#soul-deep love

[hitlikehammers]

nowhere without you

rating: t ♥️ cw: post-final battle, hurt/comfort ♥️ tags: established relationship, hurt/comfort, BIG emotions, even BIGGER love, as in: soul-deep love, softness; happy endings always ♥️

for @steddielovemonth day eight: Love is the heartbeat I can feel when I hug him

(also probably the humble love-soaked endlessly-devoted beginnings of the rockstar!husbands in je ne regrette rien)

The weirdest part is how, in the aftermath, Eddie doesn’t speak. Like, at all.

Scratch that: it’s the weirdest and the most concerning part. Eddie makes noise, mostly pained kinda moans that make Steve’s chest clench, ache more the admittedly-decently-deep wounds slowly—but reliably, like, consistently—stitching themselves together, and Steve begs him to get looked at again, because something has to be wrong to cause those kinds of sounds but Eddie doesn’t even shake his head, doesn’t really move at all save that sometimes he trembles, and it’s…

It fucking breaks Steve’s heart.

He’s almost gotten used to stroking Eddie’s hair in silence—so wrong; worthy Eddie that’s just so wrong—and working any tangles out so, much as it’s getting a limp and greasy with days of neglect, at least it’s smooth; but he’s almost resigned to this for the long haul because he’ll weather anything he has to for Eddie and they’ll work through this, whatever this is, they’ll worth through it together and—

“How did you stand you it?”

The sound is more a scratch than anything, glass on sandpaper, and it’s down to Eddie lying where he hasn’t left for the last four, going on five days—as in, not once while Steve’s been awake has he existed without Eddie’s weight situated just so against his chest, sinuous and deliberate in where he presses against, careful as a rule of Steve’s worst injuries and delicate about how he rests against Steve’s body, but not…hesitant.

More, kinda…kinda desperate.

So it’s down to him being pressed so close and sure and unwavering that Steve feels him speak more than anything, matches the motion of his lips against Steve’s gown to words rather than the wind, or something outside his door to the halls of the hospital beyond; it’s down to the tension in the whole of him, the all-too-present shaking that Steve matches the scrape of the question to a hurt that’s…that maybe Steve doesn’t wholly understand just yet, but that really and truly does cut him deeper and closer and more critical at the core of him than the Upside Down ever could have clawed in: Eddie lives in him, nothing else can really…ever hope to be deeper.

“How are you,” Eddie rolls gravel across more words, and Steve’s missed his voice so fucking much, he didn’t realize how much until it’s here again for him to hear and hold but, Jesus fuck, it’s like…it’s like it’s drowning; like Eddie is drowning and then his breath is hitching, and oh, god, that voice is cracking around the edge of a sob, watery and wavering as he damn-near close to begs:

“How did you survive it?”

Steve feels it clench in his ribs, because he thinks he…he thinks he’s putting it together. The strain, the agony in that voice, that voice he loves so fucking much, from this man he loves with everything, but then—the way Eddie presses into him. The force, and the position, and the pattern. The way he’s been quiet, unfailing, but never…never seems distant, seems the opposite: seems focused; intent. The way Dustin had come in and caught him upon the things he’d missed in one of the almost-nonexistent windows where Eddie sleeps, hand lines alongside his sternum and head curled in the most uncomfortable pretzel Steve can imagine, forehead all scrunched and eyes squeezed shut so goddamn hard, looking like any sleep he manages is nothing close to rest by any measure: but Dustin had came in and told him Eddie was the first to him; Eddie ran faster than he’d seen a person run; Eddie’d looked devastated, broken when they’d caught up, and they’d been so afraid, feared the worst, and—

Steve’s starting to fit the pieces together. Maybe.

“No,” Eddie whines, pitchy and fervent and almost ear-splitting, like a wail of sheer gut-wrenching pain that Steve can’t find the reason for in the here and now because it’s just them in a hospital room, they’re okay, and his hand presses heavy, gentle around his wounds still, always gentle and so, so careful and Steve doesn’t know what’s caused the reaction, but then—

Then he can feel his fucking heartbeat for how hard Eddie’s pressing. It’s weird, how it makes him feel…strangely alive, the sensation of it kept and held like that, specifically in Eddie’s hand. And he’s not paying attention to the monitors really, tuned them out as quick as he could but when he listens, okay. Okay, maybe faster than normal, but Steve’s fucking worried, okay, he’s—

“Fuck, no,” Eddie moans and twists his head, no, not just his head, his ear and leans harder into Steve’s chest, his breathing shallow and Steve hates it but he doesn’t know what to do, how to help, what to fix because he’ll fix it if he knows, he’ll climb out of this bed and crawl on the goddamn floors of he has to, but he doesn’t know where to go, what to find, what demon’s left to slay—

“I’m just, I’m grateful you did,” survive, Steve survived…

He survived, like, now?

