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thatgirlie-diaries · 7 months

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Academic tips that work for me

Hello girlies! This is a post that I have been delaying for like 2 weeks, but now it's time or me to post it. In this blog I will give you all the things I do to keep myself getting high grades and maintain the "intelligent" persona I have worked for since I started studying my college career and fortunately others see me this way now.

I do not study hevy or know a lot about studying methods, I am more into "smart work > hard work" kind of thing

My personal tips

This are my tips being an auditory person focused on being effortless

Understand your learning style: Are you visual? Auditory? Or kinesthetic? By knowing this you can apply studying methods that are efficient for you.

Pay attention to your classes!: I think the main reason I slay effortlessly my exams is because of this so I only need a quick study. You will be saving future time since your study sessions will be lighter because you will remember lots of the things.

Participate / Ask questions: It's easy, you will get points with your teachers as a great student, plus you will get your questions solved.

Put your on a place you can't see it so it doesn't distract you, for classes or when you need to study / get work done.

Study in a place when you feel comfortable, it can be at an cafe or at the library, even in your bedroom at a desk, what matters is that you feel comfortable and that you get the feel of "this is a place where I can study / do my assignments" and not feel lazy or uncomfortable by "x or y" reason. As a plus, keep your space clean and only with the necessary at sight.

Use music that doesn't distract you and you vibe with: Listen to music that doesn't have lyrics, but that's a basic by now. What I recommend you is to listen to music that you just vibe with to get your desired mood and motivation. In my case, I listen to videogame soundtracks since it makes me feel relaxed or to classical music because I fee like "that business girly", either way music helps me concentrate.

Romanticize your studies: This can mean different things to all of you reading this post, I am talking about making your academic journey fun and pleasing rather than streesing! Some ideas are having cute stationery, take cute notes, act like one of your fav academic characters, have study playlists, drinking coffee, go to the library or to cafes, dress cute for school, read, light candles, watch "study with me" videos and study vlogs, create a pinterest board, stablish academic goals, etc.

Do your homework when you have free time at school / college or do it as a first thing after your schedule, this will help you save time. Think about it, if you do it while having free time at school / college you don't need to do it at home. And if you need to do it at home, if done as the first thing, you will either way get so much free time and can focus on other tasks or activities freely.

Be organized: Have a bullet journal or use an app to keep track of your subjects and assignments. By this you will remember and keep in sight upcoming deadlines and events.

Take care of your academic relationships: I make sure that the people inside my circle of friends are girls (mainly, but boys too) who I feel comfortable, have fun with but also are similar to me in the sense that they take seriously her studies and are good teammates. Outside of them I also focus on other potential classmates that are intelligent and have similar values. There is no need to bother on the ones who don't attend classes, are irresponsable and don't even know what are they doing in the course.

Take care of yourself: Ask yourself? Will it be worth it while not sleeping enough, having a poor diet and exercise? By not letting yourself rest or have fun from time to time? By not practicing self-care? By not practicing any hobby or taking the time for your interests ? Please take care of yourself, girl, this is the lowest part of the pyramid. The reason to care is not only your wellbeing, but also because having a poor lifestyle can have bad effects for you that also affect your performance, and we won't like that.

Now go and slay your academic year / course! 𑄽𑄺ྀ

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lavender-storm · 2 years

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I need you here

summary | Theo drunkenly confesses, but it's hard to believe him.

pairing | Theo Nott x fem!reader

warning | drunk Theo, probably grammar mistakes

word count | 1k

a/n: Please let me know what you think, I hope you enjoy! Have a lovely day xx

I just wanted to let you know, that this is a side blog, so unfortunately I can't reply to your comments, but I see them all! I appreciate it so much, you have no idea how happy your comments make me! ♥️

He's wasted. That's why he's saying these things, no other reason. If he were sober, he wouldn't dare to say words like this, especially not to Y/N. So this is only happening because he's so drunk, he can't even sit by himself. But Y/N doesn't try to shut him up. How could she? The words coming from his lips caress her whole skin like a soft feather, the loopy smile on his face warms her heart. She'd be lying if she said she's not enjoying whatever is happening.

I love being next to you. I'm so happy you're here, I was waiting for you the whole night! Seeing you is the best part of my days. He says.

But these are all words, all lies, all just drunk flirtations. He doesn't know what he's saying, maybe he doesn't even know who he is talking to. Yet, her heart hopes that deep down he means every single thing he utters.

"How can someone be so pretty? Seriously, it's not fair. It's like you want everyone to fall in love with ya," he mumbles, swaying his hand in the air.

"What are you even talkin' about? No one's in love with me Theo."

"Pfft lies. Big ass lies. I know I am. And like fivety- fifty other people," she laughs at him and he pokes her side mumbling an I'm serious. Of course she knows he's not, and she's pretty sure that he said the same sentences to Adelane earlier. But you can't blame her for playing into it for a few minutes, believing that Theodore could actually love her. With a roll of her eyes she guides his head on her shoulder, and gently puts her hand into his hair, trying to quiet him. She feels giddy inside, like the first time she kissed a boy when she was younger, the only exception is that this feeling is better, much, much better.

Truth be told, even if he doesn't mean what he says, it would be fine with her. Because up until Theo, she didn't know how great it feels to love somebody unconditionally. Everyday she has something to look forward to, his voice, his laugh, his mere presence can make her swoon. Some say having a crush is hard, but to her, liking Theo is the best feeling and the easiest thing in the world. Just quietly doing homework, or sitting in front of the fireplace is enough. If he only knew that she's ready to give her heart to him. The boy hums quietly, burying his face into her neck.

"And you also smell so nice, you are seriously unreal. Pretty sure an angel," a shiver runs through her body when he lays a soft kiss behind her ear. And then another one on her jaw line. And another one her neck. Oh Merlin this was a bad idea. She clears her throat and pushes him away.

"I think you should go to sleep," before you do something you'll regret and hate me for the rest of your life. "Come on." She helps him up and he immediately laces their fingers together, too tired to fight with her.

She leads him through the crowd of dancing people, and he squeezes her hand, making sure he won't lose her. He likes holding her hand, he realises. They fit together so well, her skin is so soft and warm, it's really nice. He wishes he could hold onto her for the rest of his life. The music and the people fading into the background as the only thing he is able to concentrate on is her. He can't control what's coming out of his mouth anymore, but seeing the way Y/N looked at him, how her eyes sparkled because of his words, he didn't care that he lost control. If he could, he would say these things non stop to her, write it down on notes, write it on the sky, scream it at the top of his lungs so everyone can know how much she means to him. If only he weren't so scared when he's sober.

"Let's get you to bed, alright?" She says as they finally reach his room. She's gentle with him like he is fragile, and he could feel his heart melt into a puddle in his chest. He sits down on the edge of the bed, Y/N standing between his legs. He has a lazy smile on his face and his eyes twinkle in the darkness. "What?"

"Please stay."

"Theo, I can't. I- You wouldn't want that if you weren't…" She looks away from his pleading eyes, knowing that she will cave in if he keeps looking at her like that. Why does he have to be so handsome?

"I do. I always want that," a small frown appears on his face. He doesn't want her to think that. To believe that he wouldn't want her here if he were sober. "I always want you to be around. I love being with you. I really do" his voice barely even a whisper, as he rests his head against her stomach. Y/N runs her fingers through his hair and he closes his eyes, getting lost in her touch.

"It doesn't seem like it though," she whispers and his heart cracks open with each shaky breath she takes. He never meant to hurt her. He never wanted to make her feel like she wasn't important to him.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. Please stay," his eyes are watering as he tilts his head back to look at her. "I promise I want you to. I swear. Please. I need you here."

She wants to believe him. Maybe what they already have is good, it's enough, but maybe having more would be better. So she does believe him for now. Y/N gestures for him to move and she lays down beside him. He immediately wraps his arm around her, and pulls her into his chest. It's nice, so nice, to lay with her here, to feel the warmth of her body, to hear her soft breathing, to know she is right here with him.

