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fruitmins · 1 year

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Oᵤᵣ Bᵢg Bₐby / BTS OT7

➭genre: little space, age regression, fluff, caregivers bts, little reader, sfw, hurt/comfort, mostly no plot

➭warnings: none

➭note: I have 100 followers?? wtff??? I love you all?? Thank you for the support??🫶🏃‍♀️. updated the masterlist finally

The boys never liked the idea of you having a job in the first place. On top of the possibility of you slipping into little space at work or someone realizing you live with the biggest boy group in the world, they had money. They could pay for all of your expenses anyways.

So why did you get a job? Simply to get out of the house and to have your own hard earned money in your pocket.

It didn’t take long for you to quickly feel bad about all the things they’d get for you big or little. And it didn’t take long for the mansion they moved you into with them to get small.

So here you were, two weeks into your job as a simple barista when you made your first mistake. Someone had ordered a pink drink that was pretty with strawberries and once you saw the sprinkles you slipped.

You hurriedly finished the order the best you could and rushed into the bathroom but to your horror one of your mangers Gigi, had already been in there and was washing her hands.

“What are you doing?” She quickly questioned you. She had always been a hard ass and almost no one liked her. She was picky with everything anyone did and had obvious favorites. “Your not on break, are you?”

Stupidly, your five year old mind told the truth and shook your head no.

“Then get back to work what’s wrong with you.” She said harshly which immediately brought tears to your eyes. She had yelled at you before so her harsh tone usually wouldn’t push you. But it was different when you were little, and she seemed to see that something was wrong.

She glanced at the sprinkles stuck to your sweaty hands, then at your glossy eyes. She raised an eyebrow, “How old are you twelve? Stop acting like a fucking child.” She scolded again taking a step towards you.

“N-No I’m five!” You shouted out of fear and she immediately realized what was happening. Her lips curled into a nasty grin before grabbing your ear and pulling on it as she lead out out the bathroom.

“You’re one of them idiots that think they are kids. Well guess what? Kids have to work too. And if you don’t, I’m deducting your pay.” She whispered into your ear before harshly pushing you towards the cash register where another coworker had took over.

You had no choice but to continue working and every day after that she’d keep a good eye on you. She’d criticize your every move and did things like intentionally throwing sprinkles on the floor and demanding you to sweep them up. She’d try to trigger you on purpose and when you eventually slipped she’d yell and demand you to do the most impossible tasks.

And if you dare tried to get out of it or not do it at all it only made things worse.

You were seriously thinking about quitting altogether, but being a barista soothed you and you liked the people you worked with. Of course there were occasional rude customers but you liked how organized the job was and just liked getting out of the house without it being such a hassle.

But working was starting to effect you mentally (since slipping was a coping mechanism and stress reliever) and was starting to effect you at home with the boys.

You started not to slip at home even though they were your caregivers, you were scared of death of slipping. So in turn, you started distancing yourself from them whenever you happened to slip. And then distancing yourself period.

You’d stay in your room most of the day and when it was time for dinner you have short answers whenever they tired to make conversation.

Even though they themselves were busy, your detaching did not go unnoticed. Neither did the fact that you were never little. The longest you’ve able to stay big was a week, but now it was going on three.

Finally, one day when you were off they sat you down on the couch for a talk.

“Y/N, did we do something?” Namjoon was the first to speak and the heartbreak in his voice caught you off guard.

“What?” You asked confused. That’s when you noticed how hurt they all looked. They weren’t pouting, more like sulking.

“You’ve just been distant lately. Always at work and always tired when you come home..” Hobi stated with a cautious voice as you swallowed a lump of guilt.

You hadn’t told them anything. You didn’t want them dealing with your work problems when they had their own. They had always fixed your problems to begin with, you could handle a bully on your own.

“You must be confusing me with Yoongi.” You spoke in a flat voice. You were trying to play it off as a joke but it didn’t come out right. Still, it amused Jin who let out a chuckle.

“Okay well you also haven’t slipped.” Taehyung spoke in a matter-of-factly tone which quickly made the room quiet and tense.

“I haven’t noticed..” you mumbled it obviously being a lie as you looked down at the couch.

“Really? Or did you just think we wouldn’t notice?” Jungkook corrected you quickly with a bitter tone. The words caught you off guard as you made eye contact with him. He looked sad but worried for you.

“Y/N we aren’t just your caregivers, we’re friends. Tell us what’s wrong?” Yoongi’s usual rough voice turned soft which made you shiver and shift uncomfortably in your seat. You couldn’t slip, not now.

This also didn’t go unnoticed and they suddenly had a new plan using only their eyes to confirm.

“Nothing.” You denied again.

“What’s wrong, angel? Why are you lying to us?” Jimin asked with an intention pleading tone.

Your eyes widen in realization. They were trying to get you to slip. But it far to late now.

“I’m not~” you said again in a more whiny tone as you slouched back on the couch. The warm fuzziness in your stomach was too strong to ignore this time. Especially when Tae started to pull you into his lap and stroke your hair.

The more you tried to fight the urge the more your head started to hurt. Flashbacks on your job clouded your mind as you started to cry. That’s when you broke.

“It’s okay princess.” Jungkook soothed you, using his hand to wipe your tears. “Let’s get you into some fuzzy clothes and a pull up.” He proposed taking you off of Jimin’s lap and into his arms as he headed to your room.

Not wanting to crowd you, the rest of them stayed downstairs while Jungkook whispered sweet things to you as he changed you into a comfortable onesie.

When you were back downstairs Jin had already prepared some small snacks for you along with a juice box.

“Baby, something’s made you distant and sad.” Namjoon stated once he had finished the snack and were sipping on the juice box. “We want to help you, but you have to let us okay?”

You nodded, taking a minute to form your words before speaking. “At work. Boss lady mean.” You whispered which immediately made them frown.

“What does boss lady say?” Tae asked with a worried expression as he held your hand while you were bouncing on Hobi’s lap.

“She say littles are dumb.” Tears formed in your eyes as you thought back at her mean shouting. “She yell and tug when I make messes. She no like littles.”

You could feel Yoongi hold you tighten on your hand when you continued as the boys all shared the same looks at each other. The ‘someone is getting fired’ look.

“Am I dumb?” You asked them when they went silent as your lip quivered.

“Absolutely not!” Jungkook immediately answered. “Boss lady doesn’t know what she’s talking about. You are a gift.” He continued in a strong voice. He was trying not to get to angry in front of you but his blood boiled at the thought of someone saying these things to you.

“Why didn’t you tell us this was happening baby? We would of helped you before it got to bad.” Jimin asked with a frown while he tried to maintain eye contact with you.

“I wanted to fix it myshelf.” You state in a low voice, feeling disappointed.

“It’s okay. You can be independent. It’s just when things get to bad you have to tell us.” Hobi told you softly but in a firm tone to know he was serious and you nodded.

“We’re gonna make sure she never does it again.” Tae reassured you with a head pat but you just frowned. “I can’t work?” You asked.

“You can still work sweetie. We know how much you like earning money and how relaxed you are when you work.” Jin reassured you with a gentle smile.

“It’s however the fuck boss lady is that can’t work anymore.” Yoongi mumbled angrily but it only caused you to smile.

“Swear.” You giggled and pointing as the rest of them glared at Yoongi. You loved when Yoongi swore around you, simply because he wasn’t supposed to. You grinned whenever he got scolded or smacked by Jin. Yoongi just ignored the looks and lightly chuckled, your giggles making him slightly less mad.

Once everything was settled the boys immediately had someone on the phone with your manager and she was fired only three days later.

So you vowed to yourself to tell them if anything was bothering you again.

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loveregrown · 4 months

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The average amberprice shipper thinks there's nothing wrong with them, that rachel is an angel and the only one chloe could ever love, and that them reuniting in heaven is the best fate for both of them. Well it's something the most boring people who have the utmost black and white view of life is strange do which is the one thing you shouldn't do when it comes to this game and how each character is at least a little flawed and overlook key aspects of what makes their relationship so fascinating and also refuse to acknowledge how horribly rachel hurt chloe. She really damaged her, but it isn't truly one sided considering they were mentally ill teenagers who enabled each other and clung to each other like leeches when they had nobody else! It's shown again and again through so much symbolism in BTS like chloe's nightmares which are some of my favorite scenes due to how haunting they are and telling of her state at the time unrelated to AP or the traintrack scene in BTS vs LIS1 that's so blatant it's almost like a slap to the face, and I also hate I hateeee rachel antis who think she's a malicious master manipulator too despite the fact at points she like definitely did use chloe, and blame her for being a victim of grooming. Go to hell. Why does she have to be an angel or a devil, when to be dehumanized by others and herself is what doomed her and lead to her haunting the narrative? To put her on a pedestal would be the last thing she'd want, even if she did this to herself, and chloe subconsicously did, too. She's my little princess but also their relationship was built off of horrors but they really genuinely needed each other and loved each other so, so much and so earnestly. It's just that chloe wasn't Enough for rachel, who had such big dreams, and chloe never got to Truly know her either even if she came So close to it. So close... the pain makes their love more beautiful, almost. They deserved good things and it's heartbreaking. Their twisted ass situationship that lives in my heart forever. But I've already talked about this countless times before I'm like a broken record I just like them so much & I'm too autistic about it ... I think maybe they could've had a future together if they really tried and resolved their issues even a little, but the fact they didn't get to is so tragic and captivating. Uuuu chloe's delusional 16 year old baby lesbian adventures. There's this part where she confronts joyce in how she's using her relationship with david to cope but almost Everything she says can be applied to how she's using her relatioship with rachel to cope with the loss of max and it makes me a little crazy. I don't think it's endgame, but something doesn't have to be endgame to be special. To be meaningful.

#❀#I am an amberprice fan who just has so many particular views about them #somethng about how the amberptice timeline's chloe is exactly the same as shr was in lis1 compared to maxs chloe #int he comics.. yeah

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writemywaytoyourheart · 3 years

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BTS Reaction: You Have An Ovarian Cyst

Requested: yes a long time ago ;-;

Genre: fluff

Warnings: uh, mentions of ovarian cysts but it's not that bad lol

A/n: I know it's taken me a long time to get something out and I'm sorry about that. But I hope you enjoy this anyway 🙂 love you guys!

KIM SEOKJIN:

I love this man...that is all

"What do you want for dinner tonight, princess?"

Jin looks at you from across the shopping cart between you two as you browse the vegetable aisle. He frowns when you don't seem to be paying attention to him, just keep gently pushing on the avocados to test their ripeness.

"Y/n?"

"Huh?" You finally look up at him and he smiles.

"I asked what you'd like for dinner tonight."

MIN YOONGI:

"Oh, sorry." You laugh quietly, but Jin immediately picks up that something is wrong. He comes around the cart to put his hands on your shoulders, making you face him.

"Is everything alright, princess?"

"Yeah...it's just..." You look around to make sure no one overhears you.

"It just hurts." You finally whisper.

"What hurts?" Your husband whispers back.

You point down at your lower abdomen and it clicks in his brain. You had been having a lot of ovary pain recently, so you went to the doctors to get it checked out.

It turns out you have an ovarian cyst, but it wouldn't require any surgeries. The doctor just told you a few things that might help ease the pain until it goes away.

Jin has been a saint this whole time, doing everything he can to make it better for you. Now, he nods and pulls you in for a quick kiss on your forehead. Then he whispers, "I've got an idea."

At Seokjin's urging, you end up buying chocolates and almonds and a few other foods that are high in magnesium. The doctor told him that magnesium high foods should help the pain. When you get home, he makes you sit on the couch while he gives you some chocolate and almonds as he puts the groceries away.

When he's done, he comes over and sits next to you, pulling you in and kissing your cheek. "You just snack on those, sweetheart."

"Thanks, Jinnie."

"Love you, princess."

[email protected] duality is gonna give me whiplash

"Ouuuch, Yoongi!"

At your call of distress, your fiance runs into the living room from where he was producing in his studio. He sees you all curled up on the couch, your face twisted in pain as you clutch your abdomen.

"Yoongi it hurts." You whine.

"Oh, baby." Yoongi comes around the side of the couch and sits on the floor where he can be face to face with you. He gently takes one of your hands away from your stomach and holds it close to his chest.

"Have you taken your supplements today, love?"

"No." You say weakly.

"Ok, I'll be right back." He lets go of your hand to go and grab the supplements your doctor told you to take every day.

You gladly move and smile softly when he cuddles into you, nuzzling his nose in your hair. "I'm sorry you have to deal with this, baby."

He comes back with them and a glass of water, and then helps you take it.

After you've chugged some of the water and taken the supplement, Yoongi has you scoot over so that he can lay on the couch with you.

"It's not so bad when I get to cuddle you like this." You whisper tiredly.

He smiles and kisses you gently, "Try to get some sleep, love."

JUNG HOSEOK:

heeheheheee i luv he

KIM NAMJOON:

"Is it still hurting, babe?"

You can hear the worry in his voice clearly. You clear your throat and whisper into the phone, since you're in the middle of your workplace.

"Yeah, but it's probably nothing." You hear him sigh at that.

"Y/n-"

"Sorry, Hobi. I have to go, my boss is coming."

You hang up and quickly get back to work before your boss catches you slacking off. The rest of your work day goes by rather painfully, with your worried boyfriend constantly texting you to make sure you're still alive.

By the time you're home, your lower abdomen is in so much pain its taking all you have not to burst out crying. You unlock your front door and walk in to plop yourself on the couch in a heap of misery.

Then a series of quick knocks sounds on your door. You barely have enough time to lift your head before you hear it unlock and your boyfriend comes in, his brows creased in worry.

"Babe, I've been worried sick about you all day!" He cries as he hurries over to you. "That's it, I'm taking you to the doctor."

Not even half an hour later, you're at the doctors and explaining everything that's been happening. They do an ultrasound and it turns out that you have an ovarian cyst on your left ovary.

No wonder.

Hobi is diligent on taking notes about how to help you, he listens to the doctor intently, madly scribbling everything that's important.

When you're back at your place, Hobi gives you some painkillers and cuddles you in bed.

"Are you doing okay, Jagi?" He asks every few minutes. You can't help but laugh at how worried he is.

"I'll be okay, Hobi. Thank you for everything."

"You can always count on me, Y/n."

so smol and soft ;-;

PARK JIMIN:

"Are you okay, y/n?"

You turn to your husband at his question. He's holding your hand gently as you two walk through the park with ice cream in hand.

You hadn't realized that you were zoning out. The truth is you aren't okay, you're miserable. You found out last week that the pain you've been having is an ovarian cyst. Namjoon has been a sweetheart and taken care of you as best he can. He's always trying different ways to help you cope with the pain.

"It just hurts a bit." You admit after a moment of silence.

Namjoon nods understandingly, "Do you want to head home?"

You nod and he kisses your forehead gently before tossing his empty ice cream cup in a nearby trashcan.

It only takes a few minutes for you to get home. Once you're there, you pull off your shoes and groan as you hold your abdomen and stumble to your bedroom.

"I'll be in there in a minute, sweetie." Namjoon calls after you.

A few minutes later, the bedroom door opens and you peek your eyes open to see Namjoon slipping inside. He's carefully carrying a little tea cup, walking slowly and sitting next to you as softly as he can. Then he hands you the tea cup when you sit up.

"What's this?" You ask sleepily.

"Ginger tea. It'll help with the pain. I did some research." He laughs shyly at the smile on your face.

You take a sip of the hot tea and hum in satisfaction, "It's amazing. Thank you, baby."

"Anything for you, babe."

KIM TAEHYUNG:

hot dog hot dog hot diggity dog

"Ok, jagiya. This isn't normal."

Jimin is practically in tears himself watching you cry over your period pain. He knows cramps are painful, but this seems like it's so much worse than usual and he's really worried. But you insist that it's normal for periods to hurt as you lie on his bed in tears.

"But not like this!" He cries, wringing his hands. "You've been unable to move for hours I think we need to call the doctor."

"Jimin, I'm sure it's nothing." You sniffle tearfully and wipe your nose with your shirt sleeve.

He sighs and lies next to you, cuddling into your side in hopes of putting you to sleep. But a few hours later, he's awaken by the sound of your crying. He sits up and gently pulls you to sit up too.

"We're going to the doctors, right now."

The doctor told you that you have cysts on your ovaries and that's what's been causing your horrible pain. He gives you a few tips to help and Jimin listens intently.

Jimin drives you back to your apartment and helps you to the couch, then he grabs a fluffy blanket and drapes it over you. After that, he runs to get some pain medicine and comes back to give it to you with some water.

"Thanks Jimin." You croak tiredly. He smiles at you and brushes your hair out of your face, "I'll always be here, Jagi. The medicine shouls kick in soon." Then he leans down and kisses your forehead.

"Get some sleep."

oh pllssss give me a hug. you so cute.

JEON JUNGKOOK:

You smile half-heartedly at a text message from your boyfriend. You checked your phone immediately after you got out of your doctor's appointment. And of course, Tae had already messaged asking if everything was alright and if the doctor had given you any diagnosis.

He was going insane watching you in so much pain every day for the past few weeks. He kept insisting you go to the doctor and you finally did it today. It's a good thing you did, because apparently your pain isn't all in your head like you thought it might be.

Your doctor let you know after some ultra sounds that you have an ovarian cyst on your right ovary. He gave you a few things to do and some supplements to take to help ease the pain, but that's really all he could do until it went away on it's own.

You send Tae a quick text, telling him that you just got out, you're okay, and you will tell him about it at home.

When you get to your apartment, Tae opens the door before you even get a chance to fish your keys out of your purse. You laugh at his wide eyes, "Hey Tae, when did you get here baby?" You ask as you make your way inside and take your shoes off.

"Oh, I came over right after I got out of practice. I've been waiting for you, are you okay?" He asks worriedly, taking your hand as you walk over to your couch and plop down.

"Ohh, I'm fine. It's an ovarian cyst."

The look of horror on his face makes you laugh again. He isn't laughing as he kisses your cheek, "I'm sorry baby, is there anything I can do to help?"

You think for a minute before nodding, "Can you actually grab me the heating pad? It's in my closet."

"Of course!" He jumps to his feet and hurries to grab it. When he gets back, he cuddles into your side and gently puts the heating pad to your abdomen.

"Thanks, Taetae."

"I love you."

oofie it hurts i luv he smile

"Oh baby, is it bad right now?"

Jungkook hurries over to the side of your shared bed the moment he sees you curled on your side, your eyes squeezed shut. You nod, feeling your husband tuck your hair behind your ear and put his hand to your forehead. "What can I do to help you, honey?" He asks desperately.

"I don't know." You whisper hopelessly.

Jungkook bites the inside of his cheek in frustration. He doesn't understand why the doctors can't just fix everything and help you to stop hurting so much. He knows it will go away eventually, but he can't stand seeing you in so much pain right now.

He sits next to you and continues to brush his fingers through your hair, hoping it'll at least distract you. While he brushes your hair, he calls his eldest hyung. Seokjin always knows what to do.

"Jin hyung, what do I do?"

A few minutes later, you feel Jungkook shift and get up from the bed. Then he goes into the bathroom and you hear the tub start running. A little bit after that, your husband comes back in and kisses your cheek, "Come on, baby." Jungkook whispers as he practically carries you to the bathroom, where he helps you undress and step into the warm bath. You sink down, grateful when you realize he sits outside the tub and keeps holding your hand.

"I put some epsom salts in, it should start helping soon." Jungkook whispers softly.

"Thank you, Kook. I love you."

"I love you too, sweetie. Now, just relax." He reassures you, kissing your lips gently.

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blu-joons · 4 years

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BTS Reaction: You’re A Doctor In The Pandemic, So He Can’t See You

Jin:

His car pulled up outside yours, you opened the window of the living room, watching him walk to the wall of your house, the front garden creating a distance between you both.

“How are you?” He asked, leaning against the wall, studying your face.

You nodded, giving him a smile, “I’m doing good Jin, it’s hard, but I’m getting through it,” you assured him, waving out to him.

“I wish things didn’t have to be this way,” he sighed, brushing a hand through his hair.

“It’s the best way Jin, I can’t risk being at home with you,” you reminded him.

“I miss having you around.”

You smiled weakly, it was hard on you too, not being able to see him every day, but the two of you knew it was for the best. “When this is all over, I’ll be back with you again Jin.”

“I can’t wait for that to happen, to be able to be with you again.”

“Neither can I,” you assured him, watching as he smiled lightly across at you, “I’m sure the boys are keeping you happy at home anyway.”

He sighed, shaking his head, “it’s not the same as having you there with me.”

