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Now I'm fallin' in faster ,This could be a disaster

Robby Keene x Doug Rickenberger

Song inspired one-shot

For @shortkingkeene , for making you wait for the other ones.

🎶This could be a disaster, there's so many factors🎶

There was 3 things that everyone knew in school ; School is Hell, Do the opposite of what you been told, And do not date Robby Keene.

That was a heartbreak everyone should avoid.

The guy had a reputation. Never went away and it lingered. This is where the ‘Do the opposite’ part goes, because even warned , The brave one’s still wanted .

No one’s to blame, the guy was practically an angel . With dark blonde wavy hair that curled against his ears, green shiny eyes , a cute nose and a sickenly sweet smile that made his face shine.

And a body built with muscles. To add to the package a heart of gold. Surprisingly no wings.

Yet, he had a huge warning sign above his head , In bed bold letters- Disaster.

Robby known relationships could be counted with one hand. Dated Sam LaRusso, the school sweetheart. It crashed and burn a few months in.

Next was Tory Nichols , schools bad girl. He went from preppy to bad boy image quickly. Although it was similar to what he wore before he dated LaRusso.

Lasted a good run , Until Nichols discovered she wasn’t into guys. Their love was real and is still alive but platonic now.

Rumored to had a fling with Hawk, Miguel’s best friend , That ended in a month when finally Eli and Demetri gotten their shit together. Robby nor Eli had confirmed or denied. Rumored that he hooked up with Miguel.

It was also rumored that he was dating an older rich man, but turned out it was his dad’s boyfriend not his. Yasmine cleared the air on that , after all, she was the one that started it.

And lastly was Shawn . Maybe that was the last strike that made Robby unmatchable.

Met in summer break and fell in love in the sunny days. Robby didn’t not have a smile in those months. He met the family , got close to Shawn’s little brother . And in between Robby was imagining a future .

Amongst the teenager gossiped about them , wondering when they would run off and leave , that was how deep Robby was in love , everyone could see.

Even a blind person could sense it.

Then summer was over and school began, and the future the blonde created in his mind was melted away by the sun.

He got back on his feet with a heavy heart and with the help of his friends—His Exes. The girls and boys flocked towards the now handsome guy, promising Robby to fulfill and nurture his broken heart.

And boy, did the world had a uno reverse card for them.

With time , the guy began dating. And only that.

The people who went on dates with Keene only came out with broken hearts. No relationship got out of this silly dates. It was like no one was worthy .

Again, it didn’t stop anyone.

Rickenberger didn’t see the appeal.Don’t get him wrong , the guy was hot but getting his heart crushed wasn’t as thrilling to him like it was for others.

Like a forbidden fruit. But the guy wasn’t stupid to try, why do the impossible. He did his best to turn the other ear whenever he heard people talking about the boy.

They never interacted or spoken before. Even when they had mutual friends, he kept it that way - He doesn’t want to be swept off by those “Prince Charming eyes” . The girls had not gotten creative. They shared one class together, but Rickenberger is usually trying to make something out of his paper.

He was hanging around with the guys when a name was brought that caught his attention.

Hawk and Miguel were talking about the new girl , Heather, who was hot and had a great personality . Not an ounce of shallow. It was rare these days to find a girl like that. Heather had managed to get Robby take her on a date , It was like their 8th one .

Doug finds out in Monday from Tory , Why Heather looked like a weeping mess ; raccoon eyes with runny mascara, red stuffy nose and dressed like a homeless person—Turns out there won’t be 9th date. He made a tsk sound and went back to his paper airplane, Tory accepts the cash gleefully that Hawk is handing her way, losing another bet.

In art class , everyone paired up to do a assignment . Robby and Rickenberger got paired up. Robby did most of the work , more at ease in his own craft while Rickenberger just followed the blondes orders.

They didn’t make small talk.Both were fine with that.

Then the cupcake stand happened.

🎶Like, what if you freak out and then we're losin' it all 🎶

Robby and Kenny still kept in touch and their friendship was still strong. Robby didn’t have the strength to put the kid behind along with his past.

Kenny was raising money for the animal shelter to give them better homes , Robby agreed to help immediately after he jokingly refused to.

The sells went up quickly . It had nothing to do with Robby giving out his number and selling his prize winning smile.

Kenny was close to his goal he just needed a bit more, like 100 buck more or less. They had cupcakes left but they were not counting on snotty brat kids that went with Kenny to wreck and destroy their stand.

Robby had left and he came back to see Kenny kicking the shit out of the remaking boy that hadn’t run away left.

Cupcake and frosting scatter and smeared on the concrete .

“ You okay ?” Robby rushed to Kenny and inspected to head to toe for any injuries.

“I’m fine. But our stand didn’t have the same luck. What am I going to do ?”

Robby felt his heart break for the dejected look on the kid. Kenny was so proud raising the money and there was no chance in hell , he was not going to let him down.

“Don’t worry . I’ll fix this. “ Robby said softly , extend his hand on the kids shoulder . Tapping it gently to get his attention .

“I promise.” Kenny smiled , it was faint but he was smiling at Robby.It made Robby heart break with how much the kid looks up to him and Robby gave his word to never hurt or leave Kenny. The boy didn’t deserve it, no kid does.

“We still have the last batch . We raise up the price and see where we go from there.” Robby knew it still wouldn’t be enough but he would figure it out.

They sold a couple , and ate to cheer up , but there was still a missing gap on cash. Robby wrecked his brain trying to come with an idea .

He couldn’t ask Mr.LaRusso again. He didn’t think the older man wanted to waste his cash on cupcakes again.

Kenny had to go home for dinner. Robby stayed , he had a promise to fulfill . The sun was setting in , the clouds were painted with pink and blues and a smidge of purple.

Like cotton candy.

Whipping out his busted phone to take a picture , ready to capture it when he stills for a second. A group of kids came out, ruining his view.

Wealthy kids. And one in particular he recognized , the tallest one wearing his red signature hoodie . It’s not his proudest moments but he had to get the remaining money and who else to force , not threaten , to buy some mediocre cupcakes .

“Hey!”

They swivel their heads , looking confused or like caught in the act of doing something bad. Robby pauses, rattling his brain to remember the guys name.

He can’t really just scream, red sweater, or can he? “Rrrrrr-uh, Ricardo !” Robby winces when they laugh , he makes a guess that he didn’t got the name right.

“Ricardo don’t be rude , the guy is calling you.” The guy with dreads snickered along with the rest of them , pushing the boy forward.

The guy takes his sweet ass time to come over. Once he is standing in front of him, he inclines his chin up in question.

“You got cash on you.”Robby goes straight to the point. It wasn’t quite a question nor a statement , it was in the middle.

“No.”He said dryly with a stone cold face.

“I know you do , Reese . I need a favor.”Robby knew Hawk’s type of friends , he hangout with people that lived in the suburbs and the stupid white picket fence.

“You don’t even know my name and your asking for money. “ The guy turns around to check if his friends are still waiting.

“I’m friends with your friend Hawk. So that makes us friends , and friends help each other.” He finishes with his best winning smile.

“Yeah, you can keep Hawk. “ ‘Ricardo’ gave him a mocking smile for a second , then letting it drop.

“Dude , I just need a couple bucks. I’ll pay it back.” Robby pleaded but ‘Ricardo’ wasn’t budging.

“Love to help but…” ‘Ricardo’ tried to leave but Robby surged , took hold of his arm and twisted his wrist to make him stay.

“Ow!” ‘Ricardo’ looked at like he was crazy, and Robby couldn’t blame him.

“Man, I’m asking kindly-“

“Your twisting my arm.”’Ricardo’ pointedly said as he interrupts him. Robby continued with his kind speech.

“Let me borrow some cash and —“Robby paused trying to think of something bargain. The guy winced every second , he felt bad but he got important matters to solve.

“I will go on a date with you!”

“No thanks. I’d rather bite my own arm off.” Robby tried no take offense on that since there was a chance that he was lying . The guy huffed when he realize Robby was not planning to let him go. Robby bet he wasn’t expecting him to be more stronger than him.

“How much ?” Ricardo gritted his teeth not overly fond to give his money away.

“100 please.” He said politely .Robby had manners , he even offered a head tilt that was proven to make everyone weak. Tory called it ‘puppy tilt’.

“100 !? Im not a bank!”Ricardo eyes widen , maybe he was immune to the head tilt.

“But you got it don’t ya big boy.”

“Here.” In exchange Robby gave him the left over cupcakes including with the cheap tray . The guy just look at them like he has never seen a cupcake before.

“What am I supposed to with these.”Ricardo asked , still a bit astound the boy had managed to convince him to give him the money.

