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manwhorror · 3 months

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im rapidly approaching another transitional phase in my life (graduating college, and moving back home) and im thinking about the previous transitional phases of my life and how important those little slots of time were to my development.

i think when you change environments or situations it gives you a new opportunity to reinvent yourself. not that you can't do that at any time, but there's a gap that you can slip through unnoticed while no one is looking to do so. its almost embarrassing to change yourself in broad sweeps while other people are paying attention to you. like a change in self has to happen over a period of time on accident, instead of a deliberate calculation of like... okay where do i want to go from here. i guess no one wants to be seen as self-obsessed. i have always been weird about being perceived as self-obsessed. im not entirely sure why. i think partially the misogyny i endured in my upbringing (how dare you, a girl, give a fuck about yourself in a world where no one gives a fuck about girls.)

i have also been very weird about calculating my life. i tried to stop doing this, because it became such a weird thing, but most of my thoughts are thought in past tense. i don't know when it started, but its almost like i think as if im giving an interview to someone else about my life as an old person. its embarrassing to talk about and i feel very exposed doing so. its like i calculate every move and if someone finds out im not actually acting as naturally as im actually pretending to be ill be found out as a fraud. i act as though im being seen through a camera at all times, viewing myself in third person. that's another thing i tried to stop doing. ive done that my whole life. i think that's another thing really tied up with gender. i think it started as an anxious thing, and as i was starting to question my gender it was sort of a self-policing of my femininity, then when i transitioned it was a self-policing of both my femininity and masculinity. i had to try to see myself in the eyes of others to guess at how i was being perceived. and moment by moment, person by person, it was different. i had to act accordingly, or they would tell that something was "off." if i thought they saw me as a girl, i would act accordingly, and vice versa. since i began to pass ive been able to shake this off a bit, but im still wary of the way im perceived. (especially as a bi man who is read as gay frequently.)

one of the first big life transitions i experienced was around the time that i came out as trans. these were two, quite frankly horrible events that happened so unexpectedly that i don't think i ever really left the whiplash from them. one of which was my parents' divorce, which was shocking and out of the blue to begin with, and hard for any child to grapple with, but made worse with the sudden and horrifying sickness and death of a family member only a few months later.

i often think about how my life would be if these two things didn't happen. would i be better off? worse? im really not sure. they felt like a change in the timeline, or some disruption of reality that i never fully returned to. in some way, i turned my heart off when my family member got sick, and it never really recovered from that. at the same time... i don't think i could remove these events in my life. the massive change and the distraction to my parents gave me the cover i needed to fully reinvent myself when it was much, much needed. i was able to leave behind an identity that was uncomfortable and reinvent myself out of the spotlight, and out of the way.

i think big life changes can also offer a new sense of perspective on the world. especially big, earth-shattering changes like death or other griefworthy events. i recently experienced another loss in my personal life. something that has sort of made the world feel different again. the wound is too fresh to make a commentary on it quite yet, and like i said ive been trying to quit that anyway.

i hope the next segment in my life is good. i don't want to keep defining chapters of my life by tragedy.

#big words

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coredrill · 1 year

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reading my like. fifth gridman universe summary and whoever wrote this is describing everything in the most out of pocket fashion like 😩 spoilers under the cut ofc

src

starting off strong RIGHT outta the gate with

LMAO????? I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THE TRAILER BEING STRAIGHTBAITING I JUST HAD THE WRONG FUCKIN CHARACTER!!! like i realize there’s some uh. artistic liberties goin on here with the phrasing HOWEVER until i see the film for myself i am choosing to live in the universe where all four of gridman’s MCs are canon bi 😌 move the fuck over gridman, this is ssss.bisexuality now

CRYING AT THIS. POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW………..WAS THIS WHY HE EATS LIVE CRABS FROM THE RIVERBED. FUCKED UP IF TRUE. I LOVE HIM

valid, this happens to me too whenever i go for a run

💀💀.

obsessed w the implication that “two humans get inside a very large human-appearing being” does not need an explanation but “kaiju that was already Special gets a new form” does

i see you amemiya . also don’t wanna count my chickens before they hatch but this seems like such a nice arc for rikka? like i’ll have to actually see the film to be certain but it’s nice that she’s able to acknowledge what akane means to her, still want to be with akane, make the decision that her grief over akane isn’t more important than akane’s real happiness, honor what she had with akane on her own terms, AND THEN move on and accept yuuta’s confession. again i might be calling the shots too early but it seems like a nuanced and mature way to do “bisexual character ends up with character of opposite gender” without making it a “gay phase” or “oh they were REALLY just straight all along” (or at least better than honoka kzn or mitsuru frnxx 🥴) like it’s nice that she tells yuuta it’s good he waited so long to confess so that she could actually develop interest in him AND grapple w akane. i like that.

ALSO. I JUST WANTED TO SAY. I WAS RIGHT LMAO I CALLED IT THE THIRD THING WASN’T RECEIPTS BUT

TWO MONTHS AGO……………….I UNDERSTAND GAUMA WITH MY SOUL

and last but not least, a rite of passage

also unrelated but goddamn today has been “i knew i loved gauma but i didn’t know i loved him THAT MUCH” day 😭😭😭 i’ve cried over his neon genesis suit three separate times and i literally am looking forward to seeing this movie so much?? like!!!! i picked him as my fav before i even saw the show cause i fucking LOVEEEE his design so goddamn much and then he was a goofball mecha pilot and it was all well and good AND FUCKING THEN. he goes and finds some wayward people and loves them so goddamn hard in his own bizarre way and it challenges them all to grow and change and be better and it SCARS them too but they embrace it because they love him right back and then at the end he straight up says that it’s okay that he never found his princess, that he still loves her but now he has the dyna crew and they’re good enough on that same level and HAHXHCNFNCNMCJCJDJSJXJDN. unsurprisingly i am devouring an admission of platonic love equivalent to romantic love, who’d have guessed!!!! and i’ve just been so so happy that i get to see more of him in the future, even in his rex form, and i’ve felt so GOOD all day because i have that to look forward to 😭😭😭 sorry for being too sincere abt this but I AM FEELING THINGS ABOUT MEDIA and holy fucking shit i am so happy that gauma exists 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

#a: gridman universe #t.txt

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realcube · 3 years

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haikyuu!! boys when you come out to them as bisexual 🏳️‍🌈

characters: yamaguchi, tsukishima & kenma

part two!!

tw// fem!reader, fluff, coming out,

Tadashi Yamaguchi

ok so hot-take but i think yamaguchi is straight

(or maybe bi but with a heavy preference for females)

but rn he identifies as straight

but like..he’s so supportive of the lgbtq+ community

like tsukishima gives off ‘gay but homophobic’ energy

but yamaguchi has ‘straight but a strong ally’ energy

and this is hugely bc while tsukishima fell down the alt-right pipeline, yamaguchi was going through that ‘women 😍🤩💕’ phase which i think every WLW has went through at one point

like while tsukishima was watching ‘sjw get rekt compliation #125′ , yamaguchi was watching those heart-wrenching lgbtq+ short films on youtube

and on tiktok his fyp was probably originally cottagecore (bc it’s his ideal lifestyle ofc) and somehow he is now kinda on sapphic cottagecore tiktok

like not to fetishize them or anything, just bc he’s awed by how in love they are and that’s kinda what he wants for himself

(also he uses them as date inspo for you and him DFBZVAYUL)

anyway this was just my lengthened explanation as to why - unbeknownst to you or anyone - he was an ally to the lgbtq+ community (if not apart of it)

you didn’t really expect him to be disgusted or unsupportive of it tbh - i mean, it’s tadashi ffs! 💞 you know he’d never break up with you or judge you for something like that, but that didn’t stop you from being slightly nervous

but he was ten times more nervous when you texted him, asking for him to meet you by the local park’s fountain bc you had something important to tell him

mans thought you were dying ngl

he almost burst out crying on the walk to the park bc he imagined a whole scenario where he was sitting next to your fkn death-bed

but you seemed healthy enough so his next assumption was that you were going to break-up with him

so when he approached you by the water fountain and you noticed that his eyes were glossy and his hair was damp with sweat, you were quite worried for him now

‘tadashi! are you okay?! your eyes are all puffy and red! do you have hay fever?’

yamaguchi rapidly shook his head, hastily escorting you to a nearby park bench so you could sit down beside him, ‘it’s nothing; what is it that you want to tell me?’

‘oh’ you choked, quickly averting your gaze from his kind, damp eyes. ‘it’s- um, i don’t-’ you cut yourself off, mentally cursing at yourself as you had practised what you were going to say to him hundreds of times before he arrived yet you still couldn’t stammer it out

yamaguchi was hanging on each word you uttered, but once he noticed that you were struggling, he placed his hands upon yours and shot you a reassuring smile

you let out a sigh in hopes to relieve your nerves while rehearsing what you were gonna say one more time in your head before blurting it out,

‘babe, erm, i’ve been questioning for a while and i’ve concluded that i’m bi - as in bisexual; and i just thought i’d tell you bec--’

you genuinely thought that you might have to explain to yamaguchi what bisexual means so IMAGINE your surprise when he simply replies, ‘you’re bisexual? is that all you wanted to tell me?’ and once you hum in agreement, he lets out a heave of euphoric relief

‘(y/n), please don’t make fun of me but on the way here, i was almost gonna cry because i thought you were going to tell me something horrible.’ he clutched his chest, breathing heavily - usually he’d never admit to something like that but right now, he felt that it was appropriate

you snickered at his rather exaggerated actions, ‘awh, baby. i’m sorry.’ a pout formed on your lips as you soothingly rubbed his back.

yamaguchi rapidly shook his head before turning the tables and rubbing your back instead, ‘nonono, it’s fine! i’m fine!- and i’m glad you’re fine too.’ he stumbled, hastily placing a kiss on your cheek before whispering in your ear, ‘i’m so proud of you. congratulations!’

although you couldn’t see his face, you could tell from his light voice that he was beaming

after that, he buried his nose into the crook of you neck and snaked his arms around your waist to pull you into a hug, which you both stayed in for a good 5 minutes

Kei Tsukishima

let’s be honest, tsukki’s definitely part of the lgbtq+ community but in deep denial

like if you ask him, he’s not even questioning his gender or sexuality, he’s just ✨straight ✨

so when you just randomly joked one day ‘oi, four-eyes, turn this shit off. she’s too much for my lil’ bi heart to handle.’ while y’all were watching a movie and you instinctively made an off-hand comment about how gorgeous the female lead was

upon realising what you just said, you turned to him with the most awkward grin plastered on your face, ‘tsukki, i’m bisexual, by the way.’

‘no shit, sherlock.’ he hissed at your use of that little nickname

you turned your head to look at him as you blinked rapidly, finally mentally processing his response

while he did the exact same thing simultaneously, dramatically turning his head to meet your gaze before muttering, ‘was that you coming out?’

your eyes widened as you realised, then nodded slowly

tsukishima smirked, shifting his attention back onto the movie, ‘congrats.’ he spoke in a mellow voice, a slight sense of amiability laced into his tone

‘thanks-’

‘have you told your parents yet?’ he quirked a brow, his eyes remaining glued to the screen

you hesitated before shaking your head, ‘no.’