“I’ll be back soon, and we can be together again.”

Yoongi:

A knock at your front door disturbed you, walking across, you opened the door to see several bags of food at your door, then over to Yoongi who stood on the other side of the road.

“Did you do this?” You questioned, looking into a few of the bags.

He nodded, smiling widely, “I didn’t know how much time you’d have to get to the shops, so I thought I’d bring you a few bits round.”

“Yoongi, you didn’t have to do all of this and risk your safety,” you scolded.

“I’m not risking anything in comparison to you,” he assured you, with a smile.

“It’s my job, I have to.”

Whilst he knew you were right, that would never be enough to stop him making sure that you were well looked after to. “It’s my job to look after you, and I will continue to do so.”

“Still, this means a lot to me, and it was nice to see you too.”

“I’ll come back next week,” he informed you, “I’m just taking a quick trip to the shops, I want to make sure you’ve got the essentials.”

You chuckled, “it would take a lot of the weight off my shoulders.”

“Then I’ll see you same time next week then.”

Hoseok:

You sat back in the car, undoing the ponytail your hair was up in, letting go of a heavy sigh. You pulled out your phone, dialling Hobi’s number straight away, to hear his voice.

“You’re all done,” he smiled as he picked up the phone, “how was it?”

You sighed again, shaking your head. “It was hard, just like it is every day Hobi, it’s just taking a lot out of me every shift is hard.”

“I know, but you’re coping so well,” he assured you, sighing on the other end of the line.

“It’s worse going home to an empty house at the end of the night,” you spoke.

“I wish we could be together.”

You chuckled, all you wanted was to be with him, but you both opted instead to take safety precautions first. “When this is all over, I’m never going to let you go again.”

“I would have no complaints,” he laughed, “we’re getting through this together.”

“We are,” you agreed, unbuttoning the top button of your scrubs, “I just need to go home now and shower, try and get some sleep before tomorrow.”

He smiled, “please make sure that you look after yourself, get a lot of rest.”

“I will, straight to bed for me tonight.”

Namjoon:

When you came home and found a bouquet of flowers at the door, your smile finally grew. You picked them up, finding a note in the top, picking it out from the flowers.

Hopefully these will make you smile, I’m so proud of all the work you’re doing, Joon x

Once you’d put them in water, placing them on your dining table, you grabbed your phone and called him straight away, “they’re beautiful.”

“I’m glad they arrived safely. So, did they put a smile on your face?” He asked you.

“Of course, you picked out my favourites too, how did you know? You grinned.

“I listen from time to time.”

He chuckled, whilst you arranged a few of the flowers. “You have no idea how bad today was, these are the perfect surprise to come home to, really picked me up.”

“I’m so pleased, I can’t begin to imagine how hard this is for you.”

“It’s just day by day,” you told him, sitting down at the table, “just trying to take it in my stride, not let thigs get to me too much.”

He sighed, “you know if you need to talk, you can talk to me.”

“I know Joon, I’m so grateful for you.”

Jimin:

Your day couldn’t have been much worse, yet as you arrived home to tell Jimin all about it, you remembered he wasn’t there, so instead you decided to try and give him a call.

“How was your shift?” Was the first thing he asked, knowing what you’d been doing.

You let go of a heavy sigh, “it’s not been easy today, there’s a few of my patients who seem to be going downhill and it’s hard, I feel helpless.”

“Don’t say that, you are doing an incredible job and helping so many people,” he reminded you.

“But sometimes that isn’t good enough, is it?” You challenged, running a hand through your hair.

“It is when you can’t do anymore.”

You were at your wits end, the pressure and hardships were getting to you, it was your job, but it had never been harder than this. “No one has any idea what it’s like in here.”

“They don’t, but people are still so appreciative of what you’re doing right now.”

“It just sucks,” you sobbed, resting your head in your hands, “all of this is breaking so many families, and I’m the one having to try and fix it.”

He frowned, “soon all of this will be over, I promise you’re doing a great job.”

“I’m just glad to hear your voice Chim.”

Taehyung:

You sighed when you saw you missed a call from Taehyung, he was bound to panic when your shift was supposed to have finished an hour ago, but of course, you ran over.

“I was getting worried about you,” he quickly told you as he picked up the phone.

You chuckled, “I’m sorry Tae, I just couldn’t leave the ward in the state it was, I needed to be there for them all to help out.”

“I know, you’re a little superstar, aren’t you?” He complimented, sitting back in relief.

“I’m just doing my job Tae, I didn’t realise you were going to ring me so soon,” you spoke.

“I missed you, wanted to check on you.”

You loved how much he cared, even if the two of you weren’t physically together, he was always on the other end of the line. “I miss you too, are you still keeping safe?”

“I am, but more importantly are you doing alright?”

“I’m safe for now,” you told him, rolling your eyes, “but the protective equipment is running low, we don’t know how much we have left.”

His eyes widened in horror, “is it really that bad there?”

“It’s touch and go, we’ve just got to wait.”

Jungkook:

You saw your phone light up with a text from Kook, telling you to step outside. When you did, a basket was at your front door, and he was stood a couple of metres further back.

“Thought you might need to take care of yourself,” he smiled, pointing to the bits he’d bought.

The basket was filled with bath bombs, chocolates, and all sorts of other goodies that would make you smile. “This is so sweet of you all.”

“It’s not much, but it’s the best I can do given the circumstances,” he shrugged, smiling widely.

“It’s more than enough Kook, I never expected anything from you,” you blushed.

“I wish I could hug you now.”

Your smile dropped, it was hard on you both, you’d never experienced anything like this before. “They think in a couple of weeks the peak will be reached, then things will get better.”

“I know it’s for the best we’re apart, I just thought it would be easier.”

“So, did I,” you assured him, “but we’ve got to make the most of the situation, I’ll give you a call tonight before I go in for my shift if that’s good.”

He nodded, “that sounds like a good idea to me.”

“I’ll see you soon Kook.”

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dalekofchaos · 3 years

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I know you don't like Chloe Price anymore. But since you like to change things about your favorite things like Star Wars, DC, Marvel and Horror, how would you change how DONTNOD/Deck Nine handled Chloe?

A lot. I will start with BTS and then LIS. But to be fair, I’ve grown to like Chloe again. My big problem is how she treats Max, the fact that we cannot choose who Max focuses on(again I’d choose Warren and Kate if I could) and well the hateful and toxic Pricefield fans ruined Chloe for me. But here’s how I would change Chloe if I could

BTS

First of all, hire someone who actually understands how teenagers talk(especially teenage girls) and make the dialogue less cringey(this goes for both games)

Give Chloe more of a character arc. I don’t feel that Deck Nine did Chloe justice. The writers attempt to evoke empathy with Chloe feeling grief which is done via exactly one emotion- which is a very childish understanding of how loss and coping works. She had no character arc, considering she was the exact same character that we already knew in LiS Episode 1 (A bitter disaffected teenage youth with no regard for authority) so we didn’t get to see Chloe evolve into the character we loved in the first game. She just already was it. The gameplay undid the narrative we were given about Chloe being a loner in that you can talk to and make friends with pretty much anybody and they all acted like they liked and were genuinely happy to see Chloe. Very rarely were there interactions with Blackwell students that ended with Chloe’s presence not being welcomed, only Wells, Victoria and Nathan showed contempt for Chloe(even with Nathan that goes away when he claps for her at the play) The reason this is done is because the game wouldn’t be fun if Chloe actually was a loner. The core mechanic of Life is Strange is being able to talk to people and experiment with your surroundings. A game where nobody wanted to talk to Chloe works against the core mechanic. But in making her the main character it undoes the weight of the narrative of Chloe being alone until Rachel/Max. I just strongly feel that Deck Nine did not understand Chloe as a character and did not do her justice. We should’ve gotten Chloe at her lowest, evolving from Max’s best friend to the character we know in the first game and Rachel helping lift Chloe through the worse point of her life. Chloe and Rachel together having fun rocking out and Chloe starting to live again and show that Chloe Price loves Rachel Amber and Rachel loves Chloe. Chloe losing Rachel and showing how Chloe has to deal with Rachel missing, how she became in debt to Frank and how she got involved with Nathan and how Chloe ends up in the bathroom.

The game should have 5 episodes. The first 2 episodes focus on Chloe and Rachel’s first year together. Episode 3 focuses on 2011. 4 focuses on 2012 and the final episode focuses on 2013 and Chloe’s breakdown over Rachel’s disappearance. A bonus episode “Firewalk with me” to show us Rachel’s final days and the choices that led her to the Dark Room. Needless to say, those fans who were against LIS 2 would have something to look forward to cause Deck Nine would take their time with BTS in this scenario.

Make it very clear that David is abusive. The problem with their dynamic in BTS is that they go out of their way to make Chloe irrational for not giving David a chance. In BTS Chloe says she hates David because he calls her “girly” and the game practically implies Chloe is at fault for the conflict between Chloe and David for not accepting David’s photo...what kind of abuse apologetic bullshit is that? Okay so start off by saying in her journal that “Joyce really remarried the first asshole she saw in Two Whales.” because by the time of 2010 in the canon of the first game, they are already married. Have it implied in her entry about David that it’s like “living Full Metal Jacket” that alone implies emotional and mental abuse if you’ve seen the Bootcamp scenes. Chloe in the entry would continue to say, life’s been a living hell ever since David entered the picture and Joyce takes his side every time. We would get the impression that David does not understand nor does he care about Chloe's depression and grief for losing William and Max moving away. When fighting with Joyce about David, say “he keeps hitting me and you keep defending him, how do you expect me to get over dad by letting some abusive asshole take his place?” Joyce would respond with “you keep pushing him, what did you think was gonna happen” And worse, David just started the Security Officer job at Blackwell. Needless to say Chloe is not taking any of this well. So when David and Chloe go to Blackhell, he’s basically ordering her around, talking down to her. Telling her “You’ve had two years free of having a father figure in your life. I am your father now. I’ve been showing you what a stable home is like, yet you keep pushing me.” Chloe back talks him and it results in David smacking her. David would then say “Look what you made me do.” Later in the game, Chloe would get herself expelled just to get away from David and David would berate her and call her a loser. Near the end of Episode 3 or 4, Rachel would have dinner with Chloe, Joyce and David. Rachel would see the way David treats Chloe and stands up for her girlfriend. Threatens to call the cops on David if he ever hurts her girlfriend ever again. This of course would spark down David’s obsession with surveillance and his investigation into stalking Rachel, all because he wanted to save his pathetic fucking ass.

Actually give Chloe a transformation. The problem with BTS, is that Chloe is the same character from the first game. We don’t get to see how the innocent and happy Chloe becomes the Chloe from the first game. She’s just like this immediately. We should get a Batman Returns Catwoman like transformation for Chloe. Chloe’s had it with David, Joyce, Blackhell and now Rachel for leaving. So Chloe would basically be destroying her room and tossing everything away that belonged to the old Chloe.

Make the game about Rachel helping Chloe down the worst moment of her life. Chloe’s “Rachel was my angel” comment showed a lot to how Chloe loved Rachel and how much she meant to her. Chloe tells Max that Rachel entered her life when was at her absolute lowest and that it was she who helped her deal with the grief of having lost her father but the entire game is centered around Chloe being the one who is supporting Rachel as she deals with a serious family drama of her own. What Before The Storm should have been. Rachel helping lift Chloe through the worse point of her life. If Rachel had stopped Chloe from committing suicide… as was the commonly believed interpretation to what happened between Chloe and Rachel up until BtS, then Chloe’s ”“she was my angel” would have meant it was truly special and real. But instead they bump into each other at an illegal concert and Rachel distracted some thug who works for Damon and we spend the game finding out who Sera is in a reveal we all saw it coming and only to have Rachel taken out of the third episode where Rachel never talks to her and makes the whole thing feel pointless. What the game should have been was Chloe and Rachel together having fun rocking out, becoming girlfriends and Chloe starting to live again and show that Chloe Price loves Rachel Amber and Rachel loves Chloe.

Do Chloe’s past with Victoria better. A minor change, but they kind of make Chloe and Rachel look like jerks in the Victoria drugging in part 2. If you let Rachel drop out the play, you drug Victoria or back talk her out of doing the play that she was given. Also it lines up with the first game better this way. In LIS, if you choose to take the picture with Victoria in paint, when seeing said picture, Chloe will say “Boo-Yah skank! Karma’s a bitch!” So I guess we can have Victoria bullying Chloe with her mean girl bullshit, Chloe fights back, Victoria gets scared, so Victoria helps get Chloe expelled by reporting her graffiti(as is the reason she was expelled from Blackwell)

When Rachel goes missing, we spend the final episode looking for her. It’s a very sad and tragic episode. We all know there is no hope in finding Rachel, but we still try anyway, in some hope that Rachel is still out there. So Chloe leaves up the posters, is in debt to Frank and tries to steal money from Nathan. Which leads Chloe to that faithful day in the bathroom.

LIS

Chloe does not park in the handicapped space(I don’t even have to tell you why this was a bad idea to begin with)

Chloe stops guilt tripping Max after the first truck ride

If you chose not to come out of the closet or not take the blame, after lashing out at Max, Chloe will apologize for lashing out at us. Same for if we chose not to fire the gun.

Does not get pissy if we take Kate’s call, in fact prior to Chloe’s test, Max would explain the situation with Kate and Chloe would be understanding as she understands being depressed herself and would even help Max out in finding evidence to implicate Nathan and David.

It’s not the handicapped fund, it’s the “Prescott Donation”(aka Sean’s bribery money) this way we can feel less guilty about not stealing from the handicapped fund and Chloe doesn’t look like an ableist

If Chloe does snap after finding about Rachel and says the same things she did about Kate as she did in canon. Max can then lose her shit and stand up to Chloe. Basically says the way she treats her is not okay and if she wants to help her find Rachel and seek justice for Kate, then things are gonna have to change or they are finished. Then Max leaves Chloe behind with Chloe realizing that she needs to change. Ideally something like Bojack Horseman “You can't keep doing this! You can't keep doing shitty things and then feel bad about yourself as if that makes it okay! You need to be better! Chloe, stop. It's not alcohol, drugs, or your parents, David, Rachel or all the bad things that happened to you before. It's you. It's you. I want to find Rachel and get justice for Kate, but if this is how you’re gonna keep treating me...Fuck, man... What else is there to say?“ I know LIS came out way before BJHM or that particular episode, but it’s the perfect example of how Max could’ve stood up to Chloe’s toxic behavior

After the returning from her time jump, Max returns to her dorm and goes to Chloe. Chloe properly apologizes for how she’s been acting since they got back together and agree to put everything in the past so they can work together to find Rachel and give Kate justice

Max is given the option to enter the Everyday Hero’s Contest. If you saved Kate, Max with Kate’s permission, Kate would let Max take a photo of her in the hospital. And Max enters her photo at the last minute when she returns to Blackwell. If you did not save Kate, then Chloe would give up the Butterfly photo so Max can enter the photo. Either way Max will win the contest. Max wins the Everyday Hero Contest. Max gives an inspiring speech about how everyone can be a hero and that Kate has always inspired her, how much she loves Kate and that she hopes that Kate knows that she is loved by everyone in Blackwell and everyone, especially Chloe, Warren, Victoria would cheer Max on. This would also give Jefferson the means and opportunity to drug Max without killing Chloe at the Junkyard. Chloe doesn’t die because it’s a public place and Jefferson has Max where he wants her. It honestly works better than Jefferson magically appearing at the Junkyard with no explanation(and it never being brought up).

What could happen in Episode 5 is basically the same thing, only in an act of desperation, Chloe goes to David to help save Max. They put their differences aside to save the person Chloe loves the most and David gets to stop Jefferson. Chloe could not be there to save Rachel, but she can be there for Max. Chloe saves Max and Jefferson goes to jail. Together Max and Chloe goes directly into the eye of the storm to save everyone at the diner. However instead of using Warren’s photo to save Chloe, Max uses it to warn David about Jefferson and to reach the Lighthouse. The same choice is given to us and instead of a copout ending, Max actually uses the photo to save Chloe and the town. Warns David and David barges in and catches Nathan redhanded with the gun and uncovers the truth of Rachel, Kate and Jefferson. Max warns the town of the storm. Everyone listens. After Jefferson’s arrest, the police clears the bunker of Jefferson’s predatory display and the town hides in the bunker. The town is rebuilt. A town can be rebuilt, but you can’t build another Chloe. Jefferson and Sean are rotting in prison and Nathan is getting the help he desperately needed. Chloe finally moves on from her hatred of David and the Price family gets to start over. A montage of Max and Chloe together either romantic or platonic and if you chose to romance Warren, a little clip of Going Ape, if just friends, then we see Warren, Kate, Max and Chloe Going Ape! It ends on Rachel’s funeral and the final scene shows the Doe spirit as both Max and Chloe smile as Rachel’s spirit finally rests.

Chloe’s arc is lashing out at a cruel world, learning to let the right people in, healing and letting go of her hate and starting over. It just doesn’t work if she has to die to actually learn this and also that character arc goes out the window of you choose the save Chloe ending (and makes max look like an awful person for killing all her friends and Joyce). Chloe gets to live, she’s at peace knowing that Rachel was brought to justice, she’s willing to start over with David, she has her best friend and mother in her life. If you chose the Pricefield route, then Chloe is at peace with Rachel passing on and she starts anew with Max. If not, then Chloe still has her best friend and knows she will always be there and she will always be there for Max in return.

Also, I like the idea of Max and Chloe road tripping together as was demonstrated in LIS 2, but I also like the idea of Warren, Victoria and Kate joining them as well and they live in their own commune. Maybe Max, Warren and Chloe are in a poly relationship, while Kate and Victoria are together!!!

#Life Is Strange #Chloe Price #Amberprice #Pricefield #Anonymous #Asks

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johannesviii · 4 years

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So I guess I’m hyperfixating on Death Stranding at the moment

And since I’ve finally finished the story after playing it for like 100 hours over the course of seven months or so I guess I have Opinions(tm) about things I didn’t like in the game

They’re eating at my brain so I’m gonna put them all in a single post to get them out of my system once and for all so I can enjoy the rest in peace

Spoilers, obviously

Hi welcome back to ‘Johannes is obsessing over yet another video game with horror elements in it’! I guess!!

Our latest entry in that category was Until Dawn but since UD can be played in like 6/7 hours and I spent 100 hours of my life on DS, as you can guess we’re talking about a full-blown hyperfixation, the kind that physically hurts because I can’t focus on anything else even after having finished the storyline

But it was super gradual. Again, seven months. I barely made any progress from December to May because I was only doing side-deliveries at the beginning of Chapter 3 instead of... you know... advancing the plot. It became an honest-to-god special interest about two months ago, then 6 days ago while playing chapter 10 it reached hyperfixation levels and now I am in PAIN

I hate my brain

Anyhow

At first I wanted to list the good and the bad hings in it but there’s too many good things to list them all in full, excruciatingly long details, so

Very Quick And Very Incomplete List Of Good Things That I Love

It’s a post-apo game based on travel, logistics, and good will, and it straight up goes AGAINST the whole ‘survival of the fittest’ trope that SO MANY post-apo things try to push!! YES

I insist but it’s built on helping each other and keeping everyone alive, seriously that is my shit right there!

The online community is wholesome?? People leave stuff everywhere, you never see anyone but people put little helpful signs and send you likes, and in my game we almost managed to repair all the roads together

There’s so many new & strange allergies and disabilities and phobias in this post-apo world and? nobody is trying to ““fix”“ anyone?? Like Heartman with his padded floor and his little box that brings him back to life constantly. He’s just... living like that. Nobody’s going “hey maybe you should get another heart operation buddy”

The hero and his phobia of being touched. I. Loved. That. The quiet scenes when he was just talking with Fragile, sitting next to her. In any other context this would just be two people sitting next to each other and talking but it always feels so soft and intimate everytime he allows another human being to just. be next to him. I love it. I love them

Everyone crying constantly because of chiral allergy!!

I loved all the important characters bar one (Bridget/Amelie)!

Why is this walking simulator so enjoyable why am I enjoying the fact that holding L2 + R2 while walking feels like holding your backpack and that you have to relax at times just like you’d have to if you were actually holding a backpack

Seriously. Why

The atmosphere was so great, the music was fantastic and the visuals were on point. A E S T H E T I C

The ghosts!! The giant Beached Things!!! Chiral crystals look! like! creepy hands reaching for the SKY!!

