End Of The World~ Peter Parker
A/N: this story takes place after The War (Infinity War + End Game)
Pairing: Peter Parker x OC
TW: ptsd, panic attacks, fear, swearing
He hadn't lost her. He hadn't lost her. That had been Peter's one reassurance since the events of the horrible Wars and losing his mentor, Tony Stark.
He hadn't lost his crush and childhood best friend, Luna. She had been spared from the dusting and spared from being killed.
He paced the sidewalk in front of May's house, waiting for Luna to arrive. His fingers tore at his hair, something he'd always done but did more often now. His therapist had explained this was one "side-effect" of the PTSD he suffered. That his hands could never stay still.
Peter took in a large gulp of air and glanced in the direction of the street. He hadn't seen Luna since he'd left for battle and fresh tears, which he thought had run dry, filled his eyes at the sight of her rushing towards him.
"PETER," her high-pitched voice screamed, matching his choked out "Luna" as her body slammed into his. Her arms squeezed around his neck, nearly choking him but he didn't care, he couldn't bring himself to care.
He hugged her for all he was worth and collapsed onto the sidewalk, sitting up so she didn't scrape her knees.
"God, Pete, I thought I'd lost you. I thought I'd fucking lost you," Luna cried, pushing her head away from his shoulder and tugging a hand through his hair. That her own curly black hair hung in her face didn't bother her.
Peter shakily pushed the hair out of Luna's eyes and took in every inch of her. If possible, the honey color of her eyes had become more beautiful and brighter in the time he'd been gone. There were a few more lines under her eyes, from stress, he knew. She'd also become thinner, but she was still that fierce friend she'd always been.
"I...I thought you...you were....I thought...god, Luna, I thought I'd lost you," Peter yelled out, catching Luna as she threw herself against him once more. One hand rested on the small of her back and the other played with her hair.
Tears rolled down his cheeks as he felt his shirt become wet with Luna's tears. Losing so much, but he hadn't lost her or May. His two girls.
Luna eventually pulled back from Peter's shoulder but neither of them dared to move from their positions.
"I heard about Tony," Luna choked out, her hands moving from Peter's shoulders to his hair, "I'm so sorry, Pete. He meant so much to you."
Peter sniffled and lifted one hand from Luna's waist to swipe hard at his eyes. He was too happy being back with her to yell at her for mentioning Tony's name.
"He died a hero," he said, settling both hands back on Luna's waist, "a fucking hero. I won't forget that."
Silence finally settled between them, too much left unsaid but neither of them willing to talk. Just being in each other's presence was good, solid, and safe. Rewarding after all the madness.
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Peter jerked awake with a loud gasp and clenched the bed-sheets with both hands. Sweat rolled down his cheeks and his breath came out in shaky waves. The nightmare had returned. Reliving Tony's death all over again.
He kicked off the covers and collapsed onto the floor with a loud bang. He began to shake violently and then started screaming.
"Mr. Stark! Mr. Stark! Don't die! Don't die!"
His screams caused his Aunt May to burst into the room with her robe on and rush to Peter's side.
"Pete! Pete, hey, hey, honey, I'm right here."
She kept her distance, kneeling on the floor a few feet away, and kept talking to Peter.
"Remember what the doctor told us, honey? Breathe slowly and deeply."
She winced as Peter screamed again but knew she had to stay calm. Freaking out would only make Peter's panic even worse.
"Breathe, Pete, breathe honey. Slowly in, deep breath out."
She watched Peter's chest rise and fall rapidly, then watched as his breathing became slower.
"Good job, Pete, good job. Slowly in, deep out. I'm going to start counting, alright?"
Peter finally locked eyes on May and held out his hands, tears rolling down his cheeks.
May took his hands in hers and squeezed them, encouraging Peter to follow her breathing pattern.
"Good job, honey, good job."
Finally, Peter's breathing stilled, his shoulders relaxed, and he was able to talk.
"I..I had...I had...I had a nightmare, May," he stuttered, slowly standing up with May's help.
May wrapped Peter in a gentle hug and sighed.
"I know, honey, I know. Do you need to talk about it?"
She felt Peter nod his head against her shoulder and pull away from her.
"I just can see him take his last breath," Peter began, sitting on the bed and leaning into May, "he took his last breath like a hero and I...I couldn't save him. He'd saved the world but we couldn't save him."
May knew how much guilt Peter carried and wished she could fix it for him. But she knew only time and therapy would help him...and so would Luna. She'd seen a huge weight lifted off Peter's shoulders when he found out Luna was alive...that she'd been spared.
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Peter couldn't stand it. He couldn't stand the stares behind sent his way any time he walked into a class room. He couldn't stand the whispered "sorries" or the looks he'd get from teachers. If one more person tried asking him about Tony, he was going to snap.
"I have to get out of here," he whispered to Luna at lunch time, shoving down the guilt of disappointing May, but knowing she'd get it, "I can't stand it anymore."
Luna's parents had been encouraging her to go to school since the whole thing began, and for a split second, she thought about telling Peter no. But then, how could she just abandon him? Damn the consequences, she'd missed enough time, she had to leave with Peter.
She grabbed Peter's hand without word and guided him out of the lunchroom. They passed a few teachers on their way, but all they did was give Peter sympathetic smiles and pats on the shoulder. No one tried to stop them, and Luna wondered if they knew were two of their students were going.