‘what about your friends?’

‘yeah, i came out to my friend group a few months ago - along with yamaguchi.’

tsukishima couldn’t help but frown at the fact you came out to yamaguchi before him but honestly, he couldn’t blame you - he was aware that his bitchy exterior probably discouraged you from telling him sooner, so he was just glad that you had the confidence to tell him eventually

‘so how long have you known that you’re, like, y’know, bi?’ he inquired further

‘a while.’ you hummed, biting your bottom lip, internally so relieved that he wasn’t being too awkward or weird about it

‘good for you.’ he pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose, not a hint of sarcasm or irony detected in his voice for a change, ‘oh, and good luck with coming out to your parents’

‘thank you.’ you murmur, happily shifting your attention back onto the movie

tsukishima honestly doesn’t mind/care tbh

like he’s supportive and will beat a bitch up if they don’t accept you - but in general, he thinks that it’s none of his business who you love

as long as it is him (ಥ _ ಥ)

Kenma Kuzome

ok so fun story

you were both chilling in his room on a saturday, he was playing on his nintendo switch as always and you were on your phone

you had been meaning to come out to him for a while now but every time you tried, it seemed as though something happened to prevent you from doing so

for example, you tried to come out to him while y’all were chilling at the park but then a bunch of geese started terrorizing y’all and it completely ruined the mood

so you thought that now you were in his room - where there was less of an abundance of geese - it’d be a better time than any to just lift the burden that had been weighing on your chest

you were as nervous as any one would be but you kept on trying to reassure yourself that kenma would be supportive

however, he had never discussed any lgbtq+ related issues with you so you had no idea where he stood with that sort of stuff but tbh, he doesn’t give off homophobic vibes

after a while of staring at the wall and working up the courage, you finally spoke up, ‘hey, kenma. i think i might be bi.’

you mentally cursed at yourself as you didn’t ‘think’ that you are bi but rather you knew that you are bi, yet you felt the need to add that filler just in case things went sour

he perked up upon hearing this and turned to look at you, a small smile gracing his lips, ‘okay, that’s cool. congratulations.’

you couldn’t help but beam back at him, ‘thanks, babe.’ you almost whispered, gladly going back to whatever you were doing on your phone

honestly, you were happy to leave the interaction at that - i mean, his brief and calm response was satisfying beyond expected, as it was probably the least awkward way that could’ve possibly gone down

however, what happened next filled you with endless amounts of euphoria

‘oh, and (y/n).’ kenma said to grab your attention, ‘i’m bisexual.’

you did a double-take

your instincts told you to throw yourself into his arms and rave on about how proud you are that he had the courage to come out but after a moment of reflection, you had a better idea

‘okay, that’s cool. congratulations.’

kenma automatically pouted at how you used his own words against him when he was clearly expecting a hug, ‘(y/n)..’ he whined lowly, shifting his gaze back onto his game

but you were weak so ofc you pulled him into a hug as you both muttered sweet, reassuring things into each other’s ears

‘i love you so much, (y/n) no matter what.’

‘i know.’ you snickered.

‘bitch-’

‘i love you too. and i’m so proud of you for coming out - you’re so brave.’

‘aw, thanks. so are you, babe.’

‘i know’

kenma playfully nibbled at your neck for being such a clown during a sentimental moment

but anyway, you helped kenma come out so- yeah :))

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hootcifer · 3 years

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talking about toh | season two, episode eight: "knock knock knockin' on hooty's door"

holy shit

sorry this was a few days late, i was equal parts busy and lazy.

previous | first | next spoilers under the cut, as always

the beginning

awww hooty’s writing to lilith! like he promised!

btw, just so you guys know, i’ll be referring to hooty with he/they pronouns, because it makes sense to me. also i use he/they and i’m a hooty stan so it works.

I realize now that i spelled “hootsifer” wrong in my url. oh well, i like “hootcifer” better anyway. (also the url “hootsifer” is taken anyway)

oh no, hooty feels unimportant! i’m sure the large majority of the fandom is okay with this, but i’m not! poor thing.

i found it adorable that luz wants to find a way into amity's heart (even though she's had a place there since grom). how she would use the echo mouse for that, i don't know.

luz saying "we have to go" was almost a direct parallel to amity saying "I GOTTA GO" in "wing it like witches".

king's plot

i love how king is going through his angsty teen phase. that's hilarious.

why the fuck does hooty just eat people?! and then just act like that's an okay thing to do?!

i think it's a fun detail that hooty is wearing king's teacher hat from "the intruder". i love little things like that.

i like how this episode gave us some lore as to how demons on the isles work. they emerged from the muck of a decomposing titan? that's dope! it's also cool how there's three main types of demons.

hooty is a worm?!

on the board with all the bug demons, i recognized the butterfly alador kept chasing in "escaping expulsion", as well as adagast from "witches before wizards", the bear trap demon from "the intruder", and the kindergarten teacher from "i was a teenage abomination".

it was neat to see the fairy from "a lying witch and a warden" and the butterfly... thing from "witches before wizards". more neat continuity stuff!

what did king say with his dance? i'm very curious.

maybe king didn't want to talk about the cocoon, but i certainly do! what the hell happened?!

because of some of the images in the background when hooty was talking about demons, we can infer that some students of hexside are demons and not witches. i wonder if witches are more powerful than demons, or if they're on the same level.

other biped demons i recognize are the bounty hunter, tibbles, one of the pirates, warden wrath, and braxus.

i also saw a cat-person. are catgirls and catboys a thing on the isles?

i like how tiny nose and hooty are friends. somehow, it makes sense.

was tiny nose playing on a nintendo switch? that's cool.

we got to see even more past demons from the section about beasts, such as the ratworms, the echo mouse, the trash slug, the selikdomus, the slitherbeast, and the snaggleback.

has tiny nose's voice changed, or is that just me?

i'm really curious as to what the heck king is. is he a unique kind of demon? a hybrid, maybe?

i thought it was sweet that hooty and tiny nose tried to celebrate king for who he is, even though it just made him sad. they're trying.

eda's plot

hooty had a good point in wanting eda to sleep. sleep is important! says the guy who regularly stays up until at least midnight.

i completely understand hooty's fear of the owl beast. remember what happened last time?

the cookies hooty made were very cute. i loved that.

hey, the sleeping nettles are back! the same thing luz and hunter used a few episodes back to put kikimora's steed to sleep.

we got to see eda's dad! we know very little about him, but we did see him. also, did he look like nigel thornberry to anyone else? no? just me? okay then.

it broke my heart seeing raine and eda breaking up. it was neat that we got confirmation that they were together!

eda clearly regrets pushing raine away. poor thing.

who is the cloaked figure? i've seen a lot of theories that it's amity, but that makes no sense. i don't think she was even alive at this point. it could be odalia, though. that would be a cool twist.

the little owl beast was so cute. i want a plush of that.

HARPY EDA! holy shit, she's so cool. top tier character design.

luz (and amity)'s plot

you better bet your ass i have a lot to say about this! plot! okay, let's start from the beginning.

i was really hoping we would get some mutual pining lumity this season, and by god did it deliver! luz referring to her as a "cotton-candy-haired goddess" was too cute.

from what she said, it sounds like this isn't the first time luz has tried to ask someone out. she's so afraid of getting rejected. wait a minute, amity was afraid of getting rejected too! that's a parallel i didn't even realize!

i wasn't expecting to see amity this episode! it looks like her parents let her keep her purple hair. that, or the twins are using illusions to hide her hair from their parents.

i love how hooty's solution to getting amity to the owl house is to straight-up eat her. that's one way to do things.

i really want to know more about house demons. are there more than one? are they all bird-like? are they born as houses or do they just inhabit houses? so many questions and not enough lore!

the way luz interrupted amity when she suggested "forgetting" about what happened in front of blight manor reminded me of how eda kept interrupting king last episode when she thought he was going to tell her he was planning on leaving.

i'm not gonna lie, i skipped through the majority of the tunnel of love scene. that kind of thing gives me second-hand embarrassment like you wouldn't believe.

my heart shattered into pieces when amity said that the idea of her adting luz was stupid. she obviously doesn't believe it, but she's probably been trying to convince herself of it.

this part had me terrified that the lumity plot for the episode would end there. thank goodness it didn't, eh?

the ending

AAAAAAAAAAAA

okay, okay, let's start from when hooty freaks out for a third time, after the tunnel of love.

i thought it was funny how hooty ripped himself out of the door in order to run (?) away. at least we didn't have to hear all the sounds this time.

wait, "things always get weird when hooty's upset"? has this kind of thing happened before?

gosh, the part where king's voice powers saved luz and amity was so cool. i saw somewhere that the animator wanted to reflect the lesbian and bi flags and they did a great job.

eda encouraging luz to ask amity out was so cute. we stan a supportive mom, always.

and then comes the scene everyone's been talking about. oh my gosh, this was done so beautifully! it was equally awkward and cute, the way it should have been, and the fact that they both asked each other was perfect!

LOOK AT HOW HAPPY AMITY IS WHEN SHE SAYS YES!!! this is the happiest we have ever seen her, and it's adorable.

something i really love about this scene is the fact that they didn't say "i love you" or even kiss, like what seems to happen in a lot of confession scenes. they just held hands. it was probably one of the most realistic confession scenes i've ever seen. it kind of reminded me of when my gf and i got together.

oh yeah, that's right! they're officially together!!!!!!! FINALLY!!! i was not expecting anything that happened in this episode, but out of everything this one was the most surprising. holy SHIT! we have a canonically sapphic couple! in a disney cartoon! a disney cartoon!

honestly, i hope everyone has gained more respect for hooty after this. they've helped further the plot more in one episode than anyone else has done throughout the rest of the show.

we got to see king's dad properly for the first time! i don't think we'll see him in "eclipse lake", but maybe we will in the episode after that? i hope so.

everyone's freaking out about hooty eating the letter but... can't they just... throw it back up? like they did at the beginning of "really small problems"?

predictions

to my knowledge, the next episode is going to be about amity looking for an ingredient for the new portal. i also know that eda, king, and hunter will be there too. i don't know what to expect, but i am very excited. until next time!

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partywithgyu · 3 years

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TXT REACTION.

S/O coming out as bisexual.

//Requested//

Choi Yeonjun.

You were seated on the couch. With your phone in your hand you were scrolling through the instagram feed. Your boyfriend, Yeonjun was in the room, talking to his friends. It was something he would enjoy. Him and his friends would often have conference calls and talk about the most fun topics. He would later come giggling to you and tell you about some funny stories that definitely weren't secrets he was supposed to hide.

He did the same this evening. He sat next to you leaving no space between the two of you. He leaned to rest his head on your shoulder. Instead of telling you a funny story, he asked you a question. "Babe, I am better than all the guys you've dated, right?," he asked, expecting an immediate reply.

It was the fact that he had assumed that you had dated only guys before that made you sigh. You had never brought to his attention that you weren't into guys only. It was a topic that never came up. Yeonjun was open minded, you knew. He would be accepting of you being bi too. There was slight nervousness of things being different between the two of you by any chance. So, you thought over it before telling him. You decided it was a fact. Yeonjun needed to know.

