going to bother me because it wasn’ t that long ago when I ate something i eat plenty frequently but it was spiced with unusually VERY spicy spices. but I can’t recall what it was.

What are you sitting on?

My bed.

Is there anyone in your life that hates you?

i am guessing K’s gf and probably to an extent K. :(

What did the last face mask you wore look like?

just white sheet mask

Have you ever been dismissed from a doctor's office?

No.

What color was the last cup you drank out of?

uhhhhhhh white

What is your new year's resolution?

I want to continue with offering grace. I want to continue to do hard things. I want to be intentional. I want to be courageous.

When was the last time you uploaded a YouTube video?

like a year ago for school.

What was the most recent big purchase you made?

oooof. Christmas took most of my money. I have to contribute money for my brothers bday gift here this week and I’m seriously going to be down to about 20 bucks.

What color are your nails?

They’re chipped pale pink from when I went on a date. I wanna paint them something fun next.

How many laptops have you owned?

this is my third.

Do you like the size of your feet?

yeah I am not bothered by it.

What was the last movie you watched?

probably sleepless in seattle.

Favorite day of the week?

I like Fridays and Thursdays and Saturdays.

What was the last thing you took a picture of?

I screenshot some pics of Z.

What did you last do in your gallery file?

Go figure you ask this. I am currently organizing my pictures because if i’m going to belong to someone then I should not have a phone full of pics from another guy. but man that is not a simple task. it’s a lot of seeing a face I have been in love with and cared about and then like a couple pics later it’ll be screenshots of messages from his gf saying rude things to me. so. it’s just a cluster eff of emotions.

Do you write with colorful glittery gel pens?

I haven’t since Christmas.

Do you keep a diary?

I consider this a semi journal but I also journal outside of this.

Do you write in cursive or print more?

I use both but probably print more? maybe?

What is your favorite app on your phone?

tumblr, insta, snap, acnh guide, camera, gallery, google docs

What is your favorite app on your computer?

google docs

Can you type fast?

Yes.

What color shirt are you wearing?

rn it’s just a white tank top.

What is one thing you hope to accomplish this year?

I want to achieve peace about a lot of various topics in my life.

Do you enjoy watching Christmas haul videos on YouTube?

huh?

Which do you prefer: Instagram or TikTok?

I never got on tiktok. seemed too easy to become obsessed.

What was the weather like on your last birthday?

it was wild actually. mom and I went to Wisconsin for the day and it was beautiful and breezy and like 70′s. it is NEVER like that in july.

Are you subscribed to any doctors on YouTube?

Use three words to describe the view out the window closest to you.

darkness, snowy, street

Do you like peppermint?

yup.

What do you usually order from Subway/Togo’s/another sandwich place?

like a club sort of sammich but in the tubs because i can’t do bread.

Have you ever talked about your period with a guy? Were they okay with it, or grossed out?

uhhhhhhh not to my knowledge. I don’t typically talk about it because I think a lot of people are uncomfortable talking about periods. i used to be shy about talking about it to other girls just because mine is so different being that i’m sick. but tbh, who cares? i just dont care anymore lol

Have you ever been to small/church/bible group/study (forced to or wanted to)?

many, many, many times. I miss it.

In-N-Out, ever been there? If not, what’s a good burger place around your town?

we don’t have any out here. I have had it before but I don’t remember feeling impressed. theres a lot of great burger places out here. but I really don’t eat them anymore so I couldn’t tell ya.

How many people do you know with the name Ashley/Ashlee?

probably close to 10

Have you ever been to an asian (any type) market? If so, what is the closest one to you?

uhhhhhhhh i want to say a couple but im blanking.

What would you do if the person you have feelings for showed up at your door?

I would be surprised cus its 1030 at night and they don’t live close by.

What did your last text message say?

“ooooo I wanna see!! yah!!!”