“Eat ‘em . Throw ‘em . I dunno .”Robby shrugged and shooed him away wanting to pack up and leave . Kenny is going to be so happy. He glanced over to red hoodie boy walk away without looking back.

This damn cupcakes started this whole mess. Rickenberger left with his friends and Robby skipped in glee to Kenny’s house to give the money.

Life went on except for Doug. He can’t look at a cupcake without it reminding him of Robby. In school subconsciously his eyes looked for the guy. It went to the degree that he found himself doodling Robbys name like a girl.

He put brakes on that. He can’t have that happening. He won’t have to deal with him anymore.

🎶At the critical chapter where I say, "I love you"

And you don't say it after🎶

Robby never lost faith in love. He was born with a big heart , even if it had its consequences . One being getting his heart broken. Robby had loved and lost but he never regretted one of his relationships.

Maybe that week that is never to be talked about again. It was his lowest .

There was so many failed relationship at attempt of happiness that one can take that would lead them into… insecurities.

Robby overthought every possibility that could go wrong. Or what could lead them wrong .One of his many dates for example.

Connie was Robby first attempt of dating . She had nice shiny straight blonde hair , smelled like strawberries and wore cute cardigans. Their date was going well, she said the right words, blushed when Robby would grab her hand and Connie was down to earth.

Connie also invited him over to her house, No sights of parents , A sign of alone time. Connie’s room was the reflection of her , except Robby didn’t expect the creepy dolls . It wasn’t a few. Her bed wasn’t filled of stuffed animals and pink duvet. It was just creepy ass dolls.

Robby couldn’t concentrate a single word that came out of Connie pink glossed lips. Tiny beaded eyes stared holes at the back, side and front of his head.

Robby flees when she started talking about them like they were real. Connie misinterpreted his horrified look into ‘Oh they look captivating’; Which was not the case. She was nice but not enough to see himself dating her. And her creepy old dolls.

It wouldn’t worked out in the long run. At one point he would’ve burn the creepy dolls for the sake of his protection and Connie would dump him ignoring his constant apologies for burning generations of porcelain dolls. And he wasn’t planning to traumatized his kids with the ancient dolls.

Tom seemed worthy in the beginning but the end came way too quickly. Blonde , green eyes and boyish smile. Good kisser and smart. Too smart , the kind that corrects your grammar, not in a cute way . A big ego too. The last date was a picnic , Tom complained about staining his jeans. He was boring , No he did not want to know about his family tree. At last , The guy whipped out a guitar and started serenading him.

Images popped into Robby’s mind and down the line , Robby wasn’t so sure being Tom’s boyfriend was the right choice for him. Unless he wants his ears to bleed every time the guy tries to sing.Looking down further being a trophy husband was good but not for Tom , So Robby chugged his drink and sprung out of his spot and grabbed the guitar .

Tom wasn’t complaining about the grass stains anymore . Robby felt bad for the guitar.

Caleb was a laidback guy . A boy that love his friends, skateboards and weed. It was fun at first , late night dates that consisted of skateboarding , joints and late night munchies. Except Caleb told him ‘I love you’ way too quick , Suddenly the smoke intensified , like they flipped the switch to a smoke machine, Caleb’s friends voices sounded louder and felt like they started kicking his seat . Robby coughed and coughed . The stupid broken door wouldn’t open the window .

“Robby?Babe?” Caleb dazed eyes look at him concerned . In seeing Robby trying for the door, he unlocked it . His friends stood quiet.

Robby pushed the door open , crawled on the ground , the cement floor scratching his palms , the scene disappeared now putting distance between him and Caleb .

“I got to go. Bye .” Robby waved them off , the three guys dumbly watched Robby leave with a coughing fit. Robby’s dream of having a Sk&ter boi like Avril Levine was a discarded.

Tiffany was a kind girl. His daddy issues came to play and almost got himself another father figure to look up because Tiffany’s dad was there. He spent talking way more with Mr. Harrington than Tiffany. The man only glared at him when he made any attempt to touch his daughters hand.

The auburn girl didn’t even spoke one word towards him. Robby could picture it already , falling in love with the auburn haired girl , the way the sun would set in her eyes , the way she would throw her head back to laugh at him for not being good enough and Mr. Harrington in the background because he is basically part of the relationship.

Mr. Harrington payed the check . What a kind man. Both mutually ignored each other after that. He wondered if Mr,Harrington went to all his daughter dates .

Then there was Venus . She was 5 inches taller than him, had that dark grunge aesthetic going for her, had a couple piercings. Eyebrows, Nose , lips , tongue and ears.

Robby liked her a lot . They painted each other’s nails . Talked shit about pretentious students and the asshole teachers that walked around with a stick up their asses. Shared playlist and her clothes. He listened to her talk about crystals, energy, and auras . It vaguely reminded him of Moon. He liked that she called pretty whenever he wore her skirts .But.

It took a downhill when Venus took him to the graveyard for a date . Candles and tarot cards . The goosebumps were a big red flag for him. She giggled when he admitted that he was scared. Robby wasn’t a big fan of that date or after that one. Robby likes to locked that day away in the back of his brain with 12 locks and a vault..

He wants his souls for the rest of his life, thank you very much. Robby knew if he ever did the girl wrong he would be sacrificed .

He says hi to her in the hallways even if she keeps giving him the middle finger and tells him to burn in hell.

Tory told him that he overthought every tiny thing and made into a big thing that made him restless. He would create the factors of the downfall of a relationship that haven’t even begun .

Robby disagreed . His countless dates were all lovely , but they had different expectations. And If anyone would ask , he bet they would all agree. Except Heather, it’s still too fresh.

He put a pause on his love life for now after going out with Heather. There was nothing wrong with the girl. She was hot, showed interest in his friends , funny, intelligent , and perfect.

Perfect didn’t go well with imperfections.

Robby honestly didn’t think he wanted to pay a first class ticket to that downfall. He thought about it, evaluated and came to a conclusion that he didn’t have time for relationship .

It was his senior year and he wanted to try his best this year and graduate. The slap stung his cheek but he forgave Heather when she burst out into tears.

Robby wanted love out of his head. So that’s what he did, woke up, go to school , hang out with Tory and go to sleep.

Then he is reminded of his payment. Kenny texted him and sent him pictures of the cute dogs , thanked for his enormous help.

Right, he owes the red hoodie guy 100 bucks .

🎶 This could be a disaster, I'm pedaling backwards🎶

“Ronnie, how are you today my friend!” Robby claps the guys back in a friendly gesture but by the way the guy pulled back , it had the opposite effect.

“Friends know their names.” Ronnie said dryly, Robby wondered if the guy is ever happy.

“Of course. I came by to tell you that I haven’t forgotten about the other day when you helped me—“Robby is cut off , and the guy doesn’t look to be in a good mood.

“You forced me to. If I recall correctly.”

“I didn’t put that much pressure.”

Doug brought his hand , showing a faint bruise around the wrist. It was faint colors of green and yellow, barely there.

“I’m sorry, how about I make it up to you. That catches your attention.” Robby smiled seeing him perk up . Finally. Being a robot is scratched off his list.

“You paying back my 100.” Rickenberger look down at the blonde waiting for the green but instead he got a cheeky smile. That didn’t set well with him.

“Give me your number. “

“Actually forget it. I don’t want it back.” He shuts his locker and head the opposite direction . Ignoring the blonde screaming a random name. He didn’t even feel a twinge of guilt.

🎶By saying that I'm drunk, I really shouldn't have called🎶

Pick me up at 7:00 sharp

Doug wasn’t sure why the hell he gave his number. The blonde didn’t even gave him his address. Another text comes after it. Why he got into his car and drove 5 minutes early to be on time.

He doesn’t know either.

🎶Now I’m falling in faster 🎶

Golf ‘N Stuff is a common place to go on a date, bring the family to play games, have fun with your friends winning as many tickets to win a prize. From a fun size eraser, rainbow slinky or a huge ass stuffed animal.

So here was Rickenberger and Robby playing mini golf , Robby was actually playing, Rickenberger was just awkwardly standing there wanting to walk out of the place.

“Do you plan to just stand there or are you going to shoot your shot.” Robby huffed at the awkward guy, he was playing by himself and it wasn’t that fun.

“I don’t understand what I’m doing here.�� Rickenberger pursue his lips and look over his shoulder hearing a kid scream way too loud.

“Well, you grab your stick and hit this tiny white ball and try to shoot-

“I mean, what am i doing in this place.” Rickenberger said with a hint of exasperation .

“You like to cut me off don’t ya. Your parents didn’t show you manners” He says jokingly seeing if he could at least make the guy laugh or chuckle the least.Robby juts out his hip and looks at the side profile of the tall guy. He has not once looked at him.

