#csa poem

[unspokenwordsbyhb]

#poems and quotes #depressing poem #poemsociety #csa poem #poem of the day #spilled poetry #trauma poem #csa poetry #trauma poetry #poetry #writers and poets #poetic #ptsd tw #ptsd art #ptsdlife #ptsd thoughts #cptsd problems #tw cptsd #just cptsd things

[fledgeling-child]

#traumacore #vent art #csa vent #csa vent art #trauma vent #trauma vent art #vent #trauma #abuse vent #abuse vent art #haiku #haiku poem #haiku vent #haiku vent art #poem vent #poem vent art #trauma art #traumacore art

[medicineteeth]

I know you didn’t mean to not notice the abuse.

You say it almost every time we talk,

“If only you had told me.”

That would’ve helped,

But a little girl isn’t supposed to be so good at hiding her wounds.

If only you had noticed.

I know you didn’t mean to,

But why is it my fault

For “hiding things so well.”

Dear god,

I didn’t even know what I was doing.

I don’t want to be angry,

I know you didn’t mean to,

But mom,

It is not my fault

For being a scared little girl,

With no one she can trust.

#it’s almost like I couldn’t come to you with anything #it’s almost like you’re so traumatized yourself you have the emotional capacity of a rock #I don’t blame you for that #I know your life was hard #but I wish you could’ve mothered me #and I wish you could’ve helped #actuallytraumatized #traumacore #ventcore #abuse tw #trauma poem #trauma poetry #mine #writing #actually abused #mommy issues #csa vent #csa survivor #csa tw

[flowersbark]

my body

my autonomy

my philosophy

my psychology

will always just be

what you made of me

#vent #vent post #cw vent #tw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa survivor #sa vent #sa victim #sa survivor #sa poem #poetry #cocsa poem #vent poem #vent blog #csa vent #csa victim

[milkyspine]

— gynecologist, room 202

#mine #writers of tumblr #poetry #spilled ink #writing #okay to rb #poem #spilled words #tw: trauma #tw: trigger #? #tw: flashback #tw: csa #tw: sa #tw: rape #got triggered at the gynecologist #don't know if it was the disposition of the person or what they were saying or the invasive vulnerable feeling of the whole thing #it was just awful #like i was back there #felt 8 again and stupid #following directions even when i wasn't okay #maybe next time will be better. if i can make myself go to another appointment #anyway #i hope every bad memory you've ever had leaves you alone #hope you sleep well and never think of it again #wishful thinking maybe but i'll hope for it anyway #you deserve that

[pixiedoll2]

I'm a little lamb

A sacrificial lamb to their happiness

They keep dragging me to the alter

Im destined to get hurt over and over again

So they can wear the "perfect family " title

While the little lamb bleeds out in the background

#tw vent #sad poem #tw family trauma #family issues #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #cocsa survivor #csa vent #emotional abuse #dysfunctional family #toxic family #psychological abuse

[a-is-healing]

Poems for Survivors

Hello survivors,

If you are a CSA or SA survivor, I want to write you a poem.

If you want this, send an ask. Either a few words you want me to use. Or your story. Or anything you want.

Poetry is a part of my CSA recovery and I would like to share this with other survivors.

I care about you and I am proud of you, and keep fighting.

Signed, A.

#poetry #trauma coping #trauma warning #recovery #coping #healing #writing #trauma #csa warning #sa warning #sa survivor #csa survivor #trauma survivor #violence survivor #poems for survivors

[mimikyudying]

i tried

i took the pills i was given

i went to the hospital

i tried to get better

i tried to forget you

i tried to forgive you

i pretended it never happened

i changed everything about myself

but you left a stain on me

and it’ll never go away

no matter how much i try

#csa vent #csa tw #sa tw #vent tw #vent post #vent poem #bpd #ptsd vent #traumacore #ventcore #csa survivor

[sirenicornio]

I'm surprised by people who call Alois a whore or a slut, because I've never really seen Alois behave that way and it makes me wonder, did we see the same show? Yes, it is somewhat flirtatious and "provocative", but it does not go beyond that line. On the contrary, he was very jealous and possessive of the people he considered important. A character like Gilbert Cocteau, to contrast, does have more characteristics mentioned (but he is a victim of sa, so those characteristics should not be attributed to him at all)