“But grateful’s such a weak word, it doesn’t,” and Steve takes a breath, and reaches, rests his hand on Eddie’s wrist just to see: his heartbeat’s somuch faster, it’s like a flutter of a flutter felt strong enough to break through skin, it catches in Steve’s heart just to touch—

“You’re so much stronger than I could ever, like,” Eddie’s going on, still breathless and fuck, Steve can see why; “fucking hope to be.”

Shit, but that’s…he wasn’t stronger, fuck, Steve wasn’t stronger than Eddie, Eddie nearly got eaten alive, Steve nearly couldn’t staunch enough of the bleeding, he almost lost—

Eddie keens, horrible and hurting and Steve stills: the monitor. The thundering of his own pulse at the memory.

How did you survive it?

Losing. Almost losing. That’s…that’s what it is.

That’s why Eddie’s pressed against his chest, his his head and his hand have been a fucking frame, goddamn, like, parentheses surrounding Steve’s beating heart, proof of life, Jesus—

“But I need to be,” Eddie’s voice is quiet, but steadier, and his chin dips like a nod to himself; “I need to learn how,” he’s firm with it; “for you.”

Oh, god. Oh…oh Eddie.

“I can’t ever lose you, Steve,” Eddie presses trembling lips to Steve’s chest and then presses close again, so close and oh: he wasn’t just intent where he’s been silent so long.

He was listening.

“Never ever,” he breathes against Steve, hot and damp; almost kinda breathless again, or still: “never ever.”

“Eds,” Steve begins, not even entirely sure where he plans to go, just knows he needs to do something, say something, but Eddie’s turning Steve’s hand in his, where he’d circled Eddie’s wrist; he’s turning it and mirroring the hold, gripping Steve’s wrist in kind.

“I couldn’t find it,” he gasps, and the sound makes the sob clear before Steve feels the wetness soak through to his skin; “I couldn’t feel it at all, you were, it,” he presses his fingers in hard, squeezes so goddamn tight, and Steve can’t…he doesn’t want to imagine what Eddie had to do, what Eddie found and felt, he doesn’t but he can, because he remembers the mirror image so stark, it took him so long because he couldn’t find a pulse either, he’d had to press on Eddie’s heart at the source and even then—

“I couldn’t feel you.”

Oh. Fuck. He—

“Oh, baby,” Steve’s elevated enough at an angle that he can at least kiss Eddie’s hair, barely brush his scalp but it’s enough, for the breath that punches from Eddie against his chest it’s at least something; “that’s…”

“I won’t survive that again, Steve,” Eddie sucks in, unsteady and drenched with tears, with sorrow, but also…also more than anything else, they’re filled up with so much love.

A love big enough to hurt that hard.

“And I can’t…” Eddie gasps, breath catching; “I can’t handle not feeling it,” and his fingers tighten; his hand on Steve’s chest and his cheek across from it press down that extra little bit so Steve knows his own heartbeat in those moments full and deep.

“Have to feel it always,” Eddie whispers like he’s telling himself, and Steve, and Steve’s heart through flesh and bone, some cosmic secret no one else can know: too sacred. Too precious.

“You can feel it any time,” Steve lets his hand fall from Eddie’s to cover the hand Eddie’s got splayed ln his chest, counting time; holds him there almost protectively: “all the time,” and he slips his fingers between Eddie’s and shifts his palm close to the beating, so he can still feel what he needs as he murmurs with his heart literally in Eddie’s hands, with his entire goddamn soul:

“All of me. It’s yours.”

Unshakable fucking fact. He doesn’t even have to will it, or hope for it; his heartbeat knocks that heavier against their hands for those words like it knows.

It knows.

