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lavenderwhore444 · 3 years

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Ok so we all love pervert shigaraki ( Ik u do so please don’t lie to ur self love 😀) anyways what if shigaraki had a huge crush on the reader and steals there panties ( when there out in a mission working there ass off) but the reader notices and placed cameras in her room just to see who’s stealing them surprise surprise it’s ya boy shiggy and the reader finds it kind of cute that he’s that desperate but is also upsetting because there working and he’s here getting off on her stuff so.the reader catch’s him in the act and shows him the videos ( shigaraki at this point is crying from embarrassment and he’s begging for the reader to delete the videos) as a punishment the reader pegs the shit out of him and the ending is fluff since I do love shiggy

First of all English isn’t my first language so apologizes for any mistakes and for the ending please work ur magic sis

💍🧎🏻‍♀️marry me this is so good

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Warnings: smut (obvi) shigaraki is a perv degradation a little I think #peg shiggy 2021 fingering for Shig 😌 humiliation??? Idk what to put man request says it all

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🌸 I have an irl on here rn because we both simp for crusty men, and she’s probably lowkey scared of me. I was drunk on having social interaction for the first time forever and was like, “omg, I write for them. I have Tumblr 🤪” Listen, I told you I would do anything for him, and I fucking meant it, ok? And he’s a little pervert, so they're kinda gross (indirectly making me have gross kinks too ig ☹️) Plus, I warned you about his piss kink, that should've been a good indicator to the rest of these 🙄 , Anyways anon has sent me THE BEST SCENARIOS OMG. I have read a lot of Shigaraki fics, BUT THESE ARE SO ORIGINAL IM SO HAPPY. There's one, in particular, I'm excited to write because it's just so cute, omg. 🌸

It was the fifth time this week. You were out on another mission, and Tomura was half-naked in your room on the verge of passing out from how many times he had cum into various articles of your clothing. It started off as just your panties. Perverted but not insane. As time went on, it only got worse. The panties weren’t good enough. He started putting one of your shirts over his face as he got off, and that worked...for a while. His next fix was to steal some of your perfume, but it wasn't good enough.

He felt disgusting the first time he got off in your room. He felt like he'd crossed a line (not that he hadn’t already), but it was the best orgasm of his life. What's done is done, so he might as well take advantage of the rest of your room. He was pretty comfortable now, face pressed into your pillow, inhaling your scent as his body spasmed for the last time. He was utterly spent.

And now, for the worst part, being in your room surrounded by your stuff, smelling your perfume, but still being all alone. It wasn't like Shigaraki had a crush on you or anything. Him having a crush on y/n? Unheard of. The rest of the girls in the league were like family to him. You two just weren't there yet, even though it had been five months, and he blushes whenever you talk to him. So what if he wants to punch Dabi whenever he looks at you? He wasn't in love with you. God damn it, he was just horny. That was it. That was the extent of his feelings, and they would go away.

They didn't go away, but more of your stuff sure did. It was becoming more common for clothing in your room to go missing only to end up clean and folded in the proper drawer. It was weird, but someone was doing most of your laundry for you. It wasn't Dabi taking your stuff. He could get his dick wet whenever he wanted. The other guys preached “don’t lewd y/n” and tried to fight Dabi when he put his hand on your thigh. Toga would steal your shirts but definitely not your underwear. If she did steal your clothing, she’d post a mirror pic and tag you in it.

So that left your boss. Tomura Shigaraki. You thought he hated you. He got all quiet and distant when you talked to him. Was he nervous? He glared at you and Dabi. Or was it just Dabi? Maybe the little creep did like you. He was kinda cute. His messy hair looked so soft, his eyes lit up when he won his games, Shigaraki had this little smile when he was watching the league sit together, and he had discarded father almost completely. But he was a creep, and you definitely didn't have a crush on him. Definitely not.

But part of you didn't want to tell him to stop. It took a while to cook up a plan, but it was foolproof when you came up with one. You found stole the money to invest in some hidden cameras. By now, you were starting to accept that you might like him just a little. But in a sad puppy kind of way. You didn't actually have a crush on him. Nope, not at all.

And it was kind of mean that he was making you do all this work while he got to jerk off in your bed. You'd come back with cuts, scrapes, bruises, and even a broken bone one time, just for him to totally ignore you. He had spent all day ruining your clothes and wouldn't even look at you.

Your behavior had changed towards Tomura, though, and he had definitely noticed. You were acting the same way he was. You were always blushing when you talked to him. You sat next to him while he played games, but it's "just because you're bored." Maybe you were starting to like him back. He had come to terms with his not-so-little crush on you. This didn't stop him from acting like a perv but still.

The cameras had been up for a while, and honestly, watching those videos back was way better than watching porn. Shigaraki looked so sweet and desperate. The way he laid in your bed afterward, holding your pillow, made your heartache for him. He just looked so lonely. You decided it was time to confront him.

"I'm going out for a couple days, guys!" you called, walking out with a backpack on your shoulder.

"I'll miss you, dollface," Dabi called back, blowing a kiss as you laughed at him.

The glare Shigaraki gave him could have dusted him right then and there. You stayed at a cheap motel for a while, watching the cameras. It was pretty nice to finally have some quiet. It didn't take long for Shigaraki to wander into your room with a raging hard-on. You took your time getting home, knowing he'd be there for at least a few hours. You glanced at your phone once in a while, catching two of Shigaraki’s orgasms. You’d hear a strangled cry and see his mouth wide open, eyes squeezed shut, and back arching. He’d coat his chest and your underwear in hot cum. You started to walk faster. Most of the league was asleep as you used your levitation quirk to float silently up the stairs. You opened the door.

“Who knew you were such a perv, Shiggy. All this time, I thought you hated me, but it looks like someone has a little crush on me, ” you said sweetly.

He looked like a deer in headlights, eyes wide as his body froze. A soft whimper left him as his face turned an angry shade of red that matched the head of his cock.

“N-no please, I'm sorry y/n I-i just didn't um ill leave. I'm so sorry, ” he muttered.

He got up, but you pushed him back on the bed.

“Not yet, Shiggy. I have something to show you, ” you said in a singsong voice.

You sat next to him, slinging your left arm around his shoulders. You pulled up the live feed.

“Aww, look at how cute we look right now, Shig, ” you teased.

His face told you that he was terrified.

“Y-you didn’t, ” he tried to fool himself.

“Oh, I did, ” you whispered in his ear.

You heard him sniffle. You slid the bar at the bottom of the screen back to show him what he was doing mere minutes ago.

“No, you can't, ” he choked as tears fell from his eyes, “please don’t show anyone y/n. Please I c-cant. I'm sorry, just don’t show anyone, ” he sobbed, “please don't. I’ll never talk to you again if you want I’ll do anything just don't show anyone, ” he cried.

“Anything?” you questioned.

“Anything, ” he nodded, still crying.

“Well, first of all, ” you said, “you can start by taking me out on a date, ”

He nearly choked as his eyes widened.

“What?” he whispered, wiping his eyes and nose.

“I said that you’re going to take me out on a date, and please use a tissue, ” you said.

He nodded and cleaned up his face the rest of the way.

“And second, you can take off your shirt and bend over the bed with your legs spread, ” you whispered in his ear, pressing a kiss just below it.

He looked confused for a second until his eyes widened, and he did as he was told.

“Now, don't play dumb with me. I know you’ll like this. I've seen you try and finger yourself before, but you did a shit job, and I promise this will be even better, ” you smiled, ruffling Tomura's hair.

He was getting more comfortable with you now, giving a nervous smile and humming when you touched his hair.

You walked back with everything you needed, only to sigh disappointedly, “oh Shiggy, that's not nearly wide enough. I know you can do better than that. Spread your legs more,”

He nodded, eager to please, and nearly did the splits. You giggled and smacked his butt. He jumped, causing you to laugh again.

“You’re so precious. It's a real shame I'm about to turn you into a slutty mess, ” you cooed.

He felt two slimy fingers press against his hole, and he shuddered. He tried to relax and let you press into him. It didn't take very long to get him moaning, bucking against your fingers. Two became three, and three became four before you decided he was ready. You were looking forward to eating him out, but this was supposed to be a punishment. You lined him up, rubbing the head against his hole that was still clenching around nothing. You pushed the entire thing inside of him as he screamed.

You scoffed, “do you know how many people you just woke up? Do you want the whole league to know you're getting pegged as punishment for being a disgusting, perverted slut? You want them to know that I'm fucking your ass? Huh? Do you? Cause I'll bend you over the fucking bar and show them who you submit to, ”

You started thrusting at a brutal pace. Tomura pushed his face into the pillow only for you to levitate him so he couldn't do anything to stop all the sounds coming out of his mouth. You were looking forward to all the looks you'd get as you smirked, and he struggled to sit next to you. You managed to go even harder.

“You’re not sitting or walking this week, Shiggy, ” you cooed.

“No, ” he choked out, “n-no call me Tomura p-please, ” he moaned.

“Tomura, ” you whispered in his ear, “pretty name for a pretty boy, ”

You reached around and twisted his nipple, causing him to cry out. Tomura only got louder as you reached around and grabbed his balls another hand-squeezed his tip between two fingers and pinched gently before jerking him instead. He was losing it now, tongue hanging out, and eyes rolled back. Little screams were ripped from him, and he jerked around.

“Y/n ‘m gonna, ‘m gonna cum, ” Tomura slurred.

“You gonna cum for me, Tomu? Go on, do it, ” you encouraged.

He cried out, his body going rigid as he shot cum out of his cock. He was gasping and panting as you let him flop down on the bed and pulled out.

“C-can you help me back to my room, ” he whispered, looking sad.

“No, ” you said as he frowned, eyes watering again, “because you're staying with me tonight. Get in bed, ”

He blushed and crawled into the corner. You yanked him closer, taking over as the big spoon.

“Goodnight, Tomura, ” you said. Kissing his back and shoulders, you rubbed his stomach and chest, “you're so pretty, baby. I forgive you. It’s obvious you’ve never had a crush on a girl before, and I think you learned your lesson, ” you said, rubbing his sore ass.

He nodded, “I'm sorry, I just didn't know what to do, ” he mumbled.

“I know, sweetie, ” you whispered, “I know. Was what we did ok? Did you like it?”

He nodded, “I liked it, ” he whispered.

“Do you need anything, ” you asked.

He shook his head, “just tired, ”

“Alright, baby, just get some sleep, love, ” you said.

He nodded as you both found an absurd amount of comfort in being so close to each other. You slept like a baby. You woke up to him gazing at you lovingly, pushing a piece of hair behind your ear.

He kissed your forehead, “I hope you know you're never getting rid of me, ” he smiled.

He kissed you, “y’know I'm kind of disappointed you didn't kiss me last night, ” he pouted.

“Mmm, I was too busy fucking you, sorry sweetie, ” you said, kissing him again.

“You enjoyed your ‘punishment’ a little too much, but having to go downstairs should be punishment enough, ” you grinned.

He groaned, “please don't make me. Let me stay in my room forever y/n, ”

“No, can do Tomu, you need breakfast, ” you said.

You walked downstairs, sitting at the bar and eating your breakfast. No one else was up yet, or so you thought until you heard footsteps coming down the stairs.

“You're not dead?” Dabi asked, completely dumbfounded.

“No dumbfuck, I'm not dead. Why the hell would I be dead?” he snapped.

“I dunno maybe cause you were screaming from y/n’s room all nigh- oh no. Oh god I think I'm gonna be sick, ” he fake gagged.

All you did was laugh at him.

“You two are disgusting, y’know that?” he said.

“We know, ” you smiled eating the rest of your breakfast.

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redheadedpineapple · 3 years

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hiiii can i request a hc where the haikyuu characters comfort a s/o that feels insecure about being fat?? and like theyre sporty and take care of themselves but people still assume that theyre lazy and dont take care of themselves??? :(( with bokuto, akaashi and sugawara pls. you dont have to do it if its too much tho, also thank you so much for your headcanons they make me really happy and i lowkey wanna be your friend 👉👈 🤧💕💖

Haikyuu bois comforting insecure!Reader

YES I LOVE THIS SO MUCH AA also you’re too sweet please be my friend ><

Haikyuu bois comforting insecure!Reader Bokuto Koutarou, Akaashi Keiji, Sugawara Koushi GN!Reader

──────〔Bokuto Koutarou〕──────

is super oblivious to your insecurities at first

like, he just wouldn’t understand how someone as pretty as you could be insecure!

precious boy thinks surely no one could think ill of you

so when he sees you lightly hugging yourself and wearing loose clothing, he’s confused

he thinks maybe you’re just feeling ill or something, so he’ll take care of you and double and triple check you’re feeling a-ok

like,,, he genuinely thinks you look so stunning

he might not be the articulate type to lay it on smooth and tell you, but sometimes it’s refreshing to not have to worry about whether or not he’s being truthful

when you crack and ask him if he’s okay with you “looking like that” he picks you up and twirls you around

“What do you mean? Why wouldn’t I be happy my partner looks like an absolute model?” He’s genuinely confused, and the sincerity of his tone is more than you could ever ask.

“I just… I mean, everyone else thinks I’m… fat and lazy… That I don’t do anything for you...” You mumble the last bits, ashamed of yourself because they’re right, aren’t they?

He tilts his head like a lost pup. “They must be stupid. Or blind. Actually, probably both,” he decides confidently, nodding to himself. “No lazy person could go on adventures with me or make me those yummy homemade bentos!”

“You think so?”

“Absolutely!”

He pulls you into his chest and hugs you tight. When it comes to your next date night, he makes you feel like you’re the most beautiful person in the world, which probably plays into the fact he definitely thinks you are! He cuddles you and kisses you all over while watching a bunch of your favourite movies.

He makes sure to reassure you in new ways a bunch how much he loves you! He tries to make you homemade sweets (which fail a bit, but it leads to you two baking together!) and will make those cool, unfolding boxes with a bunch of things written on the sides that he loves about you. Bo loves you to death for everything you are, and would scream it out to the world if he could!

──────〔Akaashi Keiji〕──────

he’s keen, he knows what others say

when he catches you eating smaller portions or hiding yourself in crowds, he understands exactly why

he likely won’t confront you directly unless it turns into something major

instead, he’ll start leaving little notes or little gifts around to make you feel better about yourself

start taking initiative in some things he would usually feel too shy for

will cuddle you outta nowhere, kisses you on your shoulders and hands and forehead and neck

while he’s reading or doing something independent, he’ll go out of his way to be near you or in the same room while he does it

holds your hands outta nowhere too, rubs your hand with his thumb

if he can, he’ll braid and play with your hair

starts speaking his mind more on how you look and all that

when you ask him about the whispers and how other people think, he’ll kiss you on the forehead and reassure you like a got damb speecher, articulate as fuhck

“Darling, you’re very healthy and do so much good for your body. It doesn’t matter how you look. Even if you do look absolutely stunning.” He pulls you into a hug and hums, content.

“Thanks baby… You really think so?”

“Of course. People who say that are probably skinny through pure luck despite how much junk food they shove in their face and how much time they spend on their asses watching reality TV shows for genuine entertainment.”

You can’t help but chuckle.

“There’s that smile I love to see.”

He holds you close when you two go out, and if you feel sad again or poorly about yourself, he makes sure to remind you of how much you’ve grown and achieved, telling you how proud he is of you and how much he loves you for who you are and how you look. He always makes sure to avoid any words or topics he knows will make you doubt yourself, relishing in the smiles you give him.

──────〔Sugawara Koushi〕──────

0 tolerance for people who slander you,,,

like are they blind??? stupid?? braindead?? LOOK AT YOU look at how PRETTY you are!

will speak his mind whenever he thinks you look nice, which is multiple times a day

when you look at him like ??? he just goes “oh, you looked like a movie character just then, like really crazily pretty just cleaning the dishes.”

he 100% buys you clothes that show your form, and he’ll tell you how much he just wants to see you

when you bring up how you feel about others’ murmurings and whatnot, he proteccs you like a true boyfie

will shower you in compliments and lovingly snuggle you in every way possible until you understand how beautiful your body is

When you talk to him about your insecurities, he’s devastated you have to feel like that, but he thanks you for trusting him and promises he’s not going to hurt you. Instead, he brushes his thumb over your cheek and listens to you and talks when there’s breaks.

“Sweetheart, they don’t know anything about us. It’s us two, not us two and also 10 other weirdos who can’t mind their own business. And between you and I, I love how you look. Who cares if you have fat on your tummy and arms and hips? It’s cute and I love getting to cuddle your soft body. And it’s not like you’re unhealthy. You take care of yourself, and I’m so proud of you for that.”

Him acknowledging it and loving you anyway has you melting into him, and you can’t help but want to kiss him and hold him tight forever.

“I love you Koushi, I’m so lucky to have you.”

And he’ll scold you because he’s the lucky one to be with someone like you, and he won’t let you forget it in the way he kisses you softly and murmurs sweet nothings half asleep and holds you close to sway back and forth, clumsily dancing to a playlist he made just for you.

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dreamii-yume · 3 years

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Yume has watched the next Episode Update~! Here’s a few things that made me scream ٩( ᐛ )و

~SPOILERS AHEAD FOR 40-56~

• NRC and RSA were on the same fucking island???

• Epel’s dialect is so THICC that I barely understood a thing he said (Deuce was my reaction basically) But I enjoyed it and laughed my ass off nonetheless

• Epel picking a fight with Vil at the entrance ceremony lol he was just like any other NRC student too huh

• Damn there are really some petty people who are salty about wizards huh...

• Epel finally using his cuteness magic lol

• Deuce’s...Unique Magic...?

• Vil’s voice when he was scolding Epel and Deuce aaaaa dad-

• Ace’s “...Ha?” and that pure confusion God, I love his voice actor so much.

• SEEING KALIM AGAIN OH MY GOD-

• They’re going to dance in their uniform?? Lol i feel like its been so long since we’ve seen them in it

• Finally, a longer version of “Absolutely Beautiful” Yume has rewatched the previous episodes too many times that she already memorized the first part of Vil’s lines lol and Epel’s “Itsukaaa~ Ringo no you naaa~”

• They finally feel like a proper male idol group lol

• Crowley is soo excited...for a whole completely different reason lol

• TSUNOTAROU FINALLY GETTING INVITED TO SOMETHING AAAA- A DATE PLS DISNEY-

• I still can’t believe Takoyaki exists in this world wtf-

• Leona actually working

• Ruggie calling us and Grim “Little Kittens from Ramshackle Dorm” boi-

• Trey saying that he’ll go away next year like the other 4th years made me sad- pls daddy I-

• When can we meet a 4th year student

• Lol they actually went and visit the gargoyle research club

• Haaa it’s so refreshing hearing the twins again i cant believe ill ever say that in my life Trey is...Umigane-kun?