“Sorry .” Ronnie didn’t sound sorry at all.neither his face looked remotely apologetic.

“We are here to have fun. Your lucky to score a date with me, Ronnie.” Robby spreads his hands almost hitting a woman in the face . He quickly mutters ‘sorry’ .

“Are you ever going to learn my name?”For the first time in that night, Rickenberger looked at Robby, who stood there , hand on his hip and a lifted brow. Looking at him disbelief.

Robby indeed knew his name but at this point it was like instinct to call him whatever comes to mind.He asked Tory , and explained why he liked to go by his last name.

“Are you going to play with me?”Robby asked , tilting his head aside trying to goad the boy to play . Robby realized how that sounded but it flew past over Ronnie’s head.

With a deep sigh coming from the tall boy and pointedly Ignoring the blondes huge smile and got in position .

They played a few rounds , Rickenberger sucked at mini golf and Robby got overexcited a few times. At one point , Robby stood behind the guy and placed his arms around him to fix his stance and stood on his tippy-toes to look over Rickenbergers shoulder.

Doug sighed for the 100th time.Not lying , Robby counted. “I’m never getting my money back aren’t I?” His voice sounded pained at the realization .

Robby couldn’t suppress his laugh, he founded funny how defeated he sounded. Pulling away, he pushed the tall boy who stumbled catching him off guard.

The least to say, Rickenberger didn’t have a good time.

🎶This could be a disaster🎶

Robby intended to pay back the money by going on dates. He didn’t think much of it. He could tell the guy wasn’t into him or had any interest before . And Robby didn’t have to worry about the guy liking him leading to spiral.

Robby was safe.

The guy was hard to crack. Always carried himself with that stone cold face and never offered a word out of curtesy. Didn’t laugh at Robby jokes , once in awhile he would slip and let out a smile, which did wonders. Robby mention once that he should try smiling more , he got shoved , gently, to the side.

Tory prodded him with millions of questions with his new sudden friend. Robby didn’t understand why she and Sam couldn’t understand that he was going on dates platonically to pay a debt. Which they never offered to help,How rude of them .

🎶Is it purely platonic to call me, like, every night?🎶

Robby and Rickenberger had gone to a bunch of dates and Robby had already picked his favorite ones , Subconsciously

Robby planned to take ‘Rhodes’ to a hike . Robby was not particularly fond on that idea but Eli’s mentioned his friend likes to do sports . Robby first idea was to play soccer but he didn’t want to crush the guy egos that quickly.

A hike it was. To the spot Daniel took him and his Dad , it had a great view that was just breathtaking. Maybe it would make ‘Russ’ speak other than ; Yes , No, Whatever , Fine , Don’t pinch me, Stop throwing that at me .

Rickenberger didn’t looked opposed to the his idea , didn’t even make a fuss when Robby made him make a stop at the grocery store. They needed snacks to bring his sugar level up after a tedious long walk.

Except they never ended up going to that hike nor left the store . There was a those claw machine games with fluffy stuffed animals. He kept on losing and wasted all the money he had on him including his money for the snacks.

His wallet is a dollar at being empty Maybe he should asked for a loaner to his date.

“Maybe we should head out. We have been here for hours.”Speaking of the devil,He sighed like he was miserable. It was his 25th sigh, Robby was keeping count. He bets that’s what is throwing him off.

“It has not been hours .” Robby side glance at his wrist , there was no watch but it hadn’t felt like hours but 30 minutes .

“It’s about to be 7.” Rickenberger scratched his head , and crossed his feet as he was inclined to the wall.

“A.M?”

“No.”

“Then we are in the clear.”

Rickenberger sighed deeply and reclined against the wall again. He tried to avoid looking at the blonde but his eyes went to the random strangers, the cash register , and then to the pink tongue that was sticking out of Robby’s lips in concentration.

His eyebrows were furrowed and his green eyes seemed like they were to pop off with how wide they were. He looked at the machine, the claw had gripped a giraffe but it was slipping . Rickenberger turned to look at his watch, then to the security guard and then to Robby.

Clenching his jaw, he walks away and heads to the lady who looked at him in surprise to seem him here still.

He hears Robby shout in frustration and throws a fit. He thanks the woman for changing his bill. Robby is on the floor , head on his knees, mumbles “The machine is rigged.”

“Maybe.” He offers a dollar under Robby’s fingertips. Robby loses again .

“I have to win.” Robby shakes Rickenberger in frustration. His green eyes looking a bit crazy.

“How about you go take a breather and buy something. Here.” Rickenberger pushes him off of him. Robby agrees easily and tells him he will be right back . He hopes he doesn’t .

Doug takes a look at the machine and at the exit . He hates himself , he really does because instead of ditching the crazy maniac he begins to play.

He loses 5 dollars until he succeeds. Robby screams and jumps in his arms and in the excitement , Rickenberger spins him and laughs and Robby start to chant “We won , we won.”

They kicked them out after winning a frog, one sheep , a deer and the blue teddy bear and two empty wallets.

Rickenberger try his hardest to hide his smile when Robby aligns them and sing we are the champions. He never ask about the stuffed animals whereabouts, he sees them again in Robby’s room like trophy’s and he swallows down his heart that tries to jump out.

🎶 You know Ashley(Tory) believes that there's somethin' between you and I🎶

They hadn’t planned to meet up at the park. Robby was hanging out with Demetri and Eli at the new comic store that Ei wanted to check out. After leaving the store, they walked hand in hand , Except Robby. He walked slower to get behind them already feeling like a third wheeler or worse, Robby eyes widen when he sees someone familiar .

Rickenberger was with a girl . Dark skin and chestnut hair. Maybe he was on a date? Robby was going to continue walking but he changed his mind as he watched Rickenberger and the girl went their supérate way. He bid his goodbye to the couple and ran to the guy.

“Is my date going out with somebody else.” Robby hoped the guy couldn’t tell he was slightly out of breath.

“Are you following me ?” Rickenberger lift his brow in question , not even feeling weirded out by the short male presence . He has gotten use to it by now.

“Your not that lucky, Ruddy.”Robby rolled his eyes and began walking in a random direction.

“You won’t hurt my feelings if you are.” Robby looked at the guy who was shaking his head. Something in him wanted to know desperately , but he passed it off as a friend wanting know about his friend love life.

“Promise ?” Rickenberger plays along but doesn’t look like he will say anything that Robby wants to hear. Always avoiding .

“I’ll do you one better, I give you my word.”Robby pulls his arm to stop him from walking , and chuckles at the guy confused face.

“Isn’t it the same thing?”Rickenberger looks down at him , not making any attempt to pull the latter arm away.

“Not to me. Promises get broken. I , by given you my words speaks character about me if fail. And I am a man of his word “ Robby explained , the boy nodded taking in the information. Rickenberger felt sad for the blonde , he wonder how many people broke their promises to him.

It got a-bit serious so he decided to cut it.

“A short one for that .” He places his palm on top of Robby’s head , who smacks it off making him chuckle.

“ Did you ever consider that I might not be too short but you and everyone are too tall.”Robby huffed , he was average height not short .He was not ashamed and he is not getting a rise out of him.

“Only short people say that.” Rickenberger smirks and ditches the blond.

Robby scoffs at ‘Ruddy’ , who walked away like he had the last word. Robby jumps on his back , making the latter almost trip.

“Get off of me.” Ruddy grunted .

“No! since your all about bragging might as well offer your services.” Robby tighten his legs and crossed his ankles.

“Get off or I will throw your ass on the floor.” Rickenberger threaten , but his hands grabbed Robby’s legs to grip them.

“I will like to see you try.” Ruddy squeeze his knee and threw his head back laughing when he felt his ear being bitten back but being careful not knock his with the blonde. They walked aimlessly the park , Rickenberger obviously not putting any input into the conversation , Robby gave up and started singing which the latter complain at the end of the song.

Unknown to Robby, Rickenberger kept smiling finding it cute how Robby couldn’t finish a song and would jump to a different one.

They stopped to sit under a big tree that had the most shade . They found a book that someone must’ve left behind. Robby checked if it had any name or phone number but no luck.

“Read to me.” Pushed the book to Rickenberger but he pushed it back to his.

“I can’t read.” Robby squinted at him for the obvious lie but let him get away with it this time and opened the book.

“Once upon a time there was big giant giraffe who always looked grumpy and never laughed at his friends hilarious jokes—“

“Is this one of them.” Rickenberger opened his eyes and pinched his wrist.

“Is it hilarious?”Robby throws back with a pout .