“Don’t leave me,” Eddie bursts out, begging; almost something primal, and Steve can feel the tremoring of his lips where they drag against him; “please. I’ll do anything, I swear it, just don’t—“

“Be you,” Steve braves the whimper that comes from untangling his hand from Eddie so that he can reach for Eddies cheek and cradle him in closer, and oh, fuck, thank god: something in him sighs out and loosens, ever so slightly—finally.

“Everything you are,” Steve presses on, runs his thumb back and forth through Eddie’s drooping curls; “let me love you, past living and dying,” and Eddie’s breath catches, for that, but Steve holds him tighter for it, drowns him as best he’s able in the proof he needs so bad; “don’t leave me,” and Eddie huffs a little for that, like it’s beyond believing, impossible, and Steve smiles to himself for it, tries to lean enough to press the grin to Eddie’s head, hopes he manages as he murmurs there close:

“That’s it, Eddie,” and he lets his fingers spread wider, cradle Eddie all the more: “that’s all I need.”

“That and more baby,” Eddie answers him between the double-beat of his pulse, immediate; “you’re the music and the rhythm,” he nuzzles a little against him, and Steve smiles a little wider for it; “you’re the reason my heart beats,” and Steve finds that heartbeat for himself at Eddie’s jaw, now; a little calmer. Not much. But: something.

It’s a start.

”I don’t have a reason without you,” Eddie exhales, vehement; “I don’t want a reason, without you.”

And Steve should maybe push on it, or be scared by it: but neither seem right, not for this.

Not for them.

Steve just holds Eddie’s pulse under the pressure of his touch, and holds Eddie’s cheek closer still into his chest as he breathes:

“You’re my whole heart, Eds,” and he lets a second pass, and then another, for that heart of Eddie’s to pump evidence unshakable against him, to play the song and rhythm straight into his waiting ear:

“Was never going anywhere without you.”

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#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #hurt/comfort #established relationship #established steddie #soul-deep love #soft #like: excessive softness #BIG emotions #happy ending #post-final battle with the Upside Down #hurt Steve Harrington #proof-of-life #Eddie’s feeling very fragile and desperate #Steve may be in a hospital bed but hell if that stops him from trying to fix what’s hurting his boy #if that means letting Eddie rest against his chest for all of eternity then that’s what he’s gonna damn well do #steddielovemonth #love is the heartbeat I can feel when I hug him #stranger things

[dumblr]

Touch me with your mind in places hands could never reach.

#quotes #feelings #emotions #love #soul love #soul connection #romantic quotes #love quotes #thoughtful #deep love #true love #dumblr

[catboyeddiediaz]

eddie diaz + text posts

#911 abc #911edit #eddie diaz #eddiediazedit #911 text posts #userknight #usercam #usernolan #.gfx #gif warning #hes so me coded i fear. i just gathered posts i feel deep in my own soul #half of these r from my own about tag LMAO #unfortunately eddie diaz is representation for grouchy gays with depression and anxiety a little too well #now my buck set has a boyfriend <3 love wins

[bakubunny]

denki is the first to admit he gets so pussy drunk on you that sometimes it’s hard to focus on your pleasure. if he’s honest, he feels a little embarrassed about that even though you’ve told him time and again that you love how much he needs your pussy. in fact, you’ve done the courtesy of reminding him more than once that you feel more pleasure and satisfaction when he lets go and fucks you, even if it means he ends up fingering his cum into you until you’re shaking for the first time that night.

still, sometimes he’s self conscious that he’s not like kirishima or bakugo; he’s heard stories once or twice about how kiri’s stamina is unmatched, and bakugo can easily go multiple rounds without blinking. but denki? while he might have size working in his favor, he’s always been a “one and done” kind of guy, and his stamina doesn’t rival the gods. he figured out a while ago that he wanted a solution for that, and he’s certainly found one or two.

denki’s big, soft, manicured hands have made you cum harder than you ever have with anyone else, the way he curls them just right as he rubs against the sweet spot of your soft walls. his long, thick fingers massage and tease tender places inside of you in ways that make your limbs go weak as your head spins. and gosh, seeing his eyes twinkle with pride the first time he successfully made you squirt all over his hand was almost as euphoric as the orgasm itself.

he also has surprising amount of skill and patience with his head between your thighs. he’d stay there all night if you let him. and the way he whimpers and groans when your fingers are tightly wound in his hair, your hips grinding into his face is sometimes all it takes to push you over the edge. you’ll never forget the first time you really sat on his face and pushed your hips into him; he came so hard that a little bit of his cum hit your ass and you hadn’t even touched his dick yet, which soon left you shaking in return….

denki may not be like his two best friends, but he will make damn sure he worships your body, that he still leaves you moaning his name as he pulls orgasm after orgasm out of you until you’re completely spent.

