#Also if it’s in the food they sleep for most of that time

[cosmicpoutine]

timbern headcanons (mostly bernard)

some are 18+

bernard named the specials at his restaurant stupid bilogy shit like "mitochondria"

janet used to hum when she was distracted, and tim does that too to calm himself down, and once bernard notices, he starts humming tim to sleep after a long night of patrol.

because of the pain cult, bernard's pain tolerance is stupidly hight so they like to experiment with bdsm, but tim always goes easy because he's scared of triggering bernard.

they tried shibari once, but tim, out of pure bat instinct, would free himself within 5 seconds, so it just wasn't as fun (i mean, he does this for a living come on)

bernard has a bellybutton piercing

when bernard comes over, he makes extra food to make sure tim has left over for a few days.

soon bernard notices steph comes over to steal left overs so he makes even more food, then cass and duke also come over and soon enough bernard is feeding the entire batfam like a bunch of pidgeons

damien is suspiciously approving of bernard, but he's the youngest sibling, so he acts nice around bernard specifically to piss off tim.

bernard thinks damian is the sweetest kid he's ever met

whenever someone asks tim about the B necklace, he just says it's for barbie girl as a joke. eventually, he starts calling bernard barbie.

bernard is an avid listener of ayesha erotica

bernard walks really silently, not enough to catch a bat by surprise, but enough for tim to only notice bernard when he's already in the same room. he learned this from sneaking away from his parents.

tim and bernard go skating together, but bernard prefers longboards

they have adopted the cover art cat, but never named her so they call her "calico"

they did not know calico cats are 99% of the time females, so they referred to calico with male pronouns for the longest time until damian reminded both of them how stupid they are.

when bernard comes off work late, he usually looks for robin so they can have late dinner together in an empty parking lot

most rogues know bernard is connected to robin, but they quickly learn hes crazier than the bats and leave him alone.

bernard still has no filter so he will say insane shit in front of the bats and they all go suspicious of him for at least a week

bernard listens to true crime podcasts

timbern uses their engagement rings as earrings, partially because bernard can't have rings in the kitchen and tim can't wear rings as robin.

tim also wears his parents' wedding rings in the B necklace

#timbern #bernard dowd #tim drake #red robin #batfam #batfamily #robin

[twisted-king]

*skurries into the ask box again,* hi hi! I’m honor of my stupidness, I want to know what your take on how Housewardens would react to mc/their s/o breaking their foot! :)

Oh hey a HC RQ! Yeah I can do that!!!

Riddle Rosehearts

~Riddle’s mom is a highly successful doctor, so I assume he’s picked up a few things during childhood. ~He’s also not the best at being honest with himself and his feelings, so he’s a bit more “hands on” rather than emotionally supportive .

So, when he first got news of your injured foot he started panicking, he kept asking if you needed anything along with various “suggestions” insisting on taking you to go to the hospital. But, like a good boyfriend, Riddle stays by your side as much as possible with his busy schedule on top of house warden duty. He brings you various soothing teas for you to try, each one accompanied by a little treat. He tries his best to keep you on top of your studies, he brings his notes from class to go over with you. Unfortunately every time you move he gets a little anxious..

he really wants you to be ok :(

Leona Kingscholar

~Bro sees OPPORTUNITY

~kind of… throws money at the problem…

it’s not that he doesn’t care!!! In fact, quite the opposite! He likes being able to take care of you, but does NOT like that you’re hurt about it. So he’s with you in a very—Leona—kind of way. When he hears about your broken foot he immediately kind of milks it. He start skipping class to be with you rather than nap. Well, he’s still napping just with you! He kind of hopes if you sleep enough you’ll feel a little better. When he notices any discomfort, he takes it upon himself to get the best medical professionals around to take care of the problem. He carries you to his magishift practices so you can watch him play. Leona doesn’t want you to get bored after all.

he cares, he’s just really bad at this!

Azul Ashengrotto

~WHAT??? HUH??? HOPITAL?

~Zuzu here is trying SO HARD to be normal about this

Azul seems calm about your broken foot at first, he gracefully brings you some Monstro Lounge menu items in a little doggy bag ASAP. Although by his heavier breathing he definitely ran to ramshackle… He has the Tweels soon follow after with study materials, pain meds, and some extra pillows for you. He kind of tries to play it off by joking that his services don’t come for free, but they do for you… just this once! He’s really worried about you though… he’s finding it so hard to focus on the Monstro Lounge. He’s all alone in his office, you’re not around like usual… So he gets the bright idea to visit you everyday with a meal for you and his documents. While not the most romantic he feels way more at ease knowing you’re okay because you’re in his sights!

He’s so worried ur on his mind like 24/7

Kalim Al-Asim

~NHVSCR,JHBDVDJHBDDC ARE YOU OKAY????

~What do you call a friendly kidnapping??

You call Kalim and two seconds later, Jamil is at ur door taking you to Scarabia by carpet. When you arrive at Scarabia (with a GROUCHY Grim in tow) you find Kalim worriedly constructing the world’s most elaborate pillow fort. He wants you to be comfortable while you’re healing!!! He showers you in hugs and kisses when you arrive, guiding you towards the comfortable fortress as he does. Is,,. Is he crying??? He makes sure you’re surrounded by food and plushies at all times. Yeah unfortunately this means Jamil is working overtime… HOWEVER Kalim does makes sure your foot is always elevated, and that you take your meds on time! He misses dancing with you <3

Vil Schoenheit

~First of all: How.

~Second of all: He gets it was somehow Crowley’s fault (he is NOT over the state if Ramshakle)

He found out before you called him, Rook knows some shit…. Vil’s priority is making sure you heal safe and comfortable. So he prepared some potions to ease the recovery and dull the pain. He has a busy schedule so he can’t spend as much time with you as he’d like… however, when he is by your side he helps you through your skincare routine and some light movement you can do while semi-immobile. You two have some really comfortable stay in dates, doing one other’s makeup, watching old films. He always departs with a kiss on the forehead for you, and a reminder to take care of yourself. Occasionally, when his schedule is too packed, Epel or Rook will show up to keep you company. And sometimes,,. Very rarely, you’ll get a cute photo of him holding up a finger heart.

I don’t have biases wdym….. Best boyfriend ever

Idia Shroud

~On god???

~Do…Do you want to stay in Ignihyde…? No, no,.. never mind…

He’s already kind of distant, he sometimes can’t believe he got an S/O in the first place…. So when he gets word that your foot is broken he’s pretty anxious. Idia sometimes comes over with a ton of snack and anime to binge with you. He’s not really sure what to do but he’s doing his best I promise! If you ask for some affection he’ll give you a little peck on the cheek or a hand to your head. He offers to build you a hover boot kind of thing so it’s easier to keep elevated. Other than that, you’re speeding a LOT of time with Ortho…

he tried..?

Malleus Draconia

~Child of man you are so fragile this is why you should stay with me forev—

~The world almost ended (jk he did get really scared tho)

Malleus hears of your broken foot and immediately offers to heal it using magic. He is potentially the most powerful mate he can do it— you don’t want that?? That’s ok, he will stay with you until you feel better! He spends a lot of time showing you how roaring drago is doing, and pictures of the different gargoyles around the campus. He’s not sure how humans function properly so he does go off for indeterminate amounts of time to ask Lilia what to do. He usually comes back with more comfort items and little snacks you like. Every time you feel any pain his heart breaks a little…

he is just a little GUYYYY

#twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #twistedwonderland #twst #disney twst #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #twst azul #twst malleus #twst riddle #twst kalim #twst idia #twst leona #twst vil #vil schoenheit x reader #leona kingscholar x reader #kalim al asim x reader #idia shroud x reader #riddle rosehearts x reader #malleus draconia x reader #vil schoenheit #malleus draconia #riddle rosehearts #leona kingscholar #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader

[thinlyangel]

Recently I’ve been trying to plan the most effective d1et based off of tips I’ve learnt over the years, this is what I came up with.

Day 1- 250

Day 2-250

Day 3-300

Day 4-400

Day 5-600

Day 6-700

Day 7-800

(Doesn’t have to be those exact numbers but keep the increasing pattern, I’ll explain why)

So, after eating 250-300 c@ls for 3 days your metab will start to slow down, this is why I started to increase the c@ls, I gave it a few days of a higher c@L intake so that your body can get used to more food and bring your metab back to normal. it’s important that you use these higher c@l days to eat food that will fuel your metabolism, I’m talking protein and fibre rich foods. When the week is over, you go back to day 1, and I planned it so that it goes from day 7-800 c@ls, to day 1-250 because that dramatic drop is when you will l0se the most we1ght.

Other important tips-

NO SUGAR, I know this is a pretty big commitment but it is my most effective advice. Your body burns glucose for energy, If your body has no sugar it starts to burn fat for energy instead… it’s that simple. It’ll also help you spend your c@ls on food that will benefit you and keep you full for longer. Another thing is that even if you over eat, eating a bunch of normal food is a lot better for you than a bunch of sweets, I could give so many reasons maybe I can make a seperate post for it. Just remember that after about a week or two you start to find sugar unappealing and it makes it so much easier +quitting sugar made my skin so clear I recommend!!!!

Water, I would recommend at least 2 litres a day. I was at my lw when I used to drink 4 litres a day but I was going to the toilet every second so 2 litres is probably smarter. I also used to chug around 2l during dinner so that I could reach my water goal and it made me feel too sick to eat and it surprisingly made me really full for a long time.

What time you eat, try to eat before doing any sort of movements, something as simple as shopping or school where you know you’ll be moving. Even if you aren’t going to move much anything is better than eating at night, do not eat before you sleep!! If your body doesn’t burn the food you need for energy then it stores it for later, so if you eat at night the food will just be stored rather than before physical activity when it will be burned.

If anyone has any other tips feel free to share them, I’d love to hear them<3

#th1nsp1ration #a4a diary #thinspø #tw restriction #ana y mia #light as a feather #tw ed sheeran #@na vent #ed relapse #@nor3×14

[lostinforestbound]

The fic is going well! I'm on a roll and after I'm done I'll be searching for a Beta-Reader! For now, to tie you all over:

Romantic Zevlor Headcanons

This sad old man is incredibly traditional in the sense of romance. He plans dates to the very hour, brings flowers, cleans himself up nicely, kisses the top of his partners hand and offers his arm as they walk; the perfect man to date! He's also very experienced.

I would say he's not shy about romance, but definitely reserved. He didn't have time for it once he became a Hellrider, it pulled all his focus in. After his oath is broken and he got cast out from Elturel with the other refugees, that also pulled his focus away from even considering a relationship.

When everything is finally calm, he doubts that anyone would even want him in this stage of his life. He's an old, tired man and he made his peace with it. Then his partner comes along and throws him in for a loop! He starts to feel alive again.

He plans dates out strategically, but would not stress out if something doesn't go according to plan. He can easily go with the flow. If his partner is stressed out however, he would give them a kiss on the forehead and say something along the lines of "It is all right, my love. Let us try something else."

Quality time is important to him. His favorites are long walks! The beach, forest, a meadow, some hills, a hike, he loves to get moving! And it's even better with a partner where they can talk about anything and everything while in the privacy of nature. It's wonderful! If his partner prefers to stay home though, he's completely content with sitting by the fire.

His main love language is absolutely acts of service! He loves taking care of his partner and doing things for them. He makes food for them, patches their clothes, and makes sure their things are organized the way they like it. This man also gives some of the best massages!

Gods he loves cuddling. He adores it, actually! After a long day, he looks forward to going to bed with them the most. It calming and honestly helps him sleep much better. He's slept alone a lot, and he missed having another body next to him.

Zevlor has been through quite a bit, so of course he would have nightmares about a multitude of things! Especially regarding his fuck up in the Shadow Cursed Lands. He doesn't quite wake up in a cold sweat since he's used to them, but they still startle him awake sometimes. He's not afraid to ask for help from his partner if nights are a struggle for him.

On that point, he's a fantastic communicator! If anything is bothering him, even if he's embarrassed, he will discuss it with his partner. He personally does not like being kept in the dark about what his partner is feeling, so why would he do that to them? It benefits no one. If his partner needs more time to figure out their words, he will absolutely give it, but there is no hiding anything from him.

His kisses are usually gentle, and he loves holding his partner's face in his hands while doing so! He's incredibly tender in everything he does involving them, but he also loves to tease! When he kisses the top of their hand, he'll kiss up their arm to their neck and eventually their face, littering pecks all over. Bonus points if his partner is ticklish, he enjoys their laughs and giggles as it brings him genuine joy.

If his partner is a tiefling or a tailed dragonborn, he absolutely would link his tail with theirs in a private setting. Usually he prefers to have his tail out of the way, especially in public, but when it's just the two of them he uses his tail pretty freely. This is because he finds tail-holding very intimate.

He doesn't mind public display of affection in other ways though! Hand holding, wayward pecks, sitting close, hugs, he loves it all. Sitting in his lap may get him flustered though, especially if his partner is very forward in their affection! Sometimes he feels as though his heart will give out with how fast it beats (maybe he's too old for this after all).

Zevlor isn't used to being taken care of at all, usually he's the one doing all the caring. When his partner starts doing it his head practically reels in shock, not expecting it to feel so nice. He doesn't outwardly ask for it but brushing his hair and massaging the tension out of his hands is something he adores. His partner always receives a 'thank you' kiss.

He knows how to dance, which can surprise people! Slow dancing is his preferred style, and he'll bring his partner in for a slow sway when they're alone. No music is needed in these intimate moments, his lover is all he wants anyways.