They got out the door relatively unseen and sprinted across the parking lot to Luna's Ford-150 truck.
"Your parents might find out," Peter whispered, looking red in the face and biting his lip as he buckled his seat belt.
"Híjole! I've missed enough time with you, Pete, screw what happens. What does schooling matter when the world has gone insane and I nearly lost my best friend?"
Luna's voice shook as she sped out of the parking lot and Peter noticed the anger and the tears in her eyes.
The car ride was a comfortable quiet as Luna drove, but there was nothing quiet in Peter's "every-five-second" glances at Luna.
Her hands gripping the steering wheel with enough force to break it, her honey eyes narrowed as she paid close attention to the road, her black hair blowing carelessly in the wind.
"Luna," he said, "I'm sorry for leaving. I..I should have told....told you where I was going....I should have at least said goodbye....I should have done a lot of things differently...."
He didn't notice the car stopping, the only thing he knew was Luna throwing off her seat-belt and her trembling lips.
"Shut up, Pete. Shut up! You fucking idiot, I'm not stupid! I knew you were off to save the world! You were off to save me and May and all our classmates! Fuck, Pete, you're a hero! A fucking hero, you idiot!"
Peter didn't have time to be shocked or be startled before Luna yanked out the truck door and gestured for Peter to follow.
He obediently left the truck and followed her to an oh-so-familiar place. The fields three miles from their home where they were talk and be kids before the war.
"I came here any time I'd get a chance where you were gone," Luna cried, her hands fluttering from her pockets to her hair, staring at Peter with flashing, tear-filled eyes, "because I had to have some part of you! I'd come here wearing that black rose necklace you got me for my thirteenth birthday and talk to you, hoping and praying that whoever up there was listening would bring me back to you!"
She paused to take a breath as Peter stood there, hands at his side, hanging on to her every word. His eyes locked on her face, flashes of tears and love and whatever other word could be used, rushing through his eyes.
"I thought for sure I'd lost you that night, Pete, I thought I'd fucking lost you! That I'd never seen those chocolate eyes again or listen to your stupid jokes or listen to that laugh or feel your arms around my shoulders, Pete! I thought....I thought I'd never get the chance to tell you that I saw you as more than my best friend, that I'm IN LOVE WITH YOU!"
The screams of those last four words hit Peter like a Cupid hitting him with an arrow and he stepped forward to grab her shaking arms. He held them gently, softly, in his own then, lifted her wobbling chin up to meet his.
They started at each other, chocolate eyes meeting honey, best friend meeting best friend, as hearts thumped wildly in their chests. Both of them lost in the moment until finally.....
Luna had her arms around his neck and sparks and fire and pent-up feelings exploded between them as lips connected and tears flowed. Peter wrapped his hands around her back and held her as tightly as he dared.
When their lips disconnected, Luna rested her forehead on Peter's and heaved out a long sigh.
"The world nearly ended, Pete, but..."
"...ours is just beginning," Peter finished as he pulled her in for another kiss.
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I Will Find You (Part 01)
Pairing: Loki x Fem!Asgardian!Reader
Plot:
It has been three years since Ragnarok; three years since the attack on the Statesman; three years since Loki, the love of her life, has gone. But a mysterious event tells her that he is back. Certainly! … Probably. But taking everything back to normal sometimes isn’t as simple as one might wish.
Warnings: Angst, mature themes, eventual smut in next part (with a happy ending).
Part 2 is complete! Read here!!
Read time: ~37 mins
Minors: DO NOT INTERACT! Please, sweeties, you’ll have your time for reading mature themes soon. It’s just not now. 🙂
"I will find you."
With a promising squeeze of her hand, he had repeated the words "I will" before pushing her further into the escape pod, and fading away into his usual green glow.
That was the last time (Y/N) had seen him, or even heard from him. That was on the Statesman. When the ship with Asgardian refugees was under attack, (Y/N) had wanted to stay back and fight, for she was the commander of the army under Loki's rule. But her king - the only one she had truly been loyal to - had ordered her to mind the safety of the people escaping to Earth.
"We Odinsons will handle it here," he had said with his usual confident smirk.
But, for the first time in her life, she could not trust her king. Her fear - or maybe it was her instincts - had told her otherwise.
Several months prior, when Loki used to sit unchallenged on the throne of Asgard, he had described to her, in confidence, the ruthlessness of Thanos's ambitions, the extent to which this Titan could go in order to fulfil his dreams. And he was not the least ashamed to confide in her that he was scared of him; that even the thought of that monster scraped chills down his spine.
Despite all these, Loki had gone off to fight him. To save his people. To save his brother. All (Y/N) could do was beg the Norns for his safe return.
But apparently, the Norns did not hear her pleas. Thor had returned but without his brother, without the love of (Y/N)'s life. Without her betrothed.
New Asgard was built and, even though it took a lot of emotional effort and time, the survivors had gradually started calling it home.
But not (Y/N). Her home had a heartbeat. It had a warm embrace and caresses of soothing lips. Her home had magic radiating from his fingers.
And it was all gone. She had no home now.
"Lady (Y/N)?"
A familiar deep voice pulled her out of her reverie. She looked up to find Thor's smiling face awaiting her. The once cheerful and flamboyant god's condition was no better than hers. The man who had once been the heartthrob of every lady in the city now hardly cared about his shabby looks or his health.