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#aged up characters #here’s to the fictional men who are more like your average guy that loves their partner deeply #he’s just so loving and precious your honor #i know it deep in my soul #and i didn’t even get to how big he is on giving praise #because it’s denki #also i just know he takes good care of his hands even tho he’s a scattered lil bean just trust me ok #but anyways #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #x reader #bnha smut #mha smut #bakubunny #denki smut #kaminari smut #kaminari x reader #kaminari denki #denki kaminari #denkirot

[seasofjupiterx]

For once i want to be a person that isn't so easily replaced. I wanna be someone's favorite person, someone's priority like they're my priority. I wanna be the person that someone is scared of losing..

#sad quotes #poetry #quotes #relatable #heartbreak #poems #sad poetry #deep qoute #friendship #love #soul ties #getting over someone #sad thoughts #thoughts #twin flame

[diaryofdom]

#blogger #blogging #bloggerstyle #blog #my writing #book community #deep connection #lifestyle blog #soul to soul #beautiful words #life quotes #quoteoftheday #deep quotes #relatable quotes #spilled ink #selfworth #lovequotes #daily life #beautiful quote #in love

[silvernyxa]

the unconditional love of dogs

#it goes like this- #you are pete and you are a monster #and though they say nothings changed-that you are not a monster- deep down you know it has. and you are. #because you have monster teeth and a monster face and a monstrous soul #and nobody quite looks at you the same way anymore. nobody is able to love the same anymore and you cant quite blame them #but its okay because dogs dont care for the bite of sharp teeth- theyre one in the same- and puppy dog hearts see past monster faces #pw #fall.out.boy #16 candles

[hualianschild]

#headcanon ? canon ? i just know deep in my soul that hc does say this once in a while #do you see this shit dianxia ??? #okay this moment where he bridal carried him so his feet wouldn't touch the dirty ground ?? #I WAS LIKE DAMN HUA HUA YOUR SIMP IS SHOWING PFFT #also #hualian invented love #tgcf #heaven official's blessing #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #tian guan ci fu #heaven officials blessing #mxtx #tgcf meme

[starsxinxthexbluexsky]

The Untamed | Episode 28 [Mutual Longing]

⤳WangXian’s Favorite Scenes [12/∞]⬿

#the untamed #cql #theuntameddaily #lwj's moment of longing and his face makes me think that he is very gay #lwj: there comes wei ying. he looks as beautiful as the last time i saw him and he told me he was leaving me #and in the final gif they look deep into each other's eyes and fell in love #lwj is wearing his best light blue suit just to see if by chance he ran into wwx #and by chance in life [and cuz they were soul mates] he met him #wangxian #wei wuxian #xiao zhan #lan wangji #wang yibo #my gifs #mygifs.scene #1k

[saltseashark]

space airport show :-)

#deep space nine #benjamin sisko #kira nerys #odo ds9 #quark ds9 #miles obrien #worf ds9 #julian bashir #elim garak #aaaaaaaaand OTHERS. LOL #sorry there are so many as you can see ds9 has captured me heart and soul #my art #like what a lovely ensemble!!! what a buncha guys!!!!! theyre all so Fun -w- i dont have anyone i dont like and playing ship darts with the #is so great. whacks them around like barbie dolls #plus im wayyy more into making comics now all of a sudden. things that have not happened since the year 2019. amazing. whats next will he #make an animatic again. lord knows

[piracytheorist]

Oh BOI when I tell you this transition gave me shivers

This is a prime example of why spies like Twilight cannot afford emotional attachment, why their entire survival depends on them ignoring their own internal struggles.

Donovan Desmond is a force to be reckoned with; within minutes of meeting Loid, he shamelessly shares his corrupted views on humanity:

"It is simply impossible to understand what someone else is thinking. People will never be able to understand each other."

And that's why you're using force to bring other nations to their knees?

There you have Twilight; a man who lost everything in a war started by people who had the same way of thinking that Desmond has; a man who has sacrificed his own identity and chances of personal happiness in his mission to never allow others to suffer like he did.