"I know I could do better but I swear, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'll prove it. I'm goin' to prove it," he whispers into her hair before drifting off to sleep.

#lavender-storm #theo nott #theodore nott #theo nott imagine #theodore nott imagine #theo nott fluff #theo nott blurb #theo nott x y/n #theo nott x reader

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foolstower · 1 year

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Accidental confessions

Akihiko Sanada x reader

A/n:I haven't wrote anything in 5 years but got inspired by all the fics I keep seeing. I noticed a lack of fics for persona 3 so I thought I'd try to contribute. Thank you whoever reads this I hope you enjoy!

At first it was just a tinge in you're heart. A small poke you felt everytime you were around him. But before you knew it, months passed and now you can't even look him in the eyes properly.

Akihiko Sanada. Why did it have to be him?

You sit in the silence of your room listening to the white noise of the fan. You're desk was littered with a couple a sheets of homework that you couldn't concentrate on, and a half empty cup of coffee. This time you couldn't help but wonder what it'd be like if you didn't have your persona. You wouldn't be in this dorm. You wouldn't know about the dark hour. And you wouldn't have to see him everyday. Maybe if you only saw him at school this crush of yours would wear off on its own but at this rate? This feeling is going to consume you.

At what point does holding in your feelings start becoming unhealthy? Everytime he tries and talk to you it's like a rose bush full of thorns squeezes tighter and tighter around your heart until you can't breathe. This is no good. You can't have a crush when your trying to save humanity. Isn't that inappropriate?

You let out a deep sigh before standing up from your spot. Maybe going to the kitchen for some water will help you calm down. You grab your now ice cold coffee and head to the kitchen. Your shoes softly tap on the stairs as you make your way down. Upon reaching the lounge area you see Koromaru still wide awake on the couch with Ken watching tv. They're so encapsulated in the show that they don't notice you walk into the kitchen to dump your coffee and get a fresh glass of water.

Upon heading over to the couch Koromaru looks your way and starts wagging his tail, alerting Ken to you presence as well.

"Oh hey y/n! What're you doing up so late?" He asked as you sat down next to Koromaru. You let out a soft laugh.

"It's only 11 it's not too late yet." You said taking a drink of your water. The liquid instantly made you feel more awake. "But we do have school tomorrow, shouldn't you be heading to bed soon?" You ask. He opens his mouth to say something but hesitates before shaking his head and saying what he wanted to.

"I... haven't really been sleeping lately." He says finally. You give him a questioning look and he continues. "I've just been thinking about my mom again nothing new." He lets out a sad laugh. You pat his shoulder. It's a discussion you've already had with him before.

"We're all here for you Ken. Whenever you need to talk about anything we'll be here for you. Take as much time as you need." You said softly and let go of his shoulder. He give you a small smile.

"Thank you, y/n. You're always saying nice things to me." He looks away a bit embarrassed. "If you're ever going through anything... You can tell me too! I want you to talk to me too!" He said with a bit of determination in his eyes before yawning. You couldn't help but smile.

"I'll keep that in mind. But if you're too tired you won't be able to listen to my boring ramblings without falling asleep!" You laughed. "But seriously Ken, thank you. I do have some things that I could get off my chest but we'll save that for after you get some sleep." You said. He goes to protest before another yawn slips out of his mouth and he gives up.

"Alright y/n, I'll see you tomorrow goodnight!" He says as he gets off the couch you wave him off as he makes his way up the stairs. You let out another deep sigh and look a Koromaru who stares up at you with a kind look in his eyes. The sounds of super heroes and villains can still faintly be heard on the TV screen.

"What? Would you like to hear what I have to say koro?" You say jokingly but he gives you a bark in confirmation. You freeze. "Really? It's really nothing interesting it's more bothersome really." He barks again. You debate in your head if it's a good idea to discuss this with a dog but what the heck? He won't judge you and it's not like he can rat you out either. You shrug, might as well. Maybe it'll help alleviate some of constant pressure you feel on your chest.

"Well....I like someone...a little too much." The sentence barely made it past you lips. Koromaru tilts his head a bit in a bid to urge you to keep talking. Red starts to dust your cheeks. Why is this so embarrassing to talk about? Why is your heart racing already? "He's so...I don't even know how to explain it. Nice? Strong? Caring? He's all those things... There's even sometimes that he flusters himself and I think its the cutest thing ever." You giggle to yourself. "The other day I was on my way back to class and he invited me out to a cafe because I told him I liked sweets a few weeks ago. I mean that's the nicest thing I think anyone has done for me sadly." You explained. "That's not all though...even in battle he's always looking out for me. I think he's starting to develop a habit of it actually." You paused. "Koro? Is it bad that I feel this way right now? I mean I'm not expecting you to have a full grasp on human emotions. But even you can see this isn't the time right? Like we're going to Tartarus almost twice a week. Every full moon we're one step closer to uncovering the Truth. Then school mixed in with all of that? Tell me I shouldn't be feeling like this right now." Frustrated tear starts to prick at your eyes before you catch yourself and rub them away. Koromaru whines before laying on your lap. You smile and pet his back. You lean against the couch and relax still petting Koro. "Thank you I feel a little bit better now. But I should go back upstairs I still have homework to finish." You lamented as Koro got up and moved back to his spot on the couch. You turned off the TV and grabbed a nearby blanket, covered him up and gave him one last pat before heading back up to your room. The taps of your feet on the steps was the only thing you heard until you reached the top.

"Hey y/n." A familiar voice sounded as you got to the top of the stairs. A silver haired man was sitting on the couch on the second floor with two boxing gloves in his lap and a towel that you could only assume was for cleaning them. You froze in your tracks. Your heart started racing a million miles per second, your mind blanked out and your face couldn't help but flush a deep scarlet from ear to ear.

"...what all did you hear?" A dumb question but maybe if you were lucky this would be one of those times where they actually didn't hear anything important.

".....I heard enough." He muttered looking at the gloves in his lap. He definitely heard something important. Your soul was ready to leave your body. What do you say to that? Sorry? Yeah that's right? Runaway? All these options began to swirl around in your brain clouding any train of thought you tried to form. "You should come sit down, we need to talk." He said as he started putting his equipment on the table in front of him. You slowly walked over this situation is just getting worse by the minute. We need to talk? That never sounded good. You finally sat down on the couch and placed your water on the table so you could put your hands in your lap. You desperately tried to muster up the courage for what you were about to say.

"Listen akihiko I'm sorry. I don't even know what to say right n-"

"Who were you talking about?" He cut you off.

"What?" You couldn't hide the shock in your voice. Who was I talking about? Who else took me out to a cafe a couple days ago? "I'm sorry, what do you mean?" The look of confusion on his face mirrored yours when you said that. He has to be joking right?

"There's someone you like right? Who is it?" He said softly. Oh you get it. You're about to get scolded for having feelings and how it's going to get in the way of the fight. Stuff you already knew and were trying to work out already. But why did he want you to admit your feelings to his face? Isn't that a bit cruel? You sighed trying to exhale some of the anxiety that was eating you alive.

"I know what you're going to say. It's stupid to let these feelings get in the way of our task right now. I know. I promise I'm working on it." You stared at your lap you felt like tears could slip out at any second now. "I didn't want you to hear my confession that way, but that really is how I feel about you." You voice cracked. "You're just so you I can't take it anymore. Whenever you're around I feel like my heart's going to burst or I'm going to throw up butterflies." You looked up at him ashamed and embarrassed that you're in this situation. But when you see his face his expression isn't what you expected.

His eyes were wide in shock and his cheeks were dusted a light pink. His mouth opened like he wanted to say something but quickly shut it and looked away from you. Why was he so flustered? He's the one that wanted to hear you say it. The room is quiet for a few seconds before he finally says something.

"M-me?" He stuttered. At this point you were fed up. Did he not hear you talking about him?

"Yes you! Why are you doing this to me?" You plead the embarrassment was almost too much to bear now. Where was this conversation going? Why is he acting like he didn't hear you? You bury your face in your hands in a last ditch effort to hide.

