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Sometimes it scares me how much I think about going out for a walk, and never coming home. How willing I am to leave everything I have, and everyone I know.

s.m

#run away #runaway #drug addict #drugs #scared #fear #anxiety #depression #broken home #broken family #leave #gone #depressed #depressing #anorexia #orthorexia #bulimia #eating disorders #leaving home #escape #escape it all #help me #save me #suicide #suicidal #suicidal thoughts #thoughts #overthinking #thinking #emotions

[depresso-espresso-5150]

My thoughts have destroyed me more than blades ever could.

I dunno

#self-harm #sad quotes #depressing quotes #quotes about depression #depression quotes #suicidal #suicide #suicidal thoughts #hopeless #giving up #i'm done #i cant do this anymore #when will it end #pain #emotions #emotional #feelings #blades #tw

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I don't reblog but this is important and I support it so here you go. Even when engaging in unsafe behaviors (self harm and other things) please be as safe as possible.

more harm reduction resources for people who self-harm

more resources on how to be as safe as possible when self-harming

more info on what tools are safest, how to prevent infection, what products to use on wounds afterwards

less shaming people who self-harm, less telling people not to self-harm at all when they ask how they can be safer, less stigma around self-harm

more harm reduction for people who self-harm

[depresso-espresso-5150]

"I feel trapped with no escape, but like a heart locked away inside of a ribcage, maybe this is where I belong."

by me

#mental illness #ptsd #emotions #mental health #quotes #drugs #words #original quote #original writing #anxienty #Trapped #Escape #deep quotes #Poem #Poetry #Writing #Author #Books

[depresso-espresso-5150]

ive never related to a song more than Melanie Martinez song dollhouse "when you turn your back she pulls out a flask and forgets his infidelity" is literally my mom. "Smile for the picture pose with your brother won't you be a too sister" my grandma hiding problems with pretty pretty pictures. An not in the correct context but "I see things that nobody else sees" I've been hallucinating scary shit since I was 9. Anyway just needed to get that out. I know no ones gonna see this but its a vent account so I don't care lmao.

#mental illness #ptsd #emotions #mental health #quotes #drugs #melanie martinez #crybaby #melanie martinez portals #family problems #toxic family #Spicy childhood

[depresso-espresso-5150]

Suicide is illegal because it is a crime to destroy government property.

I dunno (But some smart bitch, that’s for sure.)

#suicide #illegal #mental illness #mental disorder #help me #suicidal #eating disorder #anorexia #proana #promia #bulimia #self harm #i cant do this anymore #im done #im sorry #save me #orthorexia #anxiety #anxious #guilt #sadness #depression #depressed #drugs #government #usa government #President #election #fuck politics #fuck the government

[depresso-espresso-5150]

One who is trapped within himself will do anything to be free.

I dunno

#suicide #trapped #free #i want to be free #help me #suicidal #emotional #feelings #mental health #mental illness #bipolar #anorexia #bulimia #eating disorders

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I destroy myself so there's nothing left for other people to break.

idk not me

#destroy #sad #sadness #depressed #depression #alcoholic #drug addict #addicted #addictions #addicted to drugs #depresso-espresso #suicidal #suicide #self harm #self injury #self injure #i hate me too #body dysmorphia #ed #eating disorder #anorexia #anorex!a #anorexic #bulimia #bulimic #bulim!a #binge eating disorder #bed

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"Just tired," she muttered. But you could tell that it was not just a lack of sleep, but a lack of hope and happiness that made her act the way she did.

(h.m)

#sadness #depression #depressed #suicidal #suicide #suicidal thoughts #just tired #tired #give up #giving up #gave up #given up #anorexia #bulimia #mental illness #mental health #feelings #emotions #orthorexia #eating disorder #sad #depressing #emotional #sleep deprived #hopeless #im done #i want to die #help me #save me #save me from myself

[depresso-espresso-5150]

It’s loud inside my head...

I don’t know how to explain what this means. When I tried to explain to my mom, she only gets more confused. And if I’m being honest, I don’t evem know what it is.

