The never ending search.
Screaming into Oblivion for ages, looking for you, somewhere I lost my Voice. I can't remember clearly, was it my voice that I lost? Or just the strength and will to whisper your name?
What was it? What was your name? What was the word looking for which made me so miserable.
Was it you that I lost? Or was that me? Was there ever a difference between two?
Why is it that I can never look at me without catching a glimpse of you? How are you woven so well in the tapestry that I AM?
You don't show yourself, you don't answer when I call you in the darkest of night but you still never leave me alone.
When will this search end? When I only find you while I'm looking too deep within myself.
You've consumed my existence, my love. There is no me without you, and no you without me.
As overwhelming as it might be right now, we're ONE and the SAME. This is not a letter to you, this is a letter from me to myself. From you to yourself.
We've never been apart after all.
One Love.
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I love you.
Not in a "I want to spend the rest of my life with you, by your side" way, but in a "Being on an earth on which you don't exist, would be nothing but a sinful act of selfishness" way.
So I'll collect your footsteps from the paths you walk on, and your tears from the lake where you weave your beautiful dreams. I will borrow memories of your warm laughter from a thousand sunsets, so that even when I'm left with Nothing, I will still have everything because I Have you somewhere deep within the tapestry of my heart.
So that even if you cannot be mine, I can be forever yours. Your name echoing in every cell of my being, making constellations and cosmic patterns within the Vast void that my soul is.
A sacred temple of my Love. Just for me.
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I would like to see James Patrick March, Tate Langdon or Kai Anderson with a Female Reader, who has Birthday. It would be nice. (since it IS my Birthday actually)
Happy birthday!!! 🥳🎁🎊
This was super quick, but I wanted it to be posted before tonight and while it was still your birthday!
Birthday wish..
"Dearest! You're finally here!" James couldn't contain his excitment from your arrival through his door. Today was your birthday, your first birthday at the hotel, your first birthday with James, and the first birthday in a long time that you wanted to celebrate, surrounded by the dead you suprisingly never felt more alive, you loved it at the hotel and you were the happiest you've been in a long time, all thanks to James, the excitment he expressed when you entered his room made you fill up with joy.
You walked over to James to embrace him. You noticed how amazing he looked tonight in his new suit, his hair slicked back, his dark eyes making you feel weak at the knees, you placed your arms around him to pull him in for a hug, he placed his hands around your waist and whispererd "Happy birthday my beloved" into your ear, he handed you a glass of champagne from the table and clicked his glass against yours. "Now let's celebrate, I've had food prepared, and later, we will head downstairs for a soiree with some friends." James said this as he ushered you towards the table as food was being brought out. He pulled out your chair and tucked you back in. He seated himself next to you and admired you..
"You look ravishing tonight" he said
"Thank you, James. You look great in your new suit, I feel like a lucky lady" you replied.
"The only lucky one here is me, to have found someone just like me is special, your very special," he said.
You both ate your meals and spoke about what you had done during the day, James was disappointed he didn't get to see you earlier, but you understood he had important things to do, you loved the passion he had, you loved the darkness inside him and you knew he had to let it out. No one had ever made your birthday feel special before, and you were glad of any time spent with James, as your meals were coming to an end, you watched as James walked across the room to the record player and he put on your favourite record, he came and took your hand, he walked you to the window and you both swayed to the music, "I thought we could have a private dance before we join them downstairs" James said while spinning you around, you felt like a princess, your dress spinning in the air, he pulled you close at the end of spin and held you in his arms, your head against his chest, you wished you could stay in this moment forever. "Dear, I have something for you." James took a black box out of this pocket, you where shocked. You didn't expect a gift, you thought a beautiful meal and soiree with your favourite people at the hotel was more than enough. "James, I don't know what to say. This is unexpected, " you said. Your eyes were being to fill with tears. No one had given this much thought to your birthday before. You wondered what you had done to deserve this. James took his hand and wiped away the single tear that had escaped,
"Did I do something to upset you, my love?" James was very concerned and confused by your reaction,
" Of course not. These are happy tears. Nobody has done so much for me before, I feel as if I don't deserve it, " you whispered, still holding the box in your hands, unopened.
" You deserve more than I can give you, dear. You deserve the world. In a world full of darkness, you are the only light, and you deserve to be shown that" James guided your hand to open the box,
You looked down at the black box and removed the lid. Inside, you saw the most perfect necklace you had ever seen. It glistened in the light, the diamonds were brighter than any necklace you had seen before, you couldnt believe this was for you.
"James, this is beautiful, the most beautiful thing I have ever seen." You took it out of the box and handed it to him. He spun you around and placed the necklace on you. You felt the coldness on your neck, you couldnt wait to see yourself wearing it. James kissed your neck as he closed the clasp, he soun you back around to admire you in it.
"I'm truly lost for words," he said as his eyes moved across your neck. You walked over to the mirror and admired your gift. You felt like the most beautiful lady in the world.
" Now, one more thing before we leave my love." James walked out of the room and returned with a small cupcake with a lit candle. You couldn't help but smile.
" It's time to make your birthday wish Y/N," he hovered the cupcake under your face. You thought hard about what you would wish for. You blew the candle out and said, "I already have my wish, James."
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