He tries to turn away quickly to hide his smile but Robby giggle tell him he failed . They both leaned against the tree, shoulder to shoulder, their heads incline to each other.

“Chapter one , When I stepped out into the bright sunlight from the darkness of the movie house, I had only two things on my mind: Paul Newman and a ride home.” Robby began , Rickenberger listen to every word he voiced out and solely focus on the warm velvet voice.

By the time the sun went down , less people were around and into chapter 5, Robby head rested on Rickenbergers lap as he read and somewhere along the time , Rickenbergers hand found it’s way to Robby’s hair . It made Robby feel cloudy, he really liked it.

Every time Rickenberger stopped , Robby whined , and then he continue once again.

🎶But if I'm readin' it wrong, man, it'd be better off if I died, oh🎶

Changes began. ‘Ricky’ talked more , smiled and even smirk, which really was a sight. Robby found it funny how the roles had reverse now he had to shut the boy up. Tory joked once to shut him up with a kiss , he tried to suffocate her with a pillow and called her crazy. Later that night , he thought about it and blushed down to his chest.

He slapped himself for reacting like that.

They would talk in the hallways , read in the park, and went back to play at the supermarket . Robby had added to his collection four more stuffies and one big teddy, he named it Tanner , it was a soft honey brown colored bear with green eyes.

It sat proudly at the center of his twin sized bed , it was his favorite , it was Robby’s dollar but is was Rickenbergers skill that won it. They won together . The guy always acted all shy and flustered whenever he entered his room , Robby takes it up further and proudly shows off Tanner.

In bed he felt bored , he cuddled Tanner closer , Tory cancelled her plans with him having to take care of her brother.He offered his help but she passed on it something about Sam going over.

He got up from bed and went to check on his dad that was making so much noise. He recline against the door , Tanner on his arms, His dad was trying on different dress shirts.

“Are you going out ?”

“Taking Daniel to that new Mexican restaurant that he found and been nagging me to take him.” His dad complain but his voice sounded anything but annoyed.

“Is it the one that inaugurated like two weeks ago.” Robby fiddled with the bottles on the nightstand.

“I see he’s been talking your ear off.”

“He loves to talk.” His dad looked at him with a fond grin.

“He loves to talk.”Robby repeats because it was true but they both love Daniel even if he talked for hours.

As he waved goodbye to his dad and Daniel , he closed the door and wander back to his room. With a huff he fell back to his bed. Robby pets Tanner one more time and leaves him on the bed , grabbed his phone and send a text .

An hour later he’s outside of a 7-Eleven , High off his ass thanks to Caleb, the guy was a good dealer. He was hanging out with him while waiting for Rickenberger to arrive.

The guy isn’t so happy to see him high . For a second Robby thought he left but he had just went to buy him a slushie and Oreos to sober him up.

It didn’t . Or maybe he just wanted to buy him Oreos because he knows Robby loves them, A whisper echoed . His high-self likes that idea.

He skates around the empty parking lot . He pauses to shove the last 3 cookies into his mouth and picks up his foot off the ground again.

“You look like a chipmunk .” ‘Ricky’ blurts out as he sat on the sidewalk.

“I thought you said I looked like a puppy?”Robby quickly says not wanting the cookies come out flying out of his mouth.

“I meant with your cheeks puffed out and full.” He points a finger in his direction but not specific making Robby foggy brain think somewhere else.

Robby tries to look back at his ass and back to him with a scandalized look, “No one has ever told me my ass was big in that way.”

“Not your ass , Robby. Up here.” Robby for the first time was seeing Rickenberger blush. It surprised him.So much that he fell on his ass.

“You okay?” Rickenberger is quick on his feet and rushes over to him.

“Ricky, help me up.” Robby whines , his run his hand over his backside that took the blow.“I think I broke my leg, no, two legs, I need a ambulance.” He dramatically continues but Rickenberger wasn’t having it.

“Stop being a baby .” He pulls him up to stand on his two perfectly fine legsand is stunned when Robby wraps his arms around his waist and plants his face in his chest. He had his arms hanging by his side , having no clue what to do.

“For someone who doesn’t bother my name , has gotten quite comfy with me.” He huffs fondly and looks around the parking lot .

“Iknowyourname.”Robby mumbles incoherently, he repeats it again.

“Huh.”

“Big giant giraffe .” There was no reason for Robby to laugh way too loud at that but then again there was no reason for Rickenberger to smile that big either.

They stay a bit longer , Robby ended up teaching him how to skate , They exchange stories of the dates they had , Robby tries not to take great offense on how loud the other laughs. The changed the topic to random shit.

“I’m a rom-com guy.” Robby confess not feeling embarrassed .

“What’s your favorite one.” Rickenberger ask genuinely , he knocks his knee to Robby’s . They sat on the cold sidewalk , their shoes planted on the skateboard moving it left to right.

“Laugh and I will hit you with my skatebored. “ Robby threatens .

“I promise.”

“Dirty Dancing.”Robby smacks his shoulder and pinches his arm “See , you broke it. I’ll let you know that movie is an icon and a masterpiece unlike your favorite movie”

“Sorry, Sorry, is that the reason Tory calls you Swayze .” Rickenberger takes a hold of Robby’s wrist and trying not keep on laughing.

“No but it’s one of the reasons. If you laugh this time I will hit you.” Robby warns again but the guy raised his hands in defense with that sly smile.

“I give you my word.” With those it makes Robby shyly smile .

“My mom thought it would be a great idea to give me that middle name. She was a big fan.” Robby waits for him to laugh but he just smiles and gives him a look that he can’t read.

“Robby Swayze Keene. It has a nice ring to it.”

“Of course it does.” Robby grins and puff his chest out playfully.

“Can you pull any moves like Swayze .”Rickenberger teases making Robby chuckle.

“I don’t know can you move your hips like Baby?” He challenges the dark haired boy who is now looking bashful.

“Unfortunately I have two left feet.”

“I want to see”

“If you want your feet intact , you really don’t.” Rickenberger warns but it was no use.

Robby pull his arm to get him up with a bit more effort . Reluctantly , Rickenberger gives in and lets Robby guide him and does a semi decent job not to crush the blondes foot but he so bad at it that Robby laughs so hard he almost pukes over his hoodie.

Peering down at Robby , and staring into the green eyes , he’s at loss of words . Meanwhile Robby is having inner turmoil at if he wants to kiss him or push him away.

He decides to lean up and kiss his chin and say , “You suck at dancing , Rickenberger.”

Rickenberger shouldn’t have been grinning that hard just because Robby had finally said his name. Not to mention how flushed he probably looks by the tiny soft peck .

🎶And if you're readin' the text all night long🎶

Robby never thought or imagined he would find himself with Rickenberger in a burger joint …with his dad.

There was a shift in their ‘friendship’. Something that Robby didn’t know if he should be worried about, It was small things but he had picked them up.

There was no awkwardness . They hugged often , spent more time in school and out of school; Robby had introduced the guy to his friends . Robby met Rickenbergers family , who were lovely and kind .

One time they held hands at the park , Rickenberger blushing became a thing , Robby wasn’t far behind either.

Robby had invited Rickenberger over to read , since it rained they couldn’t go to the park like they usually did . They were practically cuddling when his Dad came to his room. Robby tried to explain to him that they were just friends there was no need for Johnny to give the poor guy a shovel talk.

“What’s your name kid.” His dad asked with a bite in his tone.

“Rickenberger.” The por guys voice quivered .

“That’s his name?”

“It’s Doug but everyone calls him by his last name.” Robby explains , he gives Rickenberger a weird look because the guy was looking at him in surprise. Guess he wasn’t expecting to know his name. Which it was fair , he would call him anything but his name , but it was like a inside joke between them.

“Okay then , so what are your intentions with my son?” It drained the color of Dougs face .

“Dad!”

The poor guy didn’t even want to eat , he kept looking like scared child and Robby felt bad but he was enjoying it seeing him squirm . It was more funny when dad invited him to dinner but this time with Daniel .

Robby had a field day having his dad and Daniel grill the guy. Daniel was more gentle unlike his Dad that had no filter and stern. Midway it was going well until movies became the subject . It was his fault, he should’ve warned Doug that Top Gun was not to be mentioned in the earshot of his dad.

Doug had to sit there, looking like he was about die and was regretting even meeting Robby, as Johnny ranted how Iron Eagle is more better and superior than Top Gun.

Least to say , Doug didn’t want to stay for dessert.

“Sorry about my family. Dad can be intimidating.” Robby walked him to the door .

“A little heads up would’ve been great. If I thought Tory’s little talk was bad this took the cake.” Doug rubbed the back of his neck still feeling anxious. He learned his lesson.