THE RAIN DESTROYS THINGS AND KILLS PEOPLE BY ACCELERATING TIME THIS IS SO COOL SHUT UP

Everytime the game got surreal it was electrifying

THE SURREAL WAR SCENES ON CLIFF’S BEACH

Everyone is using emojis

There’s guys addicted to delivering packages in that game and they’re trying to steal our stuff and we’re like “haha they’re dumb” but we’re basically addicted to delivering packages as the player. So yeah that was pretty fun

Terrorists thinking humanity isn’t going extinct fast enough and wanting to just rip the bandaid and speed things up. Simple but effective concept

People ask for SUPER VITAL ITEMS right next to completely trivial stuff and I’m LIVING for it. “Please fetch my toy dinosaur”. I feel you dude

The most isolated characters are like "LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THIS THING I LIKE" in your emails because they haven't had contact with other humans in years, it's super relatable

There’s a farm where people use the fact that Timefall rain accelerates time to grow food super quickly in one (1) Timefall and harvest everything just before it starts to die and I LOVE that detail of worldbuilding so much

YOU’RE FIGHTING BEACHED THINGS WITH YOUR OWN BODILY FLUIDS IT’S SO STUPID BUT ALSO SO COOL?? I love yeet-ing my own blood at eldritch entities

THE T W I S T S

All the fanservice (bar one detail that I’m gonna complain about later) is on dudes. This game reeeeeeally likes to show dudes naked or somewhat naked. Mostly the main character but this mocap also L O V E S Mads Mikkelsen and there’s a shit ton of homoerotic shots in there

I love Sam the antisocial papa wolf delivery man and if someone touches him or his baby again, I will cry

LOU. LOU LOU LOU PRECIOUS BABY I’D DIE FOR YOU. Wait I did

I love Fragile and how brave she is and how she keeps helping people even if most of them wrongly think she’s a terrorist and yes I will eat this cryptobiote thank you

I love soft science boi Heartman who keeps dying again and again and is a bit too much interested in bodily fluids

I love garbage man Higgs and how complex, funny and still somewhat tragic this memelord actually turned out to be in the end

Seriously I want to stop fixating on this character but you can’t give me YET ANOTHER character who wants to die but at the hands of someone else, that is unfair to do that right after my fixation on the new Doctor Who Master

So yeah Higgs is yet another character who makes me want to grab him by the lapels and shake him and yell WHY! ARE! YOU! LIKE! THIS! STOP! BEING! LIKE! THIS!!

Cliff broke all three of my feelings beautifully and in excruciatingly well-acted scenes that transcended the sometimes lackluster dialogue

John made me cry during That Scene

Mama your background was tragic and terrifying and you didn’t deserve any of this shit and I love you

Deadman was more funny than anything, really, but I still liked him even if he had no sense of personal space whatsoever and it clashed horribly with Sam’s phobias

The ending had some sad parts but was mostly positive, thank goodness

Now I’m gonna explain things I dislike and this looks long but it’s actually only 5 main things so I bolded them to avoid confusion

Things I really disliked (and could have been handled wayyyy better)

We all know it but Kojima isn’t a master of subtlety and some parts of the dialogue kept repeating the same informations again and again AND AGAIN and I was like “ok ok I get it”

The dialogue can be so bad at times seriously

Kojima is a bad writer there I said it

It was particularly annoying with Amelie/Bridget and the fact she’s a horrible person trying (and failing) to justify her actions wasn’t helping

Bridges protocols are incredibly intrusive. All of them. I know it’s framed as bad and Sam hates being spied on all the time and in the end he destroys the device that does that, but I wish someone else would openly criticise it in-game

I guess Deadman sort of did but still

Also I know the whole BB technology was Bridget’s idea, and since she’s the actual villain it’s framed as a twisted, evil thing during the ending, but I wish that had been framed like that much earlier ; a lot of Bridges employees just... seem to accept the idea that their employer is using premature babies and their dead mothers as useful, if disturbing, devices. They seem to justify it by “uh we stole that technology from terrorists” to try to cope with the idea but... yeah.

I mean, one of the points being made very early on is that Sam sees his BB as his child who must be protected at all costs instead of a detection device, but I really wish he wasn’t the only one to object to that thing

Again, the game DOES frame "using babies and their dead mothers as tools” as evil and twisted, I just wish it was given a lot more weight and way sooner

Now let’s talk about the Token Straight(tm) in this game

In any other kind of context it would be a joke! But Death Stranding literally has a Token Straight Guy!

I mean, there IS a few hetero couples among the Preppers. Not a lot, mind you. Like, there’s the Montaineer and his wife for instance. But they’re just there and it’s not what their side plot is about

No I’m talking about this piece of shit right there

This f█cking Junk Dealer guy complains the girl he loves is dead because of Bridges and emotionally blackmails us by sending us old holograms of her before her supposed death (somewhat disturbing holograms too because she looks... pretty young in them), then he sends us on what’s essentially a suicide mission in a BT infested zone, THEN when we give him proof she’s still alive and living in another bunker nearby, he won’t go there himself to check??

But SHE’s like “ok, bring me to him, then!”

He doesn’t deserve you, girl

I’ve already seen several people pointing out that carrying a woman as cargo on your back is... debatable at best and sexist at worst, but that part didn’t really bother me to be honest? She asked to be carried to him and it’s her choice. She was talking to us the entire way too, so that made things a lot less awkward. Also Sam has this phobia of being touched by other people so I bet carrying another human being on his back isn’t fun for him. It was also super stressful to do, to be honest.

And then there’s this EXTREMELY AWKWARD scene when they’re reunited and decide to get married, and thankfully Sam finds it just as awkward as we do because he’s standing super far away from the bunker in a “can’t they talk about this later - I’m right there” way. And I’m under the impression it was intended as cringy, in a “yeppp young people in love are Like That” sort of way, so I can accept that, to be honest. If you don’t take that scene seriously, it’s pretty fun in, again, a cringy sort of way

BUT

Then you receive more emails later and this piece of shit guy complains about her and he’s like “ugh WOMEN” or “marriage is the worst” and they end up divorced in record time and she goes back to her bunker

Which isn’t my problem with this subplot either, I promise I’m gonna explain myself eventually but this context is important. It’s okay to have characters who are pieces of shit like this guy who reeks of incel cologne. It’s alright. Not every character has to be a role-model. It’s good to have characters you can hate.

BUT THEN they get back together later to try to patch things up and you learn he was part of a gang who murdered her parents even though he protected her against the rest of the gang and that’s what I hated about that storyline. I guess if you squint it can be read as “this woman is making REALLY BAD life choices” but I read it as “he saved her so she owes him something, he can’t be entirely bad” and y i k e s this left such a bad taste in my mouth, good lord.

But yeah miss Chiral Artist you’re making really bad life choices please get away from this dude as soon as you can, thank you

Also don’t do this ‘sending Likes’ pose ever again, it was hilarious but also you made me use the word “cringy” several times in this paragraph even though I absolutely hate cringe culture, look what you made me do

Now I have to talk about a scene that was intentionally disturbing as hell but ONE (1) detail in it was disturbing for the wrong reasons

To be honest, I really don’t like the Metal Gear Solid games and one of the reasons is the rampant sexism in them so I... was kind of bracing myself for Death Stranding and expecting it to have at least SOME really bad fanservice with a woman at one point or another but to my surprise?? There was none? All the fanservice is on dudes??? Hello? I really liked that (well at some point Fragile takes a shower in our room but we see literally nothing except her shoulder and then Sam looks away)?? What a refreshing change

THAT BEING SAID

And if you played the game you know exactly what I’m about to talk about

Yep this is the part where Johannes complains about how the bomb flashback was shot

Ok so I guess I should also give some context in case someone is reading this but hasn’t played the game, but the deal with this scene is that our friend Fragile was betrayed by her colleague Higgs who used to be a porter but became a terrorist after meeting the “main“ villain of the game. First he secretly put a thermonuclear bomb in one of her deliveries so she’d nuke an entire city without even knowing it, and everyone after that thought she was a terrorist. And then he tried to do that shit A SECOND TIME, but she noticed and decided to toss the second nuke into a bottomless lake of tar. But he caught her just before she reached the lake and he decided to give her a sadistic choice, which was “teleport away and the bomb stays there and nukes the city, or carry it to the lake but only in your underwear under this rain that speeds up time and it will do enormous damage to your health and your body”

And of course being the hero she is, she decides to take the second option

And it’s an incredibly disturbing scene and it’s genuinely hard to watch

But it’s also the ONLY time a woman is in her underwear in this entire game and there’s A COUPLE of shots that were male-gaze-y at the beginning before she started to run and the really horrific part started.

So in a way I guess it could have been worse? way worse, even

But it still tarnishes an otherwise disturbing (and harrowing at times ; seriously I know I’m oversensitive but it was physically painful to watch) scene with unnecessary shots

We know Fragile had a young body before this happened, this isn’t the point of this scene, guys

Whoever decided to keep these shots (probably Kojima let’s face it), that is bad and you should feel bad

Idk how to do a visual transition for that next one because I do not want to screen that memo

So here’s a screenshot with a nice landscape instead

tw: acephobia

Now I have to talk about something I like the GENERAL IDEA of, but not how the IN-GAME MATERIAL ABOUT IT was written

Because I have to talk about that “asexual world” memo

First I have to say that I absolutely love the fact that a mainstream game openly says in-game “this future is full of asexual people" and?? it’s just that, it’s a part of this world. That’s just how things are. It’s normalised. I love it. For crying out loud this memo has the word demisexual in it. I can’t think of any other mainstream game that had this word in it so far.

It should have stopped there and let me enjoy that in peace but it didn’t

THE MEMO ITSELF WAS CLEARLY WRITTEN BY SOMEONE WHO DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE THESE CONCEPTS and there’s some really bad stuff there. I’d say it’s accidental acephobia but it’s still there. I’m not the best person to talk about this because I’m bi, but it still rubbed me the wrong way

The words this memo uses near the beginning are “"sexless lifestyle” among young people” and yikes, my dude. “Lifestyle”, uh? Really?

And then it goes on about how these new labels were already more and more common “among young people before the Death Stranding” and it also rubs me the wrong way, in a “wow young people and their weird labels lol” sort of queerphobic way?

However I’ve seen a post pointing out that the line “One theory posits that the Stranding accelerated the proliferation of these sexualities” was maybe a way of saying ‘yo asexuals are causing the end of the world’ but... I don’t see it, tbh? In the context of the game, society is extremely divided and a lot of people live in complete isolation and social norms have heavily shifted and it’s kind of normal that there’s queer people visible everywhere now, aces included obviously, because nobody’s bothering to hide it anymore. It’s a post-apocalyptic world! People are just being themselves! A lot of characters also seem to be bi/pan! They’re just vibing ok

At least that’s how I read that part, I can understand if someone had a problem with that bit but I didn’t

BUT! THAT’S NOT ALL because the memo concludes (I’m paraphrasing) “the birth rate has dropped, which might be a problem, but harassment and assault have also dropped, which is good, so idk it’s 50/50″ and. like. I get the intention. But it’s clumsy as hell and very bad. Please don’t confuse abuse of power and attraction. They don’t go hand in hand. Don’t do that. Please. And you know that aces can have kids if they want to, right. Come on. It’s 2020 my dude. This shit is harmful

Also. Like. It’s the end of the world in this game. People don’t want kids. It... has nothing to do with aces. Reality itself is crashing down. People are reluctant to have kids because reality.exe might f█cking crash down at any given moment!

Or a Beached Thing could VoidOut their city!

Or someone might send them a nuke, not naming names!!

Anyway!!!

It’s really badly written and whoever wrote it should educate themselves and maybe get an ace to re-read their stuff next time??

Again I’m not the right person to talk about acephobia and I bet an actual ace would have plenty more to say about this

Thankfully it’s a memo written in-game by a random Bridges councellor and NOT by any important character that we actually know

"I must preempt myself by admitting that I do not have any empirical data" yeah so, f█ck off maybe

So I’m just gonna call that guy “another piece of shit character” but it still doesn’t excuse the fact that the memo was written by someone who thought it was a good idea to put it in the game

Just let me enjoy my super queer post-apo world in peace and don’t write shit like that in your game thank you and goodbye

Minor stuff I also disliked but it wasn’t as awful

I get that Sam is upset at the end because Lou is dying but the way he said goodbye to Fragile broke my heart. It was abrupt and you KNOW he’s upset and wants to have nothing to do with Bridges anymore and that’s very understandable but it isn’t her fault

Seriously I want them to be friends again

I’m gonna pretend they’re friends again after Lou is saved and that Sam is a freelance porter again and sometimes their paths cross and they just talk together in the middle of nowhere and share cryptobiotes

The pacing is weird, there’s this deluge of plot in the beginning and the end but not much in the middle?

The BT boss fights could have been these epic Shadow of the Colossus showdowns but no, they were relatively standard boss fights. Wasted opportunity

The running on the Beach scene sdfghjhgfdsdfghjhgf that was... dumb

A lot of preppers are interesting in one way or another but some are just boring. Also I wish the design of their bunkers was more varied

Amelie/Bridget’s motivations are all over the place, both creating Bridges AND the Demens is... a lot? I know she both WANTS and DOESN’T want the actual, final end of the world to happen but that is a lot to take in and it’s all very confusing

Who the hell cares about ‘rebuilding America’ I just want to build a network where people can help each other

The ‘likes’ are fun but don’t make much sense

In conclusion

Death Stranding Good

Some stuff Bad

Some stuff Very Bad (but it’s just one memo out of 100+ memos, thank god)

I’m still hyperfixating

Send help

#death stranding #long post #eye contact tw #acephobia tw #from a minor unamed character but still it's there

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purplesurveys · 3 years

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When was the last time you felt like “getting into someone’s pants”? Way back last year.

What is your favorite energy drink, if you have a favorite at all? I find energy drinks nasty.

Would you have kids with the last person you kissed? That wouldn’t be possible even in the literal sense.

Do you know someone who threatens to kill themselves? Before.

Would you ever completely dye your hair the color green? Yes, but I would opt for a darker shade rather than a bright or neon one.

Have you ever been in a long-distance relationship before? I have not. Thinking about it, I’m pretty low-maintenance so I could probably handle it if I ever find myself in that situation, as long as I’m invested enough in the relationship and my partner.

What is your favorite food to eat around Christmas? I like anything my family prepares really, but I definitely go for lumpia first if I see a whole container of it.

Do the people in your town speak like rednecks? No and I’m not sure if we have an equivalent for that here.

When was the last time you cried happy tears? Like a week ago when the Permission to Dance video came out. The ending when everyone was taking off their masks and smiling was really heartwarming.

How liberal are you? Enough to make most of my relatives uncomfortable.

Would you mind living near large predatory animals? Yes. I’ve lived in gated villages all my life so it will take a lot of getting used to.

Have you ever experienced altitude sickness? I don’t think so. The ‘worst’ I’ve experienced is just feeling pressure in my ears and having weakened hearing whenever we drive up mountains; it takes a while before mine do the popping thing and I get my normal hearing back.

What’s your biggest priority right now? To be consistent at improving at my job and making fewer mistakes as I go. I shared this with my boss recently and she told me not to worry too much as I’m doing better than I think I am and that the mistakes I beat myself about have actually been small and fixable ones, but the perfectionist/workaholic in me just refuses to be reassured lol.

If you’ve stayed overnight in a hospital, how did you entertain yourself? The last time this happened, public wi-fi was still mostly a myth so I had to contend with A LOT of forced napping just to make the time pass by. I didn’t have a phone either, so my experience was extremely dull and boring.

Are your hands unsteady? They’re not surgeon-level stable but I think they’re fine for the most part.

Do you listen to a lot of mainstream music? I used to until I got into BTS. I haven’t really listened to any other artist since getting into them back in April lol.

Do you think you’re pretty? Some days.

Have you ever added someone you don’t know on Facebook? Yeah, a few work contacts like bloggers whose names I recognized but have never talked to/engaged with.

Do you have dirty pictures in your phone? Nope.

Have you ever looked up porn on the internet? Yes. I have my on-and-off phases when it comes to porn though and these days I don’t watch a lot of it.

Would you ever shoot someone right in the face? In a case of self-defense where I was clearly trying to be killed, that's right where I would aim. But otherwise, of course I wouldn't. < Sounds about right. But holy shit that sounds like it would look so gross.

Have you ever sold drugs? I’ve never been around drugs ever.

Did you ever try cutting yourself? It was a coping mechanism many, many moons ago.

Who’s the last guy you texted? It was a - surprise surprise - delivery guy who needed directions again to my house.

Who do you know that wears the most make up? I’m not sure, but then again most people I know don’t really put on makeup these days because lol Covid and stay-at-home orders??

Do any of your friends have kids? None of my friends do but I know several acquaintances and people from high school who’ve already given birth.

Have you ever been tied up? Yeah.

How many times have you been cussed out? Nearly everyday as a teenager.

Are you anyone’s first love? I think?

Have you ever had an out-of-body experience? Nope.

Do you have more than one personality? Nope.

Do you prefer gory horror films or the psychological ones? Psychological ones for sure, but I don’t mind gore as well as long as it’s fun to watch and that it’s not too corny.

Do you have a favorite YouTuber or do you not watch much YouTube? I haven’t watched a lot of YouTubers these days, but very recently I’ve been gravitating towards soothing vloggers like Anna Park and Mejiwoo. Their vlogs are greeeeaaaaat and I’m excited to discover similar creators so I can watch more videos that carry the same vibe.

Are you a good dancer? I dance only when alone or when drunk. That said, I’m no good at all.

If you could find one long-lost friend of the past, who would it be? Continued from yesterday. It’d be nice to reconnect with Raegan for like a day, just to catch up. Then again I’ve since been able to track her down on social media, so it’s nice to be able to see how she’s doing, at least from afar.

Was your sixth grade teacher a man or a woman? The teacher-in-charge of my section was a woman. They didn’t really appoint guy teachers to be TICs until recently.

Have you ever had any teeth pulled? Yeah, but it had been a decayed tooth at that point that really needed to be pulled since it technically didn’t have a purpose anymore.

Do you wash your hair or your body first when taking a shower? Hair.

Have you ever been to a nursing home? I don’t think so.

Have you ever lived in a house that has been broken into? Fortunately, no. My mom’s childhood home was robbed though, and their grand piano ended up being stolen :( To this day they have no clue how the thieves were able to pull it off without making too big of a fuss.

Is there someone in your life you don’t want in it? I don’t think I dislike anyone that much at the moment.

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over? Three. Two of them because they died, and the other one is my dad for the times we had to drive him to the airport though I only cried over it only as a kid.

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Andi.

Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you? Yes.

Pretending to “never get the text” from someone who annoys you. Is that you? Not really. I reply, just not quickly enough.

If your ex came up to you and asked you to take them back, what would you say? Honest to god I would probably be smug about it, and ask what led to the sudden change of mind. I’m doing too okay now to entertain the request though, so idk if I would agree to it or not because I’ve worked pretty hard to get here.

Do you prefer boys to shave down there? I wouldn’t know; I’ve never been with a guy before so I haven’t really had a chance to establish a preference.

How much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? Nothing.

Do you enjoy watching cooking shows? I have my moods. I prefer my cooking shows on YouTube, though.

Do you worry about gaining weight? No.

Have you ever seen the movie A Walk to Remember? Cliche or worth watching? Yeah the acting was so fucking cheesy the first 5 minutes the only thing left for me to do was gag. What’s one event your town has that you don’t like to participate in? They don’t really organize stuff here, or if they do I never join them to begin with.

Are any of your siblings married? What are their spouses' names? Nope. I know my sister doesn’t want to get married + I don’t speak to my brother, so I dunno if I’ll ever have any in-laws tbh.

Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out? Well obviously I crave it these days, so it actually feels nice when everyone in the family has errands to run on the same day.

Did you lose friends when you started dating someone? I lost Sofie, but I also blame college life for that loss.

Did you leave milk and cookies for Santa when you were little? No.

To who did you last give the finger to? I haven’t had to flip someone off in a while. I’m guessing just some stupid driver.

Do you talk in your sleep? Nope. At least I have never been informed that I do.

Do you have a good relationship with your parents? It’s civil enough for the house to stay quiet most days, but it’s nothing excellent.

Have you ever been a featured member on any website? I don’t think so.

Do you feel that your previous relationships were a waste of time? Yes.

Do you prefer hot chocolate with or without marshmallows? Without. I HAAAAAATE marshmallows.

Which do you like better: Regular cakes or cookie cakes? I never got the point of cookie cakes tbh lol.

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex? No.