Akihiko was stunned. He had no idea you felt the same way he did, you hid it so well. He had overheard your conversation with Ken and Koromaru but walked away right after you admitted you liked someone. He couldn't bear to hear you fond over someone else and decided to wait on the second floor for you. While waiting he thought maybe it'd be best if you just tell him who your liked without all the extra bits. That way he could finally move on and stop feeling this way. But as it turns out thing aren't going that way. He finally turns to face your direction and gently pulls your hands away from your face and holds onto one. He stared at your interlocked hands before speaking.

"I like you too.... At this point... I think I can say Im falling in love with you." He says gripping your hand a little tighter. You almost choke on the sudden turn in circumstances. What is happening right now? "When we first met and were hanging out I thought I just wanted to know you since we were fighting together.... Then later on I thought I was seeing my sister in you. I was always have this urge to protect you and give you what you want. But just a little while ago I realized that's not it at all." He finally looks you in the eyes. "When I heard you just now, about to confess your feelings about someone I couldn't bring myself to hear it. I didn't want to hear you talk about someone like that and that's when I realized... I like you more than just as my friend." The pink hue on his cheeks got darker but he refused to look away from you now. It's now or never.

"I don't want you to work on it, I want you to be mine." He said sternly. He gaze was unwavering and made you want to melt on the spot. Did he really reciprocate your feelings? All this was a little too much. You were ready for rejection! no where in your mind did you think he felt the same.

"....won't I just be a burden? Won't I just cause problems for you?" You ask genuinely. These internalized fears make their way out into the open. "Akihiko... I don't want to be the reason you get hurt." You finished. He just gives you a kind smile.

"You've never been a burden to me y/n. You won't ever be a burden. If I get hurt it's my own fault it's nothing to do with you." He claims. "It's not wrong to want to protect the people you're close to right? Even if I didn't have these feelings I still wouldn't hesitate to put my life out there on the line as your friend." He says truthfully. The atmosphere is a bit lighter now the only thing left is your answer. Is this really ok? You don't think you care anymore.

"Then... If its ok. I want to be by your side. I want to protect you like you do me. I've never felt this way for anyone before... I honestly don't know what I'm doing but if you'll have patience I'd be delighted to be yours." You softly said to him. He smiled widely and suddenly embraced you. You head rested on his right shoulder you could hear his heart racing. You shyly wrapped your arms around his waist and relaxed into him.

"I'm glad I can finally hold you like this I've been wanting to for a while now." He confessed. He let out a content sigh before you both pulled away. He brushed some of the hair out of your face before standing up and offering his hand. "It's getting pretty late, can I walk you to your room?" He asks. You look up at him and take his hand. This is like a dream come true. Was this a dream? It sure does feel like it.

"I would love that." You say as he pulls you up from the couch. You both make your way up the stairs and down the hall to your room hands glued together. There's a pep in your step now and a permanent smile plastered to your face. Upon reaching the door to your room you turn to face him. He looks like a whole different person. He has a soft smile on his face, his eyes are looking at you with so much affection. Like you just lifted a massive weight from his shoulders.

"Goodnight aki I'll see you in the morning." You said before giving him a kiss on the cheek. You snapped him out of his thoughts and he lets go of your hand.

"O-okay I'll see you in the morning!" He said he was blushing harder then he has so far. "Can you call me aki more often? I... I like how it sounds coming from you" he stuttered out.

How can someone be so wholesome? How could someone like this possibly like you? All these thoughts plague your mind but deep down you know this is real. You love him and you're gonna do whatever it takes to make him happy. That's the vow you decided to make.

"Yeah that's all I'll call you from now on." You laughed.

"Come on don't tease me!" He laughed as well. Both infatuated in with how it feels to be unapologetically together. You finally turned around and twisted the door knob. You walked inside you room and turned to look at him through the doorway.

"I'll see you tomorrow Aki..... I love you." You almost hesitated to say it.

"I love you too y/n.... I'll see you when you come down to the lounge tomorrow. If you don't sleep in again we can walk to school together." He teased with a laugh. You protested with a hey! But laughed with him, it was infectious. With one last goodnight you waved him off and shut the door.

A relieved sigh escapes your lips this time. A content sound. You look at the homework still scattered across your desk and think about doing it, but choose to lay down instead. You remember you left your water on the second floor but decided you'll get it and clean it tomorrow. The fan in your room isn't so loud anymore and you can finally feel the breeze it's providing.

You can't believe it. Your stomach starts to twist up in knots from the aftermath of it all. All the things that could've just happened and it turns out he felt the same way. You'll have to thank Koromaru tomorrow for letting you talk to him. You stared at the ceiling a little while longer replaying what just happened in your head over and over again before getting ready for bed.

You're ready face whatever tomorrow brings. And anything after that.

#persona 3 femc #persona 3 portable #persona 3 #akihiko sanada #akihiko x reader #x reader

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theclarityinmirrors · 9 months

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I hate how my legs are shorter than everyone else in my ballet class and look thicker no matter how thin I try to be because I'm Asian. And how long my body is and how large my head and how short my arms are in comparison to everyone else.

And I hate how the only thing good about my dancing is my "expressivity" which anyone else can easily copy after a while, and how my technique is trash because of years of constant injuries, leading to more injuries.

I hate how every time I manage to recover and go back, everyone is so much better, and how flexibility was one of my "good points" but it is completely useless because who needs to be bendy when you don't have the strength to show it off? And besides, there's plenty more people who are both more flexible and stronger than you.

I hate how I'm that slow idiot in ballet, so I can never get unseen enchainment right, and I am always told that I am stupid at dance, but I can't wave my constant averages of above 95 at my teacher's face, or my scholarship at a high achieving school.

And I hate that even that is slipping because I have to cram a term's worth of studying in a single day to try and expect 100% because I'm never there at school and I'm away dancing, when I know that I'm practicing just to break another bone again, and get even worse.

There's also the fact that up awake late at night on my phone trying to ignore my parents screaming at each other, and trying run away from the reality that I am an absolute failure at ballet, and how I'm starting to drift down at my school work too.

I hate how that is an excuse to play on my phone, and rebel from my image of that bubbly, happy girl who is hardly there because she's away passionately pursuing her ballet career, but is somehow an A+ student.

And I hate how if I have time to make this stupid post or read manga and watch anime, then I could be training to strengthen myself, practice my ballet, to study more, even sleep, but I don't because I'm an undisciplined, pathetic fool who can only pretend to be disciplined on the outside.

They don't know that I fall asleep at 2am in the morning, and struggle to wake up in the morning, just on my phone, reading fanfiction and manga. They think I sleep at 8:30, 9:30 if I have a private lesson, exhausted. They don't know that the reason why I have blood noses so frequently, and my face is always littered with acne is because I force myself to wake up at 4:45 in the morning to study (they know that - they just don't know I sometimes only sleep a few hours).

I hate that I know all too well that the source of all my problems is there; if I sleep, then I stop being so tired, I can concentrate in the few classes I attend, my brain would start braining and my injuries would stop. I know. I know. I know.

I know.

So I hate it when my friends tell me that I work hard. I'm not working hard enough, when I could just fix one problem and everything else would be easier. And of course I work harder than them; they only have home and school to take seriously, and they marvel when I tell them I don't have time to go out every weekend with them, or even consider a relationship. I also hate that I subconsciously put myself above them inside, while I smile and laugh and be that one nice, kind friend I'm supposed to be.

I hate it when teachers don't take me accountable for not doing my homework, and how my parents pay for my ballet and my physiotherapist, and support me as much as they can. And I hate how much I loathe them when they ask me whether if I want to consider changing to swap to academics, because I'm technically more talented in that aspect, even after all they've done and are doing for me.

I want to quit ballet. I really do. But I hate how everything I do was for ballet.

Piano? For musicality in ballet.

Studying? To have a stable job if ballet fails or I retire.

Reading? It was for fun, sure, but I link back to the emotions to dance.

Eating? Carefully maintained to try to maintain my poor Asian figure.

I even have this whole timeline of my life planned out with countermeasures.

