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bolontiku · 2 years

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"See Yourself"

Avengers AU - Quick Fic

Characters: Thor x Reader

Posted: July 2nd

A/N: a draft dump, idk if this is any good but I cleaned it up as good as possible

WARNINGS: SMUT, NO UNDER 18

Like, Comments, & Reblogs are always appreciated and loved.

Thor grinned, it had gone so horribly wrong. He saw you look at him and you dropped your head to the counter top with a groan.

"You're laughing!"

"I am not! " He exclaimed with a chuckle. Truth be told he couldn't believe your story. "No, seriously, tell me again?"

"THOR!! Be serious, you said you would be my friend!" You wanted to cry, but it was so bad you hadn't been able to not call him and beg him to meet you.

Thor was your friend, even after that searing kiss… it had led to nothing unfortunately. Well, aside from being awkward around the other, which led the two of you avoiding each other till you caved. You missed his easy friendship.

'Let's just be friends, we can do that right?' You had asked, desperate to have your ridiculous friend back.

Thor had stared at you, head cocking to one side and you held your breath, then he smiled and gave you a small nod, 'of course.'

The rest was history.

You had fallen back into your friendship and gone back to dating others. Thor is always ready to listen to your horror stories.

Which meant that he would always check on you when you said you had a date and he would be waiting with beer and pizza for the inevitably bad ones. He had been worried as you had been seeing a certain one for the last month. "I thought it was going well?"

You buried your face in your arms, unlike before you had asked him to meet you at a local bar. The music and chatter of other patrons helped distract you from how he looked only at you. There had been a group of girls that had sulked by, obviously throwing him seductive eyes and speaking louder than necessary. He had ignored it and dropped another bottle in your hand.

"It was… and that's why I went to his apartment…" you pouted at your bottle.

"Y/N…"

You nearly cried at the disappointment in his voice. "I KNOW!!"

Thor kept his gaze settled on you, as you dropped your face into your palm and he reached out; the urge to caress your jaw and assure you everything would be fine was strong, instead he gripped your shoulder. "Tell me again then, what happened?"

You groaned again, "I should quit dating."

There was an idea, Thor raised his eyebrows and shot you his classic grin. "Ah, yes, and slowly and quietly disappear into old age."

"You know that doesn't happen with me?" He shoved your shoulder, "fine! So, I go back to his apartment with him and things get hot and heavy and… I catch him staring at himself in the mirror!"

Thor blinked, "this is a bad thing?"

You sigh and your shoulders drop. "It's not, when it is utilized correctly, watching yourself have sex is great its just… he was literally flexing and staring at himself!" You shuddered, "killed the mood."

Thor balked, "then you did not…?"

You shook your head and turned in the barstool to stare at the passing patrons. Talking about sex was one thing but talking about sex with Thor was another. Your mind wandered and… he was your friend.

"Y/N," he started carefully, "when was the last time you-"

"I just need to go home," you interrupted, downing the remainder of your beer.

"You've had much drink, let me accompany you home."

"I'm fine!" You scrunched your face at him and stood.

Thor reached out to steady you as you swayed and felt a hand fall on his shoulder, you followed his gaze over his thick shoulder to the small petite woman standing behind him.

"Aren't you Thor?!" She gushed excitedly.

Your face fell, what was wrong with you?! Literally telling him about how you were having the sex with another man and you were getting a smidge jealous over some… some… "FLOOZY!"

Thor's grip tightened as he heard you gasp, the sound of your hand slapping over your mouth audible even in this loud environment.

"Excuse me?!" She scoffed.

You attempted to pry his thick fingers off your waist as you shook your head, "I am so drunk! I need to leave… just, Thor? Please let go-?"

He dragged you under his arm and smiled at the young woman before him. "Forgive us, we were just leaving."

The ride home couldn't be quick enough, Thor kept you firmly planted to his side, arm wrapped around you, his large palm resting on your hip, thumb stroking your thigh just enough to distract you. You babbled the entire time, what you said you weren't sure of.

Thor let himself into your apartment, easily moving you and setting you on the couch, getting you a glass of water and the aspirin. You swallowed a few pills as he directed you to and then he sat down and pulled you into his side again.

A little sigh escaped you as he flipped through the channels. "Thor?" He hummed in response, "do you regret not…" you snapped your mouth shut and stared ahead, you would ruin your friendship.

You had been nervous on the ride back, he had found your babbling cute, and watched to see if you would push him away but you didn't.

