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queen-shiba · 3 months

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Jamil and Kalim (Master and Servant)

A deep dive and non-biased analysis by Queen-Shiba

As I'm sure are aware, the relationship and experience of Kalim and Jamil are... Two complicated matters.

I've seen some rather biased statements, and statements based purely on one's own experiences, when in reality, we should be taking a good look at both Jamil and Kalim, when figuring out how to describe them as a duo. A pair of enemies, if you will.

Now, we're not going to be talking about OUR personal experiences, but instead looking at the characters from a logical standpoint because you cannot look at Jamil without Kalim, or Kalim without Jamil, and you cannot place your life on theirs to form a proper view.

Jamil Viper

Jamil was raised to believe he would always be second to Kalim. That he should remain in second and never surpass Kalim.

He learns to fear the Asims and the amount of damage that was done to him is undoable.

Jamil loathes Kalim with his entire being, and he is valid for his feelings. Completely. Kalim has overstepped boundaries several times, and being above Jamil, who wasn't in a position to really tell him no, it was a lose lose situation.

When he left for NRC, it was his way of escaping Kalim for a while, but we all know how that went.

So, he was forced to deal with him again.

Fast forward to book 4, Jamil's breaking point still allowed him to think logically and rationally. His being 17 and mentally unwell does not excuse him from this, and we, as viewers should not promote that anyone under the age of 18 or people who have mental problems are incapable, even if they are fictional characters.

His actions were completely inexcusable, lumping everyone into his problems, which he should have gotten help for. Think. People could have had heat stroke in those conditions.

Jamil caused that mess, and even asked MC to poison test without asking them to poison test.

Jamil has shown he's fully willing to drag others down for his benefit, which is a big problem.

While Kalim was completely inconsiderate to him, Jamil was also completely inconsiderate to him and why he would see Jamil as his friend and be in denial about his turning on him.

Jamil has shown he completely looks down on his peers as well, even people like Leona. He has a habit of viewing everyone else as incapable. Someone he has to babysit and watch over.

He showed this several times.

Saying he didn't expect much from MC, who has dealt with him, and everyone else on his birthday.

So desperately trying to protect Leona and direct him on what to and not to do when Leona has made it clear several times, he is far from helpless or stupid.

Internally expressing that bringing more people along during Alab'Naria (?) Would mean more people to babysit.

Jamil is fully capable of finding someone he can trust and making his life easier by asking for help dealing with Kalim, or daily tasks in general. Unfortunately, he holds himself back by thinking everyone is incapable of helping him.

Asking for help does not make you vulnerable, as that is what society has deemed it.

Requesting assistance from a trusted one is the smartest thing you can do. In fact, it is the better solution if you are in a situation like Jamil's.

His refusal to see a light at the end of the tunnel or simply make his own light is what shrouds him in darkness.

Many have a misconception, believing he is a slave, when he is a servant. There is a fine line between the two and it should not have to be explained.

If Jamil were a slave, he would not have had the gall to do what he did in book 4, let alone consider it. Before book 4, he'd have been long dead, even for something as little as refusing to play with Kalim or not being at his side for a millisecond.

A servant is allowed their breaks and some form of twisted mercy for a screw up.

Jamil is not a slave. He has opportunities he won't open his eyes to.

Kalim Al-Asim

Information stemming from this post

As stated in the post linked above, Kalim is living in a fantasy.

He's been betrayed more times than he can count on his hands and he's desperate for someone he can trust.

He's shown levels of maturity most don't show, and many of you in the TWST Fandom brush it over and act like it never happened.

Kalim has nearly been assassinated several times and numbs himself to all his pain.

He is far too quick to forgive for his own good, and that can be detrimental.

If he hadn't lived in a fantasy as he does, Jamil would be in a lot more trouble than he bargained for before he could get any opportunities to do harm.

Kalim didn't even stand up to Jamil, when you really think about it.

He was still stuck in some form of denial, thinking Jamil was his friend. He is lonely, but he's pushy.

He pushes to protect his heart and mind from shattering.

This is something he needs to stop doing. A lesson he hasn't gotten the opportunity to learn, truly, as all he's been able to process is betrayal, which he glosses over completely and acts like it never happened. A problem. A big problem. For everyone.

Kalim is far too forgiving and far too easy on those who should have made enemies with him.

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By @killersweetie

"Plus, it doesn’t help that it makes Jamil’s and Kalim relationship flat

Maybe it’s just because Book 4 was about Jamil mostly, but knowing Kalim’s backstory and what he’s been through

It just makes Jamil look even worse lol

And this is coming from someone who loves Jamil

Knowing Kalim’s backstory makes you really question Jamil’s logic

He’s been there through it all

He’s seen the shit that Kalim’s been through

It makes their relationship look incredibly flat and honestly, makes Jamil look like a very heartless and cruel person

Or at least, one as blind to Kalim’s suffering as Kalim was to his

Which once again

Makes no fucking sense as Jamil is written to be a very observant person

Plus, it doesn’t take a genius to understand how Kalim’s life has affected him and why he has the attitude he has

So for Jamil to seemingly not know this (Which makes no sense as he was no doubt present for all these things)

Or not care (Which makes him by far the worst of the all the Overblottees)

Makes no sense

There is so much potential for more depth and nuance to their relationship and yet it’s reduced to something so basic that it actively contradicts the character’s writings and backstories

It makes me think that they just wanted to give Kalim some added trauma for funieses and didn’t seem to realize what’s a slippery slope that was and they would have to rewrite their entire relationship to make that work."

Overall

Jamil and Kalim, alike have issues that need to be fixed in order to make both of their lives easier.

It is on both of them to get their own shit together, meaning they have to put the effort in to get it together.

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst scarabia #scarabia #kalim al asim #jamil viper

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llamagoddessofficial · 2 years

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Was rereading the Naga!AU and pregnant Zookeeper MC, so what are the Zoo Moths reactions to pregnant MC?

Sans: Mc starts visiting Sans more and more as her pregnancy goes on. She doesn’t realise its because her body is craving his relaxing pheromones to relieve her of the constant aches and stress. When she sits with him, the pain in her back and feet slowly disappears, the nausea that accompanies her everywhere finally ebbs away, she feels like she can lean back and relax; she really shouldn’t... but when she’s having trouble sleeping through the night, a long nap in Sans’ enclosure is often too good to resist. Especially considering how soft he is.

... As for Sans... he’s euphoric. This is exactly what he’s been waiting for, he knows he’s succeeded. This is why he’s been so calculating, this is exactly why he’s spent months putting on fake gentle smiles and easy expressions, masking his possessiveness and instinctive aggression behind purring and preening. This is his patience and carefulness paying off. In (arguably) her most vulnerable state, she’s not only actively seeking him out, she’s then letting down her guard entirely. The other two can snarl and posture sulk all they like... at the end of the day, she’s coming to him for safety. For affection, for care. Because he’s her TRUE mate.

While she’s sleeping, he likes to put his hands on her stomach. He always wants to protect that part of her... and it’s nice to feel their the baby’s Soul.

Red: Initially, Red shows no difference in behaviour. When he first realises she’s pregnant, he just reacts by being very gentle and cute with her, pinching her cheeks and purring with a dazzlingly wide grin; Mc’s relieved, she was cautious, afraid the pregnancy might trigger his crazy state and make him unsafe to be around. But he seems calm, he seems like his normal teasing self, curious about her belly but with a noticeable cautiousness that definitely eases her fears.

Then she steps out of the enclosure, and a fellow employee gets a bit too close to her for Red’s liking. He goes nuts, charging the enclosure walls with the red of his wings glowing bright enough to be visible in daylight, steaming from the mouth and snarling so loud people in the next room over can feel it in their chests. The anger is worse than anything anyone’s ever seen, even in his most intense insane states; sometimes he doesn’t look like Red anymore.

The message is loud and clear. Red doesn’t like seeing anyone get close to her. He’s puppy-gentle with Mc, but he’ll attack anyone who so much as breathes too close to her.

Skull: The moment he realised she was pregnant was key. He was happy to see her and he put his face in her hair like he always does, but he seemed to pick up on a scent that confused him. He moved down and smelled her cheek, accidentally causing her to giggle... then he crouched all the way down, and carefully sniffed around her stomach.

... And just like that, his entire demeanour flipped. Shy, scared, clingy Skull disappeared. Whatever took his place has a steely stare, a dark expression, an eerie smile that says nothing and a touch that doesn’t give you a choice. Mc is understandably very nervous about his sudden personality switch- as soon as she can, she slips out of his enclosure and refuses to go back in.

He’s changed. When she’s nearby, he gets incredibly aggressive and territorial with other staff, even the ones he tolerated before. He’s massively agitated by even her usual routine disappearances. He starts concealing his food, glowing his wings and staring at her nonstop... but the thing that worries her the most is the fact that he’s stopped hiding. Now, rather than going back to his den, he paces back and forth in his enclosure on all six limbs, growling incessantly. If she’s outside his cage he’ll be right up against the glass watching her, and if she’s not there he’ll pace the length of it like a restless tiger.

Mc’s scared. This isn’t the gentle moth she grew to trust, this is a frightening creature whose eye tells her to come here but whose very presence causes her instincts to scream. Until he starts acting normal again, she’s not risking it.

#llamagines #moth sanses au #zoo moth sanses au #red and skull out here scaring her and losing cuddle privileges #meanwhile sans is like #[holds mc in one arm + cups of tea for both of them] tragic. alexa play ''lofi beats to kiss your wife to''

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kr1slvr · 2 years

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ꜱᴀᴇʀᴀɴ ʏᴀɴᴅᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟᴘʜᴀʙᴇᴛ

author's note: i haven't posted in rly long 💀💀 i've just been busy with school and lots of different appointments but here i am!!!!

warning/s: yandere themes, possesive behaviour, obsessive behaviour, clingy behaviour, mentions of murder/violence, mentions of isolation, mentions of starvation, forced affection, forced relationship, ooc?

word count: 1.1k

affection: how do they show their love and affection? how intense would it get?

- he shows it mostly through physical affection like kisses, hugs, tightly holding your hand

- he can get kind of intense with it if you deny him

- he's desperate for your love and attention and is not one to take no as an answer

blood: how messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

- messy. very messy.

- he's extremely unstable and you're the only thing keeping him at ease and he's not gonna let anyone take you from him

- he's ready to kill anyone who he deems a threat to you or your relationship

cruelty: how would they treat their darling once abducted? would they mock them?

- he wouldn't mock his darling.. but he wouldn't be gentle and sugarcoat the situation either

- he wants you to love him back, yes, but as long as he has you with him it doesn't matter that much

darling: aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

- yes, he's mostly going to force affection if you refuse to give it to him or you're too scared to

exposed: how much of their heart do they bare to their darling? how vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

- not very vulnerable

- he acts very aggressive as a way to protect himself from getting hurt again and is not very likely to let his guard down, even around you

- though maybe if you've accepted your new life with him he'll allow himself to be more open

fight: how would they feel if their darling fought back?

- very frustrated

- you belong with him and the faster you accept that the better

- so just stop making things difficult and just give in to him

- not like you could get away regardless

game: is this a game to them? how much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

- not really, but he might take some pleasure seeing you so distressed

- he's not too worried about you escaping as you're literally stuck in a cult on top of a mountain with nothing and no one else in the area, but he'd still get very annoyed if you make escaping a repetitive thing

hell: what would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

- if you really insult him or said you hate him

- while he's taking out his frustration on the believers, you're locked up in your room and starved for a couple of days

- hopefully, then you'll realize how much you need him

ideals: what kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

- a future where V and 707 are gone (dead) and you and him are happily together at mint eye

jealousy: do they get jealous? do they lash out or find a way to cope?

- yes. yes, he gets very jealous. yes, he gets jealous if you interact with anyone but him and the savior. no, he doesn't find a way to cope. yes he takes it out on whoever you were talking to

kisses: how do they act around or with their darling?

- he's very initiative

- also extremely clingy. you're his, so he here should get to be around you all the time

love letters: how would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

- if we're going based on the actual game, he'll just walk right into your room and proclaim you as 'his' 💀

mask: are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

- not really?

- he doesn't hide his possessive tendencies, at all

- in the game, he literally was about to choke this other believer just cause he wouldn't let saeran into MC's room

naughty: how would they punish their darling?

- i don't think he would be very violent and would rather resort to isolating you for some days

- watching you through the cameras would suffice

- however, this would really only happen if you tried to actually escape

oppression: how many rights would they take away from their darling?

- only their freedom, usually

patience: how patient are they with their darling?

- not very patient..

- when he wants something, he wants it right then and there

- but, for you, he could compromise. a little

quit: if their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

- if you died, he would be absolutely filled with grief, anger, and guilt

- no no no.. you were the only thing keeping him happy, keeping the painful emptiness away, he needs you..!!

