#his emotional state is just: i dont think but when i do i hate tony stark

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I just rewatched Avengers and I'm fucking LOSING it

I forgot bro...

I forgot how annoying Steve was alsmalmdns

And dont come at me saying that I don't like him simply because I love Tony Stark (as i should!!) Because i remember being so fucking irked when I first watched this movie!! And I just remembered how mad I was when I watched it again cos I forgot like 60% of what was said and what happened tbh

And Steve. Oh my god. Listening to what he said just pissed me off a majority of the film!! Like bruh! What are you doing hon!!

I get it tho like he just woke up, the future is crazy, all his friends are dead it's insane and fucked up!! But jfc his instant dislike for Tony is weird as hell 💀

He doesn't treat anyone else with the same disdain? Like i get it bc Tony has a loud personality and not everyone has to like him ofc

But he's just so...ugh

Like Tony is on the ship next to Steve and they just bagged loki and thor is gonna show up soon. And Tony is doing his normal rambling shit and basically tries to get to know Steve?? At least that's how i saw it? But ig it pissed steve off cos he just ignored what tony said and said "fury didn't tell me he was calling you in" and he just seemed upset that tony was there? Idk if it was because he came late or cos Loki surrendered like moments after tony showed up or cos he made a joke about steve doing pilates to stay spry (lmao) but he didn't seem happy that Tony was there :/

And later Tony's labbing it up with his shiny new science bro Bruce and poking him (cos that's what he does) and obv bruce would tell Tony to cut that shit out if he really was upset by it but all he can say is "ow!!" Before steve busts into the lab like "ARE YOU CRAZY YOUTRYNAKILLUSALL?!?!? no offence doc :)" and bruce is like "ok I'm not gonna hulk out chill" and basically steve is just in there to tell tony off (I seriously wonder if he was camping outside the lab waiting for Tony to do something he didn't like because he came in RIGHT after tony poked Bruce so)

And i get why he would do that but bruh im pretty sure bruce is fine lmao plus he and tony seem to be getting along so far so idk why he thought "dear god the genius is gonna get us all killed with his reckless behavior!!" And went in to save the day lmao. Maybe I'm just being a bitch but if i were steve I'd see if there was a real problem first. And hulk is a scary concept I get it but steve literally said to Bruce that the only thing he cares about is the fact that he can find the tesseract ans yet every chance he gets he's like "careful guys we don't wanna set banner off now do we?" Like bruh if you were concerned about how much of a handle he has on hulk why didn't you just god damn say so instead of lying to this man's face 😔

What I got from the scenes between tony and bruce vs the scenes between steve in bruce is that Tony trusts that bruce could handle being on this mission while steve just...doesnt :/

So naturally Tony thinks something hinky is going on with shield and bruce fuckin agrees cos hell yeah Science Bros plus SHIELD is sus

And steve is like "don't go snooping this is why shield doesn't like you stark >:( now get back to finding that cube" and then he fucked off to literally do exactly what Tony was doing but without hacking.

Are you kidding me?? We always talk about how much of a hypocrite steve was in Ultron when he was mad at tony for keeping secrets and then keeping the Stark murder a secret but this man showed us who he was from the get go lmao

But then they find out *gasp* Tony was right! Big shocker there huh. And SHIELD is super sus and loki is like bruh y'all cant defeat me like this smh

And one of the most MIND BLOWING scenes in this film is where they're all arguing around the scepter, who's being a chaotic little bitch

Now keep in mind, the scepter was definitely influencing everyone but it didn't tell them WHAT to think or say lmao so i have to assume that to some extent they mean that shit

So I'm just supposed to be focusing on steve so sorry for going off topic but Fury turning the topic of the conversation to tony saying how he built his fortune off of weapons?? That shit was uncalled for like bruh...there was a whole movie about his character development and how he shut down his weapons bc he found out they were hurting innocents...

But anyways

Steve takes this opportunity to call tony out for being narcissistic. His evidence? I'll have to get back to you on that cos i have no fucking clue.

Here's the big argument where we get most of our good old anti-steve content tbh:

Steve says tony is nothing without the suit

Again: where is this man's evidence?? Why is he saying these mean things?? AND I KNOW IT'S COS OF THE SCEPTER BUT NO ONE ELSE WAS TALKING FOR THIS LONG OR ZEROING IN ON ONE PERSON SO STFU

He seems upset that tony actually answers his question like...you asked what i was without the suit? (The best part is that natasha did a little head nod, agreeing with tony calling himself "genius billionaire plybiy philanthropist")

says he knows guys worth ten of Tony without any of the stuff he listed

He just met Tony. They haven't even known each other a week and he's ready picking at his insecurities?? Crazy. Plus when steve says "I've seen the footage. The only person you fight for is yourself." Like ok there wasn't exactly a war for him to go and fight in but go off rogers. When was he supposed to fight for other ppl and what makes you say he didn't?? I'm so confused about the thought process here. And the footage he saw? What was it? Him saving people at the Expo? Him fighting terrorists? A sex tape of him that got leaked??

Says Tony wouldn't sacrifice for someone, wouldn't let some guy crawl over him while laying on a wire

Again how does he know that Tony WOULDN'T?? He's just saying random shit at this point and I just cant

And Tony again gives a smart remark because that's what he does plus it's funny

He said he would cut the wire, which is such a tony thing to say tbh. Like,,in Afghanistan they were like "build us weapons or die" basically and he said "I pick the third option" and got the hell outta dodge

And steve is upset by this answer as well! Another shocker. He says "always a way out" like lol why not? Why are you so pissed? What is the issue darling??

And Tony FINALLY stoops to Steve's level of throwing out insults and says "lmao like you?? Bruh your talents came from a science experiment. Your "heroism" came from a bottle you clown" (obv he didn't say it like that what I said was actually meaner tbh i just hate steve)

And the worst thing i think steve said in the entire film: "you may not be a threat but you better stop pretending to be a hero"

I was just VIBRATING with anger at this I was LIVID. Tony has so many damn insecurities and this is not helping!! Like bruh wtf is Steve doing rn!! Everyone else stopped arguing at this point and is just LOOKING at steve basically tell Tony he's nothing special for no reason besides him not liking tony for reasons unexplained

And wanna know what Tony doesnt do? Listen to him. Im actually pretty sure he told him to fight him twice and tony doesn't get the suit either time lol

And steve has NO comeback for that so he just tells tony to straight up fight him lmao

Idk why I keep forgetting that Steve likes to resolve disagreements by fighting in alleys. So he's ready to post up as if tony is some jock who just wont leave this poor dame be and tiny asthmatic Stevie is the only one willing to stop him. Steve you are HUGE now and tony is just existing next to you and you're yelling at him for it. This scene makes steve look a lot less like a hero and a lot more like the bullies he so fervently advocates against ngl

And then steve grabs tony when shit starts to hit the fan bc "you cant go alone!!" Like bruh just follow him lmao why are you stopping him (just a personal pet peeve tbh not really a big deal i just didn't like it)

And I'll say this again: IK THE SCEPTER WAS MAKING EVERYONE ANGRY AND SHIT! I GET IT! But out of that whole mass argument Steve was the only person focusing on one individual and for such a long ass time too! Tony said one thing that was on the offence instead in defence of himself that whole time and I'm crying cos how tf does the impulsive asshole have more self control than the golden boy Captain America?? I'm at a loss here folks

The way i see it, Tony and Steve don't like each other. They rub each other the wrong way. But the reason i don't like Steve is that he has contempt for Tony right off the bat with no explanation? And meanwhile Tony's whole childhood was probably riddled with Captain America. He probably saw Steve every damn day, or heard his dad talk about him in a higher regard than his own son. So he probably had this ingrained jealousy of Steve from the start and he STILL managed to be as civil as he usually is. But Steve?? I can only fucking guess.

So yeah there's my rant sorry I've been doing so many of these recently I just had a lot of time on my hands and decided to watch some Marvel and get pissed about it lol

TL;DR: after watching Avengers again I realized that Steve has always been pretty shitty so his character development wasn't exactly a drop, more like a stagnant line that no one noticed because he was pretty okay in the Captain America movies

#anti steve rogers #his emotional state is just: i dont think but when i do i hate tony stark #tony's very existence offends him #and i could go on and on about how all the lther shut he said throughout the film because he said more shit that PISSED ME OFF but i'll sto #ik how annoying i am #i just think steve couldnt come up with a valid reason for disliking tony so he made some shit up about him not being a real hero #and had to eat his words when tony flew a damn nuke into space #in reality i think tony intimidates steve bc tony thought the fight with loki was suspiciously easy #and steve was like: he wasn't that easy to fight actually #idk why he even said that like who cares man it's not that big of a deal #Tony has a reason admittedly a bad one to straight up hate captain America: ✨daddy issues✨ #but Steve has had no interactions with Tony to explain this behavior 😭 #he knew exactly what he was doing when he called stark tower ugly too #it's not like he forgot who it belonged to it's in the name he just wanted to be mean 😂 #it's not a big deal for tony to have his name on the tower like...it's on brand STARK IS THE BRAND NAME MY GUY #stark industries ringing any bells?? #god the stupidity in this room 😌

[oops-aquarius]

tainted kisses

summary: steve needs some relaxation, which you provide to him

warnings: smut (!!!!), praise kink, slight degradation kink, a little bit of angst cuz a hoe is sad, oral fixation (duh), slight dom/sub dynamics (?), mentions of sadness/depression, tiny mommy kink (like barely there)

pairing: steve rogers x reader

word count: 2.2k

note(s): not edited well at all, also i used a prompt generator to get the promt i used (which is below !!)

prompt: “baths or water (tubs or jacuzzis; hot springs; water houses or steam rooms; the ocean; swimming pools.”

kink: “Oral fixation or fetishization (lips, tongue, or whole mouth; french-kissing; licking; oral displays using food or beer bottles; smoking cigarettes, cigars, or pipes; biting or chewing one's lip(s))”

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***this is post-endgame except nobody died, cause im a hoe for all of the avengers***

Steve never realized how much he liked things in his mouth. Not always in a sexual way, at least not until after fighting Thanos.

After fighting for so long, bottling up his emotions was not at all how Steve needed to cope. He tried the yoga and meditation route Wanda had so kindly suggested. Yeah, after one session of hot yoga, Steve decided that it wasn't going to happen. Tony, obviously, suggested sex. Said something about it being a “healing experience for the soul”. That’s bullshit were Steve’s first thoughts when that came out of his mouth. Bucky told him to get some goats and raved about how therapeutic it was to raise them. But Steve could barely take care of himself, how would he even take care of a goat? Steve felt a hot sense of hopelessness burn against the back of his eyes as he sat on the floor of his bedroom, back pressed against the adjoined bathroom door.

“Steve?” A soft knock came from the front door. He took his thumb away from his mouth, he had resorted to subconsciously nibbling on the tip of it. Pulling himself off the door and towards the voice, he rubbed his tear-stricken cheeks in attempts to clean himself up a bit before seeing you.

“One sec, Y/N/N.”

When he opened the door, your face softened a bit before the smile that Steve, secretly, loved so much dropped off your face completely. “Stevie, what happened?”

Stevie, a nickname he hated for his entire life. A name that reminded him of the days before the super solider serum where he was a little guy getting beaten up on the streets of Brooklyn. Stevie, a nickname he loved hearing from your caring voice. Nobody else’s. 

“Just tired, Y/N” he sighed, “so,so tired.”

“Stevie,” your voice caught at the back of your throat. Seeing him in so much pain made your life turn upside down. He doesn't deserve to be in pain. “ S’there anything I can do to make you feel better?”

“Just stay with me? Please?”

You took him back into his bed and sat with him, just talking about life until his breathing turned back to normal and he seemed partially-okay. 

“Do you want to take a bath?” you asked, still stroking the blonde strands of his hair.

“Are you saying I smell?” He took his face out of the crook of your shoulder, feigning a look of hurt.

“No, punk, I meant to relax. You seemed pretty shaken up and I just wanted to help. I mean, that’s what I do when I feel down, relax in a bat-”

He cuts you off, “I appreciate it. Really, Y/N, I don’t know many people that are as loving and caring as you, sweetheart.” The nickname made a pang in your heart. You had like the super solider since you had met him, but never felt like he reciprocated the feelings. Even though you both cuddled often, and had movie nights, and he always let you beat him while sparring, and that one time you came down with a stomach bug and he fed you soup and-holy shit. Did Steve like you? “Sweetheart?”

“Huh?”

“I said, ‘A bath does sound nice’. What’s got you so suddenly zoned out?” He says, donning a smirk.

“It’s nothing. Let’s get you into that bath, mister,” you had a faux grumpy look on your face as you got up and walked to the bathroom, starting to fill the white, ceramic bathtub with warm water. “Okay, big boy. You need help getting up or are you okay?”

Rolling his eyes at your inauthentic tone, Steve pushes his tensed frame off the body and managed to stumble into the bathroom, while you following him closely to make sure he doesn't fall over from exhaustion.

“I get it, I’m old, but damn Y/N. I can walk perfectly fine,” He chuckles as he pushes himself up to sit on the counter top.

You start to fill up the bathtub with warm water, adding bubbles and lighting a few scented candles. He looked so pretty, hair sticking out in every direction, lips pink and puffy from biting them, his ocean blue eyes still misty as he looks down at his cuticles, picking them slightly. 

“Okay, I’m gonna leave so you can take this bath,” you say, shutting off the faucet, “Got it?”

“Y/N?”

“Yes, Stevie.”

“Stay, please.” His eyes were watering more than earlier. He had those puppy dog eyes, lip quivering as his voice cracked and wavered even with just a few words. He looked so vulnerable, how could you say no to him?

“Of course, Steve. I mean, the bubbles with kind of cover everything. I’ll just sit next to the tub with you, alright?” You awkwardly giggled and scratched the back of your neck. He nodded, hopping off of the counter and starting to undress himself with a wobble. “Stevie, you’re shaking like a leaf, let me help you.”

His eyes never met yours as you helped him pull his t-shirt over his head and looped your delicate fingers through the waistband of his sweatpants, dragging them down his muscular thighs. “You’re not gonna finish your job, doll?”

His boxers. The only clothes he had left on were his grey boxers. You wanted to give him privacy and not look, especially in such a broken and vulnerable state. But god, you could see the outline of his partially-hard cock through the soft cotton. You thought about what it would be like to have your mouth around his hard length, chocking on it as he rammed himself into the back of your throat.

“Ummm, I just--I thought--I mean I can---Only if you want--” The dirty thoughts clouded your brain. It made speaking a speaking a sentence almost impossible as your mouth watered just thinking about his cock.

“It was a joke, sweetheart,” he laughed heartily, “You’re too adorable.”

Pulling his boxers down his legs, he waddled tiredly over to the tub before stepping in. He groaned in pleasure at the feeling of the warm water encapsulating his exhausted body. You imagined that’s how he’d groan if you sucked his cock so hard he was seeing stars.

