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heartfelt-sadness · 2 years

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And I fell for you.

Just at the point in my life where I was ready and comfortable with being alone till I die.

I fell for you.

You show me a love no other has.

A love so pure,

A love so kind and gentle.

A love that I have always shown but never been shown in return.

You love me how I love you.

It’s astonishing, and radiant.

It’s beautiful beyond belief.

You should me that I can love again,

You showed me that I am able to be loved back.

For you I am forever grateful.

You hold my heart so much tighter than you could ever imagine and for once I’m learning that I don’t have to be afraid of that.

You are becoming my world.

You are becoming my forever and always.

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heartfelt-sadness · 2 years

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Stay awhile.

Stay a awhile longer.

Please don’t go.

Not just because people would miss you.

Stay because your shampoo hasn’t run out yet, stay because you’re car still has a full gas tank, stay because you haven’t seen that new movie yet.

Just stay awhile longer please.

Stay because you have yet to experience all the small joys in life.

Stay because you have yet to find the one smile that makes you feel like everything is okay again.

Stay because that is what you owe that small child who went through so much pain and suffering and hurt just in hopes that there life would get better.

I know it’s tough right now, I know things seem messy and out of place but I promise you they don’t stay like that.

Things get better, doing stuff becomes easier, memories become happier.

Moments in your life will go by in the blink of an eye and you may not know it now but some of the moments you will never want to forget.

As you get older you see things clearer, you’re mind changes you’re taste in food shifts you see Color’s differently and hear songs in such beautiful ways you never thought you would before.

The world is chaotic and tough but you don’t have to make it tougher on yourself it’s already doing that for you.

It gets better I guarantee you that, one day you’ll find that person, you’ll find that special animal, you’ll find that special place in this world that feels like home and you’ll never want to leave.

So again I say Please just Stay awhile longer for that little child that went through so much for that half empty shampoo bottle, for the people who love you.

Stay awhile longer for yourself, don’t miss out on this life.

Stay awhile.

———— C.S.

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heartfelt-sadness · 2 years

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To be perfect does not exist,

Perfect exists only for inanimate objects.

For me to be perfect you would have to slit my throat and use my blood as paint and create a masterpiece that would be timeless like the Mona Lisa.

So when I die I ask of you to do that so I know one day I will be perfect. I may not be alive but knowing that one day somehow I have the chance of being perfect is enough for me.

There is beauty in death for it could mean many things, with death comes new life may it be a baby born or a new flower blooming there is and always will be new life growing each day as people pass into their next stage of life.

I deeply believe that each soul as a select amount of live’s it will live before it's final goodbye, you will know when that time comes because that is when you will be your the most happiest and you will be one-hundred percent at peace with yourself and your life.

The world is a fascinating place and we do not have all these answers, we do not know what comes after you die so all we can do is hope and believe just make sure you put your beliefs into the right thing’s and with that being said you are the only one who can decide what is right for you or not. Sometimes the wrong choice can turn out to be the right choice do not let others change your thoughts and opinions do not let others change your hopes and beliefs. Do what is best for you not for others the right choice may not always be easy but it is the right choice for a reason.

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heartfelt-sadness · 2 years

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Baby, Trouble don’t last always.

#quote #life quotes #quotes #euphoria #euphoric #depressions #sad poetry #sad #aesthetic #sober journey #soberliving #sobriety #trouble #mentalheathawareness

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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Brain Scatter.

My year so far has been chaotic to say the least.

My year so far has been entirely different than it has in my previous years but I guess that is to be expected as life is ever changing.

Ups and downs have been had.

Good times and bad,

Sad times and happy times.

It’s all the same in different words spoken by different people.

I have noticed a lot this year about myself and about life itself.

For instance,

I know that my goal in life now is to become a full time travelling photographer.

I have also come to the realization that there are truly horrible people in this world, but there is some truly good people they just stay hidden from the rest so you have to search or you could always let the good things come to you.