And finally, I hate how much I just stupidly love ballet, and I can't imagine my life without it.

#ballet #my problems #spilled ink #my thoughts #rants #this is really random #but am i aromantic #because i don't want a romantic relationship rn #oh well #i can think about that later

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jankwritten · 2 years

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having a hard time existing alone in my head rn so I'm jut gonna kind of dump all of my stressed out bullshit into this post so I can stop just having it all ricochet around in there sorry about that let's hope this immediately gets buried. I don't want to post it but I know that if I don't post it it's going to sit in the back of my mind and I hate that so I just gotta fuckin hit the button and hope nobody reads this WAHOO.

grey is oversharing on the internet again, who woulda guessed. i think part of why i feel the need to post this is because somebody else might feel the same in some capacity and therefore I won't feel so alone. hm. either way: don't read this if you're uncomfortable with strangers on the internet being stupidly open about cringey thoughts and feelings. don't read this if you get secondhand embarrassment either lmao.

edit: the fact that a sugardaddy bot thing just commented on this has reminded me of the absurd beauty that is reality.

i'm having one of those days where everything feels like it's my fault no matter how much I tell myself that it isn't and that it's largely selfish of me to think that I matter so much that I'm the one causing everybody all of their problems. i know that's not true. I know that I might have CONTRIBUTED to some of it by being careless but that doesn't automatically mean that I caused it or it's entirely my fault and that's really hard to contend with for some reason.

i'm terrified that all of my friends and family hate me all of a sudden because I know they don't.

i can't do my homework because my ADHD is out of control and I feel like I'm numb and floating out of my own head every time I even sit and TRY to concentrate on the readings I should have done 4 days ago. I will do my homework and it will take me 3 hours longer than it normally does and that's okay but it doesn't feel like it's okay and I can't control it because everyone i talk to in any medical or serious capacity doesn't seem to take me seriously when I say I think I have ADHD or autism or SOMETHING that does this to me, because I have a 4.0, and I get nothing but As, and that's because I have crippling anxiety that balances it out.

I only just today learned that it's OKAY to tell people when you might not be around much because you're having a bad day. if I start doing that too I feel like i'll just use it like a crutch and never talk to anybody again even though i love talking to people.

i feel like i'm messed up but not messed up enough to really SAY that I'm messed up because all I'm messed up is in my own head and I DID IT to myself, nobody else did it. i'm fucked up in a way that doesn't make sense when I try to explain it because the way it is is just ME, in my OWN HEAD, saying this shit and coming up with things and not being able to forget it or stop thinking about it until it haunts me. maybe that's just what having anxiety is but wow does it feel fucking isolating. like no, my parents never abused me or neglected me, but I grew up terrified that there was always the possibility that they COULD and I got it into my head that there is ALWAYS going to be that possibility which means that I always have to be on my guard and always being the best person I can be so I at least know that when it happens it's not because I deserve it.

i keep looking over at my door expecting someone to walk in and catch me crying about all this and I'm so scared of that that I'm holding off tears in the privacy of my own space for the fear of it. like that can't be normal, can it?

none of this to mention the fact that I think when I got COVID it majorly fucked with my memory and COVID isolation/quarantine for the past 2 years really sapped all of my social understanding and awareness and now every time I leave the house I'm TERRIFIED of having to interact with other people because I just flat out don't know how. i don't really remember anything anymore. what I do remember is always the most anxious parts, the scariest parts because they are what made me feel the most.

ugh. I think everything has been building up to today for weeks now lmao i'm finishing school next week and I'm going to be free for the first time since fuck knows when and I am BRUTALLY TERRIFIED of what comes next. i have all of these obligations and things I need to finish for school too that keep slipping my mind, not to mention the things I need to do for IRL.

#oversharing on the internet is my specialty #not pjo #tw deeply personal shit #tw mental health talk #tw anxiety #yes i know putting this online is a horrible idea and I'm going to regret this later but #what is tumblr for if not for going off on rants about the worst parts of yourself right #you know what writing this did help a little bit though and i'm gonna stand by that #hey if anybody actually reads this shit and relates you're not alone i am in this pit with you mon ami #this mental breakdown brought to you by the 10 weeks of intense study of racism in America that I've done for a class #which has in turn made me contemplate every possible way that I've contributed to that system #and so forth and so forth and so forth spiraling into oblivion about it and whatnot

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misha-bliss · 1 year

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｡･ﾟﾟ･ Exam tips!! ･ﾟﾟ･｡

SET UP A STUDY CENTER

Make the most of your study time by setting up a study center. A study center helps you concentrate on your work and get into the habit of studying.

Good study areas :

* in your room at a desk

* in a calm corner of the house

* in a quiet part of the school or public library

Poor study areas :

* in front of the television

* in your room on the bed

* on the school bus

GET A STUDY BUDDY

Find a buddy in each class and trade telephone numbers. You can call your study buddy to get assignments you forgot to write down or missed because you were absent. You can contact your study buddy to talk about assignments you don't understand, too. Finally, you can review material for tests with your study buddy.

How can you select good study buddies? Look for classmates who ..

* take school seriously.

* take school seriously•

* earn higher grades than you do right now

* keep up with all the work.

* are trustworthy.

* are well-organized.

* are rarely - if ever - absent

GOAL ORIENTED

Setting goals can help you study more effectively. tou call set short-term goals and long-term goals. Short-term goals look ahead an hour, day, week, or months. Long-term goals are set years in the future.

Good students set short-term goals and long-term goals. Often, the two types of goals work together. For example, if you set a goal to learn three new words a week, you'll do better in class. This helps you earn higher grades, which helps your long-term goal of attending college come true

SEIZE THE DAY

Michael comes home from school every day and feeds his cat.

He plays some video games, has a snack, and reads his e-mail.

By then it's time for dinner. After dinner, Michael reads the comics and does some chores. Suddenly, it's time for bed - but Michael has not even started his homework. His parents are furious and his brother is laughing at him. Michael can't figure out where all his time went.

Time has a sneaky way of slipping away. Fortunately, you can get control of your time by making a study schedule. A study schedule helps you set goals as well as get your work done. A study schedule also helps you.

• break down the task into manageable parts.

• keep up with assignments.

• get into a study routine.

• make the most of your time.

That’s enough for today and cr to study skills lmao I took some points from them ⋆

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one-abuse-survivor · 8 months

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I don't even know if this is a normal feeling or if I'm being dramatic or something. Whenever my brother is near me I can't focus on anything and I become nervous. I can't pay attention to my studies because I feel nervous just by his presence a few feet away from me on the couch watching tiktoks. We have kind of a strained relationship because he has a temper and I get so upset when he yells at our mom but I can't even do anything about it or else he'll get mad at me too which my mom wants to avoid

Hi there, nonnie.

First off, you are never dramatic for experiencing emotions. The ways in which we act because of our emotions can sometimes be described as dramatic (and that isn't always a bad thing), but emotions on their own do not have a moral value. They are morally neutral. All of them are valid.

So, please, don't judge yourself for being nervous and having trouble concentrating when your brother is nearby. You deserve to take your struggles seriously, and to look for answers as to why this is happening to you.

Just from what you've shared here, it sounds like your brother has a very volatile and aggressive attitude toward your and your mom. Living around someone like that can have you walking on eggshells, never knowing when he's going to snap. This can put you in survival mode and make you develop PTSD.

When you're in survival mode, your body focuses all its energy on keeping you safe, which can make it downright impossible to focus on things other than survival (like homework or class notes). Moreover, one of the many possible symptoms of PTSD is having difficulty concentrating.

So, yes, it's normal that you can't focus on your studies when your brother is around. Whether you have PTSD or you're hypervigilant and in survival mode around him, it makes perfect sense that your brain is prioritising your immediate safety over focusing on abstract and presently less important ideas.