“Again , sorry, are you sure you don’t want to stay for dessert. It’s cake.” Robby grabbed his hand and giving it a squeeze.

“ No , I don’t think I could handle your dad’s deathly glare across the table as I choke on cake.” He squeezes back and pulls him closer. Robby goes along easily.

“Even if I hold your hand.” Robby brings their interlaced hand between them.

“As tempting as that sounds , I’m going to pass .”

“Your loss.”

“Put in a good word for me , Robby.” Doug tipped Robby’s chin with his finger . It felt like something stickily warm melt throughout his chest in the way he said his name.

“Bye.” Robby waits until he can no longer see him to close the door. He stays there for a second , touching his chin and not realizing he is smiling like a dumb fool. Daniel and Johnny share a knowing look between them as they watched Robby break out every second as he ate his slice of chocolate cake.

Robby rubs his chest all night to get rid of the flush and the feeling . It was his name , it was nothing special. But… Robby

🎶This could be a disaster, there's so many factors🎶

Doug couldn’t believed he was lost. Not metaphorically , he was literally lost , to make it worse , in the woods . It was dark and couldn’t see jack shit. Their phones had died an hour ago.

His watch read it was 11:00 but he was sure he read that two hours ago. He was tired of walking in circles. You heard him right, he , and only him.

Robby had tripped over a branch and fell and hurt his knee. He couldn’t walk or limp his way out. So , Doug had been carrying his heavy ass for hours giving him shitty directions .

Robby wanted to show him this majestic lake and he agreed . It really lived up to Robby’s words it left him breathless for a minute but not as carrying Robby .

They had a picnic that Mr.LaRusso kindly prepared for them. Robby drew their surroundings and the beautiful view and Doug watched him not feeling bored . He really regrets that, if he did then they could’ve have left earlier .

“Go left.”

“We have been going left for hours. Just admit that we’re lost.” He complained. He was allowed too. He couldn’t even see shit with how dark it was no matter how hard his eyes adjusted to the darkness.

“Go left” Robby repeated and pinched his neck in annoyance.

Doug makes a sound mix of growl and scream. He goes left.

They took a break after that turn , Doug couldn’t feel his legs anymore . They sat on a big ass stone , double checked for any reptile or bugs.

“Im cold .” Robby had repeated that ten times already , he kept count. He didn’t have the energy to tell him to shut up or say something snarky. He took off his hoodie and handed over without a word.

He pointedly ignored the bubbling feeling that he got in seeing Robby wear his hoodie because now wasn’t time to be blushing like a schoolgirl .

“You think parents will come look for us?” He looks over to Robby , who was looking to the ground hunched over.

“Did you hear me?” He repeated but was met with silence. He couldn’t believe it. Was he mad right now. Whatever he won’t talk to him then.

“Are you seriously mad right now. I’m the one who should be mad.” Doug raised his eyebrows incredulously at the boy .

“Real cute , Robby.” Huffing he stands up and walks to the other side. Looking around trying to see if something looked familiar.

“This reminds me of my date with Venus.” Robby randomly blurts out . Doug knows who he’s talking about . She always gave Robby and now him the middle finger.

He hummed and squinted .

“She was fun until it got dark and I don’t like dark.”

“Was it that or you were just not into her? Or Anyone” The last part he whispers but Robby catches it.

“What do you mean?” Robby ask with scoff , feeling attacked .

“ I don’t know if you noticed you have been breaking hearts.” He plays with a dead leaf trying to not look judgemental .

“It’s not like that. What about you I haven’t seen you go out with any girl or guy.” Robby pointed to him , in a rush to change the topic.

“How can I ? When you’re glued to my side. Scaring all the recruiters away .” He complained . Checking his watch again, this time he was sure it was broken . It can’t still be 11:00.

“Didn’t realize you were looking for a girlfriend. My bad.” Robby clicked his tongue . Doug couldn’t see but he was rolling his eyes.

“Does it bother you if I do.” Doug really wish he could see his face . His reaction.

“No.” Robby winces at the quick response , he tries to sound nonchalant this time“Why would it.”

That was not the answer Doug wanted to hear so feeling hurt he ask Robby an uncomfortable question.

“Are you still in love with him?” He didn’t think he had to say his name.

“Who ?” Robby shifted in his place , sound of dead leaf and branches crunched under his shoes.

“Him. Is that the reason your always find your dates horrible because it’s not him.” Doug didn’t even bother to mask the anger in his tone.

Robby paused . He never thought about it . Maybe it had been that, he was in love with Shawn when he began dating again . But that live slowly faded to a memory now like all his loves that he had. It didn’t hurt to think about Shawn like it used to .

“At first. “ Robby looks away from his shoe to Doug’s eye whose gaze was not wavering. He could feel his eyes on him even if he can’t see”But not anymore.”

“Do you still love him?” Doug wants to know even if it broke him. He had to know now.

“Are you asking for me or for yourself.” Robby could hear the latter get more hostile . Robby wish he could reach out to calm him down.

“I’m just asking what everyone wants to know.” Doug chuckles dryly hurting Robby’s feelings.

“You’re an asshole.” Robby is really glad that he can’t the hurt that flashed in his eyes.

“I’m cold”Robby whined again. So much for the silent treatment. Doug was cold too now that he didn’t have a hoodie on his long sleeve shirt.

“What do you want me to do. I’m an asshole , remember.” He was still feeling petty even if he had to do with it too.

“Come over here.” Robby whispers . He pats the space next to him . The wind picked up again making him shiver. He really wish he memorized the directions correctly“Come over here.”

“Doug , please.”Robby pleads and stretches the words out for more effect.

Doug scoffed when he found himself going over . They cuddled trying to heat each other up but the freezing air reminded him it would get worse.

“I wish I had Tanner .” Robby turns to Doug . He nuzzles his face into his neck .

“I know , baby.” Doug rubbed their hands together for friction. It was working a tiny bit. He tried not to flinch when Robby’s cold nose touch his skin.

“I wish I had a hot chick right now” His laughter dies when Robby elbows his stomach way too hard.“OW! I’m kidding!”

“That wasn’t funny.” He could hear the pout that Robby was making. Robby tries to pull away but he wraps his arms around him tighter.

“Why not , Jealous much?” He teases the blonde who was now feeling warm by the blush creeping on.

“Random question , Did you ever hooked up with Hawk.” Robby is a master of changing topics. He had heard a few rumors about the guy , but one stuck out the most.

“Did you? “ Doug retaliates .

“We say it in the count of three.” Robby offers , settling back to Doug’s chest.

“1, 2, 3!” Both counted and both kept quiet. Making them laugh .

There was sound making them freeze. It was Robby’s phone, it turns out that it was not dead and Mr.Lawrence had texted him. They got into another argument about how the whole time they could’ve search for a good signal and get the fuck out of there.Their parents were not happy with them . Doug’s parent grounded him for being reckless .

He and Robby didn’t get too speak in the ride home since the blonde fell asleep on his shoulder. At home he later down on his bed , wide awake staring at his ceiling . His minds was working overtime trying to decipher if Robby was still in love with his ex and if he even had a chance.

Doug had realized the past few days that he had fallen for Robby. He tried shoving the feeling down but it was useless the boy had snuck his way in. But somehow tonight it just proved that there was a chance that Robby wouldn’t reciprocate . With how he didn’t answer.

His phone rang. He reached out to grab it and had to calm his heart from jumping out of his chest. It was Robby.

“I can’t sleep.” Robby tired voice rang out.

“You were drooling perfectly fine on my shoulder . I thought you’d be in you fifth dream by now.” He smiles as he hears Robby’s muffled laugh.

“Shut up. Something is keeping me awake.”

“Same. I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable with all the questions.”Doug hoped he could hear his sincerity. He was an asshole . Robby agrees way too quickly . He wounds him but Robby’s giggle heals him.

“Does it bother you that people might think we are dating.” Robby’s sounded small. Like the answer would scare him.

“Your parents and Tory think we are dating.” Doug say aloof , not wanting to sound nervous.

“You didn’t answer my question.” Robby presses again, voice more louder.

“You didn’t either.” He reminds him about the question in the woods. It was evasive .

“Im not in love with Shawn. I haven’t been for awhile .” Robby says without stuttering nor shaky. It was like he could breathe again , like a thorn had been plucked out from him.

“It doesn’t bother me. It never has. Insanely I like it , since I don’t have to worry you will date anyone else.” Doug closes his eyes waiting for Robby reaction.

“Why would that worry you?” Robby voice shook , he gripped his phone tighter not wanting his fingers to tremble.

“You’re important to me.” Doug answered truthfully not caring if Robby figures out his feelings. Robby laughs in disbelief on the other side .