Thor pressed a kiss to your temple, and then adjusted you, pressing another kiss to your neck before he shifted so that you were sitting between his thighs, "Tell me if you want me to stop, yes?" He breathed into the curve of your neck, pressing another kiss there to your racing heart beat, thick hands slipping over your thighs to grip and knead them.

Your breath quickened as he did so, "Thor?"

"Hmm?" He pressed one hand between your thighs, pressing along the material of your jeans and watching in fascination as your hips jerked up into his palm seeking more friction. "There's a good girl," he breathed roughly, there was no hiding his excitement, which pressed up into your backside.

You nearly melted when his tongue swept out and over your pulse and then your jeans were pushed down without ceremony.

He could eat you up with your little whimpers and squeaks and he planned to, but first- he slid his hands between your legs, two thick digits running down the length of your panty covered folds and when your head fell back on his shoulder with a small hiss and a sigh he took that as a sign to keep going, even as you gripped his forearm in your hands.

Tugging your panties to one side he dipped his fingers in, growing harder as he found how wet you were, "for me?" He asked, fingers running along your folds.

"Thor!"

You were so adorable, hiding your face in his shoulder as best you could and so he dipped his fingers into you, watching as you writhed against him, doing his best to keep control as your ass ground into his growing election. "Now, if we had a mirror I would show you how you looked at this moment," you whimpered as his voice found its way into your veins, lightning whipping through you and down your spine. Thor added his thumb, circling your clit with it as he slowly dragged his fingers in and out, stroking the storm that swept through you, heat and lightning settling in your tummy to coil low.

"Shall I stop?" He asked, voice heavy and thick with desire.

"NO! J-just… oh, good god!"

He grinned as your hips snapped, "so very good for me Y/N.."

You could feel him pressing up into you through the material of his jeans and you reached back fumbling with them. He caught your wrists in his free hand and tutted at you, "not yet," he growled and you nearly wept as he continued to drive his fingers into you slowly, intentionally. "I want you to come for me first."

"Oh fuck," not that that would be a problem with his thick fingers dragging in and out of you, you just wanted him inside of you already. "Thor!" It was breathy and whiny, you didn't recognize your own voice as he continued.

That was enough, you weighed nothing to him, it was ridiculous the amount of times you protested when he picked you up, claiming you were too heavy. Right now, he easily moved you to your back, your jeans and boots clattering to the floor behind him before he tugged your legs over his thick shoulders and proceeded to greedily shove his face between them.

You were still reeling from the quick change in position when his tongue swept up through your folds and your breath slammed out of you. You had been certain if you kept squirming against him you could get him to cave but- your brain blanked as he added his fingers, tongue sweeping over your clit, swirling around it before he turned his head to nip at your inner thigh,, fingers pumpkin in and out mercilessly.

Thor grinned as you bucked against him. Why did you insist on dating and returning to tell him bad tales? He would show you exactly what you had been missing, show you how he would treat you every night. Have you available his name only as you gave him everything as it should have been from that first night.

You dug your hands into his hair, your body tightening as he curled his fingers deep inside of you relentlessly, wicked tongue lapping and teeth nipping. You jolted when his hand slapped across your ass, a small cry escaping you. Your chest rose and fell with each desperate breath, head buzzing as fire swept through you, coiling and collecting deep in your gut until-

Thor grinned as you screamed his name, head buried in the cushions of your couch, back arched, legs clamped tightly around his head, fingers curled in his hair. He took his time indulging in your sweet taste even after you lay boneless under him.

"Thor?" Your voice was soft, tired and blissed out.

He hummed and caught your hands in his when you reached down, "tonight was about you."

"Oh"

He chuckled softly and pressed a kiss to your lips before moving to lay you atop him, letting you settle, enjoying the feel of your soft frame on his.

You pressed your palms over his broad chest, "Thor?"

"Hmm?"

"You'll stay?"

"I had no other plan."

You hummed contentedly as you drifted off into sleep.

#see yourself #thor x reader #thor odinson #avengers au #quick fic #draft dump

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mytearsarethestars5 · 2 years

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Today I sat with my grief

When I felt it.

I recognized it as an old friend,

Instead of an intruder.

I welcomed it with open arms,

And held it close to me.

I comforted it,

Until there was nothing but calm,

And though it did not dissipate,

And will undoubtedly come again,

I will welcome it once more,

Instead of turning it away at the door.

I will see it when no one else has,

Recognize it no matter the pain,

And comfort it until it no longer aches,

And finds its place in what I call

My new normal.

Greeting Grief

- S.S.B

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wisdom-and-such · 1 year

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“Pointing directly at the human heart, see your own self to attain Buddhahood.”