• Little Goldfish is so on-guard when it comes to Floyd lol i mean who isn’t

• FINALLY HEARING AND SEEING SILVER AND SEBEK AGAIN AFTER LIKE...2 EPISODES LOL

• SEBEK CONFIRMED TO BE...HALF-HUMAN???

• The...The Seven Dwarfs are going to be here...THREE OF THEM ARE ALREADY HERE. THEY’RE SO CUTE.

• THIS MEANS NEIGE IS NEARBY.

• Man...NRC students are so mean lol it’s probably the build up salt of losing to RSA for a hundred years yikes-

• We finally have a good look at the RSA uniform

• CHENYA. ITS BEEN SO LONG.

• yume lowkey hoping that he was wearing a proper rsa attire but oh well-

• Lilia describing how glad he is to have someone finally invite Malleus (*´꒳`*) Imagine Tsunotarou purely smiling when he came home that day, holding the ticket we gave him aaaa-

• Oh god the chaos of walking around with one of the most feared wizard of the school- I’m already sweating-

• Heartslabyul Senpais slowly realizing who our horned friend from Diasomnia is lol

• THE EPISODE FEELS SO SHORT AAAA- BUT GOOD FOOD THOUGH-

• WAIT. Things are turning for the better though? Vil and Epel are finally understanding each other’s views and everything is all-good, everyone’s determined?

• WHAT WILL TRIGGER AN OVERBLOT THEN??? WILL THERE EVEN BE AN OVERBLOT??? WHO WOULD IT BE???

• W-WILL...WILL THEY LOSE AND- OH GOD pls no.

AND THAT’S IT! ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ I finished my assignment on time lol Thank you for the support by the way, Darlings! (*≧∀≦*) Yume really appreciated it! ♥︎

NOW...What to do with our new-found information, huh~? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) and oh god lilia’s birthday campaign-

#twisted wonderland

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allpromarlo · 2 years

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Ocs 👁👁 ? I would like to Hear them

OOOOOOOOOHHHHH BABY BUCKLE UP THIS BOUTTA BE A L O N G ONE

i'm only gonna get into the nba ocs that i have and not the like 27 other ones because issa BIG ass universe and i don't have the time nor space to talk about all of them in detail LMAO

the first one that i had was youngjae park (i created him during my kpop phase and i've gotten so used to the name that i'm not even gonna change it no more) who i had as a 7'1" athletic tANK on the blazers. kinda like nurk just a lot better and with a VERY weird homoerotic friendship with dame but that's beside the point LOL. he's the dude who went into isolation for four months and came back as super saiyan god mode korean jesus and averaged a quintuple double (dont question it.) and swept every award he was eligible for. he was drafted 16th overall in 2014 (at the age of 16 oops) by the blazers, won roty in 2015, dpoy in 2016 (my apologies kawhi) then had a terrible season in 2017 because of injures, still made the wcf with a mediocre blazers squad and missed the finals because of ONE (1) failed block on steph . then everybody was like TRADE THIS BUM I WANT HIM OFF MY TEAM but it was all sadeness when he went missing smh (hid in a small town in korea for dramatic effect because he's all about that camp shit) came back in 2018 opening night against the bulls (who dIDNT TRADE DROSE IN THIS UNIVERSE FAWK YALL) and from then on it was AAAAALLL downwards for the rest of the league. 2018 and 2019 were seasons in HELL for the warriors especially 2018 because he 112 pieced them on christmas in their own arena. threepeatdled with the blazers, got injured AGAIN in 2021 but dw he's coming for that revenge season in 2022. on his personality i'd say he walks the line between annoying and funny and does it in an exceptionally bisexual way because i said so . also he's very dramatic and probably mentally ill because a normal functioning person doesn't hibernate for almost half a damn year and then come back as a god

second one was actually youngjae's lil brother hyunjae (korean names are hard and there wasn't any other options man don't come for me) who is a whole foot shorter than his bro and plays as starting point on the spurs. he's a lot like ai in his play style but has a 3 pt shot that could beat stephs ass and was mvp in 2021. i also sacrificed giannis' championship season for him (oops sorry bout that) so him and the rest of the spurs (including keldon for better judgement) could be champions and san antonio has a legacy outside of tim duncan. ANYWAYS he doesn't have a dramatic ass backstory like youngjae but he did have a maniacal growth spurt in like two years (5'0 -> 6'1) and went from missing the playoffs without even making the play in to being a fourth seed champion in the league. he's a lot calmer and lowkey than his brother (because that bitch is BRASH but alas) and big men like pushing him around until they get the shit beaten outta them by cole grant (he's up soon). all in all he's very nice and also kinda annoying to the point that giannis intentionally pushed him in the finals lol but he has a good heart. 10/10 would recommend

next i have *checks notes* uuuuhhhh everett curtis (...) who's a 7'4" kinda lanky power forward that played in the 2000s. i always thought ai could've come further than he did if he had one other piece and everett is EXACTLY that piece except rett was actually drafted a year before ai did, 3rd overall in 1995. his career went pretty much normal, won an mvp in 00 (fuck u shaq) and a chip in 01 but after that was stuck on a somehwat mediocre sixers team outside of ai cause you know i had to do it to em. there was a whole lotta drama in the 2007 off season about him or ai potentially getting traded (kinda like the ben simmons shiii right now but more weighted) but in the end it resolved in a whole lotta nothing and rett actually re-entered his prime (?) in 2008 and won the chip with ai & melo on the team (melo has a whole autogenerated 2k career in this au but i don't have the time nor energy to get into that) anyways yeah rett eventually retired in 2015 after 20 years of the sixers (two years before ben simmons was drafted hooo lord he said i'ma save myself) and at age 39 and rn he's just kinda existing not doing a lot but he did write a book where he DOESN'T put his best teammate down relentlessly (feel yaself called scottie). as for his personality he's very laid back & calm and him and ai had a very...special bond, you may interpret that however you want LMFAO. overall a very chill dood and i wish him no harm even though i'll probably have to do it to him sorry bro

AAAAAAAAAND LAST UP the newest addition to the squad, cole grant. he was actually based off of this one dude my brother made in 2k (because his own character in mycareer was overpowered as FUCK and he wanted to make a realistic person) who was a 7'2" center with a giannis ass build who can't shoot a 3 for his life (that's what we have hyunjae for) and i put him on the spurs because hyunjae needs a friend. my dude was drafted into the nba at 23 in 2020 after a row of events that include him serving in the army because he didn't wanna pay for college but then realizing oh hell nah this ain't it and leaving. alas he's jacked as fuck now and has knocked a couple players out already (including jokic TWICE because he thought he could do sumn against his favorite little gremlin boy hyunjae) but when they leave his friends and him alone he's pretty chill. he's still underdeveloped because i just made him up like five days ago so if you want i can give more information on him later when i've developed him a lil further LOL. hwat i do know doe is that he and hyunjae have this typical "energetic small dude who's ready to fuck everything up" and "usually laid back big dude who can and will rock your shit if you hurt his friend" typa dynamic. is very funny 2 me indeed

sooooOOO that was it. that's the nba ocs that i have . again it's not all of my ocs because issa lOT of people but like i also have wnba, f1 and music ocs (the musicians root FAR back and are the start - the foundation of this entire universe of madness and unicorns) and i also altered reality to fit my agenda because reality can be whatever i want and it's GOING to be whatever i want

also thanks for asking me about them so now i can post about them on here because i've been Waiting to do that for a long time ily

#whew this was a long one #i got this ask at crack of the evening 11 pm and i was like bro i'm not answering that now so here it is at the ass crack of dawn 7 am #7 30 am actually but you get me #i hope my explanation helped get into them a bit even if some of it is unintelligible and i use parentheses too often LMAO #i get off track when i write about my dudes they're very dear to me #i love them a lot #don't be mean to them (or me for my terrible naming choices)#I'M NOT GOOD WITH THAT SHIT ALRIGHT #forgive me #asks #buzzbeeutiful #very interesting very nice ask thank u i hope you have a great day #or night or whatever it is for you rn idk about american times #writing #ocs #nba #just for Caution #rose writes

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laraplisetski · 3 years

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Dating Shigeru Yahaba

A/n: This was really fun to write but honestly I just love to write for Seijoh anyways. Next is Shinji Watari and ill try to complete it today but if I dont ill post it tommorow. Please excuse me for the mistakes. broskies send in requests as well, I have none:-(

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Tags: @imthatchishiyasimp, @kekozume

Have this image of Yahaba pining Kyotani to the wall.

Okay so tbh Yahaba did not notice you at first even though you guys were in the same class.

But then one day he walked in his classroom in the morning and he did a double take on what he saw.

You, the person who he paid no mind to, was giving Kyotani, the brash and lowkey violent one, a lecture for shouting too loud and making a ruckus.

What

And not only was Kyotani not arguing with you, he actually listened and nodded at you.

Then proceeded to shut up and sit on his seat.

(I'm sorry for adding Kyotani into everything he's just my favorite boy)

And Yahaba was just staring at you with his mouth open.

After that incident he wanted to get to know you but he couldn't bring up the courage to talk to you

Well until Kyotani just blurted out the fact that Yahaba’s infatuated with you... in front of you.

So yeah he died right there

The end

Jk jk

But like from that onwards you tried to talk to talk with him and eventually you two became friends.

And then you two started dating cause Yahaba was cute.

Anyways onto your first date.

After a lot of stuttering and well blushy Yahaba he had successfully asked you out on a date.

Yay!

So he took you to a fair that was in town for this season (idk how fairs work I'm sorry.)

A cute cheesy ass date

He took you to a game in which you have to shoot one of the balloons and make it pop to get a stuffed you.

And tried to show off his shooting skills

Keyword ‘tried’

He failed miserably and you got a teddy bear for him instead.

Also also you guys went to the Ferris wheel at least 5 times.

Cause like Yahaba’s a fucking sucker for these cheesy ass rides and he like wanted to kiss you at like the top but then he realized it doesn't stop unless you pay them.

So after 4 failed attempts you noticed what he was trying to do and he was going to fail at kissing you again but you like lowkey initiated it.

After that he looks so happy and proud of himself that you think that it's worth it.

Also the bumper cars.

Unlike the Ferris wheel he's totally mean at the bumper cars.

Like he will keep bumping into you, but if you guys are sitting in the same car.

You guys strategically bump people and like idk you guys are just mean.

He bought you snacks after all the rides and you two held hands while blushing.

At the end Iwaizumi came to pick you up cause, team dad and drove you home.

Yahaba gave you a big ass hug when leaving you and then he blushed and yeeted himself into a car.

Okay so Yahaba’s a pretty chill guy honestly and like he likes to do whatever his s/o wants.

Unless it's like doing horror stuff he can't handle that shit.

Also I feel like unlike the others he would be very shy for asking for cuddles.

Like I imagine him just making hand signs towards you like how children do when they want something.

I will mention later but this guy likes to brag about you.

Other than that he’ll be very shy to kiss you in public and in front of his friends.

Also when you guys hold hands this man just blushes so much that you have to ask him if he wants to go to a doctor or not.

Worry not he gets fine later.

And he also loves his s/o coming to practice.

His s/o’s friends with all the second years, especially Kyotani.

She's like the one person other than Iwaizumi who can scold him and he'll listen.

Also Yahaba found out that you beat him at basketball which is why he listens to you and honestly Yahaba’s very proud of you.

You teased Yahaba after he pinned Kyotani to the wall in that one match and you'll never let him live it down.

(I’m such a fucking Kyotani stan I swear)

Also Yahaba simps over you.

He admires everything about you.

He likes your hair and if you don't have hair be ready for Yahaba just like running the palm of his hand over your scalp and just patting it.

He does this when you have hair as well and the first time it happens you're like wtf.

But it's weirdly not weird.

Everyone also knows that this boy is whipped for you because every time he looks at you his heart just goes doki doki and his eyes really show it.

He also has a tendency to brag about his s/o liek how Yamaguchi did about Tsuki’s height the first time they were introduced.

He talks about you all the time and he buys like little snacks for you to eat all day and little trinkets to make you happy.

At every anniversary he buys you a little teddy bear charm as a reminder of the teddy bear you got him.

He still has it and he likes to keep it next to his bed and like routinely washes it as well.

Just like taking maximum care of it.

Yahaba’s not rich but like whenever he has enough money he buys you something like a rose or takes you out to get ice cream.

Also hes a fucking cliché guy and craves cliché romantic scenes and unlike someone he actually succeeds in catching you when youre falling like 6/10 times and all the other times he just falls with you.

When he goes to play practice matches in different prefectures he misses you very much and he promises to play better for you when he leaves.

It's very cheesy and half the time it sounds like he's going to die lmao.

But anyways Yahaba is very good boyfriend/10

Would very much recommend.

#hq yahaba #yahaba #yahaba shigeru #yahaba x reader #yahaba prompt #yahaba headcanons #yahaba dating hc #x reader #xreader #x gender neutral reader #haikyuu!!#haikyū!!#Haikyuu #haikyu x reader #haikyuu prompts #haikyuu headcanons #anyways #bye😃

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polygamyff · 4 years

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My heart goes out to Maurice, it hurts my heart so much. If it isn’t his disease then it’s him catching a viral infection, my poor baby has a fever now which then the doctor had to come out and see him because sickle cell and fever is not good but the tablets he’s having causes his immune system to weaken with it so now he has another tablet alongside the tablet he has now, it’s been a mess. I have been so worried about him, but he is pulling through, he does not want to see a single person. Shawn comes every day, he refuses. It’s been a week and it upsets me because he doesn’t really eat, he doesn’t touch his food that much. Reign doesn’t see him because of the fever, and me I have been sleeping in a different room but I do go to see him, he seems better than he has previous days but let’s just say god is really teaching him a lesson but it’s hurting me to see. Hearing the elevator ping, turning around, resting against the kitchen unit looking to see who it is. Well it is someone with heels on anyways, can hear those clicking away “oh” Ally jumped holding her chest, what does she even want rolling her ass up here like she own the place. Just staring at her, she slowly walked closer to the kitchen “is Maurice here?” she asked, she looked at me and then Reign and then let out a giggle “sorry, you both pulling the same face. She is really your daughter” looking to the side of me, Reign is sat in her booster seat on the kitchen unit. Reign looked up at me, my smile grew and so did hers “you mean mugging like me?” she is my love “uhm yeah, he is in the room but is he expecting you or what?” I feel like Maurice’ security questioning people “well he called me, he said he needed to speak to me, or I wouldn’t have come. I have to go to Tokyo with his dad, so I just made time to come here, for him” nodding my head “that is fine, he is in his room. I think he is actually expecting you to come too” I pointed down the hall “thanks” she walked off, I don’t like the bitch but she really does go out of her way for him, she does all of his work. His dad is going Tokyo on his behalf with Ally, he can’t even be bothered to do any work if we being real, I feel he is getting depressed and I hate it, I hate being in separate rooms but I don’t want to be ill for Reign or him “what are we like Reign, apparently we both mean mugging her. We out here protecting your daddy” she has really been my rock; I love her so much.

Furrowing my eyebrows seeing a withheld number calling me, let me pick up anyways “hello?” I answered, “hi it’s King’s County hospital, it’s Melanie?” letting out an oh “oh yeah, sorry. I just didn’t see no number, so I was not sure who, hope you’re well?” I hope it’s good news “it’s ok, well I have some good news for you as well as maybe not so good news for you, we were very happy with you. We are amazed how young you are, we spoke on that didn’t we. Well we want to offer you the position of being the associate specialist surgeon, working alongside the consultant, how do you feel about this?” I don’t want to cheer right now “wow, I honestly thought I wasn’t that good at interviews, I am shocked. Wow, thank you!” I giggled, I am so happy “we contacted the hospital in California, they had nothing but praise for you” my face dropped, I never said anything to them “we are most happy to have you here, we are happy to have you part time, in terms of shifts but we do need you to be on call during the week. As we have someone on call during the weekend, that is the bad news, about the on-call situation, what do you think to that?” least I will get weekends off, weekdays working maybe on-call “I am fine with that, that is brilliant, oh my god. I am emotional right now but thank you! When do I exactly start?” flicking the tear that fell “next month, is that ok for you? We will sort out the paperwork then, we have some things we need to send out to you, where do we send them? Is the Anaheim address fine?” I am stuck here, I won’t be home “uhm no, do you know where Davenport hotel is? The address?” I didn’t want to really expose that who I am with “oh yes I do, I can send it there?” I laughed nervously “yes, could you put it to the attention of Maurice Davenport, that is the only way I know I will get it?” the phone line went silent “oh, uhm. But it’s for you?” she questioned “I know, that is how it will get to me in his suite. I am living here until I get an actual home” she let out a big oh “right, ok. You’re living with the Maurice Davenport? Oh ok, ok. I see, ok. Sure. I will get that sent to you; I should have known. I thought I seen your face before, well I will get that sent to you. See you soon” this is what I didn’t want but it’s happened “it’s ok, see you soon. Bye” disconnecting the “yess!!!!” I shouted “baby girl, I got the job. Mommy will be working again; she will be saving lives again! I am so happy” clapping my hands, Reign is not amused at all “bye Robyn!” I stopped mid-clap seeing Ally “oh yeah, bye” she probably thinks I am crazy now.

I made Maurice some soup, I try with him everyday and the bear minimum I am giving him now is soup “is Reign asleep?” he asked “she is, now I am all yours” placing the tray on his lap “we going to try and eat yes? I did this all from scratch, it’s chicken soup for you. Then you can have your medication and sleep” walking to the corner and grabbing the chair “it does smell nice” I grinned at him “anything for you, what did she want anyways? I mean Ally” sitting down “just work-related stuff, she is doing me so proud. She said I look like shit” Maurice looked over at me laughing “you do, she is right. Your beard, hair, your face. You just won’t eat, but you’re smiling still. Makes me happy, so eat now” I have to sit here and watch him, like a child “I am feeling better, the fever that is. You can sleep with me again?” poking my lips out “you miss me in bed huh?” he nodded his head as he poked his lips out, and bought the spoon up to his lips “you do look better, than you did. I will sleep in bed with you but if you are lying and I catch it. I won’t be happy” he shook his head “I’m not” he placed the spoon back as he started to sob out “hey, stop it. Maurice don’t cry” getting up from the chair “every day you are crying now, stop it” wrapping my arms around his head, bringing his head close to my chest “stop, baby it will get better. Don’t worry, I will always be here for you” I don’t’ like him crying, he does this every day.