“I’m serious . Robby you’re the most important person in my life even when you get us lost in the woods.Of you vomit on my black hoodie”

“You said promised to not to bring it up.”Robby smile is evident through his voice . When his laughter dies down Robby continues,”Your important too. I don’t want you to date anyone , even that girl from the park.”

“You got it , baby. “ Doug grinned and almost jumped out bed in excitement. But he stood still in bed and listened to Robby talk. They talked until they grew tired .

“Goodnight , Doug.” Robby whispers and waits for his response to hang up .

“Goodnight Robby.”

🎶Like, what if you freak out and then we're losin' it all🎶

Up till now , Tory Nichols had become Robby’s best friend. But recently panic attacks has been trying to steal her spot. It didn’t happen that quite often, only a certain amounts that Tory and his Dad were aware of them and knew how to help him out of it.

Tory would look into his eyes, say his full name and remind him to breathe , she reminds him where he’s at , ask for his permission to touch him , it would help him feel grounded.

And that was what she was doing at this moment.

You see , After the phone call ended he was hit, more like sucker punched into realization that he had developed feelings for a certain person.

And all he can think is all his choice he had done since he met and hanged out with Rickenberger. He started hyperventilating when he realized how he gotten Rickenberger to take him out and fix his terrible dates that he had .

Now when Robby thought of his dates at the park, of stuffed cute animals, 7 Eleven parking lots, and night dates it wasn’t Connie, Tom, Caleb, Tiffany or Venus .

It was Rickenberger, Rickenberger, Rickenberger, Rickenberger.

He sprinted to Tory’s , and knocked down on her door , sweat dripping off of him in the most disgusting way. Tory let him looking worried, her eyebrow furrow as she watched him go in circles explaining his problem .

“— Like I didn’t even notice. Did I do it unconsciously or intentionally ?! , I thought we were just friends, I wasn’t even into him, he was just some guy that helped me one time and I , a good human being ,wanted to pay him back by being a friend”

“Robby, maybe you should take a second-.”

“And he is not a good friend let me tell you that. It took him weeks to utter more that 5 words to me. I had to dig deep , deep, deep ,and deep for him to actually look at me without his resting bitch face—

“Swayze—

“Oh my God. That was my problem. I should’ve know . How didn’t I recognize it. I was blushing , blushing, when he called me Robby!” Robby looked and sounded hysterical. He pulled at his hair in frustration “That’s my name, I shouldn’t even be blushing by that.”

“Hey, sit and take a deep breath. It’s not good-.” Tory tried to get him to sit down and drink a cup of water .

“Oh my God, Oh my God, Oh my God! “ He scalp scream when he pulled harder.

“What?” Tory froze in concern .

“I’m cutting you off!, You know what that means? ,I like Doug or more.” Tory pulls his hands away from his hair and forced him to sit. He stood quiet at his epiphany . He felt his surroundings get cloudy and mushy.

“Robby there’s nothing wrong with that.” Tory grabbed his hand . She was worried about him. She knew he was going to react bad .

Robby knows that. But he knows that he will never be good enough for anyone. They only kept him for awhile like a paper weight until the wind leaves. His breathing turns erratic and Tory helps him patiently to bring him out of his foggy mind.

🎶 At the critical chapter where I say, "I love you" 🎶

Robby decided to end things. He stuttered his whole speech and argument and avoided eye contact , including putting distance between them. Doug didn’t interrupt once but somehow he knew the cute smile he once had when Robby pulled him aside was long gone.

“Wow.” Hurt was written all over his face. It made Robby heart sunk. He had hold back from reaching out.Doug laughs bitterly avoiding his eyes now.“I’m getting dump. Which is funny because we are not even a couple.”

“This is not how I wanted things to end up.” Robby tried to explain but it was no use . He felt his throat was tied in a knot . Robby thought it would be easier like the countless times he had done it with the others. But having Doug look at him with a blank face hurt a thousand times than slaps he’d received.

“Don’t lie. This is how you want things to end, You just decided to do it right now“Doug voice was cold and harsh. Doug felt stupid in believing Robby could ever feel something for him. He had to leave he couldn’t look at him anymore , to look at the pity look was like a thousand stabs to the heart.

“Doug-“ Robby tried to speak but was cut off and this time he couldn’t even make a joke about it .

“Just don’t.”

Robby stood there holding back his tears . Regretting his choice but there was no turning back. Robby had to deal with the absence and the ache in his chest. Tory , Sam and Demetri always made sure to be with him at all times . It made him feel a tad bit better.

But Robby knew you can’t replace someone with anyone.

🎶 And you don't say it after🎶

“Pup, Your friend is at the door.” Johnny knocked his door and told him he was going to be in his room to give him ‘privacy’.

“What are you doing here?” Robby asked Doug. The guy stood there , for once not looking awkward with his tall body , he looked determined and Robby didn’t know what for.

“You owe me 100 dollars.”Doug shrugged and didn’t offer anything else. Robby had to held back a disappointed sigh, he was kind of expecting…He is not sure what but no this.

“Right, uh , Give me a minute to ask my dad to loan me some cash.” Robby points with his thumb over his shoulder. He tries to move back but a hand stops him.

“No. That won’t do.” Both of them stare where their hands touch . Robby wanted to pull away but he couldn’t , he wanted to stay there and just hold Doug’s hand.

“Your want with interest too?” Robby tried to joke but fell flat, because that’s what you do when you try to avoid problems or feelings for that matter.

“Yeah, actually I do. Go put some shoes on .” Doug ordered

“Okay…” Robby was confused. And even more confused that he obeyed and got on his car without a fight. The drive was quiet , not one uttered a word. It was like when they started hanging out.

🎶 This could be a disaster, I'm pedaling backwards

By saying that I'm drunk, I really shouldn't have called🎶

Once parked, Robby turned to the window to look outside. He told Doug he was not getting out , Doug opened his door , and against his better judgement his feet went against him and walked in .

“What are we doing here.” Robby couldn’t keep quiet anymore. He kept his tone hushed not wanting any stranger to listen in their private conversation. He’d knows by experience the information he knows about a just because they talk way too loud.

“We are going to buy tickets, sit down and watch the big screen. And if you’re a good boy in line , I might buy you the large bucket of popcorn.” Doug gave him a cheery smile that stuck familiar. Robby was not connecting the pieces . A few days ago , both of them haven’t spoke since that day .

“That’s not what I meant.” Robby shuffled forward when the line moved. Why was there so many people?

“We’re going to watch Top Gun Maverick .” Doug explained slower and patted his shoulder. He lets out a smile, a real one this time now that he sees Robby understanding .

“Doug, I’m serious.” Robby shoulders fell. How did he not see his own work all over the blueprints . Even if Robby was jumping and screaming in the inside it still wasn’t a good idea .

“I’m serious , do you see me laughing, I was told that the cast is hot.” He was not laughing but he was smirking .

“No.”Robby was determined and tried to stick his ground.

“I’m not kidding, Miles teller is trending , not really into mustaches but I was sold. Glen Powell from-”

“What I mean , why are we here. I told you this thing is not going to work out.” Robby cuts him off before he loses concentration because of Glen Powell .

“Your protection squad came over to talk to me. Including Miguel and Hawk.They made me understand what you did. I’ve learned you like to overthink in that smart brain of yours. You like to over analyze the tiniest things, if my smile meant something more when I gave it to you or to a random guy, if our hands touch each other for more than 5 seconds, If we call each other a 3 am means something other than us having insomnia and then creating an ending so you won’t go to the trouble of suffering of a broken heart.” Doug gently grabbed his hand and leaned down to look at him in the most softest way Robby ever had someone looked at him.

“That’s not true.” Robby argues weakly causing Doug laugh.

“It is baby. And you know what, let’s do it together , let’s take it day by day . We go on your own pace . I’d rather have you now than to think in a few year at wonder what could’ve been . I know your scared that we could end quicker than you imagine but what if we last forever , Even if it sounds impossible . I want to try because I like you and maybe even more Robby.” Doug did his best not to let his voice crack or burst out into tears . He was holding on to Robby for dear life because there was a bigger chance Robby would reject him than to date him.

“I don’t like promises.” Robby says pulling away from him.

“I don’t break them.” Doug hearts break a little but keeps on trying.

“Eventually everyone does.” Robby chin wobbles and that hits Doug harder .

“I give you my word , Robby. “ It’s hard to speak when there’s a knot in his throat trying to suffocate him. He watches Robby walk around taking deep breaths in and out.

Robby comes back and simply says ,“Minions“ Making Doug confused and thought he heard wrong. Robby couldn’t believe he was agreeing but his giant was right. Maybe he could get his heart broken again but He wants to try again and not because he needs to but because he wants too. Desperately .