I hope that makes sense. Sending a big virtual hug ❤️

#Ask #🦢 anon #Abuse tw #Toxic brother #Verbal abuse tw

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myadhdbot · 11 months

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tldr: nothing important

just knowing you might have adhd without the official diagnosis, and no means to even get one bc where you live in doesn't take mental health seriously, is so frustrating.

i relate to most of the adhd behaviours described online. i cannot regulate my attention. my recent hyper-fixation lasted almost an entire semester and i barely scraped through all the other subjects other than the ones i was really interested in. i also lose focus easily in class unless I'm writing every word they say down. executive dysfunction is an everyday thing. i cannot stop scrolling on the internet even though i mentally list all the better things i could be doing rather than waste time every 10-15 minutes. I'm easily bored and have had meltdowns in the past so yes i 98% think i have adhd probably a bit of anxiety as well.

but without the official diagnosis my imposter syndrome makes it so difficult to live guilt free. theres always stupid thoughts in my head saying if I'm just exaggerating things (i know I'm not) but it's so hard to shut down the voice and i go into a spiral thinking if I'm just being lazy, not working hard enough to get things done on time, not trying to remember important schedules or assignments, not trying complete my assignments or homeworks or reading until the very last minute.

my issues with memory also make it incredibly hard to recall anything other than some specific instances of my childhood and everybody (esp my mom) remembers a different version of me bc i lived in a boarding school from 11-16(until covid) and i was extremely high functioning. i used to ace tests without having to read too much and my boarding school had a very strict routine that made it easy bc i knew what i was supposed to do every minute of the day but when 11th grade came around everything changed even though i was still in the same boarding setup. i suddenly didnt do well in tests bc i hadn't needed to until then. so i don't know who i was, i don't know who i am or who I'm supposed to be.

i did nothing productive during the covid year couldn't concentrate in class. i read hp fanfics all day. i couldn't even read new books, or watch tv shows or pick up a hobby or learn a language (which is an interest of mine), nothing other than reading about the same people fall for each other in a thousand different au's. this was a very important stage in my student life and i didn't give university exams properly. i can't regret it bc i don't even think about it. i don't think about anything concrete but my mind is always busy.

(i don't even know where i was going with this. does this qualify as trauma dump?)

i see people with the same problems on the internet and it does relieve me to a certain extent but there's always doubt clawing at me. also bc in just 2 years I've to get a job and i hear how office spaces are not accomodating enough for nd folks and it's scary. i also don't really like the job profile very much but it's also bc i have no real direction in life. i dream about having a book cafe but it's not sustainable nor fair to my family ig.

sundays are not fun when you're in an existential crisis (if this even qualifies as one) and i have homework to do that I could've done anytime between the last 30 hours which I've procrastinated against doing until now.

#undiagnosed adhd #adhd things?#adhd brain #adhd stuff #adult adhd #muad

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thursdaysshepard · 7 years

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Mahinnah Lavellan Aesthetics

Based off this wonderful template

#i seriously can't concentrate on this homework #so #make moodboards instead??#sounds about right #adgkjzhfg #mahinnah lavellan #hinnah aesthetics #i like how this turned out tho #poppy #da:i

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iron-niffler · 3 years

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me doing homework:

my playlist: *iron man 3 soundtrack*

me: i should watch this scene :)

the comments on the video: this sounds like the home depot theme

me: the what *googles it**watches the video*

youtube recommended: meme compliations

me: well it can't hurt i could use a break

*1 hour later*

me: *still vibing to home depot theme*

#I HAVE SPANISH HOMEWORK IT'S 1AM AND I CAN'T CONCENTRATE #so y'know the usual #seriously though this theme is a bop #sigh im an idiot

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moonlightrichie · 4 years

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my god i’m so freaking miserable where i live, i need to move out of this apartment IMMEDIATELY. and at the same time the quarantine is keeping me inside too, and i just... i can’t deal anymore i hate it here

#ignore this i just had to get it out #there is literally never a second of silence in this goddamn place i can never concentrate on my homework or reading or writing #because there is ALWAYS noise coming from both of my flatmates' rooms #and i'm between them and the walls are so thin i can literally hear it when they SIGH #i just ahhhhhhh i #i don't have anything against gamers or anything the problem is that it's affecting me and my work and my sleep #because they literally don't stop playing from the moment they wake up till they go tobed and it's so tiring for me #cause i'm forced to listen to it all day #i have some issues with sounds as it is already and i feel like i'm just constantly walking around in a bad mood #always sad or angry or frustrated on the verge of tears i seriously can #'t live here anymore #like...#sometimes i'm woken up at 8am because they're playing games #and sometimes they stay awake until 2am playing games #like the yelling and talking never stops and if i tried i could hear every single word they say #and they never fucking clean up after using the kitchen i feel like i'm walking around in filth all the time #and now i can't even plan a new place to move to cause idk if i'll even be able to go study in britain next year like i've been planning #because of this freaking virus #and none of my parents have a place for me to stay cause none of them have kept my childhood room after i moved out #i just #i feel like i have NO place to feel okay #no place to feel at home #no place to be comfortable #no place where i belong #i'm so tired

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mdnigtmoon · 4 years

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ugh I have so much homework to do why am I still procrastinating

#seriously I should focus on my homework #BUT I CAN'TTT #I just can't concentrate help #cherry talks

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t0shii · 3 years

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% pretty hands

.! suna, hanamaki, akaashi (sep) x gn!r

.! fluff/ not proofread

.! a/n inspired by my post from the other day

suna

you hugged his back, chin perched on his shoulder while he played a game with the twins. you were watching his game, seriously you were, until you glanced down at his watch which rested in his lap, attached to a controller. whilst he clicked away, you couldn't help but admire the way his hands held the small object, they were so... large compared to the controller, slender, his nails painted pink from two nights before after you'd begged him to let you pain them. they were, dare you say, pretty.

you sat there watching his hands for around 15 minutes and he must've felt it because when he asked, "whatcha starin' at pretty?" you felt a heat rush to your cheeks faster than you could answer him, you were slightly embarrassed. "uhmm nothing." it came out more like a question rather than an answer which makes him let out a breath that you recognized as a laugh, "are you sure?" by now you can hear atsumu yelling at him through his headset that he's making them lose but suna doesn't seem to care as he mutes his friends, eyes now on you. "you've been quiet. what's on your mind, baby?" he cups his hand over your cheek and soothes your warm skin, running a cold thumb over the bags of your eye. "your hands... i just thought they were pretty."

you can see his eyes glance to the hand cupping your cheek before staring back into, what felt like, your soul, "you think so?" his lips curl into a grin, "thank you." he rubs the skin under your eye a few more times before raising this other hand to cup the opposite cheek and giving your face a squeeze, "i think your face is pretty." he says before kissing your lips. you can only let out a muffled, "thank you." as he laughs at you, "you're too cute, really."

hanamaki

you sat in his lap as he helped with you your homework just like every other friday afternoon. honestly you were listening to his lesson or at least you were trying to but he was making it so hard. you'd never realized his hands were so... pretty. of course you'd held them, kissed them, seen them before, etc. you'd just never really recognized them as 'pretty' until he was writing down a math equation on the notebook paper in front of you.

finally, when you stop your 'mhms' he knows you're no longer listening to his explanation, he wraps his free arm around your waist and pulls you into his chest, "you're not listening. getting sleepy? we can take a break if you want." you're immediately snapped out of your thoughts at his words. "what? no, no! i was just spaced out, sorry." you ramble, "can you... start over? i'll listen this time." he chuckles and hugs you tighter, "mhm, so you start here-" not even three sentences in you feel yourself staring again and, of course he notices. "baby, if you need a break that's fine, we can-" "no no makki, it's just that... i can't concentrate. i'm not tired it's... it's your hand..." he's a confused humming sound and moved his hand slightly. honestly you didn't even know how to describe his hands. of course you see them all the time, why were you only just noticing how nice they looked? all slender and long, they were just... pretty.