- he can't do this without you.. so, he'll just join you instead..

- if you were you successfully escape, he would track you down 😐

- you're not getting away from him, sorry.. 💀

regret: would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? would they ever let their darling go?

- no

- he can't let you go

- even if he feels guilty

- he needs you

stigma: what brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

- his desperate need for love and validation

- the love he never got from his mom, or his dad, or his brother, or V, or rika

- but now he has you! and you love him, right?

- RIGHT!?!!?

tears: how do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

- he feels bad..

- at the end of the day, he just wants to be loved

- he doesn't want you to cry, scream, and say you hate him

- no! you're supposed to love him!

- you can't hate him? nono- you can't!

- he'll make sure you know how much you need him...

unique: would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

- would hack into all your devices, just to know what you're doing on there :)

vice: what weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

- probably his desperateness

- feed into his delusions

- act like you love him and want to be with him forever

- continue this for long enough and he'll lower his guard

- and that's when you make a run for it

wit’s end: would they ever hurt their darling?

- yes, but mostly emotionally rather than physically

xoanon: how much would they revere or worship their darling? to what length would they go to win their darling over?

- he acts more like you should worship him

- and he doesn't believe he needs to win his darling over

yearn: how long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

- like a day or two 💀

zenith: would they ever break their darling?

- yes, but only if they never give up on escaping and keep fighting back

#yandere #mystic messenger x reader #yandere mystic messenger #x reader #yandere mystic messenger x reader #yandere x reader #yandere saeran x reader #yandere saeran #saeran x reader #saeran choi #saeran choi x reader #yandere saeran choi #yandere saeran choi x reader #saeran mystic messenger #saeranmysticmessenger #mystic messenger

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normal-thoughts-official · 1 year

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no one look at me but im gonna make an endless summer meta post about sean and craig while vaguely high on sleeping meds if yall dont mind

anyway. sean's whole thing as a character is that he never lets anyone take care of him. he even says at some point that the only thing he's ever been good at is taking the punishment so someone else doesn't have to. when him and MC go to the waterfall, he tells them that he feels better when he's not relaxing because he needs to feel useful. he constantly puts himself in danger for others. he refuses any help when he's nearly dying of hypothermia. he gets shot and says he was "grazed" by a bullet. he walks on it and doesn't let anyone notice that he's lagging behind. michelle says he once played with a broken femur. his ember of hope is just his mom telling him that no one's indestructible and it's ok to ask for help. you get it. it's his thing

and I've always been kind of fascinated by how 1- craig is the only person he seems to be able to accept help from; and 2- craig hides so much from sean and has this whole dudebro thing going on but still makes the most balls to the walls declarations of devotion for sean like it's the most normal thing in the world ("if you're gonna put your life on the line, I'll be there clearing the way. always, dude"; "i was put on this earth for two reasons: helping sean on the field and smashing things with pipes"; having a picture of sean on his desk in the ember of hope; etc). even his rourke inc file puts "intense loyalty to his QB sean gayle" as his main trait in his psychological profile. frankly, what the fuck

anyway. the point is that im just now realizing that these things might be related ["related" in italics]

and like don't get me wrong, im not saying sean is emotionally constipated or something (far from it, honestly) but I've replayed ES 74363839 times and just started my first ever run where i didn't romance sean yesterday, so i can say beyond a shadow of a doubt that he struggles to even let his real actual husband take care of him

sean's the caretaker. he's the provider. he sees himself as an armor and a protector to those around him. and he doesn't allow himself to ever crack or fail or slow down and breathe, because he needs to feel like he is able to help them the way he wishes he could've helped his mom sooner

and then there's craig. craig is actually pretty similar to sean in that regard, except instead of trying to protect everyone, he's trying to protect sean. i mean, he outright says it several times. and if it were anyone else, sean would immediately step back and say that he appreciates it, but he's fine, or whatever. but sean seems to be able to accept being taken care of when it comes from craig

he doesn't push craig away when craig says lines like that, despite the fact that they're so outright devotional i think even someone without sean's issues would be taken aback. he smiles and says "thanks man" and just. accepts it. he lets craig come with the explicit purpose of protecting him in the wilderness expedition, without even a token protest (and he protested with literally everyone else and even tried to convince people to let him go alone). we know of course that it's still hard for him to accept help from craig when the time actually comes (the flashback about them playing where sean scrambled, sean trying to pull everyone when they nearly fell off a cliff, sean's death in the catalyst idol, and don't even get me started on how both of them canonically died for the other at least once), but the hypothetical idea is something he can accept from him. does it naturally, even. and as someone who's been romancing sean and who was all but BEGGING him to let me take care of him, it was wild

and im just now realizing that one of the reasons why sean is able to let craig take care of him is exactly because craig has this very unique way or being super emotionally open and vulnerable while making it sound like he's offering to do a keg stand at a party, or something. the words and the honesty behind them are obvious, but the "always, dude" and "and smashing things with pipes" and the other stuff he always says along with the declarations are so... flippant and casual and even funny, and it kind of takes away the blow because he makes the most intense possible feelings sound completely casual. it's like breathing for him

and i genuinely don't even think it's a defense mechanism to hide his vulnerability or something, i think it's just that it really is natural for him. we saw what he's like when he's trying to hide his vulnerability when he was talking to zahra before they got together. he'd turn away, deflect with jokes, pretend to be fine when he wasn't. actually, he did it with sean too, when craig was trying to hide from him that he didn't get drafted

but this stuff? this is second nature. he is just perfectly comfortable saying that he would protect sean with his life, and that is that. i don't even think he sees it as particularly insane to say or anything. it's just a fact. and so sean kind of has no choice but to accept it because craig makes it sound so normal. he's not hiding that he's helping and protecting him, quite the opposite; but he makes it sound so natural and casual i don't think sean even realizes the extent of what craig is saying at first

and idk i just love their relationship because it's like. sean has always given and given and given to everyone and never allowed himself to take. and craig WANTS him to take. he wants to give back to sean all the care and devotion sean has been giving everyone else his whole life. sean can't really allow himself to accept that, but the one who comes closest to making sean comfortable enough to let himself be imperfect is undoubtedly craig. craig feels like he's stupid and can't express himself right but it's precisely the way he does it that makes it work with both sean and zahra. sean and craig both see themselves as people whose inherent value is in their ability to help others. they both feel like they're not good enough for them. neither of them wants the other to keep defining himself by this metric, but neither know how to make it stop other than by trying to care for the other as much as possible. at the same time, neither can imagine a future without the other. craig probably feels like he's letting sean down by not getting drafted, because sean is clearly so sure that craig will, has a whole future together planned for them. craig probably feels that he won't be able to repay sean anymore. sean doesn't even realize how badly craig wants to care for him. sean is so confident in craig's abilities and so set on his me-and-craig-living-the-dream-side-by-side fantasy that he completely fails to see the obvious signs that craig did not get the draft. they understand each other but they also clash because both want to be the one who's only giving and not receiving. but at the same time they somehow fit because they can allow the other to give in ways they can't allow others. who's screaming

#playchoices #im pretty sure this is only like 60% coherent and that ill be embarrassed by it tomorrow #but for today yolo #might make a decent polished version of this later. idk im in my insane era #endless summer #es #sean gayle #craig hsiao #craigsean #meta

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lemme-just-oops · 1 year

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AT boys react to super affectionate MC that loves to get hugs and headpats from them?

Alpheratz: Learning that leaning/napping on yoz and hugging you are different things does not come naturally for him. But as soon as he learns, you are basically locked between his arms. He will always say "five more minutes" to prevent you from leaving. Not much of a headpat fan, though. Occassionally, he will do it though.

Arcturus: Getting hugs from him is one thing. Everyone gets a hug, because that simply is his way of greeting and showing affection. People would be surprised if you did not clung to each other this crazily! And since both of you like getting your head pat, it would sometimes look funny with both of you just trying to pat the other.

Pollux: He may hesitate at first, because he is not used to showing affection like that. Generally, his touch is so soft, it may as well be non-existant in the beginning. And he will excuse himself by explaining that it feels like you will crumble beneath his touch at any time. But as soon as he gets used to it, he will do the things whenever he has the chance. Especially headpatting, they make him feel stronger. As though he can protect you from anything.

Sirius: He ponders about actually doing those things, because he does not know if he wants to be vulnerable near you. But your request is normal, so he begins with the headpats. They will be short and brief, usually as he calls you cute or admirable, begore acting like it did not happen. With hugs, he struggles more and usually tries to avoid hugging you in public spaces, but when he hugs you, they will be tight and usually followed by words of affection whispered into your ear. And you will see that those words have more depth, they are not his usual teasing words. He will put his heart into every sentence and hopes you realize that he is being genuine.

Spica: Infinite headpats. Whether he does them consciously or not is up for debate, but you never have to ask for them. Usually he will comment about how amazing your hair looks or praising your knowledge and hard work. He does not even realize just how much you love it, because he only knowd that he likes doing it to you.

Vega: Claims that he does not like showing such affection, but he is the cuddliest of them all. Mostly just behind your own walls, but he enjoys it and refuses to let go until he feels better. He needs to hold you just to satisfy his abandonment issues, but it is worth the while because he is soft and his skin is refreshingly cool during summer!

#arcturus x mc remind me of cockatiels here #trust me it makes sense #cockatiels demand headpats at the same time sometimes #arcana twilight #pollux #arcturus #sirius #vega #alpheratz #otome game #request #romantic arcana #spica #affection

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nonclassyparty · 1 year

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Playing Devil's Advocate when I say that I don't think SR!San is more "irredeemable" than SR!Mingi. From the beginning of this series, if I'm not wrong, you emphasized the importance of how human beings are flawed and we don't always do the right thing while other times we do. Even SR!Yeosang said SR!San wasn't a bad person, per se. Just someone he didn't want to be around just to say that he was the one who stuck with him through everything. Personally, what SR!Mingi did to Y/N was hurtful...and what was more hurtful was him not ever trying to address the elephant in the room after reuniting with Y/N. Y/N shared her more real and personal side of herself, showed vulnerability with him and when she confessed to him, even went out of her way to invite him to an event he would've loved to go to, he panicked and threw it in her face.

Then adding on top of that, Y/N comparing herself to SR!Yeosang and the situation with SR!Wooyoung really showed how still affected she was by what happened with SR!Mingi two years ago. Sure, she can try to bury her feelings for now but what happens when everything just starts filling up inside her until it just bursts when she can't bottle it up anymore? SR!San isn't innocent, not at all. But we know why he's acted the way he's acted. We know his upbringing. And it's not a 100% excuse to push everyone around him away the way he does but it is a factor. He's very much a less well-off counterpart to Y/N and I'm sure with your writing, if you'd put this entire story in his POV, more people would sympathize with him like we do with Y/N.

If not for Y/N's POV, we would've just thought she was a mean bitch without any reasoning as to why she acts the way she acts. We would've thought she was just out to get Boyoung and steal any person she loved and/or cared about. And that's the beauty of this series. I would love to read the final chapter and see how things are resolved, whether the main character ends up with anyone or not.

Have a good day!

hmmmmmmmmmm well i think readers so far consider him irredeemable in terms of ending up with y/n like the focus is more on that rather than him being irredeemable as a person😭

i don't think he's more irredeemable either, i've written him as a complicated character, showed a little bit of his perspective through the bonus parts but the focus is always more on who she should end up with and that it definitely shouldn't be san (which isn't wrong, she deserves better than him no matter what kind of person she was/is)

in the usual trope where boyoung would be our mc, san would definitely be liked as a character because we don't get to see how he treats our sr!mc and we would only see him from boyoung's pov where he's a closed off individual and well idk how they're written in those stories it's been awhile since i've read something like that but he'd basically be the player who has a soft spot for her and goes out of his way to pursue her and even tries to be vulnerable with her or something 😭 he is NOT a bad guy, he's just a person with his bad and good traits

i've said this so many times before but i wrote this story because i wanted to write about the typical mean girl but actually give her some dimension and show san through her eyes. it was never about him falling in love with her instead of boyoung or whether or not they end up together in the end but about their relationship and how it affects a character like her, that's why i brought him back and why i didn't want to wrap up their storyline because the story is literally about THEM and her development through it all. mingi, wooyoung, her parents, brother etc...those are all important plots here but they're side plots.

i think the san bonus parts and e-mails i've posted should be enough to know that there's more to him than he lets on but i can't really do anything for the readers who only see him as y/n's love interest and mingi's "rival" and refuse to look a little deeper into his character 😭😭 (not saying there's something wrong with that, if ppl want to see san as just an asshole then thats fine by me as well but it's just scratching the surface of the whole story)

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rosewould · 2 years

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cynics; jns

part v

masterlist

words; 4.7k

genre; angst

warnings; gross description of feces, graphic descriptions gore, mentions of non-con elements (not with johnny or mc), mentions of disturbing bullying, self-deprecating thoughts, let me know if I missed anything

preface; The whole Dream thing is a coincidence... not a reference. Should be 2-3 parts left now. Just an additional warning that this will not be an easy read. Even without the gore and shit, it's just a bit depressing lol. Also I hope that people don't hate mc-

Johnny was rigid with horror as he stared down at the feces in the toilet bowl.