(Y/N) was seated on one of the many rocks on the shore where the sea often came by to cast a soothing hand. The crashing sound of the waves helped her to cut the noises in her head and drift off to a place where she and Loki were together… or could have been together.
Seeing Thor, she rose from her place and walked towards him, careful not to slip off the uneven surface.
"Prince Thor- Pardon me. My king!" She had only ever addressed one person as her one true king, and it was difficult for her to assign that title to someone else so soon.
"Please, lady (Y/N)," the new king replied, "you do not need to address me as your king. I am no king here. Besides, you and I have a stronger relationship than that. You are my sister. My brother's betrothed."
"Nonetheless, you are still-"
“(Y/N),” he interrupted her, “I’m not here to debate on some formalities. We are long past that … I hope we are. I … It hurts me and everyone else to see you fading away like this. I simply wanted to ask you to take care of yourself. It has been over three years now. He is not-” The words stuck in his throat like a sharp blade. “He’s not coming back,” Thor resumed in a softer, shaky tone. “You must move on. It-”
“Have you been able to move on?”
Her question took him by surprise.
“It is different for me,” he tried to justify himself.
“It is nothing different, Thor. You think you deserve a tragic life ahead because you were their king and his brother. Well, I was the one charged with protecting you all, in charge of protecting him. I failed.”
The last word came out in almost a sob.
“I knew he would end up doing something stupid,” she tried to hide her tears behind trembling hands, “and he did exactly that. Every time I thought I had lost him, he returned. I waited this time, too. And waited. Why did he not return, Thor? Why?”
The older Odinson could no longer hold his emotions back. As tears started staining his face, too, he took a few steps towards her until he wrapped her in his protective, brotherly embrace. She was the only family he was left with, and it broke him even more to see her break a little more every day.
“Be strong, sister,” he tried to console her, “our people need us,” and kissed the crown of her head.
When the grief subsided a little, they both walked back to the village, with tattered hopes that someday - maybe someday - things would get better, even if just a little.
Later that night, something unexpected happened. A man from the village came running to (Y/N)’s doorstep to inform her of a news that was going viral on the internet. Although stunned initially, she refused to believe him, waving it off as some Midgardian’s silly joke to gain attention. But when he showed her the videos that apparently many people across the northern borders of the country had posted, the hair at the back of her neck stood up.
Afraid that she might faint, she gripped the door frame tightly.
“Does the king know of it?” She asked the man who had once been a foot soldier under her command.
“Not yet. I thought you should be the first to know it.”
“Thank you, Axel! Thank you!!”
She rushed past the soldier and did not stop until she was able to bang her fist on Thor’s door.
When a tipsy Thor finally opened the door, he panicked upon seeing her breathless state and wild eyes. Like a burnt man who feared fire, his first assumption was that they were under attack again.
“Have you heard the news?” She panted.
“What news? What-What happened? Why are you-”
“People have observed a sudden spike, a sudden burst in the northern lights!”
Thor, who could make no sense of it, stared dumbfounded at her.
Steadying her thoughts, she tried to elaborate. “It looked like the lights suddenly rushed upwards with a strong force, as if they were being pulled by something powerful in the atmosphere. Or,” she paused, “more like someone was radiating a sudden burst of energy through the lights.”
She remained quiet for a while, allowing the other person to process her words.
“Do you not get it, Thor?”
She showed him the videos on Axel’s phone which she had grabbed on her way.
Finally, with eyes as wild as hers, Thor tried to form a coherent sentence, but failed. “Are you trying to imply that…”
“No matter how much they credit the Sun and the magnetic fields on this planet, we of all people know who created those magical lights,” a grin was cracking its way through her lips.
“If this true-”
“This is true!” She cut Thor off.
“Where?”
“All along the northern border of Norway. But they were the most powerful in Tromsø. The reports say that it lasted for about 4-5 minutes before the lights resumed their normal state.”
“We must leave. Now!”
“It would take almost 24 hours from here. I-I cannot believe… I…”
She seemed frantic. After all these years of waiting, of almost giving up hope, were her prayers finally heard? Burdened with a myriad of emotions, her knees gave way and she dropped to the floor, sobbing.
“(Y/N)!” Thor tried to help her up. “We must make haste. Let’s go.”
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The ride was long. But the years that it took for them to see even a tattered veil of hope was even longer. Loki was back. Probably. But indeed if he was back, why did he not try to communicate with (Y/N)? Was he alright? Where had he been all this time?
A cyclone of thoughts and questions had taken control of (Y/N)’s mind. The Norwegian countryside swept past her, but her vision was clouded by the hope and ecstasy of finding the man she loved once again, and by the doubts and fears that her mind conjured. As the cold night air nipped at her face, she was taken back to one of those beautiful nights in Asgard where the only fear that sometimes poked her was that of Loki’s disguise being discovered by someone. But with the sorcerer’s abilities, those anxieties eventually waned. Every single time.
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“(Y/N), wake up!”
A voice was calling her from a distance. A soft whisper. She could not locate the source of it but she knew that deep, soothing sound. Loki’s voice.
“(Y/N)!”
There it was again. But… It was too dark. Someone caressed the side of her head. She could not see who it was until…
“Loki!” (Y/N) opened her eyes to see her king hovering over her with a hand on her head.