"what about my hand, baby?" he asks, tone a little teasing. you reach for his other hand which is hooked around your waist and hold it up for him to see, playing with his fingers. "they're really pretty." you sigh, pressing a kiss to the pads of his pointer finger. he fights the blush threatening his cheeks, "this is what you're so concerned about?" "mhm" he laughs, "well, thank you for the compliment." he says, pressing a kiss to where your jaw meets your neck, "do you wanna sit here and play with my fingers the rest of the day or continue with the lesson? i don't mind either way."

akaashi

it was normal for you to sit in his lap while he did paperwork, sitting in a comfortable silence together. you often found yourself staring at his hands, writing, typing, or even just sitting there, they always looked so pretty. though you'd never told him about this thought. currently, you had a concentrated look contorted on your face as you stared, a look he seemed to notice. "everything okay, angel?" he nudges you with his elbow which snaps you out of your thoughts, "hm? oh yeah, i'm fine." you straighten your back and give him a reassuring smile, "are you sure? you look tired, you don't have to sit with me ya know? go take a nap if you're feeling sleepy." he kisses your cheek and smiles at you innocently.

"keiji," you giggle, "i'm not sleepy, plus i wanna sit with you. i was just zoned out." you rub your eyes, though, now that you were thinking about it, maybe you were a little sleepy. "what were you so focused on then?" "your hands." you're honest and he's confused. "what you mean? what's wrong with them?" he inspects them and you shake your head, grabbing them. "nothing's wrong with them, keji. i just think they're really pretty." you confess, kissing the knuckles on each hand, "pretty?" "mhm." "how's that?" "well, i dunno. they're just nice to look at. oh! and mine fits in them really well, like a puzzle piece, look." you lace your fingers between his and show him what you mean and he realizes you're right. "see, not to big not too small, and they're super soft too." you smile and he nods. "i see what you mean, about the puzzle piece i mean."

"so you agree? you have really pretty hands." he nods "well i guess, but i think yours are nicer than mine. it's your hand that fits so well into mine, they were made for me i think." pink rushes to his cheeks as he says it, "was that weird to say?" "no! i think you're right, baby." you offer him a smile and he returns it, kissing the back of your hand which he held. "thank you for the compliment by the way." you nod and yawn, stretching your arms out, "i knew you were getting sleepy, lets go take a nap."

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confusedthinking-19 · 3 years

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heyy, could you do an imagine of the reader feeling down because of school stress & avoiding jasper because he can sense her feelings. jasper thinks he did something wrong the whole day until he finally talks to the reader. basically a little angst to fluff ? thank youu if you can ! <3

I'm sorry if there's a spelling mistake, english isn't my native language, don't hesitate to correct me if I have something wrong.

Warming: Nothing / Genre: Angst/Fluff

A/N: First I want to say excuse me for the delay, I did not expect it to take so long writing, and second thank you very much for sending me your request I hope you like it

-MASTERLIST- -REQUEST ALWAYS ARE OPEN-

The night was noisy, the sky looked like it was going to fall, it had never rained as much as that night and that raining in Forks was nothing strange. Just look at your book in front of you, you seem to be reading hieroglyphs, these fed up from school, their mediocre teaching system, the teachers never explained and still left you piles of homework, then the week of final exams was coming.

Your head beat up to think about how strong you have the migraine, you just wanted to rest, but your stress and anxiety didn't allow you that, which led you to get away from your boyfriend, if your boyfriend is a vampire and better than that is your twin soul, his own singer, he can feel and see the feelings of other people, so with all your problems, you didn't want to give him more and knowing how it was going to care so much for you little human, that's why you were locked in your room wanting the day, the week and this year of high school to be over.

Thunder lit the room, not afraid, but they made your head hurt more and more, you can't concentrate and you were only suffering, tears threatened to leave, you felt powerless. A fairly strong thunder made the light go out of the house, leaving it in darkness.

- The only thing I was missing, seriously that life hates me - angry murmures and between teeth - What happens darling, Alice told me that you would be avoiding me for more days and I can't stay that way? - you heard a southern accent from the window, making you stand out

-Ay Jasper!! you scared me, don't do that again - you commented while you put a hand on your chest to try to calm your erratic heart. - Sorry for, darling, you were worried and decided to come - it seemed to remark its southern accent knowing you loved it.

- It's nothing Jas, just that, I don't want to cause you any more problems, that you feel what I feel is too, I want you to be relaxed - you confessed it in a low voice knowing that he listened to you, you were already on the edge of tears again. - Oh no honey, I prefer to feel everything about you than feel nothing, please don't avoid me, I feel I did something wrong to get you away - he told you, making you feel bad for being ignored so long.

- Sorry Jas, I promise not to do it again - you told him being sincere, stretching his arms toward him wanting him to embrace you to feel relaxed.

Jasper approached you carefully and took you into his arms, taking you to bed, where the two could share his love. Jasper knew how to control his blood because of the immense love he has, to lose yourself or to get away would only harm him.

He loves you too much, he shows it to you when you curl up against his cold chest, you feel that exploitation of love running through your body, hoping to feel that way for all eternity.

#jasper x reader #jasper cullen #twilight carlisle #twilight saga #twilight #fluff jasper cullen #esme cullen #alice cullen #rosalie cullen #emmett cullen #fluff twilight #request are open

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namelessayakashi · 3 years

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Merlin/Arthur Fic Rec List

This is going to be a long post, so the recs start blow the cut!

I wanted to make a fic rec list!! So, here I am. Should be doing my uni homework that's due tonight but I am a terrible procrastinator.

I will probably make another one later on when I have more time that is more organized, but this one is in no particular order.

Last Updated 23 Sept. 2021

Also, quickly, a big thank you to @kickassfu for the making gif above for this post, ilysm Maf!!

Onto the fics!

Unsaid Love by AeonTheDimensionalGirl

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Return Fic; Angst with a Happy Ending

Wordcount: 4,022

Quick Summary: Songfic for the song Unsaid Emily from Julie & the Phantoms. Follows Merlin through the years as every century on Arthur's birthday more and more of a song is revealed to him when he goes to sleep. [Regency setting fic]

-- I am still not over this fic of @aeonthedimensionalgirl's, this fic is literally incredible. It is so good. I recommend reading it with Unsaid Emily playing on repeat in the background.

The Wisdom Of The Ages by tehfanglyfish

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Fluff; Getting Together

Wordcount: 4,200

Quick Summary: "Saving Arthur while disguised as Dragoon the Great was all well and good until the king decided the old sorcerer deserved a reward. On the run from Arthur, Merlin finds sanctuary in an elderly women's social club. What was supposed to be a one-time visit becomes a regular part of Merlin's week, as he returns each Friday to discuss recipes, commiserate about aches and pains, and lament the state of his love life." - Summary directly from AO3

-- Such a good fic, honestly, like. Merlin befriends Camelot's elderly ladies. Need I say more? It's great.

Forgetful Days by OnceFutureEmrys

Rating: General Audiences

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Fluff; Modern AU

Wordcount: 620

Quick Summary: "Arthur is very forgetful. Luckily, Merlin is there to help." - Summary directly from AO3

-- Seriously, @oncefutureemrys this fic is so cute and it's just great, def recommend it

Home in Your Arms by OnceFutureEmrys

Rating: General Audiences

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Pining; Fluff; Modern AU

Wordcount: 1,574

Quick Summary: "Arthur is missing Merlin when when he hears someone knocking on the door..." - Summary directly from AO3

-- Yes, another one from OFE, because I love her and her fics. This fic is so sweet, it is a modern University AU!

Ink On A Page by Hisa_Ai

Rating: General Audiences

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Pining; Fluff

Wordcount: 2,170

Quick Summary: Merlin writes his feelings on parchment, because if they are on paper, they are just words on a page, and not really his and didn't hold any meaning. One day Arthur notices him writing on one of these pieces of parchment.

-- Literally so beautiful. I loved this fic so much, and I recommend it so much. It is a canon era confessions fic, and it's just so good.