You were still facing the door, like you were as Steve got completely undressed. You knew if you turned around and look at him, naked and at ease, you’d jump his bones in a heartbeat. “Come sit with me, Y/N”

And you did. You turned around cautiously, like you expected, the bubbles covered his body enough for you to be able to handle yourself as you sat down next to the tub. You grabbed his hand away from his lips, running your soft fingers over his rough calloused ones. “I always see you biting your nails or cuticle or lips or your pens. Why?”

He sighed, “I’m not sure, I guess it just distracts me?” He said it more like it was a question rather than a statement. “I guess I don’t truly know why I do it, I guess I just enjoy having things in my mouth.”

You could read Steve like a book, his pupils blown with lust, his lip stuck between his teeth, a blush heating up his cheeks. You took a leap of faith.

“Yeah, like what?”

“You.”

His lips were on yours in a flurry, it took a second for you to react, but as soon as you did it felt amazing. Neither of you seemed to care about the water splashing over you as his hands trailed up your body, tugging at the hem of your shirt.

He pulls away panting, “F-Fuck, Y/N, I need you. Please. Oh my god I need you so bad,” His eyes looked as if they were welling up with tears and he looked so pretty still in the relaxing bubble bath, whimpering and whining for you. 

“God, I need you too, baby,” you stop to look in his eyes sincerely, “Are you sure you want this? I don’t want to do anything that you don’t want to do or that you will regret.” Your hand caresses his cheek.

“Just get in here with me and I’ll show you how much I want you,” he whispered, “Need you, really.”

You sighed before your hands moved shakily to take off your t shirt. As much as you wanted this, you were still scared of how the ripped super solider would feel about you and your body, As soon as your shirt was off, Steve was whimpering, dipping his hand into the soapy water to massage his aching cock. This only spurred you to take off your clothes and join him faster. 

“Did I say you could touch yourself, puppy?” Your stern voice caught him off-guard, making him pause his actions with a look of fear on his face. You step into the bathtub, straddling him. Your nails raked up his milky white thighs, trailing up his body admiring the beauty of it. “Y’Know I was planning on being nice to you because you’ve been so good to me, but you might need to be punished, baby? Do you need to punshied like a brat?”

He mewled, bowing his head in shame. You could feel him growing harder and harder by the second and you were starting to go crazy with the empty feeling inside of you that on he could fill. “No, ma’am. I’ll be good, I swear!”

“Mmmm, that’s my good boy.” Your hands slid up his chest and rested on his cheeks, hearing him preen at your praise, as you repositioned yourself over his cock. “Are you sure you want this?”

“If you dont ride me into next week right fucking now I’m going to scream, Y/N,” He breathed out with a chuckle, Grabbing your thighs, he helps you sink down on his cock. Both of you were moaning and whimpering messes by the time you were sitting at this base of him, trying to get adjusted to his large size. 

Hot tears burned at the back of his eyes as soon as you lifted yourself up off of him, only leaving the tip of him inside of you, and slamming back down on his dick. 

“Baby-please,” he whimpered, “n-need, shit, need your fingers, bad.” 

You were confused, slowing down a bit to make sure he was okay. But his puppy dog eyes showed that he was okay. Slowly taking your wrist from his cheek, he puts your fingers in his warm mouth. Moaning around them and swirling his tongue around them. He did it the same way you always dreamed about sucking his dick, chocking and gagging on his length.

“Yeah, you’re such a needy little slut for me, for this pussy. Look at you, so ruined and fucked out just because I’m fucking you.” He moaned sensually at your words making your core tighten impossibly. 

You had gotten a good idea as you were riding him. Slowly, you start to thrust your hand in and out of his mouth, watching the saliva dribble out of the corners of his mouth as he choked on you. The band in your tummy starts tightening as you feel yourself getting close. 

“Shit, fuck, baby, I’m gonna come. Oh my god, you’re make me come with your beautiful cock, puppy. So good for me, aren’t you?” Your free hand dips into the water, cupping his balls and rolling them around your soft palm.

He nods, choking on your nimble finger yet again his you massage his sensitive balls. “Gonna come,” he slurred and spit around you.\, “almost there.”

“I didn’t” you moaned as you feel his balls tighten, fall back down on his cock at a faster pace, “give you permission to do that. I thought you were going to be good for me?”

“I am” he spluttered loudly, “i am good, I swear. Just please let me come. I need it, oh shit, mommy.”

The name went straight to your core, making you grow weak as you feebly give him permission to come as you come undone with one more bounce on his large member. His hands come up to grope your breasts as he come with hot spurts inside of your tight cunt. 

“Oh my god,” you stifle a giggle as you stand up on shaky legs. You wordlessly helped him out of the tub and wrapped him in a white towel, walking him to bed while you dried yourself off. Collapsing on the bed with a grunt, the solider hollds out his hand to you, signalling you to lay down with him. You could easily tell he was still coming down from his sex high, starting to regain his self back.

“I dont know what possessed me to,” he pauses, trying to figure out a way to word the rest of his sentence, “to suck, I guess, on your hand. I’m sorry, Y/N, that was really weird of me.”

“What do’ya mean, baby? Having an oral fixation isn’t something to be ashamed of.” The words make him smile with droopy eyes, tucking his head into your neck and starting to fall asleep, happy and comfortable, cuddling you.

“And to be honest, puppy. I think it’s really hot.”

#steve rogers #steve rogers smut #mcu #avengers smut #steve x reader #steve rogers x reader #steve rogers angst #steve rogers x oc #steve rogers fic #steve rogers drabble #steve rogers headcannon #smut #angst #fluff #the falcon and the winter solider spoilers #wtf even is this crackfic #i hate it but oh well

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How We Got Here

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A/N: still working on other stories, but had a dream about this so I had to write it.

Steve Rogers x Reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warning: fluff and angst

You had an itch, a problem per se. You needed everyone to like you.  So you tried really hard. To smile, be happy, be likable. 

You never faced a problem of someone not liking you, at least not until recently. Not until you met the one and only Steve Rogers. Or how you liked to call him Mr. Perfect. Perfect in the way he smiles. Perfect in the way he cares. Perfect in the way he is America's golden boy. You two could have been friends. Maybe if the situation was different. 

You joined the avengers not so long ago. With your training as an agent and your bad-ass powers of mind-control. You were the best candidate to join the elite superheroes.  Besides all that you had a talent. A talent with technology. 

Your obsession began when you accidentally broke your dad’s computer at the age of 12. You were so determined to put it back together before he could find out. In doing so you used some spare parts from your also broken Nintendo console and upgraded his computer.  You were considered a prodigy from that point.

A plan was set for you. You were going to become a computer engineer. With the support of your parents, you continue your studies all through college. And a month before graduation Hydra found you. 

They wanted you and they werent going to stop until they had you. Your parents so valiantly fought them. But at the end, they lost the battle and you, well you lost your parents. 

Hydra had a hold of you. They experiment on you like crazy. You were going to be their new super weapon. As much as they tried to turn you. You wouldnt let them, you would be their rag doll to use and abuse. You weren’t about to let your parents die in vain for you to become a monster. 

What felt like centuries of being locked up were actually a month. A month when Nick Fury came bursting in and saved you.  After a much needed shower and sleep, Fury and you had a chat. 

You didnt know how to repay him for what he had done for you, you should have chosen better words than that. Because sooner or later he was asking to train you, use your powers for good. How could you say no to the man who saved you?

Two years of training, Fury took you to meet the Avenger. You arent going to lie, you fangirled hard over them. They were all so welcoming. Even Steve. 

Fury made it your new assignment to learn from them, which meant you were going to  be staying in the compound.  

It was a lot to get used to. You mostly stayed by Wanda’s side. Occasionally you and Peter would train together. Tony was more of a mentor. And Nat loved playing around with your powers. But Steve and you had never had a chance to interact other than the welcoming party.

You really wanted to be friends with him. There was so much you wanted to say but always bite your tongue when he’s around. A friendship could blossom or better yet could have. 

The possibility of a relationship flew out the window when he overheard a conversation you had with Tony one early morning. You wanted to give the compound a technical upgrade. Including everyone suits and equipment. Tony was intrigued, not because he never thought of that because he has, but because of how bold you were. 

You had so much faith in your skills and Tony respected that. He agreed to let you mess around with some of the equipment for starters. You were smiling, you were excited like a child who had too much candy and was on a sugar high. But that sugar high came crashing down as soon as Steve made his appearance.

How could you forget the conversation. The way he yelled. 

“Excuse you! You can't just come in here and demand for change. Our dynamic works, it has worked for a while. I dont know who you think you are but you dont get to mess with our equipment and you certainly dont get to mess with MY team”

His voice rang throughout the whole compound and the image of his nostrils flaring as he yelled haunted you for weeks. 

It still haunts you. You hate being yelled at. Tony told you to ignore him,  that he is too “perfect” for his own good, but even all perfect people have their flaws and his way technology. Hence the name Mr. Perfect. 

Tony and the rest of the gang kept encouraging your journey well all except Steve. Your fighting got better and you were proud to say you were finally in control of your power. 

It was their pleasure to finally declare you one of them. As you all party Steve stood there scowling. Not even Bucky could wipe that scowl off his face as he had a mouth full of cherries. 

You weren’t going to let him get the better of you. If he wanted to be snarky you would be snarky. If he wanted to be cold you would be cold. 

That became your new routine. He pushed you, you pushed back harder. From bumps in the hallways to calling him Mr. Perfect every time you can. 

The team thought you guys would get over this, that over time you two would learn to get along.  But you were always at each other's throats. Missions become harder and harder when there’s a constant argument. 

You werent like this. You knew that but that man was just too infuriating to do nothing about it. 

Currently you were on a way back from a mission with Nat. You two were sent to stop a shipment of guns from being delivered. As smoothly as it was going, Steve was on the comms just nagging how it should have been him and Nat out there. You turned off your comms, knowing the earful you are going the get when you arrive back.

As you walked into the kitchen, there was Steve nursing a glass of what seemed to be bourbon and tapping his foot. You knew what was going to happen. 

Nat made a B-line for her room, not wanting to hear the argument that's about to go down.

You stood in the middle of the room thinking of all the comebacks you can. Ready to fire at any moment. Steve stood up from his seat and made his way towards you. His jaw was set and his fists were clenched. 

He stalked over you and you suddenly felt small.  His stare was burning through you, you have never seen him like this. You looked down at your feet but Steve stopped that movement and he grabbed your chin with his hand forcefully to make you look at him. 

With your chin in his hand he had a full view of your face. As he looked at you, his demeanor changed. The tension in his body was gone, the look on his face soften and the force in his hand was replaced with a gentle touch. 

“ Who?”, he asked.

You were confused, “ who what?”

“ The bruise under your eye, who did that”, he asked, a little more annoyed this time.

He noticed the bruise? It's so small it doesnt even hurt, you forgot it even happened.

“ Oh, that bruise. The mob boss Sergio showed up. It surprised us and in our state of surprise he sucker punched me in the face and got away. But dont worry we got control of the shipment, we will get him eventually”, you stammer out.

He lets go of your face and takes out his phone. He turns around,  “ Tony, yes it's me. Apparently Sergio, the mob boss got away. I need all focus on him, can you do that? Okay thanks!”

“ What was that”, you surprisingly ask. 

His focus goes back to you, “ No one hurts my team and gets away with it”

He turns around to walk away. But stops in his tracks when he hears you murmur, “ You hurt me everyday with your words''

He goes back towards you. “ My words are never meant to hurt you, Y/N,”

“ But they have, since the moment we met.  I let it happen but then I had enough and started to talk back. If one thing I learned from my parents is to always fight back”, you quietly stated. Looking down at your feet shifting weight from one foot to another.

All that energy to fight back was gone. You needed answers. 

He grabbed your face, cradling it between his two hands. This time there was no force but it was a touch so soft, so warming, so welcoming.

“ No words can describe how sorry I am. I let my emotion get the better of me.  You joined the team and you were everything I am not. The person I am is thanks to a serum. But you, you have it all. You have the strength, the smarts and the beauty”, he sincerely apologizes.

“ Beauty?” you question looking into his eyes. Using his eyes are filled with what looks like hate, but right now they are filled with something more, could it be love?

“ I dont deserve this but if you allow me”, he asks, leaning closer. 

You know what he is asking and you too want it.  The ball is in your court.  You move your body closer to him and he takes that as an indication to smash his lips onto yours.

The kiss starts off rough, like you are in need of each other. But it becomes softer and more passionate. An apology in itself. Both of you cant and wont pull away. You were deprived of each other for so long. 

Now you knew, Steve Rogers did like you. Maybe a little more than you would ever imagine.

