I was just thinking about how when we spend a lot of time at a place, we know how to move around it by heart. I still know my way through my old school, my childhood house, through my childhood friend’s house that I haven’t seen in years, and through the store I used to go to when I was a kid. And even if I tried, I don’t think I could ever forget. Even if I never step foot in any of these places again, I’d know where to go, and how to move around it and find the things I want.
And isn’t it like that with people, too? I don’t think anyone changes so much that you wouldn’t be able to move inside of them like you used to. I think the essential parts never do. So I wonder, if I could take all the people from my past, and turn them into places, would I know where to go?
I’d like to think yes. I’d like to think that that is one of the things that stays with you, once people are gone, like a map. Are the things that once decorated the walls inside of your body untouched? Have they been replaced, moved, or are they still the same? The same things that made me love you? Will you let me roam around you, and see if I find my way back to your heart? Or will you leave me wondering for the rest of my life, hoping that I'm never lost?
and you were incredible, something I couldn't begin to explain and didn't want to.
everything about you existed as this immovable constant in my mind.
no distance would stop me from loving you, no argument would make me love you less, and nothing could stop the words from pouring out when I declared just how much...
my heart broke for the first time when I was 18.
and you left remnants of love etched into my skin.
you existed in photos and texts and everything I was desperate to forget about.
no distance stopped me from thinking of you, no time has passed that's made me think less of you, and there are nights even now I wonder whether I'm still in love...
I just don't think there's enough pre-war Stefano, two eyes "normal" art student Stefano
I also just don't think there's enough Stefano x Emily, I know she isn't directly in the game but he has an entire section and a few art pieces dedicated to her and you just KNOW he was a weirdo to her and I feel like tew fandom needs to step back and come to terms with the fact that yes, Stefano is sexy but he's also absolutely a weird little man who obsessed over a girl and doesn't take art criticism.