How many people have texted you today? Did you reply to all of them?

uhhhh ok incoming: 12 different people

responded to: 8

When was the last time you drank something with alcohol?

hmmmmmm. Christmas morning

Have you ever slept with a member of the opposite sex without having sex?

yes. I slept in the same bed as 2 of my exes before. I wouldn’t necessarily recommend it but ah well

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

Im pretty sure i’m done responding to messages for the night. at a certain point I just check out lol

How would you feel if your significant other had tattoos?

I don’t really care

Do you actually eat breakfast lunch and dinner everyday?

lately i’m eating about .5 of a meal per day. it is nottttt good I don’t recommend it.

Is there something else you should be doing?

eh.

Was your last text message from someone of the opposite sex?

Yeah Z just texted me.

If you could have a free plane ticket to anywhere, where would you choose to go?

switzerland. always switzerland

What’s the approximate total cost of the clothes you’re wearing?

oooo man. ok uhhhhh bout 48 bucks

Where was the last place on your body that you felt physical pain?

my lower back is wreeeeeecked today.

Has someone of the opposite sex made you smile recently?

yea

What do you want/need right now?

want: physical comfort, attention, responses, money

need: money

How much does the last person you texted really know about you?

a pretty good amount

Who was the last person you apologized to? What did you apologize for?

I think K. He said something to the effect of me discussing the stuff we have gone thru/going through was making him feel as though life had no meaning.

do you think anyone is thinking about you right now?

I think so.

Did you straighten your hair today?

No. i just let it live life as is.

Is it okay to like someone else, if you already have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

I before have been black & white about this but theres this episode of GG where rory has this like schoolgirl crush on a prof despite being in love with logan and when she tells logan hes like babe, it is ok to be attracted to other people there are a lot of attractive people out there that is instinctual. but it is different if you are in LOVE with these people. idk its an interesting thought

Would you spend the night in a haunted house?

eh probably not

Look in a mirror. Are you 100% happy with what you see? Why/why not?

No. I am bothered by my tummy. I also wish my jawline was sharper and that my hair was fuller.

Will tomorrow be better than today?

dunno. today was ok as can be expected

What are you listening to right now?

kara on tv lol

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?

Miiiiiiiiiike!

Do you still whip out the Nintendo on random occasions?

of course!

Can you honestly tell the difference between DiGiorno and delivery pizza?

yes

What surprised you today?

K posting on tumblr is always surprising to me. pretty much feel like he has moved on entirely.

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stagandsteer · 3 years

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Complete transcript of the Wonderland interview, by Catherine Santino, below the cut :)

In 1993, the year in which Freeform’s new thriller series Cruel Summer opens, actor Froy Gutierrez was yet to be born. Chat rooms and beepers, just two of the symbols of 90’s culture featured in the show, were absent in Gutierrez's own childhood. Instead, the 22 year old grew up among the endless, glowing feeds of social media — and the inevitable pressures that they create.

“There’s a kind of self-awareness that comes from growing up with the internet, which everyone in our cast did,” Gutierrez, who stars in the upcoming series, tells me over Zoom — his boyish charm tangible across the screen. “We’re all technically Gen Z or like, older Gen Z. And so you have to unburden yourself from curating a persona online.”

Due to the dizzying evolution of technology in the past two decades, Gutierrez and I had drastically different experiences with the internet growing up — even though he’s only seven years my junior. I fondly remember a time without the prevalence of social media, while Gutierrez was born into an era where internet presence was not only common, but expected.

Like most of Gutierrez’s peers, the actor was active on social media from a young age, but his presence has quietened over the years — even with 1.7 million instagram followers. “If there’s a general consensus on the internet of a certain readership or viewership, you know about it, because people tweet about it directly to you,'' he says. “There’s a kind of lumping in of the character you’re playing with who you are, that people do. I don’t know if it’s intentional. It’s probably just a human thing, but that happens. And it can be hard not to internalize what you read about yourself, you know? Words have power.”