Another of Zen Master Hakuin’s paintings of Bodhidharma, but this time a different inscription.

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treasuresdocuseries · 2 years

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Dear Survivors, You are a GOOD THING!

God shows His power through creation, His sovereignty through design, and His holiness through intention. As sure as light splitting from darkness and land rising from the sea, from the beasts that fly and swim and crawl, to the dust of the earth weaved into the first ordained priests of His image...There can be no question:

You are one of the good things of the world.

God looked at you, still being woven in your mother’s womb, and declared that your beauty would surpass any mineral, mountain, or moon. To know Him and that we are known by Him empowers us to know how specially chosen, how wonderfully made, how indivisibly precious we are. See the purpose shaping every curve, the sacrifice lifting every blemish, the wisdom smoothing every edge, the love anointing every detail...

AND DISCOVER YOUR BEAUTY AS GOD'S CHILD.

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silverspleen · 5 months

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Every time I see that G--gle phone photoshop commercial my heart is filled with infinite sadness, like, yeah it's cool you can have a good family photo, it's cool you can do that, but god, there is something to be said for the honesty of a family photo where you're blinking, or crying, or have ugly wrinkles.

What is too unsightly for you? Would you swipe-click-replace out the image of my cousin crying on our Florida trip family reunion photo? Would you remove the plastic snake I have clenched in my grip, which I still have to this day? Would you scoff at the wrinkles around our eyes and the strands of hair on our faces as we squint into the wind, the day before the massive storm? Would I remember it if I didn't have these reminders, if the picture was perfect and clean, all children in a row with perfect gleaming white tombstone tooth smiles? No tears. No plastic snake.

Everyone is beautiful and no one looks genuine.

#like it's cool it's cool but also IT HURTS.#BE UGLY #HAVE AN UNFLATTERING PICTURE OF YOURSELF #it's who you are #people are often unflattering and it's genuine #anyway stupid candid camera shots will always be my favorite pictures of myself #I like to see how I look when I'm not posing #the dragoon diaries

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endusviolence · 1 month

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Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

#transgender #trans history #transsexual #transphobia #Magnus Hirschfeld #holocaust #holocaust denial #book burning #j.k. rowling #jk rowling #just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :)#trans people have always existed #and we will always exist #if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit #queer history #queer #lgbt+#lgbta+#lgbt #lgbt history #edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month #also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it #it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs #and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had #also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2 #Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices #considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived

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soopsiedaisies · 11 months

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this is for those who despair over seeing ships or tropes that make them uncomfortable while they do their little scrolly-scroll on ao3, acting like they aren’t responsible for their own internet experience

(alternatively, the back button also works)

#ao3 #fanfiction #fandom #‘but seeing that makes me uncomfortable!’ THEN EXCLUDE THE TAGS #it’s intuitive!! it is simple!! PLEASE STOP upsetting yourself #proship

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craftbadger · 1 year

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I don’t know who needs to hear this, but if you’re at a low point:

If you were a fictional man right now, there would be *at least* ten people if not a large portion of the fanbase that would call you their wet beast poor little meow meow

#whenever you’re sad you’re a blorbo #you’d be someones fucking comfort character #and they’d want to see how you grow #after the hardships you’ve suffered #romanticize yourself #romanticize your life #idk who needs to hear this #positivity #blorbo #weird positivity #textpost #relatable #weirdly inspiring

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fairydriver · 3 months

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if you post an image in discord itll round the corners, but once you hit a certain smallness it rounds into a circle. so basically if you make an image that is 32x32 and you post it in discord itll go from this

to this.

so you basically can just draw a little face in mspaint or something and paste it into discord and itll look like a little emoji. you can potentially mess around with this a lot, its proportional to your image going smaller and it doesnt have to be a square either.

#I THINK THIS HAS A LOT OF FUN POTENTIAL #discord #i am reblog locking this bc i lack the ability to properly issue corrections (see replies)#and also because getting notes like this causes me some distress #please feel free to issue a version of this post that is more accurate yourself (any reader)#but i will refrain #i still think its fun tho i initially noticed this at the 16 scale where it works regardless #just have fun and express yourself in a carefree manner

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manhattan-gamestop · 6 months

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Out of curiosity rb and put in the tags how many fics come up when you type your last name into ao3. Apparently even though my last name is uncommon there's like 500

#don't add your last name to this post (obvs)#but after seeing a post about looking up your hometown I was like huh #tag yourself #rambling #tracking tag

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