#captain america #steve rogers #avengers #marvel #steve rogers x reader #captain america x reader #fanfic

[boriswhatthemotherfuck]

dark academia ask game!

the secret history 🏛: how close are you and your group of friends? how far would you all go to protect each other? how many languages do you speak?

i have two friend groups! both of them i completely adore and i have one friend who is in both. we are close in a way most teenagers are. i find that we all lack depth in our reltionships. my best friend, who is in neither group would be the friend id be willing to truly do anything for. i love my friends in my friend group dearly, but i would never do something against my own morals for them. I only speak English !

if we were villains 🎭: are you into theatre? who’s your favourite shakespeare character? would you or do you smoke weed or cigarettes?

yes! i’m a proud thespian! i do my fair share of acting and also the technical aspects (a focus in costumes). my favorite shakespeare character is definitely ophelia! i’ve wanted to play her since i was a child, but she simply doesn’t fit my look. i’ve never had a cigarette, but i’ve smoked week a couple of times. this feels weird to talk about on the internet.

dead poets society 🖋: do you prefer poetry or prose? do you get along with your parents? do you resist authority or do you deal well with it?

prose! prose! prose! my parental relationships are not great. at all. this feels weird to talk about on the internet. i think it depends on the authority? if i have respect for them then i deal with them well. if it’s just simply someone who is in charge and treats people poorly then i don’t deal with it so well. it gets me in trouble sometimes.

kill your darlings ⏳: would you consider yourself an intelligent person? have you ever fallen in love with someone who wasn’t right for you? tradition or innovation?

honestly? no. i shouldn’t be allowed in the dark academia community. i’m more street smart tham book smart, unless it’s usesless literature, theatre, or psychology knowledge. I find that i tend to fall in love (shut up moony. youve been in love once.) to people who i think are not on the same ~emotional maturity~ level as me. innovation!! all the way!

homer 📖: is it more important to be brave or to be kind? do you like to read?

oooo this is hard. i think sometimes kindness is brave. wo i eould have to say kindness. YES! i love reading.

cigarette 🚬: what is your worst habit? do you like drinking? do you party a lot?

i have quite a few bad habits. when ever i get nervous i bite the inside of my lip until it draws blood. i also have a emotional dependence on hot cheetos. i don’t party a lot. one or twice a year i’ll go to a party.

leaf 🍁: what is your favourite season? what is your favourite comfort food?

i love the winter time! i love snow and the cold. i know this isn’t really what this is asking.... but hot cheetos....

vermont ❄��: would you ever go to school far away from your family? are you scared of losing the people close to you?

i WANT to go to a school far away. I live in the US and all the schools i plan on applying to are at least three five states away. i’m scared of losing my best friend. i don’t think i could manage life without him.

wine 🍷: how far would you go to help yourself? what about to help other people? do you think humans are inherently selfish?

to be honest, i have a massive guilt complex so not that far unless im trying to make myself feel miserable. to help other people? it depends on the person. there are some people i would pull and oliver marks for. i do think humans are inherently selfish, but i do not think that it is a bad thing. selfishness drives “selflessness” and shit so.

piano 🎹: what’s your favourite musical genre? do you play any instruments? who’s your favourite artist?

indie pop, indie rock, alt rock, and whatever the fuck hozier is. i play some ukulele. MY FAVORITE ARTIST IS HOZIER. I LOVE HIS MUSIC. IT UNDERSTANDS ME.

whiskey 🥃: tell us about your first kiss. what quality would make you reject someone who asked you out?

it was with my current partner. it was terrible. (babe if you see this i love you im SORRY) we had just watched avengers endgame and i had a STRONG emotional connection to tony stark so i was casually bawling my eyes out when she mashed her face with my face. i had NO clue what i was doing and i was STILL crying. as for rejection, i am actually very picky. i identify as demisexual (please dont hate me if you dont believe in that. im jusst tryna live) so dating and romance has been a bit dofficult as im not attracted to someone else i know them. i think my eyes are broken. my brain too. so really i would reject anyone if i felt i didn’t know them enough. maybe that’s shitty of me.

murder 🔪: are you capable of getting very angry? what are you most afraid of? what would be the worst way to die?

yes but i dont like doing it. it makes me feel out of control. when im that mad i do things that me nornally wouldn’t approve of. my ass would 100% pull that james moment with wren. i am so afraid of actually being a shit person. i am a shit person. BUT I DONT LIKE HAVING THE REALIZATION. burning alive. it would suck to burn alive.

#if we were villains #the goldfinch #donna tartt #the secret history #kill your darlings #dark acadamia #ask games #get to know moi

[kendrixtermina]

Sorry but hearing ppl say “I would like CF more if Edelgard was either treated like a full-on villain or as a manipulated groomed victim of TWSITD who had no choice” and just generally seeing ppl trying to shoehorn her into one of those two takes,  it’s hard not to think the words “Madonna Whore complex”

I kinda abhorr the latter more than the former (Not the crowd calling her Hitler and clown-emojis, but I’ll take someone who considers something she actually did a moral dealbreaker over someone who defends her because “she’s just lashing out cause she’s traumatized”.. That’s Dimitri. you’re describing Dimitri.) because it goes against everything her character is about, which is mostly: 

a) A tendency to think in the big picture, focussed on mainly the end result, especially on the temporal axis (”The nobility system has only existed for 1400 years”, “This is all part of the ebb and flow of history”, “This is the path that leads to the least casualties in the long run”)

She’s always playing the long game - so dealing with the Agarthans later (once the church is taken care of) is the same as dealing with them now. She never went against the church instead of them, she’s playing them against each other. 

b) A rejection of tradition as a reason to keep things the way they are

c) An emphasis on self-reliance and proactivity instead of surrendering yourself to your circumstances. See the speeches she gives to Petra and Lysithea. 

She generally believes in ppl’s agency, she gives everyone an out, and likewise her generals and the non-recruited ppl are all shown as believing in her cause (Something even Seteth notes) - they’re fighting to abolish hereditary Feudalism and clamp down on corruption. You’re fighting a bunch of people who wanna abolish Feudalism and Theocracy. 

Claude wants the same but he’s hiding it because he thinks he can avoid confrontations that way (There’s pros and cons to both their approaches, and I’m not saying that Dimitri or Seteth are bad, either, especially not in the context of the world they live in) 

She’s basically a Nietzschean Superman but in the original sense not the cheap bastardized version mixed up with pseudoscientific misunderstandings of evolution: Someone who proactively lives according to their own beliefs regardless of the mainsteam in greater society. 

And herein lies another factor, I think,like I’ve often noticed a tendency in modern fandom that people can’t seem to emphasize with anyone who isn’t in some way marked as an underdog -  Leading ppl to argue that characters who are definitely not underdogs like , say, Tony Stark, are definitely underdogs. 

Of course in reality things aren’t so simple that you could make a clean split into “underdogs” and “not underdogs” - Some ppl clearly demonstrably have it harder than others but ppl can have it hard in one way and have it easy in others. (Dimitri clearly struggles alot  - but he’s also a king. One doesn’t negate the other.)

There’s nothing wrong with underdog stories, they can be very inspiring and cathartic - but they shouldn’t be the only kinds of stories. 

Even the most powerful  can see themselves as victims because we’re all just squishy meatsacks who can still be hurt, and even the most powerless might see themselves as in-control if that helps them feel better. 

It also goes into the trolley problem and the human illogical tendency to view harm done through action as heavier than harm done through inaction. A tendency to not want to rock the boat, to confuse stability with peace. 

There’s no difference between harm done through action vs inaction. 

It’s at best, a failure of object permanence - to understand that things still happen and change even if you dont act  - and at worst selfish pride and ego (I want to keep MY hands clean I don’t care if people are suffering and dying as long as no one can say it’s my fault... the counterproductive puritanical idea of morality as “good person vs bad person”)

This leads to this attitude where if they can think of someone as a “victim” then it doesn’t matter what they do, because, after all, it was just circumstance, but the moment someone makes an active, deliberate choice, all empathy goes out the window and they’re held to some impossible standard. 

For the opposite extreme, see Dimitri (mind you I’m not saying he should be judged either im saying that mindlessly hating both is equally nonsensical... the dimitri haters are fewer but they do exist), or worse, Rhea... who regardless of her backstory has objectively been in a position of power and privilege for a literal thousand years.  You know Dedue and Seteth are right there? )

Something similar is to be said about ppl who call “bad writing” or “waifu-ism”, or consider her a “manchild” because she... opens up around people she trusts? Expresses relief when an ally validates her in a moment of self-doubt? Gets into comical situations in everyday life? That’s just kinda consequence of living in close-quarters with her. 

“How dare you not fit into “misguided victim” vs “ridiculous bitch” dichotomy don’t remind me that some character I don’t like is a human being” 

They pressed that any deviation from that is “ridiculous” or “extreme”. Tell me again that someone who’s consistently calm, collected and intellectually-inclined is a “manchild” for telling her closest ally that she would like to take a day off sometimes and liking stuffed animals.

I for once really like that she’s tough and proactive and makes decisions that really impact the plot without being a flat over the top amazonian stock character with no emotion other than “grrr! men dumb” which is then never taken seriously as a threat. 

Actually this part alone would not even preclude her from being a victim even Osama Bin Laden had a favorite color and liked disney movies. Hitler liked his dog. Stating this is just acknowledging simple facts, not saying that you should have sympathy for them (which for the record, you shouldn’t) - I think a work geared at ppl over 15 shouldn’t have to explicitly remind you that “this is an evil person” every time one shows up, people can distinguish for themselves, and those who can’t won’t be convinced by a video game. No one can “make” you like or empathize with a fictional chracter peeps. 

#edelgard von hresvelg #edelgard #fe3h #fire emblem: three houses #fire emblem three houses

[maggyme13]

You did WHAT?

AN: I know this is short, but i could not not write this when I read the Chat by @incorrectmcuquotes

Warnings: None

It was teambuilding-evening and Peter had the idea to play a game of two truths and a lie.

“So, everyone has to spill two truths and one lie and the others have to guess which is what? And the one with the most right guesses wins?”, Natasha asked one more time.

“Yes. FRIDAY will keep the count.”, the teenager grinned, exited that the other AVENGERS went along with his idea.

“Alright, I will start. I am Spiderman, I life with my aunt and i never ever skipped school because i had to do superhero stuff.”

“i thought it were two truths and a lie, Not three thruths.”, Sam mumbled.

“He isnt living with his aunt anymore. He just moved in onto the compount.”, Tony grinned, “First Point for me. Many more to come.”

“Alright, my turn.”, the black Widoiw grinned, “I can speak twelve languages, my favourite weapons are knives and I am an early bird,”

“I say it is the languages.”-“yeah, me too.”. the other mumbled.

“Are you shitting me? Nat hates to get up in the mornings. She nearly killed me with her nightstand knife twice, and that was only this week. Just because she is up early doesnt mean she likes it.”, Clint gruimbled, sending his friend an dark glance.

“YOu know not to wake me up..”, she shrugged, “though point for Clint.”

“Alright Buck, two truths and a lie.”

“ Alright. My eyes are green, I think Sam Wilson is a dick, and I’m the one that assassinated President John F Kennedy.”, the man in question stated without any emotions.

“ it’s gotta be a little harder than tha- “, Steve started but was interrupted by Sam.

“- his eyes are blue.”

Silence.

“you diD WHAT?”

“I killed JFK-? Come on. Don´t denie some of you already thought it was me. And don´t behave like i just killed your cat- you were still frozen when that happend.”

“Buck, for real, this is no joking matter. You really killed John F Kennedy, the decieced president of the United States?”, Cap asked, still in denial.

“Who else do you think would have been able to fight of that metal bending guy- mutant. What is his name again. Magneto?”, The former assassin said, almost sounding annoyed.

“OMG you fought THE Magneto? THat´s soooooo cooooool. Ned won´t belive this”“, the young teenager awed, but was silenced by a stern look of the first Avenger.

“Yes. Oh and Steve, you remember those brothers? I think one of them was named Logan. THey are still alive as well. Mutant and everything.”

“I can´t belive this-”, Cap mumbled, lookingg defeated.

“Yeah, strange right- they must be over 120 years old or so and they still look like they were 30- well him at least. Dont know what happend to his brother. And they weren´t frozen at all.”

“That´s not- I mean- you killed JFK, Buck.”

“OMG YOU KNOW WOLVERINE AS WELL- AND SABERTOOTH. I think i am going to faint. You just got sooooo much cooler Mr Barnes.”, Spiderman squeeled like the fanboy he was.

“And before you start. THe guy they got- was my handler for that. So at least they got the organization right. For me it was just another face. Another order. It could have been the Pope for all I know- just another Target of Hydra I had to take care of.”

“I- I am sorry Buck. I just need to get my head around this. I know it wasnt your desicion.”, the Captain sighted when he saw the look in his friends eyes.

“Soooo- who´s next?”

AN2.0: Thanks for reading and pls let me know what you think. I know it isnt long but  yeah.. :)

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[koboldgirltail]

since apparently you can get banned from tumblr for posting endgame spoilers instead of, yknow, actually being a reprihensible human shaped pile of SHIT, im going to trash this movie so fucking hard. ive been waiting for an excuse to rip this movie and its fan a new one

so basically it starts with tony stark being all emotional because hes dying in space but all the dramatic tension is removed because you already know hes going to live, and it’s also removed because tony stark is not a person people should feel emotional over. hes a pile of garbage given sentience, hes literally one of the worst characters in the mcu, which isnt saying a lot because any attempt by the writers and directors of the ACTUALLY GOOD MOVIES to make the characters interesting got flushed down the toilet in civil war and infinity war

so anyway captain marvel shows up, saves tony and nebula, then they make a plan to kill thanos because they found him. they find him, he says he destroyed the infinity stones, and thanos is dead 20 minutes into the movie. i applaud this choice because its actually genuinely funny. there are some parts of the movie that are enjoyable, and watching that purple scrotum chinned pile of refuse get his head chopped off was very enjoyable

then we move on to like 5 years later, scott lang aka antman finally comes out of the quantum realm or some shit, and thats when the seeds of time travel are planted. fun fact about time travel in this movie. it isnt like bill and ted time travel and it isnt like dbz time travel so it makes zero goddamned sense whatsoever. this is nothing new, time travel never makes any fucking sense, and trying to explain it will make even less sense than just fucking DOING the thing

anyway, they get the gang back together, hulk is now the unholy amalgamation of bruce banner and the hulk. he then dabs, blah blah blah, time travel bs, they get thor, hes fat now, his fatness is the focus of a lot of jokes that dont land and it just plays off like theyre making fun of fat people for being fat. his trauma is played for jokes, korg plays fortnite, blah blah blah.

so anyway while theyre Getting The Gang Back Together, tony has had a kid in the past 5 years. they really do a lot to humanize tony stark and the fact that he is happy with his current state in life where thanos won and hes trying to move on is very humanizing, which is odd considering that tony stark is a sub human pile of melted human waste

anyway, tony figures out time travel because they REALLY want him to be the hero instead of literally anyone else who is more deserving. they make stupid time travel suits which look ugly as shit and they wear over their normal costumes, which is really funny

the next like hour and a half of the movie plays out like a time travel comedy. tony and steve fuck up getting the space stone, they have to time travel AGAIN into steves past, he has an emotional moment seeing his former flame whose name i forgot because pretty much any mention of her past captain america 1 was to increase manpain. isnt fridging fun? speaking of fridging, they send clint and natasha to get the soul stone. because i said speaking of fridging, i assume youll be able to figure out the rest, but because i dont trust anyone who likes endgame to think critically about tropes, natasha dies so clint can get the soul stone. they really really REALLY could have done it the other way, but no, its not as emotional if a man dies for a woman or some bullshit. whatever, it was scarlett johansen so er character dying wasnt THAT much of a tragedy lmao

anyway everyone gets their stones, nebula gets captured by thanos of the past, and then a bunch of shit happens, new nebula from the past who still likes thanos brings him to the future, he starts going on and on and on about making a new universe and destroying this one. before that they make the infinity gauntlet, hulk snaps, brings everyone back, again... blah blah blah blah blah stupid shit that we all already knew was going to happen

anyway, thanos is back, because they REALLY didnt know how to introduce a villain that was good enough for this movie, whatever. they all go off to fight thanos, he beats thor captain america and tony stark up. the entire fight is 100% fanservice because as soon as other people show up from doctor stranges portals its a total EVERYONE IS HERE moment, which like. those are always enjoyable, every character from the past showing up to kick the bad guy in the dick. its a hard trope to fuck up and i congratulate the russo brothers for realizing this. captain america gets to hold mjolnir, he beats the shit out of thanos, thanos also gets to hold mjolnir, its just a giant 30 minute long fanservice party. everyone is here! blah blah i dont fucking care. anyway, the climax of the battle is thanos smacks spiderman out of the air while he has the new infinity gauntlet, he puts it on, and everyone starts making sure he doesnt snap. also captain marvels role in the movie is really really lame because she shows up for like the first 15 minutes, and then shows up for like the last 15 minutes. it fucking sucks, shes like the only good character in this entire movie.

anyway, tony steals the infinity stones, integrates them into his armor, snaps thanos and his buddies away, and then dies like a bitch. good riddance but also whatever, his death is treated like a totally emotional thing like hes redeemed himself even though hes basically done nothing to actually redeem himself except for killing thanos, which like, anyone could have done given the chance. it seriously pisses me off that they gave him the kill instead of someone who deserved it, like nebula. all signs were pointing to nebula and gamorrah from the past killing thanos, finally givng us some righteous feminine fury that this movie desperately needed. unfortunately, it doesnt happen. the battle is won, they have tonys funeral, and they remake the quantum time machine so they can let steve go back to return the infinity stones from whence they came. steve doesnt come back, and it looks like he got to live his full life like he wanted to, which i guess good for him because hes like one of the only good characters in the movie. seeing old man steve was nice, and he of all people deserved to be happy. the movie ends, everything is over, and i just wasted 3 hours and 10 dollars. congratulations me, you just wasted your life on a movie you knew you were going to hate.

anyway, whatever, tumblr ban me now, here’s my endgame spoilers. fuck you, and fuck you for banning people over shit like this instead of banning nazis and pedophiles.