#forest-writes #zevlor #zevlor x tav #zevlor x reader #zevlor bg3 #bg3 zevlor

[sadhours]

billy hargrove head canons that are important to me and you can’t argue with

he watches jeopardy and honestly could go on it and win like five times in a row

billy likes to start his day early, watches the sunrise with a cigarette and a cup of coffee (he likes his coffee with a splash of cream and some honey)

he does a two minute plank every night, just right on top of his bed before he goes to sleep

he falls asleep to music, but it’s super quiet

he likes gambling, he’s pretty good at poker

his favorite movie is night of the living dead but he loves horror movies and action movies, he kind of idolizes snake plissken and has watched escape from New York a hundred times

Billy loves seeing live music, punk and metal shows obviously

most of his clothes are hand-me-downs from Neil

When he was a freshmen in high school, he became friends with the juniors and seniors and they’re why he started partying

Billy loves talking shit, he’s a huge gossip

he really likes animals and Neil let him have a cat but he couldn’t keep it because Susan’s allergic

he secretly likes tears for fears, and bought songs from the big chair on cassette

Billy and Neil have an agreement that as long as his grades are high, he can smoke cigarettes and drink beer

When he’s angry or stressed, he’ll drive to an empty stretch of road and go as fast as he can. He keeps track of his speed and tries to beat it.

He’s into bodybuilding but one time a crush told him bodybuilders aren’t sexy so he keeps toned instead of really beefing up

there’s moments where he and max get along pretty well, they bond over horror movies and pranks (max has to be careful with the pranks, billy has to be in a good mood or he’ll get really mad)

billy loves Mexican food, it’s like top five of what he misses about California

he’s really good at cooking, because Neil used to work late and he always has to fend for himself. because of this, he grew sick of a few foods— box Mac n cheese, ramen and eggs. He still really likes tuna sandwiches but he’s super picky about them.

he’s also super handy because it was his responsibility to fix things around the house

the camaro was a salvaged title, he earned half of the money for it and Neil paid for the other half; the catch was billy has to fix it up with his own money

he worked as a bagboy at a grocery store before they moved to Hawkins, all the housewives loved him because he was handsome and he bagged the best. he was actually pretty particular about it; veggies and fruit together, meat by itself, boxes together and cans together.

#billy hargrove #billy hargrove headcanon #billy hc

[thelibrarian1895]

Social Profile

Brucie Wayne is often invited to charities, galas, openings to future trendy spots, and other similar things that the rich/famous are invited to attend and can't always refuse without social repercussions. Bruce has an algorithm that lets him figure out how many of these things he has to go to in order to most effectively maintain the Brucie mask and do the most good while still being able to have time for Batman/being a social awkward introvert. Bruce helps each of his kids adjust the algorithm to suit each of them and their social batteries and social persona.

The other awkward part of being famous, whether or not they come with a date. Brucie Wayne famously attends with various models, actresses, actors, singers, artists, and Selina Kyle who is a category to herself. The models/actors/actresses etc are chosen based on how likely they are to notice if Bruce sneaks away and how much they're really just wanting to go to an event for their own social networking. Most of them have no physical interest in Bruce but are willing to let people think they slept with Brucie because why not? Bruce is slightly less of a slut than he appears in that he doesn't tend to sleep with civilians though he won't necessarily say no.

Dick goes to events almost exclusively with Barbara, Donna, or Kori or as part of Bruce's group. In a pinch Stephanie might put on some makeup to look older and be his arm candy but he'd have to bribe her a lot. He's able to dodge most events since he has a much lower civilian profile. Dick will always show up as a volunteer for charity events.

Jason laughs at all his siblings and sometimes watches the news reports of events while eating popcorn. In this one situation, it's good to be dead. On occasion he might stage a kidnapping. He will also be on standby to help save the day/provide a distraction if an event where a Bat is attending as a civilian is attacked somehow. He is there as security and a volunteer for charity events.

If Jason is forced back into the limelight, he will claim trauma and be famously a hermit and still stay at home and laugh at whichever sucker is stuck attending while he eats popcorn/watches to make sure that nothing goes wrong. If it's a charity event where something is actually being done, like a walk for charity or handing out things then Jason will be there as one of the volunteers and not as Jason Wayne.

Tim Drake Wayne is stuck going to the most events after Bruce and he is enormously annoyed by the fact. He has his own algorithm. He'll either go to an event as part of Bruce's group or he'll get a member of YJ to come as his arm candy. He, of course, makes sure they have a dress or suit that's appropriate for the evening. Cissie is the one who acts as arm candy for him most often since she can use the events for her own networking and has the most patience for all that nonsense. Bart will do many things for Tim, but he won't do this. He will, however, be ready to extract Tim and Tim's companion at a moment's notice. Cassie, Greta, and Anita will only go if there's going to be really good food or Tim treats them to something extra delicious and an opportunity to beat something up afterwards, Tim also has to pay for babysitters for Anita. Kon is the one who goes with Tim most often after Cissie and he and Tim whisper various commentary to one another about the other attendees. Whoever makes the other laugh out loud picks their next outing together. All of them will show up for charity events, handing out food and drinks or doing whatever, as long as their schedules will allow.

Stephanie, like Jason, watches with popcorn since she's not an official Wayne. She'll sometimes be Tim or even Dick's arm candy but otherwise is suited up and ready to cover the attendee's patrol or save the hapless civilians at a moment's notice. Never has she been more glad to not be famous than after an evening of attending ONE trendy event and being patronized and unable to punch someone the entire evening. She will also be one of the volunteers at charity events that have volunteers.

Cass will accompany Bruce or Tim and then hang out by the food. She has little interest in being at whatever event, unless it's for charity, and is plotting how to be another Wayne family hermit. She does like being a volunteer at charity events.

Duke sticks to Cass at events if he has to go or he sticks to Bruce. He plans to be exclusively the Wayne that goes to charity events, something he'll have to battle with all the rest of the family about since they all would rather be the Wayne at charity events.

Damian, a child, is not looking forward to the various social activities that help maintain a civilian mask. He's torn between being the next Wayne of Wayne enterprises or following Dick's footsteps and going for a lower civilian profile.

#batman #bruce wayne #tim drake #batfamily #jason todd #gotham #dick grayson #damian wayne #stephanie brown #batfam #duke thomas #selina kyle #cassandra wayne #being famous is tiring #kon el #cissie king jones #bart allen #young justice #greta hayes #young just us #cassie sandsmark #anita fite #the wayne family would rather just do charity things #and vigilante things #donna troy

[caynesugar]

my personal durgetash hcs (part 2)

WE ARE SO BACK. I HAVE FOOD. SAD FOOD.

(cw: of mention of scars/prev wounds)

one thing i think about quite often is enver’s sleeping arrangements. i heard some folks agreeing that it was a form of security to sleep in such a tiny bed close to a wall, and honestly, i agree completely. but what of when durge returns? as he would slowly feed into the habit of feeling more protected and not as wary of orin, he goes from laying on his side, curled up and protecting his vitals, to sleeping on his back. he slowly kicks a habit that was forced onto him out of a need to protect himself from the world around him. in his eyes, the world that did nothing but hurt him.

enver is possessive, though he makes such a lousy effort to try and hide it. when asked, he’ll insist he doesn’t truly care what durge does without him, but he’ll make durge wear something like a fake wedding ring “just in case.” he wants the security of knowing durge belongs to him.

i’m aware this concept of kind of new/hasn’t really been spoken of too much, but redeemed!durge and enver fit together like a glove. in fact, you could argue they have ultimate freedom as a pair. after durge’s release from bhaal, though, they could make for converting to becoming a banite. also enver guiding durge down their new religious path just really does something for me.

along with my previous hc, enver taking durge’s hands/claws and showing them where to place them to pray. bestowing them with their mask; black and ravishing. if enver did not previously own durge before, he certainly does now. this love is most certainly twisted, but it’d rather be twisted with allies so staunch and so true.

enver’s scars. so, so many of them. burn splotches, caning lacerations, and many small cuts that have healed and been reopened so many times. durge assures him constantly that his body is a story, not a nicked canvas of countless blemishes and tears. you could cry seeing a body like his. no matter how much bloodshed durge has seen, they could never help themselves.

#bg3 #enver gortash #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 gortash #durgetash #bg3 durge #headcanon #text post

[danganphobia]

but they stay with laios until he falls asleep anyway they barely get any sleep later in the morning themselves.

this is honestly so sweet they r his lesbian parents… AAAAH man laios angst is rlly real. i love farcille sm they are thee understanders TM theyre so sweet,,, theyre probably out here having fun and silly theatre or opera dates … the :3 to me

also also u mentioned chilshi. what r they up to. are they old men yaoi. r they professors or just . job havers. bar owners or smth

oh mah god i havent thought much about chilshi. my beloved old man yaoi. that's ok we're going through my thought process together.

if i were to think about it chilchuck sounds like a miserable medieval history adjunct professor. he's divorced. he sees his daughters like twice a month and they're the reason for his will to live, when he doesn't see them, he hates everything and everyone. he doesn't really like his job. he has tenure. he can do what he wants. when his students ask him if he could repeat the assignment he just says "No." and tells them all to leave his class because lecture time has ended and he refuses to go another minute over. his class exam average is below 40 percent and he doesn't give a fuck. he's waiting for his next paycheck to buy drinks at the local pub.

senshi's a culinary professor. he loves cooking and he loves teaching people how to cook. he's been doing it his whole life. he cooks for the gang during dnd meetings. whenever he's in a kitchen he makes it his own, even if the kitchen doesn't belong to him. if it weren't for him everyone would probably die of dehydration or live on cup ramen and frozen food for entire semesters. he leaves pastries on chilchuck's desk because chilchuck has to mentally prepare himself to help teach a class of 50 uninterested people that do anything but actually pay attention for nearly 3 hours. the pastries are actually what keeps chilchuck going. chilchuck is the one that asks senshi if he wants to go drinking. senshi is a really good listener, chilchuck finds that hot, and tries to sleep with him, but senshi stops him and asks if he could just come over to his apartment and senshi will cook a nice warm meal for him instead and take it slow, because he's a gentleman.

chilchuck actually agrees to it and has a good time. they sleep together but don't have sex, and he wakes up in the morning like damn, i actually have a crush at my big age? that's crazy.

this becomes a regular thing for them until chilchuck can't take it anymore and grabs senshi by the beard and is like "WE NEED TO FUCK. RIGHT NOW." and senshi goes "okay :) after dinner with me first :)" (they have sex).

"how did they get into the dnd club van" falin slapped a bunch of posters around campus with cute doodles and senshi saw it on his way to his classroom. he asked chilchuck if he wants to join sometime in case he's sick of teaching hopelessly unmotivated students. chilchuck thinks about it for a long time but one day when he's so stressed from teaching he joins a meeting and promises it's just "one time only" and ends up becoming a regular.

he brings his daughters to the dnd meetings and marcille is so happy because they're so cute. most of the time they just want to play minecraft and are on their expensive smartphones but they're nice girls. sometimes namari and kabru buy them fast food behind senshi's back when they don't feel like eating healthy.

#dungeon meshi #chilshi #chilchuk tims #senshi of izganda #help why am i so invested in these old men now #laishuro college au

[newvision]

Do you think he was ever in love with Bedelia like he was in love with Will? I ask this because Bedelia says they were both the "brides of Hannibal". But Hannibal never courted her like he did with Will, Bedelia came into Hannibal's life much before Will but he never pursued her like he did with Will.  Mads said he wanted a future with Will unlike with other people he hooked up with Alana, Bedelia or Anthony. He took her to Italy as a consolation prize when Will betrayed him. Even in Italy H was pining about Will all the time and telling Bedelia how much he loves Will.  I know he slept with Bedelia but he probably slept with Anthony too and he slept with Alana, Hannibal is a hedonistic guy who sleeps around. For him  sleeping with someone doesn't mean he is in love with them.  On the other hand he took a bullet for Will, went to prison for years for Will, made a human heart for Will, jumped off a cliff for Will, committed a whole massacre for Will. But when Will confronts Bedelia, she pretends as if Hannibal held them in the same regard which is obviously not true. Hannibal would choose Will over her in a heart beat and even she knows it  but yet she acts as if Hannibal sees them both equally. I don't understand why? 😭 Why do you think?why make herself seem like a competition when she is not?

I think that’s a very interesting question, Bedelia is a complex character and I can only tell you what I think, I don’t know if there’s a right or wrong answer here.

First of all, I think we can take sex out of the equation entirely. There are moments in the show where Hannibal and Will touch each other, but none of them are in a sexual context. I think these moments have significance in the sense that they are a sign of Hannibal being changed by Will, and I can imagine a season 4 in which their physical relationship is explored further, but from what we’ve seen, sex plays a small role in Hannibal’s (and Will’s!) life. However, we see a lot of carnal connection between characters through something else: Hannibal’s cannibalism. I believe that what many people find in sex, he finds in his meals. He feeds people human meat all of the time, but in most cases they don’t know about it. Will does, and Hannibal knows he does. Inbetween all of Will’s double spy thing that’s going on, he never once suggests not wanting to eat Hannibal’s food, not just to the man himself, but also to the audience. Will wants to join Hannibal at the table, he wants to join him in the one (very corporal) thing Hannibal hasn’t shared with anyone knowing or willing (except for Gideon, but he is practically forced to eat his own leg, which is very different from willingly eating Hannibal’s murder victims while being a free man). The symbolism behind their shared meals is endless, but now to Bedelia: For all her knowledge of Hannibal, she still refuses to dine with him. In fact, I believe she is repulsed by it.