You smiled at the man looking at you with furrowed eyebrows. The silence had made him panic a little. "You are better than the guys and girls that I've dated." It was the fact that he was better that made him feel relieved. He was afraid of the words that would follow the silence. Then he realized. "Guys and girls? You didn't tell me you were bi babe," he said to you. You shrugged. "I don't know why I didn't. It was a topic that never came up. You're accepting of it right?"

"Of course. I love you the same anyway," he said as he kept his hand over your hand. He looked you in the eyes with the most comforting look. Even his smile was comforting. He really did love you the same. Your sexuality had always been a part of you, he knew. Nothing about it was off putting or negative. "It's a fact about you babe. Knowing this makes me feel more connected to you. Thanks for telling me," he said to you. The wide smile you gave him after hearing those words made him feel happy. . He was glad you told this to him when you felt comfortable. "Also, I am better than all the guys and girls you've dated, huh?," he asked in a cocky tone. You playfully rolled your eyes. "Didn't I tell you the answer already."

Choi Soobin.

You always wanted to tell Soobin about your sexuality. He was a shy person in the beginning of the relationship. Small things would embarrass him easily. Often, he would get all awkward. You didn't want things to be like that. So you decided to not rush things. That was the best way to make him comfortable about the relationship. Now that the comfort was there you wondered if letting him know that you were bi would disrupt it.

You knew it shouldn't do that. Still there were doubts in your head. However the relationship had to be comfortable for you too. So, you decided to sit him down and tell it to him. You thought it would be an easy thing to do. It wasn't. The fact that Soobin was busy talking about what you two should get for lunch was even more distracting. You had to figure out how to get him to know that you had something important to say.

"I need to tell you something. It's important." Just saying that took effort. He kept aside his phone and looked at you directly. "Is everything okay?" "It is. It is." You were sweating. You thought it would be easier than this. "Say something," he told you in a tone that let you know he was worried. You didn't know what to do so you hugged. You hugged him tightly. "I like you a lot. I don't want this to affect our relationship," you managed to say. "I am bisexual," you added. He wrapped his hands around you as he hugged you back.

The silent hug lasted for a while. "Is that all? I was a little worried," he said to you softly. "I don't think this will affect our relationship. I just hope you feel comfortable to tell me such stuff about yourself. It's nothing to feel ashamed or worried about." His warm words made your shoulders feel lighter. When you pulled away from the hug to look at him, he placed a small kiss on your forehead.

Choi Beomgyu.

On this day, you had met a friend at the café. She had asked you to meet her because she really wanted to talk to someone. The thing she wanted to talk about was how her kind of serious relationship with a guy was over. All she did was come out to him. He couldn't handle the fact that she was bisexual. It was only because his insecurities got in the way. This story was scary to hear because you didn't want your relationship with Beomgyu to come to an end like that.

That night, as Beomgyu played the most pleasant tunes on his guitar, you sat next to him. He loved it when you did. In the dimly lit room, with Beomgyu before you, you started wondering if things would come to an end if he came to know about your sexuality. But it was only right to tell him, you had concluded. "Sweetie," you told him. Your eyes were already tearing up. "Yes?" "I want to tell you something but I am scared," you managed to say.

He kept his guitar aside and shifted closer to you. "Is everything fine? You don't have to be scared to tell me anything. It's me, your sweetie," he assured. His dark eyes looked into your eyes. His thumb wiped out a tear running down your cheek. "Sweetie, I am bisexual," you said to him in a breath. There were a few seconds of silence. "Okay." You looked at him, a little anxious of him wondering if it was time to end things. "That's all? Nothing bad happened right?," he asked you as he placed a hand on the side of your face. "That's all."

"Nice. It must've been difficult to confess. I am proud of you," he said before placing a kiss on your cheeks. "What do you think about it?," you asked him, taken back by how understanding he was being. "It's something that you are. There's nothing wrong about it. I still love you. You still love me right?" "Yes. Very much."

Kang Taehyun.

"You have something to say," said Taehyun.

You furrowed your eyebrows at the fact stating. "No. I don't."

He just sighed as he got back to coloring the picture that he had been for a few minutes now. You just sat there wondering how to break it to him. You wanted to keep it casual. Just tell it and leave kinda situation. However coming out to someone took more than just that. It needed courage.

You slowly grabbed a paper kept on the table. Then you reached out for the pink crayon. This was the most simple way to do it, you thought. You wrote down the words, 'I am bi.' Slowly you slipped the paper to the boy who was well aware that you were up-to something. He looked at it before lifting it up to read the words. He gave you a small glance before picking up another paper.

You watched him cover it as he wrote something. You were so worried about what he had to say. The fact that he was writing it down made you more nervous. A few minutes later he slid the paper to you. 'Hi bi. I am Taehyun.' You burst out laughing on reading that. He too chuckled. "What's the matter with you?," you said to him in the middle of the laughs. "I thought we were introducing ourselves." "Very funny," you said sarcastically before playfully rolling your eyes.

"On a serious note. I know that it doesn't change how much you matter to me. It's just a part of who you are and I am happy that you can admit it proudly."

Huening Kai.

The two of you were watching Brooklyn 99. Binge eating while watching Netflix was something you and Huening Kai did often. The episode playing happened to be the one where Rosa comes out to her parents. Considering how you had been feeling guilty about not coming out yet, you found yourself getting emotional over it. Huening Kai noticed it immediately. Jumping to conclusions wasn't his thing. So, he didn't do that. "You want a tissue?," he asked, gaining your attention. You nodded. He headed to the room to get you a box.

You had been waiting for the right time to come out. It was difficult. You didn't want to be seen differently. You were scared of being told that it was just a phase or anything related to the stereotypes related to bisexuality. Her parents didn't accept it. You were scared that people in your life wouldn't accept it too. You didn't want to be treated badly. You didn't deserve it, you knew. Another thing you knew was that Huening Kai wasn't the kind to do that. So, you decided to let him know.

He handed you the box before sitting on the couch. You pulled out a tissue and wiped your tears. You then turned to look at Huening Kai who was trying his best to not make you feel uncomfortable about your emotions. "Kai, I love you a lot and want to continue dating but there's just something I haven't told anyone. I am bi," you said to him. He turned to look at you. "Oh." Well, he didn't know how to react. He needed a few seconds to decide what to say to you. When he did speak, he left you feeling so happy. "I know it must be tough to confess it. Even accepting it must be tough. People can be unnecessarily mean about sexualities. They are the wrong ones. I think it's something you should never have to hide from anyone. Don't feel forced to tell people if you don't want to. You know, it's your thing. No one can tell you that it's wrong."

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clandestine (chapter 1)

PAIRING: Tom Holland x fem!Reader

SUMMARY: Y/N is an up and coming actress, married to a once hotshot actor, Harrison (Haz). What happens when her co-star, Tom, makes her realise that she is stuck in a loveless marriage. A marriage starts crumbling and a new romance stars brewing.

Chapter 1: too wise to trust

A/N: y/n is bisexual but not paired with a women. the characters have been aged up. the characters in no way portray how these ppl are in real life. i do not encourage cheating. i hope you guys like it as much is i do. if you want to be tagged them pls tell me. also comments are appreciated as they motivate me to write more and i love to know how you guys feel about the story.

warning: cursing, mention of miscarriage, mention of sex, mention of cat calling, angst. fluff?

word count: 1.4k

important: character thoughts are bold and italic, flashback is in italic

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She picked up her makeup bag from her vanity and started walking towards her empty suitcase which was wide open on her bed. “What time is your flight?” Haz asked while walking into their bedroom. “I think it’s at 6:30 in the evening but the car will be here to pick me up at 4”, she replied whilst folding her clothes.

“So we have at least an hour to us”; he pulled her by the waist and started kissing her neck. She tried pushing his chest away but failed miserably. “Haz, I’m not in the mood, please stop”

“Fine. But you have been saying that for months now”, he was frustrated.

She ignored his words like always.

He was right. They hadn’t had sex for at least five months now and it was starting to gain on Harrison. Their marriage, which had been ‘couple goals’ according to the internet, was now slowly falling apart. It was clear that Y/N was falling out of love but she couldn’t find grounds for it. She couldn’t reason it by making him the villain because he was a good man who, in theory, had done nothing wrong. Though, to her, it felt like he had. Maybe he didn’t love her enough or maybe all had gone astray when they had lost their baby last year.

“Will Tom be there?” his words felt like venom, entering her bloodstream.

She placed her hand on her forehead, trying to indicate that she did not want to have this conversation or the inevitable fight, again.

“Of course he will be there, he is my co-star. You should get off the internet, it’s feeding you poison”, she said in an almost nonchalant way. Trying her best not to give him the satisfaction of a reaction to his name. His name, which did not mean anything to her. Tom was her colleague whom the internet liked to ship her with, but he was just a friend. Haz found it hard to believe this because the internet told him so. Their relationship was so far gone that he had no other way of knowing what was going on in her life.

His wife was so far gone. She was as distant as the sun is from the moon. The distance left coldness between them. The kind of cold that you feel when you pass a stranger. She was a stranger to him and the only reason he could think of was that she and Tom were having an affair. This was not true, but the ache in his soul found comfort in painting Tom as the villain.

“I don’t believe you”, Haz spat out.

She threw her heels inside the suitcase in anger. “What do you not believe? That Tom is my co-star? Is that what you don’t believe?” her voice was louder than before.

“I don’t trust him.” Haz matched her voice.

“Do you trust me?”

Trust? Her? How can I trust a stranger?

It was his turn to ignore her.

She zipped her bag, put on her shoes, and left the room. “Fuck you”, she cried before slamming their apartment door and leaving for London.

Y/N had first met Tom at a cast and crew dinner in New York, six months ago. Greta, the director, had invited both her and Haz but he had decided to opt-out of the ‘fancy’ dinner. Y/N was excited to meet her new co-stars and mark the starting of a new project, a new phase in her life.

It was cold in New York, she figured she shouldn’t wear a dress. She put on black stockings underneath blue bell-bottoms to keep her warm. She wore a dark grey American Eagles t-shirt and over that, a tan leather trench coat. She liked commuting via subway because she believed ‘nobody gives two shits about who is sitting next to them on the train’; and a town car was much slower, especially when it had been snowing. She stuffed her heels in her purse and wore her commuting shoes.

Tribeca to West Village was a good ten minutes train. Her travel was mostly uninterrupted except for the catcalls which felt like the usual to a native. Just before ringing Greta’s doorbell, she got out of her Converse and wore her heels.

Y/N entered a packed house. Almost everyone was there and she was late. But someone was to arrive even later than her. She examined the room, everyone was mingling with each other. She didn’t know anybody there except Noah Baumbach from the time she auditioned for ‘marriage story’. She didn’t get the part but still loved the movie. She realized Tom was missing.

Greta pulled her into a conversation about when the production of the movie would start or something like that. She wasn’t really paying attention. She was so eager to meet Tom that her eyes couldn’t stop roaming around the room, trying to find him, and just when she thought he wouldn’t show up, he did.

Everybody’s head turned towards him when he entered the living room. It was as if every person in the room wanted him, including her. His dark brown hair, falling into place like a domino, had snowflakes in them.

“Excuse me”, Greta gave a small smile to Y/N and walked over to Tom. She greeted him and politely touched his back. “Now that everyone is here we should take the party to the dining hall”, she said in a loud and cheerful tone.