Lowkey I am not wanting to get ill so if he is not well and he is lying, I will be annoyed but I did check his temperature and it has gone down so I think all should be well “feeling sleepy? I got something to tell you before you sleep” Maurice’ eyes are half closed; he is about ready to go to sleep. He cleared his throat “I am awake yeah, I am listening” I grinned at him, he is so cute “well” crawling onto the bed “I got a phone call from, guess who?” shuffling closer to him “mhmm your mom?” shaking my head “nope, why did I come New York for? The real reason before this?” getting under the covers “me?” shaking my head “this is not working, baby you got memory loss too?” Maurice snorted laughing “probably, what is it?” he is so useless “Kings County hospital, baby they gave me the job. I got the job!” I yelped out “oh wow, really? I am so happy for you Bonita, you got it. So, you going to be saving people again?” nodding my head “I will be saving lives again, I start next month so I need to prepare but the terms are. I must be on-call on weekdays, I am part time, but I get weekends off, perfect right? I am not sure with the on-call part, may be difficult with Reign but I will work it out, won’t we?” Maurice nodded his head “we will, somehow. I am very happy for you; I mean I don’t sound it but I am. I’m proud of you, what you have become. I am lucky” I cooed out “thank you, I know you are proud of me” pressing a kiss to his shoulder “how are you feeling anyways?” his hair and beard are a overgrown mess, pushing down his beard with the back of my hand “tired, I am glad I’m not needing the injections, tablets are kicking in but I just feel like it’s one thing to another. You are looking after me like a baby, it’s not right. You know?” I shushed “It’s ok, the doctor said that the feeling in your dick should be back soon. You really been unwell, and it doesn’t help. Let me say it, it doesn’t help you don’t eat. Is it the tablets? What is it? You have lost so much weight, you look like the times you were on drugs” he shook his head “I want to sleep now, hug me. I missed you” smiling at him lightly “fine” kissing his cheek.

Side eyeing Maurice, there is a reason why I slept in a different room also. Since his fever, and all the issues. He fucking snores, and it’s really fucking bad. It’s like four in the morning and I am awake, it’s ok for him but for me no. I groaned out shuffling out of bed, I am going to another room and sleeping in peace. I huffed out walking around the bed, I am annoyed but he’s still my baby. Walking over to him, placing my index finger and middle fingers just under his neck at the side of his windpipe, let me check his pulse if he is ok. I must check this; I just don’t want to leave the bed, but I can’t stand the snoring. Trust him to stop snoring while I am doing this “mhmm perfect” I said to myself, let me go and take my ass to the other bedroom. Dragging open the door, I abruptly stopped walking after seeing rose petals on the floor “huh” looking at a sleeping Maurice and then the floor, I had to double take because he is in bed with me and then this “mhmm” slowly creeping out of the bedroom, ok this is creepy because he has been asleep and he couldn’t have done this. Following the rose petals slowly, do I have a secret admirer that has broke in and done this, I kid but this is cute and I am walking way too slow because I am lowkey scared. Peaking around the corner “oh wow” looking up at the ceiling, there is a dozen red and white balloons and then Robyn balloons in the corner, one of the balloons has the remote hanging from it. Walking into the room “oh my god” is this really mine, the rows upon rows of bags and shoes to match “oh my god” placing my hand over mouth “I love bags, oh my god!” placing my hands over my mouth “this is amazing” I am so emotional, walking backwards fully trying to take this in and gasped, my head hitting the remote.

I don’t even want to sit on the couch because the petals spelling out Happy Valentines day, I don’t want it but I am going to do it, sitting down on the couch. A sticky note to tell me the button to press too “Ok then” I said to myself sitting back, I am actually shook about the bags like what the hell, and the matching fucking heels, good grief this has turned me on so much. Pressing the button indicating on the remote, the TV switched on and then Michael Jackson – Remember the Time started playing “oh my” placing my hand over my mouth, he really pulled up the video of us at the wedding, like I have never seen this. I saw the pictures but the video, it actually caught us talking, I wasn’t even interested, not even a lie because he was so miserable “oh no” those Facebook messages, I thought he was calling me fat in Spanish “not the selfie, of course he did” shaking my head laughing “I hate him” I cooed out, we finally met in Texas, by mistake that is and I still didn’t understand but the Maurice I met in Texas I liked him straight off, we actually took group pictures. I didn’t think he would ever keep those things; he has.

Placing my hand over my chest, it’s really got me in my feelings “and then Reign came along, I looked a right mess there” look how tiny she was, I was going through it with Maurice but we was such happy parents “did I do good?” Maurice said, I gasped getting up from the couch and rushing to him “I love it” hugging him, he’s got me in my feelings “I love it so much, oh my god. Sorry” he’s out here on one foot, and I am attacking him like this “come, let’s sit. I love it, when did you do this? What the hell? And you’re awake?” I swear he was asleep “well I woke up when your fingers were on my neck, I was waiting for you to wake up, I had time on my hands Robyn” sitting down on the couch as he sat down next to me, he sighed out “yeah so, I have been messaging Ally, I contacted Kellen, and also Leon. I just gathered everything and did it. Ally came earlier to just finalize, she really helped with me all. She also set it out, that was it. So while we slept, she did it because I couldn’t and now she has gone to Tokyo. But I am happy you like it, I thought about it. Trying to be romantic” grabbing his face, turning his face to me and pressing a kiss to his lips “thank you, I love it. Thank you so much, my pootie face, I love you so much” wrapping my arms around his neck “did you see my card?” I stopped attacking him and moving back “no, where?” he moved to the side a little “it’s in the beige Hermes bag, I think anyways” I am so in love with the fact he got me different colour Hermes bags but the same style “is this really all mines, I can use this on nights out” picking up the little bag “oh no that is Reign’ I have to show her love too” I snorted laughing “I think not, it’s mine. Thank you for that” grabbing the card “no, you let her have it. Sit next to me and open the card” he patted the couch; I will not give her anything.

Sitting next to Maurice on the couch “it better be cute” ripping open the envelope “also give Ally a raise or something, she didn’t need to do this at all for you. That is sweet” pulling out the card “noooo, Maurice! You didn’t!” I laughed out holding the card close to my chest “do you like it?” I can’t stop laughing “nooo, how!?” looking back at the card front cover, he has my surgeon picture they have at California “I really hate you, did Leon give you this? I actually look younger here, god. My cheeks, I hate him so much. Oh my god!” looking at Maurice trying to be angry with him “like look at me in this” holding the card up “you look beautiful, look at your smile. It’s so professional, you do look younger there” opening the card “you’re so annoying, seriously” I huffed out, like he really did this to me “read it, read it aloud too” side eyeing him, looking down at the card “oh god, I hate you so much. With your stupid bilingual ass. You really wrote half of this in Spanish. You want me to read it?” looking up at him, he nodded his head “fine” clearing my throat “Para Robyn mi guap?” looking up at him “guapa” he said correcting me “te, no I can’t do it. You read it” passing him the card “you need to learn; I don’t need the card. I know what I put. Para Robyn, mi guapa. Te quiero mucho. Desearía que te casaras conmigo? And I put, to Robyn my pretty baby, I love you so much, I wish you would marry me. Now you can read the rest” I can’t stop smiling, I swear I love him so much. He rested his arm over my lap “It is not your conversation that keeps me entertained but rather the way you look at me, it’s all the little things you do that make me stop and stare. The way you smile at me, that soft smile you give me to show me it’s ok” looking up at him as I stopped reading and we both giggled “you’re so cute Maurice” taking in a deep breath “with what you have done for me, I could never repay you. When I am looking into your eyes, I see all the love you have for me. I see in your eyes you care for me a lot. And you will do whatever it takes to have me in your life. These are the reasons you have seen me cry every night when you come to me” my voice broke, placing the card down looking up at him “don’t cry” he said “you made me cry, you know how much I love you. I will do anything for you” flicking the tear away “stop” I laughed as he tried to wipe my tears away “you want me to read the rest, I will do it” he took the card from me “I am so proud to call you my wife, you have given me a new lease of life and I thank you for that, you have given me a beautiful daughter. I am proud of what you have become, a surgeon. I tell everyone about it, whenever I get the chance, I am super duper proud of you Robyn, I hope I made your Valentines Day. Love Maurice” he closed the card slowly and looked over at me, I just remained with my hands over my mouth. Moving my hands back “I love it” I strained out “I love you so much, thank you” snatching the card from out of his hand and hugged him “you really shocked me, I didn’t expect it at all. I didn’t want to pester you about it either, but you been planning without me even knowing. I feel bad now” moving back “about what?” sitting back “I gave Ally such evil looks, I was looking like bitch leave, and she was helping you do this. Make sure you give her an extra bonus, or something. She does too much. I am so happy” he has really made my day.

I am so freaking happy, I am skipping with Maurice’ gifts in hand “you all happy now huh, I bet if I didn’t you would be bullying me with that stale soup” I gasped stopping midway “my stale what? Say that again?” Maurice laughed “I am joking, come. I want to see what you got me” he is such an ass, he called my soup stale when it’s not, I made it with love “well it’s hard buying for man that has everything, you know that right?” Maurice shook his head “don’t ever say that, it’s different, because it’s from you” placing the bag on the couch as I sat down “you like the bag, it’s all cute with bears” Maurice was so quick to start digging into the bag “aww you got me a bear with a heart on it, aww Bonita, I will put this on my desk when go back. I like this, she will give better hugs. I will name her little miss boo thang” he is so silly “thank god it’s not some foreign word, she is lucky” Maurice got out the next thing “I didn’t think your gifts would be this small? Wow!” side eyeing him, I hate it because it’s like am I doing enough. Look at the bags compared to this “what is this? Robyn, this looks expensive” peaking over the bag “it’s your ring, I mean as seeing as you want us to get married on my birthday. I got you the ring. I mean I should have given it you then but I want you to wear it now so bitches know you’re taken” Maurice looks amazed “Robyn, this looks very expensive, how much was it” he got it out of the box “you shouldn’t ask that, I got it for you ok?” he doesn’t need to know “this looks in the region of three or even four grand, please tell you didn’t? I mean it’s beautiful but still” I shrugged “I also get paid a lot, so there is that. Put it on, I mean it should fit fine. I stole one of your other rings” Maurice grinned “you do it for me” he held the ring out “fine” grabbing the ring, he held out his left hand “you’re such a diva, also I need to do your hand nails” I am always fussing “what if I am not well for your birthday?” placing the ring on his finger “then we wait, but I don’t want you to push yourself either. I also got you cufflinks, I know you like wearing them. They both have R and R on them in diamond, real diamonds. Open the card, but I don’t think it’s as nice as yours. You outdid me” that is annoying “not really, I like this ring and also you accepted to marry me on your birthday, that has really made my day” I love that he is smiling so much “come on boo thang, let’s read this card she got me” he placed the bear on his lap “I am kind of glad your snoring woke me, even though I hated you so much for it” he pulled out the card laughing “I’m sorry, it will get better. Aww look boo thang, your parents on the card. It’s momma bear and papa bear, I like this. It’s cute, I mean the surgeon picture is the best” he opened the card, I need to destroy that picture, I hate Leon so much “to my little pootie” Maurice looked over at me “you forever calling me that, how am I pootie? It’s just not logical” I giggled “you mad because I’m right, you forever pouting or being all moody, just read it” he is always stopping “ok, so to my little pootie. You have turned my life upside down, literally have done that and I write this with a smile on my face. You have loved me at my lowest, supported me when I needed it. When I look at the downfalls it doesn’t amount to the good times we have had, you have swept me off my feet and have never asked for nothing back. The only thing you want is my love, you are the most caring man and father I know. To see our daughter, get so happy to hear your voice, to know she will have a first love that is all I can ask. Thank you, Maurice,” Maurice chuckled “well she liked it, she put a ring on it” he held his hand up “thank you baby, I love it. And I do it because I love you” hugging Maurice.

I did have like some real sexy lingerie to wear but I need to keep that for next time, I am not about to upset him if it don’t happen even though he has not had the injections in a few days because he’s off it but I don’t want to upset him, I am not doing that today “the video is the sweetest thing, can I watch it again. Is it mine?” he nodded his head “all for you baby” Maurice has skinny legs anyways, but they are extra skinny “you want to go back to bed? You must be tired; I am so happy though. Thank you, thank you for waking up for me” I know he is tired “yeah, my doctor is coming today. Guess what though, I can put some weight on my foot now. Good right?” nodding my head “that is very good baby, come” getting up from the couch, he is wearing his robe and boxers, I just want him to start eating right again “do you like the beard?” he knows damn well I don’t, watching him get up. He stood up and he did put weight on his foot without flinching “it’s getting better, thank you god!” looking down at his body and then back up to his face, it does make me sad. When he’s having these crises, they take so long to come out of it and I hate it “you want to hold me while we walk slowly? Forget the stick” walking to the side of him, Maurice placed his arm around me “Just as long as you stand, stand by me So darling, darling, stand by me” Maurice sang, he is so cute.

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rjlupxns · 6 years

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TASK 003: MODERN & MUGGLE

FAMILY + BACKGROUND

so clearly, your boy is not a werewolf here. like, you don’t know how badly i wanted to just say fuck it, who’s to say werewolves aren’t real in the modern world. mostly because i love werewolves. but! you’ll be happy to know i overcame the desire and remus didn’t grow up turning a little furry once a month

still, growing up was a strained sort of thing. remus’ father worked for the government, and was always a prominent figure in advocating for prison reform. he brought about campaigns and votes that ended up changing the way the system was run in a lot of places, for a lot of instances, and as a result didn’t make a lot of friends in the more criminal part of the population.

one of these not - friends was our buddy fenrir, who was just like, you know, your average violent criminal with a passion for vengeance. lyall’s petitioning didn’t do anything to change fenrir’s sentence, but it did make his last few years in the system a hell that he blamed mr. lupin for, and mr. lupin for alone. when he did get out, remus was five, and remus was the victim in a hit and run accident that literally everyone knew who to blame for it.

fenrir was caught, eventually, but the accident had some irreparable consequences for remus. certain parts of both legs had shattered bones that never really healed right ( he was growing like a weed at five, was the thing. that plus the long healing process and the numerous procedures he had to undergo meant that his legs were just fucked for good. )

remus wasn’t happy about it, of course, because it meant that he never got to play around and just have the stupid fun other kids did. but he literally never knew any other existence --- the chronic pain and periodical need to use a cane were just part of life for him. but his father never let it go. he felt at fault for what happened to remus, but instead of taking that and using it to create a bond with his son and help him find a path to better recovery, he dove into his work even more. the two grew to have a really strained relationship, because even years after remus had accepted his condition as the way Life Was, his dad looked at him and saw his own failings.

SCHOOL + OCCUPATION

his dad could get fucked, though, because remus was mostly chill with life. did he hate the chronic pain and the assholes who asked insensitive comments about his cane and wonky way of walking? hell yeah, he did. but remus was always a very ‘it is what it is’ kind of guy, even in canon; a little on the cynical side of realism, but mostly at peace with it. he wasn’t angry, he wasn’t sad. he liked his life

physical therapy had been a part of his life since the accident; again, he was chill with it. but at around age eleven his PT suggested he take up swimming and he took to it like a fish to water ... if you don’t mind the pun. the same insensitive assholes tended to question how someone who needed a cane to walk could swim as well as he did, but remus loved the peace of the water and the rare harmony it brought to his body.

he did it all through school, and continued to do it during university. he’s currently still a student and is studying to become a paramedic. the degree is taking a little while because remus is a stubborn ass who insists on doing everything for himself. the nature of his relationship with his dad made him decide to do school all on his own --- so he splits his time between classes, and the pool, and his job at the research library on campus and his job at a local veterinary clinic.

because!! remus loves animals. he’s a total animal rights activist; his twitter is a minefield of anti - peta posts and pictures of the animals he works with. he actually wanted to be a vet for the longest time, growing up, but he’s Tired. made it to university and realized he didn’t have the energy for veterinary school like he’d always planned, so ... paramedic. helping people is the next best thing to helping animals.

his dad doesn’t think he should / can become a paramedic with his legs and chronic pain, to which remus ( again ) tells his dad to fuck off about. he knows it’ll be really hard on him, and that he’ll need to take more care of his body during and after shifts than his peers, but he really feels drawn to the career and knows he can do good if people just let him.

PERSONAL + SOCIAL

remus was a small time viner. and by that i mean he was probably just like, chill, as he was with all things and quietly faded out of making vines like three months before vine ended. didn’t go on to really make any more internet content after, though since literally all of his social media is just a platform for pictures of animals people stuck around.

given his sense of humor he’d probably have made stuff like drew gooden? and then just quietly moved back to posting dog photos on twitter with the occasional meme - captioned instagram selfie. he has a public snapchat, also mostly for posting animal videos too, but when he gets together with the marauders or goes to parties, he snaps the whole thing with bone dry commentary that just gets more lowkey scathing the drunker he gets. they’re hilarious, take my word.

just to reiterate but remus Loves animals a whole lot okay and would probably be chill with going out because he broke for a bird and got rear ended into a tree.

he’s the biggest stoner to ever stone. he does get a kick out of smoking recreationally, but he also uses it a lot to help with his chronic pain. it’s pretty half and half, to be honest. he’s down to have a good time at a party and can handle alcohol pretty well, but he doesn’t like getting crossed and would 10/10 prefer to smoke over drink when he’s just chilling.

hates the idea of smoking cigarettes though, and is pretty adamant about it.

he still, of course, considers the other marauders his best friends. they met at a party several years back but honestly he can’t remember when, because it was an instant sort of click. he’s still pretty sociable and generically likeable --- in canon that was a way to cope with the sort of fucked up way he grew up, and the same holds true here. he’s got a ton of different friend groups, from the people he swims with, to his coworkers at both the library and the vet hospital, to the others in the paramedic program. he likes people and likes that they like him in return, but would also love to just be around the marauders or animals.

as much as he posts about animals and animal rights, he posts a lot about lifting the stigma about talking and dealing with chronic illnesses is. loves publicly ripping into people who comment about his cane or any obvious signs of pain.

he has two cats and a dog and he would Die for them and expects those around him to do the same should the time call for it.