“Forgive me, love, I never wished to pull you out of your sleep. You looked so ethereal! But this is important.”
“How did you get in here?”
Her question was met with a smirk and with a pair of eyes that almost spelled out the words for her: “You really did not ask that.”
“Oh!” She realised once the last traces of sleep evaporated.
“Now that you have realised, get up, darling. I have arranged a picnic!” Loki said excitedly.
“A picnic?” She was dumbfounded. “In the middle of the night?”
A slender finger rested on her lips. “Shh! Do you trust me or not?”
“With my life, yes, but I cannot say the same about your madness,” she suppressed the urge to chuckle.
Rolling his eyes, he ignored her comment. “Come now, get dressed,” Loki placed a folded fabric beside her pillow.
(Y/N) had eventually learned that it was hard to argue with the God of endless-surprises-up-his-sleeve. So, without pestering him with further questions, she took the gift and unfolded it, only to be mesmerised by what she saw.
It was dipped in the colours of the night: a dark shade of blue that could only be found on moonless nights, when the sky is anything but jewelled with solely the lights of distant stars. The lower half of the dress - the part that would probably extend beyond the knees - gradually descended into cascading folds of tulle, sprinkled with tiny stones that shone like faraway planets and stars. The back was designed in a deep V-shape that would travel to the small of her back while the length of the said tulle was longer on the backside than on the front, leaving the fabric looking as though the night sky had flowed down on it and would be proudly flowing behind her as she would walk.
“I love this, Loki, I do! But … this is a bit too much, is it not?” She announced with a small frown.
The king, who had made himself comfortable on a cosy chair, dismissed her statement. “You refuse to wear something lavish in front of your people, I do not protest that. But, the future queen of Asgard can certainly do her king a favour in private, can she not?”
How could she ever say no to his charms!
“And how are you supposed to declare me as the queen when people always see Odin sitting on the throne? Hmm? Do not ruin something that took years for you to build, Loki. I am your queen. Whether people know it or not, I do not care.”
“Love, I know you have a penchant for drama and overthinking but,” he crossed a leg over another, “I have a plan. I always do! So, cast your worries aside, and please, bless me with a view of you in that gown!”
“Are you simply going to sit there and stare or would you show some decency and turn around?” (Y/N) gently got off the bed and took the dress in hand.
“Darling, this is not the first time I would see you as you are, unhidden by some bland piece of fabric, that does nothing to compliment your beauty. Is it?”
“Are you suggesting that what I wear is hideous?” She narrowed her eyes threateningly.
“Of course not! But they are nothing compared to what lies beneath those. Are they?” His eyes travelled across her body as though he could already see what he was praising.
Shaking her head, but not without a soft laugh escaping her, she sauntered towards the bathroom.
“That I do not know, my love. But I am afraid that I must disappoint you this time.”
Before Loki could make another smart remark or could stop her, she closed the door. But what Loki did not did not know was the way he had already flustered her, how she had leaned against the closed door and laughed into the dress in her hand.
The only downside of being with the trickster was maintaining secrecy. To his subjects, he was Odin. The younger prince had supposedly died a valiant death while saving his brother. So, (Y/N) and Loki no longer got a chance to stroll through the woods, as they once loved to do, or to sit silently in the garden as the sun bid goodbye to the lands.
Loki teleported them both to the picnic spot, which turned out to be a small clearance in the hills. (Y/N) observed that the sky reflected the outfit that the king had chosen for his beloved.
“It is gorgeous…my king!” She gently squeezed his arm. “But a bit chilly, do you not think?”
Standing behind her, he purred in her ear, “I am here to keep you warm, my queen,” and gently grazed the skin on her shoulder up to her neck with his lips.
“If this was your plan, then we could have stayed in the comforts of my chamber,” she whispered through ragged breathing.
“But there is a different kind of magic beneath the open sky. Would you not agree?”
She broke away from his arms and turned to face him, “Have you brought me here, in the middle of a cold night, robbing me of my sleep, only to chit-chat and to try to seduce me into losing this dress?”
Loki’s eyes shone with mischief. “The last part, yes. But not before I show you something. And not before this.”
He extended his right arm and with an elegant wave of his fingers, a large rug emerged on the ground, with baskets of her favourite fruits and snacks, jugs and goblets of wine, accentuated with lamps and streaks of flowers.
“Shall we?” He offered her a hand.
“I love you!!” She did not take the hand but wrapped herself around him, gifting him with one of those emotional but passionate kisses that reminded them of the bond that they shared, and left them both thirsty for more.
Loki was not fooling around when he had said that he was there to keep her warm. The air had indeed changed from being cold to pleasantly cool. Sitting there on the cosy rug, she kept stealing glances at the man who had made her life so beautiful that, for the first time in years of her service as a soldier, she feared death. Life was beautiful ever since he had walked into it. It was one of those heart-warming yet adventurous stories that have people believing in the magic of love and of life. And there was no version of this story that involved anything or anyone other than Loki.
“Loki?”
The trickster was lying on his back, with his arms folded behind his head. (Y/N) found him staring at the sky with a hint of a smile toying on his thin lips. It was clear that he had sailed far away in his thoughts and into some warm island where his world was blessed with Spring.
“Hmm?” His eyebrows arched as he looked at the source of the voice that tugged him out of his rumination.
“Would you promise me something?” She asked softly.