Following Greta, everyone started moving towards the dining hall. Tom sat right across Y/N on the grand dining table. “Hi, I’m Tom”, he introduced himself in his thick British accent. “And he’s English”, Y/N said, adding to her list of things she found captivating about Tom.

“And?” Tom gave her a confused look.

Shit. I said it out loud.

“I-I mean hi, I’m Y/N”, she tried to cover up her mistake.

His dark brown eyes on her, made her thoughts run wild. It was wrong enough to feel right. The dinner was served and small groups of conversations were taking place. Somehow the whole table took on the topic of bisexuality. Y/N felt obligated to take part in the conversation, being part of the community herself.

“I think bisexuality is a gateway to being gay”, Tom said to the whole table.

“You’re being bi-phobic, Tom”, Y/N called him out. All eyes were on her now.

“And how do you know that?” Tom asked Y/N.

“Because I am bisexual, and any decent human being would know that”

“Are you calling me indecent?”

“No, I’m calling you bi-phobic”

“But aren’t you married to a guy?”

“That doesn’t change my sexual orientation, and you’re being bi-phobic. Again.” There was silence, everyone was listening carefully.

“Okay, so please explain to me how I’m being bi-phobic?”

“Just the fact that you believe bisexuality is a gateway to being gay and me being married to a guy, means my bisexual card has been revoked, portray your biphobia”

“I am a little confused”, Tom said while reaching for his wine glass.

“Someone who is bisexual is attracted to both men as well as women. It isn’t a gateway to being gay, it is a legit sexuality of its own”,

“Hmm, I suppose I stand corrected. I’m sorry if I offended you or anyone. I will go home, do the research and try to be more open-minded”, said Tom, smiling.

“Good”, Y/N said, feeling accomplished and impressed by Tom’s ability to accept his mistake.

Haz would have never accepted that he was wrong.

Y/N felt wonderstruck. Blushing all the way home. She hoped Tom knew how enchanting it was for her to meet him. She wondered if someone was waiting for him at home, like someone was waiting for her. She wasn’t quite sure whether Haz was waiting for her to reach home or not.

She reached home to an empty bed. Not knowing what to make of it, she got ready to sleep. 2 AM and Haz was still not home. She didn’t try to reach him because she knew all phone calls would go straight to voice message and all messages would go unreplied. She closed her eyes, feeling indifferent towards Haz. Even in her sleep, her mind echoed Tom’s name. She was unaware of the treacherous road ahead of her. And that gave her comfort. His thought gave her comfort.

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grimtrespasser · 3 years

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Okay so,, I kinda,,,, came up with a whole au in which Anakin and Padmé are t4t, cause I was mad at Star Wars again, dicking around in my friend’s DMs, and I joked they’d have a way better relationship if they were and it kinda,,, spiraled skdks. It just dredged up a lot of follow up questions about how that’d affect the continuity and now it’s my self indulgent Anakin/Padmé/Rex fixit. So uhhh… some notes I have about the t4t au!

• obviously, first off, Padmé is a trans woman and Anakin is a trans man

• Luke and Ahsoka are also trans in this au because I said so

• When Luke officially comes out as trans Padmé jokes that he gets it from Rex’s side of the family much to Anakin’s delight and Rex’s complete confusion

• I’m under no circumstances killing Fives in this au that shit hurt me, so in this one he’s frazzled by the discovery of Palpatine but Rex and Anakin actually listen when he calls them to that warehouse and when authorities arrive they claim he was shot and fell over the edge into the center of Coruscant when in reality they call in some favors to smuggle him away safely

• Because they discover the chips through Fives so early on, they’re able to start covertly de-chipping some of the clones (with a lil jedi assistance à la Anakin and Shaak Ti), they obviously don’t manage to remove the chips of all the clones but they get a fair chunk saving themselves a lOt of pain come Order 66

• Mmmm big fan of Rex’s stiff awkward phase when he first starts attempting non-professional relationships, he’s a bit better by the time he starts crushing on Anakin and even more so when he falls for Padmé but bOy howdy does it take him awhile to just fuckin relax around them

• Rex, consistently getting crushes on badass dudes: I think I’m gay

Padmé: Hello, commander :)

Rex: hahaha bi panic: activate

• Legit he’s so awkward and uncomfortable in casual contexts I love him for that

• So I think a few critical changes are what push Anakin away from the dark side in this au:

1) When Fives uncovers the conspiracy, though by this point Anakin is friends with Palpatine and has a hard time reconciling what Fives saw and the existence of the chips with who he’s come to know Palpatine as

2) His decent fucking support system because holy fUck how do you have a whole found family network and yet they stILL fail to actually support you the whole damn way?? Obi-Wan doesn’t tell him his emotionality is dark side stuff! The council doesn’t just tell him to repress shit! His relationship with Padmé gets actual fuckin development and is actually healthy in this au!! FffUck

3) The twins, cause duh. They obviously happen at the very end of the Clone Wars so Anakin getting pregnant is what leads up to his final loss of trust in Palpatine and his decision to stick up for himself and his family against what the council might potentially say.

• Ahsoka still leaves the Jedi Order in this au cause I think it’s just too pivotal an aspect of her character, and at first Anakin is angry and betrayed but eventually he comes to accept it was the best option for her and doesn’t resent her for her choice. Especially after finding out about the twins and realizing his family won’t be readily accepted by the Order even though both are incredibly important to him

• Ahsoka is the one who tells him it’s twins, I just think it’d be hilarious if Kix’s initial tests really early on didn’t reveal that so when Anakin got Obi-Wan and Ahsoka together to break the news Ahsoka sensed both the kids through the living force and just went “Oh my gosh you’re having twins!” Right before Anakin could say he was pregnant, and his brain just breaks cause like…. Twins?? Oh god, twins????

• In turn Padmé almost chokes on her tea and Rex nearly fuckin faints when Anakin has to tell them it’s twins, like they had jUst come to terms with one baby and now they know it’s gonna be two and they are going thrOugh it

• Really want Anakin to just,,, go off and get really anti-government at some point. Like the more he becomes aware of his garbage circumstances at the Order and working for the Republic, the more he starts to recognize his childhood experiences in the clones’ situation, and the angrier he gets at the systems in power that facilitated all this injustice. He’s just never been afforded the chance at being free, so once he starts asking questions, he starts seeing what’s behind the curtain real fuckin quick. Except this time he’s got the support system to channel that anger into productivity rather than letting it consume him.

• I’m a big fan of the Anakin Doesn’t Turn But The Empire Still Rises AUs so this one follows a similar continuity. After all, Anakin was just a particularly close pawn, Palpatine still had a million other ways to ensure he came out on top, so when everything breaks bad Anakin escapes with Padmé, the twins, and his battalion. And because they were alerted to Palpatine’s plans by Fives they had an extended escape plan with a handful of other battalions, including the 212th and the Wolf Pack. A lot of them help build up the rebellion or become involved with it later down the line, once the movement starts to gain more traction.

Will I do anything with this au? Who knows! Buts it’s certainly fun for me to think about and I’m always coming up with random new details, so we’ll just see where my spite and curiosity takes me with this one. At the very least I’ve already got some doodles I might post later

#star wars #t4t au #clone wars #toxic gatekeeper Star Wars fans do nOT touch this post #this is my dumb lil sandbox and I get to choose the transification beam coordinates #anakin skywalker #padme amidala #rex clone wars #fives clone wars #luke skywalker #leia organa #ashoka tano #palpatine

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analogseeker · 2 years

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I legitimately want it all

ill probably give some of mine too if that’s fine

putting a read more option for your sake

OHOHOHO OKAY !!! well i already posted my pronoun hcs so thats already out of the way (i have a giant complex polycule but idk if yall r ready for that /lh)

okay so. first of all everyone in danganronpa has adhd i dont care . im right.

sayaka!!!!!

sayaka is bi with a pref towards women, shes def trans too!!!!!!! she likes making metaphors n loves symbolism! she is very good at understanding people !

mukuro!!!!!!!

mukuro is transmasc, theyre still figuring out what he likes but he knows he likes women <3

leon!!!!!!

leon.. leon my beloved. he has adhd you can't tell me otherwise. anyways ! he sings in his freetime and is pretty good at it but they are really embarrassed about it, especially when someone notices and mentions it. leon has fish memory and struggles to remember things, but he can remember random stuff at the worst times !! he has little to none impulse control.

n back on my adhd leon bs but. leon has adhd and only used his baseball talent to get rid of excess energy and then it developed into a hyperfix but the killing game happened so it kinda died down and he hyperfixated on being a musician/singer n stuff

chi!!!!!!!!

okay so. chi is bi n ace n theyre transfem (please no discourse i will only trans their gender more<3) !!!! they play dnd (yasuhiro taught em n they hold dnd nights - its a total disaster)

chihiro collects lalaloopsys and a bit of monster highs because she saw celeste had a collection and was like :0 !!!!! n so celeste gave her one and that's how she started collect monster high dolls

chihiro, miu an celeste meetup and they watched monster high movies also chihiro sleeps with plushies you can't tell me otherwise

taka.. taka..

hes nonbinary (chihiro is transfem, mondo is transmasc n taka is nonbinary they are trans buddies<3) n is gay ?? he doesnt rlly kno but he knows he likes men ! (theyre a flaming homosexual .) he physically cant swear sorrye<3 n uhhh hes neurodivergent idc idc

celeste!!!!!

OHOHO I GOT SO MANY HCS FOR HER.. <3 shes aroace (an alt hc i have is that shes bi!!!!!!!!!!!!) . whenever shes angry or frustrated she stims and sometimes she goes non verbal n semi verbal. she ended up masking her stims alot during the killing game tho </3

on a lighter note ! celeste def had a tea party with her cat when she was younger and still does . i know this. celeste has a vampire, gambling and twilight hyperfixation !!<3 she wants to have fangs soo bad (alt hc is that she does have fangs n likes to freak people out w em!).

she likes mystery and horror novels. she also likes those deep/philosophical books. she likes the books more when they're longer too :] anywywaya. she collects monster high dolls and has meetups with miu about them and a seperate meetup with chihiro (she doesn't trust miu near chihiro). anyways her favourite doll is elissabat

kyoko

the only important hc you need to know is that she had a r/imnotlikeothergirls and a r/im13andthisisdeep phase and is transmasc.

toko

she knows how to sew ! she sews in her free time ! it helps her calm down :]

peko

she likes going on midnight strolls . shes also a mom friend (especially towards kazuichi idc what yall say)

ibuki miodaaaa!!!!!!!!

i have so many hcs for her. ok so . genderfluid, bisexual n ace . she is THE adhd. she totally uses typing quirks . she can rollerskate n skateboard . shes okay ish at skating but thats only cause mikan helped her. after the killing game she was rlly anxious around mikan :( n junko n mukuro (bc they associated w mikan) n so she was vv hesitant but overtime they healed n :) theyre inlove.