"This is- you can't!" Johnny blubbers through tears as Hyojong grips him firmly by his hair. His fingers are laced so tightly within his locks that he can hear a slight ripping sound. Johnny shudders, pleading with the boy pathetically.

"Those should be happy tears." Hyojong rubs harshly at Johnny's cheek, "I could be stomping your brains into the pavement. Be happy I'm not." Hyojong pulls his head back so far that he feels a sharp pain in his spine. Johnny cries out.

"I-I'm sorry! I won't do it again! I promise!"

"You should've thought about that before you put your hands on my girlfriend."

The smell...

Johnny still remembers it vividly to this day. For about a month, he threw up at the thought of the incident. That was the day that solidified Johnny's fear of Kim Hyojong. Even after said incident, thinking about how all of that transpired still made Johnny burn with rage. Hyuna had forced you to follow her around like her pet. Johnny tried to snap you out of it but you were so happy to fit in. He couldn't get you to tell him exactly what happened, but he walked in on Hyuna fuming about something. Her kicking you in the stomach over and over. She must have been doing it for a while since when Johnny walked in, you coughed up blood. In a fit of rage, Johnny shoved Hyuna onto the floor and ran to your side.

It would be a very long time before Johnny could forget about those two, if he ever would. Still, he hadn't had nightmares about them since sophomore year. He had no clue why they were back, but he decided to blame it on your interaction. Everything that happened yesterday didn't sit well with Johnny. After you accused him of being worse than Hyojong and Hyuna, the two people that abused you physically, mentally, and emotionally, he was already in the wrong mindset. Then he had to deal with YangYang and his dubious motives. Johnny even waited by your door until every single person funneled out of your house. It was hard to find an excuse, not that he was proud of feeling like he needed one.

The way Mark looked at Johnny before he left made Johnny feel sick.

"You didn't, did you?" He asked quietly, the fact that he even had to ask filled him with dismay.

The words sat in Johnny's stomach like a brick. He'd like to think the shock from Mark's words was the reason he hesitated to deny that he took advantage of your vulnerable state. So bad, he wanted to. But deep down in the depths of his soul was a sordid, merciless, and demanding voice.

Sacrifice it plead. Or risk regression.

"No. How could you even ask me that?" Johnny shouted, trying to block out those thoughts.

Maybe the nightmares were a reminder. A reminder of what he sacrificed you for to escape.

How pathetic were you? You let them into your home, almost let YangYang have his way with you, and then Johnny? You wanted Johnny to feel pain so he could know what he put you through, but your stupid fucking heart was resentful. Over what? You refused to give it the time of day. You were already fucked up as it is.

"Did something happen? Did you talk to Taeyong?" Jisoo questions, growing impatient with your lack of urgency.

"Soo, I have it under control, I promise." You didn't mean for the exasperation to seep through in your voice. Before you could apologize she was shooting up from your couch.

"I'm not an idiot! Something happened, meaning you clearly don't have it under control!" Jisoo balls her fists, eyes sharp as she stares at you. It was beyond stressful for Jisoo to see you like this. You haven't spoken to her or Jungwoo in a week, you look like you've barely slept, and your house is a mess.

"If you truly think I'm not okay then why are you screaming at me right now?" You stand up as well, matching her volume.

"I just want you to talk to me about this! It's literally what I'm here for! I-" Jisoo cuts herself off with a defeated sigh. "I'm so worried about you I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so scared that they're gonna do something to you-"

"Oh please. They won't actually do anything other than talk shit." You say dismissively, waving your hand as a visual representation of how baseless you thought her claims were.

"Are we talking about the same people here? The same people who made you run to us sobbing because they were so awful? They put you through hell, and you're standing there trying to convince me they're harmless?"

Her words make you pause. You never considered how pathetic you must've looked to Jisoo and Jungwoo. "What, were you annoyed you had to help your friend through a hard time?" You ask, caution evident on your face despite how sturdy you tried to appear.

"We were annoyed at your carelessness." It wasn't easy for Jisoo to admit and it was even harder for you to swallow. "One day you'd be torn up over the horrible things they say to you and the next you'd happily show us a picture you took with them. As if nothing ever happened."

Embarrassed was one way to put it, but ashamed was more apt. Your crumbling confidence didn't deter Jisoo from adding salt to the wound.

"Think about it. We were just building you up so they could topple you over again like it was nothing. It was exhausting, ___." Jisoo's shoulder drop with a sigh. She didn't want to hurt you, but she couldn't deny how freeing it was to get that off her chest. You stand there, rigid as you contemplate how to respond.

"I'm gonna go, I just wanted to make sure you were alright. I think you need to be alone for a while, including Taeyong and Mark. Everything happening all at once has to be overwhelming."

Jisoo reluctantly turns to leave. She wants to stay with you and keep you company so she won't have to worry about those imbeciles taking advantage of you, but there's no doubt in her mind that you aren't very fond of her right now. A hurt smile stretches and distorts your features as your next words get caught in your throat.

"You think you know what's best for me? You must think you know everything, little miss perfect- hey!" Jisoo stares blankly at you as you chase after her, closing the door in your face. Her expression says it all. She wasn't affected by your words because of your pathetic state. What could a damaged, sad idiot like you say that was actually significant? You, the person whose only source of dick was a taken man who pitied her. Only friends were people who looked down on her or saw her as a nuisance. An undesirable chore.

All you needed was half an hour with Jungwoo to make you feel better. You weren't even going against Jisoo's advice to spite her. You might even take it, but all you need is for Jungwoo to sneak over and help distract you even for a little while.

Jungwoo: ___... I can't.

Jungwoo: I'll call you when I'm not so busy, yeah?

The dark thoughts jabbing at you for the past week were cackling. Splitting their sides as they pointed and mocked you. An undesirable chore.

Though you wouldn't dare bring those thoughts to the forefront or god forbid speak them out loud, a stubborn part of you was screaming 'Fuck Jisoo's advice'. When Mark came over the next day, you let him in without hesitation. The two of you played video games while you listened to him rant. About the boys.

"Nayeon constantly being around is bad enough. Don't get me wrong, she was pretty cool at first, but even she became unbearable around the other guys. They're just so negative all the time. Ugh! Now listen to me, whining like a little baby."

Jisoo had no clue what she was talking about. This was a great idea.

"You're not, I understand exactly what you mean."

"And god forbid I speak for a second. They're constantly mocking me. Or even worse, biting my head off for interrupting their perv time. I looked over and Doyoung, Lucas, and YangYang were looking at pictures of naked girls. Doyoung even got a boner." Mark's face twists in disgust as his eyes flicker around your TV screen. "I just can't fight this feeling that they're up to no good. Planning something bad. Do me a favor and be careful around them. Especially Johnny."

Your eyes tear away from the game to gawk at Mark who kept his eyes trained on the TV. "Especially Johnny?"

Mark sighs, searching for the words to express his concerns. "He was getting better after the incident-that-shall-not-be-named... but I don't know." He looks troubled, all the fire snuffed out at the thought of the person he was closest to being malicious. "I-I just get this feeling."

Watching him, you couldn't stop feeling the deja vu. His passionate drive to protect you. A drive that only faltered when he thought about something that deeply worried him. It was all too familiar.

"I'll be careful, I promise."

Mark cheers when he wins after continuing to fight your defenseless character. He sets the controller down before raising his pinky toward you. "Pinky promise?"

You both smile as you wrap your pinky around his, pressing the pads of your thumbs together.

"Good, because I really want you to come to my friend's party. He's cool with YangYang, so all of them are probably coming. I was so bummed about you possibly not coming, but as long as you're aware of how creepy those four are acting, it should be fine." Mark sounds like he's convincing himself as he unlatched from your pinky.

A party couldn't hurt. You'd probably just drink and talk to Mark the whole time anyway. Jisoo would be fuming if she knew you accepted his invitation.

The cracked door window. The nightmares. His fucking pansies. Now this. His friends were over again, loud and obnoxious as he swept up the debris of his shattered air conditioner. His living room was as hot as sin, only adding to his sour mood.

"Renjun's a really popular streamer, so a lot of famous creators will be there." YangYang raises his eyebrows with a silent implication. Lucas and Doyoung look up from their phones.

"D'you think that Naeun will be there?" Doyoung says quietly, leaning toward the other two.

"Who cares. She's so stuck up. The only games she plays are stupid. She's just there to nab a quick buck from sad saps stupid enough to fall for her schemes." Lucas spat, slouching further down on Johnny's couch.

"Aw, did she reject you, bro?" YangYang laughs as he nudges Lucas with his elbow.

"Who fucking cares. Is Johnny's girl coming or no?"

When Johnny looks up from the mess at the sound of his name, the three stooges were staring expectantly at him. "I dunno. She's not my girl."

"Who ___? She's coming. Little tiger invited her." Mark's eyes blow wide as Nayeon ruffles his hair.

"I-I don't know actually. She just texted me today saying she might have to cancel, so I wouldn't bet on it."

Johnny couldn't tell that Mark was lying, so he had the displeasure of feeling the hope draining from his chest.

"Bummer." YangYang mutters.

"Why? I thought you hated her?" Nayeon asked in genuine confusion.

"I dunno. I guess I might be warming up to her." YangYang shrugged with a smirk. Johnny didn't miss the way his eyes quickly flitted in his direction.

Whatever got into YangYang was a mystery, but it made him more antagonistic toward Johnny. He didn't have the energy for whatever he was up to. Everyone was always at his house and things keep going wrong. Now he has to worry about YangYang and his games.

"I didn't think you'd come since your girlfriend wasn't coming." YangYang approached Johnny from behind, muttering into his ear. Johnny rolls his eyes. He was already getting a headache from the loud music and the strong drink in his hand.

"My girlfriend? You're the one getting weirdly close to her."

"Weirdly? Aw, is little Johnny jealous?" YangYang's hands shaking Johnny's shoulders drew him ever so close to burning with rage.

"YangYang I'm not in the mood." He spat, shrugging his hands off. The shorter male gasps as he turns toward the door.

"You're gonna be in a minute." He turns Johnny's head toward the front door with hands on either side of it.

Before Johnny could blow a fuse, his eyes landed on you. You look as stunning as you could underneath the obvious distress. Eyes sporting dark circles that no amount of concealer could hide. Still, the long-sleeved black dress you were wearing hugged your body nicely. It had a bit of lace lining your collar and the end of the skirt. How could he possibly miss the slit on your left leg that your upper thigh peeked through?

You were always so stylish, so it wasn't unusual to see how well you paired jewelry with your look. It's been a while since Johnny saw you dressed up like this.

"Go ahead. Go talk to her."

Johnny ripped his head out of YangYang's grasp. "No. Why would I?"

"Fine. Then I will." He pushes past him, in hot pursuit of you. He was walking too fast for Johnny to stop him without yelling across the room. Johnny had to do something. He started making his way toward you, but to his surprise, you were walking past YangYang in Johnny's direction.

Johnny opens his mouth to greet you but you breeze right past him. He tightens his grip on his drink.

"Hey! Guys, this is ___." Mark beams when he sees you, sporting freshly dyed blue hair. You wave at each of the six boys standing around him. You recognized all of them from Mark's streams. They called themselves the Dreamies and were gaining popularity fast. It was kind of intimidating to be in their presence. Them being potential Twitch celebrities and all.

"It's nice to finally see you in person." Renjun pushes forward and extends his hand toward you. You accept his hand with a smile. Jisoo was wrong again. This was going to be great.

The sheer number of boys bickering and cracking jokes was daunting at first, but by the time you migrated to Renjun's couch, everything felt a little more natural.

"Let's ask the expert then, shall we?" Jaemin theatrically proposes, gesturing at you. You sit up, always up for talking about your favorite game. "Who is the best at being a survivor?" All of the boys look at you hopefully before they start chaotically pleading their case.

"I have never gotten hooked twice in my life!" Jeno announces.

"That's because your builds are toxic. I can run laps around any killer without crazy perks." Renjun explains.

"We've all seen how bad you are at looping. Let's not be silly, now." Jaemin condescends. "It's obviously me."

They begin to argue with each other about their strengths and weaknesses before you stop them with a loud 'Hey!'.

"From what I've seen on Mark's streams, Jeno is the best survivor."

Jeno smiles triumphantly as the boys all groan in protest. You get nervous for a moment. This is usually when people try to convince you that you don't know what you're talking about, despite being one of the best players in the country. It's very seldom that other streamers give you props instead of trying to tear you down to make themselves feel better.