“Anything, darling! Anything that does not involve the disappointment that you had thrown on me by shutting the doors of your bathroom on my face,” he answered with a sly grin.
Hitting his chest lightly, she resumed, “Please promise me that you would never stray away from me again. Under no circumstances. For I would not be able to live without you. I shall survive, yes. But my life would be as good as death.”
“What- Why are you saying these things, (Y/N)?” Loki sat up.
“You are always up to some mischief,” she explained. “Either that or you run off to some heroic act. You have no idea how I shatter every time you fake your…” The word was like a poison that she could not bring to her lips.
“I know, love, I know,” Loki wrapped an arm around her and brought her head down to rest on his shoulder. “Believe me, it hurts me just as well to even think of the misery that I had brought on you.”
“Whatever you do, Loki, promise to come back to me. Always. From even the farthest corner of the universe. Promise me.”
“I shall always come back to you, darling. Where else would I go? You are my home. I shall always find you.”
He sealed his promise with a loving kiss on her lips. Wiping fresh tears off her cheeks with his thumbs, his mouth conveyed all the feelings, all the unsaid things that even the Silvertongue did not know how to frame into words.
When they pulled away, Loki took her hand in his. “Remember I had said that I wish to show you something?”
She nodded with a smile.
“It is time!”
The confidence and the mystery radiating from him excited her. It was this thing about Loki that made her fall in love with him over and over again. He was a wise ruler who made sure that his people were safe and happy, an emotional lover who understood every depth of his partner, and a child who always had a spark for something new in his life.
“Lie down with me?” He asked softly.
“Is this another one of your tricks to-”
“No!” His protest made her break out into a hearty laugh. “No. I do think of things other than making love to you.”
“I was teasing you, you oaf!” She kissed his cheek amidst laughs. “Alright then,” she did as requested. “What is it that you wish to show me?”
Loki copied her action. As she gazed at the contour of his face, he raised his hands and gracefully moved his long fingers as if they were doing a dance of their own.
“I know I look ravishing but you will miss it all if you keep staring at me, my love,” his eyes were strained on the sky above as he spoke with a smirk. “Look above you.”
With a playful huff, she turned her head towards the zenith. And was she spellbound!
Above them, dancing in synchronisation with Loki’s fingers, were several folds of green glow - the kind that Loki’s magic produced but softer.
“Are those-?” She squeaked excitedly.
“Yes. Midgardians love them!” He stole a glance at her. “They once thought that it was the Bifrost. Now they say that it is their sun that is responsible for these. Fools!”
“They do not know the magic that is you,” (Y/N) whispered.
“Mother taught me how to create these. These were,” he sighed, “my first big gift to her as a student.”
She could not decide which was more mesmerising: the ballet of lights in the sky or their reflection on her trickster’s face that emanated a mix of happiness, pride and nostalgia.
“Why do you not adorn the sky here with these lights?” She turned sideways to face him, still captivated more by him than the lights.
“Father never liked them here,” the joy left his features. “Said these were a stain on the perfect Asgardian sky.”
“Well, we both know he was wrong,” she smiled, hoping that Loki would do the same but he simply shrugged.
“Do you have to keep working at them?” She asked.
“No, just for a little while,” he explained. “These cannot be seen by anyone else. Else they will know that I am here. They are only for our eyes.” The mischievous smile returned to his face.
“Good. When you are done, I want your fingers to work their magic on me. And on this dress,” she added in a gravelly voice.
“Who is seducing whom now?”
“I do not care!” She lay back to watch the captivating glow above. Her chest swelled with pride for Loki. He was undoubtedly the best sorcerer she had ever known about, and yet so underestimated. The ignorance of her people made her laugh inside.
“Neither do I,” Loki broke her chain of thoughts when he hovered over her and kissed her breath away.
Fingers that had once made those lights above dance, now danced nimbly on her skin as it deftly freed it of the gown. His own robes were, however, not so gracefully shed, for (Y/N) now lacked the patience which she once had when they had arrived at the woods. Loki’s mouth left a hot trail behind wherever it went while cool fingers soothed the path.
Indeed the open sky had a charm of its own. Walled from the rest of the world by a strong spell, beneath the dancing lights, they drowned in each other as the green lights above danced on their skins.
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“(Y/N), wake up!”
A hand gently shook her by the shoulder.
“We are here,” Thor stated.
Blinking, she looked outside the van. The green lights were gliding across the sky in harmony, casting their reflections on the duo.
Loki!
A voice inside her breathed the name.
“Let us spread out. We will ask the locals if they had seen anything or anyone unfamiliar yesterday when the spike occurred,” she instructed Thor as they stepped out of the vehicle.
The search was futile. Every person they asked knew only about the spike and nothing else. Not one soul could mention anything about any person who might have looked suspicious or out of the ordinary. Nothing.
“There is nothing to be found here, sister,” Thor mumbled. The poor man had finally found one thin streak of hope, and even that turned out to be false.
But the other person was adamant. “No. No, it cannot be… It cannot be a deadend. There has to be something. We must keep looking.”
“(Y/N), listen to me. If Loki was indeed here, wouldn’t he have come to us?”
But (Y/N) wasn’t listening to any logic. There had to be some mistake, she was sure of that. Something was certainly wrong. Her intuitions had never been wrong. And this time, they were stronger than ever.
Or was it just the illusion of a broken heart?