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Episode 12 | “Beauty got problems and Brawn got problems”- Autumn

wow. just wow. i sure did just do that and im so proud. i proved to myself im a deserving winner tonight. i will fight to the death to get my allies to the end because lets be real i sure am not making it KJSDFLASFLA.

i was going to start this confessional out in a celebratory tone but YOU KNOW WHAT I STILL AM BECAUSE WE JUST DID THAT. I typically like to be my own biggest hater and drag myself in my confessionals a lot just as a way to clock myself and try to see the other perspective, but BITCH I KNOW I SNAPPED THIS ROUND AND IF YOU DONT THINK I DID LEMME HIT YOU WITH SOME FACTS; FACT: I CORRECTLY USED MY ADVANTAGE AND WON IMMUNITY DURING WHAT WAS A PERTINENT ROUND https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: UPON FINDING OUT I HAD IMMUNITY I KNOW DEVON WAS COMING TO ME TRYING TO KEEP ME UNDER HIS WING, OH YEAH ADAM, JUST VOTE IN THE MINORITY, AND GO ALONG WITH BEING AT THE BOTTOM, AND IT WAS M E DECIDING I DIDNT WANT TO DO THAT AND SPILLING THE TEA THAT LED TO GETTING AN OUTCOME I WANTED https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: it was ME who also went to autumn/ali and started planting seeds of doubt in their minds about jake and it's turning out it's helped me solidify my position with them better https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif FACT: It's also still me who's aligned with 2 or 3, if you include jake, of the biggest targets left in the game and i already have augusto and amir sliding in my pms trying to play pity me boo hoo hoo like gorl plea im not buying it but yall wanna keep singing kumbaya? well ill sing the encore and be twice as fake as yall (i DO love them both as people just as a disclaimer but from a game perspective? they're beasts!) https://media.tenor.com/images/6c2f88af1bd5a24853849df11a566947/tenor.gif ok, boasting over, time to hop off cloud nine and get back to reality because FACT: we all just made a big move, so the target on all of us, including myself, just went up, FACT: i could easily be delusional and maybe i had NOTHING to do with this blindside SJDFA but lemme bask in my fake glory anyway itll be funny to read after at least... FACT: The war has truly only just begun, that was a great victory but if me/ali/autumn are really in it like we're saying, we may still have another idol on our side, but we're gonna need more than that, it's kinda funny we're one brain, one brawn, one beauty and i think that speaks volumes i truly love these gals and think this is a good game route for me. some people might think it's foolish of me to align with the big threats and go deep with them, but who's to say im not worthy of being in their company? if it wasnt for my social connection with devon he wouldve never told me the plan, and then autumn is the smart one so she kept us composed and together, and then ali was the brawn he had the idol and got the job done. So im gonna just try and stick with this for now, hopefully they feel the same and dont try to oust me right away because then ill look like a whole fool and a half OOP, and ill plaster my fake smiles on for everyone else and kiki it up we can haha hehe all day long but i wont hesitate to vote them out because trust and believe.

Last Day 30 was my last day playing TS: Guyana, so this is a nice feeling to still be here. But now the fun kicks in. Jakey helped orchestrate the Devon blindside with the Ali idol, so I guess we're even. And now, assuming Jakey is still actually with me, which I think he is, I think we can run this game for the longrun. He has access to Ali, Autumn, and Adam and I have access to the three Beauties. I truly see this being beneficial for the both of us in terms of keeping one another safe and allowing us to get to the final six unharmed. Final six is important for me. I'm not sure if I've admitted this in an earlier confessional or not, but I have the Legacy Advantage (thank you Jordan Pines!) that I can use at six. So I just need to survive two more tribals. If I can do that, I have a seat in the final five, probably two more rounds to survive before getting to FTC, and then I have a shot. I really need to start building a resume if I want to win this game, but I think I have a chance. I really need to get Ali and Autumn out in these next three rounds. If I can do that, I see myself being able to make the end with the likes of Jakey, Kendall, Augusto, and maybe Adam (Amir will become a threat at five or six I think) and then I have at least a shot at the win, but I really need to keep my head down, keep the social game going, and make a move or two here.

so. i think i have some explaining to do JKLASDFA huh? i was on calls for the like three hours before tribal so i didn't really confess at all.. in fact i think in my last confessional i said that we were voting 4-3-3 which did not happen at all so i think i need to fill in some gaps huh? so... i have known since like 11pm EST yesterday that i was getting votes tonight. devon told, adam told me and then told autumn, but then autumn didn't want to tell me until later in the day which i honestly do think was fair so we weren't spiralling for hours. we were all sus of jake all day (and lowkey i still am?)... like i dont know when his energy because so shady, plus devon may have told adam that jake was in on the plan? plus he kept saying stuff like the vote has gone "back to kendall" and kept pushing me not to play the idol... something does not add up right with that. anyway so that demonic group of five voted for me, and lied SO much to make me leave with my idol? like why not just make me paranoid, leak the vote to adam or jake then vote autumn get me to waste an idol and then autumn leaves? now that would've been a good move hello?! but that group does not know how to blindside, idols have sabotaged their plans twice and amir/augusto should consider themselves lucky that they are still in the game. also kendall fought me at tribal because i was being cocky... but she literally tried to blindside me into leaving with an idol hello?! i appreciate that she thought she was going, but she is zero to too much way too quick. augusto can literally suck my ass our call was him and his bad excuse for jury management, like can he at least be like amir and pretend to want to work with me? anyway so moving forwards, i wanna vote out kendall or augusto this round. amir can stick around because he at least pretends to wanna work with me plus he is a threat too. idek i just want all the fake people in this tribe gone. i will not vote for adam, autumn or jake. i will vote for any of the others, im not fussed about the order in which i do so. im living on borrowed time in this game and im going to make it count

Sorry this is two parts I thought my friend was gonna die lol but she's fine. Remember kids, there's no dick worth dying over and a straight guy rejecting you is a blessing in disguise these days (considering the alternatives).

Now on with the show hahaha

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thots on final 8: augusto: would cut me to win, literal love of my life, super kind and empathetic and genuinely good person, i think his social game is fire and i think he has a way with people, and downplays how smart and cutthroat he really is constantly, but i love the kid so much ali: the brit has to die ali again: okay im kidding i like him a lot but tbh hes a smart fucking guy, i think hes super cool and and also a badass with that idol play, hes a force but he has to go soon autumn: lana stan, coolest girl around, queen of the social game, queen of likability, queen of controlling rounds and letting others take the hit, a damn threat, she could win this game tj: sweetheart, we need each other in the game rn, i need need need to secure his loyalty adam: hes kinda crazy but he has a good heart, kinda just following ali and autumn rn, not gonna win in the end kendall: i have a soft spot for this crackhead, she deserves the world, probably cant win at the end but im happy i met her, shes on my side and a vote i can use moving forward jakey: love him to death would die 4 him, would beat me in the end and at immunities also the fact that kendall augusto and i are all still here is so fucking funny, like bitch how kejwnfkewjnfkejnwfkjnewkfnewk cockroaches

So numbers on surface Jakey - adam - autumn - Ali Kendall - Amir - Augusto - tj Round 5: Adam - Ali - autumn Amir - kendall - Augusto In the middle: jakey - tj So I just have to work on them

when i tell you ive been hooting and hollering what the fuck is going on in the survivor on this day, who the hell would've thought id win my third individual immunity in one season, gorl that is probably the most 2020 thing to happen in this game. although two of them pretty much were dumb luck afdjks either that or maybe im doing a little better than i think i truly dont know, and the touchy subjects clocked me on THAT as; what was it they said, 'the person they forget is in the game' and also 'least aware of their place' okay well yes im AWARE ive BEEN lost and asking for help this whole game gorl! But that's great, that's how i want people to view me, because uh... i just won 3 of these things now and that alone is reason to target me, granted im doing my best to play it up like dont worry! im just a dumb dumb! and clearly theyre eating that up like crazy, because it's both just the truth but also strategy if i keep playing it up, so watch out meryl, adam's in town! also LOVE that i knew i was gonna get most likely to have the idol i dont know how many times i have to say it IM INNOCENT AND BEING FRAMED FOR A FOOL and ooh dont even get me started on all the other tea it spilled, i actually got the LEAST of the bad things, i guess i kinda exposed myself because i made most of my chops at amir, augusto, and tj oop, so they probably didnt like that but they really left me no choice strategically, screw with me, i screw back, simple as that. As far as the vote too ummm.....it's been quiet tonight on my end so hope that doesnt make me a fool because this time last vote was a disaster, at this point im still thinking i need to stick with ali and autumn because this vote is so pertinent, after this a solid 4 can take it, or get as far as we can because im always keeping my options open OOP, but for the most part i do want to stay true to my good judys for now, but i know someone between amir/augusto/kendall has an idol and if they were smart theyd use it this round, so i need to convince the others of this because im sure its gonna happen since they dont think ali has one anymore hopefully but who knows, if it were up to me we'd vote augusto or tj this vote. I think amir has the idol and i think he's going to play it for himself this round or i could see augusto playing it for him, so if i can make anyone belive that very realistic scenario, we can get one of the ones theyd least expect just to ensure us the numbers for next round, but what do i know, they just forget im in the game anyway! so hopefully tomorrow someone tries to give me the tea and we get a plan together or else i spilled all the tea last round for nothing which is worst case scenerio

yesterday was a lot. I went an apology tour to everyone involved in my blindside and honestly it was annoying. the fact that augusto basically got me to apologise to him on our call when he blindsided me was irritating, like he just let me sit there and take fault when the point of the call was for him to take accountability. talking to him is like talking to 2018 me, he has such social ability, but he just takes zero accountability and is just so infuriatingly wishy-washy. he is all of my worst attributes as a player rolled into one. i also... almost won immunity? which is crazy, but I just found yesterday and the way immunity played out so frustrating, but I've spoken about it enough in my host chat enough. just know i feel robbed, slighted and if I get rocked out this round when i should have immunity. i will throw a fuss again SAJDKFLAS. anyway so this vote is gonna be a mess. tj and autumn now have a blood feud, Kendall and jake came to a head this round. so that's four people whose name i hopefully am not their number #1 target, plus i don't think adam is targetting me? but this vote is going to be a mess, because it very very easily could be 4-4, where there is an idol on both sides of the trench. i have a gut feeling amir and his sock puppets are going to vote autumn. it makes sense, tj wants her gone and the beauties need him reeled in. so i think im going to have to idol autumn, but that is risky because if the 4 vote jake... im going to rocks, and if they vote me, im reliant on jake going to rocks. but i just wanna send all these people backing, especially augusto. amir i'm trying to shake him that me and him have to stick together, but i also could vote for him. i literally just want to make F7 and to vote someone who just voted me out. that is literally all i want. if i go home i will be literally devastated

So like… there’s the dream and there’s the harsh reality which is something this round really talk me. The dream is obviously me winning, making all these big moves, and doing THAT. However, my reality? Could very well be that people don’t see me as a winner at all and it makes me a little disappointed but I gotta prove them all wrong. The vote last round being Ali was honestly mostly my doing and I’m proud of that. My ideal boot order is Autumn/Ali then Jakey then Autumn/Ali and that is GOING to happen because I’m putting that into the universe. When it comes to Autumn and Ali, I would rather Ali go but I think the safest bet while still having a target leave would be Autumn. In a way too, I do know Amir wants Ali out moreso alongside Jakey but I wanna separate my game from Amir so yeah. Also Adam calling me a fake ass bitch even tho my drunk ass was telling him I liked him was a gag… but oh well.. Nothing grinds my gears more than people thinking I’m not being genuine with how I feel towards them but if that’s what he thinks, maybe that’s what he’ll get idk… i feel petty and mad for some reason over it… BUT ANYWAY, I just want to survive this vote. I hope Kendall doesn’t go but she also said she wants me to win over Amir so yay?

If I die, I just wanna say I regret nothing and I have full confidence that the right person will win this season. So not TJ, Augusto, or Amir lmaaaaooo. Amir entering the two time winner chat??? Over my dead fucking body. If there's one thing Imma do it's poison a jury

Ali or Autumn... who shall we vote? Stay tuned!

Is Jess really Canadian... stay tuned!

god. today is gonna be another nailbiter and i want to confess first. so the plan is to idol autumn and vote out kendall, which sucks because i do now like kendall. i just think its the safest way of avoiding them playing an idol i guess, i don't even know. i just am sick of fighting in this game every single round me and autumn have had to fight to make it past. the fact jake is throwing a fit in my pms becuase im not idoling him is infuriating because... i'd love to idol myself? like? anyway im over it. if i go home, i hope tj can finally stop his blind fixation on autumn and i, that augusto can actually be accountable for one entire thing, amir can stop his pity party and show awareness for his threat level and that kendall... well actually kendall is fine. i just feel like im a mum trying to get all my kids to fit in a minivan and to put their seatbelts on, like can they get it together.

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I don’t think anyone is ready for this round or at least what’ll come of it... I’m expecting an explosion or a mess given Jakey thinks he’s staying, TJ has been lied to, and hopefully Autumn or Adam leave next... its all a mess. If Jakey goes, I’m planning a 2-2-2 split between Autumn and Adam where we maybe get Autumn out but Adam leaving doesn’t hurt either.

me with biggest villian, biggest backstabber, thinks they are running the game, is running the game, and is gonna win at the end http://prntscr.com/ss4h5q

literally god demolished and brutalized worse than anyone in this game tonight in that touchy subjects yet I’m also the one comforting like half the tribe over their answers even tho I ADKWNWQJN WAS ATTACKT LIKE this cast literally thinks im a psychopath fjebwfjenkn but im not gonna play victim over my superlatives i just have to use this target on my back strategically

I want destruction AHHHHHHHHHHhhHhHhHhHhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Okay so, they think me or Augusto have the idol, so they can vote kendall, to ensure our idol isn’t played and that me and Augusto and tj are forced into rocks, and im just like trying to get everyone to stop replying to ali cuz hes smart and he will psychoanalyze and figure out who to play the idol on and like he has to play it on autumn and not himself so pls pls pls kkjnkjenfs let this work

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braywashed · 7 years

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anyway at some point i should probably ramble about my trip to boston?? so i’m gonna go ahead and do that??

like right off the bat let me just say the worst [art was actually GETTING to mass. my train was supposed to leave at 9:55am, and around 7:50 i got a text saying it was delayed until 1:03pm. we arrived around noon, and gradually my anxiety about going on the trip turned into anxiety of NOT getting on the trip as the board kept delaying... and delaying... and delaying...

....and then it started pouring out. crazy wind. murmurs the train lost signal and all contact with the station. after i finally got on (at 3:00pm), my aunt texted me that all that? yeah. that was a tornado warning. wat.

i got a pair of seats to myself for most of trip. fought with my wifi. listened to the crazy lady rant about dope ruining america a few rows back. mostly enjoyed the view and basked in the fact that i was not, shockingly, puking my stomach lining out. until we got to utica, and a shit ton of people got on.

my seat buddy then became an almost cute 18 year old dude with dreads and a lower half trash polka sleeve who was more interested in his earbuds than anything so i was fine with this. until we were about to MA and a few exchanged word and lazy lounging around turned into him doing THING guys think is cute where they lowkey rub your skin with the side of their finger against my thigh. so i ended up sitting up and the next stop he moved his shit to another seat. YEAH BYE.

along the way we kept having to stop bc signal problems and track construction and letting other trains pass. needless to say the train that was supposed to get in at like 8pm got in at at like 2:30am.

it was miserable, and raining. rachel got us an uber and i sat in the back seat next to some chick wh was super pretty and dressed up and here i was, a goblin, smelling like train restoom, in an ill fitting deadpool hoodie and yoga pants.

when we got to her place she made me some ramen (WITH THE RANDOM EGG AND EVERYTHING) that was good but spicy af and my stomach noped out and tbh over a week later my stomach is just now letting me eat properly again. tho i’m blaming this more on the issues with my abdomen acting up prior to leaving than the actual trip (tho, my skin having pores the size of actual craters i am blaming on the trip). i think the one thing we ate that DIDN’T act up in my body was the awful chicken wings we got from Wings Over that were about half fat and ridiculously undercooked. it figures.

ANYWAY. her futon is huge. it’s sad that i have more leg room on a futon than an actual mattress, but whatever. and there was construction going on across the street. fun fact: i came home to construction going on on MY street. so this was inescapable from the jump.

day 1 i got cute as possible and we hopped a bus and a train. my stomach was less forgiving of the motion here, but i lived. i saw Ron, the T-Rex. and we went to the isabella gardner museum where she lied and said i was a student. i was then asked a bunch of questions about being a student, none of which i was prepared for, and i’m pretty sure the only reason they let me in was because my zip code was accurate. that place is massive and pretty gorgeous from head to toe and i can’t fathom ever being that fucking rich.

then we went to get some food at a nifty little bar and restaurant . the name is escaping me rn but i stole a coaster. again, the food did not agree with me, and i could do a review on boston restrooms at this point. but it was great.

NINJA SEX PARTY! the house of blues wasn’t as bad as reviews made it sound, and aside from the mess that was the merch table they we kind of cheated like assholes due to some pretty honest confusion, was a good time. the line was MASSIVE. we got there an hour early and it was already around the corner and hard to miss. by the time we got towards the front of the building, it was around the block. we met a couple younger dudes from maine and a significantly more awkward gentleman more our age to keep us entertained. there were some street musicians. some asshole staff. you know.

all i really have to say about the concert itself was it was probably the best live music show of any kind i’ve ever been to and definitely the most enjoyable environment (huge tall dude who kept, somehow, ending up directly in front of me aside). everyone sounded amazing live, even if we were RIGHT under the speaker stage left and now permanently have bass vibrations embedded in our bones.

day two we hit up the museum of fine arts, which is massive and we didn’t see all of (and i paid full price for, thank you very much) and then grabbed a pizza and those awful wings and intended to chill out with some boy meets world. but the disks wouldn’t play. so we settled on mst3k. and let me tell you, i have not nearly cried from laughter in something as much as ‘cry wilderness’ nearly made me fucking cry.

day three we headed to south station to meet probes and hung out. there were a bunch of food trucks outside that were kinda neat. we didn’t think that girl would ever fucking find us, but she did. everything was OKAY. NO NEED TO PANIC. NO FIVE HOUR DELAYS. jess gives massive hugs, for the record.

we hit up a spot for lunch where they served be like, the biggest plate of pasta and bread i have ever witnessed in my life. i felt wasteful only eating barely half of it. then we found our way to the trains and the aquarium just in time for some sweet penguin education and eventually a lecture on their huge ass fucking tank that takes up the entire center of the room with a 90 year old sea turtle in it and some sharks and string rays. it was pretty cool, yo. i got a stuffed squid in the gift shop, even tho we did not see any giant squids (0/10 do not recommend) and outside jess gave me a present even though i fucking told everyone no presents (RAChEL ALSO GAVE ME NAIL POLISH AND A WRISTBAND WTF). it was a new day candy bar from fye. and yes, pop rocks n chocolate is surprisingly pleasant.

our PLAN was to go see hitmans bodyguard. but everyone showing it before like 7 was only showing 3d, and we wanted to get her on a bus home by 9. haha what fucking suckers @ us, because the bus didn’t leave until like 10. so we got shitty milkshakes, hit up the comic shop, and wandered around harvard for a bit until it got dark. and then were stuck at south station, wondering if she was going to be stuck in MA forever. reflecting on two quiet nerds and one extrovert being a not great possible combination of three people. but i still had a good time.

day 4 we did, in fact, see hitmans bodyguard and while it was mostly forgettable summer action lulz, i do ship the hell out of samuel l jackson and salma hayek now. so that’s cool. it was a fun time. hit up the park after, and a b&n to get schooled on peak writing stephen king. then we went to starbucks and i HAD STARBUCKS FOR THE FIRST TIME?? it was the double choc ship frap thing. it’s good. i’m mad about it.

we headed back, did laundry, ordered food. i ought her dream daddy, which was a waste of money, but i do take pride in just knowing she’s stuck having technically played a portion of dream daddy now. it’s her own fault for asking about it, it really is. mostly we watched more mst3k, some grumps shit, some random shit, some postmodern jukebox, had a drink. just chilled. and the ‘oh... fuck... haha... i have to go home tomorrow’ feeling hit when i turned off the lights.

i was too bummed the next day for much of anything tbh. i get depressed after anything fun. i get depressed after wwe shows, lmao, so for the trip to already be over when it suddenly seemed like i just got there sucked. plus it only just then really hit me i was in a different part of the country, if that makes sense even if it was only one state over. it was a weird realization as someone who never travels to have.

the train home i wasn’t so lucky to be alone most of it. i ended up in an aisle seat with a college girl. we minded our own business. stuck directly under the AC that was way too cold. a woman and a fucking baby sitting the next row over the second any space cleared out. had a layover in albany where an old guy made me a shot of iced chocolate espresso which he had never been asked to make before, and truthfully, i’d never had before, but it was alright. i actually enjoyed the layover as some weird, space between spaces, time to reflect on my own in an unfamiliar place kind of thing.

we got in around midnight, my aunt picked me up. got home around one.

that was that.

i had a really good time. i’m sure it didn’t seem that way. i’m like that. but i did and i appreciated the opportunity and definitely appreciated rachel for letting me freeload on her futon and showing me around and making me ramen i felt guilty for not finishing.

the city was nice. i’m sure i was only seeing the nicer parts, mind you, but compared to rochester or buffalo it just felt wider, cleaner. idk. i didn’t HATE it, and as someone who hates being in cities for more than a couple hours, it wasn’t bad.

it was a great time away from the world and despite the stress of coming home to everything, and a room without molding on the door (which was, for the record, still locked), i did feel a lot better afterwards. i still do.