We know Bedelia has a murderous tendency, or at least that Hannibal was able to coax it out of her. I do think there are similarities between Bedelia and Will, they are both acutely aware of Hannibal’s character, danger, capability and power and they are also both intrigued by it. But there are fundamental differences between their relationship to this knowledge: With Bedelia, it results in fascinated fear, with Will in self-recognition. Bedelia is afraid of Hannibal while they share a life in Florence, because, as you said, she knows if he were to get bored with her, it would mean she’d end up as his dinner. She has no intention of joining him in eating anyone, she does not want to be eaten by him (or suffer any violence at his hand), or eat him herself. Will does. Bedelia is a spectator, Will is a participant.

As for why Hannibal spent such a huge part of his life with her, I think it’s a quite simple and very human reason: loneliness. Bedelia was his psychiatrist before she was his wife and even if she didn’t know the nature of his crimes for a long time, she did know at least part of him. Hannibal craved understanding and being known and I think he knew he could find some sense of it in Bedelia. She’s his consolation prize, as you said. He was promised a partner in crime (literally) and didn’t get one, so he might as well take the next best thing and discard it if necessary. He clearly also knew she stayed with him out of fear.

As you said, Bedelia actively tries to make Will jealous. She knows how dangerous Hannibal is, but I’m not sure she realises just in how much danger she is putting herself when making Will angry and jealous. I don’t think she loves Hannibal, it’s probably a distant sort of fascination and intrigue, but, like you said, she’s more than aware Hannibal does not see her as an equal. I believe Bedelia wants Will to believe she is Hannibal’s true partner, because then someone does, even if it isn’t Hannibal, or herself for that matter. She chose a life she knew wasn’t truly hers to live and I think she merely wants to convince someone close to her and Hannibal that it is hers to live. That’s speculation on my part, though, even if based on perception of her behaviour.

I’ve always thought Bedelia is the character most similar to the show’s audience. A spectator who is fascinated, intrigued and repulsed by Hannibal, just like (presumably) most of us are. She must be living a very lonely life in Florence. In the first two seasons, she plays the same role in Hannibal’s life, but she also has one of her own. A psychiatrist is the epitome of passive spectatorship. When in Florence, she is reduced to that role entirely, her life consists of nothing else. I honestly can’t blame her for wanting to be active in some way, even if it was only in someone else’s imagination.

It’s also interesting to take in the post credit scene of wrath of the lamb, but I fear I would talk for hours if I started and most of it would be very vague interpretations.

#I hope this is somehow coherent lol I’m watching the second captain america movie and simply typed this out! #and thanks for the ask!!!! I’m happy someone thinks my ramblings about this show are worth something lmao #ask #answered #anon #Hannibal #Hannibal nbc #emmys thoughts on Hannibal #mads mikkelsen #hugh dancy #hannigram #bedelia du maurier #hannibal analysis

[strayrumia]

Unfamiliarity (oneshot)

felix x fem!reader

Synopsis: After her break-up from her long-term relationship, [Y/n] is left wondering if she was deserving of love and gentleness. Fortunately for her, she has a best friend who's been supporting her since the beginning. Not only that, but he's also more than happy to show her she deserves the love she longed for. -or- [Y/n] is left touch-deprived and doubting that she's deserving of anything wholesome after having left a relationship that left her with nothing but heartbreak, trauma, and neglect. Her best friend proves her wrong.

Genre(s): fluffy ending, implied best friends to lovers (can be taken platonically), angst Other tags: non!idol au, (wholesome) physical touch Content/Trigger Warning(s): mentions of SA (s*xual ab*se) and emotional ab*se from past relationship, very heavy mentions of insecurity and feeling worth is based off s*x, mentions of food

[A/N]: This is more of a ventfic and something that I wanted to just let out. It might not be the best fic I've written as it has a VERY open ending/lacks a proper ending. I also wrote this late at night, very head-empty. I hope if you do read it, you'll feel heard or a reminder that you deserve the love you give to others! <3

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Weeks.

Has it been weeks?

No, it's actually been a few months since the day you gained the confidence and willpower to walk out on your past and very toxic relationship. You've kept track. After all, you thought your ex would be hurting too, until you've discovered from mutual friends that he had already moved on.

That's right. At first, it was a mention from a mutual that they've heard him mention on his own socials that he was going to a concert - a concert of a group you were very confident he didn't know nor listen to very much. Then the day came when it was the supposed concert. You saw on another mutual friend's Instagram that he was seeing the group with the same girl he told you not to worry about countless times prior. The same girl who he would not hesitate to make time when she said the word, yet when you asked him for his time, he would throw a fit. Then goes the most recent news - that he was supposedly trying to get on his coworker.

This boy was the same one who told you, when you sobbed to him while trying to stand your ground, that he didn't agree to this relationship ending and he wanted to continue fighting for you two. The same one that told you that he'd rather you stay with him and heal than walk away. The same one who told you, "will we ever be together again in the future?"

It hurt.

It hurt knowing that this person you gave five long, hard years for threw you away so easily. You fought for him despite your friends and family refusing to support your relationship, despite the fact that they all mentioned how he had red flags yet your young, naive self gave him the benefit of the doubt. You fought for him, yet you got taken advantage of in more ways than you want to remember while he felt little to no remorse for his actions as his words never aligned.

It hurt knowing that while you gave a lot of love to him, you're left wondering if you're even enough for another person, if there will ever be someone in your life to treat you the way you deserve to be treated. While you were still healing, your ex, who you walked away still full of love, was ready to find the next person to fuck around with.

Though many of your friends suggested you to hop on the dating apps and just fuck your feelings away to those who had no strings attached, you knew you couldn't do that. You love with your whole heart. Sure you can sleep with others and enjoy the sex life with potential partners who shared your kinky fantasies, but how can you? Your relationship was full of one-sided lust that you felt like you were only good for sex.

You were healing a lot faster now that months had gone by since your breakup, but it didn't stop the thoughts of insecurity that would constantly come up every now and then. You've gone on many hangouts with friends who happened to be dating and seen just how wonderfully they treat each other and it makes you wonder... 'Will I ever get that kind of treatment?'

After your breakup, you made a vow to yourself that you would set aside as much time as you can to spend with your friends and family, the very people who supported you individually from the start and continued to even after that. Through each hangout, your best friend, Felix, was there every step of the way.

He was always there since the beginning. He was there when he warned you about your ex before you got into that relationship. He was there during your entire relationship, albeit being at a bit of a distance to respect your space and privacy with your partner. Lastly, he's there for you right now.

You had spent the whole day with him, letting the day be a normal hangout - one that allowed you two to enjoy board games with other friends before they had to go home, leaving you alone in your small apartment with Felix.

After the mutual friends had left, Felix had noticed your mood shift slightly towards the end of the game night and decided to bake you some chocolate chip cookies as a treat to cheer you up. He knew they were your favorite sweet treats after all. While he prepped the ingredients and put up a YouTube video in the background, you scrolled through your Instagram feed lazily, only to have the worst timing and notice the same girl you were warned to not worry about post about your ex yet again. Yes you were doing better in this healing process but the pain was still ever so present.

You let out an exasperated sigh as your head dropped into your folded arms against the counter, causing Felix to look up from the video and pause. "Are you alright?"

You only responded with an unhappy, muffled groan in your arms. Felix raised an eyebrow at you as his gaze shifted towards the phone in your hand. Your screen stayed stagnant on the post with your friend and your ex.

"You know, you could always remove this girl from your socials. Why don't you? It's not like you still talk to her." Felix suggested, taking your phone out of your hands and analyzing the post.

"She hasn't done anything directly to make me have a reason to cut her off... it wouldn't be right." You retorted. That thought often crossed your mind without him even mentioning it if you were being honest. It would lift a mental load on you to remove the last person who wanted to associate with your ex from your social media, but you still felt it was wrong to remove someone who never hurt you, at least with intention.

Felix scoffed. "Does it matter? She doesn't know him well enough to know what he did to you, or to anticipate what he might do to her. If it helps you in the long run, you might as well do it."

You ignored his reply, your thoughts were going elsewhere anyway. You stared into nothingness as the post's image burned into your brain, how happy the girl was to be beside the abuser. Your thoughts were going all over the place if you were being honest.

'Why do you want to associate with him? He's a horrible person! Ugh, but you don't know...'

'You don't even know how terrible he is, but I guess sometimes people only learn the hard way...'

'He literally told me not to worry about her and how he only saw her as a little sister figure but why was his hand so dangerously low in that photo...'

'Just how many lies did he feed me to keep me from trusting my gut feelings...'

'She is a pretty girl with a gorgeous figure... it's no wonder he kept his eyes on her.'

'She was the one worth driving an hour and more for without hesitation. She was the one he was willing to treat out to restaurants and gift flowers for. I was the inconvenience after all...'

Your thoughts were becoming sadder and darker as they went through each and every lie he told you. Tears began to well in your eyes until you suddenly felt your hand getting tugged, dragging you out of your thoughts and into the situation at hand. Felix started leading you towards your couch and maneuvered you into sitting onto his lap.

"Wh- Felix, what are you doing? I-I'm heavy!" You started to get embarrassed and immediately tried to lift yourself from his lap, only for him to keep you there with his arms. He kept you in a gentle yet firm embrace that prevented you from trying to escape.

"You're not even heavy, stop it." You stopped squirming and just continued to avoid his gaze. You knew if he saw the tears threatening to fall from your eyes you would hear it from him, but he surprisingly said nothing as he kept you in his arms.

He reached over to the side and grabbed a blanket nearby, drooping over his back before he took each end to make his way to wrap you in. He gently cradled your head into his neck, his head sitting softly atop yours. His other arm kept you in an unescapable hold while rubbing small circles on your back. Although you wanted to escape out of embarrassment, you didn't retaliate to his small, gentle gestures. You felt your muddy thoughts begin to clear out as Felix continued to cradle you in his arms.

"Felix... what are you doing?" You repeated with more naivety and less aggression.

"What does it look like, [Y/n]?"

Your face began to flush, but you tried your best to pay it no mind. "You don't need to do this to me, okay? I don't... I don't deserve it."

"Why do you think you don't deserve it?"

The post burned into your mind again. "Because... there are better people out there who deserve it more than I do." Like her. I'm not someone you should be doing these kinds of things to. I don't deserve it.

"Hmm... maybe you're right, but I know you deserve to feel secure and have affection too." Felix replied, adjusting slightly to turn your head to face his direction as he started brushing his fingers through your hair, pushing your loose strands away from your face to the best of his ability in your position. The gesture small yet soothing, an unfamiliar feeling that you definitely leaned into and enjoyed every minute of.

"I can't imagine what he put you through but what I can tell you is that you too are deserving of more than just being treated as an object. You're not an object, you're a human, okay? So don't ever treat yourself as anything less when you deserve more."

You felt the tears in your eyes rebuild from the ever growing happiness in your heart hearing his words, but you fought them from overflowing. You shook your head, wanting to retort more but as you opened your mouth, the words never left your throat. It felt that if you tried to counter Felix again, the tears would win over and you wouldn't be able to stop. 'I really don't...'

"[Y/n]," he softly pressed his lips against the crown of your head. "You deserve to feel loved too. You deserve to experience the joys of getting a wonderful surprise from your support system. You deserve to be invited and brought to cute and romantic dates with lots of effort. You deserve something even as simple as handholding!"

It's as if he felt your tears fall because he pulled you away from him to use his free hand to gently wipe away the tears from your eyes, not caring that they lightly stained his sleeve and shirt. He continued to brush your loose hairs away from your facial features as he made sure you kept your eyes on him. "You are loved and you will experience that love too. If you allow me, I will show you exactly how you should be treated - although, it might just be the same as what we already do."

"But... what would be the difference between the things we do now compared to the things we will do after this point?"

"Well, I guess I won't have to hold back how I feel about you. That would probably be the only difference." He said with a small chuckle. "But you don't have to worry about anything, I don't expect you to feel anything right away nor do I want you to feel rushed into deciding anything with me. I just want you to experience the love, respect, and happiness you're supposed to have."

You thought about it with a smile. Your current experience with Felix as of recently has been filled with nothing but joy and laughter. There would be times where you would vent about your healing thoughts and he would generously offer an ear and shoulder. Most of the time, however, it was genuine laughs and happiness that triggered your habit of hiccupping when you laughed too hard. Those memories you've made with him recently just made you enjoy his presence more and more. It was no lie that he made sure he always thought of your picky habits whenever others wanted to go to a restaurant, how he made your heart flutter with every smile he shone at you and every gentlemanly gesture he did in consideration of you.

It wasn't going to be an easy lesson to relearn but you knew exactly what he was trying to teach you. You don't know how to accept such kind and affectionate gestures because you were so used to bland, lustful touches. You didn't think you deserved to be treated so delicately when all you've known is how to be used and thrown to the side when the other was no longer satisfied.

It was hard, but you can feel your healing process become much easier and smoother with Felix by your side. After all, he knew you best, he witnessed you through your highs and lows to the point where he learned what ticked you off and what brought you the highest joy. He's someone who observed and applied what he learned to make sure you would be treated with the respect you deserved.

It won't be quick and it won't be easy, but one thing you know for sure is that you felt the most safe and loved with him than anyone you can ever imagine.