she also steals everyones hoodies . yes. everyones. she also forces people to match w her n steals ppls clothes /r or /p she doesnt care. if its comfy she wants it. she got into pokemon n other games because of chiaki n references it a lot :]

some sadder hcs ,, uh,, she deflects a lot and avoids talking about her problems because she feels like she's too much to deal with. she doesnt like being bossed around/getting told what to do, she dislikes tasks an being told to ‘focus’ and such</3 she also hides her problems and always acts energetic and excited :((

on a lighter note uh!!!!!! they're very forgetful so they write notes but they tend to misplace them so everyone finds random notes laying around so if ibuki plans out a surprise party everyone knows ahead of time and ask to help set it up and ibuki always goes “how'd you know??”, thankfully no one has found out about the surprise parties for them as someone else finds out before them

mikan

she stims! a lot ! she decides to cut her hair n start over :] she knows how to figure skate n used to do it ! shes pretty good at it ! also shes bi n trans . yea.

gundham

has a forked tongue n likes to freak kazuichi out w it . he also plays dnd !!!! chihiro , hiro n gundham dnd buddies!!!!!!!! anyways they collect dragon figurines, toys & other dragon themed stuff.

gundham had a dragon and dinosaur hyperfixation at some point. he still somewhat has one but it's not super intense but he does know lots. lots of dinosaur facts. like. he will be calling everyone a fiend and then be like ‘ok pause. did you know [dinosaur fact]?’. kazuichi and him will be arguing and he will say a dinosaur fact and kazuichi is like “ok what. we are in the middle of the argument- also wait really??”

they bond over dinosaur facts and infodumping and kazuichi is just how the fuck did this happen i was just calling him an asshole like 0.2 seconds ago and now im infodumping to him about how cars work

“hey you know what ur a fucking asshole” “you fool! you dare insult me?? also [dinosaur fact]” and then 2 seconds they're just sitting down infodumping “and that's how cars work!” “i see.... maybe you are worthy of talking to me” “gundham we've been talking for an hour about dinosaurs and cars”

they also came up with the great idea of dinosaur cars. and say stupid shit about it and No One understands it except them.

the nagito komaeda himself !!!

when anxious they tend to play classical music and it surprisingly calms them down :] hes also nonbiney <3 he tends to zone out n likes to jokingly go "am i ur little pogchamp" to hajime. its very funny

chiaki

she is almost always listening to music, she also carries earbuds or headphones with her incase she gets overwhelmed, she can play music . she has cat headphones . yea

kazuichi

he is the adhd . sometimes he will hyperfocus on smth n then ibuki will have to call akane just to drag him into bed . tho this usually ends up in kazuichi hearing ibuki call akane n then bolting it moments after (they find him passed out under the table).

he has lots of fidget toys (he hoards them) ,, when he's nervous he plays with his hair and fidgets with his braid. tho if gundham is there when he's nervous he plays with his rings!!!!!! hes also surprisingly flexiable????

sonia

i hc her as aroace . she is aroace. i think its funny gundham n kazuchi r inlove w her n shes like ahaha,,, im aroace actually! i dont like u !

rantaro

hes agender n aroace . idk something something triple a battery. he fidgets with his bracelets n rings a lot :] he has horrible memory tho </3 also. insomniac. him n kiyo.

kaede

she has music note earrings n is dating all the danganronpa girls . she is the Sapphic. she has nicknames for all of em :]

kirumi

shes nonbiney n aroace<3 she spoils n favourites kokichi . she is also a wine mom. i know it in my bones. she also carries around different types of bandaid boxes with the v3 casts names on different ones because she knows they are picky about their bandaids and its unbearable (affectionate)

angie

angie has a million little bracelets n knick knacks !!!!!!! :] she also names plants after her classmates (she named sour grapes after kokichi bc she hates them both<3)

miu

miu my aroace sex repulsed icon who makes sex jokes jus for funzies.... i love you.. anyways they have fangs and tend to make jokes about being a vampire. <3 its funny<3 shes funny i love her<3 i am her<3

she watches kids shows & movies and forces the others to watch them with her. gonta and her watch them together a lot, especially the ones about bugs!!!!!!!

miu can beat almost anyone in chess and she always flexes because she is the gorgeous girl genius. she doesnt even try tho shes just naturally good at it . tho when she plays against kokichi its like that one (me who's eating the chess pieces vs the smart kid confused why he's losing) and kokichi is the one eating the chess pieces

she collects dolls and has a monster high collection n she customizes some of them. celeste and miu collect dolls together and they have meetups and its super fancy and miu likes to make sexual jokes n puts doll togethers n goes 'theyre fucking' an celeste is just. sacrifices must be made if i want to talk about dolls huh

keebo

MY NONBINARY KING I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! KISSING HIM RN . HOLDING HIS HAND AS WE SPEAK. anyways. he doesnt know what milf, dilf & gilf mean and everyone tries to keep it that way. minus kokichi. cause hes a little shit.

“what does .. milf mean?” “it means mom i’d-” “IT MEANS MAN I LIKE FISHING”

“what does gilf mean?” “hehe it means grand-” “IT MEANS GOSH I LOVE FORESTS”

because of this he says milf and gilf thinking it means the innocent version of what everyone told him and everyone thinks its funny (keebos confused)

shuichi

he had a warrior cats phase. i know it. never seen the books but he did. he kinned them and had a whole clan (no one lets him live it down. especially kokichi once he finds out). he infodumps to kaede about the books n lore . so she has random warrior cat knowledge .

#kaz.text #my headcanons #danganronpa #i aint tagging em all sorry #asks #friends #i hyperfixated on this help<3

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itisa-profoundbond-sarandom · 3 years

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Destiel, Buddie: the great love patterns and one failure.

I'm going to highlight the patterns of baiting and good storytelling. Chim sounds like the Sam to Dean!Buck. Cas!Eddie and Claire/Jack!Chris.

WARNING: not a negative post, this is from a destielshipper!POV looking to something so beautiful like 9-1-1.

As someone pointed out: if Eddie was a girl they would've already get laid. Same thing with Dean if Cas was a girl.

(my gifs)

We know Dean and Buck like to get laid with many girls...and have some homo-joke-scenes with guys.

Dean Winchester being a disaster bi (since S1)

(+ Josh and roomate!Albert - I know someone ships it xD) What I really enjoyed with Buck/Abby is the meaning of the storyline. D (who likes older women also) and B always get the part of having fun, and when it comes to express their feelings, not all their crushes understand their soul and they don't always admit those with themselves.

Abby: I think I was afraid that If I came back, I would become that person again. Because I missed you. I wanted to see you. But I didn’t trust myself.

Buck: Because being there, being with me, you might lose yourself again?

Shannon: I can’t fail him again, or you and I won’t. I’m still learning how to be someone’s mother and after that maybe I can be someone’s wife.

Eddie [to Bobby]: [...] she wanted a divorce. And I’m still mad. How stupid is that? I’m agry at a dead person and at myself because I forgave her for everything, and that wasn’t enough. I wasn’t enough.

Buck [to Maddie]: You’re never the one getting left behind. You’re the one who leaves. You don’t know what’s like to watch someone you love walk away.

Dean [to Lisa]: When I do picture myself happy...it’s with you.

Lisa: You've got so much buried in there, and you push it down, and you push it down. Do you honestly think that you can go through life like that and not freak out? Just, what, drink half a fifth a night and you're good? Dean: You knew what you signed up for.

Lisa: Yeah. But I didn't expect Sam to come back. And I'm glad he's okay. I am. But the minute he walked through that door, I knew. It was over. You two have the most unhealthy, tangled-up, crazy thing I've ever seen. And as long as he's in your life, you're never gonna be happy. That came out so much harsher than I meant. Dean: It's not your fault.

Who does understand them? The best friend. Cas and Eddie are the best friends to who they talk to, they can feel judged by but it doesn't really matter (or it DOES); they trust each other and feel safe.

you gave up an entire army for one guy (dean)

thank you, for not giving up

stupid for the right reasons

maybe you could’ve come at it a little differently

The Abby-phase was very important 'cause B wanted to stop to think about just the sex part and really connect with the person, doin' romantic stuff, even VDay; feelings were in the game.

(He literally asked to the firetruck!girl to see her again...but she said no. Ali? She acted like a Lisa.)

B really tried to find someone and always felt left behind. D had two important relationships, one with Cassie (yeah, that's fun) and I liked her -but he couldn't have a black girlfriend, right(?). Always felt left behind, by his father, by his brother, his mother’ memories were a lie.

When we first see Cassie, they didn’t see each other in a very long time and they get a reunion during a case.

Much like Eddie and Shannon.

(not saying also this...but....this)

Lisa and the weird-and-bad-written-originally story with Amara...who knew Dean bc of his 'dark' side. (Amara has found Cas and Dean’s profound connection and Dean was scared by her darkness connected to his anger and loniless).

At one point Amara will find Dean thanks to Cas's heart just my reply to go fast (while Cas was possessed by Lucifer- an annoying bitch who is used as a destiel bait)

We know Buck for his autodiagnosed sex addiction with women and Eddie as a married man with a son and wife not in the picture...and the episode- I'm so sorry, but the beginning of S2 with Buddie can't be described as two hets - there are tropes.

We start to fall for them and Chim with Maddie, wait- Sam!Chim and Eileen!Maddie.

Sam and Eileen’ first episode is basically a blind date on a hunt. They flirt and make a badass duo, she's deaf and super sassy and they're so sweet together. Many start to ship it asap.

I cried with Madney asap.

What does Maddie do since Buck start talking about Chris and Eddie? Yeah.

What does happen in Fanfiction with Sam (he’s a Maddie here) and when Saileen comes back on S15?

Bros shipping their bros with their best friends, mirroring them.

Madney have Buddie patterns.

Saileen is presented as a Het!Destiel parallel...and they can kiss.

Sam asks Dean if he could start thinking about settle down with someone who understand the life, another hunter. Eileen is a hunter. Cas is an angel - the one who raised him from perdition and got lost for his beautiful soul/hunter.

I LOVE that Eddie can be just a friend to Lena and Marjan, basically (I hope not to see this ruined in the future).

Now, over the line: Dean has a mother figure in Bobby!Jody and Jody is shipped with Athena!Donna (also good friend to Dean) and he's got a sister figure in Hen!Charlie.

[Jody, Charlie]

(Jody and Donna have many daugthers figures and a spin-off who hasn't been picked bc too many poc girls, queer girls and two not young women with perfect bodies.)

Bobby!Jody helped him with his mother-plot-fiasco (that was really bad) and I loved Mary before s12.

[I'm having fun thinking about this connections, leave me alone if it'ss just a great big illusion]

I forgive you / of course I forgive you

personal space / personal space

Destiel, uncle!Sam and Jack

Destiel, uncle!Sam and Claire

*love is in the air*

oh and beside the MurphyPatterns (Klaine, Bryan&David) we do have the KripkePatterns also (Timeless, The Boys 2 3 )

One of the most loud BI!Dean eps

I’m ready for some domestic Buddie and Madney

Eileen and Cas back from the dead

Just to make you all laugh after this big movie, remember the chars:

what a destiel scene always looks like

THE END:

Yes, C*W and Fox aren’t the same, and yes producers can make the difference. all SPN writers WEREN’T the problem, directors neither, not to mention the actors.

C*W thrived on Destiel for 12 years, building a very good story that could’ve show two men accepting the love they deserved....but they failed, erasing every other (lgbtq, poc, disable) characters.