“Huh?”

“Dad would kill you if he finds out you took me to watch Top Gun .”He shakes his head fondly and pulls them into the long line again.

“Minions it is then.” They both had matching smiles and glossy eyes . They held hands tightly not wanting to risk in being separated again.

Doug bought the tickets and let Robby choose the snacks. They got a bucket of popcorn which Doug promised, sour skittles, and some sour gummy worms. And decided on a big sprite for the two of them. Doug finds his wallet hollow every time he goes out with Robby. He’d just have to find a job.

Their hands were full , they walked slowly trying not to drop anything. Taking their seat , waiting for the movie to begin , Robby shoe began to tap, a sign Doug picked up , that he was nervous.

Grabbing his hand, interlacing their fingers brought Robby out of his fuzzy mind. Robby sighs and his shoulders drop, slowly melting into the seats and squeezed Doug’s hand .

“I’m here. I’m going to stay until you don’t want me anymore .” Doug reassured him .

“Even if you never could watch Top Gun ?” Robby half jokes because that might be true in for his safety.

“I probably sneak off with Mr. LaRusso , I bet he had a thing for Val Kilmer.” Doug snickers at Robby fake scandalized look.

“You cannot repeat that information ever, never to my dad , he will literally bury you alive.” Robby whispers pausing to laugh away .

“As long as you come and visit me at my grave. “

“It wouldn’t be my first date in a graveyard I’ll tell you that.” Robby shoves a handful of popcorn into his mouth . Doug really was a goner because even with a mouthful of popcorn Robby looks beautiful .

“Robby?”

“Hmmm.”

“This won’t be a disaster.”

“Even if I don’t pay your money back.” Robby green eyes shined in the dark room , and Doug really gets it now. With those eyelashes Robby really has it all to be a prince.

“I made my peace that I will never see that money again.” Doug dramatically sighs making Robby grin making his eyes crinkle making his heart beat faster.

“Worth it?” Robby does that cute puppy tilt and man was he a goner. He leans forward and seals the distance between them, it felt like paradise to finally kiss Robby. If he felt his heart full when Robby give him a peck on his chin ,now he felt like he was tasting heaven. His lips were soft as they looked . He discreetly pinches himself just in case he was dreaming.

“Down to the last penny.”

🎶I'm a little bit plastered, you call me a liar🎶

🎶Now I'm fallin' in faster

This could be a disaster🎶

(Ignore all the mistakes and the timeline .it is an au so…)

#robby keene #doug rickenberger #roug #cobra kai #au moodboard #moodboard #doug cobra kai #robby cobra kai #movie au aesthetic #movie date #movie date aesthetic

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Backwards reflection

Summary: Coriolanus deals wiht the war inside his head. You might be too alike after all, but maybe that's why you need each other. Facing the ugly sides is a mirror you have grown to love.

Pairing: Sub!Coriolanus Snow x Dom!reader

Warnings: Coriolanus and reader (edge lords who are a bit fucked in the head), angst, making out, fighting, lots of inner angst and bad emotions for both parties, brief fight, kissing, technically some nudity(nothing happens just touch starvation)

A/N: this tired me out emotionally and physically but I live making this man pathetic. Part three will include smut.(finally)

Word count: 3.2k

[Part 1] [Masterlist]

Coriolanus Snow who never acted out after the incident. Sure there were times where your behavior got on his nerves but you'd grown familiar with his responses and moods so you soothed his anger with a loving touch and he as always gave in.

Coriolanus Snow who had never realized how good it felt to be spoiled. He had never allowed himself the thought of relinquishing his control in any way to someone, it was all he had during the harder days. But with you here? Sure you hadnt given him much of a choice in the beginning, but you cared for him in the transactional way he did for you.

You loved each other the only way you could, and most days that was enough.

Most of his time was still spent juggling the Academy and keeping his reputation pristine but there was no need to be as obsessed with it as before. He'd give himself a breather sit and smell the roses(literaly). He'd sit in parks and indulge in using the lavish Capitol public transport with the card you'd given him. He discovers how limited his world has been, it hadn't occurred to him to think about the spaces inbetween the Academy and his home. He visits parks and gardens, cafes and restaurants. He meets a lot of his classmates outside of school, albeit it involuntarily, but still he indulges in their company now that the look of their inherited riches doesn't make him sick. He strengthens his bonds and positions. He feels good.

☆Coriolanus Snow who enjoys life under your thumb. You are aware of everything he does, who he meets and where he goes, what he buys. He never asks from where you get your information, you never answer anyways. He is behaving himself for now, so you alow him to roam freely but both of you know you'll clip his wings faster than he could comprehend if it came down to it.

☆Coriolanus Snow who spends most of his free time with you. At first it felt obligatory to be seen with you but now seeing you, talking with you, eating praise at the palm of your hand it felt like second nature.

You'd attend parties together, matching clothes in reds and whites. At first you'd allowed for his tailored clothes to show the symbol of his family but slowly you'd started to incorporate the crest of your family on it instead. Soon enough he was walking around branded as yours.

☆Coriolanus Snow who on good days felt triumphant, like he had won the lottery with this deal. Who would beam at you as you'd eat in some fancy restaurant, intertwining your hands together and going as far as to feed you from his plate if he deemed the dish so good.

☆Coriolanus who nuzzles his cheek into yours and the tip of his cold nose brushed yours and he laughed. A pure and beautiful sound you don't hear too often, you'd buy it if you could, alas it was too priceless.

☆Coriolanus who viewed you as his in his own way. You had become the center of his universe(on purpose) and he enjoyed it. Always having a gentle soft hand on your lower back, not so much guiding you but holding onto you. Coriolanus who held you tightly on the new matress you'd bough together as a form of shopping date, like you were his personal stuffed toy. You wouldn't admit you enjoyed it. But you did.

☆Coriolanus Snow who on good days relishes into the feeling of being known wholly and still accepted. Who enjoyed walking around without the weight of a bravado or mask. Coriolanus Snow who loved you without fear.

✹Coriolanus Snow who on bad days lived in constant fear that he wouldn't live up to the transaction and you'd leave him. He'd seen hiw fast you cut other people, how fast and with no warning you left him when he stepped out of line.

He comforts himself with the thought that you'd spent way too much money on him to just dump him out of the blue, as long as he behaved. That you could fix him, mend him, shape him however you liked and he'd let you. He'd let you shatter him if it meant you'd continue to (love) support him.

✹Coriolanus Snow who on bad days would study and work hard even harder than before. A part of him hated hiw easily he had slipped into your trap. How vulnerable to your whims hr had become, how dependent he was. He was scared you'd pull the rug and all would fall apart underneath him, his last chance at a future outside of poverty.

His whole demeanor would be off and you could tell immediately that it was one of his bad days even before he answered your daily calls on the phone you bought him. When he got into his fits of studying out of misery he became almost unreachable, he knew you were the one calling. I mean, no one else could call him.

He'd answer eventually and you'd invite hik to dinner in your house. Sometimes when he really had to study for a test you wouldn't force him to come, you still wanted him to actually have good grades, its among the things you like most about him. But now you know by the tiredness and lack of emotion in his short answers that he was simply not in a good place.

And he'd come at the designated hour, politely knock and make small talk with your parents. They weren't fully aware of your deal, they could see the indent of the money in your bank account but also it was money they had given to you to use however you liked so they didn't ask too much questions. If all of you started poking your nose in each other's business your family would fall apart.

Your parents liked Coriolanus, that meant they didn't mind you spending time with him or spending money on him. They also didn't mind it when you excuse the both of you from dinner in the grand hall and lead Coriolanus up to your room where a small feast was organized.

You'd walk ahead even if Coriolanus knew the path by heart, he spent a lot of time here. While his apartment had gotten a few renovations it was still showing all the signs of his finances demise, how he truly didn't belong in the world he was trying to be in. His envy and pride had kept him going blindly for uears to come, it's not like he had much choice. It was that or giving up and letting all the two people he cared about die with him.

In all his years he hadn't allowed himself to stop, to weaver, to be shaken for long from his future position, almost like it was promised to him. His circumstances didn't allow for anything else. Now he had too much time to sit with his own thoughts. Too much time to reminiscent about how much he had taken from Tigris'es youth, to notice how old grandma'am had become. How fragile his little world was.

Coriolanus'es heavy monotony steps echo behind you, you walk with your chin high and fight the urge to turn around to look at him. You know he is there. But you still want to see if he is with you, or lost in his own self made prison by your doing.