"___... don't tell me you're about to defend toxic builds." Jaemin pinches his nose bridge.

"Never. But Jeno is very calculated. It's very interesting to watch him examine his surroundings and plan for the killer's arrival. I was shocked to find out he doesn't play often." You explain, trying to convince them that you're reasoning is sound.

"Alright, you guys heard her. She's better than all of you combined." says Haechan.

"Jeno's never going to let us forget this, is he?" Chenle sighs defeatedly.

"I don't think I would either." Jisung shrugs.

"Me either. We've got to play with her on stream one of these days."

Perhaps it's stupid, but you never ask anyone to stream with you. You always wait for them to ask first. It's probably the reason you're still not that big. The last thing you wanted was to seem like was a leech, but by avoiding that you've never streamed with anyone else but the boys. So the fact that the Dreamies were all nodding their head in agreement to let you stream with them made your eyes light up with excitement.

"Wait, really?" You sit forward, examining all the faces looking at you.

"I mean... yeah. I never get to stream with you because we don't play the same games. I think our audience would be excited to have someone so good." Mark suggests, checking his friend's reactions. "Why don't we start planning now?"

To say you were flattered would be a gross understatement. You knew you were good at all the games you played and had awards to prove it, but you never really got much recognition. It was finally happening. You paced back and forth in one of the bedrooms as you pressed your phone to your ear.

"Hello?" Jungwoo sounds slightly irritated when he picks up the phone.

"You'll never guess what just happened-"

"Where have you been? Is that music in the background?"

Your smile falters at the bite in his tone. "Uh, yeah. I'm at a party."

"I've been waiting at your house for ages now."

You got whiplash from the speed at which your emotions shifted. Why your stupid heart was filling with hope, you'd never understand. You shouldn't get your hopes up at the thought of him sneakily visiting you despite what Jisoo wanted. But dammit, it felt good.

"When are you going to be back?"

Was he really going to keep you company against Jisoo's wishes? You wondered how many more surprises today had in store.

"I can come back now if that's what you need."

"That would be great, Jisoo said her bracelet might be here. She's really worried and I need help finding it."

Of course you thought as the crack in your ego broadened. You hung up, chest hurting as you desperately tried to distract yourself. You had just received great news. This would significantly bolster your career. Everything was fine. And the guys are so nice to you, this was going to be great.

They're only nice to you because they want something out of you.

No, that's not true. I can tell they're genuine.

I guess we'll see.

The voice bellowed at you, only getting louder as you visibly shrink.

Nobody actually loves you. When they've had their fill, they'll toss you to the side.

"___?"

The nasty feeling brewing in the pit of your stomach only grows when your eyes land on YangYang. He watches you with a strange expression as he closes the door.

"I was looking for you."

"I'm not in the mood right now, YangYang."

He mutters something under his breath about getting deja vu before focusing back on you. "Why don't you tell me about it?"

"Look, that night I wasn't in my right mind. What we would've done was a mistake. A mistake I'm not looking to repeat tonight." You explain carefully, hoping you didn't have to expand on anything and he'd just leave.

"I saw you talking to the Dreamies. Seems like you were getting along."

"Yes, we were. They're kind and funny."

"They make you feel good, huh?" YangYang presses nearer with a lust-filled look on his face. You scoff, extending your hand to stop him from getting any closer.

"Funny how that works. You make someone feel good and they want to be around you."

He chuckles and you feel it rumble in his chest against your palm. "What's funny is how that's all it takes. Just a little flattery and you're all over them." The malice in his voice makes your smile fall. "Don't be like that, baby. You know I only tell you the truth to help you. To help you see the truth."

You marvel at the man before you. "Wow... you get the timing right and everything..."

It was almost impressive, his ability to manipulate. As if he knew exactly what you were talking about, he smiles. But it's cold and uninviting.

"If feeling good is your goal, I could make you feel good in a way that's actually beneficial." His voice felt like worms entering your ears and settling under your skin. You push against him with the hand that's still on his torso. "Come on baby. A little fun wouldn't hurt."

The female voice calling for YangYang was your knight in shining armor.

"He's in here!" You shout. YangYang's attempt at an unassuming disposition ceases, the real him on full display as he scowls at you.

Lee Naeun opens the door and looks around before her eyes land on his annoyed face.

"Oh! There you are! I was looking for you everywhere. I was beginning to think Lucas was lying about you being here to get rid of me." She laughs awkwardly, her crooked brows expressing her embarrassment.

"You were looking for me?" YangYang is already exiting the room and slowly shutting the door behind him. Before it fully shuts, Naeun's inviting facade drops for a moment to make way for worry as she looked at you.

For a moment it felt good. You successfully avoided doing something incredibly stupid. But just like before, you were alone in a dark room.

Naeun flicked open her compact to reapply her lipstick. "You owe me one, Suh." She says, regretful over her actions.

"For sure. Let me know if you ever need anything." Johnny responds quickly. If it weren't for Taeyong, Naeun wouldn't even know he existed, and now they were acquainted enough to do favors for each other. He should be thankful for all the opportunities he's been given by his friends, but it just feels unfulfilling in a way he can't put his finger on.

"Nah, forget about it. I'm actually kind of glad I could help out. You're a pretty great guy, Johnny Suh." She punches his shoulder with an impressed smile. Johnny nods silently as she walks away. Though YangYang had seemingly been subdued, chatting in the corner contently with another girl, Johnny still felt uneasy. The bedroom door down the hall still hadn't opened. You were still in there.

As he made his way to the bedroom, he wondered if YangYang had already done something. Naeun said it didn't look like it so why were you still cooped up in there? That wasn't the only thing carrying him toward the door and he knew it. He found himself following you like a moth drawn to a flame, chasing your warmth in a time of frigid loneliness.

"Hey." A stern voice causes Johnny to stop reaching for the door. He turns around to see Mark's disapproving glare. He looked at Johnny as if he caught him red-handed doing something nefarious.

"I just want to check on her." Johnny wants to be annoyed with Mark, but he knows deep down that he has every reason to be suspicious.

"I do too. Don't you think it's better if I do it?" Mark asks. Johnny could tell he felt shitty about not trusting him. There was regret behind his eyes. After a few moments of silence, Mark can't find it in him to look at Johnny's hurt expression anymore. He turns the doorknob and disappears behind the door.

That night after Johnny left the party, he had the worst nightmare he ever experienced. Johnny's face was hovering over the dreaded toilet bowl again, feeling his stomach turn.

"Please Hyojong! I'm sorry!"

"Look at you, crying like a little baby. So pathetic. Have you no dignity?" Hyojong's voice was weird, it wasn't his at all. "Let's see just how pathetic you are. Repeat after me. I'm a waste of space and nobody loves me."

Johnny was suddenly watching himself being held over the toilet bowl. Except, it wasn't him. The person turns their head and horror fills Johnny's body as your eyes meet his. You look horrified as you plead with him to let you go. The words leave Johnny's mouth against his will.

"Say it or I swear to god, I'll bash your face against this fucking toilet." Pure venom poured from his lips. His heart was pounding in his ears. It was his hand gripping at your hair and holding your head in place.

"I'm a waste of space and nobody loves me." You sob, face soiled with tears, spit, and snot.

"Again!" His loud voice echoes, bouncing off every wall in the bathroom. The pain that filled his chest as you repeated it over and over again was unbearable. It felt like someone taking a dull knife and carving out his heart. You kept repeating it until all the emotion drained from your face. It felt like ages of Johnny sitting there. Pure torture. Your face was reminiscent of that night. Void of anything. Robotically repeating the phrase. Johnny's eyes sting with tears as a younger version of you stares back at him.

"I'm a waste of space and nobody loves me."

The words claw at his heart as they're spoken in your smaller voice. Dried fluids distort your image as you peer up at him. "Good. Almost perfect." He spoke as if on autopilot, and he couldn't switch it off. He strengthens his grip on your hair. What was about to come next crossed his mind before it happened and he was screaming for it to stop. His mouth never moved, the words never came out. He just shouts in silence, no use for the dominant voice.

"Just one more thing." His face contorts into a wicked smile as he sends your head crashing into the porcelain. The viscera left only your mouth intact. Johnny watches in horror as you cough up blood. Blood, so much blood. Blood seeping through your shirt at your stomach that looked like it had caved in. To his horror, you began to speak calmly as if your face wasn't completely destroyed.

"Are you happy now?"

Johnny gasped violently, hands clenching his bed sheets as he shoots up from his pillows. He shouts your name, tears already coating his face. "No!" He cries as the image of your crushed skull was still vivid in his mind. He could see it in every dark corner of his room. The moonlight did little to soothe his frenzied state. His hands fumble along the neck of his lamp, rushing to flick it on. As light floods his room, Johnny heaves in silence.

His phone rings and fills his empty mind. He looks over at his phone on his nightstand. It was Naeun calling at 4:18 am. He picks it up, voice wavering as he speaks. "H-hello?

"Were you fucking in on this?! What the fuck is wrong with you?! You're sick!" Naeun continues to loudly berate Johnny as he attempts to collect his thoughts.

"Naeun... what..."

"I can't believe you did this!" Naeun's voice cracks as she shouts before ending the call. Shaky hands open google and type in Naeun's name. Johnny looks numbly at the flood of articles.

"Did..." You can't even finish your sentence. Partially because you'd be proving Jisoo right. Mostly because it made you sick to think about. You scrolled among countless articles with blurred pictures accompanying the headlines.

"EXPLICIT PHOTO OF POPULAR TWITCH STREAMER EUNPRIL LEAKED ONLINE"

Passing so many articles with similar names, your mind kept flickering images of her worried look. Your heart ached for her.

"Poor girl."

"And you were there. Did YangYang try anything with you?" Jisoo asked, sitting on the edge of your bed. You grit your teeth as you lean further into your pillows.

You were sick of people asking you this. Naeun asked with just a look alone. Mark asked when he came into the room that night. Jungwoo asked you in a text when you woke up. Now Jisoo was asking you. If you were honest, you'd admit it was because you felt like an idiot. But the reality that this could've been you filled you with unease.

"No. Nothing happened."

Plus, knowing Jisoo, she'd make it into a huge thing. That's the last thing you needed right now.

"Good, because look at this." Jisoo turns her phone toward you.

"ANONYMOUS SOURCE CLAIMS EUNPRIL'S PHOTO WAS LEAKED FROM AN EXPLICIT MATERIAL TRADING GROUP CHAT. A POLICE INVESTIGATION HAS COMMENCED"

"...I looked over and Doyoung, Lucas, and YangYang were looking at pictures of naked girls..."

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The Accursed King and the Flower Princess

A short story inspired by @justpked Beyond the Spider Lilies because I can't stop crying thinking about the tragedy of the parent child bond between Aris and Mc. So now I have to make others cry by reading about Seleni and how much she loves her Papa.

Aris could feel a set of eyes staring intently at him, normally such a sensation would lead to him reaching for the nearest sharpened blade available and there are at least half a dozen within reach in his private study. Until he recognized the footfalls of tiny feet that should already be in bed, and a pair of big green eyes underneath a mass of black curls peering up at him over the edge of his desk.

"Seleni what are you doing out of bed?" Aris tries to sound disapproving but can't quite keep the small amused smile off his face when his five year old daughter walks into full view. She's tugging at the hem of her nightgown "Baby was scared to sleep by himself, so I let him into my room. I know you and Ren told me not to let him get used to sleeping in my bed since he'll be bigger when he's grown but…" she's already giving Aris the pleading puppy dog eyes while holding up a story book.

"You want me to read you another bedtime story?"

Seleni shakes her head and corrects her father, "no I want you to read Baby a bedtime story."

"You want me to tuck you back in, after you snuck out of bed," his daughter nods in agreement.

"So I can read a bedtime story to your pet Chimera after I told you repeatedly not to let him sleep in the bed with you."

"But he's so little!" Aris just raises a brow at his daughter's pleading. "And he's scared of sleeping by himself. Papa, you always read to me whenever I'm too scared to sleep by myself. I just want him to feel safe too, because I love him so so soooo much." Aris cannot refute that argument, especially when his treasured daughter makes full use of her big green eyes and the little pout. So he's just going to accept this rare instance of defeat, pick up his daughter and carry her back to her room.

He can already hear the Chimera cub scratching and yowling in indignation at Seleni's bedroom door, as well as Ren's distressed whirring as the automaton frantically searches and calls out for xyr charge. Suddenly the bedroom door is flung open revealing a relieved Ren holding a little fluffy white baby chimera in xyr arms.

"Oh there you are Sece! Forgive me Sir! Xe will be more diligent in keeping Seleni and Baby's Breath in their respective sleeping quarters during bedtime."