#avengers endgame #movie critique #spoilers or whatever

[spelviin]

endgame thoughts, not because i think i have anything valuable to say abt it, more just bc i want to get my initial unsullied opinions out before various overly nitpicky or overly praisy internet thinkpieces come around

okay so. first of all, i’m tired to death of the way folks talk about the mcu. like, it’s either a godly feat of everything and the most important thing ever or the literal devil incarnate and the source of all evil in this world. i am literally so fucking bored of both these perspectives and have zero time for either of them. 

yes, the mcu is emblematic of a lot of problems in the current state of the film medium as a whole. yes, it is also a really cool feat of storytelling that a whole bunch of movies spanning a whole bunch of years could all come together and culminate in a big huge blowout finale. yes, it could have been far better, but yes, it also could have been far worse. 

i wasn’t a fan of thor being a punchline in this film. like, the whole “lol thor fat” thing was like, really tired and not cool. and the fact that his genuine moments of expressing grief and the significant trauma he’s been through were played off for laughs more often than not bc “lol thor supposed to be big many man but he’s crying like a wimpyboy instread.” like, fucking please. it’s 2019 and other male characters were allowed to be shown crying and processing their trauma but thor’s??? not allowed for some reason??? anyway they did him dirty in this movie and i’m not super pleased abt that. 

i didn’t like that they fridged natasha. i’m not a fan of scarjo so much these days, but i did like natasha. 2012 me adored her and was 100000% behind her as the Only Woman (despite being miffed that she was the Only Woman) and i really liked her character and redemption arc through the films that she appeared in. and like, i get the justification for fridging her. like i get that she was this assassin who killed a bunch of folks and in the end, not only wiped out the red in her ledger, but saved the whole damn universe in doing so. i get that. i’m just annoyed that they literally went and fridged the Only Woman to give the boys manpain before the third act. 

speaking of the ladies.... the One Scene Where Women Get To Do Things. my god. the critical feminist part of my mind greatly resented the obvious lip service of that scene, and the fact that the ladies only got the one shining moment before we got back to the sausage fest. but lord, the lesbian part of my mind hella enjoyed it. like i was legit bouncing in my seat like YESSSS FUCK EM UP LADIES i was just completely stoked. 

and my god. MY GOD CAN WE TALK ABOUT CAROL’S HAIRCUT AKA A GIFT TO THE LESBIANS. THIS MOVIE HAS MANY SINS BUT WE CAN ALL THANK IT FOR THAT HAIRCUT. (and again, feminist me is like, hey, dont focus on her appearance, focus on the important shit she did in singlehandedly turning the battle around for everyone, but lesbian lizard brain is hhhhhhhhhhhhh girl hot)

anyways. 2012 me was a month out of a major jaw surgery when i saw the first avengers, puffy faced, on heavy painkillers, and unable to eat any solid foods, and just generally weak and miserable. i dragged myself to the theatre and i smiled the whole way through that movie bc even though i was feeling super shitty, that 360 shot of the team made me so excited and happy. so happy that i watched and rewatched a bootleg download over what was probably the worst summer of my life, and it made me happy and gave me hope, dumb as that may sound. 

i havent watched the first avengers movie in a long time, and i’m not sure if i’d feel the same way seeing it now. remembering how it felt then still makes me happy, but seeing that same 360 shot repeated in endgame didnt stoke much emotion. tumblr fandom took a lot of my avengers joy away. the drama and character hate and constant complaining and cringe culture bullshit exhausted me. and the recent turns of the mcu also contributed to that. a lot of things contributed to it, i guess. but i dont feel as happy as i once did. so a lot of this movie rang a little bit hollow, needless to say. 

that being said, though, i did feel a little flicker of that joy. for all the movie’s and the franchise’s faults, of which there are many, i can say that the moment where all those portals opened up and the revived characters stepped though, i felt that happiness again. i legit almost cried when i saw shuri’s silhouette step out of that circle. that moment when the score came in with that booming version of the avengers theme, i was 2012 me again, just for a moment, and i think that’s worth something. to me, that’s worth something. so for all its sins, i thank the movie for that. 

this is rly rambly and im tired so im just gonna say 2 more things. things i’m not personally super invested in, but other people are, and so i feel i need to have an opinion on em.

first is bucky. i fucking adore him, and i am kinda miffed that he got like, no interactions with steve. i know steve/peggy is the canon ship, i knew it was always endgame (heh) and that stucky is just a fandom thing. but god damn it, even if they were never gonna have their relationship go there (which tbh i literally never even came close to expecting to happen) it still feels a little bit unfair to have steve basically ignore probably the most important person in his life. like, i know he wanted to live his happy straight life with peggy, and passing on the shield and identity of captain america to sam is super important, and i loved that moment and would never begrudge him that bc i adore sam. i was just... really sad that bucky had to get kinda shafted for that. (literally all i was saying in the last half hour was “but where’s bucky? but what about bucky?” our boy deserved better. 

second is tony. tony tony tony. i know folks have a lot of strong feelings about him, both ways. i know of folks who think he’s the scum of the earth for some dumb reason, and i personally know others who think the entire mcu should revolve around him, for equally dumb reasons. i’m more neutral. i think he’s a good character who made questionable decisions in the past. i feel for him and his struggles with PTSD. i respect him as a character in-universe and also for what he and RDJ accomplished. like, if he hadn’t hit it out of the park with that first movie like a fucking decade ago, none of this would have been possible, and i think that’s pretty damn cool, regardless of feelings on the monster juggernaut the mcu has turned into. basically, i know some folks are maliciously rejoicing at his death while complaining that he got a hero’s send-off when he is a Bad And Not Morally Pure Man, which is. boring. and other people (namely one who i know personally in my family) who are mad because he is an Angel and deserved the Best Happy Ending Because No Bad Things Are Allowed To Happen To This Perfect Boy. i’m not here for either opinion. i’m okay that he died (peter crying over him did get to me in a huge way, but i think tom holland just has a power that if he’s crying, i’m crying so idk). i think it’s cool that he got to save everyone and got a heroic and well deserved send off. this isnt a revolutionary opinion i just wanted to throw it out there bc im bored with the polarization. 

and... yeah? i think that’s it? sorry, im really tired and this probs doesn’t make sense but i just felt like i had to get the initial reactions and feelings down before the thinkpieces get to me lmao. 

oh, also nebula deserved better 2kforever i just love her a lot and want her to be happy and not suffer, kthxbye 

#og #a4 spoilers #spoilers #endgame spoilers #avengers spoilers #avengers endgame spoilers #do you think i've tagged this thoroughly enough yet? #this is legit just boring and nonsensical rambling sorry

[guileheroine]

my scattered endgame impressions!

- must preface: i have major fatigue with this franchise at this point despite having caught the genuine mcu flu now and again. although this movie was obviously an emotional ride, i’ve kinda gotten of the train

- plot DRAGS, bloated in that very franchise blockbuster way we’ve come to hate. stretched too thin, too repetitive (esp considering infinity war) could actually have done with more convolution in a way? more than just repeat hammers on a veryy flimsy take on time travel 

- ^like that they chose to focus on character stuff instead which ig explains the above but doesn’t help enough. lotr did the 3hr runtime better

- likewise relies too much on the self-referential/easter eggy for the story and character beats, but i feel like that’s more appropriate here given the premise, meta and story wise, than in the last 10 movies that they’ve used The Brand to carry (basically it doesn’t stand on its own or offer anything new that isn’t pointing and winking at stuff that’s come before, but unlike before that indulgence is warranted in a sendoff like this)

- my fav callback is the stuff around the cap elevator scene, bc its my favourite moment of the avengers (2012) when all this wasn’t an exhausting hype monster and made my heart full in an uncomplicated way

- in essence i loved what reminded me of what i loved

- related, i guess the saving grace for me personally is that the aspects of the mcu i’m invested in are to my liking here, catws crew feel true to character (whatever sins the russos have committed since i’m glad steve & natasha’s final call was in their hands)

-...until the steve going back thing. i’m sorry but if i could shove the nonsensical time travel bs to the side before i couldn’t here. there’s some superficial emotional resonance which is better than some things but it just... breaks everything. old steve hangin in this universe - discarding the wrench it retroactively throws in ALLL plot stuff, it just undermines the excellently poignant thing of him having to adjust to the modern world. now he’s x10 less interesting

- but still like i actually remember that i love natasha, and a lot!!! i cried when she died. clintasha gooooood.

- and the other scene where i cried was the samsteve taking up the mantle. >:’3

- idk how much of the nuance of the hawkangst subplot is on cutting room floor but its too much. yeah i am not entirely comfortable w him chopping up mexicans and japanese especially when it isn’t even clear what kind retribution thing this meant to be

-by GOD it needed more tchalla (and bucky and sam) so they better run the show in the future

- there’s a grrl power shot of all the female characters which is tacky as hell. extremely jarring. they don’t know each other!

- rly sucks how they’ve neglected and reduced the serious and substantial character of bruce banner over the years. he wasn’t as comic reliefy as i feared but you’d forget he’s one of the 6

- captain marvel was very poorly integrated with no payoff but more importantly her hair. lesbian

- tony’s death was sad but too much of a given to be that impactful and i’m so desensitised to his schtick at this point just bc sheer exposure, i’m glad they can spend their budget and screentime on things other than rdj now

- liked the bits with his daughter bc at least that’s a new note

- i wanna know if steve has kids?

- thor. so sad. i have a renewed appreciation for ragnarok tho i dont love that movie as much as everyone else

- the ‘gay rep’ is like whatever. an afterthought. more annoying that they even think theyre like Providing Anything with this but does it even bear stating at this point

- glad it’s over. wanna do a top 5 at some point

#endgame spoilers #wrote this on my phone last night was too sleepy to format #*

[highoffsweets-blog]

Fire: Reader • Sweet Pea

She felt his stare burning behind behind her head, it was a few weeks since the Southsiders joined Riverdale High. Sweet Pea wouldn’t leave Y/n alone. Every chance he got he would find a new way to torment her, he loved watching her erupt into anger yelling at him.

She noticed he always stares at her either in class or in the lunch room even in the halls. His eyes always found hers. Everytime she would catch his stare, she rolled her eyes at his stupid smirk.

Sweet Pea took a liking to her, he found out she wasn’t the typical Northside Sweetheart that roamed around these halls. She wasn’t scared of him, and he liked that. They were in a lot of the same classes, Sweet Pea always found a way to spark her fuse.

They were both in English together, Y/n desperately wanted to run out not wanting to wait for what remark Sweet Pea had to say to her. It was bad enough he was burning holes through the back of her head.

“You know staring isn’t nice.” She turned around and snapped at him, her tone bitter as usual.

He just smirked at her, he knew he could get under her skin just by looking at her. “What are you going to do about it.” He whispered leaning forward so that only she could hear his words. She shuttered as his lips grazed the tops of her right ear.

Sweet Pea lowly chuckled, a small smirk placed on his lips as he leaned back knowing he made her shutter under his touch. It was a small win for him.

For the rest of class Sweet Pea lightly tugged at her hair. He knew the fire was burning in her, he wanted her to cause a scene again.

It took only one more tug until she finally had enough. Her knuckles were clenched at her sides, but they soon met the steel table causing a loud bang to distribute through the class.

“For fuck sakes!” She mumbled enough for everyone to hear as she collected her belongings.

Her peers looked at her, if looks could kill they all would be dead. She rose out of her seat and left, Sweet Pea’s smirk reached from ear to ear.

He knew he was the only one who could get her to act like that, sure she’s said sassy and fiery remarks before, but no one has ever made her leave class because of it.

He loved the fact that he could get her riled up in just a few minutes. He quietly followed her out the door, Y/n heard the door of the classroom shut as she was walking down the hall.

She groaned knowing it was the six foot bastard who pissed her off. “Leaving so soon?” He said, making Y/n turn hot on her heels.

Her hips swiftly swayed as she angrily looked at at him. He towered over her by at least a foot and a half, yet she wasn’t scared of him. “I dont know what kind of game you think you’re playing,” Her eyes burning deeply into his, he just laughed at her waiting for her to continue another one of her rants.

Y/n was completely enraged, she was more pissed at the fact that she let him get to her so easily.

Her finger was now pressed against his chest, she felt his muscles tense underneath his shirt. “But you’re not gonna win.” She hissed pushing past his shoulder harshly which took him back a little as you were normally harsh with your words rather than your movements.

She rolled her eyes storming off in annoyance as she sauntered down the halls. Sweet Pea watched her move down the halls, her jeans sculpted her ass which made Sweet Pea devilishly smirk as dirty thoughts filled his head.

He was glad he pushed her over the edge today, he loved watching her leave mainly because he loved watching her ass move furiously.

Y/N let out a groan as she was faced with no other than Betty and Veronica. “Y/N are you okay?” They asked looking at her with concern in their eyes.

She snickered visciously throwing her backpack into one of the chairs. “I hate that stupid smug smirk on that jack ass Serpents face,” She mumbles her hands thrown up in the air as she ranted to her friends. “I can’t come to your party if he’s going to be there V.” She said throwing her hands up once more.

Veronica and Betty both gave each other looks, they knew why he was doing it. It was so obvious to them, but to Y/N it was not. Sweet Pea has a thing for Y/N that’s the only reason why he bothers her so much.

Betty had a toothy grin on her face as she sat next to her flushed friend, “Do you think maybe he keeps doing this to you because he likes you?” She asked her as Veronica nodded her head in agreement.

Y/n growled shooting up on her feet. “No, he doesn’t like me. He likes to torment people that’s what he does.” She snickered at her friends idle comment.