#just girly thoughts #vent post #tw csa #alois trancy #black butler #kuroshitsuji #kazeki #gilbert cocteau #keiko takemiya #kaze to ki no uta #the poem of the wind and the trees #la balada del viento y los árboles

[unspokenwordsbyhb]

#poetry #poem #love poem #poems on tumblr #spilled poetry #short poem #poem of the day #poemsociety #depressing poem #poems and quotes #trauma poetry #trauma poem #csa poem #csa poetry #just cptsd things #tw cptsd #cptsd problems #ptsdlife #ptsd art #ptsd tw #ptsd thoughts

[angel-on-the-cutting-room-floor]

#;mywebs #web weaving #poetry #prose #poem #tw sa implied #csa implied #rape survivor

[deer-eyed-dolly]

SOUNDS LIKE DESIRE

#oc poetry #oc poem #poetry #actually traumatized #actuallytraumatized #actually bpd #bpd tag #bpd vent #tw dv #tw csa

[gorkaya-trava]

fever // 2021

#poetry #poem #dark poem #dark poetry #poets on tumblr #poems on tumblr #tw sh related #tw ed related #tw csa #tw csa mention #csa survivor #child abuse #abuse survivor #traumacore #trauma #actually mentally ill #actually traumatized #ok to reblog

[stumbling-after-happiness]

TW (CSA)

A hard thing for me about being a CSA survivor/victim is that it can be like living a double life.

I’ll stand in the supermarket check out line like I didn’t have a seriously effed up childhood, holding some discounted fruit. And no one around me knows that I’m trying to cope with the earth-shattering knowledge that my own mother and father were my abusers. And most other people seem to be waiting in line with their supplies as though they have no idea the pain that someone can inflict on another.

Some people sadly probably do know about this deep pain. However, we just wait there with our waiting faces, trying to get our food and go.

It’s like I’ve just survived a horrendous ship wreck and I’ve pulled myself to shore. My hair is matted, clothes hanging off, pale skin, dirty nails, shivering, no shoes, and a wild desperation in my eyes. And the people around me are just walking past.

The invisibility I feel as a survivor is no one’s fault, however it’s so strange living in a world where many others have no idea of the suffering I’ve experienced.

And the expectation is there that I should be a fully functioning adult with a job, neat little life, and average levels of happiness. When I’m still coming to terms with what I lost in a storm.

#life #freedom #cptsd #csa survivor #child abuse survivor #ptsd #actual survivor #survivor #childhood ptsd #ptsd thoughts #poem #vent #trauma #trauma vent #childhood trauma #healing #healing trauma #rough childhood #actually ptsd #cptsdwarrior #just cptsd things #cptsdawareness #cptsd recovery #tw cptsd #cptsd tag #cptsd vent #artist #quote #art

[princessofpatras]

It’s Been Eighteen Years Since My Last Confession

Forgive me, Father,

I couldn’t swallow the god

you shoved down my throat.

The flesh and the wine

were too much for my stomach,

the prayer too hard

on my knees.

The holiest part

of your book is the plot—it’s

been feeding the moths,

like you feed your own

greed with the lies that you sell.

You satisfy your appetites

using your proximity to a savior

who’d hate you if he could see

how you look from my point of view—

searching for heaven

on my knees.

#fuck it here’s a poem #my writing #my poetry #i don’t like the way tumblr formatted this but it is what it is #poetry #religion #catholicism #ex catholic #anti catholicism #tw abuse #tw csa #please be nice im not much of a poet #not lykmc #but lykmc adjacent #writeblr #writers on tumblr #poems #spilled ink

[milkyspine]

#mine #writers of tumblr #poetry #spilled ink #writing #okay to rb #poem #spilled words #tw: trauma #tw: csa #tw: abuse #tw: dv #i'm sicker every day #i think i was so focused on my oldest brother & dad's friend that everything else seemed not worth mentioning or nowhere near as bad #but then i casually mentioned to one of my friends some of what my youngest of my older brothers used to do #and i realised as i was saying it that it wasn't normal #it just felt like the realisation i had about my oldest brother all over again #it feels like there is always more for me to process #everyt time i think i've bared it all.there's always something else #first dad's friend. then my oldest brother. now the youngest. #dad overlooking it all #i just want none of it to be real #i don't understand how all of this happened to me without anyone doing anything about it #i keep wishing i'd done something to stop it to save myself. #and i know i saved myself the only way i could #but it wasn't enough. #anyway #i hope you're as okay as you can be