-End-

#tw abuse mention #stray kids scenarios #stray kids imagines #felix x reader #felix scenarios #skz x reader #stray kids x reader

[memoriesndew]

𝒃𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖕𝖎𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖇𝖞 @𝟒𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖎𝖙𝖌𝖎𝖗𝖑𝖘

clean space, clear mind

one of my main goals right now is to keep my space clean, being in a disarranged space always makes my mind feel cluttered. here are a few things I want to focus on:

making my bed in the morning

practicing saturday resets

sweeping my room - most days

practicing self-care

practicing self-care is essential for maintaining your physical, mental, and emotional well-being. here are some ideas for self-care activities I want to incorporate into my routine

the 3 S's: sunlight; sip; self-reflect

do 1 self-care task every day

reading at least 10 pages of my current book each day

watching an episode of my current show once a day

pilates mornings {courtesy of love you twice}

some form of body movement

dabble in 1 hobby every day

get my study on

I'm not really active in studying these days and I really want to give my all to language learning and finally be consistent in using my language learning notion page and I really want to get into maths

schedule language learning sessions

use flashcards or vocabulary apps to memorize words

allocate time for writing exercises such as essays, journal entries, or creative pieces - in different languages

record yourself speaking and review to identify areas for improvement

devote time to studying grammar rules and sentence structures

schedule regular problem-solving sessions to work on math exercises or problems

work on my physical appearance

working on your physical appearance is important because it can significantly impact your confidence, self-esteem, and overall well-being. When you take care of your body through exercise, proper nutrition, skin care, and grooming habits, you not only look better but also feel better mentally and emotionally. As they sometimes say look better feel better

set a schedule for exercise sessions 4-6 times a week

monitor portion sizes to avoid overeating

have a daily skincare regimen

stretch regularly to alleviate tension and promote flexibility

get 7-9 hours of sleep each night

have a hair care regimen

try different aesthetics - like in outfits

focus on my goals

track food intake

study for at least 1 hour every day

update notion daily and weekly to keep track of progress

update notion with workouts for the week on fridays

dedicate 20 minutes to catch up with a friend

do daily tasks under each goal

mindset

I plan to take on the growth mindset. growth mindset is my belief that nothing is fixed and I can always grow. I'll embrace learning, adaptability, and self-improvement, knowing that it leads to greater success and fulfillment.

all the habits I plan to keep to

intermittent fasting (16:8 or 18:6)

eating indomie and bread once or less a week (I'm trying to eat a variety of foods, these days it's always indomie or bread, indomie or bread)

sleeping before 11pm

waking up at 7am

reducing my portion sizes

no night time snacks

workout 4-6 times a week

actually keep to my workout programs - stop adding more workouts to the program so it doesn't overwhelm me and makes it harder for me to workout

hit 10k steps 6-7 times a week

starting my day with God

#girlblog #girlblogger #girlblogging #that girl #it girl #self care #self love #glow up #becoming that girl #self improvement #self help #self development #wonyoungism #pink pilates princess aesthetic #pink pilates girl #pink pilates princess #clean girl aesthetic #clean girl #green juice girl aesthetic #green juice girl #girly #health aesthetic #health blog #fitness #fitness blog #mindset #girly stuff #notion #pinterest #memoriesndew

[miizuzu]

Here is the second part of my fanfic featuring all of them. Haven't proofread. I've tried making it more spicy but it is my first time writing so.... Sorry :P MDNI

You are laying in bed and can feel the sun seeping in through your window and onto your skin, you stretch out your arms and slowly open your eyes. You were met with another pair of gentle blue-pink eyes, watching your every little move. “Good morning princess, did you have a good dream?” Rafayel asked with a soft gentle voice. “Mmhmm” you mumbled back. 

Then it finally hits you, your eyes wide open, you shoot up from your sleeping position and let out a high pitch scream. “Kyaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!???!” 

“Wahhh????? What is it? Is it a wanderer??” Rafayel was startled and jumped up like a cat about to attack, almost pulling his dagger out.

You looked down, grabbed your blanket and tried to cover yourself while pointing at him. Confused, you questioned him “What are YOU doing here?!?!”

You felt movement to your left, you looked down and saw Xavier, halfway hanging from your bed, woken up by your scream, trying to rub the sleepiness out of his eyes. 

“What's going on…?” He asked innocently. 

Zayne also rushed through your doorway while wearing an apron, also confused about the scream he heard, but sighs and relaxed after seeing there was not an emergency. 

The 3 confused lads are all looking at the equally confused you for an answer. All you mustered out was “Why are all of you in my room???!!!?”

It seems you were drunk enough from last night that you couldn't really remember how it led to this. You tried your best to recall what happened. You remember the Valentine's party at the pub with Tara and Xavier, and Rafayel and Zayne joined in. You remember taking shots but then your memory starts to get fuzzy. You vaguely remember them arguing and you falling asleep. But it felt like you were forgetting something very important, and you simply can't figure out what it is.

“It would seem like our princess had no recognition of what happened last night.” Zayne calmly concluded. “What happened…Did I say something?” You asked, like a deer in headlights. 

“It would be easier to just show you.” Rafayel says with a smirk on his face as he leans in close and closer to you. You tried to back away from him and was saved by Xavier pulling Rafayel back. He starts pouting. “Fine! I’ve already asked once, might as well just ask again.” Rafayel grabs your hand, his face becomes serious as he cups your hand with both of his. “Y/N, you like me right?” You could feel his hands trembling. Your face is now flush red, eyes widen and you want to avoid eye contact. “Y/N! Please… answer me?” he begs. 

You slightly nod your head, and are now in shock as your memories come pouring back into your brain. You remembered the same question being asked the night before, and the passionate kisses you shared with the 3 men. You could even feel your shoulder blades getting red as you tried to sink yourself into your blanket to cover up your embarrassment. Rafayel, still holding onto you, pulls you close to him and kisses the back of your hand and hugs you over the covers. He wouldn't budge even with Xavier trying to pull him away. 

“Breakfast is ready, Y/N, come here and eat.” Zayne calls out from the kitchen. Rafayel finally lets go of his embrace, Xavier offers you his hand to help you off of the bed. You take his hand and he pulls you into him and gives you a tight embrace, whispering in your ear “Good morning, my dearest.” with the most gentle and innocent look on his face. You could not stop yourself from blushing. Meanwhile, Zayne beckons you all to the dining table. Slowly, everyone walked out of your room one by one. 

Arriving at the dining table, you stare at what Zayne has prepared. Your eyes begin to shine with excitement. “How were you able to make all these with what I have here?” You asked Zayne, while being amazed at his cooking abilities, “You had a lot of food in your freezer, I'm sure you would be able to make something simple like this if you tried.” Zayne replies as he softly pats your head, and gives you a light peck on your cheeks. Your hand quickly travels up to your cheeks. 

You sat down trying to distract yourself by eating the food Zayne had prepared, the 3 men also sat down with you, Zayne sitting beside you while Rafayel sat across from you with Xavier beside him. Everyone was slowly eating their breakfast when Zayne suddenly mentions “So, how are we going to deal with the issue we have at hand?” he calmly asked everyone while he gracefully digested his food. Everyone else was shocked by the topic and flinched and stopped eating. You just stay there with your head down, trying to avoid eye contact with everyone. “You guys could just give up and let me and Y/N enjoy our new couple's life.” Rafayel says half jokingly knowing full well the other 2 will not back down. “Like hell I would let that happen.” Said Xavier with a serious voice. “Agreed.” Zayne says while nodding his head. 

You sat there thinking to yourself, ‘Are they really ok with this? How is this even going to work?’ You didn't realize the 3 of them had been staring at you wanting to ask you about your opinion. Zayne then snaps you back to reality. “Y/N, we need to know how you think about all this. Care to share some of your thoughts?” You finally tilt your head up, glancing at Zayne, Xavier then Rafayel. 

You really have no idea what you should do or what is the right thing to do in this situation. You do not want to hurt any of them but you really cannot decide on just any one of them. You loved all of them equally and the thought of you not being around them is too painful. All you could do is let out a bitter smile and say, “I really don't know what we should do. I do not want to lose any of you. I guess this is just how selfish I really am.” 

Once again the 3 men were heart broken by seeing how torn you feel. Zayne thought of an idea. “Everyone, let's make a chat group on our phone. It is not often we all see each other like this, then again I would rather just spend my days off with just Y/N without the 2 of you meddling in our business. We can use the group chat to keep everyone in check while some of us get busy. How does that sound?” Xavier answers, “That's actually not a bad idea, at least we can keep everyone updated about Y/N. Not that I would let anything happen to her while she is with me.” “Fine with me, I will post our lovey dovey photos of Y/N and I when we go out for dates.” Rafayel butts in.

The 3 men exchanged their phone information and Zayne took your phone and created a chat group, adding the 3 of them in it. “Let's all also agree on one important thing, no one is to pressure Y/N into deciding what she wants to do. If any of us break that rule, they are no longer a part of this. And we will make sure of that.” Xavier and Rafayel both agreed as they formed a pact. “You are, however, allowed to try and woo her to your heart's content. That being said, the final decision will always come from Y/N.” The 3 of them then shake hands to pledge that they will play by the rules. 

“Are you all really alright with this..? It just feels really unfair to you guys and that I am leading you guys on for my own benefit…” you speak as your eyes start getting teary. “This is what I want,” Xavier answers quietly, “I've waited too long for us to revert back to anything less.” Xavier stares into your eyes sincerely with a hint of sadness. “I'm sorry for putting you through all this. Rafayel and Zayne also felt the same way.

It was Zayne's way of trying to protect you. And you noticed it. He is usually so strict but when you are involved, he would always put your feelings first over what he feels. You turned to him and gave him a hug. The others just watched as you lovingly hugged him. “Can I get a hug too?” Xavier looks at you with his sad puppy eyes. After you let Zayne go, you walk around the table and give Xavier a hug from behind while he is still sitting at the chair. He smiles while you see his ears turning pink. 

“Hey, don't forget about me too!” Rafayel complains. You slowly let go of Xavier and walked next to Rafayel and gave him a hug as he turned to face you to accept your embrace. Knowing that you've accepted their feelings, Rafayel is getting more daring. As you have your arms around him, his head close to your chest, he has one arm around your waist and his free hand is placed on your thigh, slowly traveling upwards while he tries to bury his face in your bosom. 

Flustered, you noticed you are still wearing your dress from last night. You escape from his grasp. “Hey! Would you look outside? It's a great day and we should go out and enjoy it instead of staying here. I would like to change out of this dress too…” looking at the well dressed men, you suggested “Maybe you guys should change too?” You were clearly blushing. 

Zayne stands up and suggests, “Why don’t we all go get changed and meet back here before lunch?” “That’s a great idea!” you shouted. “I can finally get out of this dress!” Zayne tried to hold back his soft chuckle, smiled and said “That’s too bad, you look absolutely breathtaking in that outfit.” shocked from his remark, your eyes widen and your face feels hotter by the second. You are not used to Zayne telling you how he feels, you always had to guess his feelings and now he is showing you everything like an opened book. It’s a nice change but it will take some time getting used to it. 

“I want to shower too, why don't we shower together?” Rafayel playfully suggests. Xavier and Zayne both had their eyes on him and had an annoyed look on their face. “If you want to shower, you can come to my place.” Xavier puts his arm around Rafayels’ neck and tug him along. “We will see you later.” Xavier brushes his free hand on your cheeks with a warm smile. “Hey! Let go of me!” Rafayel tries to struggle but to no avail. 

“What is your pass code for the door?” Zayne asked before heading out. “Why? I could just open the door for you?” You had a confused look on your face. Zayne reaches for your face and holds your chin with his index and thumb and pulls your ear close to his lips, “I would very much like to let myself in.” He gives you another light peck on your cheeks again. His voice was so flirtatious you could hardly resist. You swallowed down the moan that almost escaped from your lips. Once again your face has become a pretty hue of red. 

“Wait, I want to know too!” Rafayel forced Xavier to stop. “As do I.” Xavier also chimes in. “You live upstairs, you don’t need to know.” Rafayel complains, still trying to wiggle his way out of Xavier’s grip. Xavier is looking at you with puppy eyes. “Fineeeeeeee! I’ll put it in the group chat. Now get going or else we will miss lunch!” You playfully pushed all of them out and shut the door behind you. “I’ll be back before you know it babe!” Rafayel shouted from behind the door while getting dragged upstairs by Xavier. 

Arriving at Xavier’s apartment, Xavier lets Rafayel inside. Rafayel looks around with his arms crossed in front of him, still jealous of the distance between the 2 of you just being separated by just the ceiling, he couldn’t help himself but to pout. “Didn’t you say you wanted to shower? You can go first.” Xavier said to Rafayel with a cold voice. Rafayel glares at Xavier but does not answer, he pulls out his phone as if he was waiting for a message. Xavier paused and thought for a second. “On second thought, I will go in first.” he then rushed into his room, grabbed a change of clothes and charged into the bathroom. “Wow, you're such a great host.” Rafayel exaggerates. 

Rafayel wanders around the apartment, he sees plushies laying on the couch, he knew it was a reward from the claw machine. He takes it and squeezes it, pretending the plushie was Y/N’s face and pinches its cheeks. “Stop torturing Bunbun. It’s your turn for the shower.” Rafayel had an annoyed face and as he turned to look at Xavier, a set of spare clothes were thrown in his face. “You are really getting on my nerves.” Rafayel taunts Xavier as he walks into the bathroom. 