Fool Me Once by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Type: Humor; Magic Revealed; Dark Humor

Wordcount: 18, 728

Quick Summary: "Uther finds out about Merlin’s magic, but can’t seem to kill him. Merlin is just trying to protect Arthur. They become a begrudgingly effective duo. Arthur doesn't understand why they think he isn't noticing this." - Summary directly from AO3

-- I mean, can I just recommend this entire series? Seriously, the series this fic is in is just--excellent. I love this fic. It has Immortal Merlin and Uther Knowing about his magic. Seriously, though, just this series is amazing ahah Exceptionally Exceptional, Calling the Middleman, Returning the Favor, In Which Arthur Lets a Sorcerer Live and Regrets It, just to name a few, are incredible and I definitely recommend reading them.

for my beating heart is far too small for the entirety of my love for you by kickassfu

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Fluff; Established Relationship

Wordcount: 1,566

Quick Summary: Arthur is trying to learn a little magic to surprise Merlin at his coronation after their wedding.

-- So, I actually gave @kickassfu the prompt for this one. And oh my gods. How they did it? So soft, sweet. It is so good, and I 100% recommend you check it out!

That’s my Man by AeonTheDimensionalGirl

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Emotional Hurt/Comfort; Magic Revealed; Arranged Marriage; Angst with a Happy Ending

Wordcount: 2,287

Quick Summary: "By ancient, prophesied law, Arthur Pendragon must wed Emrys.

Problem is no one knows who they are." - Summary directly from AO3

-- I told you Aeon would be on here again! Love this fic so much. Love magic reveals, love arranged marriages. Seriously, this is great.

the house is flooded (as is his heart) by powered_by_notes

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Domestic Fluff; Return Fic

Wordcount: 2,281

Quick Summary: Arthur leaves to do some work in town, and Merlin runs into a bit of trouble with the cottage and their chickens while he's gone.

-- They have chickens. Enough said. No but really, this is so good, they live in a cottage and they have chickens and I definitely recommend this fic.

Emrys the Really, Truly Terrible by lindenwaverly

Rating: Teens & Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Magic Reveal, Emrys Reveal

Wordcount: 15,241

Quick Summary: Arthur has repealed the ban on magic, but Merlin still hasn't come clean about his identity. The issue comes in where, Arthur wants Emrys to be his Court Sorcerer

-- literally. cackled. this is so great, i loved this one. i read it in the morning and do not regret it one bit. some of the dialogue just killed me. it's a great fic, and you should definitely read it.

Arthur Pendragon's Business Judgment Rule by oddishly

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Woke Up Married

Wordcount: 27,459

Quick Summary: "Arthur and Merlin wake up married. Camelot is in the middle of treaty negotiations with a visiting king. It's okay, Arthur has a plan." - Summary directly from AO3

Lord Drake's Bequest by Pennyplainknits

Rating: Mature

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Type: Modern Era, Fake Relationship

Wordcount: 9,966

Quick Summary: " "To my great-nephew Arthur I bequeath Tintagel Distribution, wholly and without reserve, save for one condition. You must marry, and stay married, for a period of no less than six months. You're a wonderful businessman Arthur, but a full life needs love and companionship, not just a string of affairs. Settle down young Arthur, and your life will be the richer for it." " - Summary directly from AO3

of all things magic, a cerulean haze by powered_by_notes

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warning: None Apply

Type: Magic Reveal

Wc: 7,092

Summary: "When Arthur goes missing, Merlin goes off on his own searching for him. He knows to look for things that the others simply do not and has things at his disposal that the others, again, simply do not.

. . .Magical things, of course.

In all his power, worry, anger, and relentless searching, he has no idea the missing king is being shown all the things that Merlin is doing with that power.

. . .Magical things, of course." - Summary directly from AO3

-- Loved this sm. Gods, I was supposed to read this ages ago, but only FINALLY just found the time to last night and it was so great. Arthur is kidnapped while out doing smth for Merlin and it's just really good.

On the Run by Sorceressofdragons

Rating: E

Archive Warnings: None Apply

Type: Modern AU

Wordcount: 18,155

Summary: After an unsuccessful attempt on their lives, new neighbours Arthur and Merlin decide to take off into the woods. Their destination is Morgana’s country estate, but these two city boys don’t know anything about survival—so if the foxes don’t get them, the lack of Monster Munch might. Featuring sex mishaps, weird food, walking in circles, and some obligatory cuddling. Oh, and Merlin is hung. - Summary directly from AO3

-- fucking KILLED me. This was just -- it was great. Literally, from the start I SWORE i knew the who and why only to discover I was totally off with the *why* and it was fantastic.

Hear Your Heart Sing (Love, Love, Love) by schweet_heart

Rating: Mature

Archive Warnings: None Apply

Type: Soulmate Au, Modern Au

Wordcount: 15,834

Summary: Merlin used to like the idea of finding The One – until he fell in love with Arthur Pendragon. Now he has a boss he can't date (but can't stop thinking about), a soulmate he can't find (who has terrible taste in music), and a best friend who can't believe he still hasn't got his act together (even though it's seriously not his fault).Sometimes, life is unfairly complicated, even without your soulmate singing painfully catchy tunes in the back of your head. - Summary directly from AO3

-- This one was just great. The soulmates, the songs, the misunderstandings--it was great. I loved this one.

Note to Idiot by tinylilremus

Rating: Teen & Up

Archive Warnings: None Apply

Type: Harry Potter AU, Modern AU

Wordcount: 9,762

Summary: Arthur and Merlin are members of the Accidental Magic Reversal Squad who work different shifts and share the same office. Arthur, who works the day shift, can't stand the rain. Merlin, who works the night shift, can't concentrate without it.

When they both get tired of changing the weather in the magical window in their underground office, is there a more British way to settle their differences than with a few passive-aggressive memos? - Summary directly from AO3

-- HP AU! A Ministry AU at that! I literally. I loved this so much. Merlin & Arthur are both in the AMRS, different shifts, and it's just hnsdsjdkh it's so good. Really, it's great. And we get to see them on the job a bit!!! Which is fun. This one is def a great one to read, esp if you like HP AUs

as stated previously, this list is being frequently updated with more fics!!!

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⏳You get caught staring by ateez⏳

💖Park Seonghwa💖

"Hahaha stop it!" Rosé pleads while laughing hystericaly. "I can't breathe- haha" Jisoo adds breathless. You just sit there watching them unamused. "Guys, I think I missed the part where it's supposed to be funny?"

They turn to you blinking rapidly, before making eye contact together and going back to laughing. You sigh loudly, then stand up to get another coffee.

When you come back to the table, they seem to have calm down. You guys start talking about boys, Rosé has a crush on a guy named Jaehyun. Jisoo says she prefers staying single. While you, are quite lost.

You never fell in love, nor ever had interest in anyone. You friends think you're into girls, but that's not it. You know you like guys, you just didn't meet the right one yet.

"You're so boring Y/N! Like seriously, there's not even a guy you find a little bit cute?" Jisoo dramatically ask and you answer by shrugging your shoulders. They both keep talking, leaving you into your own thoughts.

Ding! Ding! The shop bell sound brings you back to earth. You look at the entrance and you're met with a feeling you never felt before, butterflies.

Your eyes are glued to a boy around your age, he looks like a god. You swallow nervously and your palms become sweaty. "Hey you remem- What are you looking at?" Jisoo asks suspiciously.

She's about to turn around, but you quickly change the subject. "Nothing- Hey what were you saying about Rosé's cooking again?" While she starts explaining her poor skills, you try to steal glances at the guy. Your cheeks turn red the moment his eyes make contact with yours and he smiles.

💙Kim Hongjoong💙

Hongjoong's your classmate. His desk his close to yours, you never talked to him though. He's always with his friends and you're to afraid you'll end up humiliated.

He seems kind, but since you don't know him and he's quite popular, you sure don't wanna make a fool of yourself. "Hongjoong do you know the answer?" The teacher ask him.

He responds correctly, you turn around a bit to look at him. Even after everyone go back to listen to the teacher, your eyes never leave his face.

You uncounsously stare at him, thinking. You also start to look him up down. When you look back up your eyes meet his and you instantly turn around.

'Great! that wasn't suspicious at all? Stupid! If he didn't think I was a weirdo before, he definitely does now' You mentally scold yourself. "Miss Y/N! Since you're so interested in this class, you should answer the next question."