“V, no offense, but i’m not coming to your party if he’s there.” She said throwing her hands up once again sighing because this boy was driving her crazy.

Veronica rolled her eyes at you, “Y/N, look how ridiculous you sound. When have you ever turned down a party?” She was right, Veronica knew how to calm her friend down. She was just as hotheaded as the Serpent who wouldn’t leave her alone.

Betty made a mission to find Toni and Jughead knowing that Y/n was hot headed right now.

Shortly, she found them talking to each other at his locker. Betty slammed his locker shut locking eyes with both of them. “Sorry guys, but it kinda urgent.” She smiled slyly at the two Serpents looking at her like she has five heads.

Jug held a deep concern in his eyes worrying if soemthing had happen to her. She laughed at him, “Not me Jug, we need to talk about Y/N and Sweet Pea.” As soon as the two names rolled of her tongue Toni’s questioning look turned into a smirk.

“No seriously, Y/N doesn’t want to come because of him.” Betty sighed as she wanted Y/N to enjoy their night ahead.

Both Jughead and Toni smirked a little, they were well aware of Sweets fondness of Y/n.

“She stormed out of her class because of him. And she said if he’s there tonight at Veronica’s she wouldn’t come and you know she never misses out on free booze, Jughead.” Betty stated the obvious.

Jughead sighed rubbing the back of his neck, he knew Y/N loved parties she was always the center of attention at them. She had this incredible energy when she has a fun night out with her friends.

Betty touched his shoulder and looked at Toni, “Can you guys please ask him to lay off of her just for tonight?” She asked with pleading eyes. “I suppose we could make that happen.” Toni said giving Betty a tight squeeze on the shoulder before heading towards the lunch room.

Toni grinned, “Just the man we were looking for.” Toni said as the two boys approached her and Jughead.

Fangs pointed at himself while Sweet Pea scoffed, “I hope you weren’t pointing to me Topaz.” He said harshly, his dark eyes not being able to scan Y/N through the crowd.

“Well a certain someone doesn’t want to go to Veronica Lodges party because of you.” He removed his eyes from the crowd and eyed Toni.

Fangs laughed instantly knowing who, “What you mean Sweet’s girl ,Y/N.” Sweet Pea hit his shoulder hard enough to leave a bruise to form.

“Not my girl Fogarty.” He snapped, Toni rolled her eyes and nudged Jughead for support. “Can you just lay off of her for one day Sweet Pea please.” Jughead asked the intimidating Serpent in front of him.

Sweet Pea gave him a wicked smile, “Where’s the fun in that Jones.” He snickered at him tossing a fry in his mouth.

Toni sent him a harsh look, “Leave the poor girl alone just for the night Pea. You’re clearly giving her a hard time because you like her.” She smirked as Sweet Pea shifted uncomfortably in his seat.

He could fool anyone else, but Toni. She knew Sweet Pea was doing it because he liked Y/N. He didn’t have a way with his emotions, but he showed it through his teasing words to her.

Fangs laughed at Toni’s statement which only earned him a glare from his bestfriend.

He rolled his eyes trying to shrug the warm feeling in his stomach when they mention her name and spat, “I do not like the Northside chick.”

“Whatever you say, Sweets. Promise me you’ll lay off of her.” Toni said with pleading eyes, he knew Topaz would go on until he agreed. “Yeah Pea, your lucky she hasn’t tried to murder you yet.” Jughead butted in. Sweet Pea laughed, “She couldn’t harm a fly.” He insisted, but he knew that wasn’t true you were filled with just as much rage as he was.

Jughead tapped his tray knowing that if Sweet Pea angered Y/N tonight she would most likely throw her drink on him. “If I were you I sure wouldn’t get on her bad side tonight, she she’s drunk she has no remorse.” He said lighting a spark in Sweet Pea’s eyes.

Hell he wanted to test her limits to the fullest, he wanted her so riled up by him tonight. Toni saw the mischievous look in his eyes and grabbed his face harshly.

She needed him to behave tonight especially with all the Northsiders being there tonight. “Back off of her tonight, I mean it Sweet Pea or maybe i’ll just tell her that you like her.” Her words shocked him, the venom in her voice she meant every word she said.