If your significant other cheated on you, would you take them back? I know I definitely have the capacity to be dumb enough to do this, but it would also depend on how invested I am in the person.

What was the last song you listened to? I'm currently listening to a slowed down version of Jungkook’s cover of Biebs’ 2U. 4 AM things.

What do you look for most in a friendship? I’ve answered this question on a previous survey, same with a few of the following questions.

#survey #surveys

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joonsrack · 4 years

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+Pairing: Seokjin x Gender neutral reader

+Genre: One shot, heavy angst, L2E.

+Word count: 4.8k

+Warnings: PG, Theme of infidelity, alcohol as a coping mechanism, swearing, SFW, codependency, breaking up, unhappy ending.

+Summary:

Living with the love of your life is everything you hoped it would be like, and more. You get to wake up to him (almost) every morning, eat his cooking, share your moods, hear his laughter… Now things would be easier if the man you love wasn’t someone else’s husband.

+A/N: Hellooooooooooo. This is for the collab Outro: Tears - The angst now told, put together by the amazing @personawife. This is my first time writing heavy angst and unhappy ending, as I tend to keep my stuff pretty fluffy. It was definitely a challenge and it took me out of my comfort zone, but I’m glad I did it. Will I ever do it again? Probably not. But it allowed me to explore, so that was pretty nice. Thank you to the wonderful @namjooniebjonesuniverse for betaing my dumb french ass and giving me helpful guidance, ily bb. Title from 134340, the most superior bts song of all time.

Three knocks on the door pull you out of your thoughts, bringing you back into the moment. You’re sitting on your couch in your dark living room, a glass of bitter-tasting wine swirling in your hand. It’s usually your favorite bottle, but today it leaves an ashy after taste in the back of your throat.

Not for the first time, you wonder if it’s really worth it. If it’s worth this. These lonely moments where you feel like you’re holding on by a thread, ready to burst at the seams.

Are they truly a fair price to pay for the happiness you feel when you’re with him?

You put your glass down, unfolding your legs and planting them on the floor, before filling your lungs with much-needed air.

There’s another series of knocks, more tentative.

He knows you’re in there, but he doesn’t know in what state. He has his own keys, always has, but he’s leaving you the power to open the door or not.

You bite your lips nervously, bracing yourself for the high of emotions you get whenever you see him after a long time. As much as you dread it, the fact that you still get these butterflies might mean that yes, all these moments spent in the dark might be worth it.

(It’s getting harder to convince yourself.)

You pad quietly to the door, not needing to look through the peephole; no one else would be knocking at your door at this hour.

The sound of the bolt turning rips violently through the deafening silence, and you open the door slowly, before meeting his eyes hesitantly.

You probably look like a mess; lips tinted by wine, hair disheveled from the day, work clothes untidy and creased. It doesn’t stop Seokjin from dropping his suitcase and lifting you in a tight hug, planting his face in the crook of your neck.

He walks a few steps in before depositing you back on your feet, but without letting go. You feel his hands grabbing at your clothes, no intention other than holding on to you; like you’re a vision that might disappear. For some reason, this is the most worrying part.

You drop a soft kiss on his shoulder, before extricating yourself out of his hold. You sidestep him to grab his suitcase lying forgotten on the ceramic of the hallways, depositing it inside and closing the door.

Then you lead Jin backward, loosening his tie for him, discarding it before getting started on his button-up. He watches your fingers work, following after you until your back hits the door frame of your bedroom.

He uses the opportunity to cage you in, using his finger to raise your chin so he can lock your lips in a soft kiss. You let him pepper your face with kisses, closing your eyes and enjoying the tenderness of it all. If he notices the single tear that trails down your cheek, he doesn’t mention it.

There are very few places you like waking up more than on Seokjin’s chest, head moving in time with the up and down of his steady breathing.

A fine stream of light is sneaking in through the curtains, hitting you directly in the eyes and bathing the room in a soft morning glow. Seokjin’s skin underneath you is shining a light gold, the warmth of his body getting covetously soaked up by yours.

You two have not had a morning to yourselves in what feels like forever. This morning is all yours to enjoy though, and you plan on basking in his body heat a little more. Laying in bed all day with the love of your life is probably why weekends were invented anyway.

“Morning beautiful,” he says softly, his breath tickling the tip of your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. He pecks the top of your head, breathing in your morning scent for a second, before starting his long stretching process, dislodging you from your hard-earned heat pocket. You whine a little, but it’s only when he sits up that you truly get offended.

“What are you doing” you pout, holding on for dear life to his middle, plastering your face to where you can reach without actually sitting up too.

“Starting my day?” He says, as he gently unwraps your arm from around his waist.

“Sounds dumb.”

“I’m doing you the honor of making breakfast. You should be grateful.” He grins down at you, pushing your hair out of your face and trying to comb them into submission. Or maybe he’s trying to dishevel you even more, judging from his facial expression.

“There’s apps for that now, old man. You choose what you want and they deliver it to you right at your door.”

He chuckles at your quip, before stepping out of the bed. You’re hoping your age jab goes unpunished, but then he pulls the whole comforter with him, exposing you to the cold air of the room. You shriek in horror, taking offense as he runs off, cackling maniacally.

You’re left slightly shivering, spread out on your back, staring at the ceiling.

There’s a small smile playing at your lips now that Seokjin is out of sight.

It’s moments like this, filled with softness and love, that makes it all worth it.

Right?

After pulling on one of Jin’s sweaters that swallows you whole, and some shorts lying around, you make your way after him, guessing he’ll most definitely be in the kitchen. Sure enough, you spot the discarded comforter on the couch and hear the sound of food making and pans being moved around. You grab the comforter to wrap yourself in it, trudging into the kitchen with a train.

You make your presence known by hugging him from behind, hooking your chin over his shoulder to peek at what’s starting to smell quite nice. You press a kiss into the crook of his neck once you spot the crêpes in the pan.

“Is this your version of apology cookies?” You ask, mentioning for the first time the elephant in the room.

You feel more than hear his sigh, his wide shoulders deflating a little.

“It was completely out of my control” he answers, voice going low and soft.

“I know, but I still missed you like crazy.”

“It won’t happen again.”

There’s an edge to his voice, and you rub your thumb into his tummy to soothe him. You almost regret bringing it up, but you’d rather clear the air now than wait for it to fester.

Two weeks ago, Seokjin was leaving for a usual two-night stay for an in-laws family gathering. Somehow, a series of events had extended that small trip to a whole week, and then when he had come back, he’d been swept into work matters. Thus, he hadn’t been home for the whole fortnights, which was the longest you two had spent apart since the day he had basically moved in with you.

“Did something happen?” You ask tentatively. The tension builds up into his whole body hadn’t escaped your notice. You know him too well for that. The moment you had seen him yesterday night, looking completely drained, you knew it wasn’t his habitual bought of work tiredness.

“…You know, the usual. They’re asking, or more like demanding, things I’m not ready to give.” He answers without elaborating, and you know not to push.

“Then work was just a shit show.”

“I saw the news.”

He makes a noncommittal sound before flipping the crêpe with expert precision. His family’s company’s stocks had dropped a few points over a small mismanagement scandal. Nothing that couldn’t be cleared in a few days, but enough of a problem to request Jin’s undivided attention.

“Those better be good enough to make up for two weeks of loneliness.” You tease, but it ends up sounding heavier than you intended, more honest.

He’s silent a beat too long to be natural, but to your relief, he decides to keep things light.

“I put in a secret ingredient.” He says, his voice laced with mischief.

You frown curiously while he reaches for something in his jogging’s pockets.

A second later, he pulls out a finger heart, that he proceeds to ‘sprinkle’ over the pan.

You face plant into his shoulder blades with a wide smile, muffling your snickering into his skin. His shoulders shake as he attempts to suppress his laughter rather unsuccessfully.

You missed him, so bad, everyday, every moment. Craved his presence. This apartment, the home you made with him, doesn’t feel as bright and warm when he’s not here with you. It should scare you, how much of an impact he has on your life, your moods, your needs. You’re usually a pretty fair boss, but the assistants and interns have been avoiding you for the whole week now, so you know his absence had put a greater strain on your mood than you let yourself believe.

In fact, it does scare you a little. Not your love, but the power this love holds over you. Sometimes there are days you look at him and you feel like you could go crazy, do crazy things for him. Even after all these years together, he still has the ability to cause butterflies to burn a hole through your stomach. If anything, it only keeps burning stronger. It’s threatening to consume you, and you’re tempted to let it.

When you two share moments, staring into each others’ eyes like you just met, you can see those feelings reflected back at you.

You eat breakfast on the couch, morning dramas on. It’s going to be one of those lazy days, which is exactly what you need. Just some time to enjoy each other’s company, reconnect and forget the stress of being separated for two weeks.

You watch a few episodes in comfortable silence, enjoying the lines of your body meshed together, intertwined on the narrow couch.

At some point you feel his eyes on you, and you meet them, not expecting what you see there.

You feel a knot tightening in your stomach at his expression; full of worry and incertitude. He quickly morphs it into something more neutral, but it’s too late. You saw, and you know something is wrong. Something that can’t wait.

You recall last night, when he grabbed at you like you might just disappear into thin air. You tried your hardest not to mention it. Normally you would wait until he’s ready to tell you, but seeing him suffer is making you hurt as well.

You put the tv on pause, sitting up and pulling him up with you so you can be eyes level. You take his hands in between yours, playing with his fingers before smiling reassuringly at him.

"There's something you're not telling me, I can feel it. " You say softly, rubbing gentle circles into his palm.

He looks down at your joined hands, eyes turning sad with a nervous hint. He blinks one too many times, his nervous tell is well known to you.

"I know it's probably related to her... Whatever it is, we can work through it."

Seokjin closes his hands around yours, bringing your hands up to his lips, kissing them softly.

He’s bracing himself, you can see it in the tense line of his broad shoulders, and you make sure to morph your expression into something open, calm and understanding.

His grip on your hands tightens a fraction before becoming looser, and you pick up your gentle ministration again, rubbing small circles into his skin, giving him the time he needs to find the right words.

He opens his mouth but nothing comes out for a long moment. You wait, still, not wanting to ruin his momentum, and just as his lips start moving around his first word, the silence of the room is broken by the loud vibration of his phone, facedown on the living room table.

You both startle, looking down at what ruined this moment, him with a look of apprehension. He reaches for it, cursing at the name on the screen, before throwing you an apologetic look. He doesn't actually meet your eyes, and the tightness in your stomach is back in full force.

"I need to take this." He says, a deep frown creasing his forehead.

You catch sight of her name on the screen.

His wife.

He stands up from the couch, answering the call with a sharp 'what is it' into the phone. You hear the sound of the bedroom door closing shut behind him, and you're once again left alone in the living room.

The temperature of the room drops below freezing point, making every breath a struggle.

“-/N….Y/N!”

You startle at the sound of your name, looking up to see Taehyung standing in front of your desk, a couple of files under the arm.

"You completely spaced out there."

You look down at your screen, half and email staring back at you. Mondays are usually pretty tough, but today you have not been able to focus for more than 5 minutes straight.

"Everything alright?"

You look up at your friend again, mustering what you think is a normal looking smile. "Of course."

Taehyung winces, looking worried. He walks back to the door to close it, then takes a seat in front of you.

"Talk." He says, putting both his hands down on his crossed legs.

"We're not doing this at work Tae,” you sigh, “ I'm not letting myself be distracted by my personal matters while in my office."

"Yeah well, it's too late for that. You were looking pretty distracted when I walked in; I had to call your name like, five times."

You hold back an eye roll, too old for that. But it's a close call.

"Temporary madness, won't happen again. Thank you for calling me back to earth."

You focus back on your screen dismissively, hoping your friend gets the message.

He doesn't, and you work for a few minutes in his presence before the silence becomes too much.

"Did you have any other business here that required my attention."

"You've been acting out of it for the past two weeks and I put it down on the fact that he wasn't home, but I'm pretty sure he's supposed to be back by now."

You sigh again, annoyed but also tired. Bone tired.

"He...had an emergency. He left yesterday and he won't be here this week either." You say, keeping your eyes on the screen, lest you meet Taehyung's and he reads all the longing and pain in them.

Seokjin had reassured you it would not happen again, and not even 24 hours later he broke his promise.

It's worth it, you tell yourself. How many times has it been, that you’ve had to remind yourself of that?

Taehyung's expression softens, knowing how much his absence usually affects you.

Your work phone rings, and you thank god for small miracles, getting a break from your friend's all-knowing eyes.

"Yes Jimin," You ask your assistant on the phone, making a shooing motion at Taehyung. Without any surprise, he doesn't budge.

"I have Mrs.Kim Hana on the phone for you, she's saying it's some important matter. should I connect the call?"

Your heart drops to the floor, blood turning icy. Why would she be calling you of all people? The first thing that pops into your mind is Jin. It’s the only logical explanation.

Something must have happened to him, and you usually leave your personal phone on silent during work hours, so she couldn't join you otherwise.

Taehyung examines your face, looking worried. You probably look like you've seen a ghost.

"Yes, yes put her on. Thank you."

The line rings twice before a beep indicates you've been connected.

"This is Y/N speaking." You say, struggling to keep your voice steady.

"Hi, this is Kim Hana."

"Is something the matter, Mrs.Kim?" You ask, knowing she likes insisting on the Kim, to remind you that she's in that position and not you.

"I just had a few questions for you," she says, voice saccharine. You frown. Is that it?

"I'm at work right now, can't this phone call be done sometime tonight?" You ask, trying to keep the annoyance out of your voice now that you know there’s no immediate emergency.

"This will only take a few seconds, I need to be somewhere myself."

You rub your temple with your free hand, not in the mood for her mind games. You two rarely talk unless necessary. You don't exactly hate each other, but her being married to the man you've been dating for the last few years isn't exactly the stellar base for an excellent relationship.

"Go ahead."

"I'll be very straight to the point: Do you have any STDs or any type of transmittable disease?"

The question takes you by surprise, a frown etching itself into your forehead..

"Excuse me?" You ask, tone dry.

"Have you and Seokjin used protection? Probably not, right? You've been sleeping together for what, 3 years?"

You stay silent for a good minute, completely horrified.

"Mrs. Kim, how is that any of your fucking business?"

Taehyung's eyes go wide, not used to hearing you curse sober. These are usually reserved for when you've drunk a little.

"Well, I thought he would have told you, but I see he clearly hasn't.” There’s glee in her voice, and you want to hang up, right now. You know you won’t like what you’re about to hear.

But it’s stronger than you, and you ask, “Tell me what?”

“Well, you see, our parents are starting to ask for an heir. That would have been the natural course of this marriage, if you weren’t in the way." There’s contempt peeking through the fake lightness of her tone, and she giggles cutely like she hadn't just dropped a bomb on your head.

"...What?" The words don't make sense in your head. They just bounce around, wreaking havoc.

"This is why Seokjin needs to stay here this week, as I am in the prime time of my cycle. If it doesn't take we'll need to try again in the next few months. Our parents were very clear this needs to happen now."

There's a buzzing in your ear, getting louder by the second.

"They demand things I am not ready to give" had said Jin on Sunday.

They demand an heir of him.

You hear yourself talk, but it's very far away. You knew this would happen someday. But not this soon, not right now. You had buried that inevitability deep under a thick layer of denial, and it was springing back out of nowhere, like a kick in the stomach.

"I'm sure you could ask all these questions to the man himself." You say, the tip of your fingers gone numbs.

She chuckles down the line, and you decide to actually start hating her.

"I guess I could." Is all she answers, before hanging up.

You stay frozen, phone held to your ear, until Taehyung hears the dial tone, take the phone from your hand and hang up for you.

"Who was that?" He asks, mindful of keeping his voice soft.

You rest your face in your hand, pacing your breathing. Now is not the time to lose control. You're at work, you're professional and today is not the day this is going to change.

Except the air is stiff as it enters your lungs, and it burns on the way out. Your hands turn into fists, nails digging into the skin, as you try your hardest not to break.

This? This feeling coursing through your body? This is not worth it.

This week was supposed to be spent coming home to Jin's cooking after another long day at work, or waking up early to make you both a cup of coffee before heading out to the office, stealing a morning kiss on the way.

Except you're alone once more, sitting on your couch in the living room you love so much when he's here, swirling wine that darkens the color of your lips a shade too deep and leaves ashes on your tongue. Instead, you'll be eating some quick fix in a kitchen that looks empty, silent save for the sound of your cutlery. You'll be waking up to cold bedsheets and pillows, startling morning lights mocking your loneliness. You’ll be sitting in the dark, wondering how long until you can feel warm again.

You should probably hate him right now. He made up some stories instead of telling you the truth, disappearing to accomplish his conjugal duties. You wonder if he even plans on telling you. He would have to one day or another since the desired endgame here is to have a baby. He couldn’t hide a pregnancy from you; their public status might not be equal to a celebrity, but an heir officializing the merge of Seokjin’s and Hana’s family businesses would be worth a mention in an economic magazine somewhere, which would ultimately come back to you.

An heir.

Something you could never give him.

How can your relationship possibly get past this? How would it even work? Knowing Jin, knowing his gentle and nurturing nature, he wouldn’t be able to stay away from his child. And you would never ask that of him. How could you ask him to be an absent father to his child, knowing how much Jin suffered from it.

So what does that make you both, what does that mean for you? More of this? More of loneliness? More of everything you hate? You’d have to stay here, alone, hidden away. He would come to see you occasionally, maybe not even stay the night. You’d have stolen moments with him, nothing more.

The idea scares you, freezes you over. There’s tears wetting your cheeks, so many of them, and you’re just letting them escape freely. You have months of repressed emotions raging to get out, making you sob and hick up uncontrollably. You feel like screaming, like ripping your hair out, anything to calm the burning sensation in your guts.

You do none of those. Instead, you pass out on the couch from exhaustion, feeling completely and utterly empty.

There’s an omnipresent silence in the room, heavy and deafening, making your ears ring.

Its tendrils are slowly getting longer, sucking all the air out and invading every corner of the room, leaving you breathless, gasping.

You look down at your glass of wine, its ashy color reflecting the taste it left in the back of your throat. You swirl it around, but the glass turns to dust in your hand, escaping your hold.

You look at the man facing you. There’s a vicious smile stretching your lips, barely concealing the depth of your cruel viciousness. You want to hurt him.

Sitting on the other side of the dining table, Seokjin is looking at you somewhat the same way. Except he’s not trying to conceal anything, he’s looking at you with pure unadulterated hatred.

The light streaming in from the windows is dull, mocking the memories that were made in this same room. They shift suddenly, the sky getting clouded, turning darker by the second until it’s as dark as the night. Seokjin is now just a shadow, sitting on the other side of the table, yet far away. The temperature drops, the air turning so frigid your breath is coming out foggy.

Silence can be scarier than any monster. It’s always hungry for more.

You wake up gasping, choking on nothing, only the silence surrounding you. Except something woke you up, pulled you out of your nightmare.

There’s a banging at the door.

You look at the time, your eyes puffy from crying yourself to sleep.

It’s a little after 1:00 am, and if you don’t stop this racket you’ll hear from a very angry neighbor tomorrow.

You make a beeline to the door, your heart pounding from the residue of your dream and the abrupt awakening.

You rip the door open, not even bothering to check through the peephole first, scared another series of banging is coming.

Jin is barely standing, resting his weight on the door frame, face shadowed by his hair.

He reeks of alcohol, eyes half open and wet looking.

His face twists in pain at the sight of you, and his body dangerously dips forward before you react and catch him, helping him stand. You spy his keys on the floor, probably where he dropped them after trying to unlock the door in his intoxicated state.

“Hey…” You say, walking him inside and to the couch, carrying most of his weight as he tries with uncoordinated arms to hug you to him.

He’s letting out a litany of slurred words, suspiciously sounding like apologies.

You deposit him on the couch, before walking back to the door, grabbing the keys from the floor before shutting and locking it. You pass by the kitchen to pour him a glass of water, and then you make your way back to him.

He’s already asleep, body slumped forward. You shake him awake, needing to make sure he drinks at least a cup before you let him drift off.

“Here.” You say, and you help him drink.

He manages to finish the cup with your help, and you put it away on the living room table.

You expect him to go back straight to sleep, but instead, he flails around until he has your face in between his hands, unfocused eyes searching yours.

He slurs some words, and you can barely make out anything he’s saying, but you catch “Sorry” and “I love you” and “children” and “Hana”, so you can easily deduct what this is about. You shush him. Now was not the time to talk about any of this.