Xavier with a towel still drooping on his head, sits down on the couch and dries his hair. His hand traveled down to his lips, reminiscing the touch he and you shared, he chuckles to himself as he remembers you saying that it was your first kiss. Buzz Buzz, he twitched by his phone vibrating, which brought him back to reality. He checks his phone and realizes it was from you, sending the group your passcode for your home. He beams and shoots up from the couch, wanting to head downstairs to you but remembered Rafayel was still in the showers. ‘What is taking him so long.’ Xavier wonders to himself, frustrated. Just then, an idea strikes him. He went searching in his room, once he found the item he was looking for, he came out and checked on Rafayel. 

“Are you done yet? Even Y/N has finished with her shower.” Xavier asked as his patience was running low. “Yeah, yeah. Stop rushing me.” Rafayel steps out of the bathroom finally. Wearing one of Xavier's hoodies and sweatpants, his hair has been completely dried. “Do you have a bag of sorts so I can take my clothes?” Rafayel asks while holding his garments. “No.” Xavier answers coldly, “Let's just go already.” He couldn't stand being away from you for another second. “Fine, fine. You're no fun to hang around too. I would very much rather be in the company of Y/N.” Rafayel walks out while still holding on to his clothes. Xavier follows and locks the door.

Xavier dashed downstairs and stood in front of the door. His hand hovering over the number lock, his shaking hands enter the passcode and with a beep, the door is unlocked. He slowly walks in to find you sitting on the couch wearing a sweater and a pair of jeans shorts. You were texting and smiling, almost didn't notice Xavier had entered your apartment, you only noticed after the complaints from Rafayel that they are both back in your home. 

You look at the 2 of them, and can't help but giggle at Rafayel wearing Xavier’s clothes. It's not his usual style but it does look good on him. You then imagined Xaiver in Rafayel’s normal clothes and you can't help but blush a little. Xavier walks over and sits beside you on your couch. He grabs your hand and puts a key in your palm. “For my apartment.” He said as he smiled. 

Rafayel felt annoyed and left out so he stomps over to your other said and drops himself next to you. “Hey Y/N, do you mind if I just leave my clothes here? It's a hassle to bring with me.” He puts his arm around your shoulder, the slightest touch would make you jump, but he starts to lightly tug you towards him. Once your back reaches his chest, he cages you in with his free arm holding you waist. You are not used to being touched intimately and your ears begin to burn. Rafayel sees your innocent reactions and it makes him blush even though it was him who started it, still he would not let you go. 

Xavier glares at Rafayel and tries to get him to unhand you, feeling jealous. His hands are traveling up your legs and up your thighs going up to your waist, trying to pull you back towards himself. “Are you 2 trying to rip me in half?” You whined, trying to get them both to let go. But you are the shiny new toy and they can't get enough of you. You liked that they both want your affection but you just don't know how to handle them.

‘When will Zayne be back?’ you thought to yourself hoping he would come to your rescue. You hear the familiar Beep, right on cue, and your door opens with Zayne's return. He walks in and sees the 2 men all over you, your eyes pleading for him to get you out of the situation. He made a coughing sound, trying to get Xavier and Rafayels’ attention, they were so focused on their little fight that they didn't notice Zayne at all. You could see a vein popping up on Zayne's temple while his face remained calm, as he activated his Evol and placed his 2 hands on each of their shoulders, sending shivers down their spine as they finally let go of you. You could help but giggle at the situation.

You took this opportunity to slip out of the hands of Rafayl and Xavier. “What should we have for lunch?” You asked with an excited look on your face. The 3 men can’t help but feel defeated by your innocent manner. You guys decided to go buy items for a picnic at the park, everyone traveled in Zayne’s car, went to the supermarket and bought some premade sandwiches and a picnic blanket. 

Once you arrived at the park, you found a shaded spot under a big tree and ran towards it, Zayne and Xavier took the items out of the car and watched Rafayel chase after you. Everyone was actually having a great time, even though the 3 men would throw jabs at each other, it would make you laugh, you can’t wait for another day where all 4 of you can hang out together.

Random bypassers would watch your unique group, full of attractive men and the one female, all having a good time. Little did they know your complicated relationships. All the ladies walking by would get jealous of you for having the 3 of them around you. Even small animals would gather around, mostly next to Xavier, birds landing on his shoulders and squirrels trying to climb his legs. A few of them tried to steal food from Rafayel while none of them would go near Zayne. Zayne is not showing any emotions on his face but you could tell he was a bit hurt from that, you decide to sit closer to him and lean on his shoulders, with that little gesture, his heart melted.

Time flies when you are having fun, the sun was about to set before you all realized. You suggested they grab dinner before going home, they all agreed since they don't want the date with you to end. Rafayel got a call from Thomas to discuss an upcoming exhibition; he was unwilling but left shortly after dinner. Zayne has early surgery appointments planned and left after dropping you and Xaiver back home. 

Xavier held your hand as the 2 of you walked up the stairs instead of taking the elevator, both wanted to prolong the date. When you finally arrived at your apartment suite, Xavier grabbed both of your hands and squeezed them in his hands. “I had a great time today, thank you for our first date.” You looked into his eyes longingly, as if you didn't want the day to end. Seeing how vulnerable you look, he couldn't help but lean in for a kiss on your lips. He moved one of his hands up to your cheeks, slowly rubbing circles as he kissed you with more passion. It was getting hard to breathe, as he smothers you with his kiss. You let out a moan and Xavier twitched, and he backs off from your lips. 

“You should head inside, I will see you tomorrow.” Xavier says with his signature soft smile. “I don't want to sleep yet…” you whined, not wanting to let go of his hand. Xavier leans in again, putting his hand on your door as he backs you into it. “I don't want to leave you either… but I'm trying very hard to control myself right now. I’m not sure how much longer I can hold.” He looks at you with lustful eyes. It sent shivers down your spine, not a bad way but you also feel you are not ready to go to the next level. “Alright, good night Xavier, see you tomorrow.” You tiptoed towards him and gave him one last kiss before disappearing into your suite.

Xavier licks his lips and lightly touches it, he heads towards his apartment suite and decides he needs to take care of business before going to bed.

Your place feels so empty and quiet without the 3 of them. You hardly feel sleepy, you decide to get changed and ready for bed. Once your preparations are done,  the phone rings. It was Rafayel calling. You picked up the call, “Hello? Did you get home? Sorry I had to leave so soon, Thomas won't stop nagging at me for how important the next exhibit is.” Rafayel keeps talking, not really giving you time to answer, but you were fine with it. Somehow his voice calms you. “Yes, I'm home a while ago, just got ready for bed. When is your next exhibit?” You head over to your bed and lay down. “It's in a few days, a few hours drive away. Enough talk about that, what are you doing now?” “Just laying in bed, not really sleepy yet, was deciding on what I wanted to do before you called.” You replied honestly. 

“I already miss you, Y/N. Being able to be around you the last 2 days has been like a dream to me. I'm glad I finally get to kiss you after all this time. My house feels so empty right now.” You could feel him getting flustered on the other end, you're also starting to blush. He is being very honest with you and it doesn't happen often. “I miss you too…Rafayel” you gasped to yourself, how are you this needy? You felt embarrassed telling him the truth. “I miss you more, princess… I wish I could hold and touch you.” His voice sounds deeper than normal. You shiver at his words. 

You remember he left his shirt at your place. You went and pulled it out of the laundry basket and took it back to bed with you. “What are you doing? I heard shuffling on your end.” He asks while he breathes softly. “Nothing! I-Im just trying to get my plushies.” You made up something nervously. “Why do you sound so nervous then? It's not like you took my shirt and are sniffing at it.” Bingo, how did he know? Did he place hidden cameras at your house? “I’m just kidding. There's no way you would miss me so much as to need to sniff my shirt.” Little did he know that is exactly what you just did. Your face feels like it's burning, the heat is traveling down your whole body, you can't keep your body still and let out a soft moan. “Wait… you actually did? That's hot…Y/N…” he has figured it out, but you couldn't resist his smell. His breathing is more abnormal, it has become quicker. “Princess, please, say something…anything…” he pleaded. You clutched onto his shirt and whispered “Rafayel…” and with just that you heard a low grunt and he finished. You knew what he was doing. He was touching himself while picturing you clinging to his shirt and wanting him. And for some reason you didn't mind and enjoyed listening to him. 

“I would much prefer you being beside me and helping me instead, but I guess this will do.” He sighs. You felt embarrassed from his words, you have never felt this way just by someone's words. You could feel your panties getting wet. You just layed there clutching his shirt with your legs brought up close to your chest. You put your hand between your legs and felt the dampness seeping through your pajama shorts. 

You were about to stick your hand inside your shorts but were interrupted by Rafayels' voice. “What are you up to?” “Nothing! I'm going to sleep now! Good night!” You hung up before he got a chance to say good night. Rafayel was stunned but chuckled and went to clean himself up and head to bed.

Just when you thought the day was over, you got a text on your phone. Zayne messaged you to tell you that he had arrived back home ‘I’ve arrived home.’ you texted him back, ‘Welcome home!’ he replies with ‘You should sleep. It's getting late.’ you giggle to yourself knowing he has reverted back to doctor mode. ‘Already in bed Doc.’ ‘Good, now sleep.’ His replies were short but demanding. 

‘I already miss you, Dr. Zayne. Good night.’ Zayne twitched as he read your last text. His fingers pinching the bridge of his nose while he blush. Looks like he has to take care of the bulge in his pants before he can sleep.

It’s morning and your alarm is ringing, you turn over to place your hand over the clock to stop the alarm before rolling back to your original spot. “It’s nice to know I'm not the only one that has trouble getting out of bed.” Shocked, you sat up with your eyes wide open. Xavier has made his way into your apartment, sitting on the edge of your bed, chuckling. “You scared me!” you nervously say as you cover half your face with your blanket. “I’m sorry,” Xavier said with sad puppy eyes, “I just wanted to see you sooner… Forgive me?” You were surprised he got up and all dressed before you. Normally it would be the other way around and you would go upstairs to knock on his door to get him to get ready. 

“It’s fine i guess, but don’t sneak in here all the time, my heart can’t handle it…” you let out a playful sigh. Xavier leans over and pets your head and brings himself closer to give you a morning kiss on the cheeks. “Would you like me to make you some breakfast?” Xavier excitedly asks. Not wanting him to set your kitchen on fire, you nicely declined. “Maybe we could pick something up on the way to work. Tara left all her things here from the weekend, do you mind helping me pack things while I get ready?” he was a little bummed when you turned down his breakfast idea but started beaming again as soon as you asked him to help with another task. 

Xavier headed over to the suitcase and started packing. You hopped off your bed and playfully went behind him, wrapped your arms around his waist and gave him a hug from behind. “Good morning Xavier.” You said before grabbing your uniform and headed to the bathroom. Xaviers’ ears turned a light pink, and he playfully shook his head, smiling to himself. “I better prepare myself for any other sudden attacks.”

As you walk out of the bathroom, Xavier extended his arms to the wall to cage you in. You looked at him confused. He leans in close, brushing his lips past your cheeks and whispers in your ear, “Don’t be so naughty.” Your face instantly turned red, you moved your hands up to your cheeks to try to hide as you looked up to Xaviers’ eyes. Xavier slowly backs up, a smirk on his face. “Pay back for the hug earlier.” You playfully pound his chest and he releases you from the wall. “Let’s get going, or we might not have time to grab food.”

On your way to work, Xavier is walking on your left as he pulls the suitcase along. You wanted him to hold your hand, it was as if he knew what you were thinking, as he grabbed your hand and intertwined his fingers with yours. There was a smirk on both your faces, you 2 were in bliss. 

Arriving at the headquarters, you wanted to let go of his hand, since you were not sure how to announce your current relationship, with Xavier being one of your 3 interests. He simply did not want to let go of your hand and held on tighter. Just as you thought about what you should do, a pair of hands grabs your shoulders. 

“I see that things worked out well for you 2.” Tara said with a smirk on her face. “I have you to thank.” Xavier answers Tara promptly. “I expect a reward of some sort, maybe a month's worth of boba tea?” Tara suggested jokingly. “No problem.” Xavier promised. “Here's your stuff.” He hands the suitcase to Tara. “So have you decided if you want to go public with your relationship?” “Yes.” “No.” Xavier looks at you with sad eyes. “It's kind of complicated right now… I will be sure to let everyone know when I think the time is right, but for now, could we please keep this a secret?” You bagged Xavier and Tara. Xavier sighs and pets your head. “I guess if that's what you really wish.” Tara can't help but feel giddy at the 2 of you. “That will cost you another month of boba tea.” “Y/N will cover that.” Says Xavier as he pouts. “That's fine, by the time she finishes the first month's worth she will be sick of boba tea!” You giggled at Xavier.

There was a group of new trainee hunters joining the field today. As seniors you and Xavier took care of the bigger wanderers while the new hunters took care of a lower rank wanderer. One of the trainees panicked as the wanderer charged at her, she shot her Evol randomly and managed to scrap your inner thigh. “Argh!” You muffled in pain. You tried to stand but were not able to, due to the electric Evol temporarily paralyzing you. Xavier saw and dashed to your rescue. Scooping you off your feet and instructed the hunters are he would be taking you to the hospital. 