He swatted Toni’s arms away and stood up towering over them. “Fine.” He sneered picking up his keys and walking out the door.

~~~~~~~~

Betty and Veronica squealed with excitement knowing that Y/N was done being stubborn. They were looking through Veronica’s closet before the party started.

“You know he’s still coming Y/N.” She dripped the clothes in her hand and made a face.

Her friends lied to her, they said he wasn’t coming. Her fists clenched and threw Veronica’s heel into the bed frame leaving a dent in it.

The one night she wanted to let loose she couldn’t. She knew she was in for a long night knowing that the cocky serpent wouldn’t leave her alone even for a minute. “Are you fucking kidding me.” She screamed, grabbing her hair.

Betty stepped forward and touched her shoulder gently. “Y/N, relax. I talked to Jughead he said he wouldn’t bother you for the night.”

She sarcastically laughed, “I need a drink.” Veronica walked into her closet pulling out a bottle of Vodka. “You know I was saving this for a good night and looks like it’s tonight.” She said handing her the bottle.

Y/N took a shot without any hesistance, the burning sensation mellowed her thoughts. “Thanks.” She said taking another swig out of the bottle.

Veronica laughed, she knew just what you needed for tonight. She walked over to her closet pulling out a lace body suit with a leather skirt and fishnets. “Let’s show him you can’t be messed with Y/N.” She smirked throwing her the scandalous outfit.

Y/N loved it, she knew it wasn’t a night to let some Southside asshole ruin her night. She took another sip of the liquor before giving her hair a wavy appearance and a smoky, contoured look to her face.

She felt powerful and confident in her outfit and in herself. She was going to show the Serpent she was not to be messed with.

Y/N finished a quarter of the bottle, her body felt warm as the liquid hit her core. “Slow down there tiger, party hasn’t started yet.” Veronica said taking the bottle away from Y/N as she whined at her to give it back.

She sighed if she had this long night she wanted to make sure she had a good time. So out of instinct she texted Reggie asking him to bring her some weed and coke for the party.

Reggie and Y/N used to be really good friends back Freshamn and Sophomore year. They use to attend almost every upperclassman party, the drugs and the alcohol began to be a huge part of their friendship until Reggie started football again. She got a response almost instantly from Reggie saying that he’ll take care of you for tonight.

She smirked to herself, he was done making a fool out of her in the halls and at school. Sweet Pea was in for it tonight.

The party shortly began mostly Northsiders showing up first. The music began to pick up as more people came. Y/N interacting with her peers holding a red solo cup as she talked. Stepping in and out of the dance floor constantly to refill her cup full of booze.

She felt good, she was a little tispy already, but not enough to give her the courage she needed for later. She sauntered around scanning the room when she locked eyes with the him, he smirked at her and gave her a little wave before returning to his conversation with Fangs.

She rolled her eyes annoyed already, she stormed to the dance floor in desperation to find at least one of her friends. However, Ronnie and Betty were nowhere to be found. She felt a tap on her shoulder as she roamed the room looking for her friends.

She turned around ready to snap at who touched her, “Oh,” She let out a soft breathe realizing it was just Reggie. She flashed him one of her toothy smiles, “I got the stuff.” He said motion to his jacket pocket, this made Y/N smile.

She grabbed Reggie’s hand and took him to the bar. “I think i’m going to need more to drink first.” She smirked at her friend who had a playful look in his eye. She knew Reggie would be the perfect assistance for her plan for later.

Reggie watched Y/N pour shots for them, he couldn’t help but notice how good she looked tonight. “Here,” She said handing him five shots , downing one as she gave him her first.

“What no toast first,” He winked at her gulping down the harsh taste that filled his mouth. She just laughed, few more shots later Y/N was ready to dance.

She dragged Reggie away from the bar, she looked back as she took his hand and saw Sweet Pea shooting daggers at Reggie.

She smirked, she knew he would be watching her the whole night. She might as well entertain herself, if she had to deal with his constant staring.

The music picked up and her hips started moving quickly against Reggie’s. His hand placed a little too close on her thigh to be called friends, but she didn’t care she was drunk now.

The music let her escape the stress, she danced like no one was watching. She pressed her hips further into Reggie’s, grabbing his hand for support as she picked up her movements and started heavily grinding on him.

He pushed her backside down, letting her ass drop up and down on his body. She was incredible to watch. Sweet Pea was watching his knuckles were turning white, his face began to get flustered.

He hated watching her dance with Reggie, she danced on him like she was on a fucking stripper pole. He didn’t like the fact that his hand was creeping up her skirt, that only angered him more when she let him do it.

His jaw was locked his eyes held a fire in them that no one saw before. Fangs noticed him tensing up watching Y/N dance, he knew his friend developed a crush on the girl he’s been taunting. Hell that’d why he did it in the first place, it’s the only way he knew how to get someone’s attention by being sarcastic and harshly taunting them with his words.

“Dude, relax.” He said to Sweet Pea, his friend just downed his drink and went to get another one hoping that when he came back she would be off of the dirtbag behind her.

He couldn’t take his eyes off of her the moment he saw her in the crowd. She looked sinful, the lace accenting her curves on her body, the tight skirt made her ass look impeccable and the tights, the fishnets sent Sweets over the edge.

He loved the way she looked tonight, he wanted her for himself. He watched her ass moving aggressively with Reggie, his eyes locking on hers as she smirked.

His eyes were filled with rage, once he saw you whisper something in his ear and the both of you disappeared. He crushed the red solo cup in his hand as he couldn’t see her angelic face anymore.

He roughly grabbed a bottle of Vodka and went back to Fangs. Taking a heavy gulp from the bottle then grunted, “I’m going for a smoke.”

Y/N snorted a line the rush filled her head, it wasn’t enough to sober her up, but it worked its course. She didn’t want to over do it, but Reggie encourage her to take another line.

They were alone in the bathroom, she took another line tilting her head back closing the other nostril letting the substances take over her body.

She didn’t want to be with Reggie anymore, she needed to find him. “Reggie, I’m going to fill my cup up again want anything.” She stammered, coming closer to Reggie.

“I’m good Y/N, but here take this you’ll need it.” He said handing her a lighter and the joint knowing she wasn’t going to come back. It was typical Y/N at a party, getting what she wants and leaving. But he didn’t care, he wanted her to have a good time just like old times.

She scanned the crowd, he was nowhere in sight. She groaned mentally, she stumbled her way over to the dark brunette. “So,” She slurred to Fangs, feeling confident as ever.

Fangs was taken back by her presence, her breathe smelt like alcohol. He smirked at her, she knew exactly what she wanted and she was going to find him.

“Where’s your friend, googly eyes.” Her poor choice of words made the Serpent laugh, but instead of laughing with him she snickered.

She didn’t understand why her question was funny.

Fangs scanned her up and down, he mentally noted that Sweet Pea was in for it. “Outside for a smoke.” He said pointing to the back door, she smirked.

Pulling out the joint and lighting it in front of the Serpent, she looked at him and whispered in his ear. “Looks like i’m going to have to join him.”

Fangs was surprised by Y/N, she did not look like the type that smoked. She drug the joint between her red lips, and blew it slowly watching Fangs watch her movements carefully.

She decided it was time, she headed towards the door swiftly. Only lightly stumbling because her thigh highs were killing her.

The warmth of the liquor vanished her body as she stepped outside. She looked around before finding the Serpent slumped against the wall dragging a cigarette from his perfectly plumped lips.

She shivered slightly, she walked confidently to the Serpent. She stood over Sweet Pea this time taller than him, he just looked her up and down before that devilish smirk appeared.

He watched her intensely as she pressed the joint to her lips, seductively. He licked his lips, her red stained lips looked so smooth and inviting.

Her legs were now straddled over him, she felt him tense up beneath her. She looked him in his deep, mysterious eyes and took the cigarette from his lips and placed it between her own.

The smoke escaped her lips and into her nostrils as she blew it in his face. “Couldn’t handle a Northside party?” She smirked, his eyes trailing to her legs.

She noticed he was taking in her appearance instead of looking at her face. She grunted and shifted upwards, causing the slightest friction between her and Sweet Pea.

He knew she was drunk, the way she stumbled out here to find him made his heart flutter. She was looking for him. She grabbed his face harshly, “Look at me when i’m talking to you.” She said angrily.

[peterparkuh]

Die for you → peter parker

Inspired by: Die For You by The Weeknd.

Synopsis: you and peter are secretly dating against your legal guardian— tony stark’s, rules. One night you had an intense fight with peter about whether or not the sneaking around was worth it. Then the next morning Tony asks peter to help you in the training facility which leads to a tension filled and intense training session in which peter admits he would die for her if he had to which leads to some interesting... uh training.

Warning: some uh sexual tension, mentions of death, making out

Peter parker x reader (your dad being tony stark),, fluff and sexual tension!

part one | part two

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“Admit it, Peter, you hate this! All of this sneaking around!” You shouted at him in your room your eyes stinging with tears.

Peter looked helplessly at you, he desperately wanted to wipe the tears from your eyes and kiss you repeatedly till you understood he didn’t care about the sneaking around he just wanted to be with you, but that’s not what he said.

“Y/n, we have to sneak around... you know tony— your dad, wouldn’t let us be together... you don’t think it’s worth it?” He asked hurt in his eyes as the last few words came out.

“No of course I do! But peter... this sneaking around? Acting like you’re nothing more than an acquaintance, you don’t get how much it hurts when you come back from missions with my dad and I can’t just run into your arms and kiss the living daylights out of you for coming back alive. It hurts so fucking much, peter. I want to be with you, I really want to be with you... but maybe. Maybe it’s just not meant to be. It just... feels like the world is putting us against each other.” You paused feeling the electrical currrents running through your hand threatening to come out as you had your hands down in fists by your sides.

You were born with superpowers, but as far as you knew your parents were both humans, so you hid your abilities. Till one night a robber snuck into your house when you were twelve. Your parents hid you behind them as they tried to reason with the man as he had pulled out a gun. But it was too late, he shot them both, leaving you sobbing as you dropped screaming for your dad who seemed already gone... you turned to the floor holding your mom who was bleeding out in your arms as she breathed her last few breaths. The man began to ransack your house till the anger took you over and you let the build up of emotions trigger your powers causing large bolts of lightning to shoot through your hands as you screamed. The man instantly fell to the floor as did you onto your knees from the lack of energy. Your mothers eyes widened witnessing the whole thing. Crying you made your way to her as you quickly spoke up, “I’m so sorry... mommy, just stay with me, the ambulance is on their way okay.”you repeated desperately till she shook her head, “I love you, y/m/n, and I’m sorry babygirl.” She whispered just barely getting it out when her eyes closed one last time.

They were pronounced dead later that night, but terrified before the police could question you, you ran. A few days later you were hidden in an alleyway when tony stark approached you and the rest was history.

He took you in, fostering you, and training you to control your powers.

Even though the papers stated only Tony was your father— each of the avengers felt like family members. You were extremely lucky to have each of them even though they weren’t always appreciative of your remarks.

You were fourteen when a fifteen year old boy named peter parker came into the picture, he began as quick crush seeing as he was the only boy around you but even so you knew in a crowd full of guys to potentially crush on, it would always be peter.

However, you never let him know that.

Teasing him when he was so formal with your foster dad, occasionally mocking him and making witty remarks to him to hide how your heart would break every time he left and you didn’t know where he was.

Till one night... you let it show, just after a large battle he’d participated in and came back all bruised up.

You hadn’t heard from him or any news about his well-being in days so you were terrified so when he arrived back to your house to see tony, you couldn’t help it. You immediately ran to him pulling him into a quick hug. “Jesus Christ, Parker, where have you been? Never scare me like that again.” You spoke into the crook of his neck.

To say he was shocked, was an understatement as he felt your small arms wrapped around his body. But he responded quickly by letting his arms wrap around you— your scent engulfing him making him smile, god how he had missed your witty remarks.

He knew it wasn’t right to be crushing on Mr. Starks adopted daughter but how could he not? He thought you were beautiful and strong and so smart... he truly liked you, not that he’d ever admit it considering it sounded like you thought of him like a friend or even worse a brother the way you teased him.

But that night pulling out of the hug your eyes locked as your eyes then dropped to his lips and before you knew it your hands were on his neck pulling him in for a passionate kiss. He instantly kissed back till he groaned so you pulled back confused, “I uh have a bruise there... sorry.” He spoke blushing which made you laugh as you went back in for another kiss this one gentler.

Then all of the sudden he pulled back again... “wait so you...like me?”

You blushed instantly and rolled your eyes, before pulling back completely taken in what you had done. Broken Tony’s number one rule, getting involved with a superhero that would put your life at risk and theirs constantly. “I uh... shouldn’t have done that. I’m sorry.” You said realizing just how difficult that would have been.

“Oh...” he had spoken looking down dissapointed. “So you dont?”

“No, I-“ you spoke before pausing to take a breath, “yes peter parker. I like you. how could I not, peter? You’re an incredible guy... smart, strong, kind, I just couldn’t help it... don’t let any of this go to your head though, your egos big enough as it is.” You spoke Which had made him laugh as he rolled his eyes then a confident smirk showed up on his lips making your brows furrow.

“What?” You had asked confused.

“Y/n Stark has a crush on me.” He had spoken confidently, making you roll your eyes. “Shut up. You know my dad would have your head on a stick and then take a picture and frame it if he ever found out we were dating.” You let slip out which made Peter’s brows go up.

“We’re dating?” He had asked with a cheeky smile making you blush and stumble over your words, “sorry I meant uh... um, we don’t have to. But if you want to-“

“Y/N,”

“I didn’t mean to suggest or anything but...”

“Y/N!”

“Hmm?”

“I would love to date you.”

At first what you both had started out as innocent hanging out which Tony Stark saw out as normal. But both of you being growing teenagers... things would at times end up being more then just a movie night.

It was a few months before peter actually asked you to be his girlfriend, which commenced the sneaking around you both hated so much. You both were only teenagers now being sixteen and seventeen, and you desperately hated hiding things from the people you loved but your relationship was so incredible that it was too hard to risk it.

However, Peters enhanced senses it was like everything else was heightened, even for you. Especially your fights, just like the one you were currently having...

“What are you saying?” Peter asked hurt in his eyes as he was terrified of what you’d say next.

“Maybe we shouldn’t-“ you started, tears about to come out of your eyes when the door opened and Tony walked in and as a reflex peter webbed him to the doorknob of your room.

“Oh sh-, sorry, Mr. Stark. I was just leaving, here let me help you.” He spoke frantically trying to distract himself from what you were about to say.

“Um okay, well it’s good you’re both here, I was wondering if you would mind training Y/N tomorrow in the sparring room, she needs help with her combat.”

“Oh um...” peter spoke looking over at you noticing your eyes were on the floor brimming with tears that you hid well.

“Do we use our powers in sparring?”

“No, just work on pure physical contact. You need to learn not to rely on them.” Tony explained making you wince at the words, pure physical contact.

Peter just agreed and tony eventually look to you, “you up for that, Y/N?l”

You just nodded giving a small smile before you turned to your bed as tony and peter walked out, peter glancing back at you one last time the look on his face literally hurting you.

The next morning, you appeared at training. Your h/c hair braided back. You wore a tight tank top that you normally wore for training and some workout shorts.

You were dreading this more than anything.

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part two will be up very soon :) I wanted to make this one post but tumblr claims I hit the max... oops

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[spideys-pack]

Death(s) in Infinity War??!!

My purely speculative ideas on what might happen to our heroes.. I hope none of it happens but in my mind, it’s possible.. Lets hope no one actually meets these fates.. 

I don’t hate any of these characters, unless I state so, I don’t mean any beef with anyone because again, these are just ideas that have been bouncing around my head since the trailer was leaked.. I thought I might as well let my thoughts out instead of letting them consume me at 5am or while I'm trying to take a relaxing shower. 

They aren’t in like a countdown order either, I just need to number them because you know... OCD. I DO SWEAR SO BEWARE IF YOU DONT LIKE THAT. Now, without further stalling. Lets get to it. 

1. Vision

Vision is probably on everyone’s lists because of the same reason which is an Infinity Stone literally being in his face. Thanos needs the Infinity Stones to complete his gauntlet. Considering the Mind Stone has the biggest spot on the gauntlet, perhaps it gives him the most power? Anyways, I think Thanos will want to take the stone from Vision and I’m willing to bet like my left big toe that he wouldn't be gentle about it and Vision wouldn't be able to survive the process. That’s why he’s on my list. 

2. Wanda Maximoff / Scarlet Witch

As much as I hate to put Wanda on my list, it seems likely and makes sense that she could die or get seriously injured during Infinity War. Why? Because she may still be harbouring guilt over what happened in Lagos in Civil War. Yeah she did say to Vision that she couldn't control everyones fear and seemed to have accepted that she had made a mistake but I can’t help feel like because this is Wanda, one of the sweetest little smol beans in the MCU, she still feels bad about it and would die trying to prove to people that she is one of the good guys. That or her other most likely cause of death is trying to protect Vision from Thanos and dying in the process. I would honestly hate to see Wanda get hurt let alone die. 

3. Drax The Destroyer 

Everyone loves Drax and if you say you don’t you’re lying. But if you genuinely mean it... We can’t be friends. Perhaps everyone thinks Drax is going to die in Infinity war. Due to the fact that since the first Guardians movie he has been out for revenge for the death/killing of his family. That has been majority of his story arc. At first, he thought the killer and target was Ronan, the Accuser but in the first Guardians he declares Thanos the “real mission” after finding out Ronan was acting under his orders. Although Drax did literally punch Thanos’ heart out in one storyline, I feel like Marvel/the MCU won't let him get away with it and survive. I have a feeling they might kill one Avenger and one Guardian so each team has a reason to fight for one another or remain allies after the war. Drax will probably be the one to kill Thanos. That’s very likely. (But between you and I, I kind of hope it’s Nebula. After years of him shitting on her, I hope she seriously gets a few licks in or honestly fucks him up). Though he’ll probably be the one to do the deed, Drax will probably die doing it. This way, Marvel gets their victory and Drax gets his vengeance and doing so, is reunited with his family. But also saving his friends doing so. Making him not just Drax the Destroyer, but Drax the Hero. 

4. Nick Fury

I know this one seems kind of far fetched, I mean I pitched it to one of my friends and she looked at me like I had sprouted a second head. Just hear me out though... So, basically The Avengers have broken up that’s obvious. 

Side note: (For Friends fans...) It would be funny if like Cap or someone that got arrested because of Tony and his team brought it up and Tony just goes “We were on a break!” I would literally cackle myself into an early grave.. 