Rubbing her hands over her face, she was about to protest when a man called them.
“Hey, are you with that team of scientists who came yesterday?”
The sudden interference startled them.
“No, we’re-”
“No,” (Y/N) cut off Thor’s blunt confession, “we are not with them. But we are looking for some kind of pointer that would help us locate the cause of yesterday’s event.”
He eyed them suspiciously. “You don’t have any fancy equipment on you? The other guys looked like they came out of a sci-fi movie!”
“Sounds like S.H.I.E.L.D to me,” Thor whispered in (Y/N)’s ear.
“Well, I am afraid our team isn’t that rich yet,” (Y/N) quipped. “We’re on our own here for now. For basic research purposes.”
From the looks of the man, he sounded convinced this time. “Yeah, you may try the lake. I'd said the same thing to the other guys.”
“The lake?”
“Yeah. God knows what they have hidden in the waters. Should take you about,” he shrugged, “ten minutes from here.”
“Why the lake?” Thor enquired.
“You haven’t heard?” The man shifted amused glances between them. “That was where the real show was! I was nearby. That place … it still gives me the chills to think of the way those lights suddenly seemed to burst upwards! Thought it was the last day of my life!”
“Did you see anyone there? When it happened?” (Y/N) put a pin on his enthusiasm.
“No! Just me and my dog. We were returning from-”
“Thank you!” She pulled out a fifty Krone bill from her purse and handed it to the man. “Thank you so much! This is all we can offer.”
But the man held his hands up. “I don’t need your money! Thanks, anyway. And I must say, for a bunch of poor guys, you certainly are generous. They didn’t produce even a penny yesterday.”
She smiled. “I want you to keep it. Please. You do not know how much you have helped us.”
Reluctantly, the man took the note from her. “For science,” he said cheerfully.
“For science,” she nodded, and rushed back to the van with Thor by her side.
“If S.H.I.E.L.D is already there, then we won’t get a chance to set foot on the place,” Thor voiced his fears.
“I do not know what I will do,” she ran a nervous hand through her hair, messing it up even more. “I truly do not know! I just hope … We will find a way, Thor. We have come this far. We shall certainly find a way.”
Her energy lifted his spirits but at the same time, he was scared that her hopes might be burnt to ashes in case this was but just a cosmic event.
All the way, she kept placing different theories out before them.
“Maybe Loki was there. He can be invisible if he wants to. Maybe that is why that man did not see him… Maybe Loki was not here earlier. Maybe he was lost somewhere. And yesterday night he landed here, and something - I do not know - caused him to bring a change into those lights? … Perhaps he himself had an energy boost… But… why?”
“(Y/N),” Thor placed a hand on her knee, “calm down. Please. We are almost there.”
The place was indeed marked with S.H.I.E.L.D’s tape all over it. It looked like another one of their camps. It was, in fact, just another one.
“I’ll go talk to them,” Thor assured her. “They know me. Well, someone here should know me. You stay right here, okay?”
With a smile and an encouraging pat on her back, he dissolved into the crowd. The truth was that Thor’s own heart threatened to beat out of his chest. Regardless of how huge the god was, at that moment, he felt like he would crumble under the weight of the anxiety that had been building inside him ever since he had heard the news the day before.
(Y/N) stood at the edge of the camp, looking around, trying to find perhaps the tiniest of clues that would lead her to the god she came looking for. And yet, nothing that could whisper even a shred of a tale about Loki caught her eyes or ears. With a sigh, she wandered off towards the lake.
Under the dark veil of the night, the water looked gorgeous. Silent, calm, and yet with the promise of a storm beneath the surface, and an even deeper sense of mystery shrouded within. That and the reflections of the rippling lights on it reminded her of Loki.
Is he not as enchanting as this? No. Much more than this.
The thought made her smile. Her dry lips stung slightly as they spread after a long, long time.
Something about the lake called out to her. Gingerly, she took small steps until she found herself standing on the bank of the waterbody. The auroras were swaying above, casting graceful shadows on her. She should have been anxious and yet she felt a sense of calm that she had believed to be lost forever. It was as if she had finally landed on a piece of earth where she was meant to be.
He is here!
Her entire being seemed to be screaming out to her. The feeling had never been stronger. She looked around with wild eyes.
Loki is here! I can feel him!!
Finding herself on the edge of insanity, she filled her lungs to call out his name. But stopped.
There were a lot of other people around whose attention she should not be drawing. Taking a deep breath, she sat down on the wet grass and closed her eyes. At last she knew what she had to do.
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“Here,” Loki placed a hand over her heart, “we are connected here. Nothing can break this bond.”
In response, (Y/N) placed a hand over his. “And what about all those times when you go away, intentionally or not? How am I supposed to find you?”
“Darling,” he chuckled, “I think the summer heat and my close proximity have got you a little confused. Is it you who finds me or is it me who finds you?”
“It is not funny, Loki!” She removed his hand with a frown.
He loved to tease her relentlessly, the strong commander-in-charge of the Asgardian army who chose to become no less vulnerable than a child before the god of lies and mischief. Every moment spent with her breathed life into him, but there were times like these that he cherished the most.
“Come here,” his voice had dropped a few octaves but in a warm way. His hands ran down her arms until he found her fingers and placed them on his temples.
“Feel that?” he asked softly.