Be patient I’ve learnt to be patient.

No matter what it is that you are dealing with in your life just be patient take time make sure what you are doing is the right thing to be doing for you at the time.

I’ve also learnt to stop caring so much about what other people think of me and what I’m doing, their opinions do not matter because once I walk past them odds are I will never seem them again so fuck you’re strangers for all the judgement that I took in and held onto, all the changing I tried to do just to fit in with the rest of you that’s over. I’m done. I’m being myself from here on out and nobody can take that away from me.

I have no idea what I am trying to write and honestly my brain has been a scramble for months now, it is only getting worse thankfully I am for once in my life getting all the proper help I need crossing my fingers it helps.

The good thing though,

Autumn has approached which means Halloween Season!!

My favourite time of the year,

The Colours,

The Spooky Movies,

The Costumes,

The Leafs,

The Candy,

The Beautiful Season Of Autumn bundled up into the perfect time of year for sweaters and hot drinks I wish it could stay autumn all year long that would make me so happy.

My Birthday is coming up in December, I’m turning 23. Woo.

Can’t wait.

With every year I feel like there is not a whole lot that changes anymore it’s all been the same for me since I was 17. Yes I’ve grown up in ways and I’ve definitely seen things change and I don’t know how to necessarily explain what I mean but it’s like life stays the same I stay the same my brain stays the same but at the same time it’s all constantly changing.

It’s confusing and messy but at the same

Time I have found so much peace with it.

I have found so much peace with life, with myself and how my brain works I’ve found peace with my depression and anxiety with my M.P.D and as many bad days as I have it all makes up for it by showing me all the Grey in life where others only see the black and white.

I see so much beauty in life in so many different ways and it is honestly astonishing.

If you’ve for some reason made it this far into my none-sense Thankyou, thankyou for listening to my brain scatter. Nobody else does but I am okay with that.

Thank-you for being you and thank-you for being alive,

Never stop being you!

Never stop doing what makes you truly happy in life.

And never forget to tell the ones you love that you care about them and love them they may need to here it more than you know.

It’s only 9:45pm here, time to make a hot tea watch a horror movie and get some sleep with my cat.

GoodNight.

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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Where do you think this was taken?

#photography #nature photography #nature #trees and forests #trees #forests #rain #rainy #Aesthetic #beautiful #my photos

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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𝙳𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚏𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞’𝚛𝚎 𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚗 angel 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚌𝚛𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗.

#quote #quotes #sad #happy #gaurdian angel #my angel #angel #protect #crash #depressions #depression #life quotes #love quotes #lover #writer #writing #poem #poems #fly high #fly #sweetheart #mi amor

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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Time flys by.

Without ever realizing it time literally disappears in the blink of an eye.

It’s so true what they say as you grow up,

The older you get the faster time goes the more memory’s fade.

There’s some moments in life that make me feel at peace, those same moments bring nostalgia and memories weather there good or bad I have no control in that.

But in those moments I always learn something about myself and about life.

Don’t take anything for granted, let the lessons life throws at you guide you to become a better person than you were yesterday.

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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My Attempt On Poetry

Always feel alone even when I’m not

But that shit is everlasting

Overdosing

Put a bullet in my brain

Finger on the trigger

Eyes getting bigger

Bleeding on the leather

Tryna write another letter

To the ones I love so they can get there closure I’m just tryna get closer to the ones that are no longer here I’m all out of fear running in circles about to jump off this peer the pressure is no longer here the devil has done his work taken another life that had potential, it didn’t live to see it all but do you ever see it all? Questions unanswered that will never be answered. Breath it all in enjoy it while you can cause nothing ever lasts, but isn’t that the plan?

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heartfelt-sadness · 3 years

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Who were you before they broke you’re heart?

Do you even remember, or has it been to long?

What has changed about yourself?

Who are you today?

Do you like yourself more now or did you like yourself more before they broke you’re heart.

Who broke you’re heart and when?