As if you weren't embarrassed enough. "I'm sorry, I don't know the answer.." You lower your eyes. "Well, you would've known if you weren't paying attention to boys instead." You're face heats up and you feel tears threatening to fall.

Others were laughing before being shushed and returning to the lesson. You lay your head on your desk, hiding in your arms. You fall asleep.

After the class is over, someone wakes you up. "Y/N~" Your eyes open in shock. You look at him, Hongjoong. He smiles at you and laughs softly seeing your lost expression.

"You're cute~ Come on, we gotta go eat lunch!" He extend his hand for you to take and you don't hesitate to let him drag you.

💛Jeong Yunho💛

You're friends. Tonight he invited you at his house so you guys can study. You're having fun, he cracks a few jokes when the atmosphere becomes too serious.

You laugh a lot and can barely concentrate on your homeworks. After a while he stands up. "You hungry?" You answer him while trying not to tear your gaze away from your book. "Umm.. Yes please, anything's fine."

He hurries to get a few snacks and drinks, then comes back. He puts some music on. After some time he gets tired and suggests you should watch a movie together, you agree.

You start to watch it, but Yunho falls asleep on your shoulder. You try to pay attention to the tv, but get bored after a few minutes. Yunho's head gets heavy, you push him softly so he can lay on the other side.

There'a nothing to do, you take this as an opportunity to clean up the mess you both made. When you finish everything, it already is past midnight. You need to go home but before, you make your way to yunho.

"Hey~ I need to go, it's late. See you tomorrow, alright?" You whisper, but don't receive any reaction. While looking at him you take the time to admire his face. After realizing what you're doing, you shake your head.

When you're about to get up, he grabs your wrist. "You know? Staring is rude." He opens his eyes, smirking. You stay there flustered. "You weren't asleep?"

He shakes hid head and you close your eyes before sighing. "It's ok, I don't mind. I do it sometimes too" You open your eyes to find him about 2 centimeters from your face.

💜Kang Yeosang💜

Yeosang's handsome, obviously. You always find yourself flustered and clumsy around him. You work at the same shop as him. Your shifts are always at the same time, meaning, you have to talk to him.

Honestly, it always ends up with you embarrassing yourself. It happened that he was too shy to respond to you, because you were too straightforward. Because you're nervous, blurting out to him things like 'you're hot today' or 'nice thighs'.

It even happened once, he asked you to taste a cookie he had made and you said 'you taste really good' by mistake. The both of you didn't look at each others for a few days.

Today, Yeosang arrived with a new haircut, he looks good. The whole day, you found yourself looking at him. It's almost time to leave, you're doing it again, staring at him.

He finishes to clean and joins you behind the counter. "We're done! We can go home now. You need a ride hom- Y/N?" He stops talking when he notices you're looking at something on his pants.

"You're zipper's down." You answer calmly, while he quickly turns around to zip his jeans. Surprisingly this time, you don't feel shy, there's a wave of confidence invading you.

The following days he avoids you, clearly flustered. You brush your body against his on purpose to see his reaction. When he finaly looks at you, you wink at him.

🖤Choi San🖤

Your mother invited her friend and his son for dinner. She wants you to be there. She said you should meet new people, tired of your boring life.

You're not to keen about it but you'll do it so she'll leave you alone. The bell rings and since your mom is busy, you hurry to answer it. "Hi you must be Y/N?" He greets. "Yes that's me! It's nice to finaly meet you Mr.Choi!"

You shake hands and you tell them to come inside. "Oh and this his my son, San!" You look at him, and try to keep your composure.

You've been in love with him for years. He's at the same school as you. Suddenly, you're nervous, your palms are sweaty. You force a smile and bow your head. "Well.. uh. My mom's almost finished cooking-" You're cut off by your mother. "Dinner is ready!"

She appears from behind you and greets the boys. You all make your way to the table. Later in the night, after being humiliated by your mom, her and San's dad started a conversation.

She reveled embarrassing stories about you and now she lets you to deal with it. You and San are sitting next to each other, listening to them.

You discretely steal glances at him. Sometimes looking at him longer then you previously planned. Until, what you end up looking at, are his eyes.

He's looking at you with an emotion you can't read. You quickly understand what it's about when you feel his hand on your thigh.

💚Song Mingi💚

You are enemies, you both hate each other with a passion. Just hearing the other breathe is enough to trigger a nerve. You're fighting since elementary school. It got worse with time.

Neither of you remember why it started in the first place. "Here we have 'the' gollum! Don't be surprised guys it's total-" He tripps because of someone's foot and the burning coffee in his hands ends up on you.

The following events bring the both of you to detention. You glared at each other for a while, then started an insult battle.

Now you've calmed down. Mingi his writing on his desk and you're watching him. You start to analyze him up and down.

He's attractive, you never really saw him that way but damn he's ho- Wait no, no no no. I mean he's ugly, he's an asshole. Being so lost in your thoughts, you haven't notice him approaching you.

He's kneeling between your legs, grinning cockily. You jump from surprise and try to push him away. He takes your arms in his hands. "Calm down, I'm not gonna kill you!"

You don't listen to him and hit his chest after freeing one of your hand. "Don't touch me perv!" You angrily tell him. "I'm the pervert one? I remember 2 minutes ago, you were the one checking me out~"

He smirks. You feel your heartbeat quicken, something weird in your stomach. Before you have the time to yell at him, his lips are on yours.

❤Jung Wooyoung❤

You don't have friends. There are rumors about you, no one wants to approach you because of them. They think you're crazy, you're dangerous or disgusting.

They don't know you and judge you based on stupid gossip. All of this started when you and your bestfriend Hyuna had a huge fight.

She was mad at you, she had a crush on your boyfriend. You had been together for two years, even before you became a couple you guys were friends. The both of you always had been in love, until she ruined everything.

Her jealousy broke your happiness, your trust, your reputation. She lied to Wooyoung, told him you cheated on him with her brother. He believed her and broke up with you, now they're together.

She told everyone about her 'story'. She even went as far as hurting herself, blaming you for beating her up. She told people you were harassing her out of jealousy.

You were expelled for 1 month and your parents scolded you, took your phone and computer. They forbade you to go outside for months. Today's a day like any other.

Your at school, depressed and tired from the sleepless nights and mess in your life. While walking your eyes fall on Wooyoung, your steps become slower.

You can't help yourself but to admire him. You weren't expecting his eyes to directly meet yours, your heart skipping a beat.

The emotions are too much, you enter the bathroom to put some water on your face. "Hey.." You jump at the unexpected voice, Wooyoung.

🧡Choi Jongho🧡

"Ryujin~ Pleeaase buy this for me~?" Yeji whines and makes puppy eyes. Ryujin, obviously ends up giving her what she wants.

You look at them laughing, it's always the same thing. They have a cute relationship, the only problem is that you're always third wheeling. You don't mind much though, your last relationship was a mess.

It might take a while for you to welcome someone else in your life. "We're ready to go!" Yeji sings happily. You roll your eyes, scoffing. "Of course. Got what you wanted?" You tease, she just tugs her tongue out and makes weird faces.

You squint your eyes. "Stop being weird." She laughs in response. The three of you visit a few other stores. Then the girls get hungry, they suggest on taking a break and eat.

You wait for them at a table, they went to get food. You're texting some other friends when someone calls your name. "Y/N? Is it really you?" You look at the owner of the voice and take a moment to remember him.

"Oh! Jongho right?" He nods and giggles. "It's been so long! How have you been you?" You ask suddenly really enthusiast. "Great honestly-" You didn't hear the rest, your eyes locked on his face.

You guys were young when you last saw each other. He's your childhood friend, he had moved away and you lost contact. He definitely became even more handsome, he has more muscles, he's more mature, his-

"My eyes are up here~" Your eyes widen, you look into his eyes. "I'm so sorry! I didn't mea-" He cut you off by kissing your cheek.

He titles his head and smirk. "Call me, beautiful~" When you can't see him anymore, you realise you have a piece of paper in your hand. His number.

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