“Your heartbeat,” she nodded.
Gently, the trickster placed his own fingers on her temples.
“Now, do you feel that?”
A soft tickling gradually wrapped the skin on and around her temples. It felt like someone was tracing feathers upon her skin but from the inside.
“What-”
“We shall always feel each other,” he explained, “no matter where we are or how far we are.”
Her eyes widened at the revelation. She never knew such a thing was even possible!
“Are you telling the truth?”
He sighed. “Darling, do I look like I am in the mood for some mischief? We can hear each other’s thoughts now-”
“But-”
“Only,” he interrupted her, long fingers requesting her to pause and listen to him, “if we want us to.”
“Alright,” she shrugged with a satisfied smile, “I like that part.”
“Love, you forget that I can hear your thoughts any time I wish to! I choose not to.”
“Oh, I know that!” She dismissed it with a wave of her hand. “So, you are telling me … that now we can amuse each other even across a ballroom filled with uninteresting people?”
“Even across the palace, darling! Across the realms!” He wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her flush against him.
“Well, in that case,” she whispered in a sultry manner, “I shall bid you goodnight.”
Loki looked at her with a question mark slapped over his face.
“Let us speak in our thoughts, from our separate rooms, across floors!”
With a twirl, she freed herself from Loki’s arms and ran towards the door with a squeak, her lover following behind with the most mischievous grin on his ecstatic face.
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“Loki!” It was a whisper, even in her thoughts. “Loki, I know you are here. I was not sure before but now I do. I can feel you, more than ever!”
Her prayers got stronger with each sentence she uttered in her mind.
“Loki, I know you can hear me. We promised that no matter where we are in this universe, we will remain connected. Do you remember that? I know you can hear me. So, please, listen to me, Loki. … Maybe it is because somewhere deep down I felt you … because I still feel you … that I never left hope of seeing you again. Not even when the entire world screamed that you are … gone. I still feel you, Loki. And I know that I shall see you again. That you will find me. Like you promised. Like you have always promised. … You have always found me, Loki. Every single time. Please come back to me. Once more. Please, Loki! Find me once again. … Loki!!”
A sudden shiver ran up her spine; something had disturbed her. Something like a gust stirred behind her. Her senses told it was not just the wind but someone. And instinctively, a fear burnt inside her momentarily only to be doused quickly by an even stronger hope. When one has lost everything that they love, little room remains for fear. It is a fanatical hope for the impossible that remains behind.
And this time, her hope was not misplaced.
“You found me.”
The deep voice floated through the cold air and into her soul.
With a loud gasp, she opened her eyes to find Loki standing right beside her: head held high, the wind blowing messy locks onto his face, his armour - the very one that she had seen on him three years ago - tainted with scratches, his green cape tattered in several places, and yet, he radiated the aura of the king that he once was!
She did not remember how she was able to stand up on those legs that threatened to give way any moment. She did not remember when her hands went up to hold his face, gently yet firmly. All she remembered was the pure joy of feeling complete.
Loki did not utter another word. As her trembling fingers trailed his skin, she realised that his eyes were sunken, his face thinner than usual. Her hands trailed down his armour, still unable to believe that Loki was indeed standing before her, that it was not some cruel joke of the distraught mind.
He was indeed there.
Her thumb drew soothing circles over his cheekbone. “How have you been?” Her lips quivered as a drop of tear trickled down her face.
Loki’s eyes mapped her features. “I am alive.”
“I have…” (Y/N) could never finish that line for she finally broke into a sob that had been threatening to overpower her from the moment she saw him.
With arms wrapped around him, she wept like she had never done in these three years. All this time she had hope, even though a silver of it, of his return. So, no matter how sad she had been, she had never wept for long. Only the ones without any hope mourn their loved ones, and she was not one of them.
But now, when she had finally found him, all the emotions struck her at once. She had a home now. Again.
Amidst the gush of feelings, she failed to notice how Loki did not engulf her in his arms, as he should have done. Or how he did not bury his face in her shoulder, as he loved to.
“I still cannot believe my prayers were heard!” A shaky laugh left her.
Unwrapping herself from him, she gazed at him longingly again.
“You are actually here!” A pair of trembling hands tried to hold back the sobs flowing from her lips but failed. “I always knew! I…”
(Y/N) took a deep breath and wiped her eyes.
“Okay. I believe you need rest. Let’s go home.”
“Do I still have one?” Loki finally spoke. But there was a despondency in his words.
“What?” It took her by surprise. “Of course, you have a home. Why-why do you ask this?” A hint of a smile unsuccessfully tried to support her words.
“How should I know? I had been away for too long.”
Everything seemed to be ending up in knots for her. Shaking the doubts off her mind, she took his hand.
"Oh! I see. I know it is nothing like Asgard; not even close. But…we call it New Asgard. And it is all we have. This is our home now. And…my home has always been you, anyway." She looked up hopefully at him. "And now that you are back, I have found my home again!"
Loki did not respond.
“You must be exhausted," she said. "You need to rest and eat properly. And then we shall talk. Okay?” She gave him an assuring smile. “I shall go and inform Thor.”
The moment her hand left his, a scoff escaped him, followed by an icy, “Of course!”
(Y/N) stopped in her tracks and turned around towards him.
“What?”
"Of course, you would have to inform Thor."
(Y/N) noticed that the name had a bitter ring to it, just like it once had several years ago.