It’s not like voices, not like racing thought. I have both of those too, and this is different. The “loud” isn’t thoughts, it isn’t like yelling or words, not buzzing or a high pitch screetching.It’s just loud. 

I hate that I can tell you what it’s not, but I can’t tell you what it is. I hate when it’s loud inside my head but I haven’t found a way to make it stop. 

#loud #thoughts #late nights #late night thoughts #depressed #loud thoughts #overthink #overthinking #mental illness #bpd #borderline #borderline personality disdorder #suicidal #depression #ed #ana #mia #anorexia #bulimia #orthorexia #anxiety #anxiousz

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Everything’s just been too much lately—I’m not sure how much more of this I can take.

idk not me

#sad #sadness #im sad #im not okay #i want to die #suicide #suicidal #suicidal thoughts #suicidal actions #suicide attempt #suicide attempts #overdose #OD #hanging #cut #cutting #i wanna cut #i cut myself #i wanna die #i wanna get high #drugs #drug #drug addiction #drug addictions #molly #xans #xanax #xannies #percs #perc30

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I know what it's like to wanna die, how it hurts to smile, how you try to fit in but you can't, how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the thing on the inside.

I dunno

#suicide #suicidal #self-harm #self harm #hurt #pain #help me #save me #im sorry #fit in #i cant smile #i cant do this anymore #im done #kms #kill mysef #anorexia #orthorexia #bulimia #depression #give up #given up #i gave up #gave up #depressed #depressing #anxiety #anxious #fear

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Too sad to cry, so she smiled.

Not me

#sad #sadness #im sad #feeling #feelings #emotion #emotions #depressed #depression #depresso espresso #depressing #suicidal #suicide #break #breaking #breaking point #broken #fucked up #cry #crying #cried #cries #she cries #smile #give up #giving up #given up #i give up #i gave up #gave up

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I'm here for you," "You're not alone," "You will always have me" Fucking bullshit. When it's 2:30 A.M, and ,my self-loathing claws it's way up my throat, and rips itself from my mouth in a silent scream, I am alone. When the blade parts my skin, when the cuts get deeper, there is no one, I am alone. When the only real thing is the blood running down my arms, I am alone. You say you are here, but you're not.

(a.m)

#suicide #self harm #TW #self-loathing #wanna die #self-hate #silent scream #alone #blade #i am alone #suicidal #cutting #hurting myself #im sorry #guilty #guilt #depression #depressed #sad #give up #given up #'gave up #anorexia #bulimia #orthorexia #eating disorders #mental health #mental illness #help me #save me

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There comes a point where you no longer care if there's a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You're just sick of the tunnel.

Ranata Suzuki

#giving up #suicidal #mental health #mental illness #anorexia #bulimia #self harm #KILL MYSELF #im done #i cant do this anymore #suicide #emotional #trapped #save me #eating disorder #bipolar #anxiety #anxious #blades #kms #orthorexia #binge eating disorder #EDNOS #done #im sorry #i want to die #i need an escape #need to escape #escape #help me

[depresso-espresso-5150]

It's sad because everyone turns out exactly how they promised they never would.

s.b

#broken promise #broken promises #sad #sadness #lies #everyone lies #everybody lies #you promised #but you promised #alone #lonely #liar #you lied #fake #you're fake #fake friends #friends #family problems #family #it's sad #abandoned #abandonment #abandonment trauma #trauma #you left #you left me #they left me #they all left me #I'm alone #I'm lonely

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I have a problem where I just... push people away, to the point where, I ignore texts and calls, and I sit alone at night, wondering why I'm doing it, and how I can stop it. But something inside me just won't let me quit.

KC

#depression #depressed #depressing #anxiety #PTSD #pain #hurting #im hurting #quit #give up #i give up #given up #i gave up #gave up #suicidal #suicide #suicidal thoughts #self harm #hurt #alone #lonely #ignoring #ignore #isolating #self isolating #mental health #mental illness #anorexia #orthorexia #bulimia