In 2017, Gutierrez appeared on supernatural MTV drama Teen Wolf, a show with a massive internet fandom. Suddenly, fan theories and commentaries about his character, Nolan Holloway, came in droves, something that the young actor wasn’t necessarily prepared for. “I was still a teenager,” he says. “Around that time, you're an adult, but you’re still figuring things out. So I learned where to set my boundaries because I didn’t know where they were beforehand.”

When Cruel Summer came around, Gutierrez assumed he would be portraying the “desirable young male” he was used to auditioning for. “The first time I read the character, it definitely felt like an archetype. When I auditioned for it, I walked in and was very much myself, and Michelle Purple and Jessica Biel responded very well to it.” However, after he got the role and production ramped up, he was pleasantly surprised. “It didn’t really hit me that they were wanting to take him in such a unique direction until I showed up for wardrobe one day to do my first fitting for the pilot,” Gutierrez recalls. “I looked at the mood board for Jamie and it was like, young Heath Ledger, Keanu Reeves and Kurt Cobain. And I was like ‘Oh shit, I need to step my game up,’” he laughs. “I couldn’t get by doing the same thing that I’ve always done when it comes to characters like that.”

Cruel Summer takes place over the course of three years — ‘93, ‘94, and ‘95 — showing splices of each year in every episode. Produced by Jessica Biel, Tia Napolitano, and Michelle Purple, it centres around the kidnapping of a teenage girl and the fallout of the crime in her community in Skylin, Texas. Gutierrez plays Jamie Henson, the boyfriend of the missing girl, Kate. In her absence, a quiet nerd named Jeanette suddenly rises the social ranks and assumes Kate’s place — including dating Jamie. When Kate returns, Jeanette is suspected to be involved in her disappearance, throwing Jamie into some seriously challenging circumstances. His character could easily be a one-dimensional archetype — and truthfully, I expected him to be — but Cruel Summer took the opportunity to explore toxic masculinity and its widespread impact.

We see Jamie caught in the middle of conflict, unsure how to respond to a traumatic event that certainly no teenager expects to be faced with. He’s not a hero, but he’s not a villain either. It’s unclear whether we’re supposed to root for Jamie or not, which makes him that much more interesting to watch. “He talks a lot about his desire to protect the people around him, regardless of whether or not they asked him to protect them,” Gutierrez says of his character. “He kind of superimposes his own idea of what the people around him need. In order to maintain the peace of the people around him, he kind of robs the people around him of their agency. It’s just a really fascinating character to play in that way.”

Gutierrez has also been able to explore the ethics of true crime in a time when the genre is exploding in popularity. Though Cruel Summer is fictional, it questions the effect that public opinion can have on criminal cases — and perhaps more importantly — the well-being of the people involved. “When it comes to the investigation of a crime, you have to weigh the good it can bring into the world versus the bad it can bring. Or making one person seem suspect, or airing the dirty laundry of a private citizen for the viewership of loads of people.”

Despite his eloquent reflections on Jamie throughout our conversation, it’s clear that Gutierrez doesn’t take himself too seriously. He speaks into the camera like we’re old friends on FaceTime, and when my dog unexpectedly jumps into my frame, he gushes excitedly and asks what her name is. He’s able to laugh at himself one minute and share poignant truths the next. It’s refreshing, much like Cruel Summer.

Another likely contributor to the show’s authenticity? The fact that the cast was kept in the dark when it came to overarching plot points. Instead of knowing the show’s trajectory ahead of time, the actors would receive scripts for the next episode while they were filming — and they were subject to change. “We didn’t know where it was going,” Gutierrez says. “And we were told, “‘This might happen here, or this might happen there.’ And it would shift around.”

Without foresight into their character’s arc, the actors have no choice but to focus only on where they were in that moment — a difficult task when a single episode spans three very different years. Gutierrez faced an even greater challenge, as, unlike the two female leads, his character didn’t undergo any drastic physical transformations over the three years.