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Seventeen in Toronto Highlights (Long Post)

this is gonna be such a shit post im basically ranting bc i have a lot of seventeen feels rn (its gonna be long too)

the concert happened like 4 days ago and I’m still not over it

Okay so I live in new Brunswick so it was a 15 hour drive one way. We drove up the day before and drove home the day after.

It was tiring, but so worth it. One of the best experiences of my life(oh btw i went with a friend ^^)

(not relevant to the concert but we went to a cute Korean store called Sarah and Tom which had a MASSIVE collection of kpop albums so I bought Going Seventeen and a BTS album :) )

Alright so the concert was at a place called Massey Hall which is more like a theater than a concert stadium [lowkey looked like a place you would go to see a play or an opera or some shit]

it was a pretty small place so really no matter where you sat, you could see really well so any seat was a good seat

Me and my friend were center-balcony near the back so we had a very clear view of the stage (other than there was some tall dude in front of me so it was a bit difficult at times)

We arrived outside the venue at around 6:20 (concert started at 7) and the line to get in already went around a whole block. People were stopping to ask what was going on and apparently it made the Toronto news??

So we get in at around 6:40 and the venue is already more than half full and theyre just playing music videos and everyone was singing along

And when I say everyone was singing along i mean everyone

Honestly I only remember a few of the songs but I they played BoomBoom, Very Nice, Highlight, Healing, and Check In

I have never been happier in my entire life when every single damn person in the venue did Mingyu’s “WhhoAHHH YeaAAHHH’ part. Super. Fucking. Loud

Alright so let me tell you my dudes, It was the biggest adrenaline rush when all the lights went out and you could see the boys run out on stage in the dimness. My heart felt like it stopped.

The lights turn on and I hear Dokyum say “Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Diamond Edge” but honestly I wasnt even paying attention bc I was just so blown away

Literally my very first thought upon seeing them was “They’re not real” bc the very first person I looked at was Jeonghan and I thought he was so damn gorgeous he must be fake

He’s literal ethereal. I could go off about how good looking he is. Honestly the true visual of Svt (i swear hes not my bias)

So the very first stage was Pretty U and honestly I dont remember much bc i was too busy freaking out over the fact that I was actually there and they were actually here. I just remember everyone dancing along to Dokyums “Neoneoneoneo” part and all of us doing the “Yeppeuda” part

(they performed Beautiful right after and i really dont remember much of it other than the dance in the chorus [i have such a shit memory its mainly why im making this post before ill forget it all])

So after that they went straight into Adore U (which is my fav svt song although it probably isnt anymore after habits but ill talk about that in a bit)

Oh man if you thought I went off about Jeonghans visuals let me tell you about this mans vocals. They’re so sweet. Sweeter than honey. Jeonghans part in the chorus is my absolute favorite part of the song and it sounds 10000x better live. He just sings it so flawlessly while doing the dance and overall I was just so impressed??

Jihoon also sounded amazing but like let me just take a minute and say every single member sounded fucking perfect and flawless like if you aren’t stanning Seventeen then what are you doing

And the dances were so on point too. I didn’t notice any slip ups or anybody trippin or nothing. Like you’d think they’d show signs of fatigue or being tired bc they did two shows the few days before but they were all so hyped and gave their all in every stage and they genuinely looked like they were enjoying themselves

Anyways back to Adore U

Everyone in the crowd did the “Akkinda” part and I could see Soonyoung smiling so big bc of that like he was really happy bc of it

After Adore U finished they all lined up to do their intros and introduced themselves as a group and then did their individual intros

Most of them just did a casual “Hi I’m ___” but then you had the extra™️ members

Soonyoung got us all to chant something (im not sure what it was exactly I think it was ‘rock the beat’) and then he did his usual “What time is it??” “10 Hour 10 Minute” which honestly made my life i was hoping for him to do that (i love soonyoung sm honestly most of my favorite moments of the concert were bc of him)

Dokyum also did a thing where he got everyone to scream for him

All of their intros were great but none of them were as memorable as Jihoons for me

I know a lot of people were saying ‘He’s not that small in person’, but to me he was so small and cute and I just wanted to go and hug him bc hes so freaking adorable

So Jihoon’s kinda quiet and shy in general, we know that from variety shows and such but I saw it a lot in the concert. Like when other members were talking he just stood quietly with his hands folded and there was this one part where they all ran towards the edge of the stage and gave hearts and Jihoon like covered his face a bit and looked embarrassed

So anyways he does like this cute little “Hi guys” and I just fucking melted right there. I made an audible “awwwww” sound that my friend was like ???

I love Jihoon so much and I will forever see him as the cute and adorable little smol (boi got a voice tho holy shit)

So they talked a bit more after that about how they walked around Toronto a bit the day before and how they were impressed with the crowd dancing along to Pretty U and Mingyu taught us a little chant where they would say “Seventeen Carat” and we would go ‘clap clap Ehhhhh’ it was weird but cute

So they went straight into Still Lonely from there and I hate my brain for not remembering most of it bc its one of my favorite songs but I just remember Minghao doing Jun’s part in the last chorus and sounding amazing honestly i want an official 13 member version of that song

So after that was Very Nice which was indeed, very nice. Dancing on point. Dino and Vernons rap were amazing and the whole audience did the “Maja” part

Also dont remember much of that stage but I definitely remember the last part bc thats the part where my son, Chan, is in the front. 10/10

Okay so I have 2 favorite performances of the night. One of which was Swimming Fool. I am such a hoe for Performance unit (considering 2 of my biases are in it) so actually every performance of theirs was my fav but Swimming Fool tho.

That song is one of my favs and I had never seen the dance before so I was basically dying the whole time. Soonyoung’s little wiggle dance and the jumping up and down dance that Chan did. The whole dance was so cute tbh Ive been re-watching that video every day since. (if youve never seen the dance pls watch this. Not my video tho)

Alright imma talk about Soonyoung for a minute. This boi. Was so hyper the entire concert. He was doing his usual yelling during songs and was giggling a whole lot, I noticed. (He also dabbed like 20 times and i was like someone pls stop him)

(There was one part where he went and dabbed right in front of Jihoon and i laughed a little harder than i should have)

And I’m honestly so glad that Soonyoung was feeling great the whole time bc apparently at the Chicago(?) show he wasn’t able to perform bc he was sick so we were extremely blessed that all 13 members were well and healthy to perform for us so like thank u jesus for keeping them all safe

(I was lowkey worried about that a lot before the concert bc of when I heard Hyungwon was missing parts of the tour with MX so I was like “Lord pls let it be all 13″)

anywho so all the members went to change outfits and they played a vcr (dont remember what of tho i have such a shit memory)

So yall they did Mansae next and started out with the class chairs and Dokyum was the teacher at the blackboard it was rlly cute!! ^^ And towards the end they repeated the “MansaeMansae” part and got everyone to do the dance it was such a great time

So while the rest of the group was preparing for the next stage(i presume), Chan and Seungcheol came out, just the two of them, with a gopro and said it was the camera for “Going Seventeen” and were filming the crowd and interacting with us a bit. And then they had a dance battle (Which Dino clearly won Seungcheol didnt stand a chance against Michael Chanson)

So then everybody came out and did BoomBoom which was incredible (every stage was amazing i feel like i shouldnt have to say it) Most of the crowd even did the shirt thing which was really fun. Chan slayed his rap (i love my son)

So after that there was another vcr and the members changed outfits again

Vocal unit came out and sang We Gonna Make It Shine and boys let me say I have never fell in love with someone vocals so much before in my life. Like I’ve always loved Jihoon’s voice bc it was unique and its got a nasally tone to it and I love it, but hearing it in person made me love it 100x more

And for a while I actually thought Jihoon wasn’t singing?? Bc he just sounded so flawless, like exactly like the recording that I thought ‘maybe hes lip singing bc his throat is bad or something’ and I’m hitting myself now for even thinking that bc really Lee Jihoon is just the most amazing vocalist I’ve ever heard Boo Seungkwan who???

So yeah Vocal unit slayed even though I’ll always like the 2014 version of that song with Soonyoung better

As soon as that song ended they went straight into Don’t Listen and omg let me talk about visuals. The stage had this whole setup with a table with some fancy ass candles on it and there was a throne that Joshua was sitting in and the lighting was really eerie and I really don’t listen to that song much but im gonna listen to it every day from now on bc damn

HipHop unit had their turn next where they did some song which I had never heard of before called “On Haeng Il Chi” and it was dope then went into Check In and once again everyone did Mingyus “ohhhhhHHh yeahH” part (glorious I tell you)

Seungcheol was serving looks the whole time bc he was wearing this black suit set and he just looked so good the whole time. Honestly Seungcheol was such a tease the whole concert and i got a look at his thighs at one point and man he thicc

Vernon was also wearing this nice green shirt and I just really liked it for some reason and I wish I had taken more pictures and videos I hate myself for not doing that

AlrIGHT Performance Unit time!!! So leadin up to the concert I thought they were gonna perform “WHO” bc it was a bonus track and I just thought they would perform it for some reason so when they were all standing there ready for the song to start, the amount of confusion on my face when OMG came on… Wasn’t disappointed tho that performance was awesome

Still would like to see a performance of WHO tho I hope they’ll do that next time

And then they did Highlight and me and my friend even switched seats so I could get a better video of it bc I love that song so much. Also leading up to the concert I knew they were going to do this song but I wasn’t sure if they were going to do 13 member version or not but I’m glad it was just the 4 of them

Oh man okay I’m gonna talk about my bias, Chan, for a second. His stage presence in every song is seriously amazing. A main reason why hes my bias is bc im a huge fan of his dancing and his dance style(and he pretty cute) and seeing him perform live was incredible. it was almost overwhelming bc I couldnt believe someone this talented existed and I was watching them in their element

Like he put his all into the dance while still executing his raps and vocals perfectly. His voice actually does sound a bit different live, like its a bit higher than I expected but he was so on point the whole night why is he such an underrated member

Okay so the members had another outfit change after this and these outfits were straight up sinful. Not to mention the first song they performed in them was equally as sinful so I’m going to on about this performance bc this was the best performance imo. I will never forget it. It’s ingrained into my brain forever

So Crazy In Love starts. Okay so I don’t listen to this song much as far as just listening to it in my free time, but I’d seen the dance before so as soon as I heard the music, I knew we were royally fucked. I wasn’t expecting this song probably bc i forgot it existed but its my new fav song guys this performance ruined me.

So the lights come on at the very first part and these mofos are wearing tight black skinny pants (which looked like they were leather but they werent) and red silk sparkly shirts that were tucked in. Every single member looked flawless

(Also didn’t mention this before but all of their hair was styled so well bless the stylists. I normally prefer a more natural color for hair on idols so I was glad the colorful dye had faded and most of them just went with black or brown)

But lord have mercy when the song started. Okay Chan is my bias but I could not stop staring at Soonyoung almost the entire time - minus for Chan’s “talking about love” part (which I remember doing the dance for and screaming while doing so)

Like you get Swimming Fool Soonyoung whos all cute and playful and going “YEEEE HAWW” during the song and then you get Crazy In Love Soonyoung whos all bedroom eyes and sexy glares and just everything about the way he moves is mesmerizing (i swear. Hes NOT my bias)

So getting through the first chorus is hard enough when BOTH my bias and bias wrecker are up in front doing that provocative shit and I was so conflicted on which one to stare at but I ended up staring at Soonyoung the whole time.

And then in the second chorus when it’s just Jeonghan doing it and both me and my friend screamed so loud ugh the outfits were so perfect for this dance i wanted to D I E

And then it gets to the Part in the song yknow the “Ooohhhhh” part where they spin around and when it was Soonyoungs part to do that by himself. I don’t even have words for how that made me feel. That image is in my mind forever. You know that meme thats like “you ever wonder whats going on in someones head?” well yeah its that for me

It’s just Soonyung doing that one dance move

okay moving on Ive talked about this enough

My I was right after and I’d never seen the dance to that either and it was really beautiful and cool like idk how to describe it. It was like a very romantic type of dance and Jun and Minghao had such great chemistry on stage together they really blew me away

OKay now imma freak out some more bc Vocal Unit performed Habits. I actually recorded this whole song so I wasn’t really paying attention to what was happening on stage bc they were all just standing there with mic stand anyways. I was enjoying the audio and their lovely vocals. (Again, Jihoon really exceeded my expectations in this song. Like for some members like Dokyum and Seungkwan I know theyre gonna sound great and its not like I didn’t for the rest but I’m just still not over how good EVERYONE sounded)

So I’m enjoying them vocals and the song ends and my friend taps on my arm and points to her face and there are actual tears. This bitch really cried. At the time I was like “during Habits of all songs??” but i was so naive now I understand(I cried 2 days later listening to that song)

Hiphop unit then did If I which I remember 0 of I think I was still too shook from Vocal Unit

I just remember their little hip thrust dance and then immediately after was a ment and Soonyoung was mimicking HH units dance and giggling like an idiot and got the whole crowd to sing and dance to If I

“Ohh Toronto. Dancing good”

Then they were all arguing over which unit’s performance suited Toronto the best but then decided that they all did

And then Soonyoung dabbed

Too many times

Everyone also dabbed with him this group is a M E S S

And then they got Jeonghan to do Aegyo so he spun around and made a heart and said “Toronto I love you!” in the cutest voice possible I swear I’m in love with Jeonghans voice

And then Wonwoo did a cute little dance to which we all chanted ‘Go Wonwoo’ for and then Soonyoung dabbed

again

(It made Jihoon cringe every time)

Then Jeonghan tried to get Seungkwan to sing something and Boo was like ‘moVING ON” but he gave in and sang a bit of Hello by adele which was really nice. Like damn the acoustics in that theater were no joke bc its a theater (i assume) made for plays and stuff and him singing without any track sounded really nice.

And then they asked my boi Chan to dance so he started singing Billie Jean by Michael Jackson and doing the hipthrust dance and Seungkwan ran over like ‘nOO”. But Chan just kept dancing and singing and having a good time and being w i l d to which Seungcheol cracked up at. He literally fell on the floor laughing

And they kept going on about how this was a totally special stage for Toronto, “only for Toronto”

So then they went on to say they were gonna perform a very “hot” song next and my clueless ass was like ‘Don’t wanna cry?’ but naw it was ROCK which I only recorded part of bc the lighting was bad and my phone sucks

But okay I can just say that Wonwoo’s voice sounds 10x deeper in person. If you thought his rap was really deep in that song, wait until you hear it live. For a long time Wonwoo was my favorite rapper in kpop and I think hes regaining that title he was very good the whole night and I really like his deep voice

and then they did Chuck which was SO AMAZING HOLY CRAP

I love that song sm in the first place but I love it even more now upon seeing and hearing it in person. I recorded a bit of that one too and love it i watch that video like 3 times a day

So then they had another short Ment where they taught us the dance to Chuck and Soonyoung doing the “brrrr” part was so adorable I wanted to die. (I feel like Im talking about Soonyoung a lot but im just so glad he was able to perform in Toronto ilysm)

So then Vernon was like “I actually have some bad new for yall” and all the members were like ‘whaaat??’ and pretending to be shocked

So Vernon goes on: “The next song is actually the last song for the night” and Soonyoung made this fake crying noise and then dabbED LIKE 5 TIMES

That was when he went over to Jihoon and dabbed right in front of him and then was like “Oh my god our last song?”

and then Vernon being the cheeky ass that he is was like “Yeah and I really dont wanna cry about it” and then him and Soonyoung went to the back of the stage to “cry” and all the other members were “crying”

Then Vernon came back and like “I wonder what our next song is tho? Hm????” and im like really bitch

So Soonyoung yelled ‘are you ready’ a few times and then they performed Don’t Wanna Cry which was INCREDIBLE

They were all in perfect sync like im seriously amazed. These boys probably have to practice day and night to get dances like that. It was amazing

So the boys left the stage for a bit and there was a another vcr which was of all the member explaining what carats were to them and it was really sweet and my friend cried again (she cried like 3 times that night) and I died at Jihoons bc there was this short clip of him and hes just so darn cute

so they came out again and performed Shining Diamond but were wearing casual jeans and half were wearing blue shirts and the other half were wearing pink shirts and Soonyoung looked so good in that outfit bc his shirt was tucked in in the front and his hair was just so great

anyways they all looked like they had fun performing that song and Soonyoung was yelling as usual and there was one part of the dance that was super satisfying bc all the colors of the shirts lined up and it was just really nice to look at.