He ran, as he had you tight in his grip, you could hear his heart pounding faster than normal. Once you arrived at the hospital, Zayne just happened to pass by and saw that you were injured, he glared at Xavier. “Wait, Zayne, it is not his fault. I got caught in friendly fire from the new trainees.” you tried to defend Xavier since you saw the look on Zayne's face about to release his anger towards Xavier. Zayne squeezed his eyebrows and grabbed you out of Xavier's embrace. “I’ll take care of her from here.” Zayne coldly tells Xavier, you could tell he was still angry at him, even though it was not really within his control. 

Zayne brought you to his office and put you down on the couch. You were wearing your skirt and he could see blood trailing down your inner thigh. “Let me see.” He demands. You felt embarrassed and clutched your legs together. “Y/N.” You twitched as he called your name and slowly released your legs, Zayne’s hands were on your knees gently separating your legs. You blushed as you turned your head away and placed both your hands between your legs, holding down your skirt. “Y/N, please move your hands so I can see clearly.” his stern voice was making you feel more embarrassed by the second. 

You slowly moved your hands and placed them on your two sides, clutching tightly on the seats of the couch so hard your knuckles turned white. He placed the foot of your injured leg on his thigh and lifted your leg up at an angle while pulling your skirt down so he could see your cut. “It's not deep, and it managed to miss your major artery.” He sighs a breath of relief. He goes and grabs the first aid kit, he thoroughly cleans up the wound and bandages it up. 

Zayne finally noticed how nervous you were, trying to hold your breath, pink cheeks and eyes tightly squeezed shut. At first he thought you were worried about the pain, but then he realized it was for a very different reason. He slowly ran his finger around your wound. He could hear your irregular breaths and soft puffs which you tried desperately to hold back. He has a wicked smirk on his face and you were too preoccupied to look. 

He can't help but want to tease you, he puts his hand on the bottom of your knees and pulls you so your back is now on the seat. He then bent in and his head was slowly going between your legs. You panicked and tried to push his head away from your sensitive area only to have him grab both your wrists with his free hand and pin them down. He was hovering around your bandaged area, lightly rubbing the tip of his nose to it. 

He placed a light kiss on your bandage, “Ah…” both of you were not expecting that sound. You managed to break free from Zayne's gasp and you covered your mouth with both hands, one on top of the other. Your eyes were as wide as Zayne's. His eyes are now staring into yours'. “You always manage to rattle me up, how am I supposed to continue treating your wound after hearing such a cute sound?” You have never seen his current expression before, he wants more, he needs more. 

You were so shocked by your own voice that tears started forming, and rolling down your widened eyes. Zayne jolted from seeing your tears and panicked. It wasn't his intention to make you cry. “I’m sorry baby, I… went overboard. Please forgive me.” His eyes looked like he would cry if you rejected him. You shook your head, “No… That is not the reason…” you tried to explain. “I don't want you to see me as an easy girl. I don't understand why I made those sounds… please forgive me…” 

Zayne pulled you up and into his embrace, “Oh my silly girl, there is no need for apologies. I loved the sounds you make, it's proof that you feel the same way I do. Here.” He grabs your hand and places it on the bulge between his legs. “This is how you make me feel.” This was the very first time you've touched one. Your face quickly turned red, so hot you could almost fry an egg on it. You tried to pull away but the little movement caused Zayne to let out a lustful moan. He grabs your chin with his other hand and pulls you in for a passionate kiss. Suddenly there was a knock on the door and it shocked both of you and made him quickly let go. 

“Dr. Zayne, your patient is here to see you.” You both suddenly remembered that you came in without an appointment. “I will be there in a minute.” Zayne notified the nurse. He turns back to you, “I guess this is all we have time for.” You could see a smirk on his face. “I'll see you next time.” He gives you another kiss and sends you off.

You were limping out slowly and once you got to the lobby, you saw Xavier sitting and waiting patiently. He noticed you right away and rushed over to you. “Was everything ok? How come you looked like you were crying? Did he give you a hard time?” Xavier's brows stiffen. “No. It's just because of the pain. Zayne helped me bandage it up already.” Xavier was not too satisfied with the answer but decided he shouldn't question you anymore. 

He turned around and kneeled down, offering you his back. “Climb on, I'll take you home.” You got embarrassed “I can walk by myself you know.” You pout as you try to reject Xavier. “Then I guess I will just have to carry you back like how I got you here.” You thought that would be even more embarrassing so you took the offer for the piggy back ride. You blushed and pouted as you climbed on his back. He placed his hands on your thighs and you gasped. “Did I hurt you?” Xavier asked as he worried that he accidentally touched your wound. You shook your head, “No, I was just caught off guard by your hands.” “Sorry, let's get going then.” Says Xavier, you could clearly see his ears turning pink. You wrapped your arms around him to secure yourself and also for how cute his reaction was. 

He took his time walking home. He liked how your arms are around him, if he could carry you forever, he would gladly accept. “Oh yeah, how were the trainees after the accident?” You felt bad having to leave them behind even though the area was cleared of wanderers. “They were all fine and returned safely to the headquarters. The one that injured you felt so bad she came to the hospital but you were still being treated.” “I hope this didn't traumatize them to stop being a hunter.” You said jokingly. “She almost quit, for a totally different reason though.” Xavier whispers quietly to himself, you managed to miss what he said. 

Once you arrived at the apartment, Xavier brought you back to his place instead of yours. “Why didn't you bring me home?” You asked confused. “I wanted to look after you. And it would be easier here since I know where everything is kept. Are you hungry? I can make you something to eat.” You got worried and said “No, I'm not hungry.” Your stomach starts growling. You quickly covered your belly and turned red as it betrayed you. “Okay… maybe a little bit hungry…” Xavier can't help but let out a playful laugh. “Don't worry, I was just going to put together a turkey sandwich for you. I should manage.” You still can't help but worry. 

Sitting on the couch in Xavier's living room, you can't help but notice how clean and tidy it is. You grabbed bunbun which was on the couch and gave it a squeeze. It smells like Xavier, he must like to hug it when he naps. You can't help but sniff it some more. His scent calms you, almost feeling like you were about to fall asleep as well. But by the time Xavier returned with the sandwich, you had fallen asleep with bunbun tightly locked in your embrace. Xavier's brows narrowed looking at bunbun, he was jealous of his plushies. “I'll deal with you later.” As he glared at bunbun. 

He carried you to his bedroom carefully while trying to not wake you up. He gently placed you down and covered you with the blanket. His hand hovering over your face traveling from top of bottom. He was getting horny just from the idea of you being in his bed. He kneels at the end of his bed and unbuckles his pants, lowering it and the boxer enough to have his cock set free. He started stroking himself, he moaned quietly as he stroked himself, not wanting to wake you up. His eyes were locked onto you and his breath became quicker. He wanted to touch you so badly, but fought his inner demons since he didn't want you to feel uncomfortable. 

His hand was moving faster and moans became quicker and louder. You could hear him breathing and you slowly opened your eyes only to see him masturbating to you. You instantly became flustered and wanted to look away. Xavier shows no signs of stopping, if anything, he's going faster and louder. “Princess… Please look at me. Ha… I won't touch you… just keep your pretty eyes…mm on me.” He pleads as he pants and moans. You kept your eyes on him as he played with himself. You were mesmerized by him, the way he looked and the way he sounded. You slowly pulled down the blanket and started crawling towards him, wanting to take a closer look. 

Xavier was getting to his limits, he stared into your eyes with pleading eyes. “Can you… haa… kiss me…?” You reach your arms to his head, fingers running through his soft hair and pull him in for a kiss. He licks your lips wanting access to your mouth, and you allow him by parting your lips slightly. He sticks his tongue into your mouth and swishes it around against yours. You lightly sucked on his tongue and he let out a loud muffled moan, “princess… I'm gonna…MMM…cum, I'm cumming.” His hot cum shots out, landing on your uniform and some actually landed on the bottom of your chin. 

This was your first time feeling the warm sticky liquid, yet you weren't disgusted by it. You wiped your chin with your hand, looking at the creamy white liquid with fascinating eyes. You didn't even mind your uniform being dirtied. Xavier felt embarrassed as he finished with his high. He quickly grabs a box of kleenex to try and clean you up. “I'm sorry princess, I couldn't help myself…, take off your uniform, I'll go get it washed.” He moved around his room so fast and got you a set of his clothes while his cock was still hanging out. 

You told him to turn around as you changed into his clothes, and once you told him you were done, he turned around and saw your tiny figure wearing his clothes, his cock was getting hard again. He quickly grabs your uniform and runs into the bathroom, saying he needs to shower while he puts your clothes in the wash. He ran a cold shower trying to calm his head, and his cock. 

You sat in his bed, dazed, trying to collect yourself from everything that happened today. You got found out by Tara; you got injured; you saw Zayne and touched his dick; you saw Xavier masturbating to you and cums on you. You licked your hand that had Xavier's cum, it tastes salty, you feel yourself getting wet from remembering his face as he came all over you. You felt hot on your thigh when Zayne kissed you. 

Xavier steps out of the bathroom and finds you still sitting on his bed, dazed. He moved toward you and sat down behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist, his head buried between your neck and shoulder. You finally snapped out of your daydream and noticed him. “I’m sorry Y/N, did that make you uncomfortable?” You shook your head, you lifted your hand up to his head and rubbed his cheeks. “Why do you feel so cold?” you ask. Concerned. “Was just trying to calm down, but it didn’t really help.” You turned around to face him, you got on your knees and embraced his head into your chest. “Yup, definitely did not help at all.” as signs and wraps his arms around your torso. 

“You smell nice…” You were running your fingers through Xavier’s hair while taking in his scent. “Y/N… Are you feeling alright? You’re acting like you're drunk.” You were somewhat drunk from his affection towards you. And you loved how he makes you feel so warm and comfortable. “I don’t know what is going on, all I know is I want to keep touching you.” Xavier lightly pushes you away. “I don’t know if I will be able to control myself if you keep saying things like that. I don't want to hurt you, I won’t be able to let go of you. This is your only chance to run.” 

Xavier is trying hard to hold himself back from touching you all over, he isn't sure if you are ready for him to do what he really wants to do. His hands are trembling, the one thing he fears most is to hurt or scare you away. He can no longer bear the thought of you not being with him. Once again you placed your palm on his cheek, he shifted his weight into it and grabbed your hand with his shaky hands. “You would never hurt me.” You told him confidently. 

In one swift movement he already had you flopped down on his bed, he was on his knees, his face hovering just about yours. “Don't say I haven't warned you.” He leans in to give you a bunch of tingling kisses, from your cheeks to your lips, traveling down the side of your neck. He stops at the crook of your neck and playful sinks his teeth onto your tender skin. You let out a moan as he sucked on your delicate skin, leaving behind a hickey. His right hand travels under the hoodie he lent you, slowly moving up your torso. “It tickles, Xavier…” you told him as you giggled. He sat up, tugging at the hoodie and asked, “Can I take this off?” His signature puppy eyes are at it again. You weren't about to stop him even if he didn't look at you with those eyes. You just smiled and nodded at him, next thing you know, the hoodie has been flung across the room. 

Xavier was saddled on top of you, looking down at your now exposed skin, his breathing becoming quicker, you could see the bulge in his pants twitching as he ran his hands over your bra covered chest. “I’m removing this as well…” he says as one of his hands travels behind your back to remove the hooks. You moved your arm over yourself, “I don't want to be the only one that's bare…” you told him nervously. Xavier took your hint and took off his shirt and threw it off the bed. You finally moved your arms to the side and let him remove your bra. “You are so beautiful. I've dreamed of undressing you many many times and it is now a reality. Do you think I can take some pictures?” He jokingly suggested. “Don't push your luck.” You told him as pout and moved your arms in to cover yourself. “Okay, okay. No pictures…… this time.” he laughs. 

You lightly pound on his chest, he grabs your wrist and kisses it. With His free hand, he placed his fingers on your lips, slowly moving down your chin, neck, then to the middle of your collar bone. He then moves his hand to cup one of your breasts and lean in to suck on your hardened nipple of the other. You ran your hands in his soft hair again as you let out soft moans from the sensation of your nipples. “You feel so smooth and soft. I can't get enough of you.” He says as he switches his attention to your other nipple to give it some love. 

His lips started traveling down, you couldn't help but twitch lightly, feeling ticklish and impressed. He was getting closer and closer to your most sensitive spot. He tugs at the sweatpants, wanting to wait for your approval to remove them. You slightly arched up giving him the access he needs to have both the sweatpants and your panties removed. You squeezed your knees together while his hands traveled down your thighs, brushing over your bandaged wound. He stood up at the edge of his bed and removed his own sweatpants and boxer. 

You can see him clearly, his cock looks like it is twitching painfully, leaking with pre-cum. You haven't really seen any personally, but you thought he was on the big side. Compared to the ones you occasionally see in movies. You wondered if it would hurt. Xavier noticed your worried face and smiled, he grabbed your legs and pulled you closer to the edge of the bed. “Gasp! Xavier!?” You weren't expecting the sudden gesture and got scared. “Don't worry, I won't be putting it in. I just thought you wouldn't like to be the only one completely bare. For now, let me help you feel good.” He kneels down and holds the bottom of your thighs up. His eyes locked onto your clit, he moves in to kiss it, sending shivers down your spine. “Y/N, could you hold your legs for me? I want to be able to feel you with my hands.” You put your arms under your knees and hug them towards you tightly. “Such a good girl, and already so wet. This is all for me?” You were too nervous and embarrassed to say anything other than letting out moans. 