Fox doesn’t need more viewers but they WILL gain more of them showing Buddie because representation of a M/M ship with BI/PAN (I see Pan!Eddie) it’s a huge thing for TV and it matters. I always see gay love not many other possibilities, with Murphy mostly, he can make the change again.

A reminder to what C*W did

#destiel #buddie #I just want my couples to be happy

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fbfh · 4 years

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hey, sailor - leo x daughter of poseidon

genre: a little bit of angst, a little bit of fluff, a lot of mermaids lol

word count: 2.4k

au: none really, you have mermaid powers as a daughter of poseidon if that counts lmao

pairing: Leo x Daughter of Poseidon

requested: yeeyee !! hope u enjoy xoxo

warnings: uh brief mention of your step dad leaving when you were younger, an interaction with your best friend doesn’t go as planned, percy’s grappling with rlly complicated feelings towards his dad and new sister

summary: Percy, Annabeth, and Leo all get a little more than they bargained for when they bring Percy’s half sister back to camp Halfblood, and Leo remembers why he had such a huge crush on Ariel growing up.

reccomended songs: hurricane drunk - florence + the machine, sinkin’ in - cody simpson, deep sea ambiance

a/n: as soon as i got this request my dormant mermaid phase woke up from a sound sleep

requests r open uwu

"...And you know what he said to me? He says, 'kid, I think it's time you met your sister'. I have a freaking sister, and that two timing piece harpy sh-"

"Okay, Percy, why don't you cool off a little before we leave. Come on, we'll grab a drink or something while Leo finishes getting ready."

Annabeth takes her boyfriend's hand, and leads him to the nearest drink cooler. Leo turns back to the car they're going to take, and continues loading in the rest of the supplies. He, for one, is excited to meet Percy’s sister. His first thought was ‘hope she’s hot’, which he blurted out before he could stop himself, and was met with a killer glare from both of them. He’s not trying to be insensitive, finding out you have siblings you didn’t know about is kind of traumatic. I mean, hey, Leo’s family went from zero to sixty in one day - literally. Okay, not quite sixty, but only child to one of eight is still a pretty big jump.

A little while later, they’re ready to go. Leo offers to drive, so Percy and Annabeth can sit in back and try to sort out Percy’s feelings. After a couple hours of driving and emotional conversations, most of which Leo just listened to - Annabeth seemed to have a good hold on this, and Leo didn’t want to overstep his bounds again - they arrived in Cape Cod. At this point, the gist seems to be that Percy knows if he should be mad at anyone, it’s his dad. They park in the driveway of the address Chiron gave them. They get out of the car, and look up at the house. It’s gray with white trimming, two or three stories, with a balcony porch on the upper floor - a normal, small town New England house, as far as they could tell. They seemed to take a collective breath, and approached the door.

You’re breathing fast, trying to hold back the floodgates of emotion, when your bare feet hit the sand. You drop your bag, taking in the familiar, secluded stretch of the Cape. A big wall of jagged rocks to your left separates this part of the beach from the others. The old wooden stairs and their faded white paint that connected the low cliff to the sand below are hidden by plant life, so most people don’t even know this area existes. You’ve been coming here regularly since you were nine or ten. So many important parts of your life happened on these shores. You could just tell your mom ‘I’m going to my beach’, and she’d know right where you are. You finish pulling off your shorts and rush towards the water in your swimsuit. You’re met with immediate relief as soon as the water touches your skin. If it was possible to have an emotional support location, you did.

You feel it happen as soon as you’re waist deep. Bubbles and sea foam collect around you from the hips down and your legs get tingly and numb. A moment later, it dissipates, leaving behind a life sized mermaid tail. It changes slightly with most transformations, usually based on your mood and desired appearance, and you’ve noticed over the years you can change how it looks more easily. You don’t care today, you just need to be in the water. This time it’s a big tropical fish tail, its purple, blue, and shimmery gray tones reflecting both your mood and the impending storm clouds rolling in. You dip below the surface, and let the tide carry you a little ways. You don’t worry about getting lost, you somehow always know where you are at sea. You don’t have gills that you can find, but you can definitely breathe underwater.

You finally sink to the bottom, and stare up at the surface of the water. The patterns of light remind you of the night light you had as a child.

Your mom had ensured you were comfortable with water and ocean life for as long as you could remember. She must know other people like you, because sometimes she would have long phone conversations with someone called the Director. You were pretty sure he had a weird name that started with a K or C, but you could never remember. He’s apparently sending someone to bring you to a ‘safe place’ today. It sounds like bullshit to you, but you trust your mom, and your mom trusts the Director. Since you might not be back for a while, she said you could finally tell your best friend Wes the truth.

‘Oh god,’ you think, wishing the salt water would erase your memories of what happened today, but you can’t stop the onslaught of memories. Wes has been your best friend for years. You helped him when he realized he’s bi, he helped you when your step dad left, you could trust him with anything. Or so you thought. ‘It’s not his fault,’ you remind yourself, trying futilely to stop reliving what happened hours earlier.

You brought him to your part of the beach to go swimming so you could show him. You can still hear his voice, asking if you’re sure you want to go in the ocean, you’ve always been afraid of water. Once you’d worked up the nerves to get in the water and transform, you showed him your tail. Your heart broke again every time you remembered what he had said.

“That is... incredible,” your heart had soared, there was hope, “I can’t believe you got one of those silicone swimming tails just to prank me!” Ah, there it was. The other shoe. You tried to tell him it was real, but he said he could see the mold lines, and there the scales don’t quite line up, and there’s the edge of the zipper. You wanted to cry.

“I’m not gonna lie, you almost had me for a second. I can’t believe you learned to swim just to prank me, but whatever works, dude,” he laughed like you were having a good time together. It was too much.

You let out a huge underwater scream, and thunder rumbles in the distance. You sink further down, wishing once again that the salt and algae would erode your memories from today.

Annabeth knocks on the door for the third time. Thankfully, it opens to a middle aged woman in a shirt that said Brooklyn Nine Nine.

“Hello, what can I help you with?” she asks. She has a strong presence, and none of them want to be on her bad side. Percy is still too nervous, and Leo seems to be analyzing wires poking out of the doorbell, so Annabeth introduces themselves, and asks where you are.

“Who wants to know?” she asks.

“We’re her internet friends, we’re surprising her by visiting a day early.” Annabeth replies. The woman doesn’t seem convinced. She smiles, seeming to see right through them.

“Are you from camp?” The shock on their faces gives her all the answer she needs. She smiles, and continues, “She’s down at the Cape, the quiet part past the rocks.” They thank her, but before they can leave she says, “Hey.” She looks at each of them intensely.

“Make sure she gets there safely. Take care of her.” They agree solemnly, and head down the sidewalk.

“And tell Chiron I say hi.” she says with a smile. They smile back, agreeing again.

They get to the Cape, and it’s full of people.

“Shouldn’t be any harder than a Where’s Waldo,” Leo says. Percy’s head snaps to the right, and thunder rumbles.

“Did you hear that?” he asks.

“The thunder? Yeah,” Annabeth says.

“No, no.. someone screaming.”

“I don’t-”

“This way,” he takes off towards a pile of jagged rocks. They manage to get over with only a few scrapes and Percy surveys the empty beach.

“She’s here… She’s here somewhere,” he mutters to himself. The dark clouds part for a moment, and Annabeth points out to the water. Someone was there, pretty far out to sea. She could just make out their shoulders and head above the water.

“Gods, Percy, can you get her to shore?”

“Ah ah ah, uncle Leo’s got this one,” Leo pulls something out of his backpack. It’s bronze, and the size and shape of a deflated soccer ball. He throws it into the water. It starts to sink, then expands into a small bronze and wood speed boat. Percy and Annabeth’s jaws drop. He hops in, revving the engine to life. They sail out over the water, Percy directing them around currents and waves. They can see the figure clearly now, and they’re sure it’s you. You’re looking away from them, out towards the darkening sky. The boat starts to slow down, and makes a whining noise. Their eyes dart to Leo.

“It’s probably just a sticky piston,” white smoke leaks from the engine, “... and I should check the coolant, too.” He opens up a panel, and starts to tweak a couple things. He sits on the edge of the boat to get a better angle, and reaches into his tool belt. He pulls out a wrench, and almost in slow motion, feels it slip between his finger tips, and into the water with a light plip.

“Shit!” He covers his mouth, worried he scared you off. Three heads turn to where you were a moment ago. Gone. He feels that familiar shameful heat creep into his stomach and cheeks.

“Sorry guys, I-”

“You dropped this,” He looks into the water, and you’re right next to the boat, handing him the wrench.

“...Thanks,” he says, his heart speeding up. Your hair is wet and beads of water glisten on your skin. Your red bikini top sure isn’t doing anything to slow his racing pulse, either. Your hands brush as he takes the tool from you. You smile, and the clouds part - literally. A beam of golden sun shines behind you, making you glow. His heart is in his throat, and he knows he’s probably grinning and blushing like an idiot.

Percy stares at your head, poking up over the side of the boat. Your hair is dyed shades of blue and teal and seafoam that blend right in with the water, but your roots are dark. He takes in your freckles, your tan lines, and your eyes… they look like part of the sea - shells, or waves, or something. He watches as Leo takes the tool, and a smile appears at the side of your mouth - the same smile he’s seen in the mirror, the same smile he’s seen on his dad. He sees all these familiar traits and knows it’s true, you’re his sister. The realization hits him like a truck, and he’s suddenly choked up. Annabeth sees this, and places a hand on his shoulder. She looks between Percy and an infatuated Leo, and takes the reins for the whole ‘the gods are real’ speech.

“Hi,” she says, giving Percy’s hand a squeeze, “I’m Annabeth, this is Percy, and Leo. We were sent here to take you to a safe place for kids like us-”

“Ohmygod, finally,” the tension leaves your shoulders and you sigh in relief, “you have no idea how hard it’s been keeping all of this a secret, trying to be normal…” You push yourself up the side of the boat Ariel style, and pull yourself in, the edge of your tail draped slightly off the boat as you continue, “I seriously thought I was losing it for a while…” you trail off, watching them stare at your tail.

“You’re not… you’re not merfolk, are you?” The confusion on their faces says it all. Panic rises in your chest as you start to dive off the boat. Before you can, Leo grabs your hand.

“Hey, hey, hey, it’s okay. We all have weird powers, it’s part of being a demigod.” He shows you his free hand, and flames suddenly dance across his palm. Part of your fear is replaced with confusion.

“A what?” you ask.

“A demigod.” you look over at Percy, who’s speaking since the first time since you’ve met him, “Our dad is Poseidon, god of the sea.” You scrunch your eyebrows, processing what he said. Annabeth smiles at the gesture, having seen her boyfriend do it a thousand times.

“Wait… our?” He takes in a breath.

“I’m Percy, your brother.”

The ride back to shore is a little awkward, to say the least. They had finished explaining about camp and the gods and monsters a few minutes ago, and it’s been pretty much silent since. Annabeth sits next to you, and hands you a water bottle.