And then they performed Healing which we had special banners to hold up during. There was one part I remember bc I couldnt see bc everyone was holding their banners above their heads, but Seungcheol jumped onto Mingyus back and koala hugged him for a good minute and a half and Mingyu kept trying to get him off and Seungcheol just smiled like an idiot and latched on. Eventually he got down and then grabbed his water bottle and dumped half of it onto the people in the front(splash zone)

So once that song ended, Toronto Carats had actually prepared something special for Seventeen. So certain seats had a red board on it that you would hold up after Healing ended but only so many seats had them so it made a message in the crowd and I think it was just 2 hearts and ‘1 7′ and the members looked really surprised like Vernon and Minghao were next to each other and were like :O

Seungcheol and Jeonghan looked really shocked too, overall none of them expected it

So then the goodbye ments came and I was ready to die as soon as they started. They all said the similar kind of thing like “we had a good time we’ll come again soon ect…”

But Minghao’s was all in english and it was the cutest damn thing i have ever heard in my life. He started out with “Today I am so happy because of our Toronto Carats energy.”

and then says the cutest shit ever: “We are like friends. We look after each other and love each other” He also kept looking over at Vernon to make sure he was saying it right

and then he said something like “we care for each other” and the fkcigingf df went “and everyone, don’t be sick. Always be happy okay?” IN LIKE THE CUTEST WAY POSSIBLE I WANTED TO SCREAM I MEAN I PROBABLY DID BUT STILL

and then I only remember Chan saying something like “We’ll be back soon, and when we are you have to promise that you’ll come to our show” and then Soonyoung and Seungcheol held out their pinkies for us to promise them and I held my pinky bc I damn promise if they come to Toronto again I will be seeing them for sure. Or I’ll try my best anyways

and they all gave us hearts and said they loved us and did a bow and then all had to leave the stage and I almost cried;;

I remember Soonyoung was the last to leave the stage bc he kept waving and saying goodbye

Also I remember a person sticking their hand out one last time and it was kind funny bc I just see this random hand pop out for like a split second. I didn’t know who it was at the time, but I later found out it was Dokyum :3

So yeah, he’s not my bias, but Soonyoung made my night

Anyways. I’m still having post-concert depression. Honestly I don’t think I’ll ever be able to listen to another seventeen song again without crying. All in all, it was one of the best nights of my life and if it wasn’t for my best friend who bought the tickets and surprised me with them and her mom who drove us up the whole long way. Highlight of my summer.

#i say honestly a lot #god this is long #took me like 3 hours to write and i had to watch fancams to remember stuff #i love seventeen so much you guys honestly u dont udneratand #i cried like 3 times the other day #bc of them #seventeen #diamond edge #toronto #2017 #svt #17 #my post #long post

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Healer AU - Part 1

A spin off from Baekhyun's fic ‘Saviour’

Doesn’t Chen in this picture lowkey look like Park Hyungsik?

Jongdae’s emotional and professional life hasn’t gone too well lately. He was dealing with depression and a potential career loss. Not even his closest friend Minseok knew about the stress Jongdae was under, being busy with his new love conquer.

Jongdae met Eunbyeol... but she was simply not for him.

Business AU/Fluff/Angst/Maybe more... I’ll see how it goes...

Warning: Mentions of abuse and mental illness.

A/N: So this part just presenting the side story, nothing will happen much, just so you get the idea of who this girl is, and why she will be influential in Chen’s life.

Chen x Eunbyeol OC

Masterlist

Saviour Masterpost

Saviour < Part 12 - Part 13 >

Part 2 >

Summary: Eunbyeol was Saehyo’s school friend, she needed a job and she took your place at the cafe. She wasn’t impressed with Saehyo’s relationship with the big boss Kim Minseok. In fact, she wasn’t impressed with any of the share holders. Not even their most regular customer. Kim Jongdae…

“I just don’t understand how you trust Minseok-ssi this much. Don’t give your all that fast Saehyo. it’s my humble opinion”

“Why are you so bitter? He’s done nothing to make me doubt him”

“I might sound too blunt, but why would a guy like Kim Minseok AKA filthy rich, gorgeous, healthy and young, date Lee Saehyo, the 19 year old university student, middle class, that works in his cafe?”

“I swear if you weren’t my friend...”

“I swear if I didn’t need the job...”

“Eunbyeol~~~ seriously, he is so sweet”

“Yeah... sweet was the word that I was missing in my description of Kim Minseok” added Eunbyeol smirking at her friend.

“Don’t be sarcastic!”

“Fuckboys. All of them. I can smell it from far away”

“Even Jongdae-ssi? Look at him he looks so kind”

“Yeah... just another high elite fuckboy. By the look of him... hmmm I’d say he doesn’t even get satisfied with any regular girl”

“How is so?” asked Saehyo naively and suddenly interested despite Eunbyeol’s lack of experience she tended to know people just by looking at them.

“He has that face, he looks like a spoiled little boy. Most probably likes older women. Yeah I see it”

At that moment Jongdae lifted his head from the documents he was reading, he caught Eunbyeol and Saehyo looking at him, making both girls wince in surprise. He found it weird.

“He saw us”

“Fuck! Now he’s gonna think that we like him or something”

“As if. Everyone knows Minseok owns your ass”

“Then you are fucked Eunbyeol”

Eunbyeol and Saehyo kept whispering at each other as they crouched in the floor.

“Hello?” said a voice at the counter.

Eunbyeol and Saehyo had to raise themselves meeting with Jongdae at the other side of the counter.

“Yes Jongdae-ssi!” said Saehyo casually washing away her embarrassment.

“I need another green tea please”

“Right away”

Jongdae went back to his table gazing Eunbyeol, mysteriously she found it amusing.

Unreadable.

Endaring.

Eunbyeol took the tea and some napkins, she cleared her throat placing the cup on Jongdae’s table. He didn’t lift his head and kept reading his documents.

“Wait!” he exclaimed before Eunbyeol went back.

“Yes?”

“Where is the sugar?”

“But Jongdae-ssi, this is your every day regular and you never have sugar with the tea”

“That’s my problem. What if I feel like having sugar with my tea today?”

“Sure Jongdae-ssi” said Eunbyeol bowing in apologetic manner going back to get him 2 sachets of sugar.

“You brought 2. I want 3″ he confirmed sharply.

“Sure Jongdae-ssi” said Eunbyeol getting a third one.

“It’s white sugar, I like brown sugar. Shouldn’t you ask to begin with?”

“My bad Jongdae-ssi” at this point Eunbyeol was ready to punch his face.

Nonetheless she came back with 3 sachets of brown sugar like he asked “anything else Jongdae-ssi?”

“Mmm, yes. I’d appreciate if you don’t look at me while I’m here. It’s not professional. You don't want me to complaint to Minseok-ssi about your poor customer service skills”

Eunbyeol bowed and apologised going back behind the counter.

“How did it go?”

“I want to kill him Saehyo, Kim Jongdae and I are not going to get along. Ever”

Meanwhile Jongdae tried questioning his own behaviour.

Fascinating.

Unexplainable.

Eunbyeol was just worried about her friend, even though she hated to admit that Minseok was being a gentleman with her, everyday that passed it showed he loved Saehyo. He took her home every night, and wasn’t afraid of PDA in the office, everybody knew Saehyo was the biggest share holder’s girlfriend, the one and only Kim Minseok. She was treated by all the employees already with the respect she deserved, also was the envy of every girl that worked there.

Eunbyeol was just the type to be afraid of men in general, being rich and powerful added to her fear.

She didn’t believe in love. She didn’t believe in men.

In none of them. Even the angelical looking Kim Jongdae. Even if he was the owner of the most eye pleasing lips she’s ever had the pleasure to see. Even when he smiled and made the world seem a better place.

He was just another man. Another obstacle. Another worry.

And a fuckboy.

She hated to admit to herself that she looked at him throughout the day. He almost never sat in his office again, he just stayed there studying some kind of documents looking worried. From time to time he smiled when the other share holders sat with him or when he answered his phone.

Or when he made brief accidental eye contact with her.

She didn’t understand why she was paying close attention to him, he was just another man. Another filthy arrogant rich mama’s boy that had zero responsibilities.

Arrogant bastard that all of a sudden wants sugar with his green tea. Three brown sugar sachets to be precise.

It was when ___ was with him that he’d be more cheerful. They seemed like friends apart from from anything. ___ was very nice and approachable, she also had the power to tame their most regular customer that was determined to not move from the cafe all day long.

“Good morning girls! How are you doing here? Man, I do miss the smell of fresh ground coffee”

“Good morning unni, I miss you” said Saehyo “will you get the regular?”

“Actually today I will be with Jongdae-ssi for just a few minutes, then I’m spending the day with you”

“Thanks unni!” exclaimed Saehyo all excited to finally learn from ___ the art of fine coffee. Minseok was going to be really happy about that.

“You mind taking my coffee to Jongdae-ssi’s table Eunbyeol? I will be right there”

Eunbyeol nodded taking ___’s coffee, Jongdae was as usual consumed in his paper work. She cleared her throat trying to say good morning, but Jongdae took his phone to make a phone call.

How rude.

But why would she care? Better, the less treatment the better.

As she placed the cup on the table, she noticed some sugar spilled around the documents, she moved the folder away and cleaned around to make the table presentable.

A business card fell on the floor. She bent down and went under the table to reach it.

Dr. Ah Seowon

No, it couldn’t be... Dr. Ah Seowon... Eunbyeol’s phycologist was called Ah Seowon. She didn’t think when she took the card in hand turning it around to read that it was indeed an appointment card.

Patient Kim Jongdae, Thursday 25th of October @ 4:30 pm.

Her hands started to shake, she got up from the floor with the card in hand meeting Jongdae’s eyes centimetres away from hers.

“What the fuck do you think you are doing?”

“I-ah I just- it fell”

Jongdae snatched the card out of her hands, pushing her slightly in the process, his eyes filled with anger, his teeth clenched visible enough for her to notice, making her tremble.

He looked menacing and scary. Just like every man... they were all the same the minute you did something they didn’t like.

They were all monsters.

“How dare you little rat look in my things? You can kiss you job goodbye!”

His voice audible to the other employees that were seated at the cafe. ___ and Saehyo were surprised to see Jongdae’s aggressive reaction for a simple card.

“Unni, please help Eunbyeol”

___ run towards Jongdae “it’s alright Jongdae-ssi, she didn’t mean it, we saw her, she was just cleaning and the card fell”

“I want to cancel today’s meeting, I will call you later ___”

Jongdae gathered his papers and all the documents that were spread in the table, glaring at Eunbyeol one last time before taking his leave.

He felt exposed, and by who? That girl... the coffee girl, that insignificant insect.

That girl he wanted to see every morning, he’s never wanted to see any girl in any way other than naked in his bed... but Eunbyeol was different. He wanted to see her in every way, everyday... every minute.

Why?

Maybe because she didn’t fall for him, she didn’t try and seduce him like half of the employees. She didn’t care that he was rich. She had zero makeup on her, she was natural, she was simple, she was real.

She was just simply... different.

She attracted him. In a new way.

Jongdae felt good when he watched her work away, clean around him, serve drinks and cakes. He watched her from the corner of his eye. He watched how she took off her apron in her breaks. How sad he felt. Instantly feeling happy again when she was back after 15 minutes and 2 seconds.

Two seconds late...

Yes he did use the stopwatch sometimes to calculate how long would take her to be back. He sometimes waited for her at the elevator gate, pretending to be waiting for it to get down, just so he could meet her eyes briefly as she bowed at him. Maybe even brush his arm with hers.

And now he felt tiny and exposed.

He hated the feeling. What was this feeling? Was it something like what ___ felt for Baekhyun?

It was killing him not being able to put his finger on why he wanted to have Eunbyeol close. Just that. Have her close, next to him.

He wanted to hear her laugh, he wondered how it would sound. The idea in his head made him instantly draw a smile on his face, despite how deep in shit he was, he imagined it in his ear, and the thought made him happy.

And now he could kiss that thought goodbye because he just sacred her to death.

“Just fire her hyung” whined Jongdae.

“I am not firing my girl’s best friend. Besides you still didn’t tell me what she saw that made you this angry. Saehyo said it was a card. What was it? A picture of Kai’s mom naked?”

“Hyung~~~”

“Man, I don’t get it. Why are you acting so... not yourself? Tell me what’s up? Did you fuck her already? Is that it? Don’t fucking touch Eunbyeol dude, Saehyo is so protective of her! I don’t want to upset her after she took me back”

“Hyung! I did not lay a finger on her- you know what? Forget it”

Minseok knew his dear friend too well... this wasn’t his normal self.

He knew something was up.

But what?

“I don’t want to go to work again, I’ll figure out something”

“Eunbyeol don’t be so petty, you know businessmen, the secrecy and all that” said Saehyo patting on her back.

“I can’t face him again”

“What did you see that he was that upset?”

“Nothing, leave me alone now Saehyo, I don’t want to talk about it” said Eunbyeol taking her bag “I’m going home. See you tomorrow”

“We can take you” said Saehyo trying to sound casual.

“Yeah, as if you could. You know what will happen to me if at home they see someone is driving me. A male presence, even if it’s your boyfriend”

“How can you still be in that house Eunbyeol? When are you going to stand up for you-”

“Shut up Saehyo! Not everyone is as lucky as you. I told you a 1000 times, don’t intrude!” Eunbyeol’s voice got louder.

It was true. Eunbyeol envied Saehyo. The freedom... getting together with the guy she liked. She envied having something like that.

Minseok was just about to enter the cafe to take Saehyo home when he met Eunbyeol, tears already forming in her eyes. She simply bowed and sprinted her way to the elevator to leave.

“Hey baby! What’s with your friend? Is it because of what happened with Jongdae today?”

“It’s complicated oppa”

Eunbyeol lived with her stepfather, stepbrother and her mother. Her weak mother. The same mother that never stood up for her when her husband decided to control their lives. He wasn’t abusive as per say, in the contrary he was loving and took good care of Eunbyeol when she was younger. He simply was controlling and very conservative to a point of madness.

Eunbyeol wasn’t as lucky as Saehyo for sure, she didn’t have the privilege to go to college, not even go to a normal school. She was homeschooled since age 12, luckily she met Saehyo in primary school and they remained friends till this day.

However she wasn’t allowed to talk to her as much as she wanted, or to anyone for that matter, she wasn’t allowed to look pretty, she wasn’t allowed to do anything that normal girls did her age. She lived in a prison.

It was in her 17th birthday when her stepfather suggested to get engaged to his son Bumyong, he was 23 at the time, claiming that it was inappropriate to live under the same roof not really being blood-related, without defining their relationship. And that was her birthday present. Bumyong. She now was engaged. Falling in the same destiny as her mother’s.

One day she escaped from home, but who was she fooling? She knew she had to go back otherwise how would she survive? Where would she go? With no money, no education. She couldn’t even go to the police, she had no pretext, no one abused her, no one treated her bad, and being homeschooled wasn’t a crime. She went back. Bumyong broke her heart when he opened the door, he kissed her and assured her he would try to be a better person for her, he would go to the moon and back to make her happy.

But nothing ever made her happy, she felt empty.

Her only happy moment was walking to the park after the children went home. She loved the swing, it made her feel free, the couple of minutes she had to herself before she could feel Bumyong talking to her from behind, asking if he could join her, he didn’t understand that she needed space, to think, to maybe try and love him back.

Eunbyeol couldn’t really hate Bumyong either, he was loving, caring, but it wasn’t her choice, she never loved him, and now after 2 years there was still no love towards him, just affection. Like a brother she grew up with.

He didn’t understand that sometimes he felt like her prison guard, the man she shared bed with. She was too young to realise that it was wrong, she never wanted him, but his pleading eyes made her give in, consumed in the idea that one day she would love him.

But she never did.

From there Eunbyeol learned that men were nothing but a headache, unnecessary creatures that you need to live with.

Monsters if you made them upset.

Like Bumyong when she talked to the cashier more than he necessary, or if he knew that she sat next to a guy in the bus.

Bumyong was controlling and Eunbyeol couldn’t take it no more.

She was accompanied by Bumyong as per usual to by clothes for her interview. He didn’t want her to work but she threw the biggest tantrum denying him to touch her until he agreed. His father questioned his son’s authority, his manliness even, allowing Eunbyeol to work was an atrocity in his eyes. But Bumyong loved her. He agreed under certain conditions. Never to speak to any guy more than taking orders.

"I’m just going to pee real quick” said Bumyong “mmm, come with me and wait for me at the door”

“Oppa... at the door? Really? You know how many men get in and out all the time?”

“Alright... go back to the car”

“But it’s far, why can’t you just go pee? I’ll be standing right here, nothing will happen”

Bumyong looked right and left, he panicked when he realised how crowded the street really was. Full of shoppers and clothing stores. His heart thumped fast with the idea of anyone looking at Eunbyeol, but he had no other choice but to agree.

“Stay here. Don’t move. Don’t talk to anyone. People are bad”

“Yes oppa they are, go now” said Eunbyeol patting on his back.

He finally went to the public toilet almost running. Eunbyeol shook her head in disbelief, sometimes praising her patience.

She looked around and her eyes landed on a bright sign above a cosmetics store.

Dr. Ah Seowon.

Psychologist.

She took her phone and typed the number before Bumyong came back. She didn’t know why she wanted to share her situation with someone else.

She felt ready.

“Who were you going to call?” she heard Bumyong ask, luckily after saving the number.

“Ah I wanted to call you. What took you so long?”

This was just a couple days ago, so Dr. Seowon was just starting to get to know Eunbyeol, to get her out of her shell was not an easy task. She praised her however in taking the initiative in calling her, building a very interesting patience/doctor relationship. Almost like friends, also trying to convince her, to gather her strength and finally meet in person for a proper visit. But it was almost impossible with Bumyong in her back all the time.

Dr. Seowon wanted Eunbyeol to free herself...

Dr. Seowon... Kim Jongdae’s phycologist.

******

“We are short in milk Eunbyeol, please”

“Why me Saehyo? You go”

“I can’t. Minseok oppa asked me to stay, he needs me”

“Oh sure, he wants to get laid in his office”

“You are mean”

“I’m not going, I can’t carry 10 gallons of milk alone”

“Oh Jongdae-ssi, can I ask you a favour?” said Saehyo as Jongdae approached the counter.

“Sure, anything for my little sister” he replied smiling, avoiding looking at Eunbyeol.

“Can you help Eunbyeol? She needs a strong hand”

Jongdae looked at Eunbyeol puzzled.

“Can you go to the convenience store with her? I’m short in milk, and it’s heavy”

Jongdae nodded, exhaling in defeat “sure” he said almost whispering.

“Come on, go go” said Saehyo pushing Eunbyeol from behind the counter.

Eunbyeol removed her apron and took off her cap, letting her hair down taking Jongdae by surprise. He wasn’t supposed to feel what he just felt.

He wanted to touch her soft looking hair...

But why? Many girls had soft looking hair, he never cared about hair as long as he got in their pants. This wasn’t it... he wanted to run his fingers through her hair right there not caring about anyone.

He walked behind her, he felt his body heat raising. He didn’t even understand why he felt so flustered next to her.