You reach your room and Coriolanus goes to open it by muscle memory. His gaze is still unfocused and far away and the thin layer of skin around his eyes seems worn out and raw. It makes something stir inside you, anger. He is wearing one of the cotton shirts you had given him, plain and simple with some blue pants that reached hus ankles. The necklace you'd given him for your first supposed "anniversary" sat prettily on his collarbone. It was a simple rose gold chain with a small pendant of your family's crest: the version was simplified but the branches of the walnut trees that made up a circular frame and the small image of lion stood proudly in its middle, teeth bared. The chain wasn't long, and it made it accidentally(completely on purpose) seem like a collar. The sight puts you a bit at ease.

You both enter your spacious room, it smells faintly of the perfume you wear. On the large bed lay multiple trays with lavish dishes all unique, with different protein or no protein, depending on what the both of you would prefer. Corio rarely would turn up his nose at something, for reasons that were never spoken but understood. You watched him suffer through a bean based dish once and decided not to do it again.

Usually by this point the sight and smell of your signature scent, the warmth of your room and the aroma of food would calm his mind and bring some light back into him, but today he seemed too far gone.

Even as you both sat on the bed, the matress dipping under your weight, he ate a few bites and most of the time simply keep his gaze occupied with something else. It made some sort of anger rise in you. You tell you're you are angry because he isn't cooperating, that you've spent so much on him and he doesn't enjoy it, that he is being selfish. The soft metal of your fork seems entirely too bendable in your tight fist. You tell yourself you hate it when he isn't acting like you want him too, it's not being you hate your own powerlessness, that you can't fix this by throwing money. You could lie, but you don't.

The whirling of emotions claw its way from your gut through your lungs and throat, where it begs to be released in harsh words and imbalanced actions. Your mind grows dull of reason and your tongue sharpens. But you are better than this. You have self control. You have the control.

"I have not poisnoned the food, no need to check it."

You bite out as coldly as you can, if you don't you might burn him with your own powerlessness. His gaze momentarily shifts upwards and to you, his eyes have a yellowing touch to them and the veins are prominant and red, eyes glassy hopefully from reading and writting for so long.

"I never thought you had."

"Is there another reason you arent eating then? Perhaps the food is not up to par?"

You can hear the barely hidden venom in your voice. He can hear it too. The air feels tense and almost weavers as you both look at each other. Corio as always reads you as well as you read him and quickly becomes defensive from his own powerlessness.

"The food is lovely."

He spats back at you with a forced angry smile. This was it. You were getting tired of him and his leaching off of you. The same way the charm of a Christmas puppy would wear off after a month or two so had his own twisted charisma. He would be thrown out in the cold and left to starve, quite literally like a dog. The betrayal made his chest flare up, it set something ablaze.

Both of you stand there the embodiment of pride as all can be heard is the faint sound of the ambient music from downstairs piano and the sound of both of your breathing. That and the blood rushing through your ears. Both of you stoically and pridefully guard their response and face, force of habit from the years of play pretend.

This was the hard thing about this comrades, deal, relationship of yours, you were the same. This puzzle pieces etched from the same wood that fit together in a way no one else could. But once theatching ugly sides were facing you couldn't even be close.

His brows scrunch firtger together and he seems to be loosing the inner fight with his head just as you are. Emotions got the best of him. The best of you.

So you pulled him by the chain and smashed your lips against his.

The unspoken argument was still hot on his lips but so were your own as then mended together. His lips were as soft as you had imagined on one occasion. At first he didn't respond, not expecting for you to allow him to stay. He thought you'd finally force him to leave.

His lack of response doesn't stop you, you double down and place your hands on either side of his jaw, digging your short manicured nails into the warm flesh under where his ear and jaw meet. You were going to keep him here with you, not his stupid head, not his hatred and fear, not inside the prison of his mind, with you.

It seemed to snap Coriolanus back to life. In a flash his eyes close and his lips move against yours, the kiss is slow but very raw. His teeth brush against yours and his lips redden and glisten as they dance with yours. It's not a fight for dominance like you'd expect, it feels like you are trying to consume each other until you are one. His hands dig into the cotton material of your house clothes. They lacked the usual designer brand and rich material you usually sported, it made him feel a bit better, it made you feel barer.

His nails dig crescents into the skin of your lower back, his warm hands had found their anchor underneath your shirt and on your body.

You were warm, so so warm. And he felt like he was dying of the cold, in his apartment, in his bed, in his body. He felt cold. He wanted to be warmed by you, that's all he wanted.

You take a step closer and now your clotyed chest is against his, your hands have found their way in his hair and his own are resting in a tight embrace on your back underneath the cloth. You pull off of the kiss breathless and a bit hazy minded, you'd never done that before and judging by the disheveled boy woth dilated eyes and lips redden by your chapstick he was feeling the effect of making out for the first time.

It proved more addicting than you had expected and after quickly putting the trays with almsot untouched food on your vanity you quickly crawl on the bed to continue. It was head-spinning and electric, it made your body shiver as you got lost in it. Maybe a more rational part of you would have done things differently, made you the seductress, made you the one in control, but your hormones were raging and Coriolanus was kissing you like he's trying to fry his brain up and fill the black hole in his chest. You couldn't pull away, it felt like all the barriers set up by society, yourself, your image and even the physical form were blurring and evaporating, especially as Coriolanus's lips trailed lower and kissed and nipped at your jaw and neck.

The movements were desperate, like he was trying to crawl in your skin. You weren't much better as your hands skimmed up and down his back, underneath the layers to feel his hot back, he felt like a furnace against you.

"Coriolan-"

"Corio, please call me Corio"

He muttered into your neck, his body weight was almost fully on you, only held up by his knees on either side of your hips and one hand that squished the pillow next to your head. It made your brain go quiet for a few seconds but you didn't want that. This was all going wrong. You are supposed to be in control.

So you grab him by the neck, you nails leave pink marks on the sides of the sweaty flesh and you make him look in your eyes and stop lavishing your neck.

"Who do you belong to, Corio?"

Your voice didn't carry the same steelness to it as ususal but it came out as a threats hiss and that was enough for you. At first he didn't react his wide pupils made his eyes seem almost black. Then he opens his mouth and wrapped his lips around words he couldn't stomach before.

"Im yours, Im yours, y/n. Let me be yours, please"

It's whiny and desperate, a bit tearfully if you listened closely. It soothes something deep inside of you but your expression doesn't let up, scrunching into an deadly grimace, the hand at his neck tightens until you can feel his thriving heartbeat against your palm.

"If you think there is some way for you to escape from me you are wrong. No one can help you, no man, no woman. You are mine, and you will like it"

You gritt out and you can feel a vein pop on your face as you stare unforgiving at him, as if it will drill it in his head and keep him happy. Because you wanted him happy.

His lips are half open and his eyes are doe wide, maybe it's the fact this sick proclamation soothes him, or maybe it's the fact he sees the weakness inside of you that makes him feel better. He doesn't know. He hasn't been thinking straight since he crawled on your bed. He leans down and a stray curl of his blond hair coiled and brushed against your forearm. His lips meet with your wrist and he places such a delicate kiss there you almost believe he cares about you. It halts your bravado and gives him enough time to lift his gaze you and look at you through his lashes.

"You are all that matteres to me. You are everything that i have. Let me be yours."

He says and drops his hand down so his forehead lays at the back of your hand. His words and the shock from there seeming sincerely makes your hold loosen. His lips are at your knuckles and he holds your smaller hand in both of his like he is praying at deity. For all he cares, you are his religion and sacred salvation. The closest his soul will get to accending is when he is pressed so tightly against you he confuses what is his and what is yours.

"i love you the only way i know how to. I'll make it be enough for you. Ill be enough for you."

You don't know what to say. No response cokes and you are scare of what will come.ojt even if it did. You have no words for hik to soothe his longing, you don't know how. Your armor stands shining as he bears himself for you.

You press your lips to the crown of his head and keep them there, you envelope his head in your hands and bring him back to you. He eagerly let's you move him as you like and when he rests his head against your now bare chest It makes something click in his brain. He takes off his won shirt and lays back down with you.

You can't say if he simply clinging to you or the otger way around. All you know is that you feel warm. You feel good. The cold ess is gone and you are here with him. With Corio, with your Corio who you love, you don't know how or where to even begin to understand this twisted version of something supposedly innocent. All you know is you belong with him.

He belongs to you. He isn't going anywhere and judging by how comfortable he is underneath your heavy duvet and in your arms, nestled on the warm skin of your chest, he doesn't plan on going anywhere either.

In the end you got what you want.

Coriolanus wanted you willingly, even if this wasn't the path you thought it would take.

Doesn't matter, you always won in the end. Right?

(Im gonna make them both suffer yall)