You help him out of his jacket, belt and shoes, to make his night more comfortable. You’re playing with the idea of leaving him the couch, going to your bedroom, but he grabs your arm loosely, leveling pleading eyes at you.

“Do you feel nauseous?” You ask in one last half-hearted attempt.

He shakes his head, so you wait until he lays down and then you join him, arranging both your bodies so you can fit comfortably.

He’s out like a leaf, already snoring softly by the time you’re done shifting around. You take advantage of this moment to steal a good look at his face.

Now that it’s quiet again, you find yourself thinking back about your nightmare. The man in your nightmare held hatred for you. It was transpiring from every pore of his body, and so was it from yours.

You know Jin, you know him by heart. But the person sitting on the other end of that table was a stranger.

You shiver at the thought, at the suffocating feeling that was surrounding you, in that dark kitchen, with the scariest monster hanging over both your heads. The feeling that was coursing through you, so opposite from what you feel for him, yet so similar.

You focus on Jin to try and change your mind, but something jumps out to you.

Jin, who’s always ever showered in the morning, has freshly cleaned hair. If you focus, underneath the stench of alcohol, there’s the clean scent of body wash, the one he always uses when he needs to sleepover at their house.

The realization grips you then, that tonight was probably night number one of their attempt at a child.

That Jin hated it so much that he showered, got plastered, and made his way back home. To you.

And you hate it. Hate this fucked up situation. Hate him a little, too.

And it hurts. It hurts so much, thinking about the hurt you’re about to make him go through. How the decision you’ve just reached is going to make him suffer.

But you just know that your dream, it’s a warning. You can feel it in your bones. This situation is not something you can ignore until it goes away, and trying to work around it will only drive you both crazy. Drive you to hate.

The love you have for each other is strong and fierce and so alive, but you’ve heard what they say about love and hate.

The line is so thin between the two, and you’re too scared to find out how a love like yours would change into hate. How deep it would run, and how much it would twist you and the man you love. You’ve witnessed it in your dream, like your subconscious felt the need to point it out.

So you’ve reached a conclusion.

But for now, you hug Jin closer to your body, enjoying his body heat as much as you can. You don’t know how many times you’ll get to do that, a silent clock ticking in the back of your mind.

With every tick, the silence grows louder, and your bones get colder.

#magicshopnet #bangtanarmynet #btswriterscollective #ficswithluv #armysource #bangtanscenery #bangtanhq #angst #seokjin #outro : tear the angst now told

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myjinjoo · 4 years

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request: by @mabel-k3

pairing: idol!seokjin + nonidol!reader

a/n: sorry this took so long, i hope your year is going well so far. thank you for being the first request of 2020 🥺💓

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there are many desserts to marvel over, from tea cookies to cinnamon rolls, to your best friend, kim seokjin, to rice cakes. his eyes brighten as he scans all of the pastries that lay before him. you stare with widened eyes as he begins to shovel pastries into his mouth. how did he still manage to look cute while eating like a barbarian? he glances up at you with an eyebrow raised his gaze shifting between you and the pastries that you haven’t touched yet, “hey, are you feeling well?” he asks, perking up with concern. when he usually takes you to cafes, you both eat an exceeding amount of food immediately.

you fall out of your short-lived daze, “sorry i had gotten distracted…” you trail off, beginning to get lost in your thoughts again. seokjin’s eyes study you with a questioning gaze. after a few seconds, the blonde-haired boy pushes a plate of tea cookies towards you with a smile. your heart rate spikes with a warm feeling bubbling inside.

“oh my no, are you jin? as in the eldest member of bts?” a voice squeals, “this is so cool. let me give you my number!” the waitress winks. you and seokjin watch in horror and amusement as she scribbles her number on a napkin. the waitress looks up and meeting your eyes with a hardened stare, “are you on a… date?” she chokes out, voice thickened with envy.

panic finds itself in seokjin’s eyes, “no, no! this is my lesbian best friend, uh, meet munsoo,” he lies, gesturing towards you. her examining gaze shifts between you and seokjin. after what seems to be an hour, she smiles, proceeding to hand seokjin her number. the waitress sashays away, swinging her hips and slightly poking out her butt.

displeasure builds itself in your stomach, ‘who does she think she is? she doesn’t even have a chance,’ you scoff to yourself. you know that you have no reason to feel upset, yet your jaw is still clenched. as seokjin’s best friend, your job to support him when he starts to date. why does your heart clench at the thought of him having a girlfriend? you startle as seokjin’s puts his hand over yours, “let’s go.” he says, crinkling the waitress’s napkin into his pocket and putting on his face mask.

he stands up from the cafe table and lays down a hundred dollar bill, staring at you expectantly while you gather your purse and the last of the tea cookies. you barely have time to secure your face mask and grab your purse before seokjin grabs your hand and leads you out of the cafe. your focus becomes skewed at the feeling of seokjin’s hand in yours, butterflies fluttering in your stomach as your cheeks redden.

seokjin looks both ways before leading, his long legs moving faster than your shorter ones. his fast pace continues until you make it outside your apartment door. you double over in attempt catch your breath, “wow, i forgot how long of legs you have,” you wheeze with a small smile on your face.

he knew what you were trying to do which was diffusing the situation with jokes. he wasn’t ready to say goodbye to you either, “y/n…” you look into his eyes, “jin, i- are you sure that you have to go?” you ask, engulfing him in a bear hug. he rests his chin on top of your head, playing with your hair while you cling on tighter.

“promise that you’ll take care of yourself and until i return?” seokjin asks.

pulling away from him, “only if you promise to take care of yourself, eat well, and call me every night you can,” you reply, offering your side of the promise. the deal is sealed it with your two pinkies interlocking.

your gaze lowers to your shoes to hide your oncoming tears as hot tears glaze over your eyes, “you should probably go before your manager scolds you again,” you whisper.

seokjin lifts your chin, forcing you to meet his gaze, and with his touch as gentle as feathers, he wipes your fallen tears. “i do have to go, but i’ll call you so much you won’t even realize i’m gone. though, on the airplane, i’ll be busy… i’ve been reading a book about anti-gravity, and it's impossible to put down!” seokjin jokes, cueing his windshield wiper laugh.

chuckling slightly, you gently hit seokjin’s chest, “jin, this is serious. don’t try to distract me,” you pout.

he leans toward you with a gentle smile, and kisses your forehead. “i’ll be before you can count the days i’ve been gone.” seokjin says.

you give him one last hug before he leaves, taking your heart with him. your mood drops even more as you watch his silhouette faded away.

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it had been one solid week, or as you’d say one thousand years, since seokjin left for tour, and things aren’t going well. everyone says that you look half dead which you believe considering you haven’t slept well since seokjin left, you can’t talk to seokjin as much as you’d like due to the time differences while he’s in US part of the tour, and everything reminds you of your best friend which makes you miss him even more.

you walk into the flower shop to buy his favorite type of flowers. you know, add a touch of seokjin’s flare to your apartment. the lady smiles while preparing the flowers to be put into the vase, “you know, there’s this handsome-looking boy that orders this exact flower arrangement,” she winks.

you nod, “he is handsome isn’t he?” smiling to yourself. the lady makes a hum in agreement.

after ten minutes, she slides the vase of flowers over to you with a smirk, and you observe the flowers. you pluck out a blank card, tilting your head in confusion. “it’s a note so you can write your love confession on there and give it to mr. handsome,” the lady deadpans.

your eyes widen in surprise at her statement, “no, i don’t like hi--” the lady interrupts you, “child, the way he looks when he’s coming here to give these to you, and the way you look while getting these made-- young love at it’s finest. plus, this isn’t any old flower arrangement, this is one picked of delicacy and full of love.” the lady said, eyeing the flowers. you stare at the woman in disbelief until she shoes you out of the flower shop. “remember to confess, and tell me how it goes!” she smiles, closing the door behind her.

you absent-mindedly stumble down the sidewalk, lost in your thoughts about what the lady said. your heart practically doing cartwheels as you entertain the idea of you being with seokjin, romantically.

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relief washes over you when seokjin’s face shows on your computer screen. skype has never come more in handy. “how are you? how have you been? how’s gukmul? have you been eating well? i knew i should’ve meal prepped everything before i left,” seokjin rambles, looking expectantly into the camera.

butterflies that you ignore continuously go crazy in your stomach while you answer every one of seokjin’s questions, “i’m fine, i’ve been okay, gukmul is fine as always, and i’ve been eating very well. what about you?” you lie. you weren’t okay, you missed seokjin and every day feels like something missing because he isn’t there, you’ve been unhealthy bored eating to cope with seokjin not being around, and you still can’t figure out why you feel on cloud nine whenever you romantically think of your best friend, but gukmul, seokjin’s sugar glider, has been great company.

“i’ve been okay, i’m a little tired, and i’ve been eating well too,” seokijn smiles.

you could visibly tell that seokjin was tired, but he was going out of his way to skype you. thinking quickly, you knock on your nightstand, “that must be my friend, she called me saying she needed company after her boyfriend broke up with her. i’ll call you tomorrow. get some sleep, love you, bye!” ending the call before he replies.

sighing, you glance at gukmul, “your dad’s going to get some sleep so it’s just you and i, buddy.” you said.

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“which genre, scary movies or rom-com?” you ask gukmul, holding up a movie cd from each genre. the sugar glider looks at both before staring at the rom-com. you look between both, the sugar glider and the cd, before replying, “yeah, i was in a romantic comedy type of mood too.” you nod, petting the sugar glider’s head.

you sit down with a bowl of popcorn and start your rom-com movie marathon. you often find yourself reimagining every romantic scene with you and seokjin. pausing the movie, you try to clear your head of all unfriend-like thoughts like kissing seokjin’s plush, pink lips or— stop, no more seokjin thoughts.

after further analysis, did you have a crush on your best friend? you went to the internet, searching up quizzes for liking someone.

“has he ever told you he loves you?” you read the quiz question aloud which led to you clicking ‘yes, all the time!’

“how often do you see him?” you asked yourself. after minutes of thought, you clicked ‘every day - we’re always together!’

“does he hold/cuddle you as if he loves you?” you tapped your chin, recalling the multiple occasions you’ve snuggled. ultimately, the answer you click is ‘yes, all the time!’

this was a question you didn’t need to think about, “how does he treat you?”, you clicked ‘great! I feel like a queen when i'm with him!’

“do you catch him staring at you often?” the question read, you pondered this for minutes. sometimes, you’d catch him looking at you and you’d ask if you had something on your face, and he’d laugh and say no. with a shrug you click the option that reads, “yes!”

“how does he refer to the relationship between you two?” without hesitation you clicked the option that read, “like husband and wife”, not only did strangers ask if you were married but your friend said you two were like an old married couple, and you two sometimes jokingly called each other husband and wife.

you submitted your answer to the website generator, and the results overjoyed you. It read, “why did you even take this test? you already know your man absolutely adores you! he worships the ground you walk on, and the love you feel for each other will last a lifetime!”

you couldn’t help but feel ecstatic at the results before realizing that this was your best friend. it wasn’t normal to take a quiz like this to see if he likes you, it wasn’t normal to get butterflies every time you see him, it wasn’t normal to feel as if you’ve gone through the worst breakup and gotten hit by a truck simultaneously when he left for tour, and it damn sure wasn’t normal to be envious of girls that flirt with him. it raised more of a question this time, did you like seokjin as more than a best friend?

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time had passed by quickly and you have decided it was time to tell seokjin how you felt. you spent many nights thinking about this, you took an online quiz, you talked to your friend, and even the flower lady thinks you should tell him. You decided that you don’t want to keep something so important a secret because he’d find out sooner or later. he’d either find out because you sold him, someone else told him, or you were acting weird.

you stood in front of your mirror giving yourself a once over while listening to music. at this point, not even the music could help your nerves, your hands were clammy, your heart was racing, and if you hadn’t have put on more deodorant… it would’ve definitely been noticeable. unbeknownst to you, seokjin had just arrived and was looking for you which you would’ve heard if it wasn’t for your music playing loudly or the fact you lost track of time. “how are you going to tell him, y/n? hey, sorry this might ruin our friendship but i’ve finally realized i’m in love with you, kim seokjin,” you mock, snorting to yourself.

“you’re in love with me?” voice chimes from the doorway, and of course it’s none other than kim seokjin.

you freeze in surprise, “yes- no.. maybe?” you stumble. the shock and confusion on his face give you the answers you need. you lower your gaze to the ground with hot tears of embarrassment starting to burn within your eyes, “i’m sorry, i was planning on telling you but not like this. you see, there was the stupid quiz i took and it was all like ‘yeah he totally loves you’ and i was like great even though i probably shouldn’t get validation from quiz but i did and i--” seokjin puts tilts your head upward so you make eye contact with him, “i guess it’s a good thing i’m in love with you too, huh?” he teases, snickering to himself.

you playfully slap his chest, “i thought you were about to tell me that you didn’t feel the same, you idiot.” you laugh.

“you couldn’t see that i’ve been in love with you for years but i’m the idiot?” seokjin jokes, raising an eyebrow at you.

you roll your eyes, “you know how to kill the mood,” you mutter, pulling away from him. seokjin pulls you closer by the belt loops on your jeans and wraps his arms around your waist. you wrap your arms around his neck to steady yourself considering you don’t trust your legs to keep you standing.

“i know how to kill the mood, huh?” he teases, his lips moving closer to yours. you absentmindedly hum in agreement. seokjin closed the gap between the two of you, finally your lips caressing his. he kissed you gently as if you’d but, but passionately he wouldn’t get the chance to again. the heat warms your body as you pull him impossibly closer. after a minute, he pulls away from you, your lips not hesitating to chase his. “we should’ve done this sooner,” he smirks.

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a/n; sorry for any typos, i’ll be revisiting to proofread again and add tags! hope you enjoyed this :)

#bts #bts fanfic #bts fanfiction #bts scenarios #kim seokjin x reader #idol!seokjin #seokjin fanfic #seokjin imagine #bts seokjin #bangtan fic #bangtan sonyeondan #kim seokjin #min yoongi #jung hoseok #kim namjoon #park jimin #kim taehyung #jeon jungkook

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cupsofsuga · 5 years

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Hi honey, can i ask for a reaction from bts yandere when a friend of his girlfriend tells them that (member of bts) is not normal because he is very obsessive and those things, but she defends them saying that they are not like that (because she she loves him and trusts him, she's naive too) Excuse my English since it is not my mother tongue and if the orders are full I will understand Thank u

THE HEARSAY ━ YANDERE BTS REACTION*:･。.

WARNING - This is a yandere au, meaning the following may be triggering to some viewers. I am not trying to discriminate the boys in any way, this is for entertainment purposes. Viewer discretion is advised!!!

Thank you for requesting, my sweet dove! You’re English is phenomenal! Also, buckle up cause this ones LONG.

KIM SEOKJIN

━━━ This was never supposed to happen.

Before he could even think to react, he has been caught in this state of infatuation, like a butterfly in a net. No matter how much he spreads his wings, there is no escaping this need for you.

Seokjin craves and desires every fleeting moment of intimacy, creating havocs of emotions that whirl within him. The melding of colors in the boundless azure sky, the soft glimmer of stars that twinkle in the sky as well as your eyes. He inhales, tasting the sweet fragrance of the early spring, he then exhales, and litters of stars and flower petals fly in the air. Jin has set out the seraphic variety of emotions sat on a dome plate. All for you, every fiber or fragment of emotion held within his body was all made for you.

Every little bit of blood spilled from those who dared separating you from him was all in the name of love; all in the name of his dear Y/N. Without these heathens, he can finally settle in his home tucked away in the woods with his little doe to where they spend the remainder of their days in peace.

And this fellow “friend” of yours was nothing like the others on his hit list. He tried convincing you to leave Jin, throwing insults spiked with venom about his behavior towards you, trying to feed you these lies that he called “the truth”. This angered Jin severely. How could anyone say such vicious things to his angel? And once night fell, as he stood under Jin’s motionless, hardened gaze, time seemed to stop. Birds became silent, every flower died. The whole world seemed to stop spinning.

But now Seokjin returns home, hands bloody and his blood boiling, but once he catches sight of you sleeping soundly in your shared bedroom, all of this built-up rage seems to melt away. You sleep like the sweetest, little fawn, he thinks. And once he washes away his sins in the sink, he’ll then cradle you and care for you as if you’re a porcelain angel who now lies in his arms.

“Don’t you worry, my little doe… I will protect you from these blasphemous hellions; I will keep you safe for eternity.”

MIN YOONGI

━━━ You pleaded to go see a distant friend, meaning no boyfriend, only the two of you. This intimacy shared with you is obsessive, but he obliges the part for your sake.

It has felt like years since you’ve seen your childhood friend. You’ve almost forgotten how you bloomed like an unseen poppy in the first few seconds of April when you two venture together. A true, genuine bond you two have.

But Yoongi is in your life now, and you must forget these memories.

Your friend disagrees and there is this darkness that follows. He begins to tell you how unhealthy and mentally draining is it to cope with Yoongi’s behavior. You stop, question and drown in your own pool of realization. Was he right?

He pulls you into an embrace when the brunch date ends. His touch is so warm, you feel yourself start to melt with his arms locked around you. It’s been a quick minute since you’ve felt heat like this. Quickly pulling yourself out of this hazy daydream, you share a quick farewell, and then you’re off, the cold, brisk air sharing no sympathy for your exposed skin.

You stare silently at your feet as you keep pacing forward. You’re far too engrossed in your thoughts to think of a practical destination. Was he truly right? Was this relationship unhealthy or was he just feeding you biased lies? Should you return home and spend the rest of the time thinking in that man’s embrace? Or should you run for it and hop on the bus before it’s too late?

And just as you reach the bus spot, a cold hand has gripped your forearm. You turn around, spotting the same face you see every morning. Heavily panting, feline-eyes which are watery with fear, icy chills spreading down his spine and the glimmering of tears on his pink cheeks. How was he here? How did he find you? Had he been here the entire time? Better question, was he listening to every word spilled?

“Y/N, please… It’s so cold without you… A-And what he said, it isn’t true. None of it is true..! We’re meant to be, can’t you see…? I love you, my Aphrodite.”

JUNG HOSEOK

━━━ You two barely fit in the same category. You’re a dove who flies freely without any flock of birds to return to or a cage to be forced into. You’ve never needed Hobi’s affections and constant sweet nothings, but you find them amusing. To you, it’s just a short summer fling that would turn to ash once Autumn comes and the leaves start to fall. To Hoseok, this love is eternal and will last for many summers to come.

“He’s kinda creepy, don’t you think? I mean, it’s quite obsessive how much he demands to be by your side… Don’t you get tired…?”

Is that what the outsiders think? That he’s some sort of mythical demon of some sort? Being around him during the times the sun shines most and the times where the moon glows in all of her glory wasn’t ever tiring, simply entertaining. Having somebody that didn’t see your cold demeanor and shiver or awkwardly avoid you was somewhat refreshing. Never have you seen someone, not even your own mother, look at you with such intense love in their eyes. And you took advantage of it.

Maybe you’d let the truth settle underneath a bed of leaves, like a trap, and as soon as he prances over to see you, the sickening reality will catch him and the sorrow in his eyes will glimmer. The idea of breaking his heart excited you, but when you returned home you expected him to come rushing to the door like a cheery golden retriever, not in this state.

Hoseok sat curled up in your living room, head buried into his knees while the faint, ominous sound of his crying echoed, almost like a ghost in a horror movie you’ve seen before. His gaze shot up towards you in surprise after hearing the creaking of floorboards. Eyes watery, cheeks wet with tears, lips quivering. A beautifully tragic sight plastered in front of you. Almost like a broken angel.

And as soon as he recognized your flabbergasted expression, the waterworks were let loose. Slowly, he waddled his way over to curl up and hug your legs, still crying as you stood in uncomfortable silence. Incoherent mumbling across desperate cries was all that was heard.

“I-I-I heard what she said at the skatepark… That I’m “obsessive”, “creepy”. B-But it isn’t true! Y/N, I’m not any of those things…! You’re my everything, you are my sun… And I need you for many seasons to come”

KIM NAMJOON

━━━ Like a lion, you cannot be tamed. You won’t drop your guards and submit to those two will throw you in a circus for humans to pay and gawk for. You won’t be the obedient animal who lets human purr and coo at. You are rare, entirely a human of complete chaos. You chase thunderstorms and run from the rainbow afterward. You call the rain and the lightning against your skin your lover and you call the sun which kisses your mortal enemy.

You’re a god, all bruised knuckles and broken hearts littering your path. Nobody owns you, you simply are in control of your own soul.