“I didn’t really compartmentalise the character,” he explains. “I kind of thought of the different years as different phases in my own life. The first year, ‘93, was a complete absence of any regret. You’re still very young, I was just thinking of like, a complete golden retriever,” he laughs. “A 16-year old boy who just wants the best and isn’t aware. ‘94 is me right before I made the decision to go to therapy, where I was making all these bad decisions and I didn’t know why. And then ‘95 was a whole desire to wrestle with those things and really look at yourself in the mirror and take accountability.”

Gutierrez didn’t only infuse personal experience into his behind-the-scenes work — some aspects made it onto the screen. The actor, whose father is Mexican, grew up spending time between Mexico and Texas and is a native Spanish speaker. Because Cruel Summer is set in Texas, Gutierrez suggested creating a similar background for Jamie.

“I was talking with Tia Napolitano, the show-runner, and I was like, ‘Hey, you know what would be really cool? What if the character is half-Mexican, too?’” Gutierrez says. “And she's like, ‘Oh, yeah, let’s write it in the script.’ And I got to write a couple lines in Spanish, which is really cool. [Jamie] could have been this mould of a cool, likeable jock. And then he ended up being this very nuanced human being, which is awesome.”

Though he is learning to appreciate all parts of his heritage, Gutierrez hasn’t always embraced his identity. “I remember feeling like I might have been not American enough for America, and not Mexican enough for Mexico,” he says. “And I remember having a bit of time in which I had an accent in both languages. Even my name — in Mexico I always went by ‘Froylan’, which is my full name. And then in the U.S., I went by Froy, because I thought it would be easier for other people to say.”

He continues: “I identify as Latino, but I”m also very wary of auditioning for Latino roles because I’m aware I don’t look like a typical Latino person. I don’t want to be someone that you can just sub in for that role, when I’m really white and blonde. And so whenever I do get a role like this, one where he’s not written to be any particular direction and we’re able to collaborate, I’m able to inject some of myself in there. So it’s been really cool to embrace all sides of my history.”

But of course, as is true for Gutierrez, Jamie’s cultural background is only a small part of who he is. Cruel Summer is committed to portraying him as a nuanced character that breaks the moulds of masculinity while tackling complex inner conflict. “Living in his shoes and walking in them, a big question that came up for me was, ‘What is the difference between guilt and shame? [Jamie]’s coping mechanism was terrible and unhealthy, and caused more pain for the people around him. But at the same time, the shame that he internalized made it worse for him. One thing I really learned, is that shame is about yourself and beating yourself up. And guilt is about taking accountability and apologising, moving forward without expecting the relationship to come back. It's just about trying to heal what happened and then moving on, on the terms that the other person sets. It’s not about you, and I think that’s what the character learns throughout the show.”

#froy gutierrez #wonderland magazine #froylan gutierrez #interview #cruel summer #catherine santino

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morepokemonimagines · 3 years

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hey I don't know if the requests are still open but if they are could you do D, J and Z from the fluff alphabet for Piers? I love the way you write him

Thanks a million, hun! Piers is my absolute favorite, so it makes me really happy to hear that I’m doing a good job with him! I had quit writing, but you sent in your ask at a GREAT time because I’m starting to get back into it. Without further ado, here’s what you requested! Hope you like it!