He continued, "He is the king now. Obviously he would need to know every single thing that happens in his kingdom. And you, of all people, would certainly be the most loyal to him. Dear big brother always gets what he wants!"
Nothing made sense to her. Absolutely nothing! Every syllable uttered by Loki sounded alien to her. There was no way she could fathom the disdain that he held for his brother - the very brother for whom he had not thought twice before putting his own life at stake! And… was that a hint of distrust that she heard? For her?
“I-I do not understand you, Loki,” she stepped closer to him, the business with the elder Odinson thrown out of her distressed mind. “Why- What happened? Was it something I said? Did Thor do something that I do not know of?”
“It was a mistake coming here. A big mistake… I should have never listened to you. It is all a lie! You, in your sole existence, are a lie!!”
The words struck her hard. But before her emotions could even react, (Y/N) noticed the beginning of a faint green glow around the god.
“Loki, WAIT!!” She screamed loud enough for the entire camp to hear. But it worked; the glow was gone, and with it was the immediate fear of losing Loki again.
“Just wait!!” With a shaky voice she pleaded with the love of her life as she gripped his hands tightly, “What is wrong with you? I… Would you please explain! What have I done to deserve such hatred from you when all I have ever been capable of, regardless of all circumstances, is to love you with all my heart and soul?!”
“You demand an explanation after what you have done? Claiming to love me only to give my place away to someone else?”
“What?” Her voice was barely above a whisper. The hands that held on to him desperately slowly slipped away.
“I do not care,” he cried, “about what anyone thinks of me or does to me. And I understand very well that I was not around for quite a long time. I could not be even if I wanted to with all my might! But…you could have at least told me the truth. If you really felt me, as you claim to, you could have at least told me! Why do you pretend to love me now when you have already given yourself up to your new king??”
“Loki!! Do not accuse me of things that I am too ashamed to even speak of!” She clenched her fists around his arms. “Are you out of your mind? Do you even hear what you are saying?”
“Oh, do not deny it now!”
Before she even realised what was happening, she felt a sharp sting on her palm as it connected flat across Loki’s face. However unpleasant it may have been, perhaps it was what was needed to shatter Loki’s rage and allow his pain to flow out - a sentiment that he had mastered at hiding behind a mask of anger.
"I saw you… yesterday…" Loki's voice started shaking. "I came back. To you! Only to find you in my brother's arms!"
His knees gave way, and the god dropped to the ground, kneeling before her, weeping like a child.
Loki’s words washed over her like those giant waves that crash over a lost soul and pull them in, only to drown them again when they try to fight back. (Y/N) tried to replay all the incidents from the day before but with everything going on, it all became a haze in her mind.
The sight of a broken Loki before her did nothing to help her. Immediately, she mimicked his position, and held his face in her hands.
"Loki, whatever you saw, whatever you are thinking is a misunderstanding. I swear! I do not know what you are talking about, not now at least, but we will figure it out. Okay? I assure you, Loki, there is only one person I have given my heart to. And it is you. What I feel for you, is beyond anything that I feel for anyone! Believe me! Please!"
All this time, Loki refused to look into her eyes. He was scared that if he did, he would not be able to refuse her.
"I want to," he finally breathed a shaky whisper.
Gently holding onto her wrist, he finally looked at her. But his hopes were short-lived.
As fate would always have it for him, just at the precise moment when he had decided to believe her, the silhouette of his brother came into view behind her.
Thor had heard (Y/N) scream, and came running to ensure her safety. But…
"(Y/N)! I heard you! What happened? Is-" He stopped in his tracks. His lost brother's name, even through a shallow breath, sounded to him like the most melodious music. "Loki!!"
The older Odinson stopped in his tracks. Tears flooded his eyes as he took in the sight of the brother he had believed to be dead. When his body could finally respond from the shock, his legs tried to take him as fast as possible to Loki.
But the scenario on the other side was not the same. The sight of Thor, regardless of how warming it was, brought up fresh images of the blonde wrapping (Y/N) in his arms on the seaside, of kissing Loki's betrothed on the head.
And that was enough to stir the fire within him - one that (Y/N) had just managed to calm down.
Loki got up, blinded by a searing pain somewhere deep within his chest.
"You do not deserve me," was all that he uttered to (Y/N) before disappearing from the scene.
A stunned Thor froze in his tracks. A broken (Y/N) sat on the cold ground feeling more empty than she had ever felt.
"He is gone!" She whispered to the dark night air.
Thor stumbled up to her.
"Where did he go? Where did he go?? He was here, wasn't he? (Y/N), he was here, right? (Y/N)!!"
But (Y/N) was lost in her own world. She kept mumbling to herself, wild eyes searching for something - or someone - in the far distance.
When Thor called her again and shook her, it was only then that she looked at him. And repeated the same line:
"He is gone, Thor! He is gone."
"What do you mean he is gone? He was right here!!"
"I cannot feel him anymore." A hand loosely trailed down from her temple to her chest. "He has…severed the bond. He has cut me off! Loki has… He has really ended our…relationship."
The words trailed off as she tried to make sense of what just happened. Or why it happened. Standing beside her, Thor looked around helplessly. He knew nothing about this bond that (Y/N) was talking about. All he understood was that his brother was probably lost forever. Again.
This time Loki had really left.
...to be continued...
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