He places his hands close to your folds and slightly pulls them apart with his thumbs. “Such a pretty color.” He leaned in and gave it another kiss. He starts licking your cunt all the way up your clit. “So, so sweet…” his hot breath hits you as he kisses and licks you. “Xavier… my body feels funny…” you whine and moan as he eats your pussy out. “Are you about to have your orgasm? That's fine, let it all out. I'll accept every last drop.” He has one hand holding you open while he starts jerking himself off with his other, wanting to cum the same time you do. As he strokes himself faster, his breath becomes heavier, making you more sensitive as his tongue moves in and out of your cunt. 

As Xavier's tongue swishes, you could feel that you are at your peak. Your back arches and head thrown back calling out to him, “Xav-Xacier!!” You were cumming, and as promised Xavier sucking up every last drop as he also cums while he muffled his moans. 

That was your first ever orgasm and you thought it felt amazing. All he did was just use his tongue and it was enough to make you come undone. Xavier carries you back up towards bed and places your head on his pillow, he cleans up after himself and lays down next to you. “I’m getting sleepy, but I don't mind if you want to go again. Just let me nap for 5 mins like this.” He pulls you into his embrace while you 2 are still fully naked. You also felt a drain of energy and thought a nap wouldn't be so bad afterall and fell asleep safely in his arms. 

#shen xinghui #xavier x reader #xavier lads #lads smut #rafayel love and deepspace #love and deepspace #zayne love and deepspace #l&ds smut #love and deepspace fanfiction #love and deepspace smut

[gatitties]

Haihaiii! Ive been reading ur op stuff for a while now and i really love the way u write the strawhats and the wbp, i wanted to ask if i can i rq the WBP and/or the strawhats with a young (like around 14/15) isekai'ed reader whos like a really bad procastinator? Like theyll be telling the crew how they have this project they have to do till *random date*, and the crew (specifically marco & thatch/robin nd sanji if u can 😓😓) will ask them from time to time if they alrd started doing it and theyll be like "yeah dw imma do it tmr" then theyll just draw or do smt else rather than do the thing they have to do, eventually when its 1 day till they gotta send it they'll panic but eventually get it done?

Thank yew ^^ !!

─Strawhats & Whitebeard Pirates x young!reader (platonic)

─Sumary: There is no need to stress yourself unnecessarily, you just enjoy until you have no options left but to move forward with your task.

─Warnings: none

─ The moment you were sent to this world full of pirates and adventures you knew that your procrastination would only get worse, but who wouldn't prefer exploring another world full of fantasy things to doing class work?

─ This crew doesn't know what it's like to leave everything to the last minute until they meet you, you will simply block all kinds of activities if you find one much more entertaining or better.

─ Many of them don't understand it because you seem so calm and then so stressed about being able to finish your projects, stress that you would not have been exposed to if you had kept up with your tasks.

─ Sanji refuses to give you any type of drink or food that could stimulate or vary your sleeping hours just because you didn't start doing your homework sooner, he probably reminds you all the time that you have pending homework.

─ Robin will offer to help you with anything, but knowing that someone as smart as her would help you only made you think that the job would be done quickly and that's why you delayed it further.

─ Even though they scold you for your poor time management, they will help you complete anything pending if they see that you are going to tear your hair out if you keep pulling it, Chopper and Jinbe are usually quite reliable.

─ Luffy will only be one more cause of your procrastination, he gives you the opportunity to do what you want when you want, although your world cannot always be governed by that rule, you can afford to do it in this one.

─ Temporary vacation in another world? It sounds a lot better than that assignment you have to turn in in two days.

─ You will leave even the simplest task alone to see how this crew does the most trivial things like cleaning or cooking.

─ Whitebeard never thought that he would find someone lazier than Ace, although you are not lazy, you just enjoy things until the last moment.

─ Marco scolds you a lot because he says that it is not healthy to go through so much stress in a short period of time for something that you could have done before calmly, the excuse that you work better under pressure is not valid for him.

─ Ace tries to get you not to stop doing what you're doing for something else more entertaining, but you also find his narcolepsy much more entertaining than some of your pending works, he tries to help but it's also a distraction.

─ Thatch will also try to help you with your homework when he has free time, but one, either he doesn't know how to help you because he doesn't understand what you're learning, or two, he'll start blabbing about any gossip with you.

─ If you really want to do your tasks on time and calmly, Izou is probably the one who will let you have the least distractions, but for now you still prefer to be a chaos of anxiety because you don't know if you will complete the work on the deadline.

#op #one piece #one piece x reader #strawhtas x reader #whitebeard x reader #young reader #platonic reader #one piece x platonic reader #sfw #reader insert #request

[whatajezebelle]

The Woods

Suguru x F!Reader

Mature Content

Y/N has taken a break from dating for a while but questions that decision when she meets Suguru on a camping trip with her friends.

(A/N: I will adjust tags as I go. There will be smut, though. This is my first story in a long time so let me know what you think!)

Chapter 1

Nature getaway

You flop onto your temporary bed for the next couple of weeks and look at the spectacular view of the forest from the large windows of your room. You were lucky enough to beat traffic so you got there before your friends did. Part of you is anxious about this trip but after blowing off every invite for the past half a year, you couldn't avoid your friends any longer. Well, you could but it was likely that they'd break down the door to your apartment and kidnap you. You take a deep breath and close your eyes for a moment. When you open them back up it's clear a moment turned into a couple of hours. The sun was beginning to set and you could hear your friends making their way through the door. Since you have the only room on the bottom floor it ensures that at the very least early mornings will be quiet and to yourself. The nights not so much but you're kind of nocturnal anyway so that doesn't matter much. You walk out and one drops their stuff to run to you for a bear hug. The other holds onto her stuff with a smile.

“Y/N! I'm so happy you decided to come!” Utahime wraps you in a hug with a huge smile on her face. She's been the most adamant that you come with them for this trip.

“Yeah, I figured some time with friends out in nature couldn't hurt.” You hug her back and give her a small smile.

“You getting enough sleep kid? Ieiri asks, her voice a lot more calm. She still has her things in hand as she maneuvers through the living room of the admittedly spacious cabin. She's slowly inching her way to the stairs as if she doesn't want to get caught.

“Um,, maybe but what exactly are you doing?” She keeps moving as you speak. “Also don't call me kid, we're the same age.” you grumble under your breath.

“What do you mean? No clue what you're talking about.” Utahime is quicker to figure it out than you are.

“Don't you dare! I told you I'm taking that back room!” Utahime lets go of you, almost pushing you over, and rushes to grab her stuff as Ieiri sprints off.

They race and fight each other for a while. You watch for a bit, slightly amused. They fight more than anyone I've ever seen and it's clear that it's cause they like each other and this is the only way they can get that close without “making things weird”. After a bit you get bored so you head outside. There's more stuff in the SUV they drove up in so you go to grab as much as you can. It's likely that they will be too tired to do much after their death match and you wouldn't dare let any food go to waste.

The air is so clear out here. You take a moment to appreciate the sounds and the way the light hits the trees as it slowly begins it's daily descent. Filled with a type of peace you haven't felt in a really long time. You close your eyes tilting your head back to better feel the wind on your face and take a deep breath. The peace ended very quickly when you hear footsteps coming from behind you.

“Can I help you?” You turn and speak with clear irritation in your voice and your meanest mug when the steps are a movement away from being too close for comfort. You turn to see a man with long dark hair and warm but analytical eyes. He smiles softly, as if to calm you and you realize just how handsome he is. A different version of you would have been excited to see someone as beautiful as him but current you has dealt with the consequences of that version of you's bad decision making.

“Hey, I was just checking on all of you. I'm in the cabin next door with some friends so feel free to come by later. We're cooking and there's more than enough for everyone.” he looks at you as if he's staring into your soul. His eyes moving across your face really taking in your features.

“And you are...?” He's speaking as if you should know already but you can confidently say that you've never seen him before.

“Suguru! Hey, dummy.” Ieiri calls out to him. She's empty handed and her hair is messy from the brawl.

“Why do you look like you've been fighting the squirrels, Shoko?” He speaks marginally louder than he was to you a moment ago and you can hear the bass in his voice more clearly. Like a rumble in his chest. You try to ignore the goosebumps that pop up because of it.

“Utahime and I had a little disagreement about who deserved the best room in the cabin. I won of course.” she smiles smug.

“It's because you cheated! There's no biting and you know that!” Utahime comes storming out of the door looking twice as disheveled.

This triggers more bickering from them and you sigh as you realize this may be the entire trip. You hope somebody brought some pre-rolls cause you don't think this is an experience that sobriety can hold up to.

For a moment, you forget there was someone behind you so you jump when you hear his low chuckle. You turn to him and he's a bit closer than before. You're now on high alert, not because of fear or danger but because he smells so fucking good. You start to feel his body heat rolling off of him, he gets so close. Maybe a normal person who gets laid on a regular basis wouldn't notice that but you've been... touch starved, for lack of a better word. You joined team celibacy a long time ago, too long by the looks of things, so, obviously proximity to a man that has innate sex appeal coming out of every pore is enough to make you question your life choices.

“You're the friend that Ieiri told me about,” You look over at him as you speak. He moves to stand next to you to spectate the show your friends are putting on. He looks just as used to it as you are. The realization of just how tall he is hits you as you have to look up higher than expected with him so close to see his face. ”The one that owns the property here? Thanks for letting us stay. Or rather allowing me to come since you don't know me.”

You avoid looking at his face but since he isn't looking at yours, more interested in the fighting happening in front of you both, you take the opportunity to look him over. Just glancing you wouldn't notice the very defined muscles he's got going under that baggy shirt but after looking for more than a second it's very clear he spends a lot of time in the gym. He's folded his arms which showcases just how nice his biceps are. You rake your eyes further up and notice how strong his shoulders look and how strong his jawline is. You take subtle steadying breaths and pull your eyes away before you're caught.

“I am and it's not a problem. Really. Any friend of Shoko and Utahime is a friend of mine. You're Y/N, right?” He's now looking at your face but by that time you've moved your focus back on the argument so hopefully he hadn't noticed the salivating.

“I am. Nice to meet you.” You awkwardly nod your head toward him still avoiding eye contact. Your chest fills with that familiar feeling of anxiety. From what you've heard from your friends over the last couple of years, Suguru is pretty laid back about people but it's always nerve wracking to talk to someone new. Not everyone understands or cares for how socially awkward you can be.

The bickering turns into another all out brawl and this time you feel the need to step in. You trudge your way over and try to avoid the swinging arms and kicking feet. Finally you're able to separate the two. Grabbing the collars of their shirts like you're scruffing two cats.

“Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you two? Either fuck or leave other each alone. The childish flirting is driving me insane.” You scold them and set them down. “Can you behave? Please? For me?”

They cross their arms and pout refusing to look at each other like children and grumble. Two others have joined the spectacle, walking in from the trail that presumably connects the two cabins although you can't see the other one through the thicket of trees from here.

They're all three standing together now and your heart is pounding out of your chest. How the fuck do they all look like that? Birds of a feather really do flock together, even the pretty ones. The blonde one has strong masculine features and a stoic demeanor. He looks friendly enough but definitely is more of a no nonsense type of person. His eyes dark and vigilant, the crinkle they form when he smiles shows that he's kind despite how he holds himself. The white haired one has softer features but not in an androgynous why, more like in a pretty boy way. His eyes are the most vibrant blue you have ever seen and they're so warm it's almost like they're liquid encased in his eye. He looks like he ain't shit if you're being honest but damn is he nice to look at.

They're trying to hide their laugh at the interaction going on in front of them. You can't really blame them if you were the one watching it'd be pretty funny to you, too.

“Utahime, you cryin?” The white haired one says, not at all trying to hide his laughter. In fact, he points as he laughs.

“Fuck you, Gojo!” She yells at him. You raise your eyebrows, she normally keeps it together with anyone other than Ieiri and you're pretty sure that's because she has a crush on her. You archive that for later.

“Too late, babe, you already did.” She sputters and gets up grabbing stuff from the passenger seat of their car and stomping her way inside. Your jaw drops and eyebrows raise til they're damn near in your hairline. No need to ponder on it later, suspicion confirmed.

“Well damn.” You say as you hold your hands up as if in surrender and move out of her way as she passes you. You hope that coming here was the right choice, cause so far it's looking like a bunch of temptation and drama. Is it kinda funny drama? Yes. But still drama nonetheless.

“Nice going, Idiot.” Suguru says to him eyebrow raised in irritation and his mouth set in disappointment.

“What? She did!” The blonde one smacks him upside the head. He doesn't say anything he just gives what could be best described as the disappointed dad look.

“Could you at least try to behave yourself in front of our new friend?” Suguru turns to you as Shoko gets up from the ground and dusts herself off before wrapping an arm around you. “Satoru,” he turns to the white haired one, “Kento,” Then to the blonde, “This is Y/N.”

All eyes are on you and you want to crawl back to your room and hide under the blankets until everyone went away.

“Hey... what's crackin'?” You say uncomfortably and avoid eye contact with any of them.

“You're pretty.” Satoru purrs at you with a very charming smile, his eyes roaming everywhere but your face. And if you were still in a hoe phase that would have had the kitty meowing but, unfortunately, you are not so it just irritates you.

“I'm aware.” you say deadpan with your patented bitch face. You know it's rude but it's the most likely to get him to back off the quickest.

“Ohhhhh, feisty, I like that.” he smiles even bigger. You scoff and roll your eyes. Suguru pinches the bridge of his nose, clearly annoyed with his friends antics.