And as Namjoon listens to your junkie friend blabber about the dangerous acts that your boyfriend has committed, he sits, listens and seethes with rage. You’re a human of your own opinion, though, and brush off his comments, but not without spitting out a protective threat over your lover (which warms Joon’s heart).

Namjoon watches; stalks like a cheetah about to pounce at his prey but there is no violence in the air, only the complete, wholesome lingering of feather-touched devotion that swarms within his mind. He has forgotten about the skater boy with a pea-sized brain that made his blood boil. There was only room for you in his head, anyway.

And in a hushed whisper, his emotions leave his lips beautifully.

“Your heart may not be pure, but it is mine, all mine… Just like how my heart is yours.”

PARK JIMIN

━━━ Jimin’s entire cherub essence, so pure, so sweet. His eyes reminded you of pearls, ones you’d find strung upon the neck of Audrey Hepburn or some other angelic celebrity of the time. You listened and often reminisced of his laughter, like an echo of harmonious melodies that reverberates in your ears; a truly angelic noise. Or his touch, so silky and velvety like fingertips against the naked sky that glows in hazy light, not too bright, but bright enough to illuminate the blinding darkness that surrounds you.

Park Jimin, entirely a soul which turns seraphic with his own heavenly heart.

But what is this? What is this rumor, this hearsay of your angel doing such sinful things? Such violent manners?

Your sweet, sweet Jimin could never possibly make such horrible, horrific actions. But he was an angel gifted a sword, a child of the night, the utter darkness. He will travel to such measures, measures unspeakable for his love, his dearest rose. And now that someone is attempting to take you from his gentle, soothing embrace, the sharp tumultuous ring of his battle cry echoes.

“Ah, my sweet dove, never listen to such deadly lies… They aren’t good for your soul.”

KIM TAEHYUNG

━━━ His gaze stayed locked on you during the aftermath of the movie, your close friend caught on, you didn’t. She warned you when you two were alone (or so you two think), spitting out supposed acts so horrendous that you visibly shivered of his unknown presence. And you not knowing Taehyung, being afraid of him almost lets the most melancholy cry escape his throat.

You don’t remember him.

Taehyung should have expected this, expected his dearest Y/N to give in to the lies that swarm around her like annoying flies; like mosquitoes picking at her skin. But this sudden wrath of reality penetrates him, shakes him awake from this daydream he’s been so caught-up and utterly infatuated with.

Tae, now sitting at his desk hours later, grasps hold of his red pen, scribbling out blabbers of emotions that have been bottled up within him. He writes in cursive, as always, just messier this time. It doesn’t matter, though, because of the true, genuine, honesty in each word makes up for the sloppiness. Tears begin to stream down his cheeks so beautifully, so ethereal the way they seem to shimmer in the light of his desk lamp.

Finally, he holds up the card, slightly stained with tears that turn the ink distorted, but it doesn’t matter. It’s perfect.

Maybe he’ll slip it in your locker tomorrow or into your backpack. Taehyung then shivers feverishly from the excitement of finally taking action for this fantasy he’s been chasing for too long.

“Y/N, my Y/N, I was internally born the moment we first met. I no longer have a past, I no longer need anybody else. I just need you, you, and you. Only you…. I only have a future, which will be illuminated by your love.

Sincerely, Your One and Only Lover, Taehyung.”

JEON JUNGKOOK

━━━ A sudden revelation embarks on a journey within his mind. The revelation of who you truly are, what makes up of you entirely. He has finally figured out why storms are named after people and how much destruction one person can cause. You swallow those unlucky whole and spit out their emotions, no source of envy or guilt held within you. Your eyes are cold, so is your heart. You are a cruel being, a wretched human who enjoys suffocating on their own renewed vitality.

But it’s different with Jungkook, you’re softer.

He lets the light, your light wash over him like ocean waves to where he is reminded of eternal peace and drowns in his own joy. You hold the beauty of every microscopic star seen in the sky within your soul, but come closer and you see the glitter and dust that rival all things that shimmer in our world. He sees it, he sees it every day and yet, it never grows old. Every fragment of a moment with you is all fleeting palpitations in his heart and cheeks as red as two ripe cherries.

But someone, one of those pesky insects you call “friends” that constantly zoom around you believes you should leave him. And Jungkook is then reminded of every little reason behind his need for you and the eternal life he desires for the both of you only. But, don’t fret, your feelings are mutual as you spit back and defend Jungkook to the imp before you.

“Oh, Y/N… I knew I could trust you.. I’m your dandelion, aren’t I? And we’ll be with each other forever, won’t we?”

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Dreamboy Fan theory (Part 1)

TW: mentions of physical abuse, animal abuse and depression

Quick intro! - So with the next episode being the season 1 finale, I thought it would be a good time to share my theory of what is going on at PepperHights. I wanted to share now before the finale comes around and totally proves me wrong but for once I oddly don’t mind. It also goes without saying it is just a fan-theory and it’s not meant to be taken too seriously. With that being said however, I do talk about the themes as tagged so be mindful whilst reading. One key note, going forward when I use “Dane” I will be referring to character Dane in the show. When talking about the real Dane, I will be referring to him as “Producer Dane” when talking about all things outside of the podcast.

Also, this is LONG! When I started this I was hoping for a post similar length to my transcription of the Instagram live. As I keep typing however I realise that to make this flow easier I have split this into two parts. Part 1 will talk about the general theme of “what’s going on” and my guess at how Season 1 will end. Part 2 will carry on with the key points that were mentioned before, but with focus on the characters and how it all links together along with their individual theory’s.

Dreamboy has been an amazing podcast from start to finish. From the music, Character Danes sex drive to the sheer horror which is woven in every episode, it is clear you can see why it was picked up but Night Vale Presents. However, after seven and a half episodes (and a holiday special) there is still a lot of mystery of “what” is going on in the show. As fans we know that there has been a build up to something big happening and with hints of Aliens, magic and the super natural taking place in most episodes. For me though, there seems to be one clear overriding theme that is taking place and that ISNT the idea of there being a giant fish, the fear of giant family corporations going to Jupiter and finding something, the dreams of death or even the sharing of dreams between two strangers.

It’s the horror that comes with mundane life and everyday people itself. For more clarity, I don’t think there is anything supernatural, Syfi or horror going on. Instead, I think this is a tale of people and the hardships of life and how it is perceived via tone which I am hoping to break down in this fan theory! Key themes here are things I have picked up though my own life experiences, what has been said on and off podcast, livestreams, and assumptions from what took place in the original off Broadway production/BTS episode and people who work on the podcast.

At the start of the podcast we are introduced to a morbid way of thinking with Dane’s idea of a supermarket is just one giant morgue of animals and dead plants. This creepy tone is continued throughout the whole story. It’s captivating, it’s engaging and its part of what makes the podcast great but there isn’t something that would count as a big “horror” or “bad guy”. Instead, it’s how Character Dane talks about the supermarket which makes it scary.

This use of Tone and description is used a lot to make us the listener gripped in the moment along with how we imagine and perceive what is being described to us, however, we havn’t yet seem to encounter one key thing which is actually “evidence” of something paranormal. Instead, a lot of what is happening can be put down as as the struggles of life and its affect on ones own personal mental health and personal life experiences that come with getting older as well as how we cope with the events around us. These can be seen in all our “main” characters Dane talks to such as Dane himself, Luke and Critch, all of whom I will talk about more in Part 2. (Note: I don’t include Characters such as Carol and Dan in this as whilst our leads have spoken to them, unfortunately they don’t seem to have a big impact on the story outside of the episodes they are featured in.)

A good example however, of how Danes descriptions of characters and tone can be seen as “something supernatural is going on” is how we perceive Jennifer and the Non-Girl Scouts. When we first meet Jennifer, Dane describes her as a “child who looks like she has been raised by her grandparents”. She is also later described as a “girl scout” and is frequently referred to as a “child”/ “kid”. In a cultural context, when talking about girl scouts, being from England I associated them with our equivalent, who are ages from 7-10 and when she mentions that she and the other two had a “slumber party” it furthers this idea of a young girl. This tone/description sets us up to believe she is very young, which is even more jarring once she opens her mouth and speaks about complex issues such as feminism and equality in their complexity but sophisticated manor. All these Ideas, and Tone, leads us to think that she is “creepy” and “up to something big” in a supernatural sence. However in episode 7 our perception of how we view Jenifer changes.

In the episode Dane asks “what is she twelve?” to which she corrects him and tell us she is actually 13. This greatly surprised me when she told us this, and yet at the same time, for the first time made her human. At 13, we instantly gain between 3-7 years of life experience, meaning by now she is starting to form her own personality and ideology, which is something we expect from a teenager. A teenager talking about toxic masculinity is less jarring than a child talking about it. Whilst people would perceive her as a “child” still, there is a big difference in maturity level and complexity thinking, which means we no longer have a “creepy child girl scout” on our hands, but rather a “young teenager who is making their own choices though understanding social situations”. In this episode have a very human moment of a teenager asking for help as well as frustration break down when Dane won’t give her the keys as he “knows” they won’t open the door. I get the impression this is not easy to do for her, and from the live stream we know she doesn’t like to be messed around. For the first time we have a very human moment where we see her struggles and vulnerability, rather than the creepy tone which has been set by Dane and his narrative.

So with the Idea set that we are dealing with real life instead of a big horror taking place, I would like to also address one of the key areas this applies to as well as what I believe is taking place. I would like to talk about Zoe the Zebra and what has actually happened.

For me personally, I believe that Zoe is already dead, but not for the reason you believe. Early on, in the first episode, we are told that Zoe is an old Zebra who is the Zoos start attraction. A bit of Basic googling shows us that in the wildlife, a zebra can realistically live for 10 years whilst in captivity they can live up to 40 years on record. If we assume that Zoe has never seen the wildlife and was bred in captivity, we can assume she was born into the Zoo around 1990 at the EARLIEST, meaning she’s a pretty old Zebra nearing 30 if Dreamboy is set in 2019. With the Zoo being popular but struggling for funds, and based off the other animals such as the monkey who needs to listen to opera to sleep, we can assume that Zoe did not have a suitable enclosure for her. An unsuitable environment along with being the “star” of the Zoo, it means she was also frequently surrounded by load noises, no enrichments/toys and could have been alone despite being a heard animal. These factors are all key contributors to animals developing some form of Stereotypical behaviour during her time at PepperHights.

(Quick definition break: Stereotypic behaviour is defined as a repetitive, invariant behaviour pattern with no obvious goal or function. Stereotypic behaviour is not seen in animals in the wild and is understood to be abnormal and is therefore a negative factor in conservation captive breeding. Common Stereotypical behaviour includes habits of repartition such as noise making, pacing in the same location and self-mutilation as a result of over grooming AKA not nice!).

Based on what I learned in my time working with animals, this behaviour can also lead to aggression when behaviour patterns are interrupted or the animal is dealing with something they are not familiar with (such as someone breaking into their cage late at night). This sadly what is likely lead to the death of Ian. Whilst in the story it has been said that Zoe’s fate is still to be decided via the judge later in the week, I believe Zoe is actually already dead due to Zoo’s protocol’s that occur in these situations. It is very common when there is an active risk of the safety of the members of public in regards to wild animals, whether they have activity hurt a member of public or not, is too shoot the animal dead on the scene.

I have seen this happen when animals have killed members of staff in Zoo’s, to just lynx’s escaping from enclosures and going into the country side with no interactions with the public at all. If we are to assume that the person who reported Ian’s death also knew the Zoo’s procedures, we can assume that Zoe, who in in a scare fit killed Ian on accident, was shot on the scene to prevent anyone else being harmed. It is also worth noting that currently we do not know if we have seen Zoe since the incident, only that we have heard her cries which could have easily been recorded and played over the speaker system. It is also easy to believe as since Critch has requested no one to be present at her death, Zoe is already dead but Critch wishes to hide that so that people still visits the Zoo to see Zoe one last time before she goes as so many people love’s her. As well as this, it would also explain why there is such a big push for the lost ocean, as their main attraction is already dead.

Going back to the original discussion of theme, This idea of an animal who is kept in a poor enclosure, driven crazy by the noise and consistent lack of respect to then only be added on with her death on the scene is obvious a lot more realistic than the “murderous Zebra” or even the “drag Queen Zebra” which is frequently used to describe the situation. Its sadness of the situation, from an animal never being kept in its natural environment which lead to a young persons death, to the fact that there is no formal closure for this animals death, which leads to the finale being less of a supernatural horror to more of a real life situation which we as society become numb to as we exist day to day.

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For now, this is all I have for part 1. The idea of nothing supernatural going on is something which seems to be something which is only slightly touched on with the “plot” of Dreamboy. In Part 2, the idea of personal hardships, challenges and how these can link to a more telling story is what I am hoping to cover as well as my own personal theories.

Will hopefully get part 2 up within the next couple of days but till then stay groovy!

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yoongiinspired · 6 years

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Tidy- Jungkook Fluff

admin- SquishyMinMIn

Summery- Jungkook’s on tor ad you’ve lost it, what will he say once he’s back.

You sat in the dark staring at your laptop, typing each word as soon as it came to mind making the thundering of the keyboard the only noise in the room. Your clothes were strewn about the floor as you had no time to fold them and put them in draws, or even worse...hang them up. You were too invested in your work, too focused to care about what your house or yourself looked like. Headphones sitting atop of your unwashed hair, and your stained oversized hoodie having seen better days, you ignored the need to wash the grime off of your body and instead immersed yourself with needless distractions. You didn't need to be doing this much work. You didn't need to be staying up until 4am and getting up at 6 for work. But his absence made you do it. BTS were on tour. Jungkook was gone. Having spent four years living with him and having him come home almost everyday, it was as if you were addicted. He'd gone on tour before and each time you went through these sort of withdrawal symptoms, craving him, thinking of how you could have him sooner and remembering that he was just too far away. And working was your coping mechanism. The only difference this time round was that the tour was so so much longer, six months if you remembered right. Six months of mindless working, maddening routines and minimal sleep to go on, though you'd lost track of how long it had been, desperately trying to keep your mind off of the depressing topic. Jungkook of course knew nothing of this, always texting you before he boarded a plane home, giving you plenty of time to tidy and transform into the version of yourself that he was familiar with. Texting you everyday, calling you twice a week and sending you pictures when he could, Jungkook was completely unaware of your meltdown state. You had put up a veil so that he could only see what he remembered and not what you had become, scared that he'd worry about you instead of focusing on his tour. Focusing on worked helped you through your withdrawal...it also helped you to ignore the constant doubt you had of Jungkook. So he needed to focus on his work too. It was unreasonable, he had only ever been the best to you, but by your own self hate you had formed trust issues with a side of jealousy, and for six months you'd been trying to contain it all. Needless to say you were bubbling over, stressed with work, stressed by your living environment and worried by the constant thought that Jungkook would find someone better for him than you, you were near breaking point. A sharp dinging noise cut through your busy thoughts, turning your attention away from your laptop and to your phone lying next to you. The light of the screen a beacon in the darkness and as you moved to pick it up you noticed it was a message from Jungkook. “Hey Y/N!! I'm just boarding the flight home! Can't wait to see you baby xx.” ‘Damn it’ you thought to yourself as it dawned on you how much mess you had to tidy and how long you had to do it. Not only that but you also had to finish the report that lay half done on your laptop, glaring at you from the other side of your bed. You winced as you looked at the time on your phone...2:00am. It'd have to be an all nighter if you were going to finish your work and tidy the apartment, but you weren't about to show Jungkook just how weak you were. As you weighed the choices in your head, the glaring of the near by laptop won as the light on your phone screen faded, it wouldn't be good to break the flow of work for much longer, you'd forget what you were doing. And so, typing as fast as lightning, keyboard drumming like thunder booming around your empty apartment, you forged on. Your distracted and panicked mind taking you on tangents that you didn't intend and as your reached the conclusion, you dared yourself to glance at the time. 4am… Springing up from your bed, you darted frantically around your room, stuffing random clothes in draws and throwing others into the washing basket. There was no organisation in your tidying. After quickly making the bed you decided to move on into the living room, a mess of books, games, clothes and other random trinkets that you couldn't be bothered to put away. Starting by folding all the clothes strewn about the room, you made your way through it much more slowly than your frantic bedroom dash, sleep weighing down on your eyes as you yawned for the thousandth time. Deciding to scoop up all the clothes and sit on the sofa while you folded you started to find it more difficult to fight the fuzzy feeling in your head, until finally, clothes falling to the floor and draping over your lap, you gave yourself to the comfort of the sofa pillows, the warmth of the many blankets you'd draped on it over the months and the fact that it was now 6am. Jungkook was so excited to see you as he climbed the stairs up to your apartment, he had missed you so much that it was driving him crazy and all he wanted was to have you back in his arms. Bursting with smiles as he put the key in the door he really couldn't contain himself, as the door swung open his eyes darted around the room...the sight he was greeted with was...not what he expected to say the least. In the living room, you lay on the sofa, hair a mess and clothes covered in stains, surrounding you were piles of clothes, some folded and others not, along with so much other mess. Jungkook was confused to say the least, you made him be so tidy all the time...what was happening? He walked over to you slowly, careful to not knock anything over as he side stepped around the coffee table. “Y/N-ahh?” He asked as he poked your shoulder repeatedly. All he was met with was a tired groan as you shifted in your sleep. ‘So cute…’ he thought as he watched you wiggle. “Y/N-ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!” He moaned out childishly as he threw himself down on the sofa next to you, landing with a bounce and making you jump abruptly out of your sleep. “I'm hoooome!!” Jungkook shouted as he threw his arms around you, giving you a tight squeeze and kissing you on the cheek. “Jungkook-ahh?” You asked, confused, eyes still hazed with sleep. But as the mist parted and you saw Jungkook’s face, horror filled your body. “Jungkook! I'm so sorry!” You shouted as you burst into tears, doing nothing to help Jungkook's confusion. “Why????” He asked, so concerned at your outburst and the strangeness of the situation. “I-I wanted to tidy up before you got home” you managed to sputter out through you sobs “I'm sorry I'm such a mess…” you said as you hung your head low in shame. Jungkook only looked at you, surprise in his eyes. “Y/N...I'm just so happy to see you” He said as he squeezed you again “my beautiful Y/N who I've missed so much everyday” he paused as he kissed your head “I don't care about the mess, I only care about you.” He smiled as he wiped away the tears rolling down your cheeks. Peering up at him you couldn't help but give a small smile back as you nestle into his arms, relief filling you as you started to feel the warmth and love you had missed so much. “Y/N?” Jungkook asked, head buried in your hair. “mhhmm?” was all you could reply, too busy breathing in his scent. “shower time?” “shower time”.

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hoshi-u-love-me · 6 years

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Twined and Intertwined

(Ch. 1)

Pairing : BTS × Reader × ?? / ?? × Reader

Genre : Sci-fi, angst

Word count:

Warning : absurdity. Das oll. Oh and reader w female pronoun.

A/N : this is my first time writting again after my hiatus so please be gentle with me. I may be a bitch and ain't no bitch die from criticsm but I'm tired and overworked these past 2 weeks so a little sentiment would be nice.

🍃🍃🌸

"DON'T TAKE HER! PLEASE!"

"LET MY BABY GO! PLEASE, SHE'S NORMAL LIKE THE OTHERS!!"

As rare as it is, no one would be surprised if they heard screams.

It all started 2 years ago. The year a scientist manage to find a genetic development within Generation Zs that helps them cope, manage their emotions, and adapt to environment and situations far quicker and far more effectively.

The discovery lead to more thesis made and more thesis led to more tests conducted in the name of science and being widely known as the person who could produce a new evolution theory.

After finding out about the unique 0.2% that oddly enough were all born between 1990-1999, the UN decided to study them even further so they allow scientists to capture those and study them. And with every single person on the face of the earth being tested, it was not hard for the government to track them.

Today, another girl was taken away from her family.

The way she was captured was animalistic. A sniper with tranquilizer was placed on standby the moment her name moved to the top of the list. She was sedated on the spot. As she fell down the stairs, government personel barged in and took her away just like that.

No matter how loud her parents cried, how hard they tried to follow the speeding van, the unconscious girl was unaware of anything, especially her future.

When she opened her eyes, the first thing she saw was white.

White walls on every side, even the ceiling. The room was almost blinding. She sat up on the unfamilliar bed, scanning the unfamilliar room. Every furniture is white, even her clothes and the clothes placed inside the wardrobe on the right side of the door. Unlike everything else, the door is light brown just like the hardwood floor beneath her.