Aris tucks his daughter in her large canopy bed and turns towards Ren to take the squirming Chimera cub from xyr arms.

"We've decided to let Baby stay in my daughter's room just for tonight."

"Are you sure? Sir you were so adamant before…"

"It will not become a habit. Seleni was concerned because her pet seemed scared." Aris refuses to acknowledge Ren's knowing look. As if the automaton is wordlessly saying "you caved in because she kept making those sad baby doll eyes again didn't you?"

It was not an unreasonable thing for his daughter to worry about her pet feeling frightened. Like most young children, little Sece was fascinated by various animals, but she is especially fond of the ones that other people might consider too frightening, dangerous, gross or strange. She's read (or rather had Ren and Aris help her read) enough naturalist textbooks to know despite being such fierce creatures, Chimera cubs are very vulnerable. Their horns, fangs, and claws are too small to fend off larger predators and they're unable to breath fire until they're at least a year old. An albino Chimera could never survive that long in the wild, especially since they're lack of natural camouflage means they're often abandoned by their mothers, in favor of other cubs more likely to survive to adulthood. Aris couldn't leave the helpless little creature crying alone in the overgrowth (it reminded him too much of how he first found Seleni).

So he'll allow Baby's Breath to curl up in his daughter's lap while Ren restarts the usual bedtime routine. As Aris reads the fairy tale aloud (to Baby as his daughter insisted) narrating the story of a beautiful princess born out of flowers who lifted the curse placed on the kingdom through clever wits, bravery, and kindness.

"Papa, why do so many stories always have the princess kissing someone to break a curse?"

"Something about love overcoming the most powerful magic."

"Does it really work?"

Aris looks down at his daughter unsure how to answer her innocent question, "why do you ask that, my treasure?"

"I overheard some of the other grown-ups whispering about how papa is cursed…but since I'm your daughter that means I'm a princess too! And I love papa more than anything in the whole world! So I thought if I gave papa kisses every day it would be enough to break your curse," she explained with all the earnest belief only young children possess.

Many people would accuse the Accursed King of being heartless, and for a while Aris even believed it himself. Until he met daughter and now his heart is breaking, because his most treasured little girl believes with her whole being that just loving her father would break his curse, and he wishes so badly that it could be true. He doesn't even realize he's crying until he feels his Seleni's little hands wipe his tears, kissing his forehead and cheek pleading, "papa please don't cry." He's not so cruel to tell her the truth, that while Seleni is the key to breaking his "curse" there is no happy ending for him. Instead he just tells her he loves her too, and he vows he will always love her no matter what.

Aris does keep that vow for his entire life. Just as princess Seleni always gave her father a kiss whenever they greeted or parted from each other. Even when she grows up and becomes as lovely, intelligent, fearless, and compassionate as any princess one might read about in a fairy tale. Even when another scarred young prince who believes himself cursed, tries to steal away her heart, and as much as Aris tries to scare off the brat, he cannot deny Valar is utterly devoted to his daughter. Still Seleni assures her father she still loves her papa, but she also loves the Nilhiems prince too. It's why she agreed to marry him so Valar can know what it's like to have a good father in his life. She's willing to share her beloved Papa with him, can't he at least pretend to tolerate Valar for her sake? And again the Accursed King concedes to his daughter's earnest and pleading green eyes.

Those same green eyes are the last thing Aris sees filled with tears as she sobs. Pleading for her papa to forgive her as she presses kisses against Aris' forehead and cheek like she did as a child. With his last bit of strength the Accursed King just wipes the tears from his daughter's face. "You were right, my treasure. A princess's kiss finally did break the curse," and with a gentle smile he finally finds peace as his life leaves him, and Death claims him from his daughter's embrace.

#beyond the spider lilies #fan fiction #Aris #mc seleni cereus gaudare aka sece #baby the chemira #with guest appearances staring #ren #valar #parent child relationship #bondingtime #dammit I will make everyone cry with me!!!#starts out cute #but ends in tragedy #with a surprise crossover appearance with Death

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reverienne · 11 months

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@aylaaescar suggested answering this question from Lena’s blog for my ShoH blorbos and here comes Jul’s answer!

Caine needs “The Talk”! How would MC approach the wonderfully awkward task of explaining the birds and the bees to a preteen kid?

Juliander Strzygomski:

Generally, Jul would seem to be a good person to approach? As in: he's not the person that you'll go to tips regarding your love life per se - think "Oh no, I have a crush on this girl. What do I do?" - because you know that he's gay and your tween mentality tells you that Boys Are Different TM, and though at some point it becomes Known that he and Chase are together, Jul is definetely not The Cool One in the relationship. People correctly notice that the right question to ask is "What did Chase do to make you fall for him, Juliander?" and not the reverse. They would go for courting advice to Chase, not Jul. Sex ed, however? Jul has the energy of a cool rebellious uncle and that makes him perfect for sharing knowledge that your parents don't want you to know or you're too embarrassed to ask your parents for. He despises adults who dismiss children with "I'll tell you when you're older" or "You'll understand it when you're older", who project their own shame onto their kids and refuse to equip them with essential knowledge about their own bodies.

(There's also the additional factor of parents's knowledge sometimes being very limited in certain areas - sometimes because of prejudice, sometimes because they simply weren't taught about the alternatives. For example, Jul's parents’s idea of a default sex ed was rather cishet. They would try being more inclusive, if they knew that Jul was attracted to men, but they had no idea, Jul himself had no idea that he was gay at that point and then they were gone 13-th-birthday-style so... Jul had to do his own research once he figured out that he's gay. If he can make one youngster's journey of figuring out the ropes a bit easier, then he did some good in the world.)

Jul totally understands that there are plenty of reasons why you simply can't ask your parents or you asked them and they didn't give you a sufficient answer, and he has this chill nonjudgmental aura that makes him feel like a person that you can trust and let yourself be vulnerable with. You can ask him any set of "embarrassing" questions and he'll answer them fully, no sugarcoating and no abridging. He's any controlling parent's nightmare.

Also, a fun fact - it's actually not easy to make him blush or stammer while covering these topics. He may need a moment to come up with an answer, if he gets surprised by a sudden change of topic, but it's only becauase he wants to give the kid the most thorough answer he can. He's extremely professional, kind and understanding.

A way to make him blush would be to ask him what he does with Chase specifically, but it’s only so because IT'S PERSONAL and Jul would like to have his privacy in that regard expected. He can give some general tips based on his knowledge and experience, but you won't squeeze any saucy backstories out of him while he's answering your questions.

And if Jul pawns the responsibility off, it’s always for a good reason. The thing is - Jul very much realizes that he's not the norm, he can't and won't pretend that he is the norm, and that a statistically likely allo kid sometimes would like to hear some reassurance from an allo adult with similar experiences. Jul is demiromantic and while he falls in romantic love somewhat easily (at least compared to my other demi characters, Siri or Bogumiła), it's based on the person's vibes, not their physical appearance. He's also demisexual and it takes him time getting to know his crush (and sometimes also a near-death experience to speed up the whole process) to start experiencing any sexual attraction at all. Jul very much realizes that his particular experience may not be helpful to everyone and while he hates dismissing people (because it feels like being the kind of a person that Jul personally despises and that he would hate to become), he may point someone in the direction of someone who would provide them with a better answer. Statistically, I think that it's mostly Red (who is cool with that and eventually became Haven's second unofficial sex ed teacher), but at some point Jul surprised Bogusia with a visit from some kid who shared similar experiences to her and it was very sweet. 🥺

#shepherds of haven #Juliander Strzygomski #happy pride 🌈#I have the ask stashed and I want to reply for it for Bogumiła too #it's okay to reblog :) just to clarify

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demonsandco · 3 years

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hi!! i was wondering if you could do a headcannon of the brothers + dia, barb and simeon reacting to mc asking if they could do it in their demon/angel forms?

I sure hope that by “demon form” you meant my version of their forms, because only after I finished writing, did I remember that they have canonical demon forms, too, woops! But Simeon doesn’t have a non-human form in-game so hopefully I was right gjhfkfjh

Lucifer : It’s a rare occurrence to see Lucifer speechless, yet somehow they’ve managed to stun him into silence with a single request. Being intimate in his demon form isn’t something that’s even crossed his mind before, not seeing his true form as anything more than a tool for intimidation. With too many eyes, elongated limbs, and crisscrossing scars highlighted by patches of missing feathers, he truly doesn’t understand what they see in him to pick that over his much more palatable, human form. Yet, despite his initial shock and hesitance, he can’t find it in him to deny their request. If they really want to see his true form, especially in such an intimate setting, then he’ll humor them, but the entire time he’s preparing himself for some sort of rejection, expecting them to flinch away from his touch or to ask him to switch back. He’s astonishingly vulnerable in this form, and craves a positive reaction from them.

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Mammon : When he hears their request, Mammon’s relief is palpable. Having sex in his human from has always felt distant to him, as though he were wearing a costume or a skin tight suit. He’s desperate to feel their hands on his demon form, often fantasising about how their hands would feel running across his wings or buried in his feathers, but, while he may have not so subtly hinted at his desires in the past, he’s never had the courage to initiate such a thing himself. He’s immensely excited about their request, so excited in fact that he’s prepared to stop whatever he was doing and drag them off to somewhere private to have his way with them. It also encourages him to spend more time in his demon form around them, now that he knows that it won’t scare them away.

Leviathan : Levi’s knee-jerk reaction is to say no right off the bat. As much as he trusts his partner, he can’t help but think that there’s some sort of ulterior motive behind the request, refusing to believe that anyone would actually want to see his demon form, much less touch it in such an intimate way. While his true form grants him confidence and immeasurable power, in a relationship, it becomes his biggest insecurity. It takes a lot of patience and encouragement to convince him to go through with it, and even then he’s hesitant to even touch them, worried that they’ll think he’s creepy or gross and change their mind. It doesn’t help that he’s practically useless on land and that they’d need to join him in the water to comfortably have sex. He’s understandably nervous, but praise and affection go a long way in easing his worries, and once he gets a taste of how nice it feels, he finds himself asking them to be intimate in his demon form more often.

Satan : Satan isn’t all that surprised by their request. In fact, he’d been expecting it to come up sooner or later. After all, he wants to know every intimate detail about his partner, to see them in their most vulnerable state, so he assumes that they’d eventually want to get to know his true form intimately, as well. He feels some anxiety, of course, his demon form not exactly being human friendly, all rough skin and sharp edges, but he does a good job at keeping his fears at bay and enjoying the moment. It feels freeing, in a way, to have them accept him so readily, to allow something as monstrous as him so close in such a vulnerable moment. With every soft touch of their hands and kiss from their lips, he finds himself falling in love all over again. He craves their acceptance, and the fact that they can see him at his worst and still show him love speaks volumes.

Asmodeus : As much as he wants to tease his partner for having such a lewd suggestion, or to think of it as a chance to introduce them to something new and pleasurable, the only thing Asmo feels at their request is genuine fear. There is very little that he’s afraid of, but the idea of them rejecting him is terrifying, and he’s convinced himself that no one could possibly love him if they saw his true form. He’s very calculated in what parts of his demon form he lets people see, making sure he looks cute and unassuming at all times. He has no problems showing those parts of him to his partner, but the rest of his demon form isn’t anywhere near as cutesy, and he doesn’t want them to associate him with such an “ugly” appearance. Yet at the same time, he wants to be able to be himself around them, to have them see the parts of him that he’s kept hidden. It takes a lot of worry and hesitation, before he finally shows them his true form during sex, the shared lust giving him the push he needed. He’s so prepared for a negative response that their positive reaction is enough to make him melt against them.

Beelzebub : It’s not uncommon for Beel to be seen in a not quite human form around the house, his wings and horns unconsciously coming out while he eats or works out. Knowing this, he’s surprised that his partner has seen those parts of him and instead of being scared, they want to see more. He’s not the type of person to hide who he is to make himself more palatable. He trusts them to know what they want, and he takes their request at face value. At first, he didn’t think too much of it, but the moment he feels them touch his true form, watches them search for his most sensitive areas, he becomes addicted to the feeling. The fact that he’s even bigger than normal in this form excites him more than he thought it would, too, his massive frame making his partner seem tiny in comparison. Needless to say, he finds himself letting his demon form out during sex more often, both because he wants to feel their touch again and because he finds it more comfortable.

Belphegor : Belphie is genuinely surprised that they’d want anything to do with his demon form after how badly things went the first time they saw it. Hearing that they not only want to see it again, but that they want to see it in such a vulnerable moment is a relief to him. He’s always thought that actions speak louder than words, and he sees their request as a sign of trust, something he values greatly. He’s more than happy to show them his demon form, to let them explore his body and create new, much more enjoyable, memories. He also takes it as an invitation to show his demon form more often, taking every opportunity he can to let out his horns as he cuddles up to them or conveniently resting his tail within petting range. Now that he knows they’re not scared of his appearance, he wants them to associate his form with positive and intimate moments.