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?: At first, he likes things just the way they are; him and his partner living together with Marnie and being a happy little family of 3. He’s never been one to think about getting hitched and having kids; he just never really saw it as being a thing for him. He wants to stay with his partner forever if possible though, he does know that. But, as the relationship with his partner goes on, he realizes that it would actually be kinda nice. The idea of calling his s/o “wife/husband” starts to sound more and more appealing to him. When things get to the point that he’s actually throwing out questions here and there to see what his partner thinks about it, he also starts thinking about what their kids would look like if they had them. He tries to shake this off because he has a hard time seeing himself as a dad. After they actually get married and all their other friends start having kids, he’s gonna get a bad case of baby fever and it’s absolutely adorable. When he gets to that point, he starts thinking more into the future and I think he’d want 2 or 3 kids, ideally two daughters and a son, but he’d be happy no matter what.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?: He gets jealous more than he lets on. He has low self-esteem and is worried that his partner is going to find someone better and leave him. He doesn’t want to be “that guy” though, so he doesn’t usually say anything. He tries to be more open with his feelings with his partner, but this is one of the areas he has the most trouble with. He usually gets more quiet and gloomy than usual, so it might not be obvious right away but it will become obvious. Depending on who it is that is making him feel so jealous, getting him to admit what’s bothering him can be like pulling teeth. He feels SO STUPID and toxic when he gets jealous of his s/o’s longtime friend and is going to need a lot of assurance that they’re not mad at him for feeling this way. He’s more open with his partner if it’s Raihan or one of the other gym leaders that is making him jealous because they’re his friends too, so he doesn’t feel like he’s telling his partner to drop their friends because he’s jealous (even if he’s not trying to do that, he feels like that’s how it’s going to come off as). Raihan is probably the one that makes him feel jealous the most often because flirting and friendly banter are pretty much the same thing for him, so he does it all the time despite not actually making any moves on Piers’ s/o. If it’s one of their mutual friends, he also feels more comfortable talking to them and telling them that what they’re doing is bothering him so they will tone it down. He will NEVER be the kind of boyfriend that forbids their partner from having male friends. The only time he would really insist that his s/o stops hanging out with someone is if they are blatantly making moves on them and won’t stop despite him or his s/o talking to them about it.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?: As I said in a previous post, his sister and his pokemon are going to take precedence over his relationship. He’s not going to kick them to the curb for something like that. He’s also not going to give up his music career or change who he is at the core of his person. He will bend over backwards to accommodate his partner though. Don’t like one of his pokemon? He’s not going to get rid of it, but he will take it to the Wild Area or the Route outside of Spikemuth to let it get some time out of its ball rather than letting it roam the house at all hours of the day, but his s/o is going to have to tolerate the pokemon being out sometimes (unless his partner has a phobia of the pokemon, then he’ll make more of an effort to keep it in its ball at home and just give it extra special attention when they’re out and about). His sister is something he isn’t going to budge on. You treat her well, or you’re out. If Marnie is the one causing issues (you know how teens can be), then he will find a way to broker peace. With his music career, he’s not going to quit for a relationship, but he will find a way to make his tour schedules less taxing for his s/o to deal with and will accommodate them any way he can. Outside of these things, he’s a VERY devoted lover and will do just about anything to make them happy. The man has an innate NEED to care for those he loves and make them smile, especially his s/o.

#fluff #pokemon #piers swsh #gym leader piers #piers pokemon

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dangankingdom · 3 years

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heyy!! sorry if you’ve done this before i couldn’t find it but if you haven’t could i request the fluff alphabet for keebo?

->K1-B0= Almost the whole alphabet

We all know that I write non-despair right? Unless states other wise?? Anyways Let’s go besties.

The whole alphabet gets repetitive aha so like 😎 not my fault panik

I couldn’t think of stuff for O I’m tired don’t @ me, not proof read

A = Admiration (what do they absolutely adore about you?)

❧ Kiibo really admires how welcoming you are,, or at least how welcoming you are to him. With many people making dumb robot jokes knowing you love him for who he is really sparks hope!

B = Body (what is their favorite part of your body?)

❧Your arms, Kiibo just likes locking his arm with yours when you guys walk to just see together.

C = Cuddling (how do they like to cuddle?)

❧ I feel like Kiibo really isn’t much of a cuddler, but when he does he prefers to be the big spoon; he’s fine with being the little spoon too!

D = Dates (what does their ideal date with you look like?)

❧ Kiibo leans more to the “let’s just stay inside” side of the dating spectrum. He enjoys going outside but he files better inside, no interruptions, no squirrels trying to steal things, just peace.

E = Emotions (how do they express emotion around you?)

❧When Kiibo gets flustered or overwhelmed he heats up a lot and freaks out, so it’s pretty obvious to tell what’s up and how he feels.