“He just needs some time,” she tells you quietly, “Poseidon’s not really supposed to have children, and Percy got a hard time for it when he was younger. He also… he thought his dad was really in love with his mom, so finding out he has a sister so close in age…” You nod in understanding. She pats you on the shoulder, and sits next to Percy at the back of the boat. You scooch up a little closer to Leo as gracefully as you can, which isn’t much, considering you have to drag along an almost 60 pound fish tail. Leo looks over at you from the controls.

“Weird day, huh?” he asks.

“Yeah…”

“So how long does it take to, uh,” he nods down and you flick your tail, “de-fishify?”

You laugh.

“Once I’m dry,” you look up at the summer sun reemerging, a little surprised that it hadn’t stormed. Then again, if children of Poseidon really could make sea storms, it made sense that it had died down now that you and Percy were feeling better.

“which shouldn’t take long.” you finish. You look over at Percy, who’s having a quiet intense conversation with Annabeth.

“He knows I didn’t ask for this, right?” Leo looks back at them.

“He does,” he replies.

“It’s so surreal finding out I have a sibling I knew nothing about,” you mutter, mostly to yourself.

“Try finding out you have seven,” he laughs, shaking his head at the memory.

“Seven?!” your head snaps up to him.

“Oh yeah,” he tells you the story of when he first came to camp, and you feel so much better already. Leo has such a comforting presence, the pain from all your problems softens a little just hearing him talk. You have a feeling you’re going to get a lot closer.

Little did you know, the feeling was mutual - and correct.

#leo x reader #heroes of olympus x reader #Heroes of Olympus #Leo Valdez #percy jackson #leo valdez x reader #daughter of poseidon #child of poseidon

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ryleeee · 3 years

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My parents are older. My mom had her first kid at 31 years old, and went on to have 4 kids with an 8 year gap in between the first and last. And honestly, I'm so glad for that, because my parents were so wholly stable when it came to raising kids, and I think it must be because they were older when it happened, so they had time to grow into themselves. Anyway, they're both around 55 years old now, so they're boomers.

But they are supporters of gay and trans rights, the black lives matter movement, and they are both feminists (yes, even my dad), so basically they're very leftist. My point is that my parents had a head start, so I can't say for certain how this would work for parents who are more politically right leaning.

But when I came out to both of my parents as bi, they were incredible, and they promised they wouldn't tell anyone, not even my brothers, until I was ready.

And then, a year, maybe two years later, when my mom and I had the house to ourselves, she pulled me aside and asked about my coming out situation, and if I felt that label still fit. And it was then that I was able to say, yes, I am still bi, but im also asexual, and I asked if she knew what that was, and she said no, so I explained it in its most basic form and then told her that when my dad gets back and we have a quieter moment, I can show them both a video on it. And when I did, they said, okay, thats great, we love you, etc etc.

And I think that moment was so important. Because when I first came out, even though I knew my parents would be supportive, I was sobbing the entire time. But when it came to that second time, when my mom was the one to bring it up, I was perfectly calm, even when considering the fact that the term asexual comes with a lot more explaining than how I first came out, which was to just say, "I think I like girls, too" whilst crying.

TL;DR So if your kids break their heart to tell you something personal about themselves, I think having it be an ongoing conversation that they don't always have to initiate all alone, whilst still recognizing that things can be phases or transitional in nature, but labels can also fit just right, whether permanently or not, is so important. Maybe my mom will ask me if the label still fits sometime soon, and I'll be able to say just a simple yes that time, and then we can go back to watching studio ghibli movies on the couch with warm mugs of hot chocolate in our hands.

#this is basically just a love letter to my parents #god theyre amazing #lgbtq #lgbtq community #coming out #asexual #biromantic #bisexual

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deakydeaky · 4 years

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I’m not going to hide my name because this is extremely important to me. Female reader comes out as bi to their family and they absolutely hate it and hate her for it so she runs off to Brian’s place where she breaks down and comes out to him and he’s so accepting it warms their heart. And then he confesses that he loves her and that will never change? Sorry if too explicit

(A/N: I’m sorry this took so long, I’ve been really sick lately and I haven’t had a lot of time. Also TW: this does speak bad thoughts about bisexuals, please note I do not believe in what I am writing from the parents POV. This is a hard topic for people but just know that you are so so so so loved and accepted. I hope you enjoy, and reminder to: love your sisters, hiss at anyone that call calls you and drink water babe :) )

You had been fighting with yourself about this for a while now. It wasn’t a small thing to do, come out

But you thought that they were your parents and that no matter what they would love you and that’s what talked you into it

You sat them down for tea one day. You had even made some biscuits to go along with them

“Mom, dad, I have something important to tell you.” You told them as they drank their tea.” This isn’t easy for me to say but I wouldn’t be doing this if I didn’t want you guys to know and be in this part of my life right now so I’m just gonna say it, I’m bisexual.”

“Bisexual? What is that?”

“It means I feel the same way about both guys... and girls.” Your parents looked at each other. Your mother sat down her tea before she looked at you

“No, no daughter of mine will be this- this- this thing.”

“Mom I-“

“I know what this is, you’re in college! You think you know everything and that you’re just so open. Well- you’re not. This is a phase. And don’t you dare go around using that word on yourself as long as you are under my roof.”

“Dad, pleade tell her-“

“Y/N, you like boys, you always have!” Your father laughed

“And I’m not saying I don’t! I just like girls the same way.”

“There is no such thing as bisexual, you pick one or the other. And you, like boys.”

“I thought you two would accept me.” You spoke before you got up

“And we do, but we will never support this. It isn’t right, and isn’t real.”

“This is who I am. Please just-“

“No.” Your mother stopped you.” Another word about this and you’re out. Understand me? Out!”

“I’m your daughter!”

“As long as you’re claiming to be bisexual, you’re not. Not my daughter.” Your father tells you as tears formed

“I have never hated you before.” Your mother stated

“Oh and because of what? That I’m bisexual you hate me now?”

“Yes!” Your mother yelled at you. You grabbed your car keys off of the counter as your mother yelled your name

You needed to be somewhere, somewhere you knew was safe, somewhere you knew you would be okay at

You knocked on the apartment door multiple times before the door opened

Brian looked at you.you had swollen red eyes, makeup running down your cheeks, and a bright red face

“Y/N, what happened?” He asked as you guided you inside

He would hold you tightly into his chest as you cried. As he tried to calm him as played with your hair. He also made sure you felt his heartbeat, and hoped yours would sync to his to calm you

“It’s going to be okay, just talk to me Y/N. What’s wrong? What’s going on?”

“Brian I’m- I’m- I cant. You’ll hate me too.”

“I could never hate you.” Those words hit your heart in the best way. It sounded real, like he could never hate you

“I’m bisexual, and I told my parents, and they- they don’t accept me. And now I- I have no one, and nothing.”

“No, no, no. Love, you have me. I accept you. There is nothing wrong with who you are. And there never will be.”

“I thought I would always have them. That they would always love me.”

“You have me Y/N, that won’t change, never. I- I love you Y/N! And- and- I love more and more everyday, and you’ll always be perfect and you’re amazing and I love you and that won’t change either!”

“I love you too.”

Bonus! You move in with Brian:

You grabbed the last box from your room as Brian helped with a bag of clothes. As you two walked out you found your parents waiting for you by the door way

“What’s this?”

“I’m moving out. You obviously don’t want me here.”

“We said we don’t want you here as a long as-“ your father stopped himself from speaking the last bit

“As long as she continues to be herself.” Brian finished for him.” You’re a joke, and a horrible parent.” You smiled at Brian before at your parents

“You know, we would have talked about this, if I had time, but Brian and I are off to a huge bisexual orgy.” You told your parents as you passed them.” And I assumed you wouldn’t want me home for Christmas so I booked one for that day too.” You told them with a smile before walking out to the car

You mouth dropped, knowing what you said just got you kicked out of the will , but do be it. You didn’t want their homophobic money anyways

“You’re so hot.” Brian would tell you as you put your clothes in the car

“It’s the bisexual curse, I swear.” You put your arms around his waist.” Are you sure you want me to move in?”

“Never been so sure of anything in my life. Other than the fact that I love you.”

#brian may #john deacon #roger taylor #queen #brian may concept #brian may headcannon #brian may headcanon #brian may imagine #brian may imagines #brian may x reader #queen headcanon #queen headcannon #queen imagine #queen imagines #queen x reader

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I’m 16 and have only ever been attracted to girls and non-binary people. When I came out as lesbian recently (6ish months ago), my mom had a really hard time accepting me. My mom just got to a place where she somewhat respects my sexuality… but now I like one of my super close guy friends. What if this undoes all the progress with my mom (she always told me my sexuality was “just a phase” and thought I was lying to secretly date guys)?! I definitely still like girls and enbies, maybe I’m also demi-heterosexual? I’m still more identifying as a lesbian because attraction to men happens once in a blue moon. I’m just really confused :(

Any advice or sexuality labels will be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much!

Hello friend!!! Honestly, until/unless you find yourself moving into romantic territory with this guy, I feel like it's totally valid not to tell your mom. You don't have to come out again as bi or pan or whatever. You don't even have to know if that's what you are. Take a deep breath, it's okay!

Allow me to introduce one of my favorite labels: sapphic. I still use this, but it was my primary label when I was existing in the gray area between bi and lesbian. It just means that you're a woman/female-aligned person who likes other women/female-aligned people! It doesn't mean ~exclusively~ wlw, so it applies to bi/pan/etc wlw as well as lesbians. Obviously if you don't vibe with it then don't use it, but maybe you could start working it into your vocabulary if you feel like moving away from "lesbian" is the move but you're not sure what you want to call yourself. It gives off the energy of "I like girls" but doesn't exclude your occasional attraction to men! I used to refer to myself as "sapphic bi" to indicate that I was bi but strongly leaned towards women. This was more for me than for anyone else, and remember that that's what labels should be! If you're struggling with how to refer to yourself around your mom, go broad with terms like gay, queer, or sapphic, depending on the situation. Hopefully this can help you buy the time and space you need to figure out what, if anything, you want to call yourself in the future.

I hope that's helpful! If/when it comes to a point where you need to tell your mom you like a guy, be very clear that you still like other genders as well, and it’s really really important to you that she respect that. Good luck! 💚🌈

#advice #gay advice #lgbt advice #lgbtq advice #lgbt #lgbtq #lesbian #sapphic #hang in there my friend!#just don't feel like you have to be ashamed of liking a guy #bc attraction to guys is totally cool and great #anon ask

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magicmoon65 · 4 years

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The Politician Season 2 and why I didn’t like it as much as Season 1

Some Spoilers

Usually I wait a little while before I figure out what I thought of something. But the politician season 2 disappointed me a lot, I just finished watching it and... I’m disappointed.

Because it’s fine on its own. it’s even good on its own. But the first season is really good. And season 2 doesn’t just not hold up.. it almost undermines season 1. Makes fun of it.

Season one had really good character development and that’s why I loved it. Sure, a lot of really extreme things happened. But all of it propelled the plot and Peyton’s character development. Every twist in the election was cosely tied to his arc. Every out there crazy plot point impacted him, challenged him.

Peyton Hobart is an ambitious guy who wants to win. He cares about things for his image and to gain support. Until he meets River, which is the big turning point, because he loved him, and River loves him, and River makes him feel things. River brings out the best in him, makes him more than a slimey politician and into a real perosn that he’s afraid he isn’t.