The bed is placed right accross the door, the frames are attached to the wall behind it. The bed looked more like a simple hospital bed rather than the usual bed (Y/N) had in her own room.

After taking in her surrounding, (Y/N) began putting 2 and 2 together and could only sigh as a single tear decider to drip down onto her blanket.

She took the test one and a half year ago, back when she was a mere senior in high school, back when her school was only a 'test to ensure the factuality of the new testing equipment'. She got her result a couple of days later, mailed directly to her. And within the envelope, at the very last page of the 5 pages result explanation, a bright, big, red, rectangular stamp that glared at her viciously : [ ANOMALY ].

Of course, like every other panicked teenager, she hid the result from her parents and said that her result came back and the result is the same as people like her. Which is technically not a lie. In all honesty, she did meant to tell her parents about her result, but she hadn't found the best time to do it.

(Y/N) knew that what happened was innevitable. But deep inside she had hoped that over time, the test result's significance would died down and scientists would've found another discovery that would make them busy enough to forget the whole anomaly thing. But it never happened. In fact, the news blew up and everyone made such great deals about it.

She stayed on her bed for a while, quietly sobbing at how stupid she was for not telling the truth to her parents. Now she won't be able to properly part with her parents. Neither party could bid their goodbyes for God knows how long. As far as she knew, none of the Stem members had actually been returned back home. There was this girl, Cassidy who lived near her and went to the same school with her, was captured earlier this year. Cassidy's parents were so devastated that both of them committed suicide after getting no news about Cassidy for 4 months straight. They had a nice fancy dinner and end the night with a nice glass of rat poison. Yum.

Truth is, no one actually know how the 'research' is done. The government kept the research to themselves more than they kept news about aliens from spreading out.

It appears that (Y/N) had been zoning out long enough to finally adapt to her surroundings and heard voices outside the door.

She knew she'd be living with people within the Stem, but it had never occured to her how many people there might be.

Bracing herself, (Y/N) stepped onto the cold wood floor and slowly reach the door and walk out.

As she walk straight through the bedroom door clad hallway and down the stair at the end of it, she found herself in the presence of 7 guys and a girl. They were lounging in the living room, 4 guys on a big couch, 1 with the girl on a smaller couch, and the other 2 were on their own couches.

"Oh, you're awake" the girl smiled.

(Y/N) smiled a little and nodded.

For some unknown reason her gaze dropped to her feet and tears began to stream down her face and drop to the floor.

"Oh you poor thing" the other girl stood from her position and hugged (Y/N) as she cried on her shoulder.

The unknown girl gently stroke her hair, whispering words of reassurance until one of the guys came to the both of them.

(Y/N) pulled away to look at the guy standing next to her, he had a warm smile but sad eyes. He then pat (Y/N)'s head ever-so-gently with much care before engulfing her in a hug, "it's okay, we're here for you" and with that, came another wave of tears.

It took a while for (Y/N) to calm down, but when she does, the guy led her to the couch and sat her right next to him. He gently let her head lay on his shoulder, despite it being so big, she found it rather comfortable.

"I think an introduction is much needed right now" one guy said, he was sitting accross of them with the previous girl next to him.

"I'm Jongin, I'm 25 and I got admitted to this Stem last year" he said. Despite him smiling kindly, he still look rather intimidating. Perhaps it's his eyes, or his big body that just screams "confidence" all around.

"I'm next!" Another guy exclaimed, he jumped a little in his seat in excitement, "I'm Hoseok! Jung Hoseok! But you can call me J-Hope, most of my friends call me that back home! And I'm also 25 like Jongin! I got here around 7 months ago!" He smiled so big that it was impossible for normal human being to not smile after seeing him smile

The guy next to him raised his right hand as he smiled, his dimple was so deep that it was the first thing noticable when you look at him, "I'm Namjoon, I'm the same age as Hobi and got admitted around the same time as him"

Namjoon then nudged the guy next to him, "what? Oh, my turn," the guy looked rather unbothered, but he was willing to talk, "I'm Yoongi, 26, but I guess you can call me Suga... I was admitted here 6 months ago" his introduction was short and simple, perhaps he's one of those people who talk only if it's necessary.

"I'll go next!" The girl grinned, "I'm Chungha, I'm 23 and I was moved to this stem around 2 months ago" the girl explained.

(Y/N) furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, "moved?" She asked. Chungha chuckled at that, "I'll explain it later, after everyone finishes introducing themselves"

"Which means I'll go next" the last one fron the group of 4 guys spoke, smiling happily, letting his lips form a really cute heart shape, "I'm Taehyung, but you can call me V! I'm 24 years old, and if you ever need someone to cheer you up, you can just come to me and we'll do stuffs together!" "Hey, no fair! If I knew you were gonna say that, I would've said that first!" Hoseok whined at the younger guy.

(Y/N) chuckled at them both bickering.

"Hey, come on! I wanna introduce myself too!" The other guy sitting alone protested, stopping the two guys from bickering even more.

"I'm Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook, 22 and I was admitted here last week, so... I'm probably the only person who could relate to you the most right now" he smiled. "Don't trust him, the first time he got here, he was scared of Chungha simply because she's a girl. Jungkook is scared of girls" Yoongi smirked as he said that, making Jungkook blush as he glared at Yoongi.

"And lastly, I'm Seokjin, or Jin for short and I'm 27" (Y/N) craned her neck a little to look at the guy she's currently leaning on, "out of everyone else, I was admitted here the longest, about a year and a half ago? I was one of the first ones to be admitted in the mass admission" he smiled. But behind his smile, lies an uncomfortable sadness that only lingers for a split second before it changed back to his mask.

"What about you?" Jin asked.

(Y/N) shifts her gaze to her palm as she speaks, "I'm (Y/N), I'm 20 years old, and I... I don't know what else to say" she blushed.

Chungha squealed in her seat, "oh my gosh, she's adorable! She's like a little bunny!" That made (Y/N) blush even more to the point it was really visible.

"Anyways, since you're new, perhaps we should explain to you what's going on here..." Jongin started.

"You know about the researcher's thesis about us, the anomalies, right?" He asked, (Y/N) nodded as a simple answer, "so... essentially, what they're trying to do here is split the the said characteristic into a real being through surgery, they basically took something out, I don't know what exactly though..." (Y/N)'s eyes widens in horror. But before she could say anything, Jin had grabbed her hands in his, "no, it's okay! It's not as bad as it sounds! I survived the surgery!" He said.

Without saying anything else, he tugged (Y/N) up onto her feet and guided her to a room on the first floor.

The room was near the glass door leading to the garden at the back. And it's the only room on the first floor other than a bathroom, dining room, and the kitchen.

"Okay," Jin stopped once he got to the door and looked at (Y/N), "what you're about to see is really unnatural but real... I hope you won't get freaked out by it" he bit his lip in anxiety, he was giving both him and the girl time to prepare for her reaction.

Jin then proceed to slowly open the door to reveal what's inside.

"Holy shit..."

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wxundedwings · 6 years

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list of bottom seokjin/ seokjin centric recs

key: ** is for fics i fell head over heals in love with <3

Jin Harem ;P

Roses By sereinity ** Summary: Jin wakes up in a train with no memory of how he got there, what he was doing there or where he was headed.

Just a Little by Feather_Song ** Summary: Seokjin slips into the wrong headspace at the wrong time and ends up with six doting hyungs. OR Literally just BTS giving Seokjin the love he deserves. It's that simple.

You know I love you by DarkPoetByTheSea Summary: Bangtan are beyond jealous watching Ken having fun with their boyfriend. The consequences are deserved.

Reign by kristalijah * Summary: Right now though, well nothing's wrong per se, but lately his young masters were getting a bit.. Touchy.

Just once by BlackBlood Summary: Jin was laying in the hospital bed, he still remembered the last time he had seen the other BTS members and he wished he hadn't left the way he did. Now that all treatment had failed, he wished he could've said goodbye. He wanted to see his fellow BTS members, even if it was for the last time. And there was only one treatment they hadn't tried before and Jin wished that just for once luck would be by his side, that just once he could get lucky.

just the three of us by Anonymous Summary: Seokjin, Yoongi, and Hoseok have a three-way. This is actually the norm for them.[non-idol, domestic au; seokjin’s casually trans in this also, nbd; alsox2 how many times can i use the word clit? spoiler: a lot.]

Our princess by selfproclaimed_princess

What I Go To School For by Humansunshine Summary: Seokjin lives out one of his longest-running fantasies. It’s tough being the prettiest one in a boys-only boarding school.

I wanna be your man by xJinniebunx Summary: Title from Boy in Luv and will probably change. Basically, Jin and the younger members get drunk, Jin gets clingy and all the members love him and want to do him. Thats it. That's the fic Also if you hop on my dick for me calling Jin princess, babydoll etc (even though it's a genuine kink but delulu fans so) I will scream k

Other Worlds by rokujin Summary: Abnormal description: Jin: What's the worst role you could take in a movie? 0613: A side-character Jin: What's worser than a side-character? 0613: The fact that you are one? ------------------------------------- Normal description:*crying inside 0613's stomach*

Hell Is 'Round The Corner by Chogiwha (Ac1c) Summary: Stares follow them wherever they go, accompanied by the ever-present whispers they’ve learned to tune out over time. 'Spoiled kids', some people call them, though no one would ever dare say it to their faces. 'Narcissistic'. 'Foolish'. 'Too greedy for their own good.'This little ‘club’ of theirs has a total of six members, each and every one of them rich beyond belief. There are some who view them as gods; perfect in every way imaginable. If you look no further than outward appearances, they may as well be, but even designer suits and expensive cosmetics can’t keep hiding the occasional cracks in those carefully crafted facades. They’ve never had to ask for anything. Whatever they want, they get, and the simplicity of it is almost too boring to bear. That is, however, until a new challenge appears; a race to get to the only thing that seems to stay just out of their reach, no matter how hard they try to catch up.The cards have been dealt, and now it’s only a matter of time until they find out who will get what they want most. Who will get him.

Bottled Of Feelings by JinIsMyLife Summary: The oldest and the youngest feelings for each other finally explode, and a whole lot of perverted things occur. How will the rest of the members feel though?

Fill my day with kisses by ceokjin * Summary: Seokjin's day could be considered a bad one, an awful one even. But he has six pairs of loving lips pressed against his own at different moments during the same 24 hours, so it all works out in the end.

Let Us Take Care Of You. by JinForLife Summary: Jin is overworked because of his idol work, college life and taking care of his pack mates. It pushed him into an early heat. The members decide to wind him down and let him take a break.

In The Midst of The Dark by gyugyu658 ** Summary: Basically, horror one-shots that only includes BTS. If there's any paring that I'll include, it's none other than Jinxbts.

Mouthful by mochibuns Summary: Seokjin looks good enough to eat, so Yoongi has the brilliant idea of eating sushi off of him. Hoseok and Taehyung are incredibly on board with this idea.

I Love You, We Love You by Anonymous YoonJinMin

Vitamin by resonae **! Summary: Bangtan watches 'Laws of the Jungle. They aren't happy to see Seokjin getting sick.

Save Me by resonae ** Summary: In 2016, a list of male idols with sponsors leak to the news outlet. Kim Seokjin's name is on it. -- In 2021, BTS is a group with four Daesangs, record-breaking albums, and six members. Everyone calls them a success. Jimin calls them a failure.

Till Your Body Burns Up by synful Summary: In which Jin is a first class energy draining incubus and Taehyung is the first class idiot that hits on him.

Coming of Age by resonae Summary: Apparently, a long time ago, Seokjin promised Jungkook they'd do things once Jungkook was an adult. All fine and good, except Seokjin's dating Jimin. Jungkook doesn't see a problem. Jimin's okay with it. Seokjin wants to not cook for either one for a month.

Noticed by fluffy_lee Summary: Notice: /noun/ the fact of observing or paying attention to something. A simple word that all the members understood but simply failed to do when it came to the eldest.

Protective by fluffy_lee ** Summary: The boys are protective of their too-pretty Seokjin Hyung.

Hell's Plaything by Krys007 ** Summary: There are things you shouldn't know... There are secrets that should never be revealed... There are mysteries that should never be discovered...Because in the end.. you will regret even choosing that decision.

A Little Coping Mechanism by Odengiie Summary: Little Kim Seokjin/Caregiver BTS AU that I've wanted to write for like a year now RIP Small collections of little Seokjin! The story will follow a general timeline but it's more fluffy scenarios, slight angst and a whole lot of Seokjin being adorable. If you have a problem with Littles etc then this story isn't for you leave now.

I'll warmly hold you by wayward_detective **! Summary: Nesting is a big part of adjusting to a new pack for an omega. Seokjin just takes a little time to build the perfect one.

The Beast Inside by minleaf ** Summary: Their small pack was usually overlooked but when they take in an abused beta and omega, suddenly all eyes are on them. They have to defend their new family, and if that meant falling in love and breaking a few bones then so be it.

Hold Me Tight by tinydust123 Summary: Jin looked at the full body mirror in the bathroom and a glimpse of his state right now stole his attention.

Gravity Assist by SugaMeUp Summary: Gravity assist (n): the use of the relative movement and gravity of an astronomical object to alter the path and speed of a spacecraft.Seokjin existed within a constellation, though he himself was not a star. He wasn’t even sure he would count as a planet - maybe just something unremarkable like an asteroid or a moon. That suited him best, he thought, because he too lacked his own light, and could only hope to reflect from others. Luckily, there were six stars in his constellation, so he was frequently surrounded by light. In which Seokjin is a paediatric nurse who helps six lost souls find their path and falls in love six times along the way.

A Criminal's Cure by Sonorous ** Summary: There is no cure for a murderer. The only way they can be satisfied is to murder again and again. Luckily, the genius scientists at BTS Laboratories have created a successful antidote for these depraved human beings— A man who was created to be used again, and again, and again.

Blinded by EndlessPossibiliTaes Summary: Seokjin gave up. Gave up hope. It's been 10 years in this foster home. He knew he was too old to be adopted. Not cute enough. Not easily influenced.Too smart for those simple tricks only a child will fall for. He was waiting for eighteen. Just one more year then he could be on his own. He goes to school, he'll graduate soon. He just wants to be on his own. In his own apartment that he's been saving up for by working at the mall as a cashier at jcpenny.

Bloody Secrets by JinIsMyLife Summary: With the ever growing popularity of Bangtan Sonyeondan, Kim Seokjin, the eldest member of the group has been feeling beyond content and satisfied. There were times in the past when his fears and insecurities would try to tear him down, but given how hectic their lifestyle now is, there hasn’t been much room for that feeling to show itself lately, but all of a sudden, he starts having disturbing dreams. More in the form of nightmares of someone beckoning him. Waking up in a cold sweat, he manages to forget about them during the daylight hours. Things take a sudden turn for the worse, when things he thought were just the stuff of myths rear their ugly head. Will the rest manage to save the oldest member from being taken away from them?

Others/Seokjin

Faster than anything, further than anywhere by wayward_detectivefor nyancchi Summary: Kim Seokjin, BTS’s angel maknae, had the entire kpop industry wrapped around his pretty fingers, and VIXX's main rapper was no exception.

JULY (but really December) by SodiumBicarb Summary: It was nearly three am and snowing when Seokjin decided that he was just going to ask for sex with an idol in the middle of the street instead of in a darkened alley like a civilized person. OR Remember how Kris spoiled Tao when they were both in EXO? Yeah. I wanted that for our boy Jin, so here it is. #spoiled!jin

Yoongi/Seokjin

Healing the scars by onepixel ** Summary: Yoongi visits Seokjin's apartment after a fight in the club... again.

Wrong number, Yoongichii! by xJinniebunx ** Summary: The title sucks i am sorry. Basically, based on the "I sent my picture of myself in the tub to my friend but I got the wrong number" AU. Yoongi is NOT portrayed as a selfish mean asshole like i see a few people doing too, And Jin is just as cute and soft as ever.

Switch by resonae ** Summary: When Seokjin picks up the Omega with the mint hair from the club, he couldn't have ever expected what happened afterwardOr: Omega!Yoongi is a top, and Alpha!Seokjin is a bottom.

I didnt expect you to be my princess by animelove21 ** Summary: There was something that has always bothered Yoongi. He has a consistent dream with someone he can only vaguely remember. Yoongi moves from Daegu to Seoul to further his studies in music and happens to meet shy, sassy, cute Kim Seokjin. (they happen to be in the same class) Competition is pretty fierce for Seokjin but Yoongi won't lose to anyone. Seokjin can be an airhead about love... and very awkward about confessions.

Red Satin Sheets by ourparadise Summary: It’s no secret that Bangtan Sonyeondan, Kim Seokjin was claimed and marked. This much is true. The events preceding are….difficult to explain. [non-con warning; read tags]

Broken by Coup Detat (MysteriousHarmony) ** Summary: When Kim Seokjin finds out that his mate has been cheating on him he takes their child, Taehyung, and leaves Namjoon - the Omega building up a support system in their new home as he comes to love an alpha named Yoongi. Meanwhile Namjoon is focusing on the growing success that is his music career, and on the pent up emotions he is experiencing from losing his mate.

Unforgiven by onepixel Summary: Seokjin is very popular among the students because of his look, uncommon intelligence and sweet-natured heart. Despite his kind personality he has few enemies. [non-con warning]

Now That I See You by resonae **! Summary: Seokjin is a prince trapped in a tower, and Yoongi is his guardian dragon. Things don't go like they're supposed to go.

Birthday Heat by bebeshark * Summary: Seokjin's birthday gets a little too hot...

need you here by dimpledprincejoon ** Summary: Yoongi misses Seokjin while he's on his trip, but at least his pillow smells good.

we'll go slow and high tempo by springwei **!! Summary: It's Yoongi's birthday and Seokjin wants to make it one to remember. pwp.

Sycamore by Tree742pm Summary: Of all the bullshit Kim Seokjin could handle, he sure as hell didn't know if he could handle this.

Coping by Brandon_Roseway Summary: Its Seokjin Birthday but something is off...really off.

Precisely When Somebody Shows You to the Ocean by sinkingmyships Summary: The longer Yoongi hangs around the tank in the aquarium, the more he thinks that Seokjin is, in fact, a real mermaid. “You’re really real,” he says, keeping his voice neutral. “You’re not acting, are you?” Seokjin smiles, yet it’s the saddest Yoongi has seen him. “I am acting, though. I’m pretending to pretend to be a mermaid.”

waist high (swimming in the river) by jesspava ** Summary: Kim Seokjin is stressed. Kim Seokjin is angry. Kim Seokjin does not get stressed or angry and is rarely anything other than accommodating even on his worst days, which leaves Yoongi staring down the tense line of his shoulders while his boyfriend stress shops in their local supermarket before realizing how bad he's fucked things up this time. or: "I better not be able to walk for a week," Seokjin says, not even bothering to look at Yoongi as he unbuckles his seatbelt and climbs out of the car.

Hoseok/Seokjin

My Sunshine by JinIsMyLife ** Summary: Based of this prompt given to me by a friend : Here's an idea Jin's a chaebol heir and his dad hired him a tennis coach so him and Jin can play tennis with his dad's colleagues but Jin is terrible at tennis so in comes hobi the new coach!!! During hobis matches Jin is always sitting in front row as his lil cheerleader and it boosts hobis ego up 200%

i'm on my knees (and i control your every move) by Throne ** Summary: You only fuck Kim Seokjin because Kim Seokjin lets you fuck him.

Hip Hip Hooray by smiles Summary: Hoseok is fascinated by Seokjin's waist-to-hip ratio. Sex ensues.

A Flawed Masterpiece (Love is Forever) by Odengiie * Summary: Smut shot about Hoseok loving his baby boy Jinnie and teaching him how to love himself. That's pretty much it Give 2seok some love man

Jingle Bells by honeydeath ** Summary: The thing about chasing is, it sends lust straight to Hoseok's core. Why? Because he has Seokjin as his prey.

Namjoon/Seokjin

A pack's price by EmpatheticShipper Summary: Kim Seokjin is an omega that was casted out of his pack after bringing home the scent of alpha's belonging to another pack. Wounded and alone, he meets two omegas who eagerly take him back to their den. He quickly realizes the rest of the pack members are all alphas and they take him in generously. But his old pack will not forget his betrayal so easily. With him being a target of both his old pack and a rival pack seeking new omegas, will Namjoon and the rest of the alphas be able to protect them?

Easy by Writerlia Summary: Kim Seokjin has never had it easy. From making it from an orphanage to making it through college, he's always worked hard. So when he scores a job at his dream office, he finds it hard to believe that everything will be smooth now. Or Kim Seokjin can't ignore the way his boss is a little too soft on him and it isn't easy.