The emotional investment is huge. He doesn't do it just because he thinks it's the right thing to do, he does it because he has first-hand experience of how much pain a war can cause. And he'd rather keep suffering if it means such pain won't be felt again by anyone else.

And yet, through all his internal turmoil, he has to look at Desmond and smile and agree with him. Him acting like the loyal Ostanian citizen who believes the Desmond group cares for the country is nothing compared to this transition. He goes from a man who is haunted by the traumas of his past to a beaming, hopeful man who indirectly endorses violence - the very thing that ruined his and many other people's lives - over understanding among humans

He has to become the exact opposite of what he stands for, become the kind of man like the ones whose actions ruined him. And the ironic depiction is not lost to the audience; his eyes are covered in shadows as we hear his inner thoughts, slowly getting brighter as he prepares his disguise, and finally getting back to the light when he fully dons it.

It's disturbing and it's wrong and it's the opposite of how it should be. Twilight may have made it his life's mission to never act on his emotions, but it's perfectly clear he does have emotions; he's just very good at willingly pushing them aside. And this depiction in that lighting is perfect to show how it's a necessary and conscious depravity of his own self that he has to partake in in order to survive and see his mission through.

It's brilliant. Disturbing, but brilliant.

(Anime only fan here, don't spoil me for the manga)

#Spy x Family #sxf meta #Loid Forger #I just!! #I love it both from a storytelling and an angst standpoint #cause we know that his end goal is a noble one #with relatable and respectful motives #but we are made aware of how much he ignores his own emotions #and how prepared he is to pretend he's everything he's not #and go against his own real self #how dark and how deep he's ready to go #he's a hero who casts no shadow - but who is FULL of shadows in his soul #500 #1k

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I feel like a part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything. Maybe we’re from the same star.

#quotes #feelings #love #emotions #romantic quotes #love quotes #wise words #thoughtful #deep love #deep thoughts #soulmate #soulful #stars #dumblr

[kagooleo]

happy dragon year to the dragon guy on dragon day!!! 🐉🐉🐉

yippee!! 🎉🐉

#kagarts #champion lance #pokemon gsc #pokemon hgss #pkmn #appreciate a dragon day aka you Will look at lance today #a rare triple dragon moment in time you could call that a triple dragonite bonanza #he's gradually risen to be one of my favorites to draw lately so I wanted to commit to making a piece for him! #deep in my soul i believe he is a silly guy with a biiiiiiiig heart #he's got some scars on his hands (that of which also extends to his body) bc all that kindness is not without effort too #but c'mon he would absolutely be a little silly a little goofy even #the kids would love him And bonus points to teaching them about how cool and friendly dragons are #if you think i'm done drawing him though you can dragon these NUTS #new years resolution to make more backgrounds is a hard one but i'm not giving up so soon on that!!1!1

[happytobeherekinda]

yall ever think about how this is canonically the daycare attendant’s character

#fnaf #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf security breach #fnaf dca #dca fandom #sun: I FEEL IT DEEP WITHIN ITS JUST BENEATH THE SKIN I MUST CONFESS THAT I FEEL LIKE A MONSTER #ITS HIDING IN THE DARK ITS TEETH ARE RAZOR SHARP THERES NO ESCAPE FOR ME IT WANTS MY SOUL IT WANTS MY HEART #i love them

[gophergal]

Honestly one of my favorite ship dynamics that I never see folks talk about is where they're just... Orbiting each other like satellites. A deep closeness, but not quite something explicitly romantic. Everyone around them has conflicting opinions on their relationship, but they never label it. Heartfelt declarations of trust, love, and friendship are non negotiable

#gopher rambles #ship dynamics #so many ships fit this imo #superbat #k/s #or if you'd rather call it #spirk #and i personally see #subscorp #that way. feel free to talk about your own faves like this #because its great. it always makes me feel so good. theres something about that deep affection and fondness #that trumps any regular 'falling in love' fics. more than friends but not in a romance centric way #they're best friends your honor. they are of one soul your honor. their love is deeper and more complex than you could understand your honor

[onetrueloves]

#love #him #relationships #her #quotes #pintrest #emotions #feelings #romantic quotes #soul #deep #deep feelings #thoughts #iloveyou #couplegoals #mood #rainbow #poem #foryou #goals