Diavolo : Diavolo is positively ecstatic to hear their request! He’s wanted to don his true form while being intimate with them since the start of their relationship, but he’s held back out of worry, not wanting to risk frightening them. Truthfully, he’s not too fond of maintaining a human appearance for so long, and he’s almost too excited to let out his demonic features. Hopefully, they had nothing else planned for the day, because he’s already got them wrapped up in his many wings, with his scaly face pressed against their neck. He plans to take his time with them, practically acting as though it was their first time together again, treating them like a priceless treasure in his clawed grasp, showing them everything he can do in his true form that a human could never hope to accomplish.

Barbatos : Barbatos has been waiting for them to ask this for quite a while, and he can’t keep the small smile off his face when they finally do. While he’s perfectly comfortable in his human form, he feels as though it greatly limits his abilities in the bedroom, and he hates to think that he’s not pleasing them to the best of his abilities. He knows that his true form isn’t something a human would be used to, though, so he waited until they were confident enough to bring it up themselves. He sees it as taking the next step in their relationship in a way, knowing that they not only are willing to accept him for what he is, but that they embrace it. With his extra limbs, slick tail and long, powerful tongue, he’s more than happy to show them how much more skilled he is at servicing them in this form, and he’s also surprised to realise just how sensitive his demonic appendages are.

Simeon : It’s rare for Simeon to feel the need to turn his partner down, but he finds himself initially denying their request when they first ask, coming up with some half baked excuses in an attempt to avoid hurting their feelings. Humans never seem to react well to an angel’s true form and he can’t bear to see them regard him with fear, especially not during such an intimate moment. While his angelic appearance may not be as monstrous as a demons, the extra limbs, many eyes and inhumanly tall frame are more than enough to make him look rather disconcerting. Yet at the same time, he doesn’t like the thought of hiding his true form from them, leaving him conflicted. With enough reassurance, he eventually feels comfortable enough showing them bits and pieces of his angel form at a time, and each night they spend together his human form slips away a bit more. At first it’s just his wings, letting his partner run their hands over his sensitive feathers and getting used to the extra limbs, before slowly showing them more of him. Soon enough, he reaches a point where letting out his angel form around them is like a habit, feeling like it makes their time spent together feel more intimate, especially now that he knows his looks alone won’t scare them away.

#obey me #obey me smut #obey me shall we date #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #rip sol he's just a regular ol human #angel form #demon form #obey me headcanons #lime time

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moemoemammon · 3 years

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Ooh! How would the brothers react to an MC that decides to kabedon them?

Reverse Kabedon!

(Feat. GN!MC and the Demon Bros)

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Lucifer

You catch him in the hall right as he leaves his office, and boy are you lucky that no one else is around to witness the way you slam your arms against the wall around him, trapping him in place.

Lucifer gives you a hard, calculating look... then gently whaps you on the head with the papers he's holding.

Tbh he's amused with the fact that you have the audacity to try something like this. And thanks to Levi's infection influence, he knows exactly what you're doing.

What you hope to get out of it is what he's curious about, but he's not really taking you seriously.

"If it's my attention you wanted, all you needed was to ask. But now that you have it... what are you going to do with it?"

Mammon

OI! Watch it! You nearly made him drop his cup noodles, damn it! What would you have done if it splashed everywhere?!

Wait... why are you so CLOSE you're gonna give a guy a heart attack! 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫

If he were a cat he’d be all puffed up. He's staring you right in the eyes, trying to gauge what?? you're trying to do??? And you can see the blush slowly creeping up on his face

Stuck between being ready to square up and leaning in for a smooch-

"Y-you're pretty cocky, huh? Tryin' to pull something like this on the Great Mammon.... W..Well what're ya waitin' for?! Ain't ya gonna DO somethin'?!"

Levi

As soon as he realizes what's going on, Levi's heart nearly leaps out of his chest.

For one, you nearly gave him a heart attack when you stopped him right outside his door. And two, this has been one of his fantasies for years... finally...

Wait.. what's he thinking?! This is YOU he's talking about! It's way too much stimulation for his heart to take! It's not like this is some otome game he can pause!!

Also ready to fight. He just freezes up like a deer in headlights, and you're pretty sure he's about to have a heatstroke from the intensity of the redness in his face.

"UWAAAH!!!! Wh-wh-what do you think you're doing, huh?!?! If this is some kind of prank, I'll- MC, seriously! I'm going to die if you keep this up! You get it, don't you?! I'll actually die!!!"

Satan

????hello can he help you???

Satan was just trying to live his best life and catch up on some reading he missed out on nerd, but you insisted on trapping him against the bookshelf (and making him drop a book in the process-)

But can you back up though? He can't grab his book when you're so close, and- oh. He gets it now. From that proud look on your face as a reaction to his surprise, he's pretty sure this is what you wanted.

He doesn't feel helpless, but seeing you try to take dominance over him like this is kind of??? charming, maybe?? He's more embarrassed than anything, but he won't let you know that. He'll just mask it with a witty chuckle you won't suspect a thing-

"You're always full of surprises, but I didn't think you'd try something from one of Levi's books. Could it be that you're trying to impress me? Or maybe you wanted a kiss?"

Asmo

Oh~!! How BOLD of you~!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

Asmo is a sucker for bold declarations of love, so you've got him practically swooning against the wall while he dramatically fans himself.

But you'd better be careful. Even if he doesn't understand the whole 'kabedon' thing, that doesn't mean he won't play along.

And by 'play along', I mean he flips the situation on you. Your eyes don't even comprehend what they're seeing when he finesses his way into pinning YOU against the wall, giving you a cheeky look as if he's waiting for your mood.

"As much as I love a good tease, you should be careful not to rile me up so much~! You don't expect me to hold myself back when I love you so much, do you? Unless... you're telling me not to hold back at all~?❤️"

Beel

Beel wordlessly stares at you, club sandwich in hand, when you trap him right against the fridge with some kinda smug look on your face.

??something wrong?? This isn't your sandwich he's eating, is it? Wait no he just made it so there's no way-

So maybe you're hungry? Beel just kinda.. presses the sandwich against your lips. But when you refuse and explain that you're trying to be romantic(?), heeeee's not sure he really gets it.

What's so romantic about trapping him against the fridge?? In an effort to understand, he's started kabedon-ing you every time you're near the fridge (until Lucifer tells him to stop)

"I think I get it now. Kabedon is great, because it puts me close to you, and I can grab a snack after. Do you want something?"

Belphie

Hey... Can you move? He's trying to go back to his room. Belphie has no problem sleeping while standing up, but he’d rather have the comfort of his bed instead.

You've got him trapped against the wall, and there's a silence between the two of you as cow man tries to wrap his sleepy mind around what's happening. Then he realizes you're trying to be cheesy romantic

So what does he do? The only obvious thing: He grins at you right before poking his fingers into your vulnerable armpits.

You FOOL. He's got you right where he wants you. Belphie doesn't let up one bit, even when you try to snatch away from his merciless tickling attack.

"Hey, what's the matter? I thought you wanted to be close to me? Come back here. I couldn't run away, so it's not fair if you do~"

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danger-noodle-uwu · 3 years

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I'm new to tumblr so is this how you do request? May I request the brothers forgetting mc's birthday and later remembering it. How would they react? Maybe they were busy or something. Your choice if you wanna do the dateables too.

Trigger warning

Mentions of Angst/sad/slight comfort

Lucifer

Busy almost all the time, the first-born barely spent time with our dear Mc. He would try to finish the work only for more to be slammed on his desk.

Never would his brothers acknowledge his efforts or the sacrifices he made for them. Instead they'd mock him. Mock him for being absent at all family times. Mock him for doing what he does.

It was once again such a time, such a day. They didn't bother to care what the day has held for his beloved. It was their birth.

The birth of the one who truly changed his life along with his brothers. It was such a blessing yet he forgot about it. Entirely.

The Avatar of pride was strong, Lucifer wasn't. He was weak. Vulnerable. Especially against his brothers whom he adored with his entire being.

And the mocking words had stabbed him deeply, which made his current state as to how it was. Drunk. Wounded. Crying.

Rubbing his eyes, he awoke to a mess of his office which screamed the need for cleanliness.

During the process, he found the calender. A sweet calender gifted him by his doll.

A smile had crept on his face as he lifted it for what? Perhaps to calm the unsettling feeling in his bones that told him to run but where he didn't know?

While their lover was, Mc wilted much like a delicate flower would if the sun stopped shinning, they were laying curled on the floor of his room. Mc needed him.

How could he forget his own lover's birthday?! even after he promised... it hurts.. so much...

Yesterday. The poor human cut the cake wished themselves a happy birthday when he didn't...crying...in pain...

The realization hit hard. He ran to Mc's room as fast as he could. A shiver ran his spine and the horror in his stomach grew as each and every step was taken.

Yet could not find them, so he went over to his office expecting a fuming Mc.

He was once again not right, for his beloved was breaking down as he took them into his arms. Consoling.

He apologised and comforted them. Reassuring them over and over again. Reminding them his heart still is with them and no-could ever take it away.

He later threw a party, just like how you wanted. You. Him. And the growing fragrance of the candles surrounding you both.

Though late as it may have been, it was the best birthday the innocent human had. Smiling while he kissed your knuckles, he asked for your hand in marriage.

Never had you expected this...

"I Found the reason for my smile, the day I found you. Will you let me be the reason for your smile and marry me, my love?"

Mammon

As most had expected, he forgot your birthday due to witches or the modeling gig, he did not.

Instead he forgot about preparing your birthday gifts. His excitement had always gotten the best of him.

The Avatar of greed did not have enough budget to prepare the gift you dearly wished for, therefore multiple part-time jobs and skipping RAD became more often.

Despite the scolding, he didn't bother and worked on, just imagining the smile you'd make once you saw what he got you.

''I'll make Mc smile. Just one more hour extra and the budget would be*chef's kiss* '' he thought as his co-workers packed their belongings up.

It was late night and the moons shined brightly over the streets of devildom however he wasn't much worried because it was not like your birthday the next day. (it was)

Stretching his arms, he woke up around 1:35 pm due to his fucked up sleep schedule, only to be greeted by your excited figure cuddling him.

Grey-haired demon thought it was the Delirium before the day itself. He was wrong.

At first he acted totally oblivious to the fact any special day was just around the corner. He knew that surprises even more better!!

And then your great mammon ignored you for a while to rid of the risk of you following him to the destination.

Though his plan was to get your hopes down, he ended up making you cry. It hurts a lot especially when the love of your life forgets your birthday afterall you gave him everything he wanted on his.

The visit was successful. He even had extras left to treat you!!!

The was big achievement for someone who hated working to the slightest, to work for 3 weeks and multiple jobs!!!

But before he left, the seller mocked him about being a damned day late for this gift could have been sold at a better price if not booked.

That is when it all clicked and he panicked. Today was your birthday! Oh shit!!

He rushed home back to you. As he ran, he planned how to ask for your forgiveness.

" Oi Mc I'm sorry!--Oh hell no!!" "Mc I fucked I am sorry, please forgive afterall I'm your first man.--fuck this shit imma just play smooth."

Panting, he paused right before the door of your room and knocked lightly. Seeking your permission to enter.

You lazily opened the door for him, tired after shedding many tears for him.

Mammon instantly knew what to do. "Oi Mc I'm sorry for not wishing ya' a happy birthday earlier but I was busy buyin you somethin', here darlin' close your eyes."

Hearing his apology, you felt oddly happy and followed his request. Soon you felt a soft cold metal cling to your wrist. A bracelet, huh.?

"Open y'er eyes, human." On your wrist was bracelet that said 'His human' and another matching one was on his wrist which said 'Their stupid' . (Now isn't that adorable?)

"I was savin' up for this, so ya' better appreciate it. Hmph!" Giggling you yelled 'I love you' at him making him blush immediately.

However, when he spoke, he spoke genuinely and not in tsundere.

"Ya' make my life worth living. You bring smiles to my face, and y'er touch shows me how much you love me and care for me. Y'er my friend and my lover. Happy Birthday!"

Leviathan

With envy filled to the brim, Leviathan was very focused upon you and having your attention only for himself. To not let anyone snatch you away for they could better be than him, he'd make notes to treat you like royalty and improve his guilt-tripping habits.

Guilt, regret, shame. His heart screamed within the confines of his chest, as he rubbed your back assuring you that he still loved and will continue to do so.

It was his envy. It had always been his envy. Who always held him captive like a bird in a cage, he struggled to break free. He just couldn't.

The fault was his for if he hadn't given in to the jealousy named poison, you would be happily celebrating your birthday rather than crying in his embrace.