With the Avengers at odds, what could possibly bring them all together again emotionally more than physically? The death of Director Fury. I mean it worked for the first Avengers movie when Agent Coulson “died”. Since Fury has roots with pretty much all the Avengers, they may feel a need to unite to avenge Fury as well as protect the Earth but as a team. Marvel sometimes reuses plot ideas, perhaps they would do it for this one? Plus, Nick Fury is a fan favourite and it would no doubt have a very big emotional impact not only in the MCU but with the fans as well. 

5. Thor 

Now I would honestly rather rip my own intestines out of my ass than see Thor die. He’s one of my favourite characters from the MCU. He had the potential to be such a bruiting, tough guy character but instead we get our version and I couldn't be more in love with him. I mean this guy is literally a Norse God and he’s sitting there in his trailer telling Hulk/Bruce about how he “So much has happened since I last saw you! I lost my hammer like, yesterday so that’s still pretty fresh.” Like this guy is literally huge and I love that he’s not serious. “Did I win?” “No. I won. Easily.” I was laughing the whole trailer. Just fyi. Anyways, enough about my crush on Thor...

I hate to think that we could lose Thor. But, his death makes too much sense. The Thor movies don't make as much as the others (Cap, Iron Man). After Ragnarok, The Thor movies are done. Ragnarok ends his individual storyline. The movie also brings Asgard into the war. It’s likely Marvel will kill off Thor because they had even said they wanted to switch up the Avengers team line up, and getting rid of Thor who is one of the strongest could prompt the Avengers to recruit not one but multiple heroes to fill his place. My theory us sadly also backed up by the fact that Thor/Chris Hemsworth is not yet confirmed for the following Avengers or Marvel movies. Perhaps he has signed a contract and they’re keeping it under raps because they know we look into that shit but that could also be my wishful thinking... 

6. Tony Stark / Iron Man 

*Collective gasps from the crowd* 

No, but seriously Marvel loves to build us up but then (hulk)smash us down. Think about how involved and intertwined Tony is with the whole MCU. He’s such a big character and he does a lot for the heroes. Plus, Marvel has launched a comic reboot storyline where Iron Man is now an Iron WOman. And let’s be honest, everyone is crawling over each other to get media attention over being supportive of women/races/LGBTQ... So, they would most likely kill Tony to bring in Riri Williams. Not only will this get them even more media coverage BUT it also allows them to send a huge shockwave throughout the MCU. With Tony being at odds with Cap and most of the Avengers, and him having a son-like figure in his protege, Peter Parker... He has people to leave behind and mourn in other movies. Tony Stark’s death would change the MCU a lot. But maybe too much? I’m still iffy on this one. 

7. Natasha Romanoff / Black Widow

There’s no denying that Nat is a fan favourite. She’s also just about as much interweaved with the MCU as Tony. Appearing in several films, she is a huge supporting character but as much as we try, she's a supporting character and is in a group with heroes like Vision and Hawkeye where they are the most likely not to get stand alone films. She seems to always play a big role in the victory of the team we’re supposed to root for, An example would be when she helps Steve and Bucky get passed T’Challa in Civil War. 

Side note: I would love to link this to the fact that Bucky and Natasha have a history. In the Comics that is, it isn't canon in the movies but I would also like to link Nat saying “You could at least recognize me” to Bucky in Civil War to that as well. Considering Nat and Bucky were romantically involved briefly, that could be an interesting arc considering whatever she has/had with Bruce. Either way, I would love Red Room flashbacks or even a movie... 

It seems likely that Nat could get killed trying to help everyone with the war. Considering she is one of the team members who doesn't have powers... Thanos could easily, and regrettably rag doll the shit out of everyones favourite red head. 

8. Bruce Banner / The Hulk

MARVEL. FUCKING. WOULD. 

They would take Bruce “I know, I tried” away from us. One of Marvel’s biggest hard-hitters who also needs to be protected at all costs. For as long as he’s been in the MCU, Hulk has been seen as the tank. “We have a Hulk”. Perhaps during the Infinity War, our heroes over estimate Bruce and he goes up against Thanos and ends up dead because of it. 

9. Thanos 

Marvel has a tendency to kill off their villains before they necessarily should. I admit, I haven't even met MCU’s Thanos and I already want this mother fucker to get dropped but I would also love to see Marvel develop a villain. The only villain(s) they’ve really developed are Loki and The Winter Soldier and majority of us would argue that these two are not villains. They are pretty much the only two however who have been on the opposing side of our heroes and survived to come back and/or develop. Loki jumps back and forth between good and evil and Bucky was never truly evil, he was brainwashed. The other ones like The Red Skull and Obadiah Stane/War Monger die in fiery explosions before we even get to experience their full story. Although we spend most of their movies hoping and wishing for it. I just hope Marvel gives Thanos enough time to develop outside of the post-credit scenes before the Avengers and Guardians eventually bring him down, if they even do that in Infinity War. 

10. Steve Rogers / Captain America

The thought of losing Cap really hurts, especially since he just got his bestie Bucky back. Although we all know this is going to happen. Chris Evans has been reported saying that he has indeed signed one more contract with Marvel after reading it over and feeling that one more movie was needed to wrap up Cap/Steve’s story. My thoughts are, what exactly is stopping Marvel from offing him in Infinity War and just making him majorly flashback-type scenes in the next one. We all know both Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes have dawned the Cap suit and Shield but he true question would be exactly who is Marvel’s choice? Perhaps Cap will in fact die in Infinity War and it will be Bucky who takes up the mantle and the only reason we see Steve is through Bucky’s returning memories as he tries to handle being Cap? 

11. Loki

Loki is another one of my favourites, only due to the fact that I’m weak when it comes to misunderstood villainy... *cough* Jason Todd *cough* It’s not just me who has succumbed to the seduction of the God of Mischief and his constant knack for well... Mischief. Loki has died in the MCU but he always seems to come back. If Marvel is planning on keeping Thor around, having Loki actually die just might break him if they want to pro sue a more serious angle, we’ve seen what Loki’s death does to Thor. Perhaps having Loki die after he presumably gives over the Tesseract may fuel Thor with enough rage to be one of the potential people to take Thanos out.. 

12. Nebula 

Nebula is a likely casualty of the Infinity War. Simply because of her role in Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2. 

Or, perhaps she plays a much larger role in Infinity War. In one storyline Nebula steals the Infinity Gauntlet and sabotages Thanos betraying him. If Nebula does this, Thanos could easily kill her. After she was humanized in GOTG Vol. 2, this might be an emotional trauma Marvel could want to inflict on Gamora. Gamora has a possibilty of playing a big role in the destruction of Thanos but having her lose her sister who she kinda patched things up with... That could give her the edge she needs. Despite how much I want to see more of Nebula and have more development for her, this seems possible. 

13. Sam Wilson / Falcon

Sam Wilson would honestly in my opinion, be a tragic loss. His character was amazing from his first 30 seconds on screen. He has heart and humour and it’s hard not to love his character but that’s also a moth to flame with Marvel. They might kill off Sam to not only hurt Steve but also promote Bucky to have something to avenge after Steve dies and he has to become Captain America. We’ve already seen Bucky throw himself in front of Sam to take the brunt of a hit from Spidey so maybe, just maybe there’s some sort of friendship there and killing one of them might trigger Bucky’s need to become an Avenger kicking off a storyline that could support Marvel’s 9 contract deal with Sebastian. 

14. King T’Challa / Black Panther 

Why T’Challa? You ask... Well, as much as I would like to say it’s because Chadwick is just too precious for this world and be done with it, I must make a point.. Marvel probably won’t want to have two multi-billionaire badasses with equally badass suits in play. This is assuming they don't kill Tony, perhaps they will kill T’Challa? Again, this goes back to my theories surrounding Sebby Stan’s  9 contract deal. I think it’s very likely they have chosen to follow the storyline of Bucky becoming Cap after Steve is gone. From the Infinity War trailer, it looks like Bucky is settled in with T’Challa and the Wakandans. Or is that just me? Perhaps Bucky decides to stay in Wakanda. After all, the world isn't exactly welcoming him with open arms at the moment.. How do they get Bucky out of Africa so he can become Captain America? They kill off T’Challa. His only tie to Wakanda. 

I don’t know a lot about Chadwick Boseman’s contracts and I can’t seem to find anything but this again is one of my more iffy theories. I hope it doesn't come true, I love T’Challa, or what we’ve gotten so far, I hope we get a lot more.

15. Peter Parker / Spider-Man = Tony Stark Version 2?

I know, I know.. The thought kills me too. We just got our MCU Peter Parker and I think it’s safe to say, everyone loves having him. 

I have Peter on my list not as a death though. I just think he’s going to get seriously injured. Marvel might just be baiting us with that whole trailer “Tony, I’m sorry.” snippet but at the same time, Peter getting injured makes sense to carry a certain plot line. *cough* Tony’s death *cough*. Tony stated in Spider-Man: Homecoming “And if you die, I feel like that’s on me. I don’t need that on my conscience.” Tony’s compassion and love for the people in his life is a special thing. Something I honestly love about Tony. But, it could be his downfall. In Ultron, we saw that Tony’s worst fear is the Avengers dying and the fact that he “Could have saved us. Why didn’t you do more?”. Tony is a protector. So, having Peter around during the battle could be dangerous and potentially fatal for Tony. Peter has sort of become Tony’s surrogate son/protege and I don’t think he would let anything happen to him. If/when Peter gets injured in Infinity War, I think it will throw Tony off his game. He may feel guilty or worried about Peter and being distracted like that while facing someone like Thanos? Let’s just say if anything happens to Peter, we shouldn't just be worried about him, we should also be worried about Tony. 

16. The Stark Era/Legacy

I swear to you, I don't hate Tony or RDJ. I just can't shake the thought that we’re going to have to say goodbye to him. 

The MCU started with Tony, even if the earliest events take place in the 1940′s with Cap. It was a Stark that made Steve Cap. The Starks are rooted in the MCU and are the basic foundation of it. They’re heavily involved with all of the events of the MCU. This theory isn't entirely the death of Tony Stark but the death of Stark involvement. 

Let me explain/paint a picture... 

Captain America: The First Avenger: Howard Stark develops a serum that can turn an ordinary man into the ultimate soldier. Thus, creating Captain America which in turn saved America from destruction. And well, German rule. Howard’s super soldier was the one that took down The Red Skull before he could develop and distribute deadly weapons to Hitler and his Nazis. In doing so, the Americans and their allies were able to stop Hitler. Also, it was Howard who built that iconic shield and thought to build it from Wakandan vibranium. 

Iron Man: Tony is running his father’s business seemingly where he left it. Using intellect no doubt inherited from his father, he develops weapons and other tech to continue to protect the world that Howard had helped protect in the 1940′s. The plot of Iron Man is showing Tony not only becoming Iron Man but Obadiah, becoming greedy with power and wanting to overthrow Tony. It was Stark tech that ended up saving Tony and America from terrorists and Obadiah.

Skipping forward to the Avengers... 

The Avengers: It’s obvious that Tony had been playing with the idea of the Avengers with S.H.I.E.L.D. He doesn't say something like: “What the hell is that?” When Pepper mentions it. It also seems like it was Tony who had been talking to Pepper about it in the first place when she says “Which I know nothing about...” So obviously Tony had been part of coming up with the idea. So, we can thank a Stark brain for the Avengers too??? 

Avengers: Age of Ultron: No one lets us forget that Ultron was Tony’s fault. Especially Tony. “And then Ultron.. My fault.” (Civil War). Tony was scared for the safety of Earth and more importantly it seems, his team mates. After his vision of the Avengers laying dead and Cap accusing him of not doing enough Tony gets the idea to create the synthetic being that is, Ultron. His intentions were good but his execution faltered. 

Captain America: Civil War: I won’t say that Civil War was Tony’s fault because it wasn't, it was equally Cap’s too for not wanting to sign the contract just as Tony did want to. It was a Stark who opposed the title character which carried the plot. And when all of the basic plot lines were complete, the big finale drawing the movie to a close for the final climax battle was because Tony found out Bucky had killed guess who under HYDRA’s control?? 

Howard and Maria Stark.

At the end of that fight, we see Cap give up his mantle to continue protecting Bucky. What was the reason to give up his mantle? 

“That shield doesn't belong to you.You don’t deserve it. My father made that shield!”  

(Oh, yeah.. a little side note.. Go back to watch that fight scene and at the end when Steve helps Bucky up, Sebastian’s groan in that scene holy fuck, jesus on a tricycle it’s HOT.)

Spider-Man: Homecoming: Tony was the one who built Spidey’s new suit. He was also the one that gave Peter the idea that he was capable of a lot more than stopping “grand theft bicycles”. I mean he held his own against THE Captain America. In one scene Peter and Tony start to argue and Peter’s reasoning for all of his behaviour throughout the movie was because: “I just wanted to be like you.” So, Peter’s mistakes and actions throughout his movie were rooted from the fact that he just wanted to be like Tony. 

Avengers: Infinity War: This movie hasn't even come out yet so I’m not going to act like I know Tony’s full involvement or whatever, but we do know that Peter is prepared for the war because of his brand new Iron Spider suit curtesy of you guessed it, Mr. Anthony Stark. 

Also, Marvel might lean more towards this option because keep in mind, RDJ is getting hella expensive because even he knows how important he is to Marvel’s cinematic universe. They might lean more towards offing Tony to save themselves some cash..

Therefore, if Marvel really decided to kill off Tony, that would be the end of heavy Stark influence. Of course, the Starks would still be present but only as a memory and a company. There wouldn't be an actual Stark to back everything up or come up with new ideas. Unless Pepper is cooking up a little Stark bun in the oven, Tony’s death would mark the end of the Stark line, thus, lessening his influence in the MCU. 

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[coshayphinelove]

now that the finale afterglow has faded, i’ve been kind of looking back on the series with a more critical eye than a “PLS DONT LEAVE ME” eye.  

this is by no means the last time i’ll write some kind of long-winded essay, i’m sure i’ll find other things to overthink about on rewatches and as i write more fic, but it is a direct reaction to the finale and the five years i have spent with this show.

in short, the finale was amazing.  it was probably the best finale of any show i have ever seen.  it was satisfying and true to the characters that we had grown to love.  it was realistic insofar that the problems didn’t end with the evil being defeated.  it was bittersweet and made me emotional where i didn’t think the show could anymore.

(although i still haven’t watched the last two episodes of frin/ge so it’s rank may change).

if the rest of the season and the previous two seasons had set it up, it would have been even better.  it is, to this day, my firm opinion that season 1 was the tightest, most well thought out season of television i have ever seen.  like, if you had asked me in season 3 where i thought the finale would be, i would have had such a different answer.  (please do ask me, i have so many thoughts.)

most of my criticisms are on the co-phine/delphine front bc that’s where i’ve curated the most facts, having a few transcripts saved to my computer for ease of access.  and the first thing i have to talk about is the plot holes this season, bc wow, so many.  like, delphine was only there when it was convenient.  that much was clear.  

like she only helped siobhan bc there needed to be a good guy survivor to tell the rest about what happened.  she was only invited to the big house so cosima could invite herself along.  she was only put in the dress so that cosima could be in the suit so that the pr team could tease a wedding.

and she was only in the final clone scene to reinforce that ‘’we can trust her now guys’’.  like she and cosima never talked about anything.  not the shay snafu in season 3, not the lying, not the spying, not the secrets.  which are really big things.  and i’m not saying it had to be 45 minutes of therapy jargon but i am saying that they should’ve said... ‘sorry’ or explained what happened and where they were coming from.  bc to this day i don’t actually know why delphine did what she did in season 3.  what happened in frankfurt?  why did she threaten shay like that instead of just asking?  why was she suddenly working for topside?  none of that ever gets mentioned after it happens.

and as much as the sarah hug helps me with my sarcoshayphine struggles, they hadn’t spoken since ‘piss off delphine.’  how did they get from there to hugging?  ‘we’re doing all of this on account of bloody delphine?’ to soft hugs and kind words?  like yeah, it fit and it worked and it was touching.  but when you think about it, it kind of dissolves.  which is kinda fitting for a lot of the plot this season.

and to me, that left this season of c0p/hine feeling kind of empty.  we reused the ‘can we trust delphine’ plot.  we reused the ‘delphine’s off in a foreign country and therefore unreachable’ plot (eighty times this season, right?).  i still stand by my point that in season 4 she could have been in hiding, having driven off into the sunset to do mrs. s’s bidding.  like they could’ve had delphine funneling info for all of season 4 through mk/siobhan completely off screen.  but she just.. did nothing for all of season 4.  right.  boss ass bitch corporate delphine just... sat around getting told what to do... sure..

or in 5x09 she could have just been around the corner at the grocery store rather than france.  and why even bring that up if you’re never going to do anything with it?  she went home right when cosima would’ve needed her and she was free to be there for her?  what the hell?  and there was no setup for it either.  one second they’re ‘on the precipice of doing anything they want’ and the next delphine went home?  without cosima before the fight is over?  like, season 2 delphine would’ve been doing The Most: cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, chores, snuggles, etc etc.  but instead she hears the news and hops on the first plane out of the country?

like you guys do realize they didn’t say ‘i love you’ this season at all, right?  delphine is ‘motivated by love’ but she doesn’t say it at every possible opportunity?  cosima thought she was dead, but doesn’t blurt it out the first time she sees her after waking up?  like fuck a sex scene, normalize wlw couples saying ‘i love you’ to each other first.

idk...  i know there were scheduling conflicts and i know they had to keep rewriting as the schedule got rearranged, but come on.  i can, right now, change a few key scenes that do something for both cosima and delphine’s character, that keeps them both active and doesn’t just ignore 3 seasons of characterization.

which is another point.  there was so much they could have done with delphine’s character.  not just this season, but for a while.  instead of like.. idk following up on the threads they presented (affair with l**kie, changing sides, the girl who slit her wrists which was implied to be delphine herself, seeming to be worth shooting and kidnapping and nursing to back to health to neolution, what she was doing before cosima got there, what she did in geneva, etc etc) they only brought her back to kiss cosima.  like bottom line.  like, she didn’t really do anything active that someone else wasn’t doing elsewhere except warn siobhan about kira.  which they didn’t even listen to her about.

and several times they referred to her as a lesbian when in 1x08 she clearly and fully called herself bisexual.  and they shot her.  for being in love with cosima.  regardless of what they have recently said about ‘knowing about byg and always intending to bring her back’ they... still did it.  and right afterwards said some really gross stuff about fans who were upset about it.  i don’t really remember all of it, but i do distinctly remember the word ‘reductive’ used to say that fans were reducing her to her sexuality and that was the real problem.  which... see the above several paragraphs.  pot, kettle.  kettle, pot.  (i have separate thoughts on the season 3 debacle..)

which brings me to my main thought.  i think they were too hyperaware of the fandom.  they tried to roll with the scheduling conflicts and make a nice new shiny ship for us.  but when there were complaints (*cough* hate *cough*) thrown at creators/cast over it they waffled and changed their minds.  which then led to a shay shaped plot hole.  also a shay shaped hole in my heart.