“Please don't mind him, it's nice to meet you.” Kento comes up and shakes your hand with a firm but gentle grasp.

“And you.” You smile at him genuinely unbothered by his presence. “Hopefully, I'm not being too rude but I have a feeling if I don't finish emptying out this car it won't get done tonight.

“Hey, I'd help!” Ieiri sounds off next you. You fix her with a “bitch please” look. She laughs it off. “Yeah, you're right.” She lets go of your shoulder and grabs the rest of her stuff before going inside.

“Let us help.” Suguru is already grabbing things and handing them to the others before you can say anything. They grab the heaviest of it and go inside to help put things away.

----------

It's completely dark outside and the weather has cooled just the tiniest bit. Enough that having a bonfire isn't an entirely ridiculous idea. Watching Kento and Suguru chase down Satoru to take the lighter fluid and matches away is nothing short of comedy gold.

“Yeah, get him!” Utahime yells with her full chest. She's five seconds away from an evil cackle when the two more responsible men tackle Satoru.

Satoru pouts but accepts his defeat. He goes to mess around with the music instead. Suguru prepares the fire pit and you watch his every move in silence. Your eyes are so glued to him that you don't notice your friends sharing a look and looking back at you.

“Take a picture it might last longer.”

“What are you talking about, Uta?” You sound guilty as fuck as you not so subtly tear your eyes away and look at anything else when Suguru makes eye contact with you hearing Utahime tease you.

“Oh that was real smooth. Not noticeable at all.” Ieiri chuckles next to you.

You give them the finger, “Sit on it and rotate, bitch.” This only makes them cackle even louder.

“What's so funny, ladies?” Suguru makes his way over. As you were getting teased he managed to get the fire going. He stops a couple of feet in front you.

“We were just talking about Y'N's possible interest in photography. We think she might have a good eye for it.”

Your head slowly turns to Ieiri and while your mouth says nothing your face says everything. Like, 'Bitch, please shut the fuck up, for the love of all that is holy.' for example.

He smiles again, dimples prominently on display and it all but destroys you, “Oh yeah? I'd love to see what's caught your eye.”

Your face goes hot and you pop up of the chair you were inhabiting and slowly make your way inside their cabin to get a drink. Alcohol will be needed for tonight, that much is clear.

“Yeah, I'll definitely let you know. Ya know, if I uh do that...” You bump into another one of the chairs and Suguru raising his eyebrows and tries to hide his smile. He clearly wants to laugh, finding your awkwardness cute.

“I'll hold you to that then.”

You spend dinner time avoiding participating in conversation. You don't want to stumble into any anxiety inducing conversation and the best way to do that is to not speak. You feel Suguru's eyes on you all throughout the meal but to be fair Satoru isn't doing much better. Luckily you're sat next to Kento and he is much quieter and doesn't feel the need to bore a hole in your head with his eyes. There's a level of camaraderie you feel with him purely because he lets you be but is still considerate and nice to you. You'll do your best to stick by his side during activities on this trip.

After everyone eats, there's a group effort to clear the table and make sure dishes are clean. Since there are six of you it takes no time at all. Everyone grabs their preferred drink and heads closer to the bonfire. Satoru is self assigned DJ and he's actually pretty good. Ieiri convinces Kento to dance and Utahime and Suguru join.

You sit near the fire on one of the nice outdoor sofas set to the side of the guy's cabin. You watch everyone talk, dance and reminisce on old times. Pre-rolls were brought along, and it looks like there's enough to supply a whole compound so you won't run out. You don't smoke as much as everyone else so that you could find your way back you the cabin without an accidental adventure into the woods. Knowing your dumb ass you'd get too caught up watching the stars to pay attention to where you're going.

You nurse the drink that Ieiri mixed for you. It mostly tastes like juice but you know there is a ton of tequila in it since you watched her make it. You're lost in thought staring into the fire when someone sits next to you, close enough to touch.

“You don't seem like you're having very much fun.” You look over to Suguru and he's watching you with intense eyes. That warm sweet smile on his face.

“I am, I just... sometimes I'm quiet. I like just being around the fun.” You avoid eye contact still, staring into your cup like it has the secrets of the universe in it. You may need a refill, you notice your cup is almost empty. Which makes you realize you're a bit tipsy. It's not bad, it actually helps a bit.

“A true introvert then, hm? Nothing wrong with that. So if this isn't really your thing, what is?” His voice is low and gentle. You look over at him making full eye contact possibly for the first time and see genuine interest in his dark eyes. It takes you a little off guard.

“Uh, well, I mostly stay home and work with computers. I like taking them apart and putting them together. I also game a lot.” You realize how shy you're acting. Like a school girl with a crush. Get it the fuck together, you tell yourself.

“Oh? Gamer girl. Nice. What you play COD or something?” his smile turns into a toothy grin.

“No, I'm not built for that community. I'd get banned for talking shit all the time. I like a lot of single player horror and sometimes I'll dabble in Valo, or League or Genshin, depending on my mood. I also like cozy games” Your body starts to relax as you talk about something familiar to you. You turn your body so your facing him and lean against the back of the sofa with your head resting on your hand. He mimics your body language and leans in a bit closer to hear you better. If there wasn't alcohol in your system you'd be an anxious mess at the proximity but this way you're able to relax a bit more.

“I don't think I could see you saying something so bad that you'd get banned for it.” his voice goes a bit lower as he speaks to you. “You seem too sweet for that. Maybe just a little shy.”

“Yeah, I could see that. I've been nothing but awkward today. But honestly...I'm kind of a bitch.” he laughs at this and you're wrapped up in the sound. “No, seriously. I can handle myself if I need to and I'm way less shy online than I am in person.”

“Hmm, I guess that makes sense. I almost forgot about how you handled Satoru earlier. That was great by the way I don't think he's ever been rejected like that.”

“Yeah, well, I didn't want him thinking he even remotely had a chance.” You wrinkle your nose in disgust and take that moment to sip from your cup. If there were a Redder flag they'd have to rename the color.

“And what about me? Do I have a chance?” thankfully you don't sputter and choke on your drink but your eyes go big as you look at him.

“Huh?” obviously, you heard him but you didn't know what else to say. He laughs and bites his lip before he answers when it's clear you needed him to repeat himself.

“Do I have a chance?” he repeats, “I mean you haven't told me to fuck off, yet.” He looks deeply into your eyes. It feels like he can see every part of you and he wants to see more. Greedy for your attention. It's in this moment you realize just how close your bodies are. That his hand has been resting on your thigh for a while now. His thumb rubbing circles into your exposed skin due to the shorts you're wearing.

“Oh well... I, uh-”

“Y/N! Come dance with us! You haven't gotten up since we ate. Come come!” Utahime calls for you and you have never been so grateful for her friendship in all your life.

“Yep! Coming!” You yell back and get up without saying a word to him.

“Not yet, you aren't.” you hear him mutter as you walk away. You choose not to acknowledge the statement, going with the calm, cool, and collected facade but internally you're screaming, crying and falling to your knees.

There's generic pop music playing along with a few club edits in the playlist. You take another shot to loosen up just a bit more and join your friends on the makeshift dance floor. You wouldn't consider your self a dancer but you aren't bad. You sway your hips to the music and get lost in it for a few songs before you feel eyes on you. You look over and notice Suguru still sitting on his own on the sofa, watching you over his cup as he takes a sip. His eyes shift up from your ass, he must of realized he was caught. He smirks and licks his lips. You turn away and keep dancing for a while.

“What's up with you two?” Ieiri asks from next to you as you both keep moving.

“What do you mean?”

“He's been eye fucking you all day and you aren't any better. If you weren't into it you would have cursed him out already.”

“What? He's not paying attention to me like that.” You don't know if you're trying to convince your self or her. But either way it's not working.

“Yeah, you keep telling yourself that and maybe it'll be more believable one day.” She lets you be and focuses on dancing instead, opting to fluster Utahime by putting her hands on her hips. You pay no mind to them and their flirting. Hopefully, they get together on this trip and quit acting like tsundere weirdos.

You feel light and enjoy the feeling of the heat coming from the fire and the burn in your muscles from moving for so long. There's a small smile on your face as you decide to call it quits for the night. Everyone groaned when you told them that you were going to call it a night and asked you to stay but you're tipsy and tired.

“Let me walk you back.” Suguru pops up next to you from what feels like no where. You look at him and then the dark trail that leads back to the cabin and back at him. You're not so drunk that you think you'd get lost but it's dark and a little scary to walk alone.

“Yeah, sure. Thanks.”

You walk in silence for the first few steps. The further away you get the more the sound and light fades until eventually the trail is only illuminated by moonlight.

“So...” He starts but doesn't finish.

“So?”

He licks his lips and shakes his head almost like he's decided against speaking his original mind.

“The cabin you're in doesn't have a computer but mine does. If you want a break from everyone while we're here you can use it.”

“That's nice of you. Thank you.” the shyness comes back now that you're alone. “Why do you need a computer out here? Isn't the point to get away and focus on nature?”

“Satoru, Kento and I run a security agency and sometimes if there's an emergency that needs to be handled by one of us, we have to use it.”

“Are you sure you want me using it for gaming then? Seems like a pretty important piece of equipment for you.” he huffs a small laugh in response.

“It's fine, I promise.” he reassures you.

The rest of the walk is in silence. It's not awkward but there is a tension that makes you a bit nervous. But then again what doesn't.

“Thank you for walking me. I probably would have been fine but I still appreciate the company.” He grabs your wrist and turns you to stand facing him once you get close to the Cabin.

He slowly moves closer and lets go of your wrist to give you the option to move away if you'd like. His forehead rests on yours and your breath mingles with his.

“Can I kiss you?” he whispers. You pause, speechless. You decide not to think and nod yes.

He closes the gap, putting one hand on your hip while the other cups your face. The kiss is gentle, his lips soft as they move against yours. It starts pretty chaste but as it continues and the heat in your tummy grows the kiss gets sloppier. He bites your lip which makes you gasp and he takes that moment to run his tongue over yours. He moans into you, which makes your whimper back. He uses his hand on your hip to pull your body flush to his, he gets a good squeeze. Enjoying how curvy you are his hand moves to grip your ass. His mouth moves to your jaw then right below your ear and slowly down your neck. Your eyes roll back feeling the small nips against your favorite spot and you wonder how he knew you would like that so much. He lowers himself a bit grabbing your thighs from the back and using the grip to separate your legs and pick you up, your legs instinctually wrap around him as he gently pushes your back into the front door of the cabin and grinds into you. With that movement, you feel exactly how big and how hard he is and it surprises you so much that it gives you a moment of clarity. Your eyes pop open and your breath hitches.

You push against his chest a bit and he immediately lowers you to the ground, removes his hands and detaches.

“Did I do something wrong?” He looks at you brows furrowed with worry.

“No, I just think we should stop there. I don't want things getting too complicated on this trip.”

He bites his kiss swollen lip, a habit you figure he has, and looks you over as he considers your words.

“Of course.” he doesn't seem upset at all, in fact his eyes stay soft and gentle as does his smile. He takes a good step back to make sure you have space and feel safe.

You nod and give him a small smile. You turn and walk into the cabin and he watches to make sure you make it in before he heads back.

#jjk x reader #jjk smut #jjk fanfic #geto suguru #getou suguru x reader #suguru geto smut

[idkbishsss]

On narkina 5, how did the prisoners drink water? They’re never seen drinking water, and I’m worried for them.

Edit: Thank you to the person who said it was mentioned that it was by the food. But my worry still stand, the do sleep for most the time, and I don’t believe there is any why they’re working. Correct me if I’m wrong on that last part though!

#It’s probably in the food but they can only eat that when there not working #andor #cassian andor #ruescott melshi #kino loy #taga #ham #jemboc #ulaf #xaul #nobody's listening #narkina 5 #one way out #These men were dehydrated #Also if it’s in the food they sleep for most of that time

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the fact that doctors can just Recommend Weight Loss with no instructions beyond ‘eat healthier/less’ is actually insane to me, i lost weight on purpose ONCE and it took me like 6 years to recover a semi-normal relationship with food and hunger

#uhh #disordered eating cw #just in case #mumbling #like jfc i know i’m not the first to say it and my experience is relatively SO tame #but it STILL fucked with my head for YEARS #and most people don’t go nearly that long between weight loss attempts at all for basically their whole lives!!!!! #and we’re so blasé about it like yeah just eat less to lose weight #and so few people talk about the really weird shit that phase of my life taught me even though they seem like pretty universal things #like when you lose weight deliberately by denying yourself food you get COLD #you get cold and you get in your head and you get sad it’s like being less alive #the times i’ve lost weight/recomped on accident (by doing smth that makes me move more‚ getting better sleep etc) #it’s been WARM #burn hotter move freer feel happier #and also the way hunger feels when you’ve been denying yourself food for an extended time is NOT the same as baseline hunger #it’s actually kind of wild that we use the same word to describe both feelings like that shit is NOT the same #that shit is not ‘being really hungry’ it’s a fuckin. blood curse or some shit you feel straight up unhinged #and i should disclaim here i am not talking large amounts of weight #i’ve fluctuated over i think a 20lb range max since reaching close to my adult height and that’s a guesstimate #but even in my relatively unremarkable little experiences here the way deliberate weight loss fucked with my brain is absurd to me #i’m fine now have been for years but seriously thinking back on it the fact that this is routine medical advice. unreal