Do you remember the exact day you changed Or the exact hour?

Do you remember the person who changed you?

Do you remember what they did that changed you?

I know I remember.

I remember everything, it’s what few call a gift and a curse.

I consider it a gift more than a curse though, knowing what went wrong and how it went wrong can only help me in the future to not make the same mistakes.

Mistakes are just part of life so is sadness but than again so is Happiness.

If you let it Happiness will trump sadness any day. All you can do as a human is take things day by day, never thing to far into the future and never think to far into the past.

Don’t be upset about you’re past Partners because everybody has multiple soulmates in there lifetime, but the soulmate you end up with depends on the work you put into you’re own soul to help evolve who you are as a person.

There is a soulmate for every level of you’re journey in life as you grow so does the quality of you’re relationships.

Instead of reminiscing on the past

Imagine how happy you will be in the future.

Life takes so many turns just keep trying you’re hardest, eventually you’ll end up on the right path which will lead you to

Love, Happiness, and freedom.

Freedom to be whoever you want and do whatever you want.

Don’t let life beat you to the ground, Beat life to the ground instead take charge and be the queen/king you are meant to be.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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I Don’t Know Why I Felt Like Writing This But I Did So I Guess Enjoy Some Of My Writing Nonesense.

Liqour does a lot of things to a person.

It can change them forever the same way a broken heart does.

Liqour can take over you’re life if you let it.

Liqour can also give you some of the best nights of you’re life.

Liqour is bi polar in a sense.

Liqour can be good at times but bad at times.

Liqour has it’s High’s and it’s Low’s

Liqour can taste good and taste bad at the same time.

Liqour can take away pain but it can cause pain all in a sip.

Liqour can turn a good man into a bad man.

Liqour is there when nobody else is but when somebody comes around it’s the liqour that drives them away cause nobody wants to see you go down that bad path.

Liqour hurts you but also the people around you who care about you.

It can do so much but so little.

Never let Liqour get the best of you it’s a hard road to go down, but at the end of the day people need to learn for themselves so I’ve always been told.

I’ve Hit rock bottom in the past I’ve gone through rehab I’ve done so much in my life I should regret but I learned to let go of what I’ve done cause if I don’t it will only hold me back as I’m trying my hardest to move forward.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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Everything is brand new.

life has taken so many turns,

so many bridges burned

No path left unturned.

Alone walking around this empty world going in circles almost as if I’m helpless but I am not nor am I lonely I just prefer to be alone.

That Sad truth of life is that it hurts

Even if you hide it we all feel that pain at least once in our life time, but on occasion the hurt feeling never does go away so instead you learn to live with it, and if

You’re anything like me you romanticize you’re past which Tends to help me feel better about my future, I don’t know how and I don’t know why but than again I truly don’t question it.

I Romanticize every aspect of my life I always have and I think I always will.

No matter how much hurt I feel inside I find the silver lining, I may not be happy today but I will be happy one day it’s all a process it just takes some time.

You’ll be okay my darling just get some rest tomorrow is a new day.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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“ Running round drinking liquor taking pictures cause you miss me”

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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Being Alone does not mean that you are lonely.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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So Much Hurt

I have done a lot of bad,

I broke you’re heart and there is nothing i can do to ever win it back.

I’ve done a lot of bad of which i regret.

Life has brought me so many places, so much hurt fills my heart.

Broken and hurt now I am cold as stone.

I drank to numb the pain till the day i had to go to rehab.

No amount of drugs and liquor could help me.

Life is just a game but we all play it on the boss level without choice.

Nothing truly gets easier, happy moments come in spurts but they leave at the moments it feels best.

I am only 21.

I have been broken and hurt, i may not be innocent i may have broken hearts but my heart is broken as well.

Nobody see’s my true pain.

We as people only let other’s see what we want them to see.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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I Tried making this look like it was shot on a film camera.

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heartfelt-sadness · 4 years

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- MDMA

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