The fault was his for if he hadn't screamed at your friends who just came to congratulate you about getting in a relationship with the demon you very much loved and to wish you a birthday.

They left because of him. Not because he humiliated them but he forgot his own lover's birthday and called them a pathetic cheater, as they didn't feel like reminding of what the day was. They had left off with their friends, returning at HOL at night only to get yelled at.

Caring friends as they were, they tried convincing Mc to leave which his love refused. So, they left pitying the poor human.

No-matter how much Mc begged her companions to stay, they didn't.

Oh the suffering for His Normie, they ran upto him vulnerable-ly and started hitting him weakly, breaking down. Why was he? Why was he like this?! Why must he always leave you crying due to his envy?!

"Hey easy...calm down please, I'm sorry. I really am sorry, please forgive me and I promise I will make everything right. Please." "How..?" "Please trust me. My love." "Are you sure..?" "Yes...yes...I love you..."

Could you really trust his statement? You wondered. He could forget his word much like how he forgot your birthday.

The great admiral of hell's navy was true to his word, and successfully united you again with those who almost abandoned you or it seemed like--but no they were just disappointed. They were never going to do such a thing.

The meet went smoothly, and soon the the sun was setting casting shadows along with dying light, it was a dreamy sight for anyone.

Leviathan had known that he still had to make upto you properly and therefore, he took you to the cosmos of frodane.

Red, blue, yellow, any colour you could possibly think of was there, shining as brightly you were.

Taking in a shaky breath, the Avatar of envy gave you a bouquet, each flower consisting different scent which complimented the other.

The shimmer in your eyes gave you away and he gave you a sweetly addicting kiss while mumuring...

"I always cause some mess. It is never your fault. I’m sorry for making you feel unhappy. I cannot believe that I cause hurt to you. You are my only hope for my life. I promise you that I will do my best to make a better version of myself for you, my 3rd waifu~"

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And here we go... the pain and the suffering. Lol

Hope you like it and stay safe everyone. ♡♡♡

Have a good day!

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obeiii-mee · 3 years

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MC had a bad day or they’re dealing with a bad loss from a loved one. So they decide to seek comfort from the Brothers! But they don’t do it in a normal way, they just barge in the room where the brothers are all relaxing or hanging out at before MC just busts in getting their attention and they go “I need a hug 🥺”. Let’s see the some fluffy hc’s of the brothers comforting MC 🥰

And how could they not want to hug their cute human that is literally 3 seconds away from breaking down into tears?

The Brothers Comforting MC After A Bad Day:

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You’re right, they wouldn’t be able to resist, they love their human too much 😌

*soBS* I want to hug one of them so bad rn

Thank you for the request, I love writing fluffy HCs, it’s my weak spot and it gives me serotonin. I hope you have a nice day/night!! Uh, it’s sort of implied that MC is slightly shorter than them so sorry if that’s a problem-

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Notes: Fluff, mentions of loss and dead family members/friends, mostly comfort though, short HCs

Characters: Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Beezlebub and Belphegor.

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Lucifer:

-He doesn’t say anything and he doesn’t really need to because him just being there, arms wrapped around you and hands lightly running up and down your back, is worth more words than any sort of verbal consolation he could’ve given you and because of this, you feel at ease

-His touch is firm but gentle and you relax almost immediately, burying your head against his chest and feeling him press a kiss on top of your hairline, tightening your hold on him

-He already told his brothers to back off because the last thing he wanted was for you you to get overwhelmed by their insensitivity so you two were left in the living room by yourselves

-In a bit of an awkward position though, because you were both standing and after a while, it was clear a hug wasn’t going to be enough

-That’s his excuse as to why he picked you up bridal style five minutes later and carried you all the way to his bedroom, a place he knows his siblings won’t ever trespass without his permission and somewhere he can shield you from any prying eyes while you’re in this vulnerable state

-At this point, he was basically cradling you like a baby, having you sit on his lap and waiting for you to tire yourself out until you couldn’t cry anymore and watching you slip into that hiccuping stage you get after a breakdown

-Lucifer is obviously going to ask what happened, but whether you answer him or not is up to you because he’s not one to push matters if he sees you’re uncomfortable talking about it

-However, he might insist if he concludes that it’s affecting you and your well being and that’s how you know usually know he’s worried

-His voice is soft though and just listening to it makes you want to tell him everything, whether it’d be something as annoying as a small inconvenience you stumbled across that day or the death of a relative, you feel welcomed enough to spill everything

-Even if you decide not to, he’ll stay with you until you feel better, until you’re no longer crying or shaking or anything of the sort. He speaks occasionally, almost soothingly about how important you are to him and how capable you are of overcoming anything in your way. For the most part, however, he remains quiet and allows you to mull over your thoughts, willing to forget about his paperwork just to let you cling to him for a few hours

-Maybe later, when you’re no longer as distressed, he could get the full story out of you and help you overcome whatever problem you’re having trouble facing but for now, he understands all you need is for him to be there

“MC?” He calls your name out because he was thinking that maybe you had fallen asleep but he realised that was not the case when you looked up at him, streaks of tears still sliding down your cheeks. When you don’t respond, he sighs almost contently “A bit longer?” You don’t answer again but this time, he could feel you nod against him and he smiles despite himself as he leaned his head against yours “All right then, just a bit longer.”

Mammon:

-Truth be told, he’s never been the best at comforting someone and normally, he’s kind of awkward when he wants to show his support because it feels so out of his character

-But it’s not like he was going to refuse you anyway. Not when you specifically came to him and asked him for help and not when you looked like you were on the verge of crying. He’d be a monster to deny you >:(

-It upsets him too, you know. He’s meant to be your protector, guardian even, so the fact that he couldn’t keep you from getting hurt makes him feel like he failed at keeping his human safe. Actually, it takes a lot of convincing on your part just to tell him that you’re not actually physically hurt. Just a shitty day…

-Mammon, despite the walls he puts up ever now and then, is someone that genuinely cares for you. And he’s also the type that does almost everything in excess, especially when it comes to you or spending money. That’s just his personality; he’s loud and boisterous and even though he wants to deny this, completely transparent with his emotions

-You ask for a hug? He gives you plenty of hugs! He lets you lay on top of him while cuddling so he can hold you!!! He brings you snacks and drinks!!! Shit, he basically cradles you the whole night!!! And he’s blushing and acting annoyed the entire time, refusing to accept how much he’s actually enjoying this

-The point is, he tends to coddle you whenever you have a bad day or if you’re really affected by the loss of a dead loved one. This is probably because he, in turn, likes to be babied and cared for when he’s feeling down and he subconsciously does that to you because it’s the only means of comfort he knows how to execute well

-A hug would’ve sufficed, but you’re his human and let him be damned if he’s not gonna give you the world on a silver platter if you keep looking at him with those sad eyes of yours

-By now, if you need anything, you just need to ask because even with a bit of grumbling, he’ll get it for you. More snacks? Say less. Wanna watch TV with him for a while? Immediately reaches for the remote? You just want to cuddle? His body is naturally warm for a reason bby, dig in. You want his heart? Give him a moment to surgically get it out of his chest-

-No matter what, he’s so glad that you trust him enough to talk to him about this sort of stuff and that he’s the first person you think of when you need consolation

-It makes sense after all, right? He’s your first pact so your direct happiness is his responsibility while you’re in DevilDom! It’s his job to make sure you function again by tomorrow morning and that you’re no longer troubled by anything

“Hey! What’s with all the crying huh?” He cups your face in his hands and softly squishes the flesh between his fingers. His thumbs brush over the tears in your eyes and he let’s out a small ‘tsk’ as your foreheads touch and his hands drip to your shoulders to keep you steady “The Great Mammon is hugging ya right now, ya know? There’s no reason for you to be upset, not when I’ve got ya in my arms like this, OK? So you can stop with yer water works now.” As noisy as his voice is, there’s a gentle note behind it when he speaks and embraces you, his cologne spreading everywhere “I love you, ya big idiot. So please, stop cryin’ and lemme hold ya already! Yer making me worried, ya stupid human.”

Levi:

-You stopping by his room is not unusual. In fact, you do it every day and it’s just part of the routine you have with him. However, he’s wasn’t exactly expecting you to stand there, all shaken up and ask him for a hug!!!

-And he doesn’t process this request for a second but then he freaks out so badly-

-Yells incomprehensibly about how you’re ‘pulling your normie tricks on him again’ and how he’s ‘not going to be fooled by them anymore.’

-You raise your head to meet his eyes while he’s still rambling on though and he sees your teary expression and now he feels guilty because you look really upset. Levi’s kinda scared he made it worse-

-He’s the type to usher you in his room and lock the door as usual but instead of doing what the two of you always do, you literally stay attached to him because you need comfort damn it!

-Levi….is sort of clueless about these emotional outbursts since he himself doesn’t deal with them very well. However, he’s watched enough animes revolving around romance to conclude on the best course of action so-do not fear! (Spoiler, he still doesn’t know what he’s doing)

-He’s really stuck and can either stay as quiet as a nun or start babbling in a language you probably wouldn’t even understand because he’s so nervous

-Or actually, he might start crying with you if I’m being fair; he’s very in sync with his Henry and your emotions

-Once he calms down, he’s actually not all that bad at comforting. Levi is a bit stand offish with his hugs at first but he relaxes into them and by now, you’re both standing by the side of his bed, with you leaning onto him and him holding your hand. He then intertwines your fingers together but subconsciously because he wouldn’t have the gall otherwise

-Later, he tells you to help yourself with the snacks he has hidden in his room. I guarantee you he has a whole ass mini refrigerator hidden somewhere for his all night gaming session, in case he needs any boosts. No one knows how Beel hasn’t found the stash yet and there’s no need to tell him

-Then you watch re runs of old shows together and make fun of the shitty editing and dialogue. He’s still holding your hand though and he’s really flustered and wondering if it’s too sweaty for you but don’t mention it because he’ll get even more embarrassed

-He glances over to you, every once in a while, whilst you’re cuddled up against his arm, eyes glued on the TV, to make sure you’re OK. You almost gave him a seizure or at least that’s how he felt-so he made it his mission to make you feel better by any means necessary. Fuck today’s raids, his team can get them done without him!!

“I-I don’t know why you would want me of all people to hug you but…” he trailed off in a whisper, having to lean down so you could wrap your arms against his neck and bury your head in his shoulder. He pulled you in closer, a streak of protectiveness coursing through him as he shut the door to his room with his foot “Lord of the Shadows would never leave Henry all on his own, so I’m not going to do that either. This is an important character development arc and-just, please don’t cry. I’ll give you more hugs, OK? Seeing you like this is not good for my heart-“ stopped mid sentence after realising what he just said and now he’s the one burying his head in your shoulder, flushed beyond hell “Forget I just said that! Holy Lord Diavolo this is embarrassing, why am I like this????”

Satan:

-It troubles him greatly to see you like this and he can sort of feel the world shift out of place, seeing you with tears running down your face and hands balled into fists out of frustration almost immediately makes him fly into a fit of rage because who would dare to hurt you-

-Oh, a hug? If that’s all you need, he’s more than happy to oblige but if you’re as distraught as you seem to be, he wonders if just a small embrace from him would be enough

-Satan’s hugs are very intimate and even passionate at times. He has one hand on the back of your head and the other supporting your lower back while you bawl your eyes out into his shoulder and getting his uniform wet

-You can’t really seem to focus on what he’s trying to tell you because he’s so warm and welcoming and even though he’s someone as renowned as the Avatar of Wrath, he’s shockingly patient with you as you let out the overwhelming emotions that have been consuming you all day

-It’s hard to not relax when you’re in Satan’s presence because he’s calm and he smells like musty, old books and mahogany wood and cats, meaning he was most likely cuddling strays he found on the street the entire day. The first visual that comes to mind is fire crackling behind a grate in a chimney and someone reading a book while swinging back and forth on an old, rickety chair when you’re around him

-He will wait until you’re no longer crying and then, before you know it, you find yourself in the library with him, drinking tea and being handed a plate of biscuits he took from the kitchen to help you regain your strength after all that crying. You’re still feeling pretty miserable about the day you’ve had but you quickly lose yourself in a conversation with him over a cup of tea

-Sometimes, you two talk for hours on end about nothing important just to hear each other’s voices and finally have some quality time spent together. Even though he wishes the circumstances were better, he’s glad to have been able to snatch you away from his brothers for a while and he’s even happier you chose him to confide in

-Satan practically doesn’t even mention your outburst and keeps the small talk minimal but he wants you to know that if you do wish to tell him about it, he’s more than happy to listen and he’s not so bad at giving advice either

-The topic of the discussion you were having with him changed abruptly by the end of the night and now you’re reading together from this book he started a while ago, both of you covered with a blanket, your head on his chest and his leaning on yours. He’s holding the book with both of his hands, but still managed to get his left wrapped around you. And because of this feeling of safety and warmth, you don’t feel desperate anymore. Tomorrow, you’ll be able to sort out your feelings but now, you’re content to just listening to Satan read, in his clear, soft voice

“Ah MC, could you turn the page for me?” You do as he asked to and you could feel him smiling as he kissed your hairline, sighing before going back to the book and the story within “Thank you. You truly are amazing, did you know that? I’ve never met someone as caring and as kind as you. Well, I suppose Beel could compete for the title but unlike him, you don’t really leave us in debt whenever we visit the grocery store.” Hearing you laugh makes him smile even more and he lets you hold the other side of the book while he plays with your hair and now you join in reading with him, out loud and trying to act out voices for the characters. As everything unfolds, Satan feels the world click right back into place.