They took the elevator, both trying to push the the button to the ground floor, both forefingers meeting in the way, touching...

Eunbyeol’s cheeks felt hot, she looked elsewhere as she heard Jongdae apologise for touching her finger. It was cute.

Why was he acting like that now? It wasn’t helping when her cheeks felt like burning, probably noticeable by now.

There was a convenience store right across the street. They crossed the street in silence and entered the store in silence.

She took a 5 gallons of milk bottle giving Jongdae a second one, again she brushed her fingers with his in the process. That moment she looked at him and that is when she couldn’t ignore the smile he gave her, making his naturally curled upwards lips accentuate to perfection.

How beautiful was this man?

When she involuntary returned the smile, he cleared his throat heading to the cashier to pay, leaving her in awe.

Jongdae insisted in paying for the milk, going back to the office. Leading her this time.

It was her turn to appreciate him as he walked in front of her. Her eyes stopping at his perfectly filled pants at the back. She found it in herself... the need to keep looking, didn’t feel guilty. She didn’t feel she was doing anything wrong.

She liked it.

It felt nice, the short walk made her forget all her sorrows momentarily.

As they headed back, and before stepping out of the elevator to their floor he stopped her “leave the milk at the cafe and go to my office”

“Ha?”

“Follow me to my office for a minute” he repeated.

Jongade left the bottle at the counter heading to his office, Eunbyeol followed doing the same.

“Saehyo, can you give me a break now? I need to do something”

“Sure girl go ahead”

You knocked the door to Jongdae’s office, he took you by surprise when he opened the door, he was just behind the door, you almost felt his body warmth, his breath.

“Yes Jongdae-ssi”

“About yesterday. I was nice enough not have you fired. Nonetheless I was rude. I apologise”

“It’s my fault, I shouldn’t of read the card”

“I would like nothing to get out, I don’t need gossip at the office. Things are awful already the way they are, I don’t need more shit over my head”

“If it makes you feel better, I also see Dr. Seowon, that is why I was surprised. I would of thought that someone like you went to more sophisticated doctors"

“Doctors for rich people sell secrets, and Dr. Seowon won’t do that, she is very professional” he continued "if anything goes out-”

“Are you threatening me?” Eunbyeol’s tone sounded confident, but immediately her confidence vanished. She regretted her tone.

He was right in front of her, her eyes doubled in size, his finger forcing her chin upwards to look to him.

“How old are you little girl?”

“I-I am 19... like Saehyo”

“Hmmm, little girls aged 19 should know that is very impolite to talk like that with someone like me”

“Don’t-touch-me” Eunbyeol regained confidence when she saw his nasty side.

Jongdae was taken aback, this always worked, she was supposed to get the weak knees. Instead he was the one that got them.

She had power over him. A total new experience.

“I said I won’t say anything, now if you’ll excuse me” Eunbyeol proceeded and slammed the door behind her.

Jongdae gulped running his hands over his face, he loosened his tie leaning on the door.

This was the first time any girl has talked to him the way she did. He didn’t understand how he let it pass. Why didn’t he react. Jongdae was weak in front of her. The reason yet to be known.

He slapped his cheeks lightly before going out again, he was headed to the cafe but he saw Eunbyeol just right outside waiting for the elevator nervously tapping her foot on the floor. He went after her getting inside the elevator shoving the 2 employees out. “take the next one!”

“What are you doing!?”

“No one treats me like that little girl, if you aplogise now I might forgive you and not fire you”

“Fire me then! And don’t get that close” exclaimed Eunbyeol landing her hand on the emergency stop button on the elevator wall as she steeped backwards.

They both winced when the elevator stopped violently.

“Just fucking great!”

“It’s your fault”

“Don’t raise your voice at me little girl”

“Stop calling me little girl!”

“Move!” said Jongdae pressing the emergency alarm to call security.

“Are we stuck here?” she asked nervously.

Jongdae didn’t reply, just kept pressing the emergency button.

“Yes?”

“We are stuck in elevator 4 B, 7th floor”

“Alright, we will send someone, but it might take half an hour”

Eunbyeol panicked, she couldn’t be late for home, she faced the elevator wall thinking about Bumyong and her stepdad. Suddenly her whole body trembling, whispering nonsense to herself weeping in terror.

“Hey, hey are you alright?” he asked tapping her shoulder “it’s alright, I mean no biggie, they will come before you know it”

“I can’t- I can’t be late, he will be angry, I can’t” she repeated to herself.

He? Who was he? Who was the one who had this girl shaking?

Jongdae felt enraged and in need to protect you from whoever he was.

Chen took his phone out of his pocket and dialled Dr. Seowon’s phone number. It’s all he could think of.

“Alone in the elvator? And you say it’s the end of her shift?”

“Yes” replied Jongdae.

“Oh dear, Kim Jongdae-ssi, she cannot be seen with you, if her husband finds out she will be in trouble” said Dr. Seowon calmly “just try to calm her down”

Husband

“Husband? She is 19!” exclaimed Jongdae angrily making Eunbyeol more nervous that what she already was.

This time Jongdae caused her panic, he felt like shit, he didn’t want to ever be the reason of her distress.

He hanged the phone and as an impulse he turned her around forcing her on his chest. Her full frame was shaking and her hands soon found the lapels of his blazer to hold on to. Her nose touching his Adams apple.

He wanted to make her feel better, feel safe.

Her vulnerable body pressed against his, her tears wetting his neck. He wanted to protecter her from everything.

From he who she feared.

His arms wrapped around her pressing her closer to his chest.

It was so wrong. The feeling he had that moment. But also so right. The most righteous he’s ever felt.

He felt alive. He felt needed. He felt that he could help this girl. Din’t know how, but he did.

Why?

Because she mattered.

"I will protect you” he whispered on her ear “no one will touch you. Not even him. I promise”

She fainted on his arms.

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A/N: It will get intense.

Thanks for reading, feedback always welcomed ^_^

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swearronchanel · 7 years

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Impromptu post, thoughts during 5.05

I'm so pissed I literally lost an earring at some point today and just realized. So I ripped my dorm room apart looking for it (no luck of course) and now it's 9:30 so I already missed half of the new episode of Jane the Virgin. Also my earrings are from Tiffany's, they were a Christmas gift a couple years ago & I can't afford to replace it😭 whatever you guys don't care about this, I'm so tired but I refuse to fall asleep at 9:30pm because I'll wake up at like 5am. So I decided to watch a random episode of Call The Midwife and share my thoughts.

Ok I'm going with 5.05, since we just saw 6.05 lol, idk If there's any logic but just go with it alright

ah the old credits, I really like the new ones though. Especially the color

"We were moving from a time of guessing.." I love how the show explains & shows that times are changing

The health report! Littt

"I feel a drumroll is in order" Shelagh is so precious!! 💖 I love her Scottish accent && side note I still wish they would mention one day how she got London. It literally does not matter at all but we know next to nothing about her past and im curious ?! More of Shelagh’s past pls

WAIT ONE OF MY FAV SHELAGH LINES IS COMING

"Patrick Turner, GP License to Practice Medicine and Secret Agent Shelagh Turnova save Poplar from ill health and disease!" I LOVE ITTTT😂 ONE OF HER BEST LINES EVER DONT @ ME, her laugh at the end is priceless ah! Shelagh is lowkey funny af she just rarely gets to opportunity and again Laura Main is an actual gem 😍

KEEP FIT

Trixie looking so good😍 i need her to whip my ass back in to shape. i havent worked out in like 3 months yikes

but seriously is this really my train of thoughts if i dont mention how perfect Helen George is?

yea its fuccking cancer, cigs are no joke

lol did they really not notice Tim reading Freud?

Also why did Shelagh ever think smoking cigarettes was a good idea after she freaking had tb? i forgive her though shes my bby💕

phyllis! my mother and hero

oh yea this lady cant read

forgot she was a ex-prostitute

vi and fred doing jumping jacks im dead, theyre a cute couple

Where did frankincense come from??

lol violet didnt wanna give up the bathroom door "we may be married but i still have my dignity"

Mrs Dooly? Is that her name (idk)

I can so see Shelagh delivering her baby herself like this lady did, but obviously she’d know what’s happening. You think Shelagh is going to freak out while giving birth though? hmm

"I do like a milky brew" WHY IS THAT FUNNY😂😂 I like the Delia & Sister MJ interaction

PHYLLIS TRYING TO RIDE A BIKE IS SYMBOLISM FOR ME TRYING TO GET THROUGH THIS SEMESTER #barelymanaging

does laying on a door really help a messed up back?

Those awful sleeves on Delia's uniform *cringe*

"I am not trusted with medical emergencies" I TRUST YOU SISTER MJ💕 lowkey hope the delivery sister MJ is involved in is Shelagh's

If I had to deliver my own baby I'd be freaking the fuck out too, like I'm not Dr Quinn

The Nonnatus Fam all at the table makes me happy😭

Sister Winifred rolling her eyes in the back 😂😂😂

"I'll be washing my hair and reading magazines from now on" yo sister Winifred is growing on me tbh?? Wow lol

"Ive always assumed the results of the male organ to be more rewarding than the organ itself" 😂😭 love sister MJ

Everyone in the convent shook😂 again sister W has the best reactions 😂 dick jokes are 100x funnier when they're made in a convent & 1000x funnier when they're made by a nun

Shelagh's "percussion" on Tim's back I'm dead lmfaoo

I don't remember if she has post partum ?

Fred taking over the shop😂 I miss when Fred used to scam though😭

"I'm missing my monthlys" "monthly whats?" Oh Fred cmon 😂

Tim snatching those cigarettes

Barbara trying to measure this lady😂😂 she's so awkward, love it

She leaves her baby outside smh

"Gosh James knows how to show a chap a nice time" ANOTHER GREAT SHELAGH LINE😂 give my bby more great lines 😭😂

I LOVE CHEEKY SHELAGH, I LOVE SHELAGH ALL THE TIME EVEN WHEN SHE HAS NO LINES OR IS CRYING AND SAD (WHICH IS TOO OFTEN & WE NEEDA CUT THAT OUT)

Laura Main and Helen George calmly ruined me, I never was like this? How did I end up literally crying every week for fictional characters ??

Shelagh and Patrick's faces were so smug just now I love it

Yikes those lungs

Reminds me of all the gross anti smoking commercials. Also Patrick is shook but I'm not too surprised

I love that Phyllis is so understanding and doesn't judge any patient 💕

"You have the rest of your life to get the hang of it" I NEEDED THAT TOO PHYLLIS THANKS

LMAO FRED "Because hell will freeze over first"

so yes post partum??

Phyllis is annoyed bc she wants to work on her Spanish and babs is taking too long with the dishes 😂😂te querio mucho phyllis

Tim sparking up lol 🚬

Here comes trouble

I wanna rip Patrick's index finger off. Remember that time he wagged his finger and Shelagh and I was ready TO FREAKING FLIP

but yea wtf you knew this would happen Tim

Shelagh's just like "Tim no" I love u Shelagh but what does that do lmao your husband is exploding

"You'll what, light it for me!?" BOYYYY ARE YOU BRAVE KID

If I responded like that my parents would've flipped, there most likely would've been a chancla coming at me 😭😂

But seriously Patrick should know better not to smoke lol

What does Roxanne mean this isn't real??

Aw cute Patrick and Tim moment, and a year later they're getting drunk off one beer and throwing darts into the wall😂

I want to see more of Phyllis with babies aww

Also not really related but I hope Phyllis has some good lines defending the pill when it comes back up. Remember when she had babs shook when she told the story of the soldier she spent a weekend away with😏 imagine her telling the other nurses?

Used to hang out at a Jazz club Patrick?? lol interesting

damn get that radium treatment man

"The real magic is keeping on when all you want to do is run" Phyllis Fucking Crane spilling the tea as always. How did I not like her once upon a time??

Could Shelagh get any cuter eating biscuits? No she could not

lol biscuits aren't just for fainters!! Ah I don't miss sister Ursula 🙃

that's not your mother😐 (I knew where she was going though but you know I'm gonna say it anyway)

More Shelagh and Phyllis interaction yes pls

How much is a shilling? #ignorantamerican

Fred hiding from the costumers 😂😂

Yes Vi! Defend ur man & kick this rude ass lady out

Lol now Patrick telling other people to quit smoking. Don Draper tried man, it's gonna take u a while 😭

I'm here for the Phyllis and Sister W dynamic (more now that Phyllis is teaching her how to drive 😂)

Ah I love going back to old episodes when I know what happens in the future, also I notice things I didn't notice before and make connections and yea, you catch my drift lmao

"We don't choose to be unloved by those who should love us"💔

we truly don't deserve Phyllis. SHE'S TALKING ABOUT HER MOTHER AND IM CRYING

"Shame will keep us in all kinds of prisons if we let it" 😭😭😭

Patrick has a puppy face rn

Wait they went this long without naming the baby??

omg speaking of that, I really want to know what the gender of baby Turner is going to be and what it will be named😭😭

Vi is precious lol & Fred lifting her is cute. Patrick never lifts Shelagh😂

Aw speaking of my bbys💕💕

So precious it’s almost strange Turner family moment

Why do so many people hate that couch? Like it doesn't bother me or maybe I don't care enough about the background?

Angela has grown so much in a year wow, she looks a lot younger here

lol Shelagh and Patrick are like "um wtf psychology??" 😂

Wait Angela made a noise😂 when will she actually speak??

Haha Shelagh you're going to need new dresses but you don't know yet 😭😂💕 I still can't believe she's having a baby. I Love it.

"You're my world" lol that was so cute but also I still think Tim is too perfect of a child?? what teenager is so pleasant with his parents all the time 😂 plus he's always with them and his baby sister? #givetimalife2k17aka1962

Aww all the cute concluding moments & Vanessa Redgrave saying something profound and we are done.

#call the midwife #my rambles #thoughts #you tired of me yet #?#I will never run out of comments #I have too much to say #all the time #lets get it 1962 #protect my bbys at all costs though

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taeinmycup · 7 years

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Countdown To You | Pt. 1

Genre: Angst, fluff, maybe some smut in the future

Member: Park Jimin

Words: 3.4k

“Your soulmate clock is actually a countdown of how long your soulmate has left to live and holy shit you have to find your soulmate soon because your clock says you have three months left.” (source.)

A/N: Surprise!! :D A little present because I haven’t written and posted anything for a long time ;) I had this in my drafts for a while, and I decided to go on with it and post it because I love soulmate aus and especially ANGSTY soulmate aus. I think I will split up this fic into two or three parts. It won’t be a long one anyways.

Partly inspired by this song. listen to it while reading this pls its an awesome song i love hyorin and hwarang dfjgkshkj

Pt. 2 | Pt. 3 | Pt. 4 | Pt. 5 | Pt. 6

You hated the concept of a soulmate clock.

The bright, red numbers displayed on the soulmate clock right next to your bed drove you insane, and you wanted nothing else but smash the stupid, useless object against your wall. You’d do everything to get rid of that clock and not lay eyes on these bright, red numbers anymore.

Ofcourse, you already tried smashing the clock against the wall, and ofcourse, the object did not bulge one bit, as the countdown kept going, and going.

Okay, a correction. You actually didn’t necessarily ‘hate’ the concept of a soulmate clock, but you just thought it was completely useless to have a countdown clock of your soulmate, signaling how many time you still had left to meet your soulmate until… he or she would leave this world.

Yeah. A soulmate clock was basically a countdown of your soulmate’s life.

You had seen the soulmate clock of your friends, and you could see there was a huge difference between theirs and yours. Their soulmate clocks contained numbers with multiple digits, signaling that their soulmates still had many years to live, and that your friends were given a huge amount of time to find their soulmate.

However, the digits that your stupid clock contained, did not have such multiple digits, and as you soon realized the situation, you couldn’t help but become angry, sad, and especially hopeless.

Because, according to the clock, your soulmate, whom you did not even know, and whom you had never seen in your life, still had three months left on this world, before he would leave it.

You had three months. 90 days. 2160 hours. You had this much time left to look for your soulmate, to get to know your soulmate, and most important, to fall in love and make precious memories with him.

To put it in simple words; you were completely fucked.

“Ninety days. Ninety fucking days left Namjoon and I still haven’t found him,” you mumbled angrily, slamming down your cup of coffee on the wooden table, causing your other co-workers turn to you with an irritated look on their faces.

Kim Namjoon was one of your many co-workers in this huge ass corporation. Park Inc., aka your workplace, was one of the most successful corporations in South-Korea, and you had been told that if you would be able to get a job here, your monthly salary would increase thrice, and your social status would get higher.

Well, part of it was true. Your salary increased, and you were not seen as someone with a low status. However, it felt like something was missing. You should be happy, seeing that you had a well-paid job that most of the people wanted to have. You were successful, and you reached the goals you wanted to have since your college days. But why did you feel so… incomplete?

“I can see that your hope is tumbling down,” Namjoon remarked dryly, his cup of coffee in front of his lips as he blew on it, waiting till it cooled off. You raised a brow at him, before letting out a defeated sigh as you dropped your head on the table, making Namjoon jolt a bit.

“Yes Namjoon, my hope is crashing down. Thanks for emphasizing it,” you sassed back, letting out a small whine of desperateness. Namjoon let out a small chuckle, putting down his cup of coffee before he stretched out his arm, only to pat your head softly, showing his sympathy to you.

“Are you sure the clock says 90 days? Not 90 years, or something?”

You lifted up your head, causing Namjoon to retreat his hand as you nodded your head as an answer, a small pout forming on your lips. “Do you think my soulmate knows that he has three months left?”

Your question had your smart co-worker in front of you shrugging, and you could only sigh once more, as your thoughts wandered to your soulmate again. You couldn’t help yourself but keep wondering every single day about what kind of person he was. Was he kind and caring? What would his age be? Would he be older, or maybe younger? Was he handsome? Was he healthy?

You could feel yourself going insane, so you shook your head slightly, trying to keep your thoughts about your soulmate aside, telling yourself that you needed to focus on your responsibilities first. The worries about your soulmate would come later, after you finished your work for today.

“My fucking head hurts,” you mumbled, massaging the sides of your head with the top of your fingers. Although these thoughts about your soulmate stressed you out, you were sure that it was better than the stress your own job gave you.

Was an increase of your salary really worth all this bull?

“How many work do you have left?” Namjoon asked you, his tone calm as always, and sometimes it drove you nuts how calmly he could maintain himself while you were basically in a sort of midlife-crisis.

“A lot. I have to replace Seulgi this week. She has fallen ill and Manager Kim has assigned me as her replacement.”

Namjoon raised his brows at you, putting his cup of coffee back on the table again, a soft tinkling sound emerging from it.