Heart of War by paperhearts ** Summary: For the protection of his people, Prince Seokjin has to marry his fiancé’s killer: the alpha king of the most ruthless and feared kingdom in all the lands with a reputation of being a cold blooded monster on the battlefield.Worst of all, the omega prince doesn't even speak their language.

Honey by AlixSkyeDawg ** Summary: Keep talking." "What do you want me to talk about?" "Anything. Everything. Just keep talking." Or In which Namjoon helps Jin through a difficult incident, one drive at a time.

Strangers. by Eulalia_writer ** Summary: «"Row, row, row your boat gently down the steam. Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, I can make you scream."». Jin turned around just to meet a blond kid gazing hungrily at him. «You sang that?» he wondered, a bit confused. «Yep. Anything wrong with that, baby?» the stranger purred back. «Look, I don't know you, but I'm pretty sure that's not what the author meant.». «Yeah? Well, I don't know you, but I'm pretty sure that's exactly what I meant.» .aka. Namjoon and Seokjin meet in a club and end up fucking in the bathroom.

Venus by Dumbtard (sophiethung) ** Summary: Kim Seokjin is scared, wounded and alone. On the verge of death, he stumbles into unknown territory, desperate to get away from his attackers and former pack. When a Beta and an Omega find him, he's certain he's going to die. But they lead him to their den, where he is given a generous home. But, being both a traitor and the single most sought-after Omega in the entire region, Jin is not sure even Namjoon will be able to protect him.

I Told You, I'm A Monster by SarahBear1013 ** Summary: Kim Namjoon was an ordinary man. Incredibly smart. Bright future all laid out for him. Until that fateful day. It shouldn't have happened. He never should have been there. But fate was not on his side. Now, his only hope is Kim Seokjin. An unbelievably handsome, bright, kind, intelligent doctor who will stop at nothing to gently pierce the onion-like layers that make up Namjoon's complicated psyche. Will Namjoon be open to help? Or will Seokjin's efforts all be for nothing, causing him to go as insane as Namjoon has become?

Don't break this too, my dude by Dumbtard (sophiethung) * Summary: They're all quite drunk. Mistakes are made.(or the one in which Namjoon subconsciously misses Jin and it drives Suga crazy)

My Last Dance. by SarahBear1013 Summary: Seokjin. The sugar baby. The star of The Pi Ttam Nunmul. The numbed lost soul. The aspiring singer and actor. The dreamer. Namjoon. The penniless writer. The hopeless romantic. The intelligent, wise, old soul. The idealist who wants to find love. The Duchess. Cunning. Manipulative. Dangerous. Beautiful. She can bend anyone to her will. She always gets what she wants.Namjoon and The Duchess both happen upon The Pi Ttam Nunmul on the same night. They both catch Seokjin's eye. Namjoon can give him love and the chance to open up his closed-off heart. The Duchess can give him financial security and an escape. Who will Seokjin choose? Or will he get a chance to choose before it's too late? In a world of intrigue, darkness, mystery, secrets, seduction, and lies, love is for the highest bidder. Anything can happen, only at The Pi Ttam Nunmul, because you will see at least one of those fluids – blood, sweat, or tears – by the time you leave.

Unfinished Business by They_call_me_baepsae Summary: Namjoon and Jin got divorced two years ago after Namjoon made a huge mistake. They kept a cordial relationship because of their daughter, Haru, and after all that time, Namjoon thought he could get Jin’s heart back. However, a new man appeared on Jin’s life and that will change the whole situation. or Namjoon wants Jin back, Jin can't forget and forgive, Haru wants NamJin together and Jaehwan is shaking their whole world.

Fate Led Me To You (Now Let Me Love You) by MinGenius99 Summary: Seokjin did not believe he'd ever have a happy ending. How many happy endings did you ever hear an unmated Omega with a child have?But fate is a funny thing. What's meant to be will always find it's way. And Kim Namjoon tries his best to get Seokjin to see that.Because of fate, they found each other.

They Say it Takes a Village (But I Think I Just Need You) by SuperBlondie Summary: It has been one thousand three hundred and eighty-four days since he's last seen Seokjin. Not that he’s counting or anything. OR The day Namjoon meets two little boys that he didn't know existed and everything that happens after.

will you let me? by fairytaleglitch Summary: namjoon likes to watch porn.alot.and it is most deffinitely Not A Problem, thank you very much.unfortunately for him...real life sex just never seems to live up to his fantasies.until one day he catches jin undressing and thinks he might have just found the solution to his non-problem.

Light of my life, fire in my loins (be a good baby, do what I want) by sungmin (jeonggukkie) ** Summary: Namjoon exudes power in everything that he does. From the bass of his voice that thrums low in Seokjin’s gut with every whisper and growl, to his stature as he looms over everyone (including those taller than him), to the way he swipes a once pristine cloth over the stainless metal of his guns, soaking up the blood and dirt medals earned from the nameless men killed at any given time. A pink tongue slides over plump lips as Seokjin forces his eyes up to Namjoon’s own when he speaks again, going over their latest heists and how some grunts had nearly jeopardized things worth more than their lives warranted. It’s always amused Seokjin how out of the two of them, Namjoon is the boss. He’s a hustler in any and every sense of the world- and he’s entirely proud of it. Seokjin himself is one of Namjoon’s many prizes. And as far as Namjoon is concerned, Seokjin’s only earned title is bitch.

The Shaman and the Exorcist by metastacia ** Summary: Seokjin doesn't believe in ghosts. Which would cause a huge uproar if everyone knew since he's kind of a big deal at his university; he's a shaman who protects people from evil spirits. He doesn't remember where he got the idea to do this from, all he knows is that superstitious people pay good money. Namjoon does believe in ghosts. Better yet, he can see them and he can fight them. But there's a certain phoney shaman at his university who's stealing all his clients in his exorcism business, and he's not happy about it because haunted people pay good money. So what do they do? Figure out who's closet is holding all the skeletons, of course.

Spine Breaker by metastacia * Summary: The clock is ticking, Jeon Jeongguk only has two bottles of water, one lunchbox, and ten bombs with which he has to kill six people if he wants to live. He's just eighteen and the only experience he has throwing bombs includes sitting in front of his screen, smashing buttons on his controller and swearing at his longstanding in-game rival, VforVictory. Someone has recreated the hit warfare videogame, Spine Breaker, and although Kim Seokjin is the mascot of the game, he knows nothing about how to play it but now finds himself launched in the middle of a stranded island, his bombs missing, his glasses smashed, and a pursuer who wants something more sinister than just his death. Min Yoongi knows why he's here. He knows why everyone is here, but his battles had begun long ago. The clock is ticking and Yoongi is running out of time, but he knows that zero is not the end. It's kill or be killed.

Enough by TheHalesNyx * Summary: tumblr prompt from anon: "How about Namjin with bottom jin and namjoon has a praise kink? Which jin indulges in of course... "Namjoon is sitting on the bed closest to the window, leaning back on his palms. His back is to Seokjin, but the elder can tell that Namjoon is spaced out, staring out the window at the encroaching darkness. The view is nice, but Namjoon’s thoughts are too prevalent. He’s wearing his own yukata, just as loosely, and Seokjin wonders, with a smile, if he walked down the hall with his chest on display.

look here (don’t run away) by sugababy9393 Summary: hoseok was late and seokjin was desperate. an alpha came in and really, he didn’t have much choice.

Let Me Give You a Hand by jinfanfics Summary: Kim Seokjin just became the youngest Beta in the history of their company to be chosen to present a project to one of their most important clients. Kim Seokjin also had the misfortune to ride the elevator with the man who wasn’t particularly fond of him, none other than Kim Namjoon, the creative director of his department. It would have all been fine, if Namjoon hadn’t just found out his secret which could cost him, not only his position as the head of the new project, but also his job as well!

You can get into a trap even if you are smart by reisar * Summary: They were two things Namjoon wanted in his life, first was his career and second finding a mate that he loves and cherish. He hated to admit it but he wanted a romantic first meeting and something like a love from first sight moment, someone who was exciting to be around and nice to talk to, someone beautiful that would make other Alphas envy him. He didn't even imagined getting forced into arranged marriage

you have 1 new message by bazooka Summary:r u n c h r a n d a. fuck this is going to sound like the weirdest shit okay look i used ur selcas to catfish and this older dude is gonna buy me stuff but i have to send him a selca with a peace sign~ * ~ pingkeu jin ~ * ~ hahahahahahaha wtf

Rejected Alpha by Little_Dimples Summary: Sequel to Registered Alpha Namjoon is really nervous. It's his third year applying to be an omegas registered and his second time getting rejected. But third lucks a charm right ? Seokjin is so different then the other omegas he's used to, he doesn't know if what he's doing is right at all. Will this year be another rejection ?

Everyone's got a secret (What's yours? What's yours?) by Odengiie ** Summary: Seokjin is the college-famous guy who gives other students blowjobs in one of the bathrooms through a Glory Hole. Nobody knows that it's him, until Seokjin makes the discovery that the guy he loves blowing the most is someone a little too close for comfort. -Title from Motionless in white - Rats

Jimin/Seokjin

milky white by agreements ** Summary: Jimin can't take his eyes off Seokjin's beautiful, milky white legs.

Sweet Scent of Home by honeydeath ** Summary: Seokjin and their pup were the only things Jimin needed in his life.

To you I gravitate by Odengiie ** Summary: Jin can't keep his eyes off of Jimin at the MV shooting.

Possesive Parks by honeydeath **! Summary: Jungkook eyed his father with disapproval, staring directly into the alpha’s shocked orbs as if challenging him, I dare you,because no one can kiss his appa except him.

Weekend With The Parks by honeydeath Summary: 8 months old baby Jungkook splayed his unheld tiny palm on his father’s nose, covering the bridge and tugged them with his newly building strength. Jungkook was as mischievous as he looked.

Don't Go by honeydeath Summary: Jimin should have stayed when Seokjin asked him to. Now that something happened to his mate, all hell broke loose.

Unexpected Distraction by jinfanfics Summary: “We’re coming back from a party in a group and we’re all squished together in a little taxi and there’s not enough seats so you’re laying across everyone in the back and somehow your head ends up directly in my lap and you’re looking up at me and your mouth is moving and I know you are saying something to me but I can’t focus because you’re laying on top of me and I’m looking down at you and you’re all giggly and happy and you’re so fucking cute and I’m a lil bit tipsy and holy shit I can’t focus” AU taken from Tumblr

Yoga Is Fun by honeydeath ** Summary: Tell me, who in the world could resist Seokjin in a bewitchingly tight-fitting yoga pants? Not Jimin, obviously.

Taehyung/Seokjin

Not a Star in the Sky by DarkStunning Summary: Taehyung must be sin personified. He comes into their lives, bitter and detached, though he pretends to be funny and cute, but under that smile is something sinister. [non-con warnings; past child abuse]

You and Me in Eternity by nyancchi ** Summary: "I'll forever be your home, stay here and be mine." "Even if it is made from gold, it is still a cage." . . "Submit to me" "I'll never"

Twilight Amour by sereinitea Summary: In which a fanciful lion meets a serene, delicate deer. With their emotions raging in their chests, that made them do the impossible, of all romantics.

Expensive Cologne. by Sonorous * Summary: Kim Seokjin had just moved into a new high school, and all he wanted was for his final year to go smoothly. However, a certain second-year had become infatuated with him— dangerously.

Sold To My Alpha by Chrysallion * Summary: Kim Seokjin is sold to the prince of the North Kingdom. Note:: taejin, kookjin

Jungkook/Seokjin

Drenched in Sin by celestjals ** Summary: Jungkook finds his stepbrother, Kim Seokjin, suddenly appearing before him after leaving to Japan for 2 years. Not only does Jungkook have to deal with the recent death of his mother, but also how Seokjin glows brilliantly under the lights. He relives the memories he has buried deep in his heart every time he sees Seokjin in corner of his eye. As he journeys through the road to adulthood, Jungkook must choose between family and love. [non-con warnings]

Love And Chocolate by Etna Summary: "We have to maintain a strictly professional relationship with the family, Seokjin. We're the staff, and it's up to us to keep a certain distance. "Seokjin has been out of work for a half a year when he's hired to work as a personal chef for the wealthy Park family. He's in love with the extravagance of their kitchen: the granite worktops, the well-stocked spice rack, the fact that they can actually afford kobe beef. But the sweetest thing in the house turns out to be the youngest son of the family. Jungkook is kind and funny and smart and the way he smiles at Seokjin makes his heart skip a beat. But no matter how tempted, Seokjin can't possibly risk his job and close the gap between them.

Close to You by JinIsMyLife, jinsan Summary: Jungkook was supposed to be doing his homework, when he suddenly stumbled across a link with a picture of a very familiar mole on the back of that persons neck. Normally seeing something like that wouldn’t have arisen his suspicions, but something about that person made him click on said link. He felt so many different emotions on finding out what his long time crush does on his spare time. But for some reason Jungkook can’t look away from the beauty that Seokjin is, even while in front of a camera. Seokjin whom Jungkook has been crushing on since he can remember. A feeling recuperated by Seokjin, but because of what he does, he feels inadequate to ever be with Jungkook. Jungkook’s older brother feeling fed up tries to find ways to get them together. It might have backfired on him though, so now he doesn’t know what to do.

Lover boy by Aresk Summary: Jungkook fell in love in his first year of highschool with the boy who his brother bring over everyday.Jimin introduced him as Kim Seokjin and Jungkook knew he'll remember this name for a lifetime. 5 years later, they meet again. This time not as Jimin's (boy)friend and Jimin's brother but as Jin, the Art teacher and Jungkook, his art student.

Stuck with U by jinfanfics Summary: Going on a roadtrip with some friends and woah wait WHAT THE FUCK IS HE DOING HERE? And what do you mean you screwed up our reservations and NOW I HAVE TO SHARE THE ROOM WITH ONLY ONE BED IN IT WITH THE GUY I CAN’T STAND?!! And what the FUCK IS WITH ALL THIS SEXUAL TENSION BETWEEN US?!!!

Pack Dynamics by Roce (Adderrr) Summary: Seven boys, lost in the world, find each other and form an unexpected bond. Jin feels unwanted.Namjoon wants to form a pack. Yoongi feels alone.Hoseok wants to find a new pack. Taehyung wants a mate. Jungkook wants to find a pack that will accept him. Jimin wants to prove he's strong. "Give me your hand, save me"

Love is not over by KaisuMarissa Summary: "Love is not for me..." That is what he tough as he looked down to the road below him. ".....! Don't jump!" could be heard behind him. He didn't care and let go. He didn't fell tho. He was saved by the person who rejected him.

I'm Not a Little Kid by i_dont_know_what_fandom_im_in_anymoreFandoms Summary: "You can't tell me what to do Jungkook-ah. I'm the elder here not you." "But I'm the alpha here, Seokjin. Now your going to listen to me and get your perky ass on that bed." Or Jungkook is tired of Seokjin not taking him seriously and decides to put a stop to it.

Honey, You're an Omega by Throne Summary: Statistics show that 1 in every 7 people will be an omega.

Punishment by oshie_mxshi Summary: In which Seokjin gets punished, but Jungkook is slightly whipped. Oh and Yoongi is done with their shit.

rainy day blues by wonhoshi Summary: jin hears something he shouldn't have on jeongguk's headset and after being scolded, the boy ends up having an issue he needs his eldest hyung to help him out with.

Close to You by JinIsMyLife, jinsan * Summary: Jungkook was supposed to be doing his homework, when he suddenly stumbled across a link with a picture of a very familiar mole on the back of that persons neck. Normally seeing something like that wouldn’t have arisen his suspicions, but something about that person made him click on said link. He felt so many different emotions on finding out what his long time crush does on his spare time. But for some reason Jungkook can’t look away from the beauty that Seokjin is, even while in front of a camera. Seokjin whom Jungkook has been crushing on since he can remember. A feeling recuperated by Seokjin, but because of what he does, he feels inadequate to ever be with Jungkook. Jungkook’s older brother feeling fed up tries to find ways to get them together. It might have backfired on him though, so now he doesn’t know what to do.

Reason by seokkookie Summary: Because of Taehyung, he did this. Because of his love for Taehyung, he sacrifice himself And because of Taehyung, dangerous come in a shape of a guy named Jeon Jungkook. Preview "I'm sorry but he's diagnose having a leukeamia." Jin felt like the world had stop once he hears those words coming out from the doctor's mouth * "Taehyung, don't leave me." Jin chokes a sob while hugging the lifeless body of Taehyung. * I'm sorry for lying to you Jin. I am not Kim Taehyung. The real me is Jeon Taehyung.

You STARTED IT! by jinfanfics ** Summary: I saw you trying to hit the “door close” button in the elevator but I made it in and then I pushed every single button to make you later for work, but now we’re stuck in this fucking elevator as it stops at every single floor and I don’t know what to say other than “you started it” AU

don't mess with me today or I will cut your dick off by hoewith2biases* Summary: Seokjin is having a shit day but then it ends not so shit...

Geurae WOLF Naega WOLF (awoo~) by jinfanfics ** Summary: Jungkook really doesn’t want to be here. Not when he is supposed to be helping his father with the pack and training to be the strongest Alpha ever. How is enrolling him and Yugyeom in some werewolf academy/University/whatever shit it was, going to ‘help him grow’ as his father had told him? Jungkook was sure that that was a code for him ‘to get laid and enjoy life a bit’, since his old man always insisted that he should find himself a ‘cute little Omega to fuck’. That perv. Now, instead of fighting potential enemies, Jungkook is stuck in this shitty place, fending off horny Omegas, dealing with their pathetic jealous Alpha boyfriends while constantly running into that broad-shouldered Beta with intriguing eyes, who does nothing, but infuriate him most of the time.

Pregnancy and Tony Stark by Odengiie ** Summary: jin and jungkook are having a baby. cuteness ensues. junkook wants to name the baby tony stark.

Tell me you love me by ace23 Summary: "What’s my hand without your heart to hold?" They had it all planned. Or so they thought. Meeting someone new might prove to be a test that their relationship will have to face. Can destiny change?

Cotton Candy and Roses by Odengiie Summary: Seokjin starts his heat early, But Jeongguk is there to help his mate through it.

Opposites Attract by jinfanfics * Summary: At first glance, Kim Seokjin seemed like the perfect Omega. He was gentle, kind and caring. However, there was one thing that made him stand out.He hated Alphas. Also, he wasn’t the typical submissive kind of Omega, much to everyone’s surprise.And there was one particular Alpha that made his blood boil. Jeon Jungkook, a cocky Alpha who lived down the hall, and was intent on pissing Jin off. What angered Jin even more was that the Alpha smelled so good to him, but he would be damned to let that show.

Principal Jeon. by Sonorous Summary: Every single day for the past week, Seokjin has been called down to Principal Jeon's office for no reason in particular. This time, however, he is called down and the principal finally gets what he wants from Seokjin.

Would you be my love (Because I fell for you) by Odengiie * Summary: AU where Jin debuted with a girl group (TWICE) instead under the guise of being a female, tricks the entire kpop industry into beleiving him, until Jeon Jeongguk finds him in the boys toilets after a show. Features cameos from TWICE obviously, EXO, Wanna One, Vixx you name it, it's going in the fic

Best of Me by MmeIrene Summary: “Hyung,” he said, carding a hand up through Seokjin’s hair—black again, now—and leaning his own head in briefly. “Relax. This is supposed to be fun.” Seokjin glanced at him. “I know,” he murmured. “But everyone is looking at us.” Seokjin wasn’t wrong, of course, about the staring. It was date night. And Jeongguk had suggested the club because he wanted to dress up and he wanted to dance. It wasn’t his fault that people noticed when he and Seokjin stepped through the door. Takes place a few years after "East of the Sun," but can be read as a stand-alone.

Young sweethearts by mimnen Summary: Jin is a mate of the packs leader, which was every Omegas dream. He and his mate however have a five year age gap between them, and the gap has never seemed bigger when they are moving forward in their relationship.

East of the Sun by MmeIrene ** Summary: Seokjin presented as an omega at eighteen years old. The first time he brought an alpha home for a heat, Jeongguk punched a hole in the wall. He was thirteen. But that was not where their story began. The truth was this: Jeongguk had always loved Seokjin.

Sold To My Alpha by Chrysallion * Summary: Kim Seokjin is sold to the prince of the North Kingdom. Note:: taejin, kookjin

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