F = Family (do they want one? If they do, when?)

❧ Kiibo would really enjoy a small family, maybe one, two kids? Or Yknow pets- pet kids are fine too. Real children would be wanted later on, and fur children would be welcomed any day.

G = Gifts (how do they feel about gift giving? What are their habits when it comes to this?)

❧Kiibo struggles to find good gifts, but he really likes the idea of it! His gifts are a hit or miss, one day it would be perfect and the next he gets one think mixed up with another.

H = Holding Hands (when/how do they like to hold hands?)

❧ Kiibo isn’t very much a PDA person, but holding hands is an exception since it isn’t crazy. He also really likes holding hands, so it’s a win/win!

I = Injury (how would they act if you got hurt?)

❧ panik panik panik! Kiibo is trying his best, just don’t get to hurt when you’re with him.

J = Jokes (do they like to joke around with or prank you? how?)

❧He isn’t really that into jokes or pranks, he can laugh or smile at them when you do it but he wouldn’t do it himself.

K = Kisses (how do they like to kiss you?)

❧ Knuckle kisses, hand kisses in general actually. He thinks it makes you seem like royalty and proves how important you are to him!

L = Love (what is their love language?)

❧ Kiibo shows his love by compliments snd just talking to you in general, telling you how important you are to him, positive affirmations in general.

M = Memory (favorite memory together?)

❧ One day, you and Kiibo were trying some sort of art and craft and he absolutely failed but you still loved what he made for you. Rumor has it you have it as decoration somewhere.

N = Nightmare (what is their worst fear?)

❧ His worst fear is that you actually only see him as a robot and nothing more, but Kiibo reminds himself that you probably wouldn’t have spent all this time with him if you did.

P = Pet Names (what do they like to call you?)

❧ Kiibo uses a lot! He tries to find the perfect one for you so there a different one each day. His personal favorites are “Dear”, “Honey”, and “shawty” “Sweetie”

Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time with you?)

❧ Nice, comforting time inside with you. Nothing crazy but just being able to hang out with you is good enough.

R = Romantic Gestures (What are actions they do to show that they love you?)

❧ Kiibo compliments, he gets flustered after, ecspecially if you compliment him back. It’s very cute though!

S = Secrets (how open are they with you?)

❧ Kiibo is very open with you, if somethings bothering him he’ll go to you for advice if he can’t figure it out himself.

T = Time (how long did it take you to get together?)

❧ awhile, I feel like Kiibo would probably realize he liked you after a few weeks-months but would never bring it up because he wasn’t sure if he actually did or if you did at all. So

U = Upset (how do they act when you’re upset?)

❧ PANICS! Kiibo panics, he feels bad even if he didn’t do anything to annoy you or make you sad. He’d probably distance himself from you until you’re either a) going to him, b) bawling your eyes out snd in desperate need of comfort, or c) he can’t help but go to you because he’s nervous.

V = Vaunt (what are they proud of? Do they like to show you off?)

❧Kiibo doesn’t really “show off” on propose. but when he is very proud of you he’ll totally mention something you did that he’s proud of for you.

W = Want (What do they want in your relationship)

❧happiness let this man feel validated and that he’s doing a good job, he just wants you both to feel happy and fulfilled in this relationship.

X = X-Ray (how well are they able to read you?)

❧It takes him a second but he’s able to tell when somethings up, is he 100% accurate? No but he’s pretty close.

Y = Yes (how would they propose to you?)

❧ god it would be so sweet, Kiibo would probably take you to a restaurant or just straight to a semi-secluded area and awkwardly propose- please say yes he tries so hard.

Z = Zen (what makes them feel calm?)

❧Kiibo likes essential oils, not like crazily but I feel like he’d have one of those like things that make the oils go in the air??? Yknow¿¿¿

#🍑; mod iruma #danganronpa #danganronpa x reader #kiibo x reader #k1 b0 x reader #drv3 x reader #v3 x reader

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