The main system has In Memory Of Us to work on, but it’s hard to communicate between main and subsystem about what projects we’re working on. For us, the subsystem, we are working on a currently nameless romance story about mental health and learning to love healthily beyond illnesses. Here is the opening portion:
“I can’t love you!”
Those words sunk their teeth into my fragile flesh and tore an ugly hole in my chest.
“I can’t love anyone like you.”
Her words were made of mud, slathered across my image.
“Like me?” I scoffed. “Like me?”
She spared me no details. To love me was to love a stone wall, a scarecrow, a worm. To love me was to tear your own chest open and bleed for someone who doesn’t care. To love me was to hate yourself.
part of my deck of spirits project! i'm posting early previews of most cards on my patreon rather than my public social media, but i really like how this one turned out, so it gets to be posted publicly.
Breaking out of toxic cycles is difficult, because when things get boring, you want to start doing things your old self would've went and did. And you gotta stop and remind yourself that that's not you anymore, and you've made too much progress to go back to those kinda things.