and i think someone around season 1 told them they were being progressive and they just... didn’t try to learn new things?  idk how to phrase this.  like season 1 was genuinely feminist.  and the fact that they saw this story unfolding from a female perspective was incredible.  and sarah’s storyline throughout the seasons was incredibly feminist.  and the fact that they thought to include characters of genders other than cis and sexualities other than straight was fantastic.  but after they got a pat on the back for being progressive, they stopped actively trying to call themselves out.  they were like, ‘yes i am progressive and feminist therefore everything i produce is good without a second check.’

but this past season was all about petey and the clones were only used to further reinforce his evilness.  and felix was more active than sarah, the protagonist.  and tony actually got mentioned but he never actually showed up.  and their ‘stand-in for the patriarchy’ got to violently murder two women (of two different underrepresented minorities, ASD and middle aged) while going back and abusing another woman (and praising him and saying he actually loved her!!!!).  and their lesbian character centric episode was primarily focused on her romantic entanglements rather than, say, her and her character.  (which i’ve been learning is actually kind of a problem in the wlw community, is losing yourself to new relationship energy and they could’ve actually taken a stance on this and said something important, but... anyway..)

and the creators were touting this as the most feminist season ever.

...

like okay.  by walking0 de..ad and game- of9 thro///nes standards it is.  but what they said in interviews and what they put on the screen did not match up.  and i think that’s my main problem.  like when i turn on my tv i generally turn off my feminism eyes and my lgbt rep wants.  bc i generally know that not every show is going to be perfect and as long as it’s not like last man standing then i can tolerate it.  but season 1 and their interview presence just got my hopes up.  and they just didn’t deliver on their promises, imo.

and that wouldn’t be so bad, but they were so close, like this close!!  you can’t see my fingers rn, but they’re almost touching...  like they had the perfect setup, a meatball straight down the plate, just begging to be a home run, but they shanked it to right field and got stopped at second base.

like implying in interviews that some characters are nonbinary or confirming characters sexualities is really cool!!! i used to be a r//izzl//es fan, i know how awful it is when cast/creators genuinely don’t want you in their fandom.  getting a confirmation is super cool.... but technically it’s not canon, it’s not In The Show.  like it’s not untrue either, it’s not not canon.  but being Progressive and Feminist and Positive LGBT Rep would’ve been.. idk saying it on the show, in the character’s own words?  bc i can go anywhere and get coded representation, i can go back to the fifties and watch stuff with thinly veiled metaphors and small little nudges in the confirmation direction.  it’s not something you get to pat yourself on the back for.

like, imo 1x08 was probably the best handled lgbt scene.  like delphine stated her identity.  and cosima just went along with it.  and they got to talk candidly about it.  they said ‘gay’ and ‘bisexual’ in the same scene.  like??!!?!??!?! that was amazing.  but for some reason they couldn’t do that for sarah, or felix.  or let tony talk about being trans rather than having it be a hushed whispered conversation between two (then believed to be) cis people without him.

and it was just so frustrating to me, as a viewer, knowing what they meant and seeing what they put out there.  

bc they are two different things.  i can say whatever i want about this post, but at the end of the day it is just a grammatically incorrect, rambling, walk-about way of saying i have insomnia and was thinking about this enough to try and organize my thoughts.  the creators can say whatever they want about the show, but eventually those interviews and those panels will get buried in the internet and all that will stand is their product.  which doesn’t have confirmations of those themes within it.

like i’m forever going to love the show and i’m always going to go back and rewatch.  it’s always going to be an influence on my writing.  it’s just not... me trying to replicate and be like this show it’s trying not to make the same mistakes.  which is kinda sad, bc it used to be the other way.  

and at the end of the day it is feminist.  like it’s about women told from a women’s perspective about allegories for womens’ issues.  it’s just not by women so it missed the mark.  same goes for the lgbt stuff.  it is progressive that they thought to include it, but the stories they ended up telling were closer to the older stuff than what they thought.  

i just wish they had brought in a third showrunner that was a woman and had lgbt writers come in to tell the lgbt stories.  that doesn’t mean that it would’ve automatically been 100% Unproblematic™ but i think it would have been a lot closer to what they had promised.

anyway, i miss it already.

#thinky thoughts #this has been stewing for the better part of 5 years

[pietro-capimagines]

Love Divided Ch. 5 (Peter Parker x reader)

Hello, loves! I hope your day is going well. So, I have less than a month of school left, which means that I’ll have more time to write and be more active once I get through finals week. I don’t have a ton of time on my hands right now because I’m prepping for an expo and now my teachers feel like actually assigning work to us, so that’s fun. I just need to pull through these last four weeks and I swear I’ll be back to where I was before. I hope you guys understand.. You’re all amazing and I love you people. xoxo

Description: The brewing conflict between Tony and Steve are finally surfacing, causing everyone to choose a side. The heat within the team is rising, and everyone is beginning to realize what is to come. What happens when your relationship with Peter is divided? Will you choose your love? Or your morals?

Warnings: Really angsty. 

Chapter 4

MASTERLIST

You stood there, frozen in your own body. The shock inside of you had your feet glued to the floor as your eyes searched for some sort of answer in his face. What did he just say? 

“I said get out! Leave! You might as well leave now, because you’re leaving anyways, am I right?” He was mocking you, and you could see the heat rising onto his cheeks. 

You clenched your jaw, composing yourself. He was upset, you understood that. But you didn’t expect him to have an outburst like this. “Peter, please understand…” 

“What is there to understand? You’d rather help break up the Avengers than stay with me.” He glared at you from his bed, and the way his eyes pierced yours struck something in your heart. 

“That’s not it! I can’t fight on a side that I don’t believe in!” You walked briskly to the foot of his bed, a fire burning in your eyes. “Does it look like I want to leave? Can’t you see how much this is hurting me? It’s tearing me apart, Peter!” Your sobs were hateful and broken, but you managed to keep speaking. “If this situation didn’t come down to this, you know I’d stay. Peter, I love you and you know that.” 

His glare bore holes into your chest. “If you love me then why are you leaving? If you love me as much as you tell me, wouldn’t you choose me?” The look on his face was pleading, still angry, but now he was genuinely confused as well. “Wouldn’t you?” 

You were at a loss for words. Of course you had reasons for your decision to leave, and they were valid. But in that moment, you couldn’t find the right words to string together to make him understand. “Peter.. please don’t do this..” 

“No, answer my question. If you loved me as much as you have been telling me for the past year; wouldn’t you stay?” He was hellbent on getting a response from you, even if it broke your heart. 

You looked at him, scanning his face and studying his features. What you were about to say was going to tear you apart, but you had to. Your voice was soft, and there was a slight strain in your voice that was begging him to understand. “I would stay if I could live with the decision to fight for this side, even if I didn’t agree with it. The thing is, I can’t. I have to go, even though I love you with every piece of me. It’s the right thing for me to do, and I need you to understand that. I love you so much, and of course I want to stay with you, but I have to do this. Please, please don’t shut me out. At least understand where I’m coming from, Peter.” 

“F/N, frankly, I don’t. And I don’t even care anymore. So, just go. Leave. And no, don’t expect us to be together once this is over.” His voice was harsh, but he didn’t raise his voice anymore. “Yeah, I could hear some of the things you said while I was asleep.” He crossed his arms over his chest and raised his eyebrows at you in a matter-of-fact kind of way. “Because I couldn’t get back with you after this, never. So, leave because I couldn’t care less about what you do anymore as long as you get out of my sight.” He rolled his eyes at you and glued his gaze at the window, no longer looking you in the eye. 

“Peter-” 

“Go.” 

The tears were beginning to come back, and you felt them make hot streaks down your face. You watched as he clenched his jaw, keeping his eyes diverted to the skyline outside. There was a tight feeling inside your chest as you realized that he couldn’t be reasoned with. “Fine.” You said under your breath, moving your gaze from Peter to the stunned Tony that was still sitting in the chair beside his bed. Throughout this whole argument, you completely forgot that he was there, and now he had witnessed the outburst between you two. 

“F/N, Peter, wait-” Tony stood up, trying to stop you from leaving, but you were already out the door. You covered your mouth, trying to stifle your sobs, but the pain was so overwhelming that your had to grasp the wall for support to keep yourself from collapsing on the floor. 

“Ma’am, are you okay?” A doctor that was passing by saw your tear stained face and wobbling body. You nodded that you were fine, and tried your best to politely push past him, and exited the hospital. 

So many emotions were running through your body that you didn’t know which one to feel. Your anger was colliding with you sorrow, while your confusion got tangled up in emptiness. As you stumbled out of the hospital, you pulled your phone out of your pocket, and through your blurred vision, dialed Steve’s number. You leaned up against a column for support, pressing your sleeve up to your mouth to stop yourself from bursting into tears in public. 

“S-Steve, come get me… now… please… okay… bye…” When you were at the hotel just over an hour ago, you had called Steve, telling him that the time was coming for you to leave and join the rest of them. Of course, you didn’t think it would end like this. You tried to compose yourself to not draw attention, but the thoughts of the future that you hoped to have with Peter, that were now a distant memory, kept threatening it. 

About ten minutes after you hung up the call, a truck pulled up with Steve in his black cap in sunglasses. He immediately saw your disheveled state and tensed his grip on the steering wheel. Steve had always been like your big brother and he knew exactly who did this to you, but he wanted to know why. “F/N, get in before I walk up those stairs and punch that punk in the face.” 

Hey lovelies! I hope you liked this new chapter. I know its on the short side, but I couldn’t go into the next part without making it extremely long. I’ll have the next chapter of “Run Away Baby” either tomorrow or on Monday. And I just wanted to thank you all, because just yesterday I reached 1.4k and it’s crazy where this blog is going! I love you all, you’re so beautiful and amazing. Don’t let anyone tell you differently. xoxo

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1. Who was the last person you held hands with? Baby Liam

2. Are you outgoing or shy? Outgoing if I know you, shy if i feel intimidated or you’re new to me

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? mjum, sister, brothers

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I’d say so, unless I feel super threatened by you I’m the nicest person everrrrrr

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? ummm no

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Legit assholes and that pretty much sums it up. nah intelligent, witty, funny, confident but not cocky, articulate, class clowns

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? I’d rather not

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? JD, JW.

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Nah. Ask me anything.

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Megan

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? Cant wait to see you.

12. What are your 6 favorite songs right now? Unforgettable - French Montana

Thunder - Imagine Dragons

XO Tour Lif3 - Lil Uzi Vert

I like me better - Lauv

There for you - Martin Garrix

Know no better - Major Lazer, Travis Scott, Camilla Cabello

13. Do you like it when people play with your? You better be reaaaal gentle bro

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Yes, just not for myself

15. What good thing happened this month? Rekindled a friendship with Hayley, Lots of fun with Griff & Vato, Lots of drunk fun with Megan, had sex watching the july 1st fireworks hahahahhaahahah

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yes.

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Ya.

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? hahah ew

19. Do you like bubble baths? So much

20. Do you like your neighbors? The ones across me, yes. Other people around - no. Fuck them.

21. What are you bad habits? Trusting too easily, revealing too much, spending money, eating junk

22. Where would you like to travel? Italy, France, Southeast Asia, Scotland, England, Ireland

23. Do you have trust issues? Yessssss, but I trust too easily too.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? eating, laying in bed at the end of the day

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? boobs that arent there, stomach that is fat, nose, googly eyes, teeth

26. What do you do when you wake up? Go back to sleep lollll, get anxiety, want to smash my alarm, stretch

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Tanner

28. Who are you most comfortable around? Megan, sister, mum, zane

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Joel lolll why’d ya cheat then

30. Do you ever want to get married? Maybe.

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? hardly. can never decide if I want it long or short so i just keep cutting it ? 32. Which celebrities would you have sex with? Ashton Kutcher and Ansel Elgort omg

33. Spell your name without vowels - scrltt jwl vn

34. Do you play sports? What sports? ew no

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? Thats hard neither

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? All the time

37. What do you say during awkward silences? The wrong thing 99% of the time

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? Finds my quirks endearing, intelligent, witty, funny, sexy, loves my body, loves my humour, is interested in what I have to say, is interested in my life, basically they have to be obsessed with me

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Online - PLT, Peppermayo, Boohoo

40. What do you want to do after high school? im 24 lol take me back to when i was actually facing this question

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? im so sensitive and emotional so yes. but if theyve had 2 second chances then no

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean? I’m hurt, trying to read your mind or off my head

43. Do you smile at strangers? If they look like a kind stranger

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? fuck that ill stay on dry land thanks

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? Alarms, anxiety

46. What are you paranoid about? Being played, laughed at or talked about behind my back

47. Have you ever been high? Ya

48. Have you ever been drunk? is that even a question

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? um yes

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Blue

51. Ever wished you were someone else? KYLIE JENNER UH YEA

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? eyes, pasty skin, boobs, my stupid anxious mind, my stupid big heart

53. Favourite makeup brand? BYS, Maybelline

54. Favourite store? Kmart for sure

55. Favourite vlogs? Shani Grimmond, Michael Finch, Skye Wheatley, Tammy Hembrow

56. Favourite colour? Green, tan and pink

57. Favourite food? Pizza, Pasta

58. Last thing you ate? Mars Bar Icecream

59. First thing you ate this morning? Banana and honey toast

60. Ever won a competition? For what? Haha like never. Raffles, Jellybean in a jar guessing,

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? In school suspension. Cant even remember what for. Plenty of detentions

62. Been arrested? For what? Yeeea. Punching a cop. Didnt go on my record though so all good lol

63. Ever been in love? Twice.

64. Tell us the story of your first proper kiss? hahahaha year 6. Was 11. Being forced at a park by his sister, me standing on a skateboard because he was so freakishly tall for an 11 year old and legit missed his mouth the first time

65. Are you hungry right now? I’m full af but always

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? No. wtf i have 1 follower on this account

67. Facebook or Twitter? FB.

68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr.

69. Are you watching tv right now? No. Listening to music

70. Names of your friends? Megan, Ebony, Vato (Tony), Griffo (Tyrone), Yoshi

71. Craving something? What? I dont know... Him

72. What colour are your towels? All Sorts

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? lol no

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 2 that ive had since i was a baby that sit on my top cupboard shelf

75. Favourite animal? Dogs, Seals, Elephants

76. What colour is your underwear? Pink.

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? Choc

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Mint Choco

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? White

80. What colour pants? Pj Pants

81. Favourite tv show? Of all time - Riverdale, Friends, catfish, crazy ex gf

At the moment - The middle, modern fam, ex on the beach,  yummy mummies ahahah

82. Favourite movie? Best of me, The choice, life as a house

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls!

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls.

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Gretchen

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Nemo duh

87. First person you talked to today? Dad

88. Last person you talked to today? Dad

89. Name a person you hate? The bitch whoever my ex is sleeping with

90. Name a person you love? My ex, my family, my dog, all 50 of my babies at work

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Nah?

92. In a fight with someone? No.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? A WHOLE LOT.

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? too many

95. Last movie you watched? Shark Tale

96. Favourite actress? Rachel Mcadams, Cameron Diaz, Isla Fischer, Katherine Hiegel, Amy Smart 

97. Favourite actor? Leo, Ashton Kutcher, Owen Wilson, Paul Rudd, Steve Carrell

98. Do you tan a lot? Noooo

99. Have any pets? Oaks

100. How are you feeling? Tired, Blank, Distracted, On edge

101. Do you type fast? yes

102. Do you regret anything from your past? hahahhha yuh.

103. Can you spell well? Very well.

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? LJ (LM)

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Yes

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? maybe?

107. Have you ever been on a horse? Yes

108. What should you be doing? Nothing.

109. Is something irritating you right now? That its almost tomorrow, my hairs faded, he doesnt give a fuck about me

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Yesyesyesyes

111. Do you have trust issues? I answered this already.

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? On the phone to my mum

113. What was your childhood nickname? Scar, Bubble

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yes.

115. Do you play the Wii? When I go to Eb’s

116. Are you listening to music right now? Yes. Currently Playing not going home - DVBBS

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? Yes.Homemade

118. Do you like Chinese food? OMG. YES.

119. Favourite book? You - Caroline Kepnes

120. Are you afraid of the dark? Yes and no

121. Are you mean? No.

122. Is cheating ever okay? No. No No NOOOOOOOOO

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? NO lol

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? hmmm starting not to

125. Do you believe in true love? Yes.

126. Are you currently bored? Kinda.

127. What makes you happy?

Kenji, My fam, Alcohol, Food, Music, Tv, Holidays, Money, New clothes

128. Would you change your name? Nah.

129. What your zodiac sign?

Aries, what yours?

130. Do you like subway? yum yes

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? He did and now he doesnt and treats me like im nothing

132. Who’s the last person you had a laugh with? Griffo, Hayley, Powelly and Ziggy

133. Favourite lyrics? So I will run Until my feet don't touch the ground And as the waves carry me out Keep listening She'll never make a sound

134. Can you count to one million? No wtf ive got time but not that much time

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? sickies for work?

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed,open when im home alone

137. How tall are you? 5 something

138. Curly or Straight hair? Straight.

139. Brunette or Blonde? Brunette.

140. Summer or Winter? Both, can never decide

141. Night or Day? Night.

142. Favourite month? March or December

143. Are you a vegetarian? No.

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk.

145. Tea or Coffee? Both

146. Was today a good day? It was okay.....

147. Mars or Snickers? Mars atm

148. What’s your favourite quote? Anything by Beau Taplin

149. Do you believe in ghosts? YES.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? No that’s too far, but I’m reading gone girl atm