“Seulgi? Kang Seulgi? CEO Park’s personal assistant?” Namjoon asked in a surprised voice, his tone increasing slightly with every word he said. You nodded your head, your shoulders hanging as you kept thinking about how much work you had to do as the CEO’s own personal assistant. You recalled Seulgi constant complains about the amount of work she had to do for the CEO, but that she couldn’t quit her job because she claimed that she would not be able to find another job which would pay well like this one.

“Wow, good luck. You will need it,” Namjoon spoke up, aware of how much work it was, being the CEO’s personal assistant. Especially with Park Jimin as your CEO.

You mumbled a little thanks, and it sounded a bit insincere, but you knew better. And Namjoon did as well. The guy gave you a half-hearted smile, wide enough for his dimples to show, giving you a wink as he gave you a small ‘Fighting’ gesture.

You had heard a lot about your CEO. Although you had never met him directly, you saw him walking in the bright hallways often, mostly with Seulgi by his side, looking so tired and worn out that you thought she would be quitting her job any second. You never had the chance to ‘observe’ him, though, because the man walked as fast as lightning, and before you knew it, he already disappeared around the corner, and you would not see him for a couple of days again. Sometimes even for a couple of weeks.

You had never heard Park Jimin speak, but according to Seulgi, the guy had a velvet-like voice, so smooth that it could sooth you into a deep sleep easily. You were in a position where an encounter with the CEO was something you could not even dream of, so ofcourse, Seulgi was the one who would tell you all the little details about the handsome CEO.

You learned from Seulgi that he was a slow talker, always careful of his words, and thinking through everything twice. Sometimes even thrice. Patience was the keyword, and the main secret to being a good personal assistant for Park Jimin. Seulgi also told you that Park Jimin was a punctual man, and preferred to have his meetings and other appointments in the morning and early afternoon, so that he could have the evening all for himself. Seulgi did not know why he liked his evenings free, because she apparently never asked.

“Don’t ask. Just do.”

Seulgi’s advice to you was short, but powerful. So when you were on your way to the 13th floor, the sound of your clacking high heels echoing through the empty hallway, you repeated her words in your head like a fucking mantra, and you could only hope that you wouldn’t forget them.

The receptionist of the 13th floor had a respectful and nice attitude towards you, as she told you the right way to the CEO’s office in a friendly tone, her smile bright and wide as she pointed with her index finger towards the right direction. You thanked her with a slight bow of your head, but as you walked away, you did not miss her semi-judging look lingering on you, and you knew that she wondered why a regular office-worker would be here on the 13th floor, the fucking floor of the CEO, instead of her regular second floor.

You decided to ignore her judging look, and kept on walking towards your destination, the echo of you clacking heels even louder as this hallway was more empty than the ones underneath. You lowkey fumbled with your fingers, the nervousness eating you from inside out as you tried to steady your breath. You did not know the exact reason of your nervousness. Perhaps, because it was the first time you would meet him directly? Or maybe because of the fact that you might face some sleepless nights, considering the huge amount of work a personal assistant was obliged to do.

However, it was too late to turn back, and you couldn’t help but slowly regret agreeing with replacing Seulgi as Park Jimin’s personal assistant. You were desperately in the need for money, though. And you knew that Kang Seulgi’s monthly salary was literally thrice as much as yours.

“You can do this, Y/N,” you muttered underneath your breath, straightening your back as you already arrived at your destination, standing in front of the shining, wooden-colored door, eying the golden nameplate screwed against the surface of the door.

Park Jimin, CEO.

You took a deep breath, telling yourself that you would be fine, that you would be okay. You then knocked on the wooden door. Once. Twice. Thrice.

“Come on in!”

You jolted a bit in your stance, not expecting the CEO to holler at you like that. Taking another deep breath, you grabbed the golden doorknob with your clammy hands, before opening the door slightly. The door made a soft creaking sound as you opened it further, and before you entered his office, you first stuck your head into his office slightly, clearing your throat softly.

“Hello, Mr. Park. I’m Y/F/N, can I come in?”

The back of his chair was facing you, which was the reason that you could not see his face. The only thing that was in your vision at the moment, was the back of his head, his dark-brown hair neatly combed to the side. You quirked up your brows, as this was the first time you saw him having his hair like that, his bangs gone as his hair was styled upwards.

Not that you didn’t mind. You liked this style much better than his sloppy bangs anyways.

His huge, black leather chair made a soft squeaking sound, causing you to jolt up once again as you saw the chair turning around slowly. Soon, the front side of his chair was facing your direction, and so was the perfectly shaped face of the person sitting in the chair.

It was hard to suppress the small gasp you were about to let out as your eyes came into contact with his.

But what was even harder, was to ignore the burning sting on your right wrist, as you balled your fists silently, hoping that the sting would fade away like that eventually.

You knew he felt it as well. By the way his left hand flew towards his right wrist as his sparkling orbs looked right into yours, and his face slightly cringed into a pained expression, you were sure that he felt the same damn burning sting you felt as well.

The longer the two of you looked at each other, the more your wrist felt burned, so you couldn’t help but look away quickly. As your eyes were settled on his desk, the sting on your wrist already lessened a bit. The both of you were not looking at each other anymore, but you were still holding onto your wrist, as you were trying to convince yourself that it was not what you assumed it could be.

And you knew that your CEO was doing the same thing, as you slowly shifted your eyes back to him once again, his face retorted in utter shock. Maybe panic was a better word for this.

Falling for a certain person has always been a weird concept to you. It actually still was. You never felt these so-called ‘butterflies’ in your stomach, and you never let a certain someone occupy your thoughts throughout a whole fucking day, like someone would do when they were in love. Simply said, you never let yourself fall in love with someone, at least not someone who was not destined to be your soulmate.

However, you never expected the utterly handsome and unreachable CEO in front of you, to be your one and only soulmate.

You shifted your eyes to your stinging wrist, the known, red tail clearly visible to your eyes as you tried to hold in a shocked gasp. You let out a trembling sigh, closing your eyes for a moment, somehow not ready to eye your soulmate directly, as if you were afraid to fall for him at any second.

And to be honest, you actually were afraid to fall in love with the man in front of you.

Because eventually, you were going to lose him. And the lively red tail on your hand would change its color into a dull grey one, a thing that would happen when your other half would… die.

“Jesus Christ,” the man in front of you mumbled, a small chuckle following afterwards, his eyes shifting towards your face as he shook his head with a deep sigh escaping his lips. Your eyes were already opened at that moment, but instead of looking at him directly, you locked your eyes with the grey, marbled floor beneath your slightly trembling feet.

If you were not so messed up and confused, you would have laughed at your own, ridiculous reflection on the shiny floor.

“Fate really is cruel. I never thought I would meet my soulmate in this short-lived life.”

Your eyes widened at his words. His voice was smooth and tender, yet the tone held something… harsh in it, as if he was trying to let out his anger in a somewhat neat way. You slowly lifted your head towards the man, trying to control your semi-irregular breathing, as you mentally prepared yourself to look at him.

As you laid your eyes on the CEO, you felt an intensity that you had never felt ever in your life. As if you couldn’t control it anymore, your heartbeat went insane, the speed increasing drastically. You laid your hands on your stomach, in which it felt like a million of butterflies were flying around, the feeling so intense that happiness was the right way to describe the feeling.

Is this what it felt like to meet your own, beloved soulmate?

“I don’t even know you, yet I already feel like you’re making me nuts,” he stated, the corners of his thick lips moving upwards as he looked at your form, scanning you from your slightly messed up bun to your black heels, your own feet trembling in them. You felt vulnerable, intimidated as his brown-colored eyes scanned you thoroughly. You learned from Seulgi that it was a usual habit of his when he would meet someone for the first time, and you couldn’t blame him for that, of course.

However, why did it feel so… insanely intense?

You cleared your throat once again, straightening your position before eying him directly into his eyes. Ignoring the shiver you felt going down your spine, you took a deep breath, your mind working hard to come up with some words which were acceptable enough to say out loud.

“Then, I think it’s the right time to get to know eachother, isn’t it?”

No, these bold words were not what you originally intended to say at your first meeting with Park Jimin at all.

You already imagined the anger on his face, the image of your CEO scolding you as he would show you who the real boss was here. Seulgi would be disappointed in you if she would be here, shaking her head disapprovingly with her arms crossed over her chest. You had to resist the urge of rolling your eyes at the thought of a disappointed Seulgi.

But instead of being furious at his temporarily personal assistant, who also happened to be his dearly beloved soulmate, Park Jimin could only smile at your bold words, his head tilted slightly to the side as he watched you from behind his desk, his black-raven hair swinging to the side as it followed the movement of his head.

“You might regret getting to know me better, Miss Y/N.”

You lifted up your brows, your lips pouted slightly as you gave him an impressive look. Rich, handsome and well-mannered. That was something to be impressed of, if you had to be honest.

Park Jimin rose up from his big-ass chair, looking like some kind of Goryeo king that was standing up from his throne, his expression not telling you anything as he took some steps forward, coming closer towards your figure. It took him five steps until he stopped, making him stand right in front of you. As you looked up, you realized that he was not as tall as he looked like, causing you to chuckle softly.

The idea of a ‘not-so-tall’ CEO amused you, really.

He touched your chin with his delicate fingers, the contact causing your wrist to burn slightly, but the feeling was more pleasurable than painful, and you didn’t know whether you liked it or hated it. His hand moved to your cheek slowly, as you saw his own eyes following the movement of his hand as well. His soft touch made your legs tremble and your scarred, or rather tattooed, wrist throbbing, the small distance in between the two of you driving you crazy.

“I feel bad for you being my soulmate, love,” he whispered out loud, causing your confused heart to skip a whole beat as you eyed him with wide eyes. You knew exactly what the guy was talking about.

And Park Jimin knew, that you were aware of what he was talking about.

“You’re my soulmate. You’re my freaking soulmate. I’m glad to inform you that you will live a long and healthy life, sweetheart.”

You wished he could stop with giving you these sweet nicknames, as the lively color in his eyes slowly faded away, his watery orbs slightly showing. You didn’t understand. Meeting your soulmate should make you happy, as you should be jumping around in joy once you would feel the burn on your wrist, before jumping into his arms as he held you in a warm bear-hug.

But all you could feel after meeting Park Jimin as your soulmate was confusion, sadness and pain. Maybe also some slight relief, but there was no happiness, nor joy found in your inner feelings.

“I’m sorry, Miss Y/N. I’m sorry that I have to be your soulmate.”

His sad and painful words stabbed you in your drastically throbbing heart, and before you could even stop them, tears were already flooding over your face. You did not exactly know why you felt sad all of a sudden. Maybe it was the fact that he felt guilty about being your soulmate, because he knew he did not have much time left on this world, and had to leave you before you would be able get to know him well. Or maybe you felt sorry for him. He had just found you, his soulmate, only to be taken away from him soon because he knew that he would had to leave eventually.

On top of that, you knew exactly why he felt sorry towards you. And you hated it. You hated it so much.

Because you knew it shouldn’t be like this. The both of you did not deserve to be treated like this.

Park Jimin was right. Fate was indeed, very cruel.

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lovemesomebagels · 7 years

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the longest, most detailed description of the past 24 hours

this has literally been one of the worst experiences of my life (tied with the time my friend nearly died from alcohol and food poisoning on the streets of Seoul).

saturday starts out peaceful enough doing some translation work in a cafe. i make plans to meet up with M (one of my best friends) to go find this lowkey famous donut cafe and we agree to meet at 서울역 but as i’m heading there via bus there’s bad traffic. M texts me- the entire area is blocked up because of the protest. bus driver tells us all to get off somewhere around 을지로4가 because he can’t go any further. i get off and try walking in the direction of 서울역, but while i’m distracted with the map on my phone i end up accidentally joining the protest march. (teaches me to pay more attention when crossing the road in big crowds, i guess...) i get increasingly overwhelmed with the number of people and police all around me. one of the marchers accidentally(?) hits me in the face with his flag and doesn’t bother apologizing. i start to panic. near tears, i ask a policeman (in Korean) where i am and how to get to the nearest subway station. he gives me a weird look and doesn’t answer.

i finally turn and walk back against the flow of people until i’m able to slip through the line of police and onto the sidewalk. i enter the first subway station i find (turns out to be 을지로1가) and i take it one stop to 시청. the train is crammed with people on their way to the protest and a group of teenagers make a fuss about my hair catching on one of the girl’s fur coat lining. (static is a thing??? calm down??)

i get out of the station and again try walking in the direction of 서울역 using back streets to avoid the march, but i end up getting turned around in a parking lot filled with police buses and start to cry while trying to reorientate myself. M calls and eventually manages to get my stressed, overwhelmed ass to 서울역 where we meet up and try to decide what to do next.

we end up going to the donut cafe after all. we take the subway and then have to catch a 마을버스 which usually aren’t crowded at all but the one we got on was packed to full capacity. the horn made a noise eerily similar to what i imagine a loud duck on helium would sound like. a man manages to stand on M’s ankle even though she’s wearing construction worker boots, and she spends the majority of the ride crushed under his armpit. it was surreal.

the cafe is very small and very crowded. we wait about 10~15 minutes to get seated, and then order a large box of mini donuts and specialty drinks. (M’s tastes better.) We leave after a while to go back to my place so i can drop my bag and take a quick shower before heading over to my friend J’s place for dinner. (to give this story more context, he’s also my ex.)

when we get there he has another friend over already (B), and one more arrives after us (MJ). it’s the first time we’ve all met but we have dinner and drinks and it goes relatively well in the beginning. lots of laughing and teasing. the boys all have a somewhat offensive sense of humor that makes me a bit uncomfortable but makes the three of them get along swimmingly. M ends up arguing about rape and feminism with J at one point; he ‘ends’ the argument with his steadfast opinion that men rape women simply because they tend to be physically stronger.

that was the first red flag.

around 11 it’s time to get home because both M and i live at least an hour away from J’s place, but we spend so much time trying to figure out how to get home that we end up missing all the last trains and buses. the boys are of no help whatsoever. we eventually decide it’s not worth getting taxis all the way back, so we go buy some contact cases and agree to catch the first train in the morning. the boys get increasingly more drunk. M and i just get tired.

around 2 MJ leaves for home and the rest of us get ready to go to sleep. J offers M and me the bed and says he and B would sleep in the living room. but then B drunkenly takes over the bed while M and i are dealing with our contacts. J says “well, if you really want it, go in and convince him.”

red flag number two.

i’m tired and already annoyed that we missed the last train home and don’t want to sleep on the floor, so i go into the bedroom and try to wake him up and convince him to let us have the bed as promised. he keeps shifting around on the bed as i nudge and prod him, and then suddenly he grabs my wrist and yanks me onto the bed with him.

“you can share it with me,” he says, as if that somehow solves the problem.

i sigh, thinking it was just a one-time drunken fluke, and lay there for a second deciding how else i might be able to talk him into giving up the bed. but then he shifts closer, his arm latches around me, and he immediately begins to grope me.

“what are you doing!?” i gasp, wrenching myself free immediately and slapping his arm away. he whines pathetically and continues to grab me and pull me back onto the bed. he’s a retired boxer and even when drunk he’s stronger than me. his hold on my wrist is tighter than anything i’ve ever felt, and i can already feel the bruises forming.

“stop it! no! what are you doing? come on, just get up!” i continually snap at him, getting rapidly more and more frightened. i can hear J and M chatting and giggling in the living room. i go out, flustered, hoping one of them would try next. but neither of them move. i sit down on the blanket on the floor but then realize there’s only one pillow and get even more frustrated with the situation. i go back in, determined to at least take the pillows and blankets.

after once again being tugged, groped (this time tits and crotch), and kissed on the hand, i manage to get him to stand up. i’m relieved, thinking it’s finally over and he’ll go out to the living room so M and i can sleep in the bedroom, but then he shuts the door and stands in front of it. i hear someone in the living room joke “looks like they’re getting the bed tonight” or something like that. i feel like i’m about to vomit.

he continues to try to force me onto the bed. i stay as far away from him as possible and slap his hands away. he collapses back onto the bed, grumpy that things aren’t going his way with me. i resort to begging. i try a gentle approach instead and trace ‘please get up’ onto his arm, hoping maybe a calm request would work instead of the poking and prodding i’d originally tried. in the end J and M help get the mattress out into the living room and we agree to all sleep out there. i tell M about the bruises on my wrists, and then J when he asks what we’re talking about. i try laughing it off, playing it down. i’m too scared to cause a scene. my heart is racing and i just want everything to stop.

M and i lay down on the mattress, but then B shoves M aside and basically collapses on top of me, half-crushing me against the wall. i reach out to M from around his back, desperate for help, silently asking her to get him off me, but she doesn’t have her contacts in and she can’t see my expression at all. both J and M just think it’s playful. i laugh, but nothing is funny about it. neither of them can pick up on my fear and the panic is making it hard to think. what do i do? what do i do??

B once again starts to grope me and shove his hand between my legs. i roll and kick and tell him to stop. he bites me on the arm, hard. i scream and leap up. i tell M. she’s incredulous. “why would he bite you??”

eventually B goes back into the bedroom and sleeps on the bed frame. M and i take the mattress. J is on the floor next to us. since J and M both sleep with headphones in they agree to share his headphones and lay close together. i try to watch tv over them to distract myself from my racing heartbeat. after a little while i notice J stroking M’s arm, playing with her hair, kissing her right in front of me. i feel ill. why? why now? why right here? is this why you haven’t noticed what’s been happening to me?

i start texting my sister and coworker, desperate for a distraction. at one point M rolls over and notices i’m still awake. J goes out for a smoke. i ask her if they kissed, knowing the answer. she giggles and nods. i can’t help but get mad in that moment. it’s irrational; looking back, i hid my fear very well. it was entirely understandable that she didn’t pick up on it. but in that moment i was so desperate for someone to help me, to pick up on my distress without me having to say it out loud, and i felt betrayed.

that is when she finally seems to realize i’m not okay.

after that she stays up talking with me. she bodily blocks B every time he comes near. at one point she kicks him squarely in the chest, and in that split second i’m caught between utter fear -- what if he retaliates? -- and gratitude. she stays as my physical and emotional border for the rest of the night until it’s time to leave for the subway station to catch the first train. by then both boys are finally passed out. i hate that they are both sleeping peacefully when i feel so violated.

i get home around 7am. go to bed. have a nightmare reliving it all and wake up dry-heaving.

i don’t know what to do with myself. i’m trying to work through the anger, fear, embarrassment, frustration, regret. i don’t want to blame J or M because i know logically they had no way of really knowing what was happening to me. i know B is going to argue that i was ‘into it’ because i kept going back in for the pillows/mattress. because i kept laughing. because i tried sweet-talking him into giving up the bedroom.

but i have a hoarse throat from yelling at him to stop and bruises and bite marks on my hips, wrists, and arms to remind me that i wasn’t fucking asking for it.

#personal

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