Somewhat of a sidenote, but the queer rep also did a 360. In season 2 Peyton is in love with Alice, which is fine if he’s bi, but they seem to drop the idea that he was at all attracted to guys except for in a flashback to a threesome he had with Astrid. In talking about River they determine that he wasn’t even bi, he just loved them a lot and wanted them to feel loved. Plus, though McAfee is seen going on dates with girls in a breif montage and then has a date, sex with, and then in the end marries a guy, like any wlw attraction was a teenage/college phase rather than a real part of her. Skye was hardly mentioned to be queer. The Voter mom character I think was gay, but that was in one sentene, not even seeing her (wife? girlfreind?) or mentioning where she was. This was a strongly diverse show in s1, but s2 seemed to try to remove or ignore any queernes sof any of the characters.

Peyton’s arc in s1 is incredibly well written and complex. He’s also a very different character than we usually see. He fucks up a lot in the name of getting elected, and that is exactly what screws him over. And then you know what happens? He goes completely to the opposite extreme. I love that. He drops the ambition and feels everything. And he can’t do that either, because his ambition is a part of him, but he has to learn to follow that while also being true to himself and letting himself feel things. Whih, by the way, is a very important messege.

But season 2? I hardly know what’s going on in Peyton’s head for most of it. He’s all about controlling all of his staffers and there’s a bit of should I play dirty? But he only cares about not playing dirty if it might look bad because apparently that’s all he took from his school election? We have one significant challenge for him and that’s when Alice says she’s leaving him. But she comes back without him really having to do much, and he just says “hey I’ll stop writing my speech to spend the evening with you.” His talk with his mom solidifies and idea that he will play dirty and do anything to win.

There was a scene where Dede, his competitor, found him singing at a bar, and he said some things about the election that really solidified who he was. He didn’t care about anything he was doing. He was going to do it because it would ensure more votes. Watchign that I was thinking, dang, he really is just a rich kid who wants to win and that’s all. He wants the campaign, Dede wants the job. I thought Dede realized that too... but then she gives him the election, and then two years later, offers him to be VP with her. So maybe she didn’t realize it.

And want to know what super sucks? He wins the election as this entitled guy who will cheat and play dirty to win. Someone who isn’t ready for the real job of winning. Which would be fine if I saw him get to Albany and realize how hard it was. Realize there that the job is more than power and winning. Learn something. Finally get the development he started and come out better and stronger. I was ready for that.

But no. They skip ahead and he’s done a great job, he’s a family man, he’s confident in winning, he doesn’t care about the camapign as much until the VP offer comes up.

I would watch a season of this show that was him facing being in office. I don’t particularly care about the drama of the lives of actual politicaians. But what I liked about The Politician was the character arc. But the show sacrificed any character arc for the drama and the race of an election, the flashy stuff like threesomes and Geronimo costumes and lies and blackmail and tricks. I only care about that when it’s tied to character arcs, and it wasn’t, it was just there for fun. And instead of seeing him face what he needs to, they cut out Peyton’s character development becaus eit didn’t happen during a race. So they skip tp another race, if they get another season.

That’s my main problem, but also, I feel like Netflix’s been on an environmentalist kick lately. Which is okay, though I don’t know if Netflix is practicing what they preach. But they also seemed to exaggerate it weirdly. Like Infinity’s waste-free life sounded interesting, I was actually thinking about it, but then they pull out an extreme that most people would never do no matter how much they care about the environment (That by the way I don’t think is that essential? If you’re not using any harsh chemicals, and maybe you have to control where it goes, but water is water. you don’t have to boil your bathwater to be eco-freindly), and it almost makes me go “nevermind.” If no one is going to do it, and INfinity seems to think it’s all or nothing, it gives power to the “nothing” side if you don’t want to do all. A middle ground is acceptable, but for The Politician, I feel like environmentalism was jsut what it was for Peyton— a talking point to look good.

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The Judgement of Chat Noir

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Adrien was walking around his room, muttering to himself when Plagg froze in midair. Adrien didn’t notice, to busy trying to come up with the perfect plan to woo Ladybug but Plagg turned and stared towards a certain massage parlour.

“What happened Sugarcube?” He muttered. “Why did you enact judgement?”

“Maybe if I press harder?” Adrien said out loud and suddenly Plagg had a nasty feeling he knew why. He would admit he hadn’t really reigned Adrien in. He felt bad for the kid and yeah he was pushy but he never crossed a line, right? Well, Plagg was seeing him crossing more and more lines. It was a little nerve-wracking for him. He tried to tell Adrien not to but the blonde brushed him off. Saying he wasn’t going too far.

Plagg watched the window and then closed his eyes, seeing a red figure.

“You fucked up kid,” Plagg said out loud, startling Adrien.

“What?” Plagg sighed as Ladybug came closer.

“You fickle dup and now Tikki is coming for judgement.”

“What do you mean?” Adrien demanded, turning to him and not noticing the window.

“Tikki is the oldest of us. The most powerful. It’s through her Miraculous were created. But she also put in a failsafe. While Fu was the Guardian Tikki is the true ruler of the Miraculous and the holders. She can pass judgement on anyone. And I think you pressed to hard.”

“He did.” A voice said and Ladybug came in. She looked tired and sad as she looked at Adrien. “I should have known.”

“Fu was Judged?” Plagg asked, ignoring Adrien as he yelped.

“The turtle Miraculous was stripped from him and I am now the Guardian. I will be getting proper teaching of it now as well so his bias does not could him.” Ladybug said as she detransformed, leaving her in a red hoodie and blue jeans, the hood up and a mask on her face. Tikki floated there and stared at Adrien.

“Adrien. This is judgement.” The red kwami spoke. “I have seen your crimes and have felt your actions. You have decided flirting is more important than your duty, that messing around and having fun is more important than your duty. You have decided Chat Noir is separate from Adrien. And that is wrong.” Tikki frowned at him. “You have decided your feelings are worth more then Ladybug’s. You have decided that what you want is more important. With this how am I to trust you will not push so far that one day you try to take advantage?”

“I wouldn’t!” Adrien said and Plagg knew he wouldn’t. That was too far. Tikki seemed to stop and then nodded.

“I see. However, your actions show others it is okay to push and push and push. Your actions show that you only care for yourself.” Tikki said. “I judge you unworthy of a Miraculous.” The ring on Adrien’s hand phases through his hand and fell to the floor. He shouted and tried to pick it up but couldn’t. Plagg went to grab it. He looked at Adrien sadly.

“Sorry kid. I should have nipped this in the bud earlier.”

“Yes you should have,” Tikki said and Plagg winced. She turned to Adrien. “I judge you as unworthy. I judge you selfish. I judge you childish and unprofessional. From this day on you will be unable to speak of being Chat Noir. You will be forced to watch in your mind every night your actions from another point of view. You will be forced to see what would have happened if you continued as you were.” Adrien stared.

“No! Please no! You can’t I-“

“I can and will. You are Chat Noir no more.” Tikki said, and it was done. Plagg went to sit on Marinette’s shoulder, the Ladybug holder seeming tired under her mask. Adrien reached out but Marinette backed away, shaking her head.

“I’m… I’m not sorry but I am.” Marinette said softly. “I wish you could have learned before this happened.”

“Please!” Adrien begged. “I’ll do better I’ll-”

“Have learned nothing,” Tikki spoke. “You will have learned nothing. You have been told, lectured and mocked by the public for your actions but you still have not listened. Punishment is all that remains for you to learn.”

“If I learn-” Adrien began but Tikki shook her head.

“The bond between you and Ladybug was broken because of your actions. You will never be Chat Noir again.” He crumbled and Plagg closed his eyes.

He was sorry. He should have done better.

With that, Marinette transformed and left, leaving behind a broken boy.

She had choices to make.

-0-

Marinette sat on her bed, staring at the Miraculous box in front of her. She was wearing the Turtle, Cat and Ladybug Miraculous, mostly to speak to them.

“You need to be out and about so I can talk to you, but I can’t keep you with me.” She said to Wayzz who sighed.

“This is true. Is there anyone you trust the most with me?” Marinette hesitated but then smiled.

“How do you feel about bakers?” Wayzz blinked and then laughed.

“I believe your mother would be an excellent choice.” Marinette grinned and went back to considering the box.

“Who would be a good cat?” she wondered out loud.

“You need someone you feel a connection to,” Tikki told her. “The one you had with Adrien was good but it was also a little faulty.”

“I would say that Luka kid but I feel like he’s more of a Fox guy.” Plagg offered. “You still have a connection but Luka isn’t about destruction.”

“He would have made an excellent Ladybug if Marinette hadn’t stolen the spotlight.” Tikki mushed. “He doesn’t have the right fighting instincts to be Chat.”

“What of that girl… Kagami?” offered up Wayzz. Marinette stopped and tilted her head.

“...She would be a good choice. I do feel connected to her too.”

“Yes, the pretty and-”

“Tikki please don’t put me into bi shame.” Marinette teased while Tikki laughed.

“Sounds good to me. Though I’ll admit Chloe is also a good contender for the ring.” Plagg said and Marinette stopped, opening her mouth but then closing it.

“...Well yes but no. It’s CHLOE.” She shuddered while Tikki snickered.

“It doesn’t have to be a good connection.” Marinette gave her a horrified look and Tikki laughed more along with the others.

That was when her mother came into the room, along with her father.

“It’s good-” Sabine froze along with Tom. Marinette froze to but Tikki gave her a smile.

“...Hey mom, hey dad. I have some news to tell you.” She stood up from her bed and breathed. “I’m Ladybug.”

“...Oh, sweetie.” Sabine said, moving forward to hug her daughter while Tom copied her, the two hugging her tight. “We’re so proud of you.”

“Really?”

“Yeah! You’re out there saving Paris!” Tom said, pulling away. “...And we had a few theories anyway.” Marinette blinked but then laughed. Yeah, she could see it.

“Who are these… kwami? Is that what Chloe called them?” Sabine asked.

“Yes, we’re kwami.” Tikki said. “I’m Tikki, the Ladybug Kwami.”

“Plagg.”

“Wayzz.” Wayzz did a little bow in the air.

“Hmm… why are you all here?” Sabine asked.

“The old Guardian was judged unfit,” Tikki said coldly. “He was too permissive of Chat Noir and believed that your daughter was coming to no harm.”

“I’d been getting worried over how Chat Noir treated Ladybug,” Tom said, his voice incredibly dangerous. “At first I thought it was banter, but then…” He looked furious, but he had nothing on Sabine’s face as she realized that someone had been harassing her daughter. Plagg stared.

Could he have her instead?

“Chat Noir was judged unfit as well,” Tikki said. “Marinette claimed all the Miraculous and is now the Guardian.” Sabine nodded slowly. “But we need Wayzz to teach her, and he needs a holder…”

“Sabine Cheng…” Marinette began, smiling. “The Turtle Miraculous is the Miraculous of protection. Will you accept and protect it?” She pulled off the bracelet and held it out. Sabine smiled.

“I shall.”

“...We need Turtle shaped food!” Tom said, grinning. “Oooh, we can paint you as the leader! Maybe throw some things off?” he looked excited and Sabine laughed as she put on the bracelet while Marinette giggled.

Things were looking up.

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