Asmo:

-It’s a known fact by now that Asmo is willing to give you any sort of affection at any point in time, whether it’d be a hug, a kiss, holding your hand-you name it! I mean, whenever he’s feeling down, you being there to encourage him helps a lot so it’s only natural it works the other way around too!

-If he notices that you’re genuinely upset by something, then he would have no problem whatsoever with lavishing you in attention and really, a hug or two from him is the bare minimum in situations like this

-In any case, he always enjoys fussing over you and you having a bad day is the perfect excuse for him to do so! After all, he can’t disappoint you since you came to him with your troubles and he will do anything in his power to make you feel better. Actually, if he could, he would keep hugging you forever but as miraculous as his charm can be, it’s not effective against someone with this low of a morale

-His first suggestion is to take a bath! It’s his way of taking care of you; you’re tired after such a long day and he feels like you’re neglecting yourself a little because of it. So you relax in his bathtub with him for a while, him actively trying to get your mind off any bad, lingering thoughts while you splash around in the bubbles

-And obviously after that, you need to have your mandatory spa sessions with him since you need to unwind and what’s a better way to do that than to let him paint your nails and apply lotion to your skin? Besides, it creates a great opportunity for you to take things off your chest

-He’s in need to hear gossip constantly so if you don’t feel like talking, he’s gonna be a bit bummed out but he still respects your wishes enough to not push you. If your problem is as sensitive as the death of a family member, you’re not obligated to talk to him about it and he will understand, since people grieve in different ways. He too shut down after the death of Lilith for a while after all

-A bad day is nothing Asmo can’t handle. He’s had plenty of those before, mostly because of Mammon and his thievery, they’re usually common factors. It’s only natural you experience those yourself and he’s more than willing to be your support system if you need one. He wants you to know that you can go to him if you need advice or help with anything, or even if you just need to someone to hear you out

-To give a more detailed explanation of his hugs, they are usually really light and you never feel suffocated when you’re in his arms. He never squeezes you too tight and he always smells amazing, so you feel inclined to stay near him for as long as possible. Despite his overtly loud nature, he gets incredibly soft spoken with you and he traces patterns on your back and arms as you stand there together

-It’s important to mention, he never pulls away from you first. He lets you decide when you’ve had enough and when you’re ready to move on or if you require some other means of comfort

-And even if you’re no longer disgruntled, he’s still going to pamper you as much as possible the next day with either a shopping spree or another few spa sessions, this time done at a professional institution rather than the privacy of his bedroom

-Asmo is in touch with your emotions and it’s kinda scary sometimes because of how well he can read you, since he almost always knows what you need

“Oh darling, how could I refuse a hug from you?” You can feel his arms embrace you, even with your eyes closed and for some reason, this makes you cry even harder, sobbing as he tries to comfort you. You’re aware he let go of you at some point and returned with a tissue to dab away at your tears, gently to not hurt your eyes and now he’s hugging you again, a wry smile on his face “You don’t have to worry about a thing, MC. Everything will get sorted out, I promise. In the meantime, come to me if anything troubles you again, OK? No more crying, darling-it’s bad for your eyes.”

Beel:

-The type to immediately lean in for a hug without even questioning why. As soon as you ask him, you barely have time to finish the question and you already find yourself in his arms. The only exception would be when he’s eating or maybe in the middle of a work out but the point is he doesn’t hesitate much when it comes to you. And I mean, he loves hugs just as much as his siblings do

-Beel is not the most observant and he may not realise you’re in a bad mood unless you tell him outright. It’s not even that he’s emotionally distant, it’s just that if you tell him that you’re fine, then he’s gonna take your word for it and believe you since he’s pretty straightforward with his feelings as well. However, as dense as he may be on occasion, even he’s bound to notice that you’re not being your usual self and this is especially true if you start crying out of nowhere while he’s nearby. Probably assumes the worst and is under the impression that he did something to upset you because shifting the blame onto himself whenever others suffer is his coping mechanism and we’ve seen him to do it before

-If you’ve just had a bad day, he understands that things could’ve been very overwhelming for you and he wishes he had known sooner so he could’ve helped back then, instead of letting it come to this. But he doesn’t hesitate all that much since he looks like he’s built for giving hugs on a daily basis. I’m not even sure this would classify as a hug since you’re not touching the floor. Rather, you are attached to him like a koala and he’s carrying you around as if you were a baby strapped to his chest. And he genuinely doesn’t mind. He’s been doing it with Belphie for centuries now

-Please, after a while he gets seriously concerned because are humans supposed to cry this much? What if you dehydrate or something? So he makes you stay in bed and just gives you plenty of water. You look so pale and sad, he shares his food with you too because his heart is aching just looking at you like this. He feels like besides being there, he can’t provide you with much help and he’s starting to think he’s hopeless at comforting

-If a family member died then…Beel is one of the best people you could’ve gone to. Honestly, having dealt with his sister’s situation, he knows how horrible it is to lose somebody you love dearly (I mean, all the brothers do but I’m making a point saying Beel, Belphie and Lucifer were especially affected). Now he’s sad himself since he’s aware that you’re going through something similar and his twin might walk in on the two of you being emotional on the floor

-For the most part, Beel makes sure you keep yourself healthy even when you’re tired and depressed. Continues to bring you food, even if he eats half of it on his way to your room, and just keeps you company in general in case you get lonely. Seeing you upset makes him even more considerate of your feelings and you don’t have the heart to tell him that he doesn’t need to stay with you all night. He thinks he does because you’ve always offered to stay with him whenever he’s had nightmares before so how he’s gotta return the favour

-Beel gives these bear hugs all the time, since he’s so big and his hand basically covers your entire back. So, more often than not, you end up cuddling while standing because he’s a lot taller than you, with him being a demon and all. Despite that, you feel so unbelievably complete when he holds you like this. It’s hard not to feel protected since his whole body is practically concealing yours so easily all the time and you feel sheltered from the world and it’s….nice

-And Beel enjoys hugging you too, because he knows that as long as he’s nearby, you’ll be safe and that’s really all he needs. He wants to be there for you the same way you were there for him when he needed it most and comforting you when you’re having a shitty day is like his full time job

-You could come to Beel with any problem and he would never judge you, no matter what. He’s just really unproblematic and he just wants you to go back to your normal self because it hurts him to see you cry your eyes out. Now, not only are hugs mandatory but holding your hand is too. It’s like hugging…but your hands are doing the hugging

-Definitely even goes to Belphie after a while if he really doesn’t know what to do and that’s how you know he’s desperate to do something. Since the Seventh Born isn’t exactly someone that yields great advice, more so when it comes to other…people….and his twin knows this-

-Beel’s best strategy at the moment is to just maintain some kind of physical contact because he discovered that makes you feel better and it calms you down more than him trying to verbally console you. He even invited you to sleep in his room if you’re comfortable doing so just so you’re not alone. After that one incident, he’s trying to coax you to tell him whenever something is wrong so he can jump in and help, because that’s all he really wants to do ahakenksms

“MC? Did something happen?” He’s honestly taken aback by how shaky you are and how you’re hands are trembling as they’re reaching to connect with his. Without much of a warning, he feels a funny feeling in the pit of his stomach and now he discovers that he doesn’t like seeing you with tears trailing down your face. And he feels worse the longer you wail in his chest and he doesn’t know what to do. So, he wraps his arms around you so tight you think you might explode, strangely comforted by the feeling as he speaks again “I’m sorry if I’ve done something to upset you. What can I do to help, MC? We can just stay like this for a while if you want” And when he sees you nod, he proceeds to not move an inch almost the entire night. Obviously, hunger overtook him eventually but he shared his stolen goods with you so can you really complain? Doubtful, not when he hasn’t let go of your hand the whole time.

Belphie:

- Hugging him is a gamble. Realistically speaking, you’re not going to catch him standing upright long enough for you to give him a hug. He’s laying on the floor somewhere, asleep so you shouldn’t expect much from him to begin with. Even if you were to get lucky and stumble upon him while he’s wide awake, he might slump over and succumb to sleep the moment you embrace him because you’re so warm

-Cuddling is a different story altogether. He’d rather shoot himself in the foot than not have you cuddle with him so if you need to be babied for once, he’s a pretty good option to consider

-As usual, he’s in the attic and you go to him because it’s really late and you didn’t want to wake up any of the other brothers. Actually, Belphie is normally awake by dusk so to see him sleep like a log past midnight was quite surprising. You didn’t exactly want to interrupt but if you stayed alone for any longer, you would’ve gone insane. So you shook him awake. And he was understandably confused and probably forgot what planet he was on for a minute when you did so

-Technically, he was half awake and from his point of view, everything must’ve been pretty blurry. He did see you; the problem was that because he was still feeling very sleepy, he was basically in a daze and could only squint at you to try and figure out if you were really there or if he was hallucinating. His suspicion was confirmed soon enough because he reached out after a few seconds and poked your cheek just to check. His face the entire time and the action itself was so amusing that, despite tittering on the edge of a breakdown, you burst out laughing

-Once he came to the conclusion that you were, in fact, real and he wasn’t dreaming, he sighed and opened his arms out for you; a direct invitation to cuddle with him. By now, he likely didn’t even noticed you looked sad because, as I said, he was all over the place but this little ritual you two have was common enough that it got engraved in his memory. Now he does it out of impulse whenever you’re around and he wants attention

-So you basically tackled him and threw yourself on top of him so hard, both of you toppled over on the bed and now you were used as a blanket, with his arms wrapped securely around you; preventing you from getting up. Not that you were planning on doing that anytime soon but moving on-

-You thought he had fallen back asleep, because he went really quiet and he stopped squirming to get comfortable. To be exact, the whole room was rather still and the only thing you could really hear was Belphie’s soft breathing and the rustle of the bedsheets every once in a while. And since it was extremely dark as well, you couldn’t see a thing either so it felt like the best place to let go of your stress

-It’s not like you were making much noise but as I said, the seventh born wasn’t sleeping just yet. And he wouldn’t be able to because it was obvious to him now that something was wrong. He believed that he was bearing witness to something that should’ve been a lot more private than this so he didn’t say anything. You should have your moment, let you have a chance to recollect your thoughts and the next day, he might ask you

-It was too much to handle. It’s not like he was gonna get any sleep unless he knew your problem was solved otherwise he might get nightmares all night. Besides, if you’re crying this much, then something terrible must’ve happened. You realised he was awake when he gave your entire body a small squeeze, as if to reassure you and you froze because did you just wake him up???? Or worse, did he hear all that sobbing you were doing????

-Hugging him is similar to hugging a pillow. He’s soft and squishy and warm and it’s impossible to resist him when rest at a time like this is so tempting. His fingers running over your pact mark once or twice, as if to remind you that he’s right there and low whispers describing the best dream he ever had about you, hoping to distract you for long enough to help you fall asleep

-To him, it doesn’t make a difference if a family member died or if you’re just having a bad day. All he knows is that you’re having a lot of emotional problems because of either one and as a result, you need a shoulder to lean on. He’s glad that you trust him enough to let him assist and if it was up to him, he would keep cuddling you forever. You’ve already suffered enough so let him take care of you this time around, OK?

“Dumbass, why are you crying?” The gentleness of his words was a clear contrast to that quick insult he shoved at the beginning of his statement, though you couldn’t hear any malice behind it and the fact that he really cared about what happened to cause you to struggle with your emotions so badly, would’ve made you wail even harder. However, he managed to silence you pretty well because he kept speaking and you wanted to listen; you wanted to hear what he had to say so you reduced your sobs and you sat quietly enough to do just that. Belphie flipped you over, now with him on top and you underneath and he laid there, cheek sloshed against yours as he sleepily mumbled out more praise for you, “MC, are you tired? You should go to bed, you need to get some sleep. Tomorrow, you can tell me what the problem is and I’ll help. I promise-I’ll even get up early for you. Just…please calm down. I don’t want to see you crying yourself to sleep ever again. I’ll stay here the entire time, alright? And I’ll make sure you have nice dreams tonight MC…just let me hold you…”

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